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I should be able to get money for kissing boys. If I could make kissing boys very sweetly a career I would never miss a day.
(Unless I was sick, I don't want to get them sick. đĽş)
#this post is also applicable to girls but im thinking about boys rn#professional boy kisser#professional girl kisser also#honestly id just like to be kissed#this doesn't really count as selfship does it? unless i tag the boys i want to kiss but theres just too many of them đ
đ#the woes of a bisexual polyamorous genderfluid đŠ i want it all#nblm#nblm yearning#mlm#mlm yearning#soft nblm#soft mlm#vi is yearning
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HAPPY HALLOWEEN đđđ
I was inspired to draw this by one of @auntvamp headcanons about what boys would wear on Halloween. I really like the idea of Marko dressed as Ares.
As for my boy Xavier, I wanted to give him a mariachi costume, but then I took a peek to Mexican folklore and immediately noticed El Charro Negro - a supernatural being who makes deals with people and fulfills their wishes in exchange for their souls (this is much more appropriate for Halloweenđ)
For the rest of the boys, I imagine David as the Phantom of the Opera, Paul as Beetlejuice and Dwayne as Captain Hook because Laddie would be Peter Pan. ( I wanted to draw it before Halloween, but studies eating up my free time)
#the lost boys 1987#tlb 1987#the lost boys#lost boys fanart#digital art#masterocs#oc x canon#xavierđ˛đ˝#the lost boys marko#halloween#halloween 1987#Theme song of this drawing is#Trick or Treat by Fastway#seriously I can't count how many times I've listened to this song while drawing#it's obvious that Marko made Xavier's skull paint#I think I drew Marko much too short compared to Xavier đ
#but I think of him as small and cute but deadly#i can't help it#I am sorry I'll keep drawing him like this anyway#halloween art#trick or treat
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Poochyena Bite Pokemon
Type: Dark
Emerald Pokedex Entry:
It savagely threatens foes with bared fangs. It chases after fleeing targets tenaciously. It turns tail and runs, however, if the foe strikes back.
Wanted to post Pokemon and Character associations I have that may or may not be part of the Main AU and also get some drawing in. This is one sketch ive finished
#bsd pokemon au#it is kinda in the AU if u count what i said in my og post of it đ
#(kit)^2#bsd chuuya#pokemon#poochyena#one of the common dark type pokemon the grunts in team magma or team aqua own#What to say of the Sheep and Chuuya#Chuuya having a Mightyena later on makes sense to me too#anyway. I have so many elaborate comic ideas but i need to get in the mood to draw more#My art
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Yknow... I've spent so long focusing on me- what *I* want, what *my* reason for being alive is, that I think I completely forgot I can never separate my life from others- no matter where I look, other people are always at the core of what's important to me. Like yknow what? Maybe I don't want to be alive, maybe I don't see the value in life and it means nothing to me- but other people do. Other people *want* to live, for reasons that I simply don't have. And I think if me dying, or just trying to explain to explain how I think and feel even, would make that worse for someone else, then I don't want to. Because they deserve to keep the things that matter to them. Because I don't have a lot of faith in the meaning of life or hope that I'll have a happy future... but what I do have is faith in other people. Even if I shouldn't, I do and I'm not sorry for it.
#even if all ill ever get from other people in the end is disappointment#at least disappointment isnt the worst thing that life can throw at me#maybe if it happens- if when the day comes that i have to die and every last person has let me down- maybe ill have to accept it#but until that happens i wont accept it at all#ive already been let down by too many people to count. by stranger who dont even know I exist#and i know all of you readjng this have too. if anyone is reading this#but maybe i havent... maybe one of you has faith in me. and maybe thats enough to make it not matter how shitty other people are sometimes#because i know thats true for me. i look up to a handful of people and thats so important to me#idk... this feels egotistical. i doubt im anyones source of hope like that. but who cares#this train of thought doesnt feel complete but i know from oast experiences that if i have even the slightest sort of#*positive* breakthrough then i have to write it down IMMEDIATELY while im still feeling the feelings of it#otherwise I'll never be able to grasp the concept again#so i hope this serves its purpose even if its not the most coherent post đ
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It didn't change, it was Lou then and it's Lou now đŚ
My 2° favorite though did change, because it used to be Beel but he's now fourth, having lost his spot to Satan and Solomon
#maybe if Solmare put some actual effort into writing him over the seasons he'd still hold the same spot đ
#like...#I can literally count in one hand the amount of times I remember being genuinely happy with the way solmare handled beel and#had no complains to make#also my boy barely gets any relevant scenes anymore :(#even recently in nb when it was his turn to be taken over by his sin or whatever ( spoilers aheadđ )#i mean the way they wrote Satan's one was pretty disappointing too but Beel wasn't even taken seriously#it started interesting but then it became a food contest where little d was the focus and not Beel???#where's the scene with mc getting into Beel's mind and unraveling his deepest fears and struggles?#where MC gets a deeper understanding of his character and gets to comforts him and stuff#it had so much potential :/
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this time of year
pairing: friend!steve rogers x female reader
summary: you've kept your feelings for your friend, steve rogers, quiet for yearsâbut when you're at the holiday market with your whole group of friends, some things come to light, and you don't think you can keep pretending you don't desperately want him anymore.
warnings: 18+ content (minors dni!!!), fluff, light angst, smut, oral sex (m and f receiving), piv sex, protection, fingering (f receiving), nipple play, multiple orgasms, kissing, making out, dirty talk, praise kink, pet names (sunshine), aftercare, happily ever afterâthis is probably the most vanilla sex i've written in a while but it's still porn with feelings.
word count: 11.9k
a/n: my first entry for @the-slumberparty's december daze challenge, and it's technically still december 1 where i live (just barely)!!! i used the prompt "Can I put my cold hands up your sweater for warmth?" and had an idea i really liked and just ran with it! i promise most of my december fics won't be 10k+ wordsâmainly because i don't think i'd survive it đ
but i hope y'all enjoy this soft and sweet and smutty start to december!! âĄ
december daze challenge masterlist
Teasing tingles of chill danced across your skin as the crisp December wind brushed against your cheeks, making you huddle deeper into the warmth of your winter coat. You pushed your hands deeper into your pockets, but it didnât do much. Youâd forgotten your mittens, and your fingers felt nearly frozen.Â
It didnât help that you and your friends had been meandering through one of the cityâs holiday market for more than a few hours, the cold of the evening sinking deep into your bones. Unfortunately, there were only so many cups of hot chocolate one person could consume before they made themselves sick, and youâd reached that limit.Â
Still, you were having funâtoo much fun to complain about the cold or to try to beg off early. That was why you smiled as you watched your best friend, Yelena Belova, duck into one of the market stalls, her green eyes going wide as they raked over the vendorâs display of knives.
You trailed a little slowly behind the rest of your friendsâNatasha Romanoff, Bucky Barnes and Steve Rogersâbeneath the pop-up tent, distracted by the chill in your fingers as you rubbed them against your body through the material of your coat, trying to get them warm.
The wintry wind cut through the market again and, despite the trembling of your body, you smiled as you breathed in the scent of it. Beneath the pine smell from the evergreen trees being sold at the big tent near the entrance and the swirling richness of buttery baked goods, there was a fresh scent that made you turn your face upward.
Gray clouds were rolling in overhead, blotting out the deep navy of the evening sky, and you knew, deep in your bones, that it was going to snow. A smile curled the edges of your lips and you let your eyes fall closed as you breathed in that fresh scent of oncoming snow.Â
You loved this time of year because you loved the snow.Â
Everything about it conjured up memories of sitting by a crackling fire, wrapped in a cozy blanket, watching the beautiful flakes fall from the sky and dust everything in a perfect wintry cloak. You could spend hours sitting by a window, watching the snow come down, and you were suddenly looking forward to doing just that once you got home that evening.Â
When you finally opened your eyes and turned away from the sky, you found Steve lingering in the entrance of the tent where your friends were browsing, an intensity in his gaze as he looked at you. He didnât look away when you caught him staring, simply held your gaze, letting you see the heat swirling in the depths of his bright blue eyes.
That heat had begun appearing in Steveâs eyes more and more when he looked at you, and you knew it had started after a certain night at the bar your friends frequented a few weeks prior. But youâd been determinedly ignoring that look in Steveâs eyes ever since that nightâjust like youâd been ignoring what exactly had happened between the two of you.Â
As fast as the memory of that night sprang to mind, you shoved it aside, reminding yourself that there was no use in dredging it up. What you and Steve had done that night had the potential to ruin all of your relationships, and no matter how much you mightâve wanted reenact the night at the bar, your friend group was too important to you to risk it.
Even after years of knowing them, you still felt like your addition to the group was precarious because youâd joined so much later. Steve, Bucky, Nat and Yelena had all known each other since they were teenagers, and youâd only met them in your early twenties. Youâd sat near Yelena at your first job after college, and it had been best friends at first sightâor, at first snarky comment, anyway.Â
Sheâd adopted you as her best friend and introduced you to the others since you were new to the city and didnât know anyone. Youâd liked Steve from the moment you met him, but youâd kept a tight lid on your crush since you were more concerned about fitting into the group as seamlessly as possible, and you figured following your feelings would unnecessarily rock the boat.Â
Still, despite your intention of taking your crush on Steve to your grave, you couldnât ignore the way heâd grown into himself as you all had gotten older.Â
Gone was the boy-next-door blond hair and clean-shaven face of the man youâd first met. Steveâs hair had darkened and heâd recently let it grow long enough that it was beginning to curl at the nape of his neck. Heâd also grown out his beard, keeping it thick but neatly trimmed.
Steve had also, somewhere along the way, learned how to dress his tall formâand do it well.Â
That night at the holiday market, heâd worn light gray slacks, a dark charcoal sweater that you desperately wanted to rub your cheek against to see if it was as soft as it looked, and a black wool overcoat. It was an outfit that had you nearly drooling when youâd met up with your friends, unable to tear your eyes away from how Steveâs broad shoulders and trim waist filled out the clothes.
Despite the chill of the evening, Steve hadnât seemed the least bit cold, and youâd caught yourself thinking more than once how warm it would feel to be wrapped up in his strong arms. Your fingers would never have gotten so miserably frozen if youâd snuck them beneath Steveâs coat or in his pocketsâŚ
With a start, you realized youâd been staring back at Steve for a long, lingering moment, and heat bloomed in your cheeks. You didnât want him to get the wrong ideaâthough, at that moment, you were struggling to figure out what exactly the wrong idea wasâso you ducked your head and pretended like you were bundling deeper into your coat as you made to move past him into the tent.
âAre you alright, sunshine?â Steve asked as you passed him, his hand landing gently on your arm. Even through your coat, you could feel the warmth of his touch; it made you pause and glance up at him.
You realized your mistake immediately. You were too close to Steveâfar too close. So close you could smell the rich, masculine scent of his cologne and feel the heat radiating off his body. It made you want to bury your face in his neck and inhale deeply, to wrap yourself up in his warmth until your bones didnât even remember what the cold felt like.
âI-Iâm ok,â you said in a shaky voice, more rattled by Steveâs closeness than the December wind cutting through the city, and you dropped your gaze to the gold pendant around his neck.Â
It glinted in the soft light of the market stall, and you remembered it had been a gift from his Irish Catholic mother. You used the memory of Steve telling you about the pendant to ground yourself and your voice came out stronger.Â
âJust cold.â
âDâyou want some more hot chocolate?â Steve asked, and there was a hopeful note in his tone, like he was offering to get it for you, but you were quick to shake your head.
âAny more and I think my body will be more hot chocolate than water,â you joked, trying to ignore the emotions swirling in your chest like snowflakes on a wintry gale.
When Steve chuckled, you couldnât help but look back up at him, finding his blue eyes sparkling as he gazed down at you, affection clear in the lines of his face.Â
Slowly, his smile eased into something elseâsomething heavier, an expression that was almost yearning. It made the fluttering flakes in your chest swirl more frenziedly while a warmth bloomed somewhere lower, throbbing more to life the longer Steve looked at you with those darkened blue eyes. His expression spoke of things youâd never dare give voice to.
For another long moment, you and Steve just stared at each other, standing too close just inside the canopy of the vendor at the holiday market. A tension you refused to acknowledge crackled in the air around you.
Of their own volition, your eyes dropped to Steveâs mouth, his lower lip looking so soft and pink amid the dark brown of his beard. For what felt like the millionth time in the last few weeks, ever since that night at the bar, you imagined kissing himâhow soft his mouth would be, how warm and inviting, and the feel of his rough beard rasping over your cheeks.Â
âHey Steve, câmere!â
Natashaâs call finally broke the spell that had fallen over you and Steve, and you jumped back, only in that moment realizing how close youâd been. Close enough that when you ducked your head and turned away from him, making your way over to Yelena and Bucky, that you missed Steveâs warmth almost immediately.Â
You let out a shaky breath, trying to ease the tension and whirling emotions in your chest, and slid between your friends, who were still looking at the knives on sale. Looping one arm through Yelenaâs, you rested your head against Buckyâs shoulder, taking comfort in your friendsâ warmth, even if it wasnât as soothing as Steveâs had been.
âBoth of you already have too many knives,â you said by way of a greeting. Your comment made both of them snort derisively, which made you smirk since it had been your intention to get a reaction out of them.Â
âThereâs no such thing,â Yelena scoffed, tearing her eyes away from a double-edged dagger with an engraved handle to glance sideways at you. Her gaze met yours and then slid over your shoulder.
You followed it to where Natasha and Steveâs heads were ducked together. They were standing near a display of jewelry and you figured Nat was helping Steve pick out a Christmas present for someone, though you couldnât think of who. You frowned.
âWhen are you going to put him out of his misery?â
Buckyâs gruff question drew you out of your thoughts of trying to remember someone in Steveâs life who he might be buying jewelry for, and you looked at your friend. Without even seeing your reflection, you knew confusion was written plainly across your face.
âWhat?â you asked, a little sharper than youâd intended, but you didnât appreciate the implication that you were making Steve miserable.
Bucky cut his eyes to you, then slid them to Yelena, giving your best friend a pointed look. You spun your head around to your other side in time to watch Yelenaâs mouth flatten into a reproachful frown.Â
Suddenly, you got the distinct impression that your friends were having an argument about you, though you couldnât even begin to wonder what it could be about, except that it had something to do with Steve.
It took a moment of silent arguing before Yelena and Bucky seemed to come to an agreement. Yelena looked at you, a gentle expression on her face that made your stomach drop with anxietyâwhich only worsened when she put her free hand on your arm that was still looped through hers.Â
However, before she could voice whatever bad news she clearly had to tell you, Bucky cut in.
âYou know no one would be upset if you and Steve dated, right?â he asked bluntly, his eyes intense and searching when you turned to look at him. âWe all know you like each other.â
If youâd been drinking hot chocolate at that moment, you wouldâve spit it out all over Bucky and the display of pretty decorative knives.Â
Thankfully, you werenât. But you still managed to sputter and open your mouth repeatedly while you searched for the words to address the preposterousness of Buckyâs statement.
âI do notââ
Whatever weak protest you were going to utter was cut short when Yelena blurted, âWe know you kissed.â
Sucking in a sharp breath, the snowflakes that had been fluttering in your chest when youâd been standing with Steve sharpened into icy daggers of unease. You whirled on your best friend. âPardon?â
âI saw you guys at the bar that nightâI went back to get my scarfâŚâ Yelena explained quickly, having the good grace to look apologetic, both for what sheâd seen and for bringing it up. âI know youâve liked Steve for ages, even if you havenât said anything,â she rushed on, as if she thought if she spoke fast enough, it would make it easier to hear. âI was so excited it was finally happening that I blurted it out to Nat and she told Buckyâwe were just so happy for you both.â
You floundered again, your mouth opening and closing as you processed your best friendâs words. It was almost too much to take in. Not only did everyone know what had happened between you and Steve that night at the bar, but it hadnât changed anything. Youâd told yourself for years that nothing could happen between you and Steve because it would throw off the whole balance of the group, but something had happened and it hadnât done anything.Â
âIââ
Again, you were cut off, though it was seemingly Buckyâs turn, and your head swiveled back to him on your other side, feeling a bit like a broken bobblehead.Â
âHeâs liked you too, for what itâs worth,â Bucky said. Your face mustâve conveyed disbelief because he went on. âHeâs been talking about you since Yelena first introduced you to everyone, but he didnât know how you felt,â he said, cutting his eyes to Yelena with the barest hint of a glare, âand didnât want to make you uncomfortable.âÂ
Hearing that Steve liked you was officially too much for you to bear. The dawning realization that you couldâve been with Steve without risking your friendships with Yelena, Bucky and Nat was like a yawning, desolate chasm waiting to swallow you whole. Youâd lost so much time because you were so afraid of losing them all, and it hurtâit hurt enough that it took you a moment to realize Yelena was talking again.
âWe thought someone had finally made a move, but then you guys were pretending like nothing happened,â she was saying, and you turned back to her, your mind so overwhelmed that you no longer felt cold, only numb. âNone of us wanted to bring it up because, yâknow, I wasnât supposed to have seen it.â She shot you an apologetic grimace before plowing on, her expression turning gentle again. âYou know weâd never stop being your friends, even if something happened with you and Steve, right?â
Your heart was racing, the fear of change quickly eclipsing the fear of losing any more time with Steve. Youâd been friends with Yelena, Bucky, Nat and Steve for so long that you couldnât even imagine what it would be like if the two of you started datingâlet alone what might happen if you broke up. Shaking your head, you refused to acknowledge Yelenaâs assurance. Even if theyâd still be friends with you, nothing would be the same.Â
âNothing happened,â you said vehemently, even as you choked on the words, the lie tasting like ash on your tongue. But you couldnât seem to stop. âWe were drunk, it meant nothing.âÂ
But then Buckyâblunt, too-perceptive Buckyâbroke into your thoughts and pulled you up short with another simple question.
âAre you sure about that?â he asked, his tone not unkind.
You opened your mouth to snap a quick answer, but the âyesâ died in your throat. Because of course something had happened, and of course it meant everything.
For the first time in weeks, you gave yourself permission to remember that night.Â
Youâd tried to forget itâforget the softness of Steveâs lips on yours, forget the heat of his tongue as it slipped into your mouth, forget the pleasant scrape of his beard against your skin and the gentle way heâd held your face as he deepened the kiss.Â
Your first kiss with Steve Rogers had been glorious and messy and too short and too perfectâand it had meant everything to you.
But then you remembered what had happened after, the way youâd pulled away, even though youâd been the one to initiate the kiss in the first place, and panicked as soon as your mind had caught up with what youâd done.Â
The rest of the memory was a blur, the anxiety of the moment softening the edges, but you distinctly remembered extricating yourself from Steveâwhich had felt a little like cutting off a limbâbefore telling him it was a mistake and it couldnât happen again.
Back at the market, you buried your face in your hands, and almost sobbed at the memory. âIâve already ruined things,â you mumbled miserably into your frozen fingers, squeezing your eyes shut to keep the tears at bay.
Bucky made a humming noise, as if he was considering your words. âWhatever happened between you two, it hasnât changed Steveâs feelings for you,â he said, squeezing your wrist gently until you looked at him. He stared at you for a long moment, making sure you heard him. âSo my question stands: When are you going to put himâand yourselfâout of this misery?âÂ
Your friends let you sit with that question for a silent moment, then Yelena selected one of the knives, claiming it was an early Christmas present for herself and made her way over to the checkout.Â
Steve was also apparently buying something, accepting a small wrapped package from the cashier that he slipped into his pocket. You were too overwhelmed by your thoughts to be curious about it anymore though.
You stood with Bucky near the entrance to the tent, waiting for your friends to finish their transactions while your mind swirled. You were grateful to your friend for leaving you alone with your thoughts, though you knew it was only because Bucky was confident heâd made his point.
And he had. Oh how he had.
Your mind and heart were a mess. Youâd spent so many years telling yourself that you could never let anyone catch on about your feelings for Steve, because if they did, it would lead to the end of the friend group. But theyâd all known for weeks, and nothing had changed.Â
Well, nothing except apparently Bucky and Yelena had taken it upon themselves to play matchmaker. And you wouldnât have been surprised if Natasha had been in on the ploy as well, distracting Steve purposefully so Yelena and Bucky could ambush you.
Still, you couldnât fully silence the tiny voice of fear deep in your heart that insisted that if you and Steve got together, and things ended badly, youâd lose all your friends.Â
The rest of the group had known each other for so long and it had been more than a little daunting to figure out where you fit. Adding a romantic relationship into the mix seemed like a recipe for disasterâand if it ended so badly that everyone was forced to choose sides, you couldnât imagine them choosing yours when theyâd known Steve so much longer.Â
But as you watched Yelena finish paying for the knife, her words about always being your friend came back to you. She was your best friendâand you were hers. As if proving the point, she caught your eye and smiled impishly as she caught up with you, linking her arm through yours and tugging you back out into the market.Â
In that moment, something settled in you. Without fully realizing it, youâd always been a little insecure in your group of friends, always worried they would kick you out at the smallest infraction. But Yelena had said it plainlyâtheyâd always be your friends, and you owed it to them to believe her, to trust her, because that was what friendship was.Â
That was what you had to do to have any kind of meaningful relationship.
As your group of friends wandered further down the row of stalls at the holiday market, you couldnât help the way your eyes kept straying to Steve. Each time, you found him either looking at you already, or glancing your way within seconds, like he could feel your gaze.Â
When you looked at him, really looked at him, you noticed a little bit of hurt in his eyes. There was only a hint of it, like he was trying to hide it from you and everyone elese, but you could see it.Â
You wondered, briefly, how youâd missed it, but a part of you knew youâd been seeing it since that night at the bar. Youâd just been ignoring it along with everything else swirling in his gaze.Â
âWhen are you going to put him out of his misery?âÂ
Youâd known you were making yourself miserableâof course you had. But the realization that you were making Steve miserable, even as he made a valiant effort to hide it, was what finally made your decision for you about what to do with everything Bucky and Yelena had told you.
No matter how scared you were that things might end badly, and youâd end up getting your heart broken and lose all your friends, you had to trust them when they said theyâd always be there for you. You had to trust that Steve knew what he wantedâand that what he wanted was you.
The group came to another stop when Bucky spotted a specialty chocolate vendor and he ducked inside. Nat and Yelena followed him inâthe latter giving you a meaningful look as you trailed behind before cutting her eyes to Steve. The message was clear and you nodded, giving her a playful shove that made your best friend cackle as she followed Bucky and Nat.
You stepped toward Steve where he hovered just outside the tent, and he shot you a knowing smile when he caught your eye.
âStill feeling like youâve had enough chocolate?â he asked in a friendly tone, referencing your earlier joke. His beard twitched like he was trying to hold back a smile and it warmed your heart that he not only remembered the joke, but still found it funny.
The side of your mouth curved up in a lopsided grin, and you inched a tiny bit closer, just barely stepping into Steveâs personal space as you looked up at him.
âYeah, Iâve had my fill,â you said, keeping your tone light. You took on a considering expression, tipping your head to the side and tapping a finger to your chin as if you were thinking. âFor tonight, at least.âÂ
Both of you laughed, but the December wind cut through the holiday market just then, and it reminded you of how cold your fingers were, especially out in the open. You quickly shoved your hand deep into the pocket of your coat, and Steve didnât miss the movement, drifting even closer to you.
âDo you have any gloves, sunshine?â he asked in a low, rumbly voice that had warm tingles of delight dancing down your spine, all the way to your toes.Â
âNo,â you said, shaking your head. Steve had moved close enough that you had to tip your head back to keep looking up at him, and you could feel the heat radiating off his larger body.
His blue eyes were sparkling in the warm, golden light of the market, and you could see the swirl of emotion in their depths that was only there when he looked at you. But there was a crease of concern between his brows, too, and you knew he was seconds away from offering to find you some glovesâor something else that would be chivalrous and perfectly friendly.Â
You realized, very suddenly, that if anything was going to happen between you and Steve, anything like what had happened at the bar, you needed to make the first move. Bucky had said Steve had been worried about making you uncomfortable before that night, and you were certain it had only worsened after the kiss youâd shared.Â
So, before he could say anything, you blurted the first thing that came to mind.
âCan I put my cold hands up your sweater for warmth?â
Steveâs brows lifted in surprise, and you had to bite your lip to keep yourself from trying to take the words back as soon as theyâd slipped out of your mouth. And you were glad you did, because as the moment stretched on, and Steve realized you were serious, his brows lowered and his blue eyes darkened with interest.
âYa sure about that, sunshine?â he asked, his voice low enough that you knew it was meant for only you. He ducked his head slightly, so he was nearly at your eye level, and held your gaze. âI wouldnât want you doing anything you might regret.â
The words stung a little, but you knew you deserved them, especially after youâd told Steve that kissing him had been a mistake. So you held his gaze and stepped even closer to him, until there was barely any space left between your bodies.
âIâm sure,â you said firmly, letting Steve see the honesty in your open expression. âI know what Iâm doing and Iâthis is what I want.â You were proud of yourself for only stumbling once, and held your breath as you waited for Steveâs response.
The corners of Steveâs mouth flickered in an eager grin, but he wiped the expression away, like he was worried that if he appeared too excited, heâd scare you away. You felt a pang of regret, and it doubled your determination to show Steve that you werenât going to panic and run away again.Â
Pulling your hands from your pockets, you brushed your fingertips against Steveâs stomach in a silent reminder of your question.Â
âCan I?â you asked, your voice breathless with anticipation.Â
âYeah,â he rasped, his eyes molten with heat as he stared down at you. âGo âhead, sunshine.â
You were cold enough that you didnât waste any more time, slipping your fingers beneath the hem of Steveâs soft sweater and pressing your frigid fingertips to the warm, smooth skin you found.Â
âFuck, your fingers are freezing,â Steve rumbled, the muscles of his abs contracting beneath your touch like they were trying flee. But before you could apologize and pull away, Steveâs hands flattened over yours outside his sweater, pressing your palms against the hard-packed plane of his abs. âGood thing ya got me to keep you warm, sunshine,â he teased, his voice so full of charm that you melted into him.Â
âYeah, good thing,â you echoed in a whisper, the edges of your mouth curling up into a pleased smile. You shimmied closer to Steve, watching the way his blue eyes sparkled with affection as he held your gaze captive.
He wrapped you up against him, holding you in the loose cage of his warms while your fingertips stroked idly against his smooth skin. You wanted to let them wander further beneath his sweater and explore the wonders of Steveâs bare chest, but you managed to keep the urge in check since you were in publicâthough it was a near thing.
âYou know what I like to do most in the winter?â you asked Steve, breaking the comfortable silence that had fallen over the two of you. The sounds of the market all around you were a distant soundtrack.
âWhat?â he asked indulgently, squeezing you slightly in his arms.
âCurl up in bed and snuggle on a snowy day,â you said with a sly smile. And then, as if a thought had just occurred to you, you tilted your head to the side. âHey, is your bed comfy? Do you have a lot of nice warm blankets and good pillows?â
A grin pulled across Steveâs face even though he was fighting it, trying to look like he was taking your questions under serious consideration.
âYâknow, I think itâs very comfy,â he said, giving you a knowing look. Heâd obviously picked up on the not-so-subtle cue that you might want him to take you back to his place, and you appreciated that he was sticking to the bit. âBut it sounds like youâre an expert, so I think you should come over and be the judge of that.â
An answering grin curved your mouth and you murmured, âIâd like that.âÂ
Then, before you could let your fear get the best of you again, you pushed yourself up onto your tiptoes, your lips brushing against Steveâs beard as you moved to whisper in his ear.Â
You shivered at the physical reminder of the coarse hair rasping deliciously against your cheeks when heâd kissed you and it took a moment to remember what youâd been about to say. When you did, you couldnât hold in your smirk.
âDid I mention I do my best snuggling naked?âÂ
âSunshine.â
The nickname was uttered in a gruff, rumbling rasp, like the sound of a plow on snowy streets. It was so deep and delicious, your toes curled in delight and your mouth pulled into a full-blown grin.Â
You barely had time to pull away before Steve was wrapping his hand around the back of your neck and towing you in for a kiss.
Steveâs mouth was wonderfully soft and exquisitely warm and achingly familiar against yours. He wasted no time licking along the seam of your lips, seeking entrance that you happily gave him.Â
Your fingers curled around Steveâs sides beneath his sweater, digging greedily into the soft skin at his waist while you kissed him back feverishly, trying to close every gap between your bodies.
âFuck, how does this feel so much better than I remember?â Steve growled against your lips, his hand on the back of your neck tilting your head just the way he wanted so he could lick even deeper into your mouth.Â
Your breathy, delirious laugh was swallowed by his all-consuming kiss, the sound turning into a helpless moan.Â
God, he was right, it did feel so much better than you remembered to have Steveâs mouth on yours, and you couldnât fathom how youâd run away from him before because, in that moment, the last thing you wanted to do was stop. You wanted to kiss Steve for the rest of your life.
âI donât know, but Steve, please, donât stop,â you murmured when he finally let you up for air. You tried to catch your breath while he was busy pressing insatiable kisses to your cheek, your jaw, the corner of your mouth, anywhere he could reach without straying too far from your lips.Â
Pulling your hands from beneath his sweater, your no longer freezing fingers threaded into the hair at the nape of Steveâs neck, pulling him closer while at the same time pushing yourself up onto your tiptoes again. Your bodies slotted together even more perfectly, and you moaned softly into his mouth as you tugged him in for another kiss.
Steve kissed you harder, holding you tight to his chest like he was afraid that if he let go, youâd disappear on the wintry wind. In turn, you held him just as fiercely, your nails raking through the beard on the underside of his jaw and tugging lightly to bring him closer until he was rumbling a pleased sound deep in his chest.
âGet a room!â
The perfect bubble that had formed around and Steve abruptly popped, the sounds of the bustling holiday market rushing in along with the December chill and you pulled away, your first instinct to worry about what your friends would think. But then you caught the look on Steveâs face.Â
He was staring at you with such a blissed out expression, his blue eyes dark and hazy, a pleased smile on his kiss-swollen lips, that you couldnât help but relax and melt back into him. You took your time to press a sweet kiss to his lips before turning to your friends.
Natasha, Yelena and Bucky all wore matching smug grins. Nat was even popping little chocolate candies into her mouth like she was enjoying the show.Â
âOh no, please donât stop on our account,â she called to you and Steve, gesturing with her hand for you both to continue. The whole group burst into raucous laughter.Â
Cracking up and shaking your head, you buried your face in Steveâs rumbling chest, feeling a little shy about being caught making out so heatedly by your friends. But you felt relief, too, that no one was upsetâthat all your friends were happy for you and Steve. Â
When youâd finally gotten ahold of yourself, you tipped your face up and caught Steveâs eye, giving him a sly smile that had his expression instantly darkening with a hunger that made you pulse with desire.Â
âSo about that comfy bed of yoursâŚâ you murmured, just for him to hear. When he nodded once, quickly, to acknowledge he remembered it, you went on. âIâd love to see it if youâre ready to go?â
The implication of your question was clear and Steve clutched you tighter to his chest, capturing your lips for a brief, hot kiss that did more to warm you from the inside out than any of the hot chocolate youâd consumed that evening.Â
âSunshine, Iâve been ready to take you home for years,â he rasped against your mouth, the honesty in his voice making you smile.Â
When Steve pulled away, he tugged you over to your group of friends and told them you were heading homeâyes, together, he confirmed. All three of them murmured encouraging words in your ear as you hugged them goodbye, and you could tell by the pink tinging Steveâs cheeks that they were doing the same to him.
Once farewells were said, Steve snagged your hand and laced your fingers together. As you walked to the subway, he tucked your clasped hands into the pocket of his overcoat, and then your other into the crook of his elbow, where he covered it with his palm to keep you warm.Â
Steve held you tucked into his side the whole way back to his place while he made idle conversation, asking about the latest books youâd read and movies youâd watched. He only let go when it came time to pull out his keys and unlock his door.
There was a giddy, electric energy between the two of you as Steve helped you out of your coat and hung it up. Your gaze kept drifting back to him while you took off your boots and he hung up his overcoat. Once done, he stepped close, toeing out of his shoes next to where youâd dropped your boots.
âDo you want anything to drink?â Steve asked, his voice rough and a little uneven, like he was nervous. It made you smile, settling your own nerves to know he was right there with you.
You stepped further into Steveâs space, your fingers sneaking beneath the hem of his sweater and giggling when he sucked in a sharp breath. Heâd made an excellent effort to keep your fingers warm on the way home, but the December cold had still snuck in.Â
It was a good thing Steve was there to warm you up again.
âI think Iâd just like to see this comfy bed of yours,â you murmured, pushing up onto your tiptoes and kissing Steve.Â
The two of you lingered in the entryway of Steveâs apartment for long minutes, kissing and learning what made each other gasp and moan. His teeth nipped at your lower lip, sinking in hard enough to make you whimper before relenting and soothing the sting away with his tongue.
Meanwhile, you let your hands wander further beneath Steveâs sweater, finding a light trail of hair leading down to the waistband of his slacks. You raked your nails through it, and relished the pleased sound that rumbled in his chest.Â
Warm, wet desire was gathering between your thighs, and it wasnât long before you squirmed impatiently against Steve, needing more.
By the time Steve broke the kiss and spun you around, his heavy hands dropping to your hips to guide you through his apartment, your panties were damp and you were aching for something only Steve could give you.Â
Both of you moved quickly as you let Steve lead you to his bedroom, pausing just inside the darkened room while he flicked on a light.
A soft, golden glow emanated from two lamps set on low wooden tables on either side of the massive bed. Curiously, your gaze roved over the room, taking in the earthy colors and tasteful design.
It seemed Steve hadnât only gotten his wardrobe and appearance togetherâheâd also made his home a place that was warm and welcoming and entirely him.Â
The king-size bed was swathed in a thick, forest green comforter with dark charcoal sheets, a veritable pile of pillows at the head that looked far too enticing. The rest of the room was furnished with a dark wooden bookcase and dresser that matched the bed frame and side tables. There were even some vintage photographs of Brooklyn decorating the wall, along with some framed pictures on dresser.
Wandering over, you picked up one of the photographs. It was from the first autumn after youâd met Yelena and the others. The group had rented a car and gone to a farm upstate to go apple picking and enjoy all the other autumnal delights the state had to offer.Â
In the photo, you were tucked into Steveâs side on a bale of hay, ready for the hayride the group had decided to go on, with Yelena on your other side. There was a blanket draped over your laps, and Steveâs arm was wrapped around your shoulders. The three of you were beaming at the camera.Â
âDo you remember that trip?â Steve asked, sliding up behind you and wrapping his arms loosely around your waist. His chin rested on your shoulder while he peered at the photograph.
âYeah,â you said, nodding. Then you winced as you remembered something about the trip. âWasnât this the time I fell asleep on your shoulder on the way home and drooled all over your jacket?â
Steve laughed huskily in your ear.
âIt is,â he confirmed, brushing a kiss to your cheek before murmuring. âI didnât wash it for a month.â
It was your turn to laugh, though the sound was more of a surprised exhalation as you twisted your upper body so you could see his face better.
âWhat?â
Steve grimaced, wrinkling his nose and scuffing a hand against the back of his neck sheepishly, like he regretted admitting that to you.
âIt was more because it smelled like you than because of the, yâknow, drool,â he explained, his tone a tiny bit defensive. But then he looked at you, finding your face still frozen in surprise and his expression softened. âIâve liked you since I met you, sunshine.â
It wasnât anything Bucky hadnât already told you, but it still felt like an entirely new revelation coming straight from Steve, and all you could think to say was, âOh.âÂ
You turned back to the photo, still held in your hand, and all you could think about was the fact that you had the same one tacked up on the corkboard over your desk. You wondered if Steve liked it for the same reason you didâbecause it made the two of you look like a happy couple, even with Yelena sitting next to you.
âI liked you too,â you confessed in a small voice.
Steve was quiet for a moment, his hold on you loosening slightly as you stepped forward to put the photograph back on his dresser. But when that was done, he towed you back in until your back was pressed to his chest.Â
âLiked?â he asked, enunciating the âdâ at the end of the word.Â
Your mouth flickered in a smile and you turned around in his arms. Your hands smoothed over his broad shoulders while you leaned into him, your soft curves pressing into the hard planes of his body.
âI liked you then, and I like you now, Steve,â you said, holding your breath as you stared up at him. Even knowing he felt the same way about you, it was still scary to lay your heart bare for the first time, and you waited eagerly for his response.
An exhale gusted from Steve and you couldnât help but note the relief in his expression, even as he grinned wide.
âThatâs good to hear, sunshine, because I like you, too.â
âGood,â you said with a grin, dragging Steve down for a too-brief kiss. âNow, will you take me to bed already?â
Steveâs laughter was muffled as he kissed you again, guiding you around and walking you backward until the backs of your legs hit the bed. He didnât break the kiss as he lowered you to the soft mattress and helped you slide up the bed until your shoulders settled into the pile of pillows at the head.
Your arms wrapped around Steve and you pulled him down on top of you while he braced himself so he didnât crush you. One of his legs slid between your thighs and he lowered himself down on top of you until his bulge pressed into your stomach. Your belly swooped with excitement and your pulse thrummed with desire.
Hiking one of your legs up around his waist, you writhed beneath Steve, grinding your hot core against his thigh through your jeans.Â
You couldnât seem to stop touching him, your hands sketching the exact measure of his body, and he seemed to be doing the same. Steveâs hands couldnât stay still, sliding up and down your sides before finally pushing beneath your sweater.
His warm, calloused fingers stroked covetously over your skin, and you felt extra sensitive wherever he touched you, his every caress sending shivers of pleasure racing through your body.Â
âSteve,â you whined, wrenching your mouth from his to drag in a much-needed breath. Even still, you craved more and your body rocked up into his, grinding against his thigh while his bulge pressed insistently into your belly.Â
âYou feel so good, sunshine,â he rasped as he kissed a trail along your jaw and down to your neck. The scratch of his beard against your skin had you shuddering beneath his big body. âCan IâŚ?â he asked, his fingertips teasing along the edge of your bra beneath your sweater.
âYesâplease,â you gasped. Your own fingers curled into the soft fabric of Steveâs sweater between his shoulder blades and you tugged on it, trying to pull it over his head.
Steve chuckled into your neck before he sat up and yanked his sweater off for you, baring the broad expanse of his chest. You caught glimpses of soft brown hair dusted across his pecs and endless swaths of golden skin before he was helping you out of your sweater.Â
You grumbled disgruntledly when your view of Steve was cut off as he tugged your sweater over your head, then as he leaned close to unclasp your bra and toss it somewhere in the room. You only dragged your eyes away from Steveâs perfect chest when he made a low, almost anguished sound.
He looked a little dazed, his eyes staring down at your bare breasts. Your chest was heaving slightly, making them bounce gently, and Steve looked almost hypnotized by the sight.Â
Snorting to yourself, you curled your fingers around his firm biceps and tugged him back down on top of you, whimpering when your nipples brushed against the hair on his chest. They pebbled as pleasure spiked through your body, settling heavily between your thighs and making even more wetness soak into your panties.
The movement had broken Steve from his trance and he began kissing from your neck down your chest. The rasp of his beard over your clavicle sent a delicious shiver down your spine, making you keen and tremble beneath him.
âFuck, youâre so soft,â he rumbled gruffly into your skin. He buried his face in the valley between your breasts, groping your supple flesh in his big hands while pressing teasing kisses and gentle bites to your skin. âYouâre so perfect, sunshine.â
You whined a needy sound, reacting to his touch as much as his awe-filled words, and threaded your fingers through Steveâs soft hair. You held him tightly to your chest, wordlessly pleading for more, and he enthusiastically indulged the request.
Steve wrapped his lips around your nipple and sucked deeply, drawing so much of you into his hot mouth, it felt like he was doing his damndest to devour you. You were already so sensitive for him that it felt like there was a direct line connecting your sensitive peak to your clit, and you cried out in pleasure, your spine arching up off the bed and pushing your chest further in Steveâs face.
He grinned, doing a poor job of hiding his self-satisfied expression in your soft tits, but you didnât begrudge him the smugnessânot when he nibbled at your hardened nipple so good, it made your hips buck up from the bed. A whine slipped from your lips when you realized you no longer had his thigh to grind against, your legs kicking restlessly at the sheets.
After giving the same torturous treatment to your other nipple, wringing even more whimpering whines and desperate keening sounds from your mouth, Steve began kissing his way further down your body. He nipped playfully at your belly before lifting his head to catch your eye.Â
It took you a moment to blink them into focus enough to see him clearly.
âIâve been dreaming about your taste for years, sunshine,â he rumbled, hooking his fingers in the waistband of your jeans and tugging just enough that you knew he was asking if he could take them off. âPlease, can IâŚ?â
You were already nodding, your fingers fumbling over the button of your jeans. Steve seemed just as eager as you, gently pushing your hand aside and taking over as he thumbed it through the hole in the denim and pulled your zipper down. Then he was peeling your jeans down over you hips and thighs, taking your panties off at the same time.
In only a few seconds, you were stripped bare for the first time in front of Steve Rogers, and if it wasnât for the shuddered exhale that gusted past his lips and the sizable bulge twitching in the front of his slacks, it mightâve occurred to you to feel a little insecure.Â
But before those thoughts could even begin to creep in, Steve was dragging his hands up your thighs and spreading your legs with a reverent look on his face, giving an appreciative rumble deep in his chest as he raked his eyes up the naked length of your body.Â
âYouâre so fucking beautiful, sunshine,â he rasped, pressing his face between your thighs and taking a deep breath.Â
Heat bloomed in your cheeks, but you didnât have time to wonder at how you smelled because Steve was licking his tongue into the seam of your pussy, groaning like heâd eaten something delicious.Â
âFuck, you taste even better than I imagined,â he growled before diving in deeper, burying his face against your cunt and eating you out like he was a dying man and you were his last meal.Â
In no time at all, he had you crying out, your hips bucking up off the bed as pleasure swirled through your body. It was all you could do to try to stop yourself from humping against his handsome face.
Steveâs thick biceps banded around your thighs and he held you spread open while he feasted on you, his eyes staring up past your quivering belly and heaving chest to watch your reactions. He sucked and nibbled and flicked his tongue over your sensitive clit, paying attention to what had you writhing and moaning your pleasure beneath him.
He licked into your pussy, fucking you with his tongue until you were squirming and panting on the bed, your thighs tensing and trembling with your building release.Â
Needing something to hold on to, you threaded your fingers into Steveâs hair, holding his head against your greedy pussy and rocking your hips into him. You moaned loudly, unabashedly, grinding against his mouth and beard as you neared the edge.
âOh god, Steve, âm so close, pleaseâplease, donât stop, âm gonna come,â you babbled, your spine arching up off the bed as you threw your head back into the pile of soft pillows. âFuck, please, please, please!â
It was clear that Steve was a quick study when it came to your body, and he put what heâd learned to good use, sucking hard on your clit and flicking his tongue over it, steadily driving your pleasure higher until, finally, it crested. And then he pushed you right over the edge.
Your fingers fisted in Steveâs hair and you humped shamelessly against his face as you came with a cry of his nameââSteve!â Your body tightened, and then loosened as wave after wave of pleasure swept through your limbs, making you shiver intensely while Steveâs mouth worked you through your release.Â
When the pleasure began to ebb, you melted back into the soft blankets on Steveâs bed, a dazed smile curving your mouth. Steve eased you down with gentle sweeps of his tongue and soft kisses to your inner thighs, murmuring sweet words to you about how good you tasted on his tongue.
It wasnât until you whimpered from overstimulation that Steve stopped. He pressed one last kiss to the top of your mound before pushing himself up. His happy grin when he saw the sated, content expression on your face made your heart skip a beat in your chest. He was just so damn handsome.Â
âGood?â Steve asked, though you knew from the self-satisfied look in his eye that he already knew the answer to his question.
Still, you nodded. âSo good,â you purred, stretching and reaching for him. Your fingers curled into coarse hair on the underside of his jaw and you tugged him up your body for a kiss.
You could taste yourself on his lips, and his beard was so drenched in your juices, it made your own cheeks damp. A groan worked its way up your throat at the filthiness of the kiss, and you pulled Steve closer, letting him muffle the sound as his tongue slipped into your mouth.Â
Even though Steve had just made you come harder than anyone else in your entire life, renewed desire was beginning to bloom in your core, the heat of your arousal already building again. Distractedly, you recognized that youâd never felt the way you did for anyone but Steveâinsatiable, unwilling to let the night end just yet.Â
When Steveâs hard bulge knocked against your hip, a devious smirk curled your lips and you wasted no time trailing your fingers down his bare, golden chest to grope his cock through his slacks. He was hard and heavy in your hand, and an excited thrill raced down your spine at the thought of taking him in your mouth.Â
Steve groaned against your lips, his big body shuddering when you squeezed and stroked him through the thick material of his pants. So you did it again, rubbing him with your palm until you felt his hard length jump against your fingers, like his body was just as eager for your touch as the rest of him.
âWe donât have to do more,â Steve said, his voice a little breathless. âI-I mean, you donât have to return the favor or anything. Iâm good to just go to sleep if thatâs what you want.â
Steveâs words were honorable, but you didnât want to sleep.Â
You pushed at his larger body until he flipped onto his back. Following after him, you kissed down his chest, taking a moment to nuzzle in the soft hair scattered across his pecs before you lifted your head and caught his eye, letting him see the desire in yours.Â
âI bet Iâve dreamed about sucking your cock just as much as you dreamed about eating my pussy,â you whispered huskily, holding his gaze determinedly while you shifted down his body until your face was level with his bulge. You mouthed at his hard length through his slacks. âPlease, Steve, can IâŚ?âÂ
âYeahâyesâfuck, sunshine, you can do whatever you want,â he rasped, helping you undo his button and fly, his fingers trembling. Then he lifted his hips so you could pull his pants down.
You felt like you were unwrapping the most perfect Christmas present as you tugged his slacks and boxer briefs down his thick, toned thighs. You even let out a little gasp of delight when Steveâs cock bounced free, marveling at the sheer masculine beauty of it.
Impatiently, you pulled his clothes the rest of the way off, pausing only to kiss his thighs, enjoying the softness of his leg hair against your lips and cheeks, before returning to his cock.Â
Taking him in hand, you circled your fingers around the thick shaft and gave him a loose pump, watching how he bucked his hips into your fist from just that little bit of touching. Steveâs hands were fisted in the blankets on the bed, like he was holding himself back from touching you, and you decided you want to make the manâyour manâlose himself in pleasure, just like heâd done to you.Â
You ducked down and licked the tip of Steveâs cock, humming in delight as the salty, musky taste of his precum burst on your tongue. The vibrations made Steve groan and you hid a self-satisfied smirk against his cock, before refocusing on your task.
You pressed wet, open-mouthed kisses up and down Steveâs shaft, staring up his hard, firm body while he watched you worship his cock. His cheeks were tinged pink, a light sheen of sweat dotting his brow and his eyes were so dark, his pupils blown so wide, they looked like the navy blue night sky on a winter evening.Â
When you ducked down further, taking his balls into your mouth and suckling greedily, Steveâs gaze widened and his cock twitched in your hand.Â
âSunshine,â he rasped, the nickname sounding like a plea for mercy as he groaned loudly. âYa keep sucking my balls and Iâm gonna come way too soon.â
With a smirk, you gave his sensitive sac one last little suckle before letting it fall from your lips, then you licked up the length of his cock.
âCanât have that,â you quipped, shooting him a smug grin. You pressed a kiss to the tip and wrapped your lips around the head, taking him into your mouth and sucking hard enough to make his hips buck up off the bed.Â
Another anguished sound wrenched free from Steveâs lips.Â
âOh fuck,â he moaned as he settled back down, one of his hands coming to rest on the crown of your headânot pushing you down or pulling you away, just holding you like he couldnât help but touch you.Â
For a moment, you focused on Steveâs cock, pulling back before taking him deeper into your mouth, using your tongue to swirl around the head and trace the veins decorating his shaft while your fist stroked him. But when you flicked your gaze up to Steve, you found him watching you with adoration in his eyes.
âYouâre amazing, sunshine,â he rumbled when he noticed he had your attention, one side of his mouth pulling up in a lopsided grin. âYouâre gorgeousâand you look so fucking hot with my cock in your mouth.âÂ
The corners of your mouth flickered in a pleased smile as his praise washed over you, and you closed your eyes, soaking it in. When you opened them again, you redoubled your efforts on Steve, bobbing up and down on his length at a steady pace while you pumped him in your fist.Â
You lost yourself in the pleasure of sucking Steveâs cock, and before long, you could feel yourself growing wet all over again. Your inner walls clenched pathetically around nothing while your mouth was filled with his big dick, but you didnât want to stop.Â
However, before you could make Steve come down your throat, his hands gently gripped your head and he pulled you up off his cock. With his considerable strength, Steve hauled you back up the bed and rolled you over onto your back beneath him, bracing himself on one hand while the other slide between your thighs. He bit off a curse when he felt how wet you were.
âChrist, sunshine, ya got this wet from sucking my cock?â he asked, a note of teasing in his tone that had heat coursing through your body. Before you could respond, though, his mouth found yours for a kiss.Â
You were certain he mustâve been able to taste himself on your tongue, but he didnât seem to care. He was too determined to devour your lips and swallow your moan while he speared you open with two fingers, capturing your cry of pleasure.
âOh god, Steve,â you mumbled against his mouth, your hips rocking into his hand and fucking his fingers. âPlease, I need youâI need you to fuck me.â Your hand was fisted in Steveâs soft hair and you clung to him, your entire being straining to get closer while still taking all the pleasure his fingers offered.
âThank fuckâI need you so goddamned bad, sunshine,â he groaned, easing his fingers from your dripping hole and rolling onto his back so he could reach for something.Â
A moment later, you heard the sound of a wooden drawer snap closed and he rolled back on top of you, the square foil packet of a condom held in his fingers.
âYa wanna do the honors?â he asked, his grin so charming and so like the Steve youâd known for so many years that it took your breath away.Â
But there was a comfort and an ease to the moment because you were there with Steveâyour Steveâand you laughed at his silly offer. You were shaking your head even as you took the packet and tore it open, tossing the foil aside and making quick work of rolling the condom onto his cock.Â
When you were done, you gave the base of his shaft an affectionate squeeze and Steve chuckled, capturing your lips in a kiss while he shifted on top of you, pressing his knees between your legs and spreading your thighs to make room for his big, broad body.Â
You opened happily for him, kissing him back while your legs hooked around the backs of his thighs. Together, you lined your bodies up until Steveâs cock lay heavily against your mound, kissing lazily all the while.
After a moment, Steve broke the kiss, pushing himself up with one hand while the other fisted his hard length and held himself away from the place where you ached for him to fill. He stared deep into your eyes and gave you a serious look, a little bit of anxiety swirling in his gaze.
âAre you sure about this?â he asked, his eyes roving over your face like he was searching for any hidden remnant of hesitance on your partâany sign that you might run, you realized. âBecause Iâve wanted thisâIâve wanted you for so long, that if you tell me tomorrow this was a mistakeâŚâ Steve paused, his adamâs apple bobbing in his throat as he swallowed, âitâll break my fucking heart, sunshine.â
Steveâs voice cracked a little on the pet name and it made your heart split open in your chest. You didnât know if youâd ever forgive yourself for hurting Steve the way you did, for saying those things you didnât mean and trying to push him away when all youâd wanted was to pull him closer.Â
You decided then and there to make it up to himâand that began with being honest with him. Always.Â
So you threaded your fingers into Steveâs beard until you were cupping his face and you stared him directly in the eye as you answered his question.Â
âIâm sure, Steve,â you said firmly, certainty resonating in your tone. âI was scared beforeâIâve wanted you for so long that the thought of finally having you was terrifying.â You gave him a tremulous, apologetic smile, and his expression softened. âBut Iâm sure about this,â you said again, your voice stronger. âIâm sure about you, and Iâm sure about us.â
When you finished your confession, Steveâs eyes closed and he exhaled a long, relieved breath. You pulled him down for a kiss, and it was a gentle thingâtentative as you both savored the vulnerability you shared, physically and emotionally, thanking one another for the trust that took.Â
It was only when the kiss ended and Steve pressed his forehead to yours that he pushed inside you for the first time, his thick cock sinking deep into your pussy with one determined, inexorable thrust.Â
Your arms and legs were wrapped around him already and you clung to Steve as you cried out, tears of emotion pricking at the backs of your eyes even as pleasure radiated through your body.
âYou ok?â Steve asked softly and the questionâso gentle and genuineâhad a tear spilling onto your cheek. He brushed it away.Â
âThis is the happiest Iâve ever been,â you admitted in a thick voice, tugging Steveâs mouth back to yours, kissing him deeply.Â
Together, you gave yourselves over to your instincts. Steve pulled his hips back until only half of him remained inside, and your heels dug into the backs of his thighs, urging him to plunge deep into you again. He slid home, and both of you moaned.Â
Steve rocked into you with slow, thorough thrusts, but when you moaned for more, he drew back more each time and thrust harder. It wasnât long before he was fucking you in hard, deep strokes that hit all the most perfect spots inside you, his mouth kissing your cheeks and neck and anywhere he could reach while he held you pinned to his chest, his hips working his cock deep into your cunt.Â
With every hard thrust, you clung more tightly to Steve, holding him with your arms wrapped around his shoulders, fingers buried in his hair, thankful heâd grown it long enough that you could grip it tight in your fists. Your body writhed beneath his bigger form, using your legs draped around his thighs to meet his thrusts.Â
For what seemed like forever, you and Steve were nothing more than two writhing bodies trying to get closer, deeper, tighter together, like your hearts were straining to become one. And you were so consumed with pleasure that it wasnât until you were right on the precipice of your release that you realized you were close.
âSteve,â you gasped, trying to tell him you were going to come, and just then he changed the angle of his hips, stealing the words from your lips.Â
He was driving his cock so deep into your cunt and grinding against your clit so exquistiely that you saw stars. Your body shook under a deluge of pleasure and the coil of tension twisted tighter in your core.
âCome for me, sunshine,â Steve rumbled, fucking you hard and deep and so perfectly you knew you were forever ruined for any other man. âBe a good girl and come on my cock before I fucking explode.â
His filthy words were your undoing.Â
You shattered apart, sharp, sparkling pleasure devastating your body and mind while you screamed Steveâs name as you came. Your whole body clenched tight, clamping down on Steveâs cock hard enough that he grunted into your neck, then you succumbed to the pleasure as it dragged you under its thrall, whimpers and moans spilling from your lips mindlessly.
Steveâs hands gripped your hips tightly, and he rutted into your clenching pussy with wild thrusts as he chased his own release. He found it only a moment after yours, groaning your name against your cheek while his hips stuttered and shunted forward, burying himself balls-deep in your fluttering pussy while he came, his cock throbbing deep in your cunt.Â
You held each other close as you came down from your releases. Your fingers stroked through Steveâs soft hair, the strands damp with sweat, and twirled around the gently curling ends. Meanwhile, his hands were petting up and down your sides, his face buried in the pillow beside your head while he rumbled muffled words of praise in your ear.Â
Eventually, Steve sat up, pulling his softening cock as gently from your body as he could manage, watching your face closely for any hint of pain. You were a little sore, but when he pulled free, your body mourned the loss of him more than anything else.Â
He quickly disposed of the condom and wrapper in his bathroom, then came back with a warm wet washcloth. He cleaned you up with gentle caresses, pressing a kiss to your hip and nipping playfully at your belly until you were giggling and pushing him away, your body too tired and sated and oversensitive for such treatmentâbut you were grinning all the same.
When he was done, you rose from the bed and went to the bathroom while he padded to his dresser. After you were done, you found Steve relaxing on his bed in only a pair of lounge pants, his chiseled chest deliciously bare and biceps bulging with his hands tucked behind his head.Â
You paused, raking your eyes over his gorgeous chest, only catching his gaze when he made a deep, rumbling sound of good-natured warning.Â
âYou better put on some pajamas, sunshine,â Steve started, his blue eyes heated and a playful smile flickering at the edges of his mouth, almost hidden by his beard. âUnless you want me to fuck you again.âÂ
The threat in his tone was flirtatious and you almost took him up on the offer. But you knew that if Steve fucked you again, youâd be sore the next day, and you didnât want that. Huffing a petulant sigh, you moved to the pile of folded clothes Steve had left on the corner of the bed.
The heat in Steveâs eyes didnât abate as he watched you pull one of his shirts over your head, tugging the hem down until it covered your ass and part of your thigh. You didnât have any clean panties, so you crawled into bed like that, your eyes finding Steve and watching as the heat of desire softened into the warmth of affection.
The two of you slid beneath the blankets and you curled up at Steveâs side, your head on his chest. You fell asleep quickly and easily to the sound of his gentle breathing, and the steady drumming of his heart beating beneath your cheek.Â
The next morning, you woke to snow flurries drifting past the windows of Steveâs bedroom, the flakes having covered his neighborhood in a blanket of white while you slept. You pressed a happy smile against Steveâs sternum, the expression deepening when you felt his heart skip a beat at your closeness.
âSo, is my bed comfy enough for you, sunshine?â he asked in the deep rasp of a man whoâd just woken up. Using his arms looped around your waist, he pulled you on top of him, his mouth finding yours for a decadent good morning kiss before he let you answer.
âHmm,â you hummed playfully in thought, smiling against his mouth while you pulled him closer with your fingers curled into the scruffy, coarse hair of his beard. âIt could use a few more pillowsâand maybe a nice throw blanket.â
âConsider it done,â he murmured, rolling you beneath his broad body and sliding his hips between your thighs. His morning wood brushed against your bare core and you moaned into his mouth. âAnything you want, you just tell me, sunshine,â he rumbled in between slow, drugging kisses, his hips rolling leisurely against you. âI want my girlfriend to feel comfortable here.â
âGirlfriend?â you gasped breathlessly, your heart beating harder with excitement while he pulled away to kiss down your neck. You could feel Steveâs grin against the side of your throat before he pressed a kiss against your thrumming pulse.Â
âYou wanna be my girlfriend, donât ya, sunshine?â he asked.Â
It was only because youâd known Steve for so long, and were so determined never to hurt him again, that you heard the tiny thread of anxiety in his tone. You squeezed him tightly in your arms and rushed to answer, eager to put his worry to rest.
âYes!â you cried happily. âYes, I want to be your girlfriend, Steve.â You twisted your fingers in his soft hair and tugged his mouth up from your neck. âNow kiss me, boyfriend,â you murmured and Steve, obligingly, crushed his mouth to yours in a blissful kiss.Â
You and Steve reveled in your new relationship, spending a long time in bed just kissing and exploring each other and making up for lost time before your growling stomachs finally made you get up.
After breakfast, Steve seemed to remember something and he padded to the entryway, coming back with the box heâd acquired at the holiday market the evening before. He handed it to you, saying there was no way heâd be able to wait until Christmas to give it to you.
You opened the present, finding a simple silver chain and a stunningly engraved sun pendant within. You were so overwhelmed with happiness that tears sprang to your eyes and you had to hastily wipe them away.
âA little bit of sunshine for my sunshine,â Steve murmured against your temple before pressing a kiss to your skin.Â
At your insistence, he helped you put the necklace on and you thanked him graciouslyâwith words and kisses. Then you towed Steve back to bed, and the two of you gave in to the pleasure of your bodies until you collapsed, sated once again.
All day, you couldnât stop smiling. You were doing one of your favorite things, snuggling on a snowy day, with one of your favorite people in the worldâyour boyfriend. And you were making plans for the future, talking about what you were going to get your other friends for Christmas and arguing about how to best decorate Steveâs apartment for the holiday.Â
The whole time, you couldnât help but think about how Christmas would always be extra special for you from that year on. It was a wonderful holiday but, more importantly to you, it was when you and Steve Rogers finally admitted your feelings for one another and took the first step toward a forever together.Â
So, this time of year would always be your favorite time of year.
december daze challenge masterlist
#steve rogers#steve rogers fanfiction#steve rogers smut#steve rogers x reader#steve rogers x you#navy and roo's sleepover#steve rogers fic#steve rogers fanfic#steve rogers au#steve rogers imagine#steve rogers one shot#chris evans#chris evans fanfiction#chris evans characters#chris evans smut#witchywithwhiskeywork#december daze#friends to lovers
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leech parents when they were younger
blurbs down below!
so i started thinking about my headcanon that they were rivals when they were younger, which just made me start conceptualizing what they were like.
-iâve heard that yana said jade was originally supposed to be more âpunk-likeâ, and i was like⌠damn. itâs be fucking sick if mama leech was a punk. not sure if i had a great delivery of it, iâm not aware much of punk or goth or alternative fashion đ
but i tried
-also, i know it logically doesnât make sense for them to be in human form when they were young, they were likely just in the ocean all the time..but i just like drawing them in different clothes 𼚠its so fun
-mama leech used to be more openly terrifying, sheâs just better at hiding it now ^^
-papa leech was a thot lol, playboy vibes
-bandages are from their fights, they got fucking into it. one glance of disdain and one of them immediately said, âyou wanna fucking go?â
-if you told either of them back then that theyâd be madly in love for the rest of their lives and have twins, theyâd laugh at you hysterically and then jump you
-but if anyone else started talking shit about the other person near them, thinking it was alright⌠well, itâs an immediate reaction of, âwho the hell do you think you are? you think you can talk shit now?â (theyâve been in love a long time ago, they just didnât know it lol)
-they hated each other, but were still fairly respectful of each other. name calling never went too far
list of some of the names:
-baldy (âthe silver is fucking geneticâ)
-gwen-wannabe
-fishbrain (âitâs birdbrain you dumbassâ)
-stinky (a classic)
âââ
-but of the two papa leech was definitely the kinder soul. heâs lost count of how many times sheâs kicked him in the balls
-anything involving each other was a competition. chess? they currently have had 1069 matches with each other. running? theyâre training everyday at 3 in the morning. boxing? theyâve each lost a couple of teeth that have grown back. baking? treyâs parents are tired of comparing 6 cakes a day
-theyâre still fiercely competitive with each other to this day. however, nowadays, theyâll say âsorry, honeyâ while tripping the other person in a race
-papa leech knew that heâs fallen for her faster than she knew. after theyâve been 3 weeks in, cuddling, kissing, holding hands, theyâre sitting at home (they had to sneak into the house) watching a movie together. she turned to him asking, âsoâŚare we friends? is this what friends do?â to which he followed up by laughing himself to tears for 30 minutes straight
anywayys as always, sorry for the long tangent :,) i really love characterizing them, and i hope you guys enjoy the headcanons n blurbs <3
#twst#twisted wonderland#my art#octavinelle#jade leech#floyd leech#leech parents#leech dad#leech mom
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Prompt to a request (if it is okay) đŤś
Agatha and innocent fem reader+ corruption kink
Reader hasn't even had her first kiss and Agatha teaches her how to tongue kiss and so much more(fingering and magic strap)
Breeding kink as well plsss
Neighborly Desires
Paring: Dark!Agatha Harkness x reader
Summary: You had recently moved into Westview. Your mother had passed away and you wanted a new start in a small town. Agatha was your neighbor there and she didnât waste any time welcoming you into town. She thought you were so adorable and so innocentâŚshe wanted to be the one to corrupt you. She needed to be patient, careful, and precise.
Warnings; dubcon, corruption kink, enchanted strap, fingering, mommy kink, cunnilingus (r receiving), breeding kink, dummification.
Word Count: 3.7k
A/n: This request has been sitting in my inbox since DECEMBER of 2023âŚI am extremely sorry but I hope this makes up for it. đ
You had recently moved into Westview. Your mother had passed away and you wanted a new start in a small town. Agatha was your neighbor there and she didnât waste any time welcoming you into town. She watched you struggle to carry the boxes back and forth from your car to your living room and grinned. You were wearing a cute little pink dress and she couldnât help herself.
âHiya hon! Do you need some help with that?â You heard a friendly voice from behind you. You swiftly turned around to look at the woman, almost dropping the boxes.
âCareful, there, sweetheart. We donât want you hurting yourself,â Agatha chuckled, taking a box from you.
âT-thank you,â you blushed, slightly embarrassed at your clumsiness. She helped you put the boxes inside your house before turning towards you.
âIâm Agatha, your neighbor to the right,â she smiled at you kindly, stretching her hand out for you to shake.
âIâm Y/n,â you shook her hand, longer than intended, âAnd thank you so much for helping me with those boxes. Would you like something to drink?â You offered not knowing what else to say, fidgeting with your hands.
âY/n...â she tasted your name on her tongue, âWhat a beautiful name for a beautiful girl. Tea would be wonderful.â
âAlright, just give me a second until I find my cups,â you chuckled nervously and disappeared into your kitchen. Agatha walked to your living room and sat down. She thought you were so adorable and so innocentâŚshe wanted to be the one to corrupt you. She waited patiently for you to finish up, thinking of all the things she had planned for you.
âIâm so sorry! I completely forgot where I packed everything. I would forget my head if it wasnât attached to my body,â you joked as you handed Agatha her tea.
âThank you, hon,â she took a sip, âSo, what brings you here?â She asked, curious on how a girl like you ended up in this shitty town.
âWell this was my motherâs home and she passed away a few weeks ago so decided to move in.â
âIâm so sorry for your loss,â she held your hand, gently running her thumb over your knuckles.
âNo, itâs okay. We werenât really close and I wanted a new start.â
âWell if you ever need anything donât hesitate to knock on my door, alright sweetheart?â
âY-yeah,â you blushed at the nickname and she grinned. You two talked for a little while longer before you bid her goodbye and continued unpacking your things. Agatha walked home with a smirk on her face. You were too cute for your own good and she knew she was going to have fun with you. The fact that you were alone in this town was a bonus.
Days passed, and her visits became more frequent, her presence becoming very comforting. Somehow many things started to break inside your home and Agatha always seemed to be there to help. She was slowly gaining your trust and finding how truly innocent you were. You hadnât even had a boyfriend before, how adorable could you possibly get? Yet beneath her warmth and sweet reassurances, a cunning plan took shape. She needed to be patient, careful, and precise.
Agatha now stood next to you in your kitchen. She had offered to help you cook dinner with the excuse she didnât want you to eat all alone. She made sure to put her hands on your waist and press her front against your ass every time she walked past you. You, of course, didnât think anything of this, too oblivious to think badly of Agathaâs touchy behavior. She couldnât help but tease you a little more. She leaned in close to your ear and whispered.
âYouâre doing great, sweetheart.â
âT-thank youâŚâ you tried to hide your flushed face and she chuckled.
âWhy donât you go clean up while I make the table?â Agatha said as you were finishing up.
âOkay!â You obediently took your apron off and started walking to your bathroom to clean up.
âGood girl~,â she said under her breath but just loud enough for you to hear, making you flush once again.
You quickly went in, washed your hands, and fixed your hair. While you were in the bathroom, Agatha debated whether or not she should put a spell on you so she could take you right then and there but she wanted to take her time with you. By the time you walked out, Agatha had the table set up beautifully. There were candles and rose petals on the table. It was almost like a romantic dinner. How did she do this so quickly?
âAgatha, this looks beautiful.â
âJust like you,â she complimented you, booping your nose.
âThank you, Aggie.â You recently started calling her that. Agatha didnât seem to mind the newfound nickname, in fact, she loved it.
âOf course, darling.â She pulled out your chair and gestured for you to sit down. She was such a gentleman. You were completely oblivious to her true intentions.
You both sat down and ate dinner. Agatha asked you all kinds of questions, she wanted to know every little detail about you. What made you blush, what made you upset, what made you cry, what made you break. You answered all the questions, not thinking anything of it, and asked some yourself. You liked Agatha, more than you actually thought. God, you were so naive.
Eventually, you both finished eating dinner and she helped you clean the dishes. She always found a way to touch you even if it was just touching your hand when you passed her a plate or spoon to dry off. She saw the slight tint on your cheeks when she did.
"We should do this more often, donât you think?â Agatha asked, her voice carrying a hint of something you couldn't quite place.
âI would love that!â You said happily. Agatha smiled, her eyes seemed to glint in the candlelight. After you were done doing the dishes Agatha started gathering her things to go home but you stopped her.
âCan you stay and watch a movie with me?â You asked, not wanting for her to leave yet.
âI think itâs a bit late, sweetheart,â she said, wanting to hear you beg for her to stay.
âPretty please?â You grabbed her hands in your, caressing her knuckles with your thumbs, giving her your best puppy eyes. Agatha pretended to think about it, a sly smirk on her face. You were just so cute, how could she possibly say no to you?
ââŚfine, Iâll stay, but not too late. You need to go to bed soon, deal?â
âDeal!â you said, excitedly, pulling her towards your couch. She sat back while you picked the movie, settling for Tangled, it was your favorite comfort movie. After you started playing the movie, you sat next to Agatha, subconsciously snuggling to her side. She smiled as you snuggled against her. Her arm wrapped around your shoulders, pulling you closer to her.
âIs this your favorite movie, sweetheart?â
âMhm!â
âWhoâs your favorite character?â Agatha asked, combing through your hair.
âMother Gothel,â you mumbled.
âMother Gothel, huh?â she raised an eyebrow, âWhy her? Sheâs the villain of the story.â
âI donât knowâŚâ you frowned slightly, âI just like her character I guessâŚâ
âHmm. If I were Mother Gothel and I kidnapped you into my tower, what would you do?â she half joked.
âI would never leave.â You smiled at her. Agatha was very pleased with your answer and pulled you closer.
The movie went on and by the time it was over, you were fast asleep on Agathaâs shoulder. You looked so peaceful, so vulnerable, Agatha wanted to take you right then and there but no, she had to hold herself back. She picked you up and carried you to your bedroom, gently placing you on your bed. She tucked you in before leaning into your ear.
âYou will be mine.â Was all she said before leaving to go back home.
â
Over the passing weeks you had gotten attached to Agatha, almost obsessively. Maybe it was her caring nature or your mommy issues coming to bite you in the ass. You were sitting on your couch with Agatha once again. She had picked the movie this time, telling you it was a surprise. She started playing the movie and you soon found out it was titled Carol. You had never seen it before but curled into Agathaâs side, wanting to feel her warmth.
The movie was good and all until the motel scene. Watching as Carol and Therese started kissing and touching each other made your core feel warm. Agatha noticed the way you were trying to hide your flushed face and how your thighs clenched together and smirked. She had you exactly where she wanted you.
âWhatâs wrong, baby? Are you cold?â she asked, pulling you closer, placing her hand on your thigh.
âIâm f-fine,â you stuttered out, unconvincing. She chuckled and gently started rubbing your thigh. Her touch was so warm and comforting, it made you want to melt against her. She moved even closer, cupping your face to make you look at her.
âYouâre trembling, sweetheart. Are you sure youâre fine?â
âI-â you realized how close your faces were, noses almost touching, âAggie-â she finally crashed her lips against yours. You closed your eyes, savoring how soft her lips were until you pulled away, looking away from her. She smirked at your reaction, enjoying how flustered you were. She gently turned your face to look at her again.
âSweetheart? Did you not like it?â
âNo! I loved it, it's just thatâŚI donât know how toâŚâ you trailed off, embarrassed.
âAw, such a dumb baby,â she cupped your face, âYouâre so naive and innocent you donât even know how to kiss. How cute.â
âWha-â She pressed her finger against your lips, shutting you up and brushed a strand of hair behind your ear.
âJust follow my lead. I promise you will love it,â you hesitantly nodded and she kissed you again, this time moving her lips against yours and you did the same. She poked her tongue between your lips and you opened your mouth to let her in. You did your best, following her lead and moving your lips and tongue like her. Agatha moved her hand to squeeze your thighs, sliding them closer to your soaked core making you squeal and pull away.
âAgatha I donât think-â
âShh,â she pulled you into her lap, your thighs on either side of her legs, âLet mommy do the thinking.â You frowned slightly at her comment but then she pressed her fingers against the wet patch on your panties, making you lose any train of thought you had.
âYouâre so wet baby,â she started rubbing her fingers over your clothed clit, âIs that all for me?â she asked, her other hand gripping onto your hip.
âHmphâŚâ You unconsciously moved your hips against her hand.
âUse your words, sweetheart,â she commanded, pressing harder against your clit, the pressure sending a wave of pleasure through your body.
âYesâŚâ
âThatâs a good girl.â She growled, moving your panties aside to touch your bare core directly, her fingers sliding between your folds. You gasped at the new feeling. You had never felt like this before. Youâve never touched yourself let alone have sex.
âSo innocentâŚâ She said before shoving two fingers inside of you. You were so tight, so warm, so wet for her. She pumped her fingers in and out of you, rubbing your clit with her thumb.
âSuch a good girl for mommy.â She praised you.
âAggie-â you clung to her, wrapping your arms around her neck while she worked on fucking your with her fingers. Her other hand started to sneak under the thin dress you were wearing, finding that you werenât wearing a bra at all.
âNot wearing a bra?â she pinched your nipple, âWhat a naughty girlâŚâ You whimpered in response, making her chuckle. She pinched your nipple again, she started biting your neck leaving a trail of marks on your skin. She added a third finger, her thumb circling your clit faster than before and then suddenly stopped.
âWhyâd you stop?â You whined desperately.
âSuch a needy girl,â she picked you up like you weighed nothing and carried you upstairs like she had done before. She took you to your bedroom and sat you on your bed.
She took your dress off, throwing it elsewhere and started undressing as well. She took off her pants to reveal the enchanted strap she had been wearing. She smirked as she looked at your surprised expression.
âLike what you see, darling?â She pushed you back against the bed and climbed on top of you, your legs wrapped around her waist.
âW-wait-â You started to hesitate.
âShh, itâs okay baby.â She gently caressed your cheek, looking into your eyes with a soft expression. Her strap was pressing against your core and she started rubbing it against you.
âItâs going to feel so good,â she pressed the tip of the strap into your entrance, âIâll be gentle, okay?â You swallowed the lump in your throat and nodded your head.
She slowly pushed the strap further inside your warm wall, watching as your mouth made an âoâ shape and your brows frowned in pleasure. She let out a low groan as the strap went further inside, your pussy greedily clenching around it. Her eyes roaming over your body, watching every little expression you made.
âThatâs it, baby⌠youâre doing so good. Youâre taking me so well,â she said most out of breath.
âM-mommy-â She almost lost the little control she had left when you finally called her mommy, feeling a rush of pleasure run through her body. God she was going to finally make you hers. Agathaâs grip on your hips tightened as she began to thrust into you, slowly at first, making sure you were comfortable and enjoying it.
âOh, you like calling me that donât you, darling?â She grunted.
âMhm!â You nodded your head. She smirked and began to pick up the pace, thrusting faster and harder into you. She leaned down and began kissing your neck, leaving more marks as she went. Her hands roamed over your body, squeezing and pinching every inch of your skin.
âSuch a good girl, taking mommyâs strap so wellâŚyouâre mine.â Agatha finally said out loud. She continued to ramble on, as she thrusted into you. She grabbed your hands and pinned them above your head, making you completely helpless beneath her.
âNo one else gets to see you like this. Youâre all mine. Fuck- Iâm never letting you go.â Your brain had turned to mush and all you could do was chant a bunch of yeses as she snapped her hips at a brutal pace. Agatha loved how incoherent you were becoming. She loved how easily she could reduce you to a moaning mess. She began to talk to you in a soft voice, praising and mocking you at the same time.
âLook at you. Such a babbling mess. Mommyâs little dumb slut. Isnât that right? All mine?â
âYes! All yours!â Your voice trembled as you got closer to the edge, your orgasm building up.
âThatâs right,â she moved one of her hands from your wrists to your clit, rubbing it in fast circles, âYouâre all mine, and youâre going to cum for me, arenât you?â
You tried to reply but instead let out a loud sob, tears running down your rosy cheeks from the pleasure you felt. Agatha leaned down and kissed your tears away, her movements becoming more frantic as she chased your release.
âCome on, baby. Cum for me. Be a good little slut and cum for mommy.â
Your eyes rolled back and your mouth opened in a silent scream as you fell apart. Agatha moaned as she felt your walls clench around her, sloppily helping you ride out your orgasm as best as she could as she held onto your trembling legs.
âFuck- Iâm going to fill you up nice and full of my cum, baby, youâre going to be all mine.â She came, moaning loudly as she spilled her hot seed deep inside you. She gave you a few more thrust before pulling out, making you whine in protest at how empty you felt. Her hand on your wrists loosened and she looked down at you with a satisfied smirk on her face.
âThere we goâŚGood girl. You did so well for me, baby. So perfect,â she started kissing down your body, âNow mommyâs gonna clean you upâŚâ She finally let go of your wrist, putting your legs together and bending them against your chest, your pussy now completely exposed to her. She used her fingers to spread your pussy lips apart. She watched as her cum leaked out of you and almost moaned at the sight.
âGod look at how messy you areâŚâ she leaned down and ran her tongue over your entrance, licking up her own cum. She lapped at your sensitive core, moaning at the taste of the two of you combined, âYou taste so good, baby.â
You squirmed against her mouth, your pussy already too sensitive. Agatha chuckled and wrapped her arms around your thighs, holding you in place as she continued to eat you out. She was going to make sure you were completely clean.
âStay still, honey. Mommyâs not done with you yet.â
âBut it h-hurts-â She looked up at you with a mocking expression.
âI know it hurts, baby. Thatâs why youâre going to be a good girl and take it, isnât that right?â
She nipped at your inner thigh before diving back down between your legs. You reluctantly nodded, letting her lap over your puffy folds and sucking on your clit. She moaned against your clit, enjoying the taste of your juices. She swirled her tongue around it before sucking on it again, pulling it into her mouth and teasing it with her teeth.
âMmmmâŚthere we go,â she kissed your clit before letting go of your legs, âAll done.â She pulled you into a kiss, shoving her tongue in your mouth, making you taste yourself. You whined against her lips, finding it hard to keep up. She just chuckled and pulled away.
âCome on, baby. Letâs give you a bath.â She started picking and you absolutely melted into her. She set you on the bathroom counter while she filled the bath. You simply watched her as she put bubbles in the bath and made sure the water was at a good temperature.
Once the bath was ready, she gently picked you up and lowered you into the warm water. She sat behind you, letting you lean against her chest. She began washing your body with a soft washcloth, making sure to be extra gentle with you. When she got close to your core, you stiffened slightly, still sensitive from your orgasm and her tongue. She chuckled softly, noticing your reaction.
âAww, is my baby still sensitive?â She pressed her fingers against your clit. You tried to swat her hand away and clench your thighs together but she took your wrist and held them against your chest while using her own legs to keep yours open.
âJust give mommy one more orgasm and weâll be all done, okay?â She said, already playing with your clit, rubbing it in small circles.
âIt hurts mommyâŚâ you mumbled, hiding your face in the crook of her neck.
âI know it hurts, baby. But you can do it,â she continued to tease your clit, rubbing it faster and harder, âDonât you want to make mommy proud?â
âY-yes-â she smiled and rewarded you by letting go of your wrist and wrapping her free hand around your throat, gently squeezing it.
âThatâs my good girl. Keep being good for mommy and Iâll make you feel so good, okay?â The pain finally turned into pleasure and your body pathetically melted to Agathaâs once again. Her grip on your throat tightened slightly making you light headed.
âYouâre so cute when youâre like this, darling. All weak and pathetic. Youâre mine to use however I want, arenât you?â She slipped two fingers inside you, making you mewl like a dog in heat.
âIâm close!â You moaned as she nibbled on your earlobe before whispering in your ear.
âGood. Come for me, baby. Come for mommy one more time and Iâll let you rest.â Your hands clung to the hand that was still tightly wrapped around your neck for dear life as you came again. Agatha grinned, loving the way you clung to her like she was the only thing keeping you alive. How pathetic and adorable.
She kept her hand around your neck, slowly applying pressure as you came. Once you came down from your high, she loosened her grip and rubbed your neck softly, admiring the redness she left behind.
âThatâs my girl. Iâm so proud of you,â she soothed you, combing through your wet hair until the water in the bath became cold. She got out first, getting a towel for you before helping you out.
She gently wrapped you the towel, setting you down on the counter once again to brush the knots out of your hair. Once she was done, she wrapped the towel around you tighter and lifted you, cradling you in her arms like a small child.
âItâs time to go to sleep, my sweet girl. You must be so tired huh?â she sat you down in the bed while she went to get you some pj. She made sure to be quick noticing how droopy your eyes looked. She came back a moment later with some soft, silk pajamas for you. She gently dressed you in them before tucking you into bed, pulling the blankets up to your chin.
âComfortable, Angel?â
âArenât you going to stay, Aggie?â Agatha smiled softly, brushing a strand of hair out of your face.
âOf course, I am, darling. Iâll be right here when you wake up.â
âYou promise?â She leaned down and pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead.
âI promise, sweetheart. Youâre mine, Iâm not going anywhere. Now get some sleep.â
#fanfic#smut#x reader#agatha harkness x reader#agatha harkness#agatha x reader#agatha all along#dark!agatha
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Ruin Me H.S
Summary:Â When the good girl / bad boy trope is just as hypnotic and addictive as everyone says it is OR y/n decides to get Harry's handwriting tattooed on her thigh (badboy/gang LHH trope?)
Warnings:Â Â SMUT!! oral (f receiving), edging, spanking (with hand and belt), hair pulling, squirting, masochism, dom!harry, mocking/degradation, dacryphilia, bondage (with a belt), Injuries (black eye, split lip, gunshot wound & wound cleanup)... I think that's it đ
Word count:Â 13.7k+
Author's note:Â This is loosely and I mean SO loosely inspired by Guilty As Sin by Taylor Swift and yeah I know what that song is about but this is based off literally one line in it... I definitely got carried away with the story hehe
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You never liked the bad boy, good girl narrative. The power imbalance and toxicity that came with someone so ruined and so problematic trying to heal his soul in someone that deserved better. She would always think she could change him, that he was just misunderstood and needed someone to love him. That his soul could be healed.
It was bullshit. Until you found yourself in that exact situation, believing just that. That he was misunderstood and so kind underneath his rough exterior. You even found yourself loving the hidden hookups and midnight cleanups. A knock on your door at all hours in the night to be let in for some charged, desperate fuck or to be fixed up because he got in a fight.Â
You didnât even know how it started, really. Harry was an enigma. A shadow in the wind that appeared one moment and disappeared the next on a dark bike just as mysterious as he was. That was how you met him, in a fleeting moment which at the time meant nothing. Until it meant everything.Â
He drove by the cafe you worked at. You were closing up for the night and locking the door when the loud purr of his bike filled the entire street. You were already on edge being by yourself after the girl closing with you had to leave sick so your head whipped around to follow the loud noise.Â
Thatâs when you saw him for the first time. He drove through the quiet street with a girl on the back of his bike that you had never seen before, both dressed head to toe in dark clothing and leather. They each had a black helmet covering their heads and yet you still knew that they were both looking at you.
It was unnerving and an interaction that had you walking a lot faster to your car in case they circled back and decided to give you trouble. Your town was used to damaged, dangerous shadows. People like Harry who came in for a night or a weekend for something illicit, only to never return.Â
You werenât sure why your small town attracted people like that, but only being a 45-minute drive from the closest big city made it the go-to place for affairs, romantic getaways, illegal meetings and everything in between.
Harry was meant to be like that too. Someone who just passed through. Until he met you.
The very next day he found himself visiting the cafe in hopes you were there. Harry wasnât sure why he felt the need to go there since he was meant to be driving back to the city the morning after his rendezvous, but there was something about your eyes that he couldnât get out of his head.
He didnât even know if youâd be there and yet by some chance or fate, you were. Your back was towards him, busy on barista duty making coffees for the many customers waiting for their orders. He recognised your hair first; pulled back in two long braids down your back. You wore the cafe logo on your t-shirt and this pair of jeans that made your ass look incredible.Â
You had no idea what the mystery man from last night looked like but you spent the night filling in the blanks of what was hidden beneath his helmet. Your brain seemed to be fixated on the stranger with some magical pull like you knew him already. Your body definitely seemed to like him already, thatâs for sure.
âHarry? Americano two sugars.â You called out, sliding the takeaway cup to the edge of the counter before moving on to the next coffee. When the figure approached the counter, you went into your automatic greeting, âhave a nice da-â, but the words got caught in your throat when you looked up and locked eyes with the same stranger last night.Â
You knew it was him instantly. There was no rhyme or reason to explain it, but you knew and he was even more good-looking than you ever couldâve imagined. With piercing green eyes and a strong jaw, plump pink lips and tattoos running up both arms that had your core clenching. The most unexpected feature of all though, was his long luscious curls pulled back from his face and running just past his shoulders.Â
Harry smirked, visibly seeing the wide-eyed, freeze response your body had just at the sight of him. It was a reaction he got often. He was tall and handsome and the dark clothing he wore made him appear far more intimidating than the usual curly-haired white boy.Â
âThank you, love.â He smirked, grabbing the takeaway cup before casually slipping a $100 bill into the tip jar. He was walking out of the cafe without another word, looking at you over his shoulder before he was walking down the street and out of your view.
That night it wasnât just his face you were dreaming about.Â
You never expected to see the handsome stranger, who you now knew as Harry, again but as the weeks went by he came to visit the cafe time and time again. It was always the same order and the same âthank you, loveâ that had your head spinning and then he was gone with no idea of when heâd return again.
Then one day he took things a step further and asked you when your break was. It was the longest you heard him speak and the more words that came out, the more you found yourself hypnotised by the way his mouth wrapped around the syllables. Your coworkers warned you that men like him were dangerous and not worth the excitement and pleasure they always offered.
Time and time again you had helped your friends through some shitty breakup or worse with one of the travellers that rolled through town and you always promised yourself you wouldnât put yourself in a situation like that. It was clear from the very first night that he was trouble but as much as you wanted to keep your distance, you just couldnât.Â
You had never felt so mesmerised by another person before. That initial burning attraction hot enough to take your breath away. In only one sit down with him, you were ready to risk it all. He was so gorgeous and charming and sweet. The epitome of that misunderstood bad boy.
Just like his frequent cafe visits, your lunch breaks soon became his. You two would sit and heâd always ask you about yourself. You did most of the talking and he did most of the listening, never giving much away of himself. Heâd show up with bloody knuckles or a bruised eye but would mask the pain and simply shrug when you asked him if he was okay.
It was starting to feel like he knew everything about you and you knew nothing in return. You wanted to know everything about him. After weeks of these little interactions, he never tried to fuck you or pursue things with you or make you feel like you owed him for all the $100 tips he left. All he wanted to do was talk and if anything, that made you want him more.
Then one night⌠everything changed.
You were woken in the middle of the night by a crash in your living room. That would be scary for anyone, but it was even scarier when you were on the top floor and the only access points to your apartment were the front door and the fire escape out the window.Â
You went into immediate panic mode, snatching the steak knife you had tucked under your pillows between your top sheet and your fitted sheet in case this very thing happened. Living alone had its challenges and one of them was the intense fear someone would break in in the middle of the night. By now you could recognise the sounds of your apartment and building so not every little creak freaked you out, but anyone could recognise the sound of broken glass and your pot plant being knocked over.Â
Sticking the knife out in front of you, you tip-toed out of your bedroom and down the hallway to your living room where the noise came from. Your phone was clutched against your chest, the three-digit emergency number ready to be called in case it wasnât your cat, Mouse, knocking things over. Mouse was a fragile little thing and sometimes got scared by the smallest things. Even setting a mug down on the bench too hard could have her jumping out of her skin.Â
You prayed it was only her being skittish.Â
When you made it to the end of your hallway, you pressed yourself against the wall and tipped your head out ever so slightly to look into your living room. A whole wave of emotions rushed over you at once at the sight. It wasnât your cat, but rather a tall dark figure holding your purring pet.Â
It was a figure you recognised immediately, even with his strong back facing towards you.
âHarry? What the fuck?â You hissed, turning your phone off while turning the lights on at the same time.Â
âHey, bunny.â Harry flashed a sly smile, turning to look at you. You noticed the dried blood on his lip and eyebrow instantly and the swollen ball forming on his cheek. Fucking hell.Â
That smile instantly dropped when his eyes ran over you, taking in the ratty loose t-shirt and tiny underwear you were wearing. The t-shirt had a worn-out collar making it slide down to expose your collarbone and one shoulder. Your nipples were pressing through the thin material, all pebbled and hard from the cold air now blowing in from the window Harry accidentally broke on his way in.Â
Getting dressed was the last thing on your mind before venturing out here and you suddenly regretted not putting pants on at least. To be fucking fair though, you never wouldâve guessed Harry would break in through your window when A. you had a very suitable front door, B. he didnât even have your number and C. you never told him where you lived.Â
âWhat the⌠how do you know where I live?â You asked a little shakily, crossing your arms to cover your chest while still keeping the knife on guard in front of you.
Harry set down Mouse and she immediately ran over to you, purring while sliding her body against your calf. He walked over to you slowly and the closer he got, the worse his injuries appeared. A split lip and split eyebrow and a deep purple hue starting to form around his socket. He looked awful.Â
âAre you going to stab me, bunny?â He drawled, almost mockingly. You stood your ground, trying not to show your shaking as your hand tightened around the handle of the knife. His eyes were dark and he allowed himself a final drag over your body, stepping so close to you that the tip of the knife pressed into his stomach while he towered over you. âGonna cut me open? Give me another scar to add to my collection?â
Even though you knew you should be scared, you werenât. He found your address and broke into your house and yet physically, you werenât the slightest bit worried that heâd hurt you. You knew nothing about him, didnât even know what illegal venture he did for work and yet you trusted him.
Because you trusted him, your shaking was for a very different reason. Having him in your apartment all bloody and bruised and still as handsome as ever had you completely worked up. The thought of⌠of doing just what he teased, of giving him a scar that reminded him of you forever⌠god, it was so fucked up how horny that made you.
You were obsessed over a man who hadnât even kissed you, yet knew every single thing about you. It was ridiculous. That felt even more ridiculous than playing off this entire interaction as a somewhat normal experience.Â
âIâve got a perfectly fine front door, yâknow.â You whispered, looking over to the broken window. You kept your knife against his stomach, even testing the waters by pressing it harder ever so gently into the toned muscles beneath his shirt. âAnd youâre paying for that to be fixed, by the way.âÂ
Harry laughed, wincing ever so slightly at the tinge of pain in his face. But still, he laughed. And it was golden. âIâll pay for whatever you want,â He murmured, smirking while looking down at the knife. âIâm sure youâre very skilled with a blade, bunny, but will you put it aside for now and clean me up instead? Need a pretty girl to make me feel better.â
You looked between your knife and his eyes, reluctantly dropping your hand beside your hip. âCome on.â
Saying nothing else, you spun around and walked into your bathroom. Harry followed closely behind, looking around your apartment with curiosity before his eyes fell on you. You pulled your t-shirt down as far as it would go, but it still rode up as you walked and he found himself unable to look anywhere else.
âSit.â You pointed to the closed toilet and set your knife down on the bench, crouching down to get the first aid kit from the cabinet below the sink.
Harry did as told and shrugged his leather jacket off, setting it down on the bench before sitting on the closed toilet lid. He watched you intently, saying nothing as you set up your tools to sanitise and clean his wounds.Â
After grabbing some gauze and betadine to clean the open wounds, you soaked the material and started to clean the small gash on his eyebrow. Harry kept completely still, barely feeling the pinch. Your touch was so soft, so gentle. He found it more relaxing than anything else. Once that wound was clean, you moved onto his mouth which Harry found a lot more sensitive.Â
âSo how did this happen?â you asked softly, dabbing his lip with the small cloth. His eyes closed as he tensed, hands fisting on his knees to stop himself from getting too worked up. Pain didnât affect Harry, at least not in a normal way. Every sting and bite at your hand was turning him on in an inappropriate way. You were his bunny, his girl. He couldnât get hard around you when all you were trying to do was help him.Â
âOh, yâknow...â He shrugged, keeping his eyes on you but not giving anything away.
âI donât, actually.â You responded.Â
âIt doesnât matter how it happened, just that Iâve got a pretty girl fixing me up.â He attempted to smooth it over with a soft smile and a loving tap on your chin. It was the most he ever touched you, a little tap on your chin or a graze of his fingers on your cheek. He never touched your knee or your hand or anywhere else. It was infuriating.Â
âIt does! You show up here in the middle of the night and break in. I donât even know how you found my address but Iâm cleaning your cuts and you wonât even tell me how you got them. How is that fair!? I know nothing about you Harry.â Your voice bordered on a sigh and a yell, exhausted with him showing up out of nowhere and charming you before disappearing again. You werenât sure what to make of it and he wasnât giving you any ideas on what he actually wanted from you.
âItâs better that way, y/n.â He looked away from you, leaning back so your fingers werenât holding his chin anymore to keep him in position. âYou donât want to get involved with me.â
âThatâs not fair and you know it. You show up constantly and-and what? Have lunch with me? Get to know me? You canât do that and not expect me to want to know something back.â You expressed frustratingly, shoving the first aid items into the small bin beside your cabinet.Â
âI want to keep you safe, y/n.â He stood from the toilet, sighing when you refused to look at him. âThe less you know about me, the safer youâll be.â
âSo why do you even keep coming back if you donât want me involved with you? Itâs killing me!â You snapped, looking up at him accusatorily.Â
âBecause I canât stay away from you.â He whispered, sliding his hand over the side of your neck. Your breath hitched at the touch, your body automatically leaning into it as he rubbed his thumb over your jaw and towards your mouth. Oh. âIâm so fucking obsessed with you itâs unhealthy. I think about you all the time. All the fucking time, y/n.â
âI donât know what you want from me.â Tears pricked at your eyes, âyouâre so confusing Harry because you look at me like that and say things but you donât even touch me. You havenât kissed me or-or anything. Just tell me what you want from me so I know where to set my expectations.â
âYou think I donât want to kiss you?â He cocked his head, turning your bodies so your back was to the basin. His hand looped to the front of your neck and it was like every cell in your body suddenly put their focus onto him. You couldnât breathe or think or move or anything. Not when his large ringed fingers were wrapped around your neck like he was carrying a trophy. A prize to claim. âYou think I donât want to touch you?â
Harry pressed his hips into you, eliciting a gasp when you felt his long, hard cock pressed against you. He used his hips to nudge you against the cabinet, pinning you there so you couldnât go anywhere. âAll I think about is kissing you. Kissing your lips and your neck and⌠everywhere. The things I want to do to you y/n are so unsavoury your pretty little head would explode.â
He always thought you were this pure⌠innocent angel. One of the rare people in the world with no ill intentions. You were polite and sweet, even after Harry significantly brought you out of your shell since he met you. You were studying to be a nurse for Christâs sake, some of the purest of the pure.
He wanted to ruin you. He wanted to take that innocence away more than anything on this planet. It was his built-in fucked up default program. To want what he couldnât have. To want to destroy everything around him.Â
But he couldnât do that to you. The last thing he wanted was to hurt you, even if it hurt him in the process. Harry had no light in his life, no hope until he met you and he knew that the moment this became real he would destroy you. His life would destroy you or Harry would do something to fuck it all up and heâd hurt you.
Heâd break your heart.Â
âIt wonât.â You rushed out, âIt wonât explode. I⌠I want it.â You could barely articulate yourself. Not when his whole body was pressed to yours. All you had been thinking of for months was having him completely dominate your body. Just to touch you and please you. Even if it was only one time before he disappeared from your life forever.
You needed it.
âIâll ruin you.â He promised, leaning in closer so his nose bumped against yours. He breathed out a ragged breath, feeling so close to completely giving in to his desires. All of them. âIâll destroy every good thing about you, y/n. You donât want that.â
The scariest part of all⌠was that you did want it. You were becoming the exact person you didnât want to be. A good girl sacrificing herself to save the soul of someone who might never be saved. But you believed Harry would be saved. You could fix him. Help him to get away from whatever life he lived that made him hurt so badly inside.Â
You wanted to save him.Â
âI do. I do want it.â You nodded desperately, grabbing his other hand to guide it towards your clothed mound. You pressed your hand over his, using your own fingers to press his against the silky wet patch on the crotch of your underwear. He swore under his breath, taking the initiative to stroke his fingers along the wet material. âRuin me. Please.â
So he did.
He ruined you over and over again that night and for many nights after. It completely changed everything for you two. Like it was the last barrier stopping you two from being completely open with each other. You had always told him the things you told everyone else. Your likes and dislikes, the show you were watching, your workplace drama.
But your desires⌠your needs and wants. They were reserved for no one but yourself. Until he came along.Â
Harry told you heâd ruin you and he stuck to his word. The things you did together were dirty and depraved and left you with such a feral need for the man, you wouldâve let him do quite literally anything to you. As would he, you. And you practically had. Every desire or curiosity was sated and he was willing to do anything to satisfy you.Â
Harry became as violently obsessed with you as you did him and even though it was a hell of a trip to see you, he did so as often as possible. He couldnât help himself. Not when he had such a pretty girl waiting to please him and take care of his heart, body and soul. You filled the hole in his life in all aspects, which is what he feared would happen when he saw you that very first night.Â
Someone so magnetic would ruin him and he was enjoying every moment of it.Â
You had no idea he traveled from the main city just to see you until you two started sleeping together. He continued stopping by for a coffee or to disturb your lunch break but very quickly, your time spent together turned into an after hours activity. Heâd come to get fixed up and then heâd ruin you. Or⌠his sole intention was to ruin you all along.Â
There were many sleepless nights because of him. Not that you minded. He opened up to you more and told you more about himself and what he did. When you started to learn small things, you realised that he was probably right in you being better off left in the dark. It was a lot more elaborate than you couldâve imagined and it made sense why he did so much to keep you protected.Â
Running an elaborate drug smuggling operation wasnât exactly the safest job out there, nor did it give you much opportunity to switch careers. Somehow, though, you werenât deterred by it. Maybe it was because you were already in love with him the second he ruined you for the first time.Â
His high job security didnât stop you from fantasising about a different life with him. Harry leaving that life for you. The only part of the job Harry liked was the financial stability and the power. The control he had. But you felt like Harry was destined for so much more, that he could live a much happier, safer life. With you.Â
âHave you ever thought about running away?â You asked, playing with his long hair. It was unruly and sweaty and you were threading your fingers through the knots formed from the midnight hookup. You were still hot and sweaty too, but Harry quite liked the sticky feeling of your skin and the lingering scent of sex in the air.Â
âRunning away? I couldnât.â Harry breathed through a laugh like it was unfathomable. âYou couldnât either.â He looked up from his work, reaching for your hand to bring it to your mouth to kiss your knuckles. âYouâll be a nurse soon and youâve always had your heart set on Mercy. Youâll get a job there and itâll be everything you want.â He smiled softly, guiding your hand back to his hair so youâd play for it while he finished the artwork on your upper thigh.Â
The thin marker was steady in his hand and he only had one letter left before the piece was complete, not that four letters took a particularly long time to write. But he wanted it to be perfect, for the permanent marker to last as long as possible on your pretty skin. Youâd never do it permanently, after all you were still his good girl and no good girl would be as rogue as to get her lover's handwriting tattooed on her thigh after only a few months. Or ever. Permanent marker and baby powder always did the trick to make a design last a while, though, and Harry hoped it would still be there the next time he snuck through your window.Â
âI want you, Harry.â You whispered, finding his concentration both adorable and so damn sexy you were getting all worked up again. If he looked a little to the left to where your bare cunt was so so close to his fingers, heâd probably be able to tell too. âAnd the good thing about being a nurse is I can do it anywhere. I canâŚâ you swallowed your nerves, unsure what his reaction would be to your suggestion. âI can work anywhere and-â
âIt wouldnât work, y/n.â He interrupted curtly, leaning back to observe his work while putting the cap back onto his pen. Harry rarely used your name, he was too fond of his pet name for you. âYou will always be mine. Always. But I think we both know that what we have is temporary.â Your heart broke at his words and you felt the pain fizzle through your body like a burning liquid. He looked up at you as he blew on the temporary tattoo. âWhen I inevitably break your heart, bunny, youâll move on and find someone who can love you the way you deserve. Iâll never move on from you, but you will and youâll be happier for it.â
âThatâs not true.â You all but whimpered. Harry ignored your plea, tapping against your skin to test whether the marker was dry. âYou always say that youâll break my heart, Harry but thatâs not true.â He looked up at you for a moment, trying to hide the heartbreak he felt at seeing how sad you were. Grabbing the little bottle of baby powder, he sprinkled it over the little word, massaging the surrounding area of your leg. âI⌠I love you and I know you love me. If you loved me you wouldnât hurt me.âÂ
âBunny, I love you more than anything else on this planet.â He assured, shifting up onto his knees in all his naked glory. He spread his hands over your belly, rubbing his thumbs a little harder into your skin. âI would never do anything to hurt you but this life⌠it follows me wherever I go. Thereâll be a time where I need to sacrifice my love and happiness to protect you. But youâll always be mine. Until the day I die.â He smiled softly, looking back down to the pile of powder on your upper thigh. He ran his thumb over it, rubbing away from the white substance and leaving the matte four-letter word.Â
Mine.Â
âSee?â He smirked, looking down at the âtattooâ, âI canât promise you forever, bunny. But I can promise you that Iâll be yours at least until this fades. Who knows what could happen by then.â
You sat up, pressing your hands behind you on the bed for balance as you looked at his artwork. There was something so sexy about being branded like that, even if it was temporary. Your otherwise empty skin now looked complete with his mark there. In his handwriting.Â
What other sign could be more clear that you belonged to him than his handwriting on your thigh stating just that?Â
âI love it.â You whispered, tracing over the cursive letters. âWill you be back?â You settled on asking, pausing for a moment, âbefore the tattoo fades?âÂ
That was one thing that troubled you about your relationship with Harry. The fact that you never knew when youâd see him again. You both openly professed your love and obsession for each other and yet you didnât go on dates or text or call. Harry just showed up.Â
He told you it was to keep you safe. It was the very same reason he snuck through your window instead of knocking on your front door. There was less chance of anyone finding out about you. Whoever âanyoneâ was.Â
Harry nodded. âI should be. Iâve got a job this weekend though so it might not be for a little longer than usual.â He plastered a soft smile on his face to calm you and reached out to cup your face. âBetter make sure itâs still here when I get back. Okay, bunny? Unless you want me to mark it on your skin another way.â That smile tilted to a smirk, promising you foreplay that both of you knew would have you begging him for release.Â
This time you nodded, âIâll be good fâyou.âÂ
Shit.Â
âGood girl, Princess.â Harry cooed, looking down briefly at his own cock, already hardening even after filling your mouth and pussy with his cum. He couldnât help it really. Not when your naked body was so gorgeous and now marked with his handwriting. ânow câmere.âÂ
You smiled, shifting up on your knees to join him halfway in a searing kiss. It was nearly 2 am already but you knew that you wouldnât get any sleep at all.Â
The days that followed were restless. You kept looking at those four letters on your thigh and thinking of all the things you had and hadnât done together. The many trysts you shared with hushed conversations and messy top lip kisses. How his hands felt on your body and his lips on your skin.Â
You had no idea how long it would be before he came to the cafe or broke into your apartment again. There was no word from him or rumour that he was passing through town. The shadows that liked to drift in and out became known the moment they visited more than once and Harry⌠well he had become a regular now.Â
The next time Harry snuck into your apartment, bordering on an entire week after he wrote âmineâ on your upper thigh, you were ready. You werenât sure why you knew because sometimes you had no idea until you felt his presence in your bed. Mouse didnât even meow or run in fear when he entered through the window anymore, making his entrance sometimes as silent as wind whistling through an empty street.Â
But tonight⌠you knew.Â
There was a shift in the room temperature and a lingering scent of tobacco in the air that had your core clenching just at the thought of him visiting you. Of him seeing the surprise you had for him. It was all in your head of course, a delusion brought on by obsession. Still⌠you knew.Â
And just like clockwork, you heard the sound of your window sliding upwards just past midnight. He thankfully hadnât broken the glass since the first night, but for him to just slink in you had to keep the window unlocked. Before meeting him you obsessively checked every lock on every window and your front door every night, fearing that one of the shadows coming through town would try and hurt you.
Youâd think that getting involved with someone like Harry would make that fear worse and yet⌠it didnât. Somehow you felt safer. Harry once made a passing comment about keeping an eye on you, that he always knew if you were alright. He didnât have to elaborate for you know that meant he had hacked into security cameras or had someone he trusted watching your apartment at all times.Â
6-months-ago-you wouldâve been creeped the fuck out. Scared for your life that youâd allow one of the shadows to get you so hooked on him, youâd let him have a security guard of sorts around you 24/7, or even just the fact you let him so casually break into your apartment. It made total sense to you somehow because with all the theatrics and abnormal parts of your relationship came the love and happiness you got when you saw him.
Even though it was most likely your lover opening your window, you still fished for the knife under your pillow, now replaced with something pink and shiny and far more deadly. Harry decided that if you were going to protect yourself, you needed something more dangerous than a serrated kitchen knife. You treasured that pocket knife and you and Harry have had a lot of fun playing with it.Â
âHarry?â You whispered, creeping down your hallway.Â
âItâs just me, bunny.â His voice echoed, low and husky.Â
You smiled, rushing out to find him pushing your window back down and locking the latch. His hair was pulled back into a bun, sitting messily at the back of his head and he was wearing his classic leather jacket and dark jeans. God, you had missed him.Â
âYou really need to start locking your window, y/n.â Harry drawled, turning around to face you. âA madman might try to break in and hurt you.âÂ
You giggled, throwing your pocket knife on your rug carelessly to pounce on him. Literally. He smiled and caught you easily, letting you wrap your legs around his hips while your arms wrapped around his neck.Â
Your mouths joined almost instantly, lips brushing against lips in a heated exchange. You threaded your fingers in his hair and tugged until his bun came loose and his hair fell to his shoulders. He groaned at the feeling and ran his tongue against the seam of your lips, nibbling down on your bottom lip.Â
âI missed you, madman.â You whispered once your lips broke, shifting in his arms. His hands supported your bum, squeezing while he devoured your mouth once more. His body was sore from his weekend job, but heâd never let that get in the way of having his girl in his arms.Â
âI missed you too, bunny. So much⌠I couldnât breathe without you.â He murmured, setting you down with a little wince. You noticed it immediately and ran your hands over his face, angling his head around to look for any injuries. He wasnât bruised on his face for once, but you knew he was hurting somewhere.Â
âWhatâs wrong? Are you hurt? What happened?â The questions came out spitfire, making Harry smile down at you and set his hands on your hips. Your eyes found a dried substance at his collar and you recognised what it was immediately. âIs that blood?â
âNot mine.â He assured, âIâm fine, baby. Donât worry.âÂ
You ignored his assurance and started running your hands over his chest, looking for any sign of pain or visible jerk out of tenderness. When your fingers grazed his lower abdomen, he couldnât hide the clench of his jaw. You glared up at him, pressing harder against the spot so heâd feel a little payback for lying to you.Â
Harry groaned and dug his fingers into your hips, ensuring it was hard and painful enough to leave a bruise. You didnât mind though, in fact, you quite liked it.Â
âJesus Harry, you got shot!?â Your eyes widened when you tugged up his t-shirt to find a bloody gauze. You knew what it was immediately. You had seen your fair share of bullet wounds in your work placements at the hospital as well as the dodgy ways they tried to mend them themselves. âWhen did this happen?â You decided to peel off the gauze to see the wound for yourself, not trusting the temporary mend he had done. The wound had been stitched up quite well actually, but it was inflamed and a few stitches had broken. It needed to be mended.
âDid it go all the way through? Is the bullet still in here? Why didnât you tell m-â
Harry interrupted your second spitfire of the evening by pressing his lips to yours. It was quick to shut you up, especially when he slid his tongue against the seam of your mouth and dominated his way in. His tongue slid against yours, tobacco and whiskey heavy in the kiss.Â
You whimpered against his mouth, almost forgetting about the bullet wound until you felt its blood soak your fingertips. Pulling back, Harry tried to chase your mouth, needing you violently. Insatiably. He had missed your soft skin and your delicious mouth and especially missed your sweet sweet pussy. One he had a severe craving for. He could almost taste it on his tongue.Â
âBathroom. Now. Your stitches are busted.â You pushed your finger to his chest and he easily backed away. He was completely whipped by you, willing to do anything you told him.Â
âAlright, bunny. Youâre the boss.â He murmured, shrugging his jacket off to dump it on the couch before following you to the bathroom. You both followed the same routine as always. He sat on the closed toilet seat and you readied your supplies to treat his wounds.Â
âTop off.â You instructed, using a lighter to sanitise the end of the needle you threaded already.Â
âYes maâam.â He chuckled softly, stifling a groan as he grabbed the back of his collar and pulled his shirt off his head. âYouâre feisty when youâre mad.âÂ
âYou shouldnât have lied to me.â You shot back, sanitising the scissors next with your betadine.Â
âItâs just a bullet wound, bunny.â He tried to soothe, watching you approach him and rub the wound with betadine in preparation to cut his original stitches and do new ones. âDidnât even go straight through me.â
âSo the bulletâs still in there? Jesus, Harry. Why didnât you go to the hospital? Iâm not equipped to remove a fucking bullet in my bathroom.â You snapped.Â
âItâs not in there, y/n. One of my boys removed it, okay?â He chuckled softly, both loving and hating how worried you were. He reached up to cup your face, âIâm fine. The only thing wrong with me is a busted stitch.âÂ
You ignored him, keeping your glare strong on your face. His hands dropped to his knees and he remained completely still while you worked on the wound. He hated that permanent crease on your brow and all he wanted to do was make it go away.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â He nudged, poking at your leg when you stayed completely silent. You were in your usual oversized t-shirt, underwear combination, but this particular t-shirt was long enough to cover your bum and the tops of your thighs. âCâmon bunny, talk to me.âÂ
âYouâre distracting me.â
âAnd youâre ignoring me. I donât like when youâre cross with me.â
âWell I donât like being left in the dark for an entire week and when you show up youâve been shot.â You snapped, pulling the needle tighter than youâd usually do to make a knot, just so it hurt a little more. He clenched his jaw, but he was more concerned about you than the temporary pain of his stitches. âWhat if you died Harry? Then what? I wouldâveâŚâ you looked away to grab the scissors, trying to blink away the tears. When you returned, his gaze was soft. âI wouldâve never known. You wouldâve left me and I⌠Iâd never know.â
You couldnât even focus on his wound with how hard your hands were shaking. You managed to cut the excess thread, but the moment it was done Harry pulled the scissors and needle out of your hand and brought your shaking ones to his.Â
âY/n, Iâd never do that to you. Never.â Harry scanned your face, reaching up to cup you to get you to look at him. âI didnât mean to scare you, bunny.â He wrapped his hand around the nape of your neck, gently pulling you down to rest your forehead against his. âI shouldâve told you.â
âYeah, you shouldâve.â You agreed, unable to stop a few tears streaming down your cheeks. âYouâre an asshole.â
âI am.â He nodded, trying to kiss you until you turned your head away from him. âI fucked up. Iâll never, ever do that again. Never.â He promised, tipping his forehead to your cheek while threading your fingers to press your hand against his racing heart. âMy heart belongs to you forever.â
âIâm yours, Harry.â You promised, pulling back to wipe your tears away and get the bandage to cover his wound. He sighed and grabbed your waist instead, pulling you closer between his legs so you wouldnât go too far. âBut I need⌠I need something. I canât keep waiting for you to show up with nothing in between. I can barely sleep when youâre not here.â
âOkay. Iâll⌠Iâll get a burner. Untraceable. Just for you and me.â He suggested, âYouâll never go a day without hearing from me again.â It was a promise. An oath. He never wanted to be the cause of your tears again, even if he knew he would be. It was why he didnât want to keep your hopes up about a future, even if he wanted it more than anything in the entire world.Â
âYou promise?â You asked, running hands over the placed bandage to seal it in place. He nodded, looking up at you with a soft smile. You hated how easy it was to forgive him. But you loved when he looked at you like that. Like you were his entire world.Â
âI promise. Cross my heart.â He murmured, running his hands over your waist and hips, ânow will you stop being mad at me and give me a kiss?âÂ
Harry stood up, overpowering you with his height. Using one hand on your waist, he nudged you against the basin and used the other hand to cup the side of your neck. His gaze was dark, eyes blazing with a need to please and be pleased. He was hungry for you, just like he was since the moment he got on his bike to drive down to see you.Â
âPlease, bunny. Let me make it up to you.âÂ
All you could do was nod.Â
Harry was easy to succumb to your influence, easy to follow instructions and do whatever you wanted. But he was just as easy to overpower you, to dominate you. To get you reduced to nothing but a whimper and a nod of your head.Â
He was quick to duck in and clasp your lips together. It started slow and steady, a languid dance of your mouths that turned into something far more passionate. It always did. He slid his hand to the back of your neck, threading his fingers into your hair to move your face in the direction he wanted while he nibbled on your bottom lip and slid his tongue against the seam of your mouth.Â
You let him in easily, loving the slow, deliberate slide of his tongue against yours. That familiar tobacco mint flavour was heavy in the kiss, a mix of the cigarette he no doubt had before climbing up the fire escape and the mint gum he liked to chew on to try and curb the habit. It never did work, but you liked the taste of him trying to stop the nasty addiction.
You pulled him closer by his hips, digging your fingers into the slight pudge just above his belt. It was one of your favourite parts of him to kiss, to bite. You had dug your teeth in it so many times Harry was tempted to get a tattoo of your bite so he could remember the feeling of your teeth sinking into him forever.Â
âWanna taste you, bunny.â Harry groaned, tucking his hand under your shirt to fiddle with the band of your lace underwear. Your hips bucked up to meet the touch, desperate to get him doing more than just play with your underwear. âMissed the sweet taste of you on my tongue.â He kissed you softly, dragging your bottom lip back between his teeth until he released it with a pop. âAlways dream of it when Iâm away.â
âI guess whatâs one way to apologise.â You breathed, sighing when he pinched your thigh. He tucked his hands under your ass, hoisting you up so youâd wrap your legs around his hips.Â
âMhmm. Iâd happily die apologising to you. Over and over.â He had this smirk playing on his lips, but you didnât particularly find it funny.Â
âDonât talk about dying.â You reprimanded softly, playing with his hair while he carried you to your bedroom.Â
âNot even if itâs death by your sweet pussy?â He grinned, lowering you onto the bed. You shuffled upwards, rolling your eyes as he knelt on the bed to hover over you.Â
âFor someone who gets shot for a living, you have the humour of a 13-year-old boy.âÂ
âAnd you donât like that?â Harry raised his brow, grinning while leaning in to kiss you. You hummed into the kiss, tugging on his hair until his groan rumbled into your mouth. He pressed his weight against you, ensuring you felt every inch of his arousal for you.
He could feel yours right back. How wet you were, how warm your pussy was pressed right against his jeans. You had properly soaked through your lacy underwear and Harry could feel his jeans slowly dampen from the way he was grinding his hips against you. It was heaven. He could hardly wait to get his mouth on your sweet little cunt, especially when you were already so worked up for him.Â
âYour humour is only funnyâŚâ you paused to gasp, head tilting back so Harry could nip down along your neck. ââŚsometimes.â
âAnd youâre sexy all the time.â He murmured, simultaneously pushing your oversized t-shirt up while kissing downwards. He ran his hands over every inch of exposed skin, pushing the shirt above your breasts so he could clasp his lips around one of your nipples.Â
You took the shirt off immediately, whimpering and bucking your hips to meet his while you scratched at his back. He scraped his teeth against your sensitive bud, tugging and sucking hard enough to make your head spin. While he assaulted your nipples, his hands ran over your belly and hips down to your thighs spread wide underneath him. It was only when his fingers crawled to your very inner thigh ready to tease you through your underwear that he felt the thin film of plastic.
âWhatâs this?â His movements stopped immediately as he felt over the thin plastic film. You whimpered at the sensitivity, feeling particularly sore after your adventure yesterday.Â
âI did something and you canât be madâŚâ You breathed, watching him sit back on his haunches.Â
His eyes widened when he got a better look, resting his hand on your thigh while he ran his thumb over the four little letters now permanently marked on your skin. Harry was no stranger to tattoos, he was practically covered in them. But the last thing he ever expected was for you to make your temporary tattoo last longer by making it permanent.
His handwriting. His claim. Harry permanently etched on your body forever.Â
âBunnyâŚâ Harry murmured, looking between you and the tattoo. âWhat did you do?â
âYou said you couldnât promise me forever but you could give me until the tattoo fadesâŚâ His eyes focused on you and you felt yourself already becoming pliant just with the dark look on his face. â...now itâll never fade.â
He said nothing for a moment and just stayed staring at your tattoo. His eyes drifted upwards ever so slightly to where your pretty lace underwear was pressed snugly to your pussy. Then he looked further upwards to your soft belly and your perky tits and finally⌠to your face. Your pretty eyes and your lips, the lips he loved to kiss more than anything.Â
Harry was back over you in an instant, cupping your jaw while kissing you like he was ravenous for it. You whimpered into it, tugging on his hair until your lips parted in a gasp.Â
âCanât believe you did that, bunny. Got a fucking tattoo so Iâd be stuck to you forever.â He murmured, smushing his mouth to yours again. âThat was the plan, wasnât it? Force my hand so Iâd be yours forever.â He started to kiss back down your body again, making sure his tongue pressed against your skin with every touch.Â
âI love you. I want⌠I want to be yours forever.â You whimpered, watching him settle between your spread legs with an evil smirk on his face.Â
âAnd you thought a tattoo was the right choice? Hm? You thought letting some other man permanently alter your body was the way to go?â He dipped his fingers into the waistband of your underwear, tearing the lacy material in two. He was completely rough with it, making sure it ached as he pulled torn pieces off your body.Â
âIt wasnât a man. SheâŚÂ shit.â You couldnât even find the words, not when he spread you wide and stared at you like you were some fine dessert.Â
âYou think that makes it better, bunny? You think who did the tattoo makes a difference?â He raised his brow, running both his thumbs up your outer labia to tease you.Â
âI told you not to be mad.â You whined, pressing your hands to your face.Â
âIâm not mad. I think this is quite possibly the hottest⌠most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me.â You peeked through your parted fingers, looking down at where he was looking up at you, spreading his hands to kiss at the thin layer of plastic. âSo fucking sexy.â Harry murmured, looking down at it in awe.Â
âSo why do you sound mad?â You whispered, looking down at him.
âIâm not mad you got a tattoo, Iâm mad I wasnât there. Didnât I always say I wanted to be there for your first one?â
âWell yes but-â
âAnd didnât you promise me that I would be?â
âYesâŚâ you swallowed thickly. He was speaking at you in such a condescending way. Like you were a child being taught a basic lesson for the first time. It was belittling.Â
It turned you on in such a feral way. He could even mansplain anything and youâd be happy to play into it. As long as he sounded like that and wound up between your thighs afterwards he could speak to you however he liked.Â
âSo you went against your word, hm?â He smirked as your thighs trembled on either side of his shoulders, your body growing more and more sensitive and needy as he started tracing over your pussy.Â
âI guess so.â
âDo I go against my word? Have I ever broken a promise before?âÂ
âYes.â You tried to defend, knowing very well he always stuck to his word. Harry had never broken a promise to you. Not when he told you heâd be back in three days or when he didnât know but promised heâd return to you safely. He always kept his word.Â
To be fair though, it was hard to stay clear-minded when he was caressing your pussy like it was something cute to pet. It wasnât. And with every stroke of his fingers, every slide through your crease to spread your arousal up to your clit before coming straight back down like he didnât even know what a clit was, your mind was spiralling. He was killing you.Â
âOh really?â He nudged a finger to your entrance, pressing just hard enough to slip the very top inside of you. You always were the most sensitive at your g-spot then right here, at the very beginning where all your nerves were alive and your pussy was clenching around nothing because you needed something inside. Specifically Harryâs cock. âTell me. When?â He pressed an open-mouthed kiss to your clit and finally slid his finger inside of you, eliciting the prettiest whine.Â
âUm⌠UhhâŚâ You couldnât speak or think with his tongue slowly sliding over your clit now. He traced languid circles and waves, taking complete control and doing it all at his own pace. Harry was tasting you for his own pleasure more than he was yours, even if he did love the way you came for him.Â
âExactly.â He smirked, âSo let me take my time with you. Iâm owed that, arenât I?âÂ
âI thought you were meant to be apologising to me? This feels like an unfair system. A bullet wound is more serious than a tattoo.â You complained, sliding your hands into his hair to try and drag him closer to you.Â
After being away from him for so long, one of the longest times apart since you started dating-or whatever you two were, all you wanted was to feel him. You wanted his pleasure and the weight of his body on top of you. Teasing wasnât fun when you were apart more than you were together.
You prayed that would change after the gesture you made. The permanent commitment to him.Â
âWhich one is permanent?â He grinned lazily up at you.
âYou couldâve died.â You argued.
âBut I didnât. Now will you stop complaining otherwise Iâm more than happy to stop. Itâs been a big day I could easily go to sl-â
âNo!â You jumped a little too quickly, making him laugh and press spongey kisses against your inner thighs. âNo⌠no, please. Iâll take whatever you want. Iâll be good.âÂ
âYeah?â He smirked, pressing his fingers into your fresh tattoo. You gasped, clutching his hair tighter in your hands. âThatâs what I like to hear, pretty girl. Besides, I think letting me take my sweet time tasting you is the best punishment out there. Donât you think?âÂ
Harry pressed a few chaste kisses along your thighs, feeling just how tense you were. You were clenching around his finger and holding onto his hair tight so he wouldnât move away. But he couldnât have you so tense⌠he needed you to relax.
âCalling it a punishment scares meâŚâ you whimpered, feeling his tongue slide over your clit in a sloppy figure-eight pattern.Â
âmh⌠just relax, bunny. Stop thinking and let me take care of you⌠youâre my girl, arenât you? My sweet, delicious girl. My girl?â He ran his thumb over your tattoo, speaking right against your clit like he was talking to your pussy instead of you.Â
âMhmm.âÂ
âThen relaxâŚÂ you deserve to be spoiled after all you do for meâŚâ Harry looked up at you, smiling as you forced your body to melt into the bed.Â
Your eyes fluttered shut, head tilting back when his mouth returned to your clit. He gently added another finger inside of you, curling them both into your g-spot in a steady stroke. They felt so deep inside of you, nowhere near as full of his cock but still so so good.Â
The combination of his tongue and his fingers were driving you crazy, but he did them in such a relaxed, languid way that you knew it would take you ages to cum, if he even let you.Â
âSee? âS nice isnât it?⌠you always take care of me, bunny. Always clean my wounds and take good care of mâcock⌠mâheart tooâŚ. Always make me feel so happy.â
âYou make me happy too⌠scare me a lot tooâŚâ You sighed, fisting his hair as he grazed his teeth over your clit.
âI donât mean to,â Harry murmured against you, kissing against your clit in an infuriatingly light touch. âOnly want to make you feel good⌠feel safeâŚâ
âYou do⌠you do⌠just-fuck, please⌠MoreâŚÂ Harder.â
He smirked at your begging, the whiny tone in your voice going straight to his cock. Barely a couple minutes into it and you were already getting desperate. Already tugging at his hair and starting to wiggle.Â
He loved you like this because he had the ultimate control over whether or not he gave you what you wanted. At this point, it could go either way.Â
âNot yet sweetheart, âm having too much fun just like thisâŚâ
Your back arched when he pressed his fingertips into your tattoo, purposefully digging into the soft skin. It was a small tattoo, tiny in comparison to half of Harryâs work but you had a relatively low pain tolerance and your very inner thigh was quite sensitive. It was torturous paired with the way his tongue softly stroked against your clit.Â
âPlease, HarryâŚâ You begged once more, using your hands in his hair to try and drag him closer to you. You were writhing beneath him, desperate for something more than just light teasing shapes. You could barely handle it anymore.Â
âAh.â Harry tutted, slipping from your clit with a little pop of his lips. He grinned up at you, mouth and chin all soaked and dripping before pulling your hands from his hair to push them down on the bed beside you. It was possibly one of the most erotic things you had ever seen. âYâknow I like my hair pulled, bunny but if you keep pushing it, Iâll make sure you donât cum at all. Let me enjoy you.â
âOkayâŚâ You nodded quickly, hoping he wouldnât stop altogether. âmâsorry. Iâll be good.âÂ
âGood.âÂ
Harry released your hands before grabbing a hair tie from his wrist and putting his hair up in a bun. God when he did that⌠it did unspeakable things to you. You watched him obsessively, frothing over the way his arms and chest stretched and flexed with every small movement. Up behind his head then back down to the bed when he settled between your thighs while staring at you with this triumphant fuckboy smile.Â
âYouâre so pretty, yâknow that. So so pretty and all mine.â He murmured, tracing his finger through your crease while looking straight at your pussy with complete awe. Harry was fucking obsessed with you.
âHarryâŚâ
âI know,â he sympathised, voice almost mocking at your flushed cheeks. He loved when you got nervous. âYouâre so pretty when you blush, y/n.â He blew gently over your clit, sliding his two fingers back into you.Â
Closing his mouth around your clit, he started pleasuring you again. He moved his tongue against you harder and curled his fingers into you with far more purpose than before. And finally, finally you were starting to feel that relief. It was exactly what you needed to start to feel that twist in your stomach and shake in your thighs⌠the rush before that euphoric release. Your toes were starting to curl and your fingers tightened into his hair, tugging so hard he had to dig his fingertips into your tattoo to ground himself from how desperate he was getting from his hair being played with.
âOh god⌠Iâm⌠âmgonnaâŚâ
And then the rush stopped, that spiraling wave freezing right before it tumbled over the cliff. Harry removed his mouth and halted his fingers, kissing over your thighs instead with an evil grin you could feel against your skin.Â
âHarryâ you protested, gasping while looking down at him. Your legs attempted to clam around his head and you tried to tug his mouth back to you but he easily overpowered you and used his arms to pin your thighs wide against the bed.Â
âYouâre cute when youâre desperate. Might be my second favourite look on you.â He bit down on your thigh, chuckling against your skin.Â
âWhatâs the⌠whatâs your favourite?â Your breathing felt laboured, skin already feeling a little sticky from being teased for so long. Â
âWhen you orgasmâŚÂ sometimes itâs when Iâve got you so far gone youâre fucking sobbing for me. Only like your tears when theyâre because of mâcock.â
He was evil.Â
Was it fucked up that knowing he liked to make you cry turned you on?Â
âYouâre so meanâŚÂ you know I-ohâ your words got caught in his throat, eyes fluttering closed again when he started tracing his tongue over your clit again.Â
Harry started to tease you again, going back to that languid, gentle touching. He was enjoying every second of it too, moaning into you, using his spare hand to grab on your belly and your breasts. He pinched at your nipples before pressing against your tattoo, all to rile you up and build your orgasm again so damn slowly.Â
Harry was nearly about to burst. You were so wet and so fucking sweet and though he loved having his face between your thighs for hours on end, it turned him on beyond anything else on the fucking planet. He had to keep focusing his mind elsewhere, on anything but the way your cream was coating his fingers and dripping down his palm, or how you were so fucking wet just one slide of his tongue through your crease echoed around the entire room.Â
But then you got a little too sensitive, a little too desperate and tugged his hair so hard it slipped from the bun he did earlier. He was just as happy to punish you than he was to rest his face between your thighs.Â
The pleasure stopped once more and you were flipped so fast onto your belly, you didnât have an opportunity to try and wiggle away. He gathered your hands quickly in one of his so you couldnât move and ignored your whine of his name.Â
âI warned you once, y/n, and you didnât want to listenâŚâ
âHarry âm sorry. Iâll be good. I promise.â You protested, at Harryâs complete mercy. He pinned you to the bed with one hand, keeping your hands pressed to your lower back while he pulled his belt out of his belt loops. You wiggled beneath him, trying to get out of his tight grip only to be suddenly swatted with his belt over your ass.
You gasped at the sting, feeling the spot on your skin grow a heartbeat of its own. It was a warm spiced feeling, oozing down to your aching clit that Harry had teased all night.Â
âYou did this to yourself, bunny. I wanted to be nice and I wanted to enjoy your sweet little pussy but you couldnât keep your hands to yourself. Could you?â Harry looped the belt around your hands then tightened it with the buckle so it was snug around your wrists. He tugged at it just to be sure you couldnât slip out before hovering over you to kiss you gently on your shoulder.Â
âOkay?â He asked, nuzzling his nose against your cheek.
âMhmm.â You nodded.
âColour?â
âGreen.â
âGood girl.â He whispered the praise against your shoulder, kissing the middle of your back on his way back to kneel behind you.Â
Harry was quick to pull your ass up off the bed until your face was pressed to the duvet, giving him the perfect access to all your pretty holes. You were practically dripping. Already edged once with no relief and now he could just taste you and bury his face without having your hands in the way. His perfect girl.
âSeeâŚâ He murmured, tracing his hands over your ass. âIsnât this better? Now I can enjoy you in peace.â
You responded with a noise of indignation, squeezing your fists when he chuckled and spanked your ass in that same spot he whacked his belt. Your skin was pulled taught with the way your chest was pressed to the bed, making the sting heavier than usual.Â
Even though you whimpered and your whole body jerked at the feeling of his palm on your ass, Harry knew you enjoyed it. Just like you enjoyed being tied up.
The only reason you protested having his belt around your hands was because you hated it like this. Behind your back or pinned to your sides or thighs. You didnât like not being able to feel him, especially when you couldnât see him either. With Harry always gone you just wanted to touch him as much as humanly possible when he was around him.
You always had a hand on him. In his hair or scratching his back or in his pocket or intertwined with his fingers. You just needed that touch. Craved it. And now it had been taken away.
âGod, you taste so fucking good, bunny.â Harry groaned, spanking your ass roughly. He spread your cheeks wide, pulling back to spit right on your tight rim of muscles before he was sucking over your clit again. âLike a fucking dream.â
He groaned against you, nuzzling his nose right against your entrance to press just hard enough to dip into you. The way he used his entire face to pleasure you was completely feral. Heâd be able to smell you for days and taste your sweet sweet arousal for hours to come. Thatâs exactly how he liked it.Â
He was completely wrapped around your clit, sucking in that perfect rhythmic pressure he knew you liked. The same pressure that had you tumbling towards an orgasm within two minutes flat. Now he seemed to be doing the opposite of his torturous teasing. He was trying to make you cum and he was doing it in the messiest, most feral way possible.Â
That was somehow more evil because you had nowhere to go. You couldnât move your hands or grab his hair, not even hold his hand until he reached for you. With the tight grip on your hips, you were pinned in his grip. You didnât mind though, because he was finally⌠finally giving you that delicious pleasure.Â
You were hopeful, your entire body tense and trembling. Your mouth was gaped against the bedding, soft moans muffled into the material. Until your entire world crashed and burned when it all stopped. Again.Â
âNo. Harry...â
âShh, itâs okay, bunny.â Harry pressed his mouth over your ass, sliding his fingers out of you to run through your crease to your clit. âStill green?â
âY-yes.â
âGood. Then letâs keep going, shall we?â
You lost count at how many times he edged you. After five it all turned into a blur; a teary, stinging blurr where your mind was completely in the clouds and your body felt like it was melting into a puddle. You were completely heavy in the bed, legs sore and trembling and your arms aching after being behind your back for so long.Â
Every touch was torture, every flick of his tongue or suck over your clit sent your mind into orbit. You needed to come so fucking badly but there was nothing you could do to get him to let you finish. He was happy to just taste you and lick you until you were reduced to a pile of tears and sore muscles on the bed.
âPlease Harry⌠please I need it so bad⌠need yâcock so so badlyâŚâÂ
It wasnât the first time you begged for it, but it was certainly the first time you cried for it. You were crying softly against the bedding, wiggling and clenching around his fingers. Your nails were digging into your palms, trying to counteract the pressure your entire lower body was facing.Â
âYeah? Wanna give it to you, bunny. So fucking badâŚâ Harryâs cock had been painfully sore since your fourth edge, so fucking hard he got rid of all his clothes just for some relief. His jeans were pressing so tight against his cock, he could barely handle it.Â
Harry was a sadistic fuck, though and he liked the pain. He liked being sore and he liked to edge himself so when he finally got inside you and got that ultimate pleasure, the entire experience was better. He liked it when he made you come multiple times, but there was something romantic about edging you until you cried then letting you finally come when he was deep inside you and about to orgasm himself.Â
Simultaneous orgasms were a rarity, but Harry liked the challenge. Often it was him timing his with yours anyway. You were terrible at holding your orgasm, practically incapable of it. Thatâs why edging you was so funâŚÂ Harry had complete control over it. He knew the signs of your body reaching that point without you even verbalising it and knew the exact moment to pull away before you tipped over the edge.Â
And even when you cried and it was sore, your colour remained green the entire time.Â
âGot me so hard fâyou⌠just need to make sure you really want it, huh?â Harry bared his teeth against your ass cheek, biting down on one of the spots his various spontaneous spanks had made their mark. Your ass was beat red at this point, covered in teeth marks and hand prints from Harry getting too damn excited. He knew it would be sore for a couple of days, but thatâs what he wanted.
He wanted his memory on your skin⌠and now after your tattoo, it would be. Forever.Â
The thought of that was exhilarating and one of the most terrifying things in Harryâs world.
âI do⌠I need it so bad, Harry. Feel so empty without you⌠so soreâŚâ Your words all joined together, a slur of neediness and sniffled tears.Â
âOh, I bet, bunnyâŚâ He cooed, sliding his fingers out of you before sucking them clean. He then moved up on his knees behind you to gently undo the belt from your wrists. âBet youâre so sensitive nâsore, arenât you?â He threw the belt to the side, massaging your wrists in his hand to soothe the reddened skin.
You just nodded against the bedding, curling your fingers back to hold his hands. He sighed at the sight, leaning down to quickly kiss your fingers before rolling you on your back.Â
âAw, baby. Look at you all teary-eyedâŚâ Harry cupped your cheek, letting your legs fall wide on the bed as he wiped the tears from under your eye. With his other hand, he grabbed his cock and guided it to your pussy, sliding the head through your folds. His teeth gritted at the sensitivity on his desperate cock and he was trying so hard to not lose all strength in his body just at that one little touch. He was the one desperate now.
âYâlook so pretty like this⌠fucking gorgeous you areâŚâ
âHarryâŚâ You sighed, holding onto his wrist with one hand while grabbing his hip with the other. Just the feeling of his cock through your folds was heavenly, a sign that youâd finally get to come.Â
âI love the way you say my name, pretty girl. Like a fucking angel⌠shitâ
His hand slid down your face to your neck, looping around it in a loose hold while he pressed his tip to your entrance and slowly eased his way in. Your pussy was so sensitive from all his teasing and he could tell too. Your cry was loud and your nails dug deep into his hip. He was addicted to the feeling.Â
âShit⌠oh godâŚâ You whined out, head thrown back against the bedding. Your mouth was wide in a pant, chest heaving just at the feeling of him bottoming out inside of you. His cock was always an adjustment⌠thick and long and fuck, every time you thought of it your mind went a little dizzy.
It ached to have him inside you without being edged so much and now it was like a hot fire in your womb. Your clit was aching, your belly was aching, and everything was so tightly strung all you wanted was just to be fucked. Even if you were more sensitive than ever, you just needed to be fucked hard into the bed.Â
No teasing. Nothing. You just wanted him to fuck you until you came undone around him.Â
âFuck me⌠please, Harry just fuck meâŚâ your words came in a rushed, desperate plea; your hips jutting to try and get him to move.
âFuck, bunny. Got a filthy fucking mouth, donât youâŚâ Harry cursed, tightening his grip around your neck. âIâll fuck you, alright. Iâll give you exactly what you wantâŚâ
He started rocking his hips against you, wasting no time to get to a steady, bruising pace. It was hips snapping against hips, your thighs wide on the bed while he used his hand around your neck for balance. His balls slapped against your ass and his noises of pleasure were so goddamn erotic you knew youâd never forget the sound of them.
It was euphoric.Â
âGod baby, you feel so fucking good wrapped around me. And youâre all mine, arenât you? All fucking mineâŚâ Harry grunted, gritting his teeth to try and stop himself from finishing too fast. He was practically going to burst the moment his cock slid inside you. âAnd thisâŚâ He pressed his palm to your thigh, heavily running his thumb over your tattoo⌠âis so sexy⌠so fucking sexyâŚâ
Neither of you seemed to care about the fact he had fresh stitches and a fresh bullet wound because the way he was fucking you was too good to care about something that could be so easily fixed. That pain in his abdomen did very little to stop him from giving you the fucking you deserved, even if that meant heâd have to sit through another angry stitching done by you.
Hopefully, this time you werenât as angry or as rough with him⌠though he wouldnât have minded if it meant heâd have you again like this.
You couldnât even respond to him because it felt like your mouth had disconnected from your brain. Your body was so overstimulated that your mind could barely function. But you could drag him down with two hands on his jaw and kiss him. It was messy and uncoordinated but that didnât even matter. All that mattered was that his body was on yours and you felt the closeness you had craved since the moment he tied your wrists behind your back.
âI love you⌠I love you so muchâŚâ You murmured, already feeling your orgasm approach again. It hardly took any time, not when he was fucking you so good and so hard. He felt deeper than ever before, so deep you could feel that deep pit in your stomach start to churn. It was a feeling that didnât happen very often, but one both you and Harry reaped the benefits of.Â
âI love you so much, angel. My love forever and always.â Harry groaned into your mouth, gathering your hands in his and intertwining your fingers together. He pushed on either side of your head, pressing them into the bedding as he started to kiss along your jaw and neck to get a bit of air.Â
The dirty talk kept spilling out of his mouth, some coherent and others just desperate strung together sentences that made your head spiral and your pussy clench around his cock. He had a way with words, both in and out of the bedroom and it never failed to knock you to the fucking floor.
That deep churning in your pit only grew and started to press right against your clit. You could feel the pressure building and building until it felt like you were going to burst. Your clit was aching; a pinching white-hot pleasure beating from it like it had its own heartbeat.
âOh⌠shit⌠shit. Harry⌠âm gonna⌠âm gonna squirtâ The words barely got out, all thrown together in a loud cry right in his ear before you felt the damn burst from inside of you.Â
It rolled over you in a crash. An initial euphoric crash of pleasure hitting your body from all angles. Waves and waves of pure ecstasy made your thighs tremble and your toes curl. Your whole body shook as the first spray of your arousal hit Harryâs lower belly and with every squirt after, another jolt of electricity.
âShit baby. Good fucking girl. Fucking hellâŚâ Harry cursed, grinding his hips against you to try and draw as much of your orgasm through. He felt it coat his cock and the hairs at his base, dripping down to his balls until it started to dampen the bedding beneath you. âJesus, bunny. âM gonna cum⌠Can I?...â
âWant it⌠want it inside, pleaseâŚâ you whimpered, squeezing his hands tight as the pleasure started to die down to a low beat in your clit.
Harryâs mouth smushed against yours as he fucked himself once more inside of you, groaning against you as his body trembled above you. You could feel the hot bliss of his come filling you to the brim and the sudden weight of him on top of you when he let himself relax against your body.
âShit, bunnyâŚâ He sighed, dropping his forehead to the crook of your neck.Â
You were both exhausted. Your skin was damp and sticky and the bed below you felt exactly the same. It was a mess. You were a mess and yet you were the happiest you couldâve been. Sore muscles and a fire beating on your ass and fresh tattoo meant nothing compared to the fulfilment you had just being with Harry.Â
âAre you okay?â He whispered after a moment of silence, resting his chin on your chest to look at you. He needed to collect himself before he checked on you so he was physically able to take care of you and provide whatever you needed. He definitely needed to have a shower or bath with you and rub some cream on your wrists and bum.
âIâm good,â You whispered back, smiling softly at him. âA little sore but so good⌠are you okay?â
âIâm perfect,â he smiled and softly kissed your sweaty skin, âcan I pull out now?â
With a small nod, he gently pulled himself out of you and then started your normal routine. He went to get some water and a damp towel to clean you both up and then returned to clean you while you guzzled the entire thing. Some nights you two jumped in the shower straight away, but that was only if you werenât going to have another round or were prepared to change the sheets at the same time.
Tonight wasnât one of those nights. After you went to the bathroom quickly you returned and you both curled into each otherâs arms to have your usual pillow talk. It was your favourite part of sleeping together because it was often when the truth came out or you found out more things about him. You loved that.
âI still canât believe you did thisâŚâ Harry murmured, looking down at the tattoo. He traced his fingers over it, looking at it obsessively.
âWas it too much? Be honestâŚâ
âWhat?â Harry was a little taken aback and looked up at you with a furrowed expression, âNever. Fucking unexpected but I love it,â he reached up to grab your cheek and you immediately nuzzled into it, holding your hand over his, âI love you, y/n. I donât say it often enough but I do. And I want you in my life, I just donât know how to do it. I donât know how to keep you safe.â
âLet me come with you.â You responded, ânext time you go back to the city, let me come. I want to see where you live and⌠I donât know, maybe meet your friends? OrâŚâ you felt a little embarrassed at the next words that came out of your mouth, but you werenât exactly sure how else to say it, âwork colleaguesâŚâ
Harry cracked the biggest fucking grin at how you phrased it, but he tried to not laugh so he wouldnât embarrass you. âAlright. Tomorrow. Iâll take you back with me.â
âTomorrow?â You blinked, not expecting him to just willingly agree like that.
âYes. I donât have a job until Thursday so weâll have a couple of days together. But thatâs only if you donât have college or wo-â
âI donât.â You interrupted quickly, knowing very well you did have university and work. Harry knew that too, he just wanted to see if youâd really skip a few days of responsibility for him. âIâd love to go.â
Harry smirked, nearly getting all worked up again at the thought of his angel skipping classes just to spend time with him. âGoodâŚâ He then cleared his throat and sat up so he could look at you, âI want you to have this.â
He removed his signature cross necklace from around his neck and motioned for you to sit up as well. âHarry⌠I couldnâtâ
âYou can.â He pressed, placing the necklace over your head. He eyed the way it fell right between your breasts and pulled your hair out from underneath it so it wouldnât get tangled. âAlways wear this, y/n. I mean it. The moment I take you into the city there will be people who care that you know me and theyâll use it against me.â Harry played with the cross between two fingers, rubbing his thumb over the front of it, âWearing this⌠itâs a protection.â
âHow?...â You whispered, looking between the necklace and his gorgeous green eyes.
âBecause this-â his hand fell to your thigh, squeezing over the plastic film of your tattoo, â-tells me that youâre mine and this-â he grabbed the chain again, tugging it ever so slightly, âtells the entire fucking world.â
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what love feels like ŕź myg (m)
â Summary: Being a mother to a beautiful baby girl and wife to an adoring husband is the most rewarding feeling in the world. But you also work a full-time job, are overtired most of the time, stressed, don't have any alone time, look very different than eight years ago, and sex? Well, that hasnât happened in weeks. The gravity of the situation weighs on you until one day, all of your deepest insecurities rear their ugly headâthat your husband might not love you as much anymore and someone could take him away from you.
Pairing: husband!yoongi x reader
AU/genre: angst, fluff, smut, marriage au
Rating: M, 18+
Word Count: 6.7k+
Warnings: swearing, both Yoongi and oc are in their 30s, mom and full-time worker!oc, reserved!dad!yoongi, lack of intimacy, mentions of body insecurities post-pregnancy, mentions of fear of abandonment, mentions of jealousy. irrational worries, built-up stress, light fighting, silent treatment, stubbornness, lots of reassurance, nightmares, cute backstory of how they met, a lot of ily, Yoongi and oc being good parents đĽš, Yoongi calls oc doll, and explicit sexual content
sexual warnings: swearing, kissing, neck kisses, pleading, banter, dirty talk, doll petname, asking for consent, b**b squeezing & sucking, hair threading, penetration, f*ngering, big d*ck!yoongi, growling, missi*nary, eye contact, tearing up, c*ming together
Now Playing: Breathing by Anne Marie
a/n: Okay this was for Yoon's bday. Based on the poll, husband!Yoon won. Was intended to be a Drabble but well...heh đ
Anyway, I had a lot of fun writing this fic and Yoon is just such a good hubby for responding well to these very relatable insecurities. (Low-key love this couple...) I'm sorry for any typos or warnings i missed! I checked and double checked but a few might have slipped. Enjoy! Anyway please enjoy! đĽ°
âSo, you're Jia's father, huh? I donât think I've seen you here before, and Iâm sure I would have recognized you.â
With his back straight and arms folded, Yoongi gives the woman in front of him a quick once-over. Mid-40s, freshly single, and definitely in need of some companionship. It doesnât take a genius to figure out; sheâs been talking his ear off for the past twenty minutes like heâs some kind of remedy to all her problems.
Honestly, he just swung by to pick up his four-year-old from daycare after another grueling day at work. But the moment he walked in, it was as if all the single moms latched onto him like a flock of hungry geese. This oneâs name is Sandra in particular.
It reminds him of his college basketball days, how the cheerleaders all too eagerly swarmed around him after sinking the winning shot at the championship game. Shame he was too busy eyeing the girl in the stands to care, her face buried behind a book twice as big as her head. Who reads an 800-page novel during the playoffs anyway?
Fate, as one may call it, intervened about a week later when his best friend became said girlâs lab partner. Yoongi didnât make any sudden moves at first, but well, he did make her his wife three years later.
âItâs just so nice to finally meet the father of such a sweet child. Especially considering how many dads tend to take a backseat in their child's early years.â Is she still going on? Yoongi does his best to stay present, though itâs proving unsuccessful. âAnd Jia truly is an angel! Itâs clear youâre doing a wonderful job raising her, even with a full-time job and all.â
Yoongiâs eyebrows knit together at the somewhat odd choice of words. âThanks,â he drawls out, noticing her pupils dilating with every breath. âMost of the credit goes to my wife though. Sheâs a great mom to Jia.â
âJiaâs m-mom?â Sandra stutters, her mouth slightly agape. Yoongi senses the gears turning in her head as she struggles to process the unexpected presence of his wife. Tempting as it is, he holds down a smirk. Of course, heâs a happily married manâfor nearly eight years now.
âYeah,â he replies simply. âSheâs usually the one to pick up our daughter from daycare, but sheâs been working a lot of overtime lately. I thought I'd come instead so she can get some rest."
âOh, well thatâs veryââ
âDaddy! Daddy, youâre here!â The sound of a familiar high-pitched voice, along with a light pattering of feet, diverts both adultâs attention.
âHey kid.â Yoongi effortlessly lifts the small child once in front of him, securing her in his arms. âHave fun today?â
Jia gives an enthusiastic nod, bright red ribbons in her hair bouncing cutely as she does. Proudly, she shows him the drawing she made.
âSee? Itâs me, you, and mommy!â She makes sure to point to each part of the picture with her pointer finger.
Yoongi gently takes the artwork from his daughterâs hand and lets out a soft chuckle. âNow this is what I call a masterpiece! Mommyâs gonna love hanging this one on the fridge. How about I hold onto this and you go grab your backpack, okay?â
As soon as Jiaâs feet touch the carpeted floor again, she races off to her cubby in the far corner of the room. Yoongi shoots Sandra a final glance before slowly following behind. âWe got to get going, but nice meeting you.â
âYouâŚtoo.â Sandraâs response is more than disappointed as she watches the father-daughter duo make their way out of the building. Evidently, Min Yoongi isnât the single dad she originally assumed. Funny, she swore there wasnât a wedding band in sight. Maybe she missed it.
âNo, Iâm sorry but Iâm certain we havenât used any of your services in the last six months. My husband canceled it in late October.â
With one hand, you grip your cell phone up to an ear while the other pops open the dishwasher. Youâve been on the phone with the cable company for half an hour, trying to make sense of an unexpected charge that appeared on your bank account this morning. You consider yourself more patient than most, yet after working all day, a pile of laundry waiting to be washed, and dinner threatening to burn on the stove, the last thing you have time for is arguing with your old service provider.
âI understand, maâam, and I apologize for any confusion. Iâm taking a look at my records and theyâre all showing me thatâoh wait a second.â
The young man on the opposite end of the line interrupts his own thought, piquing your concern in the process.
âWhat did you say your last name is?â
You answer and in an instant, youâre met with a thousand rushed apologies; something about getting the account names mixed up in their system. Itâs difficult to decipher everything you hear with the front door being thrust open that very moment.
âMommy, where are you? Weâre home!â Your daughter not so subtly announces her presence from the foyer. She kicks off her shoes, hangs her backpack on the designated wall hook, and then rushes to the kitchen upon catching a brief glimpse of your shirt.
âItâs alright, these mistakes happen.â You hang up the call and turn around to find Jia only steps away, a big goofy grin on her face. Infectious, you break out into a smile yourself and swoop her up.
âHey honey, I missed you so much!â You kiss the side of your daughterâs head as she wraps her small arms around your neck. âYou look so pretty with all these ribbons in your hair! Daddy did a good job, didnât he?â
Being that you were called into work earlier than usual this morning, Yoongi was the one who got Jia dressed and ready for daycare. Youâre delightfully surprised by the results.
âMmhm,â Jia nods, twirling a couple of strands of hair between her thumb and forefinger. âBut Daddy pulls too much!â
âMaybe if someone had listened and stopped fussing when I told her, I wouldnât have accidentally yanked on her hair when I was reaching for her favorite Hello Kitty scrunchie.â Yoongi joins you both in the kitchen, walking over to press a quick peck on your lips while tenderly caressing the small of your back. The gesture soothes you of your earlier frustrations. âWho was that on the phone? Cable company?â
âYeah, they canceled the charge. Wrong account.â As you reiterate the entire mix-up, your eyes wander all over your husband. Heâs especially handsome tonight, given his perfectly tousled black hair and navy blue blazer flowing over his body. Itâs tastefully oversized with a clean, white top paired underneath. You, on the other hand, are sporting a raggedy old t-shirt and stained sweatpants.
There was a time when you used to put a shit ton more effort into your appearance. It was before you got pregnant with Jia, back when you and Yoongi were going out on weekly dates. Neither of you has that kind of time anymore, or energy for that matter. You didnât believe the other moms when they told you the romance takes a nose dive after you have your first kid. Yet here you are, proven wrong again.
Being parents to a beautiful baby girl is likely the most rewarding feeling in the world for you and Yoongi. You donât remember the last time the two of you got real quality alone time though. And sex? Well, that hasnât happened in weeks. The gravity of the situation weighs more on you with each passing day to be honest. Sure, youâre not the same person you used to be eight years ago, but shouldnât you and Yoongi still make time for at least a little intimacy?
âHow was picking up Jia by the way?â You look at Yoongi who merely shrugs nonchalantly in response.
âIt was fine. Nothing too out of the ordinary,â Yoong gives you another peck before heading up the stairs to your bedroom. âIâm gonna go get changed. Why donât you show Mommy the drawing you did Jia?â
âA drawing?â You shift your attention to your daughter whose eyes sparkle like diamonds upon mention. âWe should put it up on the fridge then. Letâs take a look hmm?â
âItâs in my backpack! My new friend and I were drawing together. Her name is Mi-Sun.â Jia continues telling you all about her friend Mi-Sun as you make your way to the front door where her backpack hangs. Youâre fully engaged until the very end. âDaddy made a new friend too!â she joyously claps her hands together, not realizing the depth of her remark.
âOh, whoâs Daddyâs new friend honey?â You ask, staying as calm as possible.
âMs. Cho! They were talking for a really long time today.â
Ms. Cho? You think back to all the moms youâve met at daycare. Somehow you canât recall ever hearing or meeting a Ms. Cho. She must be a single mom, you deduce. Was she new? What did she look like? And why didnât Yoongi mention her when you asked?
This has to be nothing but a little small talk, an acquaintance at most. Besides, the moms at Jiaâs daycare are quite a chatty bunch and Yoongi wouldnât dare overstep any boundaries.
âDo you know what they were talking about?â You donât enjoy asking your child for details about your husband, yet you canât seem to help it this time.
âI dunno,â she shrugs her shoulders. "Daddy was laughing a lot."
Suddenly, the self-assurance you gave yourself earlier slips away; seemingly useless given the queasy feeling building in the pit of your stomach.
For the remainder of the night, you purposely dodge every attempt your husband makes to kiss, touch, and hold you. Youâve even begun responding to his questions in one-word answers and at times, with nothing at all.
Yes, youâre being petty; more than usual. The silent treatment frustrates Yoongi to no end and it isnât very mature of you, but neither is refusing to tell your wife that some single mom was flirting with you in front of your kid! Okay, so maybe that's an exaggeration. Maybe it all sums up to a harmless conversation, but itâs not like you know either way with Yoongi being as reserved as he is. It brings you back to your early dating days when he wouldnât think to tell you about various aspects of his day; who he ate breakfast with that morning or the one classmate of his that wouldnât leave him alone for two semesters.
Truth be told, you're simply hoping that your husband will bring up the topic first, without having to be the classic nagging wife. Youâre a jealous person by nature so itâs not a simple task. Even now as you fold the first batch of laundry on your shared bed, him on the other side doing the same, you struggle to keep from blurting everything out.
âSo,â Yoongi fluffs up a clean pillowcase before sliding it onto one of the bed pillows. âHow was work?â
What a basic question, you grumble internally. Is that all heâs got? âWas okay,â you reply. âThe usual.â
âYou must be tired from the day. Did you get to lie down at all?â Yoongi picks up another pillowcase, repeating the process as before. When he glances your way, itâs clear somethingâs on your mind. Youâve started pairing Jiaâs socks far more aggressively than normal and youâre holding back your responses. âDid you hear me, doll? Or am I going deaf here?â The sarcastic chuckle distracts you from your task, forcing your attention.
Youâre about to respond when your eyes briefly flicker down to his hands, his left one in particular. Where's his wedding ring? Yoongi always wears it no matter what. The same sick feeling from before returns tenfold. No wonder that Ms. Cho was all over himâshe must have thought he was single.
âNo, I didnât get to lie down Yoongi. I worked all day, came home and made dinner, called the cable guy to get that stupid bill figured out, and now Iâm doing the second load of laundry. Iâm really just not in the mood to chat.â It comes out a blur as you snatch the empty laundry basket and head for your washer and dryer, your eyes welling up with tears.
â__, wait.â Yoongi tosses the last pillow near the headboard and stops you in your tracks, his hand firmly gripping one end of the laundry basket. The intensity of his stare softens as he speaks. âI'm sorry if it seems like I'm forcing you to talk. I know you've been losing a lot of sleep recently between work, Jia, and upkeeping the house. We just don't get a lot of time to see each other anymore and I miss youâŚI miss talking to you."
With every ounce of self-control remaining, you hold back any tears that risk spilling out. You don't know why you're acting like this, why you're crying over something that seems so small and insignificant to the rest of the world. Yoongi loves you. He's said it a million times and proven it to you over and over again, for eight years now. He wouldnât cheat on you, yet you still get so worked up about the idea that someone could take him away from you. Someone half your age, more attractive, or hell even the opposite sex if it means fewer dark circles under their eyes.
"Why- why aren't you wearing your ring?" Your naturally confident voice dwindles to the whisper of a mouse. It's completely out of character, nevertheless, here you are.
"I..." Your husband's voice wavers. His gaze flickers to his left hand, where his ring should be, but isn't. "Shit...I took it off in the shower this morning," he confesses, frustrated by his forgetfulness. "I was in such a rush to get Jia to daycare, and me to work, that it completely slipped my mind. I'm sorryâI fully intended to put it back on." He pauses, then perks up. "It's still in the bathroom. I'll be right back, okay?"
You watch as he makes a beeline for the master bathroom, eager to rectify the situation as soon as possible. You should have kept silent what you say next, but you don't.
"No wonder the moms at Jia's daycare were so drawn to you."
"What?" Yoongi stops in his tracks. The dumbfounded expression on his face tells you that you've caught him off guard again.
"Jia told me about someone named Ms. Cho," you reluctantly continue. "The two of you were laughing and talking andâ"
"Baby, don't worry about that." Seizing his chance, your husband walks back over to you and sneakily pulls the laundry basket from under your arm. He sets it on the ground after, then reaches to take your hand in his, but stubbornly you cross your arms.
"Her name's Sandra," he starts explaining. "She's a new mom at the daycare and she didn't know anyone, so she started talking to me. I got the sense she was a little overly friendly but it was all small talk, nothing more."
Still largely unsatisfied, you remain unmoved. "If it wasn't a big deal then why didn't you tell me earlier?"
"Because nothing serious happened. The majority of the conversation was her venting about her ex-husband and me wishing you were right there next to me. Please believe me. All I could think about was finally being able to come home to you after a long week with Jia in our arms."
"Really?" Well, now you're feeling guilty for avoiding him in nearly every way tonight. Guilty for believing such wild assumptions that he'd leave you for someone else over one measly conversation. Guilty for letting yourself get so worked up over a situation you, quite frankly, knew few details about.
"I mean it doll." This time, when he reaches out to grasp your wrist, he succeeds. He intertwines his fingers with yours and leads you to the edge of your bed, gently pulling you down to sit on his lap. "Do you really think I could look at anyone else the way I look at you? Or think about you the way I have for the last eight-plus years we've been married and known each other?"
You hesitate your answer, averting his eye contact. "I know butâŚ"
"No, don't finish that. Look at me," he intercepts. "You and our daughter are the only women on my mindâ24/7. I can't get either of you out of my head and I don't want to. I'm so sorry I forgot to put my wedding band back on this morning, and again tonight. I feel awful about it and I'll be more careful from now on. And another thing, when Sandra and I were talking I mentioned you multiple times. So, it's clear to her that I'm a happily married man."
The last bit of information manages to perk your ears. "You talked about me?" Your eyes widen as you finally shift your full attention to him. Yoongi eyes widen with you, amused by your sudden change of heart to look at him.
"I said my wife is an amazing mother, works too hard for her own good, and needed to rest today. Give or take a few words."
That's all? You huff to yourself. Would it been nice if your husband also thrown in that you were beautiful or stunning in that mix of compliments? Yes, yes it would haveâagain, you're pettiness clouds your better judgment. You're not as pissed off as before, but rather semi-irritated.
"OkayâŚwell I guess it's fine then. I'm sorry for being short with you earlier. I shouldn't have made those rash conclusions about the ring and that woman from the daycare. It wasn't reasonable of me." You get up from his lap, yet Yoongi isn't entirely convinced that you're okay.
"There's still something you're not telling me. I can tell."
"No, there's nothing else." You waive him off, placing your hand on your bedroom doorknob "You told her you had a wife so it's fine. I need to switch the second load of laundry.â
"Come on, doll. Let's not leave things unsaid now."
Sighing at his plead, you find yourself giving into all your repressed thoughts and emotions. It swallows you up, like a tidal wave you can't stop. "Look at me Yoon. I'm sweaty, I have dark circles under my eyes, stretch marks, love handles, my hair's a mess, and all I wear are old sweats covered in stains. I'm nothing like I used to be! No wonder we aren't intimate anymore."
Yoongi rises from the bed at once, offended by the sudden digression. "Is that what this is all about? Itâs not even about that single mom from daycare is it?" The truth of the matter sinks in as he speaks.
"I guess maybe soâŚthough I'm still annoyed about that too." Great, you're back to square one again.
"Come with me, I need to show you something." Your husband gestures you to follow him, which you slowly concede to.
"What are you doing Yoon?" You both walk into the master bathroom, stopping in front of the large mirror above the sink.
"I'm showing you the woman I'm in love with and have been in love with for nearly eight years now. Sweats and all." Yoongi makes you face the mirror directly, hands around your shoulders. You have trouble stomaching the sight.
"Yoongi please, I can't. The laundry ringing off." You avoid looking into the mirror and make a move to leave the bathroom.
"Just stay with me a minute, please?" Your husband refuses to loosen his hold on you, turning your body so you're looking eye to eye. "No, you're not the same person as you were and neither am I. We're parents to a beautiful daughter now, who we love and adore. We're also overtired 90% of the time, juggling a million things at once. But there's one thing you can count on to always stay the sameâmy loyalty to you. I'll always be in love with you __, no matter what age you are or however way you look. There's nothing you can do to change that, so why fight it?"
Dammit. A single tear rolls down your cheek as you take in his heart-melting speech. It's not his words alone, it's the sincerity behind them. How he's repeated similar countless times before throughout your entire relationship.
"I love you, Yoon..." you choke out the words, composure fleeting.
"I love you so much, doll." He wipes the wetness of your tear with his thumb. "As far as us not being as intimate anymore, that's my fault. I don't ever want you to feel like I don't desire you every day. Why don't we send the kid to my parents this weekend and let me start making things right hmm?"
"I don't know if we can this weekend. Jia has a playdate on Saturday."
"So, I'll ask Mom to take her. She'll be happy to, trust me. We can finally watch that movie you've been dying to show me since what? December?"
"You're serious?" Your eyes light up at the mention of what is essentially a movie date. The show Yoongi's referring to is one you've been craving to see for months, yet neither of you has found the time to watch. "I've been talking about it for so long, Yoon."
"I know you have, it's why I suggested it. I've been wanting to watch it too with all the trailers you keep sending me. Plus, I'll be able to keep my beautiful wife in my arms for over two hours. That's a lot for us, especially with you being such a busy bee. I can never get you to light in one place! What's up with that, huh?"
Feeling your natural self re-emerging, you throw a playful swat to his arm and scowl at his teasing comment. "You're one to talk! You're basically a workaholic! Besides, you knew who you were marrying when you met me."
Yoongi chuckles and brings both hands to cup your cheeks, squishing them slightly. "A cutie who reads 800-page novels at a basketball game?"
"Stop babying me!" You pull his hands off your cheeks and rub them, trying to regain some composure. "I don't regret my choices, I like books. It's why I'm such a boss at work!"
"Okay, boss," he laughs. "What about what I suggested before then? I can call Mom tomorrow and ask her if she could watch Jia for the day. She'll take her to her playdate, then they can spend the rest of the day together."
It does sound nice, having the whole day with your husband.
"Okay," you agree. "Let's try."
"Good." Yoongi slides his hands down to your hips and pulls you flush against his chest. "How about we seal it with a kiss now?" You nod and he leans his head down, pressing an amazing, tender kiss to your lips. It makes you both giddy on queue.
"Read one more story, Daddy!" Jia leaps off her small, twin bed and bounds for her bookshelf. She lets out a series of giggles when a large pair of hands catch her, lifting her high into the air.
"I already read you three books kid," Yoongi says, planting a kiss on her cheek. "Bedtime." He then tucks her into her fluffy comforter, plugs in her teddy bear nightlight, and closes her bedroom door.
The next second, Jia comes running out of her room, latching onto his right leg. "I don't wanna go to bed. I wanna play!" Figures she'd be hyper at this hour.
Yoongi sighs and picks her up. "Daddy told you to go to sleep, it's not playtime. You'll have lots of time for that tomorrow when you get to see your friend." He then carries her into her room, yet she fusses in his arms; thumping her tiny fists into his chest.
"No, no, no, Daddy. I want to play!"
Sighing, Yoongi looks at his child with sharp eyes. "Jiaâ"
"Hey," you interrupt, entering your daughter's bedroom upon hearing the commotion down the hall. "What's going on?"
"Kid doesn't want to go to bed."
You give an empathetic look and saunter over to the pair, gently taking Jia into your arms. Yoongi places his hands on his hips as he watches you reason with your daughter.
"Jia, you know tomorrow's a big day right? You and Sana are going to go to the playground together." The child nods. "You don't want to be tired when you're playing do you?"
"No..." She shakes her head. "I want to be awake!"
"Then you need to listen to Daddy and go to sleep. That way you'll be full of energy tomorrow when you and Sana go on the swings or slide down all the big slides." You smile as Jia starts rubbing her drowsy eyes, yawning in the process.
"But I...okay," she slowly concedes, eyes fluttering shut as she gives into her sleepy state. Unsurprising to you and Yoongi, she was tired all along. But like most kids, hated going to bed.
"See?" You lay Jia in her bed and pull the covers up near her chin, giving her a light kiss on the side of her head. Yoongi bends down and does the same after you. "You just gotta talk to her a little, she'll typically fall asleep on her own."
"But I read her three of her favorite books." Yoongi shuts off the overhead light, along with the door to Jia's room, and follows you to your bedroom.
"That's different Yoon," you argue back. "Books excite her."
"She takes after you that way then." Yoongi pulls his t-shirt off, leaving him bare-chested, and climbs onto his side of the bed. You join him shortly after with your head resting on his chest and an arm thrown around his waist.
"I'm so exhausted," you yawn.
"Go to sleep, baby. I'm right here." Your husband places a hand over your wrapped arm, sending you off into a deep slumber.
Well this is just ironic. Almost 2 A.M. and you're wide awake.
What initially started as a nice, relaxing dream quickly turned into a terrible nightmare. In the dream, you woke up alone. Yoongi was gone. Jia was gone too. You can't exactly make sense of it, except for a vague memory of Jia calling another woman 'Mom'. You couldn't see her face very well, so it could've been anyone. You couldn't speak either, so even when you tried approaching the three, they couldn't hear you. You've had nightmares plenty of times, but this one is new. It's a clear projection of all the underlying concerns upheaved from earlier; insecurities, abandonment, loss, and it has you unsettled.
You glance over to your husband's side of the bed. He's fast asleep, no longer cuddling you due to you both flip-flopping in your sleep. You decide to slide closer to him, needing to watch him for a while. It might sound weird, but you love watching him sleep. He's so handsome and you feel a great deal of comfort doing so. Maybe if he was awake, you'd tell him about what you dreamt. Then again...maybe not.
"I love you Yoon," you whisper as quietly as you can, tracing his every facial feature with your eyes.
"'m, I love you too."
Is he-was he awake? As if caught red-handed, you quickly flit your face away in favor of the blank ceiling above. You weren't expecting him to answer at all, and in such a hoarse voice too. You're a little turned on by it to be honest.
"Can't sleep?" he speaks up again, eyes still closed.
"No, I''ll be okay though. You can go back to sleep. Don't worry."
He grunts, a tad unhappy with your dismissal of him. "Do you want to talk about it? Your dream?"
You whip your head in his direction. "Howâ" You pause, seeing his eyes blink open.
"I didn't meet you just yesterday, doll. I know they keep you up. Just know, I'm always here okay? Always." He reaches for you with delicate fingers as he continues. "Now, come here. Seems we got separated in our sleep."
You accept the offer and cuddle into him again. This time your noses nearly touch and his arm wraps around your lower waist. You feel the growing urge to kiss him, wanting to forget your nightmare entirely. But perhaps silly, you ask permission first, seeing as he's close to drifting off again.
"Yoon?"
"Mm."
"Can we kiss?" Your cheeks flush a little at the request. Why are you acting like this? You've been married for years.
"Sure, 'm tired but I could go for a make-out right now." A small smirk graces his lips as he teases you. You give him a classic 'Yoongi!' in reply. "I'm kidding. You don't ever have to ask me that," he finishes.
"Hmm, maybe I don't want a kiss anymore." You feign stubbornness, just to see his response. And a response he gives you, more than you're prepared for.
"You're ridiculous," he grumbles, capturing your lips in one fell swoop. He moves his lips against yours as the hand on your waist grips tighter. The tiniest of moans escapes your lips.
You attempt to break the kiss first, thinking it will only last for a few seconds. Yet Yoongi slips a hand behind your neck to bring you into another kiss. One that's deeper than the last. You feel your breath being taken away little by little, especially when his tongue licks into your mouth. God, you haven't kissed like this in an eternity. A wetness soon gathers between your thighs.
"'m, Yoon," you gasp when his cool fingers sneakily make their way under your shirt, tickling your bare skin. They travel the expanse of your waist, stomach, and up along your back. "So cold."
Yoongi pulls away from the kiss and retracts his fingers. He then lazily moves his body until his chest hovers over your own, rolling you on your back in the process. He's a bit of a blur due to the dimness of the room, yet you can see the whites of his eyes a bit better than before.
"Help me warm them then," he says, folding his hands on top of yours from where they rest on your stomach. "You're really burning up, doll."
His observation is right. Ever since you woke up, you're body's been hotter than normal. The stress is clear and it's only increasing due to the unexpected turn of tonight's events; your husband seemingly wanting to make love to you in the middle of the night.
"So I am," you reply, staring straight into his eyes. "Must be because of all the sudden surprises today. My body's finally responding to it all."
Yoongi nods, following your implication. "Well let's do something to calm it down, shall we?" He waits for your final go before making any abrupt movements.
"But...you haven't seen meâ"
"Naked in a while?" he predicts your next words, unfazed. "I've seen it all, each time better than the last because I love you. You're beautiful to me, no matter what. Let me love you __. I've missed you. I've missed us."
"Okay...please," you sigh, desperately needing his touch. "It's been so long since we've been this close."
Neither of you has it in you to delay another second as you dive into another fiery kiss, your hands wandering up and down each other's bodies. You love his hair the most, so you run your fingers through it repeatedly. Your husband's soft grunts remind you that it's as pleasurable for him as it is for you, and as if to counter, he latches his lips to the curve of your neck.
"Yoon," you moan, shivering at the feeling of being peppered in open-mouth kisses. Your eyes automatically roll up as well.
Yoongi nips at your jaw next, featherlike, yet deadly to you nevertheless. He doesn't allow himself to linger more than a second, though, preferring to keep you on your toes. So with careful fingers, he begins lifting the bottom of your shirt.
"Can I?"
You hum in approval and lean forward for him to remove it.
With your nipples now exposed to the brisk air, stiffening due to arousal, Yoongi brings both his hands up to caress your boobs. He's incredibly gentle, telling you how beautiful you are once again until his thumbs start circling your peaked nipples. A rush of sensation shoots up your spine as he rolls them harder, flicking them once in a while.
"Fuck," you swear.
"Feeling good?"
All you do is nod fervently in response, which Yoongi takes as his signal to lower his head to your chest. He squeezes both breasts in his hand before wrapping his mouth around a nipple, licking and sucking relentlessly. He repeats the same to the other.
"Yoongi, I need you. Please." You're core tightens, thighs struggling not to rub together, as you plead with your husband to relieve you. You are so wet and getting wetter.
"I'm here, doll, I got you. Fingers first hm?"
He pushes part of the comforter towards the foot of the bed, then gestures for you to raise your butt. Any shred of mystery of how worked up he's gotten you slip away as he pulls your underwear and pants down your legs. They both get tossed on the floor, per usual.
Bare pussy exposed, Yoongi guides your legs further apart and brings a hand down to your entrance. One of his long, slender fingers traces up your folds so smoothly that you buck your hips upon the touch. He smiles lightly at the subtle response, pleased that you're finally enjoying yourself; too often you put your needs last. His finger slowly sinks into your well-lubricated pussy, velvety walls clenching around it.
"Oh, g-god," you give a shaky moan as his finger pumps and curls in you, stimulating your g-spot. "Need you now, Yoon, so bad."
"Mm not yet, we need to stretch you out. You haven't taken me for a good three or four weeks," he smirks at your eagerness, sliding a second finger next to the first. "This pussy is drenched but not enough. I need you to come. Can you do that for me?"
Fast, quick movements follow suit as your husband works you up to an orgasm. Oh fuck, oh fuck, you chant in near whines. Your pussy is spasming around him, walls tightening with each push and pull. You know when he draws his hand out that it's covered with your come. Messy, sex is messy and both of you are too far gone to care; the pleasure sweeping over you.
Finally, in what feels like an endless tease, you have your first orgasm of the night. You feel your body relaxing into the mattress again, yet your breath remains short. Yoongi, on the other hand, groans seeing your release dripping down your thighs and onto the sheets. For a split second, there's a slight darkening in his eyes while he takes in your post-orgasmic form. The two fingers that had been inside you are sensually brought to his lips, slipping between the seam before being cleaned off.
You're taken aback by the action, though you've witnessed it before. Something about watching your husband willingly follow through with a gesture so lewd makes your head spinâyou want him to fuck you right this instant. He must share the same feeling because you don't even need to sound the words due to his hands already making quick work of his pants.
"You drive me mad, you know that? Can never get a break with how sweet you taste. Your lips, your come. All of it makes me go mad." His full length comes in view, hard and tip leaking with pre-cum. You try not to let yourself stare at the thickness but hell, you must've forgotten the extent of your husband's size. You don't remember it being this big before.
"Well," you gulp. "You're not making it easy on me either, looking like this."
Yoongi climbs over to you again, settling into a straddled position, and looks deep into your eyes. "Who's fault do you think that is?"
"It's your fault." You bend your legs and wrap them around his mid-section. You can feel the tip of his cock tease at your entrance. The anticipation is beyond grueling.
"No," he says, aligning himself up to your weeping hole. "it's yours." He then thrusts his hips forward, his length sinking into you so perfectly it has you completely satisfied.
"Y-Yours," you whimper out, unable to form a steady sentence.
"Fine." He picks up his pace. "Let's just agree we both fuck each other up on a daily---ah fuck!" Yoongi growls and gives you a suspicious look when he feels your pussy suddenly clench around his length.
"I didn't do it on purpose this time! You're fucking me too good is all."
"Really? You're not just teasing me?"
Yoongi is slow to believe since you've purposefully clenched countless times before, simply out of playfulness. Tonight is different than those nights though because you're telling the truthâhe's truly fucking you so good.
"What the hell," he concedes. "You feel so fucking fantastic, I don't even care." He continues his movements, thrusting into you with deep groans and labored breaths. His fingers grip the mattress harder with the veins in his neck bulging out.
Both your bodies move in sync as the familiar sound of skin slapping on skin echoes off the walls of your bedroom. You do your best to keep your moans low, not wanting to risk waking up your daughter.
"Yoon, fuck! I need to come, it's gonna-fuck-happen soon," you swear, pussy throbbing at the feeling of being so full after weeks of abstinence. You can tell you're reaching your high with the bundle of nerves in your core threatening to snap at any given moment.
Of course, you're wet too, extremely wet.
"I'm. Nearly. There." He barely sounds the words out, jaw clenching. "Just another minute, and we can finish together."
Your eyes, which haven't left his since he entered you, begin to glass over with tears. It's overwhelming; his love for you. No matter the doubts that tell you the opposite, you can't give in to their ugly lies. You'll continue to struggle, naturally, but you won't ever let them win. Yoongi's never once given up on you, and neither should you.
"I love you, Yoon...I love you with all my soul," you choke the words, falling apart all at once. "I'm sorry for today. How jealous and irrational I got."
"Don't apologize, doll. I shouldn't have let it go so far, our lack of intimacy and alone time. I promise we're going to make it all right okay?"
Giving you one last thrust, you both have your release at the same time. Yoongi helps ride your orgasm out by lazily continuing to grind into you. Yeah, you might need to shower and switch out the sheets after tonight, but you don't regret it one bit.
"In all seriousness baby," Yoongi speaks up, guiding your legs back on the soft mattress until youâre comfortable. "Don't feel like you have to apologize for everything. I understand your feelings and where you were coming from. I will say, the silent treatment kills me though. I'd rather you yell at me than not talk to me at all."
"It's not easy for me to raise my voice like that, Yoon." You throw your arms around his neck and sigh softly. "But I can try talking to you more, or at least tell you I need some time to process before I'm ready to have a conversation. I don't know, am I making sense?"
"Plenty of sense. I'll share more about my day with you and who I'm talking to as well. We'll also carve out time to have together. I love our daughter, but I don't see the harm in reaching out to our friends and family to babysit once in a while."
"Well, this sounds good to me," you hum.
"Me too." Yoongi smiles wide and goes in for another warm kiss. Your eyes flutter shut in unison.
This is what love feels like.
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helloo could i request a cregan stark x reader? Where the reader has the ability to see the future or possible outcomes? I hope it isnt to bad of a ideađ
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-Cregan Stark x Dreamer!Reader
{Your dreams are often plagued by nightmares of events that are yet to unfold, Cregan is always there to hold you}
Love this! Thank you for requesting, enjoy loveliesđ
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It was not lost on Cregan Stark that Rhaenyraâs daughter was⌠unique to say the least. It was known way before your engagement was planned, a quiet ceremony hidden away in the woods near Winterfell, it seems love still prevails even through war.
Although this never deterred Cregan, he was utterly head over heels for you yet confused at the same time whenever you would whisper cryptic insanities into the cold night air with wide fearful eyes full of knowledge about events that loom over the horizon like dark storm clouds.
He would spend hours brushing your white hair, speaking gentle, loving words against your shoulder when your mind seemed to have wandered too far from your grasp.
He was just as lost as you were when it came to figuring out what exactly it all meant and the Maesters were no help, especially on nights like this when you were awoken by such horrific sights that infest your mind.
âAliments of the mind are far more trickier than those of the body, my Lord.â Maester Owryn says, still adamant about just giving you tea to help you sleep.
His words only serve to annoy an already exhausted Cregan, he canât count how many times he has been told the same thing with a look of pity. It killed him that he could not provide you with more comfort, he cannot help but feel as if he has failed you.
âDo you see her, do you?â itâll take more than damn tea to calm her from this.â Cregan scolds, looking down at the Maester with dark narrowed eyes. He glances back over to where you are curled up on a chair, your fingers buried within your messy locks, clutching harshly as you mutter the same words over and over again.
The Maester shuffles, fiddling with the small piece of parchment, his brows pulled together in confusion. âMight I suggest milk of the poppy?â He whispers, clearly unnerved by the glare that Cregan was scrutinising him under.
âNo, bring her the tea.â The Lord settles, his tone rough with irritation. He did not want to subject you to the horrible drowsiness that the sweet milk brings, numbing your mind was not the answer.
With the Maester gone Cregan tries once more to approach you, drawing closer to you like he would with a wounded animal, he wraps his fingers around your wrists in an attempt to stop you from pulling at your hair, his touch is gentle despite the callouses on his palms.
âNot so hard my love⌠youâll hurt yourself.â He whispers, eyes searching your face desperately for any signs of the woman you were before you woke up from this nightmare.
Although he finds nothing of the sort, you are all glossy-eyed and chapped lips, blankly staring at the floor like you were miles away.
A moment of silence settles around the room, the sound of your heavy breathing and the soft crackle of firewood is the only thing breaking through it. It takes a few moments and soft words of encouragement before you allow him to lower your hands down to your lap, your fingers still clutched tightly into fists.
âDragon breath⌠burning flesh.â You whisper fearfully, a gasp escaping past your red-bitten lips. The same words youâve been muttering all night, it unsettles him, calling to something deep within him.
Cregan hums, brushing your messy hair behind your ears. âI know my love.â He sighs, grazing the rough pads of his thumbs across your knuckles.
âCome back to me y/n, come onâŚâ he whispers into the backs of your hands, closing his eyes as you continue to whisper the words madly.
The mumblings stop, your breathing coming back down into a steady rhythm as you begin to unclench your fists slowly. Relief hits Cregan like a gust of wind, his expression softening when your gaze meets with his own.
â⌠burning⌠bedevilled crown.â You try to explain to him all too quickly, stuttering over your words in a panic-stricken manner. Your hands trembling against his own rough ones.
âSlowly now, breathe for me first, my love.â He whispers, reaching over to cup your jaw to keep you grounded on the here and now, his thumb caressing your cheek.
Your senses soon come back to you making you aware of your surroundings, the softness of your nightgown and the warmth of your husbandâs hand against the side of your face.
The Maester walks in with a small cup of soothing tea, placing the ceramic down on the dark oak table before taking his leave with a curt nod. The herbal aroma brings you into the present moment, keeping your mind occupied.
You watch with tired eyes as he gives you the cup, minding the way your hands still shake ever so slightly. He guides you to take small sips, smiling gently in encouragement.
âThere were two, but I could not seeâ the smoke and flamesâ screams.â The words are a struggle to get out and it pains him to see you like this, the pain and fear in your eyes.
Your words are too vague to try and make any sense of them, after all, it was a war between Targaryens, and the involvement of dragons and their formidable flames was inevitable.
âI want to stop it⌠to prevent the pain but I do not know how.â You whisper, voice strained with unshed tears.
âThat may be beyond you. I wonât have you shouldering blame for anything that transpires.â He says, his tone full of love despite the roughness of it.
You nod softly, looking down at him from where he is kneeling in front of you. The soft glow of the fireplace flickers against his features, highlighting the exhaustion that hangs below his eyes.
âYou can go back to sleepâŚâ you suggest softly, clearly feeling too shaken up to go back to bed.
At your words he immediately shakes his head, taking your hands to pepper gentle kisses along your knuckles, his beard tickling your soft skin. âNot until youâre okayâŚâ
You know there is no point in arguing the point, he is as stubborn as a mule. Instead, you shuffle over, giving him room to sit down next to you. The warmth between you, as he pulls you onto his lap, calms the restlessness that has built up within your chest, allowing you a moment of respite.
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Fem reader with billie! She does another vaniety fair interview and they ask her if she's in a relationship and she talks about being in a relationship with a woman for the first time (us)â¤ď¸
the same interview
Billie Eilish x fem!reader
summary â billie talks about you in her interview.
warnings â fluffy
word count â 369.
a/n â Thank you for the request and sorry for the delay đ
I intended to follow the entire interview but gave up halfway hahah
English is not my first language so there may be some errors.
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Sitting in the chair and watching Billie prepare for the interview, you feel happy to be accompanying her this time. You've been in a relationship for exactly one year, and whenever you can, you accompany Billie to her interviews. This is one you managed to attend. The same interview she does every year for Vanity Fair.
"This thing is huge." Billie says, holding the clapperboard. "Doing this again." she sings, smiling, and taps the top of the clapperboard.
Smiling softly at her when she glances at you, you blow her a kiss, which she pretends to catch in the air and places her hand on her heart, smiling at you.
What's your name?
"My name is Billie Eilish," She says, smiling at the camera. "October 18, 2024."
How old are you?
"Twenty-two."
How many Instagram followers do you have?
"One hundred and nineteen million Instagram followers."
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Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend now?
"Yes, I do, actually." She says, slightly embarrassed and with a huge smile on her face. "I am so excited and happy about it. I mean, it's my first official relationship with a girl, and we're out to the public, and man, she's amazing. Have you seen her? She's like the most beautiful girl in the world." She says, looking from the camera to you, and you just smile emotionally and mostly happy because Billie makes you the happiest person. "And I got her, all by myself." She says passionately. "At the moment, she is the most important person to me, she is my world now. I love you, baby."
"I love you too." You say softly to her, but you know she heard. Billie smiles and turns to continue the interview.
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When the interview ends, Billie gets up from the chair, and you practically jump from yours to run into her arms, hugging her and pressing your lips against hers in a kiss full of love.
"I love you. God, I love you so much, Billie. You literally make me the happiest person in the world." You tell her, looking into her eyes.
"The same, princess, I love you so much." Billie says, leaving one last kiss on your lips before you both leave.
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Faking It | Jeon Jungkook | Chapter One
Summary: Being divorced by the time you're thirty isn't the best feeling in the world but what happens when your parents find someone from your past that's in a similar boat? Pairing: f!reader (30) x Single Dad Jungkook (33) (Arranged Marriage Slow Burn?) Word Count: 11.3k (oh man holy shit) Warnings: Troubles with conceiving/seeing pregnancies to full term, Jungkook's first wife passed away in childbirth. (These themes will be spoken about throughout the fic and I will add extra warnings when need be in future chapters) a/n: Okay this one is gonna be a long one (in terms of chapter length, idk how many parts there will be) I'm really really in love with this story line so I hope you'll come along this cute, silly, awkward, heartwarming and heartbreaking journey with me 𼰠p.s. I've been brainstorming with @kkusadmirer (ofc đ¤) about this fic for a while now and I've just fallen in love with these characters too much that I had to get at least one part out. Okay okay enough from me. I hope you enjoy! (barely edited per usual I'm sry đ
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"You should start dating again" my mom says to me, a dinner with a table for two this time since she said she wanted to talk to me about something important. If I would've known it was to nag me about something like this again I would've declined the invitation.
"Mom I already told you, I just got divo-" "You got divorced last year" she cuts me off and I sigh, knowing I'll probably get no where with this argument but continue on nevertheless.
"Point being, it hasn't been that long since Robert and I got divorced. I need time and space to figure out what I want out of life. I'm not interested in rushing into another marriage just for it to fail again" I explain and she simply downs the rest of her champagne in response, polishing it off in record time.
"You don't want to end up an old maid who didn't give me any grandchildren do you?" she says, repeating the same old argument again. "Mom I'm thirty, not forty five. I still have plenty of time to worry about babies and getting married again" I argue and she rolls her eyes before asking for another glass when the waiter passes by.
"You should at least try. Don't you like going out on dates?" she asks and I sigh, hating having this conversation over and over again.
"Dating was fun in my twenties but now that I'm more interested in finding someone to settle down with, it seems like all the guys that are remotely my age and happen to be decent human beings are already married" I explain and watch how she immediately takes her glass of champagne off the table once it's placed in front of her.
I'm glad she's drinking because having this conversation with her when she's sober is even more painful.
"You're exaggerating honey. I'm sure there is a fine young man just waiting for you around the corner" but before I'm able to respond to her, her eyes suddenly light up and she quickly gets out of her seat.
"Is it really you?" she says and another woman around her age that I've never seen before comes up to greet her. "How are you? It's been so long!" the mystery woman says and they quickly share an embrace before she turns to face me.
"And who is this beautiful young woman here with you?" she asks, making me shy away from them. "Oh this is my daughter y/n. Y/n this is Mrs. Jeon" she introduces us and tells me all about how they used to go to college together.
"Oh wow I think I remember my mom mentioning you before. You used to come over when I was little right?" I question, now remembering seeing her face in some of the pictures in my baby album.
"That's right! Little Jungkook and I used to come visit you all the time when you were just a teeny tiny little thing. You were the easiest baby I've ever come across, always sleeping and when you woke up you were as happy as can be" she rambles and I get a warm feeling in my chest, loving to have met someone who clearly cared so deeply for my mother and I.
"Who's Jungkook" I ask, looking back and forth between the two of them. "Jungkook is my son, he's just a few years older than you. I remember he was so fascinated by you, always wanting to come over and would watch over you as you slept, never causing a fuss as long as you were around" she says and I blush at the fact that her son would care about me just as much if not more than she does.
"How is he? Is he doing alright?" my mother asks and Mrs. Jeon gets a somber look on her face eyes fluttering to the floor before responding.
"Actually, he lost his wife a few years ago. She passed away after she gave birth to their daughter" she mumbles and I feel my chest tighten up at the thought of someone so young losing their life to something that is supposed to be so beautiful.
"My condolences to you all" I say, my eyes going glossy and she smiles in return, the memory bringing a tear to her eye as well. "Thank you love, that's very kind of you" she says, placing a hand on my shoulder before she clears her throat and blinks back her tears, wanting to put on a brave face in public.
"Why don't you come visit us at our home tomorrow evening? I would love to catch up and it would be good if the kids got reacquainted again" my mother suggests and I glare at her, knowing exactly what she's doing but also knowing there's no way I could stop her.Â
"I would love that! Our husbands might enjoy catching up too since they used to get along so well" Mrs. Jeon points out. "Then it's settled! How would you feel about making it a dinner instead?" my mother questions, digging us deeper into this evening we'll all be spending together. "I think that sounds perfect!" she agrees and I tune out the rest of the conversation, already trying to mentally prepare myself for the scheming I know my mother has planned.
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Kicking off my shoes and walking into my apartment I'm greeted by the serene sound of silence.Â
My black tuxedo cat meows as he jumps down from his cat tower and stretches for a second before coming over to greet me. "Hi Salem" I say, scooping him up and carrying him with me into my bedroom where I plop him down in the middle of my bed. "Mom only invited me to dinner because she wanted to tell me to start dating again" I relay to him, while I walk around my room, grabbing all the things I'll need to get ready for bed.
"I should've known she was up to something when she decided to invite me out on a random Wednesday night to go to my favorite restaurant. If the previous glances I had of the totals on those receipts didn't clue me in enough I don't know what would" I say in disbelief, having convinced myself hours earlier that it might've been about something good instead of another chance to nag me about something.
"I don't know why I even bother sometimes. She just has this worst case scenario mindset that I'm going to die alone and not leave a legacy. I understand that I'm their only child but with the way she talks, you would think I was well into my forties already" I say, verbally processing to him while he curls up into a ball, his eyes watch me walk back and forth until I walk into the en-suite bathroom to turn on the shower.
"Thanks for always listening to me Salem" I say, walking back over to him and scratching his head, "Don't know what I would do without you" I mumble before walking back over to the bathroom and closing the door.
Looking in the mirror I study my features, my hair styled just how I like it, my brows perfectly shaped but when I get to my eyes I notice it. I notice why my mother has gotten so worried about me.
It's as if the light's gone out of them. It's more than just 'Hey it's been a long day and I'm tired' no it's 'I don't even know what I'm doing here anymore' and for the first time, I admit to myself that I truly feel that way.
I reach for my cleanser and quickly wash off the little makeup that I still have on, lips completely plain and gone back to their natural color and some how my cheeks don't seem to be as rosy anymore after I had made sure to put on some more blush today to bring some color back to my face. Maybe it's not the makeup that's been washing me out, but the way that I've been living.
I will admit my days consist of going to work and coming home and doing that same thing over and over again. I don't really go out much and I only have a few friends but ever since I got divorced I just end up politely declining any sort of invitation I get from them. Doesn't matter if it's dinner or drinks or clubbing or even just a shopping trip.
I just can't get myself wanting to do anything anymore.
I step into the shower and I flinch slightly at the burning sensation the hot water brings to me but adjust it and step further under the stream once it's just to my liking. While going though my shower routine mindlessly I start trying to get to the bottom of what has got me living like this.
Robert wasn't the best husband in the world, mainly because he cheated on me but before that things were good between us. He made me laugh and was a perfect gentleman that always made me feel special and when we got married I swear I thought I couldn't be happier.Â
It felt like my life was falling into place, our life.
Until it wasn't.
I'm knocked out of my train of thought when I hear Salem pawing at the door and remember now that in my whirl winded state of mind I forgot to feed him. "Sorry Salem I'll be right out!" I call out for him and he meows in response. I swear that cat is more intelligent than I am most days.
I finish up my uninteresting night as I always do, turning out the lights and cuddling up with Salem until I eventually fall asleep but it took a little longer tonight. Thoughts full of what my future might look like if I don't start living instead of just existing.Â
As the 'what ifs' plague my mind they eventually drown themselves out as that same welcoming feeling of calm finally lulls me to sleep.Â
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"Hurry up they're almost here" my mother says, yanking me inside the house before I even have a chance to knock on the front door. "Nice to see you too mom" I say under my breath and she's wound up so tight it doesn't even phase her. I can tell she's been working hard to make sure everything is perfect once the Jeons arrive.
"Did you get that wine I told you to get?" she questions, her eyes lighting up at the sight of the wine bottle carrier in my hand, quickly taking it and rushing into the kitchen. "Yeah no problem mom you're welcome" I say, talking to the air in front of me still waiting for her to show any sign of gratitude.
"Go place your things in your old room so they're out of the way" she call out, leaving me sighing and trudging off to do as she says.
Once I retrace my steps and walk past the door to go to join her in the kitchen I'm stopped in my tracks when the doorbell rings.
"Oh honey can you get that? My hands are tied here" my mom yells and I take a deep breath in and out before doing just that.
"Hello y/n! It's so nice to see you again" Mrs. Jeon greets me as I step aside and let them in, soon after her is her husband who holds out his hand in greeting. "It's been quiet a long time hasn't it? I remember when you use to be-" "Grandpa! Grandpa! I wanna meet the pretty lady too!" a little girl no older than five years old says, walking around her grandfather's legs to get to me, greeting me with the most adorable bunny smile.
"And now who might this be?" I ask, already melting into a puddle from seeing how absolutely adorable she is. "I'm Juni" she laughs when I go down to her level. "Well it's very nice to meet you Juni and how old are you?" I ask and she lights up when I continue taking an interest in her. "I'm four! Well Daddy says I'm turning five soon but it feels like it's taking forever. Right Daddy?" she says and looks back towards the man now left standing in the doorway.
"That's right Juni" he responds and the deep tenor of his voice sends a slight shiver down my spine, so full of love and admiration that is obvious to anyone who might come across the pair. "Oh!" I say, quickly straightening back up to meet this mysterious Jungkook and my throat goes dry once I've laid eyes on him.
Tall, strong build, dark brown hair that's well taken care of and styled perfectly, strong jawline accompanied by the contrast of the softest look in his brown almost black galaxy eyes that are still focused on his beautiful daughter.
"I'm sorry" I say but he shakes his head before he turns his head in my direction, taking in the sight of me as well before speaking. "That's alright, Juni kind of grabs everyone's attention right away" he says giving me a soft smile. "I'm Jungkook" he says, holding his hand out to me. "Y/n" I say shyly and shake it, his hands being much larger than mine is comforting in a way.
"My mom told me we used to come see you when we still lived here" he says once we let go, Juni now quietly watching our exchange. "Used to?" I question, curious to know more about why our mothers had lost touch. "We went back to our hometown for a while and then moved back to the city soon after Juni was born" he says and I nod my head, accepting that as an answer for now but wanting to know more.
"Sounds like I was just an infant though so I don't really have any memory of it" I admit while rocking back and forth on my heels, a nervous habit I've picked up over the years. "It's alright, I didn't expect you to remember" he chuckles, "I was only three so I don't remember much of it either" we laugh at his returned confession and a more comfortable air settles between us.
"Well it's nice to finally meet you" I say and he nods his head. "Likewise" he replies and we stand there for a moment, not really knowing where to go from here then, thankfully Juni breaks the silence.
"Daddy I wanna talk to the pretty lady" she says and grabs my hand and pulls me away from him. "Be nice Juni" he warns and she pouts, leaving me crouching down to her level and tilting my head to meet her gaze. "There's enough of me to go around little one. Don't worry" I say, booping her on the nose and making her giggle again.
Jungkook walks in a bit more and closes the door behind him, watching our little exchange before my mother comes out to check on us.
"Y/n why don't you take Jungkook and..." she says trailing off, not having learned his daughter's name yet. "Juni" Jungkook says and my mother smiles at the sound of the adorable name. "Jungkook and Juni outside. I'm sure she'd love to run around a little bit before dinner is ready" she suggests and I agree while Juni starts jumping up and down, excited to explore an unfamiliar place.
Jungkook follows closely behind as I lead the way but I ultimately end up getting dragged along by Juni who is surprisingly perceptive and has already mapped out the door that we'll be going through. "Come on Daddy keep up!" she calls after him once we've reached the door, looking back and seeing that he's fallen behind.
"I'm right behind you Juni" Jungkook chuckles and once we step outside Juni lets go and runs back and forth all around the yard, looking at anything and everything she can find.
"Be careful!" I say, worried that she could hurt herself but Jungkook comes over and stands next to me and reassures me she'll be fine.
"It's alright, if she gets hurt it'll be a little reminder to pay attention to what she's doing next time. That's the only way kids really learn right?" he says turning towards me, granting me with a soft smile, almost as if he's looking for validation on his parenting choice.
"Of course," I respond, returning the smile, "even some adults need to crash and burn before they learn their lesson sometimes" I point out and it makes him relax a bit more, thankful to see that he's right in his dealings with situations like this.
"She's a good kid" I say after leading him over to the patio set we have out here so we can sit down and watch her. "Thanks, it's been difficult raising her on my own so I'm never really sure if I'm doing a good job or not" he admits and I nod my head, taking a second to think about my response since it's a sensitive subject.
"I can tell that you love her very much so I have no doubt in my mind that you'll always do right by her" and I can tell that my words bring him a sense of comfort. Being a single parent can be extremely difficult especially when you lose the love of your life as soon as you become a father.Â
I wouldn't wish that pain on anyone.
"Y/n?" I hear him call out and realize that my mind had drifted off for a second. "I'm sorry what did you say?" I say, my cheeks heating up from having been caught daydreaming. "I asked if you had any children of your own" he chuckles and I again try to figure out the best way to word this but figure the best way to go about it is to be honest.Â
I've got no reason to hide from him.
"No, I got divorced last year and my ex husband and I were never able to have children" I say, looking down at my lap, embarrassed to have admitted it but also feeling a certain weight lifted off my shoulders.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't know" he trails off and I panic, realizing I might've made him feel uncomfortable, telling him something so personal so soon. "No don't be, I honestly dodged a bullet with that one" I chuckle, hoping to lighten the situation a bit which thankfully it does as I see his body relax a bit.
"Our relationship had been on the rocks soon after we got married and I don't think we were a good match for each other so I think it was the universe's way of doing me a favor in making us somewhat biologically incompatible" I chuckle and he softly does the same.
"Biologically incompatible" he questions, a deeper meaning obviously hidden behind those words. "We both got checked out and everything looked completely fine but I guess it wasn't meant to be, thank God" I sigh, sincerely thanking whoever might've been in charge of making that executive decision for us.
"I'm not exactly sure what to say to that but I'm glad it worked out?" he states almost as if it was a question and I laugh, in response hoping I can recover this incredibly awkward conversation. "I'm sorry, that was a huge overshare that I probably should've kept to myself" I say, clearing my throat in hopes it would aid in clearing the peculiar air that had settled between us.
"You have nothing to apologize for, I asked and I feel honored that you felt comfortable enough to be so transparent with your answer" he says, the warmth in his tone giving me an ache in my chest. How could someone be so kind to someone they've just met? It's as if I could tell him anything and he would listen to me as if I was the only person in the world.
"Daddy!" 'Well me and Juni', I say to myself and watch as his attention now shifts to his daughter who is running up behind me. "Daddy look!" Juni says, holding out her hands that are now thoroughly caked in mud but hold a rock that is almost a perfectly shaped heart in the center of her palm. "Oh Juni" Jungkook chuckles, the ends of her dress now matching the state of her hands and neither Jungkook nor I can hold in our laughter.
"That's a very beautiful rock Juni! You're so clever" I say and I can see a sense of pride straighten her posture a little bit. "Juni your beautiful dress" Jungkook chuckles, clearly not minding but also trying to figure out what to do. "I'm sorry Daddy" she say, that pride slowly dwindling after seeing the mess she's made of herself.
"Hey Juni" I say, turning her attention back to me and I can see her spirits lift a little. "Would you like to see some of the clothes that I used to wear when I was your age?" I ask and her eyes light up at the thought. "Did you wear pretty dresses too?" she asks, clearly excited about seeing more new things. Her childlike wonderment makes my heart ache. Must run in the family.
"I did, but none of them were as pretty as yours. If you like, you can borrow one of mine while we wash this one" I suggest and the way her head nods up and down so fast makes me chuckle.
"Let's go to my room then! Hopefully we can find something you'll like" I say, standing up and straightening my dress while Jungkook reaches out for Juni's foot.
"Let's take your shoes off before we go back inside baby. We wouldn't want to track any mud into the pretty lady's house right?" Jungkook says, flashing a soft smile at me before looking back down to complete his intended task and Juni complies right away.Â
My breath hitches as he purposefully uses the nickname Juni had given me and I quickly walk past them and open the door to go inside, trying to clear my head for a second, willing myself to keep it together. Â
"Are you coming with us?" Juni asks and he nods his head, "I gotta go clean your shoes off first though" he says and I walk all three of us over to the bathroom so Jungkook can do just that as well as wash Juni's hands off.
"Wow!" is the first word that comes out of her mouth when we walk into the butterfly themed bedroom, mesmerizing her from the first glance. "Your room is so pretty!" she says, quickly running around here and there, being careful not to get too close since we haven't gotten a chance to change her dress yet.
"You like it?" I question and she's quick to nod her head again. "I wish my room looked like this" she says, spying all of the little butterfly details from the dainty embroidering on the bedspread to the knobs on the dresser, all of them working in harmony.
"We can go look for some butterfly stuff next time we go to the store if you'd like" Jungkook says while he walks into the room and right up to her while she stares up at the ceiling where there are a couple scattered across it. Nothing is too over the top but there is clearly a theme going on that she is captivated by.
"Really?" she asks, confirmation of what he's said being important to make sure she's hear him right. "Promise" he says holding out his pinky that she quickly wraps her's around as best as she can with her little ones being so tiny in comparison to his. She looks at the two of us before beckoning Jungkook to come closer so she can whisper something in his ear.
"Can the pretty lady come with us too?" she 'whispers' in his ear almost as loud as her speaking voice and I try to hold back my laughter, pretending like I didn't hear a thing. "Why don't you ask her?" he whispers and when he leans back she looks him in the eyes and he nods to further encourage her.
"Um, would you like to go shopping with us to get butterflies for my room too?" she asks, walking up to me shyly. Jungkook looks at me with a soft smile and I notice how the tips of his ears have almost gotten a little pink, his expression soft and charming but his body still showing tell tale signs of nervousness.
"Sure Juni, I'd love to go shopping with you" I say and she giggles in response while running back to her Daddy. "Can we go right now?" she asks jumping up and down. "We'll go another time don't worry baby, we've gotta set up a time so the pretty lady can go with us too right?" he reminds her and although she's sad she has to wait she nods in agreement. "Good, now let's get you out of this so we can make you all nice and clean again" he says, unzipping the back of her dress and revealing the cute little white tank top and tights that she wore under it.
I focus my attention on opening up the closet and grabbing a couple of dresses out for her to choose from. "These ones should fit. Which one would you like to wear Juni?" I say and her eyes flitter back and forth between all of them before giving her a Daddy a devious smile and hugging them to her chest. "I want all of them" she giggles and my heart melts, thinking about how fun it would be if I had a daughter just like her.
"Pick one Juni" Jungkook chuckles and she pulls back flipping through the selection I've made before her eyes light up and find the one she's dying to wear. "This one, this one!" she says, lightly holding onto the skirt and jumping up and down. I shift my grasp on them and hold out the one she chose for Jungkook to take and once he does there a static jolt of electricity that shocks us leaving the both of us pulling away slightly.
"Sorry it's probably from all the fabric of the dresses" I explain and he smiles in response. "Don't worry about it. A little spark never hurt anyone" he says and it's almost as if his voice had dropped a bit with that remark, leaving me widening my eyes a bit before turning back around and placing the dresses back in the closet.Â
Why does he make me so nervous?
"Lady, lady look!" I hear from behind, and watch as Juni turns this way and that once Jungkook has finished putting the dress on her. "My goodness Juni don't you look adorable!" I say and she runs up to the the mirror in the corner of the room, watching the skirt swish this way and that. "Say thank you Ms y/n" Jungkook says, correcting Juni and finally telling her my name. She sounded too cute calling me 'the pretty lady' I just didn't have the heart to tell her otherwise.
"Thank you Ms y/n!" she says, running up to me and wrapping her arms around my legs since she is still too small to reach anywhere else. "You're welcome Juni" I say, smiling down at her and smoothing her hair down. "Remember Juni, we're just borrowing it so we can wash your dress. We have to give it back to Ms. y/n before we leave" Jungkook says and I can see her excitement dwindle a bit but is no less thankful for being able to wear it tonight.
"Thank you for letting me borrow it Ms. y/n!" she says and I smile again, falling more and more in love with this adorable little girl with every smile she graces me with. "You're welcome" I say and she lets go of me and twirls around in it before stopping.
"Oh! I promise to be really careful and keep this one clean" she says holding out her pinky to do just as she had done with her father moments ago and I kneel down to her level and do just that before booping her on the nose causing another fit of giggles to spill out of her.
"Y/n, dinner is ready" my mother says while poking her head around the corner and I can tell she is completely satisfied by the scene that she's walked in on. "Oh Juni what a beautiful dress!" my mother says, noticing it right away, remembering it was one of my favorites. "Ms y/n gave it to me!" she says, swishing around in it again before doing a full twirl for us.
"Well aren't you the most darling little girl I've ever seen! Are you ready to eat? I heard that mashed potatoes are one of your favorite foods right?" my mom says, holding out her hand for Juni to take and she gladly does.
"Did my grandma tell you that?" she asks, clearly surprised that this complete stranger already knew something about her. "Yes she did. I hope you like them!" my mom says and Juni rushes down the hallway dragging my mom behind her. "Juni be careful!" Jungkook calls out to her but my mom just laughs it off.
"Why don't you show Jungkook where the laundry room is so you can put her dress in the washer" my mom offers up and I nod my head and look up at him. "That's okay I can just wash it when we get home" he says, politely declining the offer. "It's alright, it's best to wash it right away so it doesn't stain" I say, holding out my hand for the dress and he smiles before handing it to me and following my lead.
"You have a lovely home" he says shyly, looking this way and that taking notice of the small details just as Juni did. 'Like father like daughter' I think to myself. "It was my childhood home as you could probably tell from my old room" I say and he hums in response as I stop at the door to the laundry room.
"I know Juni is never going to stop talking about it" he chuckles and I smile at the loving tone that is always present in his voice whenever he speaks about her. We stand there in silence for a bit while I gather the various cleaning products I'll need.
"If you like, I can show you how to get stains like this out? If there was ever a day when I was her age that I didn't get some sort of dirt, mud or grass stains on my clothes my mother would write that down as a national holiday" I say and he laughs at that before accepting the offer.
"Sure, I'd like that" for some reason I can't seem to find the right words so I simply turn around and rinse off the mud in the little sink we have in here. "Do you think you could get that one for me?" I ask, nodding toward one of the stain removers. He wordlessly does as I ask and helps apply a drop or two of it to each of the areas I point out.
"I could've done that" he says now realizing how he's just standing there watching me clean his daughter's dress. "No, that's okay I offered!" I say, reassuring him that I don't mind. I wordlessly ask for the next stain remover before rubbing it in and ringing out the excess water. He opens up the washer lid for me and I toss it in and look this way and that for the laundry detergent.
"Looking for this?" he asks, pulling it off the shelf above the washer. "See, that's a perk of living on my own now. I don't have to worry about things being up too high for me anymore" I chuckle and quickly scoop in the appropriate amount and start the washer.
"Well let me know if you ever need anyone to get something that's out of your reach, it's one of the perks of being tall" he jokes and I laugh but almost shy away from the fact that he expects to see me again. "So I've heard" I say and try to put the detergent back on my own but it soon tips back over and is close to crashing down until he catches it, which in turn ends with him trapping me between him and the washer.
He slides the detergent back in it's spot and takes half a step back, giving me the smallest bit of space. "Why didn't you let me help you? I was standing right here?" he asks, tilting his head at me. "I don't know, I guess I'm just used to doing things on my own now" I chuckle awkwardly. "Well hopefully you'll get used to letting me help you soon" he says, finally taking another step back and giving me a bit more space to breathe.
"Sorry about that" I apologize awkwardly, leaning my back against the washer now with him leaning up against the wall directly in front of me and giving me a crooked smile. "Don't apologize, there's nothing wrong with being independent" he says and quickly scans my body but he does it so fast that if I would've blinked I would've missed it.
"Daddy it's time for dinner" Juni says, her soft steps not having been heard by either of us over the sound of the washer, breaking us out of the little moment that we had been having. "Okay Juni we're coming" he chuckles and holds out his hand for her to take but she giggles and dodges it, reaching for mine instead.
I squeeze past Jungkook as this little room is only wide enough for one person to walk through and the front of our bodies brush up against each other only for a moment until she's tugged me halfway out the door. "Let's be a train Daddy! Grab onto Ms. y/n's hand so you can be the caboose!" she says, turning this trip down the hallway into a game.
"Oh that's okay sweetie why don't you-" he starts but I hold out my hand for him to take, him only having refused for my sake, not wanting to make me uncomfortable with any unwanted skinship. "Grab on Daddy!" Juni giggles and I look up at him and see that he's looking down at me. He chuckles before grabbing onto my hand and the both of us are soon trailing behind Juni as she drags us to the dining room.
Once we get to the dinner table Juni lets go of my hand and runs back to where Jungkook's mom is so she can continue to help her eat her mashed potatoes.Â
When everyone notices that Jungkook and I have arrived, we're greeted with four sets of eyes, all of them extremely happy to see us. It's then when I realize that we were still holding hands so I gently slide mine out of his, almost wishing I didn't have to.
He looks down at where our hands had been connected when I do and I can almost see that he's also disappointed that I let go but his expression is quickly replaced by an awkward smile aimed at our parents.Â
When I look at the table I see that Jungkook and I are meant to sit directly across from each other. Which I'm sure is another one of my mother's ploys to get us to keep glancing up at each other, this time though I don't really mind.
When I go to walk to one side to sit down next to Mr. Jeon, Jungkook follows right behind me.Â
"Oh did you want to sit on this side?" I ask him and he shakes his head, "No, I just wanted to pull your chair out for you" he says and I feel butterflies in my stomach. "Oh, okay" I say quietly and watch as he does just that and slides the chair in behind me once I've sat down. "Thank you" I reply, smiling up at him and he does so in return before rounding the table to take a seat in his place.
"So y/n, your mother told us that you work in photography, is that right?" she asks and I take a drink of water before responding. "Well not really, I've done a few freelance jobs here and there. Enough to keep me afloat so to say but I hope to do it full time soon!" I say and I see Jungkook perk up at that.
"Jungkook has always loved photography as well! He's always been tinkering away with cameras since he was just a few years older than Juni" his mother says while Jungkook cleans off Juni's face as it seems like she's gotten more food on her face than in her mouth.
"What subject do you usually shoot?" I ask, curious to see where his interests lie. "Mostly editorial, but I tend to enjoy the shoots a lot more when they have to do with nature. I believe beauty can be found in almost anything so I tend to just capture whatever inspires me at the moment" he says, his answer being very similar to mine.
"I feel the same way" I respond simply before shying away from the topic as I feel our parents are studying our interaction.
Once they notice the silence they decide to pick up the conversation just throwing facts about Jungkook and I back and forth, pretty much doing the getting to know you game for us without giving us much room to get a word in edgewise. Which leaves the both of us to just follow the conversation and occasionally making eye contact when either side makes a slightly embarrassing comment.
"Hey Dad" Jungkook calls out to his father over the never ending conversation they're having about us. "How's that new project at work going?" he says and I can already tell that it's one of those kinds of topics that once you get him started on it he won't stop and that's just the case as we now watch the conversation take a turn that is thankfully so far off from the two of us.
As time ticks by and the subjects change a few more times I notice that Jungkook has started to get up and clear the table to which I jump up in response to help him.
"Oh Jungkook don't worry about that I can do it later" my mother says but he shakes his head. "It's the least I could do after you've provided this wonderful dinner for my family and I" he says and I can almost see my mother swooning from his response. "Well thank you very much, sweetie can you show him where to place them, just next to the sink is fine" she says to me and I nod, looking up at him and nodding my head towards the direction of the kitchen.
Once we've gone there and back from the table a few times I decide to just start loading up the dishwasher, trying to escape that mortifying conversation for as long as I can. "I brought your glass for you. Wasn't sure if you were planning to finish it or not" he says, walking over and placing my wine glass on the counter next to me. "Thanks" I say quietly, neither of us having said a word to each other since the very beginning of that dinner.
"Your parents are really sweet" he says, breaking the ice and clearly acknowledging how obvious they all were about their motives. "Yours too. I'm sorry about tonight" I say and his brows furrow, clearly not understanding why I would need to apologize. "I knew my mom would end up doing something like this but once her mind is made up there's no stopping her" I admit and he gives me a crooked smile in response.
"Don't worry, I knew what all of them were up to too. My mother was praising you so much and telling me how beautiful and smart and respectful you are so I had an inkling that this was their plan all along" he says and I turn away from him, trying to hide my flustered expression.
"She's right you know" he says, coming around to stand next to me, leaning against the counter while I face it, cleaning up the inside of the sink and grabbing the towel next to me to dry my hands.
"Right about what?" I question, now turning to face him and noticing just how close he's gotten. "About how beautiful you are" he says and I have to blink a few times, trying to figure out why this incredibly handsome man in my kitchen is flirting with me.
I just wanna thank past me because whatever I did in my last life must've been incredible if I'm being offered up a man as remarkable as he is.
"I-" I start but am soon interrupted by my mom walking in on us. "Y/n could you- oh! I'm sorry, as you were" she says, taking small backward steps out of the kitchen, keeping hers eyes on the two of us before turning around to walk back to the living room that they had moved to.
"I'm sorry about her" I say, taking a drink of my wine but he laughs it off. "It's alright, I don't mind" he says watching me with curious eyes as I polish off the rest of it. "Juni has taken a real liking to you" he says and my heart melts at the sound of her name.
"Really? She's probably the happiest child I've ever seen. I really like her too" I say and he smiles, no doubts memories over the years flashing through his head.
"You've done a really good job raising her Jungkook" I say, and his eyes flutter back to mine, this time being the first time I've spoken his name and it looks as if just that alone brought him so much satisfaction. "Thank you y/n" he says, and I feel my heart flutter, the deep baritone of his voice sending a shiver down my spine.
"Daddy can I have some cake?" we hear as Juni walks into the kitchen, "Can I have some cake..." Jungkook says, trailing off and waiting for those magic words. "Please?" she says, realizing what he had been getting at.
"Sure baby, Ms. y/n and I will bring it out in a second okay?" he says making her smile as she runs out of the kitchen "Thank you" she calls out over her shoulder leaving the two of us laughing at her enthusiasm.
"That's probably what my mom was coming in to ask us for" I say and he nods in agreement, helping me carry everything out so we can all have a slice of the small cake my mom had gotten for tonight. "How much you want to bet that they sent Juni looking for us earlier too?" he whispers to me as we make our way over to where everyone else has gathered. "You might be right about that one" I whisper back, quickly catching onto all of their little games.
After setting the cake and all of the plates and forks down on the coffee table my mom takes on the task of cutting it up and serving it, with the very first piece going to little Miss Juni. "Thank you!" she says, eyes wide as saucers leaving all of us cooing at her. "Eat slow Juni" Jungkook reminds her, no doubt having troubles with her eating her desserts too quickly.
I take on the task of helping my mother hand out the slices and once I give one to Jungkook I finally notice that the only empty seat is right next to him and he looks down at it before looking back up at me in a silent invitation to sit down and I take it cautiously.
The couch that we're sitting on is kind of a love seat ironically, seeing as the whole theme of tonight is trying to set us up with each other.
Once I've sat down I realize that I've sat right next to him to the point of where my shoulder ended up bumping into his. "Oh! I'm sorry" I say, scooting away from him but with the size of the couch I don't really end up moving all that much. "It's okay I don't mind" he says, before taking a bite of his cake and turning to face the rest of the group.
The seven of us continue talking and talking until we notice that Juni has fallen asleep in her grandma's lap. "Here mom let me take her" Jungkook says, standing up but both my mom and his stand up and wave him off. "That's okay, we're just gonna go put her down in y/n's room" my mom says and before he's able to say otherwise they've disappeared down the hallway.
"Does she have school tomorrow?" I ask once he's settled back down. "No, she's on spring break right now until next Monday" he relays and I nod my head. "And what about you? Do you work tomorrow?" I ask and he gives me a shy smile before responding. "I had a shoot scheduled in the morning but we went ahead and pushed it to the afternoon so I don't have to worry about going home anytime soon" he says and my heart skips a beat.
"No, I mean, well I don't want to keep you for too long. You probably have other things you'd like to get done tonight?" I ask and he shakes his head. "No, this is the only thing I have planned for the night so I guess you're stuck with me" he chuckles. "I didn't mean to make you feel like I wanted you to leave I just-"
"It's okay I know what you meant" he laughs and I now take notice that we're the only ones left in the room. "Oh! Where did my dad go?" I ask, my eyes darting this way and that, not even being able to hear his voice.
"I think I heard something about them setting up the fire pit? I'm not sure but he's outside with my dad right now" he says and I spy both of them looking through the glass door before quickly ducking out of view once they realize they've been spotted.
"Maybe we should head out there" I say but he cuts off that thought by asking me a question that keeps me frozen on the spot.Â
"Is there a reason why you don't want to be alone with me?" he asks, arm now having been draped around the back of the couch a while ago, completely unknown to me making this all seem a lot more intimate than before.
"Who said that?" I chuckle nervously, clearing my throat before sinking back into my seat. "You just did" he says, nodding towards me and I feel like I want to crawl in a hole and die. I thought I could escape this night without being awkward like this but I guess not.
"You trying to get rid of me?" he teases and I shake my head right away, "No I'm sorry I just-" "It's okay, I'm only joking" he says and I laugh nervously. "So why don't you tell me about yourself?" he says, giving me the most open ended question ever and I scramble to find something but I just can't seem to come up with anything interesting enough to mention.
"Well, my parents pretty much said everything there is to know about me over dinner earlier" I say and he shakes his head. "I want to hear something about you from you. Like what are some of your hope, your dreams, something you're passionate about" he says, being a little more specific this time.
"My dreams?" I trail off, thinking for a second and he watches me as I wrack my brain for something notable. "It's kind of silly" I admit once I've settled on something. "Good thing I've got a sense of humor" he replies, trying to encourage me to continue.Â
"Well, I've always wanted one of my photos to be on the cover of TIME magazine" I admit and see his eyes light up. "I have a similar dream" he says and my eyes widen in surprise turning my body to face him, wordlessly asking him to share his too.Â
"I'd like one of mine to end up on the cover of National Geographic" he relays and I smile in turn. "That would be perfect for you! Well, since the subject you love to capture the most is nature I could definitely see your work fitting right in!" I say, excited to see someone else who's trying to aim as high as I am.
"And I could see yours being a shoe in for TIME as well" he says, and I shy away from his praise. "Okay and what's something you're passionate about, and don't say photography" he says, interrupting me causing me to slump down, having to take another second to come up with an answer.Â
He chuckles a bit at my reaction and I glare at him causing him to smile at me even more so look up to the celling as if it had the answers to something interesting about me.Â
"Well, I really love reading. I know it might not seem like a passion but when I read a really good book and I find someone who has read it or will at least let me talk about it it's as if I gain a boost of energy and can't contain my excitement. That's definitely the nerdy side of me showing but that's all I can really think of at the moment" I say honestly and when I look back at him it's as if he thought I was the most fascinating thing he's ever seen.Â
"Sorry, I think I got a little carried away there" I say, getting shy from being looked at like that, his soft gaze an expression I'm not used to, especially from someone I just met. "Um, your turn" I say, hoping to get some of the spotlight off of me.Â
"I know this might be cheating but I do enjoy taking video and editing them. Even if it were as simple as filming Juni for an afternoon, it's something that if given the chance, would be something I could be extremely passionate about" he says and although it is cheating since it's somewhat similar to photography, I'll let it slide.Â
"Have you thought about switching up your profession to include video as well as pictures?" I ask and he nods before answering. "I have but I haven't taken enough time to seriously consider it. Juni is still young and I want to make sure I have a stable income in order to take care of her and if I'm being honest I feel almost as if a career change could jeopardize that" he says and I watch him with the same intent that he had given me and he too seems to shy away from it.Â
"It's silly since it would probably be a seamless transition but I can't help but feel reservations towards it" he says and I place my hand on top of his that's in his lap.Â
"It's normal for a parent to worry about providing for their child. I don't think it's silly at all and it shows how much you truly care about Juni and her well being. She's lucky to have you as her father" I say and he cringes only for a moment before his expression goes back to a softer one. I want to ask what would've warranted a reaction like that but I leave it alone.Â
"Okay your turn, what is something you hope for?" he asks and I already know the answer to it but I'm hesitant to say. I take a second to try and figure out how to formulate it properly but decide to just go for it.Â
"I hope to be a mother and have children of my own someday. Doesn't matter if it's naturally or through adoption, I just hope to have someone I can love and care for unconditionally and watch them as they grow and change and pray I'll receive that love and care back from them" I say and he gives me a wary expression and I quickly try to backtrack, not knowing if I've messed up or not.Â
"I'm sorry that was probably extremely insensitive of me" I say, pulling away my hand but he holds onto it and gives me a sad smile before responding. "I think you would be a wonderful mother. If you were to give your children even half the time and attention you've given to Juni today they would still be incredibly lucky to call you their mother" he says, reassuring me that it's okay to talk about these topics around him.Â
"Last one?" I question, seeing if he's up to telling me something he's hopeful for. "I just hope that no matter what my family and friends stay happy and healthy. It might be simple but I enjoy the simple things in life" he says and I smile, seeing how truly kind and compassionate he is just from his simple answer. "That's a good answer" I say and we both chuckle a bit before we're broken out of yet again another moment by the sound of our mothers stumbling into the room.Â
"Oh don't let us bother you we're just going to head outside with your father" Jungkook's mom says to him and I can see now from the warm glow shining through the glass door that they've finally started up the fire pit.Â
"Oh we'll come outside too!" I say and try to get up off the loveseat. I'm able to stand but immediately lose my balance and feel a strong set of hands on my hips and end up falling into Jungkook's lap. "I-" I start, turning towards him and trying to get out an apology but stop short when I see how close his face is to mine, our noses almost touching.Â
I hear our mothers head outside quickly and close the door but neither of us pay any mind, both focused on each other to the point where neither of us move for what feels like forever but was only a matter of seconds. When I do try to get up I feel his grip on me tighten.Â
"I'm s-sorry, this couch is always difficult to get off of" I explain and he smiles. "Like I said before, you have nothing to apologize for" he says, his voice a bit deeper than before and it takes every fiber of my being to stop myself from looking at his lips but when I see his flutter down to mine I can't help but do the same.Â
"Daddy, why is Ms. y/n sitting on your lap?" we hear Juni say and I immediately get off of him and throw my face in my hands, trying to hide the embarrassment written all over me but Jungkook handles it like a champ.Â
"Ms. y/n just fell down Juni and I caught her. You know how I catch you sometimes before you fall?" he offers and she walks over to us, rubbing her eyes and immediately climbing onto Jungkook's lap. "Oh okay" she says, yawning again after Jungkook places a kiss on the crown of her head.Â
"Do you wanna go see the fire that grandpa and Ms. y/n's dad made?" he asks and she hums in approval, still half asleep but wanting to go outside with everyone. "Okay let's go" he says, standing up with Juni in one arm and holding his hand out to help me up. I glare up at him and he smiles, knowing he's added to my embarrassment but I take his hand anyways and he makes no moves to let go once I'm up on my feet, walking us all towards the back door.Â
Once we're outside though that's when he lets go so he can hold Juni properly while he walks down the patio steps so we can get to the fire pit.Â
"Juni woke up?" his mother asks and Jungkook nods. "Yeah she wanted to come outside with everyone even though she is still very very sleepy" he says, talking in a silly sweet voice that makes Juni pout although her eyes are still closed. "I'm not sleepy" she says mid yawn causing me to coo at her and when she realizes I'm still close by she sits up off of Jungkook's chest and reaches towards me.Â
I look between her and Jungkook for a second and he nods his head in approval and hands her to me, grabbing a chair afterwards for me to sit on and pulling up another one next to mine and looks over at Juni to see she's practically sound asleep again. "Are you okay with her?" he asks and I hum in approval leaving him placing another kiss on Juni's head before leaning back in his chair.Â
"So Jungkook, what do you think of my daughter?" my mother asks and Jungkook chokes on air, not expecting the straightforward question. "Mom!" I scold and she chuckles, "What? It's a simple question. No need to give a complex answer, unless he wants to" she teases and I swear I can even hear Jungkook's dad chuckling at my mother's antics.Â
They couldn't make it more obvious that they're trying to set us up even if they tried.Â
My dad luckily somewhat comes to Jungkook's aide and hands him a bottle of water to hopefully help him stop coughing which it does thankfully.
He takes a second to clear his throat and I would be lying if I said I wasn't on edge, waiting to hear what his answer might be. "I think she is a very kind hearted and very intelligent young woman" he says simply and the echos of him calling me beautiful earlier on tonight attach to the end of that.Â
"And would you like to see her again?" she continues and he then looks over at me, giving me a soft smile and glancing down at Juni before looking me in the eyes again. "We've already planned to see each other again" he says, memories of Juni's invitation to the butterfly shopping trip fluttering through my mind again.Â
"Did you hear that? Jungkook has already asked to see her again" my mom says, calling over to Jungkook's mom as if she hadn't been listening the whole time. "Well technically Juni asked if I could go shopping with them" I explain and Jungkook chuckles. "Juni is a very smart girl" my mother compliments and Jungkook and I can't help but laugh.Â
The rest of the night flies by and before I know it we're already standing in the doorway saying goodbye. "It's was so nice seeing you again y/n! I hope to be seeing you again soon" Jungkook mom says, winking at me. "Oh come on honey leave the girl alone" Jungkook's dad says, coming to my aide and saying his goodbyes as well.Â
Jungkook's parents say a quick goodbye to Jungkook and Juni as well since they came in separate cars and I notice after that my dad pulls Jungkook aside and says something that I regretfully can't make out. Luckily he doesn't seem bothered by it as they smile and shake hands before my dad pats him on the back, sending him off with I can only assume is well wishes.Â
Jungkook says goodbye to my mother and I can tell how much she's praising him, he thanks her for everything and makes his way over to me a few moments later and it's almost as if it was a ghost town with only Jungkook and I in the entryway now, with him holding a still very sleepy Juni in his arms.Â
"Thank you for coming, I know this was probably a lot for you" I say, rocking back and forth on my heels and he smiles before answering. "I had fun, and I know Juni did too" he says and I can feel my heart skip a beat, "I did too" I reply shyly. He reaches into his pocket and unlocks his phone before handing it to me.
"Do you think I could have your number? You know, so we can set up that shopping day soon? I know Juni won't be able to stop talking about it until we go" he says, turning into what I could only describe as a shy teenage boy, asking his crush for her number. "Sure" I say, putting it in and calling my number so I have his too.Â
"Let me know when you get home safe" I say and place my hand on Juni's back and whisper a quick goodbye which regrettably stirs her awake and I mouth a quite sorry to Jungkook but he smiles in response.Â
"Wanna say goodbye to Ms. y/n?" Jungkook asks and she nods her head before opening her eyes and leaning towards me to give me a kiss on the cheek leaving me speechless. "Goodnight pretty lady" she mumbles before laying back down on Jungkook's chest. He chuckles after seeing my reaction and gives Juni a kiss on her head in response.Â
"Goodnight y/n" he whispers to me and I send him the same sentiment, walking him to the door and watching as he walks over to his car while he puts Juni in her carseat. He looks back to see if I'm still watching and smiles at me again before getting in his car and driving off.Â
"So should I schedule an appointment with the caterers tomorrow or...?" I hear my mother say behind me, making me jump before taking a few steps back into the house and closing the door. "Very funny mom" I say, walking over to the living room and plopping down on the couch Jungkook and I had been sharing a couple hours ago.Â
"What's wrong? He's a nice man isn't he? Plus his daughter seems like she loves you! Why don't you give it a shot?" she asks and I sigh, sinking further back into the couch. "I don't know, I just don't want to get my hopes up" I mumble and she sits next to me, placing a comforting hand on my thigh. "What makes you say that?" she asks curiously.
"It's almost as if he's too perfect. He's handsome, charming, charismatic, a great dad and I don't know, he just seems too good to be true" I admit and she nods her head, understanding my hesitation. "Everyone puts their best foot forward when they're meeting someone for the first time. Just go out with him and Juni in a few days and keep an open mind. It's not the fact that he has Juni that's holding you back right?" she questions, trying to figure out what exactly has got me doubting.Â
"No not at all! If anything Juni is an added bonus" I say truthfully and she smiles at me. "Good, because I think she's already become very attached to you" she says and I nod my head. "Yeah I think I have too" I mumble and she claps her hands, jolting me out of my train of thought.Â
"Now all we have to do is get a ring attached to that finger and the three of you can live happily ever after" she says, getting up to clean up the cake plates that sit on the coffee table in front of us.Â
"Mom" I groan and she laughs, "I want some beautiful grandchildren and if that handsome young man can't help you give them to me then I don't know who could" she continues leaving me sighing, not bothering to argue back since she is definitely right about that one.Â
I hear my phone chime in my purse moments later after I walk into my bedroom to gather up my things to go back home and see a message from an unknown number but check my call log and see that the numbers match up from when I called myself off Jungkook's phone.Â
I quickly add him to my contacts before opening up our chat and see a short but sweet message from him.Â
'Home safe and sound. Thanks for having us tonight. Hope to see you soon?'Â he sends with a question mark at the end, clearly still wanting to double check on if I'll actually want to see them again. I wait a few seconds, my thumbs hovering over the keyboard before finally composing a message and hitting send before I chicken out.Â
'See you soon Jungkook. I really enjoyed getting to know you and Juni. Looking forward to shopping for butterflies together!'Â I say and cringe once I reread it. 'Ugh could I possibly sound more desperate?' I say to myself and toss my phone on the bed, sitting down at the computer chair across from it.Â
A minute later I hear another message come in and I practically lunge for the phone, praying I didn't weird him out but moments later I feel heat rushing to my cheeks and have to will myself into not squealing.
'We're counting down the minutes until we can see you again. Let's talk tomorrow and set up a date and time'Â he says and I rush to respond.Â
'Sounds great! Goodnight Jungkook'Â I say, ending the conversation before I end up embarrassing myself even more but before I can even lock my phone his message pops up.Â
'Goodnight y/n, sweet dreams'Â the message is so simple but it still makes me smile.Â
"Is that Jungkook texting you?" my mom asks, poking her head into the room and I quickly lock my phone and grab my purse. "Yes it is, goodnight mom" I say, walking past her and straight to the front door with her trailing after me. "Oh come on sweetie you know I'm just teasing you. I really think he's going to be a good match for you" she says and I turn to face her before I leave.Â
"I really hope so. Say goodnight to dad for me" I say giving her a kiss on the cheek and getting in my car to drive home.Â
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Once I walk in I'm greeted again by Salem and he walks up, waiting for me to pick him up. "You're such a little baby you know that?" I chuckle and he meows in response.Â
I follow the same routine as I always do, carrying him with me into my room and rambling off to him about my day before hopping in the shower but this time I have a lot more to say, leaving me wasting half the hot water and causing me to have to finish up the last bit of my shower in a freezing cold stream.Â
After finishing up and finally settling into bed I lay down and Salem curls up next to me. "Things might be changing around here boy. I only hope they're for the better, what do you think?" I ask after having told him everything and I'm met with the feeling of him purring and if that isn't a good sign then I don't know what is.Â
"I hope he likes cats" I say, giving him one last pet before turning off the light and for the first time in a very long time I can finally say I've gone to sleep feeling content. The last thought that runs through my head is one that helps me fall asleep with a soft smile on my face.Â
I can't wait to see him again...
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I have a request please đ I had the most random idea, Eddie and his gf who is quite shy and sweet, she makes one of those paper fortune teller things and uses it with Eddie, she uses it in a cute way, like to see how many kisses he will get and things like that but maybe Eddie then makes one of his own but his is not so innocent đ just basically him making a game out of ways he can please his girl..he will probably try get her to choose certain numbers too because he knows the answers beneath them đ
but yeah just something fluffy and ofc smutty if you would like! Thankyouuuuu 𼰠love your work
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Thirteen Kisses
Eddie Munson x innocent!fem!reader
Summary: for Eddie, you make a paper fortune game that buys you tons of kisses, for you, Eddie makes a paper fortune game that buys him the opportunity to make you feel as good as possible
wordcount: 2.2k
Warnings: Smut, Swearing, petnames, marking/hickeys, oral (f receiving), making out, unprotected sex
There was always a seat next to Eddie at the hellfire table in the cafeteria, and that seat was always reserved for you. That seat was also almost always empty, because each day, you opted to sit in Eddieâs lap rather than your own chair. He of course didnât mind, the closer you were, the better. He loved nothing more than holding you and doting on you, his special girl.
âItâs called a fortune teller! But mineâs special and I made it just for us.â You grinned at your boyfriend, kicking your feet excitedly as you sat in his lap, leaning against his chest and showing him the fortune teller you made. âFirst you gotta pick a colour.â
Eddie rested his head against yours as he looked down at the paper origami in your hand. âHmm⌠red.â He stated and you started to move the fortune teller in your hands, spelling out the word âredâ. He caught on quick, and unprompted, he picked a number, 7, and you moved the fortune teller again, counting to 7. Finally, out of the visible numbers, he picked 2. You flipped it up and smiled.
âThirteen! You gotta give me thirteen kisses.â You smiled before correcting yourself, âUnless you donât wanna-â
âShut up.â He laughed playfully and kissed you quickly, he only pulled back for a second before he was kissing you again. He kissed your lips five times, each cheek once, the tip of your nose, and then five more kisses on your lips. By the end of those thirteen kisses, you were both giggling a ton.
You raised the fortune teller in your hands once more. âAgain?â You asked, and he was quick to comply, huge smile on his face.
 He picked the colour purple, then the number six, and finally the number four. "Eight kisses!" You were smiling from ear to ear, and Eddie was only able to match it himself.
 Of course he immediately complied, peppering seven kisses over your face and giving you one big wet kiss on your soft lips to finish it off. Your sweet laughter was music to his ears, he'd do anything to be able to hear it for the rest of his life.
"Now, how's this fair?" He spoke loudly, faking anger as he gently snatched the fortune teller from your hands. "Does it work for me to? Can I get kisses? Or... maybe only the princess gets kisses... No kisses for a lowly peasant like myself." He sighed dramatically and you giggled. He couldn't force the smile off of his face.
 You gently shook his wrist with your hand, "C'mon! You can get kisses too." You leaned your head against his shoulder, waiting a beat for him to figure out how to move the paper properly.
 "Pink!" "Three!" "Five!"
 Eddie leaned forward just slightly, pressing his chest into your side as he flipped up the paper. "Looks like... you owe me thirty kisses!" He exclaimed and placed the fortune teller on the table.
 You rolled your eyes and giggled, "That's not what it looks like- that said six kisses, not thirty." You pouted and he pouted back, leaning closer and closer to you.
 "Pretty sure it said thirty baby... what, you don't wanna kiss me thirty times?" He brought a hand up, gripping his chest dramatically.
 You groaned, entirely pleased and kissed him hard. You gave him kisses on the lips, cheeks, nose, jaw, and a couple on his neck, because you knew he liked that. You both smiled and you leaned your head against his, but all too soon your interaction was interrupted by Dustin gagging dramatically from his spot at the table.
 You pouted as you and Eddie turned to look at him. "Don't mind him baby, he's just jealous and lonely." Eddie rolled his eyes and gave you a big, loud kiss on your cheek.
 "Awe... I'm sorry Dustin. If you want you can use my fortune teller! You and Mike can give each other some kisses." You offered, so sweet and polite, seeming so kind that it was almost hard to tell you were joking. Eddie barked out a laugh, kissing you again. He loved watching the way your humour changed to become more like his.
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 You yawned as you stretched out on your stomach, resting on Eddie's bed. You felt the mattress dip as he kneeled beside you. "Look, I got somethin' to show you." He spoke in a hushed tone. Excitedly, you sat up facing him, and smiled when you saw a new fortune teller in his hands. "I got Robin to show me how to make one, mines special too." He explained. You could tell by his face that he was up to something.
 There was a moment of silence, you and Eddie staring into each others eyes before you finally focused you're attention on the fortune teller. "Pink... Four... Seven." You watched Eddie move closer to you.
 "Hmm... you get to make out with me for five minutes." Eddie grinned wildly, holding up five fingers. He waited for you to smile back at him before he cupped your face, pulling you to meet his lips with your own.
It didn't take long before his tongue was pressing past your lips, Eddie's always been an eager kisser, and you loved being kissed by him. You hummed softly and he responded by moaning deeply into your mouth, the sound forcing heat to your core.
Five minutes went by fast. You were left with kiss bitting lips, slick with spit. Cheeks burning red, eyes glistening, and thighs pressing together. It didn't take much to get you there, excited and needy for your boyfriend. Eddie loved that about you.
Eddie sighed contentedly and gave you a free kiss on the cheek before he held up his fortune teller again. You squished your cheek against Eddie's shoulder. "Pink... three... one." You chewed your lip excitedly. '10 hickeys from Eddie' written in his nearly unreadable handwriting.
He smirked and placed the paper down, hand moving to the hem of your top where he pulled lightly. "Let's get this off of you pretty girl." He helped you take off your shirt, your bra followed quickly. A smile never left his face as he gently pushed you back against his pillows.
Normally, Eddie took his time working you up, placing kisses over every inch of your body that he could reach before he even thought about marking your skin. Today however, he jumped right into what the fortune teller told him to do, not wasting any time before he eagerly sucked a dark hickey onto the side of your throat.
 Like usual, he made a trail; three hickeys on the left side of your neck, one on your collarbone, one on your sternum. You weaved the fingers of your right hand through his hair as he began to kiss and suck the flesh of your right breast. He clearly enjoyed this just as much as you, soft hums against your skin and his evident boner pressing into your leg.
 Two hickeys on one breast and three on the other. You were breathing heavy, ready for him to just take you, just fill you up already. Your heart raced as he picked up the paper fortune teller again.
 "You know the drill baby." He smiled, his own cheeks flushed. It took you a moment to tear your eyes away from the bulge in his jeans and focus.
 "Blue... four... two."
 You watched intently as he flipped the paper up and read it to himself, an intimidating smirk growing on his face. "Get those shorts of baby- panties too."
 Immediately, you through your shorts and panties off of yourself and to the ground, resting back against the pillows. You wanted Eddie in you so bad, you couldn't wait.
 It took a second before you registered the fact that Eddie hadn't taken off any of his own clothes. By then, he was already on his stomach between your legs, licking a long stripe through your folds and stopping to lick at your clit.
 You moaned loudly, back arching and hands gripping Eddie's sheets beneath you. You hadn't expected him to eat you out, you'd expected him to fuck you. You wanted him to fuck you. But this, you were more than happy with this.
 Eddie spread your lips apart, admiring your wet cunt for a moment before he dove in, tongue driving inside of you. You whimpered loudly, pressing back against his face. His nose bumped against your clit over and over again and it was perfect, Eddie was always so talented at pleasing you with his mouth.
 "Feels s'good." You praised him and he moaned in response, trying to press himself closer to you if that was even possible. It felt so good as he fucked you with his tongue, your thighs shook on either side of his head. He moaned in response to every sound you let out and it shook your core. He always enjoyed giving you head just as much as you enjoyed receiving it.
 You could feel the beginnings of an orgasm building up, but you needed more attention on your clit. You grabbed a fistful of his hair and pulled up gently. Of course he understood immediately what you wanted and he wrapped his lips around your clit, sucking harshly.
 The mattress underneath you creaked as you writhed in pleasure, hand still tugging on Eddie's hair. You were pulling moans from him that tortured your sensitive clit and had your orgasm hurtling to you. "Eddie- god, Eddie please- gonna cum." You warned him, voice watery and desperate.
 He hummed in approval and that was that, your back arching incredibly high and your throat straining as you moaned loud enough that his neighbours could probably hear you. He kept licking you through your orgasm, then gentle kisses on your thighs and pussy as you came down from your high. "Thank you." You nearly whispered.
 "You are ever so welcome." Eddie grinned at you, moving to his knees as he wiped his mouth and chin off on his sleeve, cleaning his face of your juices.Â
 You sat up slightly as he picked up the fortune teller again, you just wanted him to fuck you so bad. "Please, Eddie I jus' need you, need you in me so so bad." Your voice was thick with need, tears threatening your eyes.
 He smirked cockily at you, even though he wanted the same thing. "C'mon baby." He pointed the fortune teller, prompting you to pick a colour.
 "Uh, pink, two, um...-" You looked up at Eddie pleadingly.
 Eddie took sympathy on you, his sweet baby. "Out of curiosity." He started. "What's five plus three? I know you know, my smart girl."
 You smiled thankfully, excitedly. "Eight!" You started to sit up further but he put a hand on your shoulder, pushing you so you were laying back fully, you giggled.
 He flipped the paper up. "Hmm... seems like you're gonna get to cum on my cock after all." He tossed the paper beside you, watching hungrily as he stripped himself of his clothes.
 He wasn't taking his time and neither did you; you were both just desperate for one another. You were already so wet, and he did a good job getting you ready with his mouth, so neither of you were surprised when his cock slid inside you with no reluctance.
 You moaned, arms reaching around Eddie to hold him closer to you, nails digging into his shoulders. It only spurred him on even more, moaning into your neck as he fucked you as fast as he could.
 He'd been hard since making out, and he was about to blow his load embarrassingly soon. He sucked on the skin of your neck, already marked up from earlier, and reached a shaky hand down to your clit. The broken moan you let out almost had him cumming in you right then and there.
 "Eddie-" you moaned his name, resting your head against his as you arched your back, tits pressing against his chest. You could feel yourself getting closer and closer to cumming, he could feel you clenching around him repeatedly, he knew you were close.
 "Come on doll, cum for me, wanna feel you soak my cock, come on, c'mon-" you cut him off with a loud moan, close to a scream as you came, nails dragging down his back.
 Hearing you cum and feeling you claw up his back was enough to trigger his orgasm. His thrusts grew sloppy as the dam broke, cock twitching inside you.
 You whimpered as you felt the warm sensation of him cumming inside you, filling you up. He kept fucking you, through your orgasm and his own. You felt some of his cum drip out of you and he watched as he fucked it back inside, making sure not a drop was wasted.
 He stopped before either of you got too overstimulated, hovering over you, forehead pressed to the pillow next to your head. "Did so good baby." He kissed your cheek and you smiled, stroking his back gently.
 "Gonna help me make another fortune teller later? We squished this one..." he laughed and you did too. Of course you would agree.
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DISTRACTION
pairing: rough!dom chris x sub!reader
summary: the two of you had been best friends for years. right after you get out of a bad relationship, chris is the first to be of distraction.
warnings: SMUT, mentions of a toxic relationship, swearing, making out, oral (female revieving), fingering, pet names (lots of the use of ma), praising, degrading, p in v, dumbification, dacryphilia, spanking, choking, hair pulling, overstimulation, LOTS of dirty talk, riding, backshots, ROUGHHH, all together just filth tbh.
words count: 2724
author's note: stop this is so filthy, like, whewy đ
. please don't read if you're uncomfortable with anything listed above. kind, constructive criticism welcome.
(loosely based on this song)
"he fucking cheated on you?" chris looked down at you, his eyes fuming. you had walked into his bedroom, a bitter laugh leaving your lips as you uttered the words you didn't truly want to admit.
"has been for fucking months, god i'm so fucking stupid," you mutter, your small hands sliding over your face in frustration. "it was right under my nose too, like how the fuck did I not realize."
you were rambling now, and chris could sense it.
he could feel your frustration, the sadness you were trying to repress. to him you were an open book, had been since the age of nine. and right now, he knew that the last thing you wanted was to be pitied, and so that was exactly what he was not going to do.
"hey, c'mere," chris spoke up, his hand grabbing your wrist and tugging you closer to his body. it ended with your legs being thrown over either side of his, straddling his lap.
you could feel his hardening dick under you, the way he shifted you around on his lap to get comfortable, but you didn't care. chris had always been like this, had always made it obvious that he thought you were attractive, and you'd be lying if you said you didn't feel the same.
the two of you were close. probably some of the most important people in each other's lives, and while the sexual tension had never really been addressed, it was there. it was definitely fucking there. you could feel him, his eyes roaming over your face, as if he was waiting for you to look him in the eyes.
you let your arms wrap around his neck, and you were suddenly hyperaware of the position the two of you were in. the way his arms wrapped around your waist, tugging you impossibly closer, and the way his nose nuzzled against the spot where your jaw met your neck.
"i'm sorry, sweetheart," chris finally whispered, his lips pressing a gentle kiss to the sensitive skin, causing you to shiver. "he didn't deserve you."
his lips kept trailing along your skin, making your mind go foggy. you couldn't think about anything else other than his lips and the way they were making you feel.
"what are you doing, chris?" you asked him, a small giggle leaving your lips. âmaking my girl feel better, with a distraction,â chris whispered, and you swore you felt his teeth scrape along your skin.
my girl.
the way the two words rolled off his tongue sent a chill through your entire body, and before you could even think, your hand was sliding through his hair, tugging him impossibly closer.
chris groaned, and he could feel his dick harden even more under you, a feeling that had you whining softly. he let his head fall back, looking up at you. "tell me if you want me to stop, okay?" his voice was a whisper, a plea almost.
and god, he didn't want to stop. the way his best friend was sat on his lap, practically begging for him, it made him feel so many things. but just because he didnât want to didnât mean he wouldnât if thatâs what she wanted.
your hands slid down his chest, stopping right at his belt. "i want this, christopher." chris groaned. he hated when you used his full name, and you knew that. and that was exactly why you said it, a small smile tugging on your lips.
"say it again," chris said, his hands gripping onto your thighs. his fingers were digging into your skin, sure to leave bruises, but the thought made you moan. "i want this, christopher," you whispered, letting his name roll off your tongue as you grinded against his dick.
chris didn't even hesitate to grab your shirt, pulling it over your head, tossing it behind him. he flipped the two of you over, pinning your wrist above your head. "keep them there for me, angel."
the nickname made you shiver, and you nodded. he sat up on his knees, his fingers fumbling with the button on your jeans, before finally tugging them down your legs. he could see the wet spot on your panties, his hands running over your clothed cunt. "already soaked, baby."
he leaned down, attaching his lips to yours. his hands continued to run over the soft material, before he was ripping the fabric, a loud gasp leaving your lips. chris smirked, his lips still pressed against yours, kissing you hard and deep. he let his hand slide up your body, his finger wrapping around your throat, and squeezing.
"you're mine," chris growled, and you whimpered. "always been yours, chris." he smiled, letting his thumb run across your bottom lip. "that's right, huh, sweet girl,â he mumbled. his lips were trailing down your body, stopping when he reached your hips.
he bit the skin, hard, before licking the mark he left behind. the way your hands were gripping onto the bedsheets, knuckles turning white, only made chris smile. "do you think i can make you feel better than he ever did?" chris asked, his tone was cocky, and the thought of you saying no had him almost growling.
you could hear the anger in his voice, the jealousy. it turned you on even more, the thought of chris being jealous over you. "yes," you mumbled, your hips bucking up, desperately trying to find some type of friction. chris let out a chuckle, âso desperate for me, aren't you, princess?"
he kissed the inside of your thighs, his eyes never leaving yours. "look at you, all needy for me," chris mumbled, his finger sliding through your folds, groaning at the amount of slick he felt.
he didn't even give you time to respond before he was burying his head in between your thighs, his tongue lapping at your clit, sucking it into his mouth.
"christopher!" you moaned out, your back arching off the bed. the hand that wasn't wrapped around your throat was rubbing up and down your thigh, as if he was comforting you.
"taste so good," chris muttered, his lips moving to your entrance, licking a stripe up, before shoving his tongue in. he fucked you with his tongue, moaning at the way you were grinding against his face.
you couldn't focus on anything other than the way his tongue was fucking into you, the way his nose was nudging against your clit. the coil in your stomach was growing tighter and tighter, and you were sure you were about to come.
"chris, 'm gonna come," you whimpered, your hands reaching down, gripping his hair, pulling him impossibly closer. your hips grinned against his face, chasing the pleasure he was giving you.
chris could feel how close you were, the way your walls were fluttering around his tongue, and he could tell that you were trying to keep him close. "go ahead, sweetheart, come for me," he said, his words muffled. that was all it took for you to come, a loud moan leaving your lips, his name falling from them.
chris licked up everything you had to offer him, not wasting a single drop. his eyes were trained on your face, the way you were panting, trying to catch your breath. chris smiled, his lips trailing back up your body, kissing every inch of exposed skin he could. he finally reached your lips, connecting his own with yours.
you could taste yourself on his tongue, and the thought made you moan, a sound that was swallowed by chris' lips. his hand had left your throat, his fingers replacing his tongue. he easily slid two fingers into your cunt, your slickness allowing him to do so. you moaned into his mouth, your arms wrapping around his neck, pulling him close.
chris smiled against your lips, his fingers thrusting into you fast and hard, and it wasn't long before he was adding a third. you were already sensitive, your previous orgasm having barely settled, but you could feel another building, and it wasn't going to take long.
"gonna come again for me again, ma?" chris whispered, and you nodded your head, whines leaving your lips. "so pretty for me." his fingers were working quickly, his thumb rubbing harsh circles on your clit, his eyes watching as your face scrunched up. "come for me, baby."
it was as if his words were all you needed, and you were coming for the second time. your nails were digging into his skin, and you were sure you were drawing blood, but chris didn't seem to care.
"so good, princess," chris mumbled, his fingers slowly moving out of your cunt, bringing them to your mouth. âwanna taste yourself?â you opened your mouth, letting him shove his fingers in. you moaned, sucking your own slick off of his fingers, and the way chris was looking at you made your brain go fuzzy.
he pulled his fingers out, and he could see the glossy look in your eyes. "you good?" he asked, his hands holding the side of your face. you nodded, leaning into his touch. "mhm."
he chuckled, before flipping the two of you back over, so that he was on his back, and you were straddling him. "want you to ride me, angel." you slid down his lap slightly, your hands going to undo his belt. "take off your clothes, chris."
he didn't hesitate, quickly taking his shirt off. the sight of him shirtless had your mouth watering, but you didn't have time to admire it.
he lifted his hips, letting you pull his jeans and boxers down. you could see his cock, and fuck. it was big, and thick, and you weren't even sure you'd be able to take all of him.
"c'mon, baby. let me see how pretty you are on my cock," chris groaned, and his words had you moaning. you lifted yourself up, letting him line himself up with your entrance. "i'll go slow, angel."
he pushed you down, his hands on your hips guiding you. the stretch burned, and it took everything in you not to whimper. "fuck," chris cursed, his head falling back. his hands were gripping onto your hips so hard, his nails digging into your skin.
you could feel the tears welling up in your eyes, but once you bottomed out, you were fine. he gave you time to adjust, looking at you for confirmation before he started moving. you nodded your head, and that was all he needed.
his hips started thrusting up, his movements slow and gentle, and his eyes were watching your face for any signs of discomfort.
"more," you muttered, and he complied, his hips thrusting harder, his pace picking up. "always wanted this," chris groaned, his fingers wrapping around your throat, pulling you down to connect his lips with yours.
you moaned into his mouth, his hips thrusting up into you. the room was filled with the sounds of skin slapping, and the way his cock was hitting your g spot had you seeing stars.
"fuck, fuck, please," you cried out, and the sound of your pleas had chris grunting. he moved one of his hands, letting it rest on your lower stomach, putting pressure on it, making him hit that spot even harder.
"feel so good," chris grunted, his grip tightening around your throat. "you like it when i choke you?" "yes, yes, love it," you whimpered, as tears fell down your cheeks.
the sight of his best friend crying above him because of how good he was making you feel had his hips thrusting harder, his hands grabbing at your body. he was sure his fingers were leaving bruises, and the thought had him growling.
"look so pretty taking my cock like a good little slut," chris grunted, and the dirty talk had you whining. "yeah? my baby likes being called a slut?" you nodded, a loud moan leaving your lips. "my pretty little slut."
he flipped the two of you over, chris hovering above you. he had a hand wrapped around your throat, his other hand resting beside your head. his lips were right against your ear, his voice low, growling.
his hips continued to drill into you, your eyes rolling back. you were barely able to form any thoughts, let alone sentences other than whimpers and whines.
"you feel so good, baby," chris grunted, and the way he was speaking made you moan. "gonna come," you cried out, the familiar feeling in your stomach starting to build. "i know, princess," he said, his hand moving to grip the bed sheets, his hips thrusting into you faster.
"fuck, please," you begged, with the way his hand was wrapped around your throat it had you seeing stars. the pleasure was intense, and chris could feel the way you were shaking, your walls fluttering around him.
"such a pretty little slut, crying for her best friend as he fucks her," he whispered, and the words were all you needed, sending you over the edge, your high washing over you. you came with a loud moan, the tears that were previously falling were now streaming down your face, the pleasure was overwhelming.
chris continued his brutal pace, his lips sucking marks into the sensitive skin of your neck. he pulled out flipping you over, "hands and knees, angel." he waited until you got into position before shoving himself back into you, both of you groaning. he let his hands wrap around your hair, pulling your head back.
his lips were attached to the spot between your neck and shoulder, his hips moving impossibly faster. the feeling was so intense, you could barely breathe. "fuck, please, chris," you were mumble-whining, unable to form any coherent sentences. the feeling was too much, too overwhelming. "can't talk, ma?"
chris chuckled, and the sound made your eyes roll back. his fingers were digging into the flesh of your hips, and you were sure that if he didn't have such a good grip on you, you would have collapsed by now. "my dumb little plaything, hmm?"
you whined, his words going straight to your cunt, causing you to clench around him. "already dripping again, hm? you like being my dumb little toy?"
you nodded, and he chuckled, letting go of your hair and pushing your face into the mattress. the change in angle had him hitting a different spot, and he was sure the sounds that were leaving your mouth were inhuman.
"christopher, chris, please," you were begging, and it was music to his ears. "what's wrong, princess?" he said, his hand rubbing your back as his thrusts slowed. "it's too much," you mumbled, and he could see the tears staining your face, the drool leaking out of the side of your mouth. "too much ma?"
you nodded, and his eyes widened.
"you want me to stop, princess?" chris said, and he was ready to pull out, when you shook your head. "want you to come," you whispered, and he smiled. "yeah, angel? my girl wants me to come in her tight little pussy?"
you nodded, and that was all it took for chris. his thrusts picked up, his fingers gripping the flesh of your hips. "gonna fill you up," chris grunted, his words going straight to your core, and suddenly you were coming once again.
you could feel his hot cum filling you up, and the way he was fucking into you had his seed leaking out of you. chris' head was resting on your back, and you were barely able to support the two of you, as your legs were shaking.
he pulled out, his hand swiping over your cunt, pushing his cum back into you. "keep it in, yeah?" he muttered, and the words made you shiver. chris laid on his back, pulling you to lay on his chest, his hands running up and down your body.
"you okay, angel?" chris asked, his eyes searching yours. he was worried he had pushed too far, and while it seemed like it, he didn't regret it. "yes, more than okay," you whispered, leaning up to press a kiss to his lips.
"good, good." there was a moment of silence, before he chris was breaking it.
"if i ever see that bastard, i'll fucking kill him."
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We need to expand our use of dilirium within the whump community I think.
When people see the prompt "dilirium" or "dilirious" in a whump event most jump to fever, illness, infection. And that's fine. That's valid. But there is SO MUCH MORE to dilirium.
Delirium is a complex psychological state that can indeed be triggered by illness and fever, but it can also result from a wide array of other causes. Itâs a state where cognition and coherence deteriorate, where reality may start to frey at the edges leaving the whumpee confused, disorientated, maybe unable to even distinguish reality.
You can drive a character into a dilirious state without any external factors. A characters cognition and coherence can be picked to the brink by so many things.
1. Extreme Sleep Deprivation: this is a favourite of mine. A whumpee kept awake for days on end, their cognitive functions begin to deteriorate, the boundary between wakefulness and sleep blurs, leading to fractured and disjointed thought processes. The mind starts to struggle to maintain coherence, resulting in hallucinations and a profound disorientation.
2. Substance Withdrawal: Not one I've explored much, but can totally count. The body and mind in chaos, craving what they can no longer have. The physical symptoms can be brutal, but the psychological torment can drive them into a state of delirium, where reality becomes a shifting, unreliable landscape.
3. Psychological Torture: Another one I tend to gravitate to. Intense psychological manipulation, sensory deprivation or overwhelm can also drive the mind into delirium. Continuous gaslighting, isolation, or exposure to disturbing stimuli can erode a characters grasp on reality, leading to a state where they can no longer distinguish between truth and illusion.
4. Emotional Trauma: this a mental breakdown. Severe emotional trauma pushing a whumpee into a to their mental limits. The overwhelming stress and fear fracturing their mind, causing confusion, disorientation, dissociation, hallucinations as their psyche tries to protect itself and struggles to make sweetheart if what's happened/happening.
5. Overwhelming Physical Pain: Pain, just pain, if relentless and severe enough, can lead to delirium. A whumpee in constant, excruciating pain might find their mind breaking under the strain, leading to confusion, disorientation, and a detachment from reality.
6. Fever: and just because it can't really be left of the list, fever. Infections, illness, etc. But did you know there is more than one kind of dilirium? Yes there is the sick whumpee who is too weak too most and admits all their insecurities and secrets in a slurred disjointed major. But there is also the type of dilirium where the character becomes energetic, erratic behavior, pacing incessantly and speaking rapidly, refusing to rest. Frustrating and worrying for those trying to help.
And this is just the ones of the top of my head. There's so much potential here! And yes this is a very self indulgent and selfish post that I wrote while writing a fic where I am inducing dilirium in a character through acute stress and an identity crisis đ
but in short - I want to see more varied portrayals of dilirium in whump.
An extension of this post A similar post about hallucinations A similar post about fever
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