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if Yaelokre says yes to fanfiction, might do Whumptober with Perrine 👀
#obviously i’ll have to tone it down with my writing for her#those who know my stuff will understand#yaelokre#lizzie speaks#writing things
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FUCK IT!!!! I MISS WHEN MY MINECRAFT SERVERS HAD CULTURAL EXCHANGE IN THEM!!!! I MISS WHEN MY MINECRAFT SERVERS HAD LANGUAGE BARRIERS IN THEM!!!!! I MISS WHEN WE WERE ALL CRAMMED IN A PIT TOGETHER SCREAMING AND SHAKING AND SOBBING AND CONFUSED AS ALL HELL SITTING IN THE TUMBLR LIVEBLOGS HOLDING HANDS AS WE ALL EXPLAINED WHAT THINGS MEANT, WHAT THE REAL WORLD CULTURAL CONTEXT WAS, WHAT WAS GOING ON IN BITS THE TRANSLATOR COULDN'T GET!!!!! FUCK IT!!!!!!! I'LL TAKE ANOTHER GODDAMN PURGATORY!!!!! GIVE ME A BUNCH OF PEOPLE FORMING SIX PERSON FAMILIES OVER THE SPAN OF THREE TO FIVE DAYS!!!!!!!! GIVE ME THE EVIL SHADOW GOVERNMENT THAT NEVER MADE ANY GODDAMN SENSE, GIVE ME THE STUPID FUCKING EYE WORKERS THAT WERE AGGRAVATINGLY UNBEATABLE, GIVE ME THE CONFUSING ASS BLACK CONCRETE STRUCTURES THAT WENT BASICALLY FUCKING NOWHERE!!!!!! I'LL TAKE IT ALL IF IT MEANS I GET A FRENCH MAN AND A GUY FROM LUXEMBOURG AND A WOMAN FROM SOUTH KOREA SHOOTING THE SHIT IN A MINECRAFT PIT STARTER HOUSE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! I'LL TAKE IT IF I GET BRAZILIAN PORTUGUESE AND FRENCH AND ENGLISH AND SPANISH SITTING AT A FUCKING TABLE IN A SECRET UNDERGROUND MEETING ROOM THEORIZING ABOUT A MINECRAFT CHARACTER WITH AN APPEARANCE BASED ON A JOKE ABOUT A GUY'S DOG BEING AN AMERICAN CONSERVATIVE!!!!!!! GIVE IT BACK!!!!!!!!! GIVE IT BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!
#NOT THE ADMIN EXPLOITATION THO THAT CAN STAY GONE#block game brainrot#shut up vic#qsmp#im in my feels idk the qsmp really struck a chord in me#that nothing has really been able to refill i'm ngl#i really miss the brain workout i got trying to keep up with the cross cultural multilingual stuff#and it's not the same if i just watch the streamers in languages i don't understand#bc on qsmp it was like. i can watch the pov of a streamer coming from the same language background as me#and then i know that if i'm lost so are they and then i don't feel like i'm floundering alone#but like i don't have that anymore :( i miss it a lot#it was so funny and it was so earnest and i really FELT IT#it was a whirlwind and it was so exhausting and there's bits that ethically probably should never be repeated (eggs)#but i wouldn't want it to be different (except the workers rights violations; again those can go)#idk all these fucking duos that sound like absolute pipe dream crossover nonsense and are fully viable#it's nuts and it's beautiful and i miss how fucking WILD that was#i'll never not be upset that the koreans and hugo barely even got a MOMENT#i was so excited to see how they would interact with and respond to the overall island lore like the federation and the codes#ughhhhh anyway it's 4am i'm in my feels nothing has really engaged me the way qsmp did#i really enjoyed the challenge of the culture and language barrier bc i really had to ENGAGE with the streams#in a way i don't normally and in a way i haven't since#i miss it :( also slimeriana. that too. fucking hilarious. can we get them in the outlast trials.#add cellbit and roier call it a double date what who said that#(that's a joke to be clear but not the part about the outlast trials they should do that those streams were peak)#anyway uhhhhh if you read these good fortune is coming to you soon#long tags
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Hello!! i just discovered your blog and firstly i wanna say that your art is gorgeous! <33 and secondly, if youre still taking requests could i get a lesbian/non binary cheetah? /nf
Thank you! Cheetahs be upon ye!
#ask#art request#my art#art#lesbian#lesbian pride#nonbinary#enby#nonbinary pride#enby pride#cheetah#pride#pride art#queer#queer art#animal art#lgbtqia+#lgbtq+#critter series#/nf is one of those acronyms that i don't really understand even though i know technically what it means...i think? it's 'not forced' right#(sorry if that's not actually what it stands for. apart from tumblr i'm very much under a rock when it comes to most internet stuff)#it's more the phrase itself that confuses me. or moreso amuses me i suppose#'not forced' sounds like something someone who is definitely *not* being threatened by a secret enemy spy would say#'hi fellow spy friend of mine. you know where we keep our secret stash of money haha /nf' <- absolutely being forced via enemy spy blackmai#what you obviously mean by /nf: hey don't feel pressured to do this :) this is a polite request#what my brain decides to read it as: dear god! it's secret code! someone is holding them hostage and forcing them to ask for art. D:#but i do appreciate you adding it just in case. but if you're polite and kind in your words than an ask never sounds demanding to me :)#anyway sorry for getting COMPLETELY off track. forgive my silly little mind. we're here for pride critters#AND WHAT A GREAT CRITTER CHOICE for those flags my friend. they worked really well :D hope you enjoy#id in alt
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Decided to translate the Fluri section in the 30th anni book for the question, "who is your favorite duo & couple?", voted in by fans and reaching second place overall, because the first and third answers were too adorable. 😌
Fan answers for their choice:
● They've been together since childhood and are inseparable. No matter how far apart they are, they're always together in their hearts, which is always heartwarming.
● I feel like the conflict between the two of them, and their clashing senses of justice, create the focal point in the work of "Vesperia".
● It's really wonderful how they're not reserved with each other, and how when they're together, they become uncomposed and childish.
#GTF Translations#okay so now that Bamco can't keep hiding and shielding their eyes#from the fact that Fluri is almost literally the most popular pairing in the ENTIRE franchise in Japan (and got voted in two years in a row#if you count them winning first/second in TF24 and getting a matching set of merch... twice) CAN WE PLEASE FUCKING GET#FLYNN MERCH AGAIN LIKE WE USED TO? THANKS. okay i know we're getting that crane machine chibi of flynn bc he was in the silhouettes#but the only reason we got flynn merch for last year's talesfes is bc FANS VOTED HIM IN to get him merch#he would not have gotten merch without the fans voting en masse for him (and i am saying#en masse bc he won that poll which means A LOT of ppl turned out for him#enough that ppl voted for him over yuri who got second place bc ppl felt flynn was#more suited to the role for the theme. which yes he was but if flynn fans didn't turn out#yuri would've won that poll which YURI AS THE SCHOOL COMMITTEE LEADER? LMAO stoooop#it was entirely fan dependent just like this poll result!#i mean it's hilarious bc it just goes to show how LOYAL yuri's fans are but#it also proves that flynn's fans will turn out for him when it's called for!#(full disclosure i voted for vicious bc i thought him being the school committee leader would be HILARIOUS beyond measure#and the guy is a born leader i cannot stress enough how much i voted for the theme AND with my little heart LOL#(...and to get ppl behind tales to not forget him. my poor sweet vicious)#flynn is so beloved in japan and it's mind boggling how they won't focus on him more#in the context of gacha games i fully understand bc those are voiced#and trying to get mamo in the studio is prob like pulling teeth with how BUSY that man is#but unvoiced stuff like merch? idk man when TF24 was happening I didn't make the deadline for#the merch being sold on Asobi so I wound up having to buy from resellers#and let me tell you flynn and yuri were BY FAR THE most expensive#those standees sold (at the time of the event) for upwards of 80 dollars for JUST ONE OF THEM#and they sold like. within minutes to hours. it varied. but ppl SNAPPED THEM UP at insanely high prices#TF standees sell for about 12 dollars on Asobi. resell listings sold for about 60-80#plus they were made as an interacting pair. flynn is extremely popular and they're even more popular as a pair#flynn used to get a fair bit of merch without fans needing to vote for him; but ever since the well-hated tomizawa took over. well.#and yet here fans still are voting him into top spots when they have the chance to#maybe listen to your fans bamco fjhajgd hand the merch over
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oh man, I missed Abel. I love your other OCs too, he's just been on my mind these days.
nooo but i feel that AJKBKJSCB he means sm to me bc hes my oldest OC (in terms of creation, not his age) and the amount of gg i have drawn is massive compared to my other comics (i pumped out so so many chapters, i was rlly having sm fun (but also used it to heal) when i drew it as a teen) - when i drew the dresses thing recently and got to him there i was hit w how much i missed my rascal ughhhh (its been 6 months).....
#i mean those 6 months are nothing compared to the#10 years?? between the last version i drew and me reviving it last year holy shit#the last version was rlly unforgiving i made abel suffer sm just so i had someone who shared my suffering and made me feel less alone w it#i guess thats also why he means sm to me. w the risk of sounding dumb to ppl who wont understand but he always felt like a friend to me#a friend who knew what kind of pain and trauma and feelings i went through bc he went through it as well#so drawing him fighting through it and still smiling even tho he has nothing to smile abt gave me hope#ughhh im tearing up on my corn blog bc im so attached to my bitch boy#ANW YEA I MISSED HIM TOO.......im happy to know ppl still remember and miss him as well#×own ocs#×own art#grimms game stuff#reply
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I'm so incredibly Normal about these two games.
#look i know people have done those ''yttd is just danganronpa but better'' and they're right#but have people ever draw parallels between yttd and 999#because i sure am. i sure have.#i just rewatched 999 and man. the story fucks me up each and everytime#the doomed siblings narrative. being apart of something that they don't understand. the main character having connections to the villain.#the narrative of wanting to save someone you love but unable to. because fate determines that they must die.#junpei and sara are so fucking similar and Not at the same time#akane and joe are weirdo friends who would get along great#i am trying so Desperately hard not to spoil anything. this is the closest i can get#if this post can get anyone to play 999 my mission is complete#if you like yttd you would like 999. they got so much Stuff going on it drives me crazy#your turn to die#9 hours 9 persons 9 doors#yttd#999#999 game#zero escape#the fire burns#the fire crackles with joy#low quality memes#low effort memes#memes#shitpost
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Me and Alex’s striped pyjama pants against the world


#makes me happy for some reason#really humanizes him and makes him feel like a actual teenager#especially since they wear their uniform most of the movie#bland casual clothes make them not just ‘murderous psychopaths’#which I mean up to interpretation but they kind of are in a way#my sweet sweet thing Alex#mad af but gives me that adoration aggression#mad as in crazy#just realized how many stripped things there were#the blankets - rug - pants - curtains#I wonder what Alex keeps in all those drawers#there’s so many with the bed and the side table#forgotten evidence of Nigel I see..#nah probably just school work or more books to add to that collection on his table#I will never get over how much of a book worm Alex is#I’m rambling too much#like minds#like minds 2006#likeminds#alex forbes#ASSUMING that Nigel had the same bed design I wonder what deviant messed up stuff he keep in his drawers#man I understand Alex not for being so annoyed at Nigel#your grouchy new roommate spreading all his stuff around and leaving it cluttered#AND THE smells#who knows
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💭 🛌🏻
#2 years ago someone sent me an anonymous message saying The Savage Detectives was boring and then a few others about The Tunnel#and now my beloved LA CIUDAD Y LOS PERROS (The Time of the Hero) !!! you people don't deserve latin american literature 😭#btw it's bc they get them as results in the quizzes i make at the end of the year‚ and i appreciate that they read my recs‚#but damn it breaks my heart and I immediately assume* that those readers have reduced their reading experience to tropes and idk#something that gives them instant pleasure and that doesn't really challenges them#bc they are already accustomed to never leaving that comfort zone#* i assume this stuff bc i'm bitter lol my bad. obviously there are plenty of reasons why they didn't like those books and that's okayyyy#but seriously i wish i had written the time of the hero. it's so sickeningly good. maybe the sauce is in the language#maybe you just have to be able to speak the most gorgeous language in the world—spanish but not from spain‚ yes shade—to truly get it#so yeaa idk i won't reply to that ask just like i didn't reply to the one about The Savage Detectives#unless the person who sent it gives me a good argument 🤨#i keep thinking they messed up the translation bc the title lol let's start there. it should be a literal translation; The City and the Dog#but yea who knows#and about the savage detectives i will always be mad about that ask bc you don't understand the ways i fw Roberto Bolaño#he's THE chilean writer to me#and like a true chilean he loved mexico 🙂↕️#so The Savage Detectives is so special 🥹 as the cheese people say it's a 'love letter' to mexico lol#anywayy sorry for being annoying 😔#Dogs*
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Analysis/opinions about the current state of Warframe from a 10+ year old veteran player.
Okay this isn’t a confession (or maybe it is I guess) but I’m about to give my 2 cents on an incorrect take being paraded around by salty noobs and people who barely touch the game. “No one plays steel path.”
You’ve never tuned into a Youtuber or twitch streamer’s content before, clearly. 🙄 No one you know plays steel path because you play with people at your current progression in the game who either don’t have it unlocked or refuse to get good and if truly no one played it, it wouldn’t be getting updates every time new nodes and content dropped. We also wouldn’t have at least 2 secret steel path boss fights in game with multiple trophies built into them.
The problem isn’t that “no one plays steel path,” the problem is this Valkyr rework is out of touch with the current state of the game as a whole. It amounts to the developers over exaggerating a problem that isn’t as much of a problem as they’re advertising it out to be to make an attempt at lessening justified community backlash and slapping a bandaid over the cyst that is the current state of health, armor, and survivability in this game.
Some backstory & needed context: The devs clearly saw people losing interest in the base star chart content between constant back-to-back open worlds and no higher end difficulty built into the game. Player retention was dropping, it was the late 2010s content drought & veterans were leaving the game in droves or just stopped playing. This resulted in less money being spent on the game and DE saw what an impact that had. Warframe felt too samey and was boring for dedicated and veteran players alike.
People like Mogamu suggested a battlepass with special challenges and rewards to keep players coming back to the game, to give the dedicated players something new to do. Around that same time was the constant criticism that Warframe is too easy past a certain point, there’s just no real difficulty once you become a dedicated player. DE was taking notes, they heard the community’s problems with the game and saw how it was indeed hurting the game.
Timeline is a bit blurry for me here but sometime in the late 2010s they made railjack (launching with enemies being way too tanky for a lot of people and outpouring way too high DPS), steel path, and Nightwave. These were all made to address the issues that members of the community rightfully pointed out. Then Steel Path kept getting updates to make it actually incentivizing to play!
Power creep happens over time but people are more satisfied with the state of steel path as a whole seemingly. DE cared about making higher end difficulty and we saw that also with Duviri’s circuit mode even in more recent years. They care about the game’s health but there’s been an underlying problem even before steel path existed, health and armor just don’t cut it the further you go in the game.
You can mod for strictly survivability but then your damage can go out the window. Enemies at a certain point just one shot you which leads to players picking up frames that have high energy costs & upkeep for more survivability. Shield gating is but a bandage on the larger injury of late game just not being feasible regarding survivability.
Invulnerability isn’t the fix-all to Warframe’s end game but it is with the current state of difficulty in the game. Taking it away to “test out” slapping shield gate on a frame and nerfing her is just silly and out of touch. I get they spent budget on reworking her & they’re making the excuse that they wanna see how she feels on launch, but dedicated players have already done the math and builds to test her in steel path and it’s just not looking good. Also, we already have frames like Nidus & Inaros if they’re actually going to do something about reworking health & armor.
Is Valkyr just going to have to stay nerfed until more updates are out? How long will that take? How long does she have to sit on the base star chart shelf gathering dust while you “track stats?” If the goal was to sell as many thirsty skins as possible (not getting into the discourse about how it doesn’t look like Valkyr or how it doesn’t suit her idc about that right now) and have as many people playing her as possible in turn, this just isn’t the way to do it. Once those people DE pays to try out Warframe can no longer run her juicy thick self on steel path, they’ll just play a different frame instead.
She won’t get recommendations to be played anymore beyond base star chart and maybe early steel path. People won’t buy an expensive skin for a frame they barely play. Fashion the frames you play most is just common sense and economically smart! That social media influencer you paid to get into Warframe is not gonna stay a casual base start chart player forever. You’ll get your temporary influx of thirsty skin buyers with Isleweaver & whoever DE gets to promote the game to some corner of the internet, but long term? It’s not financially wise because it’s not a solution. It’s putting a sparkly little bandaid over a gaping wound and I’m tired of people pretending it’s not.

Warframe didn’t get to be this good of a game because of reddit white knighting or blind defense of their every decision as developers, it got good and stayed live on servers this long because of the veteran and dedicated players who rightfully criticized the developers choices, gave feedback on why x thing isn’t good and/or how x thing could be improved. Warframe is only good & has only been good when they listen to their dedicated and veteran players.
Covering up a problem in a thirsty purple pink bow isn’t gonna make the wound go away, the blood of the core issues in the game is gonna leak through that fabric. Those new players won’t stay new forever and they’ll soon also see Warframe for what is is, the good and the bad.
I’m also gonna go on record and say that she was not an inactive play-style, managing the energy economy of her is a task and one you have to sink a lot of time into to build for. Her damage is fine as is too; she can hit damage cap, you just don't wanna learn how to build her. The spin melee problem wasn’t really addressed with this and neither was anything else Pablo brought up, but hey at least Warcry is recastable without an augment now; so, it must be good, right!? RIGHT!?
Not listening to dedicated players is how Digital Extremes loses money, dedicated players keep the game alive. I’ve said my piece.
ADDITIONAL THOUGHTS & OPINIONS
Also before any trolls try to say “who hurt you?” Digital Extremes did, by making the game boring as all Hell in the late 2010s for at least a good year or so à la content drought. Those who forget history are doomed to repeat it even in the Warframe community.
The problem is power creep and that problem is far more expensive to fix than a warframe rework or two. If the devs want a warframe to be played a certain way, they’re gonna make the community play that frame that way (even if part of the game’s appeal is player choice and build variety, but I guess that’s not really being considered here). While yes I hear you bringing up my earlier point about energy econ as a counterpoint about player choice, at least current Valkyr is something more unique than a rework that doesn't really change her kit all that much and is essentially just a nerf with sheild gate being once again shoved down our throats. All frames for steel path must be built similarly, this is good game design, right?
I get they wanna make her whole kit useable & I can respect that part, but right now the Hysteria invulnerability nerf is only going to make the game slightly worse overall, not better. Also it hardly seems to set out to fix what it's trying to supposedly fix, but I'd have to get my hands on the first 3 tweaked abilities to really know for sure,
Also don’t even get me started on how disingenuous Pablo’s Hysteria talk felt. "It also had this whole section where at the end of it, you could die if you hadn't done like a certain process that was very confusing for most players. So a lot of people would just end up like once they were running out of energy, they would just hide in a closet and just wait it out, which was pretty bad." I would like to see the stats for how often this actually occurs because I've never seen a Valkyr player do that, even base star chart default colors ones. I felt like I was being PR spoken to and that just makes it feel so wrong.
In a world where health and armor are at a good spot in late game this rework is an acceptable trade off, but right now it shouldn’t be shipped.
Also another thing about you level cap buzzword haters out there... Warframe does care about endurance runs/late game or at least used to back when the Kuva fortress tileset was released. People were doing max cap survival endurance runs, going for world records, and playwarframe was present in the chat cheering them on as well as some of the devs personal twitch accounts at the time. I remember Smashley's stream in particular as an example though it may be lost to time because the internet is not forever, much in contrast to what our parents told us as kids. Also, like I stated previously, Steel Path is consistently getting updates.
Easier financially to try to make small changes and seemingly ignore the bigger issues than to tweak bigger core parts of the game, I'm sure any developer would much rather do the former than the latter. It's smart budgeting even if it hurts the game's longevity, but this Valkyr issue has truly pushed this larger problem into the lime light; hopefully so much so in that they actually do fix the bigger problem. Huge changes are needed for the game's health if the power scaling is going to keep increasing, but Valkyr getting nerfed shouldn't need to come first. Fix the core issues before you put a perfectly good frame in the shredder.
Or maybe I'm just a MR27 (going on 28) salty veteran player ranting and raving about nothing important whatsoever. 🤷♀️ - mod Rose
#so anyway that’s my 2 cents that turned into a whole big analytical essay; I’ll try to add gifs into the post to make it more bearable#as far as reading goes both for myself and others I find images are good spacers and add a little flare to it#so yeah no they should not ship the Valkyr rework but I’m afraid she’s gonna be their guinea pig anyway which is... ironic if you know lore#art mimics real life I guess le sigh 😔#I know DE white knighters aren't going to care what i have to say either way but wanted to share a warframe veteran player perspective#for those who are curious or want a more nuanced perspective about the invulnerability issue with invul on the chopping block#read that last line in the post with as much snark as you like 💜#this is certainly an out of touch decision from digital extremes developers IF they go through with it before changing other stuff#the additional thoughts part is stuff i thought of afterwards but wasn't sure where to put it in the original post so I just did this#the valkyr heirloom is pretty btw but i also understand people's criticism of it ALSO IT DOESN'T HAVE A TAIL so gersemi still best skin#mod rose#warframe confession#yeah im adding it to the tag I've got some things to say and it counts lol#warframe#warframe isleweaver#valkyr
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I <3 COMPETITIVE POKEMON!!! YAY VGC!!
stealing this image from my good friend @moonlit-ripples
#to be clear my relationship to competitive pokémon is like my relationship to real life sports#like let’s say basketball#have i played it myself? a bit. am i any good at it? no not really#not at all who am i kidding#do i have fun playing it casually? for sure#do i know a lot about it as a spectator? ya i’ve picked up all the main ideas#could i tell you what is currently happening on the scene? no#do i watch matches? i’ll never actively seek one but if it’s on in front of me yeeeeah baby!#do i love hearing everything i can bc i find it super fun? yessss#and lastly (this one does not also apply to basketball) do i understand all those memes i reblogged earlier? about 90% of them#asks#thanks anon#but fr i nerd out so hard i’m so glad i learned all this stuff#the extent of my knowledge and skill could never get me to win actual competitive matches other than getting lucky on silly ones w friends#but it helped me a LOT in-game in violet. especially in the indigo disk. couldn’t imagine doing that as a casual without just overlevelling#tbh#and even when it isn’t that hard. the indigo disk and actual comp made me realize that actual strategizing is FUN#it makes me so sad when people approach comp with such bad faith.#these guys loooove pokémon and they loooove their mons!#they are fun and they love fun (unless you’re one of the infamous ones like lavos lol)#wish ppl didnt look down on them for being nerds or act like they are lesser fans for engaging with the media differently
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SPOILERS for 2.2 and Aventurine's message

So his stone was completely destroyed, and the IPC knows about it. I've also got the feeling that he wanted to free himself from the IPC. So why, at the end of 2.2, does he act as if most of 2.1 didn't happen? I mean, why would he expect a rise from Diamond? He clearly still has full support of the IPC too.
Can you even be Aventurine the Stoneheart without aventurine the stone? Is Diamond going to give him a new one?
I hope he's up to something. Otherwise, it doesn't make much sense.

I'm also a bit confused about this. Didn't it all happen exactly according to his plan? How was it foiled?
#honkai star rail#my stuff#aventurine#hsr 2.2 spoilers#hsr 2.2#hsr spoilers#also he just casually mentions being saved by argenti again#game I need to know more#they mentioned it 3 times already#so maybe they'll elaborate later#also it's a bit funny that he now treats us as a trusted friend#though it's probably because we as players expect to be special in the eyes of playable characters#allthough for most of our interactions he's been quite antagonistic#with threats and bribes and challenging us to a boss fight#our mc has no reason to see him as anything other than a villain on the surface#even his hidden agenda doesn't benefit anyone except him and the ipc#but he still treats us as somebody who deserves to know what happened to him#I understand that this particular message is just a recap#for those who weren't paying attention during 2.1#altough he did omit some arguably important details of his story#so maybe it's his way of feeding us the convenient version of these events
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last thing u wrote:
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Ava glares at the juts of Lilith’s cheekbones. She can tell from the sharp stoniness of them Lilith’s not listening to a word she’s saying. It’s this back and forth that usually ends in hours of petty silence away from each other. Ava will say no, Lilith will tower over her and insist. Lilith will grit her jaw and rip her argument to shreds and Ava will find it begrudgingly hot.
It’s the only thing they talk about between keeping the space station afloat with life. It’s easy to get lost in the labor of doing the work of what would be fit for a team of 5 but Ava knows they cannot shake the hole that stares back.
It’s the strange case that drew them here first, a distress signal pinging repeatedly from the bottomless pit and an old recording of 2 fuzzy figures lurking on the other end. There are records of people before them in the current station just adjacent to the pit but never any more evidence of what lies below. There is an elevator that connects to what Ava hopes is the other station but can only be accessed from inside the station they’re in. It looks well used enough to convince her it’s sturdy enough to survive at least two trips.
Lilith steps closer, close enough to touch her and Ava isn’t ready for that. “I’m not going down there Lil, you’ve seen the reports, people who come here don’t come back and I’m starting to get why.”
Lilith’s eyes flash with a sliver of something volatile before Ava can take it back, the mistake digs in her throat but she stands up, turning around to look at the old recording once again. The screen has a crack in it that distorts part of the footage but it's clear that there's proof that life has made it down there. It's a jumbled 6 second clip that jumps around, almost unreadable but Ava has a feeling she cannot keep running away.
Ava can't take her eyes off the clip, replaying it frantically over and over in her mind as a feeling she doesn't want to name wells up inside her. Even if they did go down, Ava would have to go alone because of the Halo. Its faint glow would be more beneficial than risking any energy input for light.
Lilith is burning behind her no doubt a couple sentences away from strangling her. Ava knows her fingers are twitching. That’s just who Lilith is, she looks out for Ava in an angry way.
“Ava,” She puffs, Ava can see it in her head, Lilith loosening the lock in her jaw with a wisp of breath snaking between her teeth. She thinks if Lilith wasn’t always knocking her around she’d pick up smoking. But she supposes smoking would detract from the heated sex they always find themselves in.
There’s a shuffle behind her but Ava is too cowardly to turn around, not quite ready for another argument or maybe something worse. Ava wonders if today’s the day where one of them crosses the line.
“We don’t know anything, people have accidents or get lost. There's nothing more to it.” Lilith slows down her syllables sounding like a stranger, “We have an ancient artifact that enhances your physicality, there's nothing to be afraid of.”
Ava doesn’t like it, how dejected Lilith sounds, it’s wrong. It makes her feel wild, she pushes, falling into what they know best, “Maybe for your physique,” Ava swallows heavily the words tumbling out of her mouth searing, “but I'm the crippled one here remember? The Halo gets me to what you would consider your peak physique." She can feel tears of frustrations lining her eyes and she squints angrily at the footage. She brings her knees up to her chest hoping she hadn’t bled too raw for Lilith to notice.
She knows she hasn’t succeeded, the Halo’s always been a sore spot for both of them. It’s a coin toss, the Halo which gives her strength but is ultimately unstable. The power output is too random and unreliable. It's not sustainable for her in the long run. She is nothing if not at the mercy of a crusty old metal that decides if she can move her fingers or bench five times Lilith’s weight.
She sulks hoping Lilith will do what they do best. It’s quiet behind her and in her embarrassed tear stricken haze she’s sure that Lilith has fled, parallel to the line that they both don’t dare to cross.
Ava tucks her head into her arms, her shoulders peeking over her ears and she’s resigned to accepting this endless back and forth for forever.
She’s musing the list of chores she can do to avoid Lilith when her chair is swiveled backwards to face her. Lilith’s fingers stray far from any part of Ava but she bends to her height kneeling against the cold tiled floor. From this angle her cheekbones are soft, a tangible thing that Ava can’t look at. There’s a vulnerability that clings to Lilith; it feels wrong to look at her so bare that Ava swallows. But no matter how far she’s strayed from her she always ends up at the beginning.
Lilith watches her, before grabbing the arm of the chair stilling Ava’s squirming. Even in the hard lines of her eyebrows, (the ones that knit together at Ava’s insistence to look anywhere but her,) there’s a softness in her pupils, the deepest part of her eyes that Ava has to really look to find.
Lilith doesn’t grab any part of her and Ava thinks her body would be less aware of it if Lilith just fucking touched her like a normal fucking person.
“Ava,” Lilith swallows, she looks crumpled, “We cannot keep running. Eventually there will be nowhere else to go, and then what? I just watch you wither away for the rest of my life? Watch you waste away and think 'well we did the best we could'?” It squeezes out of Lilith like a dirty secret, a shame that has festered inside of her.
It almost makes her feel wrong but Ava can feel the chair shaking, Ava can feel Lilith is shaking. Somewhere along the way Lilith has grazed her knee but Ava doesn’t register it the way it kills Lilith to confess.
“I need you.”
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#TKO_writes#based off the doctor who episode it's all based off that damn doctor who episode#the satan pit one#anyway old yap with ard too much and now we have this#it's based off of the curiiousity of human nature and wanting to poke at the darkness that stares back#but also this is tenatively avalilbeacam hahaha#checks notes* we said that beacam were shape shifting monsters who are sirens who lure humans to eat and they r sitting in the hole#but since they don't know human anatomy they can only mimic outward appearances so if u look too closely things do not look right#it's like they don't understand why things functionn the way that they do#it's concept i liked but some stuff should be hammered out but to that i say i'm doing it ugly n bad and i'm busy dying by art#the vibes are: ava + lil meet monster disguising astronaut beatrice#and ava's ready to be buddy buddy being the only 2 peeps on the planet crashlanded#and lil just points out other major components like it's way too fucking dark to see anything but where the hell is the rest of her suit#upon closer inspection uh oh are those teeth#CHOMP#also lilith is probably ooc but that's not my problem because toxic yuri or something#i just had a specific scene playing out in my head that ii needed on paper so that's why that is#am i missing anything probably#i have two other avatrice au's that are based off dr who episodes what does this mean#IT MEANS IT HAS GOOD WRITIN-[BOOM BOOM EXPLOSION] emoji
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Feck it, some digglybops I drew between jobs and put too much effort into haha.
also yeah I know Impmon X's eyepatch is on the opposite side its supposed to be but uh....idgaf lol
Bonus joke drawing:
#digimon#digisafe#impmon#impmon x#splashmon#I was gonna do more but I've moved back into the pokemon zone for a bit lol#pretty proud of the first two even if I did put WAY too much effort into rendering them#that twink ass Splashmon with honkin bazonkers especially#I constantly swear I won't ever do the lineless/dv stroke brush that blends stuff super well combo#ever again...but then I go and do it again because a lot of the time#I think those pics turn out really cool haha#also I know this is like#two pics after who knows how long ago I posted last#but like#you gotta understand the past year and a half was a huge burnout period for me#thanks to my previous job and I'm still recovering from that lmao
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5/5 ON THE VERBAL EXAM BABEYYYYYYYYYY
THIOCYNATE PROOF I KNOW YOU'RE ALWAYS HERE FOR ME!!!!! I LOVE YOU BARIUMCARBONATE!!!!!!!!
#feli speaks#uni posting#chat i fucking WON#''okay so tell me the iron proof'' <- chat i fucking won so hard#i am god's specialest little guy truly#the heavens smile upon me. i impressed the lab assistant by demonstrating an understanding of things even when i didnt know how to draw#amylalcohol. but i just explained straight out the fucking KTG#god i am so happy w this#i was soooo lucky to get the one lab assistant who actually treated it like a Verbal Exam#like the assis had sheets with questions on them and some peeps just had to fill it out#but the guy just used it as inspo to ask me stuff#and was more focused on my ability to walk through the process and explain it#and even let me pick some of my own examples!#i still had to draw some shit ofc and write down a couple equations#but those equations were. bariumcarbonate and the thiocyanate proof so like. i fucking lucked out jesus christ#i could do those two in my SLEEP
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"is this a plant or a weed" im going to pull all the hair out of your head
#finally working up the nerve to make some progress on fixing up my garden#after it got completely destroyed by the ppl who replaced our roof#and im just sitting here SEETHING at all the damage#and i cant stop thinking abt how when i brought the inspsction guy around the yard and gave him a detailed explenation of all the damage#he was like 'well you have to understand we dont know a lot about gardening. a lot of this stuff even i wouldnt be able to tell if it was a#a plant or not'#and I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT HE WAS IMPLYING#he didnt think my plants where rocks#he thoight they where 'WEEDS'#and instead of thinking 'lets try not to destroy any plantlife#those assholes thought 'lets try not to destroy anything that Looks Like A REAL Plant'#but all those WEEDS???? yeah lets STOMP ALL OVER THEM#ARGHGRHGHRHRH BITING GNAWING#I HATE MAINSTREAM GARDEN CULTURE YOURE ALL IDIOTS#ITS ALL PLANTS ITS ALL PLANTS#STOP MAKING PRECONCEIVED NOTIONS ABT WHAT DESERVES TO LIVE BASED ON APPERANCE OH MY GOD#text#lawn posting#<- because i blame stupid ass colonizer rich person lawn culture bs for this attitude#and they still stomped on my hostas and irsises and hakone grass anyway
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dafpork is like a modern day speakeasy to me because everyone comes in like it’s forbidden but since it’s the modern day it’s perfectly normal. Little secret club
LMAO YES!!! THIS IS A REALLY GOOD ANALOGY.. AND SEE IT'S SO FUNNY because i'm like I DON'T WANT IT TO BE FORBIDDEN... i'm such an accidental hypocrite in that regard because i'm like "i want more people to talk about them i want people to be loud and proud it makes me sad to hear that people might have been initially embarrassed to ship them there's so much to love :(((( anyway here's my SHITTY ART of these people i HATE i'm so EMBARRASSED thanks for putting up with me in my SHAME CORNER UGH i'm so EMBARRASSED they're so EMBARRASSING i SUCK they SUCK it all SUCKS" LOL and i do mean it in a joking manner... mostly... but i'm kind of now at the point where i'm like. Okay well you're going to have to put in some more legwork if you want people to talk about them. (but, again, just the fact that people talk about and support them enough is so great! it's so weird and wonderful to me that people are calling it on dafpork on platforms other than this one, people who may not know i exist... it's cool hearing a term you and your friend came up with in a private discord be used, it shows how much growth there HAS been since there really used to be nothing!)
a dafpork speakeasy sounds so cool though oh my god can you imagine Porky and Daffy themed cocktails...............
COME JOIN US AT THE DAFPORK SPEAKEASY. which, you are not supposed to advertise that a speakeasy is a speakeasy. but it's subversive. like Daffy. or something. this is your sign to play pig and duck with us. yes you
#I REALLY LOVE THIS ASK LOL THANK YOU#i'm maybe debating un-hiding my blog and posting in the tags.. before i went to bed last night i sent that latest drawing in a big discord#server i'm in where people know me in a more professional context and then just closed out and went to bed and now i have like 4 pings and#am scared to check them LMFAO but i'm trying to be more brave#IT'S LIKE. I'VE MENTIONED IT A LOT BEFORE. i have a very specific set of circumstances that somewhat justify my neuroticness with all of#this but i've been getting the impression that it's accidentally rubbed off on other people and that really upsets me so i want to stop#being a [Porky voice] craven little coward within my own control#my online and irl life are very intrinsically tied i have immediate family following me and i got my job through being online/it IS online#really... and even if those people aren't following my tumblr it still comes up in search results. so hopefully you can see why i don't wan#my parents or bosses seeing my art of the pig and duck eating face. especially when i want to work with said pig and duck#and am sort of fearful that people might feel like i have an 'agenda' or other motivations for wanting to work with them (push#ship fodder or whatever the damn hell idk). see that latter point i know is more ridiculous and i'm trying to work against it#because i know my intentions and it ain't that! truly i just love the characters and want to explore all of their dynamics. and this is a#part of their dynamic. a recontextualization maybe. but everyone i've explained Dafpork to has been shocked/understanding? i guess? a lot o#'how did i not know this before's. so it's not like i'm 'wrong' LOL. but i just get paranoid and my wires of justifiable vs irrational#paranoia crossed#look yall i was in the South Park fandom when i was 15 getting called slurs and death threats i was there for Steven Universe discourse#seeing the crew get harassed i've had a lot of bad fandom experiences/observations that justify my reticence lol#but that's me!! i don't want that to rub off on other people#my greatest mission is to make people happy and it makes me feel awful to think that other people might be embarrassed because they see me#dealing with my own neuroses and circumstances and adopt them for themselves... no!!!!!!! i would not wish that on anyone#so i'm trying to push my way through. i think also just because these guys are tied so much to my identity and how i make sense of it and#i think hiding and not taking pride in this stuff has been much more detrimental to my own self worth and image than i've realized#there are precautionary steps i do feel the need to take but also maybe there are things more within my control than i realize#AGAIN as an outsider i'm sure this looks bonkers crazy to some people who are like 'it's a cartoon pig and duck who gives a shit'#well a) me LOL but b) they mean a lot to me... like much more than words can describe. and i'm trying to embrace that more#i'm a very unique person with a unique set of circumstances and i shouldn't shun that and adhere to what i think other people expect of me#literally gotta be the change i wanna see in the world. i again know this sounds ridiculous but i yam tired of downplaying it/myself... my#circumstances are complex and unique and i will stand by them and embrace them#the old me would say thank you for dealing with me and sorry for getting weirdly personal on a joke post but the BRAVE ME says i'm grateful
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