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i absolutely adore the different android/maykr/human designs people make for VEGA however there's something so special to me about the cases where they don't have a humanoid body. the Fortress is their physical form, and fuck if that doesnt have some absolutely heartwarming/-wrenching implications. starting from the moment they arrive there - back on Mars, VEGA shut down with the understanding of inevitable destruction, yet they were awoken, and in a completely new system, too. what was it like, waking up in an unfamiliar body, adjusting to completely new senses, like learning a new language, like being able to hear for the first time, like learning to walk again? and to have someone intricately acquainted with what is new to them be their guide, patiently waiting for them to adapt to the foreign architecture, hands eventually letting go of the manual controls like a gentle encouragement? and then, much later, to become one with what their savior deems his home? to inevitably become his home? to be the one pointing the way forward but also always guiding back? to be known in ever-surprising ways, to have somebody unlock parts of their 'body' - aspects of their ever-complex being - that they would have never been able to see by themselves? to look outwards down to the furthest star and to be seen from the inside down to the smallest switch panel?

to be quite honest, it's a form of intimacy not many people talk of that i will never be normal about.

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thinking about how doomguy is not invincible or unfeeling. how he very very much reacts to pain. how in every single game, he gasps or grunts or cries out on being hit, how in the classic games the more damage you take, the more exhausted his sprite face looks, or how sometimes when you die, he'll scream in agony. how in 2016 and eternal when you're at low health, you can hear him breathing heavily, echoing in his helmet. It will never stop him, because that's sort of his whole deal, he is always faster, stronger, angrier. But that doesn't mean he doesn't feel it, doesn't mean he doesn't feel every ache and burn and cut and bruise he getsin every fight. He fights like hell, but nowhere did that ever say it didn't hurt like hell.

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decided to make a small masterpost with some info abt me and links to stuff i posted here! will be updated if/when i post more stuff :D also, if you have a question, ask away, i'll answer and maybe add the info to this post!

ABOUT ME

i'm 18, bi and transmasc, absolutely in love with the story of doom 2016&eternal and wanna get back into the fandom more after being absent for so long!

want to make sure you use my neopronouns correctly and use referrals that are comfortable for me? here's my pronouny page!

confused how jan and jannis are pronounced? here: the "j" in them produces this sound!

MY STUFF

Doom Goretober 2020: day 1, day 3, ao3

Nothing Fucks With The Slayer (in progress): chap 1, ao3

icons: doomguy ace/agender/rainbow

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Anyway dr Hayden is a bitch and fills me with rage

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joking that an adult character who acts childish doesnt know what sex is will never be as funny as saying the same thing about a big tough murderman videogame protag

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nono uve got a point

Gonna put on my fanciest tinfoil hat and start the conspiracy theory that samuel hayden actually let olivia pierce start the hell invasion and i'm only basing it on the meltdown mission where he states that olivia is currently the only one able to acess the terminal and can basically do whatever she wants with the uac computers and that there was "nothing they can do to stop her", even though hayden clearly denied the slayer acess to another terminal in the previous mission so he would come to the vega terminal! In this essay i will

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DOOMGUY PLAYING HIS SQUISHY GUITAR!!!

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BIG, CHUNKY DOOM TRIBUTE

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hi uhhhh

im not dead but i kinda am, online school is back and im not handling it very well so my performance is tanking again and so is my creativity and im just not as enthusiastic about everything as i used to be so im rly sorry about that

hopefully i'm gonna go into therapy soon and maybe i'll start getting better from there so yk here's hoping

anyway tysm to everyone who supported my writing and stuff cuz it brings me happiness to know i made someone's day a lil better with what i made love yall and hopefully see yall soon again

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Doomtober day 10 •̀.̫•́✧

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Doomtober day 9 ٩(๑òωó๑)۶

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Doomtober day 8 ٩(๑òωó๑)۶

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Doomtober day 7

My edit of original imp sprite 。◕‿◕｡

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Doomtober day 666 6 ٩(๑òωó๑)۶

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Doomtober day 5 + old art ٩(๑òωó๑)۶

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Doomtober day 4 ʕ•̀ω•́ʔ✧