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I can’t believe I have to read a REAL book that I have to PHYSICALLY hold and TURN the pages for like we’re in the STONE age
#ao3 down#ao3#ao3 fanfic#I’m going crazy like actually#idk how much longer I can take this#andrewminyardsaidsskibidi2025#ao3 is down#in case you weren’t aware#this suffering is internal#it never ends
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Y'all non-disabled folk are pissing me off. Actually mouthwashing fans. Someone does not DESERVE disability and disability isn't "karma" or "justice".
#anyway. YALL ARE ANNOYING#every time there is a disabled character it takes .2 secs before yall start saying some bull#like every time#without fail#anyway curly would have internalized ableism to go through. he might see his condition as a “punishment” for his inaction#but it isn't. it's not#"his disability might have came to be because of his inaction with Jimmy#but it's NOT a punishment and his condition isn't a “penance”.#UR CATHOLIC UPBRINGING IS SHOWING!#SUFFERING DOES NOT HAVE MEANING#YOU CAN FIND MEANING IN IT#BUT IT ISN'T A PUNISHMENT! DISABILITY ISN'T GIVEN TO PEOPLE WHO HAVE DONE BAD THINGS!#anyway. yall piss me off.#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing curly#disabled
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george rexstrew deserves awards for many things but i have to say. edwin’s bloodcurdling scream as niko gets killed deserves a whole award unto itself. like. that scream did not feel at all like a tv show scream. to a somewhat jarring degree. and i can’t express how much I respect that
#he has a number of very convincing screams and suffering noises which I imagine was an important prerequisite for the role#but this one is just especially chilling and again. jarring. not saying that the other actors are bad or anything but no one even comes#close to competing with george and its stark in moments like this#another screaming moment that I thought he did really well in particular is far easier to gloss over and that’s#when he and charles are escaping hell and he almost gets dragged down into lust#when he’s screaming out for charles he borderline SCREECHES#throughout that arc in general it’s just incredible but yeah#I think part of what makes it so convincing is that he isn’t afraid to be high pitched and genuinely Scream rather than yell#like. he is clearly immune to being put off by ‘you scream like a girl’ rhetoric#I think a lot of male actors avoid screaming and screeching like that for that internalized reason when. if you wanna be as realistic as#possible. a scream is high pitched. if you’re scared for your fucking life it’s just involuntary#I can also see it being uncommon due to difficulties getting that sound adequately recorded but yeah anyway you get my point#tldr: george rexstrew is great at disturbingly realistic screaming and I applaud him for that#I really hope he didn’t have to retake that part too many times..#his poor throat……….#george rexstrew#edwin#edwin payne#dead boy detectives#dead boy detectives spoilers
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He may need a cold shower. Because of the heat
#tcw#obi wan kenobi#commander cody#codywan#“bench press me” -cody's internal monologue. probably#thirst-drawing to cope with the fact that i still have to suffer through two months of summer#also taking a break from drawing codywan for codywan week by drawing more codywan#esk art#i did not even try with the background on this sorry
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I had a dream about Sebek and a fly.
Sebek was going about his normal business, when he noticed a fly sitting on his hand. He casually brushed the fly off, before lifting his gaze to resume his duties. However, out of the corner of his vision, he caught sight of the fly, back on his hand. He swatted at it again. But somehow, it remained where it was. He shook his hand, twisted it about, swiped at it multiple times but no matter how hard he tried to get rid of it, the fly remained on his hand. Growing increasingly frustrated, he even tried to crush the fly in his hand. But the fly still remained. He couldn't help but let out a cry of anger and upset as tears began to stream down his face, for he was desperate to be rid of this fly. This fly that would not release its hold on him. This fly that clung to the back of his mind every second of the day. And there was nothing he could do but despair.
#twisted wonderland#twst#sebek zigvolt#my art#fly symbolism...#flies can represent the brevity of human life#so given sebek's... *motions* everything#his whole issue with humans... which comes from his own internal struggles and self hatred#BUT ALSO what I believe comes from a very strong fear of human fragility#like his father or silver or all of his school mates won't be in his life for very long...#well.. this all just makes for good angst doesn't it#this might be a concept i will flesh out more in the future#but it would take some work to portray it the way i would want#so for now this will do#even while unconscious my brain thinks of ways to make sebek suffer#silver and lilia and malleus comforted him at the end of the dream tho so it's okay#he's just a big mess
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@mal-co-holic fed me some good Grindcore stuff so I had to return the favor :3
#will revisit this with actual colors later on#pharma suffering in canon and fanworks lmao#also: internment camp meet cute is one hell of a tag mal#tarnma#transformers#my art#fic art
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Nightmares (LMK Comic/storyboard/fake screenshots?)
Content warning: Blood, character death, sad monkeys
#my art#lego monkie kid#lego macaque#lego sun wukong#six eared macaque#sun wukong#sad monkeys#my little sad monkey king#getting those angst vibes rn :(#shadowpeach#but sad#aw#there's no comfort here#hurt no comfort#angst#character death#a bit of suffering for Wukong#lowkey hoping season 5 addresses these two#but also MK's internal conflict#this show is just a mess of issues#I guess this is what happens when you try to psycho-analyze characters from a 500-year-old Chinese fable.#shiiiiit
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I won't let myself get devoured
Or a Normally Oak-swallows-garcia angst post about grief and anger.
#dndads#dungeons and daddies#my art#normal oak#dndads spoilers#dndads s2#yes i know he ended up looking like one Jonathan jims i know#the wolfs are doodly on purpose and have meaning and definitly arent just like that cause i dont like drawing animals#his shirt has tiny purple eyes which are very faint btw#someone once said in some tags i saw that they enjoy older norm looking like lark and i internalized that stuff#also him looking slightly like jesus is also on purpose i do love me some religious imagery#i have been overcome with angsty thouths lately about my faves so now you gotta suffer :-|#my commissions are open btw if you guys wanna support me
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ive passed more finalss so have some more silly prime defender doodles ive made while procrastinating
#ive managed to pass orthodontics periodontology dental prosthetics and childrens dentistry classes finals#now onto internal diseases and surgery exams#im gonna suffer#anyway more sillies#and yes im gonna they/them ashe you cant stop me#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi fanart#jrwi pd#jrwi vyncent#vyncent sol#jrwi william#william wisp#jrwi dakota#dakota cole#jrwi ashe#ashe winters#prime defenders#loofsart#ghostknife#jrwi
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actually cried realizing I'll never see Sten again
anyone responsible for — or knowledgeable of — Zevran, Merrill, Fenris, or the Awakening Crew are just gone like it's just over
#i cant even yap in tags my stomach hurts#its like#yknow#every DA game has suffered from internal issues or external pressure#I wanted just one where they had room to breathe and shine and take the crown back#and we'll never see what that could look like#thats what kills me#theres a masterpiece in the marble and they never really got the chance to chisel under normal conditions#there was always something always some interference or hurdle during dev cycles and it really fucking sucks
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Thinking about Mass Effect, as you do, and how I'm kind of sad that the way it's been engraved in pop culture has more to do with the way internet reacted to it at the time than what the actual game is about. Yes sure, it's about romance (and not that much all things considered) and it's pulpy (but not solely because of hot lady aliens), but it's also intricate worldbuilding that touches on a lot of sharp ideas, and a complicated tug-of-war between a genuine and vulnerable belief in reconciliation and community VS post 9-11 US military propaganda and steadfast belief in heroic exceptionalism, and the melancholic yet energizing mood, and the daring narrative systems, and so so much more than the 'We'll Bang OKs" and the "There's No Shepard Without Vakarian" and the whole ME3 ending situation
It's all there, but I'm sad the impact of the series is often reduced to (what I think is) the least interesting parts of its sum
#mass effect#mass effect meta#and what I'm the MOST sad about#is how bioware internalized a lot of that I think#I think Mass Effect 3 and especially the Citadel DLC suffered from trying to pull itself in the shape of what the fandom expected#it's why I'm so ambivalent about Mordin's seashell bit --which I do find kinda cheap in its attempt at being an obvious crowdpleaser#and it's why a lot of the Citadel DLC jokes don't land as well as they could have for me#AND why I didn't react that well to Andromeda either#which to me forgot a lot of its strong worldbuilding foundations and sincerity#and ended up feeling so very... “liberal” to me --if you can forgive my semi-judgmental wording#as in: gestures at inclusion and would do pronoun rounds probably but will never lift a finger to criticize actual systems of power#it's “nicer” and people are more fun but the colonialist project is never sincerely questioned by the narrative#elon musk-like “genuises” are given a god-like aura#species become mostly tired and watered-down versions of their archetypes...#I don't know. I'm sure a lot of people will disagree but yeah I was thinking about this today
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i think carpenter and hayward should have some kind of ghost hunting youtube channel but for unlicensed gods. they go around snarking at each other and arguing over what kind of god this is and how best to deal with it. hayward ALWAYS thinks its an old harvest god and they have NEVER once made a situation better
#I JUST THINK THIS WOULD FIT THEIR DYNAMIC REALLY WELL#the silt verses#tsv#paige is their long suffering manager#what about faulkner? you may ask#well if this is an au thats easy#he’s a former intern who left under sketchy circumstances and started his own much more succesful show#If it’s in universe then i think every sunday or whatever the traweler man equivalent is#He gets up there and gives his little sermon and makes some kinda bitchy comment about have you SEEN what#anathema carpenter was doing this week. (she’s so cool and i miss her)#and when someone asks him why he’s watching anathema carpenter’s youtube channel he’s like. um well.#is the trawelerman not also the god of streams. ALSO i have to keep tabs on this ENEMY of the FAITH and also um I GOTTA GO#thoughts
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"Cacerolazos" Spontaneous protests in Argentina after the decree announced by President Milei that cuts rights and makes the economy more flexible, allowing a transfer of wealth from the working class to concentrated capital, in the context of a very serious income crisis for the middle and lower sectors. The decree is illegal and undemocratic.
It happens on another anniversary of the social outbreak of 2001 in the midst of the worst economic crisis in our history. Those responsible for the 2001 crises now constitute the Milei government: Patricia Bullrich, who was minister of social security in 2001 and who cut 13% of pension for retirees, is now minister of security with an anti-protest protocol that is unconstitutional for not guaranteeing constitutional rights of protest and freedom of expression. Federico Sturzenegger, secretary of economic policies in 2001, advisor and main person responsible for the design of the decree that repeals and modifies more than 300 laws announced yesterday by Milei.
#argentina#milei#please share#the international right wing is looking argentina like a laboratory to test this insane transference of wealth from working class to rich#its important to show that people in argentina is suffering and resisting
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Making Aegon a rapist was straight up bad and lazy writing.
Let me elaborate.
In the show, the first thing we learn about Aegon as an adult is that he is a rapist. We haven’t seen him yet but still we already know that he is an horrible despicable rapist, especially since Dyana is so young, which pretty much makes him a pedophile too. How could anyone root for a man like that ? And that’s where the problem begins.
Rhaenyra had already been established many times as the rightful heir to the throne in season 1. It has been made obvious that she would make a decent Queen too. In the meantime, it had already been shown that Aegon is not even a good person. He’s selfish, inconsiderate, a bully, and does not act like a prince at all. To put it plainly, he sucks big time and we as viewers already know it. Add what we saw in season 2, how reckless he gets, how he’s an alcoholic immature asshole, how he obviously knows nothing about strategics nor how to rule efficiently, or even how bad he is at high valyrian, and you can’t have anyone tell you in good faith that he would’ve been a better ruler than Rhaenyra.
However, had Aegon not been made a rapist, you would still feel for him even though he is not cut out to rule. Because he knows it too and tried to escape it and he was forced to attend his own coronation . Because this crown that he did not want does not fit him, even though he really tries to show that he is not as worthless as everyone seems to think and he just keeps failing. You would feel for him because the war ,that he has started when he was made an usurper by the people around him, has cost him his son’s life. Because the brother, who is partially responsible for his son’s death has now betrayed him and tried to kill him with dragonfire. Because the injuries he suffered make him look more and more like his father who never cared for him, never loved him and that he definitely hates. Which also probably why he tries so hard to make his mother proud of him and love him but he can’t and his main attempt has left him half-dead, half-burn. Not only that but his dragon, with whom he has the strongest bond known in Targaryen’s, history probably died during this futile attempt to prove himself. The only thing about his Targaryen’s heritage that he seems to care about has been destroyed all because he wanted to prove himself. Because he truly resents his Targaryen’s, his father’s heritage, it’s obvious, just as it is obvious that he didn’t want to marry his own sister but was forced to. It’s completely legitimate of him to want to distance himself as much as possible from everything that is Targaryen related. He is indeed more of an Hightower than a Targaryen, but can you really blame him for that ? Would you not try to fit somewhere else too, if you were in his place ? It’s all absolutely and undeniably tragic.
I wholeheartdely believe that, even if you would’ve root for Rheanyra to be Queen, you woud’ve probably still thought that Aegon, as bad as he is, did not deserves this much pain.
But because he is a rapist, well, he honestly does.
By not trusting the audience to see that Aegon is not a good person, nor a good a king, without having him comitting a literal crime, by making Aegon a rapist, the writers have annihilated any possibilities for an internal conflict regarding Aegon and Rhaenyra. The whole concept of « teams » just goes down the drain because of this lazy, manichaean, writing. And that, my friends, is bad writing at its peak.
#which is why i have decided to ignore it#I recognise that the writers have made a decision but given that it’s a stupid-ass decision I’ve elected to ignore it.#just as i ignore got seasons 7 and 8#i do not fuck with bad writing#we could’ve had it all#the siblings conflicts#the internal conflict of wow he’s an asshole but damn does he deserves all this shit ?#the internal conflit of I want Rheanyra to be queen but I don’t want her siblings to die a painful slow death either#Rheanyra got butchered too#if only she was a bit more flawed a bit more angry#show me a rightful heir that is kind of terrible but you still root for her#show me an usurper who kind of sucks but does not deserve all of his sufferings#make me doubt my loyalty for god’s sake#they just fucked up big time with all the characters#i hate it here#anti ryan condal#this is NOT a ryan condall safe place !!!!!#aegon ii targaryen#rhaenyra targaryen#alicent hightower#aemond targaryen#heleana targaryen#daemon targaryen#house of the dragon#hotd#hotd spoilers#hotd season 2#hotd season 1#rant post
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this freaking dude man
#he is pained#constant state of internal agony#he exists to suffer#why did they make him shirtless#why did they not give him a shirt#he is probably very cold#i do not want to draw a bare chested troll pleas give him a shirt#he went theough agony slowly getting turned to transperent elmers glitter glue and they didnt even give him a shirt#floyd trolls#trolls floyd#trolls fandom#trolls 3#trolls dreamworks#trolls band together#trolls
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Israel immediately broke the ceasefire by the way.
#I saw someone say that all a four day ceasefire meant was that Israel was about to drop four days worth of bombs#here’s a reminder that 100 palestinian children are murdered by Israel every day#I saw a video on twitter of a young boy bleeding out on a hospital floor bc there was nothing thst could be done#I just had to stop and close my eyes and fucking. internalize that#Palestinians are human beings#I’m so overwhelmed by the scale of suffering being allowed to continue#fuck this shit so hard#palestine#israel#free palestine
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