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Ahem. How can I start the conversation? OK, I'll try. How do you do, fellow humans?
Tonight I would like to talk about the setting of the Arcana game. Or, more specifically, its atmosphere, about background illustrations that people usually don't notice and/or don't usually talk about.
I love the Arcana background CGs so much. To be honest, those CGs are what got me into the game.
A little story: 4 or 5 years ago I saw an advertisement of the Arcana for the first time. And when I saw those ads on Instagram, it was so horrible and tasteless, imho. These cringe ads rather repelled me instead of attracting me. I saw it and forgot about it, but then…
Some time later, I started looking for background references for my text-based roleplay and found some beautiful illustrations. I didn't use these illustrations for my text roleplay. Besides, I soon forgot about my roleplay. :D and, in Google, I looked at the descriptions under the illustrations I found: "the Arcana game". I was intrigued. Then I downloaded the game. A few moments later I remembered those stupid ads, but I decided to take a chance.
And then, after the Prologue, I was absolutely fascinated. It had nothing in common with those commercials. The game itself was more beautiful than I'd ever imagined. And here I am :D and here we are.
Back to the background graphics. I am personally humbled and grateful to the original artists for these backgrounds. We love the characters – there's no doubt about that. But this setting and atmosphere wouldn’t be what it is without these illustrations.
I usually refer to photos that I think have "the same vibe" or "this place fits the world of Arcana" when I want to expand the world of the game on my own. Like headcanons, fanfiction, et cetera, you know.
Next I would like to show my selection of such photos. All photos from Instagram, not the Pinterest, as this is the most convenient method of attribution.
And all of these images, you know, I am NOT using for any commercial purposes. Crediting is in the order of the images.
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Okay, let's go. It's not that I'm HCing any specific locations. I can only give a very rough idea of the "location area". You'll see the notes, I hope. Credits and links below. Credits are clickable.
graciousopulence (the main source)
1. clivenichols
2. nationaltrust*
3. bonvoyagecleo
4. gamma_f
5. rcmccloskey
6. designboom*
7. amarosanchezdemoya
8. curly.beard
There are some images that conjure up more specific associations for me.
© devonchurchland*
To be honest, this photo became the indirect reason for this post.
I saw this today and the theme song from the game immediately started playing in my head (can you guess which one?). At the same time, I remembered some of the scenes that take place in our storyline. A lot of the action takes place in the Temple District. Just because… why not? especially when you and your co-author are historians obsessed with religion, lol.
I imagined this picture very vividly:
One of the churches in the Temple District. Silence. Julian sitting in an empty church, deep in thought. Watching how the strip of light from the stained glass window slowly creeping across the floor and the benches, then how the flames of the candles flickering.
He reflects and looks away, shyly, from the instruments of passions and the images of martyrs.
No, he is not religious at all. Just... impressionable. He is only impressionable in that he probably thinks most of the time that he has not yet been struck by lightning because of his impure intentions. Poor boy… 🫀
Ahem. Sorry. I think I got carried away. :D Just look at this last item.
© dumbartonoaks*
Leave your comments and share your thoughts, requests, etc. Ask is open.
#the arcana game#the arcana headcanons#the arcana backgrounds#the arcana#the arcana aesthetic#the arcana Vesuvia#vesuvia weekly#Vesuvia the arcana#the arcana game headcanons#headcanon things#small talk#Vesuvian notes#julian devorak#Vesuvia#I can't believe people aren't interested in this#okay I can#Just keep in mind the fact that I'm a nerd#julian headcanons#the arcana julian#kinda moodboard?#kinda moodboard!#Vesuvian aesthetic#lunatic talks#the arcana world#the arcana worldbuilding#nix hydra
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⸺ maple's end of the 2023 season posts! ✩
maple's season rating: ★★★★★ (10/10)
4 gifs per race, highlights of every race + fun facts (which will be sourced from the official f1 site!)! + a link to a diary post on a sideblog ✧
☁︎ click read more for more information about this enormous passion project!! ☁︎
✩ extra information
since this is about my own experiences with every race, expect heavy biases (not in the facts though - as long as the f1 website HAS official facts), aka expect a lot of max, lestappen, and a bit of charles/alex focus 😵💫😵💫
in the extra blog posts (which will be a clickable link to my tumblr sideblog) i will be talking about how i experienced every race, including what i was up to and some funny pictures/a song i associate with the race 🥹
also!! this was what got me into giffing, i started this project in november 2023, so you can track my improvement with the gifs hopefully LOL 😭😭😭
this is my first ever season of formula one so i have A LOT to say lol thats why i put it on a sideblog... oh and i didnt watch bahrain and jeddah so those posts will be... interesting too. im looking forward to it ‼️‼️
special thanks to @verstrapons for helping me with the gifs, i couldn't have done it without you babygirl 💕💕💕🌷🌷✨✨🥰🥰🥰
#2023 project#f1#formula one#f1blr#formula 1#f1 2023#f1 2023 season#max verstappen#lestappen#gif#gifs#my gif#my gifs#f1 creator#edit#f1edit#.txt#2023 season#red bull racing#rbr#ALSO I HAVE DONE MY BEST TO EDIT A CERTAIN FUCKER OUT#LMK IF HE MANAGES TO STILL SHOW UP ANYWHERE#tp of rbr btw.
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hiii i didn't want to further derail your necklace post but dntm!!!
have you watched any of the recordings on youtube? i've seen both of the japanese recordings and maybe a korean one im not sure
i also found this the other day and i haven't finished it but so far it's really fun! it's a fan production of dntm that has the english demo songs and the dialogue is all voiced by two guys who kind of adapted the english translation of the subs from the japanese production
my favorite part is that since it's just audio (the video is the dntm logo all the way through with a few exceptions for dramatic countdowns and the L logo during L's reveal) they also included some descriptions of important character actions and how scenes look. i think that's awesome. the captions are auto-generated and not super accurate but there are great subs on at least a few of the non-english recordings if you havent seen those yet! anyway here's that video i don't think the link will be clickable rip
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=65PXajqUNEY
oooh that sounds really cool! :D ive only seen one of the japanese recordings so ill definitely check this out :)
(@keithbutgay this is your reminder to watch one of the recordings... /lh)
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Furry Visual Novel Book Club: Echo Week 2
Hi everyone, here is the SPOILER FREE discussion post for “Echo - Sunday”
Links: Previous - Next - Original - Spoiler Version
Feel free to respond in reblogs/replies/or asks :D
We open with our group headed to the nearby town of Payton where they stop at a vista overlooking the town. Chase films some footage for his project while giving a bit of exposition and lore for our setting, the track “Mitt” begins to play; this game's inquisitive song. We learn about a Mass Hysteria that happened in 1877 that led to the boom town’s eventual decline.
The group arrive at Southwest Adventures, the local amusement park, and plan their day. They decide to ride the park’s largest roller coaster first and end up waiting in a long line. We get some internal exposition from Chase about the otter needing water, and how living in Echo, he’s unable to do that.
Question: What significance can we get from Chase’s statement?
Right before boarding the train, Chase gives the extremely nervous Tj a way out of the ride, but the lynx decides to ride despite his trepidation, resulting in Chase being injured from Tj’s claws during the ride.
The Track Intimate begins to play as the two finish composing themselves in the restroom, the soft and charming tones of the song are calming and extrude a sense of kinship and serenity. Carl ends up becoming sick from the ride and an early snack, so he, Chase and Tj decide to skip out on rides with the others and the group breaks into two parties.
The three end up discussing their moobs… which results in Carl more or less turning to the camera and explaining to the audience what archetypes the characters fall under in case you didn’t get the memo (albeit for anime-girl nonsense)
QUESTION: Establishing character tropes is a time tested and nearly universal form of information convenience for media. Is there anything that can be gained from such a clear example of expressing those tropes to the audience?
We come to our second choice of the game, whose shoulder to sleep on. Did you choose the Soft Twink or Weed Chub? (SMALLEST of spoilers, but it’s an ‘unimportant’ choice and doesn’t affect anything except for the following fifteen lines of code, only helping you shape Chase’s personality/preference, the dream is the same and there aren’t any game mechanics tied to the choice, and is why I didn’t plan what choices to make for this scene ~)
Carl - Chase snuggles up to the Ram and Carl responds by putting his arm behind Chase, the otter enjoying the act of closeness.
Tj - Chase leans on Tj, commenting on how it’s easy to get the Lynx to help out. Chase falls asleep commenting on the warmth and softness Tj has.
Chase falls asleep and a dream sequence plays out, while the track “Creep” begins playing, an ominous synthetic piece that evokes tension and unease. Chase dreams of suffocating while some entity with unnatural footsteps follows him. Chase nearly repeats the opening two lines of the novel. The entity rushes Chase after hearing him speak where we get the line, “You’re only moving in circles.” repeated again. The lines and unique font from the opening are repeated verbatim
Chase wakes from the nightmare, gasping for air. Carl and Tj’s sprites are both happy, a clear contrast to what the player and Chase just witnessed. Chase checks his phone and texts Leo for the groups to rejoin and grab lunch together. At this time (and any time the phone is available), if you use the mouse to click on the center ‘home button’ through the game’s UIyou can exit the messaging app and access Chase’s homescreen. The only apps clickable are the messaging app that returns the player to the conversation… and a fun easter egg app called “Predater” which features the visage of a certain stinky-yote sheriff… It is definitely a fun and non-spoiler easter egg filled activity to click around the app.
(My Favorite One!)
The group gathers for lunch only for Jenna and Leo to be absent. The two are playing carnival games together and Chase goes to join them. The two are carrying a horde of stuffed animals that Jenna has one. Fun Fact: The stuffed toys are all deliberately mythical creatures, as the ‘people’ of the world are animals. Just a small and very neat bit of world building i wanted to highlight! The two argue about competing in one last game, and Jenna eggs Leo on by involving Chase (as well as the first real confirmation that two share a history)
The track “Carefree” begins to play, an upbeat and cheery song. We get a sprite for the Carny… which is someone’s actual cat that won a contest for the sprite to be added in the anniversary update! Leo calls Chase by an old petname… something Chase isn’t entirely opposed to.
Leo loses a contest of strength to Jenna, where she then reveals to Chase that she had worked at a carnival during a prior summer as well as the game being more precise and technique than only about pure brawn. Jenna kisses Chase on the cheek, causing Leo to fret a bit before storming off. Jenna then asks Chase a VERY important question.
This choice only truly affects Jenna’s route but I am going to cover both options for both the following scene, and during the route itself!
I’m Gay - Chase laments about explaining his sexuality to people and chooses to avoid the topic by repeating what Jenna believes.
No I’m Bi - Chase admits he’s bisexual and Jenna is clearly interested in this information…
No matter which decision the player makes, Chase is still Bisexual. Admitting his sexuality opens up a romance option during Jenna’s route.
Question: What does the player’s choice not having an effect on Chase’s sexuality convey? Why is that important, and why is it important that Chase remains bisexual then?
After time passes off camera, where in which the group have fun together, they return to the motel for the evening. Chase ends up outside, filming for his project and is greeted by Jenna and Leo. Leo reminisce about the history the three share and how it started with the three of them becoming friends after Leo moved to Echo from El Salvador with his family.
We’re met with the order the group joined, as well as the mention of a name we haven’t seen until now., ‘Sydney’.
The three banter on top of desert ambience as Leo makes a bit of physical contact with Chase with his tail.
Jenna and Leo contrast their family life and responsibilities, Leo being tied to his and Jenna desperately wanting to escape hers. Jenna then brings Leo and Chase to confront each other about their history together before returning to the motel room.
Leo opens with an apology to Chase as ‘Intimate’ begins to play. The two argue about their anchor bracelets.
Leo explains they’re not above love, but about friends and families,with Chase clarifying they’re about Echo. We’re treated to our second CG
Chase shares his feelings with Leo about their hometown. We learn Chase’s viewpoint on the symbolism that’s etched into the game’s very textbox… as well as Chase’s feelings towards the aforementioned Sydney.
Leo changes the subject to how Chase left things between them, learning a fact that turns the dynamic built between the two on their head.
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Huh, what an interesting choice of accessory…
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Personal Viewpoint Question: Does the nature of the breakup between the two change how you view/viewed Chase?
The two embrace each other before being pulled from the moment.
The two return to the hotel room and the day ends as Chase heads out for the night…
Another dream sequence begins, mentioning the group at the lake playing together. We see mentions of someone named ‘Toby’ as well as mentions of ‘Sydney’ being present. ‘Toby’ is a Lynx, allowing one to reasonably assume, the ‘T’ in ‘Tj’ could stand for ‘Toby.
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That ends Sunday for our reading! Thank you to everyone who participated! I love feedback and discussion but just people enjoying the journey and reading these as letsplay is fun too ~
Our Reading for next week after voting is...
Best Boi Carl 🐏 🐏 🐏 🐏 🐏
Reading Assignment Particulars:
On Monday the Route Split happens. To pick Carl’s Route, select this option during the Events of Monday
(I would also recommend saving right before this option by using the rewind feature, as this is the route split for all characters!)
This will takes us to Monday, and as Monday and Tuesday are relatively short days, we will also read all of Tuesday for Carl’s Route! Stop at the following screen:
As a note, if a choice appears that I didn’t discuss, feel free to choose either option as it wont affect the outcome of the route. I’ll be sure to discuss both so you can see what the other option(s) look like!
Thank you everyone again, and remember this is SPOILER FREE discussion.
Link to SPOILER DISCUSSION HERE
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what will wood songs have you added btw? im curious
heres some songs for murder arc (they can also fit other times, but thats just when i made the post): clickable!
Main theme from Post Void
LudoWic - Full Confession
LudoWic - Breath of a Serpent
Twisted Nerve from Kill Bill
Kiltro - Cuchito
Kiltro - Guanaco
O Grilo - Sambinha
uhhh this song im lazy to copy tha name on phone but here the link👍
Saint Motel - Everyone's a Guru Now
thats all i scrambled for now👍
!!! thqnk you!!!
Currently it’s:
Doctor Sunshine is dead
Hand me my shovel im going in
Laplace’s angel
and 2econd 2ight 2eer I want to add more but those were all i could think of lol
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here i am with the second ask like i said. name of the .flow fansong is OUT OF SORTS by OrgansDotOrg on youtube (.) com /watch?v=FFMt_ACOUdM
short but sweet! seeing people in the comments talking about .flow filled me with life, ngl. and i will admit this might be my own bias but it kinda feels like a spiritual successor to ghost and pals's oxidation and dream monsters? definitely not intentionally one, but something about the rhythm, and the way the lyrics use imagery to try and get things about .flow across... idk food for thought.
AYE NICE! [Clickable link for those that don't wanna copy pasta]
This is really cool! God feel you there, seeing yn/fg content and other fans out in the wild is such a joyous experience. Think it's cause it's such a niche it's always a surprise to find out someone else has heard of it. That sorta, "YOU KNOW ABOUT THIS? I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE! I'M SO HAPPY THERE ARE OTHERS" thing. Especially considering a lot of these games haven't seen any new material for years and probably never will, it's nice knowing there's others that were affected as much as you and still care for it. seeing how many people get excited for lolrust's anniversary streams is like that too heh
Hmmm, can see why you'd say that. Know nothing of either artist but it wouldn't be surprising if Ghost was an inspiration for Organs. Will throw out there, this sorta theater/carnival vibe seems to be fairly common in English Vocaloid songs [though i have next to no knowledge so it could just be me happening to get these songs a lot or something]. Plus writing lyrics that reference things in a way that isn't too literal or vague while fitting to a rhyme/rhythm is difficult, and you only have so much to work with in a game like .flow [esp since it has such a strong central theme, if that's the right wording for it]
I'm no lyricist by any means but have messed around with writing some and tho it'd be an entirely different genre [its me, if I ever make a .flow fansong song it's gonna sound like MIW] I could see how trying to get them to reference the game would result in it sounding similar-ish. Ex:
Hell is my home, my own room will be my tomb Chained to machinery meant to save me, yet all it does is keep the nightmare going. - Cut off my limbs and let this rotten blood stain the concrete The white hospital walls are just an illusion [can't you see the flowers cover graves?] The demon I fought down so long takes its grip and starts to seethe I'm no longer a person, just a fucking disease
As said, tis hard to make references without being too literal while still making sure you have enough there for people to be able to figure out what you're talking about heh.
buuuut yeah, really cool song and could absolutely see it at least being an indirect/accidental spiritual successor to Oxidation. Also huge thank you for sharing both song and album!! There's so much incredible fanwork out there that slips under the radar I am more than happy to try to get stuff more attention, plus I honestly love hearing other people talk about or sharing things they like ◠⸜⸝◠
#rayns asks#added this song to list as well#thank you for sharing! I really loved them#sorry if i went off on a ramble again here heh
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The Pianist in Apartment 23
Inspired by this post. Liebestraum is Franz Liszt’s most famous piano piece, told in 3 parts. The 3rd part, the part Harvey requests, is said to be about unconditional, enduring love. The kind that never fades, that never dies.
The cold morning air is bracing, and Harvey relishes the feel of the wind on his face, the feel of his feet hitting the pavement, as he runs through the paths of Central Park.
He passes another runner coming from the opposite direction and he nods. The man nods back, giving Harvey a once-over with a leer and Harvey smiles to himself and keeps running, turning the corner. He reaches the sidewalk outside the park and is greeted by a couple of ladies running toward him. They smile and he gives them a winning grin that starts to widen when he hears them giggle to each other behind his quickly retreating back.
He loves his morning run.
Finally he reaches the front door of his building and he stops, nodding at the doorman.
“How was the run, Mr. Specter?”
He checks his heart rate with a couple of fingers pressed to the inside of his neck and says, “Good, Henry. Thanks.” He watches a moving van pull into the underground garage, a couple of guys in the cabin, and says, “Someone moving in today?”
He nods. “Apartment twenty-three. Nice guy.”
“He had to have been, for Mrs. Grosvenor to give it up. She loved her place.”
Henry gives him a secret smile. “The new tenant convinced her she loved her grandkids in Florida more.”
Harvey laughs, shakes his head. “Well done. He’s not a fellow lawyer, is he?”
Henry opens the door for Harvey as he shakes his head “He didn’t say. But I did see them move in a baby grand earlier.”
Interesting.
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Harvey throws the file down onto his desk. “Goddammit, Aaron.”
The associate nervously steps up to the front of Harvey’s desk and says, “He didn’t give me a choice.”
“How many times have I told you? There’s always another choice.”
“I can fix it.”
“No.” He shakes his head, a clear dismissal. “I’ll take care of it. You’re done.”
“Harvey-”
“You’re done.”
Aaron retreats from his office with one more look thrown over his shoulder, his tail between his legs. Ridiculous.
“You realize the associate pool is quickly dwindling.”
Harvey looks up and catches Donna’s eye through the glass of his office wall, her hand on her hip and her finger pressed against the intercom button.
“I don’t need your judgment, Donna. I need an associate who can do their damn job.”
“It wouldn’t hurt you to decompress once in a while, you know.”
“If I didn’t spend three quarters of my time fixing their damn mistakes, I might be able to.”
There’s a silence that goes on entirely too long, and then she finally says, “I’ll find someone else.”
She’s judging him, hard, and Harvey can’t find it in him to give a shit.
“Good. Try to find someone who doesn’t need their hand held.” He picks up the file on his desk. “I’m going to fix another mess.” He strides out of his office, and as he passes her desk, he says, “Maybe one of these days I’ll actually get to do my damn job for once.”
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It takes a good seven hours to placate the clients and undo Aaron’s shitstorm of a mess, and when he’s finally through, all he wants to do is strip out of his suit, pour himself a few fingers, and sink into one of his armchairs.
He opens the door to the balcony to let in a little air as he passes by, strips down in no time, and slips into a t-shirt and jeans. He’s just bent over his turntable, Billie Holliday in hand, when he hears the bright, quick notes filter down into his condo from outside the open patio door.
He puts the record down and walks over to the patio door, listens for a minute inside before he steps outside. The piano is a little louder out here, and Harvey sits in one of the lounge chairs on his patio, stretches out his legs and crosses them at the ankle. He leans back and closes his eyes, and rests the tumbler of Scotch on his belly as he listens to the notes go faster, get brighter, start to take shape, almost as if he can see them dance behind his closed eyelids.
This must be his new neighbor.
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It doesn’t take Harvey long to realize that his neighbor plays the piano a lot. And that he’s very, very good.
Some mornings he wakes up to notes filtering in through his patio door, gentle songs that turn quick and bright, that welcome the rising sun, that greet Harvey with a Good Morning. He falls asleep to slow, soothing songs, songs that sound like the stars coming out.
There are classical pieces that must have taken months to master. There are pop songs that probably took ten minutes. Harvey smiles every time he hears Elton John or The Beatles mixed in with Chopin or Beethoven.
There’s one piece the pianist hasn’t played yet, something Harvey would love to hear.
So he thinks, why the hell not?
And he sticks the note to the front door of apartment 23.
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A tentative knock sounds on his office door and he barks out, “What?”
A meek associate peeks his head into Harvey’s office, as if Harvey’s office walls weren’t made of glass, for god’s sake. As if he could somehow hide himself from Harvey’s current mood. After fixing yet another stupid associate mistake this morning, Harvey’s patience level is hovering somewhere close to negative 14. This associate better start speaking, and fast.
“Mr...Specter? I’m, um...I’m Harold? One of the associates?”
“You’re not sure?”
“No, I...um...I am. I just...”
Harvey feels every single last ounce of patience he has melting away. “Why are you in my office, Harold?”
He hurries toward Harvey’s desk and holds out a folder. “I noticed Jimmy was working on the Carnahan case for you? But he didn’t...um...he missed some precedent.”
Harvey takes the folder. That’s exactly the mess he was smoothing over. “So you took it upon yourself to do work on a case you weren’t assigned?”
His voice is small, meek, and he winces when he speaks, like he’s waiting for a reprimand. “I didn’t want you to go into the meeting tomorrow unprepared.”
Harvey sizes him up. Harold needs a lot of work, but he’s just saved Harvey a lot of work tonight, and he’s already proved himself more competent than Jimmy and Aaron and whatever the hell the rest of their names are, so Harvey can ignore that for now.
“How long will it take you to go through the entire Carnahan contract?”
He hesitates. “You want me to work on the Carnahan contract?”
Harvey sighs audibly. His patience level is going down again.
“I can have it by five.”
Harvey nods. When Harold doesn’t move, Harvey looks down pointedly at his watch then back up again. “You might want to get started.”
He scurries out the door, barely sparing Jessica a glance as he passes her.
“Terrifying the help again, are we?”
He gives her his most winning smile. “No more than usual.”
“How’s Carnahan coming?”
“I’m closing him tomorrow.”
She eyes him. “Good. Get it done. I don’t want any hanging threads before the benefit Saturday.”
“I’ll take care of it.”
This benefit was orchestrated in large part as a celebration of their new partnership with Carnahan Electronics, with an aim to fund raise an absolutely obscene amount of money for music programs across the city. It’s Elise Carnahan’s pet charity, and everyone knows the way to Frank Carnahan’s heart is to make Elise happy. All Harvey has to do is make sure the contract is impeccable.
It’s going to be a long night.
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It’s so late when he gets home from the office that he doesn’t expect there to be any music, not really.
He’s still disappointed when nothing comes floating through his open patio door. He has to fill in the silence with a Coltrane album.
It’s not quite enough.
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The contract is impeccable. Frank signs.
When Jessica grants him her nod of approval, he excuses himself with a handshake to Frank and gives himself the rest of the day off. He’s earned it, but someone else as earned something too, and Harvey stops by the associate bullpen and makes sure to give Harold his due in front of everyone for a job well done. He perks up considerably, like Harvey’s the first person to ever tell him he’s done a good job. Harvey gives him a quick once-over. He looks like he rolled out of bed completely clothed this morning.
Christ, this guy is going to take a lot of work.
But at least he actually knows how to do his damn job. Everything else, Harvey can fix.
“Do you have a tux?”
He’s guessing the answer is no, but people have surprised him before.
“I can get one?”
Harvey suppresses his sigh. Everything with Harold is a question. “Get one. And make sure it fits you. You’re coming to the benefit tomorrow.”
Harold stands, eyes wide, and Harvey hears the jealous gasps around them. Harold will be the only associate there. It’s a major win for him, and Harvey knows exactly what he’s done for him by offering.
“You want me to come to the benefit?”
“You earned it.”
Harold sputters out a heartfelt thank you as Harvey just nods and says, “A tux that fits, Harold.”
Harvey’s not holding his breath, but he can hope.
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The deal is done, everyone’s happy, so he turns his phone on silent and enjoys the rest of his day. Harvey picks up lunch to go, then goes for a midday run through the park. When he’s done he pulls open the patio door as he always does these days and takes a long, hot shower, relishing the way the water pounds at his back.
There’s an afternoon game on between the Royals and the Blue Jays, so he puts that on, volume on low, and sinks down into the couch, a beer in hand.
Harvey hears the first notes come filtering down through his patio door when the second inning comes to a close and he stands, walks over to the open door and slips out onto the patio.
It’s the song he requested.
Harvey sits down and leans back on his lounge chair, sets his beer down on the patio. He closes his eyes and smiles as the notes flow into one another like a cascading wave: a beautiful, bright, expressive piece of music, that Harvey’s neighbor plays absolutely beautifully.
When the notes finally fade away, Harvey’s eyes blink open and he claps, loudly and unreservedly, his heart utterly full.
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“Jessica,” Harvey says as he walks up to greet her, glass of champagne in his hand. “You look gorgeous.”
She smiles fondly then cuts her eye to the other side of the room. “I see you brought...”
She trails off at the site of Harold across the room, looking unsure and unkempt even as his tux, miraculously, seems to fit him. Small victories.
“He needs work, but he did most of the legwork for Carnahan, and he did it well. Besides, Carnahan liked him.” As if to punctuate this, Frank Carnahan walks over and slaps a surprised Harold on the back then pumps his hand, thanking him for the good work. “He deserved this.”
Jessica just nods, a knowing smile on her lips, then walks over to the stage to introduce their first performer for tonight’s event: a pianist from the New York Philharmonic she’d called in one of her favors to secure. He’s already standing by the black baby grande with a sweet smile on his face, looking at Jessica as she approaches.
Harvey moves a little closer and just misses the tail end of their conversation, but he doesn’t miss the familiar way they look at each other, the gentle affection they have for each other. Jessica squeezes his hand and turns toward the room.
“I’m sure most of you know Mike Ross, the principal pianist for the New York Philharmonic, but Elsie...I’m told he’s a special favorite of yours.” Elsie nods, a big smile on her face, her hand over her heart. “So I mentioned our benefit to him the other day over lunch and he insisted on helping.”
She smiles at him and Mike smiles back. “Music education, and arts education, is so important to me. I wouldn’t be standing here today if it weren’t for Mrs. Monroe and PS forty-nine.” That gets an appreciative chuckle from the crowd and Mike smiles at them. “Music opens up worlds. Thank you for supporting arts education, and thank you for letting me play for you today.”
He nods at Jessica and sits on the piano bench and she steps off the little stage and comes to stand next to Harvey.
Mike’s hands barely start moving before Harvey recognizes the piece he’s decided to play.
Harvey could be mistaken, but the pacing, the quick finger work, the emotion...they all sound an awful lot like Harvey’s laying out on his patio, listening to his neighbor play.
No. It can’t be.
But it is. As Mike’s fingers play the last few, quiet notes, Harvey knows it has to be. That’s his neighbor.
Mike walks over to them and Jessica praises him, which Mike accepts with a bashful smile, ducking his head under her praise. He’s fairly young, or he looks it, with that fluffy hair and those bright blue eyes. His own eyes have skittered to Harvey in interest as Jessica introduces them, then walks off to introduce the next performer, a cellist.
Harvey means to just shake his hand, to say his name, but he has to know. “Apartment twenty-three?”
His eyes widen a little and he gives Harvey an obvious once-over, then hesitatingly, hopefully, asks, “Apartment forty-eight?”
Harvey grins and nods, and Mike almost lights up in front of him.
“You have talented fingers.” Mike blushes, ducks his head. “I’ve been listening to you for so long from my patio, I’ve wondered what it would be like to hear you up close.”
He looks up. “And the verdict?”
Harvey takes a step closer. “Beautiful.” He’s gratified to see the light dance in his eyes. “But maybe I should hear you again, just to make sure it’s not a one-time impression.”
This time Mike takes a step closer, and his eyes drop briefly to Harvey’s mouth. “Are you inviting yourself over?”
“Only if I’m welcome.”
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The thing is, Harvey knew Mike could play, but he didn’t know Mike could sing. With Mike in his lap, Harvey latches his mouth on Mike throat and tries to coax out another groan, another moan, another note as Mike’s hands skitter across Harvey’s skin, find sensitive places Harvey didn’t even know he had.
Talented fingers, indeed.
#suits#harvey x mike#mike x harvey#marveynetwork#marvey#alli writes#pianist!mike#tattooedsiren#a late gift for your birthday#and because you had a rough day the other day#and I hate it when you have rough days#note there are some underlined phrases#those are clickable links to some songs#that mike plays#also enjoy the harold addition
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Tagged by: @theydoctor :3 thank you!!
Favourite time of year: Summer! Used to be autumn for years cos of the pretty colours and just the overall cosy vibes, but after living in england for so long I just crave the warmth and joy of summer year round lol
Comfort food: POTATOES! BOIL EM MASH EM STICK EM IN A STEW. (no but really growing up w coeliac my most staple carb is potatoes so theres just comfort to it. Though ill say pörkölt is up there too)
Do you collect something: so many random things. Rocks, shells, broken bits of ceramics and pottery, feathers, eggshells (like songbirds not chickens lol), dead insects if i happen to find any intact etc etc
Favourite drink: WATER! all i ever drink is water istg sksksk, but if i had to pick a non water beverage then hot chocolate or apple juice
Favourite song: this is evil so evil you cant make me pick just one T.T "barcelona" by george ezra or "sitting on the dock of the bay" by otis redding are definitely up there tho
Current favourite song: "March of the resistance" by john williams or "hajolj bele a hajamba" by péterfy bori & love band
Favourite fic: also evil, i cant pick just one so ill inflict like 30 upon you >:3 (i did try to slim it down, but theres still so many and i cant bring myself to write a description for each one, youre gonna have to do fic roulette w this)
(edit: ill be slowly editinf through this to make all the links actually clickable cos for some reason tumblr decided to just paste them as plain text)
Spn fics -
The Most Important Thing by northernsparrow
Under the Midnight Sun by northernsparrow
Flight by northernsparrow
A Winter's Tale by northernsparrow
Ye be warned by orphan account
Into the Fire by northernsparrow
One Step At a Time by tricia_16
Marvel -
despite the threatening sky and shuddering earth (they remained) by praximeter (Zimario)
Rivers and Roads by AustinB
War, Children by Nonymos
We’re all playing the same game, laying down alone. by FlawedM
Total Institution by thelittlestpurplecat
Dragging Me Down by cleo4u2, cobaltmoony, xantissa
Star wars -
step out into the sun by plutos
Superluminal Motion by nekosmuse
Doubt Thou the Stars Are Fire by linatrinch
Actualization by diversionary_tactician
The Tides of Mustafar by buckstiel
The strangeness of us by Tarasque
The Soulmark by LightningStriking
On My Wing by Nerdinablender
Racing By by rebelforce
You Will Fly Again by mybuckystar
Jessika Pava: Best Wingman in the Resistance! by ScarlettStorm
you promise me, my life by beautifullights
The Wanderer and the Seer by aiden_ng
Doctor Who -
Those We Love the Best by Yamx
Bliss by DameRuth
The Mardi Gras series by diannelamerc, lizbetann
Major Arcana by Canaan
Universal Lost and Found by OneOfThoseThings
The Contingency Plan by gingerteaandsympathy
The Choice by lastincurableromantic
Witcher -
With a Conquering Air by inexplicifics
it’s a long way forward (so trust in me) by suzukiblu
If I Must Starve (Let it be in Your Arms) by Igneum807
Xmen -
Directive by Kalimyre
The stars incline us, they do not bind us by ikeracity, Pangea
An Ideal Grace by afrocurl, nekosmuse
Alrighr alright im done now xD
Tagging:
@englishbunnyrocks @saecookie @cerberulix @everybodygotawaterbuffalo @k9ok and anyone that feels like it!
Also i know this isnt part of the tag challenge but if anyone has good fic recs in the fandoms i posted up there pls send them me 👉👈🥺
#tagged in#tag game#theydoctor#treasured mutual <3#:)#literally it was so hard to narrow it down#and some of these fics i havent read in years#i did filter it tho so its only complete fics. i wont subject you to waiting w me for fics that havent updated in years#fave#finn.txt#fic rec
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MUSE INFORMATION
upper rank three : akaza .
slightly canon divergent . this is my personal interpretation of him , with some headcanons and self projections . i hope he remains cool .
haunted by the past , teased by the uncertain future . distracted by the present .
HE / IT . GENDER UNLABELED . BIROMANTIC ACE , MALE LEAN .
🎨 : kny manga .
press the keep reading thing for a semi - detailed headcanon list . if you want to . note that the list may grow over time , and some headcanons may be altered or removed entirely — though the latter would only apply to the more " unripe " headcanons .
HEADCANON LIST :
( wip lol )
⟨ 1 ⟩ — " DONUT HOLE " ;
yes , i know the title looks like a shitpost . haha donut hole omg it's kyoujurou !!!!! i promise it's not that LMAO this is a kind of song headcanon , inspired by the lyrics of ドーナツホール by hachi ( ← clickable ) . i'm too lazy to explain my headcanon in full detail . plus , you can know roughly what the headcanon is just by staring at the lyrics for a good minute , so ... here's a link to the lyrics . imagine the singer as akaza , and the person he's trying to remember as koyuki . then it'll make sense .
⟨ 2 ⟩ — DIFFERENT ' FLAVORS ' OF PEOPLE ;
you know how akaza has this sort of internal compass ? that thing that can detect fighting spirits ? yeah . i like to think it can detect a little more than just strength . maybe a few details here and there , like demon / human , gender , intention , etc . nothing too big . everyone's fighting spirits are unique to it , though , and it can discern which belongs to who with enough effort .
⟨ 3 ⟩ — OVERSTIMULATED ;
akaza once said that everyone had fighting spirits . even newborn babies . no matter how frail or weak someone was , they still had one — though it could be a little faint . and the fight against giyuu and tanjirou proved that he could sense and keep track of multiple fighting spirits at once ( when he thought tanjirou died because his fighting spirit disappeared ) . so , with that info , i think it's safe to assume that his compass gets a little overwhelmed when there's too many people nearby . so many different fighting spirits to consider .. with relatively little processing power in his head .
⟨ 4 ⟩ — THE PAST NEVER FADES ;
oh boy . this poor little demon is affected by its backstory so much , and it doesn't even know it . all of the more depressive / sad personality traits it has are a direct result of its past . those traits carried over from when he was a human , from when times were harsher and unfriendlier . this is less of a headcanon in on itself and more of a tool to help explain and built multiple other headcanons , like this next one :
⟨ 5 ⟩ — INFERIOR ;
wip because oh fuck i'm lazy
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So about Harry’s deleted tweet and that link above Louis’s milkshake meme and how someone got to it and made it go to an explicit fanfic page.
With hindsight is 20/20 and Falling MV having such a similar visual to a well-known fanfic in the fandom and all that,
let’s get technical
1. Unless you’re on the same computer, you can’t access direct link to its local hard drive via internet browser
2. Once it’s out there, a tweet cannot be edited
3. smarturl is a platform that gives you a [masked url] which redirects you to the actual link you don’t see at first and I’m in love with this metaphor.
So whoever is the hacker that was responsible for the original tweet from Harry’s Twitter account just need to tweet this:
‘<a href=“[masked url]”>G://[masked url]</a>’
and the audience only see:
‘G://[masked url]’
‘G://[masked url]’ itself isn’t a link at all. It’s rather just a text that covers up the link to [masked url] cleverly hidden in HTML code.
Double masked url. How very clever.
Then they just gotta wait with dear patient while the tweet went viral enough that it’s worth the wait
Then it’s so easy for whoever that someone is to go to smarturl platform and replace the blank space behind their [masked url] with whatever they want and the original tweet will also automatically redirect there.
(If you could click on it, I wasn’t in the fandom at the time, so I have no clue if the link was clickable from this long-since-deleted infamous tweet)
So the audience still see the same:
‘G://[masked url]’
But everything has changed
Since whatever they want is apparently Larry Stylinson’s explicit fanfiction on a site titled ‘Larry Porn’ no less.
this tweet now has a reason to be taken down.
Given that the [masked url] was www(dot)smarturl(dot)it/ye
Let’s look at this interesting link.
IT is a shorten form of Italy
Filming of Harry’s Golden MV in Italy was used as promo for Golden MV
Golden MV has scenes in fisheye lenses
Harry adores his 🐠 in Adore You MV which has curious visual cues similar to those in a children’s book called ‘Louis the Fish’
About the 🐠 , according to Harry, "he’s on a gap year" and “the fish is traveling right now, it’s complicated. we’re taking a little time apart"
At the time that Harry said that, Louis was starting his World Tour for Walls.
From Louis’s Walls album, we get We Made It: Director’s Cut and Walls MV that have some similar scenes to Harry’s Lights Up MV (where he was really adamant about his clothes being in a very specific shade of blue)
In Louis’s Walls album, there is a song that Louis had leaked a snippet of since 2017
Here comes the really crazy part.
...Ready for it?
3. G:// is a local hard drive. It’s doesn’t change to the whim of the Internet. It could be HDD/SSD that stays in the same computer like a permanent tattoo or a small thumb-drive that could be taken wherever its holder goes.
2. Remember how Harry and Louis have a lot of nautical/pirates theme tattoos?
1. Pirates were really, historically gay, and when they talked, instead of you, it’s always ye
Or in regular people talk:
Always You
#breaking the fourth wall
#holy golly golly gosh#I’m not saying Harry did that entire thing intentionally#but he totally fookin did goddamnit#larry stylinson#loutay#conspiracy theory#it’s either their big brains or the universe is fucking with this conspiracy big time#harry styles#louis tomlinson#i haven’t finished my analysis of folklore by Taylor Swift aka the biggest and DARKEST larrie ever#hoax: don’t want no other shade of blue but you#peace: you paint dreamscape on the wall#sorry I keep editing this to make it easier to read/understand#can’t articulate all my thoughts on the fly that well#mine
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The Assistant / Chapter Forty-Eight, “I’m Home”
*Not my gifs*
Clickable Links:
- Masterlist feat. all chapters and Character Surveys
- Inspo tag
- Hecky Playlist
- Read on Wattpad
Word Count: 7.6k words
Warnings: None
Music Inspo: Forever Like That by Ben Rector (click to listen)
SNEAKYYYYYY PEEK
His eyes find mine first and I can’t tell if the sage green is blurring because my eyes deceive me, or that his betray him. Within seconds, it seems that both of our eyes have made a mess of themselves with tears, his shed onto my hand when he brings it to his lips with a kiss. I’m certain that he could taste mine when I steal a kiss from his lips, and those that water his neck with them, sure to not smudge the sentiment that waits to become permanent above his heart.
“Harry Styles,” I giggle nervously with hot cheeks, shaking my head as I stare at the floor, our intertwined hands blocking my view ever so wonderfully.
“My Rebecca Ann.”
Lifting them, my eyes find him like they always so easily do, and so do the divots that fall into his cheeks. The three words that I feel like repeating over and over to him fall again from his lips in a hushed whisper.
I love him more than I did just a second ago. Again.
"When I’m with her, I feel happy to be alive. Like I can do anything, even talk to you like this. So, that’s what I think love is. When I’m better because she’s here.” - Boy Meets World
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“Reckon ‘ve neva seen a sight mo’ beautiful in me entire life.”
“Sounds like you haven’t lived long enough then.”
“‘m serious, Becks, yer absolutely gorgeous,” I exhale all in one breath, and with so many others wanting to spill out and join. “Yer everythin’, bug.”
“Oh, hush.”
“Or else, what, Becks? You’ll make me be quiet? Hmm, ‘d like t’ see you try that one, babe,” I tease, letting my nose drag along her cheek and my laugh float over to her ears. “Reckon yer takin’ too long. ‘m an impatient bloke, y’know.”
It’s a tragedy to silence her lips budding with a bubbly laugh, but my, do they taste magnificent. Her smile does as well, and so does the song that ignites from my fingers as they run down her arms free of wires and tubes, albeit an annoying cast.
“Meant it, y’know, that yer so beautiful,” I whisper against her mouth, lifting my head to punctuate my words with a kiss on top of her head. “You look good and seems like you feel that way, too.”
“Mmmhmm,” she murmurs from below me, the corners of her rose colored lips curling into her cheeks.
The pink has begun to return to them and so has her dimple indefinitely. It doesn’t compare to the fluttering inside of my chest at the sight of her ocean eyes peering up at me, the flecks of gold glimmering in the light. Admiring her seems to grow better as if climbing a mountain, because next, I get to enjoy the familiarity replaced with her wavy hair pooled over her shoulders.
“I’m ready,” she exhales nervously, and the baby freckles dotting her cheeks blur in front of me. “Harry, don’t cry, or else you know that I will too.”
“‘m sorry, ‘m jus’ so bloody happy,” I laugh, finding it hard to stop my lips from quivering as I look at her - the familiarity of the jeans and hoodie hugging her body, the new purple Vans bright on her feet, and the flicks of mascara she insisted on wearing even though she doesn’t need it. “‘m so unbelievably happy that I get t’ bring ya home, bug. Finally.”
“Me too,” she croaks, a glistening tear falling into the divot of her dimple before collecting at her chin. They disappear from my view, both luckily and not, when she pulls me into her arms. I can’t complain about it, though. “Thank you. I could never say it enough for everything, Harry, you-.”
“Yer welcome, Becks, forever and ever. No need t’ thank me, I know ya woulda done tha same fer me.”
“I would have,” she whispers against my neck. I nod into her hair that my nose is smothered by in the best possible way, and it makes me wonder if you can overdose on the smell of orange blossoms and vanilla. It seems a happy drunkenness may come from smelling it, afterall.
It’s a feat in and of itself to leave her arms, but it shrinks in comparison to the relief I feel at wiping her tears away, unsure of the last time I felt happy to do this, or this happy at all.
“Shall we get goin’ then, love?” I ask her, thumbing at the imperfection in her cheek that could never be anything short of perfection to me.
“Yeah, let’s go,” Becks nods. “But, one thing first.”
“What’s that? I didn’t think ya wanted t’ spend anotha second in this place.”
“I don’t, but one last kiss is okay,” she smirks and quickly, I’m tasting the absence of melancholy and pain in her kisses. I know that they still sit there, somewhere near, but I choose to ignore them at this moment and to pretend that I can kiss her sadness away. “Okay, now, we can leave.”
“I know ‘ve been waitin’ too long t’ do so . . look at you being a superhero and e’rythin’, bustin’ outta here within a week . . Let’s bring you home already, bug.”
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It’s rather hard to get used to - not one, but two things. I didn’t think I’d ever get used to how beautiful she is and I thought she was a sight when we left the hospital, but damn, was I wrong. She keeps doing that, proving me wrong, always has. I like it more now than I did in the beginning. Now, wrapped up in a cocoon of blankets in her bed, it really is by far the best sight.
My glowing smile sputters and almost goes out completely when I sigh with a hand in my hair. I just had gotten used to the idea of her being in a hospital and trusting the nurses, and now here I am, her nurse. I liked the thought at first, but now that it’s happened and I’m here, it scares the daylights out of me.
What if I do something wrong?
What if I, of all people, hurt her - elbow her in the stomach in the middle of the night, mess up her bandaging when I rewrap it, or worst of all, mess up her meds?
It all frightens me when I know fully well that I should be the happiest person on earth right now to have her home. But after she got over her bout of sickness, I kept waiting for something else to happen, and I’m still sitting on the edge of that seat, waiting. I never saw the accident coming, but I want to expect the next one, as if I could ever stop something like that from happening. Pffft, I’m no superhero. I don’t know who I think I am, but I know that I want to be everything she needs, and yet, deep down I never could be.
“Harry?”
“Ya, bug? You alright?” I murmur, my hand falling to my side. “Ya need anythin’?”
“Eh, just for you to watch some FRIENDS with me,” she mumbles, cocking her body to look at me over her shoulder. The eagerness taut in her features melts away, and I straighten up, hoping that I didn’t blow my own cover.
“Alright, Harry?”
“Yeah, ‘m fine, Becks. Jus’ thinkin’ ‘m gonna hafta readjus’ me rules fer fallin’ asleep in the middle o’ watchin’ sumthin’ as we might both break that rule,” I quip, leaving my watch in the doorway to join her under the covers.
Worrying away at my bottom lip, I fail to ignore how that lie went over about as well as if she would’ve told it to me. I could be a good liar, but never to her, and the thought itself cements my insides with guilt.
Her laugh fills the dark with some light inside of me, and her famous toasty body nuzzles against mine.
“You’re sure?” Becks wonders aloud, and meeting her questioning gaze is overdue as I stare off into space.
“‘Bout what?” I reply, a V belatedly forming between my brows in wonder.
“If you’re alright. I’m sorry, but I don’t think that I believe you.”
“Oh, that,” I exhale with an ironic laugh that couldn’t be anything but sad. “Ya, I dunno if I believe meself eitha,” I answer at last, feeling much too sour to keep secrets from her that sprout into lies.
No, if I’ve learnt anything recently, it’s that life can flip you on your ass in a moment. I could lose her in a blink, and I very well almost did. The very last night that I want to be thinking is, ‘why did I tell her that silly little lie when I could’ve just grown a pair and told her the truth?’
“Harry, what’s the matter?” she speaks up, lulling the monsters away with her fingers scratching my beard. “I think you need a nap, you’ll feel better after some sleep, and in a bed.”
“No- I mean, ya. Yer right, but that’s not it.”
“What is it then? You can talk to me, love,” she says, and the sentiment weeds into my thoughts and greets my heart.
“I jus’ . . I wanna be enough fer you, Becks, and I dunno if I can,” I confess gently, avoiding her intimidating gaze and instead, entranced by her twirling that braided ring.
“Harry, where’s this coming from? Why do you feel that way?” Becks sighs sadly, and within moments, I wish that I’d never said a thing.
“Nevamind, ‘s jus’ tha sleep deprivation talkin.’ Ignore, silly ol’ me.”
“No, I won’t ignore what you said, because it’s not true,” she replies firmly. The prickly wrapping of her arm cast rubs at my jaw when she turns my head to look at her. “I can’t force you to talk, and I don’t want to make you do anything, but . . I’m here, Harry. You’ve said that loads when I’m afraid or losing my shit . . and I dunno, it grounds me.”
“Thanks,” I smile slowly, feeling the words warm up on my tongue. “I want mo’ than anythin’ t’ take care o’ you and ‘m over tha moon happy yer home, but . . ‘m afraid I won’t do a well enough job, or that ‘ll mess it up.”
“You won’t, Harry,” she assures me, leaving circles drawn onto my cheek that may be invisible to everybody else, but me.
“How d’ya know?”
“Because you’ve shown me how good you can take care of me, especially this week, and the whole two and a half years I’ve known you, Harry Styles,” she insists, leading my eyes back to hers. “I know you’ve told me it a hundred times, but I think it’s time you heard it too - everything is going to be okay. I’m okay, and you’re going to be okay.”
I nod quickly, swallowing against a dry throat and feeling the slick swiping of her finger catch the tears. They don’t just stop there and proceed to drown her fingers, and then the fabric of her shirt when she drags me over to her and against her front.
“It’s okay, it’s okay,” she hums softly, zings of electricity left at the sight of her fingertips beside my spine. “This is the real scary part, huh? To come home and to act like everything is okay, and to return to real life . . I feel it too, it’s kind of suffocating . . but I know that we’ll get through this, taking care of each other. I’m not going anywhere, love.”
“Thank you . . fer stayin . . fer bein’ here.’”
“Always, Harry.”
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“Always,” I murmur, gently breaking through the tangles found in his hair, falling like ribbons between my fingers. Licks of the vanilla and something musky waft from his hair when I press a kiss to the crown of his head.
I let my heavy sigh fall into his curls as my cheek molds to his skull, a hummed song escaping my lips. It sings itself while I drag my fingers through his hair until there are no more snarls or tangles to be found, and my fingers ache from drawing circles into his back. The sniffling and sobs have ended finally, replaced by gentle snoring. His chest rising and falling against mine brings a quiet peace to me, and only now can I let my eyes fall shut, unsure if I feel heavier or lighter now. All that time where I was trying to heal, and even now, I was numb to the fact that he was breaking at my side, further and further.
I hope that you’ll let me fix you, too, Harry.
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Sunlight creeps in through the hastily drawn shades, leaving my eyes scoured with white patches in front of them. Blinking them away slowly, my gaze wanders to the covers I lay beneath and that take me a few moments to place. It all comes together, like puzzle pieces, as I watch my bedroom sharpen around me. I feel the smile tug at my lips when I find the tousled head of dark curls lying opposite of me. He’s more real than he was a second ago when his thickening beard rubs at the back of my finger, and his locks fall through my fingers. Creases form on his forehead and a light moan sounds from behind his lips.
“Shh, go back to sleep, it’s okay,” I coo against his hair with a kiss, feeling my smile widen when his arms come around my middle.
“So, this is real,” I whisper, tracing shapes through his Queen shirt, relishing the sleepy warmth he spreads across me. With a huff, my hands find new homes on his body and I let myself fall back to sleep, thinking of all of the other dreams I’d like to come true next.
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Shoots and zings of pain awaken me the next time, followed by the creaking of the door and a different voice.
“Ree, you awake?” somebody whispers from behind the door, but when I see the shock of green hair, I wonder how I could forget that face for a second. “Hey, morning- well, for one of you. It’s time for your meds, and I made some brekky. You should have your pills with it, I can bring some in for you.”
“Morning . . No, it’s okay, I want to let him sleep. I think he needs it more than me, do you think you could help me up and out?”
“Sure thing,” she whispers, her pink bunny slippers making soft pat-pat noises on the hardwood floor.
“Sweet dreams,” I wish ever so softly into his hair smelling of Sundays baking with my gran. Regrettably, my arms jelly like from sleep slide away from him, and I inch towards the other side of the bed.
“That had to have been the sweetest thing I’ve ever seen.”
“Yeah, it’s like living in a dream,” I remark with a happy laugh, exhaling when my bum finds the cushions of the sofa. “If you would’ve told twenty-four year old that I’d be waking up to Harry in my bed at twenty six, I wouldn’t have believed you.”
“Oh, you don’t have to tell me, I wouldn’t have believed you, either,” Skye giggles, setting down a plate in front of me with a soft clatter, accompanied by the tap of a glass of orange juice.
“Okay, Chef Robbins, how much do you think I can eat? I’m not bloody pregnant, now am I? I’m just injured, not eating for two here,” I quip, nevertheless picking up the fork and stabbing at a curd of scrambled eggs.
“Don’t you even, you need to be getting your appetite back. I don’t expect anything less out of you - eating all of this. You have every damn food group on this plate, thank you very much - Harry would be proud.”
“He would. What, did you blooming write up a food menu with him, or something?” I ask through a few bites of fluffy eggs.
“No, but we did come up with a list of groceries together, so I reckon that’s fairly the same.”
“You, go grocery shopping, since when?” I say, crumbs littering my fingers when I pick up the half slice of buttered toast, shoveling cheesy eggs onto them.
“Since your bloody boyfriend bullied me into doing it.”
“Hmm, I should’ve had him do that a long time ago,” I laugh, and it’s welcomed by the sound of her obnoxious one. “My bloody God, you’re going to wake him up with that honker of yours, you know that!”
“Whoops, I better shut up. I need you all to myself for a change.”
“Oh, hush up, you had me all to yourself for twenty years or so, reckon you can give me up for a little bit,” I jest, watching her wild bed head shake back and forth with her disagreement. “Also, when’d you become a cook? This is good.”
“It’s eggs and cheese, no duh it’s good and it’s easy. Is he going to have any? There’s plenty more.”
“I dunno, I want him to get some more sleep. The poor guy’s been sleeping on a sofa for the last week, for Christ’s sake.”
“Fuck,” she sighs, biting into her toast with a crunch, leaving grape jam on her lips quite adorably. “Speak of the devil, and he shall appear.”
“What?” I say, staring at the blobs of jam on her lips until I hear my name rasped from the other side of the room. “Harry. H-hi, good morning. There’s uh, breakfast if you want some.”
“Oh, thanks. ‘ll use tha loo first.”
“And maybe put a shirt on, or, maybe not after all,” Skye jokes under her breath, but loud enough for me to hear as I watch Harry disappear down the hallway enclosed by the kitchen’s back wall. Every inch of his sleepy body regrettably leaves my eyes, including the mess of bedhead on him, the lack of a shirt, and amongst other things, those green eyes that only relaxed when they found me.
“Shut up, you creep!” I retort, failing to keep my chuckle to a low hush when her contagious laugh does its magic.
“All I’m saying is that I’m not complaining about the new house guest,” she explains with a shrug of her measly shoulders, standing to her feet. “I guess I’ll give the happy couple some privacy and eat my brekky with Buffy in my room.”
“Yeah, you go and pout, and leave my boyfriend alone in the hallway.”
“I can’t promise anything!” Skye squeals, her slippered feet slowly becoming harder to hear.
“Mmm, when’d ya wake up, bug?” somebody else asks, but I was ready and noticed him the moment his tall body walked back into frame.
“Only a few minutes ago.”
“Oh, how’re you feelin’? Did you take yer meds yet?” Harry questions, rubbing at his eyes on his way into the kitchen, too far away for my liking.
“I’m fine, but sore. Skye woke me up in the middle of the night to take my meds then, and I’m just about to take some more. How fun.”
“Oh, ‘m sorry I missed ‘em last night, Becks. I thought I set an alarm on my phone,” he yawns, his drowned out voice accompanied by the scraping of the pan.
“Yeah, I turned it off after she had done it, because I wanted you to sleep. That’s why I didn’t wake you just now, you need to sleep more.”
“I know, but ‘m okay. I woke up and saw you weren’t there, and I couldn’t fall back asleep.”
“You’re cute when you’re all worried,” I joke, chewing the last bite of scrambled eggs as the sofa cushions dip underneath me. “And shirtless.”
“Oh ya . . sorry ‘bout that. I mean it when I say yer a li’l heater, Becks, and with all o’ those blankets, I must’ve gotten too hot and taken me shirt off sumtime,” he explains with a shake of his head, the bright flesh of the strawberry contrasting to his bubblegum pink lips that surround it. Okay, Becky, it is too early and my brain is too foggy to be having these kinds of thoughts already today. “Alright, babe?”
“Yeah, yeah, I’m fine. The strawberries just look so good,” I lie, picking up one and biting into the juicy fruit. I’m unsure of how to feel about the fib going over his head, but it’s whisked away when his cold toes playing footsie with mine instead nudge mine repeatedly.
“Pills,” he insists from across me, nodding to the foreign looking organizer sat on the coffee table before me.
“Yes, yes, Nurse Styles,” I exhale, leaning forward to grab them, but I stop when a tight pain radiates through my abdomen.
“What’d I tell ya ‘bout bein’ careful, love? Ya can’t push yerself too hard now. Are you okay?” Harry coos, dropping his fork onto the plate sat on his lap, making quick work of grabbing the case for me.
“I know, Dad.”
“Now, what’d ‘d say ‘bout all that bein’ stubborn shit . . huh?” he rasps, voice framed by the clicking and clacking of the case opening and pills shaking about.
“I know, I know, you’re just fun to tease.”
“We know that too,” he answers, setting the case aside and clearing his throat a few times until I look at him.
“What, do you not know how to use your words?” he only dips his head a little lower and sighs.
“Watch tha mouth,” he huffs jokingly, dropping the slew of pills into my palm with a nod to my orange juice.
“You never said anything about toning down the sass.”
“Didn’t gather that I needed t’, Rebecca Ann, ‘ssa given,” he replies with his seesaw like shoulders helping him talk, finishing off the last few bites of his toast.
With a groan, I pick up the heavy bottomed glass and between a few glugs of juice, swallow down the multitude of pills. I chase them down with a few more bites of strawberries and hash browns.
“That betta not be all yer eatin’, Becks,” Harry tuts from my side, scraping his fork along the plate to gather the last scraps of eggs.
“I’m done.”
“No, yer not. Ya can be afta ya have two mo’ bites o’ p’tatoes, a strawb’rry, and finish yer juice,” he instructs, pointing his fork at the various food items.
“Fine, Dad,” I grunt, returning the fork to my hands and doing as he says. “You know, I’d make some joke about how you’d be a good lawyer, or better yet, a good father being all bossy, if you weren’t getting on my nerves.”
“That means ‘m doin’ me job then,” he chuckles softly from his perch on the sofa. “Hey, where d’ya think yer goin’?”
“What, I can’t go pee without you having to know that too?”
“Sorry,” he barely squeaks, looking away sheepishly from behind me.
“It’s okay, just chill on the ‘hovering dad thing’ when you’re well, not a dad.”
“I wouldn’t hafta act like yers if ya did what yer told with a li’l less attitude,” he bites back sarcastically, and I wish that he could see my eyes rolling from this far away.
“I learned from only the best!”
“Hey!” his protest meets my ears just as I close the bathroom door with a giggle, sighing when I get off my dodgy ankle to relieve myself.
+
“How upset are ya with me?” Harry coos, a creak heard behind him as he shuts my bedroom door.
“I’m not upset. I’d just like a little more ‘friendly nurse’ and a little less ‘drill sergeant’ from you, is all.”
“‘m sorry, bug, but we know both yer ‘bout tha most stubborn person we both know,” he explains, daring a few fingers to stroke my cheek. “C’mon, open ‘em up, Ocean Eyes.”
“No.”
“Becks,” he drawls with a feisty giggle, dragging his nose down the expanse of my cheek. “Y’know ya can’t stay mad at me fo’ too long, ya’ve never been able t’.”
“Oh, wanna bet?”
“Rebecca Ann,” he whines, bringing forth a giggle from my lips at his beard tickling my neck.
“What, Harry Edward? I swear, we’ve known how to push each other’s buttons since the beginning.”
“I don’t disagree,” he says in that breathy laugh. “C’mon, let’s have a cuddle, babe. You can’t deny me.”
“Oh, wanna bet?” I chuckle, moving away from him, finding that this stupid arm cast of mine gets stuck everywhere and on everything.
“Becks!” he scoffs with the most offended look on his face when he leaves my neck. “Be nice t’ me, ‘m jus’ tryna love on you, bug.”
“I don’t disagree,” I quip, relishing in the eye roll I receive and fully deserve, and enjoying the happiness that trickles from my lips next.
“C’mere, li’l one, yer bein’ a li’l shit again, I think I may have even missed it,” Harry says, the bed dipping under his weight as he returns me to his arms, draping the covers over us. “My bug,” he coos, following the nickname with a slew of kisses to my cheeks.
I think I’ve almost made it, almost.
+
“Harry, would you stop it already?!” I groan, exasperated by the sound of shuffling items and the pew-pew of the spray bottle.
“‘m almost done, Becks.”
“That’s what you said half an hour ago, Harry! Ugh, stop cleaning already and come and watch FRIENDS with me. We both know you’re not really watching it when you’re cleaning, no matter what you say,” I sigh, flipping open the covers in invitation. He stands back up and his eyes cast over to me with a raised eyebrow. Both of mine inch towards my forehead in response, challenging him. “Harry Edward, I swear to-,” I wheeze, losing my control.
“You swear what, huh, Rebecca Ann?” he responds, at last setting down the rag and cleaning spray on my desk that has never sparkled or looked so tidy as it does now, along with the rest of my bedroom. “Huh? Talkin’ a lotta shit, aren’t we? I swear t’ God, yer all bark and no bite,” he continues with a smile, the overhead light glinting on his gold cross necklace laid over his Beatles shirt that, much to my dismay, he slipped on after a shower this morning.
“You wanna bet?”
“Ya, I do,” he says, his hands falling splayed onto the mattress in front of me. My God, is he a tease with those long muscular arms, and licking those rose colored lips.
Fuck.
I can’t hold back anymore and press on the back of his neck, losing my fingers in the tight ringlets of hair sitting there, smiling into the kiss.
“Hey, watch it!” he exclaims, pulling away quickly and sucking on his bottom lip that my teeth had just sunk into. “Bloody hell, remind me not t’ doubt you anymo’, you li’l shit.”
“Your little shit,” I correct him with a smirk, pulling him closer by the neck and trying not to laugh at the shocked look on his face.
“My, you are sumthin’, aren’t you, Becks? I betta watch out. I gotta strong one here . . atta girl,” his smile is the last thing I see before his lips return to mine. “Wait a second.”
“What? I wanted to kiss you some more.”
“Oh, stop whinin’, my li’l baby,” he titters, walking away much to my dismay and opening the door to my closet. “What have I found here, hmm? ‘s this a photo album o’ baby Becks?”
“Oh, you found that?” I giggle, yanking up the covers to my shoulders and enjoying my view of him crossing the room. There is just something else about a man in joggers, sigh.
“Ya, when I was cleanin’. Looks like me hard work paid off afta’ all,” Harry says, sliding under the blankets with me. “What’re you starin’ at me like that fer?”
“Nothing,” I sigh shyly, scooting over until my head finds his tummy and his arm finds the curve of my shoulders.
“What’re you blushin’ ‘bout, li’l one?” he giggles from above me, laying his arm over the closed photo album. I only find that he’s forgotten it when I dare to peer up at him, and his eyes are waiting on me.
“I just- I dunno,” I huff with my cheeks aching from shy smiles. “This is kind of all I ever wanted, give or take a few parts. Including the waking up to you shirtless in my bed, and looking all cute in comfy clothes.”
That breathy laugh sparks his lips into a smile again, followed by his bottom lip escaping to between his teeth nervously.
“I don’t disagree,” he quips, and this time, I actually groan at how cheesy he can be. “Really tho’, Becks, I wanted all o’ this too. I dunno what t’ do with meself now that I have it all - get t’ wake up t’ you in tha mornin’, take care o’ you, spend me day watchin’ FRIENDS with you, and now, lookin’ at yer baby pictures with you. I can’t wait t’ see what our kids are gonna look like.”
“Stop it, or I’ll cry again,” I croak, swatting at his chest, but it’s nothing more than a tap.
“I hope those are happy ones,” he whispers into my hair, and a small laugh joins the tears running over my lips. “Bloody hell, think I might spill a few as well. Look at these, were you tha cutest baby or what?” Harry sighs happily after opening the book to a random page, lifting it to get a better look at a photo of four-month old Robbie and me in matching Winnie the Pooh Halloween costumes. Looking up at him, something twinkles in his eye and in his cheeks where the dimples sit lower than ever.
I hope oh so badly that our babies have those dimples of his. Someday.
Until then, I’ll soak up these days of waking up to him, hopefully shirtless, and falling asleep together watching our favorite show, and wondering how it could get any better.
+
Every day seemed to run into the next, and in the best way possible, don’t get me wrong. I got to wake up to Harry beside me, toasty in my bed, and due to that, absent of a shirt and I was not complaining. No, siree. Some body parts still hurt quite a bit, but slowly they hurt less and less, and through that time we got our routine down. Pills three times a day and then twice, Skye helped me with showers, physical therapy three times a week, my ankle became more steady, I could stay awake for longer periods at a time without needing a nap like a growing puppy, and quickly, I was fighting Harry for the last sausage or cookie.
He was enjoying it too, I could just tell. I would bet a lot of money that he couldn’t be enjoying it as much as me, though.
To say that I didn’t get sick of him would be a lie, because oh, were there moments. First, there was his incessant cleaning to keep him busy, which luckily was remedied by his Zoom meetings for work that he’d take in the living room once a day while I napped. Secondly, I swear he watched me and closely as I ate, and it got annoying very fast. The naps and Zooms helped loads though, as did the few times he went home to grab different clothes, do laundry and the like, and go grocery shopping, but even then I missed him a little bit. As soon as he left because I got sick of him, I wished he would come back, and that’s how it went again and again.
+
The cold bites at my cheeks, sure to have left them rosy and wind chapped. Not quickly enough, the car begins to warm up and so do I.
“Alright?” he says with a warmth to his voice that curls around my icy bones. Turning in my seat, I find his lips pinker than ever as he rubs the feeling back into my arm, my free one. Nodding at him, he returns it before pulling the seat belt over him and checking his mirrors.
“Are you?” I ask, a few moments after he had begun to drive.
“Mmmhmm,” he responds, kneading at his lips once we arrive at a red light, briefly meeting my eyes but not holding them.
“You’re . . acting weird, Harry,” I say slowly, unsure of my words and how he’ll receive them. “I’m the one still getting nervous about being in a car, so what’s your excuse?”
“Nuthin’ . . ,” he insists, grabbing hold of my hand when the light turns green, twirling the bracelet around my wrist absentmindedly. “‘Kay . . I was wonderin’ if we could stop somewhere befo’ we go home. Y’know, if yer not too tired afta P.T. jus’ now.”
“No, I’m good- I mean, yeah, we can. Preferably, if I can sit down at this place you’re going after that workout I just had.”
“I think that can be arranged,” Harry grins, avoiding my prying eyes that search for a hidden meaning in his words. Narrowing my eyes, I squint at him, hoping that will help me to decode his answer, but I come up empty. Sighing, I look away, unsure of why he isn’t letting me read him this one time, but forgetting it after I remember how unbelievably handsome he’s looking with the beard and ochre colored beanie pulled over his curls. “Stop starin’ at me, woman,” he titters, and I only reply with a confused shake of my head.
+
Sighing, I pull my phone from my pocket and find the absence of new texts, still. A smile tries at my lips when I revisit my screensaver that I gloss over at times, a giggly selfie from bed with Harry. I trace the dimples in his cheeks and the smile pinching them before letting it fall back into my pocket.
The shelves of items and hangers of clothes don’t do anything for me, nothing jumping out at me to buy it, and so I wander on to the next little shop, a bakery. Soon, a gooey cinnamon roll occupies my time as I wait, wait, and wait.
“What’s taking you so long, Harry?” I grumble under my breath, finding a seat in the corner of my favorite little coffeeshop down the street. It feels good to get off my ankle that still bothers me at times. Setting down my hot chocolate, the cinnamon roll stills in my hand when I look up and find my familiar view.
If I look hard enough, the sun is streaming in through the windows and that Bon Iver song is trickling from the speakers again. The mystery novel is sitting in front of me, beside a half empty mug of coffee, and there he is. He’s making jokes with the barista at the front, arms folded over the tall flat surface where outgoing drinks are placed for pick up. My heart could do it again, race incessantly like a horse out of its gate, and I’d likely remain glued to this seat, unwavering but not unwanting.
Dinggggg!
Blinking, I’m jolted from the memory by a sound, and suddenly, the sun isn’t leaking into the coffee shop and he isn’t standing there, belonging to somebody else anymore like I had dreamt about last night. My nightmares sure are getting creative these days, drudging up old memories from last summer, the summer from Hell. They must be drying up if they have to resort to the time I saw him in this coffee shop after he’d starting dating somebody else, the day I felt shocked in my seat dying to say hi to him, but more afraid than ever. It feels like another person then, to be afraid to go up to Harry and to say hi, but that’s how it all was. It’s how it all felt, and how I was feeling. He felt like another person entirely and so did I, as if strangers.
Shaking my head and then grimacing at the slight ache that it still holds, I glance down at my phone to find the text that I’ve been waiting for.
sorry it took me so long bug. i hope ya found something u liked at one of the shops, or coffee, knowing u ;) i’m guessing ur at the coffee shop still from ur snapchat, so if u turn the left corner, and go down to the end of that block, you’ll find me there ;) see u soon baby
I can’t hide the smile that sticks to my lips as I leave with the cinnamon roll tucked safely into my hands, but it wavers when I come across the shop he speaks of. I double check and I triple check before finding his Range Rover parked a few yards away, telling me that this is the place. How odd, I think, as the bell tinkles overhead and the classic rock music greets me.
It only takes me a few moments to find him, waiting on a brown leather sofa in a waiting room of sorts, wringing his hands in his lap. Uh yeah, I can only think of one reason why, and no more than that. I can’t tell if the anxiousness painting his body worsens or remains the same when he spots me in the doorway, standing to his feet and taking my hand.
“Hey, that’s mine!” I exclaim, grabbing for the last bite of the cinnamon roll that he steals from me. “Harry!” I sigh, watching him feed it between his lips, but he leaves one last bite pinched between his fingers.
“Oh, ya want this?” he smirks, holding it out for me. I inch forward and am surprised with a messy kiss that tastes of cinnamon and sugar, sparking a song behind my lips. “Here, baby Becks,” he coos, feeding it to me at last before he tugs on my hand to follow him.
“Harry, what’s going on? Why are we here? Why are you here, or do I even need to ask?”
“I thought ya graduated top o’ yer class, so ya should know why we’re here, Ms. Lawyer. Use yer deductive reasonin’ skills, Becks - why do ya deduce we’re at a tattoo shop?”
“Harry,” is all I say, voice absent of anything and everything as I follow him down a short hallway, and into a room that resembles a doctor’s office. It’s not much bigger, but is a spitting image with the massage parlor looking black bed-table-thingy.
“Matt, this ‘s Becks, and Becks, this ‘s Matt,” Harry says, and a tall man turns around and shines his pearly whites at me. “He’s been doin’ me tattoos fer awhile now, best artist I know.”
“H-Hi, nice to meet you.”
“You as well, I’ve heard a lot about you over the years,” Matt responds warmly, waving over to a comfy looking black office chair against the wall. Harry has already helped himself to the massage parlor looking thing, and his North Face and jumper have found their way off of him, too. “I hear you’re the reason we’re here today.”
“Wait, I am? What?” I answer, eyes flitting over to Harry’s. I’m sure of the alarm that blazes in them, and the flames only grow higher when he lets go of my hand. I can’t say that they die down when he slides off his long sleeved shirt dotted with nineties Nickelodeon tv shows, showing the entire room his sculpted torso and inked arms. The sage in his eyes warms and he scoops my hand up again, squeezing it and rubbing hearts into the back of my hand.
“Ya ready t’ see what ‘m gettin’, Becks?” Harry grins ever so proudly, I don’t think that his grin could be any more shit eating than it is right now.
The moments follow and they pass as Matt takes out a piece of what looks like tissue paper on it with purple ink, the design obscured from my eyes. The last thing he does before leaving is to press it to the blank slate above Harry’s heart, and slowly peels it away, revealing the image to me at last.
His eyes find mine first and I can’t tell if the sage green is blurring because my eyes deceive me, or that his betray him. Within seconds, it seems that both of our eyes have made a mess of themselves with tears, his shed onto my hand when he brings it to his lips with a kiss. I’m certain that he could taste mine when I steal a kiss from his lips, and there are those that water his neck with them, sure to not smudge the sentiment that waits to become permanent above his heart.
“Harry, is that-,” I begin at last after pulling away from him, my hand falling from his cheek slick with tears.
“Mmmhhm, ‘s yers,” he answers with a definitive nod, several meanings encapsulated in his words, but I take with me only a few. My fingers trace above his skin the four numbers, ever so familiar to me. “Yer handwritin’, Becks.”
“Why 2024?” I wheeze, wiping away the lingering tears, knowing that they aren’t going anywhere anytime soon. As I speak them, the answer rings behind my eyes, but I wait for his answer.
“‘Cuz,” he answers, like it’s ever so obvious, willing my eyes back to his waiting pair. “I know this year’s only started, and ‘s been a bit o’ a shit show t’ say tha least, but ‘s tha year that brought you back t’ me, and let me keep you. ‘ll be grateful t’ it forever, and t’ you, Becks.”
“I love you,” I whisper, not having decided to say the words and yet, there they are, spilling themselves to his ears.
“I love you, baby, mo’ than anythin’,” he giggles happily, a tear breaking free from his eye to course down his cheek. His beard is ticklish against my temple where his lips litter kisses and love, the reason those very numbers are about to become permanent right where his heart lives under his chest. “I found a grocery list you had written tha other day, and I dunno- I jus’ loved tha way you wrote tha year and how those numbas meant so much . . and mo’ importantly, I couldn’t stop thinkin’ ‘bout how I wanted t’ forget all o’ this . . yer accident. So, instead o’ forgettin’, I wanna remember this bumpy start we’ve had, by this, havin’ yer writin’ on me fer me life.”
“Harry Styles,” I giggle nervously with hot cheeks, shaking my head in disbelief as I stare at the floor, our intertwined hands blocking my view ever so wonderfully.
“My Rebecca Ann.”
Lifting them, my eyes find him like they always so easily do, and so do the divots that fall into his cheeks. The three words that I feel like repeating over and over to him fall again from his lips in a hushed whisper at Matt’s return.
“Are we ready to get this show on the road?”
Harry nods at me with a questioning look, and I nod at him, squeezing his hand.
“Alrighty then, let’s do it,” Matt announces with enthusiasm in his voice, something that wanes inside of me at the prospect of seeing Harry in pain.
If he can do it, going through about as much hell as I did after that car hit me, then I can at least do this. The insane amount of flattery and the overwhelming love that radiates off of him as the tattoo gun begins to buzz, helps to soften the blow.
I love him more than I did just a second ago. Again.
+
It smells the same, and sounds like before. I welcome the familiarity, but a shy nervousness sits in the corner of my mind, and deep down, inside of my gut. An excitement tries to overtake it up there, and I wait on the sidelines to see what will happen.
The thought is whisked away when there’s a whisper of a touch against my temple, and my body bumps habitually into his, seeking safety. Blinking hard and looking upwards to my left, I find a smile waiting in those molten sage eyes.
“Alright, bug?” Harry coos, leaning down to press his lips to mine briefly. I nod in reply, waving my thumb over his jawline hidden in thick facial hair, a sight I never thought I’d see inside of these four walls. “Are ya ready t’ get back into tha thick o’ it, Becks?”
“Are you kidding me? It’s about time that you let me come back, I’ve been going mad sitting at home having nothing to do for the last few weeks, and especially since you’ve been back part time since last week,” I answer, the song he sings joining that of my own when his fingers brush against my ribs that don’t ache from his touch anymore, and his nose nudges at my temple that doesn’t hurt when I laugh too hard.
“Hey, I know that, but I wanted t’ make sure ya wouldn’t over exert yerself and yer arm ‘s still gettin’ all caught up bein’ in that cast fer awhile. Also, I rememba a certain sumbody practically forcin’ me t’ come back, I didn’t have much say over tha matter. Hmmm, I can only wonder who that’d be,” he jests, and all hints of my poker face run away from me as he raises his eyebrows at me. The very pair he let me have my way with the other day, which lasted about five seconds before he started whining, even though the woosey has fresh ink on him.
“I know, you’re still being Daddy Harry,” I sigh dramatically, its ending found in a deep chuckle that he elicits from my lips with a surprise bear hug. His laugh drips with molasses too, and I feel like this couldn’t taste any sweeter, my arms hidden under his blazer and nudging at his belt.
“I’ll manage.”
“I know ya will, ya always do . . my Becks. ‘ll be there t’ help too,” Harry smiles, pressing a kiss to the top of my head as the electronic number reaches to twelve above our heads. My head falls to the crook of his neck where it’s longed to be . . for such a long time. Years. His solid arms filled with safety lift from me and return once they wrap his violet blazer around me, and only do I close my eyes when his lips find a temporary home on the top of my head. “Y’know, I dunno what t’ call you now - mentee, colleague, girlfriend.”
“You can just call me either or, boss boyfriend,” I suggest, meeting his glowing green eyes while an electronic ding sounds overhead, signaling another floor passed.
“Sounds good t’ me, Rebecca Holte,” he hums, a corner of his mouth curled into his cheek and sharing that happy dimple with me. The chipped black nail polish teases at my sight when his thumb runs over the brand new scars dotting my cheeks that he’s healed with his kisses. “Ya betta make this one last fer a while now, we have a meetin’ right off tha bat,” he says firmly with raised eyebrows, but a smile teases at its corners.
Standing on my tiptoes, I lean forward and close my eyes, seeing the glinting flecks of gold in his eyes as I taste the honey on his lips. It’s hidden in the words that pass unspoken between our lips, cut short by the declarative beeps and the number sixteen waiting atop, seventeen just around the corner. With a giggle, I steal one last peck from his lips, and watch as he shakes his head after my wandering hand squeezed his bum.
“C’mon, you li’l shit,” he mutters with a roll of his eyes, adjusting the strap of his shiny, new messenger bag strewn across his chest. “Or would ya ratha I say, ‘shall we, Becks?” Harry asks, holding out a hand in front of us, and I nod.
“Let’s go, boyfriend,” I say with a large smile, catching the wink he gives me as our shoes click and clack on the marbled black tiling of the firm’s floors.
Now, I have.
I’ve really made it now.
I thought I had once or twice before, but this is it. I have it all, and more is on the way, and no longer are the dreams out of arm’s reach. No, they’re right there where I can touch them, and so is a very special one that won’t stop smiling at me, and I wouldn’t ever want to stop smiling at him.
Another thing I’m sure of is that I’d never want to stop listening to the song that flows from his lips, I could listen to it for the rest of my life.
THE END . . FOR NOW
Don’t miss Harry and Becks’ future adventures in the sequel to The Assistant, The Partner, coming soon! Until then, you can catch up with Hecky when The Firsts, an Assistant Blurb Series, begins September 14th at 12pm CST! Keep an eye out for the masterlist post for The Firsts, to be published soon! I could never thank all of you enough for reading and for sticking around this long with me. I am so excited to continue this series and for you to see what’s coming ;) See you in two weeks!
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Nothing Fucks With The Slayer (chapter 1/?)
so im.... starting to write again???? ugh hopefully this goes somewhat well...
Ship: Doomvega (platonic)
Tags: pre-slash, pre-canon, no body!Vega
Summary: Set a few months before the events of Eternal. Flynn and Vega have settled in with their new life and are now working on upgrading the Praetor suit and restoring the Fortress to working condition… and Slayer's communication skills, of course. He's not the only one who has some issues to solve, though… Expect pre-doomvega and a (kinda half-assed) explanation to why an AI can feel stuff. No idea where this is gonna go, but yknow,, hopefully doomvega and also the two bastards figuring out what's wrong with them both at least,,,
AO3 link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/26328196/chapters/64112989
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The Sentinel ship was never truly silent. Various systems were running constantly, an ever-present low humming they emitted being the only sound the ship knew in Slayer’s absence. Vega was quiet as well - there wasn’t anyone to talk to at the moment, so he busied himself scanning various files from a data storage Slayer had retrieved for him some time ago.
That, or he was simply curious if a hundred-year old hard drive would still be functional, let alone have any sort of data on it left intact, he reminded himself as he scanned another text file. He couldn’t deny any possibilities until it was confirmed or denied by the Slayer himself. Perhaps he would ask him when he returns…
A notification popped up. All the text files on the drive had been scanned - books, to be precise. Their metadata indicated they were all written at least a hundred years ago, some dating as far as three centuries back, and collectively covered many different aspects of humanity's existence in that time period - from agriculture to psychology to fiction. Vega made a note to tell the Slayer about them later - perhaps he would be interested in this archive, seeing as how he already had a sizable library in his possession.
Aside from the books and about five thousand corrupted files of various sizes and formats, which took up the majority of the storage, there was a music library. A quick scan identified about 60% of it as corrupted, but the rest was still intact. A more detailed look into the metadata and the structure of the audio revealed it to be of high quality by the standards of when the songs were released. Along with the library was an executable file which turned out to be a music player. Curious to explore its functions as an ordinary user, Vega browsed through the library via the app before pressing the “Randomize” button. The screen shifted to an image with the song’s name and artist beneath it, as well as some buttons that Vega suspected to serve as convenient shortcuts for changing songs.
The image depicted two faces - a male and a female - seemingly smiling. It was almost immediately apparent, though, that those weren’t real humans. Dolls, perhaps? The language wasn’t familiar to him either, but it was clear that the singer was female, rather whispering than singing in the conventional meaning of that word.
The image turned out to be clickable, shifting upwards. Nothing was displayed by the program's UI, however, leading Vega to assume any information on this song was simply missing. He let it play, instead shifting his attention to check Slayer’s location and vitals. Everything was in check - the new upgrades to the configuration of the suit were integrated successfully, to his relief. Or that would be relief, were you to be human, he reminded himself again. Besides, this "mission" wasn’t of the offensive kind - simply to look for some repair bots Vega could use to restore the ship’s condition. That's not how he saw it at first though…
[a few hours earlier.]
The Slayer sat slouched over his desk, a lamp illuminating an arrangement of wiring and tubing on the inside of one of the arm pieces of the Praetor suit. Different details and pieces were scattered on the desk, some visibly worn and some looking good as new. His tools were also in a chaotic arrangement, aside from the beaten up soldering iron he was working with. Eventually he finished tinkering, put all the layers of protective material back into place and straightened up, barely flinching as his spine made a hollow and most certainly unpleasant cracking sound.
“You have been working on upgrading the peripheral systems of your Praetor suit for approximately three hours and twenty minutes now. I suggest taking a break, Slayer”, Vega chimed in, switching to the room camera in case of an answer. He observed him huff as he begrudgingly turned the light off and got up to stretch. He then turned to the camera and made some quick, jagged gestures at it.
“Want… go on a walk.”
“...I see. I’d suggest visiting a discreet place on Earth. Please wait while I find a fitting location”, Vega responded, doing exactly what he said. His old data archives were lost after his last backup, so it took some time to tap into near-Earth satellites and scan the surface for a fitting place - where Vega could safely form a portal and where there would be no one of disturbance.
After several minutes he spoke again:
"I have compiled a list of locations for you. Would like me to narrow it down with additional criteria?"
The Slayer nodded and responded after a moment:
"Forest?"
"There is a forest near what seems to be an abandoned production plant at approximately 63.2 latitude and 65.5 longtitude. Despite the apparent absence of any unwanted witnesses, I suggest you take the necessary precautions - that includes your armor." Too much worry - it's not like you're able to do that.
"Sure", Slayer answered, his expression unreadable, and turned to get the aforementioned suit. Before he did that, however, he turned back and signed some more at the camera:
"You need anything… maybe?"
Vega was caught off guard by the question. Did he need anything? What could an AI, advanced as Vega might've been, even need, per se? After a few moments of thought (only living things think, he reminded himself, in your case it's called processing) he answered:
"While there's no emergent need in any materials, a spare construction bot would be of valuable assistance here. It doesn't have to be in working condition, and it's not absolutely necessary..."
"If I find one, I'll bring here."
"Ah- that would be most appreciated!"
Surely the voice synthesis program needed a maintenance scan, as it clearly was getting harder to operate and control. And not just that - his RAM was getting more and more occupied by unnamed processes that served seemingly no purpose. He focused on shutting them down one by one, but that proved to be of little use, as they just kept starting up again. By the time he stopped trying to close them, Slayer was already fully prepared for departure. Vega ran the portal configuration, setting it just outside the factory.
"I've set the portal near the facility. You should be able to send me a signal through the comms system in your helmet when you're ready to go back."
With a nod, Slayer lowered the panel in front of him to get to the portal, but right before stepping through it, he turned around, raising his hands to sign.
"No need to…" Slayer stood still for a moment, as if trying to find the necessary words, before continuing: "No need to act like a machine, you. Ok? You're a friend."
And before Vega could answer, he was gone.
[now.]
The scan of the data was now complete, save for the music that Vega turned off for now. What remaining knowledge of human culture he still had indicated that music was rarely used as a means to document events, rather serving as an instrument of self-expression, so he wasn't likely to miss any critical information. So instead he focused on resolving that problem with his RAM that he encountered right before Slayer left. He didn't remember any issues like that occurring before - at least not since he woke up in the Fortress, since any previous error logs he had were also lost back on Mars. No matter how many times he shut the strange tasks down, they all came back as if nothing happened. Their function was also not apparent, though they were listed as cognitive processes. No cohesive name, no references, no order. Why did they even appear?
'And why do I keep reminding myself to behave like a machine? My personality module was developed for the very purpose of making AI-human interactions more smooth. Why limit its possibilities? And what did Slayer mean by calling me his friend-?'
[Incoming voice comm: The Slayer.]
Vega put away those ponderings for now, answering the call immediately.
“Hello again. I take it you’re ready to go back?”
“...”
Right. He can’t really answer, Vega figured.
“I’ll set up a portal near your location”, he said instead, watching the rift open up in the main room. A quiet grunt on the other side of the comms sufficed as a ‘sure’, and Vega opened the folder with books again.
He can deal with those strange mishaps later, after he and Slayer discuss their findings.
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“So here it is, i saw this video from a christmas show https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9C_7RvRd6fQ&index=2&list=LLH21TFoSWhrvI1qBBgKWGng where you can totally see Zac being pretty upset, during the “holy night song” because of the screaming girls and he even tries to shush them up. Later, i saw in the Hanson official facebook page the comments some fans who seems to have attend one of this shows and said how Zac was rude and said something to the girls at the end of the song or the show.These fans would love an apology from him as well as some christmas gifts because of his “attitude”. I mean is she out her mind or what? For me, everything she said, sounds crazy. I’m #TeamZac on this one. If you're screaming during those songs and the acapella ones, you are the one who is being disrespectful, they hate when people do that. So please, if u are of those lucky ones who gets to go to their shows, unless they’ve encouraged you to sing or clap, please shut up and enjoy it”
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perc’ahlia & vaxleth fic: songs from the ash [1/2]
Keyleth can only look on, dazed, buzzing, those neon lights filling up her heart and her skin is where she wants him to write his songs; she licks her lips and tastes salt, electricity, copper, music. Percy idly drifts away imagining what it’d be like to control his dreams, and that if he could, he’d dream about Vex now, exactly like this, and no shadows would be lurking in the background. [rock star/movie star au. fame isn't so bad, he says, if it introduced him to someone like her. 34k words. all links are clickable.]
songs from the ash
It’s an accident that he meets her at all, really; they just happen to be at the same afterparty. He’d gotten an invitation and he’d promised Keyleth he’d take her if he did, secretly hoping he wasn’t yet popular enough to warrant an invite to an awards show for an art he wasn’t even involved in. But apparently he is, to his chagrin; he’s an actor, for god’s sake, not a musician. That’s likely the family influence. Either way, it’s how he’s ended up at the Grammys with Keyleth squirming impatiently at his side as they await the announcement of the winner for “Best New Artist.” He watches faces and songs he doesn’t recognize flash across the giant screens and thinks that maybe he should start listening to the radio. Damn his recent, more mainstream work. He should’ve stuck to indie. Keyleth suddenly screams next to him, clapping wildly and whistling. He keeps his expression politely engaged, remembering they’re in pretty good seats and riding a wave of fame at the moment, meaning they’re likely to be panned to at random intervals for online streams of the audience, or whatever; fortunately Keyleth’s excitement is genuine and he’s a pretty good actor. Or so his reviews say. An odd, mismatched group of people traipse up to the stage, grinning and giggling and shoving each other - one of them is huge, definitely cracking six and a half feet - and the screen behind them reads Vox Machina. Two members of the five-person group step up to the mic, eerily similar in appearance; they’re definitely related, both with long black hair and similar bone structure, though the boy is a little more angular, sharper. The woman speaks first, holding her award in the air and smiling widely; she says, “Here’s to our darling father, who told us we’d never amount to anything,” and Percy is immediately captivated despite himself. Her brother laughs loudly and raises a finger - Percy’s sure this is quite unprofessional and absolutely not allowed on television, but the audience is widely amused; Keyleth hollers next to him - and a small girl with white hair tugs the mic down and says, “No, really, thank you so much, we love our fans, thanks, this is amazing--” before the exit music starts to play. The big guy in the back bends down and screams “Rage on!” and the crowd goes nuts, Keyleth included. He leans over to her. “Who are they? What kind of music do they play? That was a wildly inappropriate display.” Her eyes are bright as she turns to him. “Oh, they’re the best,” she gushes enthusiastically. “Vox Machina - they’re alternative rock, mostly, but they’ve got some songs that hedge on punk.” That explains it, Percy thinks. “Vex’ahlia and Vax’ildan, they’re the twins and the frontrunners - he shreds on the guitar, she’s an amazing singer and I think she can secretly play every instrument - the shorter guy, that’s Scanlan, he definitely can play every instrument and he’s like, a classically trained singer - Grog’s the big one and he drums, obviously - and then there’s Pike, the smaller girl, who mostly plays the keys.” She barely breathes while she tells him this, her excitement getting in the way of her basic primal needs, like oxygen. She’s been trying to engage him in their music for the better part of a year, so his slight interest is driving her wild. “Wow,” he says, because there’s not much else to say. “I’m intrigued, if nothing else.” “I’ll get you to fall in love with them if it’s the last thing I ever do,” she declares dramatically, riding the high of their win. He rolls his eyes but humors her; he knows better than to trample on other people’s passions. And-- Well-- As it turns out, she’s almost right. -- They’re at one of the smaller after-parties - he couldn’t say whose, as Keyleth had mostly planned their itinerary for the night, despite the invitations being directed at him - and though it’s crowded, it’s a cooler, looser crowd; the setting is more relaxed than he’s used to, and everyone’s letting their hair down, dancing, drinking, laughing, yelling. The music is loud and pulses through him. Keyleth starts to sway automatically. “I want a drink,” she shouts, grabbing his hand and leading him towards the bar. Not like he could lose her, anyway; she’s tall and towers over a lot of people there. Keyleth often gets mistaken for a model whenever they go out in public, which endlessly amuses him because she’s just so awkward. Objectively, yes, Keyleth is gorgeous, but she spends more time covered in soil and talking to the plants she fills his apartment with than him for him to ever think of her as anything models usually encompass - grace and elegance, for starters. (First thing to know about Keyleth: she ferociously believes that in another life, she’s a florist instead of an actress, or maybe she’s a national park ranger, or she’s botanist, or a wild creature that lives in the forest and carves herself a home out of a hollow tree - in truth, she can never pick which one is most appealing to her. All of them are fitting.) The bartender raises a quick eyebrow as he spots her, immediately coming to her service. “What can I get you?” She smiles and her teeth sparkle. “Four shots, tequila. And then I’d like a paloma, please.” (Second thing to know about Keyleth: she can sure fucking drink.) The bartender nods once, looking simultaneously impressed and concerned, before shifting his attention to Percy. “You?” He opens his mouth to answer, and that’s when he sees her. She’s sitting on the other side of the bar, talking animatedly to her brother and a dark-skinned man with piercing eyes and long hair tied back at the nape of his neck. Her lips wrap around her straw through her smile. She’s positively radiant. She’s ethereal, she’s glowing, she’s otherwordly-- The bartender glances back to see what he’s staring at and snickers. “Yeah,” he says, understanding. “She’s fuckin’ something else, isn’t she?” Percy swallows and says, “Erm.” “He’ll have a mojito,” Keyleth interrupts. “Make it strong.” -- He’s not going to talk to her, of course. He’s a gentleman and he doesn’t want to disturb her night. And, of course, she’s way out of his fucking league. But Keyleth - bless Keyleth, who completely doesn’t give a shit about any of the things Percy does, so free-spirited and pure-intentioned - downs two shots in quick succession while pushing the other two towards Percy, who follows, choking slightly, and walks confidently around the bar to where two members of her favorite band are relaxing in the afterglow of their win. Vax’ildan tilts his head and catches sight of the most beautiful woman he’s ever seen in his life, holy shit, what the fuck, standing behind him with an easy-going grin. She slides in next to him and asks loudly (the music’s overpowering and pounding and Vax can feel it in his bones), “I love your band and I think you guys are awesome, do you wanna do shots with me?” Vex laughs nicely over his shoulder, but he can’t tear his gaze away from this transcendent being beside him, her long red hair spiraling over her shoulders, her eyes almost the color of gold - he says, “Erm, fuck yeah.” He’s seen her somewhere before, he knows, maybe a runway - he can’t put his finger on it, she looks kind of like a model, but-- She smiles again and signals the bartender for four more shots. “Here,” she says, passing him one, Vex one, and downs the other two by herself. Vax is fucking in love with her already. She blinks slowly, her lips in a lazy curl. “There,” she says, pleased. “Now I feel great.” “I bet you do,” Vex replies, admiration in her voice, but she’s staring somewhere else. Gilmore is obviously delighted. He chortles out, “What a firecracker.” “Please excuse us,” a boy with a shock of white hair says from behind her, apologetic and uncomfortable; Vax hadn’t even noticed him until just now, but that hair on him is unmistakable-- “I’m sorry,” Vax says, completely entranced, “but what is your name?” She leans closer to him suddenly, her fingers grasping the bar; the man next her tuts under his breath and steadies her. “I’m Keyleth,” she says, like she’s a fucking angel or something, which, Vax thinks, she probably is. Vex repeats, “Keyleth--” He knows that name - Keyleth, Keyleth, the way it rolls around in his mouth, Keyleth, Keyleth - “Oh, shit,” he says, recognition washing over him. “You’re in that film--!” She laughs delightedly. “Am I?” Vax finally tears his eyes away from Keyleth to the boy she’s with and it’s-- “You too! You were in--” Vex finishes excitedly, “--The Sun Tree! I knew it was you, how could I not, but I didn’t want to interrupt -- oh, hells, we love that movie, it’s absolutely brilliant--” and Vax sees the anchor of her stare had been Percival the entire time, who has done nothing but silently take her in for the past five minutes, lacking Keyleth’s unconcerned nature, afraid to take a step. “Percival Frederickstein Von Musel Klossowski de Rolo the Third,” he introduces quickly, as he is prone to do when he is nervous or showing off; in this case it’s the former. Keyleth waves a hand airily. “You can call him Percy.” “Percy,” Vex echoes, and oh, he has never loved himself more than when she is holding him in her eyes. -- Our manager, Shaun Gilmore, I’m Vax’ildan, that’s my sister, Vex’ahlia. Short, brief, to the point. “Charmed,” Gilmore says, winking and clapping Vax on the shoulder before slipping out. Keyleth, now undeniably a little (a lot) drunk, leans her chin in palm, elbow on the bar. “Is there a garden?” she asks. “Probably,” Vax answers. “Big property, isn’t it? Let’s have a look.” He takes her by the hand and stands; she’s taller than him, which he thinks is fantastic, truthfully, though he’s sure they’ll be a bit more even when she’s not wearing heels, and waits for her agreement; she laughs lighter than the chime of the wind, and begins to drag him away with her. “I love flowers,” Percy hears her state as they head off, Vax’s face torn between dumbfounded and inspired. Percy wearily collapses on the now vacant barstool next to Vex, shaking his head. “Sorry about that,” he says, still not quite able to look at her for longer than a few seconds at a time. “She’s - ah - insatiable and innocent. It’s an interesting combination.” “Clearly,” Vex answers, her tone playful. “Not your girlfriend, I’d gathered that much.” He nearly chokes on his drink. “No, gods, no. Best friend, co-star on occasion.” “Good. He’s already obsessed with her,” she nods after her brother. “Better it be someone available.” She pauses. “Any particular reason you can’t bear to look at me, darling?” His face burns red, his ears hot, his neck tingling. He peaks at her over the rim of his glasses. He catches her fingers curling around her glass - rum and coke by the looks of it - the swell of her chest peeking out of her dress, her hair let out of its braid, loose and flowing and lightly curled against her back, her cheeks, the bright blue feather behind her ear - and he says, “I’ve not meant to be rude. It’s simply that - you’re a little too beautiful and I’m - new at this, I suppose. I apologize.” She’s silent for a moment, and when he sneaks another glance at her he’s surprised to see her expression flushed with a similar embarrassment; he’s caught her off-guard. The idea emboldens him slightly and he keeps his eyes locked on her. She meets his gaze and her lips turn up abashedly, genuinely. “That’s charming. Thank you. I appreciate your efforts to maximize my comfort, but I don’t mind if you stare. I’m aware of how good I look.” He laughs, startling himself. “Well, as I’ve been given permission, I must admit I feel much better about the whole thing.” “Excellent, because I’ve my own compliments to shower upon you,” she says, and holy hells, she’s too charming and easy for her own good - the air is warm around her, all the light is coming from her smile - “Truly, Percival, let me sing your praises again - I love your films. Honestly, Vax and I have seen The Sun Tree too many times to count, I recognized you instantly - we’re big on fantasy,” she tells him, a hand briefly resting on his arm. She’s a little drunk herself, he’s realizing; but then again, who isn’t - it is a party. “We’re filming the sequel at the moment,” he provides, holding back a laugh at her excited squeal. “Tell me nothing,” she says. “I want to be surprised and enthralled. Will you be attending the Academy Awards in a few weeks, as well?” “Oh, no,” he says bashfully, embarrassed that she even thinks he’s good enough to go. “My most recent film released after the cutoff date - I’ll qualify for next year, but as for this year, I have work obligations, so fortunately I can skip.” The music shifts, a base line thumping around his heart. Vex’s mouth twitches. He doesn’t think much of it. “And you?” he asks. “You’ve accomplished quite a musical feat - what’s next?” His tone is sincere, interested; she allows a full-blown curl of her lips and moves closer, cornering him, a strangely victorious glint in her eye. “You’ve never heard our music,” she accuses, apparently amused at the revelation. He weighs his options and decides on the truth. “No,” he admits sheepishly. “I haven’t. It’s a priority now, though. What gave me away?” She laughs loudly, gesturing at the speakers. “This is us.” He freezes immediately, becoming hyper aware of the beat in the background; it’s oddly refined for something so rough - it’s her voice singing, low and sensual and sharp at the edges, cutting into him with an edge that feels good - the notes are clean and the drums aren’t overpowering and it flows in a way he didn’t really think rock music, or punk-rock, whatever they are, was capable of. She’s watching him take it in and she’s silently mouthing the words without realizing it; her tongue darts out to wet her lips. Find me someone out there whose heart isn’t full of holes, my hands are bloody from refusing to let you go. Damn. He kind of hopes she didn’t write this. “Did you write this?” he asks. “No,” she says, and then: “Well, sort of. The sentiment of the song came from Pike, but Vax and I helped her with the lyrics.” “It’s good.” He clears his throat. “It’s great. You’re - you’re an incredible singer.” He frowns at his own attempt to pay her a compliment. “It’s not that I didn’t like your music, by the way. Keyleth is always telling me my taste in music is a grave offense to ‘all of the beautiful things life has to offer.’” Vex laughs again. “And what is your taste in music?” “I have none.” “Well, that certainly is a problem, then, isn’t it?” Her knee brushes his. He feels the condensation of his glass dripping across his fingers. “I’ll have to fix that.” “Please,” he answers, trying to fall back into it, relaxing against the bar. “I’m bereft. Clearly I’m missing a core defining aspect of the traditionally constructed personality. I was in a rush when I created mine.” “It’s a good thing you’ve got me, now, dear,” she says playfully, and the world keeps turning. Over the course of the next few hours, Percy learns that Vex is beautiful everywhere; he sees it in the way her fingers curl delicately around his wrist when she’s sincere, how her hidden talent is actually archery and not the fact that she can play most instruments, the brush of her eyelashes against her cheek as she winks (which she does, often, because she clearly knows how to get what she wants from him, from everybody); it’s in the almost sultry tone of her voice when she calls him darling and dear, her mouth against the rim of her drink, the way she throws her head back when she laughs. Vex is funny and she’s clever; he banters with her like he was born knowing the trigger to her smile, and she provides insightful commentary from angles he’s never bothered to consider. She calls him out when his words drop from his lips in ways he doesn’t intend them and he challenges her prejudices against the industry and the fame and the wealth. “Percival, darling, we had vastly different upbringings,” she points out. “Not to dwell, as I’ve a tad more tact than that, but I do know what you come from.” The slight hinting at his past doesn’t sting the way he’s used to; he finds he actually appreciates the promptness and matter-of-fact tone she’s adopted while discussing it. “Fair,” he concedes. “I don’t know yours, though, do I?” “Syldor Vessar is my father,” she says, and he raises his eyebrows in shock. “Yes, you would know of him, as I’d assumed. Being a Lord yourself,” she teases, and he reddens once again. “Or is it Duke? I’ve no taste for royalty. You outrank our father by miles, though, I know that much.” “I don’t tend to adhere to that custom,” he says. “I’m no Lord, nor Duke. I mean, technically, yes, I am - but my sister Cassandra is much more suited to the position than I.” He smirks at her. “And I get the sense you’d have a taste for the right royalty.” “Ta,” she answers, grinning back. “And as Syldor’s bastard children, Vax and I were also quite unsuited to that life.” She hesitates, chewing on her bottom lip, before adding: “For what it’s worth, I am sorry.” Ah, of course. Being from England, she would be aware of the incident - most people who search him, he imagines, are - the fire that claimed his family and forced him and his sister into positions they weren’t ready for. “It isn’t for you to concern yourself with,” he says gently, trying to cue to her that he appreciates it but doesn’t want to discuss it further. Fortunately, she’s perceptive and picks up on the message easily enough, offering a sharp nod in return. “I can have Cassandra stir up some trouble for your father, though, if you’d prefer. Where does he reside?” She laughs; such a welcome sound. “Reading.” “Marquess of Reading?” “Yes. And your sister - Duchess of Cornwall, is that correct?” “Yes,” he affirms, suddenly missing Cassandra terribly. “She is quite fit for royalty, though she never should’ve achieved such high status.” “Royalty fits you as well, Percival,” Vex says, looking at him intensely, carefully, a wicked glint shining in her eye, like royalty is an outfit she’s dressing him in. “My Lord.” A jolt of electricity shoots up his spine, channeling the rest of his bones, like he’s made of copper and metal. He isn’t sure what to make of it. “Ah, that’s - erm - really not...necessary, Lady Vex’ahlia.” She grimaces and flips him the bird. “You’ve proved your point. I’m no Lady.” He takes her offensive hand in his own, covering it, pulling her closer - maybe it’s the alcohol, the dimness of the fairy lights, the moon shadowing overhead - her lips red, her eyes a dark mirror of the night sky, the catch of breath in her lungs - “Say what you must, but I disagree,” he murmurs. “Look at you.” She swallows quietly. “Yeah?” “I’ve known plenty of people with money, dear, and they are certainly not worth you.” -- Keyleth bends down, her face buried against the roses, fingers gently scraping against the thorns; she lays her palms flat against the grass, the mossy rocks, the rough tree bark. Her heels lay strewn somewhere by the garden path. Vax watches as if he’s in a trance, this unearthly nymph, this woodland creature - “Keyleth,” he says in awe, absolutely struck by her raw love of life, “Keyleth, what are you?” She smiles wide and takes his hand, pressing a loose petal into his palm, and then holding it to her heart. “Don’t you feel that?” she asks lowly, and he smells the tequila but there’s also something fresh, like rain on woodchips, fog; she inhales deeply. “The entire earth inside of me. I could’ve been a forest, once, you know.” “You’re absolutely nuts,” he says. “I want to marry you.” She laughs and laughs and laughs, falling back against the grass like nothing in life could ever make her happier. He lies beside her and lets her tell him of wonderful, impossible things; how she believes she belongs to another world, one where she tends to the world’s largest garden and carries the light of the sun in her bare hands, and if he were interested, perhaps the two of them could grow tomatoes together. “I am,” he says vehemently, “I am,” and for a split second, he swears he recognizes her from a different life, a flash of a bed of flowers and a flickering pair of raven’s wings, their souls in flux across the universe. -- Vex’s eyes dart down to his lips, her heart pounding; she’s full of fire and smoke, explosions beating against her ribcage, and there’s this boy, his gasp of white hair, his rounded glasses, his earnestness - his shy attraction, his quieted demons, his addicting voice - he’s so handsome, he’s so-- “Beautiful,” Vex whispers. “You, too, you know. You’re beautiful.” He blinks slowly, dazedly, and she leans forward-- “Hey, Stubby,” her brother’s stupid fucking nickname for her rings in her ear, and she’s absolutely going to kill him tonight. “Come on, we’ve got to go. It’s nearly four.” Percy pulls back, looking sheepish and nervous again. The announcement of the time deters her from murder for a moment. “Is it really?” “Yep,” Vax says cheerfully, his arm around Keyleth, who’s a little unsteady at his side. “Percy!” she says, and flings her arms around him overenthusiastically. “I’m having so much fun!” “It certainly seems so,” he says, his glasses knocked askew. Vex restrains a smile, not wanting to reveal anything to her brother about how her night had gone. “Percy, we haven’t watered your plants for hours.” “I’m sure they’re fine.” Vax grins, unconcerned, uncaring of whatever Vex might gather from his expression. Well, they always did differ that way. Vax wore his positive emotions on his sleeve; Vex cloaked them in whatever material she could get her hands on. “Keyleth,” Vax says her name unbearably softly, and oh, he’s so fucking fucked. She turns to face him, releasing Percy. “It was lovely to spend the evening with you.” He takes her hand and presses a kiss to it, and she giggles. “You too, Vax. Thanks for - humoring me.” “I wasn’t.” He says it so seriously that she can’t doubt the sincerity. She giggles again bashfully and says, “Well, I - thanks, and I guess I’ll - you know, see you around.” “Definitely.” Vex looks at Percy and rolls her eyes pointedly. He half-smiles in response, but she knows exactly what he means. A hand smacks the back of her head. “Up. Let’s go.” “Fuck, Vax, okay,” she snarls, instantly annoyed with him. He gets the perfect night and then ruins the climax of hers. Fucker. “I’m coming.” It’s enough for him - he turns and starts shouting for Grog, who Vex is pretty sure has been challenging people to arm wrestling and shotgunning contests all night. Keyleth also starts wobbling away, heading for the gate. Vex slips off the stool to her feet as Percy remains, still a bit stupefied; his eyes follow her, and he says, “Vex’ahlia.” “Yes?” she asks, unmoving. He seems to deliberate for a second before smiling delicately and saying, “I meant what I said.” The spell has been broken already, and the moment is clearly over, but she bends down anyway and presses a kiss to the corner of his mouth, her hand resting gently underneath his jaw, his fingertips against her wrist. “You don’t know me,” she says, slipping for the briefest of seconds, and there’s a sadness to her he hadn’t called attention to before. “Goodnight, Percival.” “Goodnight,” he breathes out, his hand falling away as she steps to join her brother, and it’s the last time he sees her for months. -- So, Percy’s bright, sure. He’s intelligent. But he’s also a fucking idiot. “I can’t believe you didn’t get her phone number,” Keyleth says for the thousandth time, sending a text to Vax, who’s somewhere in the rural wilderness of Montana at the moment. “Thanks, Keyleth,” Percy answers, disappointment unfolding in his stomach as he scrolls on his laptop, seeing paparazzi pictures of her from a few days earlier leaving a bar with some guy. He’s jealous, even though he has no reason to be - it was one night, one conversation, over a month ago. He needs to get over it. “I can ask Vax about the guy, if you want,” Keyleth offers helpfully as a crew member touches up her make-up. They’ve started filming the sequel to The Sun Tree, called Passed Through Fire. He thinks of Vex constantly, wondering if she’ll see it, if she’ll love it, how she’ll feel watching him. He tries to do a better job. He wants his future self to impress her, somehow. “No, it’s fine,” he says dejectedly, immediately wincing at the sound of his own pathetic voice. They’ve had this conversation before, always ending in the same denial. Keyleth frowns, because she’s a good friend, because she wants him to be happy - “Too bad,” she says, quickly typing out a message with a flourish, “I’m asking.” “No, Keyleth, don’t--” he tries to stop her, but it’s been sent. He hangs his head and rubs his eyes. “Balls.” TO: Vax Hey who’s that guy your sister was with the other night? Saw the pics FROM: Vax o that’s just jarrett. he sometimes works security w us & he acts as her bodyguard when she’s out alone FROM: Vax y TO: Vax Percy was totally jealous lol but don’t tell him I told you FROM: Vax hahaha does he want her # i can just give it to u FROM: Vax she wants his 2 lets do a swap shes always moping around now TO: Vax I love matchmaking!! She swipes “share contact” and gets Vex’s number in a matter of seconds - she saves it, but doesn’t do anything with it yet. “He’s her bodyguard,” she tells Percy, who perks up instantly. “Not that it’s any of my business,” he supplies, and Keyleth just grins. “Sure,” she says, continuing to text Vax, letting Percy have his moment of relief in private. He’s called to set a second later, and the scene goes brilliantly; they only do three takes just to get the angles, and the director has no notes for him. He heads back to his chair, Keyleth now in full hair and makeup, still texting away. His phone buzzes suddenly, and he opens the home screen-- Keyleth, grinning even wider, has sent him Vex’s contact details. She’s called for her scene a moment later, and before he can even process what he’s staring at, she says, “You can thank me later.” He doesn’t thank her. He’s done for the day, and he heads home without another word to anybody. -- Vex is scrolling through twitter when Vax approaches from behind - she’s lived with him forever, and she can sense him coming, but she doesn’t bother deterring him - she’s got pretty good aim if he does something obnoxious. “Guess what Keyleth told me,” Vax sing-songs in her ear, loud and annoying. She reaches up a hand and swats him away. “What?” she asks, kind of curious despite herself. Vax smirks. “His Royal Highness saw those pictures of you with Jarrett,” he says, shrugging. “Apparently, they made him a tad jealous...” Vex struggles to keep her voice level; internally she’s burning again. “Is that so?” “Yeah.” “Well, thanks for the update,” she says, and returns to her twitter feed. Vax rolls his eyes. “I know you fancy him,” he says. “Quit being so bloody obtuse.” “I’m not doing anything,” she argues, not lifting her eyes from her phone. That’s not it, she wants to say. It’s more than that. He knew me, Vax, I swear. Like from somewhere else. Like recognizing someone you’ve never met. He knew. But she doesn’t say anything. “When was the last time you shagged about with Jarrett?” he prods, and she senses a challenge coming but she won’t give in. She side-eyes him. “A few months ago,” she answers honestly; nothing to hide there. He knew the answer, anyway. “Why’d you stop?” Fucking prick. “Because--” she starts, and stops, and starts again, a sputtering engine. Because I keep dreaming in monochrome, because I see his eyes when I blink; because I can almost taste him. “Fuck off, Vax,” she says instead. He’s so beautiful it haunts her. She wants to ruin him like he’s ruining her. There’s that smoldering heat - the desire for his shy stare, probing her - she doesn’t want him to look at anyone else like he’d looked at her then. Her phone buzzes; Vax’s name pops up, along with the contact details for Lord Percival whatever whatever de Rolo, and Vex has to do everything in her power to keep her emotions sealed tight. “Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do,” Vax says, and she’s on the verge of combusting. She doesn’t do anything with it. Not yet. Instead, she searches his name on twitter and follows him. And then follows him on every other platform he has an account on. -- @imvexthatsvax I’m flattered. I loved your album. @percivalderolo glad to see you’re finally developing your personality, darling. -- (Nobody really knows what to do with that exchange.) -- It’s nothing, but Percy rereads her tweet over and over again. He still can’t shake his inadequacy - she’s so much larger than life, so confident and sure of herself, so untethered and unshaken - and he’s, well - he’s pretty fucked up. He’s better now, sure. He goes to therapy. But the world knows his story and to them, he’s like a war hero, a tragedy-turned-to-art, some sort of sad, beautiful thing that is deserving of an embrace. He feels slightly like everyone is clamoring to adopt him, like he’s lost, soulless. Which - even if he is - he’s dealing with it. He’s trying. He’s becoming. He hovers over Vex’s contact details again; she doesn’t have time for broken pieces of his life when hers is already so full. -- PercivaldeRolo liked your photo. The thing that really starts to eat at Vex is how famous he is. He’s on the cover of magazines, he’s interviewed on talk shows, there are paparazzi pictures of him everywhere; he’s a movie star for fuck’s sake. He’s royalty. He’s every possible intimidating title tucked into one person, and he represents so much of the acceptance she and Vax never got. PercivaldeRolo liked your photo. It’s a picture Vax took of her with her feet up on the dashboard of their tour bus. Sometimes she likes to sit up front and stare out at the unfolding scenery ahead, the countryside shifting around them, the bustling towns, the big cities, the secluded forests, the vast, empty valleys. “Hey, Kiki, look at this,” Vax says from behind her, and she twists around to see him holding his phone up to the window. “The fields! I don’t know if the quality is any good, but the flowers are blooming--” “It’s so pretty!” She can hear Keyleth’s exclamation through Vax’s earphones. “Percy, hey, check this out--” “Hey, de Rolo,” Vax says, waving into the camera, and quickly shifts the phone towards her. “The gang’s all here!” Vex suddenly can’t move, so overwhelmed by the idea that after a month, Percy can see her - he’s staring at her now, she wonders what his face his like, his eyes, if his lips are still where she left them - ”He says hi,” Vax passes on - and she smiles as her stomach bubbles up, her heart in her throat. She raises a hand carefully and waves. “Hello, darling,” she says, and to her relief her voice sounds steady. Vax is silent for a moment. “He says you’ve failed your duties.” “Sorry?” “He’s still without tunes.” She feels herself smiling without a thought. “Keyleth isn’t helping you with that?” “He doesn’t trust me, Vex!” She hears Keyleth yell. “He’d trust you, though--” Vax laughs at whatever is happening on-screen. She stands, suddenly ill, and pushes past Vax. “Sorry - need to make a call,” she hastily excuses, and she glances back over her shoulder and catches sight of that white hair, those glasses, and she-- She crawls into a bunk with Pike, who says nothing and rubs her back as Vax’s voice echoes throughout the bus, Keyleth’s name falling from his lips like a prayer. -- (She hears ta, Percival, and her lungs shudder in her chest. Pike’s hand falters over her spine. It’s tough, she whispers to Pike. I know, honey.) -- But damn it, Percy likes her. He watches her performances on YouTube, sometimes of her concerts the day after she’s played them; he reads interviews the band has done, listens and listens again to their album. He has most, if not all, of their songs memorized. “I don’t get it,” Keyleth says one night as she re-pots one of his plants that she’s convinced is bored of its soil. “Why won’t you just talk to her?” “Because she’s too good for me.” “Oh, Percy,” Keyleth tuts under her breath. “You know that’s not true.” “I know no such thing,” he states immovably, keeping his eyes trained on the old radio he’s tinkering with. “You’re a good person.” “Perhaps, perhaps not.” “Okay, I take it back,” Keyleth huffs. “You’re exasperating.” Percy smiles. “That’s more like it.” He feels sort of bad, though, because he knows Keyleth is trying to help; he doesn’t want her to think he’s taking her for granted. “Look, Keyleth - it was easy for you and Vax, and that’s great. But I’m...struggling. And I don’t think she even - it’s been weeks, hasn’t it? She doesn’t fancy me like that.” “Vax and I aren’t dating,” Keyleth says bizarrely, undermining everything Percy has previously believed. “What?” he asks, craning his neck to look at her. Her expression is troubled and confused, but the flowers hold her gaze. “What do you mean?” “I mean we aren’t dating,” she repeats, straightening a bouquet. “He’s not into me like that.” “Keyleth,” Percy says slowly, fearing he’s entered an alternate reality, “that boy is obsessed with you.” “He can have anyone he wants,” she reasons to herself aloud. “He’s a rock star, Percy, he’s like - he’s just so cool, and I’m just me.” Percy’s stunned into silence, but there’s a deeper truth there, lingering underneath the absurdity of her words - he sees himself reflected in them, damaged and uncertain and afraid. Well, balls. Maybe this is what he sounds like to her. Maybe it’s time he start leading by example. “You aren’t just anything,” he says kindly, and Keyleth smiles brightly in response. “He’d be the luckiest person in the world if you chose to give him a chance.” She starts humming to herself as she tends to the rest of the flowers. Percy picks up his phone and texts-- TO: Vex’ahlia Hello. -- “Band meeting!” Vax yells as they approach a McDonald’s at two in the morning, somewhere in Vermont. They pile out of the bus, Vex clutching her phone tightly, Grog carrying Pike in on his back. He orders fifty nuggets between them and Vex knows he’ll eat about forty of them. They get five orders of fries and a couple Big Macs and hole up in a corner, even though the place is basically deserted. “So what’d he say?” Vax pokes her in the side, shoving fries in his mouth with his free hand. “‘Hello,’” Vex quotes, staring down at her phone. “Well, he’s clearly thinking about you,” Pike points out, smothering her nuggets in honey mustard. “I mean, he’s had your number for awhile, right?” “According to Vax.” “Yep,” the boy supplies helpfully, still chewing. “So obviously he’s been holding onto it for whatever reason, like, debating whether or not to text you,” Pike rationalizes. “What are you so worried about?” “He’s royalty,” Vex says vehemently. “He’s a movie star.” “You’re royalty, too,” Grog responds, and slurps loudly at his coke. “And you’re a music star.” “What do I say?” Vex asks the group, having a mild internal crisis that nobody can quite decipher the cause of. Scanlan finally takes a stand, leaning over the table. He says, “I’ve got an idea.” He takes her phone and types something in before sliding it back to her with a shit-eating grin. She glances down. “‘Hey,’” she reads aloud. “It’s perfect,” Scanlan says. “Short, sweet, to the point.” She stares blankly at him. Vax laughs loudly, and even Pike stifles a grin. Grog says, “I like it.” When her expression doesn’t change, Scanlan sighs; well, he is the oldest of the group, after all, he claims, and he’s beyond petty dramatics. He says patiently, “Vex, just fucking say hi. Just be his friend - the poor guy, he always seems so lonely. What’s so terrifying about just being a friend?” She thinks of Saundor with his hand around her throat, spitting into her face about her cruelty and selfishness and worthlessness; Syldor and the disapproval etched into his face like age lines, his eyes unforgiving and cold; she thinks of the sting of rejection, of never, ever being good enough, or talented enough, or noble enough - I know people with money and they are definitely not worth you-- TO: Percival de Rolo hello TO: Percival de Rolo what do you think of this lyric - “and I swear that if I could, I’d rid my blood of you and give it back” FROM: Percival de Rolo I support the sentiment. FROM: Percival de Rolo But I implore you to keep your blood where it is. You need it to live. “We’re good,” Vex declares to the table, and Grog celebrates by shoving five nuggets into his mouth at once. -- It’s as if he’s finally knocked down an imagined, previously thought to be impenetrable barrier just by saying hello; she texts him all the time - when she’s bored, when she’s excited, when she’s upset, when she’s inspired; for every reason, just because - and she’s so engaging and definitive within herself that he can’t help but be drawn to her. Sometimes he feels as if his own identity is a stone’s throw away from shattering entirely, like he isn’t always sure he’s all the things he pretends to be, but he feels more himself than ever when he’s talking to her, which comforts him and terrifies him equal amounts. (3 days ago FROM: Vex’ahlia i must say, i do quite prefer flying to driving. so much quicker. better views. TO: Vex’ahlia Disagree. Depends on what you’re looking at, I think. FROM: Vex’ahlia the grand canyon. TO: Vex’ahlia Ah, well, that would be a nice view. 2 days ago FROM: Vex’ahlia how do you feel about dragons? TO: Vex’ahlia Well, I’m convinced that all mythology came from somewhere, with a basis in reality… FROM: Vex’ahlia i feel as if i wouldn’t trust them. TO: Vex’ahlia You’d be one. A magnificent blue dragon hoarding treasure. FROM: Vex’ahlia does sound like me. too complimentary, percival, truly. Yesterday, 4:05 AM FROM: Vex’ahlia i can’t sleep. you should hear grog snore. maybe i’ll kill him just to shut him up. TO: Vex’ahlia Dear, I think your talents are best left out of prison. FROM: Vex’ahlia did i wake you? TO: Vex’ahlia I shall neither confirm nor deny, for fear of you stubbornly deciding I shan’t be texted in the wee hours of the morning. FROM: Vex’ahlia you flatter me. my every whim is meant to be answered. i expect nothing less from you. TO: Vex’ahlia Oh, excellent, so we’re on the same page.) Keyleth comes barging into his hotel room one evening in mid-April - they’re filming on location for the next month, somewhere just outside of Atlanta - and throws herself across his bed, her phone glowing in her hands. “Vax invited us to a concert,” she squeaks out, overcome with exhilaration. “It’s this weekend and we aren’t filming - Saturday night in New York!” TO: Vex’ahlia Your brother invited us to a show? FROM: Vex’ahlia yes, i wasn’t supposed to ruin the surprise - are you going to come? :) TO: Vex’ahlia Do you want me to come? FROM: Vex’ahlia don’t you want to see me rock out in-person, all american-like? it’s much more satisfying than a grainy youtube video TO: Vex’ahlia Well, with an offer like that. “That sounds wonderful,” Percy says agreeably, his stomach knotting and tensing at the very idea. “We get backstage passes and everything,” she informs him, almost trembling with anticipation. “Can you believe it?!” He can, actually, as they probably could’ve gotten them anyway, seeing as who they are - but it’s the same reason Keyleth is so refreshing; she’s always herself in her eyes, nothing more and nothing less, an awkward bumbling girl who prefers trees to people despite her gift of acting. He imagines she’s the type of person to win an Oscar and say, oh, wow, I had no idea you guys felt this way about me, and it endears her to him all the more. Percy reaches for his laptop on his nightstand. “S’pose we should start booking tickets. Where are they playing, anyway?” “Terminal 5,” she says. “You’ve been to the city more than I have, so I’ll leave the planning to you, for once.” “Hang on.” Percy unlocks his phone again. “It’s probably best if we go through the official channels.” Keyleth hums noncommittally as Percy dials his agent. “Hey, Percy,” the voice greets warmly after a few rings. “How’s the shoot so far?” “Hello, Allura,” he responds, and Keyleth echoes his greeting in the background. “Going well, thanks, but I’m actually calling in regards to some personal business.” “Are you finally handing me a proper Hollywood scandal, Percival?” He smiles. “Afraid not.” “An agent can dream.” She’s teasing him, he knows - if anything, he is an agent’s dream and she’s well aware of it. “What’s up?” “Keyleth and I have been invited to see Vox Machina in New York on Saturday night. I figured we’d spend the weekend.” “Oh? By who?” “The band.” She laughs. “I approve. I can make this work - it’ll be good to have you seen out and about supporting other forms of art. Kima and I will take care of reservations for the two of you.” “And how’s Kima?” he asks, and not just out of politeness or obligation - he loves Kima and Allura, and it couldn’t have been better luck for him and Keyleth to have agents who are married to each other, considering whenever they do anything personal it’s usually together anyway. It makes it easy for their agents to coordinate. “She’s great. She’s going over a few releases about Keyleth’s upcoming movie - let Keyleth know that the early reviews are all overwhelmingly positive. I know she missed a few screenings already because of work.” He brings the phone away from his mouth slightly. “Keyleth, you’re getting excellent reviews for Aramente.” She rolls over, looking at him upside-down, her eyes bright. “Really?!” “Yes.” “Cool!” She stares dreamily at the ceiling for a moment. “That was a fun movie. That’s so cool.” “Anyway,” Allura continues, “I’ll send over your reservations and any pertinent info in a few.” “Fantastic. Much appreciated. Ta,” he says, and he hangs up. He and Keyleth relax in silence awhile longer, lounging on his bed - Allura sends him an email with a hotel reservation and options for flights, leaving that for Percy to book himself. They decide they’ll arrive Friday early evening, sparing the risk of any travel fatigue, and then they’ll have all day Saturday to do whatever they want. He forwards the itinerary to Vex, who texts him immediately. FROM: Vex’ahlia we’re at the same hotel and we arrive friday morning. you’ll spend the night out with us, won’t you, percival? we have a show that night but should be done by 10:30. TO: Vex’ahlia What are your plans after? We’d be honored “Hey, Percy, we’ll go to Central Park, right? I mean, I love the city, but wouldn’t it be nice to have a picnic or something?” Keyleth interrupts his train of thought and he pauses typing for a moment, continuing the rest of the sentence distractedly. “Sure - if you don’t mind people possibly approaching us we can go to Sheep Meadow,” he allows, knowing Keyleth loves meeting fans, “or we can just walk along until we find an appropriate, somewhat secluded location. And if the weather’s nice,” he adds as an afterthought, sending the message without realizing what he’s typed, which is-- TO: Vex’ahlia What are your plans? We’d be honoured. I’m coming to see you, after all. FROM: Vex’ahlia Just me in particular? ;) “Oh, balls,” he says, blushing furiously down at the screen, Keyleth immediately takes notice and rolls back over to read his text, and then giggles cutely. “Freudian slip?” she sing-songs, and slides halfway off the bed, stretching her limbs. “That man was wrong about almost everything after caving to pressure from his colleagues who didn’t like the findings of his research, and frankly it’s a sin he’s still used as an authority today at all,” Percy counters, but, well - the concept does stand, in this case. He hovers inside of himself, at war. What to say, what to say. TO: Vex’ahlia Technically, dear, yes. -- People take their picture in the lobby. Some fans are brave enough to approach them, and they sign autographs and smile for Snaps, Grog sticking his tongue out and Pike laughing, Vax and Vex with their peace signs, Scanlan in inappropriate poses. Gilmore checks them in and gets their keys, making sure everything’s in order, and they’re spread out among a nice suite on the thirty-second floor. Half of them decide to just crash immediately - they don’t really have plans until their show in a few hours - and Pike curls up next to Vex in one of the bedrooms, whispering animatedly. “Don’t make fun of me,” she starts ranting, “but I’m really excited to meet them. They’re amazing actors! Everyone’s saying they’re gonna get nominated for Oscars - apparently that new movie Keyleth’s in is like, mind-blowing - and Percival’s definitely winning for Whispers. Ugh. And he’s like - I mean, come on, Vex. He’s hot.” Vex snickers into her arms, stretched out on her stomach. “He has a nice face, I’m not disagreeing with you there.” Pike raises herself onto her elbows. “No, like, everywhere on that boy is nice. He’s a mechanic for fun - I read that in an interview, and he was shirtless in Whispers - he’s ripped, Vex.” This information sinks in slowly, because Vex can’t reconcile his slenderness with muscle, but Pike’s already on her phone, searching for the proof. She makes a noise of victory in her throat, shoving the device towards Vex. “Look.” “Holy shit,” Vex says, her eyes widening, neck snapping up. “What the bloody--” “I told you.” “Hells,” she says, not quite able to comprehend what she’s seeing. “Christ. Wow.” It’s just a simple still from the movie - she resolves right then and there to watch it as soon as possible - but he’s standing in a shop, shirtless, covered in soot, and Pike had not been fucking around - he is...extremely well-defined, to say the least. Chiseled, rugged. She imagines touching him, feeling his body against hers-- Pike tells her, “I wouldn’t kick him out of bed, is all I’m saying.” “Erm, yeah.” “I wouldn’t kick you out of bed either, though, Vex, just so you know.” Vex winks at her. “Oh, I’m aware, darling, as you’ve had many opportunities to do so.” Pike digs her fingers into Vex’s side, laughing as she tickles her; Vex squeals, slapping her hands away-- -- (“Girls,” Grog says, shaking his head, as he and Vax prepare to leave for lunch. “That’s sexist, Grog, they’re just having fun,” Vax points out. “Nothing wrong with that.” “Oh, sorry,” Grog says, genuinely apologetic. “I thought that was just something people said.”) -- Percy and Keyleth don’t have an eventful journey aside from the usual paparazzi catching them at the airport and groups of fans clamoring around them at the gate, but they’re in first class on the plane, and there’s a private car waiting to take them to the hotel when they land. They step out by themselves for a late lunch, knowing their dinner won’t be until after the band’s show is over; they split a nice bottle of wine at an Italian place Keyleth had picked around the corner. They’re mostly safe from photographers, though Percy’s sure a few random patrons have snapped some pictures under-the-table. Well, it goes with the territory. After that, Keyleth’s too wired to go back to the hotel and drags him into a bar down the street with a semi-private back room; they sit at a booth and drink jalapeno margaritas, and throughout the night fans approach, asking for pictures and autographs. They oblige every time; Keyleth’s thrilled by it, honored, like she’s being given some incredible opportunity. It’s unbearably sweet. By the time they meet the band in the lobby - the first time Percy’s seen them all together, up-close, and boy are they an intimidating group - they’re showered, fresh, and dressed for camouflage. It’s easy to blend in the city, fortunately, though Grog probably causes a stir everywhere and Percy’s hair is a dead giveaway, but he’s wearing a beanie whereas Grog’s just - a giant. All the time. Well, it is what it is. There’s Vex again, standing in front, even more beautiful than he remembers even though she’s dressed casually in ripped jeans and a tank and hoodie; she smiles widely at him and steps forward-- Keyleth goes flying into Vax’s arms, startling him; he lifts her up and spins her around once, beaming. “Vax!” she exclaims. “It’s so good to see you! How was the show?!” “You too, Kiki, and it was great!” He grins back at her. “Here, meet everyone, come on - Percival, great to see you as well--” “Cheers,” Percy answers, glancing at Pike and smiling. “Hello, I’m Percival Von Mu--” “You can call him Percy,” Keyleth interrupts customarily, waving a hand again. Vax wraps an arm around him and grinds a hand against his hair. “You’re famous and shit, Percival!” he proclaims, and Percy laughs despite himself. “They know who you are.” Vax lets go of him and continues the introductions; Vex approaches him and gives him a warm hug, her arms encircling his neck, her body against his - it’s brief, too brief, and he barely has the time to process the way it makes him feel before she lets him go. Upon releasing him, a phone is suddenly shoved into his face as she says, “Look, you and Keyleth are having a lovely romantic getaway this weekend.” Sure enough, there’s an article open on some gossip website with pictures of the two of them at the airport earlier that afternoon, deep in conversation. Percy grimaces. “They’re determined to push that angle. Apparently we have an active fanbase.” “We do,” Keyleth pipes up. “Some of the blogs are really pretty.” “She follows them,” Percy supplies. “They’re really nice to us.” Pike giggles nervously as she leans up to hug Keyleth in greeting; the blush on her cheeks doesn’t hide well. “I follow blogs dedicated to us, too. It’s fun.” “So, shall we?” Scanlan asks, and extends his arm to Pike. “My lady?” “Oh, thanks, Scanlan, but I’m already holding someone’s hand,” she says, holding back a smirk as she places her small fingers in Grog’s, who barely notices. Scanlan moves on with a fake sigh and a rejection he’s clearly used to, so Percy doesn’t bother feeling bad for him. -- They have dinner at a small, hole-in-the-wall burger joint in the Village - the type that New York is famous for - and it’s actually the best burger he’s ever had in his life. She sits next to him in the booth, her boots kicked out under the table, back of her hand pressed up to her mouth when she laughs. Their thighs brush, they knock elbows. He thinks about turning and kissing her and citing the small space. Sorry, he imagines saying, I just ran out of room. They have ciders and rate them against European ones. She’d love to live in a small town around the English countryside, she divulges; somewhere with space and sky and woods. Keyleth agrees, raising her glass. Percy says, without thinking twice, Yes, I’d probably like that. If she notices, she doesn’t respond; she offers a fry to Pike and smacks Grog’s hand away from stealing it. -- Vex wants to go clubbing. She misses clubbing, dancing, that escape of alcohol and pounding beats. Percy shifts next to her, his arms flexing, the muscle prominent underneath; she wants him all over her, the sweat of his body under colored strobe lights. She wants him and she wants to not think about anything else anymore, not Saundor or Syldor and their sharp, cutting words. He smiles shyly and pays the bill before anyone even knows the bill has come. Vax invites Percy and Keyleth back to their suite to hang out and drink; Vex’s body trembles. As much as she’d love to dance - well, fame has its downsides. Perhaps not tonight. And she’s made it so long without slipping back into her old habits. Keyleth accepts for them - Percy doesn’t react at all, but he seems to appreciate her enthusiasm; Vex can tell it’s important to him than Keyleth is happy. She finds that overwhelmingly sweet and the sudden urge to fuck it out of him entirely hits her like a gunshot. Pike gives her a knowing look and mouths, I know. Gilmore’s out with his own friends - that man has contacts everywhere - and they crack open the hard liquor and beer, playing music over the stereo system and talking. Grog and Keyleth, in the showdown of the century, have the shotgunning contest they should’ve had at after party - Pike roots for Grog out of loyalty, to which Vax raises a finger and chants Keyleth’s name even louder; and then-- Keyleth loses by a split second, something Grog is genuinely impressed by, and gives her a high five. Considering his method of drinking involves unhinging his jaw like a snake and widening his throat until he can just pour alcohol down it without swallowing - or at least, that’s how Scanlan describes it - it’s amazing Keyleth finished as closely as she did. Vax and Scanlan take turns selecting songs, trying to find music that appeals to Percy, who they treat as some sort of toddler, giving him about a minute of each song and asking - very slowly - if he liked it or not, before selecting a new one and doing the same thing all over again. By the end of it, Percy has a few new artists he’s apparently a fan of - Tunng has a good song, and he’s into the electronica vibe of CHVRCHES; Hozier, he says, sounds like who he’d be if he made music, and then a few classic rock bands - and then people start drifting off one at a time, slowly. Pike smiles apologetically and says, “Being on the road’s just tiring - but you don’t have to leave! Stay, it’s cool, we can sleep through anything.” “Stay,” Vex says, and so he does. -- They’re playing music at a softer volume and they’re the only two left. Vex stands at the window, looking out at the lit-up square below, the recklessness of cars, the people running like little dots on the sidewalk. Percy’s next to her, leaning on the window seat, also staring out. It’s slightly rainy and the clouds hang low. “I wanted to go clubbing,” she confesses, though she’s not sure what she’s confessing to. “Don’t you ever miss doing things you used to be able to do before you were famous? Things that made you feel...better. Freer.” “It’s been awhile since I’ve been a commoner,” he responds mildly, sounding sort of like a pompous asshole, but she gets what he means. He’s talking about the accident. Americans love the royal family, so they’ve known about him for ages; she imagines there aren’t many places he’s able to run to for relief and anonymity. “I’ve found comfort in other things. Mechanics.” “It would,” she says, and nothing else. “Clubbing, huh?” he repeats, and now he’s looking at her; she shivers without knowing why. “I can’t say I’ve ever been clubbing.” She smiles, pressing her hands against the glass. “I can’t say that answer surprises me.” “Am I not the type?” “Not really, darling, no.” But she’s teasing, tone playful and light. She sees him stand out of the corner of her eye, but he’s facing her, no longer using the scenery as a pretense. “See,” Percy says, talking about something else entirely, “this is a nice view.” “We’re on the thirty-second floor,” she points out, not fully understanding. “I think you’re fighting your own argument.” “Well, not exactly, as the view I’m referencing is in front of me.” He’s so plainly forthcoming at that moment that it stuns her; it’s his version of flirting, she realizes, and she takes it in-- The light is soft, dim. Keyleth had lit a few candles, because she’s the type to light candles. Percy’s in a plain white t-shirt and black jeans, his hair ruffled and boyish, his stare sincere but bashful. Her phone’s plugged into the sound system on shuffle, and her music is low, slow, gyrating. They’re alone. She wants to devour him, fuck him until she forgets the names of her demons, until he no longer feels the torment of his own. In a bold move, because it’s two in the morning, because she’s a little drunk, because it’s New York - she takes one of his hands and slides in front of him, pressing him back against the window, his entire body flush to hers. “So, Percival,” she murmurs, and she’s well aware of how turned on she sounds, “you’ve never danced?” His eyes flicker like blackness seeps into him; smoke is rising from his skin. The heat burns between them. “Like this?” He says, and she’s pleased to hear his voice shake. “Never.” She smiles with a dangerous flash of teeth. “Good.” -- So, what they’re doing is definitely not dancing. She guides his hands to her hips, knowing he won’t move first without permission; her palms splay against his chest, and she’s humming the melody playing low in her throat. He can feel her breathing, the way her body sticks to him, her chest rising and falling; he’s caught up, overcome-- She sways slowly, almost grinding against him; he bites the inside of his lip on instinct, looking down at her, eyelids heavy. She’s still fucking smirking, and her hands drift up, over his shoulders, around his neck; she finally shifts her gaze up and locks eyes with him, now quietly singing the words - he’s momentarily distracted by it, because how many people get to hear her sing without a stage, and her voice is sultry and gorgeous and hot - and then he comprehends the lyrics-- When you say it like that… His fingers curl around her hips; she drops her stare to his mouth and continues, “Let me fuck you right back,” and he about faints right there. “Oh, holy shit,” he breathes out. “Something wrong, dear?” she asks, and her tone is low and teasing, knowing exactly what she’s doing to him. But he’s still drunk, too, and reservations aren’t exactly something he has the time or willpower to manage. “This isn’t music to dance to,” he says, and she laughs once, throatily. “No,” she agrees, still slowly grinding against him. “It’s music to have sex to.” His mouth is dry and all the flashing city lights are suddenly in the room with them. “I should’ve known,” he says, and pulls her tight against him. The smirk is suddenly gone from her face. “Only you would seduce someone with a song that isn’t even your own.” They’re too close, it’s too dark, she’s going to fuck him here in a suite with four other sleeping people and he’s going to enjoy it and beg her for more; he cycles through the coming events in his mind and sees absolutely no issue with any of it. He’s already underneath her and she can do whatever she wants to him. She presses her fingers against his cheek, guiding the tilt of his head, and she leans up-- They hear the unmistakable sound of the door opening and someone’s voice rings from the doorway, “Vex, darling, I know how pretty he is, but unless you’re inviting me to join, perhaps you should drag poor Percival off to somewhere private before you eat him alive, hm?” -- Fucking Gilmore. She’s fuming and turned on and it’s a horrible combination - Percy is actively averting his eyes from her, his hands now back against the window seat, holding himself up - and in an almost cruel fit of denial, she slides slowly back onto her feet, pressing her hips carefully against his until he’s again biting his lip, now burning red. Gilmore heads off to bed, leaving them there, knowing he’s ruined whatever was about to happen in the suite’s living room and satisfied with it. She’s going to have a talk with him tomorrow. Fuck him, that fucking asshole, and fuck Vax for so long ago declaring him enough of family that he shares their rooms. “Percy.” She needs him to look at her. She needs him addicted to whatever she’s planning next, anxiously awaiting her every move, his nerves standing on the precipice. He carefully glances down at her - he’s restraining himself again, Gods, she hates that, she was so close to unraveling him entirely - and she says dangerously, “This isn’t over.” He seems almost amused at her tone and choice of words. “Is that a threat?” “Yes.” Her mouth curls into a half-smirk, a remnant of what they almost did. “I’m going to fuck this sweet, sad boy act out of you. Who are you really, Percival?” He shivers against her, his lips parting in a harsh inhale, exhale. “At this moment, I’m not sure I even know,” he answers unsteadily, pupils blown wide. “Good.” She pushes off his chest, grinning broadly. He stands there unmoving, the shock and arousal still filling his veins instead of blood. He stares unblinkingly, swallowing once. She backs away. “Sleep well,” she says airily, and heads into her room. -- (She leans against the door and whispers, “Fuck.” “Vex?” A voice mumbles sleepily. “Is that you?” “Yes, Pike, it’s me,” she hisses back, waiting for the telltale sound of Percy running from their room, which comes a few moments later when the door slams. Pike sits up in bed; Vex can see her hazy outline. “What happened?” She asks, rubbing her eyes. “Was that Percy who just left?” “Yes.” “Wait.” Pike’s staring in her direction. “Why aren’t you with him?” Vex grimaces, knocking her head back against the wood. “Gilmore interrupted us.” The girl gasps. “Like while you were doing him?!” Vex laughs at that and then sighs, moving to throw herself across the bed. “Gods, Pike, no,” she says, an arm over her forehead. “We were - dancing. Sort of.” Pike rubs a hand over her stomach comfortingly. “Aw, Vex, it’s okay. I’m sure you’ll have plenty of chances. I mean, come on, who’s gonna resist you? I would never.” “Thanks, dear.” “Anytime.”) -- “And then she said--” he breaks off, blushing horribly, and then quotes, “‘I’m going to fuck that sweet, sad boy act out of you,’” and Keyleth’s head whips around the curtain, mouth agape, soap still lathered in her hair. “No way,” she says, shocked and a little appreciative. “Damn, Percy, that’s hot.” “I know,” he says. “That’s the problem, isn’t it? Forgive me for being a little traditional, but I do genuinely like her.” “And that’s a problem why?” Keyleth asks, disappearing again. “She nailed you, didn’t she? Wow.” She snickers to herself and he hears her repeat, “Sweet, sad boy act…” “It’s not an act,” he says, mostly faking affrontement. “Am I not sweet?” “Sure, sure,” Keyleth answers. He hears a bottle hit the floor and a small squeak of surprise before she continues speaking. “You’re nice, Percy, but you come off a lot nicer than you are. You can be cruel and cold when you want to be, or to people you don’t trust - and you don’t trust anyone. You’re...distant, I guess, is the word. From everything.” He frowns; she’s not wrong there. “I trust you,” he points out, defiant. He hadn’t really viewed it as an act, though, but maybe he’s putting himself on subconsciously. “Semantics.” “I’m rolling my eyes.” “Anyway. I’m saying I like her,” he says again. “What if she’s merely - into the idea of sleeping with me and that’s it?” Keyleth’s head pokes out of the curtain again. “Percy,” she says exasperatedly, “have you even looked at Vex? She could have anyone she wants; she’s like, beautiful. Some guy once threw a five-thousand dollar engagement ring on stage and proposed to her. She said no and kept the ring. Hell,” Keyleth adds as an afterthought and ignoring Percy’s jaw on the floor, “I’d date Vex.” “Stick to Vax,” Percy says, still recovering from the bizarrely sexy idea of Vex rejecting some man and keeping his money but somehow wanting Percy. “I can’t compete with you.” Keyleth laughs. “Don’t be ridiculous,” she says, shutting the water off, “she’s only got eyes for you anyway.” Percy resumes washing his face. “Well,” he says, and that’s really all there is to it. -- Gilmore forbids them from going to boozy brunch - “It’s meant for Sundays,” he reasons with them, “and you’ve a show tonight,” - so they resort to normal brunch, though Grog and Pike are determined to sneak a mimosa; drinking always cures his hangovers and Pike’s desperately in need of relief for hers. Keyleth and Percy meet them in the lobby, Percy wearing sunglasses and looking a little more disheveled than usual, whereas Keyleth-- “Fuck,” Vex whispers to Vax, “does she always look this flawless? What the fuck, honestly.” “Keyleth, you are hot,” Grog says randomly from behind them, and Vax bumps his arm. “Don’t objectify women, Grog, just tell her she looks nice,” he instructs, and Grog glances at her apologetically. “Oh, sorry,” he says genuinely. “You look real nice, Keyleth.” She laughs good-naturedly. “Thanks, Grog, you look pretty handsome yourself.” “She called me handsome,” he murmurs to Pike, his smile huge; she pats his arm and nods. “Competition,” Vex hisses at Vax again, grinning. So, Keyleth isn’t the most charismatic of people, but something about her is undeniably entrancing; she’s not just beautiful. She’s the most honest person he’s ever met; she doesn’t care about her image because she’s intrinsically so good it doesn’t even occur to her that she might be projecting the wrong one. There’s no way he’s letting go of that after years and years of everyone expecting something of him. “Kiki,” he says, falling into stride next to her; she links arms with him automatically and he turns to quickly stick his tongue out at Vex - who now, of course, only has eyes for Percy. Whatever; more material for him, at least. If she’s going to tease him endlessly, she’s going to get it back twice as good. Keyleth smiles at him and says, “I had a great time last night. Percy and I never go out like that. It’s cool to have such a big group of people.” “They’re family,” Vax responds and shrugs. “It was fun to have you with us - we see each other every day, you know, so...I liked having you there.” “Yeah?” she asks nervously, as if she really needs the statement reconfirmed. “I like having you here now,” he tells her, his blood swirling around his heart at the sight of her slight blush. “Honestly, Keyleth, I do.” “I’m happy to hear that,” is all she says, her eyes solidly watching the street ahead, but her fingers clutch his arm a little tighter. -- (“Percival,” Vex greets warmly as he approaches, Keyleth now preoccupying her brother. “And how are we this morning?” He takes his sunglasses off, wincing slightly at the light. “I’ve been better.” Her lips twist up; her eyes are hungry and dark. She traps him like a snare. His heart thumps in his chest, his ribcage rattling. He wants to fuck the smirk off of her face. So, maybe she’s a little right about him.) -- Grog and Pike order mimosas before Gilmore can stop them; he waves a hand as if to say, it’s your head. They high-five across the table. Keyleth laughs and absorbs Pike in conversation about where she learned to play piano; Vax just stares, nodding along, contributing here and there but mostly content to watch; finally she turns the question on him, and he says, “I learned it to impress you,” but he’s grinning, a little snarky. She takes it in stride. “Shut up, no you didn’t,” she huffs, but she’s smiling. “Tell me the truth.” Ah, the truth, well-- “My mother was very musically inclined,” Vax says, surprising even himself at his honesty. Vex quiets, something that doesn’t go unnoticed. Grog, Scanlan, and Pike are now involved in a discussion on breakfast burritos and where to draw the line on ingredients, and don’t pay any attention. “Fortunately, it was a skill she passed onto us.” “That’s nice that you have that now,” Keyleth says, and reveals herself to be more perceptive than they’d previously thought when she adds, “It’s nice to have something that keeps the people you love alive.” It’s almost tactless - they’re at brunch and it isn’t information Vax had quite gotten around to divulging - but she isn’t fully speaking about them and their mother, and it’s what calms him, what keeps Vex from snapping. Loss can recognize loss, and Keyleth’s far-off look, her gentle, sad smile… “You understand,” Vex states, seeking confirmation before being open; it’s not a topic the twins are normally forthcoming about. “My mother left when I was young,” Keyleth says, very matter-of-fact. “She’s been declared dead - it’s been so long. She left for a business trip and she never came back.” Off of their stunned looks, she rectifies, “Oh, but not like that! Not like she - ran off, or something. It was supposed to be a week-long work trip; she used to take them all the time. That’s, ah…” she wrings her hands nervously. “That’s all. So I just meant - I know how you feel.” Vax puts his fingers over hers, intertwining them. “Thanks, Kiki. And we’re sorry.” She sort of shrugs uncomfortably, pressing on, locking eyes with Percy-- “Well,” the boy suddenly says off-handedly, leaning back, “almost my whole family is dead, so I’m not one for sympathy.” Vex lets out a startled laugh and looks horrified; she covers her mouth hurriedly, but Keyleth giggles openly. Percy’s mouth is in a wry half-smirk. “You can laugh,” he says, and his head falls against the booth, his eyes fluttering closed. “It’s already going to hurt forever, so you might as well laugh when it strikes you.” Somewhere on the other end of the table, Grog is pouring an entire bottle of hot sauce on his burrito and Scanlan’s eating a raw chili pepper for a challenge; Pike is grinning while Gilmore shakes his head. Vex says, “We all have our crosses to bear, I suppose.” “I’m not surprised.” Percy’s head tilts, following Vex’s stare. “Tortured artists. It’s so predictable it’s almost boring.” Vax raises his glass. “Cheers, Percival.” He supposes in some ways, it truly is the perfect phrase to describe what they are. -- (They go to Central Park for Keyleth, who Vex is pretty sure may actually die if she’s away from nature for too long, and lounge around Sheep Meadow until they start getting recognized. It doesn’t help that Pike keeps Snapping, either, so everyone in the Manhattan area definitely knows where they are. They’re careful not to post anything of the actual famous actors until they’ve left, though, in order to deter the paparazzi, who don’t care for indie bands as much. Vex takes a pic of Percy as he drifts off under the sun for a little while, and Keyleth says, “He didn’t get a lot of sleep last night,” with a cute grin that Vex is sure is supposed to be a smirk. Vex shows her how it’s really done and answers, “I can’t imagine why.”) -- The show starts at eight, with a band Percy’s never heard of (shocker) opening for them called Chroma Conclave. It’s the first night of their leg of the tour - they’ll be opening for another month of shows - and Vex tells him privately that they actually hate the band’s music, but it’s a publicity thing and they can’t do anything to stop it. He’s familiar with the act of having to play nice with difficult talent. He and Keyleth are upstairs in the VIP area - it’s tables and bar service looking down on the stage - and they get a few ciders and relax for the opening act, not paying too much attention. Internally, he agrees with Vex: they’re awful, more like metal than rock, but the crowd seems to be into it to a degree, at least. He watches fans hover around the merch table and thinks about buying a shirt as a joke; Keyleth’s almost definitely going to do it seriously. By the time their band is about to take the stage, Keyleth’s had three ciders and she’s buzzing; Percy’s trying to keep a leveler head. The lights go out, the crowd screams, the neon signs flash; in the chaos of it all he sees them quietly settle into their instruments before-- Vex’s voice, as beautiful and sexy as it was when it was only him and her the night before comes echoing around his skull; he recognizes it immediately as their second single - well, I’ve got a story about how you left me for dead, I told you I loved you and never saw you again, now when I dream about you I hear it’s all in your head, all in your head. “Babe, you’ve got me thinking I’m fucking crazy,” he sings under his breath, because he can’t help himself, because she’s entrancing and their music is good. Fortunately Keyleth is doing the same thing, only she’s singing all of the words and at a much louder volume. Scanlan harmonizes with her nicely, subtly, not taking the song away from her but enhancing it - the title is Demons and he adds a haunting quality to it, like a dark vibration underneath the edges. And then Percy realizes she’s playing the bass. He is inexplicably, instantaneously turned on - watching her fingers move, her lips curving around the words, the way she holds the melody in her mouth - her eyes dart up, searching for his, and he sees her smile flicker. Maybe it’s only a trick of the light. Keyleth turns toward him and screams, “She is so fucking hot!” Finally letting go, he answers “I know” with a smile, and it’s the lightest Keyleth has seen him in years. -- (The show is electric; the crowd can’t get enough and neither can Vex. She loves this. She loves the bright lights and the fans singing and the music burning up her skin; Vax is shredding next to her and Grog’s hammering the drums and Pike’s holding them all together, her notes a solid through-line. And Percy - through the blinding flashes she finds his white hair and his unrestrained smile, Keyleth’s arm around his shoulders-- I’m not running out of time, babe, and you’re gonna be mine, you’re gonna be mine, you’re gonna be mine. She’s singing to him now, but one day soon, she won’t need to.) -- They head backstage just before the end of the set to avoid the crowd, still wrapped up in the band’s final song; Keyleth sways on her feet and keeps singing, watching from the wings. Percy’s drawn more to technique from this angle - the deftness of Scanlan’s fingers on the guitar (he’s picked up about four different instruments tonight so far), the way Pike plays with her eyes closed, Grog’s ferocity fading and swelling in beat with the music - they’re well-trained, incredibly in sync with each other. It’s a pleasure just to witness. The song ends, the crowd screams, the room is suddenly drenched in darkness - the band stumbles their way to the wings through the dimness of the stage, tripping over each other and laughing; Keyleth cheers with the rest of the fans as the lights flash on again for the encore, bright neon colors. Vax finds her eyes amidst the chaos, as if she’s the pull to a compass, and as he gets closer she yells, “Vax, that was ama--” before he takes her face in his hands and kisses her. The rest of the band stops in their tracks, the roar of the crowd quieting to a dull hum in their ears at the sight in front of them; Vex’s lips are parted in a very subtle jaw-drop, and Percy can only stare, caught up in a moment that isn’t his but could be-- Vex’s lips are parted, and Percy can only stare; what if she had seen him first, what if she were standing in front of him smiling, disheveled, sweating after a show and the pressure of burning stage lights; what if he were healthier, assured, better-- -- (Keyleth has never been kissed like this in her entire life - she’s never even been kissed, not really, only for work or projects or an elementary-school dare - the softness and the intensity of it overwhelms her, his palms cupping her cheeks, her fingers automatically reaching up to curl around his wrists-- He pulls away, his eyes shining, his smile gentle and apologetic; his hands stroke down her jaw, her neck. He says, You know I’m in love with you, right? She can only look on, dazed, buzzing, those neon lights filling up her heart and her skin is where she wants him to write his songs; she licks her lips and tastes salt, electricity, copper, music. She doesn’t speak. He backs away from her, his arms dropping, and suddenly she’s missing something she wasn’t missing before.) -- Vex is hit with the truth. Vax kisses Keyleth and it’s so uncomplicated; he loves her, he’s in love with her, he’s been in love with her. He doesn’t think twice, he doesn’t put himself on, he doesn’t try to be anybody he isn’t to make himself worthy of giving love, or receiving love. It’s so easy and pure and genuine and nothing like her, but like all the things she wishes she could be. She meets Percy’s eyes and sees the longing in him, clouded over with a self-doubt she recognizes all too well. He must notice the mirror in her, as well, because after a moment he gives her a sad, resigned sort of smile. There is nothing uncomplicated about her and Percy. -- “I’m sorry.” Vax apologizes immediately after the encore. Well, he’s not, but he is. He should have asked, or set the mood a little better, or - anything, really. “Do you think we can go and - talk, somewhere?” Keyleth stutters over herself, seeming a bit like a frightened wild animal, but not in a caged or trapped way - just an inexperienced one. She squeaks out, “Sure,” and her attention is far too occupied to even remember Percy exists. Vax leads her into one of the now-empty rooms backstage, and before she can get another word out, he picks up a gift bag from the couch and extends it to her. “I actually had plans,” he says, abashed. “I was going to give you that--” That happens to be a collection of every band shirt they’d had on sale that night, and a few very early designs that aren’t in production anymore, “--and hopefully charm you with a joke about how you may be our biggest fan, but I’m yours. No competition.” She skids her teeth across her bottom lip, digging in. Her cheeks are flushed and red, her blood on high. She’s never done this before. “I, uh--” “You don’t have to say anything.” Vax’s eyes drop. “I shouldn’t have cornered you the way I did. I was just - overwhelmed, seeing you standing there, so happy and excited and - I don’t know. You were too beautiful.” “Okay, stop,” she breathes out, shaking with the hammering of her heart; he’s always felt so far away to her, but here he is now, plain and forthcoming and baring his soul in front of her. “You - look, I’m just - I’m not good at this.” “I know.” He keeps a careful distance from her. “It’s okay, Kiki.” She says, “I do like you.” There’s no reason not to confess. “I’m not used to - feeling this way about...people. It’s…” She struggles for meaning, nervously playing with a ring on her finger. “It’s just different, and I don’t know what to do, but I do like you.” “Do you want time?” he says, clinging to the spark of hope she’s given him. “I don’t want to lose you as a friend. I’d never...push you into something you weren’t ready for. You must know how important you are to me, Keyleth.” She steps forward, reaching for his hand, and presses a delicate kiss to his cheek; he resists the urge to hold onto her and she resists the urge to ask him to. “Yeah,” she whispers. “A little time.” -- (Years from now, Keyleth will look back and remember Vax’s grin under the glow of the stage lights, her fingers burning their prints into his back, his lips against hers with an intimacy far too deep for her to comprehend at the time; he’ll laugh into her hair, curled next to her in bed, and say Yeah, you totally loved me.) -- They trudge back upstairs to the bar and they all get fucked up; Vax and Keyleth keep a polite distance apart, but not uncomfortably so. Vex says she needs the image of them kissing erased from her brain, but internally she hears Saundor’s voice, you’re selfish, Vex’ahlia, and care for nobody but yourself, reckless with no regard for the wellbeing of others; Percy sits next to Pike and answers questions dutifully about his upcoming films, who he’s liked acting with the most, who’s been the biggest asshole, and, (secretly), who’s his favorite member of the band. She winks, and he rolls his eyes; “Oh, you know.” Vex takes another shot. He’s not sure if she’d heard or not. -- They’re all hammered by the time they return to the hotel, but the band’s wired as they always are after a show and Keyleth’s energy is endless; none of them want the night to end. Grog herds them back up the suite, laughing as they stumble and trip over each other, and Percy rationalizes that it must be Grog’s size keeping him upright, certainly not that the rest of them are lightweights. Grog grins but keeps his mouth shut, humoring him. Scanlan starts some sort of card game that has them all screaming over each other - Percy is the first to be out, followed by Vex, who curses at the rest of them for show - but when she gets up from the table, Percy spots that shadow of sadness again, that flimsy mask. She catches his eye and she knows. She approaches him and says quietly, “Feel like stepping out on the balcony for a bit?” He nods once and follows her out. Nobody else pays them any mind, too absorbed in their game; as he slides the glass door closed behind him, he hears Pike scream, “You fucking cheater, Scanlan!” The air is cool and damp; Vex leans against the railing and sags heavily, finally allowing the tension she’s been carrying to hold its full weight. She looks exhausted. She doesn’t glance at him when she says, “We need to talk.” “Yes.” Percy’s voice is almost lost among the clouds. “We do.” “You saw it too,” she states, keeping her eyes trained on the flashing lights below. “How...how simple it was.” “I did,” Percy says. “But for what it’s worth, I never thought this would be simple.” She smiles without substance, like the skeleton of a feeling. “No?” “Vex, look at me,” he points out tiredly, running a hand through his hair. “I come with a lot of baggage.” “So do I.” She licks her lips, pausing. “I thought it was just me. When we started this. I thought it was just me.” The silence settles over them; everything is muted from where they are, the colors, the bright lights, the honking horns. He curls his fingers around the railing and squeezes. “Maybe we should try to be honest with one another.” It’s an uncomfortable topic to bridge. He attempts a semblance of humor. “I know you saw right through me.” “I recognized the patterns, yes,” she says. “I’m barely hanging on,” he continues blithely, shutting down the part of his voice that conveys any depth to true emotion. It’s difficult enough as it is. “I’m being treated. I spent a lot of time being nothing, being everything, being whatever wasn’t me with this life. I’m working on it.” “That’s a good start,” she says, and crooks her head towards him without meeting his eyes like a silent acceptance, “because I rather like you. The you underneath all of this. And I’m - I’ve had a long recovery. Having. A long recovery.” “I almost died,” he drops point-blank. Vex waits a moment, staring at the whiteness of Percy’s knuckles, the tensity of his muscles coiling like a spring beneath his skin. “I almost died,” she echoes back, the carefree shouting of her friends behind her like a sick soundtrack to the tragedy of their lives. He turns toward her, suddenly releasing himself. “What?” “Surely you don’t believe you’ve the monopoly on horror stories,” she says wryly, and he flushes. “That’s not what I meant, of course,” he responds politely. “Near-death experiences are rare.” She leans forward onto her elbows, hunched further over the railing. A year and a half ago, she might have thrown herself off of it. “I had a boyfriend,” she says, but the sound coats itself against her throat when she tries to explain further, like rubbing sand between her palms, coarse and raw. He seems to understand just fine. “Oh,” he says quietly. “I’m trying, too,” she says, and finally stands tall, facing him straight on. He isn’t surprised by the sudden feverishness, but proud, almost. “I’m this now because I couldn’t be for so long. I think it’s the truth. I want to believe I’m putting on the truth, but sometimes I remember what I was like, and I don’t know.” “You aren’t what you were made into,” Percy says, as if he’s reading her thoughts and pulling out exactly the right words to tell her in response. “It’s possible to have spent as long as you did as someone perceived to be without strength, but that doesn’t mean you don’t possess it now, Vex’ahlia. Or even then.” “How can you be so sure?” she asks, and the intensity lights up the space between them, the focal point of lightning. He reaches up and tucks a strand of her hair behind her ear, smiling kindly, and oh, yes, this is him, he’s here, finally making an appearance, Percy laying himself bare for her. “You must have suffered a great deal and for a very long time,” he says plainly, softly. “Sometimes having the strength to survive is enough, even if you don’t have the strength to fight back.” She feels a stinging in the corners of her eyes, the landscape suddenly swirling in front of her, lights blurry and out of focus. Her fingers are suddenly wrapped around the fabric of his sweater, clutching at his chest. “Yeah?” “Let us agree that the nature of our shared experiences leaves us unable to lie to one another,” he continues, seemingly unconcerned about her desperate grasp on him. “I am seeing the truth of you. And I am telling you the truth. You are not as in conflict with yourself as you believe.” I love you, she could say; she could say it now and somewhere in her heart she’d mean it, because Percy is right; the two of them recognize each other, buried deep underneath, like souls intertwined. I love you, she could say, but she doesn’t. Neither of them realize the noise inside has quieted to a dull hum. His hand moves from her hair to her cheek, thumb wiping underneath her eye. She says, “You must know this doesn’t solely apply to me.” Her grip relaxes very slightly; she doesn’t want to ruin his sweater. “Being agreeable and polite and invisible until you have the opportunity to express emotion through someone else - I won’t patronize you as if you don’t know that isn’t healthy.” His mouth quirks into a sly grin at her accurate interpretation of his outward-facing persona. “You aren’t a ‘thing’ without feelings, Percy. You aren’t a tool to be used, or a vase, or any other lifeless, empty object. You’ve suffered a long time and a very great deal.” He’s as intoxicated by her words as she is by his; it’s addicting, the truth, especially when it’s one you’ve been too afraid to believe yourself. He exhales slowly and leans in, not for a kiss but for support, his forehead resting against hers. His eyes are shut; she can feel his heart pounding. She murmurs, “I know how difficult it is to open yourself up again. To give yourself up to someone else. But I can handle it. You’re not a burden.” “I’m afraid,” he breathes out, and God, they’re burning each other up with the thrill and novelty of understanding. “I’m afraid I’m - irrevocably damaged, or twisted. I don’t want to drag you into myself. I won’t do that to you.” “That’s no way to heal,” she says, pulling back slightly to stare him in the eye. “Haven’t we established our inability to lie to one another? I have demons, too, and that means I can see yours for what they are, just as you see mine. Let me talk you out of them when needed. Let me scare them off.” The look in his eyes is unbearably fond, but his voice wavers, uncertain and unused to the concept of hope. “And that’s not - that isn’t too much for you?” The concrete balcony feels so firm beneath her feet she’s convinced she’s connected to the earth below, the dirt and mantle and core steadying her in place. She says, her spine straight, “It’s simpler to be strong for other people, don’t you agree?” “I do,” he answers. His hands are now on her hips, the small of her back. They’re pressed together not out of want but out of necessity. “We’ll find each other,” she says, low and tender. “We have to start somewhere.” “I can start here,” Percy says, and presses a faint, delicate kiss to Vex’s forehead, before gathering her in his arms and holding her there. -- (Keyleth smiles to herself, eyes downcast and averted. They’re all watching and pretending they aren’t. Vax, sitting at her side, doesn’t seem to know what to make of the display; she senses the war in him. “Finally,” she says quietly, before he can make up his mind. He glances over at her, corners of his mouth pulled down slightly, but the rest of his expression remains unguarded. “Is this a good thing?” he asks her bluntly. “She’s my sister. I need honesty.” “I can’t speak for Vex,” Keyleth begins carefully, not wanting to set off any alarm bells, “but Percy’s...better than he used to be. When I first met him, he rarely even smiled, like he’d forgotten how. I mean - you’ve heard his story, right? So, I’m not gonna say that he isn’t without flaws, but I think…” she pauses to weigh her words in her mouth; tact isn’t something that comes naturally to her. “I think he could use someone else, you know? Someone who isn’t me. And someone exactly like her.” Vax doesn’t answer her yet, still subtly watching them out on the balcony. It’s starting to rain and they’re both facing out at the city, buried in each other, unaware of the conversation taking place indoors. Keyleth tries, one last time, by saying, “I feel like...Vex can understand him. Understand what he’s been through. Or at least some of the - emotion, I guess, behind it.” At that, Vax does look at her, eyebrows raised in a mild sort of surprise. “What makes you think that?” Keyleth shrugs, unable to formulate a concrete example. “Am I wrong?” she asks instead. Vax considers her for a moment, and then drops his head, as if he’s invaded a privacy for a little too long and is finally recognizing it. “No,” he says. “No, you’re not wrong.” “Percy seems nice,” Pike adds, as if the rest of them have been given an entryway into the conversation. “He’s sad, but he’s nice. And, come on - when was the last time Vex has shown an interest in anyone? Let her have this.” “Or do you not trust her judgment?” Scanlan adds, if not gracefully than at least purposefully. Vax loosens up a little, taking into account his own motivations, and says, “I won’t deny that I’m wary of it, but…” He glances back to the girl next to him, beautiful and kind and good. “I trust you, Keyleth. I trust that you can see things objectively, for what they are.” For some unknown reason, and one that endears her to him all the more, she blushes intensely at the compliment as if he’s just kissed her in a room full of prying eyes.) -- They never notice that the shouting had stopped, because by the time Percy and Vex reenter, it’s started again. She’s wearing his sweater and her eyes are the faintest hint of red. Nobody comments on it, looking up as though they’d barely noticed the two were gone. “Last game of the night,” Grog yells. “The two of you in, or what?” Percy plops down on Keyleth’s other side, Vex beside him. “Deal us in,” he says. “I’m feeling lucky.” -- They say goodbye the next day, later in the morning in the lobby, after a night of everybody once again sleeping in their own beds. Vax pulls Keyleth to him and she sinks into it because she doesn’t know how not to; whether she’s ready to face it or not, there’s something in her that longs for this, the closeness, the certainty. Vex is again wearing his sweater; she smiles and winks flirtatiously up at him when he notices, and he rolls his eyes, feigning aloofness. He’s not getting it back, and he comes to terms with it quickly, more than enamored with the idea of Vex casually wearing his clothes. They don’t hug. He stands in front of her, staring, overwhelmed with the events of the previous night, finding nothing left in him to say. She seems to understand wordlessly and reaches up, ruffling his hair with her hand like he’s an embarrassed young boy in need of validation, acceptance. She says, “Hang in there, Percival. You’re doing great.” It’s enough. -- radiance against @thebriarwoods · 26m .@keylethoftheair are we all crazy or were you and percival hanging out with vox machina all weekend!? Keyleth @keylethoftheair · 15m Replying to @thebriarwoods We were! They’ve been my favorite band since their debut and we finally got to see them play! We had such an awesome time!! Thanks @imvaxthatsvex @imvexthatsvax @themeatman @idliketorage @monstah Percival @percivalderolo · 12m Replying to @thebriarwoods @keylethoftheair and 5 others This is me officially tweeting my agreeance of the above statement vax’ahlia @imvaxthatsvex · 10m Replying to @percivalderolo @keylethoftheair and 5 others percy, do u LIKE us? is that what ur saying??? u LIKE us?? vex’ildan @imvexthatsvax · 9m Replying to @imvaxthatsvex @percivalderolo and 5 others is that true percival? you like us? vax i think he liiiikes us…... Percival @percivalderolo · 7m Replying to @imvexthatsvax @imvaxthatsvex and 5 others You’re both ridiculous. Obviously I only like Grog. grog loves beer @idliketorage · 5m Replying to @percivalderolo @imvexthatsvax and 5 others rite answer mate Burt Reynolds @themeatman · 2m Replying to @idliketorage @imvexthatsvax and 5 others hey it’s me pike!!! @monstah · 2m Replying to @idliketorage @imvexthatsvax and 5 others Hey Percival @percivalderolo · 33s Replying to @themeatman @monstah and 5 others You’re both great too. it’s me pike!!! @monstah · 2s Replying to @percivalderolo @themeatman and 5 others Thnx!!! - from me n scanlan -- Considering the paparazzi didn’t catch many pictures of them and they’d been seen with the entire band, not a lot of speculation arises from their initial meeting. But neither Percy nor Keyleth expect the silence to last - the twins aren’t exactly quiet about their interests; especially not Vax, who’d openly hand over his heart to Keyleth at any given moment, if only she were to ask him for it. All Percy’s aware of on that topic is that whatever Keyleth-and-Vax are, it’s definitely something. They’re progressing, and though it may be slow, it’ll be forever when it happens. He can sense it in her, her heart unfolding like a flower. He knows she loves him, and Vax isn’t pushing her to go anywhere she isn’t ready to. Percy can’t think of anyone better for Keyleth, or anyone who cares as deeply for her. He hears them, sometimes, through the walls of their shared apartment in Atlanta; Keyleth’s voice has taken on its own tone for Vax specifically, one so painfully tender he feels invasive just listening to it even without being able to make out the words. (They like to sit on Hangouts or Facetime and just enjoy each other’s company. He’ll work on a song and she’ll practice lines. It’s nice, he says, not to feel so alone. “You have a twin,” Keyleth points out, smiling. “Well, that’s different,” he says. “You calm me. Like my soul’s been put at ease.” Her cheeks burn pink and he doesn’t expand on the thought. She understands him just fine.) Percy and Vex, on the other hand-- “I’m so fucking bored,” Vex complains to him over the phone; his cell is sitting on the counter on speaker as he cooks himself and Keyleth dinner. “I wish we could just fly everywhere rather than drive.” “Why can’t you?” he asks, measuring out a teaspoon of salt, dumping it into the pot of water boiling on the stove. “It’s not worth it,” she explains idly, rustling around on the other end. “With all of our equipment and shit - that’s saved for international tours. We’ll take a few flights here and there, depending on the distance, but it’s mostly driving.” She snickers suddenly. “I bet Keyleth would love it.” Percy grins in response. “Most definitely,” he says, beginning to chop a tomato. “How much longer d’you have?” “On this tour?” The rustling ceases; Percy imagines her still, biting her lip and thinking. “Two months. And you?” Percy pauses for the briefest of moments, also attempting to calculate. “Three weeks on location - so into mid-May - and close to another month back home in the studio.” Vex hums. “I’ve been thinking...as we’re in Atlanta next week, any chance you can give your biggest fans a set tour?” He laughs at the sly edge of her voice, like she’s fooling him somehow, or being particularly clever. “I’ll see what I can do.” “Lovely, darling, thank you.” He sighs at the smugness lining her tone. “Oh,” he says mildly, dumping the cut tomatoes in a bowl, “as if I could ever refuse you.” -- Filming is unpredictable, and so is traffic, so the band doesn’t get to set until late afternoon when they’re well into a scene. Percy relieves a poor, intimidated intern of them at the entrance to the soundstage and leads them quietly to where the assistant director is sitting under what looks like a type of tent, two large screens in front her, and on them-- “Woah,” Grog whispers, pointing. “Look at Keyleth. She looks awesome.” Keyleth is towards the right of the shot, standing in what looks like a kind of dungeon, or a castle, and she’s stunning. Otherworldly. She’s wearing a green, loosely-fitting dress that appears as if she created it from the forest itself, a gorgeous mantle over her shoulders that unfolds into almost a cloak of leaves, and a circlet on which a pair of antlers seem to sprout from. She’s carrying a staff and laughing at something with an older, sickly looking woman next to her as a man fixes her make-up. “My, my,” Vex says, examining Percy’s getup - he’s in a royal blue coat with some sort of puffy necktie and a vest over a white button-down shirt with slacks, and very nice boots. “Don’t you look dashing.” “We’re between shots,” Percy says, rolling his eyes. “They’re getting one last angle on her and then she’ll have a moment to greet you while they set up the next scene. She’s actually just past the tent, here. If you take a quick glance around, you can see her - but it may be best if she’s not aware you’re here yet.” “Cool,” Pike says, enthralled, clutching onto Grog’s arm. “Percy, dude, this is amazing, thank you so much--” “Of course,” he says, smiling kindly at her, and then a hush falls over the set. “Ladies,” they hear the director call in a thick English accent, “let’s pull ourselves together. Nearly there, nearly there. Marks, please.” Keyleth reigns it in, and they’re content to watch her on the screen in front of them. “And...action!” Her face contorts, vicious, angry, terrifying; it’s an expression none of them, aside from Percy, have ever seen on her before and not one she would wear naturally. Her muscles flex under her skin, pulled taut, a snake ready to strike. The older woman is circling around her slowly, a cruel curve to her smile and a deadly look in her eyes. “...Pathetic,” the woman whispers bitterly. “All this trouble and not a thing to show for it. You wouldn’t have even gotten this far if not for your...remarkable friend. Is this the truth of you, my darling? That you are a weak and powerless thing who only knows how to endanger the lives of those who help her?” “Enough,” Keyleth says, low and dangerous, sounding nothing like herself. Vex shivers, trained on the woman, her dialogue echoing around Vex’s skull in someone else’s voice. “You’re nothing.” The words ring in the air; it’s as if a chill moves swiftly through the set. “You’ve come to me with no help, no resources, no convincing arguments. You lack even words in this moment, and it is profoundly embarrassing. You’re a dishonor to yourself, and to those who died for you.” The woman curls her mouth hideously, pulling at her skin. “At least allow me to repay them by forcing you to suffer the way they did - slowly, without grace, without dignity. Let them hear you scream, like the others before you. Like your own mother.” “I will not die,” Keyleth hisses, flooding her veins with fire, and suddenly they’re struck with the sense that Keyleth’s character has hit her breaking point. “Repay them, yes, I will - but not with my blood. With yours!” And her hands whips out with more agility than they’d thought possible from her, wrapping around the woman’s throat, and hoisting her into the air, one-handed. Percy quickly and quietly claps a hand over Grog’s mouth to stop his exclamation, as he hadn’t realized the other woman was on wires. Keyleth looks as if she’s exerting a tremendous amount of force, which they know cannot be true, but that’s the magic of cinema, Vex thinks, entranced by the display. “Your girlfriend is way cooler than you,” she leans over and whispers in Vax’s ear, trying to ignore the ghosts. He smacks her away, but he’s smiling. -- Keyleth almost stabs him with her antlers, which a crew member then pries off of her in a panic, fearful of the potential lawsuit. “Sorry, sorry!” she says again, inspecting him for damage. “God, I was just so excited to see you, I’m so sorry, I always forget they’re basically weapons--” “You could’ve killed him,” Scanlan says dramatically, and Vax snorts loudly. “Kiki, it’s fine, honestly,” he tells her, taking her hand before it can reach him again. “You didn’t even scratch me. No harm done.” She smiles brightly, allowing their joined hands to come to rest. “I’m glad you’re here,” she says, and then shifts her gaze to each of them. “All of you.” “Are you?” Percy asks dryly upon his return from craft services, handing Vex a plate of grapes and cheese. “You won’t be after the news I just received.” The party turns to look at him; Vex raises an eyebrow, the grapes in her mouth making her look like a chipmunk with half a full cheek. Keyleth blinks owlishly. “What?” “Change of order, to put it lightly,” Percy says. “We’re filming the scene near the end where - erm, where you...overdo it?” He’s trying not to give it away. “Where I have to step in and help you. We were supposed to start tomorrow with it, but the weather forecast isn’t great.” She stares at him for half a second longer before it clicks, and then her skin flushes bright red as if she’s boiling herself in water. She glances back to Vax and squeaks out, “Well, thanks for visiting!” “Keyleth, Percival!” a voice calls. “Ten minutes!” Percy grins devilishly. Keyleth is now the color of a sunburn. “Well, obviously, we have to stay,” Grog points out logically, “because she wants us to leave so badly. Means it must be good, right?” “Are you guys gonna fuck or something?” Scanlan asks bluntly. “I’m pretty sure that storyline wasn’t set up very well in the first one, if so.” Percy actually laughs, and it’s genuine, unashamed and free. “No, no, we’re not going that far.” “‘That far’...” the twins quote at the same time, staring between them ominously. “Um,” Keyleth says, and then turns and runs away as fast she can in costume. Percy only snickers harder, and says, “Go ahead and stick around. Once it starts, it won’t matter, anyway. She’s a professional.” -- (So, Percy and Keyleth have to kiss. Vex is nearly on the floor in hysterics; Vax is torn between utter amusement and a weird fit of jealousy. Vex, who’s never kissed Percy, has nothing to be jealous of, something she doesn’t mind rubbing in. “I don’t know what I’m missing out on, you see?” she says, wiping the tears from her eyes. “I can truly enjoy this moment. Oh, I can’t wait.” “You’ll probably be dating him by the time this film comes out,” Vax says snidely, not willing to lose this one. “And then you’ll go the premiere and watch them kiss in high definition and surround sound. We’ll see who’s laughing then.” Vex stops, staring off into the distance with an expression equal parts disgust, fear, apprehension, and longing. “Yeah,” Vax says. “That’s what I thought.”) -- It’s not actually that bad - it isn’t a romantic kiss; it’s a desperate one. Keyleth’s character is on the brink of destroying herself in order to bring about justice, or revenge, and she doesn’t care if she survives or not - misguided and grieving, she imagines herself to be just as bad as her enemies. But Percy’s character can see through the smoke and mirrors, the manipulation and ego, and when reason and logic and every other call to her soul fails, he kisses her. It’s quite beautiful, and Pike and Grog find themselves oddly emotional even without full context; they keep patting each other and wiping their eyes. The band watches the two of them really act for this, not behind the tent through the screens. In-person, they’re even more stunning and gripping, their transformations almost unbelievable to witness. Vex has never seen this much unbridled emotion from Percy since she’s known him, and she recognizes again how spot-on her own interpretation of him had been. This is his outlet for feeling, for everything he can’t bear to keep within himself. “I know you,” he’s saying. “You’ll trust her over me? At the end of everything, you won’t even allow yourself the final courtesy of believing a single thing I say about you? After what we’ve done for each other, after all this time and torture--” “You want me to live,” Keyleth says in response, lost and heartbroken. “That’s your priority, but it isn’t mine - I won’t sacrifice anyone else! Let it end with me! Please, let it end with me!” Whatever’s happening will be inserted as a special effect, but Keyleth mimes some exertion of power, and suddenly they watch one of Percy’s hands tangle in her hair and the other wrap around her waist, and he’s pulling her in close, pressing his lips desperately and painfully against hers. After a moment of her still and unmoving, her arms fall slowly and her fingers curl around his shoulders, and when he releases her his tears glimmer in the light. “It won’t end with you,” he murmurs. “I won’t let you do this. I’ll die with you before I allow this to happen. This blood is not on your hands. Don’t spill your own.” “Cut! We’ll cut there,” the director shouts, and walks over to give the two of them a few notes. There’s a loud noise, a bit like a cross between a sneeze and a cannon. “You really are twins,” Grog guffaws at Vax and Vex, standing there with identical expressions of bafflement on their faces, their mouths hanging open. Percy and Keyleth are now laughing at a joke their make-up artist has cracked, as if the emotion of the scene was nothing but a quick interruption of their normal dynamic. “I’m feeling like,” Vax begins, “I want to kiss Keyleth.” “I’m feeling like I want you to shut up,” Vex responds stupidly, still dazed. Percy finds her eyes and winks. -- (Percy and Keyleth have to do multiple takes of it before they’re granted enough of a break to give the band a proper tour, but Vex and Vax decide once is enough, and hole themselves up in Keyleth’s trailer until they’re finished with it. Vax sits on the couch and doesn’t pry, but Vex pokes around, oddly charmed by the decoration. Keyleth’s got a windowsill of succulents and various gifts from fans plastered to her mirror, and in between, snapshots of her and with the people important to her - there’s a strip from a photobooth of her and Percy making ridiculous faces; another of them on set during their first film; one of Keyleth as a child and a woman who is most definitely her mother; and, dead center on the vanity, two distinct pictures side-by-side: her and Percy with the whole band from their trip to New York, and what looks like a selfie she’d taken with Vax, slightly blurry and out of focus, but the laughter on their faces genuine and real. Vex smiles as she picks up the photo, and turns around, extending it to Vax. “I think you’re doing just fine, brother,” she says as he stares at it in awe.) -- They all end up at a local bar afterward, drinking and eating greasy pub food and relaxing in a private booth in the back. It’s more about enjoying each other’s company than getting drunk for once, considering he and Keyleth do have to show up to work tomorrow and do their jobs properly. They cycle through a few options as to what to do for the rest of the evening - Scanlan suggests bowling, but it’s hard for Grog to entertain ideas that aren’t all-out wild - when Pike catches Vex’s eye and grins, clearing her throat. “Actually, Scanlan and Grog and I are gonna join Gilmore barhopping,” she says, lying through her teeth, though only Vex can tell. Grog pumps a fist. “So if the two of you wanna go hang out with Keyleth and Percy, you totally should.” Scanlan seems to catch on to her game pretty quickly. “Yeah, definitely. We’d like to take advantage of our one completely free night while we’re here.” Vex shrugs. “Be our guest,” she says, and then cocks her head at Percy. “Is that alright with you, oh gracious hosts?” “Yes, of course!” Keyleth responds a little too quickly, fingers clutching at her bottle. “We can - watch a movie, or something.” And that’s what they do. Well, sort of. They make it through half a movie - some old, black-and-white classic that ends up mostly as background noise - before Vex falls fast asleep, curled up against Percy’s side, his arm over her shoulders. It doesn’t take him much longer to follow her there, dozing off underneath Vex’s weight and a blanket, and Keyleth quietly tugs Vax into her bedroom, seemingly ignorant of the implications. “Let’s let them be,” she murmurs, shutting her door as gently as she can. “They’re obviously tired.” Vax wastes no time making himself at home. He kicks off his shoes and sprawls across her bed, picking up a stuffed white tiger and examining it. “He doesn’t sleep with people often, does he?” “Uh, is he supposed to?” She’s slightly confused at the question, quirking an eyebrow as she sits down next him, leaning back against the pillows. “Do you?” Vax laughs, tossing the animal up in the air and catching it. “I meant literally. I have a twin sister and a tour bus, so we’ve shared a bed more often than not. But I didn’t peg him as a guy who’d easily do something as vulnerable as sleeping beside someone.” “Oh, I see,” she says, resting the side of her head in her hand. “No, he doesn’t. He’s not really the type to let his guard down like that. So, I figured...” “Ah.” It’s not an interesting revelation and so Vax doesn’t pursue it further. “And what about you?” “Me?” She’s apparently startled that he even has to ask. “I’m an open book, aren’t I?” “Sometimes,” he answers truthfully, looking at her, cheek pressed against her moss-green comforter. “Mostly. But I think everyone has something they’re trying to protect themselves from.” She picks at a loose thread on one of her pillows, eyes averted down. “So what’s yours?” He thinks about saying rejection, which is true, but he assumes that’s true for almost everybody. He thinks of Vex and Percy in the other room, wrapped around each other innocently, holding their demons at bay. He thinks of Vex at peace. And then he thinks of Vex, four, three, two years ago; flinching at a touch like a burn, eyes hollow in her skull, looking more like a girl in a graveyard than a rock show. He thinks of bruises and emptiness and the faint foreboding of home. How she got to the point where it hurt so much it stopped feeling like pain at all, and then she was nothing. “Change,” he says instead, unable to be anything but brutally, achingly honest. He hears the beeping of hospital equipment like the beating of his own heart. “The unknown, I guess. The future. The things I can’t see.” It’s not the answer Keyleth is expecting, and she tilts her chin down, examining him. “In what way?” She can’t stop herself from asking. He cradles the words in his mouth before spilling them out; he doesn’t want to pour out all of Vex’s secrets, but it’s him, too. There are parts that are his and he needs to talk about them. “I don’t know how much you know, if anything,” he says. “De Rolo seems like he’s...good at playing his cards close to the vest. Like he wouldn’t betray her, if she had told him, and I know she has. I can tell how much of herself she’s investing in him.” Keyleth doesn’t interrupt, but her facial expressions are simple enough to read; she half-smiles, bemused and sad, but he’d judged Percy’s character correctly and she appreciates it. He continues, “Vex was in a - a pretty terrible situation a few years ago. With a man. He...took advantage of her insecurities. He’d pick out all of the horrible things she thought about herself, and validate them to her rather than relieving her of them. He abused her. It was...bad. It was really bad.” “Vax…” Keyleth exhales, the quiet acknowledgment breaking him down. “I didn’t know,” he confesses, and his eyes sting sharply. “I didn’t know she thought these things about herself. I knew something was wrong, but she’s such a good liar, and she’s so...she didn’t want me to worry about her. She’s good at keeping people out. She thought it would get better, or that she’d one day work up the courage to leave him.” “But she didn’t,” Keyleth infers softly. Her hands are now covering Vax’s own, resting gently on his chest. “She didn’t,” he says. “He almost killed her, and all I could think about was that I should’ve known. I let her down. I left her alone.” She strokes her thumb with his, allowing him to let it all out before speaking. “I’m afraid that - she’s finally better, Keyleth. She’s someone I recognize again. And I don’t want to lose her, not now, not ever.” Keyleth carefully bends down and presses a kiss to the back of their joined hands. She says, “The fact that you’re so terrified of it proves that you wouldn’t let it happen again, even if it were an option.” She pauses, rolling over sentences as she constructs them. “I think that makes you brave, Vax. People can’t - always admit their own faults, or places they may have gone wrong. Protecting someone...isn’t as easy as it seems. But I also think it makes you stupid.” He’s so caught off-guard by the insult that he nearly laughs; she blushes, struggling to rectify the statement. “You know it wasn’t your fault,” she clarifies, and the redness in her cheeks fades fast. “You’re carrying this burden alone. She didn’t place it upon you.” “I don’t know that,” he denies, staring at the ceiling, the brief amusement falling away. “Maybe part of it was, and I hurt her. Maybe my obliviousness almost got her killed. What if there are things I just don’t see? Does it then matter if it’s accidental or not? What if I hurt you next?” She’s silent for awhile, pondering him, her grip on his hands loose and comforting. After a moment, she says, “That’s mine, by the way.” “Your what?” “What I’m trying to protect myself from,” she says, and pulls her arm back. “You hurting me.” He tilts his head towards her, shocked, heart dissecting itself horizontally. “Do you truly believe I would?” he asks, refusing to accept the confirmation she’s giving him. “That I’m capable of it?” She smiles kindly down at him, but it’s wistful somehow, morose and tender. “No,” she answers softly. “But you do, and I think that’s probably the same thing.” -- When Vex groggily opens her eyes, it’s because there’s an infomercial playing at a much louder volume than the film they’d apparently dozed off watching. She blindly reaches for the remote without fully waking up and finds the correct buttons in the dim light until it’s a gentle hum, and then she leans back against whatever she’d comfortably been sleeping on, which happens to be-- Percy. Percy with his arm around her, feet kicked up on the coffee table, glasses set aside, peaceful and dreamless. Percy blissfully handing her casual affection without consequence, like it’s simple, like it’s the easiest thing in the world to give yourself up to someone. She doubts he even thought twice about it. She was there and she needed him and so he stayed. She leans forward carefully and presses a delicate kiss to his cheek, not wanting to disturb him; she shifts to resume her previous position, but his hand moves, lightly rubbing her lower back. His head tilts to the other side, facing her, though his eyes stay shut. He murmurs, “Vex’ahlia.” His voice is rough from sleep, but he lifts his arm again, allowing her the room she needs to huddle herself closer to him. She’s struck with the sudden urge to cry without fully understanding why. He squints at her when she doesn’t move, a small smile on his face. “It’s okay,” he says. “Come here.” It’s almost as if something cracks open in her soul that she’d been holding back a long, long time; she sinks into him like pouring water, her fingers curling over his shoulder, her face buried in the crook of his neck. He doesn’t speak, just loops both his arms around her and holds her tighter as if to stop her from breaking apart in his hands. -- (The apartment is quiet when Keyleth rolls out of bed to grab a glass of water, interrupted only by Vax’s deep, even breathing and the faint buzz of the television in the living room. She makes a motion to turn it off when she realizes Percy and Vex are still there, stretched out across the couch and tangled up together. They’re facing each other; his arm is thrown around her waist and she has her forehead pressed against his chest, and it’s too close, too intimate. Keyleth has to force herself to look away.) -- Percy’s alarm vibrates somewhere underneath his hip early the next morning, but what actually wakes him is Vex’s muffled voice against his collarbone saying, “Turn that fucking thing off, Percival.” “You do it,” he finds himself answering, still clinging on to the edges sleep. “Your hand’s closer.” She harrumphs in her throat, but he feels her fingers digging into his thigh as she slides his phone out from underneath him, dropping it between their bodies. He blindly gropes for it as Vex resumes her rest, clearly too comfortable to let anything disturb her. He squints at his messages; he makes out delayed call time due to weather and sighs contentedly, switching over his alarm and tossing it onto the coffee table. He’s slightly more awake, and Vex is still here, aware of their position and enjoying it; he lowers his arm back to where it’d been resting across her waist previously and pulls her impossibly closer. She makes a small noise of surprise but doesn’t move away; she merely readjusts her head and throws a leg over his hip, and he notices-- She seems to come to the same realization, because he feels her lips curve up into a grin where her cheek is resting against his shoulder. He heads her off at the pass, too exhausted to care. “You can fuck right off if you’re about to laugh.” She does anyway, prompted by his remark; it’s a sweet, tired sort of giggle without any weight behind it. “Well,” she says, “you are a man, and I am extremely attractive.” “I’m sure it was the combination of those two things, of course,” he replies dryly. “Your perception remains unmatched.” She laughs again, and her hand crawls upward, fingers resting gently against the side of his neck. “Another day, I’ll take advantage of it.” “I look forward to it,” he says, smiling despite himself and the oddity of their circumstances. He feels her adjust her head against his arm, tilting up her chin to look at him, and he opens one eye, blinking blearily at her. She’s smiling, and the tips of her fingers are dancing against his skin, and in another life, he is sure he is already doing this forever. “Yes?” he probes, his stare unbearably soft, his tone too gentle, too open and familiar. Vex runs the pad of her thumb across his bottom lip, biting her own without realizing it, an automatic desire. She murmurs, “You know I do, don’t you?” and her glance drops to his mouth and back. “You know I want you.” Percy understands the confession for what it is: a validation rather than an invitation, a place for discussion instead of action. It wouldn’t be a good idea - not now, not yet - but it’s still the truth. “Our call time was pushed,” he says in lieu of a direct response. “I’ve a few more hours. Spend them with me.” “Here?” she asks coyly. “On your couch? Don’t you own a bed, Percival?” “I do,” he says, shutting his eyes and resting his cheek against the top of her head, his hand running up and down her spine. “However, I’m lacking in the self-control your brother and Keyleth no doubt possess. And if this conversation has been any indication, I’m sure you are, as well.” Her body vibrates in a silent laugh, movements becoming laggier, and he recognizes the signs of exhaustion overtaking her once again. He drifts away idly imagining what it’d be like to control his dreams, and that if he could, he’d dream about her now, exactly like this, and no shadows would be lurking in the background. -- (And, well, Percy’s not wrong. On the other side of the wall, Vax has stuck diligently to his allotted side of the bed and Keyleth to hers, bodies a respectable distance apart, comfortable to coexist. But somewhere along the duration of the night, they’d found each other’s hands and they hadn’t let go.) -- They’re lazing around backstage while the tech team does the soundcheck for the night’s show; Vex keeps yawning, and Pike finally takes pity on her and gives her the rest of her cappuccino. “Long night?” she asks slyly, wiggling one eyebrow repeatedly up and down. Vex rolls her eyes. “Not in the way you’re imagining.” “Really?” Pike says disbelievingly, leaning back against the wall, crew members passing around them like they’re invisible. “Okay, spill, Vex. Don’t tell me he rejected you or something.” She laughs, because it’s the furthest thing from the truth. “No,” she says. “It’s - it’s both of us, but it’s me.” “Spit it out.” Vex focuses on the bass line thrumming through the floor; somewhere on stage, Scanlan’s shredding out notes and Grog’s hammering away on the drums and Vax’s voice is echoing lowly through the microphone, singing about ghosts. But there’s another memory, one of a hand around her throat and a smile too cold and cruel and vicious to ever have meant love; she closes her eyes sees those beige walls, those linoleum floors and fluorescent lights, and sometimes her bones still feel as heavy as they did then, too broken and bruised to move. Giving up all pretense, she says, “I don’t want to fuck him and hate myself.” The words are harsher and more blunt than she intends, but she pushes on; Pike’s always been someone to listen without judgment, without fault or flaw. “I don’t want to be afraid, and I don’t want to be...somewhere else. I want to be with him. And I want to remember what it’s like when it’s about someone else, you know? Not just - me using people to remind myself I still exist, and that I am wanted. That I didn’t die.” “I get it,” Pike says, because she always does. She lays a comforting hand on Vex’s knee. “You don’t want to be in your head. And I’m sure Percy has that concern, too.” “Yeah,” Vex says, willing herself not to cry again; she’s been doing too much of that lately. “I could’ve had him so long ago if I’d wanted. But it wouldn’t have been real. I would’ve hurt him and I don’t think - I don’t think I could’ve come back from that.” “Because you would’ve been proving Saundor right,” Pike infers quietly, and takes Vex’s fingers in hers instead. “Oh, honey.” Vex tilts her head back, resting against the wall. “Yeah,” she sighs out. Grog yells from somewhere around the corner, and then there’s a loud clatter; Scanlan laughs as Vax erupts in curses. “But you didn’t,” Pike points out, ignoring the commotion. “You didn’t hurt Percy. You’ve done exactly the opposite, so far, actually. Anyone can see that he adores you, Vex; you make him so happy. By the time this weekend is over, I’ll bet the blogs will be going insane over the two of you. I know Keyleth already tweeted about us all hanging out again, so, I mean, it’s only a matter of time.” Vex can’t stop the smile that unfolds as Pike rambles. “Fans are that perceptive, are they?” “Oh, yeah,” she says, “but that wasn’t going to be my point. My point is that you make him happy, and you’re trying to protect him, and protect yourself. And even back then, you were trying to protect us. That makes you nothing like Saundor said you were, Vex. Nothing.” “I’m really trying not to cry,” Vex says, her throat tighter with every breath, “but thank you, Pike.” “Anytime,” she says, and the world pauses its rotation for a moment, giving Vex the time she needs to catch up. -- (By some unspoken agreement, Vex and Vax take up residence in Percy and Keyleth’s apartment over the weekend. It’s strange, two couples who aren’t couples but should be casually sharing space; it’s not as if they aren’t all aware of each other’s shortcomings, either. Keyleth never comments on the fact that Vex and Percy refuse to use his bedroom, and likewise, no remarks are ever directed at her and Vax for deciding to use hers. Vax hears Vex’s laughter through the wall and feels her heart is safe. Vex notices he stands taller than he used to, and there is no sadness to his smile.) -- Pike, to nobody’s surprise, turns out to be right. Percy and Keyleth coming to a second show and a third show back-to-back cements suspicion; i know its keyleths fav band but nobody likes a band that much, Keyleth reads aloud from her indirects, i think something’s going on with someone. gianna loves you @gunslingers · 3h Replying to @suntree who do u think tho? have they been seen in pairs at all or should we start just taking bets. i mean i agree like 2 nights in a row...verrrry fishy aya @suntree · 3h Replying to @gunslingers well pike & grog & scanlan were out w/gilmore thurs night -sans twins. so im thinking one of them ? jj @voxexmachina · 3h Replying to @gunslingers @suntree Omg wait yall this needs to be investigated further,,,this is so legit. Are there pics from Thurs w/out the twins? aya @suntree · 3h Replying to @voxexmachina @gunslingers yeah! someone posted the pics on tumblr here: teresa 2.0 @strongjawale · 3h Replying to @gunslingers @suntree @voxexmachina well the twins are bi so the possibilities are truly endless here if it is indeed one of them...i’m ngl i’d be hella into percival and vax back on my bullshit @vexxxed · 2h Replying to @strongjawale @gunslingers @suntree and 1 other I JUST DEADASS HAD A HEART ATTACK AT THE IDEA OF VEX AND KEYLETH ASDDSLGKDSGLJL aya @suntree · 2h Replying to @vexxxed @strongjawale @gunslingers and 1 other asfkghsfdl percival is straight im p sure...my moneys on him and vex tbh. keyleth just seems too clueless (in a cute way) jj @voxexmachina · 2h Replying to @suntree @vexxxed @strongjawale and 1 other Idk, Id be into Keyleth/Vax, theyre a whole midnight vs sunlight aesthetic just waiting to happen the legend of tara @scarenrae · 2h Replying to @voxexmachina @suntree @vexxxed and 2 others thanks j, now i gotta go make that shit immediately. It continues on like that for awhile, and Keyleth only stops because Grog almost pisses himself laughing at the idea of Percy and Vax in a relationship, to which Vax response by draping himself across Percy’s back with his arms around his neck and kissing his cheek loudly. Scanlan says, “Can’t wait to see your aesthetics.” “Oh, young love,” Pike adds. Grog bends down and whispers, “What’s an ascetic?” -- Moving on from Atlanta is harder for the twins than their brief respite in New York had been; not because of the novelty of New York, but because of the familiarity of home in Atlanta. Percy and Keyleth’s apartment had been the furthest thing from a tour bus or a hotel room, full of warmth and light and people who wanted them to be there. But something in Vax which was once closed has now opened, and he can’t wait for it any longer. He refuses to sacrifice anything else, or anyone else. He pulls Vex off to the side one evening when they’ve stopped to refuel and he’s unsteady, as if he’s aching to talk to her but desperately terrified of her answers; he grips one of her hands in his, and she recognizes that the touch means something to him. He says, “I love Keyleth.” “I’m aware,” Vex says, obviously bewildered but indulgent. “I remember it well, as I was there when you told her.” “I love her,” Vax says again, holding Vex’s hand against his chest, over his heart. “I love her, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you, or that I won’t be there for you whenever you need me.” “I know that,” Vex laughs, rolling her eyes at his dramaticism. “You’re my darling brother. I get it.” “No,” he says, clutching her tighter. “No, I really mean it. You can...tell me, when things happen to you. I want to be someone you come to. Someone who listens to you.” Vex takes in his sweet, sad eyes; his earnestness, the masked despair underneath his words. She thinks of him sleeping in a chair next to her bed for a week straight, and every time before that she’d said I’m fine, I’m fine, I’m fine. And she understands. She pulls him in close to her, her arms around his shoulders, chin against the crook of his neck. “It’s okay,” she murmurs, feeling him hug her back slowly, uncertain. “You know - you know I’ve never blamed you, right?” He shakes harder in her embrace, and oh, no, he’s never realized that, this stupid fool of a man whom she adores more than her own life; even if she doesn’t blame him, he blames himself. Her ribs feel like they’ve split open, cracking against the way she has to suddenly stop herself from choking on her breath. How could she never have realized, how could she not have thought-- “Vax, my God - no, you bloody idiot, what happened to me was not your fault! There was nothing you could’ve done--” “I could’ve gotten you out of there,” he whispers, his voice barely hanging on. “I knew you were lying to me, but I didn’t--” “You couldn’t have,” she says firmly, “because I wouldn’t have listened to you, even if you were sitting in front of me showing me the evidence. Vax, it wasn’t my fault, and it wasn’t your fault; it was him. I...I believed certain things for so long that you could’ve done whatever you wanted and it wouldn’t have been enough. I needed more. I needed an army, and by the time I ended up where I did, that’s what I had.” She rubs her hands comfortingly up and down his back. “I know Grog and Pike stopped him from getting within a hundred feet of my hospital room and threatened to beat him fifty times worse if he tried. I know Scanlan was the one who looked into the restraining order and legal proceedings. And I know you sat at my side every single day until I’d healed, and I know you haven’t left since.” He’s openly weeping into her shoulder, finally unburdened, relieved, and so, so devastated for her, for everything she lost and found again. “I love you,” he says through tears. “I love you so, so much, and I can’t live without you.” “You don’t have to,” she says, pulling away and taking his face between her palms, meeting his eyes. “I’ll be here. Forever. Okay?” He holds her gaze a moment longer, attempting to steady himself. “Okay,” he says at last. “Good,” she says, “because now you can pursue the woman you’re actually in love with guiltlessly, which is what I want for you. I want you to be happy, Vax, and I refuse to be the thing that holds you back from that.” She takes in a breath, blinking solidly, blocking out the world for a second as she finds the words for her own confession. “Look. I’m - I’m changing, too. I’m trying to. And I think we both need to - trust ourselves, for once. Trust that we’re doing what’s right for us, even if it’s in different directions. We can find each other, no matter what.” Vax observes her briefly, his mouth pulling into the barest hint of a smile. “He’s good for you, isn’t he,” he says plainly, almost looking proud of her. “I know you’re good for him. Why haven’t you told him yet?” Vex bites the inside of her own lip, taken aback by the sudden shift in attention, and resists the automatic urge to deflect her emotion. “He is,” she says honestly. “And I haven’t...found the words. Maybe I need to sing about it,” she tacks on as a weak attempt at a joke, but he raises his eyebrows, contemplating. “Maybe you do,” he says finally, and drops his eyes with a smile. “Maybe we both do.” -- (We have things to say to each other, he tells her. We have things to say to them. So let’s say them the way we know how. Sit down with me. Pike ushers Grog and Scanlan to the back of the bus, recognizing the importance of the moment building between them. Vax pulls out a notepad and two pens and sets them on the table while Vex gazes aimlessly out the window, her fingers moving idly across her guitar strings, searching for herself, for what she wants and how to achieve it. What are you trying to stop? Vax asks, scribbling in the margins. What are we changing from? Lying, Vex says, because it’s the first thing that comes to mind. I’m trying to be more like me, and less like someone I was made into. I’m trying that, too, Vax says, which surprises her. I don’t want to have doubts. About you, about myself. Vex grabs the pen and writes out, I’m giving up this whole lie, and this whole me. There, she says. That’s what I’m doing. Vax furrows his brow, and in a different handwriting, Call it out like a family appears below it, but he doesn’t stop - instead I bide my time, get a ride, until the - he crosses out a few things; she sees ‘tires’ struck out, screech - and then: until the rubber leaves the road. Vex doesn’t know how to follow that, and says, Okay, now what are we telling them. That I’m determined not to make the same mistakes I’ve made before, Vax says immediately. That I won’t blame myself for the actions of others. But that sounds stupid, and shallow. It’s more like...she’s my intention. Does that make sense? She is, you are. It’s not like something meaningless I can break. No, I understand, Vex says. It has weight. She writes out words. Drive, motivation, determination, intention. None of them are right. Resolution. Yes, Vax says, tilting his head. That’s it. Because it’s us, you know, it’s a promise to ourselves and to them. Okay, Vex says, scrawling out you’ll be my resolution. I think we’ve got something here. Hold on. We can work with this theme. They take turns scribbling down whatever comes to mind along the same lines - one verse has the both of them mirroring each other, with Vex writing, You said don’t lie so I made the truth / seem like a lie to even you and Vax adding after Control your fear, it’s clear / that you do not know where you’re going to. Vex’s most honest verse comes because Keyleth and Percy text them around one in the morning, finally wrapping up their workday; they tend to stay focused during filming, but when they get home to relax, their minds wander, and the twins’ phones end up simultaneously going off more often than not. Keyleth texts Vax “miss you” and Vax takes a moment to just stare at her picture, and Percy’s message to Vex is simply “Wanted to say goodnight, apologies if I’ve woken you.” Fuck, she breathes out, and Vax drops his forehead to the table. It’s torture, she says. One month down and it’s in sight / oh I’m guaranteed to lose my mind It’s dangerous to speak and sigh / you might know what I’m trying to hide Vax doesn’t laugh. It’s hard, wanting someone and not being able to have them, but not because the love isn’t there. It takes them another two hours to finish the lyrics, and they come up with a bare melody born purely from Vex’s idle plucking. They decide it needs to feel like them, and not like the persona they put on; it needs to be vulnerable because it is. In the morning, Pike finds the notepad still lying on the table, covered in doodles and scratched out words and a random game of hangman, “resolution” written at the top. She reads it - she figures they’ll get to anyway, considering they’ll be playing it - and is surprised to feel herself almost moved to tears by it. It’s deeply personal, and for once, it’s not angry or bitter or careless, or even rough around the edges like many of their songs are; it’s a mark of something new. She traces over the ink of the last lines. I’m not you, nor you me but we’re both moving steady.) -- vex’ildan @imvexthatsvax · 16m https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZaKMZ82mp4... the legend of tara @scarenrae · 11m y’all it’s totally vex. listen to the song she posted ______________________ vex’ildan @imvexthatsvax https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZaKMZ82mp4... Keyleth Retweeted vex’ildan @imvexthatsvax · 17m https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZaKMZ82mp4... the legend of tara @scarenrae · 5m Replying to @imvexthatsvax @keylethoftheair FUCK !!!!! -- FROM: Percy Interesting song choice. TO: Percy do you have tweet alerts turned on for me? FROM: Percy Obviously. TO: Percy good. ;) TO: Percy so any response? FROM: Percy Musically? Perhaps. But it’ll have to wait. FROM: Percy Plus, Keyleth retweeted it, so now twitter thinks you’re dating each other. TO: Percy oh, balls. FROM: Percy Her exact words were “ugh, she just so gets me.” TO: Percy that’s the last time i try and sneakily reveal my feelings through music to you. -- 2:45 AM FROM: Percy It’s true. -- A few weeks later, Percy and Keyleth are finally home. Keyleth’s first priority is watering her own plants, and then heading straight to Percy’s to tend to his. She’s almost frantic about it, carrying a misplaced sense of guilt for ‘leaving them alone so long,’ despite having had someone care for them the entire time they’d been away. The band is somewhere in the south, but they perform on a late-night talk show that’s employing one those travel the country sets where they host in a variety of American cities as a publicity stunt, and an opportunity for fans who don’t have the money to travel themselves. Keyleth and Percy originally don’t think they’re able to be home in time to watch due to the time difference, but a stroke of luck has them on Percy’s couch fifteen minutes before it airs, eating white cheddar cheese puffs and drinking wine, because they’re adults, for fuck’s sake. The band looks even better than they sound, which is really saying something, because they sound incredible. Vex has her signature blue feather in her hair and Vax has his black one, and they’re wearing matching leather jackets, black skinny jeans, and shoes with studs on them - though where Vax’s are boots, Vex’s...are stilettos. Percy’s face flushes bright red, and Keyleth, who’d been jokingly recording her own reactions like reviews, turns her camera on him to capture the moment. He’s sure his skin appears absolutely ridiculous against his white hair and scowls, raising a hand to block himself from view. She pats him on the shoulder and says, “Hang in there, Percy,” and then turns back to the television, zooming in on Vex’s heels. After they’re done, the host comes over to chat them up for a bit, asking about their Grammy win, how the tour is, where they’re headed. And then, clearly as charmed by Vex as anybody in their right mind would be, he can’t resist a fake-but-not-so-fake proposal aimed her way. “So, Vex’ahlia,” he says, charisma oozing out of him, “you’re beautiful, famous, rich, royal...where’s a guy like me start trying to get to know you? I’ve only hosted the number one late night show on cable for the last ten years, but somehow I doubt that’s something that impresses you. Any advice?” “Well,” she says, smirking charmingly, fluttering her eyelashes, “if you’d like to get to know me, you can read my Wikipedia page; it’s pretty thorough, and mostly accurate.” He laughs, a hand over his heart dramatically. “Ouch! The sting of rejection--” “No, no,” she says diplomatically, now that her fun’s been had. “In truth, my heart is someone else’s.” Keyleth drops her phone entirely, which proves to be unfortunate; she’d missed an excellent and unforgettable shot of Percy staring blankly at the television screen as though someone had just called out his winning lottery numbers. -- Chaney @raspberryfieldsforever · 18m @suntree @vexxxed @lizzyisademon @cooleraid DID U SEE THIS OMGGGG _______________________________________ Music or Lose It @musicorloseitmag “My heart is someone else’s”: Vex’ahlia, lead singer of Vox Machina, confesses on late-night... aya @suntree · 15m Replying to @raspberryfieldsforever @vexxxed @lizzyisademon and 1 other I’M FUCKING LOSING IT I’M AT WORK I COULDN’T WATCH ASDGDSFG WHAT DID SHE SAY RLY BACK ON MY BULLSHIT @vexxxed · 15m Replying to @raspberryfieldsforever @suntree @lizzyisademon and 1 other YES IM HAVIGN A CORONARY LIKE !! SHE DID THAT !!! ON LIVE TV SHE DID THAT RLY BACK ON MY BULLSHIT @vexxxed · 14m Replying to @suntree @raspberryfieldsforever @lizzyisademon and 1 other AYA OMFGGGG she didnt say who or anything like it basically ended there but WE KNOW THE TRUTH……. boo @lizzyisademon · 13m Replying to @vexxxed @suntree @raspberryfieldsforever and 1 other #TheTruthIsOutThere RLY BACK ON MY BULLSHIT @vexxxed · 11m Replying to @lizzyisademon @suntree @raspberryfieldsforever and 1 other i did my waiting….twelve years of it…..in azkaban @imvexthatsvax pardon the interruption but WHO WERE YOU REFERRING TO kait @cooleraid · 10m Replying to @vexxxed @imvexthatsvax @lizzyisademon and 2 others SAM DID I SERIOUSLY JUST GET HERE IN TIME FOR YOU TO TAG VEX HERSELF DELETE THAT IMMEDIATELY vex’ildan @imvexthatsvax · 5m Replying to @cooleraid @vexxxed @lizzyisademon and 2 others ;) -- “I think you killed them,” Pike says, scrolling through the thread. “They’re just screaming at each other incoherently.” Vex laughs, her feet stretched out across Vax’s lap, also following the drama. “At least I was nice about it. I mean, I winked, didn’t I? Isn’t that a dream come true for a fan of mine?” “Were you always this egotistical, or is that recent?” Vax asks, responding to a text from Keyleth containing only shocked cat emojis. She glances up, meets his eyes and smiles. “I like to think it was always.” He grins back warmly, and they come to a deeper understanding. “Me, too.” -- (“And you, Vax?” the host asks, because he’s good at his job and knows not to play favorites. “Where’s your heart at the moment? Any singers you’ve got your eye on?” He grins widely and says, “Actually, I’m more into actors these days. Us musicians are just so tortured and dull, right?” His remark falls under the radar due to Vex’s bombshell, but it’s okay. Keyleth hears it, and she knows, and that’s all that matters, anyway.) -- “I’ve been hearing some interesting rumors, Percival,” is the first thing his sister says when he pulls her up on Skype. “Hello to you too,” he says, glancing her over through their pixelated connection. It’s his late morning, her night, and she’s already lounging in bed; he’s sitting at his dining room table, eating toast. “You’re looking well, Cassandra.” “I am well, thanks,” she responds politely. “And if the rumors are true, you’re doing quite well yourself.” “Oh, I’ll bite,” he says. “What’ve you heard?” “Most recently, that you’re in some sort of a polyamorous relationship with twins from some rock band, and Keyleth,” she says, trying to keep a straight face and failing miserably. “The internet seems unable to agree on where your affections lie.” He sighs heavily. “Fame has its downsides.” “I’m waiting for the truth,” Cassandra probes, adjusting her earphones. “Unless you’re attempting to tell me that really is the truth, in which case, I must officially withdraw my support of your lifestyle to protect our family’s dignity, poise, and public perception.” “It’s only partly true,” he says, knowing she’ll pester him until he tells her. “They’re called Vox Machina - the band, that is - and Keyleth and I are...enamored with their frontrunners, who are the twins.” Her chin slips off her hand, intrigued. “Fascinating,” she says. “So which twin is whose love interest? And this developed simultaneously?” He’s strangely shameless on the subject; she’s his sister and he misses her, and he knows she’s curious because she cares about him. He says, “Oddly, yes. And there’s no scandal, I’m afraid, it’s rather traditional - Vax’ildan sometimes worries me with his enthusiasm for Keyleth, and, well, Vex’ahlia is quite...” “Quite,” Cassandra repeats, teasing him. “Enchanting? Effervescent? Does she light up rooms, Percival?” “Try stadiums,” he says, but he’s smiling. -- And then, the completely predictable but somehow unexpected happens: Keyleth begins gathering renown in a way she hasn’t before. She’s always been an incredible actress, but like Percy, had stuck to indie films and niche genres - but Aramente finally drops at a festival and suddenly it’s all anyone can talk about. It’s sort of magical realism, the kind of story that allows critics to go nuts with their interpretations; she plays the daughter of a novel type of royal family, one that requires a personal journey of strength and self-discovery across the far reaches of the earth before a title can be taken. She’d agreed to the role because she’d felt so connected to the character, and was overjoyed at the amount of time she was able to spend in the wilderness while filming; Percy knows that many of her scenes where she takes in the world around her are genuine. She garners amazing reviews for her essentially one-woman performance - she’s the main character, and there are few recurring ones - and Kima is suddenly fielding an onslaught of offers for new projects. None of this really affects Keyleth, though; if anything, she’s just excited that she has the opportunity to do more of what she loves. What it does change is the amount of time she now spends promoting it, as it’s gotten picked up by a major studio for distribution. She and her two co-stars - the only two that recur in the film, Kashaw and Zahra - appear on talk shows together, complementing each other in the strangest of ways, comical and enjoyable to watch. She and Percy have finally wrapped Passed Through Fire, but the two of them know it’s going to be a trilogy and don’t have to face the reality of separation just yet. She still makes time for Vax in between promotions - it’s mostly just the month after the film drops, and then, she tells him, probably the week it’s due for a theatrical release - and he makes sure to watch every interview. And he notices Kashaw. Kash, as Keyleth calls him. Kash staring at her a little too long, stone-faced and unreadable. Kash never reaching for her, but allowing her touch on him. Kash with a smile that can only be described as distant, except for when he’s talking to her. Vax recognizes the signs. “Yeah, I see what you mean,” Vex says, watching their most recent interview on YouTube, her phone held to one ear, an earbud in the other. “Percy, what do you make of this?” She listens for a moment, clicking through her browser. “Of course,” she answers without explaining to Vax. He kicks her under the table just as their bus hits a bump, and accidentally hits harder than he’d intended. “Fuck, Vax!” she snaps, rubbing her shin. “Balls! That hurt, you fucker--” “Sorry,” he says, not sorry at all. “What’s he saying?” Vex rolls her eyes and lays her phone down, touching the screen. “Darling, you’re on speaker,” she says, “so save any inappropriate commentary for later. Ta.” Percy snorts. “I’ll try to control myself.” “Back to me, please,” Vax says. “I’ve met Kash a few times, and he’s - standoffish, I suppose is the word. No social skills whatsoever, but in an antisocial way, not like Keyleth’s tactlessness. I wouldn’t worry too much, even if he does like her, because she’ll never pick up on it. He’d have to really spell it out for her.” “Look,” Vax says, “it’s not like I have any right to her, or something. I’m just wondering how she feels.” “Hasn’t even crossed her mind,” Percy says definitively. “You’ve sort of consumed her, Vax, and I mean that as a compliment. She’s a little more grounded than she used to be.” “I won’t change course,” Vax says vaguely, “but I won’t stand in her way, either.” “I think that’s a healthy place to be,” Percy answers. “Thanks, Freddie.” There’s a pause and then a noise of utter disgust. “Excuse me?” Vex laughs loudly, and, well, Percy loses his edge. -- (Vex has her bad days. They’ll start with a memory. Just one, any one. Syldor’s hands around her throat. An argument in a hospital hallway. The twinge of a bruised rib. A door slamming shut, rattling the windows. It’s not that she can’t go to Vax, but more as if she’d rather save him from his own guilt. She calls Percy and she says, “Bad day,” her breath coming and going in short, staccato patterns, her eyes burning and dry, and he’ll talk to her about his day, his work, his life. Anything to get her to focus on him and not her own past. It’s what he’s doing when Vax sticks his head in her bunk and says, “Hey, I need you to watch this video and let me know if I have competition for Keyleth. Not that she’s a prize, I’m talking respectfully, as in, I’d just like to know where I stand, what I should be prepared for--” “Gods,” Vex says, Percy in her ear pausing midway through pondering the appeal of Las Vegas. “Okay, I’m coming. I’ve Percy, so if you ask nicely, perhaps he’ll share some insight.” Vax wanders back out to the kitchen. Vex murmurs, “Thank you.” “No need,” Percy says softly. “I’m here for you. Always.”) -- None of them really count on Kash’s spontaneous nature. An interviewer asks him how he’s liked working with the cast, and he says, “Keyleth is the most annoying person I’ve ever met in my life. She’s so bubbly and happy-go-lucky all the time. It’s exhausting.” Everyone laughs, and Keyleth’s jaw drops, affronted, but she’s giggling too. Kash looks slightly confused, because he hadn’t been telling a joke, but, Percy thinks as he watches from the green room, it’s probably best it’d been interpreted that way. They come traipsing back to where Percy’s waiting (for moral support, of course) a few minutes later, and Keyleth is in the middle of saying, “You’re such a jerk, Kash; since when is being happy a bad thing--” He stops just inside the room, contemplating her. “It’s not,” he says, and without warning, without agenda, he tugs her to him and kisses her. Percy blinks, not quite able to comprehend what he’s looking at, and then it’s over before he can. “Well,” Kash says gruffly, “see you around.” And he walks away, leaving her standing in the doorway with a stunned look on her face, like she’s just coming down from an out-of-body experience. “Um,” she says, and her eyes slowly travel over to Percy. “Erm,” he says in response, and attempts to shake himself out of it so that Keyleth can have her impending freak out against somebody solid. “Shall we...go?” She nods blankly, following him to the valet. -- (It takes ten minutes of driving home in Percy’s car before she suddenly exclaims, “What the fuck was that about?!” “People like you,” Percy says unhelpfully. “Although I’m not liking this trend of men kissing you without asking your permission. Technically, he sexually assaulted you.” Keyleth opens and closes her mouth like an exotic tropical fish. “Um,” she says again, “I think I’ll just talk to him.”) -- It turns out she doesn’t have to, because he approaches her first, sending her a text: Hey. It’s Kash. Sorry I kissed you last night. I should have given you a chance to stop me. I’m not very good with people. Please accept my apology. I will not do it again. Unless you ask me to. Sorry again. Kash “Well,” Percy says, because dealing with one socially unaware person is enough for him, and he doesn’t even know where to begin with two. “I’m gonna let it go,” Keyleth says. “I mean, he came forward and realized his mistakes on his own, and I at least appreciate that.” “Sure,” Percy says. “Are you going to tell Vax?” She turns her stare on him, wide and fearful, and the effect comes off as if her eyes have been blown up twice their normal size. “Do you think I should? I’ve been worrying about it, but, like, we’re not dating, I don’t know, I mean, is it something he needs to know about? Is he gonna find out anyway? Were there people watching? Did you tell Vex already?” She says all of this very fast and without breathing, as if she only has a spare bit of time before the end of the world. “Erm,” Percy says. “You’re right,” Keyleth says. “I should tell him. He’s been honest with me, I need to show him the same courtesy. I just don’t know what to say, you know? Like, how do I frame it? ‘Kash kissed me and though I was inappropriately flattered I didn’t like it’?” “That’s, ah--” “No, it should be in-person,” Keyleth continues fastidiously. “I should tell him to his face. He might think I’m rejecting him, and I’m totally not. I’m really not good with words, I don’t want there to be any misunderstandings between us. I love him, you know? I’m working towards something. I don’t want to ruin our friendship where it is now, either. You’re right, Percy, you’re so wise. I’ll tell him when they’re in town next week. Thanks!” “You’re welcome,” Percy says, so exhausted from following Keyleth’s own internal-turned-external monologue that he actually feels as if he has spent the last hour giving her advice. “I’m going to bed, I think. But I’m glad I could be of service.” -- The band’s due to arrive in Los Angeles within the week - they’re in Phoenix, and their San Diego stop is actually at the end of the tour, rather than following, at the twins’ own request - and their song is almost perfect. Vex and Vax have a furious debate over which show to play it at - Vax wants their last show; if it goes poorly, he argues, then they’ll be out of there the next day, and perhaps it won’t extend the sting of rejection - but Vex merely rolls her eyes and says, “Aren’t we trying to be brave?” “I’ve done that already,” Vax says immediately. “I did the whole ‘spill out my soul in public’ thing. Your turn.” “Fine, my turn,” Vex agrees, her palms flat against the wood as they stare at each other from opposite ends of the table. “I want to play it at the first show.” Vax frowns, but Pike shrugs and says, “Sorry, Vax, you kind of handed her that one.” “I know,” he grumbles, but acquiesces. -- vax’ahlia @imvaxthatsvex · 22m monday mood https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8inJtTG_DuU... emo bitch @ravensallover · 19m hey folks what are we thinking about the foursome today with this lil gem from our boi ________________________________ vax’ahlia @imvaxthatsvex monday mood https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8inJtTG_DuU... jack of spades @georgiaisforlovers · 17m Replying to @ravensallover @imvaxthatsvex Wait n see who retweets it Keyleth Retweeted vax’ahlia @imvaxthatsvex · 28m monday mood https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8inJtTG_DuU... jack of spades @georgiaisforlovers · 14m Replying to @ravensallover @imvaxthatsvex @keylethoftheair Welp emo bitch @ravensallover · 12m Replying to @georgiaisforlovers @imvaxthatsvex @keylethoftheair lmao where’s tara the legend of tara @scarenrae · 10m Replying to @ravensallover @georgiaisforlovers @imvaxthatsvex and 1 other I SWEAR TO GOD,. IS IT JUST KEYLETH??? IS IT A FUCKIGN LVOE TRIANGLE??? WHAT IS IT -- TO: Vax Totally not trying to read into anything but FROM: Vax yesss? TO: Vax Was that for me? FROM: Vax of course, i know ur fav bands :-) TO: Vax I don’t like to assume! FROM: Vax kiki my life is full with u in it & all my music if for u FROM: Vax is* for u TO: Vax <3 FROM: Vax <3 TO: Vax I wish I wasn’t alone tonight FROM: Vax i wish that most nights -- Percy isn’t expecting it. Maybe that’s the worst part. He’s scanning through his Google news alerts casually while he waits for the car to pick him up and take him to the studio for an ADR session; now that the film’s in post it’s taking heavy scrutiny. Brooklyn Off-Duty Police Officer Involved in DUI. He flicks his thumb down the screen. Fire Contained in Pasadena. He swipes over to the U.K., as he does customarily to remind himself what he left behind, and what is still waiting for him should he choose it. Brexit Negotiations...Scottish Referendum...Anna Ripley, Notorious for the Mass Murder of the Royal de Rolo Family, Found Dead… The world falls silent, still. He clicks on the article without even registering his own actions. Posted ten minutes ago. He stares, and stares, and stares, but the words never change. It’s not a hallucination or a dream. The headline sits there, gloating, mocking him. Anna Ripley… The body, he thinks numbly. He wants to see the body. He needs the evidence, the photographic proof of her lying lifeless and cold and unmoving. Anything to get her sick, twisted smile out of his mind. Anything to stop her voice from echoing around his skull. Percival... There’s the distant memory of a fingernail, sharp underneath his chin. His phone drops from his hands, but he doesn’t hear it hit the floor. You’re so clever, Percival. You’re so talented. You’ll do great things. I couldn’t sacrifice that. He slides down against the wall, knees pulled up to his chest, hands covering his ears. The knocking at his door fails to register; his phone remains unanswered and unnoticed. He sits and he rocks and he breathes, and he tries to keep himself alive. -- Percy doesn’t show up to record with her. He’s supposed to be there just after nine, an hour after her own call time, but the crew member who’d gone to pick him up returns alone. From the booth, she sees him talking to the director, who points out something on her phone and shakes her head, covering her mouth as she talks. Keyleth can’t make out what they’re saying, and asks, “Hey guys, everything okay? Any notes?” The director glances up and smiles; she presses a button and says, “Doing great, Keyleth. Actually, we’ve moved Percival’s slot to tomorrow - we’ve decided to bucket all your time for today, if that’s fine with you.” Keyleth sees nothing strange about the explanation and so she doesn’t pry for details. “No problem,” she says brightly. “Let me know when we’re ready.” “In three, two…” she signals for Keyleth to start, and leans over to the A.D. “Don’t give her enough of a break to check her phone today,” she murmurs to the other woman. “We don’t have the flexibility to lose time with both Keyleth and Percival.” -- It’s five in the evening for Cassandra when Kynan pulls her aside; she’d been traveling, stuck in meetings all day, hadn’t even glanced at a screen in hours. He hands her his mobile wordlessly, fingers clammy and warm, and her lips part in a bare, uncontrollable slip of shock. The blood sinks back down into her heart and pools there, her face left white, a porcelain mask cracking. She asks unsteadily, “How could this possibly have gotten out before we were even informed?” “I don’t know.” Her expression hardens. “Does Percy know?” Kynan swallows nervously. “I don’t know.” “Fuck,” Cassandra breathes out, already dialing his number. “This isn’t good.” It rings, and rings, and rings. She tries Keyleth and it’s the same; it rings, and rings, and finally goes to voicemail. “Keyleth, it’s Cass,” she says into the receiver. “Call me the second you see this, please. Talk soon.” “What can I do?” he asks, needing to be helpful. “Task me.” She furrows her brow, thinking of someone who may be there, accessible. “Actors,” she hisses, and it comes to her immediately. “So bloody unreliable. I need you to get me Vex’ahlia Vessar’s mobile. Her father is the Marquees of Reading. She’s in a band called Vox Machina. It shouldn’t be difficult.” A look of recognition crosses his features. “Understood.” -- Vex isn’t one to pick up calls from unknown numbers. Vax, fortunately, is, and it’s his phone that rings just after ten-thirty in the morning as they’re checking out of their hotel. He slides to answer without thinking about it, barely comprehending the +44 code in front of the rest of the digits. “Hello?” he says, adjusting the strap of his backpack. “Vex’ahlia?” a harried voice answers in response. “Wrong twin,” Vax says, now struggling with the buckle. “Who’s this?” “I need to speak with Vex’ahlia immediately. It’s imperative I get ahold of her. Are you Vax’ildan?” He stops, straightening up slowly. “Yeah,” he says carefully. “Again, who is this?” “My name is Cassandra de Rolo,” she says, and he actually pulls the phone away from his ear to stare at it in surprise. “Hello?” “Hi, yeah, erm, sorry, Your Highness, or - yeah,” he says, unaware of how to address her. “You - right. Vex. Okay. Uh…” He lowers the phone again and scans for his sister; she’s talking to Grog, lounging in one of the lobby chairs. “Hey, Vex!” he yells. She leans her head around Grog’s frame. “What?” she shouts back. “You - need to take this,” he says, holding up his cell. “Now.” She gets up obediently, padding over to him with a quizzical look on her face, and takes the phone. “Hello?” she says, and then for awhile she is quiet. He watches her expression shift from confusion to intense focus, something a bit like dawning horror hiding in the widening of her eyes. He can’t make out what Cassandra is telling her, but it’s frantic, worried. Answering a question he doesn’t hear, Vex says, “Yes,” followed by another pause, and then: “Yes, I’ll find him.” -- “Vex, this is nuts,” Vax says for the tenth time, trailing behind her furiously. “You can’t just take off and not even tell us--” “I’ll meet you in L.A.,” she says, brushing him off as the doorman outside finds her a cab. “Vax, I’m sorry. I have to go.” “But why--” A car pulls up next to the curb and she throws the door open before the driver can think about getting out to help. She glances over her shoulder and says, “Don’t worry about me. See you tomorrow,” and then she is gone, speeding away from the hotel like her life is at stake. -- (Maybe it is, he realizes after, staring at Cassandra de Rolo’s contact details. Maybe it is.) -- Vex buys the first flight she can on whatever airline is leaving the earliest, and because she only has a duffle bag, she’s able to get on one ten minutes out from boarding. The man at the desk recognizes her, too, and it’s a rare moment where she’s grateful for fame rather than angry about it. She reads the news report while waiting at the gate, her heart sinking deeper with every word, the memory of Cassandra’s revelation fresh in her mind. “Vex’ahlia, I’m not sure what you’re aware of or not, but I don’t have time to respect his privacy at the moment and I know the two of you are close,” she’d said. “Anna Ripley, the woman who murdered my family - our family - has died. She affects Percy differently than I, because she chose to keep him alive; she’d told him she was doing him a favor, and that she was going to create something beautiful out of him, out of his tragedy.” Even now, the idea has Vex’s skin and bone shivering out of tune with each other, like she’s shaking inside of herself. “She’d always been interested in him. She’d thought he was brilliant. And she was a sociopathic, deluded, evil woman.” She’d said, “I can’t get ahold of Percy.” She’d said, “Please, Vex’ahlia, I’m begging you. Find him.” But Vex had started to move before Cassandra had even asked. -- The flight is an hour and a half of torture, every terrible circumstance and situation Percy may possibly be in playing like the b-roll of a film on loop. She’s so wired by the time she arrives at his apartment complex that she throws two hundred dollars at the cab driver, even though the ride had only cost her fifty. There’s no security to wrestle with, no difficult front desk management; Percy likes to be prepared, if nothing else. She marches up to the man sitting behind the counter and says with all the charm she can muster, “Hello, sorry to disturb you, but I’m Vex’ahlia Vessar - I believe Percival de Rolo mentioned I’d be staying with him this week and left me a key? I’m a few days early; I wanted it to be a surprise.” She slides him her I.D., not wanting to waste any time, and not even knowing if she has any time to waste. The man smiles kindly up at her and says, “Of course, Ms. Vessar. Welcome, and what a lovely surprise - I’m sure he’ll appreciate it.” He reaches into his desk drawer and hands her a small envelope, the weight of the key heavy inside of it; well, Percy does pay a fortune to live here, so it shouldn’t be any surprise that the staff are extremely well-trained and professional. “He’s on the eighth floor - 8A. There are only two apartments, so you can’t miss it.” She unlocks his door with her blood pulsing in all the wrong places. The pit of her stomach, the base of her skull, the bottoms of her feet, the creases of her elbows. It opens with a short click, and then swings inward, and Vex is immediately relieved that he isn’t face-down in the entryway. The second thing she thinks is that his apartment is entirely too green for him, but exactly enough for Keyleth; another time, the observation will be amusing, but it isn’t now. “Percival?” she calls, and hears no answer in response. She doesn’t take her time. She rushes from room to room, searching him out; the fear of finding him doesn’t outweigh her need to find him. Library, work room, guest room... In the bathroom off of the master bedroom, the water is on, beating against the bowl of the sink. (As long as Vex lives, the sight of endlessly running water in stillness leaves her with a mark; an uncomfortable emptiness, and the sound of death.) She pushes the door open further, and hits something with a gentle thud, and she has never faced anything as terrifying in her life as Percy’s limp body on the tiled floor, curled up in itself. “God,” she exhales, dropping to her knees, her hands immediately finding the pulse strong in his throat; it’s fast, actually, too fast, and he’s sweating through his clothes, forehead hot and clammy. “Christ, Percy, fuck--” He makes a low noise in his throat, but doesn’t move. She turns him onto his back, her palms, cupping his face, stroking his cheekbones, trying to get a response. “Percy,” she says, shaking him a little. “Percy, I need you to open your eyes, darling, please.” She glances around the bathroom, knowing he must’ve taken something to wind up in this state; she remembers horror stories, celebrities and their painkiller addictions, and tries to think of any recent injury Percy could’ve had that would’ve allotted him the same treatment-- Her eyes fall upon a small prescription bottle by the sink, and she reaches for it, fearing the worst-- She steadies herself on Percy’s shoulder. He grunts again, a cross between a groan and a word. She shakes the bottle and it rattles; it’s Percy’s anxiety medication, and it’s mostly full. She sighs, relieved; so, he didn’t overdose. Vex lifts herself up and fills a cup with water from the still-running sink. “Percy,” she says, “I need you to drink this.” She slips her hand underneath his neck, and with a disturbing, macabre thought, she realizes that the dead weight of a head is really quite heavy. “Percy,” she says louder. “Open your eyes.” And then she pours the ice-cold water onto his face. -- He blinks blearily and the world is upside-down, out of focus, shadowed in hues of grey. There’s something hovering above him, but he can’t make out what it is. His mouth is dry and dusty, and his skin feels liquidized, like it’s melting off of him, like it’s not there at all. “Percy,” a voice says. “Can you hear me?” “Yes,” he thinks he says, but it comes out sounding all wrong. “Yes,” he says again, louder but still nonsensical. The person’s fingers brush his hair away from his forehead. “Gods, Percy,” the voice says, and he recognizes this voice. It’s a good one, full of gentle lulls and lilts, and not the horrible thing of possession he’d been hearing for the past few hours. He tries to center his gaze, but his eyelids are so difficult to hold open, and it doesn’t seem worth it. “Who?” he tries to ask, the word slurred. “Vex,” Vex says, staring down at him. “Vex,” he repeats, and grins to himself. “Nice dream,” he sighs. Something is slipped behind his ears, resting on the bridge of his nose. “This isn’t a dream,” she says softly. “Open your eyes, darling. Please.” So he does, and this time, it’s in focus. Vex is hovering above him looking every bit as beautiful as if he had dreamed her up himself; she’s smiling and stroking his face with the tips of her fingers, tracing across his pronounced jaw line, his bottom lip, his cheekbones. “Vex,” he says, surprised, and it comes out sounding more and more like it’s supposed to. “Yes,” she says, and he’s startled to find tears spilling down her cheeks. “I’m so happy to see you.” -- It takes her ten minutes just to get him to sit up, and even then he can’t do much more than that. He can’t seem to look at her for too long - she’s reminded of the first time they met, and the brutal contrast between then and now has her heart swollen in her chest - but it’s because of the tremendous effort it’s taking him to raise his head. He sits with his legs bent, one knee up and drawn in, breathing deeply through his nose. “Percy,” she says, reaching for his arm; he’s still clammy to the touch, and she doesn’t know much about caring for someone but she does know she shouldn’t let him sit around in his damp clothes for much longer. His jeans seem fine, but the shirt’s soaked in water and sweat, and he’s started shivering. She tugs on the hem of it, attempting to get him to focus. “Dear, you’ve got to take this off.” He nods without looking at her, but doesn’t move. She tries again. “Is it alright if I help you?” Another pause, another nod, and then she kneels in front of him and carefully lifts his shirt over his head. The fabric sticks to his body in places, his muscles shaking like the movement costs him extraordinary effort. Her eyes trail down, inspecting him from a clinical angle. It’s unsettling to see a man so in-shape and well-defined unable to even stand. “I can stand,” he says haltingly, and for a moment she fears she’d spoken aloud, but it’s rather as if clarity in some regard is returning to him. “Need...a moment.” She rests a hand against the top of his head in an acknowledgment, straightening up, running over a checklist. She’s in survival mode, the fight side instead of flight. Fresh towels, she thinks. New shirt. Drinkable water. Bed. Company. She can handle all of those things. She rummages through his dresser and grabs the first things she finds: a white v-neck and a pair of sweatpants. She fills a glass from the filter in the sink and sets it on his nightstand. She pulls back the covers. And then she returns to the bathroom, where he’s holding onto the counter and trying to hoist himself up. Vex extends a hand. Percy looks at her and takes it, her fingers grasped tightly in his, and they’re both surprised to find that she can support his weight. Once he’s standing, he’s a little steadier, a little more alert; she takes one of the towels and drapes it around his neck, his shoulders, rubs the middle of his back. He lets her work, recognizing that she’s doing what’s good for him, fighting back against the impulses he has to not fight at all. It’s another twenty minutes until she gets him in bed. He manages to change into his sweats and stops there, still shirtless, but she doesn’t push him on it. She removes her jacket, kicks off her sneakers, undoes the braid from her hair; he watches from where he’s leaning against his side table, entranced. And then, before she can talk herself out of it, she unzips her jeans and rolls them down her hips, her thighs, pulling them over her feet and off. She doesn’t have an ulterior motive; she doesn’t intend on leaving him alone and they aren’t comfortable to sleep in. He stays silent, processing. She slips under his deep blue sheets, and says, “Come here.” She pats the space next to her as if he requires the visual reference to understand. After a moment, he says, “This isn’t how I...imagined having you in my bed the first time.” His hesitation, she realizes, comes from regret, and not from reluctance. He’d wanted to be better, not falling apart. That had been the point. “Percy, it’s okay,” she says gently, mirroring his own sentiment from that night on his couch back at him; it’d helped her for reasons she couldn’t explain, so maybe it’ll help him, too. “Come here.” He moves slowly, but he comes; he sits on the edge of the bed with one foot still planted on the floor, the other knee bent, resting flat. He stares straight ahead at the dark screen of the television and says, “You don’t have to do this,” but the drugs make it much harder for him to sound convincing. “I know,” she says, “but I want to,” and it’s not a lie. He lifts his other leg onto the bed, but still faces forward. “Why?” he asks. Vex bites her lip. “The same reason you’d do this for me,” she confesses, a shot not quite in the dark. She isn’t sure why she says it. She’s kept it to herself for so long and so well, content to burn, and burn, and burn. Maybe it’s time for confirmation of something, if not the thing itself. Maybe it’s time they do what they promised to do months ago on a balcony in New York and tell the truth. Maybe it’s what he needs to hear. It catches him off-guard, exactly enough to finally get him to turn his body and meet her eyes, and the intensity in his stare is so staggering that she forgets any thoughts following. His pupils are slightly blown but it’s him looking at her, not the ghost of a tortured boy from long before she knew him. He studies her with a clarity he doesn’t fully possess, and he seems to make a decision. He leans in towards her, supporting his weight with a palm flat against the bed, and oh, my God, he’s going to kiss her. And even worse, she wants him to. “Percy,” she whispers, and he’s so close she can feel him exhale against her lips. God, she wants him more than she’s ever wanted anything in her life, but she can’t. He’s playing directly into her own coping mechanisms. She understands misdirection of emotion better than anyone, and how it comes back to haunt. “If I thought it would help you, I would,” she states softly. “But I think you’d be angry with yourself, later.” “I just want to forget,” he says, voice so small and plain it breaks her heart again and again and again. “I can’t think about it anymore, Vex. It’ll kill me.” His elbow shakes against her, and he can’t hold himself up much longer; she wraps her arms around him, one hand cupping the back of his head, and pulls him against her like breaking against an ocean. The way his body falls into hers is almost graceful in nature; there are no hard edges or sharp corners, just his cheek pressing against her shoulder and his torso half-resting on top of hers, legs intertwined. He shudders slightly and adjusts his arms underneath hers, holding her in an embrace that quickly turns into a quiet sort of desperation. She lays her chin against the top of his head, running her fingers through his hair, nails scratching his scalp comfortingly. She asks, “Do you want to tell me about it?” “No,” he says against her collarbone, and then, “yes.” He breathes steadily for a second, composing himself to the best of his ability. “I want you to know everything about me.” He says, “Anna Ripley is dead.” She says, “I know.” He says, “I’m not, and sometimes I think that’s the problem.” -- (He spills everything out to her, whispers in a darkened room. She holds him tightly against her and he touches her skin to keep himself grounded. Sometimes she’s there, he rambles, like I can feel her watching me, like I hear her voice in my head, telling me how proud of me she is, how I’ve done such great things, how I’ll bring about so many more. How intelligent I am. How all I need is a tragedy to make me understand that I should be shared with everyone. Vex doesn’t bother pointing out that the rhetoric of a madwoman doesn’t make sense; he’s long since figured that out. It’s not what matters. What matters is that it was damning, shameful, blaming, celebratory. It carried an algorithm meant to break him as a person, warping his innocence into something worthy of punishment. Cassandra survived by accident, he says. She snuck out. It was supposed to be just me. Only me. It was my fault. But it wasn’t, Vex points out, her lips above the shell of his ear. You were young and impressionable and content with your life, and that doesn’t make you a fool, or somehow responsible. He’s hanging onto her every word, his tears hot and pooling against her shirt, body shaking with every breath. Maybe this is what he’s been building to all along, what he’s been dreaming for: someone to simply hold him and let him cry. You’ve suffered a long time and a very great deal, she says, but you’re not alone anymore. I’m here.) -- It’s late afternoon when Keyleth’s session ends; they’d worked hard, focusing entirely on their task at hand, and so she’d felt it inappropriate to check her phone throughout the day. It’d actually felt nice to disconnect for awhile, to be away from all the noise, the alerts, the responsibility. She leaves Percy a few doodles and comments on the script for his lines, thanks the director and assistant director, and finally powers on her phone. She’s hit with ten missed calls, three voicemails, and about forty texts from various numbers. It takes her a second of scrolling in complete confusion before she realizes she’s being asked about Percy. Vax is responsible for at least fifteen of the texts and two of the voicemails, so she calls him without listening to anything, her blood suddenly flooding with adrenaline. She can’t think of anything good that would force this level of contact, and she’s panicking by the time Vax answers with a visibly relieved, “Keyleth! Thank God, I haven’t been able to get ahold of anyone--” “What’s going on?” she asks immediately, stepping out of the studio and towards the car waiting to take her home. “I haven’t been able to check my phone today, and I have all these missed calls and messages--” “Cassandra rang me,” he says, and Keyleth stops walking mid-step, almost falling over at the unexpected twist. “She - I don’t know much, or what this all exactly means, but it’s all over the news - Anna Ripley is dead?” Something cold pools at the base of her skull, the name alone sounds like a curse. “Anna Ripley is dead?” “Yeah, and Cassandra was worried about Percival, so she spoke to Vex for a few minutes and Vex took off,” he says. “She should’ve been there awhile ago, but I haven’t heard from her--” “I should’ve known,” Keyleth says blankly, getting into the car. “Shit! I should’ve known something was wrong when Percy didn’t show up for work - I thought - is he okay? Damn it!” “Breathe, Kiki,” Vax says, and the use of his nickname for her calms her somehow. “I think Vex is with him. I haven’t heard anything to suggest otherwise.” “Change of plans,” Keyleth says to the driver. “Drop me off at Percy’s instead, but do you mind waiting for a few minutes?” “Not at all,” the man says with a polite nod. “I’ll go over there and let you know,” she says into the receiver. “I should’ve been there for him.” “Maybe,” Vax answers vaguely, “but maybe not.” -- She doesn’t get what he means until lets herself into Percy’s apartment with her own key and finds nothing amiss. The silence is weighted down by something, though, and it’s a strange feeling, sort of like she shouldn’t be there at all, like she’s intruding. She doesn’t call out his name; she glances between rooms, searching for signs. A bag in the living room. Kitchen cabinets open, glasses on the counter. His bedroom door is cracked slightly; she places a hand against it and peeks around-- “You can come in,” a low voice says, “but be quiet, alright, Keyleth?” It’s Vex, stretched out in Percy’s bed, hair spilling across his pillow and his head resting against the nook of her shoulder, sleeping soundly. Her arms are around him and her eyes are red, drained, but she looks like she’s where she’s supposed to be. “Oh,” Keyleth says quietly, observing with a restrained type of relief. “You are here. Good.” “Cassandra called me.” “I heard. Text your brother. He’s worried about you.” Vex’s eyebrows raise, but lower again just as quickly with a nod of understanding. “I will.” Keyleth doesn’t comment on the state of them; Vex’s fingers trailing up and down Percy’s bare back, her clothes strewn about the floor, the undeniable and unshakable truth of intimacy. She asks, “Is he alright?” “He wasn’t,” Vex says, “but he will be.” Keyleth doesn’t make a move to leave, but she doesn’t speak again, either. She hovers in the doorway, overcome and overwhelmed and jealous. Vex says, “Whatever it is, spit it out. I won’t be offended.” “How can you do it?” Keyleth asks, being given permission. “You just - hopped on a plane the second he needed you and - gave yourself over to him. Like, wholeheartedly. You didn’t even really know what was wrong, or what to expect, and you did it anyway. Why?” She can’t wrap her head around it, stumbling over the building blocks, all the roads and bridges; she wants to say she’s that kind of person, too, but she also wants to know every facet of it, every secret and hidden piece. Vex smiles sadly at her. “I think you know exactly why.” Love is suddenly sitting in the room with them, spread out across the bed, lounging in all the chairs, filling up the sink. Vex starts, “It might be careless to you.” “It is,” Keyleth says, “but that doesn’t mean anything.” “People who are going to hurt you will hurt you regardless of the walls you build,” Vex says gently. “So you shouldn’t even try?” “I knew there was a possibility I’d end up hurt today,” Vex says. “And I was. But not by anything Percy did - by things I couldn’t protect him from.” She absentmindedly strokes his hair while she speaks. “It’s impossible to protect yourself from everything, Keyleth, but aren’t there people you hold dear who you want to protect? People who you want to keep safe, and you’d do so, without a second thought to yourself?” “Of course.” Her eyes fall to Percy, breathing steadily, and her heart wanders to Vax. Of course she wants to keep him safe, wants him to stop torturing himself, gathering up burdens like toys. “So doesn’t it then hold that there are people who want the same for you?” Vex says. “Percy and I - we’re fighting to protect each other, but for us, it sometimes means protecting each other from ourselves.” She hesitates before continuing. “You, on the other hand, aren’t trying to protect yourself as much as you’re simply...afraid, I think.” “Afraid of what?” “Losing someone,” Vex says. “You’re afraid that if you have Vax, you can also not have him, and you’re trying to convince yourself it isn’t worth it.” “No, I--” Keyleth interrupts, and stalls, wringing her hands together. “It is worth it, but I guess - yeah, I am afraid of...knowing what it’s like to not be alone, and then have to be alone again.” She gestures to Percy, still sound asleep. “I get it with you, Vex. Like, I get the two of you have this - this deeper understanding. But Vax is...the kind of guy who runs blindly into burning buildings without even knowing if anyone is inside to save. And me - I’ll save people but I won’t die for nothing.” She grimaces. “Sorry, I know that was convoluted, I’m not the best with metaphors--” “No, I think I understand,” Vex says, but lowers her voice notably when Percy shifts his head. “You’re afraid you’re going to lose him to - what, his own spontaneous, self-sacrificial nature? That he’ll take something on too big for him, or...” “Something like that,” Keyleth concedes. “I feel like Vax is always - searching for the next thing to punish himself for.” “So give him somewhere new to go,” Vex says, like it’s the most obvious thing in the world. “You don’t want him running into fire - fine. Let him run to you instead.” Keyleth frowns at the advice, because it seems like addressing part of the problem and not the whole thing. Vex continues, “He’s learning to stand up for what’s important to him, and you’ll be first on that list if you give him the chance. Keyleth, he’s devoted to you.” “I know,” Keyleth says, because she does. “I know.” “You’re afraid,” Vex repeats, softer. “Reasons look a lot like excuses when you whittle them down.” “So are you,” Keyleth says, “or you would’ve told Percy already. And maybe that’s fine. Maybe it’s okay to be afraid as long as you don’t intend to let it stop you.” “Maybe,” Vex agrees. “Do you intend to let it stop you?” “No,” Keyleth decides. “Do you?” “No,” she says, voice quieting, looking down at the boy in her arms. “No, I don’t.” Keyleth rests a hand on the door frame, smiling, eyes averted away. “Good luck,” she says as she backs out of the room. “To both of us.” -- (Keyleth leaves and the apartment is once again silent, no television hum, no running fan. So are you. Vex hears Keyleth’s accusation like she’s still standing there, shouting it at her. Or you would’ve told him. It isn’t that simple, she wants to say, but there’s no one left to argue with. It isn’t, it isn’t, it isn’t. It is. Percy has an arm slung across her waist, and his face is peaceful, dreamless. Nobody has ever seen him this exposed, vulnerable by his own choice, and he has let her in as if there were never even a lock. She touches her lips to the crown of his head. “I should’ve told you,” she murmurs into his hair. “It’s yours.”) -- Keyleth calls him as she slides back into the car, and Vax answers on the second ring. “Hey.” “Hey. I saw them both,” she tells him. “They’re fine. She’ll text you soon.” He sighs in relief. “Oh, good. Thanks, Kiki.” “No problem,” she says, and works a fingernail in between her teeth, caught up in thought; Vex had given her a lot to contemplate. She can’t get the image of them out of her mind, curled up together, damaged and hopeful and whole. She says, “I get what you meant, by the way. When you said maybe it was good it wasn’t me who got the call.” “Yeah?” “Yeah,” she says, gazing at the palm trees peppering the skyline outside her window, streets flying by. She presses the tips of her fingers against the glass. “Why?” It’s almost wrong to say, like a confession that isn’t hers. “Because she loves him,” she says. Vax is quiet for a moment. “I know.” “That means something, doesn’t it.” It’s not really a question, but he answers anyway. “Yeah,” he says wistfully. “It does.” -- When Percy drowsily stirs from sleep, he’s disoriented and sluggish and not quite sure where he is, but he’s pressed up against something warm and alive, breathing slowly. He blinks his eyes open into a mess of dark hair and the dim glow of a phone screen; painted blue nails tap out a message just above his shoulder, and then a hand drops, stroking up and down his arm as if it’s out of habit. It doesn’t hit him all at once - it passes over him slowly, like waves that foam at the tip and never quite crash. Vex. Vex hovering over him, holding him. Vex leading him to bed. He becomes acutely aware of his left arm, tucked between their bodies, hand laying against her bare thigh. Vex’s face, getting closer and closer-- He sighs against her collarbone, and she stills, setting her phone down. She whispers, “Percy?” “Mm,” is all he can make out, groggily trying to pull himself out of it. He lifts his head carefully, and with a groan, immediately drops it onto his pillow and off of her shoulder, sliding onto his back. She mirrors him by rolling onto her side, one hand on his chest, eyes tracing his face. “Are you - awake?” she tries again. “Are you alright?” “Yes,” he says, and after a period of stillness, reaches blindly for his glasses sitting on the nightstand, almost knocking over the water in the process. “Just...out of sorts.” She’s silent as he lifts himself up, angling his back against the headboard. He takes a moment to blink against the sudden clarity of his vision, shaking his head lightly, like it’s full of loose parts, metal rattling around. He grips the glass of water and she tracks his movements sharply, the bob of his throat as he drinks, his muscles flexing. He won’t keep her waiting any longer, no matter the oppression of his lethargy. He says, “I owe you an explanation,” setting the glass back down. “Alright,” she says, put a little more at ease after hearing him speak. “I had a - panic attack,” he says tentatively. “It was...the worst I’ve had, I think, ever. And I couldn’t remember...if I’d taken my medication. So I kept taking it without realizing. I couldn’t - I couldn’t see, I couldn’t think, I couldn’t hear.” He clears his throat, sparing her a short glance and down. “I wasn’t trying to--” “I know,” Vex interrupts so he doesn’t have to say it. “I - had the thought, briefly, but I somewhat figured it out.” “I’m sorry,” he tells her plainly, spreading his fingers, palms facing up and then contorting into fists. “You don’t have to apologize,” she says, but she sits up and she’s close again, almost against his side, and he thinks of how he almost destroyed them both. “No, I do,” he says, and reaches up, taking her chin in his hand gently. It’s not the time for shame. “I shouldn’t have tried to...kiss you. You did the right thing.” Her teeth tug on her bottom lip, and she exhales in breath shorter than it should be. She says unsteadily, “I almost let you.” “I know,” he answers softly, and his hand drifts to her hair, wrapping a curl around his fingers. She releases her bottom lip and it’s red, slightly swollen. She looks at him from under her eyelashes, and he suddenly is hit with what she’s implicating. She says, “Percy, I was so close. I almost - I almost ruined this with you.” “But you didn’t,” he says, and senses the need for weightlessness. “And thus, I’m here, awake and coherent and perfectly capable of stopping you from jumping me, should your unhealthy method of handling stress rear its head again.” At that, she finally laughs, angling her neck and resting her cheek against the palm of his hand. “Well, in that case…” she trails off dryly. Her eyes are shining and her heart is still frantic, fluttering. “Now I’m convinced you’re feeling a bit better.” He observes her casually for a moment, as if from a great distance, finding the cracks. “Do you want to talk about it?” “This isn’t about me,” she says. “It can be about us both,” he says. “I’ve had my time. Please, distract me.” She pulls the sheet back up over his hips, aware of how little she’s wearing, and hunches over her knees. Her hair flows down her spine, against her shoulders, curling and wild. She starts slowly, “I haven’t actually - acted on it as much as it seems like I have. I don’t just...fuck people. But for awhile after - after Syldor - I’d seek it out, you know, the detachment, the roughness. I didn’t know how to...feel anything else. And I’d remember that I was real and that I was - desireable, I guess.” She’s leaning closer to him without realizing it, drawing comfort and stability from his presence. “But with you...it’s different. I won’t say I don’t want you to want me, because I do, but when I look at you--” she breaks off suddenly, her thought losing its way. She struggles momentarily and says, “I want you to be real.” There’s a long pause populated by only the two of them staring at each other. “And I want to know that - there’s a difference between using someone, and someone...caring about you.” He watches her with eyes that never judge and a body that simply listens; he doesn’t ask for more than she’s giving, and he doesn’t pull her closer. He merely strokes her cheekbone with the pad of his thumb, and then says, “Thank you for telling me.” “I want you to know everything about me,” she echoes, aching for reasons she can’t comprehend. “I want you,” he says bluntly. “I didn’t - return the sentiment before, but I do, Vex. How could I not?” He brushes over her bottom lip, still red, like it’s beckoning him. “But more than that, I don’t want to hurt you. And I want to be the person who shows you the difference between - being used, and something with - real emotion as the motivation.” Vex smiles, genuine and quiet, something reserved for only him to see, and says, “As long as we’re on the same page.” “We are,” he says. “And as for me - I’ll tell you the rest when I’m ready. When I know how I feel about - her - and why I feel it, you’ll be the first person I’ll come to. Or second, depending on when I meet with my therapist.” “I’m flattered,” she teases without malice. “First, then,” he replies decisively, kidding. “After all, she probably didn’t even bother to call. You flew across state lines. There’s a clear winner.” “Charming.” She rolls her eyes at the bravado, and then, sensing the need for distance - not from each other, but from their problems - she says, “Well, it’s almost six and I’m famished.” She gathers her hair at the nape of her neck and ties it into a sloppy bun. “Thai alright with you?” She slips out of bed, facing away from him, and she can almost feel his gaze fall to her ass. She turns and smirks over her shoulder at him, and he flushes, unable to avert his eyes in time. He says, “Erm.” “What,” she says, “never seen an attractive woman in her underwear before, Percival?” “Not that I can ever remember,” he says stupidly, like he’s just letting whatever words he has stockpiled in his mouth fall out of it. “Well, I wouldn’t want to be a distraction,” she says nonchalantly, and opens his first drawer, remembering where his clothes are organized from her earlier search. They’re mostly boxer briefs, but she finds a navy pair of boxes with white dots on them and slips them on, rolling them over her hips. “Do you have a normal delivery place, or should I Google it?” He’s speechless for a solid thirty seconds - she’s left the room entirely and is standing in the kitchen with her phone when he finally appears from the hallway behind her. “Good God, woman,” he says, shaking his head. “I guess it’s true what they say about rock stars.” “I’d suppose similar things are said about movie stars,” she shoots back, grinning, and even though they’re both exhausted, emotionally drained and bodies bruised instead of broken, the world feels conquerable. -- Percival @PercivaldeRolo · 36m Like Real People Do - Hozier https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yrleydRwWms aya @suntree · 25m um _______________________________________ Percival @PercivaldeRolo Like Real People Do - Hozier https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yrleydRwWms vex’ildan Retweeted Percival @PercivaldeRolo · 48m Like Real People Do - Hozier https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yrleydRwWms aya @suntree · 7m Replying to @imvexthatsvax @PercivaldeRolo UM -- (She’s leaning on her elbows against his kitchen island, one foot kicked over her other ankle, scrolling through her phone. She’s since put on his sweater while waiting for their food to be delivered, and as he approaches from the hallway, freshly showered and fully clothed, he hears the song he’d tweeted playing through her speakers. She doesn’t hear him coming, but straightens her spine, adjusting her weight between feet. He steps up behind her, chest pressed against her back, and places his hands flat against the marble, arms on either side of her body. She starts slightly, arching her neck, and he realizes just how much taller he is, how easily he envelopes this lithe woman in front of him. He thinks about being somebody bigger, not in size but in spirit, in heart. Somebody who can keep her safe. He doesn’t speak for a moment, letting her settle comfortably into him. Finally, he lowers his lips to the shell of her ear and murmurs, “Thank you.” She rests the back of her head against his shoulder and the music plays on.)
#perc'ahlia#vaxleth#critfic#critical role#this was..supposed to be...a one shot...and now ..... its 55k word.....s.#it's a lil more perc'ahlia heavy bc they have more drama but it evens out
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UNI - 유쾌한 우주인의 인류 멸망 [ A Cheerful Alien’s Human Extinction ]
Producer: 초롱아귀 ( [ cholong agui ] ) ( Youtube | Twitter ) Illustration: 유기 징역 ( [ yoogi jingyeok ] ) ( Twitter ) Uploaded: Apr 16, 2017
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어려운 시기를 보내면서 마음을 다잡기 위해 쓴 노래입니다. I made this as I was going through a hard time, to straighten out myself. 제 최근 근황은 트위터에서 보실 수 있습니다. You can see how I’m doing on twitter. 혹여나 사건 관련해서 궁금한 점은 트위터로 문의하시면 법적으로 답변 가능한 범위까지 답변해드리겠습니다. If there’s something you’re curious on regarding other incidents, I’ll answer as far as I’m legally allowed on twitter. 지금까지 믿고 도와주신 모든 분들께 감사드립니다. Thank you for everyone that trusted and supported me.
그나저나 유니 성능 좋네요. 첫곡인만큼 쓰지 말라는곳까지 음역대를 찍어올려봤습니다. In other words, Uni’s features and voice are pretty good. As it’s my first song with her, I tried taking her voice up to vocal ranges where people explicitly told me not to go. 참조출연으로 올해로 스물세살 시유양이 고생했습니다. 재밌게 들어주세요! Making a guest appearance, SeeU, who turned 23 years old this year, went through a lot for this song. Please have fun listening!
( T/N: FUCK WHAT IS THIS SONG ) ( Suggested viewing on desktop. The video has links that are clickable. They lead you to “bad ends”, except the last option, which leads to SeeU’s Individual Battle, by the same producer. I’ve also linked them in the lyrics below. ) ( hanu is meat made in korea. in korea, it’s expensive compared to imported meat, and is said to be super tasty. )
Lyrics:
SeeU: 아침 뭐 먹지.. What should I eat for breakfast... 오늘은 맛있는 거 먹고 싶었는데.. I wanted to eat something tasty today... 고기 같은 거.. Like meat....
UNI: 착한 아이한테 사주는 맛있는 고기는 한우라지요 The meat that people buy for nice kids is called hanu 비싸다던데.. People say it's expensive... 지금까지 한 걸론 Can't you even afford that 그만한 여유도 챙길 수 없나요? with all the things you've done so far?
다 죽었으면 Only if everyone died
( 아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아 ) ( Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! )
편리한 인류멸망 스위치는 어떨까요? How about a convenient Human Extinction Switch?
물론 ♡ Of course ♡
다 죽고 나서는 혼자겠지만 After everyone dies you'd be alone
큼직한 지구 사람들은 이미 하고 있지요 The humongous people of Earth are already doing it
참 바람직한 ☆ Here's a very sensible and 아름다운 ☆ ☆ ☆ beautiful
우주인의 제안 suggestion from an alien
▶ Yes No
그래도.. But... 하지만 Still 따리랏딴다☆ Dda-ri-rat-ddant-da☆
Yes ▶ No
저 사람들이 사는 방 속엔 In those rooms where people live 커다란 바퀴벌레도 같이 살죠 huge cockroaches also live
( 우워어 ) ( blegh )
냐랑☆ with me ☆
싫어하는 이야기 듣지 않으면 그만이지 않나요? If you just don't listen to the things you don't want to hear isn't that just it?
슬픈 노래들 저마다 하나씩 있죠 Everyone has their own kind of sad song 사랑을 받지 못했던 고리타분한 이야기 where they didn't get loved, that kind of stupidly mundane story!
이제 그만 포기하고 행복을 찾아 나서요 Now just give up and search for your own happiness 좋은 것들.. Good things...
한우는 실제로 존재한다고 해요 It's said that Hanu actually exists! 비싸지만 Even if it's super expensive
( 다 죽었으면 ) ( Only if everyone died ) 하는 맘 제 눈에는 모두 보이는데 I can clearly see you thinking that 무엇 때문에 아직 고민 하나요 Just because of what are you still undecided?
고기는 그냥 오진 않죠 Meat doesn't just come 하지만 몸에 좋죠? but it's good for your body, right? 어쩔 수 없죠? You can't help it, right? 먹어야죠? You have to eat it, right? 건강하게 살자 Let's live healthily!
▶ Yes No
그래도.. But... 하지만 Still... 따리랏딴다☆ Dda-ri-rat-ddant-da☆
Yes ▶ No
( 우워어 ) ( Blurgh )
다시 한 번만 생각해요 Think again, one more time 남들 좋은 일만 해서 뭐가 남았죠? What's left when you do good things for other people? 스스로 위할 때가 된 거 예요 Now's the time where you have to act for yourself 이제는 행복해야죠? It's time to be happy now, right?
아침엔 당근 In the morning, carrots 저녁엔 고구마 In the evening, sweet potatoes 점심엔 라면 In the afternoon, ramen 밥 먹고 살아야죠 You have to eat properly and live
다른 사람들까지 함께 가는 건 For other people to go along together
...역시 ....Is... 무리죠!? too much, right!?
( 꺄아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아아 ) ( Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! )
편리한 인류멸망 스위치는 어떨까요? How about a convenient Human Extinction Switch?
자 울지 말고 말해봐요 Now, don't cry and try saying it! 고기 먹고 싶다고 That you want to eat meat
▶ Yes No
다른 사람 필요 없어요 You don't need anyone else 인생은 혼자 살죠 Life is lived alone!
하릴없이 또 Again, without destination
》》Time up《《
언제까지 또 Again, just how long will you continue this 바보같이 just like an idiot
하... Ha... 이제는 완전히 당신도 질려버렸어 Now I'm completely tired of you too
거기까지 말해도 모르겠나요? Can't you understand even if I lay it out for you?
이 멍청아! You moron!
나 말고 또 누가 중요해 Other than me, who else is important? 다들 허울 뿐인걸 Everyone else are just empty shells!
하릴없이 또 Again, without destination 언제까지 또 Again, just how long will you continue this 바보같이 살아 Just live like an idiot!
▶ Yes No
그래도.. Still... 하지만 But 따리랏딴다 지요? It's Dda-ri-rat-ddant-da, right?
Yes ▶ No
그래도.. Still...
오늘도 지구의 평화는 지켜졌습니다. Today, Earth's peace was kept.
T/N: There’s a bunch of grey words that flash on the screen for 1 frame, also, throughout the song, some of them subverting the meaning of some lyrics, or just there. Words like “6 years” , “06-21″ , “Betrayal”, “Please”, “Now”, “You must’ve known”, “Live”, “Goodbye”, “I’m sorry”. For ones linked to the lyrics, there’s
그”래”도.. -> 그”대”도 Still... -> Even you...
and
누가 중요해 -> “내” 가 중요해 Who’s important? -> I’m important!
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