#tldr im fine but loss is hard

[pwhl-mybeloved]

tw: grief, overdose behind the cut

two years ago around this time, if not this exact day, a dear friend of mine overdosed and i miss him so much today

adhd and grief are very strange, because you operate on an out of sight out of mind wavelength and when people aren’t around you don’t always miss them until you are reminded somewhat brutally that they’re not just across the city and it’s been a while but you can catch up when you see them next

and sometimes i feel difficult to comfort, and i miss the way he was a comfort to me, even if he rarely knew the perfect thing to say

and im away from home right now, with people i would loathe to be real around, who judge and dismiss addicts, and would not be gentle with me if i was displaying how im feeling

[blueskittlesart]

Hi! As someone who now kinda wants to check out Trigun because of the hype, do you recommend that I can start with Stampede? Or do I really need to watch the OG anime first to better understand/enjoy it? Thank you! 🙋🏻‍♀️

you can start with stampede! i'd say knowing the context of the original enhances the experience but isn't necessary to enjoy the show. I would consider stampede more viewer-friendly, especially for those of us who are used to modern storytelling conventions (the original suffers the consequences of general writing trends in anime at the time it was produced and of the fact that it was produced long before the manga was finished, so the story is somewhat disjointed and has a lot of filler which makes it REALLY hard to get into.) if you do end up liking stampede, however, I'd suggest trying out watching at least SOME of the original because it adds a lot of cool nuance and context to the story that stampede tells!

[wowitscoldoutpt2]

Ok one last watcher post before I move on with my life. This is a big ol rant ok I talk about a lot.

Tldr I'm conflicted and sad but I believe they can come back from this

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Steven Lim, what a guy yk? I like dish granted. I appreciate Steven Lim for running the company, like. In, I think, a Making Watcher it's said that Ryan and Shane get to dick around on camera because Steven runs the business end of things so im not mad at Steven any more rhan im mad at the others.

I'm mad at y'all. Cause I've seen some vile things said about Steven, like how u wish Ryan and Shane would dump him or how he's ruining everything and how he's completely unwanted and nobody likes him. Which is wrong, u shouldn't bully this guy because he made a bad business decision, try and be mature. Ik some of y'all are like 15 and you're feeling betrayed and abandoned, which is what u should be feeling btw, but that's not an excuse for this behavior.

People are mad at Steven because the shows he's a part of are financially fucking insane. It's an icky thing to watch someone eat fine things and travel no biggie while the rest of us struggle. That's what we're mad at Steven for. Well that's what I'm mad at Steven for. Because the shows he does are elitist and.....just. it feels bad.

This whole thing feels bad and I don't know what to do.

I'm very conflicted. I keep changing my views and not knowing how to feel and not knowing what to think or what to do and the stability that Watcher provides me is gone. So I gotta uh. Find something else. I have a really hard time coping with change and this is a really big change. These guys have been around since before i was diagnosed, and then I watched them through that, and I'm watching them now and I don't know what to do.

This whole thing is scary because everyone's up in arms about it, either trying to remind others that the watcher crew are still people and not monsters or lamenting the loss and potential fiery downfall of one of the greatest things of the internet. So it's real chaotic ykwim? This is just added chaos to our lives and having something that was such a crutch for us all to lean on be taken away so suddenly is frightening.

This is like the ugliest sides of the fandom all coming together at once which is bad for people in the middle lol

Anyway uh I think I'm done. I hope the watcher guys are ok but I also hope they realize that this was not the right move and do something about it. They aren't bad people in my book, I mean. Maybe they are but I can't lose them yet. I'm like 0 for 4 on YouTubers rn so uh. I can't let these guys go, I'm attached to these internet men and I like them a lot even though they're being stupid rn.

This is redeemable. They can come back from this.

[oatsynalliums]

Mistakes do happen.

//tldr: reader looses a hand, aiden was barely there to catch them

It happened very quickly.

TOO quickly, i might say.

I was opening a crate at first because it had caught my attention, much to my companion, Aidens, dismay.

The next thing I knew, something had jumped out - it took me a few moments to process what had happened but when I did all i felt was pain. Excruciating pain.

All i could do was stare at my hand, or i suppose i should say, lack of hand; whatever had jumped out made a point of removing it completely.

I must have started hyperventilating- struggling to breathe, because I remember Aiden trying to ask me something although I couldn't hear him over the sound of my thoughts and rapidly rising heart beat; I remember him sounding concerned though.

The next thing I remember is me trying to take a few steps back, and losing my balance and falling - I expected to hit the hard floor but I was surprised to land on something soft. Aiden must have hurried over at this point due to my lack of responses because I had fallen onto his lap. He was kneeling.

There are holes in my memory so i don't remember too much but i DO remember getting picked up, i believe they call it a bridal carry? I'm unsure, but I do know that my head was on his chest because I am very certain I heard his heartbeat - it was calming, I barely remember falling asleep. Most likely due to blood loss.

I woke up a little while after this, maybe a few hours. I could barely hear or see anything for the first few minutes, but when I did finally come too I took the time to look around.

I was in the security office, on the couch covered by Aidens vest; he must've not been able to find anything else. I did take note of my arm, which was patched quite well; with a lot of care - I bet it was aiden.

The next thing I noticed was the smell of the room. I know this smell - it was vanilla. I remember Aiden asking about what smell I liked the most, I never expected him to remember it, though.

I must've been making a little too much noise because I heard movement. I looked over to where I heard it to watch aiden sit up, I took a few seconds to examine him and sure enough it was my aiden - the one with the cracked lens. He looked horrible as a light way to put it, i could see how exhausted he was by the way he sat up and looked around drowsily.

It took him a moment to wake up fully, but when he did he got up almost immediately and rushed over to my side, he must've seen I was up.

He said a lot of things at once, talking over himself as he looked me over to make sure I was relatively unharmed while he was sleeping, calming down enough to sit on the edge of the couch next to me - visibly worried though.

I sighed, reaching my one good hand over to cup the bottom of his head, moving it to face me - making eye contact with his lens, speaking in a low voice akin to one you'd use for a scared animal;

‘’ aiden, aiden.. See, im fine, neither of us would've known it was there - you patched me up really well, i'm still here and well, aren't i?’’

That didn't seem to sway him though, it only made him more upset, causing him to lift out of my hand as to not hurt me before looking away; grabbing onto his sleeve and messing with it. I have noticed that he does that when he gets nervous, it's very cute.

I would sit there to think a bit, moving onto my knees to lean over him - which startled the other a considerable amount.

‘’Aiden, you know it isn't your fault, i should've listened to you when you told me not to wander off’’ i spoke, with certainty - receiving a response that was low, barely above a whisper

‘’I should have been over there with you, though - to make sure that didn't happen, like I promised..’’ he stopped a bit suddenly, i could tell his voice was wavering - he was about to cry.

I took a minute to examine him before I exhaled, shuffling a bit and getting off the couch; of course this got aiden attention, mostly him trying to get me to sit back down because I was still incredibly dizzy from the bloodloss.

I was stubborn though, he always did call me that.

I handed him back his vest, to which he slipped back over his shoulders, before having him sit further back onto the couch so i wasn't worried he was about to fall off; i then sat back with him, i had his full attention now.

‘’Aiden, big guy, im fine, neither of us could have been prepared for it, like, at all - and you WERE there, you caught me, i remember that’’ i spoke, taking a pause ‘’ you did what you could, whatever took my hand ran off afterwards as to not have anymore conflict, it probably didn't mean too’’ the last sentence got a skeptical look out of him, which made me chuckle a little bit - causing him to turn away, probably embarrassed.

‘’What i'm saying is -’’ i started to speak again ‘’ don't beat yourself up over it, thats other entities jobs, you'll put them out of work’’ i snickered a bit, gently punching his shoulder

‘’ [y/n], please don't say such things,’’ he responded, looking over to me - visibly embarrassed.

‘’And why shouldn't i? I'm right.’’

‘’ goodness, you really are headstrong, aren't you?’’

‘’ maybe, but you like that about me, don't you?’’ I retorted, teasing. - of which it got a snort out of the latter.

We sat in comfortable silence for a moment before he leaned over and pulled me into a hug, firm yet gentle; like I would break any further if he was too harsh - the hug didn't last long before he pulled away, reaching somewhere and pulling an almond water over. He opened it before handing it to me, knowing I would have had a problem with the task, he was very sweet.

I took a much needed drink of it, sure - it was a bit weird to be watched while you drank but i became used to it, it was just aiden after all. My aiden.

‘’Sweetheart, are you feeling any better?’’ he asked, the sentence take a moment to register

‘’Sweetheart?’’

‘’Im sorry, it just sli-’’

‘’SWEETHEART?’’

[imbellarosa]

So you think Harry’s and Louis’ album are connected?

I think there is every chance of that! You don’t accidentally reference someone else’s songs (someone you know really well, at that!) multiple times throughout your album (even songs that didn’t end up on the album, at that). Every other piece of analysis under the cut, but this is my tldr haha.

I think that the fact that their albums are both 12 track albums with a sort of “breaking point” or “climax” in the sixth track which says- on both sides- that they feel more vulnerable, that they feel sad, they feel more mature, and that they feel more ready to talk about it is....not a coincidence. Or maybe that one is, but if you add that to all of the other lyrical convos these albums are having. I covered a lot of these lyrical parallels in another ask, so I won’t go through them all again, I’m just going to add some new ones (because ofc there’s more).

An older one, but one worth’s mentioning: Golden (track 1 on Fine Line) says “You're so golden/You're so golden/I'm out of my head/And I know that you're scared/Because hearts get broken” and “Just Like You” (released 2017, right after “Always You” was teased) says “Every heart breaks the same/Every tear leaves a stain/Can I just be the same?”. Like - that’s a conversation that people have ALL THE TIME. One person wants to be normal and doesn’t want to hurt and the other person says “I know you’re afraid but you’re so special”.

And I’m going to use golden one last time, because I think it like. Sets the scene for Fine Line. His super secret verse says something like “...I’m hoping that one day you (he?) could be (will be?) open/And I know that you’re scared because I’m so open” and Fearless says “Tell me the truth, tell me, do you still remember feelin' young/And strong enough to get it wrong in front of all these people?”. And L has said he wrote that song about himself, so it’s still two songs asking one person if they can be strong enough to open up.

Then there’s “Adore You”, which says that he’ll “walk through fire for you/Just let me adore you” and Only the Brave says that “[his love is] a church of burnt romances/And I’m too far gone to pray/it’s a solo song/and it’s only for the brave”. I can’t make this up. Like actually. I couldn’t make this stuff up.

And those are just the parallels. After you listen to those, you turn to the narrative of the album. Fine line is split into four sides: “A” “B” “C” and “D”, with Side A being about falling in love for the first time and thinking that could be enough, those butterflies and the fun times and all the love, but it ends with Lights Up that says “all the lights couldn’t put out the dark/running through my heart/lights up and they know who you are/do you know who you are?”. So as it turns out, if you’re not on the same page, love isn’t enough. There has to be communication, and a similar expectation of honesty (to bring it back to golden Im so sorry I love that song).

Side B is the sad side. It’s loss and grief and misery. It’s losing someone you love and then losing someone for real, and then realizing that you’re not as badass as you thought you were and you want to go home, but you also made a mistake (which, To Be So Lonely does a great job of setting “home” up as a person rather than a place, so when he references it again in Canyon Moon, you can think of home as the person he’s talking about). Anyways back to side B. Now, instead of blaming the other person, he can admit that he also made a mistake (or several), and own up to it. Side B ends with “She” which, imo is one of the trippiest songs on the album, and also one of the most complex. I think there are multiple characters involved, and the speaker isn’t like. The main character. But I think, in the end, it’s characteristic of loneliness and grief and loss and a realization. And that realization ends this side.

So Side C starts with all of the work on himself mostly done (I do love that “work” in both of these albums is never over. You work through the bad times, and then you keep working so you don’t get caught in it again.) Side C is the “I’m coming back to us” side. He gets back in touch with the person he loves in Sunflower Vol. 6, ( at the beginning he’s like “I’ve been trying hard not to talk to you”, but by the end, “ Your flowers just died/Plant new seeds in the melody/Let me inside, I wanna get to know you”, they’re getting to know each other again, as the new people they are, after they had to walk away for a bit). This is followed up up by Canyon Moon, in which he’s going home, so they fixed it, apparently. That idea of rekindling is confirmed in “Treat People With Kindness” when he says “ Givin' second chances/I don't need all the answers/Feelin' good in my skin/I just keep on dancin'”. This is SUPER cool, because by this point in the album, he’s matured enough to know that he’s okay with not knowing why about everything. He’s no longer asking his partner to be more open, because he feels good about himself and that’s all he needs, and so if he’s okay, then they’re okay. 

Side D is just Fine Line, the six minute reflection song which ends with “we’ll be alright”. And by that time, I believe it. 

On to Walls! Walls is split into two six track sides, “A” and “B”. This album, in my mind, is less of a cohesive narrative, and more like snapshots of moments, feelings, and conversations, which give you a picture of what he’s been through. I think it’s also a bit more difficult to stack this up because I don’t really know when songs were written. I think “Walls” and “Only the Brave” might have been the last two written, along with “We Made It”? Maybe? But I’m going to try anyways. 

Side A is a younger feel. It touches on how he needs the person he’s singing about ( “I don’t know what I’d do without you now!”). It talks about how they made it, and there won’t be any more hard times, it talks about outside events, and sets that scene. The other person lost someone (outside of the relationship), as is outlined in “Don’t Let it Break Your Heart” and he lost his mom ( “Two of Us”, which makes me cry every time). And around track 5 ( “Too Young”), he’s ready to sit down and have a conversation, and the other person agreed to it, after two years apart. And I think the rest of the album really outlines all of the things he needed the other person to understand.

He admits that he’d had his walls up, and that he realizes what that’s cost him. He tells the other person that he appreciates being given time and space to put himself back together, but he’s ready to go back to them because the other person makes him better, he explains that he did his very best to move on, but he couldn’t, because he carried them everywhere he went, and he says that he’s going to try and be more open ( “Now if happiness is always measured/ By the life you design, that car on the drive /Then you should feel better than ever/But you know as well as I, it's all lies/..../ Just for tonight, look inside and spark that memory of you/Strong enough to get it wrong in front of all these people”). 

And then it sort of seems like they’re back together by Perfect Now, but his partner is...a bit insecure about where they stand, and he’s trying to say that he’s in it, that the partner (he didn’t use genders in is songs, so I’m not going to either, sorry if this ends up confusing haha) is beautiful the way they are, that they should embrace it, and if his partner wanted him to, he’d tell the truth (and what a line that is: “You never do/ but if you asked me to/ I’d tell the truth/ lying next to you/ ‘cause you’re the only one/ when it’s said and done”). It always comes back to the idea of openness and telling the truth. 

The last two songs are “Defenseless” and “Only the Brave” which are my favorite two on the album. I think “Defenseless” gives a good snapshot of where the relationship is - they’re together, but it’s hard sometimes, and they still have the same problems sometimes (because things don’t magically go away), but he loves the other person, and the other person loves him, and so he’s going to be vulnerable. And Only the Brave, which talks about how scary it can be, for some people, to be brave, but it’s worth it, for him, because he found the right person ( ( “come on, when you know/ you know”). I think this song has a lot of symbolism and imagery that makes it a very pointed and poignant song, but it also finishes the album in the same way Fine Line does. They’re okay. They’ll be okay. (They being both the artist and the relationship they’re singing about)   I think that the narratives are remarkably similar in events an themes even if they’re told in different styles: Fine Line is more of a complete story, beginning to end, and Walls is more of a conversation. He’s talking to someone directly, rather than about someone. But ultimately, like. These two grew up together. It’s not like I picked out two random albums from people who don’t know each other and was like “these two! same thing!” and if it was, that would be plagiarism. They know each other, and they probably write together sometimes. I know that they have different managements, but they’ve worked with similar writers/directors/producers, right? They run in the same circles? So when two people who have known each other well for a while write albums that end up being lyrically and thematically similar, and they both cover the same story and the same ground, the most obvious conclusion is that they’re connected. 

[swore]

i can't relate to what you're going through but i hope you're okay!

thank you 😔 its hard to describe but tldr in some ways i feel like im the shell of a person i used to be due to the loss of some of my delusions and with their loss, the parts of my personality that have been centered around them have also been lost if that makes sense. which is kind of a huge blow to my general sense of self and identity because they were really important to me. but anyways, i will be fine but i will still always feel not 100% myself you know? but ty for your concern

[davepetas-quadrantadvice]

This is kind of a stupid scenario to be in but, here we are haha, I've been in a very happy matespritship for more than a year now and I for one know how easily I get hate crushes so I've asked him before if he approved would kismesis be okay by him (hes has people cheat on him before and I don't want him to think id do that of course) and it's been mostly quiet in blackrom zone, but I have a huge hatecrush on someone who doesn't even know what kismesis is, and I have no idea what to do 1/2

2/2 the way he talks to me when we interact is like, the exact level of hostile banter that just makes me do the big angry dokis, and my boyfriend even said he approved of the dude, but I don't know how to explain I or if I pursue it, so i guess how do I just like. Deal? Cause im at a loss             

That’s quite a purrdicament furend!

First of all I’m supurr proud of you fur talking about this to your matesprit befurhand! That sounds like a healthy relationship and I’m so happy fur you fur having it!

With folks who don’t know about it, I’d say introducing them to Homestuck is purrobably out of the question unfurtunately considering its large and daunting nature. But the concept of a relationship based on mild animosity isn’t entirely inhuman, especially if you see some of the old songs like this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HOnSO7vJCTg

And the concept of polyamory isn’t too foreign either, nor is, well, furends with benefits to a degr33.

Whether or not it’s something you want to purrsue is up to you, but I will advise to k33p in mind that sometimes vacillation is prone to happen regardless of how smoothly a kismesstitude seems to be going-- and you may want to consider how efurryone might handle that situation should it efur arise, which is a relationship and expectations of an entirely diffurent caliber. (And vacillation can happen one-sidedly fur either of you two; that’s a huge part of why it n33ds to be considered. If it’s pawsible to have efurryone in the same room/chat when you discuss this if you take this route, do it! Efurryone being on the same page and witnessing the way you interact with one another is supurr impurrtant.)

If you’re unsure how your hatecrush might react to any advances beyond what you’ve already both made, you could pawsibly simply bring in the fact that your boyfurend is okay with you having a “partner” to a degr33 (how far you both will go I’m assuming is betw33n you and your boyfurend, of course.) And add in a wink or something if you want. His respawnse to a mention of that, even an indrect mention/not outright aimed at him, should give you a purretty good idea of how he might f33l about such a thing. And then you can decide from there!

But you’re also allowed to not purrsue this. If you f33l hesitance, or sense your boyfurend might not be as okay as he’s trying to be about it, or if you just don’t think you’re ready fur a kismesstitutde even if your hatecrush s33ms purrfect-- that’s okay. You don’t always have to act on f33lings you have. It’s best to trust your gut, but if your gut says go fur it then go fur it! And if your gut says to wait, you should wait.

Kismesstitudes are unconventional and can be hard to navigate, but treating it like polyamory or an “open relationship with prior-discussed limits” is purrobably the easiest way to explain it if nothing else, and definitely the type of communication you should be using! I’m supurr happy that you have a boyfurend who’s understanding of your pitch n33ds. K33p up the good work communication-wise! And remempurr-- no matter what course of action you take, communication is what’s impurrtant. You’re already off to to a great start, though. I’m pawsitive whatefur choice you make will be the best choice fur you. Good luck!!!

TLDR;

Approach explaining it through the concept of open relationships or polyamory (something more human, at least, than Homestuck)-- and check my kismesis question tag if you’ve got the time claws I think I wrote something else about it a long while back that might be useful to you! But most impurrtantly, trust your gut and remempurr that you don’t have to act upawn f33lings. But if you want to and trust it to go well, you’ve already discussed this with your matesprit so in that regard you’re A-OK!

Good luck to you!!! I get the f33ling you’re gonna be just fine, furend, even if you don’t wind up with a kismesis.

[waveridden]

favourite podcast episodes? or if that's too broad, pick a podcast of your choice and list your favourite episodes.

oh i can absolutely do top 5 podcast episodes

“a fine figure,” the far meridian 1x08. in which peri meets a man in the desert who is grieving things neither of them fully understand. makes me cry every time. i would actually super super super recommend it even as a standalone it is. so good. it is a wonderful intro to scripted audio fiction it’s so short and still so profoundly good

“plasticity,” ars paradoxica #16. i don’t know how to provide proper context for this episode. it’s about time travel, and children not being allowed to be children, and lullabies and loss and it’s just. fucking tremendous. (it’s also written by the same woman who writes the far meridian so like, listen, i just know what i’m about and that’s valid)

“tucked in,” the magnus archives #86. i know horror isn’t for everyone, and this show is hard to recommend episodes out of context bc once the metaplot is going it’s really Going. but this statement is like... so visceral. because who was never afraid of the dark as a kid? who never hid under their blankets when they were scared or upset? this episode taps into something very very primal and i love that.

campaign #80-81. these episodes are like... major comfort episodes for me? i don’t know how or why but they’re the perfect culmination of the very very long arc on phindar, and they make me laugh and cry every single time

“new brighton - nakhane ft. anohni,” song exploder. this is the one nonfiction/interview podcast that i truly 100% genuinely believe everyone should listen to, and this episode is such a phenomenal example. this show is interviews where artists talk about the process that went into one specific song of their choice, and in this episode nakhane talks about the exploration of what it means to be both christian and black in south africa, why he made a pop song, and why it was important to have a trans woman guest on the vocals. and boy, if you can hear the isolated vocals of anohni singing “never live in fear again, never again” and not cry then you are a stronger person than me, because i’m literally physically crying just from thinking about it

also i know this is just a top 5 list but i have so many favorites so like in no particular order here are some things that i really enjoy

the entirety of greater boston. i can’t recommend a single episode but i avidly completely recommend the whole show

the first two episodes of zero hours are absolutely killer

episode 3 of startripper came to me at a time when i desperately needed something simple and joyful and i still hold it fondly in my heart

the stellar firma blooper reel is the funniest thing i’ve ever heard

the third season of within the wires is so so brilliant. it probably doesn’t land the same if you haven’t heard the whole show but it’s so good

who shot ya is a good show and if you like movies you should listen to it

i have mixed feelings about the second and third seasons of the adventure zone, but taz balance is still an all-time great

the s1 finale of marsfall includes some of the best acting i’ve ever heard

the strange case of starship iris does some fantastic things with the framing device

friends at the table is long as fuck but it’s amazing. every season has been incredible and i’m so excited to start twilight mirage

at this point i’ve recommended basically half of the podcasts i’m subscribed to so tldr is if any of this piques your interest (not just kat, but literally anyone reading this) you can always im me and i’ll go off about a podcast

[unionize-catgirls]

@regrettably-the-main-blog

yeah okay i was trying to keep this post short but thanks for giving me an excuse to into more detail lol. (ill un@ you if you want ofc)

1) unless hori really wants to fudge things he does need to see his target with both eyes. they would have said so otherwise. getting one eye damaged at usj affected his whole quirk, and in the panel of him cutting his foot off you can see him only closing one eye. the rules of your quirk dont change just because you lose a body part, see: shigaraki and overhaul. and if aizawa can somehow use erasure with one eye, it would... still feel weird and unnecessary? he already has the aesthetic eye scar? what would taking an eye accomplish besides further muddling an already confusing quirk? he already lost a foot are we just taking body parts for fun now?

2) aizawa is one of the very few who could still continue to be a hero without a quirk and im so glad someone else sees that! big agree. being quirkless wouldnt stop him.

but this was never about him still being a hero.

aizawa was clear-headed and rational when he made this decision. he knew he was out of the fight either way the second he got hit. so why not just take the bullet? why go to the lengths of cutting off a limb, nearly dying of blood loss, and undertaking a long painful recovery? if eri fixed mirio only yesterday and is fine, why not have her heal him too?

the only conclusion i can make is that she cant. eri probably still cant control her quirk. my guess is that she cant shut it off by herself. she still relies on aizawa for that. i wouldnt be surprised if he was also considering the future and how vital his quirk would again be in a rematch against shigaraki. but the fact is that in the moment, aizawa was only thinking of eri, not of being a hero. in his mind eri doesnt need him, she needs his quirk, so thats what he prioritized. 

he sacrificed a limb and very nearly his life all so he could take care of her and make her feel safe.

so! the issue is that if he loses erasure that makes all of that completely pointless. it means that actually selfless sacrifice means nothing. itd be like if deku fought muscular but didnt save kota, or if mirio lost his quirk shielding eri only for her to get shot anyway five seconds later. futile sacrifices are for shakespearean tragedies, not fucking shounen. itd be stupid and cruel and jarring. 

3) even if you dont agree with me on some of those points, its still a fact that losing a quirk negates the sacrifice of his foot. and compared to erasure, his foot isnt even such a big deal thanks to how good prosthetics are. so if he really did lose an eye then that should have been the climax of aizawas story this arc, right? something so important warrants a clear and dramatic moment, but his eye didnt get that.

shigarakis little swipe was blink-and-you-miss-it. nobody mentioned his eye, not even the doctor. we dont even know if he lost an eye or not and that isnt exactly hard for other characters to figure out. you just dont treat a revelation so narratively and plot important as an afterthought so minor that you forget to even mention it happened. especially next to how dramatic the amputation was.

im not saying that losing his quirk wouldnt be interesting, im saying that if that was horis plan then he wouldnt have done the whole thing with the bullet in the first place. its just a distraction. so from a story/plot/thematic/pacing standpoint it just makes no sense to have taken his quirk like that. its not like he doesnt have enough drama in his storyline already

TLDR; itd be dumb if aizawa lost his quirk because a) it would make cutting off his foot completely pointless, and b) if he did lose it then the climax of his story this arc would have been on that, not his self amputation. 

so i just still dont see him losing an eye. i know aizawa is the series punching bag but come on. like its technically possible ig but narratively so completely nonsensical that i cant believe even a bad writer would ever do it. if hori does take his quirk then im just gonna lose all remaining faith in him as a writer tbh

the problem isnt with the idea of aizawa losing an eye in itself. its that theres no fucking way he can use his quirk with one eye.

and you do NOT have a character very dramatically cut off a limb to save his quirk only to completely invalidate that sacrifice seconds later in an unclear lucky swipe by the villain.

the narrative cant just decide that it was a stupid pointless sacrifice that means nothing actually!! this isnt a damn shakespearean tragedy.

i really dont think hori will do that. but ill say now that when the bandages come off, aizawa better have a cool new scar and a functioning quirk or else what the fuck is hori even doing

[noidsome]

Digimon tri: Loss rant aka butthurt

So there are things that bothers me a lot about these Digimon tri movies and this movie, well lets just say its teh drop that tipped the glass. I dont really like rewieving things..but i am very passionate for digimon, so i suppose this will do.

So what is there to say about Digimon tri? or spesifically... loss? hehe loss..more like loss of my intrest in these movies..

TLDR; the movie is long, boring, little action, meiko is shit as always, the conflict with sora, tai and matt doesnt exist, some scenes go nowhere and are more filler then plot, still questions left unanswered, 02 kids are dead and gone and nobody cares at this point, and shitty, limited, boring, bland and dissapoiunting animation. 

Anyhow where do i even start? first i suppose i should start off by saying the things i DO like about this movie. I did enjoy seeing tai more in the spotlight, and it was nice seeing tai, matt and sora talk again. And not to mention, digivolutions! Where most of the digis became ultimate! hell yeah! and my boi machinedramon, i always loved that fella. And more digi kaiser?? YES PLS FUEL MY NEEDS FOR FOOTAGE!! and of course, the animation was well done with the fight scenes and the action was really neat! My favorite part of the movie was the last part.

and now, onto the... MANY many problems these movies had, with none other then shitty animation, awkward scenes, bad art styles, scenes that go nowhere, meiko, and FILLER!! clench your asshole because this is going to be a long one...

Ok so we start off the movie strong. This flashback goes well with me because its this old timey wimey film effect, and we get to see the backstory of himekawa and black hair teacher typography mcgee, i forgot his name..anyway thats cool, we get plot! and then cuts to meiko being left out with her dark evil special digital device. GOOD. she has no way to enter now. she should be left out like the shitty written character she is. im glad shes out.. but would i be like this for long?? NOPE, NOT HERE IN DISSAPOINTMENT LAND I WONT!!

So then we get tehse cute bonding scenes, which are just very nice. its good they take their time with these, and boy....do they take their time :))))) the shitty happy music desu comes so abruplty that you just sit back and say “nice here it is.” so the rest of the digimon get along just fine with the kids again, which is nice i guess....except for pyokomon or whatever. For some reason she is the ONLY CONVENIENT one that wont like her. now, im fine with this, because things never happen the same way twice. however, she is THE ONLY ONE, and the others open very fast, so why?? eh whatever wont bother explaining too much about that ;))

so after this kawaii desuka moment, after toei “””””””””””””””animation”””””””””””””””” show us a slideshow of their best drawings of the kids just sitting there, with no movement, we get on with it. 

There is one thing i learned in animation class, and that is that YOU NEVER HAVE ONE STILL FRAME in animation, and these movies have a lot of them, and so fucking shittly placed as well. Just sometimes to save time, or just because lazyness, the animators just pan a akward still filler frame. i know things are hard, and horrible in NEY-HON, especially with animation, but for gods sake i cant help but go “animation is hard XDDdDdDD” whenever watching these movies....because sometimes....SOMETIMES.......

anyway so onto the story, “special super powerful” meikoomon appears, crying because she is adult and remembers meiko. why, you ask?? WHY??????? WELL who cares stfu. so she runs away and jumps into a distortion. did she make it? did the digital world provide her with some? will we get answers??

so then, PTaiSD starts doubhting if we can save the special boy cat, and Yamaha has to of course get angry about every single little thing tai does, and walks off in a huff. Was this scene forced like all hell?? is yamiffedo being a bitch for no reason?? Yes. yes he was. at this point, it feels like they just put this here to give matt a reason to be angry because they have nothing left to bitch about to eachother, or yashitto just wont let up. either way, it is so frustrating..but i digress. 

we also cut to black haired crocks wearing mcgee again, in and out, of him saying “i cant figure this out” and we get told this 2 times. ... ANYYYWAYYYY then the kids remember their personalities again and tai suggests we do something now, and the digimon digivolved. HURRAH!”

byomon is still not trusting sora, which is fine i guess bonds take time, and they did take their time, which was fine. so they keep cutting to this trolly, the one they slept in in digimon adventure. HEY GUYS, REMEMBER THE TROLLY???? REMEMBER DIGIMON 01?? WASNT THAT SERIES COOL??? 

special OP baby cat meikomon just sits and laments because she cant find meiko, so she gets all infected and fucks up everything again, making the reboot for NUFFIN if she keeps this up. BUTT WAIT, why does she still have this infection?????? OH NO SHE TURNED EVIL AGAIN!!!! but does the movie explain??

so here we are with the blank kids club as izzy expositions the shit out of the other kids, which is nice. its nice to get plot... BUT ITS NOT THE PLOT WE ACTUALLY NEED, just...just a little bit of it. just a little bit.......... anyway everyone cuberbullies meiko and basically says that she is a shit and wont fit in here because all she would do is cry or fuck up something beyond repair. that is what she would do.

so then sora walks off and sits by a trunk and is sad because her tamagotchi doesnt like her anymore. BUT.......and this is a big but...Taishit and Yaman come to the rescue. BUT...they are both stupidly blank and doesnt know waht the fuck to do or say, but they try. how will they tackle this point??

So basically sora is suprised to figure out that tai and matt cant read her mind, and just runs off and is understandably angry about the situation. so as tai and matt is visibly upset they cant fix this, which you couldnt tell because their expressions are about as vibrant as a piece of wood, Taichi basically says something good for once. Sora spends her times worrying about other people and doesnt say anything about her own worries. which is....good??????

im sorry but to me thats not good at all. if you fix everyone elses problem, and you shut your own problems inside, you are going to suffer. THIS IS NOT A GOOD THING HOLY FUCK WHAT KIND OF MESSAGE IS THAT??!?!?!?!? unless i am completly misunderstanding this kind of behaviour but to me, this is not good. fuck that shit. so that scene ends. nothing gets resolved.  then finally, after fucking FOREVER with filler scenes and awkward crappy animation, machinedramon finally appears and is here to fucking kill this second hand emberassment. they run from him, and the others see whats going on. so then they try to do something and fails, and then meikoomon isnt evil anymore...........????? and then something which i think is one of the biggest, STUPIDEST cop puts of all time happens. 

macinedramon shoots them at point blank, and really hard and long too, like so long the camera makes sure to show ALL of their faces as they slowly burn to death by the giant super death cannon...and so they all get fucking obliterated and die... EXCEPT THEY DONT!!!!!!!!!! A DISTORTION PORTAL APPEARS AND JUST... TROWS THEM ACROSS THE ENTIRE ISLAND!!!! AND THE KIDS ARE ALSO UNHARMED!?”!?”?!?

WHAT THE FUYCK IS THAT SHIT?!?!??! WHY DID THE DISTORITON APPEAR??? WHO MADE IT?? WAS IT MEIKOOMON??? EXPLAIN!!! EXPLAIN FOR FUCKS SAKE IM TOO AUTISTIC TO UNDERSTAND THIS DEEP LEVEL OF STORY TELLING!!!

oh and we get a cute flashback to actually knowing what himekawa wanted. she just wanter he digimon back.......which is why she acted this way all along? so she could get her stupid digimon back=??? thats why she had to act like she was secretly the one fucking everything up?? ....eh idk ANYWAY

byomon sees sora cry and decides wew lad....that changes everything.,..so that scene ends, and what does byomon find?????? WELL WOW ITS MEIKO WHO JUST FELL INTO THE DIGITAL WORLD JUST BECAUSE!!!!!!!!!!!! 

it was at this point i got really upset with this crappy movie. The scenes drag on for too long, scenes just end and go nowhere, and GOD DAMN IT IM SORRY FOR SAYING THIS BUT MEIKO IS A FUCKING MARY SUE. she is such a classic example of shittily written self insert characters that it fucking hurts. if i wanted to read your shitty digimon fanfiction from 2008 then i would of done that. Its fucking insane to see this level of writing from a professional writing team, holy fuck. 

and then........this.......this takes the cake.... fucking tai and kari are together. finally, they get to talk a little about things, like for example bringing up whats bothering tai all this time, or why he has to be such a tittybaby with yamato, or maybe have a little chat about character development. but no we dont get none of that. shitty sad music plays and....no tai just says “oh man im so angry i didnt make it” and kari says “its ok” and then tai just looks down.... AND THEN THATS IT!!! ....OK??

so then a whole lot of fucking nothing happens for a while, and i mean, they just.....dont say ANYTHING worthwhile. tai goes all “man i wish tai would read my mind and not be an asshole. my name IS MATT AND I JUST CANT TALK TO MY FRIENDS SO I WALK AROUND LIKE AN ANGRY PISSY BABY BECAUSE THATS MY TRAIT, WHICH IS NOT FRUSTRATING AND TIRED AT ALL” 

and byomon being a little warmer, going to meiko just because shes a cunt at this point, like now shes just being a dick, and generally everyone just walking around having a grand ol time. i guess its nice, and cool and all...but it drags ON FOR TOO LONG WE DONT NEED THIS LEVEL OF CALM WHEN YOU HAD ONE ACTION SCENE TROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE MOVIE!!!!! and just generally....just stuff that goes NOWHERE!! like that train scene???? literally filler. was it a trowback to 02 where agumon came back on the train after being with the dark master?? i dont know!! fuck!!

then expositionmon comes, and its vague, and leaves. and then whatever anyway

meikomon cries and when she gets back to meiko again she tries to slit her troat, and meiko supringly tells her that she isnt good.....wow..thats nice. but they reuine and FINALLY gennai arrives again. in his kaiser disguise. why does he have that avatar to go back and forth troughout the world? why did he chose to use kaiser?? my guess is just to be a dick to the others, because thats the only good explanation at this point. 

and sora does say “oh hi ken please dont” but thats it. im sorry but at this point, the 02 kids are oficcially dead and gone. there is no logical explanation to why they act like this anymore. none that are actually good. forget about them, the others have. just....forget about it.

so distortions appear again and everyone reunites again, because hell we needed SOME explanation to them meeting again. so action happens, and everything is nice and fine and then gennai just

hes so insane im kind of liking it..... ANYWAY stuff happens and so they run away while gennai talks to them about some answers to our questions, which they might not hear because of the BIG HEAVY  STOMPS AND ROARS from the digimons but whatever... yuggrasil i dont remember who is and at this point i just wanted the movie to be over, so this last part, there isnt much to say because i liked it.

however sora getting BTFO by a giant mountain and machinedramons claw should have killed her, but nah whatever. and the scene with tai and matt drowning??? i jsut... dont understand it. what the fuck happened??? why did they just not drown anymore?? what?????? did the power of magic save them or somethin? I DONT GET IT!! and i mean...they should have drowned at that point jfc 

then half the movie is the digimon digivolving and now im so god damn sick of writing, but meikomon fucks everything up again and NOW IT ENDS ON A CLIFFHANGER!! REEEEEEEEEEEEE

SOOOO yeah thats it...the movie was slow, boring, fun, and overall awkwards. the kids had ALMOST no personality, and the scenes that the movie advertized, like the conflict with sora, tai and matt was nonexistant, and just....i myself, and a lot of people, are fucking dissapointed.

if you read this far, thank you. but i have no big hypes for the rest of the movies anymore because the shitty animation, no facial expressions, crappy storytelling, boring character interactions, and MEIKO makes me hate these movies more and more...........and that makes me sad.