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[the-firebird69]

Essential retailer closing more stores in bankruptcy (msn.com)

and they are feeilng bad here. tons of people. want bja out.a trump they ara nuisance and yes feelt he make it harder to get here plus. he is a vulgar persona nd trump vile.

the air show goes on ad they did not shut it down tons say why cant he has this area locked up and trump too. and there is a fight ok.

now we see who and they are at it shortly. will use weapons and toclear the ahole out of the airport. need it opened you shall move and it is everyone but them. force will be used. and hey said it all day. and it should bja and trump are rude assholes.

they will fight tonight shortyly and for the airport. you can then see why the video makes sense. they lit it up and say it get them here or it burns. and they want thir men back and jets. ellie and sarah. sarah sings.

this retailer is large and says they close stores they do actually and ini the areas stated, plus more in the upper midewest and eastcoaast. they are a west coast concern and it repeats all over teh country...and world. they retreat to thier areas. no sales or worse. and there are a lot of stores iike this. we take the stores. nobody else will...no we do buy them and remodel and put ours in. banks too. tons of them. and now.

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[mspainttaz]

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[seraphsfire]

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[akatsuki-headcanons]

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These transient “tastes of the wild” come during the mystique of inspiration—ah, there it is; oh, now it has gone. The longing for her comes when one happens across someone who has secured this wildish relationship. The longing comes when one realizes one has given scant time to the mystic cookfire or to the dream- time, too little time to one’s own creative life, one’s life work, or one’s true loves.

Yet it is these fleeting tastes which come both through beauty as well as loss, that cause us to become so bereft, so agitated, so longing that we eventually must pursue the wildish nature. Then we leap into the forest or into the desert or into the snow and run hard, our eyes scanning the ground, our hearing sharply tuned, searching under, searching over, searching for a clue, a remnant, a sign that she still lives, that we have not lost our chance. And when we pick up her trail, it is typical of women to ride hard to catch up, toclear off the desk, clear off the relationship, clear out one’s mind, turn to a new page,insist on a break, break the rules, stop the world, for we are not going on without her any longer.

Once women have lost her and then found her again, they will contend to keep her for good. Once they have regained her, they will fight and fight hard to keep her, for with her their creative lives blossom; their relationships gain meaning and depth and health; their cycles of sexuality, creativity, work, and play are reestablished; they are no longer marks for the predations of others; they are entitled equally under the laws of nature to grow and to thrive. Now their end-of-the-day fatigue comes from satisfying work and endeavors, not from being shut up in too small a mindset, job, or relationship. They know instinctively when things must die and when things must live; they know how to walk away, they know how to stay.

When women reassert their relationship with the wildish nature, they are gifted with a permanent and internal watcher, a knower, a visionary, an oracle, an inspiratrice, an intuitive, a maker, a creator, an inventor, and a listener who guide, suggest, and urge vibrant life in the inner and outer worlds. When women are close to this nature, the fact of that relationship glows through them. This wild teacher, wild mother, wild mentor supports their inner and outer lives, no matter what. -Women Who Run With the Wolves: Myths and Stories of the Wild Woman Archetype by Clarissa Pinkola Estés

[lifethereboot]

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[sovieshu-simp]

THIS IS IT! I wanted to explain it but have no idea how to put in order. I am very thankful about this important points or the truth story about TRE. I find All fans simping and supporting heinrey without knowing what he exactly doing.

To me in my view for Sovieshu: he was telling navier to not bring any consorts from the outside of Eastern Empire because it affects Eastern Empire political and Society (I think) but the text in dialogue is different. His 19 Yr old personality was in the way of 25 Yr old personality and it caused everything into drama. 25 Yr old Sovieshu watched everything what 19 Yr old Sovieshu did, He did waited until night comes so he could explain Navier toclear misunderstanding but Empress didn't given chance to listen.

That's how I started dislike towards Navier(A little), Heinrey( mostly), Rashta(same mostly) And Kaufman( average).

Please give an opinion on The Remarried Empress, especially S2

I liked S1 but S2 kinda left a sour taste in my mouth and I'd like to hear a hot take about it

General opinion:

In their world, having a concubine is totally legal so I'm not going to go after Rashta as a homewrecker, only as a scheming hypocrite.

That being said: I love Sovieshu x Navier's relationship, but I do have qualms about the fact that he becomes immediately jealous and suspicious when she spends time with other men. On the other hand, while she was being professionnal, said men (Kaufmann and Heinley) both were meeting with her with ulterior motives (the romantic kind).

While we're on the characters, let's explore:

- Our Male Lead, Heinrey: I hate him. It might just be due to personnal taste but I don't get why "puppy labrador man" is considered more attractive than "tall dark and handsome" Sovieshy. But that's just on the attractive side. Nothing to warrant hatred. So let's get to his personnality. He 1) approached Navier with the intention to destroy her and only came back on his idea when he fell in love with her, 2) used his bird form to see and touch her in ways that he shouldn't and deceived her (if we use Kenna as an example, same situations but he managed to avoid all that), 3) apparently has something to do with the magic disappearing, which is part of some grand scheme to completely destroy Navier's country, but he spares Navier and her little protegee to avoid hurting Navier's feelings. His behaviour is creepy and stalkish and him trying to destroy everything and everyone oh wait no, let's make an exception for the woman he's obsessed with, is a behavioral red flag for fictional characters as far as I'm concerned.

- Sovieshu: like said before, he might be a bit jealous and not really trust Navier. On the other hand, the situation proved him right since not only did both men who meet her fall in love with her and asked her to follow them to their country but she even accepted one of them. Yeah sure he shouldn't have put her in a difficult position by bringing in a side girl and try to make her empress. But again, in the world where they live it's perfectly normal, not a complete betrayal. The only mistake he made, in my eyes, was to try to make Rashta empress instead of Navier when Rashta is so blatantly uncapable of everything. And not making Navier aware of his double-swap plan.

- Navier: I like her and she makes an efficient empress but my brain just starts lagging then bugging when i think about how she went for Heinrey instead of having a discussion with Sovieshu to manage a common plan that would benefit both (like for example having her simulate a pregnancy, then pass Rashta's kid as her own and pretend Rashta's died at birth, idk, i've got tons of stupid ideas that would work better than Sovieshu's double-swap plan).

- Kaufmann: what the heck??? It might be because the webtoon is an adaptation and maybe his role is more important in the source material idk but he seems so irrelevant to the plot except for the time he tried to make Navier give a rape drug to her husband when she never even asked him to meddle with their love life in the first place (and even if she did it would still be wrong to suggest rape drug but you get what i mean).

- Krista: people who smear her don't realize that Krista-Navier is exactly Navier-Rashta except we see everything from Navier's pov. And I like her for that. She is not overly antagonistic. She just stands her ground and refuses to be more friendly to Navier than she wants to. To Navier = to That Girl the emperor brought in who is absolutely not qualified at the moment to be empress and who is trying to one-up you despite you having been here longer and being the former empress and also trying to sway the court to her side and make you the bad guy. Krista seeing Navier arrive is the same as Navier seeing Rashta arrive and I wish people just realized that.

Anyway now that we're done with that let's dig into the plot.

Navier and Sovieshu are basically soulmates. They've known each other since their childhood, she's the perfect empress for the empire and the perfect wife for him and he's the perfect husband for her. They're so in tune with each other and so close and all! Great couple!

He... finds an escaped slave during a hunting trip, ok. Brings her to the palace? Weird reaction but ok we need a plot. Makes her his concubine? I mean, again, in their world, it's not such a weird/bad reaction. Then she becomes pregnant from him. (he mentionned that despite a long married life, Navier had never become pregnant so i looked it up and apparently they have been married only 3 years before he brings Rashta home? like wtf dude? but anyway he later explains why he has good reasons to believe Navier is sterile other than not having children with him yet so the excuse is stupid but the reasonning is comprehensible.

That Navier refuses to adopt Rashta's child and taht Rashta refuses to give up her child, it's completely normal. That Sovieshu plans to divorce Navier, make Rashta his empress, then divorce her after the birth and take Navier back, it's stupid. Making the whole plan without even putting Navier in the secret is just plain stupid. She's smart and bright and efficient and (ok maybe lowkey a mary sue but we need some in our reads) she loves him and if she had known she could have told him why it was a stupid plan, draft a better one, make everyone happy.

Anyway so far that's my ideas about the series.

About season 2 particularly:

Navier goes to the new empire. Whole Krista situation in which i wholeheartedly support Krista. Heinrey suffers no consequences at all for repeatedly stalking Navier, pushing her boundaries, intruding upon her, etc, both in bird and human form, nor does he suffer any consequences for lying to her, deceiving her, touching/seeing her in inappropriate ways without her consent, or even making everyone around her and in her empire suffer from his initial plan of destroying them all which he only amended to exclude her from the destruction. As far as I'm concerned, Heinrey is the vilain of this story, but from what I know (which i hope I'm wrong) he's supposed to be the good guy but ok.

Loving Rashta spiraling down in paranoia because of Ergi. I still don't know what his deal is but I love what I see. I know I said I wouldn't judge her for being a homewrecker when she's not by their world's standards, but 1) she still is a hypocritical piece of shit and 2) I still unconsciously consider her kind of a home wrecker because the standards in my world are not the same as the ones in her world.

Anyway I'm pretty sure nobles sent gifts to her for her wedding (unless they all refused to because she's always prioritizing the smallfolks, but while it's possible I find it inplausible that all of them would do that) (also, Ergi's gift was half under a sofa so it's probable it just fell from a pile and then the other gifts were removed: either he got them out of the room to make her spiral down even more or Sovieshu took them and will tell her only later that for reason X or Y he didn't want them to stay in her room?). But seeing her accuse Navier of putting people against her when all she did was worry about people talking in her back when she was there? I love a good quid pro quo.

Seeing Rashta wearing the same dress and hairdo as Navier did, in the second-to-last episode of season 2, really shows how she's become desperate. She wants to find the secret ingredient that made Navier being loved by everyone, but she can't find it, because 1) this ingredient is partly the author's favor, 2) she has very bad advice from Ergi and 3) Navier had her whole life to learn how to navigate politics and Rashta just arrived.

The Lotteshu subplot of Rashta's previous child? I like it but I don't know where it will go. I saw a comment somewhere about how Sovieshu might be the one sterile and Rashta's child might not be his, I don't know what to think of this.

I also love Navier's brother, can't remember his name. He's... a lot, but in a good way? I guess? And I like her new lady-in-waiting who's got a spear in her back all the time. So anyway here was my whole thing.

TL;DR of the hot takes:

Heinrey is the bad guy of the story.

Rashta is actually not so bad as the fandom paints her (although she still is bad)

Ergi is entertainingly despicable.

Kaufmann is also questionable.

Sovieshu is the closest thing from a good guy we have among the male leads.

[pots-potions-more]

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[ellanainthetardis]

Hello! I love your Hayffie stories and decided to leave my own prompt. What if while in prison Effie was made a sleeper agent to kill Haymitch but he didn't know until after some time.I think that the Capitol would know that they would not win the war so they decided to torture Haymitch with someone he cares about. Almost like them getting the last laugh. Maybe add Peeta and Katniss as targets too? Perhaps even have a happy ending despite all the anguish? Thank you so much for all your writing❤️

Here you go [X]

Programming

Eyes kept following them but Haymitch ignored thesoldiers who had colonized the Presidential Mansion after the surrender. Heknew why they were staring, knew what they were thinking, but he didn’t let goof Effie’s hand either way. He wouldn’t be shamed for publicly acknowledgingwhat she was to him. Not now. Not anymore.

Besides, Effie had grabbed his hand a littleafter they had left the hospital wing behind, clearly overwhelmed with the outsideworld. And given that she had spent the last few months in a Capitol prison, hecouldn’t blame her. The last few weeks of recovery had been enough for her toreadjust but he was pretty sure it would be a long road. He was just gratefulshe didn’t seem too angry with him.

She flinched when a soldier unexpectedlyswitched his gun from one shoulder to the other.

“Not too far now.” he told her, glaring at theguy who had startled her even if it wasn’t really his fault.

“I am fine.” she whispered, aiming for strongbut sounding frail.

He was relieved when they arrived at his suiteand he unlocked the door quickly, ushering her in and away from the rebels. Hedidn’t trust them with her.

She took a few steps around the room, her blueeyes sweeping over the surrounding mess, and she licked her lips. “This is yourroom.”

He picked up a jacket he had tossed on thefloor the previous night and placed it on the back of an armchair, thinkingthat maybe he shouldn’t have made it so clear that the cleaning staff wasunwelcomed in his absence. He just didn’t like the thought of strangerstouching his stuff – and no doubt snooping because he and Coin weren’texactly best friends at the moment. She would have liked the place better if ithad been tidied and clean though.

“You can have the bedroom. I’ll take thecouch.” he offered.

The suites at the Mansion were huge. There wasa small living-room complete with a TV set and a large selection of movies, abedroom with a bed so big it could have easily fitted three people and abathroom with a large shower and a bathtub that could have doubled as a pool.

Plutarch would have had gotten her a room ofher own but Haymitch had refused, arguing that they could easily share. Hedidn’t like the thought of her being out of his sight, where she could easilyhave an accident. She really wasn’tthe rebels’ favorite person right now, what with all the escorts, Gamemakers,prep teams and stylists being tried and executed. Despite his deal with Coin,he didn’t want to take any risk.

“I do not mind sleeping with you.” shecountered, turning around with a small hesitant smile.

Everything had been hesitant between them sinceher rescue.

She didn’t seem to be able to make up her mind.Sometimes she held him so tight he could barely breathe and begged him to embraceher back in the same fashion. Sometimes she shouted at him to leave her roomand never come back. He always cameback, of course.  

The fact that they hadn’t really managed to getsome alone time didn’t help. Therehad always been a nurse coming and going, a huge glass window giving on thecorridor to make them feel like fish in a tank, or Plutarch dropping byunexpectedly.

“Probably better.” he snorted. “I don’t think I’dreally fit on the couch.”

She glanced at the sofa and chuckled.

He held his breath when she stepped closer tohim. She placed her hands on his shoulders and then slid them around his neck,raising on tip toes so she could tuck her head under his jaw… He hugged herback, closing his eyes in relief. He didn’t think it would fade anytime soon:the relief of knowing she was alive.

“I miss you.” she breathed out.

“I’m right here, sweetheart.” he promised.

She drew back, framing his face with her hands,her gaze searching his with such an intensity that it made him frown.

“Are you?” she asked and she sounded so lost…

He leaned in a little, thought better of it andhesitated, leaving her time to break this before it started but she simplystood there and waited so… He brushed his lips against her in a chaste kiss.“Right here.”

He didn’t intend for the embrace to be more butthere was nothing chaste to the way she captured his mouth. He followed herlead, groaning when she deepened the kiss and automatically stepping back whenshe nudged him against the wall. Her kissing became frantic and he got so lostin it, he barely noticed she had attacked his clothes until he felt the zipperof the grey jumpsuit give under her fingers.

“Slow down, Effie.” he murmured.

“I do not want to slow down.” she retorted, ahint of anger in her voice. “I want you.”

“We don’t have to…” he tried to mumble becausethe last thing he wanted was for her to feel pressured into having sex withhim. She had just been cleared and released from the hospital, he wasn’t sureshe was even ready for this.

“Haymitch.”she growled in that bossy tone that meant business and he stopped trying toprotest to roll with whatever she had in mind.

He tried to be gentle with her but for hisevery stroke, she scratched. He licked and she bit. He tried to be sweet andshe was all rough and violence.

And it turned him on.

Which, given her battered body and the newpinkish scars on her skin was probably sick of him.

When she pushed him on his back on the bed andstraddled his thighs, he let her have her way with him, thinking it might havebeen the safest way to do this at this stage without injuring her further. Evenif she was riding him like there would be no tomorrow.

His hands were on her breasts when hers slid uphis chest to his throat. He didn’t feel it at first, too enthralled by thesight of her head thrown back in bliss as she sought her pleasure… But then herfingers squeezed.

He immediately grabbed her wrists, trying topull her hands away…

She squeezed harder, riding him faster, hermoans increasing…

Haymitch pulled on her forearms but her fingerswere digging hard in his flesh and he couldn’t breathe anymore. He rolled themover before he could really start to feel dizzy, using the momentum to freehimself from her grip.

“The fuck?”he spat at her, forcing her hands above her head on the pillow and keeping themthere.

She blinked, her blue eyes confused for amoment before they filled up with tears. “I am sorry. I… I am sorry. I did not…I…”

She was so obviously distressed that he let hergo to cup her cheek, kissing her slowly until she relaxed again, rocking hiships back and forth at a gentler pace than the one she had previously kept.

“Ain’t into that.”he mumbled against her lips. Being chocked or dominated like that… It reallydidn’t float his boat. Not to say it woke up demons he’d rather keep asleep.

“I know.” she whispered, wrapping her armsaround his shoulders and burying her face in his neck. “I know. I am sorry,Haymitch. I… Maybe we should stop.”

“Stop.” he repeated, licking his lips andtrying to tell his hips to do justthat. It wasn’t as easy as it seemed. He was a little too far gone to just… stop on command.

“I do not want to hurt you.” she mutteredagainst his neck. “I will hurt you again. I am sorry.”

He closed his eyes and counted to five and thenhe rolled off her and to the side, clenching his jaw because… It had beenmonths without her. Months. And nowthat he had almost had her again… He couldn’t just turn it off. He was hard andthrobbing and desperate for her…

“Are you angry with me?” he asked in astrangled voice. He needed to finish this one way or another but he wanted toclear that out first.

“No.” she denied, curling up on her side. Shewas upset. It was plain to see how upset she was. And he blamed himself. Heshould have stopped things earlier before it had even begun. He had known itwas too soon. “I do not know why I do half the things I do. I think I am going crazy.”

“You’re too hard on yourself.” he told herfrankly. “You’re doing better than everyone expected.” She shrugged and hesighed, running his fingers through her blond hair a few times. It was shortnow, they had to cut half of it after her rescue. It barely reached her chinand it was all wild curls. “Get some rest, yeah?”

She looked alarmed. “Don’t leave me, please.”

“I ain’t…” he hesitated. “I ain’t leaving you, sweetheart. Just need totake care of…” He waved at his throbbing erection and she blushed, looking alittle guilty. She didn’t offer to help him out though. He awkwardly got out ofbed and to the bathroom. His hand was a poor substitute for her, even more sonow that he had just had a vivid reminder how that felt…

He caught sight of his throat in the mirrorwhen he was washing his hands afterwards and winced, poking at the tender fleshthat would more likely be bruised black and blue come morning. He wasn’t surewhat had gone through her head. Choking wasn’t something either of them liked.

She hadn’t been paying attention, he toldhimself, and she was still recovering.

She had been through something traumatic andthat triggered weird reactions. It was all it was probably.

She was curled up under the sheets when he cameback to the bedroom, apparently asleep. She had also stolen his shirt, whichmade him relax. They would be alright. It had just been too soon for that sortof intimacy. Too much too fast. He should have known better than give in toher.  

He put on sweatpants just in case she woke upand panicked at finding a naked man in bed with her and then climbed in, makingsure to leave some space between them. After five minutes of his intense staringat the ceiling, she rolled over in her sleep and snuggled against his side,sighing in relief when she found his warmth. With her tucked against him, hedrifted off.

He wasn’t sure what time it was when the mumblingwoke him up.

They had moved away from each other during thenight and he was now on his stomach, facing away from her.

“I love him.” she was whispering and he wasn’tsure but he thought she was rocking on herself. “I love him. Wait until you’re inbed… Wait until you’re in bed… No!No, I love him. I won’t hurt him. I lovehim.” He frowned as he started to properly wake up, disturbed by her murmuredramblings. Was she having a nightmare? It sounded like she was having adiscussion with someone else but they were alone in the room. “When you’ve madehim vulnerable… When you’ve… No. No, no, no.I won’t. I won’t.”

He switched the light on and turned to try andcomfort her…

And immediately recoiled when he caught theglint of a blade in her fist. Not just anyblade either but his own knife. He should have remembered to toss it away fromthe bed. She must have found it under the pillow and…

“Sweetheart…”

She didn’t even flinch.

She was rocking back and forth, still mutteringto herself…

“When you are in bed together… When you are inbed together…” she repeated as if it made any sense.

“Effie.” he tried again, more firmly.

Her blue eyes darted to him and he was alarmedto see she was crying.

“Get away from me.” she begged. There was noother word for it. She begged.

“You’re having a nightmare, sweetheart.” hesaid gently, trying not to think about what she could be remembering. Gettingsomeone in bed to make him vulnerable in the hope of hurting him wasn’t thekind of situation that sounded good. And if she had needed to do something likethat… “It’s alright. You’re with me,yeah? You’re safe. It’s all over. You’re…”

“Get. Away. From. Me. Haymitch.” she snapped,detaching each word clearly.

The thing was… She sounded lucid enough. She looked lucid enough. He was too familiarwith night terrors not to make the difference.

She was so tense, she was shaking.

“Okay.” he gave in with a frown, slowly inchingcloser to the edge of the mattress and away from her. “Wanna tell me what’sgoing on?” She shook her head, tangling her free hand in her hair and pullingso hard he was concerned she would hurt herself. “Don’t do that.” he chided,reaching out…

The knife slashed in the air and it was onlyinstinct that prevented him from getting badly cut.

“I’m sorry!” she exclaimed, her eyes wideningin horror, more tears rolling down her cheeks. “I’m sorry! I’m sorry!”

He had a bad feeling and he couldn’t helpremembering all the times Peeta had attacked Katniss. All the times the boyhad…

She had tried to strangle him earlier.

It hadn’t been an odd kink she had wanted totry, it had been… Real. She had triedto strangle him.

“Do you know who I am?” he asked uncertainly,lifting both hands in a peaceful gesture. “I won’t hurt you, Effie. I’d never hurt you. You know that, yeah?”

Not physically at least.

As for everything else… Well, he had donelittle else than hurting her for the last ten years.

“Please,get away from me.” she insisted. “I don’t want… I do not want to hurt you. Please, do not make me.”

He decided humoring her was the safest optionfor now, for both of them, so he got out of bed but didn’t wander far. “Dropthe knife, sweetheart. It’s gonna be alright, I promise. We’ll find out what’sgoing on with you. It’s all gonna be alright.”

“I have to kill you.” she murmured only toimmediately hit her head with the handle of the knife. “No. I won’t. I won’t.”

“Alright. Good. I’m all on board the not killingme plan, Effie.” he hurried insaying, taking a step closer, stopping himself from reaching out again at thelast second. “Don’t hurt yourself, Princess. Just toss the knife. Toss it away.”

“I do not want to hurt you.” she said again,sounding desperate.

“You won’t.” he replied confidently. “Youdidn’t, right? You could have but you didn’t so you won’t. Toss the knife.”  Thefingers wrapped around the handle of his knife were shaking. “Effie…”

“I’m trying!” she shouted in frustration. “I’mtrying but I can’t! I can’t! Ican’t…” Her voice cracked and she started to sob. “I want to…”

He licked his lips, considering…

And then he just moved without any warning. Shelooked up in fright, lifting her arm as if to stab him but he had expected thatand he blocked her attempt, twisting her wrist until she let go. He quicklykicked the knife off the bed and wrapped his arms around her tight. Shestruggled and screamed so loud it ended in a raw whimper. And then she slumpedagainst his chest.

He didn’t dare let go of her wrists though,only too keenly remembering the strangulation attempt. His neck was sore.

“I’m gonna take you back to the hospital wing,alright?” he asked after a few minutes. She didn’t try to flee or attack himagain. She just kept on crying. He dared try to let go of one of her arms andshe didn’t hit him so he coiled his hand around her nape and squeezed gently. “Youdidn’t do anything, sweetheart. Whatever they did to you… They fucked up. You’re fucking too strong for their mind tricks.”

“When we are in bed together and you arevulnerable…” she whispered, sounding exhausted. “I am a danger to you now.”

Trust Snow to hit where it hurt… He neverallowed anyone to sleep in his bed. Effie had been the only exception to thatrule in decades. That the Capitolwould use the unlimited trust he had in her and turn it into a weapon…

He wasn’t even surprised.

“They didn’t find any traces of tracker-jackervenom…” he mused out loud.

It had become standard testing after Peeta,particularly for people who had been prisoners of the Capitol and who wereclose to key rebels. There had been no traces of that.

But, of course, it didn’t mean the Capitoldidn’t have other ways of programming someone.

It didn’t seem to have worked so well on herthough. Maybe it was just a traditional conditioning, some brainwashing to beactivated with a trigger, and they could break it. She hadn’t attacked him whenshe had clearly been programmed to… It must have meant something.

“We’re gonna fix whatever is wrong with you andwe’re gonna be okay.” he promised. “You and me. You believe me?”

She took a long time to answer, her breathrolling against his naked shoulder a few times before she finally spoke. “Itrust you.”

It wasn’t quite the same thing.

But they could work with that.

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