#tomorrows my birthday

[charlottecbordeaux]

Right now being whisked away to Disney Sea for my B-day and it’s been very good so far

Actually it’s been over 15-ish years since I’ve been to any Disney related park-

[bloodstainsontengensfloor]

Me when I share the same bday as Obanai but I’m the youngest of five girls so I’m not the male sacrifice to a snake demon that makes us money.

[orgyporgy]

Today I’m gonna paint my nails and watch a movie and finish a puzzle doesn’t that sound nice?

[bunnakit]

why i get mentally ill around my birthday; a vent post

so like growing up my family never had a lot of money so i never expected much for my birthdays. then i had a birthday at the park in like the 4th grade and only 2 friends showed up and from then on i said i didnt want to do birthday parties anymore. my parents were fine with that, and we just didn't do them anymore. all my friends still have birthday parties but only having 2 people show up hurt me so much i just didn't want to do it again. (i probably should have, bc i slowly became to resent my birthday and how it never felt like a big deal or anything) then as my depression got worse the older i got the seasonal depression got worse because of course it did

then it was that my 18th birthday was the last time i saw my biological dad in person - our relationship was complicated, he was emotionally abusive in many ways but i do have some fond memories of him, so it was always conflicted feelings. from then on i'd only really hear from him on my birthday.

then on my 29th birthday he called to tell me he was dying of cancer. i know he called on my birthday because he knew i'd answer. he never wished me happy birthday. i didn't believe him because he had a tendency to lie about medical issues for sympathy and to manipulate people.

he wasn't lying. he died 6 months later.

last year was great; some fandom friends hated what had happened to me and wanted to make my 30th really special. they shipped me flowers, there was this huge message board with so many beautiful messages from the fandom, a friend irl took me out and spent all day with me and took me to dinner, and a few weeks later my husband and i brought home our first dog.

i thought maybe this year would be mellow, maybe just fly under the radar, however, my step-father-in-law had a stroke recently and his health has been declining. my husband was out of town this week to say his goodbyes, be there for his mom, etc.

he died this morning. the day before my birthday. (it honestly was a kindness at this point, he's not suffering anymore)

and it's like, i don't want to make all these things about me - it's really just shit coincidental timing. but it did happen to me - these are my family members, diagnosed to be dying and literally dying around my birthday year after year.

that's what i get for being born on the 13th i guess. i just hope tomorrow can be somewhat decent.

so yeah if you ever see me bitch about my birthday, or seem in a funk, or joke that my birthday is cursed - that's why.

[luckypoppymilliemama]

Huge thank you to @kyra45 for bringing me to tumblr. I can basically say all my brain thoughts here and my heart thoughts and people can ignore me like they do in person.

My tags are fun today. Enjoy

[gonesugaring33]

being 15 is

seeing people age for the first time, your nanas hair is greying and slowly she loses more minutes on her feet, your teenage sister who you danced to Britney Spears with is suddenly getting her phD in psychology, your other teenage sister who played with you at kindergarden is now a mother, all the dogs you grew up with aren’t putting sticks at your feet as often, your dad looks and sounds different, but you are still young and still feel the same as you did when you were all young , only they’re different now.

heavy water/I’d rather be sleeping - grouper

all grouper songs

your cat you’ve had forever just making it to your 16th birthday

hating everyone around you one second then the next loving them

suddenly not being able to use your brain

becoming girly again, not being scared to love pink and unicorns again

[werewolffem]

:D

[hinamie]

shows up a day early with a nobara birthday tribute

[fairydrowning]

"I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself."

– Franz Kafka

[narnour-momo-007]

ew bacteria

[sygni]

can we still be friends?

[fairyrona]

when everything's made to be broken (i just want you to know who i am) by @hoteadepresso pt 1

‘Stop.’ Will forced out, shaking his head in disbelief, hurt painting his features ‘Mike, that’s not funny. It’s mean.’ He thought he was joking. Mike was throwing his bleeding heart onto his floor, and he thought it was some sort of a prank. Fuck. ‘You really think I would joke about it?’ his voice sounded like it came from far away, weak and broken. His hand twitched, yearning to touch Will, to take his hand, to brush his fingertips against his warm skin for just one second even if that was all he could ever get.

late happy birthday present for Alex, the bestestest person out there!!!

a little bit of backstory; Once upon a time user @hoteadepresso wrote a fic (click here!!) (read it, its fucking amazing!!!!!!) which I immediately wanted to make fanart of, so, ofc it took me like, over a year to finish just this pt 1 <33

thus, the artstyle changes, which are a thing in this thing

[kinnsporsche]

they matched each others freak

[scoobydoodean]

Have you collected Dean’s birthday present?

…The seller backed out on me.

Dammit, Sam!

In which Sam and Cas plan a surprise 45th birthday and face some setbacks

[nina-the-ninth]

Happy birthday to the birdboi

[trek-tracks]

one of the episodes of all time