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Happy Mother's Day to Sam Winchester.
It's his fourth Mother's Day with DJ, and without Dean. Not that he and Dean ever celebrated it...
It's technically only Dean Junior's third Mother's Day, his birthday still months away. He brought home a card from preschool with a printout picture of him and Miracle cut in a heart shape and glued onto construction paper. He drew their family-- Sam, DJ, Miracle --mostly as scribbles, in the empty space on the paper. Sam feels his eyes prickle, smiling and thanking DJ for the picture, hugging him tight.
He looks at the picture again and his breath catches. Instead of the blue SUV that Sam drives, there's a black trapezoid that's clearly the impala, and in the sky where there might usually be a sun, there is a shape that looks a lot more like a halo, positioned (coincidentally?) above the driver's side. And inside, a shape seems to glow. He blinks hard and looks again, sliding his thumb over the space to feel the lack of crayon scribble, and makes himself breathe. Just a strange discoloration on the paper---not a ghost his son has drawn. And surely that halo is just a wonky circle of a sun.
"Do I have a mommy?" DJ asks, and Sam has to laugh a little sadly at the question.
A little too reminiscent of questions Sam used to ask Dean when he was little, but also something they've talked about before when DJ was younger. He's just a little too young still to remember everything yet when it comes to social constructs.
"Well, DJ, I'm your birthing parent, so for the purposes of this holiday, I'm your mom." Sam can't help blushing a little, thinking of how Dean would tease him about being the mom.
DJ just blinks up at him and says, "Oh! Yay! Happy Mother's Day, mommy!"
"Dean," Sam starts to admonish, caught off guard as DJ kisses his cheek and hops off his lap to run off with Miracle. "I'm still your dad! I'm still daddy!"
"Okay, mommy-daddy!" DJ says, like it's decided, and starts flying around like an airplane while Miracle barks happily like a puppy.
Sam sighs and looks to the sky. "Even without you here, he is so your child."
#happy mother's day#to sam winchester in particular#mom!sam#mpreg!sam#parent!sam#sam and dj#my fanfiction#[and] turn this up on the radio#spn ficlet#wincest ficlet#wincest fanfiction#wincest#sam and dean jr
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spn is such a funny show, it'll be like:
Naomi tells Cas he has to choose "us, or them" and 'them' is meant to imply Sam and Dean both, but then
she makes Cas kill fake copies of Dean only
Or Metatron will speechify about how Cas is "in love... with humanity"
and then give Cas another lil speech about how it was all "to save Dean Winchester. That was your goal, right? I mean, you draped yourself in the flag of Heaven, but ultimately it was about saving one human, right?"
Ishim shows up and tries to tell Cas how weak he is for befriending Sam and Dean
and then when he wants to "cure" Cas of his human weakness, that weakness is just Dean
AND THEN you'll have things like
Sam will say that Cas is family, that he'd die for him
but he also refers to Cas as an "it" just hanging around in a vessel strong enough to take on Lucifer (in season 11!! It's not like he said that in s4 or something, it was like 8 years after knowing the guy)
Or in "Regarding Dean," Dean will say to Sam "and our best friend's an angel!"
and then when he's by himself in the mirror, he'll say "and Cast--Cas is my best friend."
#just thinking about the various ways the show frames cas's relationship as being a sam-and-dean kinda thing#and then will later emphasize how actually it's dean in particular that motivates cas#supernatural#destiel#castiel#dean winchester#otp: profound bond#(this isn't sam hate btw it's more just#i don't know#it's so interesting how the show first goes the 'we' route meaning sam-dean-cas and then almost always#separately takes dean and cas aside and reiterates the theme of 'we' differently without sam#😩😩)
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get me on the call with eric kripke because I need to know his version of the supernatural finale. I just know it would've been a banger. it would've been the darkest of shit and horrifyingly gory and too tragic to even rewatch but it would give you a fetish so bad you'd find yourself going back and watching it while you gag and jack off at the same time. it would've been wacky enough to even have him cancelled by a section of the fandom.
#some time ago i read this interview where he talked bout his verison of supernatural ending wouldn't have been liked by many#and it would be quite dark#since then I've had one particular idea stuck in my fucking head#and it's too complex and weird to put it down into words. but I'm still trying#eric kripke#the man the myth the legend#he was one of the few people who got the essence of the show#and i think his version of the finale would've crushed souls#anyways#spn finale#spn#supernatural#sam winchester#dean winchester#it's not like i hate the finale that we got#but if it were kripke who would've written the finale he would've matched the og freaks of supernatural viz sam and dean
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i went to jared's panel at dragon con yesterday and when asked who his favorite supernatural character is, he responded: "i have a deep love and appreciation for dean winchester" 😊😊😊💖
#his first response was 'uhhhh sam fuckin winchester' which was very funny and so true#wincest#samdean#supernatural#the whole panel was nice but i think the wincest girlies will like this in particular#.txt
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Sam, getting to know Dean in season 1.
#was there even anything he knew about dean. like...#i wonder if it's because dean has changed a lot during the four years they were apart#or if sam was too young/immature to actually see dean past his exterior before stanford#probably a mix of both. but it's so interesting because the idea he had of him doesn't have anything to do with the actual dean!!#sam winchester#dean winchester#supernatural#spn season 1#corespnedit#.anna#also psst this is why it's dumb to call dean a creep just because sam once implied that dean would sleep with minors#like sam at times tends to see him as worse than he is!#like when he can't believe dean actually loved cassie or cares about saving a kid's life#so - don't trust too much what he says about him#in particular because all of the women dean actually slept with were roughly the same age as him or older#(aside from the fact that sam was probably joking that time)
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🫀 If you love me, then EAT ME!
Chew me up and SWALLOW 🫀
#Well well well if it isnt the incestuous cannibalism brothers#This is the best format I could get with the amount of pictures I had#I used those specific pictures from that particular episode purposefully#Sam Winchester#Dean Winchester#Wincest#Weirdcest#SamDean#Wrought up in my bones#Supernatural#Moodboards#Own moodboards#Cannibalism as a metaphor for love#📒#Cannibal
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You think I'm bad? Wait 'til you meet the other one.
SAM WEEK 2023 6.22, “THE MAN WHO KNEW TOO MUCH”
#spnedit#samedit#supernatural#sam winchester#samwinchesteredit#supernaturaledit#*#*sb23#welcome to sam week where i-- had Planned on posting one sam-centric episode edit a day#don't know yet if that will actually happen but i will try!!#i had a LOT of trouble choosing my favorite sam episodes but i really enjoy this one in particular#anyway. happy birthday week to one of two men who matter to me at all#6x22#sam#a lot of people got it worse
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Thinking about Sam and how central autonomy and violation is to his character. How many times and ways he had his choice taken away throughout the series. All the things we don’t know about his time with Lucifer, but are also so heavily implied that we do.
Imagining he eventually gets out of The Life and becomes a victim’s advocate. He ultimately decides not to try and pursue law school at this stage in his life—it’s been so long and so much has changed—but finishes his bachelor’s and pursues a master’s in social work. He never expected to end up here: the boy with the demon blood, no longer living out some doomed and twisted fate, helping people. He’s passionate about representing those made most vulnerable and unsafe in their own skin, supporting others as they come out the other side survivors, lending the compassion he’s always struggled to have for himself. Every time he listens to someone else’s story, helps connect them to resources, advocates for their case, he heals a little bit too.
#just thinking my little thoughts#sam winchester#supernatural#bodily autonomy#tw sa implied#cw sa implied#idk the best way to tag this?? just vague passing thoughts but I don’t want to trigger anyone so#sam posting#i just think it would be a fitting job for him#one of many great options#but i think he would find this fulfilling. and depending on why you think he was pre-law it would give him similar space to represent people#even if not in a court room#though who knows what type of law he planned to practice#I really think the show dropped the ball on exploring this particular facet of Sam’s trauma#they kept hitting the nail on the head with the autonomy theme and it *being the trauma*#but not enough follow through on Sam’s emotional damage™️ aside from tasty morsels here and there#sammy#<- for my own tagging system
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Saw this pic and—
Sam and his crush on doctors *wink* *wink*
#supernatural#sam winchester#castiel#sastiel#supernatural edit#my edit#his face#omg#i've noticed that sam makes some particular expressions with cas#It's like a smile that ends up becoming a grimace#a cute one
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I gotta tell you, the spn pilot could’ve been a lot more insane that what we got! “Look at your little girl now” what.
#idk if I believe that Constance’s particular cut out story mirrors Sam in any way#considering the fact that all spn characters mirror either Sam or Dean in SOME way#when she grew up she liked to cut her boyfriends in front of the house#in front of mommy and daddy like “look at your little girl now#spn#spn pilot#supernatural#supernatural pilot#scriptwriting#sam winchester
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my fav ethel cain songs that remind me of sam winchester
#there are more but these three songs in particular drive me a bit feral#they are so s2-5 sam coded#ethel cain#sam winchester#wincest#samdean#spn
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it's a chicken-or-egg kind of conflict, built on unreasonable expectations and toxic desire.
sam and dean choose to be codependent in 1.22 devil's trap: they both make grandiose statements that communicate their devotion to each other. but then, between 2.02 everybody loves a clown and around 2.04 children shouldn't play with dead things, sam starts talking about honoring their dad and trying to do right by him. he's guilty that john died before they could actually have a good relationship; he's just started to forgive him for their upbringing, and now he's gone and the way he copes with that is by trying to follow in john's footsteps, as if to prove that he's fine now with the life he's given them.
but john just sold his soul for dean and told dean that he might have to kill his brother—dean has come to perceive john as an enemy. john is asking dean to do the impossible, and on top of that he's left dean without anyone to guide him and tell him how to act. and so dean has cast john out in favor of entering a codependent unit with sam. sam is now all dean has left, physically and emotionally, and sam just declared his devotion to dean in no uncertain terms, chose him definitively, and so sam is therefore agreeing to fill in all of the holes john left behind so that dean can feel whole again.
but here sam is "allying" himself with john.
and sam obviously isn't intentionally trying to hurt dean; he's having a normal response to death. but sam's loyalty to dean and john can't coexist in dean's eyes, and that means sam is reneging on his commitment to dean, even though sam absolutely did not do that. and so dean he keeps to himself and refuses to open up about the truth because he can't trust sam to side with him, afraid of rejection or admonishment (which he receives anyway across the beginning of season 2, reinforcing those fears). he's angry and he feels alone because sam "chose" john when dean needed him most.
and as a result, because sam is of course still trying to be codependent with dean, dean's refusal to open up and be honest with him is equally seen as a betrayal of their commitment. to sam, honoring john is not in conflict with being codependent with dean. yet for some reason, dean won't even talk to him. he expects complete and open honesty from dean with their new dynamic—secrets are no longer acceptable because they're supposed to be on the same page, always—and he's not getting it, and it hurts. all he can see is betrayal.
of course sam is going to mourn his father after he's worked so hard to forgive him. of course dean is going to get frustrated at having no one to share his grief and anger with. of course sam is going to be hurt by dean's rejection. of course they're going to be upset at each other's betrayal of a profound commitment. it's a lot of reasonable reactions to unreasonable expectations, irrational perceptions, and half-truths that distort and warp their realities into something toxic and unmanageable. it's all about those subtle moments which unknowingly communicate betrayal of an undernegotiated relationship, all amplified by the heightened tension of grief and loss.
and around and around it goes.
#supernatural#sam winchester#dean winchester#spn meta#spn2#i cannot stop thinking about how sam explicitly keeps secrets from dean in 1.05 even though it's hurting him#and doesn't even reveal his visions to dean until 1.09 when he HAS to in order for dean to believe him about the case#but in 2.02-2.04 sam will not stop meddling and won't let dean handle his grief and anger on his own because it's hurting him#the development there from 'there are some thing i need to keep to myself' to 'you shouldn't keep this to yourself' is intense and crazy#their path to codependency has eliminated all reasonable boundaries in their relationship and every time a boundary is enforced#it's therefore perceived as an abject betrayal of the worst kind. because why would you do that. to me. your brother#it's a glowup but if the glowup was growing into your latent toxic abandonment issues and desire to become a single entity with your brothe#love it. they're both deeply unhealthy about each other but sam in particular is a brand of insanity that is almost shocking to witness#spn posting#.txt
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Irks me a little bit whenever Dean torturing in Hell is positioned as his own fault, or even really his choice to do. We get given the solid number, 30 years of torture for him and 10 inflicting it on other people (which was also more torture for him because it’s Hell, the torture evolves, it doesn’t stop), and we get told that wasn’t long enough. That John held out longer. That angels were going to pull Dean out of Hell and if he’d just held on a few years more, the seal wouldn’t have been broken.
But that isn’t true, right? We know Heaven wanted the seal broken, ergo Dean wasn’t getting saved until it was. Until it, and he, we’re thoroughly broken and usable by Heaven to achieve their own ends (ie to make him into a good (obedient) Michael sword.) So, it wouldn’t have mattered how long he held out in Apocalyptic terms because the game (that he didn’t know he was playing) was rigged against him.
But more importantly for Dean, the amount of time he managed not to break literally does not matter. Because it was never going to be long enough. Thirty years, forty, a hundred, a thousand, it does not matter how long he held out because the breaking itself is the unforgivable part to him and the breaking was always inevitable.
Anyway. There’s my Dean meta for the year. Eat up, I guess.
#despite this being brought out by that prev post I’m not like. actually annoyed or anything.#we’re all free to interpret the show however. I just think this way brings out the tragedy of it best is all.#you know it’s like. did Dean & Sam technically both have choices in s4? did they technically make the wrong ones? yes.#but at the same time. there was never a choice. there was never an option to avoid the apocalypse. especially with how little they knew#of what was actually going on over their heads. like. it really is insane to go rewatch s4 and realize how much they don’t understand about#what’s happening around and to them. and that’s the part I like best! it was unavoidable! they will still blame themselves forever!#what’s the thing called where you like both brothers. bibro? that’s me.#samgirl with bibro tendencies.#if you ever see me speak negatively about dean know that it’s because I love those things about him actually.#I like when he’s possessive and self-destructive and terrible. I just think. in this particular instance. this was not him embodying#a character flaw. so much as it was him being forced into his role in the story in a very like. visceral literal sense.#I could go into the Michael-Dean ‘what does it mean that of the two vessels it’s not Lucifer’s sent to hell but Michael’s’ thing but#maybe save that for another day. I have thoughts I’m just tired.#spn#dean winchester
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So, in S7x06 “Slash Fiction”, Dean has to ditch Baby for the time being.
He and Sam are in another car and the radio is playing “All Out Of Love” by Air Supply and Dean starts singing along.
The lyrics kinda fit mourning a certain angel. Just sayin….
Also, just sayin…. slash fiction is about romantic fiction of same sex pairings and this song is about romantic loss and sadness.
[Verse 1]
I'm lyin' alone with my head on the phone
Thinkin' of you till it hurts
I know you're hurt too, but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know
Doesn't really know
[Chorus]
I'm all out of love
I'm so lost without you
I know you were right
Believing for so long
I'm all out of love
What am I without you?
I can't be too late
To say that I was so wrong
[Verse 2]
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone
I'll be gone
[Chorus]
I'm all out of love
I'm so lost without you
I know you were right
Believing for so long
I'm all out of love
What am I without you?
I can't be too late
To say that I was so wrong
#why’d they pick that particular song?#every song chosen is a specific choice#they’re not random about somg choice in spn#destiel#castiel#dean winchester#sam winchester#spn 7x06#spn slash fiction#slash fiction is usually a romantic affection about same sex couples
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Sam just fucking nodding when that random prisoner said ‘you’re mine baby’, girl what the fuck are you doing?
#supernatural#sam winchester#i’ll cut him some slack he was just put in the spot all of a sudden and tbh i’d probably react the same way#we’re all freaks here i can admit that while spn is really fucking weird about sa especially towards men#that episode scratched a very particular itch in my head#i love sammy sa moments
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my favorite shots from episode 6
#spn live blog#the underwear lol#spn 1x06#there are other shots that i loved but. these in particular were awesome#these are all sam related. idk what else u expected from samlover4evr#sam winchester#the last one is kind of self indulgent
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