#truly so wonderful to wake up to :(
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-- "It's plain she cares for you very deeply." -- "And I her. Which is why I had to let her go."
#joshua rosfield#ffxviedit#final fantasy xvi#jote#ffxvi#i have so many feelings!!#i think it's really interesting that jote and joshua have never had an equal dynamic in their relationship#jote has been a protector of joshua's since she was little#even before he regained consciousness she was caring for him#the undying weren't sure he would ever wake up and when he did they must have been so afraid to lose him again#the undying in general are really fraught with their approach to the rosfields and the phoenix/the all-too-willing self-sacrifice#joshua never stood a chance of having a normal childhood regardless of where he grew up#and presumably jote also grew up in the undying so she has never truly experienced a peer to peer relationship with joshua#as soon as joshua woke up she was helping him to stay well and accompanying him on his journey#and in this scene she can't imagine not being by his side#she's scared for his safety but also probably very lost#what does she do with her life now? where does her energy go if not to protecting the phoenix?#i wonder about how jote and joshua feel about each other romantically#i know that they may not feel that way toward each other at all#the romantic shipper in me would like to think they do#it's just such a complicated and special and tender dynamic between them
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happy sunday friendz à· may you rest up today ! drink lots of water, unclench your jaws, & be gentle with yourself as this week comes to a close (âżáŽÍËŹáŽÍ)âŸâŸ

#as much as sundays scare me ( usually later in the day ) i just love waking up in bed without a lick of plans#sat is always busy no matter what but sunday truly is the calm before the storm + i love it#(again. i will not be saying this around 7pm LMAO)#anywaaaay !#lounging around the house today and working on my mootie sleepover ! !#i used to do so many lil games on my old blog + id like to bring that energy here#taps chin#also âŠâŠ.#i kinda wanna redo my tagging system#is that crazy#LMFAO#i built one for my personal blog and they are 10x cuter than these and iâm like :T ! !#so i may slowly update them over the next week + iâll reblog the tag post when itâs done in case anyone needs to block certain ones#finally will make my daily yap one cute + aesthetic . FINALLY !#i almost said may the force be with you (qimir on the brain) but LMAO#may you all have a wonderful + peaceful day#sending out much love#âËâč á° xoxo aims#ăŸ( ËáŽË )â â â© daily yap.
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they are similar
#painting is Interlude by Jeremy Lipking#my beautiful Neki#I must tell you all how beautiful he is waking up in the morning.#he tries to blink the drowsiness from his eyes but he gives up so quickly#he isnât fully awake for another half hour or so!! but I rush ahead#heâll sometimes do some stretches when he gets out of bed#common one is the Touka Stretch! he reaches his arms over his head and grabs the opposite elbows!#he has very pretty arms. pretty muscles. his complexion is very even but his skin is a little dry#Kaneki likes to leave the curtains undrawn overnight so when the morning comes it illuminates him so wonderfully!#I love how he looks bathed in light he is truly a marvel#I love when he wears t shirt and shorts or briefs to bed unbeatable boy combo#anyway when he leaves his room he might go take a pee or splash his face or something (usually itâs bathroom time) but immediately after#he sets up the kettle to boil so he can have his morning coffee#the coffee is extremely important!!!!!! it is what will actually wake him up!!!!!!!!#until this point his house couldâve been moved to a different planet and he wouldnât even notice#this is a secret but sometimes while waiting for it to boil if heâs leaning against the counter and no one else is up#heâll start drifting off againâŠâŠ donât tell anyone đ€« itâs really cute#and when he sips his coffee.. he may do a little sighâŠ#heâs only up that early when he has somewhere to be though otherwise my boy will sleep in so late#and then he goes to sit with his friends or somewhere where he can watch them a bit while he gets himself together#maybe Banjou will look at his bed hair and say âhuh. you look like a dandelionâ#and itâs true he is the most wonderful dandelion there is because you donât even have to make a wish#he alone is like every wish come true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#my Kaneki!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! đ±đ„°#kaneki time#kaneki ken
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Katsuki Bakugo, I miss you so much.
#please wake up soon#bnha#Bakugo katsuki#Katsuki Bakugo#you ever just look at the moon and think of your blorbo?#you ever do that?#you ever realize a fake cartoon kid has you in an emotional chokehold?#I am gonna write the most heartbroken forlorn grief-stricken thing#and people are gonna think that Iâve had some huge and devastating loss in my life#and I am gonna have to be like#no#a bad thing happened to this one fictional teenager in a cartoon book#and I have not seen him in a year#and it is very hard because I love him you see#and they are going to have to pretend that is not the most batshit insane sentence they have ever heard#and they are going to have to respond with courtesy or feigned politeness to me while wondering if I am in touch with the real world at all#and so witnessing how they handle that challenge will be amazing except#I wonât be able to truly enjoy it because I am still so upset that my#favorite fictional Japanese boysâ cartoon character#who in all likelihood would hate me and be really creeped out by me#has still not come back!#BUT I LOVE HIM! I LOVE HIM#WHERE IS HE?!#he may be Izuku and Denkiâs Kacchan#but heâs MY blorbo
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Maybe I'm projecting and being hopeful but I mentioned to M that I don't even get to shit by myself in peace lmao and I feel like something clicked for him. Bc I was like hey, at least you get private bathroom breaks at work (noncombative). And since then he's been a lot more acquiescent when I ask if I can nap and stuff
#he's never rly said no he just used to be like 'well whaf if i want to nap' like in the early parenting days#which evolved into 'yeah i guess'-type responses#lately he's more like 'yeah!' like his tone is less. whatever it was before#same with any requests i make in general like if he'll put e down for bed and stuff#idk my weird episode epiphany thing i went through last week has me feeling much less patient and self-questioning#it's just a fact that constantly asking myself if i'm being considerate enough of others has done nothing for me#like it hasn't even improved my relationships.. i don't really have any lol#like i'm done biting my tongue bc idk if i've properly considered their perspective.. i end up blowing up at minor things as a result anyway#like it makes me a worse partner fr#i also really feel like i've been putting daggers thru my own spirit by doing this for so long#like i need to stop troubleshooting my existence like 'what if i conform this way' 'what if i conform that way'#here's what if: you will be profoundly unhappy and no one who you love will truly know you#this is such a tangent off what i started talking about but basically i'm done reflexively wondering#every time i feel wronged disrespected etc. if actually i'm the one in the wrong. it really is reflexive#the way m's mom responded to me setting a boundary was a wake up call like apparently she just read into what i was saying too much#so hypothetically it wasn't the boundary she was angry about but how she thought i set it#but like i don't have any time for you if my extremely sincere and straightforward communication isn't good enough for you#like i'm not going to be understanding of your inability to take me at face value we didn't both fuck up. You did#and that's how i'm going to act. like You fucked up. yk
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i fear the 'surely someone's gonna save me' in sunshine baby has an incredible chokehold on me
#this Can't be the energy going into 2025 sighs#sabs speaks#lowkey had like four different meltdowns today over plans being changed and its like. can we be normal#and then my brain had the audacity to be like ur lying.#like girl what the fuck?? in what world are we doing this for fun#and then do u guys know the horror story of like vampire slumbering just have my headphones on genuinely vampire like and out of NOWHERE my#sister is just above me like Hi.#can u fix this dress for me#like in what world do u wake me up like that girl#i fixed the dress but still like. let me live#times like these im considering dropping out truly having that moment over u need to chill out before the stress kills you before the thing#that's supposed to has a chance#if this all seems disconjointed its because it is and is not hope this helps <3#i also want nothing more than to write about my blorbos but i saw people being wrong about them and now im like shit. maybe im wrong about#them#so i cant do it without feeling insane for that reason and for the second reason that i have other obligations#i think it should be illegal for education to give u things to do over the holidays they dont understand how much guilt i will feel not#getting things done and instead feeling horrific and not resting#i also think learning too much about my health has caused me to spiral a lot like the dr's being so chill about it whilst im in debilitatin#pain is not good for me actually. and has triggered the disability grief all over again#having my pmdd and my menstruation at the same time genuinely i felt like female hysteria and im scared for the next one#its a wonder i did Not do It#a little morbid i guess but i have Morbid hormone disorder shrugs#anyways. 2025 be better i hope#so scared to pull my cards for the year#less actually scared and more like. i dont knowww how much i have it in me to be brave anymore#congrats if u made it this far but mostly sorry to my scorpio rising
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Summary of Art 2024 before NY's?! Crazy!! Happy Holidays~
For the last 4 years (more mindfully and successfully the last two), instead of yearly goals/ resolutions I've been setting "mindsets". Making art is a process of expressing my soul burning bright, with whatever fuels it at the time, so taking care of my body and mind has been essential in keeping the relationship healthy, happy and on the dance floor. I am pretty sure I've noted somewhere what I wanted to do this year project wise (or it was so intense it got printed on my brain), which was finish at least one project and find my answers on what it means to me to "want" and "have to". The latter is still a wip, but more on that on the DW entry under the cut, hehe~
::Quick Summary
January, February, March: Mostly messing around doodling and half-jokingly working on skull-anatomy because I was busy out of my mind studying & working on a long project || April: Project working, moved to my village to focus, played The Sims2 after over a decade, paperwork hell, streaming nights~ || May: Major win!! project finish, Convention Time! || June: Moved out & patiently building energy lvls again.. đ || July: Picked up the pencil & drew a bunch of Sephiroths in my sketchbook, read books, physio </3 || August: Going on a skull-spree!! (also still a wip but I'll learn to draw faces no matter what!!) || September: Chaniartoon Fest, sketches, paintings, wips, making buttons for the first time and as if all weren't enough-- baked banana bread(s) and went off to get the Open Water cert. after so many years (ïŒËă»ă) || October: drawing for my friends gives me life and is the best thing I've done this month â„ || November: con prep, back to class while simultaneously working, zine work, dog-sitting!! || December: work, zine, homework, loads loads LOADS of music?! â„ (((*°âœÂ°*)ć
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Thank you for a "do-it-scared" year đ± Some kind of leap-of-faith on it's own.. âž Wishing everyone health & strength to overcome any challenge 2025 has in its sleeve. May you indulge in what makes you happy â„
Fun facts:
Started reading literature this year. Had a blast (and got blasted, in multiple ways).
In one of my dives (scuba) I threw up in the sea in front of a tourist boat, those that have glass bottoms. No one will forget that at the centre. I got the reputation now.
David Wojciechowski & Victor Fritzsche - Gato was the album that carried me through January - February and you should absolutely give it a listen if you haven't yet, and if you have, listen to it again!!
I wrote a dreamwidth entry with everything I think is relevant (but also might not be). It can be be relatable though, so I'm happy to leave it out there.
#I'd say âyou know I am procrastinating on something if I am making it this earlyâ#but in all honesty I'll give it to myself and indulge cause I've been working non-stop for the last 4 months#a little treat <3#Every time I go back to my DW and read the word âtiredâ and âsplit-shiftsâ I will drink half-a-glass of water#yearly art meme#art summary 2024#art summary#As I am writing this I have to admit I have submitted again to joining a zine HAHA! I am happy about it but man#my plate's so full I truly wonder how am I awake at this hour still typing or any hour really-#I want to hibernate and wake up in summertime#it's 3am wtf#I'll probs move things around in DW cause I feel I am spilling so much info that's unrelated to art but also.. it's important..#I might have an extended version of this post as a year wrap-up rather than blast you with txt here#thank you for coming to my tag talk#update: my friend's calling me out -thank you for reading the tags- so to clarify I have decided I will allow myself a zine as a treat IF#I finish one project every time#////runs#My head's completely empty so I might come back to pick at this later#UPDATE: I am throwing everything on DW as just after posting I had a clarity of mind and I can focus on art progress here!#the council has decided
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thinking about mc and satan bonding over shared identity issues post lilith reveal. i know this trope has been done to death but theres so much to do with it aghhhhhh
#op#om! satan#satan x mc#late night convos about how shitty it is to be seen as someone other than Yourself#dissecting what it means to owe your existence to someone and to have that relationship ripple out and effect ALL your other relationships#except for this one. except for the one person who really truly sees You and not just#'you' as a byproduct of your predecessor#the one person who shares a grimace with you across the table when a comment hits too close to home#and who validates and shares in your anger over it. considers it justified rather than an overreaction.#because satan's situation IS bullshit! they ARE weird about it to him! and i haaaaate hate hate the way it's treated as a joke#not necessarily him hating lucifer because that can be funny. and lucifer deserves it also#but his identity issues specifically re: lucifer are soooo valid and i hate when its treated as like#'hey wanna see a funny way to make satan Really Mad?'#anyways whatever i think the intimacy of having one person in the entire house who sees you for You is crazy awesome.#but also the insecurity! satan has vague memories of lilith via lucifer so like. mc wondering if even he's drawn to them because of that.#and like. of course he wouldnt SAY if he was but it still bugs them. and if he had known her properly... wouldnt things be different?#is their connection just luck on their part? that she died before he was born? and how awful does THAT feel?#and then lucifer is still ALIVE so satan constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop.#for the one person he's ever felt really Got *him* to suddenly wake up one day seeing him the same way he (thinks) everyone else does#like mc at least had the CHANCE to be seen as an individual. satan's never had that so what the fuck is he supposed to think!!!!!#sorry for the Tags That Never End none of these thoughts are new but im rotating them in my head tonight
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birthday was nice
gonna get some sleep and be ready to do battle with life tomorrow hell yeah
#i had lasagna for the first time in years bc partner figured out how to make tomato-less tomato sauce. with beets other partner brought home#and a dear friend bought us all tasty chocolate and another dear friend drew one of my all-time fav characters for me#and i had so many well-wishes and encouragement and got to finish amc iwtv season 1 with friends....truly it was a wonderful day#stirring up trouble#i was gonna sing karaoke too but it's too late now to do it without waking people up. maybe tomorrow or this weekend idk#might fuck around and stream it even. who knows. as long as the rest of the must-dos are done why not
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starting an origins server with some of my siblings friends and i just found out everyone's making characters up for it i feel like the combo i picked has so many possible outcomes


#i'm thinking of going a grimwalker route where they like a memoryless clone of someone they never knew#my spawn is in the nether and i def wanna make it my home base. i don't think anyone else is spawning in the nether so that'll be fun#interesting for me bc i'm usually the one leeching off others recourses to build stuff but ALSO story wise very isolating#you wake up in hell and it's gross and weird but something about it is familiar.#not in memories per se but muscle memory. not things you did but knowing what not to eat#what's friendly. what hurts. maybe they know their a reincarnation of someone else deep down.#but that person was a blip in time. discipated into the endless seas of molten lava a long time ago.#their soul and magic just now mustering up the strength to become whole again. to become SOMETHING.#it was many eons ago that that person existed. their belongings and home have long since decayed and become one with the hellish landscape#there is no time to think of who you once were. there is only survival.#but the moment you have a home and supplies and are truly safe. you feel a deep fear.#a fear of who you once were long ago. who they could've been. what you should be. momories you no longer possess.#a longing to understand and go back to being a self you never were.#a person who's existence has been lost to time.#you shake off these feelings as best you can#but every time you find yourself in the overworld looking out at the vast ocean#you can't help but wonder wether they hated the deep blue sea as much as you do.#sassy speaks#mc#WHY DID I WRITE SO MUCH HELP I DIDNT MEAN TO DO THAT-
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#simply love waking up from an elaborate war themed nightmare at 5 AM truly a 10/10 experience#nothing better than going to sleep wondering "will it be a. a 5AM nightmare or b. an anxiety attack in the morning or c. aâš double featuređ°#it's the best!!! so relaxing!!! doesn't fuel my insomnia at all why do u ask
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Boots :)
Another Started As A Test Subject and now they're literally the only thing I ever fucking wear. Idk how well it shows in the pics but they are badly cracked and have been worn into the ground but like. Shoe comfy :(
Also the wings are a new addition! The inner ones slap against each other. Doesn't really bother me personally though so I'm keeping them as is đ
Oh, and the laces are paracord!
#funnily enough these are also something i got at the beginning of my transition thinking 'oh yeah this is masc. surely.'#final tangent but this is why insane fucking terfs/transphobes who are like#'noooo don't transition what about our butches what about our tomboy gfs :(((('#i was literally never either of those things.#they are all so stupid đ„Č (for. a lot of very obvious reasons LMFAOO but specifically for that as well.)#but yeah i literally used fashion and artsy self expression as a way to cope LMFAOOO#and as a way to draw attention away from myself. despite. drawing SO much attention to myself.#seems counter intuitive and i won't argue w you there LMAOO it was to sort of just. be like.#look at my cute outfit :) don't. don't even think about the guy underneath them.#AND it was ALSO the only way i could somehow feel some semblance of self. cause i did truly love what i'd wear#and then i'd wonder why i'd break down crying at the thought of what i am without those clothes.#just? a girl? the idea gutted me and made me want to tear my skin off with my nails and teeth#but like. i'm sure this has zero implications about me. who i am. ect. and has nothing to do w trans thoughts i had in middle school.#time to pick a perfect outfit and get a good grade in Girlâą đđđđđđđđđđđđđđđđđđđ#nowadays i just wake up put on a band tee and i'm just some guy. forever and always. it's so fucking cool#literally does not matter if it's a pants day or a shorts and tights day i'm just some guy. it's so fucking awesome đđ#for real even though i do still struggle w dysphoria some days worse than others i am so at peace.#i just wish everyone saw me the way i do. i literally cannot comprehend how anyone looks at me and goes#'ah....... a woman.' like. dude. for real? what are you seeing that i don't.#like bro!!! way not cool!!!! lame ass motherfucker!!!!#<- GSJSGSJ WAIT WHEN DID I USE THIS TAG BEFORE LMFAOO?? IT'S. SO FITTING HERE HAHAHAHA#anyways i was gonna say idk if i saw a motherfucker who's clearly striving for some androgyny#and a sick ass mullet no matter what immediately registers in my mind that i may have to correct later#i'm just. going to assume. they are some type of queer. and i am avoiding pronouns/gendered language#til they tell me 'oh yeah i'm :) and my pronouns are :)' and i'd adjust accordingly.#like idk that's so normal to me. what's not clicking for literally everyone else.#UGH ANYWAY i've been ranting and infodumping way too long i wanna get ready for bed now LMFAO#also if at any point you've looked at these pics and thought 'damn bitch you live like this'#yes. i know. i'm aware. i do live like this LMFAO đ«Ąđ#my projects
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finn: trade offer -- i get: unconditional love and support no matter what atrocities i commit. you get: me <3
#ooc#is he waking up..... is he coming back..... is he just stirring in his sleep..... who can say !#but i do love this terrible man who tries so so hard#been reading lots of stormlight archive and i like the idea of finn being a radiant#what do you MEAN i have to face my past trauma and actions and mature as a person to get more powers????#truly harrowing for him#i wonder what kind of surge binder he'd be....... def not a windrunner sorry kaladin#i think he'd be a dustbringer.... so edgy! but he's always been very much about control and what that means#in terms of people having it over him and finn having it over himself#anyway i'm loving the stormlight books so MUCHHHH i can't believe i'm already halfway through the fourth one#i don't want it to end#but also i'm excited to reread way of kings LMAO
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⥠TW: implied noncon, break-up, toxic relationship, crazy ex-boyfriend, intrusive thoughts, anger issues
⥠FEM reader
Thinking about gamer boyfriend who doesnât know what he has before itâs goneâŠ
You told him you were leaving, but it didnât dawn on him thatâs what youâd meant. He was deep in-gameâhe couldn't pay attention to your whining. He figured you went out to the store or something, but later, after midnight, he realized he was hungry, and you were nowhere. Not in the kitchen making dinner, not in his bed sleeping, and not in the bathroom either.Â
Did you go home? He wonders, standing alone in the dark, empty silenceâfeeling a little put off at the sight of his roomâhow even in the dim light, itâs a clear fucking mess. You usually tidy up a bit for him, but you hadnât this timeâno, thereâs old underwear and socks everywhere, shirts and hoodies too, empty cans and pizza boxes. Itâs a bit gross, actually, he admits while scratching his neck.Â
The drawer heâd dedicated to you in his dresser is open and empty. Did you take everything to get it cleaned? You are a bit of a neat freakâunlike him. Suppose that would be something youâd do. Weird of you not to take any of his laundry as well, though.
Oh, well. He shoots you a âgn bbyâ on his phone, then collapses on his bed and falls asleepâsmiles a bit as he does soâitâs nice not having you here to tell him to undress and go shower first. Yeah, you can be such a nag sometimes.
He wakes up late in the day. Youâre not there. Usually, you come over to wake him with some breakfast. He checks his phoneâyou didnât reply last night. It isn't that weirdâyou were probably already asleep at that point. But why didnât you answer when you woke up? Thereâs no way youâre still asleep, right?Â
Fuck, heâs hungry.
âgm,â he sendsâcontemplates asking you whatâs up but doesnât. You must be busy with something not to have checked your phone yet.
The entire day goes by, and you still donât answer. He doesnât take it too hard. But he wonât deny being a bit miffed.
Itâs when three days go by that heâs well and truly confused. Heâs sent you several texts at this point, even called you a few times, getting a little worried something had happened to you before he got the message that heâd been blocked.Â
What the fuckâs going on with you?
He thinks back to the last time he saw you. What did you even say? He canât remember. Something about being tiredâsomething, somethingâIâm leaving.
He swallows thickly. No⊠No way, thatâs what you meant, right? No, canât be. You love him. Youâre his pretty girlfriend. The one that comes with his food and later comes back for his bowl. The one that sucks his dick under his desk as he goes on a kill streak. The warm pillow he uses when he finally drags his bad posture to the bed and falls asleep.
No. Where the fuck are you? Are you sick or something? Yeah, must be, right? So delirious youâve managed to block him somehow. You were probably only trying to call him back. You were never so tech-savvyâa fever must have worsened it. He should go to you. He can bring his pc. Or no, he can get you and bring you back here. Yeah, that would be easier.
He calls your roommate, tells her heâs coming, and asks her to let you know to get ready.
âWhat are you talking about?â she says through a piece of gumâher voice all dull as if bothered to have picked up the phone. Or, rather, she sounds a bit drunk. Thereâs music in the background. âGirl broke up with you, didnât she?â
His blood runs cold at that. A lump forms in his throatâa thick, unmovable lump that makes him think heâs about to throw up. âN-no, she didnât.â
âHey!â she calls out, not to him, thoughâsheâs covered the mic with her hand. He only hears the muted distortion of voices and bass through it before your roommate comes back to him.Â
âSorryâsheâs telling me a different story,â she relays, popping her gum in his ear before sneeringâor, at least, thatâs what he pictures. âHonestly, how long did you think she was gonna put up with cleaning up after you anyway? I know I wouldnât last half as long as she has.â The lump in his throat grows thicker, swelling up until it's choking him. âAnyway, good luck.â
She hangs up, and he drops his phone. Thereâs a crack as it hits the floor. And then something wet on his face. Something hot. Something searing as it tracks down his cheeks and drops off like acid onto the floor.Â
What should he do? What do you want him to do? To tidy up? He can do that! Heâs not some imbecile like your friend makes him out to be who canât even do the basics of chores. Of course, he can! And so thatâs what he doesâhands shaking as he tidies.Â
It feels foreign, and heâs not even sure where to start. And it quickly proves to be a lot worse than what heâd thought. Beyond stinky clothes and dirty dishes, thereâs trash, rotten food, sticky surfaces, and other things he canât even put a name to. Itâs gross, actually. Downright disgusting. How longâs it been like this?
Even after everythingâs put in order, thereâs a smell that lingers and no end to the dust he has to cleanâcringing at the little insects that come crawling out of their hiding spots. Geezâhas it really been this bad?
He falls asleep on the floor at some pointâhaving completely forgotten to eatâthen wakes up feeling awful the next day. The kitchen is barren, and so he orders take-out. Eats and then goes back to cleaning. Thereâs still a lot left.
Itâs barely recognizable once heâs done. Nice and bright and tidy and clean. Thereâs a sum of a dozen large black trash bags in the hallway he needs to take out, but other than that, everythingâs perfectâperfectly presentable to have you come over again.
Still, he gives it a couple of days. He knows you. Youâre going to change your mind. Youâre too sweet to be breaking up with him. Too nice. You wouldnât just leave him, not like this. Yeah, youâre only trying to teach him a lessonâafter a while, youâll come back on your own. Youâll be ecstatic over what heâs done with the placeâapologetic even as you tell him you were wrong about himâand then everything will go back to normal. Make-up sex and everything.Â
But you donât. No. Youâre nowhere to be seen or foundâeven after a weekâs passed. Youâre still gone. And heâs starting to believe you might just be gone for real.
No. He sees what this is. Youâre waiting for the grand gesture, arenât you? He never knew you could be so pettyâbut itâs actually kind of cute. Fine then. Heâll play alongâcome crawling to you on his hands and knees with the best apology youâve ever heard. And then you can end this whole thing.
And so he finds himself at your place, pressing the buzzer, not knowing if heâs catching you at homeâif not, heâll just try again tomorrow, and so on until he does. He hears someone at the other side of the doorâthey must be looking at him through the peephole. It takes a while before the locks click and open.
âHeyâŠâ
Itâs you.Â
âHi,â he smiles in return, happy to see you. Heâs been so nervous, but somehow, your face and voice are enough to calm him down.
âWhat are you doing here?â you ask.
Oh, of course. You werenât expecting him. Still, it feels weird of you not to gush happily over the surprise and rush him inside. Itâs not every day he goes outsideâyou should be a little impressed.
But no, of course, youâre playing the part of fed-up girlfriendâacting hard-to-get. Heâs got youâheâll play his part, so donât worry.
âI wanted to apologize,â he announces. âI havenât been a good boyfriendâI see that now. But Iâll be better from now on, I promiseâcome over, and Iâll prove it to you.â
As far as apologies and promises go, he thinks that sounded pretty smoothânot too desperate, not too demanding. Pretty slick, if he can say so himself.
And so, why arenât you smiling? He can understand being nervousâso is heâbut why do you look guilty?
âThatâs really nice. And⊠Iâm really happy youâre looking better. ButâŠâ you start, and his gutâs already wrenching. âI think you need more time for yourself to just⊠enjoy what itâs like to be independent, you know?âÂ
No, he doesnât know. What are you saying? And why are you holding onto the doorknob like that? Holding it steady as if youâre planning to shut it as soon as you canâwhy?
âThanks for stopping by. It was nice seeing youâit really was. Take care of yourself, okay?â
Itâs shuttingâhis plansâdisappearing right before his face. He knows he isnât owed a second shot, but this isnât fair. You canât be seriousâare you?
âWhat? No, waitââ He stops you, weighing his own hand on the door, keeping it open. âListen, Iâm good now. Iâve pulled it together, youâll seeâIâll come in, and weâll talk about it.â
You resist, using both hands to almost push the door back on him. âI have company, soââ
âWhatâs up?â another voice announces himselfâdeep and presentful. He comes into view behind youâtaller than you, taller than himâlooking down his nose at him with a raised brow. âWhoâs this?â
You look a bit panickedâno, embarrassed. âOh, uhmââ
Why are you embarrassed? âWhoâs that?â The bitterness in his voice surprises even himselfâloaded with the same type of spite he seethes with when players use cheats to win.
âHeâs an old friend, but he was just leaving,â you say, but youâre not speaking to him. No, you stroke a hand over the guyâs broad chest, looking up at him apologetically before turning back to him again, voice strict in a way heâs never heard, âBye.â
âButââ
You shut the door. On him. In his face.Â
His skin crawlsâgoosefleshed and chilled. Was that a date? No, right? You have a brother, donât you? Yes, must be. No way youâre dating. Thereâs no way, right? Itâs only been a week⊠no way youâve moved on in only a week, right?
You looked really niceâwearing that sweet blouse with all the little bows and that cute little skirt youâd always wear out on dates. Damn, when was the last time the two of you went on a date? Must be months ago, if he canât even remember.Â
Come to think of it, the two of you would always have sex when you wore that skirt. Yeah, itâs your fuck-me-skirt. Are you going to fuck this guy too now? On the first date? Is it your first date? No, probably notâwho has their first date at home? Thatâs more like a third or even fourth or fifth date, right? Were you dating him while the two of you were still together? Have you been cheating on him all this time? Laughing at him behind his backâtalking shit with your bitch-roommate? About what a pathetic loser he is? About how heâs a slob who canât take care of himself? How he needs you? Have you!?
He shouldn't be texting you all this from a random number. He knows that, but the full realization doesnât dawn on him before itâs too late, and heâs sent you over a hundred messages, some small and others at such a length they take up more than what the screen allows. What the fuckâs he doing? Heâd bought the new sim so that he could contact you in an emergency, not to spam you with accusations like some crazy ex.Â
He starts deleting themâin some desperate wishful thinking, with the hope you wouldnât see them, but then the dotted line starts beating, jumping in taunt. His eyes are wide as he stares at it, holding his breath. Ten seconds pass before it disappearsâno message sent.
You blocked him again. And he canât blame you.
And yet, he canât let you go, either.Â
He spends the first few weeks hauled up at homeâhis flat becoming as trashed as ever as he doomscrolls all your socials through a fake account. Youâve deleted all the pictures of himâeven the ones of yourself when youâve been with him. Thereâs no evidence the two of you were even dating.
How could you do this? How could you erase him like this?
He has questions, and he needs answers. You canât just do thisâthe two of you havenât even had the talkâhe hasnât even got to say his side yet!
He just wants to talk to youâwhy wonât you let him? He just wants you to hear him out. He deserves that much. But since youâre not giving him any option of contacting you, heâs had to resort to medieval methodsâlurking outside your apartment like some creep, eyes peeled on your buildingâs entrance, waiting for you to show.
Heâs there for hours, patientlyârefusing to go homeâthinking heâll be there all night if he has to.
But then there you areâcoming out of the complex, stepping down the alley, dressed all nice for the night. You seem to be in a hurryâare you on your way to another date? Well, wherever youâre going and whoever youâre meeting, they can wait.
âI need to talkââ he doesnât get the words out.
Youâd noticed him following you and tried to out-pace himâmake him lose interest. But the area your flatâs situated in is a sketchy oneâat least for girls, and youâd made the decision long ago that youâd never walk outside unprepared. And so, as soon as feeling the stranger's hand on your arm, you whip around to maze him right in the face.
âArgh!â he screeches and stumbles back, hands covering his eyes. âFuckâow-fuckinâdammit, shitâwhat the fuck did you do that for? Fuckââ
You were going to make a run for it, but the familiar voice has you haltâwait a minuteâŠ
You call his name, and sure enough, itâs him who looks up at you through the teary redness of your pepper spray assault.Â
âOh my god, shitâIâm so sorryâI thought you were aââ you stop yourself. âFuckânever mind. Comeââ You link his arm with yours and lead him back inside the apartment you just left. âIâll help you rinseâIâm so sorry.â
You rush him to the bathroom, seating him atop the toilet lid as you wet a cloth and start soaking his face.
âIâm so sorry, I didnât see it was youââ you apologize again. âAre your eyes okay?â
âNot really,â he hisses through clenched teeth, though steals himself soon after. âBut they're getting betterâŠâ
His face unswells after a good thirty minutes, after which heâs able to keep his eyes open againâsore and no doubt bloodshot, yet fine, if not for that. Youâve moved him into the living room instead, having done what you could to rinse off your attackâhaving provided him with an apologetic glass of water. Now sitting with him, waiting for the effects to wear off.
It feels nice to be with you again despite the circumstancesâbut itâs awkward how you donât speak.
âYou look nice,â he saysâtrying to break the tension. Itâs not as if the two of you are strangers, and so you shouldnât act like it.
âOh, Iâm going to a partyâroomieâs already there, soâŠâ you say, sitting at the edge of your seat. âIf youâre okay, I should probably head out⊠soon.â
A silence fills his head, as well as the roomâa heavy stillness before a single word leaves him. âWhat?â His face sinksâpart confusion, part offense, and something elseâsomething that makes his voice come out accusatory and outraged, âYou maze me in the face, and youâre just gonna fuck off to a party?â
Your eyes widen.âWell⊠itâsââ
âNoâwhat the fuck?â He stands abruptly. His headâs so empty except for the blinding darkness slowly overtaking itâleaving him feeling boiling and all but nuclear. âThatâs all I get? Are you fucking serious?â Heâs shouting nowâand then heâs on you, with one hand fisting your pretty dress and another around your throat. âFirst, you dump me without warning, assault me like some maniac, give me a lousy apology, and then tell me to fuck off? What the fuckâs wrong with you?â
You splutter his name and push, but itâs like fighting a wall.
âWhere are you actually going dressed like that, huh? Whatâs so fucking important? Is it another date? What, with that same oaf I saw here last time? Or is it someone new already? I know how flighty you can be. I mean, fuck, I knew you were a little freaky, but I didnât know I was dating a fucking slut!â
His strength comes as a complete and utter devastating shock. Youâd think sitting in a chair all day would make any muscle obsoleteâbut the hands holding you donât right now is more than anything you could hope to fight against.
âStop! Get off meââ you cry, thrashing hopelessly as he lifts your dress and rips your lace panty down your thighs.Â
A growl in his voice and nothing but rage on his face.
âIf anyone can get itâI might as well help myself.â
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â "HE'S THE OTHER MAN!"Â . the corpse groom
SYNOPSIS: A ghost groom has claimed MC as his unwilling bride. Unfortunately for him, she's already got a lover
âč [ c.w ] â violence, possessive behavior, malleus blows a fucking green laser down ramshackle, mentions of blood, yuu is poor but we alrdy knew that, papa crewel crumbs
âč [ w.c ] â 1.6k opening post with malleus! if this gets enough attention, I might do more :P
"You what?" Crewel seethed, eyes wide as an unsettling smile stretched across the red of his cheeks.
"Repeat that."
"IâŠI accidentally released that ghost from the spellbook," Grim sobbed, his glossy eyes reflecting both fear and guilt as he looked up at the imposing figure of the professor. "And he's taken my henchhuman as his bride!"
Oh, Great Sevens. Not again.
Crewel groaned, his hands reaching up to frantically rub at his burning eyes. The flickering candlelight cast erratic shadows across his face.
"Please, do tell. How in Wonderland did someone with your lackluster skills manage toâ" The professor was abruptly cut off by a loud, almost obnoxious cry that echoed from the doorway. Turning sharply, Crewel saw Crowley hunched against the entrance frame, hysterically sobbing into his palms. Fat tears dripped beneath his ornate mask, glistening in the low light. "They grow up so fast! My dear child is already getting married!"
Crewel's eye twitched as he took in the scene: Grim shaking like a leaf, and Crowley, dramatically weeping, pathetically looking to him for a solution.
"Fools," Crewel snarled, striding out of the room as he fished his phone from his coat pocket. "If you two won't be of use, then I'll have to enlist the help of those mutts instead."
The day had started like any other in Ramshackle, but you certainly didn't expect it to end with a wedding. Surrounded by the ghostly residents of the dorm, you stood dressed in all white, a bouquet clutched in your hand. Curling in yourself, you sighed and rested your head in your hands, avoiding everyone's gazes which felt like icy needles on your skin.
Ramshackle's old lounge, with its worn-out floorboards and faded wallpaper, was the chosen venue for your ceremony. Whispers rustled through the gathering, carried on a faint breeze that stirred the dust motes in the dim light. Somewhere in the background, the somber notes of an organ piano echoed. You didn't even know you had a pianoâŠ
"Dear?"
Jumping with a shriek, you whipped your head around. A ghostly visage, bathed in a deathly pale blue glow, hovered inches from your face, an unnaturally wide grin stretched across their blue lips. Bony fingers gently traced up your cheeks, sending tingles down your spine.
With sunken eyes and high, sharp cheekbones, Elizanâa "visiting" friend of one of Ramshackle's ghostsâwas truly a sight to behold. His complexion had a pallor that matched the moonlight filtering through the decrepit windows of the form. Wisps of long, flowing indigo hair framed his face, swept back as if caught in a breeze that only he could feel.
"You look wonderful," he cooed, pressing a featherlight kiss to your forehead, leaving your cheeks burning.
"Ah. Thank you," you stammered, averting your gaze and gently pulling away. You could hardly focus on the words being spoken to you, your mind spinning with the surrealness of it all.
"You look... Good as well," you forced out with a cough, tugging at your hair nervously. "But... Listen... Iâ"
Before you could finish, the door to the entrance slammed open, nearly breaking off the hinges with a sound that could wake the dead, sending cracks spider-webbing through the already dilapidated walls.
On the inside, you screamed louder than the hinges.
You had painstakingly patched up the door after Grim's recent screw-upâa feat that had tested your patience and carpentry skills to their limit. Unless you wanted to survive on a diet of stale canned food and cafeteria leftovers for another year, you couldn't afford any more repairs.
While you were busy mourning the loss of having decent meals, heaving and leaning against the door for support, your friends called out your name in a panic, their bleary and furious gazes zeroing in on your figure. Clad in white, you stood there, the perfect picture of a pretty blushing bride.
The uninvited guests didn't go unnoticed by your "groom," and in seconds, you were pulled into a suffocating grip. Elizan's usually serene demeanor shattered like fragile glass. His deathly pale features contorted into a snarl, veins pulsing ominously beneath translucent skin. His typically gentle eyes blazed with an unsettling fire, icy whites now narrowed and piercing.
"Mutt!" Crewel seethed, his foot slamming into the floor and shattering the newly installed tiles. Your soul nearly left your body as you screamed inside again. There go a thousand thaumarksâŠ
"What in the Sevens is this!?" Crewel shrieked, running a gloved hand through his tousled hair. With sharp movements, he pointed a finger at Elizan. "I'll have you know I can have you arrested for trespassing, unlawful detention, and violating the sanctity of this academy!"
"How... How dare you? Barging into this sacred ceremonyâWho even are you?!" Elizan snapped back, his arms coiling tightly around your torso. The crowd erupted in a haze of shouts and muddled answers. Unable to understand anything, Elizan's intense gaze shifted and bore into yours, demanding answers. You gulped nervously, suddenly feeling small and vulnerable in his grasp.
"Who is he?! Who are they?!" he barked like a dog, flashing his sharp fangs at you.
"Uh⊠That's my professorâuh, Crewel," you stammered, your voice barely audible over the pounding of your heart. "And those are⊠They're my⊠friends?" Your gaze flickered to the group of men who had entered, their expressions ranging from confusion to anger.
Elizan's wide eyes now filled with shock, white orbs glossed over with luminescent blue tears. He pushed you away as if you had burnt him, recoiling from your touch as though it pained him physically.
"You know other men?!" the ghost cried out, his hands clenching into fists, his midnight blue hair cascading wildly around his face like a tempestuous sea. The tortured cries of the groom echoed through the room, sending a shiver down your spine as you awkwardly shifted on your feet, feeling like a character caught in an soap drama.
"âŠYes?" you replied, unsure.
"How could you do this to me?!" He sobbed, a dark shadow covering his face. "Running off on an affair the DAY of our marriage?!"
"Well, that's a rather dramatic accusationâ" you started, but Elizan shook his head in anguish.
"Answer me! Do you have another man?!" His voice shook the room, and you took a few cautious steps back.
"Elizan, please," you uttered gently, your eyes darting nervously toward one of the men in the room.
Your lover didn't meet your gaze; instead, his eyes were locked onto the ghost, a storm of emotions brewing beneath his features. As you jumped down from the makeshift podium, you shot an apologetic frown at the ghost, hoping to diffuse the escalating situation. "Don't you understand? You're the other man."
"No! You're married to me!" Elizan shrieked, lunging forward in a frenzy, his nails clawing at the air as if trying to grasp something intangible. "Whoever he isâHe's the other man!"
MALLEUS DRACONIA
"Whoever he isâHe's the other man!"
Lilia raised an eyebrow with a chuckle, his form reclined against a fogged-up window of the room. The weather was gloomy and stormy, the skies tinted green outside, casting an eerie glow over the scene. The window pane, streaked with raindrops and mist, blurred the view of the turbulent skies beyond. Lilia hummed a tune under his breath, a calm figure amidst the brewing storm.
With a sidelong glance, his eyes locked onto Malleus, whose entire figure shook with a barely contained wrath that threatened to engulf the very air around him. The young prince's chest heaved in violent, choked breaths as smoke wisped from his mouth and noseâtendrils of flames flickering amidst the swirling dust and ash.
A deafening crack tore through the air as a vivid surge of green emerald lightning erupted from the heavens, descending upon the roof of the venue with explosive force. The blast of energy painted the sky with a blinding flash of green as it crashed into the building, sending broken glass and wood raining down upon the venue.
Cursing, Elizan moved you both aside, a large chunk of debris hurtling past, narrowly missing your startled form. As more debris crashed down, he shielded you with an outstretched arm, a shimmering barrier briefly forming to deflect a particularly large piece of wood.
"Spectral pest," Malleus seethed, his eyes aglow with an eerie green hue as his nails elongated into sharp claws. With a click of his tongue, he raised his hands, summoning thorns that spiraled towards Elizan, ensnaring the ghost in their sharp embrace. Simultaneously, from the floorboards below, vines emerged like serpents, their tendrils gently but firmly pulling you away from Elizan's protective embrace and guiding you into the safety of Malleus's arms.
"Howâ?! Ngh!" Elizan writhed against the thorny vines. The prickly tendrils twisted around him like serpents, their sharp points digging into his ghostly flesh.
Malleus paid no mind to the struggling spirit, keeping his gaze fixed on you as he checked for any signs of harm. His expression softened with relief upon finding you unscathed, albeit a bit dusty.
"Beloved," he murmured, his voice a soothing balm amidst the lingering chaos. His gloved hand moved delicately, sweeping away the clinging dust from your shoulders and arms. Pressing a tender kiss to your forehead, his lips lingered there briefly, conveying a warmth that contrasted starkly with the raw power he had displayed moments ago.
"Are you alright?"
Blinking up at him with wide eyes and frazzled hair shooting up in every direction, you nodded dumbly. Turning away from him, you nearly gasped aloud to see the room in shambles, debris scattered everywhere, and the eerie green glow of energy still lingering in the air. The ghostly residents were in a state of panic, their translucent forms flickering as they moved frantically.
"My dorm," you whimpered, your mind racing as you calculated the cost of the damage.
With a chuckle, Malleus adjusted his grip on you, his muscles flexing as he gently set you down. Your legs felt shaky as you tried to steady yourself.
"I will handle the cost of repair, my dearest," Malleus assured you, bending down to your height, his voice dropping to a whisper. Green eyes bore into yours, strands of his midnight hair falling over his face. "You will not need to worry about such things once we are formally betrothed."
You froze, your face suddenly warming and burning.
"What?!"
Malleus reached out, gently tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear, his fingers lingering against your cheek, claws dragging across your supple cheeks. "Yes, my dear," he murmured, chest rumbling as his lips curved into a sharp smile. "You heard me correctly."
"I⊠I don't know what to say," you whispered, feeling dizzy with emotion.
"Will you consider it?" he asked softly, a faint hint of a smirk playing on his lips. "Please?"
Caught in the depth of his gaze, you felt your resolve melting away. "I-I guess?" you breathed, your voice trembling. "I'll⊠consider it."
A smug smile spread across his face, and he tenderly pressed his lips against yours. "That's all I ask, my dearest."
After ensuring you were alright one last time, Malleus redirected his focus to Elizan. With a flick of his wrist, the thorns under his control tightened around the ghost. Elizan shrieked and thrashed about, his translucent form writhing in pain as the thorns dug deeper.
"Do try to exercise some restraint, my boy," Lilia drawled, tapping his sharp fingers idly against his crossed arms. "We do not want Ramshackle to be bathed in blood. It would be very unsanitary."
not too sure if i am continuing but feel free to suggest some peepl bookies
#twisted wonderland#malleus draconia#malleus draconia x reader#disney twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland x reader
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OK so Maedwyn didn't witness the public execution of those resistance leaders Fran referred to during the Ivalice quests because it happened after Stormblood 4.0
But Garlemald repressed several different uprisings during its occupation, so after one of those was when Maedwyn was forced to witness the execution of several friends, including his lovers at the time. He didn't directly participate in their capture because his minders were leery that he could actually escape or turn around and kill them, so they had him on the Bozjan front and elsewhere in Ilsabard. But that time they tried to break him.
Except Maedwyn, already all but dead in spirit by then, resolved that he could not die a conscript afterwards.
And then he thought he couldn't die when the others had. How could he face them? How could he just give up? But the Bozjan resistance didn't welcome him, appropriately leery because Maedwyn would've fought them for some ten years by then.
One of their members sympathized, though, and helped him leave. So Maedwyn left.
And I'm guessing the wiki meant "30 years ago" as in 30 years before A Realm Reborn. So for Maedwyn, the nightmare and exile might have well neared four decades in persisting.
But it does give me a whole 20 years between his leaving his home country and ARR starting to do all sorts of things. đ
#maedwyn lavellan#no wonder he's some rando fighter with sword and shield now#he didn't have it in him to sing or dance or play music#and those things were extremely Visible#so he just picked up the sword and board and did little things to survive#outrunning the garlean bounty hunters and killing them where he could#it was only until eorzea that maedwyn truly felt he was safe#he blamed himself a lot for the waking sands massacre too bc he thought livia was there looking for him
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