#this started out as a shitpost but now I have brain rot

[warlockduck]

No one asked but here’s my bestie and I’s currently unnamed Stardew Valley ocs. It started off as us just goofing off but I kept adding joke lore that was no longer a joke. It fit too well.

v Extras that I gradually got lazy with lmao v

They remain unnamed for now because when we were starting our farm, we didn’t expect to add lore and we’re goofing off the whole time in the character creation. I put a nickname of mine and they added a joke name. I made mine look like an alien for shits an giggles. Our farm is called fetus farm, our orange cat is named tax fraud, we don’t remember what we put for our favorite things and I’m scared to find out what I put. If I feel like it, more lore is to be shared.

[mortallyandrogynoussheep]

1/100 days of getting my life back together

Wednesday, July 3, 2024

So I decided to try to do a thing for the first time ever since forever - try to start having a blog(?) again, because, well, the brain rot is real. I've deleted twitter for now to give my brain some rest, because a lot of things were stressing me out.

My life has been a real mess the last few months and I really need to get my shit back together. This semester was the biggest flop so far (which is not to say that much - it's only a second one, but still) and I'm really upset about it.

I've come off one of my meds, that were making me insanely sleepy whenever I tried to focus (still have no idea whether that was a real thing or no, but they either way were not doing anything for me), got back on antidepressants, that are a-okay to me, at least side effects wise, and I was hoping that NOW I will be so much better at school. It got so much worse.

Not my room, but the vibes sum everything up quite perfectly. Everything feels insanely hard to do. I feel like a failure. I'm stressed and lost, but we persevere to the best of our abilities.

Anyway, I am writing this post one day after the 3rd of July, because I figured I should start somewhere, and despite wanting to have the first entry be as perfect as I want to become later, I figured that I have already tried that approach earlier, and it always falls off. Maybe it's better to start bad, slowly trying to build up all the habits and changes.

After all it is 100 days of trying to get my life together, not 100 days of describing my life being together.

Anyway, on 3rd of July I wanted to do some document related work and do some job applications, but because of fucking up my sleep schedule days prior to finish an assignment (which I got 100% for, insanely), I could not resist falling asleep in the day and then waking up late in the evening. That then scaled to 4th of July night, when I could not fall asleep again until 4 am, and the cycle repeated again.

So, yeah. T'was a flop. I didn't do anything good or productive for studying. The only thing I managed to accomplish was tidying up the place a little, but not the dishes. Luckily, my boyfriend helped me with that. It feels so much better to be able to work as a team on tasks that feel this big and unbearable.

2/100 days of getting my life back together

Thursday, July 4, 2024

It is currently 13:44 as I am writing this. Woke up (or more so, thankfully, got woken up by my boyfriend) by about 12:30. Still feel very poopy, but in today's plans are to do some studying for the first out of my two exams, and maybe a little bit for the second one.

DB 2

DB 3

SE2

dishes

DB 4

Probably will keep editing this post for any relevant updates that are not shitposts.

15:08 - 16:02 finished the db2 and 3 bits, 3rd one was way shorter than I expected. it turned out that I already had a set of flashcards on quizzlet there on it, so that was a win. originally was planning to study for one hour, but then finished 6 mins earlier, because my brain was fried and finished the dishes on my break. now back to studying

16:17 - 18:01 finished working on the SE2, but the lecture was kinda short and won't be that important at the exam, so I can't say I studied it properly. i will put more thought into it later (maybe), but not for now, since my ass is BURNING from the heat of upcoming deadline for the exams and there are more complex things i need to learn. started working on DB 4, which was an addition on initially planned to-do list. a little more than 1.5 hours of trying to understand the lecture made my brain feel GONE. i started to feel very irritated at the end, so im gonna be taking a break.

18:36 - 19:52 some minecraft break for mindlessly and quietly doing some things around our base. cleaned up the ground for where i want to build our house, transferred some stuff and organized it in a new chests system. the project will take A LOT of time so yuh. did i spend too much time on it? yes. will i do it again? also yes, probably. then we ate some dinner and now im comming back to some studying and note taking.

21:09 - 22:22

did some more note taking on DB4, not finished with it yet, but I think I'll call it a day for today. I'll probably play some more Minecraft before sleep and reread my notes and flashcards too. overall I feel still kind of unsatisfied with the day and its' results, I think mostly because of this is 1.5 hour game break, but it is what it is for now. overall I guess I did do some stuff done today, so it's still a win, right?

[fump-2]

History lesson

In the beginning there was r/195. Initially it was started as a way for like 3 roommates to share memes with each other. Their apartment number? 195.

As with any shitposting subreddit people find it and they shitpost. It grew semi-quickly because of its one rule, you have to post something before you leave.

Naturally there are more secret rules. This is obvious as reddit has some guidlines they like to keep, but the guy who made the subreddit from the beginning also removed things he didn't like. What's important is that they deleted a lot of bigotry. The result of him removing things was of course death threats.

Eventually the threats became too much, it was one person dealing with a hoard of edgy 15 year olds mad that their bigotry was being deleted. The apartments lease already passed so while a new community grew around this subreddit, he decided to hang it up. After a couple hundred days, the expirement ended. 195 was closed.

The community moves next door, to 196. The apartment of awesome.

The decisions those initial creators had stuck with this community, you have to post after scrolling before you leave. The community was already shappen though, the initial creator didn't like bigotry and the likes so that stuck with the new mod team.

During this time of course there's discorse. Wasp discorse, pillar discord, british people discorse. But there was never discorse about lgbtq+. It was common for a while to have posts about kicking terfs out of 196, only for there to be discorse about posting those images for karma farming.

Because of all this, that small preference from an initial guy, 196 was just a safe space for trans and nb and anyone else really (except british people, i think one person got doxxed for being british). Soon enough it just became the spot for them. Trans people attract trans people.

There's a whole lot more that could be added. The cake fucker, the fruit fucker, the pasta fucker (All one person by the way). The love of bridget from guilty gear and the slow brain rot of remembering her name (brisket, bronco, bringo). And lets not forget floppa friday.

In the end the mods decided to private it for now. They use mod tools that will probably break and a lot of problems are going to come out of new API changes from reddit so half the website went dark. The site is basically unusable for what I would check on it with all the subreddits down.

It was nice watching the evolution of 196. I was there from the start and I watched as it became gayer and gayer. I never really posted either (which was against the rule), nor am I trans/gay/secret thing. I'm a straight white male and seeing all the little gay people in my phone find and accept themselves for who they are made me very joyful. It also helped change my thinking to make sure I dont do anything bigoted while out in public.

Thank you 196. may you rest peacefully and may you live to see your resurgence.

(disclaimer some of this stuff may be wrong. dont use it as gospel. r/19684 still exist as an offchute with the same mods if you need a better account of the history.)

[writing-for-life]

Thank you for an amazing 2023!

About metas, fics and sparkly things…

This won’t be short, but you wouldn’t expect that from me, would you? 🤣

I’ve been on Tumblr for just a bit over a year because I needed to get off my family’s back after my three decades long Sandman brain-rot got worse again due to the Netflix series. I hovered around a handful of followers for months until things exploded (I still don’t know why tbh, I think it was one particular meta that kicked things off a bit), and I somehow ended up with hundreds of followers, which might not be much to some, but it’s a lot for me.

So to all of you I’d like to say: Thank you for being here. I don’t always manage to stay on top of things because my notifs are a mess and I lose track, plus I have a rather busy life and can often only write in batches and then queue, but each of you is appreciated, even if I accidentally forget to get back to you or if we aren’t mutuals.

I’ve made such lovely connections over the last year—my interest in The Sandman definitely does not align with the main focus that shan’t be named, and I’m glad that you folks are out there. You probably know who you are.

Now to the obligatory “your posts wrapped” thing—and I’m only doing it because I need to make a point (of course I do 🤣).

News and art

My by far most successful posts have been casting/shooting news and pretty pictures (two examples are linked). And I’m grateful for all the reblogs and likes of those, but apart from curating them, they’re not really me. They’re someone else’s work.

Meta analysis

Then you have my metas, which make up the bulk of the other posts that are doing quite well (you can find all of them in my pinned post).

Even if it wasn’t my most “successful” one (what does that even mean?), this one meant the most to me:

I love writing metas, whether they cover literary concepts, psychology, music or art because I’m a permanently brain-frazzled multi-hyphenate who has to talk about everything that won’t leave her alone.

I also love when you’re sending me asks btw. For the latter, I hope they pick up again in 2024 because they really nosedived since I switched off anonymous asks (which I won’t change, soz) after some people just thought it’s good sport to be an arse about my not being here to pray at the altar of the ship. I guess we have briefly covered the ugly side of Tumblr, too, then.

Writing

But what I'm most proud of when I think of all the things I've done in 2023 is my fiction and poetry. And that's both a happy and slightly sad thing to address.

My 31 Haikus for Sandtober started as a bit of fun, but they’ve developed a life of their own, and people seemingly liked them. The post also contains a bit of my fan-art:

I still intend to turn them into a hardcover at some point, but I won’t be able to create all the artwork myself, so if you’re a fan-artist and want to know what I’m thinking of, please get in touch (I’ll still talk about this in more detail at some point though).

The other thing I’m incredibly proud of is “The Light of Stars”.

I started it as a NaNoWriMo project in 2022 (I always use NaNo to do something that is less stressful than my professional writing projects), wrote it in a bit more than a month—and then did nothing with near 80,000 words until June 2023.

And then I thought “Fuck it,” and published it on Ao3. It’s a canon x OC fic, and this is where it gets a bit sad. Because for most of us writers, these are never the posts that get most engagement (the ratio is really something like 100 : 1 — 500 for a shitpost, 5 for an average writing post).

On Ao3, it gradually picked up because I published chapter after chapter, and I think I can say that it’s done fairly well over there in terms of engagement for an OC fic, and above all how people engage with it. Because it’s a bit deeper despite being romance, it deals with heavy topics like grief, and I’m so glad to have touched a few people’s hearts with it, and that it was meaningful to them. So much so that you all convinced me to write a sequel.

But here’s the thing: The general engagement with writing, especially non-explicit, non-ship, non-readerY/N on Tumblr is very, very low.

Writers who write canon x OC are still struggling to be heard through the noise (it’s not just me, I’ve had many conversations about this, so I’ll just say: I’ll speak for many of us). There are basically hardly any events for us to participate in (most of us only ever do so if we shift to canon one-shots, poetry or metas. If we don’t: Again, no one cares), and fandom often actively chooses to ignore us because “all OCs are self-inserts, ew.” Which is patently not true, and I could go on a long rant now why many canon x canon fics are very obvious self-inserts, which I won’t.

But even if all OCs were self-inserts, even if all characters were—so what? All writing is to a degree based on self-insertion because it comes from our brains—it’s not a bad thing. But apparently, it becomes a bad thing if the character is an OC, heaven knows why.

So if I had one wish (I’m allowed one, right?) for 2024, it would be that people engage more with OC fics and include them more in community events. That fandom, which prides itself in community, includes writers who don’t write for (the main) ship/s a bit more, especially if they don’t write smut (which I personally even do professionally, but I don’t want to have to do it in fanfic just to get engagement). I’m not holding my breath because I know that’s not where fandom’s oft single-minded focus lies, but a girl can dream, right?

And with that, I want to get to my proudest accomplishments of them all:

Being the curator queen of the sparkle realms:

Being one (arguably the main) instigator of the maddest crack ship that has ever graced (?) the face of the earth, spawned the most unhinged discussion (much truth in it though 🤣) and even NSFW fanart. I promise I’ll write that fic about Murphy and his Cool Hat:

Have a lovely 2024!

[soconfusedwithmylife]

MORE CHAPTERS THIS SOON???? ON GOD???

we love two texans off their rockers mhm. ok so time for another stupid thing from me!! basically ive only learned that you can subscribe to things to get emails about updates just a few months back despite having used ao3 since like '15. ive seen people get mails from ao3 before on shitposts and shit idk why or how it never clicked for me. but anyways since i was an absolute baffoon for the longest time, my method of checking for updates on my fics was just going to my bookmarks, sorting by updates and just refreshing. and it worked well for me!! this whole time!! but see the thing is, apparently your bookmarks goof up if an author uploads many chapters back to back.... so you see where this is going. i DID miss whole chapters that ive only noticed at the start of the next cycle before so idk why i never considered the possibility but basically this whole time i thought you posted only one (1) chapter for bit of a secret. was doing a meme about it today when

NOW if you'll excuse me im told this chick's finally getting her guts rearranged AND katsuki's finally getting some

OMG THE MEMES I love you. You're so funny lmao

The lady at the drive thru window was just staring at the wall, thinking about how bad she wants a different job while listening to them scream at each other lmao

And Tomura is literally so contradictory. He's got bad double standards lol I'm very glad you noticed that. I was wondering if anyone would call it out.

If it's any comfort, I used to just spam check the fics I loved in a trillion open tabs. I didn't even realize you could bookmark for a long time and just like you, only recently found the subscription button 💀 so don't feel bad about it lol also, sorry for the spam!

That sucks you missed some but I'm glad you found out sooner rather than later! The Texans are giving me straight brain rot right now so it might be a little bit before I update Boas 😬

[oersteds]

discord's a pretty dogwater messaging app, and a very unstable option for making friends. long post under the cut. i ramble here.

this is mostly about the server feature they have. those are where discord becomes a social media app more than a messaging app. and it gets miserable to be in a large server for a long period of time in my experience.

imagine having a large friend group. say, 20 or more friends. now imagine hanging out with those 20 friends constantly. 24/7, and you can't really leave. you can stop talking, you can sulk in a corner for a while, but they're still going. and you're fully aware they're still going.

this would be considered a pretty shitty situation in real life. and yet it happens all the time on discord, and with the "messaging app" facade the app uses, it's difficult to look outside of the shitpit you get yourself into.

and they are all shitpits. i have never heard of a public server surviving for longer than 3 or so years without things going to hell in a handbasket at some point. this is not a viable way to make friends.

"but what about this server i really like??? its been around for more than 3 years!!!" deletion is not the only way a server can die. sometimes the owner gives up and lets it rot in their server list. sometimes the moderation team gets drunk from power (more common than you think.) sometimes people just get burnt out.

most of the servers i was in before i decided to delete my account today are dead. the ones that weren't became too stressful to even look at. it's the friend group analogy i used at the beginning.

it sucks, because the brain isn't as accurate as people would like to believe. you feel left out if you aren't talking at all times. you start neglecting real life. i ditched a lot of school as a kid, because of this exact thing happening in another app.

so i'm making this post in the hopes someone else can read it and go "oh my gosh that's exactly it!" because oh my god this shit is miserable, and i don't want this to happen anymore.

so, what can you do about it? go outside, if you can. talk to people. realize that everyone is shy about making the first move, too. of course, there are places where talking to strangers is a faux pas. like the grocery store, or the gym. the internet is a wonderful tool for information. local events happen all the time here.

and if you can't use this advice, i understand. some people's circumstances truly are dogwater. and i wish things were better. because in the end, i'm just some shitposter on the internet. i can't save everyone, and neither can anyone else. the world can suck. just do what you can.

[luminescentauthor]

random fun RatLD hcs

you came here for RatLD shitposts and that’s what you’re gonna get!

SPOILERS AND LOTS OF THEM BELOW THE CUT, IF U HAVEN’T SEEN IT YET PROCEED AT UR OWN RISK.

I refuse to post about this movie without acknowledging the cultural significance of the first SEA disney princess and I will continue to do so until people on this website start remembering that this movie is about amazing cultures and trust and overall a WHOLE lot more than just the sapphics (as great as they are.)

anyway, so, headcanon time, my dudes!

The Next Adventure

Talon is a total mess after everyone gets un-stoned. (Ok so just for posterity, my marvel fan brain just went “un-snapped” on instinct and I hate it here.) The two chiefs are fighting for control, and Noi, being a baby, is not really in a position to help (unlike Raya, Naamari, and Tong.)

As such, the crew has to go undercover in Talon to try and, you know, stop the chiefs from destroying their people with their infighting. Tong insists on coming. Naamari happened to be in Heart and gets dragged along by Sisu and Raya, complaining the whole time, but everyone knows she doesn’t mean it. Boun also shows up and exactly no one is surprised.

During this misadventure, Noi’s mother names Tong as Noi’s godfather/honorary uncle/whatever, undercover Naamari and Raya go “noooooo, we’re not the princesses of Fang and Heart, what on earth are you talking about???” on at least five separate occasions, and the crew discovers that Noi inherited her sticky fingers from her very clever mother. She’s basically a grade-A spy and thief but she’s also just like, genuinely a very nice woman.

Rayaari!

Raya and Naamari take a long time literally just figuring things out and reconstructing their friendship, because really, as much as I love sapphics, there’s also a whole lot of messy there, and because these are my headcanons, they work out their problems and have a healthy friendship for a couple years before any romance happens, because that’s how Real Life works and I don’t believe in ignoring those Pretty Important Things in fiction.

They do eventually start a relationship, but they take their time. A bit into it, Benja accidentally mentions that Raya told him she liked Naamari when they met. Naamari’s like “ha you did?” and Raya goes “BA NO.” Then Virana immediately says “oh yes, Naamari also liked her, she didn’t stop crying because she thought Raya turned to stone for like three days” and Raya goes “you did, hmm???” while Naamari turns bright red.

Before they start dating, as their feelings grow, they start calling each other “dep la” more and more and everyone is just kinda of like “oh my GOD just date already???”

Eventually Raya and Naamari get married and become the leaders of Kumandra. No I Won’t Change My Mind.

Unification of Kumandra

The unification of Kumandra felt a bit shoehorned, and I suspect the nations aren't united under one leader(s): it's more that they're now becoming close-knit again. Perhaps they have a meeting council of all their leaders that makes decisions that affect the whole land, otherwise that probably becomes a thing at some point.

When Kumandra eventually becomes totally unified, the capital of Heart (which I believe is on the island we see on the map of Kumandra) eventually becomes the capital. It still has five provinces/states, though.

Fang and Heart

Heart and Fang help each other out a lot with recovering from the “most of our people got turned into the statues” stuff. Heart has more resources, but most of its people have been stone for 6 years. So the two states/countries are both capable of different things.

Of all the kingdoms, Heart and Fang have the most to rebuild: Fang’s only standing city was destroyed in the finale of the movie, while Heart has been growing over for six years. Sure, Spine’s been stone for a while, and some of Talon’s docks and water ships and whatnot collapsed when the water vanished, but it’s still significantly easier to repair than “six years of overgrowth and rot and rust” or “literally the ground collapsed underneath us and wow um I don’t think that’s reparable.” So they really team up to fix it, and the others help them a lot.

The actual leaders stay in their capitals to lead until things have calmed down a WHOLE lot, so Raya and Naamari travel around Kumandra on their parents’ behalf a lot, and wind up going between Fang and Heart a lot to establish diplomatic relations and also to help with rebuilding.

Over this period, and while doing diplomatic meetings later on, Virana and Benja come to realize that the other person is actual quite decent. There’s some mess and distrust because of Virana’s thing with the Dragon Gem, but it eventually gets worked out. (Virana’s reaction is “yes that’s fair. In my defense, I was trying to do what I thought was right for my people, who were starving, but Yes, That’s Fair.” Benja’s reaction is “honestly if your people were starving from famine and you thought the Gem would help, that makes more sense.”) After a while, they become pretty good friends.

And suddenly Raya and Naamari regret everything. See, Naamari mentioned that both parents make terrible jokes. The girls are Suffering. Help them.

Sisu loves the bad jokes. Sisu also makes bad jokes. Raya and Naamari are silently dying.

It’s silly, but I like the idea that 3-4 years down the line, Virana and Benja consider getting married just for political reasons (alliance and all that) (they’re not actually interested in each other, it’s just practicality) and Naamari and Raya, who are not dating but are definitely in deep for each other at this point, are immediately like “NO. NO. DO NOT MAKE MY CRUSH MY STEPSISTER. DO NOT.”

Virana and Benja (mostly Benja) tease them by “considering” it for a bit longer, but they don’t, since they talked about it and both kids are uncomfortable with it. (”They like each other, don’t they?” Virana asks dryly. “Ohhh yeah,” Benja replies.)

Music? Music!

I was listening to a youtube mix this morning and “Too Far Gone” by Hidden Citizens popped up and it just reminded me of Raya’s attitude towards Kumandra at the start of the movie. Also it’s just a beautiful song.

“Knife in my Back” by Alec Benjamin is Raya @ Naamari before they figured things out, change my mind.

Other Stuff!

We can guess based off how long it took the crew to get from Tail to Fang even with side adventures (I think it was 3-4 days max, I wasn't totally paying attention) that one can navigate from one end of the river to the other within a couple days even in a boat like Boun's, and the royal families probably have even faster modes of transportation. (I.e. Naamari got from Tail to Fang in a couple days, then to Spine, then beat the crew back to Fang. On land.) Therefore, unlike I was originally thinking, it's actually totally realistic for the crew to be visiting each other once or twice a month.

It's even more realistic for Naamari to crash Raya's place on a weekly basis, since that's probably like six hours on cat at max.

I don't know what the cats are, so I will be calling them saber-cats until someone corrects me.

TUMBLR JUST MYSTERIOUSLY STOPPED ACCPTING MY "E" KY HLP I HAV TO US COPY PAST

Wait I think I fixed it. Crisis averted! Sorry about that.

Because Naamari is in Heart half the time, Virana visits quite frequently too. It’s not a long trip, anyway.

Virana is not straight (haircut) but I can’t decide if she’s a lesbian or what. She doesn’t have a spouse and never did. Only those Virana closely trusts know who Naamari’s dad is. Naamari does know and she’s met him, because Virana figured she had a right to. He and Virana never had a relationship, Virana just sort of needed an heir and a trusted personal friend offered to father the kid.

Tong’s wife is a total badass and instantly fits in with the crew. She and Noi’s mother quickly become very close friends.

Noi and Tong’s kid also immediately get along. As in, they constantly throw things at each other while giggling madly and both love the Ongis, and -- are they whispering to each other in that corner?? They might be conspiring to take over the world. Who knows.

Noi learns how to talk and becomes about 5 times more chaotic. Everyone is Regret (except Tong.)

[lumity-rights]

Hello! do you have an about or anything you want me to know before i follow?

oh god uhhhh things to know before you follow.....

ok 1) i am dumb. just super dumb lmao my clownery knows no bounds and my head is just constantly empty. there is absolutely nothing going on up there except for lumity brain rot and that’s it. my one brain cell is trying her best djjfkfk

2) i am cringe!! all i do is key smash and say haha and lmao too much. but it’s sexy of me😌

and 3) ok in seriousness i’m just here for a good time!! i never started this blog for followers and stuff, and sure as heck don’t wanna continue it for that. i hope you’re here cuz you like my dumbass thoughts and shitposts, and if you find that you’re not super into it that’s totally chill!!

i will only be a little offended cuz what the heck bro :/my brand of cringe is so funny :/ (i’m kidding, i fully believe you should follow blogs you wanna see on your dashboard and make you laugh. life’s too short to follow people out of obligation or out of hate or whatnot.) make like marie kondo and follow blogs that spark joy. and also maybe fires. because arson is sexy😌

also good to know: there are some weird ass anons who come through here sometimes and love to torment me but i honestly love them ahaha they’re iconic. and it seems like we’ve got a daily hydration reminder tradition on this blog lmao idk how it happened but this is what i am now and i love that too

anyway if you decide to follow i hope you enjoy your stay! and remember to take care of yourself cuz that’s what we’re about here✌️also lumity ofc

[spectre1]

tagged by the lovely @spotchka thank u plum!!

1. Why did you choose your url? i was trying to save a bunch of sw urls for my main blog lol and spectre1 was surprisingly free and stan kanan jarrus, that’s my bestie!

2. Any side blogs? this is a side blog👀 my main is @favouritecolours where i blog about all my other interests (art, poetry, other movies, more personal posts + updates), i also have an atla side blog @kataruh that i made a couple years ago but don’t really use as often. i also started a resources blog yesterday lol @selectivecolour which is just themes rn bcos i may or may not be thinking about starting a sw animation / rebels source blog

3. How long have you been on tumblr? sigh.. since i was like 13 unfortunately. i think i turned out okay all things considering but it’s just so crazy to think about

4. Do you have a queue tag? yes! it’s just #q and runs like twice while i’m asleep

5. Why did you start your blog? i rewatched the all of the movies and finally finished tcw during christmas break then watched rebels in like. a weekend after lol which kickstarted my star wars brain rot. i saved the url in like end of march/april ish then started posting here to not spam my main blog with too many star wars posts and then i started making gifs n other creations now here i am <3

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp? i used to have leia / hera icons and then i changed it to kanan bcos i thought it wld be cute if my icon and url matched. i also think it makes shitposts like this more funny hahaah

7. Why did you choose your header? um 👁👄👁 my header is not visible on this blog anymore but it was a picture of kanan and ezra on lothal picked it bcos i love them and the twin moons and the blue bg matched with my icon colour

8. What post of yours has the most notes? i am a jedi, like my father before me but with kanan and ezra which is one of my favourites that i’ve made and i like looking through the tags on that LMFAOO

9. How many mutuals do you have? idk besties how do u find out this information

10. How many followers do you have? 222 angel number isms <3

11. How many blogs do you follow? 139 i shld probably follow more fjkfg

12. Have you ever made a shit post? yes and whenever they get more than like. 30 notes im like hit post!!!!!!!!

13. How often do use Tumblr a day? more than i would like to honestly

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog? no i do use the block button very liberally tho <3

15. How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog’ posts? uhh i don’t think i’ve ever seen one of those on my dashboard but just reblog want u want i guess?? it’s ur blog lol

16. Do you like tag games? yes i think it is cute to think that my mutuals are thinking of me and want to know more about me heehee i don’t always do them though bcos i am either lazy or don’t think ppl care for what i have to say fhdfjk

17. Do you like ask games? yeah i don’t think i’ve ever done them on this blog but if im ever bored and have time i’ll do them!!

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous? uhhhh idk how to gauge what tumblr famous is bgkbmgkm but if we are mutuals ily u are famous in my eyes

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual? not in any serious way obviously but if we’re mutuals, i’m peeling u an orange and giving you a slice. i am making you a cup of warm tea. i am reblogging posts i think you wld like when i see you online in hopes that you see it

tagging @chellilonaaphra @burnhamandtilly @obiewan @milfventress and if u see this and wanna do it just say i tagged you lol, no pressure to do this tho!!!

[thyrideneverends]

(2017)

Escritos que encontre del año 2017 . Y conversaciones conmigo desde el año 2020 ([]).

____________________________ AAAHGH IM SO FUCKING SAD. I cant help but feel that im rotting. I dont want pity; people helping; people empathizing. FUCK YOU. I can do better than you. I DO. In fact. I havent been blinded, and hate everything around me as an excuse for giving my life away for what it was supposed to be. [this could be missunderstod since i was clearly angry 4 something i dont recall, I was refering to people in general, how they put themselves above the others, how they always wanna get "there" first, how they talk trash about their relationships, the anger, the hate that breeds out of them when they are wronged(even if there`s no purpose or whatsoever to cause them, specifically, any troubles), the screaming, the violence, that kind of hate..]

I dont want to just 'be happy' because I have to; so I reject happiness. But I want to feel it like something real and not made up.. does that makes sense? Thats a paradox i cant escape lately. [thats deep man, fortunately we figured that out. Have we figured that out? Happiness now is closed for manteinance ^-^ ]

I cant find pleasure in anything.. I destroyed everything..[you had to start somewhere, right?] I cant find meaning in anything.

I just need someone, i just need not to be alone. But I am; Even surrounded by everyone. I know I am. I know you are too.. I hope you are strong enough to endure it.

[hablabas de otro tipo de soledad, lo se, pero vos todavia no lo sabias, o si?]

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Sometimes I feel like I forgot an important part of being alive. I remember a different version of myself from a few years back. I feel like I'm just existing; nothing pushes my happy button. And when I'm not strong enough to think that it's fine; that I don't need that.. I will just panic questioning myself why, the reason for me not belonging. I know it's fine; I know I can just spend the rest of my..50years left? just doing this; living this eternal circling hell. You might say it's a choice.. That I don't put that much effort into it. That I'm just playing this part. Complaining my ass off. And to that.. I can only say I'm sorry.. I'm doing the best I can. [I know you were.. truly; and u did a great job never letting me down] _________________________________________

Why are we even here right.. What powers you? You wake up, work or study, ingest food, sleep. Repeat. To finish your career and become something.. To earn enough money to become someone.. Be better in what you're doing or you'll be out. You'll be useless. You'll be garbage. We[the system] won't need you.. And then we have to be happy about it.. We have to function collectively happy and there's no room for the outcasts.. And IM to blame for it.. I could be happy like all of them.. But I'm just sitting my ass here thinking what else I can sabotage, in order to understand why it's unnecessary and wish to be also capable of that... Just capable maybe of.. not be weird; not be me.. And sometimes thats all that matters. That Im me.. And I love not being a part of them. I just can never get a hold of that moment and make it last.. I will feel alone just a moment after. [Im so glad we worked our loneliness, I mean, we have such fine moments in silence..]

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Aah... I was just given advice by a hot girl on tinder about how should I type, express and resume myself so the person on the other side of the screen won't stop replying thinking I'm an idiot.. She basically said :- "hey, you're an idiot but maybe a cute one. Here's human help. Just stop being you and people will like you" Y'know what? that's bullshit... It makes me so anxious that it happens all the time. There's always someone judgin. Not only online; real life is the worst. I just don't fit in here I guess. I'll keep talking with the tinder girl, maybe and get emptynessly laid, why not? But I think I hate this.. I hate that everything craves for a definition and people just won't LOOK; Im hidden among them... God how I wish to know who's there ravaging their brains with questions while walking in that empty crowd. I wish I could find you and ask just what you were thinking there. At that unique moment. You are not alone... But if you feel like I do; I wonder if you also wonder. I wonder if we're just very far away from each other.. I wonder if it`s true that there can only be one of us by this cosmic rule that goes: only one 'you/me' for every thousand people. Or.. maybe it's just me. Too old to be an idiot... Too idiot to fully be himself around smart well adjusted people. I guess it's a matter of perspective. isn't it pretty much all? Have a good night stranger.. [Not so stranger.. my dude.. U didn't get laid btw, you couldn't pull through with that. And then you promised you wouldn't lie about who you are.. You wouldn't ever play another role other than the one you are. Well, it was more like a statement than a promise, to yourself. I was there.. Best decision you ever made. You mutated loneliness into a condition, a simple symptom of your choice of living; instead of a disease on itself.. Very clever.]

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You don't have to read but if you wanna unload please write it down. Everything u hate.. or love; This I wrote on my personal account but it makes me anxious to open myself to judgy people, so I erased it.. We live to judge because we love fixing things that didn't go right with us. Never understanding each perspective is unique. Well Im gonna paste it here because I don't want to lose it.. I don't want something I really meant to be just a deleted thing..(even if it is)

Have u ever felt like you're unique or different?   But then just analyzing, we all just walk towards and objective. We don't do things just because. You don't get up every day to just go to work.. to just have breakfast or go shopping, idk; people set goals. We follow patterns. We repeat the same exact thing to strangers of the streets. The same exact things other strangers reply to us.. We are the same NPCs to others. And then realizing this I just wanna scream PLEASE GET ME OUT OF THIS. Please look at me! I don't want this. I don't want to be aware of this.. I don't want to feel I'm just to you what you guess I am. What's the point of everything? How do I get to know who I am if I'm always this self-centered stupid attempt of somebody? Nobody wants that. Sometimes I am glad to be "awake". To be different from the other people in their bubbles... But most of the time I'd give EVERYTHING to be exactly like that. Because I feel lonely. Because I have so many friends, but we can't communicate. Because I've lost the ideal of love because at a certain point I was scared of being a problem and it hurts so fucking much. I don't think I am special.. or more intelligent or cultural, I just feel I have a different degree of "profoundness" than most other people. It's not something I talk about or show, most of the time i pretend to fit in, but I don't. I can fool myself for periods, I've fooled myself for so many years now, but in the end it always comes back, I can't hide it forever. it hurts so much. I don't know if it's a blessing or a curse and I feel like a fucking show-off that just wants attention..

[I felt that.. dude. You write beautifully..]

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Hi person reading this. Be nice, life is full of shitty people. Make a tiny difference; someday we're all gonna die so its cool. Dont hold grudges ^^ . [^^]

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We are all just internet jesters shitposting to fill the void Even if you're just taking selfies and being beautiful while loving life, smiling to nothing and eating healthy shit while showing off the new place you just visited to a bunch of strangers that doesn't give a fuck about you .. (actually those are the worsts) yeah.. (Don't get me wrong I'm not saying it's bad. I do that too ! we like showing ourselves to others..) Screaming... I exist. Notice me sempai. We just are ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

________________________________________________ *draw of myself* [couldnt find it anywhere, where did u put it D: . i remember the sad expression] I know It has a lot of imperfections but so do I. I guess this is how I see myself.. Maybe I just wanted it to be like that. To express something to myself. I still feel like a little kid sometimes even tho I'm 25; "I just can't play with the other kids because I feel different and they make me feel different." Now I can't play with the adults, they're too adults. They make me feel too adult; i need to act up every move to become like them. And then alone, I can be at peace being who I wanna be; But it gets lonely from time to time; Not being able to understand who are you really; where are you really above the necessity of impersonating this other dude to get laid, get the job, get the money. And for what?.. Just to keep doing it because there is really no other choice.. How sad. But anyway. Ever tried to draw yourself? To see what's the image of you that you hold in your head.. if u truly do it; it doesn't matter if you know or not how to proyect yourself.. Every trace you make on that paper is a creation this world has never seen.. your chance to make a difference; it doesn't have to be trendy or impact in mankind. I suppose that's what I call art. And that's why art is everywhere.. Everything that can never be repeated.. Anything that comes from you; or life itself. A random amount of dirt.. Sunlight getting through the leaves of a tree.. Pieces of a broken cup and the stain of coffee in the carpet.. I'm not an artist myself tho; never considered myself even close to one.. I haven't drawn in years.. This is my first one in a long time; I just felt like it.

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[tranquil-slaughterhouse]

As some of you (like probably a very few) know that I am NOT fond of SU Kahret Tee Cal. Especially when it goes into full gear when Familiar airs.  

That being said...

People who tell them to (rightfully) stop wasting their time obsessing and just drop the show altogether without giving it a thought yet still giving thousands of snide comments towards Voltron months after season 7 premiered (instead of, I don't know, dropping the show already and at least act like you don't give a fuck about the final season?) are hard to take seriously and gives the crits more excuse to keep being who they are.

It's understandable that you have issues towards people like Joakim and Lauren for what they did and it's ok to post as much of your grievances as you had during last August and September while season seven was still fresh in people's minds. But it gets obsessive and tiresome after that. Last year, people that had words such as Critical, Bitter, Discourse, and Salty in their url of their not-really-necessary su critical sideblogs praised new shows just to say shit like, "Wished Stefan's Galactic Empire was as damn good as this." This year, it's people who should've changed their Voltron-based urls by now (because the stereotype of the site being a haven for irony-obsessed hipsters is a dead horse that shouldn't be resurrected and flogged) doing that same shit with said show they were once fans of. Especially the days up to the premiere of SPOP’s first season. It can make "stans" not watch the other shows out of spite. Then again, they could have (and probably want) that smug sense of superiority that they consume these alternatives while the "stans" refuse to. 

Seriously, imagine if She-Ra was released last year and the crits loved and had their hands on it... 

And then there's demonizing regular fans as obsessive freaks. Posting/reblogging a pic that says, "Shut up about Voltron. Shut up about Voltron!" without any dispute is throwing a wrench into the gears of their own self-awareness. Imagine if someone posted "Shut up about TDP. Shut up about TDP!" What ever happened to encouraging enjoying what you love watching? I mean, AFAIK Voltron isn't reactionary, nationalist propaganda. And I don’t want to get started on the “rot brain syndrome” shit.

You know what? Practice what you preach and let it go. Give DreamWorks the silent treatment. You're better off paying no mind to it than giving into the temptation of making a two hour rant on Youtube. Focus your energy (whether positive or negative) on stuff you love (whether it be another cartoon/anime or some shitposting) and what's actually important (like praising/pushing for more shows with diverse casts, denouncing A13 and bumbling Dumblr staff). Hell, do something about that "New Voltron" thing that used to be buzzing months ago!

Whatever.... Do What Thou Wilt. Gonna drink some Bailey's-infused hot chocolate and watch some She-Ra now.

P.S. Not into the show's shipping business in general. I'm uninterested in diving into that stuff. Though I'm thinking that the two guys who held "Shiro" captive in their mostly empty base in The Journey should be a couple akin to OK KO's Barebones. I'll have to rewatch the episode just to make sure...

[xx69goblin69xx]

A List Of Things I Learned Not Looking At Social Media For One (1) Week

Secondary list of social media sites I missed, ranked: Tumblr, any other social media site, Twitter

I can’t overstate how much I didn’t miss Twitter. I missed bits of it: Basketball highlights, knowing what the fuck is happening in the world, having something to do while not wanting to get out of bed. But I really didn’t miss the weird anxiety opening that app brought on, or the stress of firing tiny balls of information into my brain with gatling gun efficiency every half an hour.

I have no idea what happened in the world for the last week. I think Trump started a holy war maybe? The pedophile American senator lost his seat (it’s a very 2017 thing to be happily surprised by a pedophile not being elected). I’m not sure if I can consider the not-knowing to be a bad thing or not, because my soul definitely hurt less.

I didn’t really do anything differently with my time. Maybe a bit more writing and less scrolling. I did find that rather than staring at a feed for 30 minutes after completing one activity and before moving on to the next activity, I’d spend 5 minutes staring at a wall before getting bored and moving on instead. This seems like a good thing?

I missed Tumblr, because it’s my favourite social media site. Tumblr is currently the only site I’m convinced I want to come back to. I missed my buds here!

I spent a week offline and now I hate memes? Or meme culture, maybe. And I feel like there’s a distinction between shitposting and meme culture, although maybe that’s just me trying to justify still liking Tumblr. Meme culture is death by a thousand ironic cuts. On the plus (negative) side, it’s gonna be real fun to go and watch the 2045 Ready Player One Equivalent that idolises 2015-onwards memes. Gonna love that.

I have genuine fear clawing in my throat about coming back to Being Online. It’s not quite a panic attack, but it’s like a panic attack is across the room at a bar winking at me and raising its drink, reminding me that it could come and hit on me at any time when I just want to get messy with my friends could you please leave me alone panic attack your stack of fedoras isn’t impressing anyone. It’s really, really nice being disconnected. It’s really nice having people say “Did you see...?” and saying “nope! What!” instead of “yeah I followed that for weeks and it rotted my soul down to mulch”.

I was definitely taking social media way too seriously before this. Hopefully I can develop a healthy relationship with it. But if not! I will return! To the abyss! Of reality!

[missmeltycat]

Fallout 4 Shitpost RP

So I joined a Fallout 4 Discord server recently and they do RP. Things started going a bit... EH, so I hopped in with a comment about godmodding. From there, a whole shitpost was born.

Starring: NickZeHusher as Themselves Firefox as Themselves @thatredheadedchick12​ as Rhiley Myself as Sturges

--- NickeZeHusher-Yesterday at 8:47 PM

throws an incendiary grenade at Firefox

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:33 PM

Dodges grenade and shots Nick in foot and laughs

NickeZeHusher-Yesterday at 11:34 PM

Blows up the whole wasteland with a large nuke

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:36 PM

(You can't use large nukes says the rules) (You don't have it also no god modding)

Sturges-Yesterday at 11:37 PM

(You godmodded though.) (By 'shooting Nick in the foot')

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:38 PM

(He used a large nuke) (Which is not in fallout )

Sturges-Yesterday at 11:39 PM

(After your godmodding.) (Allow him to decide if you shot him or not.)

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:39 PM

(So using a nuke is okay) (I guess it is)

Sturges-Yesterday at 11:40 PM

(It was taking the piss since dodging is also taking the piss)

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:40 PM

Nukes Sturges to death

Sturges-Yesterday at 11:40 PM

(YAAAAY!)

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:40 PM

( :) )

RhileyLaBianca-Yesterday at 11:41 PM

(Yeah that was definitely god mod...)

Sturges-Yesterday at 11:41 PM

Sturges stood there as the nuke detonated, his skin peeling off layer by layer. His eyes slowly melted out of their sockets and fizzed loudly. His brain boiled within his skull and seeped from every facial orifice he had until he was finally dead.(edited)

RhileyLaBianca-Yesterday at 11:41 PM

(But no no lets throw a hussy puss about nukes)

Sturges-Yesterday at 11:42 PM

| RIP - HERE LIES STURGES - SEXY MECHANIC AND LOVER OF DUCT TAPE |

RhileyLaBianca-Yesterday at 11:42 PM

revives Sturges with med-x

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:43 PM

Attacks Rhiley with Liberty Prime and kills them(edited)

RhileyLaBianca-Yesterday at 11:44 PM

dodges

Sturges-Yesterday at 11:44 PM

"It's a miracle!" Sturges rose from the ashes like a majestic phoenix and stood on tiptoes with his arms outstretched. "I'm alive!" ( SNORT )

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:45 PM

Pulls trigger on Rhiley's dog

RhileyLaBianca-Yesterday at 11:45 PM

shoots Dogmeat up with med- x

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:46 PM

Makes dog High

RhileyLaBianca-Yesterday at 11:46 PM

punches Firefox think sponge out the back of his head

Sturges-Yesterday at 11:47 PM

Sturges sat on a pile of rotting corpses and watched the battle from a distance. He'd put caps on a winner, but he'd lost them in his hair along with a few rolls of duct tape, a cat and Preston.

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:47 PM

Fires nuke between both of them and blasts each other across the wasteland

Sturges-Yesterday at 11:49 PM

The nuke sailed down betwen them and detonated. The force of the blast sent Sturges sailing across the sky like a firework and he yelled as he went. "LEEEEEROOOOOOY!"

RhileyLaBianca-Yesterday at 11:51 PM

Huh. Guess ill just go find Hancock. Wanna join? looks to Sturges cause that guy just blew himself up.

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:52 PM

(You know you're across the wasteland from the force of the nuke)

RhileyLaBianca-Yesterday at 11:54 PM

(No Im not Im in Goodneighbor)

Sturges-Yesterday at 11:56 PM

(Sturges probably has like... A whole communications array in his hair.) (His hair contains secrets)

Firefox-Yesterday at 11:56 PM

(I bet it does)

Sturges-Yesterday at 11:57 PM

Sturges had landed rather badly. In fact, he had somehow lodge in a tree trunk head first. "Aw now that's just great. Now mah hair is all messed up."(Preston has a condo in there.)June 1, 2017

NickeZeHusher-Today at 12:06 AM

I use a flammable condom and put it on my sick and light it on fire with a lighter

Sturges-Today at 12:08 AM

From his tree, Sturges could see some dude stood with his now flaming tackle. "Well... You see somethin' new every day."

NickeZeHusher-Today at 2:42 PM

I then put water over the fire and my dick enlarges to 7 feet from 2 feet

Sturges-Today at 3:29 PM

It was shocking. Sturges honestly thought that nothing could shock him anymore, but he was wrong as he eyeballed this giant rubber coated sausage from his lofty perch. He almost felt a little jealous. Almost.

NickeZeHusher-Today at 3:58 PM

I take off the rubber, and I suck the sausageI take it out of my backpack, cook it on a barbeque pit with coal, and eat it

Firefox-Today at 5:14 PM

"No more babies in the wasteland”

:(

Sturges-Today at 5:15 PM

"Nooo!" The sexy greaser mechanic yelled so loudly that he split the tree in half. "You were humanities only hope at survival! How could you! You have doomed them!"(

Firefox-Today at 5:16 PM

God looks down and says "You have failed me nick"

Sturges-Today at 5:22 PM

In the following years, it was clear that humanity was doomed. The single action of Nick had rendered them powerless against death, with each generation slowly fading from existence one by one. Eventually, humans became so desperate to survive that they erected (Ha) a giant monument to Nick's fallen schlong and worshipped it in the hope that one day they would be blessed with its powers once again.

Firefox-Today at 5:23 PM

Then they found a kit to make artificial spermMore babies they all said!

Sturges-Today at 5:24 PM

Sturges created a kick ass machine that would manufacture said sperm in great quantities and was thus dubbed 'The Sperminator'. He donned shades and a leather jacket from that point on.

Firefox-Today at 5:25 PM

FireFox and Sturges now go down in history

NickeZeHusher-Today at 5:29 PM

shoots the gods with a fat boy

Firefox-Today at 5:30 PM

Wonders if nick is talking about the Egyptians

NickeZeHusher-Today at 5:32 PM

Fuck all Gods!!!!!

Sturges-Today at 5:33 PM

Since Sturges was now a god in his own right, he too ended up getting blasted yet again. As he flew through the air on yet another aerial nuke-propelled journey, he sighed loudly. "I guess you could say... I'm having a blast." He donned his shades and in the distance a mysterious voice yelled "YEAAAAAAHH!"