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BSD Totally Hateful Bickering Prompts - PT 1.
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SOUKOKU:
“Can’t you use your ability to break the chains?”
“You’re handcuffed to me, asshole. I can’t fucking use it.”
“Oh, so you’re just good for nothing, huh?”
“Good for nothing?!”
(chuuya and dazai get caught for a short period)
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“Is your life threatened?”
“No,”
“Is your life gonna be threatened?”
“No—“
The phone is hung up.
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“Chuuya, go, go, go!!”
“I don’t know how to fucking drive!!”
(fifteens!!!)
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“Hey, kid, the middle school’s just a bit further down the road.”
“Why you—!”
(also would make sense in a high school/modern au!)
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“They have the good shit!” [wine]
“How did you realize that from the color alone?”
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“You done with your wine?”
“No, I’m not done with my wine— Chuuya!”
“Gimme your wine…”
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“Dazai, do you wanna pet the dog?”
“No, I don’t want to pet your mutt.”
“He’s not a mutt! He’s a purebreed!”
“He’s purebred? Probably has some sort of disability.”
“You have some sort of disability…”
(chuuya finally gets a dog)
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“How long do I have to wear this stupid thing?”
“Mm, 30 minutes.”
“I’ll kill you in 35.”
(chuuya loses another arcade game. bonus points if it’s fifteens!!)
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“Which one do you want?”
“I don’t want any of them.”
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“Can i have the pink unicorn plushie?”
“No, don’t give me the fucking pink unicorn plushie!”
(chuuya and dazai carnival stake out mission/date)
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“Woah, looks like someone woke up on the wrong side of bed today.”
“I didn’t even wake up IN a bed.”
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“Why don’t you like speaking French?”
“Cause it’s a garbage language for garbage people.”
“Chuuya says that, as he is half-French.”
(would make more sense in a modern, no-powers au where they still ‘hate’ each other.)
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[X] "Won't Dazai get embarrassed?"
[C] "Please, the second coming of Christ will happen sooner than that fish-face getting embarrassed.
#bsd#chuuya nakahara#dazai osamu#soukoku#dialogue prompt#more to come#i will definitely edit this and add more#this was just me emptying up my notes#eeennjoooyyy
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I don’t usually make posts like this, but I’ve been seeing a lot of anti-intellectual junk lately, and I really think we need to put the word “pretentious” up on a shelf until people learn what it actually means.
It doesn’t describe someone who likes artsy-fartsy deep meaning media. People who are pretentious are fake. They’re posers trying to be sophisticated and unique, not like other girls. They pretend to only like stuff they think will make them sound cool when they talk about it. They want to act like they know something you don’t, and they want attention for it.
By definition, if you genuinely enjoy something, you can’t be pretentious. If it resonates with you, and you analyze it, and you don’t care what people think, that’s the polar opposite, actually. If you love obscure experimental prog music, if you watch underground high concept indie films through English teacher eyes, if you spend hours in a modern art museum reading each piece as a vessel for storytelling, if your backpack’s full of poetry books that inspire you, if you play underrated games that were someone’s passion project, if you have an interest in studying the classics or the masters, you are not pretentious.
Of course, some people just don’t like some stuff, and that’s fine, but that’s not what this is about. Don’t let anti-intellectuals shame you for enjoying things just because your interests are inaccessible to them, because they refuse to be brave and put effort into critical thinking. You’re not stuck up for refusing to overlook the craft of artists.
#anti intellectualism#media#movies#books#music#critical thinking#my friend who primarily listens to one very popular band once said that people who listen to obscure music are annoying and pretentious#which rubbed me the wrong way because 1 she knows that I listen to obscure music and 2 it’s such a cowardly consumerist take. anyone can#make music and hey a lot of the people who do make GOOD music. and this goes for all *obscure* media#this post was mostly inspired by people talking about Barbie and those anti pick me girls like the pick nobody girls who insist thinking is#for boys and having fun with an empty brain is for girls. Greta gerwig is an artist. I haven’t seen the movie yet but I know it has a deeper#message than haha cute pink! I’ve seen the summaries about the true meaning. the pinkness and popularity doesn’t negate the narritive.#though in the notes I saw a lot of tumblristas comunistas shitting on the film for being one big ad that people *fell for* which tbh is#tbh almost as anti-intellectual. don’t get me wrong they milked this film to sell hella shit but I don’t believe kids who play with dolls#are the target audience as these people claim. Barbie is a culturally iconic symbol almost archetypical of societal expectations for women#you say barbie people think unblinking perfect plastic pink girly. reminds me of the poem The Last Mojave Indian Barbie. yeah yeah you all#hate brands but this one carries undeniable significance and makes for a powerful literary device. it’s been used many times before#sorry for writing a tag essay about a film I haven’t even seen but I’m tired of internet people focusing so much on proving others wrong#that they end up oversimplifying everything just as much as the other person. god I saw people doing this to Nimona saying transphobes were#looking too deep into her character and they’re reactionary clowns for making that jump. like for once the transphobes are right. she is#trans. it’s a queer story. and irl the first people who notice queerness are the bigots who can tell you’re different. sick owns telling#them the story’s not that deep is harmful and it’s like they’re ignoring the real message on purpose. okay enough rambling hehe! thanks#barbie#nimona
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it’s me, hi, I’m the white witch, it’s me
#this was such a good episode I'm basically head empty no thoughts#can you imagine what jacob went through?? like...who's getting the award for most traumatized#the way home hallmark#that moment between nick and alice in 2007 was...interesting#their whole dynamic is interesting because it's so messed up! it's not romanticized or whatever it's just messed up and it messes them up!#I can't believe this is a hallmark series not just because they're including something messed up like that but also because they've made a#a series that lowkey makes me want to lie on the floor#also nick found the notes HE FOUND THE NOTES OH MY WORD#they really went there! I was wondering if they were going to do anything with him being back and that's where they went!#I never would've thought they'd do that#the way kat and elliot were prepared to just drop everything and go to london#and the way kat is always falling into water and bleeding out#I feel like there has to be more to what happened at that party? because what happened doesn't really feel proportional to the big deal the#made out of it? idk#anyway yeah I think that was one of the best episodes of the season#earl crow ramblings
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Undertale yellow flowey embroidery
This took about 40 hours, give or take a few
#I can tell you one thing#Embroidering while having arthritis is really not a piece of cake. When you hand cramps just by holding it at an angle.#At least I can be grateful for my empty schedule#Makes embroidering till the sun rises back up so much easier#Insomnia also helps with this task#I was listening to the ost while working on it and… Live reaction#Occupied turf is so good actually !? Why wasn’t it shown more often !? IT’S FIRE !?#I forgot I only did a pacifist so I got so confused when neutral Flowey came out…#A mother’s love ? Should’ve called this “I’m gonna fuck you up”#The number of time I got my ass handed back to me in this fight is not even funny#The first time is great. The second I only discern my favorites and the sudden change in style. By the third loop I can’t recognize shit#my brain is melting and my eyes are on fire…#Advantages on doing it during daytime. Eyes hurt less. Good stupid tv to listen to in the background Disadvantages. People#Advantages on doing it at night. Alone. Personally work better at night#Disadvantages. No good TV. Time goes by slower…? I don’t know maybe I’m just loosing it with those freaking petals#For reference one petal took me about 3 and a half hours. So yeah… I thought it would never end… Took out almost all my yellow.#When the line tangles itself in the back and you realize only close to the end of it that half went missing#So you have to go backward to entangle it and loose 30 mins because damn it#Cats are not helpful in any of those scenarios#Why do I feel the need to make the back perfect when nobody else but me will know#This is the last time I do one so big without thinking it through#Note to self. Don’t do it standing up when the cats are awake. She just destroyed my stomach#I think i’m losing it#Back after a few weeks#God this white thread is doing my head in… I’m willing to bet my leg half the time I spent on the face was me untangling it.#I’m almost done. It’s finally over. Dark brown took exactly 4 h and 13 mins#undertale#undertale yellow#embroidery#I’m thinking of doing Boris the wolf next. Because I just found the perfect rendition to put on my wall
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Hi Mei :)
#pmatga#my art#pmatga oc#mei lián#“I have been drawing Mei.”#“What?”#“I have done nothing but draw Mei for 3 days.”#well- it's when she was in her 30s^^;;#also when she and Betrayus were first interacting! Betrayus initially did not like her!#he wasn't used to someone actively trying to seek out and get to know him. so he was just his usual#“grr I don't like talking to new people and I'm always grumpy blah blah blah” <- paraphrasing#I really need to just. write everything I can about her down and then just slap it here because I feel like I haven't conveyed who#she really is and how she acts as a character. I feel like she's still too empty on a surface level in my drawings#but in my head she's /way/ more fleshed out#like she's an engineer. she has 3 younger siblings. she's a hard worker (to the point where even betrayus tells her to take breaks).#she's the person who makes betrayus open up and see the world in a better light! she had such a huge influence on him and helped him grow!#I just don't want her to be 'this is betrayus's wife! and that's it!' you know? I /need/ there to be more#but alas. it is hard for me to write u_u#uuuoohh I forgot I have to draw her motorcycle too..... uwwahhh...#also notes: I didn't draw her shoes on the full-body on the left. and I didn't actually 'color' her clothing on the full-body on the right#I grey-scaled it. but never went through with coloring it
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#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing#painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her#i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but#the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach#streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow#im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected#i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes#not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her#how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want#her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest#but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b#so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so#much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming#i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby#unrelated
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Empty by 小梅むすび (Koumemusubi)
(continued from part 1 here)
Please go and make sure you give the original creator some likes and bookmarks at the link above!! They deserve it!
Thank you for reading!
#persona#persona 4#tohru adachi#ryotaro dojima#nanako dojima#yu narukami#souji seta#i cried the first time i read this comic. i cried the second time i read this comic.#in fact i cry every time i read this comic. this has not changed.#god. yu and the dojimas care about him so much...#so i translated this because i need everyone to cry with me#originally i'd been putting off editing the translation in for quite a while#just because of the sheer amount of images#but then i realized that adachi's birthday was the 31st! and this was posted for his birthday several years ago!#so well. happy belated birthday adachi. my favorite depressed fucked up man#i enjoy him a lot. despite the crime. perhaps even because of the crime.#thank you @atikal for showing me this#also an interesting translation note for anyone who cares: everything fully lowercase was originally written in katakana#to show a lack of emotion/humanity. thus the emptiness#so everything that i wrote with regular capitalization is written normally in the original#persona 4 spoilers
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my best advice to anyone who's still in middle/high school is to make your teachers think you are the nicest sweetest purest little goody two shoes on the planet so that you can get away with breaking rules fairly openly bc your teachers either won't believe it or will view it as a very minor issue since you're the perfect student
#this is how i broke a kids leg and physically injured a teacher twice with 0 repercussions#also make best friends with the snarky english teachers theyll protect you if you can match their repartee#literally just be like im such a perfect sweet little angel who is so so interested in history class#i would NEVER play cards in the empty orchestra room during class with some other kids. never would i break a rule its preposterous#if you have at least one teacher who views you like this theyll go to bat for you if you ever actually get caught :)#also just be autistic as fuck your classmates will hate you but ur teachers will infantilize you into non agency#i almost got suspended for wearing a hat all the time after being told not to then i told one of my favorite teachers#and she told the teacher who kept getting on to me to leave me alone#another year i feel asleep almost every day in biology and my astronomy teacher told him i was having a really hard time (i was)#so he ended up printing out the slides for me every day and asking my table mate to give me his notes when i fell asleep#which was so so sweet of both of them and i really needed that kindness and ill never forget it#but i think a more disruptive kid may not have received the same level of kindness
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a little personal project i'm slowly chipping away at, thought it would be fun to make it into a chart that i add a doodle to every time i finish a new character so i can track how i'm going with it!
by project i just mean i want an oc of each type. i'm not making a game or anything the positions listed are purely for fun HDJBFJFKE
#clai speaks#clai's ocs#ignore the doodle of cyril though that isnt final. it was part of me Trying to come up with something for him so i just scribbled whatever#its not what i want him to look like but yhe doodle was so cute i wanted to keep it. maybe i'll turn it into a different oc idk#the laguardia siblings!!! and clear's here too ig#anyone who's been written here whether they have a design or name or not have some kind of character established already#like while i have a couple concepts for a rock trainer nothing is concrete yet so that spot remains empty for now#but even though chase doesnt even have a finalized name or position i know he's a gifted psychic who just uses his powers to do art#mago and colbur are brothers and run their gym together like tate and liza. first explicitly dual type gym!#(striaton gym not counted bc you only fight one of the triplets there)#chip and cassidy are also brother and sister#corey and kalin are cousins#mago and colbur run a berry farm and cafe. cole runs a pizza parlor. polly makes jewelry out of bug-type pkmn silk and stuff#cassidy's research centers on tm/hm development. unnamed dragon trainer is a costume designer#corey is an actor so good at her job people joke that she's being possessed by her characters. kalin is a mischievous ballet dancer#chip i'm pretty happy with. he's supposed to be like a youngster that grew up and became more experienced#he used to be shy before setting out on his journey but grew immensely from it and became champion#goes back to the first town and mentors the new trainers bc he knows how scary it is to set out on a journey for the first time#hides his champion status so that the kids aren't afraid to challenge him#i didnt want to go too detailled bc it is super late HSIBFIF I SHOULD HAVE BEEN ASLEEP LIKE THREE HOURS AGO#i just really want to share these bc these concepts have just been sitting in my notes for like a year?#over a year. i started this some time after making alto#point is i've been sitting on these ideas way too long but designing them so slowly i dont want to wait to talk about them anymore#this chart is so empty rn but i will finish it!!! one day!!!!
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trying to write, i want to write but the only place i have with dark mode is my computer's notepad and i can't access those files from anywhere else. augh
#just me hi#girl help my Eyeyessseses hbfvhs#i keep getting told 'use google docs' it Hurts My Eyeballs !!! let me change the funkin website theme !!!#plus when i'm writing at night i don't want the whole world knowing what's up bc i have the equivalent of a lighthouse beacon telling every#one 'HEY. THIS THING'S AWAKE !!' lol :^#i'd use google keep bc it feels. friendlier ? but also the clutter behind the note i'm writing in is making me anxious + distracting me. so#hvfbhs#this is such a silly problem but i'm running in circles just trying to rewrite p.space for the... i think eighth or ninth time now Lolll#i wanted to try wattpad again but i like not having my eyes hurt. and i'm trying to plan ahead bc i want to have a place i can write in#Consistently. ya know ?#sigh. sogh. saigh. sygh#oh and also wattpad feels too cluttered. there's something about having the writing space take up the Whole Entire Screen that doesn't#groove with my brain right. so !#this is just me being very picky for no good reason lolll :)#'just minimize the tab then' but that is still wrong bc the writing space is taking up the Entire Tab now !!#/anyway i just remembered rn why i don't explain why i'm actually having issues with things HFBVSH#it's really specific. and really vibe-based. and it's like being in the middle of a field and not being able to explain what is so wrong ab#being in the empty‚ cold‚ deadly-quiet but also piercing-loud field forever and ever and ever#do you know what i mean ??#//ANYWAY. back to whatever this problem is Lolll :3
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I gotta say. at the end of assassin's quest I was like "man. the fool must be like fucked up wherever he is. I bet he's like... captured somewhere, or perhaps traumatized from war and doubting his worth and purpose. maybe he resents fitz for being the one who convinced him to go to war in the first place. maybe he really did go back home like starling said, or otherwise gone to take a break from being the white prophet for a while until he can muster the courage to go face it again. because my reasoning was, if the fool was Fine and nothing significant needed to be done, he'd probably have found fitz again. and if there is something that needs to be done, then he'd NEED to find fitz to do it, because the prophet needs the catalyst. so either he's completely given up on being the white prophet, or there's a reason he's not looked for fitz yet.
so I was like alright, once we go back to fitz and the fool, I bet fitz is gonna have to like. track him down or something. it's gonna be a whole thing.
but as far as I can tell, he only didnt bring fitz bc this quest is just. something he doesn't need him for. all that the fool has needed to do is woodworking, touching stuff with the skill hand, and Pulling Strings For Funds, and none of that really necessitates a catalyst. so he just. is doin this one alone. cause it's easier. and plans to find fitz after.
so NOW instead of being like. dramatically rescued or like tracked down and convinced to his purpose again I think the fools just gonna turn up at fitz's shack one day like "hey sorry abt that I had business to take care of for a couple years. so it's crucial to the saving of the world that we go on a quest to steal this amulet from this nobleman so. pack ur bags." and that's far funnier.
#i dont think fitz is gonna be pissed. his self worth is too low to be mad the fool left him. i think he should be tho bc its funnier.#“hey so we need to-” “HOLY SHIT WHERE WERE YOU” “running a small business and also on a boat. anyways we need to-”#“NO NOTE? NO LETTER?” “fitz. listen to me we need to go disrupt the jamaillian textiles industry.”#hap in the background like •_•#nighteyes in the background like :DDDD scentless one!!!#also i dont think this. i KNOW. fitz will not bring up that kiss#head empty no thoughts thats my best friend and hes just like that#if its fitz pov i dont think hell even THINK about it#rote liveblog#estarriol mute this
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Song of the Day: January 11
"It's Still Rock and Roll to Me" by Billy Joel
#song of the day#so late today. the sun'll be up pretty soon#I was very busy watching Duncan play Spyro and letting my brain thump around on spin cycle#I haven't written anything worth looking twice at since i was so sick in December and it's been worrying me a bit#but if my full day's preoccupation is anything to judge by I will be writing again quite soon#just in time too I did see Del tagged me in a WIP Wednesday. maybe by next Wednesday I will have progressed a work to share#anyway this is today's song because I'm trying to make sure I remember to get a copy of it#it played on the radio and Duncan and Lily and I all got to sing along (always so good to sing with my siblings)#and there were plenty of songs we sang all together (lots of Adele. good shit) but this one I don't have and I really enjoy singing#and every now and then (especially around the family) it plays and I think 'oh shit! I still need to get a copy of that onto my computer!'#and so far I've forgotten every time#but this time I'm making a particular note! I will remember it! if not this weekend then at the very very latest at the end of this year#when I make a big playlist of all the Songs of the Day and I hit Jan 11th and my search pulls up empty and I curse myself for a fool again#dear future-Alexis: you are welcome for the reminder!
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Stupid School related vent
Look objectively speaking this has been a good school year.
Good classmates(except when they were indefensible w the teachers)
Good teachers (except when they acted like whiny children. Idc if they were good to me I speak objectively and generally)
Best grades I've ever achieved
But honestly I am not happy, we did too many useless things, we lost many hours to things our teachers were forced to make us do because the program said so...
I am now making notes and studying alone things we didn't do but they're gonna ask me at my exam.
I haven't studied certain artistic movements, artists and important paintings because our art history teacher was... hhhhrn bad.
Some important authors were skipped
Some historical periods of time just barely mentioned or were explained superficially.
Some philosophers skipped or explained badly.
No, it's not a pretty picture and most of it wasn't our or our teachers' fault. I am not blaming anyone but the school system that now more than ever I am convinced is deeply flawed.
I am going to do my final exam and get my final grade that will determine my "worth". 5 years of work but 5 days are gonna determine 60% of my final grade.
I know whatever happens the grade is gonna be good because I already have 80/100 and if I get 20/20 at the final exam it's gonna be 100/100. And frankly it's not that hard.
I don't even care if something happens and I'm gonna guck up, I'm gonna give my best because I care and I want to be proud of myself when I'm gonna look back at this time of my life.
But I am not happy because I feel like whatever I did and I was taught wasn't enough. I don't care if the final grade is gonna be good, I am still not happy about my own level of education.
I mean, I am happy for myself, i did my best and had my kind of fair "reward" for my efforts... I'm simply not satisfied
#steel rambles#honestly speaking it's stupid#but idk thinking about this exam i feel empty#90% of my peers feel anxious or nervous or scared... idk i just really don't care anymore#and I'm sad about it because i want to care#and to a degree i still do#but it's just...#it's like middle-school all over again#like it's different. I'm in a different head space and all#but it's the same emptiness that looks like confidence/standoffishness from the outside#i was tired and wanted to get shit done in middle school#i am tired and want to get shit done now#and i can't even complain about it to my classmates or my friends because they all say#“oh shut up you have it easy you have such a good grade etc etc”#okay sure but still it's not the grade that bothers me it's my fucking level of education and my feelings towards the school system#and i worked my ass off for that grade. no one is gonna give me back all the time i wasted crying over my notes and books and documents#and it's because of this that i am angry. because it doesn't feel worth it.#so yeah stuff maybe it's just my evening induced melancholy and maybe tomorrow I'm gonna look at this and say#“duuuuuude shut fhe fuck up come on”#which is fair#but as of now it all feels unsatisfactory i guess lol
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rgu girlies vs actually thinking about touga’s character for .2 seconds
#maybe im a little bit :/ about Some People’s kiryuu sibling takes#as a self appointed kiryuu sibling expert. they are both anthy in very different ways#nanami is anthy in all technicalities. she fits the casting call. she’s the little sister who wants to be loved and she’ll be cruel about it#but touga and anthy have so many similarities as PEOPLE. that are just. like girl#hollow people empty people an absence of anything other than the costume you wear#the gendered ideal you’ve come to embody#the passive aggression the subtle slights the deep unspoken resentment expressed quietly#the impenetrable aura of mystery and fear and power and like. gahhhhhh#like hey man. hey. hey. go read the body as a bargaining chip AND anthy nanami and escaping the script on empty movement#and maybe you’ll calm down <3#ANYWAY SORRY FOR BEING MEAN ANTHY NANAMI AND TOUGA R MY TRIAD OF FAVES IM ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT THEM WHATEVER WHATEVER#to clarifyyyyyy bc i don’t want discourse <3 idc about this sincerely tis just telly#not moralising just saying hey :) try thinking about touga when watching 31&2 it’s a fun time#fun if you’re like me and just think about the kiryuus 24/7#on a serious note i DO think that nanami anthy and touga watches of those eps are like >>>#like youve GOT to do it. sososososo worth#shut up daisy
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#feelin weird. feelin real weird. in a bad way? no i guess not but more like im a haha wtf is happening here?#like i should maybe track my mood just so i can be like wtf is this? more bc i think its interesting#bc like i mean im spending ~11hrs in the lab and the stress has been real high and ive not been sleeping well#but like currently? i feel like i wanna run a mile. like i wanna run around in circles and scream and laugh until i cry#too much energy. too much energy. but y? where is it coming from? its weird#its like the edge of a headache. the cusp of turning. it doesn't quite feel bad yet but like i woke up at 4#and was insane until 6 when i had to get up and then i was in the lab all day until 6.30#and immediately i went for a run like empty stomach. i need to run now. and i still feel like that. like i need to run and run and run#but like y am i not exhausted? im not even tired? im vibrating#i watched the new successi0n episode twice and im losing my mind abt it#so its weird and i dont understand. but its not bad. it feels out of control like it feels fucked up but im not being like irradic#like if i was standing beside someone i dont think theyd notice. except maybe my sister bc i think if i talked id be noticeable#energetic. idk maybe im just exhausted and brain is pumping me with stress hormones so i csnt stop but i also csnt feel it#but i suspect its something to do with estrogen and progesterone levels changing which isnt great bc ive got a cycle that borders being#concerningly short but like idk rn its fun. im sure itll break and ill split apart but rn everything feels hilarious#its also weird bc im always like: y do i have so much energy after i dont sleep? is not sleeping thr answer. and today i was like hm#maybe i cant sleep bc i have too much energy. hm. idk its not bad. it doesn't feel bad#it just feels interesting and notable so im noting it. weird stuff. hopefully it pulls me thru tomorrow#bc my back fucking hurts lmao and its monday so ppl r back in the lab as i stand around for 11 hours#unrelated
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Ngl, I envy all the sanrio fans who have their favorite character merchandise or even have a build a bear plush of them while me, a my sweet piano kinnies, can rarely find any piano related stuff at my place
#chewys notes#sanrio#my sweet piano#just random ramblings#like honestly#The only thing i found that has piano on it was a my melody pen pack with her print on it#Only bringing this up cause the other day i went on a small trip with my sister and visited this one Mexican store that had sanrio stuff#They didn't want me to leave the store empty handed and not getting anything#so i just went with a kuromi keychain plush#Wish i can get a my sweet piano stuff
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