#this will be my last thread rp for a while..

[dernarrleid]

ya'll I'm still here, I'm just in the thick of it.

[lemoncakedesign]

really struggling with that persistent feeling in rp where like. i feel like nobody would care if i just stopped doing it

[stalkist]

open to younger f. plot: loosely inspired by this post and this post. they can be calling him 'd*ddy' for the first time in a sexual context or just saying it in a more innocent / playful context and he is just like ... yes. connection: girlfriend, secret lover, new wife, sugar baby, relative ( full / half / step ), daughter's best friend, best friend's daughter, son's girlfriend, babysitter, and anything else welcome.  don’t like this starter. please use beta editor.

listens intently to what she's saying but the moment that word is uttered, mind is completely thrown off track. tries not to make it obvious that heat floods his body, c*ck twitching in pants, a loud stirring deep within that only she seems capable of awakening. “  what ? ” laughs it off, almost dismissive, dark orbs searching hers for signs that she's toying with him. whether or not her usage of the title is intending to provoke, nicolas finds a surprising enjoyment in it anyway. likes the way it sounds coming from the other. wants to hear it more. “  what did you just say — ' daddy ' ?  ”

[justashadetalkative]

“...of course you do,” Linast breathed, tight and resigned, as the door slid open and the beam of a flashlight cut through the dark barn. Either they were lying about wanting to help, which meant they were manipulative, or they weren’t, which meant Linast’s presence here would mean nothing but trouble for yet another kind-hearted stranger who’d had the misfortune to catch Clemcy’s interest.

Great.

Linast peered in their direction. He got a brief glimpse of pale  – pale skin, pale hair, and the dull gleam of infrared heat through the darkness – before the searching flashlight found him. He hissed and shaded his eyes with his free hand, though not before his inhuman eyeshine reflected bright and scarlet back at Archer. 

“I am s-ssitting,” he pointed out, a bit unsteadily. He wasn’t going to lay down, he wasn’t safe, but it really was rapidly becoming quite a lot of blood. Enough to make him nervous. Had Clemcy hit some major blood vessel? If he had, it had surely been on purpose…

Linast swallowed, blinked past the lingering spots still burned in his vision from the flashlight, and watched warily as the stranger produced a pack. He fought down the urge to scoot away; to get up and make a break for the door. (He didn’t think he’d get far enough to matter.)

“Yeah. It’s uh. Bad? I think it’s bad,” he said, and added his other hand to his efforts to keep pressure on the pulsing wound in his thigh while he waited for the human(?) to get ready with the dressings. Linast’s chest felt tight. He hated this. “Ssorry I, uh…”

Once again, apologizing seemed like a safe option, but Linast stalled out when it came time to think of the specifics. Too many options; too few things that he actually felt sorry for.

The weak bark for him to retreat did make Archer pull his head back from the door. He hesitated a moment, glancing to his bloodhound and debated what to do next.

This person obviously sounded hurt, but probably did not want to be found. He would guess for nefarious reasons. Perhaps he was an outlaw on the run, or a thief who didn't want to get caught, or something in a severe amount of trouble.

Archer didn't care about what their past was, only that they were hurt and needed help. Any life was sacred and deserved to be saved.

With that determination he cleared his throat, ready to announce himself when they relented. Apologizing. Good. Perhaps they realized just as Archer did.

"It's alright. I want to help." He called as he pushed open the door even before they assured him it was safe. With his healing condition they could have shot him point blank and he would come back. Them? Not so much.

He took a few steps in and shined the flashlight among the piles. He found the splatter of blood first and followed it up to Linast's legs, and then the rest of his form.

He gasped surprised and immediately darted forward. "What happened!! Oh- oh no you should lay down. Sit down. Aaah there's a first aid kit in here." He began to dig through the dark, pulling out boxes and crates before coming back with a very aged WWII aid kit. The bandages inside however were new.

"Don't move too much. We have to stop the bleeding first."

[rpschtuff]

What is going on with cutting posts?

You may have seen some posts floating around lately about the beta editor and trimming reblogs, and possibly found yourself extremely confused trying to figure out what this tangled web of editors, extensions, and add-ons even means. I’ve been on this site for years, and I still find the whole thing terribly confusing.

So this post is my effort to explain everything -- legacy vs beta, New XKit vs XKit Rewritten, editable reblogs vs trim reblogs -- everything. This also doubles as a tutorial for the various methods of cutting posts.

TL;DR

Tumblr is in the process of switching to a new post editor that some old users have opted into, while new users have been forced into it.

The old Editable Reblogs extension does not work with this new editor, requiring people to use a new extension called Trim Reblogs.

Trim Reblogs and Editable Reblogs are not compatible. If your partner uses Editable Reblogs, you cannot cut their posts properly using Trim Reblogs (unless you’re willing to do some tedious and frankly unreasonable workarounds).

The only way for everyone in the RPC to cut their posts properly and efficiently is if everyone moves to the new system and uses Trim Reblogs. Clinging to the old system with Editable Reblogs is actively creating issues for the people using the new system -- some of whom do not have a choice.

Cutting Posts

Cutting posts is the act of removing older replies on a thread when reblogging it. This goes by several other terms, including trimming replies/reblogs or any variation of that wording, but I will be referring to it as cutting posts to avoid confusion with the Trim Reblogs extension, which will be coming up a lot.

Typically, when cutting a post, you only keep your latest reply and the reply from your partner that immediately precedes it. This means that instead of a thread looking like this...

It would like this:

Or like this, depending on the method used:

In either case, the first post is gone while the second and third post remain.

Cutting posts is done so that threads aren’t all extremely long on the dashboard. When there’s three short replies like this sample, it’s not that bad. But imagine a thread with twenty replies where each is several paragraphs long. That would require people to scroll and scroll and scroll to get past it. And since the same thread would be reblogged multiple times, your dash might become the same posts, over and over and over again, with only one new addition at the end each time.

Cutting posts is extremely common Tumblr RP etiquette. Many people won’t follow you if you don’t regularly cut replies, due to how irritating the alternative is.

Copy and Paste (Outdated)

Once upon a time, you used to be able to cut replies without any kind of extensions. Unfortunately, those days are gone.

That method worked as follows. You would go to reblog as usual...

Copy and paste the last reply, putting it in a blockquote (or using any other formatting you like, really), then add your own reply underneath.

Then you can simply hover over the older replies and click the red X in order to remove them.

And this used to work. But now, the very first post in a thread cannot be deleted -- only later reblogs can. This means that the first post will always stay above the others, no matter how far along in the thread you are.

So since cutting posts can’t be done normally, we have to rely on browser extensions. This is where things get complicated. And also where I need to explain the different editors.

Legacy vs Beta Editor

Every time you make or reblog a post, you are using Tumblr’s post editor to do so. This is the area where you type up your post, add images, etc. Tumblr has been using the same editor for several years now, and it’s called the legacy editor.

However, Tumblr has been slowly rolling out a new text editor, called the beta editor. You may remember the beta editor when it was first rolled out a couple years ago as a buggy, unstable mess -- that’s not the case anymore, and it’s no more buggy than the current editor. For text posts, it’s functionally pretty similar, and even has a few features that some of you might want, such as easy colored text and the ability to make posts non-rebloggable. (Photo and other posts are fairly different, and I know gif makers have some pretty understandable reservations and complaints about it, but I won’t be covering that here.)

Older users have the option to toggle between the legacy and beta editors at will, while new users (starting around November/December 2022) are locked into the beta editor and cannot switch back to legacy.

To check which editor you have, go to make a new text post and look in the top right corner.

If you see either of these:

You are using the legacy editor, with the option to switch between the two.

If you see this:

You are using the beta editor, with the option to switch between the two.

If you don’t see anything at all, you are using the beta editor, and cannot switch.

While the text interface of the two editors isn’t terribly different for roleplay purposes, the methods by which you need to trim reblogs are entirely different. Each requires a different extension -- specifically, a different version of XKit.

XKit

XKit is a browser extension designed to add features and functionality to Tumblr. It includes many quality of life features such as a mutual checker, better tag tracking, queue improvements, ad blocking, more detailed timestamps, and so much more. (It was preceded by a similar extension called Missing E, if you’ve been here long enough to remember that.) And among all of these many features is the ability to cut replies.

The original XKit is no longer in use, having stopped updates in 2015 and being entirely unusable now. However, a few new versions of XKit have popped up throughout the years.

New XKit & Editable Reblogs

A different team created New XKit as a successor to the original, a similar extension designed to restore many of the same features.

New XKit’s feature to cut posts is called Editable Reblogs. It works by adding a pencil button to the left of the post when you reblog.

Clicking that button will break the post’s formatting -- actually changing it to how Tumblr posts used to be formatted -- but allow it to be edited however you wish.

So in this instance, I could simply select the first reply and delete it before adding my new reply underneath.

Editable Reblogs is only available if you use the legacy editor. It does not work with the beta editor and does not even appear as an option.

XKit Rewritten & Trim Reblogs

In 2020, Tumblr began to roll out its updated dashboard, which is now permanently in effect for all users. While the new interface looks very similar, the code was actually entirely redone, and behind the scenes functions very differently from the older dashboard. As a result, some of New XKit’s features no longer work as intended -- though a few still do, such as Editable Reblogs.

In response, the New XKit team decided to similarly start from scratch and created XKit Rewritten, another iteration of the add-on with similar features once more. However, not all New XKit features are available on XKit Rewritten, and vice versa. Many people are running both extensions simultaneously to take advantage of features on both.

XKit Rewritten’s feature to cut posts is called Trim Reblogs, and it works completely differently than Editable Reblogs. With this, you first need to save the thread to your drafts with your reply already written.

You’ll see a scissors icon appear along the bottom of the post. Clicking that will open the trimming options, letting you select which previous reblogs to delete.

Clicking Trim will remove the selected reblogs.

You can then click post. You’ll note that this method preserves Tumblr’s formatting, as opposed to Editable Reblogs, which breaks it.

EDITED TO ADD: Apparently you don’t need to already have your reply written in your drafts anymore. You can save the post to your drafts without adding anything, use trim reblogs, then edit the post to add your reply. Either works fine.

This method does have two major issues, though. First, if the first post of a thread was created in the legacy editor, then the system gets really buggy and just doesn’t work.

This is what happened when I tried it out. Initially, it seemed to work as expected.

However, when I posted the reply, or simply refreshed my drafts, this happened.

Attempting to trim again simply caused this to repeat. There is no fix for this. This means that for this method to work, both you and your partners need to be using the beta editor.

EDITED TO ADD: You can fix this double posting by either using trim reblogs before adding your reply, or by adding your reply, using trim reblogs as intended, refreshing your drafts, editing the post, and clicking the red X to remove the first of the double postings. I have a better guide here.

The only other alternative is to move the thread to a fresh post when you reply, so that the new first post was made with the beta editor. Then you can cut future reblogs of the post using Trim Reblogs as normal.

However, the other major issue is that if your partner uses Editable Reblogs, you cannot use Trim Reblogs as intended. Let me show you why.

Say I want to reply to this post.

I’ll add my reply and save it to my drafts, as before.

You may have spotted the issue already. The first and second replies are now “combined” so that Tumblr sees them as a single post. We want the post to be interpreted like this, so that I can remove the oldest reply while still keeping the one immediately prior to mine.

But Trim Reblogs can only see it like this.

When I go to trim reblogs, I can only remove the previous replies as an entire unit. I can’t remove just the oldest reply and keep the one immediately prior -- either it all stays or it all goes.

This is admittedly better than nothing. However, most people do want to keep their partner’s previous reply for reference, and just to have on their blog. This means a lot of people using Trim Reblogs simply don’t cut their partner’s posts at all.

You might be able to get around this issue by combining it with the outdated cut and paste method I described above. When saving to your drafts, paste your partner’s last reply above your own, using a blockquote or whatever formatting you like to separate the two.

You can then use Trim Reblogs to remove the first post, leaving only your copy pasted reply. The formatting is broken, but it’s at least workable.

However, this will only work if the very first post of the thread was made with the beta editor -- since people using Editable Reblogs have to be using the legacy editor, you’re likely to still run into issues on a lot of posts. Which can again be solved by moving the thread to a fresh post made with the beta editor, but at this point we’re stacking so many issues on top of each other that I really can’t blame you if you just don’t want to bother with any of them.

All of this brings me to...

It’s time for the RPC to collectively switch to the new system

I’ve stuck to the legacy editor myself due to the issues described above -- using Trim Reblogs when everyone else still uses Editable Reblogs is an enormous pain that I don’t want to deal with. Even as I make this post advocating for people to switch, I’m dreading actually doing it, because I know that most of my partners still use the old system and I will have nothing but headaches.

But the thing is, everyone refusing to switch is what’s creating the headaches in the first place. If we all moved to the new system together, these issues would simply disappear, and we would all be able to effortlessly cut our posts using Trim Reblogs without ever having to worry about it again.

The RPC needs to collectively make the switch, for two reasons.

First, Tumblr is going to switch everyone to beta eventually. Refusing to switch now is really just delaying the inevitable -- it’s not a question of if you’re going to be forced into the new system, but when. By switching now, you can go ahead and get used to it and start giving feedback to both Tumblr and the XKit Rewritten team if you find anything buggy or broken.

Second, as I said above, new users are locked into beta, with no option to switch back to legacy. Trim Reblogs is their only option for cutting posts -- and as long as most of their partners are using Editable Reblogs instead, they cannot cut their posts properly. Their only option is to use a series of increasingly ridiculous workarounds that most people won’t understand. The fact that it took me 1500 words just to explain everything should tell you how confusing the whole thing is -- you can’t be that surprised when a lot of people, upon realizing that they can’t cut posts without a whole lot of tedium, decide to just not bother cutting them at all. The best way for everyone to be able to cut their posts properly and efficiently is for everyone to be on the same system.

Yes, the beta editor is different. It has some weird quirks. It will be a bit of a learning curve to get used to a new system of replying to threads. But this is a change that’s going to happen eventually, and is a change that needs to happen for a lot of people to able to cut their posts properly.

(It’s also worth noting that -- assuming you still have the option to switch -- you may be able to toggle between the two systems during the adjustment period. I haven’t been able to test this yet, but I see no reason it wouldn’t work. Use Trim Reblogs whenever possible, and especially for the partners that have already made the switch. But when you get to a reply that it just won’t work for, toggle back to the legacy editor and use Editable Reblogs just for that thread. It’s a bit annoying, but it could be the middle ground needed to help people start making the switch. And once the majority of the RPC is on the new system, then this won’t be an issue anymore.)

[capybonara]

More personal thoughts under a cut

I’m not trying to think about the other day’s rude message but here I am trying to get my thoughts in order. I was vague in my last personal posts because I want to air out my grievances but not in a way that spreads negativity. But for clarity's sake, this message was a private tumblr dm from someone who didn’t follow me. Like, I think they felt they were trying to be helpful, but everything about it screamed "passive aggressive I-know-better-than-you" energy. And the implications it had is what I keep dwelling on; that my characters in my friends comic are/will be terribly written. And I’m like THAT'S MY WORK, THAT’S OUR WORK 😤 and that’s when I spiraled with thoughts like “oh so people who viewed the comic disliked them the whole time? Are my contributions/ideas that bad?”

I've been talking with @semirampant-dwickery and @smackins about this, and how these collaborative projects with zora characters reminded me of CDN. For context, that was a mass effect RP forum I was part of that focused on the lives of OCs. @werewolfsister added this nice response to a comic of mine, and all of this got me thinking about past projects and the kinds of things that worked, did not work, and the troubles we had in the forum.

The basic definition of a collaboration is a project between two or more people to work to create something. Using my own experiences, it was common courtesy to ask others if they were interested in joining in on a project/story. After someone said yes, we started talking about our characters to give each other a basic insight on their personalities, and hopefully we got a rough outline of the idea we wanted to execute and then wrote it out, drew scenes, or both!

The roadblocks I've come across are sometimes characters (and people) don't mesh well. Their ideas might not vibe with mine, and vice versa. As an example, I really enjoyed a lot of slice of life scenarios and many others wanted to do action related plots! And try as we might, a middle ground couldn't be reached so while it was a shame, no harm no foul! The community had mods to keep the peace, so if someone went too far with crossing lines they were given the boot!

You never want problems but at times they happen regardless. One example for myself involved a former writing partner who didn't want to do any work, but they still wanted the rewards of the end game. We talked about developing a ship between characters, but they didn't want to work on the in-between details. Details like first meetings, going out on dates, the realizations, etc. It was difficult to push anything along, and their personal end goal was for our characters to have sex (I guess in accordance to mass effect tradition of “we’ll bang, okay?” haha). I didn't feel comfortable with that and wanted to have the characters build a rapport first. Despite asking questions about their OCs, it usually ended up like this:

“Let’s start with something basic. What’s your characters fav thing to eat” “Your character 😏” “Ew dude cmon” “Lol I dunno, just food”

 which made me go AUGH! 😂😅

So, I started chatting with other forum members who were more than happy to brainstorm and make ideas happen. My character started making friends with other OCs, I joined other threads, but my other writing partner was feeling left out. And I sympathized because I wanted to work on the ship, I wanted them to feel included. Every time we talked though it was like hitting a wall. I was slowly getting the impression they didn't want to write. But they sure didn't complain with the art I drew of their OC! 

There’s a lot of details regarding that experience that's still ick to discuss openly. In the end, they unfortunately got banned for their behavior and it took a while to recover from it.

The happier side was, in time, I began collaborating with other, kinder people again. But after bad experiences I learned how important communication was. My characters got to engage in all kinds of adventures because all people involved were willing to talk. I learned it was important to let others know that I wanted to join something. I couldn't sit in my corner and hope someone noticed me. It was hard, and it still can be now because I'm shy, and bad experiences make me wary to try again. Though later I found out everyone I worked with had the same anxieties so we would discuss how we can help fight those insecurities. @smackins and I would build each other up to make posts because we were so worried we came off as dumb or annoying. And sometimes that's all you need, a little support and the courage to speak up. 

@semirampant-dwickery and I ran into each other by chance via an “in character” argument and his OC challenged mine. Originally, I wasn't going to accept because I was scared and I thought it'd just annoy him. Whenever we talk about it now, he always expresses how happy he was that I accepted his offer to write a thread with our characters meeting. Said meeting ended up being one of my favorites, a lot of improv that included musicals, a hologram room, feasts and a hammer to his OCs face xD

Werewolfsister’ss response to my comic got me waxing sentimental! This method of collaborating is a little different from CDN because it's more art focused but the same process applies. You chat with folks, you work on outlines or do fun improvs on the fly!

The other difference I noticed is how small cameos can turn into stories of their own!  Characters who appeared in her comic regularly are usually because communication continued between people. Some surprise art pieces prompted other people to reply with their own art. Like werewolf’s response said, it's how we ran into each other! I remember a few months back they were asking folks if they had diplomat characters they could include in their comic, and originally I wasn't going to join because of my own anxiety. But I realized nothing ventured, nothing gained, created Kaska and said “here's my submission!”

They later sent me a message asking if the zorca could participate in assisting other characters in a scene, and asked me questions regarding scenarios, and I answered to give an idea of what they could or couldn't do. I was excited for even the smallest role xD so when they asked more questions I gave more answers and ideas! The person who sent their “warning” to me the other day made an assumption my characters were being controlled by her, but everything dealing with them has my hand prints on it as well. Like with my friends on CDN, I offered suggestions, helped when they hit a roadblock and asked if I could contribute with my art!

Thinking on CDN, I know the roadblocks I personally hit was the lack of communication between parties involved. Like with my writing partner who didn't want to help do the work. I ran into others who came and went and the one complaint that stuck out for me was how I formed a “clique” with semirampant-dwickery, but the thing was, I sought their help the most because I knew they were fun and easy to speak with, and they helped me when I hit my own roadblocks. They proved to be a trustworthy and supportive partner! So of course I worked with them often! He’s done so much to write stories to get other members involved. 

I've received messages years later from people who admitted they made assumptions about us, and how anxiety kept them from joining our threads. I still grieve over those missed opportunities at times because I personally thought they were heckin cool! It is what it is though 😔

Because of those experiences and how difficult it can be to organize projects; I want to give werewolfsister praise for their hard work, their positive attitude, and welcoming presence. It's not easy communicating with a number of people, making outlines for the plot, and then drawing a comic where I've literally witnessed you dish out TEN+ PAGES A DAY. And you've been doing this since MAY! It's a lot of things to juggle alone. 

To the casual onlooker, it might look like a simple project with guest appearances she has full control of. But cameos remain cameos unless someone speaks up and offers more info and help. And characters who've had longer appearances were all discussed with her in chats; from permissions, to story outlines and boundaries. I've had the privilege to watch and be part of these discussions 👍 

I kept thinking about disengaging from the zora community, because of how that message had me focusing on the negative. It was one harassment message but honestly that's enough. I know why it came about, and I hate how that kind of negativity made me want to cut off from everything. Wanting to isolate is my knee jerk response because it made me paranoid. Who else am I upsetting? Who else will send more “warnings?” I'm an old millennial, I'm not here to have beef with strangers on the internet.

The paranoia has been an issue for me and that message “cemented” some other worries I had. For example, I made a previous post asking folks if they had characters that played instruments, then tried to clarify if anyone would be okay with their OCs interacting with Cironus. I got a few responses, but the tumblr dm responses I received, however, were details of who not to associate with, along with a fatphobic remark about Cironus. It left me feeling on edge: one wrong move from myself or my character, one piece of art that didn’t depict every detail correctly, and I was guaranteed to set something off.

I understand there are folks who have extremely personal connections to their characters, and I sympathize and respect that. And for the sake of everyone’s mental well being, I’m going to avoid them. Characters carrying that level of weight need complete control by the creator, and collaborating with others by definition means you have to relinquish some of that control. It requires that you retain a modicum of trust that other players are acting in good faith and not out to ruin your character. No one else gives over that control but you.

Collaboration is about trust, communication, and teamwork. CDN thrived when people came together, but if someone didn’t find the idea appealing, they chose to go solo and found other outlets. I came to this community with the hopes of creating stories with others. And if they don’t want that, like it was with the forum, we move on.

I know we can curate our spaces so we are surrounded by the things we enjoy, and choose to be around those who are supportive and understanding, but I’m not feeling very confident about finding more folks to work with. That’s not an invite to say you want to either. I need to think, and writing this helps me think. My original plan was to post about my zorca and Cironus to give what audience that's out there a better idea of my characters. 

As I write this I realize what I’m tired of is having to set things up like I’m preparing for an audition. I just want to draw, I want to include people and make them happy with the things I draw. This is a hobby I’m trying to have fun with. Outside of my friend group, I don’t think I’ve been able to casually share ideas about my characters with other people. I want to be seen, and connect with others. In turn, that usually became a chain of helping others feel seen too.

The negativity makes you feel powerless at times, but we have the ability to build the kind of communities we want. It takes time, it takes people you trust. I don’t want to say “be the change you want to see” because to me it always implied you have to do it alone. And we don’t.  CDN had a set of rules when working with others that allowed the community to last for years, and the one I try to follow the most is don’t be an asshole. Be kind, be respectful, uplift others when you can, and when you take, give back to others as well.

[huntershowl-moving]

Positivity hour! Tell us about your favourite RP partner and your favourite thread! <3

OOH! i love positivity hour! cut for length because WORDY BITCH DISEASE STRIKES AGAIN APPARENTLY!

i don't think i could pin down just one favorite because i'm so incredibly lucky to have so many amazing partners during this sephblog golden age. this is only a few of the ppl who have touched my presence here and live in my brain rent free rn, i wish i could remember all of them but a shortlist will have to do o7

i will shoutout @harerazor and @tewwor for being my OGs, my rp besties, the truest mfs who always stick around through my year-long (sometimes years-long) absences and whenever i come back to discord or the dash, it's like we never left <3 AND for following me into my hyperfixation zones omg. writing windbreaker and jjk muses would be so much more lonely without u two in my life. <3

on the topic of OGs, @spiritcrown, @never-surrender and @bcdomens are the CREW!!!!!!!! THE FIRST PPL I EVER WROTE WITH AND SOME OF MY FAV FOLKS ON THIS HELLSITE you guys are the best. ily. connecting with u guys again felt like coming home.

@favorskill has ascended past the title of rp partner and into the title of friend. rio is one of my favorite people ever, genuinely, he's so cool and so skilled with writing/worldbuilding/watching his DICE MAKING SKILLS GROW has been so amazing too??? i care u so much rio. biting u. even when my brain is hopelessly deep in the fixation hole i am thinking about u and ur muses always <3

also shoutout to my wife @vsagis / @theixth (bc ik uve been on this one today) for just being like??? overall such a lovely person and an amazing writer??? our main dynamic is so deep and expansive we're starting to develop an extended universe for them. i love them i LOVE THEM TO DEATH. alex u match my freak ily i hope i get this job so we can hang out irl <3

speaking of matching my freak, @koseigu and i get along like a house on fire, and i don't think the world is truly ready for us. the more dynamics we develop, the more dangerous we become. everything we do with geto & sephsho ROCKS and i am terrified (excited) to see where seph and sukuna lead us in our newest explorations. we get up to some absolutely nasty (hot) shit with our creatures and it's always an amazing time. hehe

@chaoslulled hol you are so so so special to me. i owe u so many things and im so sorry omg but i literally never stop thinking about our threads & dynamics they're soooo good. i think you're one of the only partners i've actually been able to maintain Main Threads with over a long period of time?? there's something about the way we write together that makes that actually work in my brain which is super unusual JSDKJDHJKD i'm not complaining though, i love it so much. also your ocs are spinning around in my head on a daily basis, especially char because seph, chiaki and geto all like her very much. <3 ALSO. U ARE THE REASON I WRITE GETO. I HATE IT HERE HE WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE HOW COULD U DO THIS TO ME (affectionate). ur satoru is always the one he and seph come back to first because he is the original.

@quillheel and i have been mutuals for a while but didn't start regularly chatting until recently, and geto has been keeping me hostage in our 1x1 server over the last week or so, it's a problem, please help me. please. my crops are dying. also ur my current record breaker on "most fucked up start to an rp dynamic" with sukuna and rusa and im gonna be real i think u might hold that title for a while KJSDHIUSDHSJDHSJKDHJSKDH

@hinodae gray i think i would follow u to the ends of the earth. our little accidental threads have been some of my favorites ever, and i love to PIECES every one of our ship dynamics so far. thank u for being just as much of a slut for ships as i am, i feel like we match each other's energy and vibe so well!! TUMBLR BETTER UN-SHADOWBAN U SOON OR IM GONNA THROW HANDS >:'O

@eraserisms and @rcguish u two are like a package deal in my brain. D.A., the fact that we exist on the same chef wavelength always makes me so happy. i love seph and shota so much, they make me Hurt in all the best ways and i'm lookin forward to getting more into todoroki's voice so we can keep building out shota becoming his dad i mean mentoring him! and rys!!! i know ur absolutely going thru it rn so we haven't been talking as much lately, but i'm still just as feral for our dynamics as ever. seph and shouta's broken friendship. shou and orion's blossoming romance. seph has so many feelings and thoughts about silver that i don't even know how to articulate but that might need its own separate post. blowing u kisses.

lastly but not leastly, @gomannakami we only connected recently but we've already got this absolutely TRAGIC AND BEAUTIFUL set of pairings going on. satoru and chiaki are so stupidly cute and so so sad. seph and suguru are still in the beginning stages but i LOVE writing them sort of dancing around each other, the mutual pining is so spicy and delicious.

AS FOR THREADS!!!!!

ooh. hm. fuck. i think my first thought is always gonna be my longer-running threads with @chaoslulled — the one that stands out the most in my mind rn is the thread where satoru found seph on the brink of collapse after a hellhound kill. it was only the second thread we ever wrote together, and i ACUTELY remember how nervous i was that it was too intense and i was gonna scare hol away with it because that's happened so many times before. SJDHKSJHD

another one that comes to mind is one of my first threads with @tewwor's litho, which started with the simple inbox prompt "can't sleep?" and ended up turning into one of our longest threads to date and spiraling out into the longest fucking slowburn of this blog's career. i loved it. i'll never stop thinking about that apple.

[sobblesources]

FROM NOW ON , I DON'T NEED YA .

a collection of sentence starters from linkin park's newest album , ' from zero ' . edited to fit rp needs , adjust pronouns as necessary .

❛ i let you cut me open just to watch me bleed . ❜

❛ i gave up who i am for who you wanted me to be , ❜

❛ i don't know why i'm hoping for what i won't receive . ❜

❛ it's been decided how we lose . ❜

❛ i only wanted to be part of something . ❜

❛ i can't look you in the eye . ❜

❛ i can't even tell if you've been telling me a lie . ❜

❛ i grew up thinking trying meant you never really lose . ❜

❛ you're acting like the truth & your opinion are identical . ❜

❛ something in my head feels broken . ❜

❛ you will always choose just to watch it burn . ❜

❛ we both know how the story ends . ❜

❛ you can't win if your white flag is out when the war begins . ❜

❛ today's gonna be the day you notice . ❜

❛ this is what you asked for . ❜

❛ you should've bit your tongue . ❜

❛ i try to hold it in , but it keeps bleeding out . ❜

❛ i'm looking for color in the black & white . ❜

❛ all we are is talking over each other . ❜

❛ are we over each other ? ❜

❛ i can't go to sleep . ❜

❛ say what's underneath , i want to see your side . ❜

❛ set me free , ❜

❛ i know all the secrets you keep , ❜

❛ i won't be your casualty , ❜

❛ you drew the first blood . ❜

❛ you closed the doors while i'm fed to the dogs , ❜

❛ stop telling me you're something that you're not . ❜

❛ i can see the greed right in your eyes . ❜

❛ it's all the same to me , ❜

❛ we're all dressed up for a riot , ❜

❛ i know i can't make it stop , ❜

❛ last time i was hanging by a thread , ❜

❛ you put me over the edge , ❜

❛ you should have recognized it's too late for choosing sides . ❜

❛ stop yelling at me ! ❜

❛ i'm trying so hard to be sympathetic , ❜

❛ you have a closed - lipped smile cause there's blood on your teeth . ❜

❛ you lied like i was nothing , ❜

❛ your alibi started slipping . ❜

❛ we both know forgotten doesn't mean forgiven , ❜

❛ you don't get to make amends like your hands are clean , ❜

❛ i gave you everything i have ! ❜

❛ all you give me is your ugliness, ❜

❛ ( i'm / you're ) just a devil with a god complex . ❜

❛ i say i hate you when i don't . ❜

❛ it's hard to laugh when i'm the joke . ❜

❛ i've asked for forgiveness a hundred times . ❜

❛ maybe the problem is mine . ❜

❛ fuck all your empathy . ❜

❛ don't get too intimate . ❜

[rosetintedgunman]

-

The sound of someone clearing their throat belatedly had Wilford glance up. Ah. There was someone here. That was a surprise. Maybe they had been hiding in the grass? Or maybe Wilford simply couldn't see them because they were beyond the field of non-blurry vision.

Oh! It's a man! Funny that. "Me? No." That sounded like a rather sensible answer to Wilford. He lowered his head to admire the flowers, only to remember he should probably say a little more than that. "Pretty flowers. Not used ta seein' 'em up close."

@rosetintedgunman

Ah, spring. A wonderful time of year — warmer weather, new beginnings, and the opportunity to cater to nature better.

Or at least in Connor's opinion anyway. This is part of the reason why he's even outside today, catering to his own garden tentatively, revelling in the peace of the afternoon.

That is, until he's interrupted by the sight of a rather large man peering over his fence. Connor is immediately on his feet, silent for a moment before calmly rather loudly clearing his throat, staring at him with a cold glare. "Do you need something?"

[davidkarofskyindie]

OOC: End

So might as well make this official, I think I'm going to just have to call it with this blog and with the general indie RP space in general. I've been kind of thinking about this for a while if I'm being honest, probably for the last 3 months (roughly when my post count hit about 4 a day, if I was even lucky enough to do that) but I think I've hit the point where I either make it official or I'm just stringing people along.

I started this blog on Jun 22, 2014, I've been on Tumblr as an indie RPer for a little over 10 years and that's probably more than enough. I've been here so long I was in the era of Rper's who had a folder of porn gifs because we could actually post them with our replies instead of as links on meme posts, I've been here so long that several people I used as faces had time to become too problematic to use. It's time for me to move on.

This means that every thread I currently have going on with this blog will be dropped and I do apologise for that (especially to those who only recently started something with me) but I've officially tapped all my muse and just have to call it.

Now, this does not mean I'm going to delete this blog. I wrote too much, it feels weird to hit one button to make it all go away in one go (plus, who knows how I'll feel in a few months). I'm gonna keep this account up but just do nothing with it, barring some sudden shift in my lifestyle/ability to manage time, it's an archive now.

I do wish I didn't have to do this but I think this was inevitable. I've really enjoyed playing with all of you, it's been great and maybe I'll be back someday to play around some more but for now, this is the end of this blog

[sootchild]

A bit of vent art. That I can't post on my other socials cause I am followed by some (ex) party members and I don't want to make them feel bad. This is my blog so I can run my mouth as I want.

RIP El and Beth. I ended up quitting the Pathfinder: War for the Crown game due to some player drama, in that I can't stand Varris' player continuously ruining the vibes of sessions. Frankly I stopped drawing session moments because of his antics. Which is a real shame when there was some just golden moments.

I had been incredibly involved in the campaign: multiple RP threads, drawings, complex and intriguing personal story lines. I left off with El and Beth looking on how to break the Summoner/Eidolon bond. Trying to resurrect El's ghost daughter, we had just found a Shinigami to help detangle her soul from her living little sister's, Phephie (Spiritualist class thing). El figuring out she is polyamorous and in love with a party member, while being engaged to just the sweetest barbarian man. Helping her best friend figure out how to take down her Hag mother. Meanwhile looming in the background is the threat of her very controlling parents, looking to force her into strategic marriages.

There was a lot going on, WHILE, helping to put the Princess on the throne!! So I am going to miss it and miss the rest of the group.

I saw this trend with him all the way back towards the end of Call of Cthulhu: Masks of Nyarlathotep like 2.5 years ago, then it got worse during Pulp Cthulhu and then snowballed with the first book of War for the Crown. I was planning on being quiet and make it through the campaign before talking with the group about not wanting to game with him.

But two sessions ago he pulled some real Leroy Jenkins bullshit cause he was bored, because he rarely pays attention, gets confused, and then does something disruptive in character. Cause it is just so quirky! So I told the DM that I was finally getting fed up, and he said he'd talk to him within the two weeks before the next session. Well he didn't so this last session was my LAST session. Cause he did the exact same things that drive me fuck'n nuts.

The party doesn't want to give him the boot without giving him a chance to change his behaviours, which fair. I don't begrudge them that but I also don't have to endure him. So here I am typing this up as a way to mourn one of my most favourite gaming groups.

So now I guess I'll hyper fixate on a different or new OC. Sky's the limit!

I mean I still have my Monday game and in September the Delta Green stream game I am in will start back up. So like this is some tiny violin stuff.

[cervidae-demon]

So with that I will have to remind everyone here to

PLEASE NOT REBLOG THREADS YOU'RE NOT A PART OF.

I thought it was basic unspoken RP Tumblr rules but apparently not! I do not care if you think it's beautifully written (thank you for the compliment by the way, I'm very proud of how my english improved those last few years) but it's just rude to reblog threads you're not a part of!

It's like going to complete strangers while they talk to each other and either start to join in on the conversation without being asked to or, in that case, just... stare blankly at them.

You can enjoy the threads and read them all you want, I do not mind, or else I would roleplay in private only, but please, again, for the love of all the gods, do NOT reblog threads you are not a part of!

[blackcurlsgreeneyes]

RP: The Sun Will Come Out // Closed RP

continued from thread with @fidelixcorde

Harry couldn't remember the last time he had felt this happy, in recent years. It would have also been credit to Taylor or the Weasleys, no doubt....but this was just a perfect moment. He was surrounded by people he cared about, a large family that was expanding, and he had Taylor, Ron, and Hermione beside him. It was the perfect way to celebrate reaching wizarding legal adulthood.

Taylor's purred promise made him blush, trying not to let his imagination get away from him. Though judging by the knowing smirk on George's face, he might not be too far off.... And that proved true, as he was sneakily led away from Charlie's haircut doom and upstairs.

Now that was how to celebrate a birthday.

His hair was unapologetically ruffled and he had to switch shirts to something with a higher collar to cover a particularly gorgeous bite left on his collarbone, and Harry was grinning helplessly as they rejoined the family downstairs. Hermione took one look at him, then Taylor, then went pink and giggled, and George gave him a passing high five that confirmed his suspicion of who had been on keep everyone downstairs duty.

Their dinner guests began arriving, and Harry found himself seated at the head of the table in the garden as they feasted, and then Molly brought out truly the most breathtaking culinary creation he had ever seen. He had to leap up and hug her again, tears in his eyes as he thanked her.

"First day of the best start of my life," Harry said fondly, beaming back at Hagrid. "I mean, having Taylor growing up was grand, but finding out we were headed for Hogwarts....life got good." He examined the small bag Hagrid handed him, and its explanation made him smile, hopping up to give Hagrid the closest to a hug that he could manage. "Thank you! This is amazing." Oh, it would come in handy as they traveled, he was sure of that.

“S’nothin’,” Hagrid laughed. “An’ there’s Charlie! Always liked him—hey! Charlie!” Charlie approached, running his hand slightly ruefully over his new, brutally short haircut. He was shorter than Ron, thickset, with a number of burns and scratches up his muscly arms. “Hi, Hagrid, how’s it going?” “Bin meanin’ ter write fer ages. How’s Norbert doin’” “Norbert?” Charlie laughed. “The Norwegian Ridgeback? We call her Norberta now.” “Wha—Norbert’s a girl?”

“How can you tell?” Hermione asked with intrigue.

“They’re a lot more vicious.” Charlie grinned knowingly. "Can't say that's unusual, though, I've always thought women are scarier by far. He looked over his shoulder and dropped his voice. “Wish Dad would hurry up and get here. Mum’s getting edgy."

Harry looked over; Molly was talking to Madame Delacour, while glancing repeatedly at the gate. “I think we’d better start without Arthur,” she called to the garden at large after a moment or two. “He must have been held up at—oh!”

A streak of light that came flying across the yard and onto the table, where it resolved itself into a bright silver weasel, which stood on its hind legs and spoke with Mr. Weasley’s voice. “Minister of Magic coming with me.”

The Patronus vanished, leaving Mrs. Weasley looked bewildered. “The Minister—but why—? I don’t understand...."

[faruzxn]

a teeeeeeny little notice

Hello! Faruzan mod here.

If you've noticed, most of the accounts that I run (known to the public) have not been very active recently. After I dropped uhm my last Steambird issue I was VERY burnt out, HAHA. It was very taxing on my energy and motivation and I didn't really feel in the mood to rp or write for the Steambird or anything.

While I still feel a tad burnt out, I'm going to try to return back to my normal activeness!! For the time being, though, I'll probably stick to replying to any asks that pop into my inbox(es).

I'm also going to officially be putting the Steambird on a hiatus, and until I see anything really silly I can write about.

to explain about the Steambird, its just that as of late and for the past few months, Genshin-official hasn't been as silly as it had been back in July of 2023. I joined this community because of how silly it was and I love being apart of it. And while I love all the multipara roleplay and serious worldbuilding and character development of all these accounts, it just feels so foreign to me.

I think when I feel better I'll try to interact with more accounts and be really silly! but despite still being a minor, i do still have to juggle my own life. (Okay, well, there's nothing really to juggle im just really unmotivated.)

And to be so honest, writing about the serious occurrences in the community just does not bring me any joy. It's interesting, sure, but writing the Steambird has just lost its spark for me. I'm basically a one man show too HAHA. Not to discredit my amazing link finder Minie. But I just don't think I feel up to the task and I'm sorry to anybody who enjoyed my issues. I want be able to give the same silly quality of issues like I did in my first two Steambird specials. People liked that and I felt so happy that they did and now reading back on my articles they just feel so bland and unexcited. I want to bring back that silly quality for my readers.

And with this hiatus, I think I may consider deleting or repurposing several accounts to characters that I truly love and enjoy and whatever. Because honestly despite being an ongoing inside joke between the early members of the Genshin-official community, having 22 roleplay accounts is A LOT.

And I also recognize that with the Dragonspine RP threads most of the halt in finishing it is.. my fault, actually. But I intend to get back in on it so we can finally put a finish to the narrative we as a community have scripted together!! (The Mondstadt portion, anyway.)

Uhm... I dont think i have anything else to say, but thank you to everyone who has followed and laughed and smiled at my accounts because you truly all brighten up my days.

Thank you.

that sounded so depressing i swear im not quitting

[brokenstarwishes]

Colors of the Shadows

At request of Dela- here's a little snippet from whats going on while an unconcious birb and sadness are out of comission in a certain rp thread~ TW for mentions of self-harm, self-destruction, and general self-talk.

If yall want more of these tidbits that talk more about Sol, Dela, and their universe I guess let us know???

Mentions of a handful of folks from a server we're in, including @novafollowstheuniverse

Well…Ripping the whole soul out of your chest wasn't what you expected. You couldn't get up even if you wanted to- both your body and the soul itself being so weak, so exhausted after the last month or so of events both in the sketchbook and in general. But that doesn't mean you were entirely unconscious. Just…somewhere else. Somewhere where life and death meet, somewhere where the whispers of the silent can become heard once more. Somewhere…where you could both talk, freely.

"Stars, that hurt." You groaned, a hand on what you…figure was your forehead. Your memories were returning, slowly, just enough for you to know that you were definitely in trouble later. You were dizzy- Stars above were you dizzy- but you could just about make out the…area?…you were in. You weren't…quite sure where you were. Shades of all types danced across your vision, yet formed no shapes- just endless amounts of…colors. It made your head hurt. Just as you were about to get up to question what had truly happened, another groan caught you off guard- jolting a little before turning towards the voice. ( "You aren't the one who had to tear your blinding body apart, shut it." ) Delaisser… Your saddness that had formed more recently from your newer traumas, of scars that still hadn't fully healed- and eventually did take over. Right… in its own grief, it had torn you out of your body. "A little dramatic, aren't we?" That earned you a pointed glare from the shadow, causing a little snicker from your form. In the colored light, you could see it for what it truly was… And…Stars- they looked like a little kid. Hunched over, with half of your soul… baby blue, just a few shades muted. Scars were already starting to form in the tears it had created across his chest, painted a deep red as a result of the broken Wishcraft dagger that had been used. Half…of you.

You…slowly sat down next to them. This wasn't the first time confronting yourself- so this time you weren't nearly as frantic, nearly as horrified. You look down to yourself- half shaded in, with your own half of a soul- bright baby blue. You barely looked present- just barely clinging on to what you had left. You figured if Dela had spent any longer in your body…if you hadn't woken up, you would've been lost entirely. As Delaisser sat up themselves, you glance back over to them…Its bright eyes staring into your softer ones. They looked scared…so scared, so nervous. One of you needed to talk first…so…you guess…

"Guess we know what that knife felt like for It, huh?" You joked, a half smile on your face. You felt the swift bap on your head, causing a laugh. ( "That's not funny, Stars!! You're really messed up, you know that?!" ) "I know…" You sigh, running a hand over your face. Or…lack thereof? You couldn't tell, your brain just outright would not process shapes…let alone features. Dela watched your movement and looked away itself. ( "What was the point of going through all of this again?" ) They asked you, looking at what you figured was the floor. You pause at that…After all, what could you even say to that? "… I guess I just…didn't want to lose anyone else. I lost my partners, my family, my friends, so many times… I couldn't bear to deal with it again- to the point I was willing to throw everything away…just to keep it from happening." You eventually respond, sheepishly. ( "Not that I was much help with that…" ) It admitted, with just as much pensiveness. You laid down, staring at the infinite everything. In this moment- you were…apart of it all. You...guess you had time to kill. Silence fell between you both, for a short time, before you decided to speak again. "Can I ask you something, Del? Can....Can I call you Del?" ( "Not that it's going to matter much, but sure." ) "...What was the point of all of this? The impulsive thoughts, the violent urges, the self loathing-- all of it?" You turned your head slightly, looking at your shadow from the corner of your eye. It seemed to shift a little in discomfort. ( "...I was just saying what you were saying to yourself. Over, and over, and over again. What you wanted to do, over and over again. It's not my fault you have no sense of emotional regulation, Solaris." ) "I-" You pout a little at that last remark, but decide to let it slide for the time being. Besides...it had a point. Everything in Dormont, everything before, and even now- you still didn't know how to contain all your intense emotions without them just...exploding out of you inevitably! "...You're right... I don't. And it ends up often hurting those I want to protect. Even when I have good intentions, or when I think I'm doing things for their benefit- it often just...hurts them." ( "Pyxis, Mal, Nova, Ben, Yourself... You've hurt alot of people- not just by your actions, but by your own assumptions of how they percieve you and how you assume they'll behave." ) You...couldn't argue with that. Tears well up in your eyes, but...you don't cry. You're not even sure if you could, anymore. ( "You have to ask yourself; does that make you a monster? Or does that make you someone who...just needs someone who will work with them?" ) You sat up a little at that. What...what exactly did it mean by that? As if reading your mind, Dela continues. ( "What happened in the aftermath of your huge meltdown in the House? Your family was there for you- even if they were still irritated with you. They understood you aren't a lost cause- just someone who needs time and help. What happened when Mal saw you try to off yourself for the first time? They still eventually forgave you...and even felt guilty themselves about the whole ordeal." ) You listened to it explain, looking away... those were, in fact, things you had done- whether you liked it or not. You still felt the sting of the dagger, felt the exhaustion of all the craft you used- though both could be also be due from practically pulling the same damned stunt a second time... and this time, you weren't sure if you would get a second chance to make it right.

( "My point is- even when you have been at your worst...the people who do truly care about you WOULD be there for you, if you're willing to LET THEM actually be there for you." ) "But...I don't understand... WHY?! I've done so many bad things- things that most people would HATE ME for doing..." ( "Does it matter?" ) "Huh?" ( "Does it really, truly matter why?" ) "Well, yeah but-" ( "They're still going to care about you whether or not you know why they do. It's not going to change how they act- and by doing worse and worse things to try and get that sort of reaction you expect from them you'll just end up pushing them away!" ) "..." ( "Is that what you want?! To be alone again, after everything you went through to get here!?" ) "...No..." You sigh, and admit defeat in that regard. You lay back down, staring at the sky. The colors...they were all so pretty... "But... Don't I deserve it?" ( "Do you?" ) "Stars above, could you give a straight answer for once?!" ( "I'm you, you know the answer to that." ) You groan as Dela lets out a cheeky little laugh. You could just make out the cat-like grin on their features, although it was all blurry- like the watercolor pages of Her sketchbook.

"Isn't this supposed to normally go the opposite way?" You remark, after a beat. Dela gives another laugh- it's a bit rougher than yours, hoarse and exhausted- before it responds. ( "Probably. But I'm also apart of you. Part of you that wants to help..." ) "Yeah, good job at that." ( "Your impulse control is garbage!" ) It pouts at that, crossing its arms (you think) and looking away. You laugh again, and sigh. "...Is any of this going to matter? I mean... you kinda did destroy my body- better or worse. Which, THANKS by the way." ( "Hey it's not my fault you were basically beating on my chest from the inside out! And....And..." ) For the first time since you two had started talking, it didn't seem to have an answer. After a good moment of hesitation, it sighs. ( "...I don't know. That place wasn't exactly relegated by any of the Aspects. It's entirely possible that by doing that we're..." ) You both fall silent.

( "I do get the feeling Nova wouldn't let us die so easily, though..." ) Dela reminds you, and you give a soft laugh and a small nod. "Let's hope she has any idea what she's doing..."

( "You didn't answer your own question, by the way." ) You...pause. You had forgotten the question already, hadn't you? You look away sheepishly, and Dela laughs. ( "Do you deserve to suffer for your actions? Do you deserve to be alone again after all you've done?" ) You sat there for a moment. You...didn't know the answer to that. You wanted to say yes, of course, but that was also because it was you. So...what would Mirabelle say? What would Odile say? What would... What would Isabeau say?

"...No one deserves to suffer the same way I put myself through. Actions do need to have consequences, yes, and that's...that's something I believe in... but the way I go about it is... ineffective at best." ( "-And self destructive at worst." ) Dela finished for you, nodding in agreement. ( "I think its from one of your memories...one of the ones thats faded away, anyway. Something with your family...but you tend to push 'punishment' way past the point of being equal to the crime you've supposedly comitted. It's...it's hurting you, and everyone you care about." ) "But...but what can I even DO about that?!" You remark, frustrated, hiding your head in your hands, "What can I DO about these feelings that are too much- the need to be punished in a way that FEELS equal to what I deserve?! Why can't I just-!?" You were tearing up again, and you...simply sigh. You can't feel the way the tears roll down your cheeks.

"Why can't I just let myself be happy?!"

For a good few minutes, there was silence...after all, what could another half of you say that you didn't already know? Dela thought it over for that time, clearly deep in thought, before eventually giving a shrug. ( "If you're struggling with regulating your self-destructive tendencies...struggling with the need for an equal- fitting- punishment, why not ask those around you? Or do something you actively know is healthy but avoid?" ) "Huh?" ( "I'm not saying shove all of our mental health responsibilities onto them, but maybe asking around for a few ideas might...help. Or at least bring some insight into someone who is more emotionally regulated." ) You...thought about that. And gave a small nod...at the very least- it was worth a shot. More than what you have been doing before.

( "As for why you can't let yourself be happy... It all comes down to a sense of confidence, Solaris. I don't... WE don't know what it is...but something growing up made us believe that we'll always be responsible for the things happening around us. Isn't it time you let that go?... Let the past go, so that you can face the brighter future?" ) "It's....It's not that simple-" ( "I know... Stars, I know it's not easy. But it's gotta be better than not trying at all--" ) "I AM TRYING!" You exclaimed in frustration, barely feeling the little drips onto your leg, "I've BEEN TRYING to become a better person and STARS ABOVE IT'S SO EXHAUSTING! I try to be the better person, to be the person that can actually HELP people- but people only ever just--!! JUST--!!!" You yell into your hands, just to get the frustration out of your body. Your body- or soul, in this state?- was glowing that bright red color... The same color as broken wishcraft. So...was this anger, then? You'd think about it later- if there even was a 'later' to go to. You wanted to kick SOMETHING, but there was...NOTHING in this weird colored void. So you settled for angrily punching the air a few good times until the glow settled back down. Dela watched your tantrum for a good moment, before sighing and looking down. ( "I... I know you've been trying. The road to getting better isn't linear, remember? Odile told you as much... But, you can't give up yet- yeah? Even just knowing how to move forward is better than not moving forward at all. Eventually, it'll become easier...eventually, it'll become second nature to you. To us." ) "...Why are you helping me, Dels?" You ask, rubbing some of the wetness off your face- tastes like salt?? Why are you able to taste from your hand-- nevermind. ( "Because I don't want to be a monster. Just like you. I just...want to protect us. Protect you, if you'll let me. I just want to move forward. But that's something you have to choose to do- rather than just saying it and moving on." ) Dela gives a small sigh, and looks outward. ( "That's all I've been ever trying to do. Trying to protect us, by going with what you intrinsically think is right... but, obviously, I've realized you aren't exactly the best teacher in protecting yourself." )"Rude." Though, still true. You fall quiet again, for a moment, scooting a bit closer to lean towards the shadow. They sigh, and put a vague motion of their arm over your shoulder in comfort. Weirdly, it felt nice...not quite warm, like the snuggles you were still getting used to- not quite cold like death itself... but something else. Something you couldn't describe. But it was comforting in a way...

If... if this was how things would end for you two, you don't think you'd mind as much. At the very least, you'd finally get some rest.

( "Promise me something, Solaris?" ) You turned to the shadow, it's eye just barely visible even this close. ( "If we get through this... if we somehow don't just keel over entirely... Please. Let others in. Let them help you, let them care about you...let yourself be happy. Please?" ) You...weren't sure if you could promise that. You felt you were still a far ways off from being anywhere close to better...but... "I'll...I'll try. For everyone. I don't know if I can promise to do so for myself, not yet...but I can do so for others sakes. So they won't have to bury a loved one... I can promise that much." Dela smiles at you, and offers a hand. You feel something form as you grab it in turn, a more solid feeling. Your vision seems to finally focus a bit better, just able to makeout Delaisser's face. A small smile, with... way too many teeth for what is definitely a small smile. Your expression softens. You may not be better yet, but you...want to try. You want to try, to make others proud. To make yourself proud. You'll try, and try, and try again if you have to. But you'll do it... if to see that smile. [ You got Memory of Shadows! You'll try to always remember this. ] "If even your own shadow can believe in you, you have to have some hope still, right?"

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roleplayer name: yo. it's a nickname a childhood friend gave me and that i did not like at the time jkskjdj but it definitely grew on me and it reminds me of her which is super sweet :33 also my favorite nickname does nooooot work well in english lmfao so yeah, yo it is.

roleplayer pronouns: she/her

preferred communication: discord for sure!! i hate tumblr dms, they're ugly and they stress me out. discord notifications aren't the best but at least it's kind of cuter and it makes me less anxious usually

experience: uhh i think i started roleplaying on tumblr in 2018?? i only rp-ed in groups for a while, dabbled in indie but gave up and then i decided to return to it last year because my best friend was also doing it and here we are

preferred roleplay type: para!!! i love, love, loooove long threads so much, like 400 words minimum!! they take longer to write but they make me so happy. i get why a lot of people might find them overwhelming and prefer shorter and quicker ones, though, (and don't get me wrong, they are absolutely necessary for me, too, i think i would go insane if i only had longer threads) so i try to contain the yapper in me jdfkjd

pet peeves & dealbreakers: hmm i think it's soooo discouraging when people don't read. i kiiiinda get why someone won't read a full character bio (i can't relate, i'm Nosy and definitely snoop around through people's blogs to learn as much about their characters as i can jdkjsjk) but not really reading the reply you're replying to??? or someone's rules?? it's super obvious and it always bums me out when i notice it. rules especially are so important for people's comfort and checking if you're compatible with someone so :// (oh also slavic names & surnames. but... that's more of a general western media thing and definitely a rant for another time djkskj)

plots or memes: i think it depends on the partner?? like if it's a mutual who i know i enjoy writing with, i think pretty much anything goes. in general i prefer plots but also usually not super in depth plots. jhfjh i just like having some kind of vague idea of what the ship/situation would be before i get to writing.

best time to write: best for productivity?? around noon. best in terms of enjoyment would be around ten pm since i'm calmer then and writing helps me de-stress further. i have plenty of free time rn so i kind of just write whenever

are you like your muse?: oh no. i think there's pieces of me in every character for sure but i would hate to write someone who's entirely like me or too much like me jhdhsk, it would make me uncomfortable and probably die of cringe. i don't really enjoy writing characters who have their shit together so i guess, in that sense, we're all alike