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WHAT RYE FUCK IS GOING ON
#this wasn't here 4 years ago#i think.#idk my mom hated me having tumblr and would force me to log off all the time#ooc#mod mj
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whoop whoop 4 year writeiversary!
#that is literally crazy talk#to think that there was a time in my life when i wasn't writing#to think that on this day 4 years ago i wrote my first piece of creative writing EVER#to think to think to think#simultaneously feeling like you have made all the progress in the world and also have accomplished absolutely nothing....#maybe that is what making art is all about#here's to the next four years i guess#nemali speaks
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There seem to be a few of you who seem to be at least be a little okay with my read on this guy. So let's... give this a whirl, shall we? It'll be a little starting attempt as to clear the rust off my fingers: inbox call for Solas. And depending on dynamic, or as ideas permit, these can be anywhere from a line from a meme list, to something more personalized. I'll be getting to these once I get some rest! (Hello 4am)
#ooc. [ don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly. ]#[ even though i wasn't able to write him a lot at all back 4 years ago-- i still had the man. and the meta in my head was intense. ]#[ i thought it couldn't get any worse. but here i am. x10. ]#[ just specify in case you're a multi! ]#[ and also if you're a dai-timeline portrayal or dynamic-- i'll jump at you. i LOVE. ]
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tsk tsk..
#ts4#sims 4#ts4 edit#?#ig#oscar#ivan#bruno#oscar was arrested most recently.. i'm sure u remember#ivan a few years ago#look at his scratty beard aaaahdksadasjk#AND BABY BRUNO#he was only like 20 here#almost 15 years ago hooo boy#ALSO because he wasn't working for artie yet.. there was no get outta jail free card so.. y'boy did some time#yikes
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.....realized I would literally rather work 12 hours a day and come home to complete silence where my space is exactly the way I like it and I don't have to continue to mask my reactions than have to work all day then come back to a roommate. wish I'd had this realization 2 months ago. I've been crying about how much I don't want to live with someone else and just NOW realized I'm an adult and I've organized my life in such a way that I don't technically Have to I can just work harder at a number of kind of shitty jobs I'm qualified for
#had a whole breakdown in private when i found out they had already leased my place i am hot mess this year#there are other places around the same price it was just. i thought about not having to move and the instant relief and hope for the future#then again i thought about not having to live with anyone else in general and that did also restore my hope for the future a tiny bit#if i had just realized i can do what i want even a month ago#:(#i don't WANT to suffer the 2-4 month mental consequences of changing where i live#i was getting a roommate because i was like. so i lose my ability to be around people and still function/hold down a job every 2 years#i should start planning for the next go around of the cycle#THEN i realized wait. i was living with my family for burnout 1#i was working 2 jobs and going to school for burnout 2#i was living with a roommate for burnout 3#(extension of burnout 2)#i was living with my family working full time and doing classes online for burnout 4#what if. here's a thought#i wasn't living with family i wasn't living with a roommate i wasn't in school#and i worked the same shitty job that gave me $16 an hour#but at the end of the day i just didn't have to do any other work#hm.#idk if i will even be able to find a place that accepts me on my own without a guaranteed income but#god it would help me keep a guaranteed income to live alone#who knows maybe i'd even be able to get therapy for the fact that i have never felt truly comfortable around anyone irl#it's always been like i had to force myself through anyway but what if i got to stop for even like 2 years
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lahore fort on film
#realized i never posted these here i want them on the blog#this is like over a year ago :( I dont miss lahore That much bc it wasn't the best trip lol but looking at these makes me so :((#i wanna go back and go to all the pther historical places and do actual fun cool stuff and take more pictures#the way i went for like 4 months last year and barely did Anything bc it was just . so much family so much just staying at Home#also the tour guide told us the tree in the last picture is like 300 years old i think???#mp#pk
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The view out my hotel window is this:
The view on the crane cam is this:
So I guess I spent hundreds of dollars and 20 hours in my car (with a traumatized cat) to sit in a fucking hotel room for a day.
#the morning tour is not canceled but i don't think i want to stand outside for 3 hours in a fucking blizzard#won't be able to see anyway#just gonna sit here and cry i guess#like last time i went somewhere that wasn't a family obligation was 3 or 4 years ago?#i never get to go anywhere because I'm fucking poor#and i work so goddamn hard and just wanted to have something nice for once#so i bought a camera and hundreds of dollars of stuff for oscar for the car#two hundred for the hotel and idk $150 for gas#and 10 hours is a lot of time to spend in the car!#especially with a cat who tracked shit everywhere!#i just wanted to see some fucking birds
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apparently now we get to have flashbacks to the weird period between mid 2015 and late 2016 where our mental health took some absolutely wild hits, plus the odd flashback to mid 2017, so I guess it's time to deal with this stuff again
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#I've had like 3 or 4 different things today that kind of combined to be really triggering and bring up some stuff from years ago#this stuff's always weird to deal with because it's from before I was here#like these are our memories but they're not my memories. I wasn't around for them#I used to not be able to remember any of it without other alters that were there telling me about it and showing me the memories#and I know a lot of these are memories that my source memories would normally mask because the emotions are the same#they're not even necessarily specific big events. we get a lot of mundane flashbacks and that's mostly what this is#but it still ends up being a really shitty time because of stuff like nostalgia and the fact that we were doing so badly back then#I think there's a lot of emotions that should have just happened and then finished happening and dissipated or whatever emotions do#but instead got shoved down and just stuck around as they were at the time and they randomly pop back up seemingly just as strong#so now our brain thinks it's 2016 again and I have to deal with the wild emotional shit we had going on as a teenager
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just had an unreasonably bitchy reaction, see yall in 20 minutes when im crying because i was unreasonably bitchy
#i really really need to get that adhd diagnosis 🫠#bc my bitchy reaction was because i didn't communicate early enough that i wouldn't be coming to a family thing today#in my defence i was never told any start time or anything else; just a 'will you be there' a week ago.#wasn't told who would be there or how long or what exactly#and tbh since i was only told like over dinner without anything written to remind me it didn't feel like a thing so important#that id have to give a few days notice#like im not the only one at fault here#sure i could have said that i have no energy to come earlier#ugh this feels like being a teenager all over again#every single fucking christmas my parents play tug of war for who of them im gonna visit on christmas#'but we don't want to guilt trip you' well cool i still feel guilt tripped i haven't stopped feeling guilt tripped since i was fucking 14#it's fucking always spend time with us this spend time with us that as if i want to split up my fucking weekend#every fucking time i ride the train to my hometown for 4 hours with oh yes even more traveling#it's always the 'no pressure but we want to see you again' like saying no pressure somehow takes off all pressure#at least my mom openly guilt trips me while my dad and stepmom somehow believe that they're not stressing me tf out#i swear next year im going to neither on christmas. maybe going to my boyfriend.
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#attiki is burning AGAIN#and it gets worse every year#and you know what the government does?! nothing!!! absolutely nothing#and the worst part? civilians voted for them again! as if evoia 2 years ago wasn't enough#and here we are 2-3 weeks after the government was elected for another 4 years and we're back with more wildfires#an animal sanctuary was burnt to the ground and people are trapped at the beach#the skyline of my town is blood red and filled with smoke and the sight is just disheartening and eerie#i dare anyone to tell me that it's 'just a heatwave and climate change is not real'
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my allergies are so bad they negatively impact my mental health and I'm just very tired of everything
#4 hours of sleep ✌️🥴 cause I can't ever actually breathe out of my nose#and if I can't breathe I literally cannot sleep no matter fuckin what#and they just decided while doing surgery for something else years ago that even upon seeing how BAD my deviated septum is#that it wasn't their responsibility to fix to or even refer me to anyone else who could just oh fuck this girl#so idk man. you try functioning on 4 hours of sleep. repeatedly. for months.#see how uhhh mentally stable you are!!!!! l#decongestant medication does fuck all. now I don't have the money to see a dr. like. I'm fuckin tired man.#and this has happened to most of my dad's family! Dr's just go oh yeah that's a bad one hahaha oh well!#my dad deals with this. my brother. my grandma even went through it like. I'm just so fuckin TIRED#not getting sleep fucks me up SO BAD mental health wise like it's SO BAD it actually scares me how bad it gets if I can't sleep 😔#I'm purely venting here idgaf anymore I'm like a zombie for 3 days now I fuckin hate this#erin explains it all
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I would like to see more people talk about how jobs treat disabled employees.
I used to prep, wash dishes, and cook at mellow mushroom. I had chronic pain that wasn't NEARLY as bad as it is today, but it was still very debilitating. I told my employer "i cannot stand more than 4 to 6 hours. I CANNOT do shifts longer than this due to my illness." And even though i made my boundaries VERY clear, everyday i worked it was 8 hours at the least and 10 or 12 at the most. I would go up to my manager and say "look i really need to leave, my shift is over, my chronic pain is killing me." And he'd say "we really need to here, you HAVE to push through." And so i did, and after one, ONE month of that job my crps got incredibly worse to the point where i could no longer walk my dog around the block which was .5 miles. I quit, and that was FOUR years ago, and ever since that day I HAVE BEEN BEDRIDDEN AND HAVE TO USE A WHEELCHAIR. It is my biggest regret in life.
My best friend who has seen my whole journey has recently developed undiagnosed chronic pain, and she is in the EXACT same scenario i was 4 years ago. Busting her ass at a pizza place with extreme pain that hurts her so much she tells me "im in so much pain i don't even feel like a person." She doesn't feel LUCID. And her manager and coworkers are saying the same thing "if you don't help us you will let us down, we'll be in the shit."
That job thats hurting you isn't fucking worth it. I promise you no money is worth losing all your physical abilities and never getting them back. Your coworkers and boss do not give a shit about you, so don't you dare suffer for them. They will never understand your struggle and they will never try. They truly think being understaffed is worse than whatever pain you experience. They would rather you permanently damage yourself than inconvenience them. FUCK THEM. DON'T FUCKING DO IT!
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Hey, are you a broke motherfucker trying to save money on groceries and attempting to plan for having food in the house at the end of the month? Do you have a good system for storing frozen meat? If you don't, here's how I do it:
Large Bastard called me when I was at the plasma center (we're broke motherfuckers!) to tell me that Aldi had nearly expired pork chops (use or freeze by tomorrow) for 50% off, so I told him to get 4 packs.
I keep my freezer pretty full with homemade stock, frozen meat, frozen veggies, frozen fruit, and g-free bread, so I can't just stick the big packages of pork chops directly in the freezer, and besides if I do, the pork chops will freeze to each other and then I'll have to thaw the whole mass of them if i want to cook them, which will increase thawing time.
So what I do instead is make an accordion of waxed paper and fill it with pork chops.
This ends up saving a ton of space, and means I can choose to thaw 8 pieces or 1 piece or however much I need at a time.
3 packs stored this way are smaller than 1 pack from the store.
The final accordion of meat gets wrapped in a layer of waxed paper, then put into a freezer bag with the air pressed out, and now if I don't have cash for groceries I've still got something to eat.
This is also the way that I save meat that is close to its spoilage date that I won't be able to cook before it goes bad. If you stick a family pack of chicken breasts in the freezer, you have a family pack of chicken breasts to thaw. If you put them into little waxed paper envelopes, you've got single serving packets that you can easily toss into a soup or bake from frozen.
This is ALSO pretty much the technique I use to freeze banana slices when my bananas are going brown and I'm not in the mood to bake, only I freeze them on a cutting board before breaking them off and sticking them in a bag when they're frozen.
Freeze wet stuff in individual pieces, not big chunks, so you don't have to break up big chunks to use your frozen food.
I know this probably seems pretty obvious to a lot of people, but it wasn't obvious to me until a couple years ago because nobody ever showed me how to do it and I didn't grow up in a family that cooked a lot.
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okay you know what actually. time is an opinion
#just me hi#hiyo :3#not doing anything rn bc i have a block in my dam and Honestly#i'm bad at keeping track of time longterm. like there are people i know that i'm like 'i've known them for 2+ months :)' and it's been year#ljfvsh#and that's with everyone but with my family. who has been here since the beginning of time of course#like my brother leo n i were talking abt our parents n how the childrearing strategy changed over time and for some reason i. forgot#he wasn't just like. spectating before he was born lmaooo#like yea there was a time you weren't here but you've always been here! and what do you mean you don't know about xyz we grew up with that#(he did not of course lolll)#and then the Spookiness doesn't help much of course. yea i've known this person for 3 weeks (3 years) and i have initiated Stranger Status#to myself kfshg#//anyway i'm typing rn and for some reason i keep trying to replace Gs with Ds and vice versa#new weirg typind issue!! i det a new one every so many weeks lol :3#i shoulg start cataloduind them.. that'g be fun :33#//wanna draw rn too.. or write...#you know what's really stupid is feeling guilty cuz you just wanna do the same 2 things over and over and over and over again#it's just that good dude !!! i'm gonna do it anyway cuz nothing's really ever stopped me so hfsbvs#i wanna do a little picrew game thing i had an idea for the other day and i've been putting it off since like. i think july hgbfshv#'the other day (a whole month ago)' yea i can see why my siblings are at their wits' ends hfhgbshv#that was like a week ago dude.. it has Not been 4 groups of 7 c'mon!#//anyway i'm gonna try to get to doin that#that or explode. one of those#both are pretty good.. who knows!!#feelin like i'm swimming in warm water so hfsvh#/toodles toodles :3
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20/06/24
#okay so I'm gonna just ramble for a second okay#I had such a good day#I visited the school I'm going to be teaching in come august and everyone was nice to me and helped me out and gave me resources#like I met the rest of the department and they were all lovely and funny and kind and they included me and for the first time I didn't#really feel like a burden. I was getting passed from person to person for meetings and tours and 'baby-sitting' bc I don't technically work#there yet#but it just felt like they were thinking oh here's our new guy he doesn't know us or this place or what's going on better help them out#so I spent about 4-5 hours there today and already feel comfortable and like I'm going to like being there#I'll have my own classroom and classes and I'll get to be me and teach my way but they'll be there to help me ya know#I also met the guy who taught me geography for 5 years (and took a school trip to iceland (the country))#I wasn't sure he'd remember me bc I graduated 8 years ago so when I saw him in the corridor I just smiled and said hi#and he fully double-taked. I'm talking he'd walked by and then clicked like oh shit I know you.And we got to have a really nice wee catch up#despite the fact he told me I'd gone to the dark side by choosing chemistry over geography lmao#Anyway I'm done now I just wanted to log this feeling#personal
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I need someone, I need a new me
'Cause I've got two or three
And they won't let me fulfill
My clean slated state
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Turn on the ghost light
#art#digital art#this one is older i just never posted it lol#it's also a redraw from something from like 4 years ago now when I first got into the altogether#but i wasn't even happy with that when i drew it much less 4 years later#so here: a redraw#it was based off of the fact I'd never heard of a ghost light lol
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