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Reminds me of this one:
okay so I was talking with a friend about writing, and I was about to infodump about an au of mine over discord to them because I can't actually write out the ideas rn since ao3 is dOWN-
and they freaked out??? Apparently I'm weird for writing my works *in* ao3? Like I know people usually write in docs or something but I only feel motivated to write when I'm in the ao3 textbox HJLGFJGDH
So now I have a question for fellow writers on ao3:
#though I do feel like writing in ao3 should not be true neutral#I would be so afraid to loose something#doesnât ao3 delete drafts after a month??#thats like chaotic energy#not neutral#youre living on the edge
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Leap of Faith
aka an Only One Bed headcanon with no context whatsoever
because this popped into my head and I wanted to be able to write and finish something for once god damn it. @the-girl-with-the-algebra-book this is for you đ„°
Legolas/Human Reader (gender-neutral)
Word count: 663
Rating: G
Read on AO3
New!! Thereâs a part 2 here!
Legolas is instantly flustered at the sight of the single bed, his eyes darting between you and the pillows and back again. Despite himself, heâs half-contemplating diving out the window to freedomâbut at the look on your face, he forces himself to take a shuddering breath.
Youâre more than happy to share the bed, you reassure him: thereâs plenty of room, and youâre a heavy sleeper, so he wonât disturb you. But he rejects the offer smoothly. Elves do not sleep like mortals, of course, and he need not lie down to find his rest as you do.
For the first time, he regrets it.
Legolas is a gentleman: he turns away quickly as you slip out of your traveling clothes and boots and slide under the covers, but the rustling of your garments and slide of fabric against your skin is so loud in the silence of the little bedroom, so intimate, that his heartbeat lurches in his chest. By the time he risks a glance back at you, youâre buried in blankets and pillows, looking more at peace than heâs ever seen you.
And now there is nothing to do but wait for dawn.
He pours water over the coals in the fireplace as your breathing evens out in sleep. He paces quietly. He sighs. Time slips by, and his eyes dart to you more and more often.
Heâs curious. Thatâs what he tells himself, anyway. Legolas has so rarely been around mortals, and the way they sleep is fascinating. Youâre deeply, wholeheartedly asleepâno wide-open staring eyes, no mind still active and wandering, elf-like. Â
Heâs curious. Your chest rises and falls under the blankets, your breaths even, calm. In through the nose, with the slightest snore, then out through the mouth in a warm puff. He finds himself stepping closer to the bed, transfixed.
Heâs curious. Thatâs all. His elven eyes can make out the darting of your pupils beneath their lids, the slight parting of your lips. He leans closer, unconsciously. Perhaps youâre dreamingâand he hopes, with a sudden jolt, that youâre dreaming of him. And as though in answer, your lashes flutter restlessly, a single word escaping your parted lips: âLegolas.â
Oh, fine. Heâs far more than just curious. Â
Legolas is perched on the bed beside you before he is aware of it, his heart in his throat. Perhaps it meant nothingâvery likely it meant nothing, for rarely was there sense to be found in mortal dreams. He should move away, and stop staring longingly at your sleeping form. You would hardly appreciate it if you knew.
Or would you? You had invited him to share the bed with you, after all.
Thoroughly defeated, Legolas slips under the covers to join you. Even in sleep, youâre enough to overpower him. And even in sleep, you turn toward him, clutching at his torso and pressing yourself close. His breath hitches.
Your hands clutch tight to his tunic as you nuzzle into his side, and Legolas curls against you, your legs tangling together. A shudder runs through his body.
He breathes in and out as evenly as he can, in imitation of you, and closes his eyes against the pillows, just as you did. Perhaps he can sleep as you do, just this once, so he can survive this overwhelming closeness. Keep his eyes shut tight and his mind closed off from the world, so he can outlast it.
It frightens him for a momentâthe uncertainty of his tight-shut eyes, the lack of awareness of the wider world. How odd this mortal sleep is. It feels like a leap of faith. But your breath is warm and even against his neck, your hair soft as it splays against the exposed skin of his neck and collarbone, and his heartbeat slows, sleepâtrue sleepâstealing over him at last. Â
This leap is an easy one to take, for he has faith in you utterly. Â
#legolas#lotr fanfic#legolas x reader#only one bed#oh god i've written in the present tense for real this time#what have i done#this started out as bullet points BULLET POINTS at least i've polished it a bit more than that
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Noble Blood - Chapter Two
hello everyone! i really didn't think i'd have chapter two of this finished & posted so quickly, but i was feeling motivated, apparently, so here you go! some dragon rider au to start off your new year. if you haven't read chapter one, you can find it right here.
cw: gender neutral reader, more little kid shenanigans (sneaking out of the house), here there be dragons!!! | wc: 2.4k | read on ao3 here
Things were normal at first after Satoruâs birthday celebration. You still spent your mornings in the one-room schoolhouse with Shoko, Utahime, and Kento, learning reading, writing, math, and history from Utahimeâs mother, while Satoru attended his own lessons at home with private tutors. You spent your afternoons running around the settlement with your friends, getting into mischief if Satoru was with you, playing games or running errands if he wasnât.Â
After the night of the fireworks show, you often found yourself sneaking off to the peach orchard to stargaze on the observation deck. Most nights Satoru would be there already, staring up at the stars, acknowledging you only with a smile as you sat with him, pressed up together to share body heat as your breaths puffed out in white clouds before you.Â
The two of you spent many nights together like that, at first just silently observing the stars, though eventually he began to point out constellations to you and tell you their names; his favorite was Draco, yours was Hydra. You loved that he decided to share that knowledge with you, but it made you wonder what else his tutors were teaching him that you werenât learning in your own lessons.Â
You quickly grew accustomed to this new routine â even found that you looked forward to the nights where you would be able to slip out of the house unnoticed â but the comfort youâd found in those stolen moments was shattered within a few short weeks.Â
Word had begun to spread through the settlement that there was a clutch of dragon eggs on the Gojo estate, and it was expected it was only a matter of days before they hatched. You had heard the rumor from a shopkeeper in town â who no doubt had heard it from someone who worked for the Gojo clan â and decided to ask your friend if it was true.Â
âIt is,â he told you that night, his eyes sparkling with more than starlight. âItâs only two eggs this time, which is small even for our familyâs dragons.âÂ
âAre your parents going to take you to see them once they hatch?â Children didnât typically start meeting hatchling dragons until they turned ten, but you thought maybe things were different for prestigious families like Satoruâs.Â
âNo,â he sighed. âIn fact, theyâve told me multiple times that Iâm not to go anywhere near the roost.â
âWhy?â
âBecause Iâm not old enough.â
That seemed like a perfectly logical reason to you, but it was clear that Satoru wasnât satisfied with it, and you knew him well enough to know he was most likely going to ignore his parentsâ direct instructions.
âIâm going to sneak in to see them after they hatch.â
You let out a heavy sigh. âOf course you are.â
âYou should come with me.â
That caught you off guard, and you stared at him dumbly. â...What?â
âYou should come with me to see the hatchlings.â He tilted his head slightly as he looked at you, awaiting an actual response. âDonât you want to see a baby dragon up close?â
âI-I mean, yeah, but wouldnât we get in trouble?â
He just shrugged. âIâm not worried about it. Theyâve never really punished me before.â
âBut they might punish me if we get caught.â
His brows furrowed in confusion, and he frowned slightly. âWhy would they do that?â
âBecause Iâd be breaking into their estate uninvited!â
âBut Iâm inviting you right now.âÂ
You stared at each other for a few long moments then, his blue eyes searching your face for something, but you werenât sure what.
âI donât think your parents would count this as an actual invitation to the estate,â you said eventually, uncertain how else to get the point across to him. âAll they would care about is me being there when Iâm not supposed to be.â
â...So youâre not going to come with me?â He looked so disappointed you felt like you might cry, but still you shook your head.
âNo,â you agreed. âIâm sorry, Satoru.â
He said nothing in response, just looked away, his focus on the stars again, like it was every night before this one. You shuffled closer, resting your head on his shoulder and closing your eyes; for a moment, you could pretend that this was any other night youâd spent stargazing with him, and that you didnât feel a little sick knowing youâd upset one of your best friends.
You didnât see Satoru at all the next day, and he wasnât on the observation deck that night when you arrived; the idea of staying up there alone after how youâd left things with your friend the night before just made you sad, so youâd gone straight home.
The next day, however, the snowy haired boy was waiting outside the schoolhouse. He called your name as you stepped out of the building, reaching out and grabbing your arm, pulling you aside and looking down at you with wide eyes.
âThey hatched,â he said, and you knew exactly what he was talking about. âIt was early this morning. Iâm going to see them tonight.â
His tone was hushed and secretive, the words tripping over each other as they tumbled past his lips. It was then that you noticed how flushed his face was, his cheeks and nose and even the tips of his ears a bright red, despite the coat and scarf he wore.Â
After a moment, you realized he was trying one last time to get you to join him in sneaking off to see the hatchlings, without saying the words out loud. Your throat felt tight, suddenly, and you couldnât bear the thought of letting him down again, so after a moment of hesitation, you nodded.
âIâll meet you by the sakura tree in your courtyard,â you told him quietly. âIf Iâm not there by ten, my parents caught me, so just go without me.â
Satoruâs face lit up at your words, and he nodded, giving your arm a light squeeze. The gesture seemed to lift a weight from your heart, and you smiled at him. Even if this âplanâ wasnât well thought out and would likely spell nothing but trouble for the two of you, you couldnât ignore the excitement already rushing through your veins; you were going to see hatchlings up close for the first time, and you were thrilled.
Unfortunately, that excitement was rather short-lived. Your parents, who usually turned in early at night, decided to stay up much later than you expected, sitting in the main room by the fireplace, sharing a warm drink and talking quietly to each other. You sat at your door the entire time, gaze flitting between your parents and the clock above the fireplace through the gap between the door and the doorframe, your hopes of sneaking out unnoticed dwindling with every passing minute.
Eventually, the clock struck ten, and you climbed into your bed. The deadline youâd set to meet Satoru had come, and you knew even if your parents went to bed now, there was no chance youâd be able to make it to the sakura tree to meet your friend before he left to see the hatchlings on his own.
Finding sleep was difficult after that, an uneasy feeling having settled in your gut, though you didnât know why.
There was no sign of Satoru for days after the night heâd snuck in to see the hatchlings, and the uneasy feeling youâd developed grew into something sickening, your stomach churning every time you thought about what mightâve happened to him. Had he gotten caught sneaking out and gotten punished for once in his life? Had the mother dragon deemed him a threat and attacked him when heâd gotten too close to her brood? Had some even worse fate than punishment or injury befallen him?
The worry kept you up at night, tossing and turning, hoping you would see your friend again soon, and that he would complain about being grounded and confined to his chambers before telling you about the hatchlings. But none of that ever happened.
Instead, four days after your failed rendezvous, you received a summons to the Gojo estate.
A messenger from the family arrived at your house one morning, knocking on the door and telling your mother your presence was requested.
âThey can go after school,â she said, and made to close the door before she was stopped.Â
âIâm sorry, but Iâm afraid the young master is insisting on seeing them right away.â
Your mother glanced down at you where youâd begun to hover beside her, and after holding your gaze for a moment, she sighed. âWeâll be ready in a moment, just let us get our coats.â
The messenger looked a bit uncomfortable, a grimace on his face as he spoke. âOnly your child has been invited. No one else is to accompany them, Iâm afraid. Gojo-samaâs orders,â he rushed to add, when your mother seemed to grow indignant.
âIâll be okay,â you told her, reaching up to take her hand for a moment. âIâve been to see him before without anyone else.â
Your motherâs gaze was uncertain as she looked down at you once again, her features pinched together with worry, but eventually she nodded, dropping her shoulders and forcing herself to relax. âYouâre right,â she sighed, giving a slight shake of her head as she turned away from the door, taking your coat from the hook it hung on and handing it to you. âCome straight home when youâre finished, alright?âÂ
You nodded, pulling on your coat and promising to return after your visit with Satoru. You stepped outside then, walking with the messenger as he led the way back to the Gojo estate. The whole time, your mind raced with possibilities about why youâd been summoned to the estate, rather than Satoru just coming to see you himself, which heâd always seemed to prefer in the past. You were so lost in your thoughts, in fact, that you failed to notice you had reached the estate until you were being ushered through the front gates.
âDo you know your way through the house?â the messenger asked.
You looked up at him dumbly for a moment, then nodded, once youâd processed his question.
He nodded back slightly. âThen I will let you continue on your own. The young master is refusing to see anyone but you.â
You nodded again, turning away and walking towards the main house, though all you could think was Why wonât he see anyone else? Removing your shoes in the genkan almost as an afterthought, you stepped fully into the house, heading down the hallway you knew led to Satoruâs chambers.
It didnât take long to reach his door, and you knocked lightly on the wooden frame. âSatoru?â you called. âItâs me.â
âCome in!â he called back, and after a beat of hesitation, you turned the knob and pushed the door open.
âClose it behind you,â Satoru siad, his voice coming from the other side of the room, behind the privacy screen that separated his bed from the rest of the room. You did as you were asked, pushing the door shut until it clicked before crossing the room to reach your friend.Â
âSatoru, Iâve been so worried about you! What happened with the hatchââ
The words died in your throat as you stepped around the privacy screen, only to be greeted by the sight of Satoru perched cross-legged in the middle of his bed, the smallest dragon youâd ever seen curled up in his lap, sound asleep.
A pure white dragon.
All you could do was stare for several long moments, trying to process what you were seeing: Satoru, with a dragon â a single color dragon, at that â but it just didnât make sense. It was still at least two years before you or any of your friends would be old enough to start visiting hatchlings and eventually meet your destined dragons.
âIs it⊠is that your dragon?â you eventually managed to ask, tearing your eyes away from the creature to meet your friendâs gaze.Â
Satoru nodded, unable to suppress his grin. âYeah, he is. His name is Kenji.â
âHow did this even happen?â
âWhat do you mean?â
âHow did you bond with him? I didnât even think we were old enough for that to happen.â
Your friend shrugged. âGuess Iâm just special.â Though his words were smug, you caught the teasing lilt in his voice, and you laughed softly despite yourself.
âYouâre certainly something,â you agreed, teasing him right back. âIs this why you havenât left the estate in days?â
âYeah. My parents keep telling me the first week is really important for bonding with him. But he just sleeps all the time.â His bottom lip stuck out slightly in a pout, and you shook your head slightly, stepping closer and settled on the edge of his bed.
âBut you have your dragon now, and you might be the youngest person ever to bond with their dragon,â you pointed out. âThatâs pretty cool.âÂ
That seemed to cheer him up some, his pout melting back into a smile.
âDoes this mean youâll start your training soon?â
âI think so,â he said. âBut Iâm pretty sure my parents are sending for a special trainer, so I donât know when heâll get here.â
The two of you sat and talked for a bit longer, and you felt as if a weight had been lifted from your shoulders; the sickening, uneasy feeling disappeared, as well, eased by the knowledge that your friend was alright, just dealing with a big change.
After a while there was a lull in the conversation, and you knew it was probably time for you to return home. You werenât sure how long youâd sat with Satoru, but you had a feeling it had been longer than you thought.Â
âIâll see you later, Satoru. Donât stay locked up in here too much longer, okay?â
âAs soon as my parents let me out Iâll see you every day,â Satoru promised, and you knew he meant it with his whole heart.
You smiled, feeling light with relief. âI canât wait,â you said, then dropped your gaze back to the dragon in your friendâs lap; he was still sound asleep. âBye, Kenji,â you added quietly, standing from the bed and waving to the pair before you left the room.Â
Satoru had his dragon now. You werenât entirely sure what that meant for you or the rest of your friends, but you were sure of one thing: your lives were all about to change.
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Are you serious about the writing fics...if so a Kuroo x reader Angst fight breakup pleeeaaaseđ
When it comes to writing fics about gay volleyball boys, my friend, I'm always serious... đ
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Anyways, I hope this angsty breakup fic hits you in the feels as much as it did for me!
(I really enjoyed writing this, so to everyone, let me know if you want a part twoâ Should Kuroo reconcile, or should Kenma save the reader?)
Without further ado, let's get into your request! (This will also be cross posted to AO3!)
A Love I Never Knew
Summary: All of your heart was with the one person you adored the most, Kuroo Tetsurou. When things started to turn dark for you, you were sure that he would be there. You trusted him, you confided in him, and yet the result of that was the appearance of his true selfâ one that you never could have imagined in your wildest dreams, or more accurately, your darkest nightmares...
Info/Warnings: gender neutral reader, breakups, cliffhanger ending, aggressiveness, emotional breakdowns, self-esteem issues
âAre you okay?â
When it came to being asked that question, lately, you honestly didnât know how to respond. Of course, you knew what to say: âIâm fine!â
Your self esteem, on the other hand, told an entirely different story.
You just couldnât bring yourself to look in the mirror lately. No matter which way you looked at it, you couldnât consider yourself beautiful. In your eyes, there were so many imperfections on your face, your body, everywhere.
To make matters worse, you had been losing sleep over it too. You had lost a lot of your previous cheerful spirit, as your eyelids began to sag.
Soon, your insecurities about your appearance were beginning to affect other parts of your life too. You couldnât focus in class or in social activities anymore, because you felt like you werenât good enough in anything.
Now, you were even beginning to feel like you werenât good enough in your own relationship too. Kuroo was so cool, so intelligent, so confident⊠and you were just an awkward, scrawny introvert.
Basically, this was the exact opposite of him.
âKuroo deserves way better than meâŠâ
This was the thought that was running on repeat in your mind, as you slumped down on the couch in yours and his shared apartment. Your face was buried in your hands, as an even darker than usual cloud hung over your head today.
Kuroo didnât know about any of this yet. He was always so upbeat and lively, and you didnât want to put a damper on that with your trivial troubles.
This wasnât all that possible for you at the moment, though. The concerns about you and your usefulness to Kuroo only got worse. Since this could affect your relationship, maybe now was finally the time to come clean to him.
âHeâs always so carefree⊠Heâll know what to do, and maybe I wonât have to worry anymoreâŠâ
You were still anxious about telling him as you waited for him to come home from volleyball practice, but at the same time, you were confident that he could lighten your mood.
As a result, your eyes remained fixed on that door in a desperate anticipation. You didnât even turn on the TV or browse through your phone to kill time until he came back like you usually did.
You needed Kuroo. In fact, today was probably the day you needed him the most.
When the door finally did swing open, your expression brightened a little. You were still shaking from the anxiety, but you were relieved that he was here at last.
âBaby, youâre home!â You jumped up to greet him.
Kuroo, on the other hand, didnât seem nearly as enthusiastic. He wore his towel around the back of his neck, dripping sweat with an exhausted expression on his face.
This made sense for him. He didnât like to show it to others, but you knew that he could get really wiped out when practices got intense.
Still, you knew that this was urgent, so you hoped to get his attention nonetheless.
âPractice was rough today, huh?â
âHm, yeah. Definitely.â He nodded in agreement, but still didnât make eye contact with you.
âHow are the others?â Kuroo loved to crack jokes about his teammates, so you thought that this might snap him out of it.
âTheyâre alright. Annoying and chaotic as ever.â He still completely ignored you and brushed you off, and began to trudge off to the room that you two slept together in.
Your heart was beating fast under the weight of your feelings, so as much as you wanted to let him rest, you needed to talk to him. Therefore, you ran after him to make him talk to you.
âHey, is something wrong?â You said this in a caring and concerned voice. He did seem really, really tired, but he usually wasnât this low on energy. Despite everything you were going through, you also wanted to be there to listen to him if something was wrong.
What Kuroo said next, however, was something that made your face drop.
âNothingâs wrong! I donât need to be interrogated right now, love. Just leave me alone, ugh.â
Now, this sounded much more like he was annoyed with you rather than just being tired. You hadnât meant to âinterrogateâ him, you just wanted to know about his day.
He never reacted this badly before. Something was definitely on his mind, and you had the feeling that it had more to do with you than with volleyball.
âIâm really sorry⊠Itâs just, I needed to talk with you about something.â You squeaked out in a lower tone, now becoming increasingly afraid of what his reaction would be.
âFine, but make it quick, I have other things to do⊠Come to think of it, what is the matter with you today?â
Unlike you, his tone wasnât filled with nearly as much care. It was like talking to you was a chore that he had no choice but to complete.
Taking a deep breath, you attempted to pour out your heart into words.
âItâs just that I donât feel good enough⊠I donât feel pretty enough, my personality isnât good enough⊠And now I feel like Iâm not good enough for you.â By the time you finished, your breath was shaky and uneven.
You still had some slight hope that this would make him soften up, but unfortunately, this couldnât be further from the case.
âWhatâs with all this sappy stuff? Jeez, youâre acting crazy! You used to not give a shitâŠâ He was massaging his forehead in a way that was intentional, making it clear to you that you were the one giving him that headache.
âNo⊠Thatâs because I was just hiding it from youâŠâ
âWell, what do you expect me to do about it?â
His tone was becoming harsher and harsher, while yours became softer and softer. This sudden change was literally taking your breath away, and not in a good way.
âUm⊠you are my boyfriendâŠâ You looked up at him with eyes gone wide with fear, shame, and embarrassment.
This gaze only exacerbated Kurooâs annoyance. He rolled his eyes, and moved his lips silently in a way that was mocking the way you spoke.
âYeah, Iâm your boyfriend, not your goddamn therapist.â
This was the final nail in your heart, shattering it into pieces. The carefree, lighthearted Kuroo that you had fallen in love with just wasnât that same person anymore. As you realised this, tears began to sting at the corners of your eyes.
âI know, Iâm sorry, Iâm really sorry. At least answer the question, please⊠Am I good enough for you, Kuroo? Iâm so sorryâŠâÂ
At this point, your voice was barely audible. You hardly knew what to say. Everything that you thought you knew about Kuroo was changing so quickly.
He had begun to turn around and go to the bedroom anyway, but at these words, he stopped in his tracks. He stood there like that for a few seconds, and you saw his hands clench into fists. The rising and falling in his chest became more ragged, as his breaths filled with negative emotions.
Every second that he was still made the dread inside you grow, but the face that you saw when he turned back around to face you suddenly and swiftly frightened you even more.
âI get home after a long day, and all you can do is cling to me like a fucking abandoned puppy. And instead of just letting me go like a sane person, all you say is âIâm sorry!â Itâs so goddamn corny and annoying⊠But you know what? I agree with what you said earlier. Maybe you really are not good enough for me.â
His fists balled tighter, as he screamed these words at the top of his lungs through clenched teeth.Â
This new piercing volume sent the entire atmosphere around you two into utter silence. You couldnât believe that this was real. It had to be a terrible nightmare, one that would end, and let you wake up to Kuroo cuddling beside you in the bed.
Yet, this wasnât a nightmare. This was the reality of what Kuroo truly felt about you.
If your heart was shattered before, this made the pieces break even smaller and drop to the ground. As for your heartbeat, it felt as if it had stopped in your chest. Heck, time itself seemed to slow around you.
It was one thing to believe the worst about yourself, but having the one whoâs supposed to love you the most say that those beliefs were correct all along made it feel like the world itself beneath you was giving out.
Your body wasnât just trembling now, it was full on shaking. Your knees swayed back and forth, making you feel like a jelly that threatened to give way and drop to the floor any second now.
Your eyes that were now stuck open as wide as they could go couldnât hold it back anymore, and silent tears rushed down your face. The shock was so intense that you couldnât even make any noise with the crying. With all these tears, your throat began to burn.
âI have to say something, anything to make it better⊠Itâs all my fault, I should fix thisâŠâ
You could hardly form thoughts like these, much less put them into words. Meanwhile, Kuroo kept his eyes fixated on you in pure disgust. He had a look on his face that made it seem like the fact that you were still in front of him was something that he absolutely loathed.
Whatever words did come to mind mostly stopped in your throat. Any noise that did come out was in the form of choked up croaks and squeaks.
Finally, somehow, actual words came out, only to be immediately cut off.
âKuroo, Iââ
âJust forget it already! If this is how youâre going to be, I canât take it anymore! Iâm fucking done with you. Weâre over, now get out of my house, now!âÂ
You already thought that his voice couldnât get any louder, but its magnitude just kept climbing and climbing until it got to a point where you felt that it could blow the roof off. His face was scrunched up in pure fury, and his eyes directed that rage into yours and straight into your soul.
Whatever he was feeling, Kuroo now seemed as if he had never loved you at all.
And just like that, a beautiful relationship that had lasted months, one that you hoped would stretch on for years to come vanished just like that. All your hopes about Kuroo disappeared into nothingness.
As reluctant as you were, you now accepted that what you had with him was gone, and couldnât be fixed.Â
However, more than that, you didnât think it was even safe to be here anymore. Judging by his body language, his posture, his actions, and his words, standing there for even a few seconds longer would run the risk of Kurooâs anger escalating towards physical violence.
Your knees gained just enough strength, and you bolted out the door in a fit of loud sobs.
When you were gone, Kuroo returned to normal and sighed, but not out of relief. He couldnât pin it down exactly, but there was something gnawing inside him⊠He was observant enough that he knew deep inside that was guilt.
Still, even though he did know, he would never admit it. He wouldnât admit it to himself, and definitely not to you. He couldnât take back what he did, but either way, he most certainly wasnât going to go running after you. Instead, he simply shook his head and wandered off inside the bedroom.
It was raining outside in the dark of night, and not just a light shower. Water rushed down from the dark clouds at high speeds, hitting the ground with incredible sound and force for such tiny droplets.
It didnât take more than a few seconds for you to get soaking wet in these conditions, but you pushed through and kept running. You didnât know whereâ it was late, and no one you knew would be willing to take you in at this hour.
You jumped down the stairs to the ground floor, but that was as far as you could get before your knees finally gave up and caused your body to collapse to the concrete pavement, getting scraped against its rough surface.
You were in an awkward position, but you didnât care. You were cold, you were wet, but most importantly⊠you were alone.
At least there was a positive side to that. You curled up, now being free to sob out all the pain that had piled up on you out to the distance. Your face became a mess of tears and snot, as the uncertainty of the situation dawned upon you.
âI canât sleep on the streets⊠Iâve already been a burden to everyone, but I have to find someone, anyoneâŠâ
You had absolutely nothing, except for the clothes on your back and your phone in your pocket. Getting under the relative safety of a pillar, you decided to make use of that phone as you went through your contacts, pondering your slim set of options.
You remembered that there was one person who lived close enough to Kuroo, and this person was Kenma. Your fingers shook as you debated internally whether to press the call button or not. Kenma was the kind of person who was known for his preferences for being alone, and being sort of aloof towards others.Â
It wasnât likely that he would take you in, but the chance of him accepting was still there. At this point, you were ready to take any chance you got.
Trying not to drop your phone, you decided to take a risk and call Kenma. You put it on speaker and heard as the phone rang one time, two timesâŠ
Your phone provider would automatically drop a call if there wasnât an answer by the fifth ring. The deviceâs battery was quite low as well, so if Kenma did not pick up, you truly would be stranded.
And so, you sat there awaiting your fate. Each ring, although lasting only a few seconds, stretched out for an eternity.
Would Kenma pick up? Would he not pick up?
Whichever one of the two happened, the little flame of hope left in your heart lay in his place⊠any place that was away from Kuroo.
âIt really did turn out to be the person I loved most who ended up hurting me the deepestâŠâ You thought alone to yourself, waiting as the phone rang and rang into the distanceâŠ
#request#writing requests#requests are open#writing prompt#haikyuu#haikyuu ships#cross posted on ao3#kuroo tetsurou#haikyuu kuroo#haikyuu fanfiction#kuroo x reader#cliffhanger#angst#breakup#writers on tumblr#writeblr#ao3#ao3 writer#fandom ships#pls like#pls reblog
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I started writing this long reflection about media analysis, JJK and the impact of it and this entire fandom and your story but it'll work better once H&H is complete and I can make it less ramble-y and coherent. (oh look I'm rambling again just like the now-saved draft)
Instead, let's just dip into the moments that left the biggest impact because I barely held it together.
The P word and I gasped. Thankfully no one was standing near me on the train platform.
 âYouâre always to my left, Suguru.âÂ
Now I want to go back and see if that's always the case?
But Satoru has revoked Suguruâs access to his voice and mind space. Heâs retreated to the steel entrapment in his head. Leaving Suguru to fend for himself.Â
The mystique over his "really good eyesight" and their silent communication is so delectable. And then this happened, I can feel it.Â
Suguru can read any page in any personâs book, no matter the language. But he canât seem to decipher her expression. Â
I loved the moments of accuracy during the active trauma. But this felt the most writing from what you know and your training as a physician. (and the chuckle from the doctor over the phone later, poor boy was too stormy to catch that but a doctor would NEVER do that if it was bad news!)Â
The joy of Fatherhood, given and taken from him in a night. Â
I have not experienced this type of loss, but I know people who have. And that type of grief is so intense. You didn't overstate or linger on it too long to undercut the feelings and space.
Will they survive this?
I know they will because you've said as much. But that didn't make this any less impactful. The journey and all....
He fantasizes about your precious love child.
Of all this chapter held, this moment was the proverbial straw. Especially with the dream of a girl. And the precious love of dads and their daughters. And now I am going to lose it again, just thinking of my husband and how he would've felt. (he also would've chosen me over the fetus like The Boys).
Satoru fails to swallow a gasp, and the cords tethering Suguruâs brain to rational logic snap in half.
A deft touch here, appropriately use of the intense emptions of sex and touch. I hope it is not their last (not that we need visceral descriptions of it, you've had great pacing without needing to keep reminding us of time passage)
His addiction to being needed is one heâll never recover from.
Oh Sugu, your doting and motherhen-ing is adorable and I can't get enough of it.
I just want to like, ramble on and on and on. Wine, snacks, and a big comfy couch.
Jen my little angel đ€đ©·. I love when you do this to me with your juicy analysis and questions that make me think.
Long Author POV below:
1. The P-word. This was left field but of course sheâd be. The boys have been filling her reckless. And part of me feels like their bodies knew. The way they doted on her in the fluff flash back, both kneeling to put her shoes on. Theyâre like dogs who sense their human is pregnant. Now though, with the loss. Theyâre going to be INTENTIONALLY trying to make another one. Even more desperate when reader pushes them away for a bit.
2. A reader actually made a comment on AO3 that they canât wait to see the boys communicate more. Because itâs true, Iâve written them so in sync I leave a lot of their dialogue to the readerâs imagination. It was fun to force them to try and figure out how to verbalize things when theyâre off step with each other.
3. Suguru being unable to read the doctorâs expression. *sigh* gonna get emotional here. They try to teach us divine neutrality in med school and residency. Delivering bad news while being empathetic but distant. You should be able to call time of death one minute, then walk into the next room and give another patient your 150%. I struggle with this. Elia struggled with this. I hope I did it justice with how itâs written
4. Girl Dad Suguru đ„č I struggled writing his and Satoruâs reactions. I just wanted to explore the complexities of yes they love reader, yes they want more of her, but ultimately reader, NOT baby, is their priority. Full stop.
5. Satosugu soft sex. I hope this didnât feel TOO out of place. Mostly because grief is MESSY. It does things to short circuit brains. And sometimes it makes you want to make love with someone to feel in control and warm and intimate. They both were crying and confused through it. And Suguru was so desperate to feel close to Satoru again. Satoru didnât verbalize it but his âIâm so lonelyâ and âno, stayâ was my way of hinting at that.
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rambling about writer stuff & general community stuff
that person who said a work with a large note count is the one most people will interact with based on the assumption of "oh it has 1k+ it must be good!" is absolutely correct. the only work of mine that consistently gets interaction even though I posted it forever ago is the one with the highest overall note count.
That is to say people are basically window shopping and only looking at what's "popular" and it can feel like such a mental hurdle to hear others be like ~notes don't matterđ„°~ because you also wanna scream yes they fucking do!! and there's nothing weird or embarrassing about the fact that it matters to you, we all love attention it's literally a feature of our species that we love social interaction and attention there's nothing bad about that it's neutral as far as I'm concerned. If anything I think people who shame others for that are weird.
it's also mad discouraging for people to hear over and over "oh don't be silly and make yourself upset comparing yourself to someone else! Everyones work is good!" while yes that's true, it's also... incredibly unhelpful? 9/10 times people already know that, they've heard it enough. All it really serves to do is further push people into the line of thought that "there must be something wrong with me/my work/my art that nobody's telling me" and when you're stuck in a feedback loop of people saying that shit to you it feels like what Eric Andre said about holding hands with kids in a circle around someone chanting "NIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE NIGHTMARE" to fuck with them.
I think what happens is people get really caught up in the euphoria of popularity and then also do not wanna share it. That's not to say everyone acts like that because they don't there's plenty of larger blogs that are extremely helpful to others in their communities and do a really great job of being encouraging and giving meaningful, actionable advice but it's not the majority of bloggers. I think sometimes, more than we like to admit, it can be very very satisfying in a mean way to keep a faux barrier up.
I'm not saying anyone is intentionally cruel but it feels cruel to be the other person on the side of that faux barrier, frustrated that you seemingly can't do what they can. That's not the truth.
What people don't say is they use things like canva premium, picsart, photoshop/the free equivalent photopea, pinterest, templates from deviantart creators, capcut, ect to create a lot of the popular aesthetic looking posts you see. If it frustrates you that you don't know how to, you can find tutorials on youtube in an instant teaching you how to make those too now that you know the names of the apps or programs.
Writing resources like grammarly, scribens, online word counters, onelook, wordhippo, springhole.net, the ultimate guide to writing smut fic (on ao3 by QuinnAnderson), ect. those also aren't shared as often as they should be. each of those resources does different things but all are incredibly useful for writing anything, not just fanfic. (I cannot stress enough how helpful that smut guide is if you wanna get into writing that, definitely read through it).
I think this unwillingness to share things contributes to the overall slump a lot of fandom communities are in. You can't know where to start looking if you don't know what it is you're looking for. You also can't improve if tools that could help you aren't made available to you. It's beyond frustrating to be in the position of "I know what's popular but I don't know how I can do that too".
#like please do not think theres anything wrong with you or what you create there isn't#its just really difficult to carve out a foothold when you feel like you're clueless & nobodys willing to help#the unwillingness to share even basic resources does favors for nobody#so many people are mind blowingly talented but held back by things like being unable to get straight up helpful answers
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Meeting Doc (Marty McFly x Reader)
Characters: Marty McFly, Emmet âDocâ Brown
Fandom: Back to the Future
Tags: Meeting the family
Warnings: None
Word Count: 1,4k words
Requested by (Marty) anon: hey Trish!! would you be up for a Marty ficlet where he takes reader (his s/o) with him to meet Doc, and Doc's kind of apprehensive and protective of Marty at first but after awhile he warms up to reader and they all just end up goofing off together at the end? have a wonderful day :)
Link: AO3
A/N: Here it is! I hope you like it, lovely! It was fun to write and to explore this side of the characters!
Reblogs and comments are appreciated!! // Masterlist
Marty McFly x Gender Neutral Reader
Everyone in Hill Valley had heard about Doctor Brown. He was the strange scientist of the town. Some called him crazy and some called him dangerous. Being Marty McFlyâs partner, though, you pictured a very different version of that same man.
In Martyâs eyes, Doc was a genius. He was a misunderstood person who was in love with science and very passionate about it, constantly trying out new inventions that would quench his curiosity and help the world.
Perhaps none of those versions were true, but merely the projections of the people that looked at him. Nonetheless, you were more inclined to believe Marty than everyone else. Of course, it helped that Marty was your boyfriend, but Doc didnât seem dangerous. At the very least, he was a very interesting and unique person that you couldnât wait to meet.
âOkayâ Marty stopped before Docâs residence, licking his lips and turning to you.
You didnât know who was more nervous about this meeting, you or Marty. Although you werenât sure if you would make a good first impression, it was clear that this was very important to Marty too. The both of you were the most important people in his life, and he couldnât bear the thought of you two not getting along.
âOkayâŠ.â He repeated, taking a deep breath. âAre you ready, Y/N?â
âYeahâ You smiled at him and took his hand. âIâm excited to meet himâ
âNow, before we come inâŠâ Marty paused, lifting your hand and patting it. âYou know Docâs a little...â
âWhat?â
âWell⊠you may think heâs a bit⊠wackyâ
âSo I heardâ
âYeah, I know, butâŠâ Marty kept playing with your hand, moving it around as he tried to push out any of his nervous energy. âIt takes a bit to really get him, you know? But once you do, heâs the bestâ
âWhat are you trying to say?â Â
âHeâs just different from everyone else in Hill Valleyâ
âMartyâ You patiently said, returning to your sweet smile. âI know what people say about Doc, and it doesnât bother meâ
âReally?â He finally smiled, sighing in relief once you eased his fear.
âYeah, he might be different, but that just means heâs not boringâ You paused, watching how his tense shoulders relaxed slightly. âI want to meet him, and not just because you want me to. I want to meet your friend, who also happens to seem like a very interesting personâ
âYouâre the bestâ Marty leaned in to kiss you in the cheek. âLetâs come in thenâ
You took a deep breath as he opened the door for you. Immediately, you were received with a very different environment than the one you were just in outside of the house. The entire room was dark and felt heavy with electricity. It also smelled slightly like chemicals.
A sudden fear reached you once you realized you knew nothing about science. What if you had nothing in common with Doc to get along with him? It would break Martyâs heart if you two just stood there awkwardly.
âDoc?â He called out, bringing you back to reality as he tugged at your hand, directing you with him through the messy house. âDoc, weâre here!â
After some rustling, footsteps were heard. A tall man with disheveled white hair appeared wearing a white lab coat, with wide eyes and goggles over his forehead.
âGreat Scott!â The man muttered, quickly looking at his wristwatch. âIs it time already?â
âYeahâ Marty put his hands on your shoulders. âY/N is hereâ
âDoctor Brown!â You smiled at him, offering your hand. âItâs a pleasure to finally meet you, Marty has told me all about youâ
The man stayed distant for a moment as he carefully watched you.
âYeah, yeahâŠâ He dryly said, absently shaking your hand. âYou tooâ
âY/N was really excited to meet you, Docâ Marty beamed, shaking you around a little as though passing over to you more of that excitement.
The man only nodded, lifting his chin up and looking down at you. His brown eyes were filled with distrust. Suddenly, that eagerness you felt died down. Instead, it was replaced by a cold disappointment.
Marty had talked so highly of Doc that you thought he was one of the best people in Hill Valley. However, now that you had met him in person, he behaved in a petty manner.
âTell me, how long have you and Marty been together?â He then asked, to make matters worse. His tone was harsh and judgmental.
âDocâŠâ Marty complained, but you answered the question nonetheless.
âAlmost a yearâ
âDo you get good grades?â
âDoc!â
The man shut his mouth, looking at his friend in startle. You clenched your jaw, standing up straight to show him you werenât intimidated by his questioning.
âIs this an interview?â You demanded to know, forcing him to face you.
The two of you glared at each other, further challenging one another. You could feel Martyâs eyes moving from him to you. He stirred in the spot before finally piping up.
âUh⊠y-you know what?â Marty nervously said, passing a hand through his hair. âWhy donât I show Y/N that thing you invented? You know, that gadget thingyâ
âVery wellâ Doc replied without glancing at him, too busy staring at you.
âIâll be right back!â Marty exclaimed as he ran off, trying to take as little time away from you as possible.
As soon as your boyfriend disappeared in the next room, you acquired a defensive stance to mask your outrage. No matter how smart âDocâ was, you werenât going to let him do that.
âDoctor Brownâ You gravely began. âWith all due respect, I donât know what your problem with me is, and I honestly donât care. I think we should put our differences aside for Martyâs sakeâ
He opened his mouth to reply, but you interrupted, foreseeing a complaint.
âIf you donât like me for, thatâs alrightâ You continued, peering up at him to meet his tall stature. âBut itâs very important to Marty that we get along, so I suggest you do it for him if you really care so much about himâ
The scientist stared at you in awe. After a moment of surprise, he smiled at you.
âYou are absolutely rightâ
âT-Thank youâ
âI apologize, it was unfair of me to treat you like thatâ Doc bowed his head down as a sign of respect. âI was only looking out for Marty, but if you truly care so much about him, I must have been too quick to judge youâ
âOf course I care about Marty!â You loudly said, lowering your tone when you realized he might return soon. âThat is why I wanted to meet you on the first place, Doctor Brown!â
âAs did Iâ He sighed, shaking his head to himself. âForgive me, Y/N, I merely wanted to ensure you were good for Marty. He is an extraordinary young man and he deserves the very bestâ
âI agreeâ Now that the tension had dissipated, a more comfortable silence established. However, you crossed your arms, trying to appear nonchalant. âAnd well⊠am I good for him?â
âIâm here!â Marty arrived just then, interrupting the scientist before he could reply. However, the smile in his lips was answer enough.
âAh, thank you, Martyâ He said instead, taking a small oval shaped gadget from him.
âWhat were you talking about?â The young man looked from one to the other again.
âI was telling Y/N that⊠I was frustrated with a project⊠but that is no excuse, I still shouldnât have taken it out on you, Iâm sorryâ
âThank you. And itâs alrightâ
âAllow me to start againâ Doc cleared his throat, offering you his hand. âIt is a pleasure to meet you, Y/N. Iâm Doctor Emmett Brown, but you can call me Emmettâ
âItâs nice to meet you, Emmettâ You replied with a smile, giving his hand a firm but gentle shake.
A pause followed. Watching Marty with the corner of your eye, you realized he was smiling wide and had the emotion reflected in his eyes. You smiled to yourself.
âTell me, Y/Nâ Emmett then said, motioning in a friendly gesture. âWould you like to know how my invention works?â
âI would love toâ You took Martyâs hand, following Doc as he went to turn all the lights on and demonstrate to you how his new invention worked.
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Wonderful! Au Part 7! (also on ao3 here) another episode only installment, and obnoxiously fluffy! Have fun!
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Martin, tired: Hello everybody! Welcome, or welcome back, to a very low energy episode. We have had, as the kids say, A Week Tm.
Jon, equally tired, but fond: Is that as the kids say?
Martin: I don't know, and perhaps worse, I don't really care. I guess I could ask Jeremiah next time he's over, but I'm not sure if that would actually help.
Jon: Shockingly, I don't think two year olds have their finger on the beating pulse of youth culture.
Martin: Hmm, maybe not. Speaking of Jeremiah, he's part of why the format of this episode is gonna be a bit different than our regular. On top of me dealing with a frankly obscene amount of inventory management, and Jon being swamped with grant writing-
Jon: I never want to look at proposal guidelines again-
Martin: we were on babysitting duty for our favourite neighborhood hellion-
Jon: Hey, Jeremiah is a very sweet kid! I know he's a toddler, but we shouldn't be slandering him anyway.
Martin: One, we're not even using his real name, I don't think that counts as slander, and two, exactly, he's a toddler, he's by default a hellion.
Jon, teasing: This coming from the person that actually wants one?
Martin: I..look, if anything, the last few days have shown we should not be permanent parents.
Jon: But?
Martin:...There's no but.
Jon: I don't believe you! Are you lying for my benefit or the audience's? Because someone spent the last five days wearing one of the largest grins I've ever seen, exhausted as it may have been.
Martin: Okay! Fine, I admit, I liked having a kid around. I still think it would be a bad idea to do it full time, but I dunno. I wish we weren't both only children or something. We would make such good uncles.
Jon: Should I should have taken that teaching job after all?
Martin: Perhaps. After all,
Martin, singsong: An English teacher, is really someone!
Jon and Martin, singing together: If only you, had be-come one!
Jon: Honestly, though, I was considerably underqualified. I'm much more suited to my current job, even if it doesn't have quite the same impact on the "shaping of the next generation" or whatnot.
Martin: Wait, you actually care about qualifications now? When did that change?
Jon: This coming from Mister "master's degree in parapsychology"? And it was probably around the time that the world ended from taking on a workload I was ill-suited for.
Jon:...
Jon: Metaphorically speaking, of course.
Martin: Oh, of course. Definitely nothing literally apocalyptic in our pasts, no siree, nothing to see or speculate about or make weirdly involved forums for here. Uh, anyway, long introduction not so short: Both of us have been averaging about 4 hours of sleep, so any sort of actual research was not on the table.
Jon: If any of you are wondering why we didn't just say that we're both very much worn out and thus we'll be taking a week off, it's because we're both deeply, deeply stubborn.
Martin: It's one of our best shared qualities that has never caused any conflict between us, ever.
Jon: In fairness, sheer stubbornness does account for, what, 75% of the reason that either of us are still alive? And it hasn't caused a major conflict between us in a good three years.
Martin: That's true. We've become a deeply boring, relatively conflict free couple. Which fucking rules, by the way. To all the couples out there: I highly recommend being boring. It is so nice. We've gotten to go to the farmer's market so many times.
Jon: You do love the farmer's market. I would say that it's the access to fresh produce, but I think you just like the attention that one yarn seller gives you. Can't believe you would take advantage of a crush to get discounts on wool. How did I marry such an opportunist?
Martin: Ollie does not have a crush on me. They're just friendly to everyone.
Jon: Bullshit. I certainly never get an extra skein or stitch markers or delicate fabric cleaner tossed in my bag. Actually, I think I've been charged more for committing the crime of having married you before they could.
Martin: I'm..70% sure that's not true, but every sentence we speak, we stray further from even pretending to be on topic. So, to everybody listening, this is the itty bitty episode! Basically, we're only doing small wonders and user submissions. If you want details or backstory for things we like, too bad, come back next week. Jon, I believe you're first this week?
Jon: Oh, right. My first small wonder is cat names.
Martin: Delightful, but unsurprising. Though, I would've expected either more or less specificity. Why cat names as opposed to pet's names in general, or, like, military title names?
Jon: Well that's simple enough. I've simply never met a misnamed cat, even if the name itself wasn't to my personal tastes, and I think that speaks to the wonderful universality of cats.
Martin: This, of course, implies that you have met animals that were misnamed.
Jon: Oh, I have. I once met a papillion dog named Meatball.
Martin: Now I know you don't like food names in general for pets, but are you sure that Meatball didn't suit the dogs personality? I've known some "Meatballs" in my lifetime.
Jon, only half-mock offended: Of course it didn't fit, Martin. She was a lady. A nervous, jittery lady, but a lady nonetheless.
Martin, laughing: And what, you've never met a dignified cat with an undignified name, or vice versa? Would you be okay with our cat being named Meatball?
Jon: I would be upset if our cat was named Meatball, because we named her and we're above that sort of thing, but, technically speaking, she could have been Meatball in another lifetime and it wouldn't have been wrong. You see, all cats are a mix of both extremely austere and little baby idiot.
Martin: Oh, is that the scientific terminology?
Jon: It is. Now, while there's probably some amount of, er, normative determinism or confirmation bias or something that results in a cat with a more dignified name seeming to possess more of that austerity, as all cats have both, any name can, potentially, fit. Hence why it's wonderful.
Martin: I..accept your proposal for now, but I think more research needs to be done. Maybe we should visit the shelter this weekend and test your hypothesis.
Jon: Hmm. I think we may need to visit multiple shelters, actually. A large sample size is necessary for any sort of veracity, obviously.
Martin, imitating Jon tone: Obviously.
Jon: Glad you agree. What's your first small wonder?
Martin: Tofu!
Jon: I..didn't realize you liked that much?
Martin: Well, I don't get it very often since I know you can't stand the texture, even though it is not like 'worse scrambled eggs', and you're a horrible food thief-
Jon: Lies and slander. We readily share. If I'm a horrible food thief, you have committed the exact same, if not worse, crime as myself.
Martin: Well, we are thick as thieves.
Jon, groaning: You're thick as something alright
Martin: Rude! My beloved husband-
Jon: -uh huh-
Martin: whom I love and trust with my most tender of hearts-
Jon: -an oddly cannibalistic turn of phrase-
Martin, badly suppressing laughter: Oh, my god. I want a divorce, then I can put tofu in as many dishes as I like. I'll triple my protein intake.
Jon: It'd never go through. I'll burn the papers. No, wait, I'll burn down the legal offices where the papers are kept.
Martin: Hmm. While my experiences with it have been, uh, varied to say the least, I do have to admit that arson is one of the more attractive crimes of passion. I suppose I'll take you back.
Jon, flat: I'm so very grateful.
Jon, genuine: You do have yet to actually tell me why you think tofu is wonderful, love.
Martin: It's just a good food! It's neutral enough that you can toss it in pretty much anything with a sauce, you can bake it, you can fry it, whatever. Plus it's what? two? Three quid? I spent many years of my life living off the cheapest, saltiest approximation of noodles you could imagine, and half a pack of tofu, a little bit of sesame oil, and some green onions went a long way to both making it more filling and less sad.Â
Martin: Plus, I feel like it often gets decried for being something it's not? It's so often viewed as a meat substitute or the vegan alternative option, and so when people try it, they often go in with a false preconceived notion of what it's going to be like, and then end up disappointed. They're all like, 'ugh, this doesn't taste like turkey!' and yeah, of course it doesn't. It's the oatmeal raisin cookie of the protein world, a perfectly good and tasty treat on its own, but if you want chocolate chip, it's not gonna work.
Jon: Martin you don't even like oatmeal raisin. I'm the only one that ever eats them out of the multipacks.
Martin: Well, yeah, but I don't like oatmeal raisin because of its flavor, not because I think it should be chocolate chip and fails. It illustrates my point. Also, just for balance, is your next small wonder oatmeal raisin cookies?
Jon: No, though, maybe one of these weeks. They are good. But no, um, my next small wonder is being married.
Martin, let out a high bark of a laugh: Being married is a small wonder?!
Jon: Small wonders doesn't mean a lack of importance! Or even significance in our lives. Half the time we even end up spending just as much time chattering on about them as the things we actually research. But, yes, I didn't feel like researching the concept of being married. For one, a lot of the history of it is depressing and patriarchal, and for two, it's not something I really feel any need to elaborate on. Being married. I very much enjoy it. I recommend it for anybody that's found someone that they want to marry, and who wants to marry them. I really recommend being married to Martin Blackwood, I think I would enjoy it significantly less if it was to anybody else, but one: we typically try to make the wonderful things in this show  applicable to more than just ourselves, and two: I got there first, so I believe the appropriate thing to say here would be; neener neener and/or everyone else can go suck it, Ollie.
Martin: Well...
Jon: Well, what?
Martin: Saying you got there first is technically not true-
Jon: What?!
Martin, laughing like a bastard: Sorry, sorry! Couldn't resist! Jon, you already know that you're my first real realationship, how would be married before fit that?
Jon: Hence my surprise at the notion! I cannot believe you! I give you my trust, my earnestness, and belief-
Martin [only laughs harder]
Jon: and you throw it in my face for a bit. I take back everything, being married is a nightmare, because sometimes your partner thinks he a fucking comedian and you just have to put up with him because you love him and want to live the rest of your life with him or some such nonsense. Not worth it, if you ask me. My turn to ask for the divorce.
Martin: Babe, hate to break it to you, but both of us are guilty of doing bits that the other doesn't like, it's an integral part of a healthy marriage, and secondly, you knew who I was long before I proposed. You should've said no when you had the chance.
Jon: Hang on, you proposed?
Martin: Yeah? This isn't part of a bit, of course I proposed. I'm even pretty sure you were there. The whole visit back to Scotland trip? I finally made you a sweater and said it was because we would now be immune to the boyfriend curse?
Jon: No, no, I remember all that, but it wasn't the proposal. It was a reaffirmation of the proposal. We had already decided to get married.
Martin: Well, yeah,, I wasn't just gonna spring that on you, we had had conversations beforehand-
Jon:Â No, I mean, I had already proposed. I asked you to marry me a good three years earlier, and you said yes, which is a proposal by any definition that I know.
Martin: Jon, love, darling, apple of my eye, fire of my soul, I mean this in the nicest way possible, what the everloving fuck are you talking about?
Jon: In the ambulance ride when we, uh, moved here. It was the thing I said to you the second I saw your eyes were open.
[An audible pause is left in the recording.]
Martin: That does not count.
Jon: How does it not count?! I asked you to marry me, you very emphatically said yes, that's the de facto definition of an accepted marriage proposal!
Martin: It doesn't count because you were half-delirious with blood-loss, and I had a traumatic brain injury that the hospital was very surprised I made a full recovery from. No court in the world would consider anything we said then more than pain driven ramblings, let alone, I dunno, contractually binding.
Jon: Well, I knew what I was saying well and clear. Just because it was desperate doesn't mean it wasn't sincere. I didn't realize that you weren't as cognizant when you accepted.
Martin, snorting: Yeah, didn't really need to be cognizant to say yes. I've wanted to marry you since the train ride to Scotland.
Jon: Wait, really? Martin, we hadn't even been on a date.
Martin: And yet we were on the lamb together, which I honestly think is more romantic than sitting in some restaurant somewhere trying to get through icebreakers. Also, back up, from your perspective we've been engaged since 2019? What did you think we were doing in the interim?
Jon: Uhh..
Martin: Yes?
Jon: There are people that have long engagement periods, and it's not exactly like we were in any sort of position to get married for awhile. Especially not that first year.
Martin: Okay? And?
Jon: And..I sort of thought you had changed your mind. For awhile. Was rather surprised that you kept living with me, considering that, on the worst nights, I was convinced you were going to storm off and leave me forever any minute now. Hence why your proposal was rather relieving.
Martin: Oh, Jon, love. That is so very ridiculous, and so very you, and so very close to many of my own fears and doubts. Do you have any idea how terrified I was to float the idea of marriage to you? Half the time I was convinced I was just meant to keep you company until you found someone better. And, Christ, we'd, from your perspective, been engaged the whole damn time. Fuck.
[Jon, after a beat, starts laughing. It has a slightly hysterical edge to it. Martin joins in. It takes a minute for the laughter to subside enough for them to speak again.]
Jon: I'm rapidly realizing that our entire romantic relationship would've been, if not more successful, a hell of a lot faster if we weren't both complete fools.
Martin: You're realizing that now? I think I've known that since the CV incident. I've definitely known it since the Lonely.
Jon, with a slightly tired chuckle:Yes, yes, something probably should've tipped me off earlier. Shockingly, observation of our own personal romantic trends is not always a strong suit of mine.
Jon: Anyway, please tell me you have another small wonder, this has gotten wildly of track.
Martin: Since we're talking about marriage anyway, I think my next small wonder is having a shared reference in your wedding vows. Our friends had "I have been, and always shall be, your friend" in theirs, and I made Jon cry with a slightly altered Lord of the Rings quote in ours.
Jon: First off, we were both openly weeping long before that point, secondly, I defy anybody to have been through half of what we have and then have the love of their life look them in the eyes and tell them "Leave you? I never intend to. I am going with you, if you climb to the moon" without at least tearing up.
Martin: There wasn't a dry eye in the audience, either. Granted, the audience was only 20 people, but that was also literally the only time I've seen Eloise show a strong emotion, so I'm pretty smug about it.
Martin, soft: I still feel exactly the same, you know. If you're climbing to the moon, I'll make sure the rope is strong enough for two.
Jon, soft: I know, love.
Jon: Though, to be fair, the moon is also significantly more pleasant than many places we've been.
Martin: God, I hate how much that's true. Look at this barren, oxygenless rock, at least it's not actively trying to kill us. Practically a honeymoon location.
[Martin sighs]
Martin: I am so tired. Let's do the user submissions then take a very long nap.
Jon: Please.
Martin: So, first submission is from Josie; They find it wonderful getting cards from their friends. They say they're lucky to have so much love in their life and have friends that care enough to send them things. That is wonderful Josie! We have a drawer in our house dedicated to every loving card we've ever received since the move, and they're always such a nice reminder of the people in our lives.
Jon: We should really organize that drawer, but, yes, agree with the sentiment. Even the cards from people that are no longer in our lives are lovely, I think. Those connections are very much meaningful for both of us, whether they're active or not.
Martin: That's very true. Next submission is from Lys, who submits the sound of leaves crunching under your feet in the fall. Ah, that's a classic.
Jon: I just felt myself relax imagining it. I wish it was autumn.
Martin: Don't we all? Alright, for the last submissions, I'm grouping them together as they follow a similar theme. Jadwiga submits the feeling of waking up well into the morning with the sun shining through the window and your cat laying next to you, and Oran submits when a dog falls asleep with its head in your lap.
Jon: I can heartily recommend at least one of those, considering that's how we try to wake up most mornings. The Duchess is a dutiful darling girl who spends every night with us, and she's usually still there when us humans rise.
Martin: I bet you'll agree with the other when I finally convince you to get me a dog for my birthday.
Jon: It hasn't happened yet, so I wouldn't hold your breath.
Martin: But you don't even dislike dogs! You're just as happy to pet them when they pass by as I am.
Jon: Being fine with an animal isn't the same thing as wanting to adopt one for yourself! We don't even know if The Duchess would put up with a dog.
Martin: I bet she would. I bet we could get a big senior dog who's the calmest animal you've ever met with those soft eyes and a little grey on the muzzle and she would cuddle up in an instant. And we did say we should visit a shelter or three this weekend..
Jon: I think you're rather callously taking advantage of my exhausted state, but I suppose we can look.Â
Martin: Hell fuckin yeah. So, I think that'll close out the episode, and as we always say at the end, uh, go take a nap and get a dog. Not necessarily in that order.
#wonderful! au#jonmartin#tma#jon sims#martin blackwood#my fic#thank you to everyone that submitted!!!#also; i am offically out of ideas for installments#more may come later but i make no promises!
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No One Else
Summary:Â Jaskier hates winters and he hates Yule time, especially.
How is he supposed to spend the holidays with his loved one when his heart is in the Blue Mountains, tucked away safe in Kaer Morhen?
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Jaskier hasn't spent many Yule holidays with people he cares about, family or otherwise.
As a boy, he remembers a few Yules, but mostly his parents had gone off to bigger, grander Yule celebrations at the homes of other, more influential nobility, leaving Jaskier and his siblings at home. There may have been a few, insincere gifts as a child, but even those tapered off as he grew older. Then he'd been old enough for school and heâd spent...remarkably little time at home, even on the holidays. And then he'd gone off to Oxenfurt and never looked back.
Oxenfurt is more his home than Lettenhove ever was, but his Yules here are still mostly lonely. As a student, he'd been one of the few not to return home for the holidays and had spent most of them, therefore, shut up in his dorm writing and composing as if it were a normal night. As a lecturer? It's not much different, only a nicer set of rooms. There's no point visiting siblings he hasn't seen in years or spending the night down in a tavern with the rest of the sad sacks.
The only person he wants to spend his time with retreats into the mountains every winter and wouldn't stay in Oxenfurt even as a last resort. Jaskier knows, he's offered him lodgings here over the winter before and Geralt has always been quick with a reason he canât accept. Itâs a standing invitation, but Jaskier knows heâll never take him up on it--heâs just lucky Geralt lets him stick around the rest of the year.
This year, they'd parted much earlier than normal. Geralt had been following a contract south and Jaskier had needed to be in Ellander for a festival and things just hadn't lined up. They'd parted before the first leaves had even begun to fall and Jaskier hates that he'd missed so much time with Geralt this year. After all, it's only a matter of time until he decides he's done humoring him and letting him tag along. He's lucky to have squeezed so many years out of the witcher already--each subsequent year is a gift and Jaskier is terrified of when they will finally end.
Either way, he hasn't seen Geralt since before the first turn of fall and he's missing him terribly, not that that's new at all. He always misses Geralt when they're apart, but winters are...harder. The chill reminds him of cool evenings camping under the stars, the snow always inevitably makes him think of Geralt's hair, bright in the sun, the lit holiday candles always glimmer in a way that makes him think of gold eyes in the dark.
Winters have never been Jaskier's favorite season, but missing Geralt makes them so much harder. Yule is always somehow the hight of that pain--the holiday meant to celebrate the year, to be spent with those you love--and Jaskier spends each and every one alone.
There's a knock at the door and Jaskier reluctantly uncurls from brooding in the armchair by the fire and goes to answer to find one of the attendants that runs the building. It's bizarre to have a personal visit in general, but especially on the night of Yule.
"Master Jaskier?" He's...nervous?
"Yes, Nichol?"
"There's ah...someone here to see you? We didn't let him in because you hadn't said--"
"It's fine, Nichol," who could possibly be here to see him? "Send him up, won't you?" He moves as if to close the door, but Nichol doesn't move.
The man shifts from foot to foot. "Y-yes, Master Jaskier. It's just--" Jaskier cocks an eyebrow, "he's--it's a witcher, sir." It's like being thrown headfirst into the Pontar in the middle of spring--ice cold and shocking. Something must be very wrong.
"Is he--" but there's no point in asking this nervous ball of a man about what the witcher looks like or how he is, is there? Jaskier can tell now, the fear hiding in the set of his shoulders. Thatâs not the disposition of someone who could be concerned with the well-being of a witcher. "Give me a moment, I'll follow you down."
Geralt's standing at the desk downstairs, whole and unharmed, and Jaskier lets out a breath he didn't know he'd been holding.
"Geralt!" He turns as Jaskier approaches and the look on his face brings Jaskier up short. There's...something wrong. "Geralt, is everything okay?"
"Hm." It's one of his cagey hums. Jaskier won't be getting an answer out of him anytime soon.
"Well, come on up, anyway. No reason to stand in the hall and talk." The attendant is visably relieved when Geralt hoists his swords back over his shoulder and follows Jaskier back to his rooms. Mentally, he makes a note to have a very strong word with the head attendant about sensitivity training the next time he sees her.
It's silent the entire walk back, which isn't new with Geralt, but Jaskier finds himself a little nervous about it anyway. Whatâs Geralt is going to think? He's never been to Oxenfurt with Jaskier, never seen his rooms, never met the people he works with or the shop owners that know him by name. It's...unsettling. And then there's the reason Geralt's here, which he still hasn't given an answer about.
The door is unlocked, so he shoves it open and ushers Geralt in. He ducks a bit as he passes Jaskier and enters the room and then he...stops. Freezes on the spot. Jaskier freezes in the doorway in response.
"What." He means it as a question, but it comes out taunt and frigid, like an accusation.
"Looks like you," Geralt grunts out after a long moment. Jaskier doesn't know if that's a compliment or not (probably not).
"Sorry, I can--" he starts, already darting forward to clean the loose parchment from the divan, stack the books laying haphazard all over the room, do something.
"No," Geralt interrupts, and Jaskier feels his stomach flip-flop almost unplesantly, "No, this is--it's nice, Jaskier. It's you." And that's...he doesn't know what to do with that.
"Oh," he laughs, just a little strangled, "okay then. Um. Make yourself at home, darling. Sorry there's no Yule decorations I'm...a little unfestive this year.â Heâs never festive, actually, but Geralt doesnât know that. âHave you eaten?" He doesn't wait for Geralt to answer, "of course you haven't. I'll call for something. Won't be more than a moment." He ducks out into the hallway again without waiting for an answer.
He spends the entire walk to the kitchen trying to calm his rapid heartbeat, walk off the nerves that have made their home in the set of his shoulders, the fidget of his fingertips against his thigh. It's just Geralt.
He orders a spread and doesn't let the curious look the cook gives get to him at all as he paces in the hallway and waits for her to finish.
"You know we could send this up for you, Jaskier? No one should have to pace the hallway Yule night." The cook says when she hands the plate over, finally. He smiles at her, only a little tightly.
"Oh, I know Margret, darling. Needed the walk, though. Thank you, love." She 'hm's at him but lets him go, something akin to the noise Geralt makes when he's not buying Jaskier's bullshit. It makes him a little sick, how much he both loves and hates that noise--it sounds wrong coming from someone else's throat.
The walk back to his rooms is both too long and too short--he's worked himself up into a minior frenzy by the time he's at his own door again.
He takes a moment to breathe, eyes closed, before he forces a smile back on his face and pushes through the door. "Food's here," he calls, setting the spread down on the low table in the sitting room. Geralt's nowhere to be found. "Geralt?"
He finds him in the bedroom, the spare shirt of Geralt's that Jaskier nabbed in a moment of weakness earlier just this year to keep him company for the winter in his hand. "Uh, I'm--I'm sorry that's--"
"I thought I'd been a shirt short." His tone is even and neutral and it makes Jaskier want to tear his hair out. Does he care? Does he not? Jaskier canât tell.
"It, um, must have ended up in my pack. I meant to bring it back this spring." The look on Geralt's face says he doesn't believe a word. "Food's here!" he deflects.
"Mm." He allows himself to be redirected and follows Jaskier back into the sitting room, leaving the shirt on the bed. He settles himself on the divan after Jaskier clears him a spot and digs into the meat and cheese spread without a word. As far as Yule meals go, itâs not very traditional, but Jaskierâs sure it doesnât matter. He settles himself on the floor by the table and picks at the spread absently, giving Geralt the time he needs to eat unharassed. He tries not to think about how this is the first Yule he's spent with anyone in any capacity since he was a boy and very determinately does not get emotional over the fact that it's Geralt here with him, even accidentally. He can feel his eyes on him as he plucks at a loose thread on his doublet and tries not to fret.
"Soooo--" he says after Geralt's eaten his fill and leaned back, kicking his legs out in front of him, "--what brings you here to Oxenfurt, Geralt?" He winces immediately, but he's already asked, so-- "Shouldn't you be at Kaer Morhen already?"
Jaskier can already tell he's fucked up.
"I won't stay long," Geralt says, expression blank the way it only is when he's withholding his true reaction.
"I didn't say you couldn't stay, you oaf," Jaskier snaps immediately, tries not to let his irritation get the best of him because he knows what Geraltâs like when he meets anger for frosty frigidity, "I would be deeply offended if you left, actually."
Geralt stares at him, hard. "Iâd be...intruding," he says, no elaboration.
"What? Gods, Geralt, intruding on what? I'm--" he gestures to the expanse of his very empty rooms, "--pretty fucking far from busy, if you hadn't noticed."
Geralt's expression does pinch at that. "I noticed. Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why aren't you--" he pauses, seems to be searching for the right words, "--why aren't you...involved? Doing things. It's Yule, Jaskier, why are you--"
"Alone?" Jaskier interrupts, seeing where this is going. Geralt doesn't say anything, just stares at him, steady. Jaskier sighs, hard. "Who else would I spend winters with, Geralt?"
"I don't know," Geralt says slowly, "I just...I assumed you had someone."
"You assumed I--Geralt. Tell me you didn't think I had some...some lover I'd never told you about waiting for me here in Oxenfurt every winter."
The look on Geralt's face tells him he thought exactly that.
"Melitele's tits, Geralt." Jaskier sighs, breathes in slowly in an attempt to calm himself. "So why are you here, then? Since it's pretty clear you aren't here to take me up on the offer of wintering with me."
Geralt's expression does something complicated Jaskier can't parse before it smooths out into slightly constipated indifference again.
"The passes are snowed in."
And that's-- "Yes, Geralt. I know that," Jaskier says, drawing on the infinite well of patience he seems to only have access to when trying to coax Geralt out of being an obtuse ass. "Why didn't you make it up the mountain before the passses snowed in?"
Geralt visibly swallows. Jaskier can't help but track the bob of his adams apple. "I--" the gust of breath is audible as Geralt sighs, shoulders loosening in something like defeat, "I missed you, Jaskier."
The fire crackles in the hearth. It'll need another log soon. "What?"
Geralt looks like he'd rather be hunting drowners. "I missed you, Jaskier. And I was--I was thinking about coming to see you but I--I couldn't, I wasn't sure--" Jaskier will not faint like some kind of wilting damsel, even if he feels as if he can't get enough air all of a sudden. "--And then the pass was closed and I. I don't--I won't stay if you don't want me to. I'll figure something out."
"Geralt," Jaskier says. It comes out barely audable and he has to clear his throat and try again, "Geralt, love, of course you can stay." Something in Geralt's posture loosens in relief this time, as if he'd still been afraid Jaskier might ask him to leave until that moment, "of course you can. I missed you too."
Something flashes in Geralt's eyes, something that looks a little like surprise. "Oh."
They tip-toe around each other the rest of the evening. Jaskier helps him bring his bags up after a brief visit to Roach during which he slips her a sugar cube he knows Geralt pretends not to see. He gives Geralt space and time to get settled until his armor is off and his bags partially unpacked. They don't really talk until Jaskier realizes he's going to have to either offer Geralt his bed or make up the divan for him. And. Well. He's a weak man, after all.
"Geralt?"
"Hm?" Heâs taking stock of his armor by the fire when Jaskier ambles up beside him to stand at his shoulder. He tries not to fidget, despite the nerves trying to choke him. Thereâs no reason this should be different from any other time theyâve shared lodgings (except of course, it is).
"Going to bed soon, love?"
He stares at his armor just a beat too long before he leans back to look up into Jaskier's face, expression mildly puzzled. "Mm?"
"I--" he can feel his face heat, "I wanted to--to offer to share. You know since I--I don't have--"
"I can sleep on the floor, Jaskier."
"No! No, I--I have plenty of room. And I. I want you in my bed, Geralt." That comes out...not quite the way Jaskier meant it. Or it comes out too honest, actually. He absolutely wants Geralt in his bed like that, he just doesn't think Geralt would want it.
Interestingly, Geralt's cheeks color and he looks away. Jaskier expects him to refuse again. "Okay," he says, soft, and something in Jaskier's chest flutters.
He follows Jaskier into the bedroom and it's...almost normal. Like sharing at an inn, except this is Jaskier's room, Jaskier's space. It's as much a choice as it is a necessity.
The shirt on the bed taunts him. He wants to wear it--has been wearing it--but with Geralt here--
Heâs stolen from his painful reverie when Geralt thrusts the shirt at him, gaze averted.
âWha--â
âWear it,â Geralt rumbles, already slipping into bed, predictably on the side closest to the door. Something warm and bright burns through him. He does as heâs told.
The material falls to roughly mid-thigh. It fits well enough in the shoulders, but Geraltâs slightly longer and bulkier torso means it billows on him a little like a slip. It makes him feel impossibly small and itâs...nice. Even nicer to settle together, not quite touching, and Jaskier reluctantly relaxes. He's drifting comfortably but not quite asleep when Geralt shifts and tucks himself along Jaskier's side, rests his head gently on Jaskier's shoulder and it's suddenly all too much.
"Geralt," he whispers, afraid to break the spell they seem to have fallen under. They are well outside their normal playbook at this point and Jaskier has no idea how to navigate the situation, only knows he wants it to continue, wants Geralt close.
Geralt stiffens and stays still for a beat too long before he starts to pull away.
"No, love," Jaskier corrects immediately, rests his hand on the back of Geralt's neck to keep him close, tangles his fingers in his hair, "no, please stay." Geralt shivers and tucks himself in closer again, eyes resolutely closed.
"Sorry," he says.
"Don't apologize, darling. I'm--I'm happy you're here, you know? I haven't spent a Yule with anyone in a long time." Geralt makes a tiny noise of acknowledgment. He should say it, he should say it. If there's ever been a time it's now, clothed in Geraltâs old shirt, with Geralt curled along his side, the heat of him radiating through the thin material. He presses his lips to the top of Geralt's head and feels him relax slowly. His heart pounds.
"I know you're in love with someone," Geralt breathes, warm against the soft skin of the bard's throat, "I figured it must be someone you had here. But--" Jaskier's breath hitches, "there really is no one else, is there?"
"No," Jaskier says, voice just a little strained.
"Who is it?" It's barely more than a breath.
"Geralt," Jaskier sighs softly.
"Humor me," he murmurs, presses his lips to the exposed skin he can reach. Jaskier's breath punches out of him.
"It's always been you," he says, running his fingers through Geralt's hair. Geralt makes a small noise. He seems...content. Soft and quiet against Jaskier's side.
"I thought it was too good to be true," Geralt says into the dark when Jaskier doesn't think he'll speak again. "Figured there must be someone else." His chest aches.
"It's only been you since I was twenty years old, Geralt," and oh, that's a bizarre feeling, to get that one off his chest. He's very aware of the fact Geralt hasn't said it back, but...he's here, isn't he?
"Idiot," Geralt scoffs, "I should have left you behind at that inn in Posada." To the ear untrained in Geralt-isms, it sounds dismissive, harsh. Jaskier hears the fondness in it, all the things Geralt isnât saying.
"Where would I be without you, witcher?" He breathes, feels the tears prickle at the corner of his eyes.
"Safer," Geralt says, without missing a beat. Jaskier scoffs.
"You know, traditionally Yule visitors bring a gift, not verbally berate their hosts." Geralt snorts a laugh, presses his lips to Jaskier's skin again.
"Mm, thought you might like this gift," Geralt says, spreading a palm above Jaskier's pounding heartbeat.
"Geralt, you did not wait until Yule to come to Oxenfurt so you could make a tasteless joke about gifting me your company, tell me you didn't."
"I didn't," Geralt repeats, but Jaskier can hear the smile in his voice.
"Oh, you are awful," he says, delighted.
"There's also lute strings in my pack for you," he says, "I bought them in case...well. They're yours anyway." Jaskier knows what he means. He bought them in case there had been someone else, in case Geralt had been right.
"Thank you, love," he chokes out past the lump in his throat. It's the first time anyone's gotten him anything for Yule since he was a child. "I'm sorry I don't have anything for you."
"Just you is enough," Geralt breathes into the curve of his throat. Jaskier feels fit to burst.
He may not like winter and he may not care for Yule, but this one? This one's just fine.
#witcher#witcher fic#geraskier#lizard writes#rating: general#SPITE IS A POWERFUL MOTIVATOR#thank u em for saying i couldnt finish this in three days lmao
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Originally I wasnât planning on posting this here, but a friend of mine convinced me. You can also check it out on ao3!
đThe following fic is nsfw. Minors dni.đ
Sacrilege
Summary: Simeon has fallen, but he doesnât view himself as such. No, given the feelings he has towards you, this could only be an ascension; one beyond anything he had in the Celestial Realm, and anything the Devildom could offer. Now he serves no one, only you. His one and only god.
word count: ~5700
â ïžc/w: gore and blood (but Simeon and the reader are fine), yandere!Simeon, sacrilegious themes, blasphemy
Additional note: the reader is gender neutral, and the readerâs genitalia isnât specified
In ao3, I tagged this with Dead Dove: Do not eat. That still applies here. Make sure youâve read over the content warnings before proceeding / interacting.
đAnd once again, minors dni.đ
Fallingâs a strange thing, a concept that Simeon never quite understood. It happened to angels who were wicked, those who sought to undo his fatherâs plan. So they were cut off. From the heavenly host. From their powers. Their wings turned black, and their light faded. Until the only thing left was a darkness, one that sought to consume everything that they once were. They either died or transformed, becoming monsters. Beasts. Demons.
Simeon is none of those things. He didnât fall to oppose his father, nor did he seek to undo any sort of plan. Heâs an author after all, and authors create.
And what could his muse be, other than you?
Your soul is brilliant, a beacon of light amongst everything else in this miserable realm. It took him far too long to see that. But thankfully, his eyes have been opened. And never again shall they shut. In the long span of his existence, heâs seen everything that the universe could offer. Stars. Galaxies. The rise and fall of human civilization itself. Existence itself is always in a state of flux, constantly shifting and warping as things are created and then destroyed.
But you⊠You exist beyond that.
Your soul never tarnishes, nor does it fade when things get rough. Instead, it fights. Nails. Fists. Some would say that itâs barbaric, but Simeon had always found it to be beautiful. Itâs a philosophy that heâs tried to emulate. Words are meaningless, unless they are used to praise you. So now he resorts to action. And well, the saying is true. So perhaps itâs only natural that he uses it to replace his books, that the tales he creates are no longer works of fiction. No, fantasy has lost all meaning now.
Thereâs only you.
You have always inspired him. Even now, Simeon canât help but write poetry about you as he moves. The world that heâs in is dark. Depressing. Very little of it is worthy of being compared to someone as brilliant as you. But that doesnât prevent him from trying.
Today, he starts with a crumbling city. Itâs silence echoes throughout the land, and you are the slight breeze that rushes past his ear. The moon, although unlike its cratered surface, you have no imperfections. No, the dips and grooves along your skin are beautiful. Like the glinting of a knife, the way the metal slices through the air. You have pierced his heart just as easily. But thatâs okay, itâs yours after all.
Itâs a shame that he canât carve out his own and give it to you. That despite everything, he is still limited by this corporeal form. But if he were to be anything else, then you wouldnât be able to look at him. And that would get in the way of his worship. A god must be able to view their subjects after all.
Besides, this new form is perfect for him. Itâs yet another form of his art, a piece that was made specifically for you. His horns. His tail. His cock⊠He considered it all. Like a good follower should.
No one else would be able to do that. They are limited by their pathetic mortal frame. Rats. Parasites. Theyâre unfit to even look upon you. But with another flicker of his knife, they are handled. And he will morph them until something better. Something more suited for you.
The process of creation is a never ending one, especially given the thousands of pieces that heâs working on. Some of them are grand, and others are small. But all of them are for you. How else would he pay tribute?
Thereâs a gust of wind. Your arrival is soon. He can sense it. It comes with everything that is right. The sun peaking over the clouds. Starlight reflecting off of a lake. The rippling of water as it reveals the creatures that lurk within its depths. The sound of laughter, followed by the blessed silence that heâs come to adore. That is who you are. An omen of things to come. The others say you are bad, but Simeon knows better. It is impossible for you to be anything other than good.
For you are greater than the heavens, and the earth itself. His father was nothing, but youâ
Thereâs a scream as Simeon feels blunt nails dig into his arm. Itâs followed by a shove, and footsteps frantically scrambling away from him. ...How annoying.
His latest sacrifice had just ruined his internal monologue. And it was going to be such a good one too. What a shame. If only he had a pen and paper nearbyâŠ
They donât travel far. Thereâs another sound, although this one is a plea. Simeon silences it with a crunch, and tsks when he looks at his hands. That was messier than he had intended, but it looks like no longer needs any ink. An amused chuckle falls from his lips. Would you like that? Poetry written in the blood of your enemies, the very nonbelievers who seek to destroy the world that the two of you are trying to create?
...Perhaps thatâs something to try next time. Right now, he has something more important to focus on. Heâs still in the process of creation after all, and heâs not finished decorating. Thankfully this⊠creature (it canât be a human, for nothing could compare to you) should provide him with the rest of the materials that he needs. So Simeon gets to work.
This too is a form of art, and one he would never have considered before. But he has expanded beyond quills and parchment. Now he builds sculptures out of the very people who would defy you. Those who are unworthy of being graced with your presence. They are broken down, and fashioned into a suitable idol.
Another splash of crimson. The breaking of bones. Wire. Nails. And then itâs done. Your new altar is complete. Simeon takes a step back, appraises his work, and grins. Itâs perfect.
Fresh blood drips off of it, reminding him of rain, the way it softly drizzles and brings life to those around it. This is a form of life as well, one that does nothing but speak of your greatness. The various limbs that have been tacked and strung above it make a rainbow, an icon of the color you have given this dull and drab world. Maybe one day youâll be able to color it all. But the best part about it is when you stand away, when you view his masterpiece from a distance. It takes the shape of a heart, one that resembles his own. And it exists entirely for you.
The wind picks up, howling in his ears, and he knows that you are here. Once you enter the room, Simeon falls to his knees. He doesnât have to stay there for long; itâs simply a gesture of formality, one that reminds you of how important you truly are.
âYou may rise.â
He follows the command without hesitation. Your voice is a melody. A soothing tone that seeps into his bones and leaves him feeling lighter. It truly is an act of kindness that youâve allowed him to stand as your equal, if only for a brief moment. But he will be on his knees again soon enough.
He canât wait.
A sigh falls from your lips once you notice the various remains that litter the floor. âThose were supposed to be the new recruits. I guess none of them were willing?â
Simeon nods. âThey were all unworthy of you.â
âA shame.â Your eyes then roam over his altar. He awaits your response with trepidation. ...Do you like it?
But as always, thereâs no need for him to voice his question. Like the god you are, you already answer it with a grin. Your power, your majesty, truly knows no bounds. âYouâve found a better use for them though. Iâm pleased.â
A shiver runs down Simeonâs spine. Your approval means everything. It is the air that fills up his lungs and allows him to breath. He feels incredibly lucky, to be blessed with such a thing.
It only inspires him to work even harder for what comes next. There is no church here, nor is there a temple. But those measly little things are unneeded. Your body outshines it all. And that is what he shall worship.
A strike of a bell, and then Simeon kneels before you once as you sit upon your handmade throne. It begins now. Sacrament. He licks his lips in anticipation.
You are an image, perched atop yet another one of his creations. Although this one is his favorite. Thereâs no flesh or bone, only gold. Treasure that he had stolen from the Celestial Realm and the Devildom alike. Melting it was difficult, but the result was definitely worth it. For now you have a throne, one that suits your majesty.
It makes him feel small, as it should. Your presence is grand, a shining iridescent star amongst the blank canvas that heâs created. And itâs reflected in his eyes once you beckon him forward.
He delicately peels each and every garment off of you, savoring the sight of your body as itâs slowly revealed to him. Heâs seen it before, yet you never fail to take his breath away. Every hair, every scar, all of the dips and grooves that make up who you are; Simeon loves it all. How could he not?
Beauty takes the form of your legs, the way they spread open before him. Magnificent is the sight that greets him, your most intimate parts bare now before his gaze. Adoration is what he feels when you whisper his name and guide his head forward. And divinity, well... that is what you taste like.
He dives in with enthusiasm. You immediately grab onto his horns, and pull him in closer. Simeon groans. Theyâre handles after all, ones that he made specifically for you. To tug. To control. He is but a follower, and you are a god. One that will never fail to help him find the right path.
And everything about this, the taste of your essence on his tongue, is right.
Every noise that you make spurs him on. This is what you deserve. The pleasure that courses through your veins. The moans that fall from your lips. Itâs a shame that he canât give you more, not yet at least. One day the world will be yours, but until then⊠an orgasm will have to do.
You cum with a cry, one that could shake the very heavens itself. A part of him hopes that they've heard you, but the other knows that they are unworthy of such a thing. He laps up each and every drop. It would be a sin to allow any of it to spill. Nothing you create should ever go to waste. Especially when itâs this good.
Once your orgasm ends, he pulls away, giving you a moment to collect yourself. Itâs a shame that he cannot taste you forever; that like all good things, it must come to an end. But his worship of you is far from over. No, the two of you have only just begun.
Your eyes meet, and Simeonâs tongue lolls out, wiping away the spare traces of your cum. A chuckle, then you gently pat his head. âSuch a good boy Simeon. Youâve improved.â
Pleasure shoots down his spine the moment you praise him. This is what heâs after. This is the reason he exists. To serve you. To please you. Your fingers begin to run through his hair, and a moan falls from his lips as he leans into your touch.
âYou remember what comes next, donât you?â
Of course. His worship of you is a form of art, one that he has practiced over and over again. Simeon nods, and then finally removes the last of his clothing.
His cock springs free. Itâs hard. Leaking. He wants you, as always. But how could he not? Your visage is the most beautiful thing that heâs ever seen. Your voice rolls through his mind like honey. He loves you.
Itâs normal of course, for a follower to love their god. Yet even the word itself feels unsatisfactory. One day heâll have to create a new one. But until then, love will have to suffice. Besides, he has better ways to show his devotion. Actions speak louder than words after all. So despite the desire that courses through him, he doesnât even make an attempt to touch himself. His own pleasure is unimportant. The only thing that matters is you.
So instead he stays on his knees. Where he belongs. He starts with your ankle, placing feather light kisses along each one as his mouth slowly works his way up to your calf. You gasp once he reaches your thighs, and then the next part of sacrament begins: creation.
In the past he created galaxies. Stars. Nebulas. Simeon had the luxury of forming several of them before that task was given to someone else. But thanks to you, he can perform it once more. Only this time the materials are different. Instead of creating constellations in the sky, he makes them on your body.
Today he starts with the Big Dipper. He lightly suckles on your thighs, mapping out each and every star, and once that constellation is done, he moves onto another. Caenis Major. Orion. Cygnus. Your body looks even more breathtaking like this, so he adds a few more. These ones are new, ones that he just made up. They have yet to have a name, but for now⊠Consecratio will have to do. Perhaps heâll be able to come up with a more official title for them later.
Your name falls from his lips, along with a moan, and something inside of him slips. He falls even further into your depths. Beautiful. Youâre so beautiful. His name never sounded so pretty; but everytime you say it, he can feel his cock begin to swell. He is the one you want. The only being that makes you feel like this, and the only one that ever will.
You are his god.
Blood rushes through him, staining his cheeks, hardening his cock even further. In the haze of his own mind, his mouth parts from your skin, and his fingers enter you instead.
You mewl at the intrusion. This isnât how things are supposed to go. This step comes later on, yet Simeon canât wait. He wants to see you cum once more. To hear your praise as he pleasures you beyond your own comprehension.
Perfect. Stunning. Simeon adds another finger, his gaze fixed on your expression and nothing else. Finding that spot within you is easy. He had memorized its location long ago as proof of his devotion. Each and every part of your body has been mapped out, a never ending piece of parchment that he keeps in his head. In truth, Simeon has never been much of a navigator. But your body is the only thing that he needs to know.
You moan once again. Youâre close, Simeon can feel it. Although heâs neglected to take his own pleasure into account. Heâs close as well.
Simeon hasnât even laid a hand on himself, yet his own noises grow louder. Every gasp. Every groan. Knowing that heâs able to do this to you spurs him on, his cock aching from how much it desires you. Yet your image drowns all of that out.
His peak arrives, but he never gets to fully reach it. Instead, your hand clenches around the base of his cock, preventing him from cumming.
âYouâre getting ahead of yourself. Recite your scripture as punishment.â
His labored breathing echoes across the room, and Simeonâs eyes widen once he realizes his mistake. He was being selfish, allowing his own pleasure to get in the way of yours. Lust is a vise that he should have had better control of. He was a fool to let it get in the way of his love, so he accepts your punishment with grace.
Magic soon replaces your hand, creating a cockring that now leaves your fingers free to move up and down along his shaft. His breathing stutters, but heâs thankful for the intervention. More of your magic curls around his body, brushing up against his skin. Itâs a sign of whatâs to come, yet he shoves that excitement aside, or tries to at least.
Simeon frowns. The cockring was sorely needed. It makes sure that he doesnât forget about whatâs truly important. No matter what, he isnât allowed to cum before you. The only sin that exists is putting his pleasure before your own. Yes, he deserves to be punished for this. His devotion towards you never should have wavered.
So he opens his mouth, and speaks; his voice not faltering despite the way your hand moves across his shaft. âThe steadfast love of you, my god, never ceases. Your mercies never come to an end. They are new every morning.â
You press one of your fingers against his slit, smearing some of his precum along the head of his cock. A shudder runs down Simeonâs spine. Your touch is a blessing, one that he can never get enough of. But he cannot focus on it. No. The pleasure is unimportant. You must be worshipped.
âThereâs no greater love other than this: to lay down my life for you.â
He focuses on the words instead, and on everything that they entail. He would gladly die for you. In both this timeline, and any of the other ones that follow. The universe is full of constants: gravity, matter, humanity itself, and the devotion that he feels towards you. Those are all things that shall exist in every universe.
No matter what, Simeon loves you. And he will die and fall as many times as he needs in order to prove it. Although heâs never met any of his alternate selves, he already knows that itâs true. His love cannot be contained in any vessel. It flows throughout time and space, and every spec of it is dedicated towards you and you alone.
Your hand leaves his cock. Simeon feels it twitch under the absence of your touch. A part of him wants to whine, but he holds that in. He refuses to sin once more, to tarnish his reputation as your most devout follower. So he simply continues reciting the words that heâs come to know by heart.
Indeed, youâre no longer stroking him. But thatâs only because your hands have wondered elsewhere. A finger traces the rim of his ass, and it doesnât take Simeon long to put two and two together. Ah. He had neverâ
You enter him. Slowly but surely, although thereâs no resistance. Another one quickly joins it. Your fingers are slick from his precum and some of your own spit, not to mention your magic⊠It widens him, making lube unnecessary. Not that he would ask for any. No, heâs being punished right now. This is simply another example of your benevolence.
The feeling is strange, but he continues. âI give thanks to you, for everything about you is good. Our love endures forever.â
Your fingers havenât stopped moving. Theyâre searching around for something, although Simeon doesnât know what you're looking for. Thereâs nothing left of him to find. You have seen it all.
âAnd I know that in all things, you do good for those who love you, who have been called according to your purpose.â
And then you brush up against a spot inside of him, one that has him seeing stars. Heâs unable to stop the surprised âOh!â that falls from his mouth, or the way he tries to fuck himself on your hand. Thankfully that was the last verse, so thereâs no harm in letting another mewl spill from his throat.
You laugh. Itâs a beautiful sound, one that Simeon is blessed to hear. âWhat a good little follower. If you beg for me, Iâll let you cum.â
He wants to. To immediately get on his knees and beg for you to fuck him, as you take away the last shred of innocence that he has. Ah, but take isnât the right word. Give. He would give it all to you. That purity is nothing more than a cocoon, one heâs been working on shedding himself of. It only gets in the way of loving you. Besides, how could he perform his tasks if he was worried about heavenâs definition of sin? No, thereâs too much work to be done. And what heâs doing is okay. Youâve told him so.
Submitting to the desire that's coursing through him would be easy, but this is a test. One that he refuses to fail. Worshiping you takes precedence. It always does. âNo. I wish to pick up where we left off. My only desire is to pleasure you.â
You flash him a smile, one more brilliant than the sun. âYour devotion truly is admirable. Weâll begin our worship again shortly. But first, Iâm going to fuck you like this, okay? Remember the feeling of my fingers Simeon. Because next time, youâre going to cum around them and nothing else. Do you understand?â
Next time. Heâll be ready then. And you will finally own all of him. He canât wait. âYes, my beloved. Iâll do as you ask.â
You hum in approval, and then your fingers start moving once more. Pleasure courses through him, and he bites his lip as he smothers his gasp. You are everything. This is everything.
âI donât want you to hold back Simeon. Let me hear you.â
Of course. This is a form of devotion too. How could he have forgotten that? A high pitched moan immediately falls from his lips. Words are hard, but Simeon still manages to speak. You wanted to hear his voice after all.
âGâGood. So good.â
Another finger gets added. Somehow the pleasure increases. His cock aches. Itâs hard and weeping, yet he doesnât care. The pleasure that you have shown him outshines it all. And he never wants this moment to end.
His mind is slowly becoming blank, the fog of lust threatening to consume his every thought. But Simeon shoves it all aside. Vocal. He has to focus on being vocal.
You briefly pull out. A fourth finger teases at his entrance, and your voice coos into his ear, âCan you handle more?â
More. The possibility excites him. He had no idea that it was an option. But he will do it. Of course he will. As your follower, itâs his duty to handle every inch of you. Thatâs why he created this vessel in the first place. And Simeon leaps at each and every opportunity to put it to the test.
He has to think, to piece the fragile bits of his mind together in order to form a response. But as soon as he comes close to making one, the magical ring around his cock vibrates. Itâs slow, a low thrum thatâs incredibly unsatisfying, yet it leaves him shivering all the same.
Itâs a warning. He still canât cum after all, and unless he performs well⊠he may never be able to. A response. You need one now. âFuck. Y-Yes I can handle more.â
And like the benevolent god you are, you give him exactly that. Yes, youâre so wide inside of him. He didnât even know that it was possible to feel this full. That his body could accommodate this much. And the fact that one of your limbs is inside of him... Simeon keens.
Truly, heâs unworthy of such a thing. Your fingers, your hand, should be elsewhere. That you would even consider touching him there is already enough to make him cum. Thankfully the cockring is still in place, so the pleasure never has to end.
He focuses on the shape of your hand, the dip and groove of each finger; the way it scrapes against his walls as you slam into him. Your pace is rough. Brutal. Heavenly. His mind goes hazy underneath it all. No. He canât let this consume him. This is only a preview of whatâs to come, and you are gracious enough to give it to him.
Itâs another test. But this one⊠Oh, this one is his favorite.
Another wave of pleasure. Heâs a shivering mess, one that can do nothing more than scream for you. Time itself has no meaning. Thereâs only this; the fullness that you provide, and the love behind each and every gesture that you make. He mewls out your name once more, and then itâs over.
Heâs repented for his mistakes.
Your fingers⊠no it was your fist, pulls out of him. Simeon briefly whines at the loss. He falls to the floor, and then you place that very same hand in front of his lips. He lavishes it with kisses, and groans. More. He needs more.
And he knows that there will be more to come. Itâs all a part of his worship after all. The taste of your inevitable union will be even stronger, richer. This is but a treat, a kind dessert that you have gifted him. The real meal comes later on. But Simeon is willing to wait. Once heâs finished lapping at your hands, he moves to your altar and lays himself upon it.
This is his final offering. His body is yours to use as you see fit.
You get up. Although Simeon cannot see it, he hears your bare feet walking across the abandoned chapelâs floor. There is no choir, but the ex-angel wants to sing when you impale yourself upon him.
A purr leaves your throat. âYou feel perfect.â
Heâs glad. Like his horns, his cock is made for you. Every ridge, every bump, was created to maximize your pleasure. No toy will ever compare. Simeon made sure of that.
You begin to move. He allows you to set the pace as his nails dig into your thigh. Perfect. You fit perfectly around him. He feels an incredible amount of pride as you gasp and moan with the rise and fall of your hips. Out of all of the offerings that heâs made, his mortal form is definitely the best. The flush of your cheeks proves it.
The magic around his cock finally loosens, and you clench around him. Simeonâs climax quickly follows your own. The tangling of tongues. The squirting of cum. He finished inside of you, but you donât remain on his softening cock for long. No, you pull yourself off of him, and Simeon watches as his cum flows out of you.
He licks his lips. This is it. The moment that heâs been waiting for. His favorite part of worship.
Your voice is a command, one that never fails to send a shiver down his spine. âClean up.â
He immediately begins lapping at your dripping hole. The taste of your cum has melded into his own. Your union has created this, the most delicious thing that Simeon has ever consumed. The essence of a god flows into his mouth, along with the proof that he was the one who had pleasured you. And now it is inside of him. A bond that cannot be broken. He hungers for more.
Simeon lewdly moans as his tongue reaches deeper and deeper into you, searching for every bit of his cum that he can find. Noises fall from your mouth, but like always, he drowns them out with his own. This is a feast, one that the Celestial Realm could never recreate. Their food pales in comparison. Simeon doesnât understand how he was able to stomach it before.
Another orgasm ripples through you, and he keens as he consumes each and every drop. Were he in a more poetic mood, he would compare it to ambrosia, but he can write verses about you another time. Instead, he focuses on completing this final act. It doesnât take long. Once heâs thoroughly licked every trace of cum off your body, he pulls away with a grin. You pat his head, and Simeon hums as he leans into your touch.
âI love you.â
The words sound beautiful coming from your mouth. Itâs something that youâve said before. A sentence that led to this exact moment, and many others like it. Yet heâll never tire of hearing it, of knowing that he has earned those very words time and time again.
âI love you as well. My god. My beloved. And one day, the world will love you too.â
The two of you embrace. And in your arms, Simeon comes up with ideas for his next altar. Itâs sure to take everyoneâs breath away. Itâll be bigger than the last one. More limbs. More blood. Wires. Nailsïżœïżœïżœ Ah, heâs already getting excited.
Itâs amazing; how quickly you inspire him, and all it takes is a hug. You truly are an excellent muse, one that he hopes to be completely worthy of someday. But until then, he is simply an author. An artist. One that exists to worship you.
Eventually you take your leave. Thereâs work to be done after all, especially for a god such as yourself. And although Simeon longs for your embrace⊠that just makes it more precious when it actually occurs. Besides, he wants his creations to be a surprise, and itâs impossible for that to happen if youâre looking over his shoulder. So the two of you part. And like the quiet whisper of the wind, youâre gone.
The silence doesnât last long. Itâs interrupted by the ringing of his phone. A number shows up on his screen, one that he hadnât seen in an incredibly long time. He had tried to block it ages ago, but eventually gave up. Technology still confuses him. ...Some things never quite change.
He accepts the call, and Luciferâs voice greets him. âSimeon.â
He hadnât heard it in awhile. The manâs tone sounds deeper than he remembered, and itâs entirely different from your own. The contrast throws him for a loop, if only briefly. Simeon clears his throat. For some reason he doesnât hang up.
âYes?â
âThis has to stop. The two of you are upsetting the balance. If this continues, then Lord Diavolo will intervene.â
A threat. Of course that would be why he called. But Simeon doesnât care. No one can stop either of you, including the most powerful demons in the Devildom. Your love transcends beyond that. ...Itâs a shame that Lucifer still is unable to comprehend what the two of you are trying to achieve.
A part of Simeon canât help but feel disappointed at the reminder. âPerhaps heâll join us. Youâre welcome to as well, of course.â
âNo. What your doing is wrong. You know that, donât you?â
âIâm simply serving my god.â
âThey are just a human, Simeon. And can easily be replaced. There are billionsââ
Anger rushes through him; the intensity of it causing him to crack his phoneâs screen. His grip loosens, but the rage still festers within him. How dare he.
âWatch your tongue, lest I rip it out of you next time we meet.â
A pause. The silence seems awkward, sad almost. Lucifer eventually breaks it. â...I see I am too late. The others are right. You have fallen. And unlike me, youâve had no family to help put you back together again.â
âI donât need one. I have my god, and they have been by my side through thick and thin. What have you done for me, Lucifer?â
Silence. No other answer is needed.
After a minute or two Lucifer sighs. âI must report my failure to Lord Diavolo. You have exactly 48 hours before he arrives. Use them wisely.â
Thereâs a click, and then the number vanishes from his screen. Lucifer must have hung up. Yet his words echo around in Simeonâs head.
You have fallen. It makes him want to laugh. There is nothing wrong about this. The love that he feels towards you cannot be tainted, nor will it ever waver. For you have given him something that heâs never had before: Freedom. From the Celestial Realm, from his boring day to day life. Simeon had not truly lived until he abandoned it all in favor of following you. No, this was an ascension. One that everyone is too foolish to understand. And Diavolo seeks to destroy everything that youâve built. But thatâs okay, Simeon has a plan.
A few magic circles⊠some stolen holy relics⊠and even the future Demon King can be captured. So when he comes, Simeon will be ready, and the foolish prince will walk right into a trap.
A manic giggle bursts from his mouth. This is perfect.
Diavolo will be made to see, like so many others before him. Itâs impossible not to after all, given how grand you are. Ah, but Simeon will deny him the privilege of serving you. No matter what, you will only ever have one follower. Diavolo can beg and plead as much as he likes, but he will never get to feel your touch. He hasnât earned the right, and he never will. Once he has served his purpose, he will be disposed of, just like the rest.
Simeon grins. In truth, The world doesnât even need to have people in it. A god does not require subjects in order to be considered such. So why bother expanding your little cult, when no one else will ever be able to serve you like him?
You are his. His human. His god. His everything. And no one is going to get in the way of that. This realm will be made into something that is worthy of you, even if he has empty it himself. But once every single creature is gone, and he is the only being left... Then the world truly will love you, wonât it?
#obey me#omnsfw#minors dni#obey me simeon#fallen!Simeon#simeon x mc#simeon x reader#the reader is gender neutral#my writing!#sacrilege
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Kaeya and/or Diluc with the banter prompt "don't tempt me" or "you didn't answer my question"
thank u eternally dear anon for giving me the always-appreciated opportunity to write some kaeluc >:} (send me one of these prompts and a genshin character!)
make me melt again - T - 2k
tags: stranded on a desert island, no i havenât done the event stuff yet, idk if we even get to that part by the time i post this, but i was inspired, kaeluc reconciliation, canon divergence
[read on ao3]
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âYou didnât answer my question.â
âWhich one? Youâve asked an incessant number of them over the past-â Diluc cuts his words off there. Past how long? The sun has set, of course, so he can be relatively certain that some hours have passed, but the exact number is as yet undeterminable.
And Kaeya is doing his best to make it feel eons longer.
âHave you even been paying attention?â Kaeya chides, coughs out a laugh. How heâs finding this amusing, Diluc isnât entirely certain. This is very far from enjoyable, though he supposes it isnât the worst situation heâs ever ended up in.
âI tend to tune out when you speak,â Diluc says as he glances over the fire to where Kaeya watches him, brow quirked.
âHardly an afternoon on a deserted island, and youâre already rather feisty,â Kaeya says with a laugh. âHow long until you raise a sword against me again?â
Itâs the again that does it, that snaps Dilucâs neutral, unbothered composure. His jaw tics with irritation - of all the people to end up stuck on an island with, it had to be Kaeya, didnât it? The one person among an entire world who happens to be particularly adept at pushing his buttons.
âYouâre welcome to reminisce to your heartâs content,â he grits out, âbut I have little interest in rehashing the past.â There is a reason he put all of that behind him, sequestered all his hurt behind an iron wall and locked it away. He does not need it rearing its ugly head now, when theyâve-
Perhaps not reconciled, but they are at an understanding of sorts. They are able to be in each othersâ presence without causing problems, though he supposes such a tenuous alliance might crumble under the weight of hours spent on a deserted island.
With nobody to talk to but Kaeya, and nobody to intervene should things turn any less civil.
Not that Diluc will be the one to raise a hand against Kaeya. Never again - he has long passed that place, that dark well of heartache and betrayal. Teyvat moved on, and so Diluc moved on with it. He presumes that Kaeya has moved on as well.
âIt was not a particularly pleasant evening,â Kaeya says, his words accented with the crack of a splitting log. Sparks fly up between them, and Diluc catches Kaeyaâs eye. Immediately drops his gaze to the dark pit of the burning logs.
âI donât care to reminisce over it either,â Kaeya adds once the fire has settled. His voice sounds...different. Quieter, less...gods, he canât believe heâs dredging this word up in relation to Kaeya, but itâs less seductive. So very unlike Kaeya, or at least, the Kaeya that Diluc knows now.
He wasnât always like that, so inclined to charm every person he meets. So flippant with his flirting that it sets Dilucâs nerves on edge just to be near him.
âWe never really talked about it, did we?â Kaeyaâs voice carries a hint of humor, and an outright invitation to talk about it now, in spite of his words just a moment ago. Diluc clenches his jaw, fights back the hundred-and-one questions that had burned in his chest after that night. It has taken a very long time to quiet them, and he does not particularly think that they bear any relevance now.
âWhat is there to discuss,â Diluc says, and means it rhetorically. Kaeya shifts, sticks a leg out and toes his boot off.
âA lot of things, I think.â His other boot joins the first a safe distance from the fire along with his socks, and Kaeya pulls his knees up and leans back on his hands as his toes dig into the sand. âYou kissed me the night before that.â
Dilucâs gaze flicks to the side, to the ocean, and he stares hard at the soft flicker of the moonâs reflection on distant waves.
âAnd what if I want to?â Kaeyaâd asked. What if he did want to kiss Diluc, then what?
âWell...I wouldnât stop youâŠâ The bravest Diluc could get, even with Kaeya. Far less terrifying to face a horde of hilichurls than to admit how desperately, in that moment, heâd wanted Kaeya to kiss him.
âBut you donât want me to, do you?â Bait, he knew it even then, but it didnât stop him from riding that spark of defiance as far as it would take him. Far enough to lean into Kaeya, push him against the nearest wall and press his lips to Kaeyaâs.
âSo you do remember,â Kaeya says quietly - this Kaeya, in the present. On a deserted island across a dying fire from Diluc, after so very many years of careful avoidance.
âOf course I do.â How could he forget the rush of heat flooding his veins, the spark in his chest flaring to life at the taste of Kaeyaâs lips? The desperate hands at his waist, slipping beneath the hem of his shirt. His own hands searching, too, clinging to Kaeya like heâd dreamed about doing for ages.
No, he might bury it deep in his chest, but moments like those do not disappear entirely.
âBut you think thatâs not something we need to discuss, is that it?â Kaeya quips easily, and Diluc glances back to find his sleeves rolled up to his elbows, now, his scarf and cape discarded. He looks...lighter, this way. Unburdened, but not by the weight of his excessive accessorizing. More that he seems unburdened by the weight of the persona, the facade.
And out here, who would he have to pretend for? Diluc has certainly never believed the performance.
âI think it happened a very long time ago.â AndâŠ
And what? He hears it in his tone, the unfinished nature of his statement. And Diluc fears to even discuss that night, for the fact that it might dredge up feelings he has never quite managed to destroy? He can hardly say that to Kaeya, heâd never hear the end of it.
To Dilucâs surprise, though, Kaeya only hums. Stares into the distance beyond Diluc for a long moment, his gaze unfocused. How does he remember that night? Fondly?
âIt mustâve been easy, then.â A pause, intentional, and Diluc refuses to rise to the bait. He waits, and Kaeya continues after another beat of silence. âTo cast me out if you never truly felt anything for me.â
The meaning of his words processes slowly, leisurely, a perfect match for the faint breeze that twists through Kaeyaâs hair, carries on to brush against Dilucâs cheeks. The soft moment splits in two at the sound of another cracking log, and Diluc grits his teeth.
âIs that what you believe?â His words come out on a harsh breath, low and quiet. Kaeya leans forward, wraps his arms around his knees.
âIs it not true?â Bait, Dilucâs mind supplies unhelpfully, but he will not let Kaeya sit here and tell him that it was easy, that Kaeya meant nothing to him.
That it did not break his heart when Kaeya told the truth of his past.
âIt is not,â Diluc says shortly, and he dares to level a stare at Kaeya. Kaeya meets his gaze in turn, and by all accounts, it should be flippant. Should be easy and light, and Kaeya should scoff and dismiss Dilucâs words.
The stare he gives is not any of those things, though. Kaeya watches intensely, with sharp focus and tensed muscles, and Diluc is not entirely prepared to handle the sudden weight of his gaze.
A subtle, faint smile flickers to the edge of Kaeyaâs lips, a daring thing for how rigid he looks right now.
âTell me it hurt,â he says then, quiet. Voice laced with a years-old ache that Diluc feels in his chest, and heâs seventeen again - eighteen, almost, just about. Tomorrow. But right now, he and Kaeya find a hidden alcove in the back of the library, and Kaeya kisses him until he canât catch his breath.
âIt hurt.â The words hurt, too, but he says them. Speaks them to the fire and knows that they pass through the flames to reach Kaeya.
âDid you regret it?â Cautious, probing. Diluc blows out a breath.
âFor a very long time, I did not.â His gaze flicks up, just enough to meet Kaeyaâs for a brief moment before he turns toward the ocean again. âI feel...differently now.â
The closest he can bear to admitting that he lost not one, but two irreplaceable people in his life that night. And that one loss was entirely his own fault, even if heâs learned to forgive himself for his fatherâs death.
âTime changes things,â Kaeya agrees, and Diluc watches from the corner of his eye as Kaeya shifts, climbs to his feet. âCare to see if itâs changed anything else?â
Dilucâs heart catches up to the words a moment too late, then redoubles its efforts at the idea of what Kaeya could be implying. He swallows, inhales dying fire smoke and grasps within his mind for anything to steady him.
A hand appears before him, then, the lifeline doomed to drag him under, and Dilucâs gaze drifts up to find Kaeya standing over him, a gentle smile on his lips. Not teasing, not put-upon or overly seductive.
Just Kaeya.
And oh, Dilucâs heart aches, begs him to reach out and take Kaeyaâs hand.
âThereâs nobody here,â Kaeya says softly. âJust us.â
Diluc lets his gaze fall again, back to Kaeyaâs outstretched hand. He shifts carefully, lets his heart guide his hand to take Kaeyaâs. And oh, the way his heart races when Kaeyaâs smile widens.
He pulls Diluc to his feet, then huffs out an amused breath that puts Diluc immediately on guard.
âAre you not sweltering?â Kaeyaâs free hand tugs gently at the lapel of his jacket, though, and Dilucâs brows furrow.
âTrying to undress me?â he asks, entirely deadpan, but it pulls such a sweet laugh from Kaeyaâs lips that Diluc has to fight a grin of his own.
âIâm trying to prevent heatstroke, but donât tempt me.â An amused warning, and Diluc sucks in a sharp breath at the hand that skates across his chest, the thumb that hooks around the inside of his jacket. âMay I?â
Diluc holds his breath, finds it impossible to do anything but nod.
He will admit - though not to Kaeya - that heâs grateful for the cool night breeze that his jacket had kept at bay. Kaeya sets it alongside his own discarded accessories, then glances down at Dilucâs feet.
âFine,â Diluc grumbles as he sets about removing his boots as well. At this rate, Kaeya wonât be satisfied til heâs-
A flush crawls up Dilucâs cheeks, and he rushes to discard his boots and socks alongside Kaeyaâs. And, to his relief, Kaeya seems to find Dilucâs state of partial undress satisfactory. Again, he extends a hand, and Diluc does not hesitate to take it this time.
He leads Diluc across the sand, vaguely in the direction of the water, and Diluc takes a moment to- to miss this. The comfort of Kaeyaâs presence, when itâs so often been little more than an irritation. He lets his steps waver closer to Kaeya, until they walk with their shoulders brushing. Kaeya does not pull away.
The water is cold when they reach it - or, rather, when it reaches them. It curls its way up the shore to meet them, and Kaeya draws to a stop as it swallows his feet for a moment. Diluc turns to watch him, to watch the sea breeze whip at his hair and pull it back from his face.
His eye remains closed for a long moment, a subtle smile tugging at the corner of his lips, and his hand tightens in Dilucâs in the short second before he opens his eye again, catches Diluc staring. His smile widens.
âWhat do you think, Luc?â Dilucâs heart stops beating for a breath. âHas anything changed?â
He steps closer, hears his blood rushing in time with the waves, and lifts his hand to Kaeyaâs cheek. Thinks that he missed this, that he did not expect to ever have it again. To ever want it again, but here it is. Here he is, and here Kaeya is.
And once again, he does not answer Kaeyaâs question. Just leans in, lets his lips brush Kaeyaâs, and melts into the feeling of Kaeya pressed against him.
No, he mightâve said. Everything has changed, but not this. Never this.
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chap 4 of the modern xisangyao, also on AO3
Meng Yao faces his past and his future
Meng Yao screams upon seeing the face of those two intruders, and nearly stabs himself in the cheek with his tiny knife as he brings up his hands to cover his mouth.
He knows these men.
They killed him, once.
The one in blue chopped off his arm.
That one in red destroyed his reputation, exposed the darker sides of him for all to see, leaving him no choice but to die.
And Lan Xichen, of course, dealt the fatal blow.
Three men in this desolate house with him. Three murderers. Or is it really three? After all, none of this would have happened withoutâŠ
Meng Yao, who refuses to fall to his knees like Lan Xichen out of sheer pride, sobs. He doesnât know when, exactly, he started crying. But his face is now wet with tears and snot under his hands and his breath fogs up the blade of his knife. He hasnât cried like this since his mother died.
In every life heâs lived, she has died too early.
A curse bound to repeat itself, a punishment for everything Meng Yao ended up doing after she died in that first life, and the second, and the third, andâŠ
Somewhere a thousand miles away, heavy footsteps climb up stairs two, three at a times, rushed and loud as they never are usually. Meng Yao canât see through his tears, but he still knows it must be mister Shanzi. A suspicion confirmed when a moment later his employer speaks up, breathless from running up those stairs.
He never was an athletic man, mister Shanzi, not if he could avoid it.
âDonât hurt him!â Mister Shanzi cries out, trying to run again, only to settle for stumbling along until heâs in front of Meng Yao.
Itâs a surprise, and itâs not. Either way, it startles Meng Yao out of his tears. He blinks a few times, until his vision clears. Mister Shanzi is there, shielding him from the other three, arms spread wide as if to better protect him. Meng Yao canât see his face, but he can imagine the fierce, determined expression on his employerâs face.
His fourth murderer, and yet now Meng Yao feels less scared at last.
The newcomers arenât impressed with mister Shanzi. The man in white and blue, kneeling next to Lan Xichen, glares up at mister Shanzi. Meng Yao feels he should know his name. He knew it, once, but they havenât met in many lifetimes.
âYou didnât say,â the man says coldly, eyes darting toward Lan Xichen, still prostrated on the floor, as if heâs remembering as much as Meng Yao does, and enjoys it as little. âYou know how much Iâve tried to findâŠâ
âIâll buy you lunch, Wangji,â mister Shanzi cuts him. âDeal with your brother, Iâm taking care of Meng Yao.â
Lan Wangji frowns at this answer.
Thatâs his name, Meng Yao recalls. Lan Wangji, the one who goes where the chaos is. And the other, then, is Wei Wuxian. Two parts of a whole. Meng Yao thinks he hated them, once. Even before they destroyed him, he hated them for their freedom, for their right to be careless, when he had to measure his every word, his every action. Or perhaps it is just that a part of him always knew they would kill him.
As Meng Yao tries to remember which came first between hatred and murder, he feels mister Shanzi reach for his hands. The knife is taken from him and put away on the nearest surface, which ought to scare him. He knows, though, that no weapon he might yield could protect him, should mister Shanzi have it in mind to murder him again. Meng Yao has never once been successful in defending himself against him.
With this certainty in mind, Meng Yao doesnât resist as mister Shanzi pulls him away, back to the basement. This, too, reassures him. Mister Shanzi loves his paintings more than anything in the world, more than scamming powerful assholes and overconfident idiots. If he had to kill Meng Yao, mister Shanzi wouldn't do it somewhere that would taint his precious art.
Once they reach the workshop, mister Shanzi gently brings Meng Yao inside and invites him to take the chair while he closes the door, locking it behind them. This too should scare Meng Yao. It doesnât.
âHow are you feeling?â mister Shanzi asks, coming closer but stopping at few steps away from Meng Yao. Giving him space, so he can feel safe. âHow much do you remember?â
âI remember dying because of you,â Meng Yao says, falling onto the chair which rolls away from his employer.Â
Mister Shanzi is unphased, his face showing only polite interest, the way he does when meeting sellers and buyers. With him dressed like this, the neutral expression feels wrong. Funny, almost. Meng Yao would laugh, if he remembered how.
âYou killed me several times,â Meng Yao says. It should make him angry. When he looked at Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji, he felt unfathomable rage over what they did to him even if he doesnât understand what, exactly, it is that they did. They only killed him once, though. But mister Shanzi, who he can remember towering over him, holding a blade wet with his blood⊠âYou also saved me, didnât you?â
Mister Shanzi smiles, if you can call it that.
âI had to find a new way of dealing with you,â he casually admits. âAfter the first few times, killing you wasnât as fun anymore.â
âI was a child the last time you killed me,â Meng Yao protests, and maybe there is some anger to be felt over that. He was just a child that one time.
A toddler really, playing in the street with other kids, Meng Yao suddenly remembers. His mother hadnât quite died yet in that life, but her health had been declining, so heâd been left to his own devices too often. Someone had offered him sweets and heâd been too young to know he should refuse.
He hadn't even gotten those candies before getting his throat slit.
âIt was a low point for me,â mister Shanzi admits with a shiver. âAt that time, I was... You see, you had killed my brother in the first life in which we met, and in a truly horrible manner too,â he explains, and Meng Yao nods. It rings a bell. A corpse butchered, a melody... âand since he had never reincarnated, I didnât see why you should get to. Iâd always found you as an adult before that, and it was easy to find some failings of yours to excuse killing you. A child thoughâŠâ He grimaces in disgust, looks down as his hands as if they're still stained with the warm blood of a three years old. âAfter that, I started reconsidering the way I was doing things. My brother had believed you were worth giving several chances, once, so I thought Iâd honour his memory and do the same.â
âI suppose I should be grateful?â Meng Yao asks. âJust as I was supposed to be grateful toward Mingjue.â
Hearing his brotherâs name makes mister Shanzi jump. But heâs not mister Shanzi, Meng Yao realises. That was never his true name.
âYouâre Nie Huaisang,â Meng Yao says, mostly to himself. âYouâre⊠after so long, and youâre still doing all this for him. Iâd murdered the wrong brother, back then.â
Realising what he just said, Meng Yao tenses and throws Nie Huaisang a sharp glance, terrified that he might lash out at the reminder of that crime which has entangled their fates through centuries.
Nie Huaisang turns away, curling up on himself, shoulders shaking. Meng Yao braces himself for an attack, verbal or physical, but instead after a moment Nie Huaisang bursts out laughing, loud and unrestrained.
âEvery time!â Nie Huaisang giggles. âEvery damn time, you end up saying that! And every time I say thatâŠâ
âDa-ge would have been just as fierce in avenging you, so there was no right brother to kill, no right brother to spare,â Meng Yao finishes in a whisper. âIâm not saying that I want to kill you now,â he quickly adds. âI donât. Not after what I owe you.â
Of course in that very first life, he owed Nie Mingjue, and that hadnât stopped him. Meng Yao can feel the reek of the terror heâd felt then, stuck between a rock and a hard place, certain he didnât have a choice. Perhaps he didnât. Those were different times, and he had promised his mother to be a good son so his father would give him the status he deserved. So she hadn't suffered in vain when raising him.
Meng Yao had tried to be a good son, which had turned him into a poor friend. Not to Nie Mingjue exactly. They werenât friends anymore by then. But to Lan Xichen, who had suffered first the loss of Nie Mingjue, and then years later the horror of having helped it happen.
And then Lan Xichen had killed him.
Maybe he hadn't been a very good friend either.
âIâm really sorry for this,â Nie Huaisang says. âYouâve always remembered, whenever Iâve taken you in, but itâs never been quite so fast and brutally. And itâs the first time thatâŠâ
He trails off, looking over his shoulder toward the door with a mix of dread and longing.
âLan Xichen,â Meng Yao guesses.
âLan Xichen,â Nie Huaisang agrees, before chuckling sadly. âDid you⊠does he⊠did he know before coming here, orâŠâ
Meng Yao thinks on it, and shakes his head. He might be deluding himself, but he doesnât believe Lan Xichen knew, not until they arrived to the Hanshi, not until he saw Nie Huaisang, not until he was confronted by his own brother. It took both of them by surprise.
Meng Yao wants to ask about Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian, but doesnât. Itâs not necessary, he realises. Having been in their presence, he can guess that they are more like Nie Huaisang than like him or Lan Xichen. There is just something about those people who no longer die that sets them apart from ordinary humans, even at first glance.
âHe was just here about the painting,â Meng Yao explains. âHeâs writing a book on⊠well, on you, I guess.â
The expression on Nie Huaisangâs face is a complicated one, equal part regret and relief.
âWangji had been looking for him,â he says. âQuite desperately. Well, he found him now, good for him. As for myself, I donât think I should⊠well. Well. It doesnât matter. Lan Xichen made it clear once how he thinks of me, and I know better than to impose myself where I am unwanted. Iâll just disappear for a while, make sure we donât run into each other. The antics scene was getting a little bothersome anyway. Damn technology, ruining my life. Iâll have to find something else to keep me busy. I guess Iâll have to leave this house, too.â
As he speaks of abandoning the Hanshi, Nie Huaisang looks truly sad. Almost in spite of himself he raises a hand to touch the nearest wall, brushing his fingertips against it as one would a lover.
He's owned this house most of his life, he once told Meng Yao. At the time, Meng Yao had thought his employer had bought it young, or inherited it somehow, meaning heâd lived there for maybe twenty years.
He wonders how long âmost of his lifeâ really means.
âAm I fired?â Meng Yao asks instead. A more practical question, and one to which heâs more likely to get an answer.
âFired?â
âI⊠I betrayed you. I took someone here without your knowledge.â
Nie Huaisang blinks a few times, then laughs softly and comes to kneel before the chair, taking Meng Yao's hand. His skin his warm, his touch grounding, and Meng Yao, stupidly, wants him to never let go.
âOh, A-Yao,â Ni Huaisang sighs, squeezing his hand. âNeither of us would ever know how to refuse Lan Xichen anything that he asks. How could I blame you for this? No, youâre not fired.â
Meng Yao lets out a deep exhale.
âI still canât keep you around anymore,â Nie Huaisang adds, tilting his head slightly. It makes him look like a curious bird. Heâd like the comparison, Meng Yao thinks in a panicked effort to not delve on what his former employer just said.
âI wonât betray you again,â he promises, grasping Nie Huaisang's hand tightly, as if that could keep him here.
âIf Lan Xichen asks, you will. I donât think heâll ask, mind you,â Nie Huaisang says with a smile. âI havenât seen him since that first life we all shared, and we didnât part on good terms. You wouldnât know, you were dead already, but I⊠well. He did not take kindly to being used as my weapon to kill you, to put it mildly. And now youâre in love with him again, in a world where⊠well, itâs easier to love him these days, isnât it?â
âIâm not in love,â Meng Yao says, but the protest sounds hollow as it leaves his lips.
If heâs not in love with Lan Xichen, heâs more than halfway there already. Why else would he have betrayed Nie Huaisang, whom he does love, in spite of how stupid it is? Even without realising exactly what 'mister Shanzi' was, Meng Yao could tell there was something off about the man, something unnatural and dangerous. He's an idiot, though, and loved him all the more for it.
âIâm not in love just with him,â Meng Yao corrects, which startles Nie Huaisang. Good. Meng Yao isnât quite as cruel as he was in that first life or some of the following ones, but he wouldnât call himself kind either. If he must suffer, why shouldnât others do too? âTake me with you. Wherever youâre going, take me with you.â
âNo.â
âDo you really think Lan Xichen would still have anything to do with me, now that he remembers?â Meng Yao insists, rising from the chair. Nie Huaisang lets go of his hand and stands up as well, takes a few steps back as if putting distance between them will do anything. âItâs pointless to leave me behind. Take me with you.â
âNo. Youâre mortal,â Nie Huaisang sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. âYou⊠Iâm not doing that. Iâm not involving myself with a mortal. Iâve seen what it does to people like me. I wonât⊠I canât allow anything to destroy me like that. Not until Iâve found da-ge again, not until Iâve seen him safe and happy.â
Meng Yao nods, because he understands, because heâd give everything for a chance to see his mother again, would sacrifice anything just to make sure sheâs happy. And still, he says again: âTake me with you.â
âNo.â
âYouâll need an assistant. You need one. You're useless on your own. You suck at keeping track of appointments, and you still havenât figured out social media, and⊠just that, just your assistant.â
âNo.â
âI can keep things compartmentalised.â
âI canât,â Nie Huaisang snaps. âI⊠I would have let you go soon, anyway,â he adds, more quietly, as if confessing a terrible secret. âYou are⊠I got attached, more than planned. Youâre good, in this life. I think the world is finally changing enough to allow you to exist and youâre⊠but it doesnât matter. I was always going to let you go, itâs just happening sooner than Iâd planned.â
âSo I am fired.â
Nie Huaisang grimaces. For a moment, just a second, he looks exactly as old as he is. Thereâs an exhaustion in his eyes, so deep and ancient it is almost frightening to behold. Centuries after centuries of looking for the same person, of never finding him, of meeting instead his brother's murderer over and over and over again.
âYouâre not fired,â Nie Huaisang tiredly insist. âIâm going to continue paying you until you find another job, and Iâll make sure the right people know youâre on the market again, if you want to stay in that line of work. I also donât mind paying for any school you like. Iâll write you letters of recommendation, Iâll do whatever it takes to make sure youâre good even without me, but⊠but after today you wonât see me again. I just canât risk it.â
âAnd if you found your brother again,â Meng Yao suggests, because unlike Nie Huaisang heâs good with new technology. If Nie Mingjue is alive somewhere, he can find him. He will find him. It canât be a coincidence that Lan Xichen and him met like that, so maybeâŠ
Nie Huaisang shrugs, and shakes his head.
âIâll never stop looking for him. But I donât think heâs coming back. I think the damage to his soul was too great, and it was just the end for him. Iâve got to keep looking, but I think thereâs nothing to find. So I wonât make promises to you, Meng Yao. Iâll have that decency, at least.â
Itâs funny, Meng Yao thinks, how little Nie Huaisang has changed since that first life.Â
By which he means, Nie Huaisang is still the same dramatic asshole as he used to be, still so wrapped in his own problems that he doesnât really care about the effect his decisions have on others, because heâs a Nie so of course heâs always right.
It used to drive Meng Yao grazy, in that first life, when he thought all Nie Huaisang had going for him was a good inheritance and a pretty face.
It still drives him crazy right now, when he knows Nie Huaisang is perfectly capable of being more than this, should he feel like it.
Before Meng Yao can insist, there is a knock on the door. They both startle, having half forgotten there are others with them in that house. Nie Huaisang looks panicked for a moment, but quickly gets himself under control. He probably guesses, as Meng Yao does, that it cannot be Lan Xichen, who surely would never reach out to either of them.
That guess turns out to be right. When Nie Huaisang goes to open the door, he finds Wei Wuxian there, who looks⊠not quite angry as such, but ready to be pushed there if anyone says the wrong thing.
âYou still want us to take you away?â Wei Wuxian asks.
Nie Huaisang nods quickly, than shakes his head, looking up at the ceiling.
âZewu-Jun canât⊠If he's coming too...â
âHe needs time to digest, and he says that oneâŠâ Wei Wuxian nods toward Meng Yao, who flinches on instinct â...called him a taxi, so heâll make his own way home. Lots to think about. Did you fucking know, Huaisang?â
âNot until today, and I called you right away. You think I wouldnât have told you, if Iâd known? You think Iâd have gone anywhere near him by choice?â
Wei Wuxian shrugs, in a manner that seems to imply he doesnât really know what Nie Huaisang might do about anything.
âWhat about that one?â Wei Wuxian asks, nodding again toward Meng Yao.
Nie Huaisang shrugs. âHe has his car. Wei-xiong, I just want to leave now. Please.â
They do leave. Wei Wuxian glances one last time at Meng Yao, but Nie Huaisang doesnât look back as he exits the room.
Just like that, Meng Yao finds himself alone, with only paintings and a broken game console for company.
He allows himself a moment of sorrow because, and he can admit this to himself now that it no longer matters, heâd been hoping to spend the rest of his life with either Lan Xichen or Nie Huaisang. Both, if fate chose to be kind to him.
Fate has never chosen kindness, when it comes to him.
So Meng Yao dries his tears, and picks up that shattered console on the floor.
The paintings in this room are worthless to him. Over half are fakes, and even Nie Huaisang, who painted them, doesnât always recognises just from looking whatâs real and whatâs not. But the console⊠well, thereâs a guy who lives in Meng Yaoâs building whoâs made a business of buying broken electronics and either repairing them or scavenging them for parts.
Maybe Nie Huaisang really will continue paying him, or maybe he wonât, but Meng Yao hasnât gotten where he is in life by counting on the kindness of others.
Heâll sell the console when he gets home.
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Dances and Daggers
Summary:  The Summer Festival is upon Asgard, as is the tradition of the dagger ceremony, where each unmarried gentleman chooses a lady to bestow with the honor of carrying his dagger for the night. As Prince Thorâs betrothed, Tekiâs only goal is to accept his dagger with grace and hope that her violent stepfather doesnât find fault with her in the process. But Prince Thor is unpredictable, and when he ignores his engagement on a whim Teki finds herself in a desperate situation. Luckily, Thor isnât the only prince in AsgardâŠ
Pairing: Loki x Original Female Character
Chapter 17: The Resolution
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Word Count: 2,424
Chapter Summary: Now that the truth is out, Teki and Loki navigate their way through the aftermath.
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TW: Violence, child abuse
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Teki stood in the center of the Throne Room, struggling not to wilt under the scrutiny of over a dozen pairs of eyes. She had always known that someday in the future sheâd have to attend the Kingâs council meetings, but never had she thought that she would ever be the focus. The old men of Odinâs courtroom seemed to glower down at her like she was an insect they had accidentally stepped on as they bickered over what was to be done with her. Luckily, the friendly faces in the crowd were almost enough to drown out the tension.
Loki smiled encouragingly from his place at the base of Odinâs throne, rolling his eyes whenever someone said something particularly hurtful. Frigga too supported her with a warm grin. Even Thor seemed to shoot her a sympathetic glance every now and then.
Still, the council continued arguing.
âThe marriage engagement is in writing. We cannot change itââ
âThat writing is in blood. Would we have the daughter of a murderer as Queen?â
âWe should not hold the girl accountable for the sins of her motherââ
âBut what of Asgardâs reputation? What will other realms think when they learn how easy it is to cheat their way into royaltyââ
âThe circumstances are irrelevant. The agreement was made. To go back on it now would be to sully the word of the kingââ
The last few days had been a whirlwind. Teki felt as if she had repeated the same story over and over again at least a thousand times, to a thousand different people. At first, there had been the scramble for evidence, gathering anything and everything that might be used to prove her wordâthe vials from her motherâs liquor cabinet, the document of dissolution that her father had been forced to write moments before his death, written statements from Völundr and Asta (the real one this time). They had even taken her fatherâs journal, although that had been returned to her after they decided that the unfinished letter he had written to her mother was all they needed.
But once Ăslaug signed a full confession, the focus shifted. Now that she was good and caught, everyone could concentrate on capturing Osvald. He had been gone when Friggaâs guards arrived at their apartment to arrest him and hadnât been seen since. It seemed he had caught wind that the game was up and made a run for it, a thought which terrified Teki to no end.
âDonât worry,â Loki assured her one night, in the new rooms in the royal wing that she and Brant now occupied. âTheyâll catch him before long.â
Teki only nodded as she stared out into the inky blackness beyond her window, praying to the Norns he was right.
There were also the questions popping up now, everywhere she turned. Was she still engaged to Thor? Did the marriage agreement stand if it was made under false pretenses? No one seemed to know.
Some felt that since Steinn had opposed it, and since Ăslaug very clearly did not have Tekiâs best interests in mind when she agreed to it, that it should not be allowed to stand. Others were quite adamant that the agreement had been signed and that it must be followed through, for better or for worse.
Of course, nobody had asked Teki what she thought should happen.
Well... that wasn't entirely true. Queen Frigga had approached her the day after her mother was arrested to talk about the whole situation, and while she didn't ask for her opinion either, the topic of her engagement had come up.
"The AllFather is not one to go back on his word," she told her. "I doubt the betrothal will be drastically changed."
Her tone was encouraging, but Teki couldn't bring herself to mirror her optimistic smile. Of course she'd still have to marry Thor. The actions of her mother would have no bearing on something that had been set in stone for nearly her entire life. She knew this. Still, a part of her, the small, hopeful part that had dared to dream of someone else in place of Thor's hand, withered at the return to reality.
The ache in her chest must have been reflected on her face because Frigga frowned. "Is something wrong?"
Teki shook her head, forcing her features back to familiar neutrality. "Of course not, Your Majesty," she said with the same artificial cheeriness. "As always, I will be honored to wed your son."
For a moment, the Queen only studied her, as if searching for something hidden behind her eyes. "Yes," she finally said, voice distant. "My son."
It didnât even matter anymore. Theyâd all been going round and round in circles for what seemed like an eternity, and Teki was tired of standing there bearing the brunt of their speculation. She wished they would just sentence her to life with Thor and just end it already. It took everything in her to keep from picking at the sash of her dress in front of everyone.
But then Frigga stood, and the voices fell silent. âIf I may, my King?â
Odin nodded at his wife, and Teki couldnât help but think that he looked as exhausted with this as she was. âPlease.â
She stepped forward, addressing the council directly. âIf I am correct in understanding, the conflict here surrounds the question of whether Lady Tekla is suited to be Queen in light of what we now know of her mother and stepfather, yes?â A chorus of affirmative hums answered her.
The Queen smiled broadly. âWell, I believe there is a way to honor the agreement without jeopardizing the queenship.â She turned back to Odin with a respectful bow of her head. âMy King, you have two sons. If Lady Tekla were to marry Prince Loki instead of Prince Thor, sheâd still gain royalty, but not the throne.â
A flurry of whispers broke out across the Throne Room. For a moment, Teki thought she had misheard her. Wait, did she meanâŠ
She whipped to Loki, who was staring at his mother with eyes were so wide they were almost bugging out of his head. When his gaze returned to Tekiâs, there was a stunned sort of hope in his smile.
The King cocked his head to the side, seemingly lost in thought. He turned to his son. âWould you be willing to pursue such a course of action, Loki?â he asked.
The prince sprang up. âYes, I would, my King. That is ââ he looked back at Teki nervously. âIf Lady Tekla was willing.â
The collective stare of the council flipped back once more to her.
Teki inhaled. âIâIâm willing, sire.â
âVery well.â The King motioned towards Loki, who stepped purposefully off the platform and down to her side. âPrince Loki, you will take the hand of Lady Tekla in marriage. Prince Thor, you are released from your betrothal.â He sighed. âPerhaps now we can finally lay this matter to rest.â
Teki didnât hear the rest of what he said. Loki lifted her hand to his lips, pressing a kiss to her knuckle.
âMy lady,â he whispered with a breathless smile. She beamed, heart soaring higher than any wings could ever carry her.
âŠ
Going back to their apartment was strange.
It had been decided that Teki and Brant would permanently move into the royal wing of the palace, sharing a suite until Teki married and moved into Lokiâs rooms (although Frigga assured her that wouldnât be for quite some time). Their old apartment was gutted of all items of importance to be transferred to their new rooms, leaving only its skeletal remains when Teki and Loki returned for one last look through.
There were several things Teki wanted to be sure to get. Brantâs reading notes, for one, and his unfinished map of the tunnels of the Nine Realms. She wouldnât be giving him reading lessons anymoreâhe had already begun to attend proper class and was doing quite wellâbut he had confided in her that he still preferred her lessons. The music books gifted to her by the Queenâshe was particularly excited about those, because Frigga had ordered a piano constructed just for Tekiâs new sitting room.
âI hope you donât mind that I didnât ask you first,â she had said, almost apologetically. âI just youâd enjoy being able to play at your own discretion, without having to rely on me.â
Teki couldâve cried.
And then there was a dagger. Teki nearly had a heart attack when she checked under her mattress and found it wasnât there, only to remember that she had shoved it in her nightstand that time her mother walked into the room.
Loki grinned when she slid it out of its sheath.
âI had wondered what you did with that,â he said. âI never saw it when I would come over.â
She laughed. âWell, I couldnât exactly hang it from the wall.â Now that she thought of it though, it was probably a blessing that she had been forced to move the dagger to her drawer. As furious as her stepfather had been upon discovering she had taken her fatherâs journal, it wouldâve been infinitely worse if he had realized she was also keeping a weapon under her mattress. The image of Osvald advancing towards her flashed before her eyes, this time waving a blade instead of a leather book. Teki shivered. She sheathed the dagger, placing it in the box with her other items.
They combed the apartment one last time, a cursory look-through to make sure that Teki had gotten everything she wanted to save. There really wasnât much. It was a bit startlingâthis place had been her home her entire life, and yet she felt practically nothing upon saying goodbye to it forever. If anything, it was relieving, like coming to the surface to breathe after being underwater for far too long. She was ready to leave this bad dream behind.
Teki only hesitated at the downstairs table, staring at the same chair in which her father died. Loki came besides her, squeezing her hand in comfort.
âWhatâs wrong?â he asked.
âNothing. Itâs justâŠâ She struggled to find the right words. âI ate here every single day,â she said finally. âMy whole life. And I never knew what happened right next to me.â Had her father been watching in frustration from the realm beyond? Had he been begging her to ask questions, to look for him, to discover the truth as she munched on her morning toast?
Tears were pooling in her eyes once more. Teki swallowed shakily. âI shouldâve done something sooner,â she whispered. âI never did anything. I just let it all happen.â
âYou were a child,â Loki said softly. âWhat could you have done? Youâve brought justice for your father, and for you. Thatâs all that matters now.â
She sighed. Maybe he was right. What she did or didnât do in the past wasnât important. Now, her father could rest easy knowing his killer would rot in prison, her plans in tatters.
Teki hoisted her box up with one last glance about the room. âI think Iâve got everything,â she said as she headed towards the door. âThank you for coming with me.â
âIt was my pleasure,â he smiled, rushing to hold the door for her. âIt seems thatââ
He didnât get the chance to finish his sentence.
Osvald barged his way through the doorway like a living battering ram, smacking the prince into the wooden door. Her stepfather didnât even spare a second glance as Loki crashed to the floor. Teki barely had the chance to scream before his fist caught her in her sternum. The box flew from her hands, contents clattering across the floorboards as she fell backwards.
No sooner had her head hit the ground than Osvald was on top of her, eyes as frenzied as wildfire.
âYou thought Iâd let it go?â he snarled, holding her down by her shoulders with his forearm as she struggled. âYou thought Iâd let you fuck everything up?â
She almost didnât see the glint of the blade in his free hand.
Norns!
Teki jerked just as the knife came down, cold metal grazing her cheek as he buried it into the floor beside her head. She grabbed for the hilt as her stepfather spat curses in her face.
Get it away from him!
He smacked her away, ripping the knife from the floorboards and stabbing towards her again. Teki braced her arms against his wrist, pushing against him with all her might, her eyes tearing up. Come on, please! Still, the tip of the blade inched forward, closer and closer and closerâŠ
Something crashed into the two of them. One moment, her stepfather was on top of her, pinning her to the ground, the next he was on the floor next to her, thrashing wildly as Loki fought to rip the blade from his grasp. Teki rolled to her stomach, trembling as she gasped for air.
âGet help!â Loki yelled at her as the two wrestled on the ground. Osvald landed a kick to his stomach, and he hissed in pain.
Teki struggled to her feet and tried to make a run for the door. Her foot slipped on one of the papers strewn about from the box and she tripped, slamming against the floor.
Behind her, Osvaldâs knife clattered to the ground. Still, they struggled.
Her legs were shaking too badly to stand. Teki crawled towards the door across the mess, unable to hear anything else over the pounding of her heart.
Without meaning to, her hand closed around the hilt of her own dagger.
Loki cried out, a short, quick gasp of pain. Â Her stepfatherâs footsteps vibrated deep in her stomach as he approached.
He yanked her to her feet by her collar and whipped her around, his fingers at her throat, grin wide and demented.
âNowââ
Teki buried the blade in his chest.
For a moment they just stared at it, gasping, the golden hilt crowning the fast-growing stain of crimson across his chest. He glanced up at her, icy eyes having lost their chill. Teki gaped back at him, frozen.
On the other side of the room, Loki pulled himself to his feet, eyes wide.
Her stepfather collapsed, a marionette with its strings cut, his blood splattering across the same floor he had so often beaten her against.
#dances and daggers#loki fanfic#loki x ofc#loki marvel#dances and daggers chapter 17#the resolution#cozy writes
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Marcoâs Bauble Part 7 - a One Piece Mermaid AU Text Story
I ended up spending most of this past weekend setting up the Mermaid AU on AO3, so I do hope yâall will check it out over there!
Please note that on AO3, this Marcoâs Bauble story is going under the title On the Courtship of Monkey D. Luffy. I didnât really know where this series was going when I began writing it, and âMarcoâs Baubleâ was most definitely a starting point, but itâs expanded well beyond that now, as youâll probably see in this update ^ ^; I havenât decided yet whether Iâll rename all the parts on Tumblr or not.
BUT in the meantime, Iâll continue posting updates in advance here on Tumblr (and on Patreon even further in advance ;D), so hereâs an update for this week!
In which Sabo confronts Koala.
Continues off of, and should be read after:
đđMarcoâs Bauble Part 1
đđMarcoâs Bauble Part 2
đđMarcoâs Bauble Part 3
đđMarcoâs Bauble, Part 4
đđMarcoâs Bauble, Part 5
đđMarcoâs Bauble, Part 6
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Hmm, Koala thinks. So this probably counts as a "kabedon."
AÂ kabedon, according to the young new recruits who'd explained it to her, is a situation in which one person, ideally tall and attractive, leans over a second, ideally smaller person, boxing them against a wall with their arms, essentially pinning them in place. Koala thinks it sounds like menacing posturing, but the recruits insisted that if done by the right person, it's a terribly titillating scenario, the kind you'd find in romance stories. Â Â
It happens to be the situation that Koala finds herself in now, with her back against the side of Merry's cabin as Sabo looms over her, effectively blocking all exits with his arms braced against the wall on either side of her.
Sabo, Koala grudgingly thinks, probably not only qualifies, but is likely the recruits' very definition of tall and attractive.  Â
Right now, he's doing that thing where his eyes are half-mast, dark and unreadable as they peer down at Koala through the curtain of blond locks that have fallen across his face. It's a look that Koala knows has half of Baltigo swooning, and she's heard people call it Chief's Sexy Look.  Â
Koala feels very strongly that those are a poor choice of words, because from personal experience, she knows it's a look that's usually followed immediate, brutal interrogation that often ends in screams and excessive bloodshed.Â
"Koala," he breathes, in that voice that has stolen the hearts of half the Revolutionary Army, and has convinced more than one unfortunate soul that perhaps, they might survive this encounter after all. Â Â
But Koala knows better. Â Â
Because his next words are, surprise surprise, "What are you hiding from me about my Luffy?"
He smiles then, and it looks misleadingly gentle, and Koala can see why strangers may mistake him for a benevolent princely gentleman. Â Â
But Koala knows Sabo. And all she sees is the manic sadism behind the oh so very fake expression. Â Â
She cringes, because no, there is absolutely nothing romantic or exciting about this situation at all. All she feels is Doom.  Â
"Hmm?" she says, keeping her hands behind her back so he can't see them twist. In these situations, Koala's more than well aware that the more she talks, the more she incriminates herself. Â Â
Many who observe their partnership are under the impression that Sabo's just the overpowered guy who beats people up and destroys shit, while Koala provides intel. And while it's true that Koala has intel, Sabo's the one who often personally extracts it from their most stubborn sources. Â Â
In other words, what Sabo wants, he usually gets. It's usually a comforting thought, but not today. Â Â
"Hmm?" Sabo parrots back, eyes lazily tracing over her face, and Koala frantically tries to keep her expression neutral as he searches for an opening.Â
It's like when they were children, Koala thinks, when they played interrogation games with each other as assignments for Inazuma's class. Except this time, it's not Koala's grade on the line. And while Koala knows that her partner would never actually hurt her, he's also very capable of making life pretty miserable for her if she doesn't spill. Â Â
And right now, she has a secret she'd really, really like to keep away from Sabo.
The secret being, y'know, the fact that someone proposed to his dearest baby brother. Â Â
And even though it's extremely unlikely that Luffy understands the significance behind the gesture, she considers the gift hers, which, for all points and purposes...means she accepted. Â Â
Koala does not want Sabo to find out about this, from her, at least right now, before she has more information.  Â
But, Koala glumly remembers, she's never actually managed to win any interrogation games against him. Â Â
"You know," he says, voice deceptively light, and Koala wants to groan because here we go. "Luffy and Ace mean the world to me. They're not just my past, they make me who I am. Even when I didn't remember, they were with me, and I was with them. They're everything to me."  Â
Koala won't break. She tries to look for an opening without shifting her eyes, but Sabo's not an amateur and there are no escape routes. Â Â
"It would truly be terrible, if something happened to one of them, something that should be stopped, that I could have prevented if only I had known." Â Â
He's poking her defenses. He wants her to say, you're blowing this out of proportion, it's not that big a deal, or maybe you're overthinking this. Possibly even lie, I'm not hiding anything, or even counter, what makes you think I'm hiding something?  Â
Koala knows better. Those are all traps, all openings that he'd pounce on, and she's seen him rip people apart for falling for them. Koala won't give him the chance. Â Â
He leans in close, and whispers in her ear, voice low and dark in a way that would make his fans cry, and his enemies cry too but for an entirely different reason. "You wouldn't know something that'd prevent me from fulfilling my duties as Luffy's older brother, now would you, Koala?"Â Â
Well, Koala thinks snidely, depends on what you consider your brotherly duties, and whether they include homicide and starting a war with an Emperor. Â Â
She says, "Mmm." Â Â
Sabo, or rather his mouth, smiles. His eyes are a void. Koala's not used to be on the receiving end of this particular stare, and she isn't enjoying a moment of it. Â Â
"Alright. If that's how you want to be. Let's figure this out together, now shall we?" Â Â
Sabo's voice is calm, exaggeratedly patient, like a therapist. He never talks to Koala like this, but Koala still recognizes this particular tone, and cringes as she realizes which interrogation pattern he's chosen. It's one she's ill equipped to counter at the moment, and he no doubt knows it. Â Â
Koala braces herself. Blank face, she tells herself, even breathing. He's using his stupid over-powered Observation Haki to keep track of your pulse.
"Well," he begins, "I know it's already about Luffy, because you're more nervous about me talking about her than Ace." It's stated as fact, and Koala blinks rapidly to moisten her eyes because she knows the real deal's starting now, and she'll have to avoid blinking when it might give her away. Â Â
"And it must be something you found out during your Fishman Karate sessions, because you don't have any other time together, at least when I'm not watching." Â Â
Koala isn't remotely surprised that he's monitoring everyone; after all, she's been doing the same. She wants to sigh but keeps it in. Â Â
"It's probably something physical, because Lu can't keep secrets if she thinks of them as secrets, so it might have been something you saw...a scar, or a mark on her body? No? Then an object she has on her...Ah, there we go."Â Â
Fuck you, I didn't give you any tells, Koala thinks indignantly, but she knows that expressing any annoyance will only confirm his guesses, and continues to refuse to speak. Â Â
"You've been going to the kitchen more often than usual, but not during meal times, or even prep times, but rather lulls...times that you have no business in the kitchen, and times where only cooks are present, cleaning up or otherwise doing tasks that don't require their full attention...the perfect time to chat."Â Â
Maybe I wanted a snack, Koala thinks, but keeps her mouth shut, because Sabo already knows when and how she snacks. This interrogation really isn't fair. Â Â
"And as for the cooks in question...well, if it were Sanji, I'd just ask him myself, but you knew I wouldn't do that, right, Koala? You know I could get it out of him, so if it was him, he wouldn't know anything of value. But I don't think he's involved at all." Â Â
Sabo looks at Koala expectantly. Koala stares right back at him, though her eyes feel very, very dry. Â Â
"So the question now is, why would my dearest partner want to protect Thatch, Fourth Division Commander of the Whitebeard Pirates and temporary first cook of the ASL Pirates?" Sabo talks as though he's asking himself, but he isn't, and Koala's not fooled. She keeps her face blank. "I doubt it's a personal thing, after all, his intentions towards Luffy couldn't be more obvious, he announces it at least once a day. And given my partner's obvious little lesbian crush, it doesn't seem in her best interests to help him, no?" Â Â
This does get a reaction from Koala, and her breath leaves her in a whoosh. Fine, make it personal. If he's figured out this much, it's only a few more steps till the answer, and at this point what does it matter. Koala glares, relishing freeing her face from its mask, and for a moment Sabo's back to his usual self, giving her a cheeky wink as though to say told you so. But then Interrogator!Sabo is back, because he's not quite done yet. Â
Whatever. She tried, alright. It's not like she owes the Phoenix anything. She leans back against the wall, bringing her arms in front of her chest, and scowls, hoping her expression projects exactly what she thinks of Interrogator!Sabo at the moment. Sabo likewise drops his arms, because he knows she's no longer going to escape. Â Â
"You're not protecting Thatch himself, because if you were we could solve it here, and it never needs to get out of hand. So you're protecting someone connected to him. The fact that you're being so stubborn, tells me that it's not just a personal thing, but something that could cause an incident, that would likely affect the Army. Which means, obviously, a Whitebeard pirate. Â Â
"But I don't think it's just any Whitebeard pirate. They're someone high profile enough that it would be a big deal if I were to confront them, possibly jeopardizing any potential future alliances the Army forms with them, or drawing the eyes of the World Government. Which, they're already watching us, which makes me think it's gotta be someone even bigger than Thatch..." Â Â
Which, of course doesn't leave much. Â Â
"It could very well be old man Whitebeard himself," Sabo says, but he's shaking his head. "But something tells me it's not. And I know that some very interesting little blue birds have been stopping by the Merry, likely with letters for Thatch, but possibly also with unsolicited deliveries for my baby brother..." Â
Your baby brother, chill with your possessiveness, does rubbing it in feel that good? Koala sniffs.  Â
"And as for why it's a big deal...you wouldn't be so secretive over a crush. Everyone on the crew has a crush. That can be dealt with. This is a few steps beyond, something you think would make me mad, right, Koala?â
Sabo pauses a moment, but it's for dramatic effect, because Sabo knows that Koala knows that he already has an answer. Â Â
"So tell me, Koala. What did Marco the Phoenix give Luffy to try to claim her as his bride?"Â Â
And well, there you have it.
"Bravo," Koala says dryly. "I see you're qualified for your position, Chief. I'll be sure to inform the Boss." Â Â
Sabo tips his hat, and even though she allows herself to relax, Koala keeps her eyes trained on her partner. Â Â
He's taking this calmer than she expected, to be honest. Interrogator!Sabo still hasn't fully faded from his face, but he's no longer giving off sadistic vibes, and has that little frown that tells Koala he's still sorting through his thoughts. His ability to remain composed is likely affected by the fact that they're still in Paradise, and the Whitebeard Pirates and the New World are still quite a ways away. Â Â
Which is good, because it means Sabo can't just impulsively cause a massive incident on the spot. But it's also bad, because it means he's got more time to plot, and Sabo can come up with some pretty devastating things if given the opportunity. Â Â
"Sabo, I barely know anything myself, and neither does Thatch," Koala says, finally willing to speak. "I'm working on getting more information. Don't plan anything rash yet. It could all be a misunderstanding." Â Â
Sabo slowly nods, still quiet. Koala sighs. Â Â
This might be a good time to bring up a certain topic, she realizes. She'd been thinking about it for a while now, but had wanted to give him more time. Â Â
She first thought about it when the night after he regained his memories, she sees Sabo slip away from the Merry to pursue the ship that's transporting the slavers who tried to sell Luffy at the auction house. The slavers have already been passed in the hands of Army agents, all of the enslaved have been freed and are on their way to safety, and Luffy's back with her crew. Their job should have been over. Â Â
Sabo comes back before dawn, accompanied by Ace who had likely transported him with Striker. He seems calmer than the night before, but Koala doesn't miss that his gloves are still damp from recently being washed. Â Â
There've been other incidents too, in the short period they've traveled together. Koala's seen Sabo dangerously close to snapping (and actually snapping) more during the past few weeks than their entire decade together. And on one hand, it's understandable, but on the other... Â Â
"You know," Koala begins, as gently as possible. "she's no longer the child you left behind. She's an adult. Even if this ends up being nothing, she may still find someone, one day. What are you going to do then?" Â Â
If Luffy's in physical danger, protecting her is one thing. But what if it's something that she chooses? Â Â
The change is subtle, but Koala notices when the last of the Chief of Staff fades from Sabo, as his head tilts downward ever so slightly. And all of a sudden he reminds Koala all too much of the tiny, battered child who stared at himself in the mirror when he thought everyone was asleep, touching his scars and asking, Who are you?
"I can't lose her, I can't lose either of them," Sabo says quietly, and he overlaps completely with the lost child, and ah, Koala thinks, because she gets it.  Â
That child, that self who was missing for so long, is back now, inside Sabo where he always belonged, where he always existed but couldn't be recognized. That child now takes up so much space, too much space, and still hasn't been fully reconciled with the adult that Sabo's grown up to be. Simpler, childish emotions and desires that feel too vibrant and raw, clashing with the adult's more weathered world view, aggravated further by all the darkness that Sabo's seen in their line of work.  Â
Sabo's less concerned about Ace, Koala knows, because even though Sabo loves both his brothers, Ace is like his other half. They don't protect each other, but function seamlessly as a single unit, a unit with one priority that stands above all else. Â Â
Luffy. Â Â
Luffy, who as a child, Sabo was able to protect from anything and everything in their isolated microcosm. Luffy, who as an adult, Sabo knows all too well is more vulnerable than ever, as proven by the very situation in which they reunited. Â
A gilded glass tank, hidden away behind dusty curtains, with a dark, motionless shape crumpled at the bottom. Chains, chains, and chains upon bruised skin, and bubbles rising from parted lips, getting smaller and smaller as she slowly fades...
That was bad enough, but Koala doubts Ace or any of the others know exactly what the fate of a captured mermaid is, at least in the way that Koala and Sabo do. Â Â
Koala understands, she really does. Â Â
But she also knows the importance of freedom, not just to Sabo, but likely to Luffy and Ace as well. Â Â
"Would it be losing her?" she asks, and child!Sabo flinches. Â Â
"We vowed to be free," Sabo says, and he still sounds lost, like he doesn't know what the word means anymore. "And we will be." His hat shadows his eyes, and Koala can't imagine how they look at that moment. "But I don't want her to go where I can't follow."  Â
"Then follow," Koala says, because what else is there to say? "Follow, if that's your freedom. But you can't stop hers."  Â
"I know." Â Â
She couldn't have known how Sabo would take her words.
~~
Part 8, we see more of Thatch.
Thank you so much for reading, and I hope you enjoyed!
As always, any comments are immensely appreciated and help motivate me to create more for this AU! ;A;
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Lukadrien: Your Hands Hold Home: Chapter Eleven
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Read it on AO3: Your Hands Hold Home: Chapter Eleven: Soulmates
The summer afternoon drifted by peacefully as Luka and Adrien sat up on the deck of the Liberty, basking in the warmth of the sun.
Luka was trying to figure out the bridge to the song he was writing about Adrien while Adrien lounged in a nearby deckchair reading Sailor Moon.
Luka just so happened to look up and find tears streaming down Adrienâs cheeks.
âHey. You all right?â he called in concern.
âOh. Sorry,â Adrien chuckled sheepishly, swiping at the tear tracks. âIâm fine. Just thinking too much and being overly sentimental.â
Luka set aside his violin and pulled his chair over next to Adrienâs.
âHey.â He rested a hand on Adrienâs forearm. âDonât dismiss your feelings like that. Thatâs your father talking, and heâs wrong.â
Adrienâs gaze dropped to the manga in his lap. âIt doesnât feel like heâs wrong, though. I feel silly.â
âTalk to me?â Luka urged gently, trying not to press too hard.
It was a fine line to walk between supportive and pushy with Adrien. He wanted Adrien to open up to him on his own terms, because Adrien genuinely wanted to confide in him.
It was difficult, however, because Adrien was used to bowing to othersâ demands, and Luka didnât want to accidentally force Adrien into speaking because Adrien thought that that was what Luka wanted.
Adrien was a people pleaser and likely to steamroll over his own boundaries if he thought it would make others happy.
âOnly if you want to talk about it,â Luka added softly, giving Adrienâs arm a squeeze. âIâm here for you, okay?â
Adrien bit his lip and turned to gauge Lukaâs reaction. ââŠDo you⊠Do you believe in soulmates?â
Luka blinked and thought about the question for a moment before answering honestly. âI think theyâre a lovely idea. Itâs nice to think that, out there somewhere, thereâs someone made especially for youâŠbut I donât actually think the world works that way.â
âOh,â Adrien breathed, expression carefully neutral. âWhy is thatâŠdo you think?â
Luka shrugged. âIâm also kind of a rebel. I donât like it when other people make decisions for me, so I donât really like the idea of the universe setting me up with someone without my consent. The choice of a life-mate is probably the most important decision you can make; I want some say in that.â
âOh,â Adrien repeated, considering Lukaâs points. âI meanâŠI can see that, butâŠwhat makes you think that they donât exist?â
âLife experience,â Luka answered with a sheepish smile. âIâve been in love a couple times, and there have been a few different people I could see making a life with. I read somewhere once that there were maybe twenty different people that any given person could be compatible with, and I think thatâs true. I mean, off the top of my head, I can think of two people Iâd consider as âsoulmatesâ for myself.â
Adrienâs expression darkened. He could easily guess that one of Lukaâs potential âsoulmatesâ was Marinette. The other, he suspected, was XY, and the thought made his stomach roil with jealousy and hurt.
âI think the idea of soulmates is nice,â Luka continued, missing the shift in Adrienâs mood, âbut I donât believe in them. I like to think that I make my own decisions. Besides, what about people who arenât interested in romance or relationships? Do they just not have soulmates or are their soulmates more of a queerplatonic arrangement orâŠ?â
Luka trailed off as he noted the sour look cutting into Adrienâs face. âIâm sorry. Was that the wrong answer?â
Adrienâs head jerked up. âWhat?â
âSorry,â Luka repeated. âI didnât mean to try to shove my views down your throat. And I could totally be wrong. Iâm certainly not some kind of supreme deity or anything, so who am I to say that thereâs no such thing as soulmates? I didnât mean to insult you if you believe in soulmates.â
Adrien shook his head, waving away Lukaâs concern. âNo. Itâs fine. You didnât insult me. I justâŠâ
He bit the inside of his lips, eyes tracing the picture on the manga cover in his lap. âI used to think that Ladybug was my soulmate. I meanâŠwe were supposed to be âtwo halves of the same wholeâ and all that, butâŠâ
He shook his head again, a dark smile tugging at his lips. âIt was just wishful thinking. She was never interested in me like that, and the truth is that the previous Guardian just randomly picked the two of us, so itâs not like it was some grand plan of the universe or anything. It was just luck and coincidence. I was fooling myself.â
âAdrienâŠâ Luka whispered, tightening his hold on Adrienâs forearm.
Adrien looked up and slapped on a fake grin. âBesides, thereâs no hope for a relationship with her now that it turns out my father was our arch nemesis this whole time. Iâm a complete failure as a hero, Luka. I was living under the same roof as Papillon, and I had no idea for half a decade. Thereâs no wayââ
ââStop,â Luka commanded, standing and pulling Adrien to his feet as well.
The Sailor Moon manga tumbled to the deck, pages flapping.
âJust stop, okay?â Luka tugged Adrien into a hug, squeezing him tightly.
âStop and breathe and quit being so mean to yourself,â Luka instructed.
The tension quickly flowed out of Adrienâs body, and he melted into the embrace.
âMarinette would never rule you out as a romantic partner just because of your father,â Luka stressed, wishing he could make Adrien see reason. âAnd youâre not a failure as a hero. How many times do I have to tell you how amazing you are?â
âAt least once more,â Adrien chuckled mirthlessly into Lukaâs chest.
âYouâre amazing, Adrien,â Luka insisted. âIf Plagg were here, heâd say the same thing. It wasnât your fault you didnât know about your father. How could you know when he always kept himself shut up like he did? You hardly saw the guy. No one can blame you for what happened. Marinette certainly doesnât.â
Adrien nodded lethargically. âYeah. I know. I justâŠitâs hard not to be down on myself.â
âYeah,â Luka whispered. âYeah, I know, but try to hang in there and think positive.â
Adrien made a halfhearted noise of agreement.
Luka squeezed tighter. âYouâre going to be okay. Youâre a magnificent person, P5, and, someday, youâre going to meet someone amazing who sees how special you are.â
ââŠLike how you do?â Adrien inquired, pulling back just enough to catch Lukaâs reaction.
Surprise flitted across Lukaâs face and was then replaced by a warm smile. âYeah. Just like how I do.â
Adrien laughed, resting his head back on Lukaâs shoulder. âNo one sees the good in me like you do, Orpheus.â
Luka gave in and indulged himself a little by resting his head on top of Adrienâs. âIn that case, Iâll be your soulmate, if you want. I mean, if no one else is vying for the position.â
âThe jobâs yours if you want it,â Adrien replied in a way that implied that he thought no one in their right mind would want the position.
âItâs funny how, just a month ago, I had fans willing to literally maim and kill for a chance to get close to meâŠbut, now, no oneâs interested,â he mused.
Luka shook his head. âWell, now you know who your true friends are, at least.â
âThereâs not a lot of people left standing,â Adrien observed glumly.
âBut the ones who are are good ones.â Luka tried to help Adrien shift his perspective. âYouâve got Nino and AlyaâŠChloĂ©, Kagami, Wayem, Marinette, Rose, Juleka⊠And your classmates are sticking by you, arenât they? The people who really know you are still on your side.â
ââŠYeah,â Adrien agreed, slowly warming to the idea. âI guess youâre rightâŠ. And thereâs you. I havenât lost you.â
âYouâll never lose me,â Luka promised. ââŠMaybe we need to have some of your friends over. I know you call and text and go places to hang out with them, but youâve been here almost three weeks, and you havenât had anyone over yet. You should call Nino and have bro time.â
Adrien looked up again. âReally? That would be okay?â
Luka laughed. âYou see how people regularly wander in and out of this houseboat. Do you think anyone would care if you had some friends over?â
Adrien considered this for a moment. ââŠNo?â
Luka nodded. âNo. No one would care. You should see if Ninoâs doing anything and have him over to hang out.â
Adrien bit his lip. âWould you hang out with us too?â
Luka shrugged. âIf you want me there.â
A bright smile stretched across Adrienâs lips. âYeah. Iâd like if we could all spend time together. Iâd like you to get to know my friends better.â
Lukaâs eyes widened as he was pleasantly surprised by Adrienâs words. âYeah. IâdâŠIâd like that too.â
âI mean, you should know them if Iâm going to marry you someday,â Adrien teased, pulling away with a wink.
Luka choked. âWhat?â
âYou know. Since youâve volunteered to be my soulmate.â Adrien scooped up his book and stuck out his tongue as he started to make his way back below deck.
Luka stared after him for a good minute as all kinds of metaphorical fireworks went off.
It killed him when Adrien flirted.
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so i just gotta nudge at your feelings about Poe reading a little bit and ask you to write "trying to read all of the books beside their bed" for damerey đ
read on ao3
âOh sorry, I didn't realize anyone was out here -â
Poe looked up from his book to find Rey standing on the bottom porch step. He gave her an easy grin, tilted his head to the empty space beside him on the swing perched just adjacent to the steps and under the porch railing. âThere's enough room for two on here, if you want.â
She was wearing an oversized cardigan, worn and frayed in places, her hair pulled into a loose and messy bun. Poe's eyes flicked down and his grin only increased when he clocked the printed pair of pajama bottoms she was wearing: they were a dull blue with a repeating pattern of penguins on them.
âI don't want to bother you,â Rey said quietly, even as she stepped off into the ground and slowly approached the swing.
Poe scooted closer to the edge, his shoulder jammed against the frame âNow that's impossible,â Poe assured her. Thanks to the golden light from the string lights twisted around the base poles of the swing, he could spy her automatic eyeroll at his comment.
âI think I've proven time and again I know how to get under your skin, Poe.â Rey said, moving to sit down beside him. Poe steadied the swing so it wouldn't move abruptly on her. Once she was settled, he released his grip on the frame and let it rock gently back and forth.
Poe folded down the top of his page to bookmark it, closed the book and let it rest on top of his thigh. âI think I've managed the same,â he pointed out as he tipped his head towards her. âSince I'm a - what was it you called me? 'A difficult man?'â
Rey's cheeks pinked but she remained unrepentant. âI stand by what I said. You're a very stubborn man.â
âA stubborn man with the best coffee in town, though.â
That made Rey laugh. It was true, though. After Kes passed away when Poe was just about to enter flight school, Poe returned to his hometown to work in his father's old shop - converted it into a small coffee shop, and it was the best place to get coffee in town.
âI'll give you that. What are you reading?â Rey asked, pointing at the book in Poe's lap. He had the cover facing down, so she couldn't tell what it was.
âDiscworld,â Poe proclaimed, offering the book over so she could inspect it. âSpecifically, Guards! Guards! I like the Watch.â
Rey ran her finger down the spine of the book: it was wrinkled and weathered, to the point she could barely make out the title on the side. âI can tell. I didn't know you were a reader.â Somehow, in the two years they'd known each other, it hadn't come up.
Poe made a face. âI used to read a lot more when I was a kid, but it's...I have trouble focusing, so I don't read as much as I'd like to anymore. And running a coffee shop tends to, y'know, eat up a lot of spare time. Do you read?â
âA little bit here and there. I used to read more when I was little, too.â Rey shuffled closer to him, handing the book back to him. âMy favorite was the Lord of the Rings.â
Poeâs entire face lit up, his grin softening the corners of his eyes. âIâve got that one on my bedside table, next to where -â he tapped the front facing cover of the book in Reyâs hand -âthis one normally sits.â
âYou keep your favorite books by your bed?â For whatever reason, this newfound knowledge endeared her even more to him, made her heart do a tiny flip - or perhaps it was the visual that conjured, Poe clambering into his bed in the evening, his room softly aglow from a lamp, pulling one of his favorite novels down to read for comfort to fall asleep.
âYeah, Iâve got...what do I got?â Poe murmured, thinking to himself trying to recall. âOh! Yeah, Iâve got this one, Iâve got Lord of the Rings - all three of them, by the way -â
âAs you should,â Rey said, poking him in between the ribs. Poe laughed, a bright and brilliant sound she would be happy to hear for the rest of her life, and squirmed away from her, catching her wrist lightly with his warm hand, his calloused fingertips coming to a rest over her pulse.
He glanced over at her. âI canât remember what else Iâve got, you could...you could come up if you want, see them yourself?â
Reyâs breath stalled. âYou want me to go to your room?â
âNot like that -â Poe said hurriedly, looking panicked at the prospect; which only seemed to make things worse because something akin to hurt and disappointment flashed quick as lightning in Reyâs eyes, her shoulders sagging almost imperceptibly, which simply wouldnât do. Poe ran his thumb slowly along her inner wrist and added - âNot like that tonight but maybe some night soon...maybe after dinner someplace nice?â
Beneath his thumb, her pulse quickened. Rey fought to keep a neutral expression, but the corners of her lips twitched as she asked, âDid you just ask me on a date?â
âI think I did yeah, is that okay?â
Rey grinned, leaned in and pressed a kiss to his cheek. âItâs more than okay, Iâd like to get dinner with you. And Iâd like to see these books of yours.â She stood up off the swing, turned back and held her hand out to him, mischief dancing in her eyes. Poe accepted it and as soon as he was on his feet, she pulled him toward her so he was crowding her in.
His hands landed light on her waist, as Rey looked up at him from under her eyelashes. âDo I have to wait until our date for a kiss?â
âNot if you donât want to, âcause I really donât think I can wait until then,â Poe murmured, his gaze falling down to her lips. âSo...can I kiss you?â
She answered by tugging him down to her by the nape of the neck, slotting her lips against his in a languid kiss.
His book remained safe in her other hand, because even as her lips parted so he could slide his tongue into her mouth, Rey refused to drop it; and somehow that gave him even more butterflies.
#michaelperry#damerey#myfic#ask box#apparently when i said i thought i'd almost finished it...apparently i'd finished it. it was only missing a handful of sentences whoOPS#i don't know why they both ended up being kind of shy and sheepish here but
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