#to cheer me up.. i feel bad atm.. these things don't even make me feel very good tho bc i'm such a narrative/sketch-based artist..

[lunarharp]

figured i'd do this again..bit early i guess..

[piko-power]

Being a Sonamy fan is hard (and just being an Amy Rose fan in general)

*quick note, I have only seen a few leaks regarding Sonic X Shadow Generations so take this post with a grain of salt and please add in some stuff about the game that I should be aware of because I have a feeling that this post might be incorrect about a lot of things*

*contains possible Sonic X Shadow Generations spoilers*

Being in love with Sonic isn't Amy's only trait. She is something more. She's a baker, a tarot card user, she's got a strong heart of gold, and is just a passionate and cheerful cute little weird girl.

As a Sonamy fan, these "changes" are nothing special or big, it's still just Amy being Amy, but this time more than just wanting to be with Sonic. I am aware of that one edit where Amy was trying to give Sonic cupcakes. It's really cute, but it's not the same without the hand over her face. Am I complaining? Yes, and no, it's hard to describe. (I don't have the image with me atm but in the future I'll edited in on this post)

I'm not complaining because we are seeing Amy just doing more than just, loving over Sonic. She still is in that cutscene, and most of the game as far as I'm concerned (I haven't seen all of the leaks), but in a more calmer fashion.

But at the same time, I am complaining because, and I highly doubt SEGA is doing this, at least on purpose, but Amy's crush on Sonic feels like is getting buried in a way.

I kind of worry that a newer generation of Sonic fans will never find out about Amy's crush for Sonic, or just how wonderful their dynamic in general is if this keeps going on.

I know it won't, but still, we haven't been seeing that a lot. But at least if you want to introduce new fans Sonic and Amy's dynamic, platonically or romantically, make sure to not bring up Heroes or a couple of X episodes please LMAO

(But that one episode where Amy and Sam talk about her relationship with Sonic, yeah, bring that one up. OH. and the last episode of Season 2, don't forget about that one.)

Look, we're all high on Son/adow right now, and it feels good, but what about Sonamy? Sonamy and Son/adow have a lot in common and are both really good with angst potential and lots of great character interactions. At least in my opinion anyway. (Topic for another day, if I'm brave enough)

I love them both equally, so I want to see an equal amount of hedgehog dorks being together. Or better yet, Sonamyshad. 😎

But I'm getting slight off-topic...

I don't want Amy's crush to be forgotten. You don't even have to like Sonamy to understand why and how Amy's feelings for him is actually really important for her character. (Again, topic for another day)

I mean, of course, some reasons as of why relate to my personal headcanons, but there are other good in-canon reasons, too!

Hell, even Sonic and Amy's friendship is just as important. They don't have to be a couple, but that doesn't mean we have to pretend that Amy never fell in love with the hedgehog who saved her life in more ways than one.

I also don't want how much Sonic and Amy's relationship improved throughout the years to be forgotten, either. This is why I'd rather have the shot of Sonic's covering her face with his hand, because he wouldn't do this today, and that's the point of all this...

They both started off as goofy, little kids, one wanting to share her love like wildfire, and the other always running off, not understanding the concept of love, and, of course, not loving her back.

Amy was much more loud and expressive about her love, and Sonic, while he knows there is good in Amy, does not want to be part of a relationship, and doesn't know how to talk things out about it, even with Amy not taking "no" for an answer. The solution? Just run away lol

Yeah, there are times where he called her a "pain" and thought of her as "annoying," but those times he was either in a hurry, or in a bad mood. Remember: They were both younger at the time, so it's in-character for Sonic at that age.

Sonic and Amy don't have a lot of moments where they're just, together. And not just for a "date." Sonic doesn't know a lot about Amy other than her love for him. ...Okay, some things he does know, but not a lot.

Their relationship was beginning to shift after the events of Lost World and especially after Forces, which I would explain, but I'm gonna put a link here because I don't want this post to be too long.

But if you have read it, then the next couple of texts would have some context lol

Anyways, after all that, Sonic and Amy's relationship was a lot different now. Amy was more calm but still cheerful, just not showing a lot of her love for Sonic because she's fully aware that none of that is important, and Sonic was more gentle around her because he wanted to be better than how he acted towards her for a while.

They both just want to hang out and start over as proper friends, but eventually, Sonic would find out what Amy was going through mentally, and how long she kept this from him.

Perhaps after that, Sonic wouldn't mind being closer to Amy, but he still has a world to look after. But hey, maybe slowing down and letting Amy catch up with him won't be so bad. Besides, he's finally seeing her happy with just him for the first time in a while, and he never realized just how much he missed it until now.

Buuuuut, those are just my headcanons, like I mentioned earlier. We all have our reasons why we love or dislike a ship (as long as it's not gross), and I have my own.

These two, just like son/adow, hold a special place in my heart because of what I went through myself, and how much they both have grown, and I truly hope that their relationship and friendship won't be forgotten.

I know it won't happen, but I still have that feeling... Probably because no body cares about their dynamic as much anymore.

Because of the past and people misinterpreting the ship, and Amy's character as a whole, the fandom seemed to care less about it. I mean, I don't blame them, but... it's still pretty messed up.

It's fine if you don't like sonamy, but I really hope you dislike it for a genuine reason, and not just because of some fans getting some things, or worse, everything about Amy and/or the ship wrong.

Amy's character arcs through the games, and her and Sonic's dynamic through the years have been overlooked as far as I'm concerned. Not like heavily overlooked, it's just that it's been a while since I've seen people give a damn about Amy Rose, especially SEGA.

I know we got The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog, but I feel like that's not enough.

What's going on with Sonic X Shadow Generations is pretty strange, but first of all, it's not Ian's fault god dammit, and second, I don't see it as a big deal. I haven't seen most of the leaks, but as far as I'm concerned, it's not that bad.

(But I have heard about that one cutscene with Knuckles and Classic Sonic and I couldn't help but laugh my ass off over it XD)

But with how the game is handling Amy, please be aware that this isn't the first time this happened, and it's not even that bad either. I mean, yeah I did mention how I'm worried about it, but I was over it once, I'll get over it again lol

There have been discussions about this since the Fast Friends Forever bio thing that happened last year, and I'm getting kind of tired of the arguments by now.

Amy stopped chasing Sonic not because she doesn't love him anymore, but because she doesn't need too. She is part of the team and has been closer with Sonic for a long time now. She doesn't need to follow them around when she already have proven herself to be useful and a fighter.

I'm really happy Amy is being recognized as something more than having a crush on Sonic, but having a crush is the heart of Amy's character.

Looking up to Sonic and wanting to be like him is what made Amy Rose... well, Amy Rose. She pushed herself and fought hard to be the person she wanted to be, and it's all thanks to Sonic.

He inspired a lot of people around him, especially Amy, so it's no wonder why she loves him so much. Plus, her tarot cards told her that he would be the love of her life, but I feel like even if the cards are wrong (not saying they are lol), she still loves him.

I want Amy's feelings for Sonic, and their friendship and their potential relationship to be remembered for a long time. I don't want them to be pushed to the side forever.

I don't want people to believe that her crush is her only trait, even though it's so important to her character.

I don't want Amy to change too much. Friends or not, I don't want her to give up on Sonic entirely.

I don't want this fandom to forget about Amy Rose.

[hongluboobs]

tumblr user hong lu boobs have you played any of the new canto yet im very interested in your thoughts

Yes I do!!! I don't want to make a big post on Some Of The Stuff til the whole canto is up (if you are aware of this account and some of my recent postings it may become aware of what i am talking about) but ohhghghgh. This shit Re Awakened the naive cyanism in me!! I thought it was gone. I thought I was over Hong Lu! I haven't even been doing my dailies and weeklies as of late that's how out of it i've been. but NOPE!! We are sooooo limback babey!!

(i apologize for yapping about hong lu right off the bat. its not that guy's turn yet. it's don's world and we are all just living it, but with the way don's character is structured my brain goes more towards a "wait and see" approach for her. I know it'll be awesome and i Am invested but like. this is hong lu boobs dot tumblr dot com. I'm sorry women)

I'll put some basic stuff above the cut and then some more spoiler-y stuff below.

HUGE fan of the presentation this canto. PJM continues to get crazier with this stuff every canto and this is no exception.

In the light of that previous bullet, I am fully expecting some meta fuckery here. They've pulled some cool stuff at the ends of cantos 5 and 6 but. this is the sinner about delusion/unreality! I Live In Fear of whatever pm is cooking.

The setting is also REALLY fun. whenever I saw a new battle bg i was cheering and clapping. they're all so fun and whimsical and there's so much potential for interesting things

I really like seeing how people dress in the north of the city! We've had so many new factions/branches of factions thrown at us so far and I love a lot of the outfits! Will this still hold true when I try to draw them and get upset at the level of detail after drawing standard formalwear on pm characters for so long? Maybe!

The CGs have been really clean so far? As an artist I get worried about this stuff sometimes because it's a lot of work to get done but all the ones I've seen so far are really nice :)

If you aren't reading passives and status effects this canto. do that. my brain might be a little too small atm to comprehend some of the gimmicks w the main enemy type but some of the wording in the enemies passives may be hinting at things. Also some of them are really funny

this Might be my favorite direction they've taken the OST? Honestly it's so hard to pick because this ost NEVER misses but I've been typing this whole thing to that one boss's theme (you know the one)

If you've played through the first part of the canto, feel free to click through the read more for some of my thoughts that delve more into spoiler territory

I am so intimidated anytime the screen goes black and I have to deal with various colored text and Scary Voiceover. I cannot say much on it aside from just how scared i get whenever it happens. I'm pretty bad at identifying voices (especially if i don't understand the language) but these lines just get. so interesting

Here they are all together for my convenience (and potentially yours :) )

I don't have a ton to say on it especially because anything I say can be proven wrong Very Quickly and I am not a don quixote scholar but I think the "Please, please! I don't want an adventure, stop! Please!" line from (who i assume to me) second kindred don is VERY interesting. much to think about regardless!

UPDATE: while I was writing this my buddy lu-is-not-ok (follow him. if you like what I do you'll like what he does.) sent me this image.

Yep, we've got identity stuff going on. Yellow seems to be Our Don Quixote (It's her text color, at least, but back then she'd be the bloodfiend second kindred, hence being able to obliterate that bear immediately, and acting less in line with the DQ we know and love) while red is... maybe the original don quixote? The original owner of rocinate at least,("Your running shoes look like they could fetch a nice price...") who seems obsessed with justice and fixers like ours. I haven't read the book so I don't feel like I can add a ton more to this aside from flat speculation but I am very interested in how this develops.

Ok now I want to talk about Hong Lu stuff. Let's ignore the elephant in the room for just a second :)

I'm a big fan of the exchange between Dante, Verg, and Hong Lu. THERE IS SO MUCH CONCERNING FORESHADOWING IN HERE!!!!! OH MY GOG. I can't handle it.

the specific wording of "the most lucid one" is SO interesting to me. fully expecting these cantos to be a True Combo. I was already anticipating it because they both have so much to do with rules and the boundary of reality and delusion but with the familial hierarchy theme present in bloodfiends its Definitely happening. And the light in Hong Lu's left eye going dimmer??? with the water theming being used??? Gloom/sinking themed distortion Please Please Please. you're nothing. Theres some water connections from the book irt the land of illusion (near the end bao-yu's enlightenment is seen as realizing that everything is akin to moonlight mirrored in the water- it ultimately doesn't matter and everything predestined to happen will occur regardless) and this water theming is present in Hong Lu as well (base ego) but it's really interesting to see it Like This.\

And now. there's probably some other stuff I can talk about but I wanna say things about The Elephant In The Room. If you follow my stuff and are caught up on this canto you know what I'm talking about.

I have been compiling a diagram with every mention of Hong Lu's family across all his dialogue. (which you can see here if interested, though it's now outdated for obvious reasons) We only really get vague mentions, the only direct family appearance is Jia Huan, who shows up to say one line and then fucks off.

I was not expecting to get stuff on Hong Lu This Early. They've been giving us mostly crumbs and I was NOT expecting to get hit by All This. I have been surviving on scraps and I just had the Hong Lu lore equivalent of a rotisserie chicken thrown to me. I'm kind of rusty on DOTRC because I haven't touched up on it in a while and as such I cannot give too many details but it's very interesting to see Xichun.

I'm going to check up on Xichun's characterization in the source later because there's so many characters in that book and she wasn't really one I had that close an eye on during my read. From what I remember, she's one of Bao-yu's cousins who lives in the garden with him, and eventually runs away to become a nun when the family starts falling into decline. (mirroring Bao-yu running away to become a monk for the same reasons.) I'm probably missing stuff I'll catch when I go out to reread the book, but based on how she's depicted here it gives me more of an idea about what themes of dotrc they're pushing for canto 8.

They're for sure emphasizing the familial abuse and how fucked up the jia family is. It almost reads like all of the siblings are in competition with each other (building "factions"). and Hong Lu has said his siblings have attempted to kill him before.

Hong Lu has been like this, which lines up with his book equivalent of Bao-yu, who is notorious for being childish/naive and not necessarily working within the pre established rules and conventions set up by his family. I'm curious how he's managed to survive this long with the jias a lot more willing to Kill Eachother.

"My most amicable sibling" fucks me up so much. what the hell is this family's deal man. I'm really curious about this line, because xichun is not a sibling but a cousin in the book. I'm curious what's gonna happen with Bao-chai and Dai-yu in Limbus because it's very challenging to adapt this story without those two. Dai-yu in Dotrc is one of the characters Bao-yu feels most comfortable being himself around. Generally, the female characters in DOTRC are better people than the male ones, and Bao-yu spends most of his time with the girls as a result. I'm curious how/if they'll adapt this because it's a pretty big thing in the book and they serve as an escape for Bao-yu from dealing with the nightmare that is people like his father. I feel if it was happening, they'd probably write Xichun a little kinder, but I don't know nearly enough to make any sort of call yet. Absolutely TERRIFIED (positive. this is a good thing) for what PM is cooking.

I'm gonna have to cut this off here because i have A Lot of thoughts but i also have many assignments to finish and have been typing this for way too long! Thank you for asking the question anon I hope you enjoyed reading some of my thoughts :) !!

[hawkwidows]

I’m not the anon but I agreed with some things they said, and I’m not afraid of stereotyping him at all, I think that’s a pretty big assumption to make for why people perceive his character as simply boyish, not liking to feel vulnerable, and so on. Maybe stoic is too strong of a word, sure, but what’s on the screen is what’s on the screen, I think the whole point was just that people’s perceptions have nothing to do with blending Noah and Will. It’s clearly due to something the actor brings intentionally to Will that is not his own personality, that low, quiet seriousness. And we’ve seen Will in some pretty tough spots. It makes sense he’d be sensitive in those situations, you know? He’s very special of course but he’s also just a guy

Also, being sensitive or a crier or soft isn’t bad yucky girl coding it’s literally just not something only girls do! It’s uncomfortable to see someone express traditionally feminine traits and have people go “yes, that’s a girl thing.” It’s what his bullies did. I think that’s the point: that we can appreciate these things about Will without constantly obsessing over his Girl role. He’s just Will

you've clarified things I could not comprehend in the og post so cheers tbh.

moving on:

It’s uncomfortable to see someone express traditionally feminine traits and have people go “yes, that’s a girl thing.”

and you just called them traditionally feminine traits. that's literally the whole thing. I am not the one using "girl" in replace of "feminine", that was op anon, and others minimising will's narrative, and I think saying "a girl thing" is missing the point of analysing something as feminine. I can't speak for anybody else, I don't know what you or op anon have seen, but when I ever discuss what was watered down to "girl coding", it's about the fact will is a male character who happens to have been written to express traditionally feminine traits more than other boys/men around him, and also the tropes his story falls under.

it's not a bad or weird thing to point out. noticing feminine traits is most definitely not my entire personality, which it feels like you're implying is for some people. I find it genuinely fucking cool they wrote a male character to follow multiple tropes and narratives usually given to female characters in the horror genre. it's unique and fresh and expressing enjoyment over that isn't taking away from will being a boy.

but he also isn't just a standard boy, btw. his visible difference to everybody else is kind of a big - and important - part of his story. and no, that's not me being wilfully ignorant to what you're saying - I fully understood you, I am just saying that while I agree he isn't overly effeminate or flamboyant atm, he is also not "just a guy".

I think you're making an assumption off my wording - which I get because it was posted impulsively - but holy hell that was definitely not the correlation. you agreeing with op anon but also being fine to stereotype him doesn't make any opinion here special, I mean great to hear you have no problem stereotyping him! but I wasn't making a generalisation. the will and noah criticism is often about noah's physique affecting how people perceive will post-st4, when even that is exaggerated.

people being scared to stereotype will IS a problem in the fandom, even if not related to that specific post, and I brought it up because it was similar language. but also, this is the first I'm hearing the word "boyish" used for will so consistently. what I usually see is people going to the total opposite end of the spectrum of how we know him in the show and making him tough, commandeering or stoic, instead of embracing his softness; and never what's happened here today, which is people insisting that others are 'making him girly when he is in fact boyish' - that's news to me!

from what I've seen, if you explore his canon gender nonconformity, it's too feminising and there's hesitance, even if it's the simplest thing. in fact, guaranteed someone reading me even mentioning gnc in the sentence previous just flinched because it's a touchy or tired subject. but I don't see that issue with mike in headcanons/fics/art, ever, which is what has led me to believe over time that people have an issue/fear with stereotyping will. and that has to come from somewhere in his visual/narrative design because where else could you get it from unless you can recognise the writer's intentions?

I know I've held back from posting more headcanons bc I've been worried people will assume things of me because they project assumptions, when I always take his gnc qualities, and potential, seriously.

also, like I mentioned above, nowhere did you touch on the fact will's narrative is consistent with that of female horror characters (and that's not a bad thing), which is what the people I've seen who may discuss any "girl coding" are often referring to, because it's relevant and unique, and worthy of analysing.

I'm linking this post that explains it more really well, but I know you'll either find it interesting bc you've never seen it before, or roll your eyes bc you already have issue with it; but I can't express more how I'm coming from a genuinely fascinated, excited and well meaning place whenever I might discuss will's narrative having anything to do with something traditionally feminine (which is just a harmless word that happens to have the prefix 'fem').

what’s on the screen is what’s on the screen low, quiet seriousness

what's on screen is being reserved, not stoicism. it's will going through tough times, and - in your eyes - involuntarily expressing emotion when he usually wouldn't......? well all I can recommend for you here is rewatching the show. honestly.

will is a lively, funny, expressive character. not near the same level as noah, but I struggled to understand the relevance in pointing out will's quiet seriousness and noah. are being loud and extroverted not traditionally more masc traits in characters than quietness and being reserved? would that not mean will's expressiveness is what makes him more boyish than his passiveness?

I feel as though the issue being expressed here is feeling importance in will being male and being gay, and so people deeming will's traits feminine = he falls under the 'girl' in other's tendencies to make things a boy/girl dynamic, hence putting such an emphasis on "will is just a boy!!". and I hear you, but being afraid to explore will's story because of optics in relation to his love interest does a disservice to his journey.

I have three (rhetorical, please) questions for that:

a) do you understand that will's story goes beyond his relationship with mike, and that sometimes when people are analysing will's narrative, they aren't even keeping mike in mind? aka there's no intentional placing of will in a feminine role in their dynamic?

b) do you also vocally criticise when people do the same as they may do to will, to mike?

c) do you acknowledge that ST is an 80s show, not set in modern day, and will is from generation x - where we happen to have gotten a lot of those 'stereotypes' from, and it may not be so bizarre to consider he grows up to be similar to the middle aged (visible!) gay men you may know today? or can you see how playing with his gender nonconformity or any stereotypical progression can be different to if he was, say, a 2024 gay high schooler in another netflix original, where it's then a tired writing decision?

I think that’s the point: that we can appreciate these things about Will without [...]

we are. we are appreciating will for who he is, and some of "these things" happen to include him being given roles in the narrative that are often given to female characters, and that's not making anything 'binary'. it's a part of the conversation of will byers. will is not the character who experiences girly issues in the fandom.

He’s just Will

exactly! and "just will" is not your regular male character, and I love that about him. but nowhere does that imply people don't treat him as a boy??

I absolutely know I've repeated myself a lot in this post, but there's a lot of jumping around so, eh.

[hoshi-y]

Hihi idk if your taking requests atm- but I have a request for when u open them <3

Can I request a Depressed Tsukasa X reader? Or just a Tsukasa with mental health thats not so great?

It doesn’t even have to be a x reader it can just be Tsukasa with bad MH hcs- I just see so much depressed Y/N and i’m a sucker for

reverse roles. i just wanna see how people would think he would handle it and who he would tell about it

It sounds so emo sorry— 😭😭 hope you can do it! <3 I love your writing!

Always Here

Genre : Fluff

Characters : Yugi Tsukasa

TW : None

A/N : IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY TO KNOW ALOT OF PEOPLE LOVE MY BAD WRITINGS TYTY AND OF COURSE

I have never seen a very depressed Tsukasa before so this is new, Love the idea cause again its always the reader who is depressed

MMMM I'll do both HC and a oneshot hehez 💗

I hope you enjoy 💗

I'm so lost..

You know it, I just feel like Tsukasa would always lock himself up in his room

He'll have a sudden change in mood rarely showing his cheerful persona

He'd refuse to talk to someone about it and say he'll be fine all the time

Believe it or not he'd reject his own brothers reqiest to hang out or to come play with him

That's how bad ours babys mental health declined :(

I feel like the reason he'd be like this is because of school

the junk education system of japan has it going for him

to the point he'd cage himself in his room

Not alot of people like him too

they think his loud and cheerful energy is annoying

he'd end up hearing things they would say

but this time, just hearing them talk shit about him made him snap

If it means giving whatever the world wants just to see Tsukasa's smile and hear his laugh again

You'd do it.

You notice how much his health declined the past few weeks and it worried you, he'd lock himself up in his room, refuse to eat, and sometimes doesn't answer your texts or calls.

You marched down to his house, you thought it was him who opened the door cause you saw a glimpse of black choppt hair by the window but turned put to be his brother

"Hey [F/N], if you're here for Tsukasa again... He won't open the door" He scratched his head as he looked up stairs at Tsukasa's locked door, You frowned "Come on.. Don't your parents or you have any keys to open that door?"

"If we try he'd lock it again before we could even go in.. But I'll let you have a shot at it" Amane handed you Tsukasa's room keys, you took off your shoes and jogged up to his room

"Tsu?" You knocked at his door but was met with silence "Tsu.. You can't keep shutting yourself in like this.."

Amane knocked on the door aswell "Tsukasa, come on [F/N] came all the way here even though it's snowing like crazy outside... Mom and Dad are worried too.. And.. I-im worried aswell.."

Silence

"Tsu I'm gonna come in, if you try and block the door Im5gonna give you an earful" You joked, hoping you could atleast here a chuckle or a little giggle from him, but nothing.

You inserted the key and twisted the knob unlocking his door, no sign of him getting up and locking the door

"I'll give you two some alone time, I'll be in my room if you need me to drag him out" Amane jpked which you playfully punched his shoulder, after Amane went to his room you made your way inside his room

It was dark, and cold. With the light source coming from the corridor you saw the love of your life laying on his bed curled up under his blanket, his room was a bit messy, A tray of food on his desk, it looked like he didn't even touch nor moved it.

You didn't wanna alarm him by turning on his lights. You closed his door and sat down on his bed and turned on his bedside lamp

"Tsu.. I'm here.." Your voice cracking a little. Ypu hated seeing him like this, You felt him move a little as he slowly took off the blanket off his face

"[F/N]?..."

You were holding back your tears at this point

"H-hey Tsu.. I came by to see you.." Tsukasa went silent for awhile, but climbed into your warm arms, you ran your fingers thru his messy hair as you softly picked his face with both hands to see him

His eyes were puffy, he had eyebags and just looked so broken inside

"Oh Tsu.." You kissed his forehead "You could've came to me to talk about your problems.. I'm always here for you.. Now tell me who has been disturbing you and I'll drag them to Teru"

Ah, using your scary Secretary privilege I see

Tsukasa layed his haid down on your shoulder as he shook his head, you hugged him tight. You didn't wanna force him to tell you what has been bothering him, You know he'll tell you when the time was right.

Tsukasa just needed your comfort and you being by his side until he is ready to tell his problems.

° ° ° °

"I-i'm.." Tsukasa spoke, his voice raspy

You hummed as you waited patiently for him to talk

"I'm sorry.. I shut you and everyone like this.." He hugged you tighter and tried not to cry, but he ended up sobbing in your arms

He tried to talk but he was pouring out into your arms as you hugged him tighter

"Its okay Tsu.. Take your time.. I'll be here, I won't leave your side" You rubbed his back for comfort to let him know that you're there

After he stopped crying, he told you everything, from academics, school, and fake friends. That have stabbed him multiple times in the back, You stayed. You silently listened to his problems, pouring out everything that has been bothering him

"Tsu.. You were very strong, and I know you are.. having to deal with everything and keeping it to yourself like this as you kept a smile on.. I'm proud of you for not giving up.. If you ever need anyone to talk to or have someone to listen to ypur problems, I'm always here, Okay?.." You kissed his forehead as you wiped his tears

"Now, where's my happy Tsukasa at? I miss him.." You giggled as Tsukasa gave you that smile, that genuine smile that captured your heart.

He rested his forehead on yours as he held your hands tightly "I love you so much.. I didn't know what I did to ever deserve someone like you.." Tsukasa inched closer as he kissed your soft lips, you closed your eyes as you returned the kiss. The once cold atmosphere turned into something warm to melt this snow storm away.

Tsukasa pulled away as his eyes held love and adoration "I love you, [F/N].. So much.."

"I love you too, Tsukasa.. Too much I think its not gonna fit in a huge tank" He chuckled "You must be hungry my dear.. Lets go make you something warm to eat hm?"

"I'd love that.." You got up from his bed as followed, You two went downstairs and made some yummy chicken soup together

My very very bad grammar is suffocating

[pink-booty-butts]

negative and whiny ramble under the cut, please ignore if you're not comfortable with that!!

ugh ok i really fucking hate talking about my feelings or being negative in general but i've kinda been feeling like this for a while so i feel like i need to just put it out there so i can go back to being happy lmao

highkey I kinda feel like I spend so much time focusing/putting effort into this fandom but idk really if anyone cares about my presence or me in general and it's kinda discouraging. I'm not saying that to ask for sympathy/validation, but rather to express that I'm probs going to only write if someone sends me a request for a while cos putting all this effort into coming up with ideas/writing fics on my own is not really vibing atm, honestly the past few weeks everyday i've just been staring at a blank doc when i get home from work lmao

even though i've mentioned being busy, I kinda have a decent amount of free time to work on fics or chat but it kinda feels like no one really cares, and my perspective is why would I put effort into something if no one cares ya know? bc of that i tend to favor doing or participating in things where i feel more appreciated or seen, like I'd rather focus my energy into other goals or people that do care. whenever I take time to write fics I'm actively pushing those people away or putting less time into other goals i want to achieve in order to do so, and while I do enjoy writing very much there's no need for me to post it on this blog or interact in this fandom if no one cares. if people don't like my work then that's fine, but also there's not really any point in me posting fics or taking time to write if people don't really find my stuff interesting.

i feel really bad for saying this, but sometimes i kinda feel like people only really care about me/what i have to say when im cheering them on or supporting them & their work. of course i genuinely mean all of the things i say when i do that and i dont want people to think i expect the same energy from them because i dont, but when the only response i get from people is related to me doing that it kinda feels like people only care about me being their cheerleader. i've tried telling myself that it's okay to be treated that way bc i do want to encourage everyone, i think everyone in this fandom makes amazing things and has fantastic ideas!! but i think at this point its starting to get to me bc i just don't really feel valued or like people care about the stuff i put out. and if thats the case then i should probably just stick to sending people compliments and reblogging everyone else's work as opposed to putting effort into a space where i am not wanted, bc im tired of constantly feeling like i have to put more and more effort in, berating myself for not being friendly enough or not being positive enough or being too annoying or mean, and then i go back to my coping mechanism of trying to bury all of my negative emotions and be a happy little robot friend to everyone (which i have been trying very hard to not do this past year or so bc it honestly ruined my life)

that being said, as I said earlier I'll write stuff if people send requests but I'm probably not going to post any original fics for a while. I have some stuff I've been wanting to write and a lot of wips so I might come back or post some stuff even if no one sends me any requests, but if i just disappear/ghost then this is probably why haha

[foreverautumn89]

@lovipop2049

I had more to say about this persons post https://at.tumblr.com/willywormsworld/hey-does-anyone-know-some-fics-where-jonathan-has/8f8zmtg5elhm

Especially in S1 J suffered. AND the camera smashing scene was suffering real consequences!!! How much more does Jonathan have to 'pay for that' for them to be satisfied?

Steve breaking his camera was a major consequence:

-Jonathan had to save up forever for that camera. -He had to work low paying jobs as a kid just to support his mom and baby brother. -The majority of that small income he made went to providing for Joyce and Will -He would have had to take a very small amount of his already small paycheck to save up for something that was just for him.

Then after Steve smashes it: -Jonathan finds out his baby brother is dead -Jonathan's mom seems to be going crazy saying theres monsters in the walls -Jonathans abusive dad is back in his life -Jonathan cries alone in his room and has no one in his life to comfort him when hes going through hell

But on the subject of the camera alone: -Jonathan doesn't have a hope in hell of saving up for a new camera because they don't have the money -Also, Jonathan can't save up for a new camera any time soon because NOW HE HAS TO PAY FOR A COFFIN FOR HIS BABY BROTHER!! His baby brother who meant everything to him and was the only person in the entire universe that really loved him. -Jonathan has to go coffin shopping alone-hes sixteen at this point.

But yet…the ST fans all cheer on Jonathan's death and are like ''yeah I want to see him suffer more! Yeah lets treat the abuse victim like trash we want to see him get even more destroyed by everyone around him!'' I seriously have no idea why I thought interacting with this fandom in general was a good idea. It's actually making me sick to the stomach now. The way they act towards abuse victims is really sick. Like I said, they did the same thing to Max.

He took one bad picture on accident and immediately turned away. He didn't even do it intentionally.

The pictures he took before that one bad looking picture was because he uses his camera to feel connected to people and he wanted to pretend he was part of their world-just a happy carefree teenager instead of his reality atm which was: Him looking for his dead baby brothers body in the woods after having to confront his abusive father. Its understandable during the process of grieving for his missing/dead brother that he felt lonely and isolated and had a desperate need to feel connected to people. And yet-people don't feel sorry for Jonathan in that scene like they should, instead hes made out to be someone who sexually assaults people and is some sort of monster. So many people in this fandom just make me sick.

[rainbowsans]

I know you got your hands full with things atm but when you get a break, think you could spoil us with some info on your Nightmare Paps? General info, what makes him different from classic Nightmare aside from being Papyrus coded, tales of his unholy inhalation of 999 apples in like 5 minutes, or anything about him, really ^~^ You don't show much of him, but it seems he's on.... At least neutral ground with his brother, even through the corruption. Just a curiosity of mine as I've been reading more Bad Sans stories of late (And you wouldn't believe how many people write that are just for thirst =3=;; I get it, but like.... Hold hands? Meaningful conversations?? Intimacy that isn't just 'AND THEN THEY BONED and that is the pinnacle of relationship achievement'??? Sorry for mini ace rant here but he may be the king of negativity but like, he's allowed to have more dimension than sadistic bastard/tentacle kink skele >3> )

(trust me....you and me both anon 🤝)

as for my nightmare papyrus, I have some stuff I don’t share with him because....ah, embarrassingly enough, I’m not as....confident with my ideas or headcannons of certain characters, which is why I keep 80% of the stuff I draw and plot out to myself most of the time but!!! I will tell you some things about him

Unlike nightmare sans, nightmare papyrus was always goopy. he was actually made that way because that’s his destiny, to be the guadian of nightmares. while his brother, Dream is the guardian of dreams, who was just a spec of light before their “Guardian” created them.

the two brothers get along wit one another, they’re actually really close! but still bicker and pick on one another like normal brothers do.

Nightmare papyrus is very touch repulsed, he doesn’t want anyone to touch him because one of his powers is, if you touch him, you will literally be stuck in a nightmare trance we’re you will experience nothing but nightmares until it wears off. Papyrus can’t really much control these powers, it’s the embodiment of who he is, his presence is feeding off negativity and people’s fears, BUT he doesn’t need them to survive. In fact....he pretty much enables them unintentionally if he’s at close contact with someone. he only one unaffected by his powers is his brother.

Nightmare papyrus is like swap and classic papyrus but he’s just more tired, considering he doesn’t get enough sleep, when he sleeps he can feel and experience everyone’s nightmares at the same time. he’s training to get better control of it but it’s kind of draining for him some nights, so his brother comes in and uses his brothers to give Nightmare some good dreams so he can get some rest.

Nightmare papyrus is actually apple scented, but he’s allergic to apples

He also has clothes underneath his cape, but most of the time he keeps himself closed like some kind of vampire.

Major differences from classic papyrus is that Nightmare papyrus is quieter, less optimistic, less energetic, and he doesn’t really fancy “puzzles” he’s more of a chess type of guy.

Personality wise: nightmare papyrus is blunt, sassy, caring, stubborn, and sympathetic!

Whenever he’s visiting someone’s nightmare, since he can’t really do anything to help the person cheer up. he sympathizes with the persons fear and nightmare and makes sure they aren’t alone with it. It’s his way of comforting the other person without getting close, because he sympathizes with the pain. Often when people wake up, papyrus thinks they don’t remember him but...he doesn’t realize that some people do remember him. In a good way!

[mxtchups]

hihi! could I request a romantic matchup for 'The Arcana' (′▽`〃)?

i use they\them pronouns and I'm pan^^

my mbti is intp. I'm a very shy and reserved person in public, I try not to cause too much attention but also express myself openly. I suffer from anxiety ( I don't take meds or anything so I'm usually on edge) and overthink about people/other things. If you get to know me, im a huge extrovert and cheerful person. I love making jokes and laughing <3 I'm airheaded and clumsy, I hit my head or trip on air too much smh. I'm a very random person too, more eccentric for sure. I do the most offwall things because I'm bored ( like jumping off things or asking off-putting questions). I love talking! About anything I'm hyperfixated on atm ( as in old interests or new ones!) and I can go on for hours tbh. I'm pretty childish, but mature and mother like when I need to be. I love physical affection (even tho I say I hate it) anything like hugs is nice for me! I'm a caring person and mostly a listener. Very sassy (which people say it's "cute" from me) and sarcastic, with a whole lot of blunt. I'm a flirt too, but anything flirty from someone else gets me shy (like Julian lol). I get very bad mood swings and it is causing trouble for me to make friends or keep them, since I'll just isolate myself from them- I also have insecurities regarding my looks (particularly my body) so I get v sour when I think about that. Alot of the times you can tell when I'm in a mood bc I get quiet. ANyway I'm a lazy, procrastinater and plainn lmao.

my interests r playing the piano, reading/watching anime, romance novels (love triangles are my life), alternative/gothic fashion and music, hard rock and metal, stuffed animals and playing videogames!!

if it helps I pursued Julian to the very end ╰_╯!!!

hello! first of all, thank you sm for requesting, you are the first person that asked for a matchup so I hope I do it well. I don't want to leave you disappointed.

soo I ship you with Muriel!

Firstly, if anyone would understand your need to withdraw and not always be surrounded by people, it's Muriel. If you want to spend time alone with him, not doing anything in particular, he's there for it. If you don't even want to be with him and want to be left alone, he can understand that too. He won't get mad, offended, or sad, he'll just know you need some you time.

But in case you completely cut contact with him suddenly and isolate yourself, at first, even though he'd be worried, he'd think that maybe it's best he leaves you alone, and let you come back when you want to. But I feel like his worry would get the best of him and he would definitely check up on you. If you let him in, perfect, he now knows what he needs to do. If you don't he would truly not mind you coming back after a few days, weeks, or months and continuing where you left off.

With Muriel, there would be fewer reasons for you to overthink and panic about his true intentions or thoughts as it would be clear he sees you differently from other people. Although his ways of showing love wouldn't be the most open ways, definitely not always conventional they would be clear. If he loves you, you know it.

Also, I feel like both of you wouldn't like public displays of affection, but when you are inside, alone, you would get as much physical contact as needed. Both you nor Muriel aren't someone that would outwardly ask for cuddles, even though both would want it, so at least at the beginning of the relationship, you would be the one to initiate it.

Neither of you would get into a relationship without knowing someone well beforehand, so your extroverted side would definitely come out by the time you were dating, and he'd love and understand that one just as much as the introverted one.

The first time in what felt like a century since he laughed, it was on one of your jokes. Since then you probably would try to make him laugh as much as possible.

It's good that he has good reflexes as you said you were clumsy, but don't worry he's there to catch you every time you trip on air, or put a hand between your head and a cupboard, or guide you through a big crowd.

Your off-putting questions would at first surprise him and he'd never know how to answer them, but I feel like you'd always find a way to get the answer out of him. By the time you are deeper in the relationship he'd get used to them, and usually was able to see them coming and is more open with his answers. Though sometimes you'll still see him blush and take some time before spitting it out.

He'd also like the fact that you can talk for hours, and for all those hours he'd listen to you intently. Sometimes he's not sure if he's interesting enough for you as you have so many things you like and are good at whereas his past stopped him from that. But there you come in with your long talks teaching him about this and that and introducing him to so many wonders of the world. That would definitely be one of his favorite things about you.

Regarding your looks, he'd just never really think about it until you mention you are insecure about them. From the moment he met you he saw you as stunning and beautiful, so hearing that you don't like it came as quite a shock for him. He'll probably at first express his love for your body physically but he knows words are needed too, and he'd put in all the effort to find the right ones to explain to you just how gorgeous you are in his eyes. He knows that won't make your self-image go away so he'll make sure to compliment you more in the future, till you start believing him. You are the one that made him see good in himself so he'll make sure to at least return the favor.

He'd love you being blunt. He's not always good at interpreting the hidden meaning behind someone's words so just saying it how it is would make it a whole lot easier for him. And if you always say it like that it would also make it easier for him to express himself.

He is not good at flirting, and he'd get super shy every time you openly flirted with him. Before you dated he never knew if you were joking or if you'd actually want to have something with him, but either way it'd leave him a blushing mess.

And AAA I can already see you playing the piano and him sitting on the stool next to you, slightly leaning towards you, scared to do it fully so he doesn't interrupt you in any way and end the alluring music. He'd love it every time you play and once he's relaxed he'd often ask you to do it for him.

OMG, I CAN ALSO SEE YOU READING TO HIM. Imagine laying in bed, cuddled up, you with a book in one hand, the other hand in his hair, gently playing with it as you read to him. He's scared to fall asleep, so you don't think you bored him but once you tell him it's okay it'll be the best sleep he's ever had.

And as he knows you are reading romance books he might think you have big expectations as to what couples are supposed to do, or are simply more knowledgeable than him in this entire matter, so he'll consult one of your books and try doing something from it to win you over.

He'd adore the way you dress, and do your hair and make-up. And once he trusts you enough, which is pretty fast compared to how he feels about other people, he'd let you do his hair sometimes or put some makeup on him.  

He'd make you stuffed animals and then like leave them somewhere in your house for you to find or like on your porch because he'd be too shy to give them to you in person, but you'd know whose it's from.

In any way, you'd make each other feel comfortable, safe, and cared for. The roles of the caregiver and care receiver would be equally divided and would switch.

Regarding you and Julian I can also see that, but to me personally, I see it more as friendship.

I can see you two dressing in romantic gothic fashion together. Being dramatic together. Having all sorts of fun. He'd definitely like listening to your stories and having a myriad of his own to share. Imagine introducing him to metal! That'd be super fun. He'd still flirt with you, but most of the time it would be jokingly, he'd just like to see you get all shy.

I really hope this is okay, once again thank you for requesting!

[lotti-lyric]

Hihi! Can I request a MHA matchup please? I'm 16, he/it, and im bisexual <3

I'm 5'5, I have straight, short red hair with brown roots starting to come in. My eyes are hazel and they pretty big, I usually but eye liner on to make them appear more slender. I'm pretty pale, and I have light freckles all over my body. I usually wear more tight fitting cottagecore/dark academia clothes, or anything that is sage green!

I'm and INTP. I'm more introverted, but I tend to be very talkative and friendly to those I know and like. I consider myself to be a pretty approachable person as I usually have a smile on my face, and I am a optimistic realist who sees the most probable outcome but tries to look at it in a positive light. I'm pretty funny, artisitc, charasmatic and cuddly, I love physical touch between myself and people I consider my friends, little things like holding hands or hugging. I can be naive and bothering at times, when I don't get enough attention I get overly clingy and annoying. When I dont receive attention after asking I can become distant and irritated, not understanding why no one is paying attention. My mood changes pretty quickly, one moment I will be sad the next I'm beaming ear to ear. I'm impatient and i get very paranoid at times.

I'm someone who tends to find comfort in different kinds of media and then obsess over it for months. I've been obsessed with Harry Potter (dont support JKR) and BNHA for a very long time now, they are definitely my main interests atm. I love to draw, read, and play video games. One of my favorite things to do is go to the mall or just walk through thrift stores, as seeing all the clothes make me feel excited and sparks my creativity. I dislike heat and hot weather, my favorite season being fall and my favorite holiday being halloween. It also doesnt help my love for the fall season that my birthday is in October. I love spicy and savory foods, but I do occasionally get a sweet tooth and eat all the chocolate or strawberry shortcake in my house. I am a night owl and have a hard time wanting to get up in the early mornings. My favorite flowers are Snowdrops as they are so delicate and they remind me of my childhood. School is fairly easy to me, and I always get A's with the exception of a B or two. I love helping out my teachers or fellow classmates, but tend to stay away from larger groups, eating my lunch in classrooms or in the courtyard. My love language is physical touch and quality time!

I think thats it, thank you sm! I hope your day has been good so far <3

charlotte’s interlude 💗- hey!! i hope you’re having a good day!! ofc! i hope you enjoy this love, take care of yourself!! thank you, have an incredible day!!

warnings; swearing, paranoia, food

i match you with…

Uraraka Ochako!! (aka Uravity)

- this for you both!! ^^

- she has got it sooooo bad for you holy shit

- loves ur makeup but loves ur big eyes!!

- big eye club whoop whoot!!

- matching cottagecore matching cottagecore m-

- she’d never ever force you into a conversation but once you’re comfy with it, she’s sooooo happy!! you always have the best, energy filled discussions about the little things!!

- THE SMILES ITS TOO BRIGHT 😩 i need some sunglasses guys

- even before you two are together, you’re joined at the hip!! cuddling, leaning against each other during lunch outside, holding hands, laughing and cheering together

- not getting enough attention is never an issue with her!! she knows just when you need her and just like that she’s there!!

- she’s really amazing at quelling your paranoia, assuring you of what’s real and making sure the smile ends up back on your face!!

- when you’re into something, she’s into something!! you have so many inside jokes after u binged all the HP movies

- You, using a strand of her hair: aVEdEE KaDEbEE

- she is WHEEZING

- you both just walk around malls a lot, picking out little fits for each other and having fun in general

- ur upset? expect a beaming uraraka at the door with tissues, cute videos games, loads of sweets, and snowdrops just for u!!

[beermanoftana]

Hmmm..... let's have a discourse to cheer you up... why is Sorato a bad ship. give us all the reasons <3

Okay, this took me a while but I finally have my answers. And thank you for cheering me up!

I haven't watched the first two seasons in a while so if my memory is wrong, please do tell me because I want to know. Or do I. I mean, this is Sorato so why would I want to know. HAHAHA.

Let's go! (not in order because I just wrote down whatever came to mind atm; also I didn't include Tri. and Kizuna because I really only watched them once and was like...yeah, okay)

their interactions were purely "forced", i mean like, if they didn't need to talk to each other, they wouldn't even have said a word

sora may care a lot about the others but did she make an effort to pay their respects, unlike yamato who actually did (with mimi, let's put in some mimato here)

in retrospect, we see sora's crush on yamato when the original 7/8 got together in s2...but like...that's it, that's all, ta-dah

yamato barely looked at sora's direction, yeah, sure, they were friends and they interacted a bit (see bullet 1), but like, the only time we actually see him with her is during the concert

and may i add that sora was in danger...really, if jyou was the one there, would he not save her, too?

also, in the epilogue, were they really still together or what, like, kenyako was always together even when the kids were running forward, but sorato was apart?

in the battle with piemon, gomamon was the one who got yamato from him and sora threw him at takeru...i think the reason why i'm putting this here is because we must remember that it was not sora who got yamato, but gomamon...

put sorato in one room, just them, do you really think that they'll suddenly have feelings for one another, go on, think about it...i admit that their bond may become stronger but i don't see enough tension for them to suddenly be like "oh, i love you", if ever, they'd push each other more to be with other people--not because they don't want to have feelings for each other but because they could become good friends and support one another

if we think about it, yamato never really...you know, sees much in sora, i mean, he does of course, he sees a lot in all, but the only time i actually remember them saying more than just one sentence to each other was when sora was pulled by the dark side (shoot, i don't remember what that was but i remember that interaction)

yamato and sora, though could be good friends, cannot be romantically linked...why? because in the long run, they will butt heads, they're both very strong personalities, and if you think about it, those personalities are the ones that tend to clash, sure, they can talk things out, but...let's face it, their relationship can only purely be platonic

And that concludes my essay. These are really just more of my opinions but why not share? I know some may not make sense atm (and my battery is running out and I'm too lazy to plug in at 11pm so I'm doing this a bit faster) but if you wanna talk about it, let's go!

[another-dr-another]

FTE with hatano if she isn’t busy atm!!

Maeda, narrating - Maybe I should go visit Hatano...

Maeda - It was really sweet of her to share the last melonpan with me,

Maeda - But looking back on it, I'm a lil embarrassed she noticed.

Maeda - Was I really being that obvious with it?

~*~

Hatano - Hiiii!

Maeda - Hey, Hatano!

Hatano - Would you wanna pester Ōtori for his recipes with me?

Hatano - At least, the versions he distributed to the other stores-

Hatano - Wait a minute, maybe Mr. Lucky Student could coax it out of him?

>Do you want to give Hatano a gift?

>You have selected: Ship In A Bottle

Hatano - ...Oh!

Hatano - Diiiid you make this?

Maeda - Got it from the Mono Machine, actually.

Hatano - Huh!

Hatano - Kinda surprised it didn't get beat up...

Hatano - ...Anyways, thanks! ...I guess...

~*~

Hatano - Soooo, ready to find your sport?

Maeda - My... sport?

Hatano - Yeah, you remember! You don't really have a thing to aim for, so you've got no passion,

Hatano - Cause if you had any, there wouldn't be anything for you to do with it!

Hatano - So imma help you find a niiice sport to focus on.

Maeda - Just gonna change the whole focus of my life like that?

Hatano - Oh! No, I'm not expecting you to turn into some Olympic athlete or anything,

Hatano - Just your average "yeah I get first place, but only at little unimportant things" sorta guy!

Maeda - ...Thanks.

Hatano - N-not that I mean anything by it! It's not a bad thing!

Hatano - It's just... the only real athletes here are me, Higa, and if you ask some people, Tomori.

Hatano - Higa told me he's been working all his life, and it's the same for Tomori!

Hatano - Just takes a lot of hard work and effort, and even then, with their whole life put into it,

Hatano - You've got people from three sports, and that's it!

Hatano - So with all those people spending all that time, and not getting in, that means it also just takes a natural sorta talent!

Hatano - And you don't have the years of practice, soooo...

Hatano - Let's see if you've got something you're inherently good at!

Maeda - R-really? Do we have to?

Hatano - Well yeah!

Hatano - Unless you're serious about it, a lot of sports are easy, and just practice and muscle memory...

Hatano - Liiike! While soccer requires strategy cheer has coordination, and they've both got teamwork,

Hatano - Sprinting is practice and training!

Maeda - Really? Almost feels like you're attacking your own sport...

Hatano - I-I mean! It just takes a lot of dedication, there's no relying on others, which is a strong suit about it for some!

Maeda - Speaking of, you kinda seemed like a social butterfly, I'm surprised you're not one for a teamwork sport.

Hatano - Well... social butterflies just flit from group to group, so it makes sense I'm not really working to gain the trust of one group...

Hatano - ...

Hatano - And besides! Inherent talent, yeah?

Hatano - So let's go work out what's right for you!

~*~

Maeda, narrating - Ha... ha... jeez...

Maeda - I'm tired...

Maeda - I've got good lower body strength, and I'm a decent runner,

Maeda - But I don't think I'm even good at sprinting, despite how simple Hatano seems to think it is.

[Head to the Meeting]

[heckinhacker]

so i have a hard time focusing and whenever i have a lot of missing assignments my mom would make me complete all of them in one sitting and as i mentioned before, i have trouble focusing so i was wondering if you could do some haikyuu boys (i don't care which ones) comforting their s/o breaking down since they can't focus and feel useless? sorry if that was a lot to ask for 😅

Asahi, Bokuto, Kuroo and Yachi helping their S/O with stress breakdown. 

A/N: Babes i’m so sorry I didn’t do it right away but I was in such writer’s block I just recently started working on my stuff. I hope it cheers you up even though it’s hella late. <3  P.S: I know you said boys but I wanted to add Yachi too ^^”

Asahi Azumane

You can count on him with whatever you could think off. ;;;

Even though he can be awkward even after starting relationship with you, he still cares and shows it in his own way. 

Between other things - being there for you even though you never said that you need him around is one of them. 

You read that one page again.

And again.

Andd...again.

And nothing helped, you wanted to focus even if it was last thing you could do but you just couldn’t. 

In no time you had tears in your eyes, and from quiet sob you bursted out into histerical bawling. 

Asahi jumped in his sitting spot, since he gave you space to work on your stuff in peace, but now he got startled. 

Not because of loud sound, no. He was startled he did something wrong. (even not noticing much earlier was his fault - as he thought. )

He placed his big hand on your back, caressing it slowly to give you comfort. 

His heart was beating way too fast, while clenching out of sadness. 

Asahi ALWAYS tries his best to keep his composture (especially around you, because he wants to be your safe, strong place what will never shatter). 

But...he’s sensitive. 

And when he hugged you and FELT how you were shaking and sniffling and squeezing him like if you’d let go he’d dissapear somewhere, he felt tears pick in his eyes too. 

He hated that he wanted to cry too, becuase he wanted to cheer you up, not to make things worse. 

But when he cries with you, you’re not so embarassed about crying. Your boyfriend is with you, hurting like you do.

After you both calm down, you both talk about your problem and search the most reasonable solution.

If there is none, he just gives you tips of dealing with stress and sadness. He learned after his own mistakes and can let you know what he did to get better. 

After that one situation he asks you a lot if you are okay and if you don’t need any help with anything. He’d take his own free time to help with your duties. 

Bokuto Koutaro

he’s very...attentive.

He notices something is off but...he can’t put a hand on it. What is going on. 

He asks you a lot “Are you feeling alright?”

You answer yes, and he just humms in response, since he feels something is off.

And he notices when your shoulders are shaking and you have both hands on your mouth so you don’t get too much attention on yourself from your boyfriend. 

Bokuto gasps like scared child and comes to you right away to hide you in his arms. 

Tries to cheer you up by his cheerfull personality, by compliementing you and making funny faces sometimes. 

If being goofy doesn’t work, he pouts and tries the way he’s much worse at, but will try - thinking reasonable. Or, as he likes to call it, “Pretend to be Akaashi” game. 

Even though he might not have as reasonable sollutions like Akaashi, he tries to come up with something that might help you. He knows you, after all, so he says what he thinks is the best for you. 

Of course he still holds you in his arms, not letting you go no matter what. 

(Even if you’d say you don’t want to be hugged at the moment, he will anyways, since he’s too scared to let you go atm.) 

He apologises for not noticing something is off earlier. You say it’s fine, since you never told him directly and he’s not here to blame, after all. 

Kuroo Tetsurou

shithead <3

Acts dumb but is actually really smart.

A genious, even. 

He confronts you first about it before disaster happens, actually. 

He tells you he noticed something is off and he might know what causes it.

When he brings up topic of your lack of ability on focusing, you start crying because all of bottled up stress just falls down in your tears. 

He expected that, he handles you tissues and lets you sit on his lap, letting you talk this out. 

Or crying it out quietly, decision is yours, but he wanted to make sure you throw it out of yourself. 

Later on helps you with anything you’re late with or what you have to do. Both is good. 

After he makes sure you are not late with anything, he chills around with you with your favourite snacks and some stupid sitcoms. 

Yachi Hitoka

Usually you have study dates, so you can sit beside yourselves, learn and help each other.

She noticed you are stressed out about something, but never bringed this up because: “If they never mentioned it, maybe they don’t really want to talk about it?”.

Yachi overthinks a lot, so she never asked. 

So once when you just lean back and cry out of frustration she gets STARTLED. 

At least she knew she was right. Which she didn’t wanted to be. 

She hugged you right away, standing beside you so she hides you in her chest, shooshing you, petting your head. 

“Honey, what’s wrong?” she asks ultra quietly. 

Waits untill you answer, gives you as much time as you need. 

Hugs you through all of breakdown.

She has a big problem with words but she wants you to feel she’s here for you. 

She asks you why you never asked for her help earlier. She has a shitton of patience, especially for you. You can get discracted, she wouldn’t mind. 

She kinda scolds you after you’ve calmed down to ask her for every help you need. She can keep up with her own studies, volleyball club and you, so there is no problem, really. 

But that’s not a BAD scolding, exactly. She does it calmly, to let you know you did bad by not telling her right away when you started having problems. - because it hurt you a lot in the progres. 

[aro-ace-advice]

hi! i love the froggie it's so cute! but i've got a bit of an issue atm? i'm feeling a bit down bcuz i've never had a bf and all the dudes who have shown interest in me have been creepy :( and i know my worth is not measured by how many dudes like me but i'm still kinda worried bcuz i don't really want to be alone? and tindr and that aren't really gonna work for me bcuz i'm asexual and won't have sex and i've been told that dudes won't date me if i don't sleep with them. any tips 4not being sad?

a small froggie for u, anon!

i know how you feel. as an asexual woman, i understand how it feels to be raised in a society that conditioned me to crave the male gaze, so to speak. that’s a fancy way of saying that society is hella misogynistic. i don’t know if you identify as female or not, but i definitely recognize that torn feeling where you don’t want to base your self esteem off of how many boys have liked or shown interest in you in the past and you know that their appreciation can be awful (harassment, catcalling, etc.), but it still hurts to feel unappreciated. it’s something i struggle with myself. my thoughts usually end up drifting to things like what if i’m ugly and then once i get there i feel a bit miserable for a while. one day i snapped and i was like “so what if i’m ugly! i try my best to be kind to people and that’s way more important!” and honestly, that’s really helped me cheer up on bad days. i don’t need to be appreciated by anyone in order to appreciate myself, and i don’t need to be attractive in order for the good things i do to matter. my worth is defined by me and me alone, and i prefer to define it with things like this advice blog, just like your worth is defined by you and you alone. you decide what it is about you that you like. work on the things you don’t like about yourself so you feel happy with them. if that means no boys like you, so be it! trust me when i say that any relationship in which you have changed something about yourself to meet their standards and not your own, you won’t be happy in anyways. it doesn’t feel good when people don’t like us for who we are. why would you want to be with someone who makes you feel that way in the first place? anyway, moving on. sex is not a requirement in a relationship. i know a lot of people would probably get really angry at me for saying that, but my advice to them would just be to date someone who likes sex and stay out of the business of people who don’t. and if they end up liking someone who is asexual or sex repulsed or celibate (or any mix of the three), then they can work out something that works for both them and the person they like, such as an open relationship. there are always alternatives. sometimes it doesn’t work out, but that doesn’t mean you should give up before you’ve even had a chance to try. you might even be pleasantly surprised. the last two relationships i was in, i made it very clear from the get-go that i was unwilling to have sex, and my partners didn’t even hesitate in accepting that. the right people will respect you and what you want in a relationship, guys included. keep your chin up, anon. the bad days will happen, but so will good ones, so make sure that you haven’t given up on them before they’ve arrived.

[justkimberley]

Thank you for tagging me :) @ambitioncunningpridemieczyslaw it's always fun to learn more about ppl.

Best gift you've ever gotten: my answer for this acutally just changed recently. context: my grandparents all died before i was born/when i was 2/3, so i don't have much to remember them by. my mom was visiting my aunt (her oldest sister) this summer and my aunt gave my mom my grandpa's mandolin to give to me. one of my uncles had said that maybe my cousin would like it (he's also very musical, about 4 yrs older than me), but my aunt thought that i should have it because i don't have much to remember my grandpa from. just a couple home videos really. anyway, my mom told me this story and gave me the mandolin and i just absolutely bawled my eyes out.

Nicest thing anyone's ever done for you: when i get very overwhelmed my oldest sister will listen to me and help me prioritize things until they don't seem so daunting. she will even take on tasks that i want to finish but don't necessarily have to do myself if she thinks it will help. it's something that i appreciate endlessly. i know that it's not her job, and sometimes i feel bad that i'm bothering her, but it’s always so helpful and reminds me how much she cares about me.

Favourite holiday memory: when i was 12 we went to hawaii and the guy at the surf shop told us about this breakfast restaurant that we needed to go to for banana pancakes with macadamia nut sauce so we did and that was the most delicious breakfast i've ever had.

Where you want to go once you can travel again: lmao technically we can travel now but i don't have a passport atm 🙃. When i finally get around to it, i really want to go to a convention or something to see my favourite creators. i've realized that i have the ability to do random shit now as an adult and i'm ready to finally try doing the things i was always too embarrassed about/didn't want to ask my parents for.

Animal you identify with: cats! i love cuddling until i don't, i like things to be done on my terms, i like to take naps, and i have a habit of nuzzling my face into people that i love.

Your OTP: i'm so bad at otp's im much more of a multishipper. I'd probably agree with you that tyrus is good, i really can't see them with anyone else. Probably nick and charlie from heartstopper too.

Tumblr Pals you want to meet irl: niko!

Soulmates real or fake: real. Statistically speaking it just makes sense that there are people you are destined to get along with. I don't necessarily think there is 1 person romantically for everyone, but i think that there are people in the world that you will click with no matter what.

Favourite holdiay food: ginger snaps 😋 (least favourite is fruitcake)

What you wish you were doing right now: i wish i was cuddling someone tbh

Your safe space/ where or who you feel at home with: my friends. Especially my irl best friends, they will listen to me talk about my random hyperfixations and not get annoyed with me :)

Favourite hobbies: art, music, writing, reading... idk i have a lot of them.

Cooking or baking: both!! i just like to make/eat good food and i happen to be fantastic at it. 💁🏼

Reading or writing: (considering how little i write nowadays 🙈) probably reading. I miss writing though, i need to pick it up again.

Gifsets or moodboards: gif sets.

Coffee or tea: both? Depends on the mood really.

City or suburbs: suburbs. Cities get too overwhelming sometimes.

Someone who can always make you laugh: me... lol it's true but I'm actually going to go with kurtis conner.

Someone who always brightens your day: Sapnap

Favourite day of the week: friday

Favourite animals: cat, hedgehog, dog

Favourite movie, tv show, and a song: i'm bad at favourites so im going to go with comfort movie/tv/song. Any of the high school musical movies will always cheer me up, avatar the last airbender is a fantastic show, and september by earth, wind, fire NEVER fails to put a smile on my face.

Dream vacation spot: anywhere with my friends. I really want to go to greece some day.

Writers/artists/creators you want to see more of: all of them!

Tag: anyone who sees this!

25 fun and cute questions to brighten the spirits and get us through the holidays!

I was tagged by @halevetica who is literally such an angel and one of the best fanfic writers of all time!!!!!!!

Check them out on Ao3 cuz again they are one of the best and has never written a bad fic 💕

Hiya all! I’ve created this list as a reminder of happy memories and great times with our loved ones since I think we’re all feeling a tad blue this holiday season. Tagging my favourite blogs but all are welcome to answer :)

Best gift you’ve ever gotten: I would have to say the best gift I ever got came from my old high school ap lit teacher/theater director I was in the plays every year from 7th-12th grade and she got me a necklace with the drama faces on it along with a jewelry box that played at the beginning from Anastasia, which was the first song I ever sang with her on stage, when I graduated so yeah she gets the win everytime cuz she had me bawling like a baby at the final cast party we did

Nicest thing anyone’s ever done for you: I have 4 different friends who on 4 different occasions just bought me gifts not because of anything special or because they felt sorry over us fighting or something just they saw something and genuinely thought I would like it. I honestly just love receiving gifts that someone gets you out of the blue just because they simply think of you after seeing something and get it for you like it definitely means a lot to me that I'm the first person they thought of when getting those things

Your favourite holiday memory: Um... I honestly don't know if I have one, but something that I look back and think fondly of is when the one year my mom and I caroled with our church choir like I remember all the baking we did the day before in the church kitchen and it was a lot of us singing to Christmas songs that probably shouldn't be played in church lol and the caroling itself went well we gave out plates of cookies and caroled for any person who was on our prayer list at the time and seeing some of those people's faces like them seeing that people did care and that they weren't alone meant everything to me

Where you want to go first once we can travel again: New Zealand it's always looked so beautiful plus I mean that's where Lucy Lawless is from so it has to be amazing

Your spirit animal: I'm going to say a wolf just because I've always had this obsession with them since I was a kid

Your OTP: See I wanna say Sterek just because they're my favorite ship but I also like them in different pairings... I'm going to do a throwback shout out to Tyrus from Andi Mack cuz I can't handle seeing Tj and Cyrus with anyone but each other.

Tumblr pals you want to meet in real life: Literally anyone and everyone so I have more people to cuddle and binge shows with lol

Soulmates: real or fake: Imma say real like I do believe they're are souls who are cosmically linked together whether it be romantically or platonically I do think we all have that one person who we want to spend forever with

Favourite holiday food: those sugar cookies with the Reese Cups or Hershey Kisses in the center those are the shit tbh

What you wish you were doing right now: it's only 9:30 am so it's my chill in bed and contemplate life time lol but ig if there was something I wish I was doing rn it would be finishing the Sterek fic I'm reading rn

Your safe space/where or who you feel most at home with: My safe space would be while I was in school it was either the library or auditorium but now that I have an apartment that I share with my sister like I finally feel like I have a home to go to and genuinely want to be at so yeah my place is definitely my space but as for people I would say my sister and our two best friends

Favourite hobbies: Reading brings me joy lol which here are pictures I finally finished putting together my other book shelf the other day so if ya'll want to see here are some pictures. Definitely want more books though lol

Cooking or baking: Oh cooking for sure cuz I can't bake for shit 😅

Reading or writing: Reading

Gifsets or mood boards:

Coffee or tea: Coffee!!!!

City or suburbs: To visit city to stay suburbs

Someone who can always make you laugh: I would say my sister and our two friends we're always making each other laugh

Someone who always brightens your day: @crazyassmurdererwall just because anytime I'm having a bad day the fic I go to for comfort is Stuck In Reverse because it is literal perfection

Favourite day of the week: Whatever my day or days off are that week like how today is a glorious Tuesday cuz it's my only day off this week

Favourite animal: Wolves

Dream vacation spot: I mean I've been to the beach nearly every summer since I was a kid so I feel like renting out a nice cabin in the mountains somewhere would be dope af

Writer, artist, or creator(s) you want to see more of: @crazyassmurdererwall & @isthatbloodonhisshirt & @halevetica always 💕

Favourite movie, television show, and song: A Star Is Born (2018), Sex and the City, & You Don't Own Me by Lesley Gore

I tag @justkimberley @acercrea @charming-fan-girl @cinematicnomad only if ya'll want to of course & if I mentioned you and you see this and want to do this go for it!!!! Please tag me if you do and that goes for anyone who sees this I give you full permission to tag me so I can see all of your responses. Love you all!!! 💕💕💕

[skittymon]

Top five Fruitshipping moments. Cause I want to see a good show don't tell relationship and we have plenty of moments to fill a large variety of these lists.

Oh god just 5??? Okay I got this be still my heart

5. Episode 2, Yuzu and Yuya’s action duel

Okay I know this is pretty early in the series and it can be seen as platonic, but you get so much character from this scene and grounds of a solid friendship between them. Like:

Yuzu’s getting shit because she was rude to Yuya like some of the fandom does to her lol but instead she just goes with it.

Like at this point of the story we now know both Yuya and Yuzu are entertainers, and now we get to see them doing what they love together and how they work off each other.

Not to mention this scene is funny as hell. Like wow it’s just showing us two cuties performing together (granted it’s not perfect because Yuya’s in funk atm) and I already fell for their dynamic at this point and its only ep 2. 

ALSO they fucking used Plain Plain (where this duel took place) in episode 141 to rip my god damn heart out and to show this duel had meaning and we should realize that we’re missing Yuzu.

4. Yuya is PISSED/cry baby (eps 50 + 51)

At this point in the show we’ve gotten a good basis on their relationship. Yuya and Yuzu are childhood friends with the same goal and they inspire each other to become stronger. Pretty standard and honestly nothing new.

And then they get separated.

Like I did NOT expected them to act the way they did when this happened (at least Yuya because when has a main protag ever cared that much for the female protag minus Anzu from season 0)

I am 98% sure that this is the first time Yuya has cried openly to people without his goggles AND ITS CAUSE OF YUZU. This boy has hidden his emotions about his dad, his bullying, and pendulum summoning but Yuzu’s apparent capture is what got Yuya to finally show his sadness and not cover them with jokes and his goggles.

Yuya as we know, when he’s not berserker, is a pacifist but he’s going out of character because he’s so mentally distraught and sad. Like the only person I would get like that for is my twin so to me this speaks volumes since Yuya values Yuzu’s well being over his own values.  

And then in Yugioh it’s a known thing that the female protags most times stay on the side line and cheer on the main protag AND THEYRE ACTUALLY ACKNOWLEDGING IT AND IT’S SUPER IMPORTANT TO YUYA. Like apparently Yuma’s says something similar to Kotori near the end of Zexal but I’m not there yet but like this is ep 50 compared to 140-something.

Looking back this is super important. Like when Zarc got revived he stated he was surprised/thrilled that there was more to Pendulum Summoning than he first thought (combining all the three methods w/ it) and the reason Yuya was able to do it was because of Yuzu. He was able to go beyond Zarc’s expectations and plans BECAUSE OF YUZU.

God when has a main protag screamed out a female protags name like that before in yugioh??? 

Yuzu is also a cry baby three episodes down the line.

3. Yuzu saves Yuya from Zarc

It speaks volumes when nearly all your friends (including your bff THE MAN Gonzengaka) can’t save from Satan, but the moment you say one sentence to you, you regain some control.

Like god, I love their relationship. Zarc and Ray are literally trying to destroy the other but these two can break through their previous lives soul’s to communicate with one another cause of how god damn much they mean to each other.

Listen if you go across DIMENSIONS to get save someone in Yugioh YOU KNOW your ship is real (Spiritshipping and Keyshipping being the other prime examples). But like in my fruitshipping video (which ya’ll should watch) this moment is when I used the lyrics ‘no distance can ever keep us apart’ because WOW dimensions AND demonic/angelic possessions isn’t enough sever the bond between these two.

Also my otp tag.

2. Yuya summons Odd-Eyes Raging Dragon

Lowkey this moment is up so high because Yuya’s just fucking amazing in this scene. Like Zarc’s influence is getting stronger but like LIST OF THINGS THAT HAVE CAUSED YUYA SO GO BERSERKER 

-Ep 39 with Zarc’s trigger words and Yuya didn’t even remember it

-Yuto’s memories of being attacked the Academia 

-Being electrocuted in the god damn brain

-Being in the same area as all four boys that causes a hole to open in the sky

-Creepy old guys touching Yuzu

Like one of these things is not like the other lol

Seriously though, the others are near close to psychological torture and PTSD but someone touching Yuzu inappropriately invokes the same amount of rage from Yuya. THATS A HUGE ASS COMPARISON. Also the scene was gorgeous god damn.

1. Yuzu inspires Yuya during Friendship Cup

Okay this moment…THIS is when Fruitshipping went from a casual ship to god damn otp for me.

So for the past couple eps, Yuya has been feeling like shit (ground facility, losing Jack, missing Yuzu), of course Yuzu doesn’t know some of bad shit that’s going on, but goddamit the citrus is going to show the tomato that she’s okay.

Like dueling for other people is nothing new to yugioh but holy SHIT

Of course Yuzu doesn’t know the cost of losing, but all she wants to do is make Yuya feel at ease (which the poor boy hasn’t felt in so long fuck)

Yuzu hasn’t spoken to Yuya this entire arc but she knows how he’s feeling right now. She knows Yuya. This just furthers the belief that they’ve known each other for so god damn long and are ‘irreplaceable’ to one another.

Look at how goddamn surprised he is. Like instead of worrying about herself, she’s worried about him?? Granted this might have to do with Yuya’s self worth issues And as the duel goes on, it’s not just her feelings she trying to convey to Yuya (hot-blooded and shivers). Instead of ‘oh look it’s your love-interest’s feelings’ she shows that everyone from back in Standard are also with Yuya.

ALSO THEY PLAYED YUYA’S THEME DURING THIS GOD. EVEN THE OST’S ARE SHOWING US THEIR RELATIONSHIP.

LOOK AT HOW GOD DAMN HAPPY HE IS. LIKE WHEN HAS THIS BOY EVER CRIED FROM JOY SO FAR IN THIS SHOW. THIS IS DEVELOPMENT THAT HE SHOULDN’T HIDE HIS EMOTIONS AND SHOULD EMBRACE THEM AHH.

Just…fuck me.