#tomorrow which is today lol its 1am

[sasanka-27]

Yes he does!!!

[sappymix1]

I LOVE HER SO BAD SHE'S SO FUCKING AWESOME AND CRAZY. it's genuinely a tragedy how little works she has I think I love everything she wrote and also that's so fun i Loveee the 20th century in terms of writing because like again. A 30s revival stan. anwyay From her one of her best novels was actually written in english which is House of Mist but it's kinda long? I mean in terms of her other works lol it's her longest I believe. I would recommend as a general rec to read El árbol (The tree) and Trenzas (Braids) which are like short tales Personally the tree is a longtime fave of mine. The Shrouded Woman is also like crazy good sorry I just love all her novels. The knowledge that there's a vault filled with some of her unfinished manuscripts that have yet to be made public haunts me. Sorry I was just yapping ummm I'm good I'm finishing some drawings and then I will try to write I think and does tomorrow (today ig) work for you For something rotten? or before the novunki wedding part 2 sunday lol I will need to stay up

screenshotted this and saved it so I could look for them yay I love reading. THATS SO FUCKED?? well like it makes sense lmao but literally the worst feeling in the world knowing its all out there but you just can't access it :(( okay wait am I dumb I thought the novunki wedding was technically tomorrow night like isn't it 1am Sunday morning or did I misunderstand 😭😭 but we could def do it before if u want idk if you have to prepare first tho? lmao

[alexracheltravel]

Day One: Välkommen

Travel days are always hard. They're harder at night. We took a July 4 "red eye" that left around 8pm and we landed in Iceland at 6am local time. It was about 1am back home. When we got off the plane we stood outside for a moment as we were bussed to the terminal and one man behind us asked: "does it ever get warm here or is it because it's the morning?" We had a quick breakfast of Skyr yogurt (yum!) and an egg salad and lox sandwich, which was all better than we expected airport food deserved to be.

Folks, it warmed up, but not that much! After another 3hr flight we finally made it! Stockholm, Sweden!

Getting to the AirBnB was easy. After all, we're New Yorkians so the only issue was recognizing which subway station was in which direction.

But we made it fairly quickly. But of course, it was time to eat.

Meal #1: Hasselsson Stockholm

Look, to be real, we first thought of going here mostly because it was around the corner from the AirBnB. We walked into this small, hole in the wall spot, and took a seat. Rach ordered a fish and chips, Alex ordered the fish burger. They were virtually identical. Giant pieces of fish, made with a fluffy, crispy batter, and with a side of shoestring fries, garnished with red onion, parsley and cheese (Rachel omitted this). There was also a side of mayo, because that's how Europe does its chips.

It was damn good food.

I'm not doing this "meal 1" stuff for the whole trip, by the way.

After lunch, we popped into a cafe for a quick caffeine boost because we were running on about 4ish hours of sleep. The spot was super cute, trendy, and a lot of people were chatting outside.

We noticed something about the Swedish language. Many words sound the same in English, but are spelled differently, or sound different, but spelled similarly. For example:

Hello = Hej (pronounced "hey")

Good morning = God morgon (pronounced go-moron, lol)

Station = Station, but pronounced in a way we don't quite understand.

Anyway, we didn't get any sweets during this cafe trip, but there is always tomorrow. Instead, our sweets were on the road.

You can hear 50 Cent playing, can't you?

These candies are so good we literally became children once again.

You think that's all we did today? WRONG. We went back to the AirBnB, showered, and then went BACK OUT for dinner.

We went to a spot called Portal, just around the corner. Imagine the cool, trendy neighborhood spot you go to every once in a while. That's what it was like, and it was great. We had some trout, some lamb, some schnitzel, and a touch of ice cream at the end.

Jetlag is catching up to us right as the sun sets at 10pm. It got COLD in the evening! 60s all day and high 50s at "night." Rachel called the weather "perfect."

Alex: Rachel, now we're in Sweden, what do you love the most?

R: The architecture is different from where I have traveled. Historically I don't think it's substantially different from other European countries, but I haven't been to so many, so maybe I'm just loving the look!

A: And what are you looking forward to?

R: I am really excited to explore the other neighborhoods!

A: Any in particular?

R: I'm interested in Gamla Stan (the old city). And also looking forward to some vegan FIKA time.

Good night from Stockholm. More to come tomorrow!

[slyshyfoxy]

3 June 2024

Hello its me !!! Anyways, recently i have been ill and i recovered then my body clock broke and at night i kept on thinking about what i should be doing for my future, or what kind of job should i even get? But i got it all figured out as for now which is to work 2 years as a design engineer and the rest i will just do as extra. Anyways, i have a problem i have been unable to rest early at night and i do not know why is that so, and i have been feeling fearful? I do not know why i am feeling like this , i dont know why am i being fearful when there is nothing to even fear about. LOL. But i think i need to fix my body clock and start sleeping early like at 12 am? 1am? Instead of sleeping at whatever timing, and i need to catch up with my studies and continue to go gym, maybe gym can fix my body clock LOL. Maybe i was just low in spirits, but i know im not like this and i can do things better, anyways tomorrow i will just go school first and attend the meeting with my project mates then move forward to it then go school attend classes and all. And furthermore, i need to study and catch up with my lectures and espeically my ground engineering tutorial 4. Then have quizzes on the next week. Then my capstone project also apparently submission on july so i should quickly do up soon too. But basically i feel like i should'nt be worrying about anything, things will be resolved sooner or later. Me and jolyn is good, and she told me that she will be focusing on her work, so i should do that too. and most of all to fix my body clock, think i will try sleep at 1am today. And i will finish the lectures and tutorial today, i actually dont feel like lol, like no mood to do for today i do not know why, maybe because of the weather like its rainy and then not and rainy, just a weird weather. i think just dont worry about anything in ur life, u are doing perfectly fine and doing perfectly great, just keep on moving forward u will be fine. U are doing good jenny, keep it up !! Dont give up!!! - 3 June 2024.

[avariceaside]

I have once again forgotten to post my last hollow knight adventure from last week, and I did a LOT today so I think I'm going to make two posts.

First things first, my playthrough from last week... I actually don't remember that much because my memory is shite and I've been going to sleep past 1am for the past week.

For a quick summary of what I do recall, I explored more of the crystal peaks and tried to skip getting the monarch wings to get the pale ore at the top, but I sadly am not a speedrunner and gave that up pretty quickly. I then went to a place I hadn't explored yet, which turned out to be the snail shaman's hut. But I uh... I forgot I had the crystal heart, which led to me trying to jump over the pit... leading to me falling into the Resting Grounds, finding the Dreamers, and getting the Dreamnail, which while unwelcome was a surprising detour. I eventually made it back INTO the hut and died multiple times trying to get to the top and then looked up what the rewards were, and then proceeded to rage quit the area. Look, descending dark and a grub are nice and all but those crystal hunter things are soooo frustrating!! I just couldn't do it

After that I think I went back to the sewers to try and get Isma's tear, which wasn't too bad. The Dung Defender fight only took me a handful of tries, mostly thanks to spamming desolate dive lol. I got Isma's tear pretty quick after that and explored a little bit of the other side of the City of Tears. I also think I went around to some of the acid areas that were blocked off before but I don't remember that super well. ALSO! I was so scared I'd killed the Defender for good and couldn't talk to him again, and I was really upset because he seems cool, and I was so relived when I went back to the area and he was there.

I visited the Nailmaster in Greenpath, and the parkour frustrated me to no end. It seemed like it should be so easy but those stupid thorns kept killing me, and sometimes my crystal heart wouldn't activate and I'd just fall into the pit. ugh T.T But I eventually reached his hut and got the nail art, and I think that was about it for that night.

I got the Dreamnail, Isma's tear, and a new Nail art, as well as some new locations to add to the map, and the Dreamer markers. The only major area I hadn't explored yet was... Deepnest (and also the Anicent Basin that I found that day but shhhh, its foreshadowing)

But I think I'm going to call that the post for today, and I'll post today's playthrough sometime tomorrow because it's 1 am again. Whoops

[loveireandblog]

I said to him if he had an exam he was doing the nszt day absolutely fucking nothing would have me come into his room n try n wake him up for an issue. Nothing.

And yet after a day of being completely numb, extremely sleepy and I think I have a cold so just insanely fatigued ...and my friend is coming round tomorrow. And I am stressed out of my mind bc I did indeed try to kill myself 2 months ago and this feels like I'm doing something that'll anchor me in w life yk like an active choice to See. A. Friend.

And I fell asleep at 1am which is unheard of when I usually sleep at 7am...........like I kind of was just so numb I deactivated lol and fell asleep. Probs my brain tryna protect me for tomorrow. Make sure things r restorative

What does he do? Wakes me up.

He fucking wakes me up. Its half 6am and I can't sleep. Because I am thinking now. I fell asleep but I was woken up and now my mind won't stop racing

What the FUCK POSESSES SOMEONE TO DO THAT? I LOOK AT THE CLOCK AND IM IN COMPLETE SHOCK ITS HALF 6 AND IM SO AWAKE . WE WERE DOING SO WELL TODAY. I Can't fucking believe it

[minghaocouture]

Soft Kiss

Pairing: Hwanwoong x Reader

WC: 800+

Warning: N/A

Genre: Fluff, fluff, and more fluff

Tag List: @kpop-in-new-albion @princessthotty

A/N: Apparently all I can write for Hwanwoong is cute fluff like this lol. Sorry it’s a bit short, I did in fact finish writing this at like 5am but I wanted to post for his birthday! So here it is <3 

Hwanwoong was exhausted. Today’s schedule had been booked full, and now the man was basically running on fumes as he made his way back to his shared home. He had been hoping to make it home earlier, but he and the guys had lost track of time celebrating his birthday. It had been nice of the others to throw him that little party, even if it had only been them and the members of Onewe, he wouldn’t change it for the world.

Well...that was a lie. He had wished that you could have been there as well, but the two of you had decided that it would be safer for you to not visit the dorms. Which was why he was currently on his way to your apartment at almost 1am. The two of you had planned to spend time together tomorrow for his birthday but...he wanted to see you now. He knew that he could probably come across as a bit clingy, but you never seemed to complain about it.

With a loud yawn, he used his key to unlock your door and quietly slip in. To his surprise, a lot of the lights were still on in the apartment. Which was definitely strange considering you were usually asleep or at least winding down at this time. 

Slipping off his shoes and sliding on his personal slippers, he entered slowly. Entering the kitchen first and finding it empty. He pouted a bit, turning the light off as he exited and headed towards the living room. 

What he saw warmed his heart but at the same time, a rather large pang of guilt made its way into his gut. His eyes landed on your unconscious form as you lay on the sofa. A small cupcake with a candle in it sat on the coffee table in front of you. Of course you had waited up for him, you were far too good for him. He knew that, he was just surprised that you didn’t seem to think the same way. 

“Babe, you’re gonna hurt your back if you sleep out here,” he muttered. Kneeling down next to the couch, he gently pressed a kiss to your forehead. The soft pressure, mixed with the sound of his voice had you slowly opening your eyes. He moved away slightly as you sat up.

“Happy birthday Woongie,” you muttered, rubbing the sleep out of your eyes. You weren’t sure what time it was, or how long you had been asleep. You weren’t even positive it was still the 26th, even if it wasn’t, you had already wished him a happy birthday over the phone earlier. You had just wanted to say it in person as well. 

He chuckled softly, ruffling your hair a bit before leaning forward again and pressing his lips gently to yours. The kiss was soft and comforting, but it also warmed your entire being. Making you wish that you were able to kiss him more often. 

“Thank you baby.” he whispered, pulling away. His lips ghosting over your own as he spoke.

“You need to blow out your candle.” You slowly snaked your arms around his neck, softly smiling as your eyes drifted shut once more. This time you were the one to initiate the kiss, just wanting to be near him. You couldn’t help but smile as you heard his familiar chuckle even as he kissed you. Whining once he pulled away again.

“I can do that tomorrow, right now though, we should get you to bed. My baby is exhausted.” His teasing tone caused you to pout slightly. He was right, but that didn’t mean you had to like it. He stood and pulled you to your feet. His hand laced with yours as he guided you to your room, his cupcake left forgotten on the table as he turned the light off in the living room. 

Soon enough the two of you were laying in your bed, limbs tangled together pulling you closer to him. His hand rubbing small circles on your back as your buried your face into his chest. 

“I love you so much.” His words had been so quiet, you almost thought you had been hearing things. Like you were imagining he was actually able to be here with you. 

It was definitely a challenging relationship, being with someone who was practically married to their work. But the two of you did the best you could, and tried to be understanding with each other...even if it was kind of hard sometimes.

Moments like this made it all worth it. These times where it was just the two of you, lost in your own little world. When all you needed to think about was him. You lived for these moments.

“I love you too,” your voice came out almost as soft as his had before, but you knew he heard you. His lips pressing softly against the crown of your head as the two of you slowly drifted off to sleep. 

[surveysonfleek]

1581.

Have you ever been to Las Vegas? yes, i have! its one of my favourite cities

What did you have for breakfast this morning? i had scrambled eggs and hash browns

Do you have any loose change in your pocket? no pockets and i hardly ever leave things in my pockets

Do you like Taylor Swift? i dont mind her, she has some catchy songs

What’s your favorite Disney Channel movie? camp rock haha

If you met your favorite celebrity, would you be calm or star struck? id try to stay calm, id probably be super nervous just being in their presence though

Are there any lights on in the room you’re in? nope, its day time

What’s your favorite subject in school? it was visual arts

What’s your favorite holiday? christmas, it always means ill have a week or two off work!

Do you ever have to do yard work? nope

Is your school close to your house? ive been out of school for a longggg time but it was a 5-10 min drive

Speaking of school, how did you get there today? -

Do you think Bad Romance is a catchy song, or an annoying one? its a good song! i dont love it but im not surprised at how massive it got

Do you use perfect grammar online? honestly, in my previous surveys i would but now i cant be bothered. i use perfect grammar day to day when working so i just sorta wna chill and not focus too much when i do these now

Are you currently using a laptop? yes

Do you have any live versions of songs in your music software? most likely, i used to love downloading them back in the limewire days

Did/do you listen to Britney Spears songs? i loooooved britney when she first blew up. and i still do! i dont listen to her stuff too heavily anymore but i still love it

Is it a windy day? nope

In the past week, have you ridden in a taxi? no

What shorthand do you use the most? if were talking about typing, i still text/chat people with ‘u’ instead of ‘you’

Do you ever wish on stars at night? no, ive never seen a shooting star

What color are your eyes? brown

What album is the current song you’re listening to off of? not listening to music, i have the tv on while doing this

What are you doing after you finish this? not sure, maybe another survey

In your opinion, what song is the most overplayed right now? i havent listened to the radio in forever

Are you in a band? no

How clean is your bedroom? pretty clean!

Is there a pen within reaching distance of you? no

Are you sitting at a desk? no, im in bed lol

Does your favorite band have a male or female lead singer? male

Do you normally shut your bedroom door before you go to sleep? of course ol

Have you seen the movie Moulin Rouge? i feel lik ei have once but i do not remember anything about it 

Would you ever dye your hair a different color? yes

Are there any framed pictures in the room you’re in? yes

Have you ever been to a Broadway show? not in broadway... ive seen the musicals lion king and aladdin in my city though

Do you watch So You Think You Can Dance? i did when it first came out

What’s your favorite movie soundtrack? none really stand out to me

Do you prefer group or individual work? individual, id rather just count on myself

Do you have a key to anything besides your house? car

Are you wearing anything with stripes? nope

What time did you go to sleep last night? i think 1am

Did anyone tell you you were beautiful today? no

What show did you last watch? american horror story

Do you think you’ll do anymore surveys today? maybe one more

What’s your favorite ice cream flavor? run and raisin

When was the last time you stayed home from school sick? years ago when i actually attended school lol

Could you ever complete a 500-piece puzzle? i probably could, i just wouldnt have the patience

If you could run a red light and not get caught, would you? nah. id rather not risk mine or others’ lives

Do you like to listen to music as you do your homework? i dont have homework

Did you think Adam Lambert’s AMA performance was really that controversial? i dont recall, this survey is probably really old

Do any bands flat-out annoy you? nah, i just dont listen to them

Do you have a mirror in your bedroom? yes

Was today a birthday for any of your friends? yes actually! ill need to greet him

When was the last time you rode in a limo? never been in one :(

Do you take naps daily? no. i wish!

Do you still make Christmas lists? yes haha

Do you watch the show Dexter? i did. apparently theyre rebooting it which is exciting! the ending was pretty trash

What’s the background on your phone? its a dark cityscape of nyc

When were/will you be a a sophomore in high school? -

Are you scared of any animals? cockroaches. also i live in australia so while im not afraid of snakes and spiders, im pretty mindful of them

Have you ever been to any sort of convention? yup! ive been to sexpo and a wedding expo lol

Which song did you last listen to on repeat? probably a kehlani song

Where do you want to live when you grow up? around here still

Are you currently using a blanket? yep

Are there any songs that make you cry? not really

How many siblings do you have? one

What are you doing this weekend? its saturday today. im doing nothing. tomorrow im going on a picnic with friends

Do you prefer swimming at the beach or in a pool? pool, its so much more comfortable than a beach lol

When was the last time you had a haircut? hmm... maybe june?

Which musical instrument do you think sounds the prettiest? a harp!

Are you in band or chorus at your school? no

Do you know what you want for Christmas? nope. i dont ‘need’ anything.

Do you watch fireworks on New Year’s Eve? most of the time!

Is your birthday within the next three months? no

How long is the song you’re listening to? not listening to music

Are you anticipating anything this week? yeah, kinda waiting to see if were going ahead with buying some land

Is your mom or dad the older parent? my dad

Have you taken the SATs yet? -

Do you watch anything on E? i dont have e

Are you going to get off the computer now that you’ve finished this? nah maybe one more survey lol

[aimixx]

Ay its time to go to bed its 1am and i have a dentist visit tomorrow

Just wanted to thank you for allowing me to simp with you i had fun today ☺

Ah u can ignore this ask u dont have to answer it lol , just wanted to thank u

Sometimes im Awkward out of anon (more like in general) but i was very comfortable

Which leads to me sending you ask non stop xD(sorry not sorry)

Have a good night rest when u go to bed 💫

Dream about kazuha and akito for meeeee

🥺🥺🥺🥺 cmere rn lemme cuddle u THAT IS SO SWEET

i dont mind the spam at all bb, i love every single one of my followers and i dont mind the asks and interactions at all!

seeing an ask puts a smile on my face and these interactions makes me feel better. I don't want to make anyone feel awkward or shy to send me an ask! I may take a while to reply sometimes but I will answer ur ask💞💞💞

gn bb and gl at the doctor's<333

[karasuno-writings]

Promise?

Here is the angst I promised! At least the first one!

So I suck at titling things LOL so that is what I could come up with! I really got too much into this scenario like catch me in the kitchen floor at 1am bc the house is crowded and I just neeeded to finish bc I was soooo inspired, so maybe it did turn out nice! Or I hope so at least!! I hope you all like it! It also turned out kinda long!! 

Character: Kuroo Tetsuro

Warnings: I guess angst?

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“Lets go to my home, kitten” You jumped slightly as your boyfriend, Kuroo, materialized next to you seemingly out of nowhere, smiling softly as he held his hand out. You hummed softly and took his hand in yours, such a feeling that warmed your heart up, letting you know that is where you belonged. 

Your phone buzzed on your pocket and as you took it out to check if it was something important a looming feeling washed over you, the hand in yours suddenly feeling no more like home and instead working only to intensify the weight that settled on your stomach.

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“Hey handsome! Whatcha looking at?” You asked, hugging your boyfriend from behind, wrapping your arms on his shoulders. You rest your head on your arm after planting a soft kiss on his cheek, keeping your head close to his. A cheeky smile appeared on Kuroo’s face as he kissed your arm. 

“Well you know how we talked about moving in together in a few years?” He said, wiggling his eyebrows, a small flutter appearing on your chest as you saw his screen, he was indeed looking for apartments in Tokyo. 

You stopped for a second, feeling the flutter no more replaced by an unusual lack of air. While you loved him, you both were still young and the future was unpredictable. You really wanted to be with him forever but keeping your hopes up so young did manage to unease you. Kuroo immediately felt the tension on your arms and letting go turned around, pulling you to sit on his lap.

“What’s wrong, kitten?”  He looked at you with soft eyes

“I just don’t want to get out hopes up...What if something happens? Or one of us has to go?” 

His heart throbbed, and while it hurt thinking about it, there was some truth behind it. He grabbed your hands, wrapping his around them and rubbing his thumb lightly. 

“I know...but hey, we can see it through...look, if something happens we will plan it out and in the end it will all turn out” 

“Really?”

“As long as we keep each other informed we’ll see everything through my love. You’ll have to promise to help me plan it all out though” He looked into your eyes, soft and determined. A small smile appeared on your lips as you wrapped your arms around him, his promises were always sincere and held high importance. It was all a matter of communication, if anything happened there would always be a way.

“Promise?” 

“Promise” You smiled.

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Dad: I don’t care, there is no choice to be done, we are leaving tomorrow. 

You felt your heart clench, its incessant thumping ringing in your ears as its beating increased slowly, the feeling was suffocating as you swore none of your breaths actually reached your chest, staying as a knot in your throat rather than filling your lungs. Your boyfriend had never given you a reason to feel like this, he never shouted at you, nor raised his voice, and was all too understanding. That was what made things worse.

You managed to hide it all with a deep breath, calming yourself right before he could notice, you knew that in the end he always did. He turned to look at you smiling, he was always so beautiful when he did, the dreading feeling lifting slightly, there was no need to worry him just yet. You smiled back at him, kissing his cheek, his scent filling your nostrils; he always did smell like a delightful mix of fresh laundry and wood which origin you could never pinpoint.  

That relaxed you all the way to your house, driving the fear of your mind for some delightful moments. 

“I’ll go fetch us something to it my love” With a smile you threw your jacket on the couch, heading straight towards the kitchen. 

“Sounds perfect kitten” He answered as you left his sight, sitting right next to where your discarded jacket lay. 

Once there you started chopping up some fruit as a snack for the movie you were sure the two of you would eventually watch. However after a few minutes you started wondering why he had not come to see what you were doing, it was unusual of him to stay on the living room all this time, curiosity got the best of him almost always. Shrugging the thought out of your mind you grabbed the bowls, ready to go back and cuddle up for a while.

The moment you stepped into the living room you felt it, he was not facing you as the couch was headed away from the doorway, yet you knew something was not right. The feeling crept up to you once more, the ringing in your ears growing louder each second that passed, your feet seemed to weight more than usual, making every step painfully difficult to take. 

“Tetsu?” You fought with the lump that lay on your throat, finding it harrowing to speak, you knew you had to. You were now next to the couch, you knew he could see you out of the corner of his eye, nevertheless he did not turn to face you. You felt a heft fall in your stomach all of a sudden, his expression was harsh, he only looked like this at those who had done him wrong. Your breathing became hitched, it was hard to keep your composure.

“Where you even planning to tell me?” Kuroo was desperate, he was sad and distraught, he was not angry, he knew he had to let you explain yourself, however he’d be lying if he said he could fully describe the wave of emotions that had hit him all of a sudden. He was not one to lose composure, that is why he looked so stern, the best way he could handle the information that had just overwhelm him.

“What do yo-”

“Please...don’t...just, you know what I am talking about”

You felt your eyes begin to water as you finally faced him, it was like something was pushing down on your chest, swallowing was now a seemingly impossible task as everything in the room seemed taller, the sensation of shrinking impossible to ignore.

“I didn’t know Kuroo, I wanted to be sure before telling you”

“Tomorrow? You were not sure if you were leaving tomorrow?” The irritation in his voice building up with each word. He was not sure how to react, he was a planner, he was cold blooded when in difficult situations, but you leaving him for who knows how long? Not being able to see you anymore? He could not begin to muster what it would be like. 

“...our promise? The plans we had? If only you had been honest damnit” His voice cracked, it was evident he was hurt, which only managed to make things worse for you.

“It is not my fault, my parents...they just told me” 

“You should have told me right away”

“I didn’t know! I did not want to worry you!” You were practically choking on your words, spitting them out as well as you could. You wanted to explain, but you were not ready for him to find out before you could, you had planned it all out.

“I thought we agreed on something” 

“I was going to tell you today...but you decided to sneak on my phone instead” That was the final straw, he stood up, stern.

“You really think I’d do that?”  The way he spoke, you’d rather have him shout, this was much worse. You felt helpless, insignificant compared to how he appeared to tower over you. You wanted to answer, but you couldn’t seem to find your voice.

“So that is it right? You think that about me. I just...I thought you could hold on to your promises” Still nothing from you, holding back the tears became much harder.

“I thought you wanted to make it all work out…” Disappointment.

“We can, we c-”

“I am not so sure now”

That is what made it for you, he didn’t think it would all be good for the two of you then, he did not even seem to want to try. Tears finally began pouring down your cheeks as you held on to the jacket you had just managed to retrieve. After all this years he was willing to let go for one slight misunderstanding. You had nothing left to say, sobbing you walked for the door, looking back at him as you opened it, hoping he’d say something else, anything.

He didn’t

That was a mistake that would haunt him for all this years

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Kuroo had just finished grocery shopping, he was stuffing the food on his green bag, ready to call it a day and hang out with Kenma. Everything had been pretty uneventful, it seemed like nothing out of the ordinary, however something was a little off, he could not really wrap his mind around it. 

“Sir?” The cashier looked at him with expectant eyes, he had apparently got lost in his thoughts. Smiling apologetically at her he took the change. 

“Sorry! Have a nice day” He pocketed the coins and stepped outside, the day was warm, it seemed oddly cheerful.

He stopped, his feet couldn’t seem to move. Four years of regret falling on top of him like an avalanche as he saw it. He did not want it to be true, he wanted it to be a product of his imagination or just a sick joke. However he was not an idiot, nothing could change the fact you were there, or that you were smiling brighter than he had ever seen. And even if he wanted to, he could not ignore that the happiness that poured out of you was due to the boy who was now holding your hand, sawing it as you practically floated by his side.

His heart shattered, you were practically glowing, you had changed so much in all this time, but it all seemed to be for the better. Your eyes sparkled as you talked to the tall stranger, even more so than how they used to whenever you were by his side. You finally changed your hair, you always told him exactly how you wanted it, but never got around to actually do it, you looked stunning. 

Before he could react and think of what to do, you had spotted him. For a moment your expression shifted, maybe it was while you recognized him, still, as brief as it was he saw that you remembered him, all that happened between the two of you. It did not last long, and you now smiled, waving at him cheerfully and pulling your little friend behind you as you walked up to Kuroo.

“Hi Kuroo!...It has been a long time.” You smiled, he was surprised to find not a bit of resentment in your voice. Snapping out of his trance he managed to smile, as little as he could muster to. He missed the sound of his name on your lips, he just wished you would call him Tetsu one more time.

“Hello Y/N...yes, it has been a while. Why are you here?” He tried to remain calm, it was never hard for him to do so, the only problem was that you knew that all too well. He caught a whiff of your smell, it made him remember all those times you made him caress your hair and skin while holding you so close, your heart beating with his.

“Well, after finally being able to financially support myself I managed to get out of the grasp of my parents and live here in Tokio...like I’ve always dreamed” Your smile seemed apologetical, he knew why, four years were enough time to realize all the mistakes he had made. His heart ached, it used to be a dream of the both of you.

“That’s good” He wished he could say he was happy for you, but he could not. “Kuroo, nice to meet you” He greeted the buffoon that came with you.

“Kira, nice meeting you too” He shook his hand, Kuroo really desired to hate him.

“Well...we need to leave now. I’m glad to see you again” You said, feeling the tension grow, and with one last bow you carried on your path.

Kuroo followed you with his gaze, wanting you to turn and look at him, to be the reason of your smile once more. He wanted you to stay, so you could start it all over. He wanted to say something, try to win you once more. 

But just as you were about to take a turn on the corner of the street, Kuroo saw him place his arm around your shoulders, he saw your smile, the most goddamn beautiful smile he had ever seen.

And you didn’t look back.

[eyeslikefoxglove]

Episode 2 - Wei Wuxian has Foot-in-Mouth syndrome & Foxglove absolutely has a crush

Alright let’s go! It’s almost midnight so I might have to go to bed and continue tomorrow but... YOLO? I guess?

Fair warning, I will gush about cinematography and scenery like a lot. I have zero professional knowledge about it, but it’s pretty.

Wei “let me be really damn sexy when drinking” Wuxian.

He’s so done with everything omg it’s hilarious.

Ok but the actress who plays A-Yan is GORGEOUS.

Why does this show do “creepy yet beautiful” so damn good?

This might be my inner Rumplestiltskin talking but the second I heard “wish-granting fairy” I had to scream bullshit; all magic comes with a price.

My god Jin Ling would’ve gotten la zapatilla for talking to the people in the net like that if my granny had been there.

And I’ll never stop wondering who the fuck is in charge of logistics here. Because there you have A CIVILIAN wandering into a forest covered in magic nets.

That fucking donkey.

Watching this for the first time, with not prior knowledge must be fucking disconcerting. Because you have this literal walking disaster, who everyone (besides the gorgeous man in white) wants dead. But he’s a fucking mess and mostly harmless. So why? And it’s hilarious.

So maybe not that harmless. (Ok but badass WWX is kinda hot)

AND WWX DONE GOOFED. Feet in mouth syndrome at its finest.

Him sassing JL is hilarious.

OH HEY THAT’S MY HUSBAND RIGHT THERE!

But FR, the first time I saw JC in this scene I screamed: oh not he’s hoooooooot.

It’s the cheekbones. And the long hair. And the hands. And the fact that my self preservation instinct was left in-utero because I think getting that man riled up and angry over stupid shit would be hilarious.

... in my defence my family’s love language is being assholes to each other; but with affection you know?

JC: I am badass and have a temper don’t fuck with me.

Me: ok that’s valid but you’re also kind of an angry grape and spent ten minutes trying to find a polite way to say “fuck off and die” via letter.

WWX: why am I so unlike today.

WHEN ARE YOU LUCKY MATE? WHEN?

ooooooohhhhhh petty petty smackdown round one!

I love that JC is throwing digs at LWJ and LWJ is not even looking at him. I mean, the ducklings are carrying the conversation so this must not even be new to them.

Jin Ling is the Peacock, Sizhui is Shijie and Jingyi is a WWX/JC hybrid.

JC: what’s the bad news now?

Honestly? Same.

Why does Netflix not translate HJG as HGJ?

JC telling JL that he’ll break his legs if he fucks up has the same energy as my mum threatening me with making me go out on a Friday night if I don’t pass a test.

And yes, I make jokes about threatening physical violence here because it is my hc that, after the kind of parents the Yunmeng siblings had, JC took a look at JL and decided right then and there to stay away from his own parents’ methods.

I mean, one of my dad’s fave swears is: lord give me patience, because if you give me strength they’re all dead.

Which I find hilarious, so I can’t help but see the same thing in those two.

WWX finding out he’d disparaged his orphan nephew’s parents: It was at this moment that he knew he’d fucked up.

... well, that was creepy.

(Can I make the “compass that doesn’t point north and wooden sword” joke? Please?)

JIN LING SHUT UP.

Nopenopenopenoooooope.

So quick question, despite WWX coming back with his own body in this adaptation he does have a golden core right? Because he does some talisman and array things and he does mention when everyone is shit out of luck in the Burial Mounds that he, LWJ and the Ducklings are the only ones with spiritual energy. But he also gives his sword to WN to fight more often than not and he mentions that his body is “fragile”. So...

WWX just went into scolding/disappointed parent mode lol.

He just deduced everything correctly from a bunch of glittery grass. He’s fucking Sherlock and I can understand why NHS wanted him to help with his brother’s murder.

(Brief interlude so I can thirst over JC’s hands for a second again)

Jingyi is, as always, A Mood.

THE CINNAMON ROLL IS HERE.

“The Yiling Patriarch is not here!”

He’s right behind you mate.

So everyone is wearing Kevlar under their robes right? I’m going to assume so, because otherwise WN would’ve caved LSZ’s chest in with that chain throw. I mean, he punched right through stone so...

IT’S HERE.

IT’S HAPPENING.

NOBODY PANIC.

THE WRIST GRAB.

IS THAT A TIIIIIINY SMILE ON LWJ’S FACE?

THE DOUBLE WRIST GRAB.

LWJ’S SURPRISED FACE.

*screaming into a pillow*

Oh hey, hubby is back!

OMG I’m laughing at him scolding JL. Can’t help it.

Full disclosure, I love Zidian’s design.

Petty smackdown number two!

Lemme go on a Zidian tangent tho: IT’S A LIGHTNING WHIP. That shit should be devastating. Do you know how much voltage is in lightning? Too fucking much. Every time someone got hit with it you would have at least second to third degree burns, not to mention broken bones, muscle spasms and if you’re very very unlucky cardiac arrest. But you don’t. It doesn’t make sense? Help?

... why am I being logical over A FUCKING MAGIC WHIP.

Idk, it’s almost 1am don’t ask me that.

He really wanted his brother back didn’t he. I mean, he was so sure WWX was possessing that body and when nothing happened his face got all surprised and sad. That’s not the look of someone who wants to torture and murder the dude. That’s for sure.

LJY: didn’t you kill him yourself?

JC: conceal don’t feel don’t let them know.

Again, brilliant tiny flashback. We still don’t see what exactly happened at the cliff. You see LWJ holding onto WWX, you see a close up of JC stabbing down from above, but then it cuts to a wider frame and WWX is already falling. We are meant to assume JC did something like stab him on the face or hurt LWJ’s hand.

I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS OVER JC OK? He’s an angry grape but he’s my angry grape and he misses both his siblings.

Amazing transition again to a mega long flashback.

SHIJIE IS HERE. JC IS SMILING. WWX’S BIGGEST PROBLEMS ARE STEERING CLEAR OF DOGS AND HIS HORRIBLE ADOPTIVE MOTHER. *goes crying to read time-travel fix it fics*

(I’m gonna stop being all thirsty over JC at least until the SunShot Campaign bc 1. I think his mega crush on WQ is adorable and how I wish it’d worked out. & 2. He’s what? 17 at the beginning of this flashback? That feels creepy.)

It’s a little disturbing what WWX says about alcohol easing the mind tho. I mean he’s 17?

JC: A-Jie WWX is being mean to me!

So that’s episode 2 done. It’s 1am and my cat is begging me for food so I bet the neighbours love me right now. I’m not going to take any responsibility for typos or weird turns of phrases because I’m tired.

Tomorrow I have to actually start packing my flat so I might not get another episode out but who knows.

Thanks for reading!

[kerm-the-fro]

oopsies its vent time

mainly abt insomnia and a little bit of dysphoria, feel free to scroll past tbh

i think my family heavily underestimates how bad my insomnia is, like they think i get to bed at what? 12? midnight?? idk, but i have trouble getting to sleep before 5-6am, im surprised it doesnt show how sleep deprived i am tbh

but like i think also some of my friends dont see it as bad as it is sometimes, like if im up at 5am and one of my friends is pulling an all nighter its like “oh you staying up too? lol me too im not sleeping tonight” and im like “aahaha yeah yeah, all nighter am i right hahaaaa” 

i dont look at myself much, and when i do i dont look at my faces, but i stg there has to be mega bags under them

god i just want some concealer or smth, like some eyeshadow and concealer to cover up the darkness under my eyes(and possibly for cosplay idk)

my sister and i are texting rn cause shes upset and needed someone to just kinda talk to and shes like “put down the phone”, i tell her thats not whats causing it and its just really bad insomnia and shes like “your bodys used to whatever sleep schedule youve had” but like aaaa ive never had a sleep schedule???? ive never once had one i dont think and idk why it just gets this bad but it does

my ‘sleep schedule’ is like falling asleep at somewhere between 6am-8am and sleeping until noon-1pm, whats that?? likeee a max of 7 hours of sleep??? maybe???? idk im terrible with math, but honestly it doesnt matter how many hours i get in cause like if i get a lot im bound to get so little the next night, and if i get a little sadly it doesnt make me get a lot the next night i just get a little bit more

my brother recently said smth that really kinda stuck out to me today and it was on the topic of insomnia and depression(which I brought up but nobody questioned), it was him saying that hes decided societys day-night cycle is dumb and if he wants to have breakfast at midnight and clean at 1am as his girlfriend is going to sleep then hes gonna do it, i said “i wish i could do that” and guess who was instantly berated by their mom!!!! surprise. its me. 

also fuck. my dysphoria is getting worse with each on-off cycle, sometimes ill be completely okay with my body but my next on cycle ill want to actually cut my fucking chest off with a pocket knife, i asked my brother for a binder a little while ago and idk if he ordered one so i might just cave in and ask my mom

aLso also fuck just realized i have piano tomorrow(technically today) and i havent practiced my new song i was supposed to pratice this week and ill have to sightread and learn at least the whole first page maybe an hour before lessons

god now i wanna play der flohwalzer, its such a nice song and idk if its easy to learn but ik how it goes and i sightread a little and ik it goes (running)e d (walk) a b+g b+g (running)e d (walk) a b+g b+g (running)e d (walk) a b+g f b+g d c+f c+f 

that last part probably makes no sense to anyone but in my head it does

[animiya]

Today was a rough day. In the end, everything turned out okay. It almost feels like someone is watching over me. Briefly, today was a day to remember.

this is a long post.

It started with a late night. Perhaps 4am or 5am. There was nobody to blame but myself for the lack of self-discipline. I dreaded the arrival of morning and thought it might better to drown my worries in a late night Youtube binge. Nothing out of the ordinary. I’ll drift to sleep with as the iPad begins to slide out of my grip. Perhaps the fading sounds will enter my subconsciousness as the soundtrack for my upcoming dream.  

Morning sounds with an abrupt ring. Did I even sleep? I’m so tired. I don’t want to go to class.

The weather is awful. Rain. Pouring rain. My clothes don’t really fit the way they used to. They are uncomfortable. The rain will soak my pants regardless of what I wear. My hair will become damp. Where will I put my umbrella in a lecture hall packed full of 600 people. 

I’m tired. I don’t want to go to class. 

But I have to go. I’ve worked too hard in this class to throw it all away. I need to prove to myself that I can do better than its prerequisite course. I need to maintain my GPA. The pros and cons are being weighed as I wiggle out of bed. 

Yesterday’s outfit is reused. I dart outside and speed walk towards the lecture hall. I can barely see. Everything is fuzzy. A kind of blur which dissipates after you are you fully awake. The blur doesn’t dissipate. It’s uncomfortable not being able to see. I walk along the sidewalk and look across the street only to see an assortment of colours lacking edges. The pedestrian light is white not red. Where did the walking man go? The weather sucks. 

I make it to class 10 minutes late. Just in time for graded clickers to begin. We do a record breaking 20 clicker questions - thank god I came to class. 

Class ends and I return home. My bed is inviting and I cordially accept its offer. I curl up into a ball. I’m tired - I think I’ll take a 30 minute nap. I dream of food as my stomach growls. The alarm blares and my heart sinks. 

I’m tired. Maybe I’ll just skip class. 

The alarm is not snoozed. It is shut off. I’ve made my decision. I’m not going to class. My eyes shut and begun to drift into a carefree state. Unexpectedly, the building’s fire alarm is set off.  

I’m tried. Man, but I can even sleep cause it’s so loud. 

I pack my bag and get ready to leave. I guess I’’m going to class after all. Just as I finished locking my door, the fire alarm is silenced.

I leave and my stomach still growls. If I don’t eat now, I won’t eat until 7pm. I take a hard right and enter the bakery. I grab my fav hotdog bun and line up at the cash. I’m second in line to pay. 

The person positioned before me is ordering. 

“Do you want bacon?” asks the cashier.

“Sure, why not,” replies the man

“What about soyamilk?”

“No, none of that,” he replies.

The series of questions continue. 

He notices me behind him and tells the cashiers to let me pay first. 

The cashier refuses.

The questions continue. “That’ll be $25.60,″ the cashier states as she begins to enter the amount into the card machine. 

The man taps. 

The cashier clarifies,  “Sorry we only accept debit or cash.” 

The man taps his debit card. It doesn’t go through. 

The man tries again. It fails for a second time. 

With a defeated look, he starts to reach for some green, plastic currency. “I’ll pay for her.” 

I turn to face him. Nono, I can pay for it myself. I don’t need you to pay for me. I try to explain to him that it’s fine. 

“You are a student! I’ll pay for it. Stay in school, unlike this guy over here,” he jokes as he turns to his meal companion. 

He pays. I thank him. 

What a kind person. I smile as I walk towards class with my hogdog bun. 

Class ends. 3 hours lab comes next. There is a quiz. I didn’t study very hard. Why does every centimeter of the circulatory system has a different name?? Also, the fetal pig circulatory system and urogenital dissection was hard af. I swear man, that fetal pig might have been male but it didn’t have a penis :(. When you try to ask everyone else where their pig’s penis is only to discover that you have the only male fetal pig in the lab. Wtf. LOL

Ah shit. Our dissection sucks and my name is called for the quiz.  

Pick 2 questions from the bucket of doom. Stall by writing my name as slow as possible so that I can think about where to point on my pig. I somehow finessed my way into getting 100%. 

what. I’m in disbelief. 

If god is real, why have you decided to help me now? Do I deserve this?

I toss Charlotte into the biohazardous waste bin. In hindsight, Charlotte was a bad name for a male pig without a penis. 

Two hours with my koala gang to put together a presentation. A trip to the library to find a reference book on koalas. A really kind librarian. A trip home. A weekday night excursion with a wavy-haired chingu to my favourite restaurant in the city.  

And here I am now. Things turned out alright. I’m glad I went outside.

Today turned out okay. Tomorrow will also be okay. Everything is okay. You will be okay. 

It is 1am now and I am no longer tired. Tomorrow will bring something exciting. 

Thank you for the bakery guy for adding something bright to such a gloomy day. 

Thank you to the dissection gods for sparing me. 

[alkylic]

I'll do it :D just not today because I have school tomorrow(/today??) and its 1am lol which reminds me I need to join exfs! -🍒

$uegc7DY OK i start school on the 5th

same time zone my dude?

[pastelpastryblog]

DEAN  scenario- What on earth did I do to deserve this?

Requested: Dean looks like the guy you see at the gas station at 3am after the club that you trynna fuck but you cant tell your friends cause they gonna judge you. Sooo many bad but good decisions. Someone should make a scenario out of that lol. via @icygrrlnat by @otheruponrother I really hope that you like this scenario. It was a bit hard to make but I hope it turned out good for you :)

Word count: 3,473

Genre: Angst,Mature, strong language, suggestive content

*Wednesday*

Its F/N birthday in 2 days but I really don’t want to go out clubbing with her and the other girls. The past 2 months has been very rough for me. Whether it is my personal life and my professional life, both was rough for me, but this week has honestly been the worst of it all. My high school bully, Yucky hyuky…. I mean Kwon Hyuk, has now been appointed as my new supervisor since June and he has been putting me through hell. He always tells me to do the team’s dirty work and he always takes his anger out on me when someone else in our team messes up. All the women at work find him attractive and they all flirt with him. If only they knew him personally. I also feel so depressed lately and Friday and Saturday are my only days off this week, so I want to spend my day in bed, and have my phone switched off because I also don’t want to go out with my co-workers Friday, because they are all going to watch Kwon hyuk perform at an event. I honestly don’t want to be reachable. Like honestly, what on earth did I do to deserve this type of treatment from him. Like, the only bad thing that I have ever done is have a crush on yucky hyuky when I was like what? 16? 17?

My friends never let me live down the fact that I had a crush on a school bully that looks like he bathes in mud. All my friends hate him because he used to bully them too, but not as severe as my bullying. He was known for being the first guy in our grade that lost his virginity, was always fighting the older boys of our school, known for sleeping around with the older girls from different schools and older women from universities. He was also popular for leading on the girls in our grade and giving them false hope. He even had an affair with one of his girlfriend’s mom. There even were rumours of him having an STI or an STD, and him getting a married university lecturer pregnant but those rumours could be fake. But in other words, he was a full-blown hoe, a dirty one. If you were associated with him, you automatically became a dirty hoe by association, so everyone that had morals, tried to stay away from him because he was trouble.

~2 days later, Friday~

It is F/N birthday today and they all pleaded me to come and celebrate F/N 25thbirthday. I really didn’t want to, but then I remembered that she always comes to my birthdays, even when I don’t do anything on my special day she manages to bring me a birthday cake and a present. So technically, I HAD to go out. We pre-drink as we get ready, and we have a pre-party before the turn up at the club. We all dolled up for our girl’s 25th. Everybody looked like they could be in movies, while I opted for a lowkey option, a black strapless pvc bodycon dress, off the shoulder denim jacket, and black barely there heels with a small black clutch bag. I even wore makeup for the first time in months, a light Smokey eye with dark plum lips and I even took my messy bun down and straightened my hair. Basic but cute.

~

It’s 1am right now but we have been in the club since 10pm. Some of the girls are drunk, and some are one more shot away from being completely drunk, like myself. I guess hanging with my girls is like therapy to me. I get to just let loose and have fun, I feel like I deserved this. I deserved to not think about my love life, debts, my bills and my demon supervisor. This club is too lit and so are the people that I am surrounded with, the birthday girl is getting all types of attention because she looks beautiful with her face full of glam makeup and her sparkly dress and her figure 8 body shape. Its so good to see everybody having fun and enjoying themselves. 30 minutes into sitting and sipping our drinks at our VIP booth that we had reserved for the bday girl, the DJ stops the music and announces that an upcoming R&B singer is about to hit the stage so me and my friends head off to the stage to see the show but for some reason I see my co-workers, so I try to hide from them, but they see me and I get approached by them.

“hey Y/N, what are you doing here? I thought you didn’t want to go out “

“Hi, um…. its my friend F/N birthday today so were celebrating here. Why are you guys here? I thought you guys were going to see Hyuk, I mean Mr Kwon perform somewhere. Did you guys not go?”

“LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, UPCOMING R&B SINGER, DEAN” says the DJ.

Oh boy…….

“yeah we ARE here to see Mr Kwon, DEAN is his stage name.”

“Ooh, he’s starting. Bye Y/N see you at work”

“We’ll tell him that you were here, say happy birthday to F/N for me. Bye!”

F U C K.

“Erm, wait. Is that fucking Yucky Hyuky on stage? Says friend #1

“WTF, isn’t that Hyuk? The dirty one from school? Hes trying to be a singer now? Wow” says friend #2

I honestly did not expect to see this beautiful demon slut here. I came out with my girls to have fun, to forget about all the shit that is troubling me. Not for me to hear his angelic voice.

Pause. Did I just call this man beautiful? Angelic voice? Pfft. As if!

Seeing Hyuk on stage was, well… different. He is very charismatic on stage and he looks and sounds like he knows what he’s doing, which is a great thing for him I guess. I don’t know why but seeing him on stage is kind of making me feel some type of way and I really don’t like it. 30 minutes into his performance, while me and my girls standing in front of the stage, I notice that Yucky Hyuky kept looking in my direction, but I kept brushing it off. Maybe he was looking for the other co-workers, maybe he’s trying to identify and remember my girls, maybe he’s thinking of more ways of ruining my work for me tomorrow. No way is he staring at me because he thinks I’m cute. It can’t be. But for some reason, this look was one that I have never seen before. It was a soft yet sexy look. I don’t know, maybe the drinks are hitting my brain right now.

So, at this point, me and the girls split up to do our own thing while still being on the dance floor. I was vibing to hyuk’s music with a drink in my hand, while also ignoring the long stares that he is giving me from across the stage. All of the sudden, I get bumped into. Somebody accidently spills a drink on my dress (thank God, it’s a pvc dress so no damages were made), I turn around and I notice that it is my ex-boyfriend, Juno. I froze, I didn’t know how to react, so he just pulled me by my hand and took me out. He takes me to the unisex bathroom starts wiping the drink that he spilt on my dress.

“I’m so sorry for spilling my drink on you, Y/N. You look beautiful by the way” he says as he looks me up and down while licking his lips.

“why are you doing this to me? And what do you want from me?”

“I’m just trying to get you clean Y/N, I spilt my drink on you. Did you expect me to leave you like that?”

“spilling a drink on me is nothing compared to what you put me through. “

“I just wanted to check up on you, to see how you’re doing”

“You broke my heart, you damn idiot. How do you think I’m fucking doing?”

“look, I’m sorry Y/N. I didn’t mean to hurt you. “

“Save it Juno. You used to cheat on me whenever I wasn’t around, especially when you went on tour. Then you cheated on me with your so called “best friend” Hyorin from college and got her pregnant. Whenever Hyorin did something bad, you would always stick up for her and put the blame on me instead. Whenever I would confront you about it, youy would always say that shes been your friend since day 1, so you had to do what you did. You never had my back. The reason why I am in debt is because of you. You made me feel horrible about myself by body shaming me, always lying to me and you were just verbally and mentally abusive to me. So, what do you mean by saying that you are sorry and that you didn’t mean to hurt me. You are not sorry, and you definitely meant to hurt me. You knew damn well what you were doing, Juno”

“Y/N, look, I’m so- “

“Oh, shut it Juno. You know damn well you don’t mean it. What? You’re Sorry? You didn’t mean to hurt me? Are you fucking kidding me right now? You’re only apologising because I look good tonight. You’re only apologising to me RIGHT NOW because you want to take me home and get in my pants. But guess what Juno? That can never be me. Not anymore. I am not falling for your bs again. You are the worst. Thank you for ruining my night Juno. Have a great life, bitch.” I started to walk off and then I turned around to him again and I say “Oh, I forgot something. Congratulation on your baby by the way, and tell your side bitch, oops, I mean tell your baby moms that I said hi”

I walk out of the bathroom and leave Juno in there, but I notice that Hyuk was standing outside the bathroom, but I don’t care. I don’t care if I’ve missed him performing his last 4 songs. I don’t care if he finished his performance. I don’t care if he heard us.  I don’t care if he thinks that I look stupid right now. In fact, since when did he ever think I was not stupid? I don’t care at all.  I need to get out of this club asap. I head back into the VIP booth and I grab my purse, go to the bar one last time and I get two glasses of henny and a shot of Vodka and I gulp it all down in one go. After that encounter with Juno, I really needed that.  After I finished my drink, I leave without finding my friends anything because I didn’t want my girls to fight Juno. Its F/N special day after all, no need for her day to get ruined by me.

~

I get out of the club and I walked to the nearest gas station so that I could wait for my uber there. I get a notification on my phone and the Uber driver says that he will get to me in 55 minutes. So out of nowhere, tears just start falling down my face. I was having such a good day today but out of nowhere, I see my co-workers from work, hyuk, my ex and now my uber basically cancels on me. How can my life be so messed up? What did I do to deserve this?  

Its been 20 mins and I’m still at the gas station crying. But this time I’m crying, curled up in a ball on the side curb and I took my heels off because they were hurting my feet. Out of nowhere, a car pulls up, but I had no energy to look up. Someone finally opens the car door and yells my name. still crying and still not looking at who the person is, I feel someone’s big, warm hands putting my hands away from my face and I notice that the person is Hyuk. He then goes inside the gas station store and comes out with a packet of tissue paper that he just purchased. He approaches me and doesn’t say anything. He just wipes away my tears with the tissue paper and out of nowhere he picks me up and puts me in the passenger seat of his car. We get in the car and he covered my legs with his jacket and places the packet of tissues that he bought for me on my lap. The car ride was not silent at all, because all I did was cry and sniffle. I cried so hard that I ended up falling asleep during the other half of the car ride.

I wake up when I feel Hyuk placing me on something and covers me with something warm and fluffy. I get up and I see that I am in a clean yet modern studio apartment.

“where am I?” I ask.

“you’re at my house, so don’t worry. But are you okay?” he asks me as he is taking pillows and comforters out of his wardrobe and placing them on his sofa.

“I’m a bit dizzy and I have a pounding headache. I feel a bit nauseous too, I think I’m going to vomit. Are you moving the bed?” I say as I sit up from his bed as I place my arms around my stomach.

“No matter how hard a situation is, you should never drink that much for you to be feeling the way you feel right now. How much did you even drink?”

“A lot”

“that’s very irresponsible of you, Y/N”

He quickly runs into his kitchen and gets me a bottle of cold water and some pills for me to take, while he got himself a Jack Daniels bottle.

“here, take it”

*giggles* “thanks” *giggles.

“Don’t ever drink like that again and wonder off yourself. what if a creepy man was to put you in his car instead? Do you know how dangerous that could have been?

“Wait. Since when did you ever care about my wellbeing, Mr Kwon? And why do you look so sexy tonight?”

“Since forever. Huh, wait what? Did you just call me sexy?”

“huh? What the fuck?” I chuckled as he looked at me.

“Look, when I was on stage performing, I was so shocked to see you in the crowd. I was not expecting to see you because you told all of us at work that you had other plans.”

“Great, this whole situation is going to get me in trouble on Monday isn’t it? I’m getting fired” I sigh.

“No Y/N, when I was performing I kept staring at you because you looked beautiful today. In fact you look beautiful every day and – “

“Look Yucky Hyuky, you still are the same, aren’t you? Are you saying all of this just to get my hopes up and laugh at me at the end? You used to do that to all the girls in our grade. I had a crush on you for like 2 years but thank goodness I didn’t confess to you or you would have embarrassed me in school”

“Y/N, did you just say that you used to like me?

“I used to but then I hated you but seeing you on stage kind of changed my hate for you. It kind of made me have a crush on you again”

“Y/N, I think its time for you to go to bed, you’re still drunk”

“No, I really mean it, Yucky. I was the ONLY girl that you never asked out as a joke or led me on. That made me feel really weird and top of that, you used to bully me for no reason!”

“the truth is that I have always had a crush on you. I have always had a crush on you, Y/N.Infact, I still do. I made you feel that way because I thought that you would never ever like me and you are just to good for me. You made me want to be a better person so that I could finally approach you, but I was unconfident and scared of being rejected by you and that is why I started to sleep around with a lot of girls, it was to get my mind off of you, but it never worked. You have always been on my mind. When you joined the company, I was really excited to see you and I wanted to show you an upgraded version of myself, but you didn’t like me from jump which is totally understandable for the way I have treated you in the past. My immaturity got in the way, and I messed up again. I am really sorry for making you feel worthless and miserable. This information may not fix what has happened between us, but I just really wanted to get this off of my chest. I really hope that you can forgive me.”

“Wow, I don’t know what to say”

After hearing all of this, I honestly know how to react. Like should I be happy? Should I cry? Be angry at him? Like what should I do?

So, I ended up getting out of the bed and walked past him on his sofa so that I could go into the kitchen and throw my water bottle in his recycling trash.

While you were in the kitchen recycling Hyuk’s bottle, Hyuk had just finished his bottle of Jack Daniels. After hearing your confession to him, he really wanted to get another bottle in the kitchen. You finally finish sorting out his other bottles, so you start walking back to the bed, Hyuk was walking towards the kitchen to get himself another bottle. Without looking were you are both walking, you both bump into each other pretty hard, so hard that you tripped, and he caught you in his arms.

While still being in this awkward position, Hyuk would not let go of me. He was looking into my eyes and he was giving me the same look that he was giving me at the club. I honestly don’t know what it is about that look, but it drove me crazy. So crazy that I got closer to his face and kissed him on his lips. His lips were very plump but also tasted bitter because of him drinking the Jack Daniels earlier on. He kissed me back and out of nowhere we were making out in the middle of his studio apartment.

You and Hyuk both started to get carried away while making out and before you knew it your hands started to wander on his body. You started to unbutton his silk shirt, while he was taking off your jacket, your hands caressing his chest while he unzips your dress. Both just left in your underwear, Hyuk pushes you on the bed while still making out and says “we don’t have to do this Y/N. I’ll fuck you if you let me”. You nodded in agreement to what he said to you and you proceeded to let him do what you wanted him to do to you.

~ 8 hours later~

“Morning, Y/N”

“morning Yucky-“

“Okay, can you quit calling me Yucky Hyuky now? All of those rumours of me having STD’s and STI’s are fake. Same goes to the one about me having multiple babies by older or any woman at all.”

“I am so sorry, I’m just so used to calling you that. I didn’t mean to hurt you by that”

“its fine Y/N. Look, I’ve been thinking. Do you want to go out on a date with me? I want to make you my girlfriend”

“Yeah sure, I would love to go out on a date with you. “

I ended up going on a few dates with Hyuk and me and him ended up becoming boyfriend and girlfriend after 2 months of dating. I was ashamed of telling my friends because they all hated him and because of all of the things that he has done but because he became my boyfriend, I can’t hide him. I ended up telling my friends about everything and for some reason, they reacted more positively but it took them a few months to fully approve of Hyuk. Mine and Hyuk’s relationship improved throughout the months and my friends were always supportive of me too. Honestly, what on earth did I do to deserve this?

The end.

[manchestereyes]

claire imma get sappy, so its 1am meaning its now the 28th july, three months ago today i met dan and phil at 10:44am and felt more cared than i have ever been if that makes sense, i cried into phils arms because it was hard, 4years of not hugging a single man to hugging phil lester it meant a hell of a lot, i met some amazing people, in earlier march a gc was made for the brighton matinee group which we all met up with at the show, it felt strange bc we all came together bc of dnp (1/?)

(2/?) in the middle of march i sent a message to the gc like “hey we should make signs since its their first show” as a joke thinking everyone would find it sappy and it wouldnt work, we spent a month and a half planning, the week before the show i printed off 450 pieces of paper and there was 1100 between us, the night before meeting dnp i was round my friends writing “hold up @ the end ty x” on these pieces of paper for two and a half hours, i wrote a 14 page letter for them

(3/?) for me to run on 5 hrs sleep, a sip of water and no food, i was so anxious, a bag full of paper truth bombs and a uke jfc that was heavy, i cried into phil, felt warmth from dan, it felt like they cared, 11:45 we queue outside and i make friends with a load of people, they’re lovely and i miss them, 1pm we’re let in, the atmosphere changed it was nice, i felt accepted, me and my two friends all wait and sit outside the doors to go to sit down and i play wybsk? one for the road

(4/?) and absolutely smitten on the uke and these three girls join in and it was lovely, me and the kids who made the signs (6 i think it was) was running round the venue handing out these signs to the ladydoor remix, for at the end of the show when dnp sing the last chorus for me to shout and these signs to work, for dan to take one and said he likes them, my friends mum said kids walked out the venue clutching these signs as a souvenir just bc 6 13-15 yr olds wanted to thank dnp

(5/5) the moment straight after the show wnded i cried so hard, tomorrow im meeting up with the kids who went to the show again outside brighton dome where we first met bc we all miss each other, every single one of us is still in shock, three months later (im sorry i sent u so many asks im just like shit its three months since ii)

omg daisy 😭😭😭 don’t be sorry!! imma get sappy now and say that my heart is so freaking FULL knowing you had (dare i say) the perfect ii experience! as a self diagnosed Lonely Person, it makes me sooooo happy to know that you guys were all able to come together like that and being there for the first ever show makes it a thousand times cooler!! i think everyone in the world deserves to feel all these things at least once in their lives, if not unendingly for years on end with a special someone. honestly it’s astounding to me to think that the first show was three whole months ago already?? like, it feels like a completely different time and i feel like a completely different person even if i am probably as much of a mess as i was then lol. i’m so glad you guys are meeting up again though!! i really regret not trying harder to meet up with people at my show (although to be fair, it was pretty overwhelming and the service inside the venue was SO BAD) but!! this does give me the idea to have a chicago phannies meetup at some point if anyone’s up for it! because like, i need to gush about this show with actual people and phannies are literally my favorite people so it sounds perfect tbh. i hope you guys have the best time!! even if you aren’t seeing the show again at least you’ll be with each other and who knows, that might be even better anyway! 💜💜💜