#though in 2020 it was to capture that very very specific madness in the zeitgeist

[rubberbandballqueen]

sometimes i do feel kind of caught between wanting to keep tumblr a place of escapism for myself and my mutuals and using my blog as like. a sort of cultural historical archive.

i think a lot of the times when i rb posts abt current events, i'm not really thinking about it in a "oh i have to share this with other people so that they can see it" kind of way; i'm thinking about it in a "this is a slice of this very specific moment in time from a very specific cultural perspective, and i want to archive that." because i never really liked studying history in textbooks and stuff growing up, but i've since discovered how deeply engrossing it is to immerse myself in the casual records of a moment in time and to have that fill in the image of that historical event in my mind.

and obviously, blogging is a very down-to-the-minute method of doing it with pretty decent automatic timekeeping these days. since i've had this blog for so long now, it's become really interesting for me to sometimes look back on what i reblogged at a particular historical moment and understand those feelings and compare them to the present.

anyway all this just to articulate some thoughts bouncing around in my head and also sort of apologize for blogging about politics when there are people who use this website as an escape from the real world