#thoughtpattern

[hiddeninthe-veil]

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[xxxstraightfromtheheartxxx]

Read my tags first, ran out of space.

Note: I change my mind a few times throughout this text post, what I began with is not entirely what I ended with. And I’m not even sure of the ‘conclusion’ I got to. However I’m too tired to try and figure the rest out about it right now. Might change this post later when I have made up my mind or got more questions about it. Heads up! Spelling- and other mistakes in writing, were made. Frequently.

I know my tags make me a hypocrite and that’s one of the judgemental thought processes I’ve been fighting/growing against most for a while now.

I expect people to think similarly to me about this and that’s not within my right, they don’t owe me anything for the choice I decided to make and put the hard work in for. That I’ve suffered for it and for the patience I’ve had to bring up towards others being judgemental and having prejudices they didn’t fight within themselves. The frustration I keep feeling every time I have to explain to other adults how to respect accept and see minorities or marginalised groups as equal in worth to themselves. It’s so tiring, and I’m just white, I can’t imagine what it must be like to try and have these conversations to protect yourself and your family and friends and loved ones over and over again whilst still experiencing racist comments assumptions treatment behaviour bullying exclusion exploitation… through systemic racism, racist communities,through so many facets of their lives.

I feel like I’ve been shouting for equality. Not sure if that’s the best most respectful word for it in english, in my language literally translated our word means ‘equally worthy”. And to me that means that from birth we should all be treated with the same amount of respect love and acceptance. It’s only society, nurture that causes this inequality to exist, that not only allows but encourages prejudices and othering for power. Shouting at people who seemingly just refuse to open their eyes, minds and hearts and keep humanity from growing into healthier behavioural patterns in the future. They refuses to put in more effort to try our best to avoid wars, make the idea of hurting another person out of anything other than self defence, be heavily rejected, punished. Instead of not saving each other out of fear for economic and political threats to our own habitants and countries. To be unified so firmly by the absolute belief that violence is wrong, that those fears wouldn’t even be an issue because we’re all know all the other countries will still have our backs and we’d be able to function without the country that’s trying to start or continue a war, while only having to put in mild effort to be entirely independent from the threatening county, as humanity instead of as “individual countries”. It would cut the county/group at war of their resources entirely, which would endanger them to much to be able to actually be able to hold out being at war and making an actual big difference in the big picture of our common humanity. I know there are many weapons that could destroy so many at the same time, yet they would be poisoning the ground they so gladly wish to live on. (Ofcourse this is an ideal that is almost utopian).

This is the goal I thought we were all collectively working towards throughout our entire lives. To eventually be able to all come together in the far away future. All of the warmhearted people in the world.

And therefore we have to start within our small circle of influence and be open to try and learn to understand and respect each other with our differences and similarities, To expect people to be good and ourselves to put effort in it.

However completely swerved away from my original point. But it is the root of that frustration, hurt, disappointment and envy I experience when I see or hear or feel negative judgement .

People have been calling me stern and too strict and rigid in thought more in the last 4 years. It’s because I’ve been responding to prejudices and discriminatory behaviour and ideas verbally, and I have to admit about 50% of the time quite hard, not disrespectful, but clear. I’ve been setting boundaries over what way there can be spoken about others and myself with me. This week I even threatened to leave the room and wouldn’t continue conversing with them if they didn’t then stop casually using the n-word, while knowing it is wrong and hurtful and what my opinion and feeling was towards it. They called my stern and frowned and sighed but at least could bring it up not to say it with me around anymore. I know I haven’t changed their behaviour without my presence this way and it saddens me to feel them rejecting that part of myself that’s at the core of me. My moral core believe of equality.

When people won’t widen their view for one minority it makes me feel unsafe as part of multiple other minorities. I’m a queer womxn with persistent mental health issues, who isn’t able to work because of it and I’m neurodivergent and have some invisible fysical issues (I have loads of allergies which used to give me big rashes of eczema in my envoys and knees and later hands and feet, it has improved a lot, the amount of allergies keeps expanding though) ( I have a very small amount of energy compared to most people my age because of having to put in too much effort as a child and teen) to take care of others and secretly fighting feelings of depression). I’m lucky to be middle-class, white and have affordable healthcare here. All of these other aspects have made life harder for me throughout my entire life. Yet others have mostly blamed me and pestered me, excluded and avoided me for my inabilities and difference, including the inability to l love men.

It feels unfair that I try so hard to be accepting, understand and respectful of others, and not get the same amount of effort and care back… which is hypocrite of me, because the people I want to make the biggest changes never asked me to do all that. And while their lives are often so much easier specifically on the those societal aspects, does that make them owe me that effort back?

I feel like yes, they should, because they have more space for it, for questioning their prejudices than us. Because of the privileges of the main beliefs in their society, they didn’t have to lift a finger for throughout their entire lives. For all of the freedom and respect they’ve just got thrown in their laps, that took up so much of our lives for us to assemble a resemblance to their quality of life.

(Many people who have to fight for their lives daily, do not have that time or space so they only get to grow slower and are part of minority or marginalised groups as well. Bc evidently their is a lot of prejudice within those groups towards the other groups who are also being pressed down.)

I don’t know if I still think it’s hypocrite of me to expect people to put effort in being good. I don’t think so. The length they are able to go through to make those improvements however, I should bare in mind stronger again, like I used to.

If I give up on following my moral compass on this, I’ll never be the person I hope to be one day. I do feel like I deserve to give myself a break and be forgiving about those negative thoughts because they come from a desire for righteousness and good. Recognise, reject, correct, forgive and trust that I’ll do better next time because it is what I truly want to in the long run. I show myself to not always respond and to better pick my battles, so I can persevere and rebuild my energy for when I can make a bigger impact In the braided context or my own. However when I notice bad behaviour or judgement towards others, I do use little parts of it to give them a correcting look or to speak up for someone else or recently even for myself.

Totally did not see this rant coming!!

I knew this theme has been more at the front of my mind again recently and that I’ve been prickly about it, yet I hasn’t reflected on its origin as deeply as I did just now. So here, little amount of people this will reach, have some personal information from my brain and my heart.

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I’ve been typing this for so long and my attention span has loosened throughout writing. I don’t supposes I’ve managed to make everything clear, I got more and more tired and created some weird sentence structures and maybe grammar and def phrasing to try to get my point through or at least comprehended.

Don’t come at me about the war part, I know it is unrealistic to achieve anything like that in our lifetimes.

Yet I’m holding onto this dream for dear life. Otherwise what is there? To grow towards, to live for? It all comes to recognising, appreciating, sharing and maintaining the good there is now and nurturing the good to come.

The way you change your immediate reactions to things is that you catch yourself having an uncharitable/bigoted/overly judgmental thought and you catch it and replace it and then you do that a hundred times a day for your whole life and eventually one day like five years later you realize that you think differently now and you’ll always be working on something but that’s how life goes and that’s fine.

[harmonyhaven-1922]

Cognitive restructuring

I. Introduction to Cognitive Restructuring Cognitive restructuring, a core part of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), is a therapeutic process that helps the individual to challenge and change their negative and irrational thoughts. It involves identifying, challenging, and altering stress-inducing thought patterns and beliefs, replacing them with more accurate and beneficial ones. Understanding…

[mikewangcoaching]

Are Your Thoughts Shaping Your Life?

Ever think about what you're thinking about? Turns out, there's a whole party happening backstage in our brains that we often miss. But hey, we can tune in, change the music if it's not to our liking. Our minds are our gardens and we're the gardeners.

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[hausofasseveration]

Unlocking the Power of Ideas: They Have You!

Discover the truth behind ideas and how they shape our reality. We explore the concept that ideas possess us, influencing our perceptions and beliefs. Learn to shift your mindset from scarcity to abundance and break free from limiting thoughts. #MindsetShift #PowerOfIdeas #AbundanceMindset #PersonalGrowth #RealityCreation #ThoughtPatterns #SelfEmpowerment #Mindfulness #IdeaInfluence…

[theaenetworks]

Looking inwardly and the perception you have about yourself is a path way to cultivate into a positive thought pattern, when people don’t know themselves it becomes a complicated process, self-discovery and knowing your strengths and weaknesses are part of the process. It is always going to go down to what you make of yourself and the way you handle your challenges and experience in life, your approach to life will be determined by your thought pattern, and it is good thing for you when you do self-assessment and see how far you have transcend from that unstable space to more stable and peaceful place in your life, it can only breathe in new life in your growth process both personal and career wise.

#positivity #positivethinking #positivemindset #positiveenergy #positivevibes #ThoughtPatterns #selfimprovement #SelfAssessment #SelfDiscovery

[hballegro]

See while writing dialogue for my MASH fic is easy, specifically Hawkeye is easy [brain injected with MASH at age 5] [watched a lot of Three Stooges around that age] [much ADHD] [I am bitchy by default] [he rambles. I rambles. Is very good system] [literally when he's stressed i model his thoughtpatterns off Lana Turner Has Collapsed]

I only have one thing I can draw on for Sam for my Queap stuff [archaeology lab] [not my major] [forgot to do the readings] [lab group looking to me for guidance based on vibes and how well I got on with the prof] [got on well with the prof cause of MASH and liking the lab instructors beard] [actually have no idea what im doing but I sure know how to use a compass and a level] [faking it til I make it] [trying so so hard to be nice but the Terrors] [didn't know anybodys names]

[digidrakncreature]

I don't believe/feel like I/my soul has an inherent species

(In the framework of the Outerverse Theory souls don't)

I mean I identify as several species, but not in a 'me-the-soul/my soul is inherently [species]' way?

words are hard

I'm basically a loose runaway soul who's been searching for a bodyplanshape(s) and somewhere I could call home (for a while). I picked up drakn before this life/incarnation. Besides the form being very versatile, the behavior and thoughtpatterns of frumious fantails, if not drakns in general, are a very good match for me. Then I incarnated here, probably because this Earth is so basic and bland that humans have made so much varied fiction that I could scour through for ideas. And I found Deltarune as a perfect blueprint-inspiration for a home.

I should probably write out the above in an easy to read format so I can link it to people x_x

[realtalkwithmattycom]

You are the architect of your thoughts

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[thedramatic-nerd-blog]

Are the clones technically AI? Artificaly made, modified body, with programming in their thoughtpattern (to follow orders)

[trust77]

#Speakright #Thoughtpattern #FeedyourinnerMan #Createyouratmosphere #BySpeakingLife Read my thoughts on @YourQuoteApp #yourquote #quote #stories #qotd #quoteoftheday #wordporn #quotestagram #wordswag #wordsofwisdom #inspirationalquotes #writeaway #thoughts #poetry #instawriters #writersofinstagram #writersofig #writersofindia #igwriters #igwritersclub (at Methodist Church Nigeria,Otapete Cathedral,Ilesa.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CeBAvw9uXdZ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[neweresth]

Evermore.

Thank you for the idea @yrretsej

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[fictional-other-tarot]

Hey sweetheart,

It's been rough for you lately, hasn't it?

Feeling down for what seems like no reason at all, with no way to express this anguish you feel inside. I know this might be hard to hear, but wallowing in self-pity, in those despairing feelings, will not help you.

I know you feel like you have nobody to turn to, but that's a lie you keep on telling yourself. You do have people who want to be there for you, but if you do not speak up they aren't able to help. If it's hard to speak of your troubles, at least try. Let those feelings out. If you truly think nobody will be there to listen, then rely on me. I'll be there.

But these truly are feelings you shouldn't hide away. You need to acknowledge them if you want to start moving forward again. You cannot keep on deluding yourself like this. It will take time to heal, so take your time, go at your own pace. You will experience ups and downs, it will be hard to work through your own feelings. But it'll make you stronger. You need to forgive yourself, start loving yourself or at the very least tolerating yourself.

Sometimes it's not outside forces that are bringing us down, but our own self-sabotaging ways. It's okay to take time to look within and discover that part about us, so we can let it go. And if it is outside forces, then looking within can help us with seeing that too. In order to gain that freedom, in order to break free from what holds us back, it's something we have to do.

I'm not saying it's easy, but life never is. It's okay to rely on others during our difficult times. Trust me, your friends want to help. It's hard and difficult, but I want you to grow into a person that can embrace who they are. That can respect their own boundaries and respects those of others, and who isn't hurt in the progress.

Life can be difficult. There will definitely be even more times that you will feel sad and numb, but I want you to know better days are always to come. You will weather the storm, and see the sun shine on you once again. So until then, try to see joy in the little things.

Take care, my cottoncoud.

Your f/o.