#this was not mwant to be so long im just so scared

[eternally-tired-cryptid]

(TW(?) For general doomsday talk and fear of my personal future)

I'm staying at my grandparents this week. And while they're not like Millionaires wealthy by any means, they are well off enough that they both have expensive hobbies (my gpa buys and repairs cars from scratch, and as such owns several cars, at least three of which are Nice Vintage cars, and that doesn't even include his nice truck. My gma owns horses, currently she has four and has over an acre of land (most of that is a large pond but nonetheless) for the horses to roam during the day), they also have enough money that they are helping me afford college and will throw a few hundred dollars my way just bc to cover gas and groceries and stuff (which I am SO incredibly grateful and lucky for).

My whole reason for pointing this out is that. They have money! The cost of living going up and up and up doesn't affect them, just their family members (they're well off but not so much they could support my uncle and his family or me Fully Forever). And yet they still see how horrible it is. They recognize that I probably won't be able to support myself with my passion for writing, and that it's very possible I'll have to work a job that drains me just to live, and they don't really know how to help with that. And that's assuming that this theoretical draining job Does pay enough to truly cover the cost of living.

I just. If they as prolly somewhere in the Upper middle class area of wealth can look at the cost of living and see how it's gonna be nigh-impossible for me to live as an adult.

I'm just so scared. Once I graduate college I have to change my health insurance, I'll have to live on non-campus housing. I'll have to have a full time job that might just totally destroy me just to make ends meet. I'm doing what I love right now and I can barely keep my head above water with my depression! How am I supposed to survive life of I end up having to work a miserable job and STILL struggle to make ends meet?