#this song legit makes me cry

[otp-more-like-killmeplease]

[strwbrryfire]

i. promises oceans-deep, but never to keep

peter - taylor swift

[youremyonlyhope]

It's 4am, which means it's a perfect time to listen to Ma Belle Evangeline and cry.

[bogwitchlesbian]

Strangers by Ethel cain is the most billy hargrove song to ever exist

Literally I can draw parallels on like every line and harringrove-ify it

“In your basement, I grow cold”-

Billy’s body left in the morgue after starcourt, waiting for Neil to be bothered to organise a funeral

“Don’t talk to strangers or you might fall in love”-

Billy being forced to move to this new town, and meeting Steve, and being devastated that he can’t stop being everything Neil hates.

“How funny, i never considered myself tough”-

billy being forced out of his pretty embroidered clothes and the things he loves Into this sporty badboy persona to stay safe from his dad

“You’re so handsome, walking over to me now”-

the whole “yeah it’s me, don’t cream your pants” scene at the Byers’. No other notes.

“I tried to be good, am I no good? Am I no good? Am I no good?”-

billy being everything his dad wants him to be and it still not being enough. No matter how hard he tries, he can’t be straight enough, can’t be tough enough, can’t be respectful enough.

“With my memory restricted to a Polaroid in evidence”-

the fact that Billy’s entire existence was just like, forgotten (and actively and wilfully ignored) by everyone but max, and Jason that one time.

“I just wanted to be yours, can I be yours, can I be yours?”-

billy just always wanting Steve’s attention at every turn. Just wanting him to look at him. Pushing him around in gym, staring at him in the showers, doing whatever he can to get his eyes on him.

“If I’m turning in your stomach and making you feel sick”-

in a literal sense, getting half eaten by the mind flayer, figuratively, his memory haunting max and never giving her peace, no matter what she tries.

“When my mother sees me on the side of a milk carton——she’ll cry, and wait up for me”-

The idea of Billy’s mother finding out her son died years later from a random newspaper article or something, not knowing how she didn’t realise he’d died. How she didn’t feel her child dying.

“I’m happier here, because he told me I should be”-

either the MF getting in Billy’s head, telling him he’s doing the right thing, telling him he likes it, or Neil forcing them all to Indiana and demanding a new start, to be the perfect family, to not cause problems.

“You’re so handsome when I’m all over your mouth”-

the fight at the Byers def crossed some wires in that boys head seeing Steve all bloody. Boy ain’t right. But neither am I

“Found you just to tell you I made it real far”-

one of the last things billy sees is the memory of being back in California. Just for a moment he got to be home.

“And I never blamed you for loving me the way that you did”-

billy thinking Neil is justified in what he does because he’s been to conditioned to hate himself, and his mother leaving just creates a whole mess of self worth issues.

Alternatively, max getting older and understanding the nuances of what exactly was going on in that house, and finally forgiving billy completely.

“While you were torn apart, I would still wait with you there”-

max holding him as he died, despite everything, so he wasn’t alone at the end.

“Don’t think too hard about it or you’ll never sleep a wink at night again”-

max not being able to move on, blaming herself for not saving him. Plus the whole eddie parallels with vecna.

“Don’t worry bout me and these green eyes, mama just know that I love you, and I’ll see you when you get here”-

billy knowing that the only chance he’ll ever get to see his mother again is in heaven, and finally being at peace with dying because everything will be okay once he sees her again.

[sunshine-of-my-shoulder]

there's something in the water that's specifically affecting green haired princesses who have purple eyes and also bpd (momochi and hiyori)

[mushumcap]

a doodle i did last year of a moment from the nordic campaign i’m guesting in with my character Raethe! it’s the first time i’ve been in a campaign long enough to have a character with development and WOW it’s a good fuckin’ table for rp, the main players are INSANE

[citrine-elephant]

yo, yo. terrible idea, but.... AJR - 2085.... i'm miserable and

you think leon would purposefully (consciously or not) end up triggering himself?

you wanna think about chris finding his drunk ass and it's just, "goddamn it, leon." and

leon ends up spilling out his heart on chris and... like wtf, man. but he forgets about it in the morning and chris has to just. sit on that.

[socknerd]

I watched one of those shows that people have been discoursing about as like, too cute and perfect and we need gritty lgbtq stuff and like

????

Yeah sure, it was cute and nice. I also spent a shitload of my time watching it crying.

God, what the fuck are discourse people on.

[kuiinncedes]

yeo what the fuck is this young royaIs forever thing

[enjoytheglow]

This clip from Erin Matthews' Insta Story (she's a real estate agent!) but it's Sally showing off the reefer den (which is not cute but an absolute mess) and the lemon thingos are pot brownies

[unreadpoppy]

Every time I hear Clair de Lune i am reminded as to why it is my favorite song

[youremyonlyhope]

Why did Randy Newman have to make me cry over a song about a firefly that loves a star?

How did this manage to be literally the most romantic love song ever written?

[figureinthedistance]

every few months i gotta rewatch the trevor moore out of context video + remember what it feels like for him to be my fav person

[sxorpiomooon]

YOUR FS FEELINGS AFTER YOUR FIRST DATE - A PAC READING

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Pile 1-

I think pile 1's fs will meet them right after their breakup with someone or right after they had let go of something very big, something that no longer served them. Also the first thing I got was shutting down so they might be really tired when they first see or meet you and I also think it'll be late at night. I also think this late was very much delayed for some reason? It's almost as if accepting your fate like you try to avoid something so hard but can't stop it from happening so you just give in by the end. That's sort of the vibe for some reason? Lmaaao this is so funny bc right after the date they will immediately feel the need to rush things and they will be scared of rushing things too. This sort of reminds me of how people always say that the moment they met their fs they immediately knew and wanted to marry them that's the vibe. I see things going quickly too right after the first date, i see you guys going on alot of dates together I'm getting a vision of like a roller coaster date? Also you girlies are PRETTY PRETTY I had a vision of those trendy skirts and softy haha. This pile might have girlies with Libra placements I heard venus as well ANYWAYS I think your fs will immediately know it's like they will forget everything and now they are so hyped up to sum up the entire thing I heard "i belong"

Pile 2-

Hmmm I see a conflict here or two people meeting together after years? This kinda second chance romance type shit imma NGL. I also think that there is some history there as I said it might be you guys starting as enemies or simply second chance romance. Right after I wrote this my father started singing a song which basically translates to "don't leave me now" or abhi na jaao chord ke for those who want to give it a listen. Whatever it is oh y'all gonna have your LORES. Anyways I see two people legit being so grumpy on a date 😭😭 sipping their drinks this might be near water or a really pretty scenary I also hear beautiful instruments playing. Anyways all this won't last long bc I see and hear very warm laughter of both of you it's like you know in movies two people fighting something happens and they crack a laugh there's this eye contact and then one of them says or admits that "I missed you" THATS THHE VIBE OML. I see a familiar feeling that you have with an old friend. I heard "old habits die hard" out of nowhere. I also see you guys sort of making a note of learning from your past experiences to build a good solid future. This connection will be tested alot but I do see you guys being resilient. Honestly very beautiful vibe.

Pile 3-

HELL NAWWW LMAAAAAAAAAAAAO THID MAN WILL THINK THAT HE HAS TANKED THE DATE COMPLETELY DESTROYED OVER THIS HE WILL THINK THAT HE IS ABSOLUTELY DONE AND FINISHED AND THAT JE WILL NEVER GET THIS CHANCE AGAIN AND THAY JE IS A LOSER WHO FUCKED THIS CHANCE UP AND FUMBLED A BADDIE LMAAAAAAO. I see this man losing his shit legit whining wailing crying that he fucked up😭😭 I think he sort of a loser when it comes to communication. I jus see him shuttering n shit for those who are watching serendipity embrace(kdrama) the vibe is exactly like that second lead pt teacher lmao. I see him being so anxious after the first date bc he will think that he has tanked it. I think he might come across as someone who's very formal and has alot of attitude but in reality he will just not know how to talk😭 I don't even see him being able to gather the courage to hold eye contact with you. However, I do see something out of nowhere happening whether it will be him being able to meet you again or you texting him something good with happen and he will be very surprised to receive this chance or opportunity

Pile 4-

I don't see a very good vibe overall I won't lie. I see your fs being very confused with the entire date. I just think that things will perhaps not go well for this pile and I know exactly why it'll happen. One person will try to speed things up too much and it will scare the other person off. I just see one person trying to hurry everything up and it just being a big turn off for the other person. I think what this pile can try to do is perhaps not take things too fast and let the other person take their time as well. The more you try to speed things up the more it'll scare the other person off and it will end up in a disappointment. I'm sorry I couldn't give you much positive my pile 4<3

[succubus-nblm]

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[s1llydr3amscape]

LET ME OUT

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Anyways I always wanted to doodle this specific pose from Toyless' animation why because I can :]

Extras under the cut :

This was the specific screenshot I based the pose off I love hands grabbing head!!! :

The original video ^ (I'll be real with yall I was shocked the original song was poppy playtime because my only experience with it was that all my baby cousins loved that franchise. And they would show me vids off it at family gatherings because I was the babysitter. One of em even debated me abt fnaf like chill out bro you weren't even born when it came out!!!!!)

Glitchtrap rambling time woohoo let's go!!!!

-I redrew em again because I think I'm almost 100% happy with its design!!!! Like I don't wanna change their face so much because the way his face is shaped is my fave!!! Like they have the same style of muzzle as sonic characters!!!!!! I just made it rounder cuz its their early days before this au lore

-I just wanna achieve the unnaturalness with their design. Like they don't belong here. They want to get out. LET HIM OUT. type vibe basically like that's why it has like those kind off teeth instead off the rabbit ones. They get those later in the au.

-I fucking love Glitchtrap so much you don't understand they're so peak!!!!!! I jokingly hate him because I despise what it did to Vanny.

-I was a fan since day 1 bro is just so unique like woah a non animatronic for a change?!?!? STRAIGHT UP A FURSUIT!??!?! Color me impressed!!! I love zooming on it its model and seeing everyy little detail!!! Like omg bro is crying and drooling on the suit!!!!! There's also a patch of uneven stitching pattern on the top of their head compared to their mostly symmetrical design!!!

-I was so fixated on em like my level of obsession for him was bad bad!!!! Like yeah it was still there when Vanny came around during the curse of Dreadbear DLC but you don't understand it surpassed all my Foxy art!!! The first fnaf character I fixated on!?!?? Like what and yall can ask my IRLS bro had lots n lots of art!!!!! I have so much trad art of glitchy it's embarassing!!! Atleast I improved tbh!!

-I just really really loved the fan animations were bro got to time travel to the older fnaf animations and fuck em up!!!! Causing them all to glitch out like hello PEAK!?!?!?! No im not biased to rabbit characters with whiskers shhhhh... SHHH...

-Because I know all those animations already and it's like omg omg OMG Glitchtrap kinda expanded my music taste imma be fr... Fnaf autism is so bad I omfg I only listened to fnaf songs and the only time I listened to other franchises songs is because someone animated fnaf over it... like yeah I was an animation meme kid but even then I only remember the lyrics and titles to songs if I saw fnaf on them (cringe!!!!) So yeah thank u Glitchtrap <33333

-I think Malhare is the cooler name but the Glitchtrap name is cool too because when the names end in trap like this it makes me think they're like warrior cats adjacent. So in this one they just fluctuate between either Malhare or Glitchtrap

-Also another reason he's my super fave is because my brain predicted it's gloop form!!!!

-Like no joke literally the same character I dreamt about during the early days before Princess Quest.

-Except mine was a shadow like the shadow animatronics. More wispy than gloopy. I think the reason I dreamt it was because Shadow Toy Chica and fan made shadow animatronics were getting popular!! But legit same character and colors!!!!!!!

-Just a big dark mass with purple eyes surrounding it like literally the same character my brain came up with and I'm just wow <3333 minus the fact my design had really big giant swirly white eyebrows

-However my Shadow Glitchtrap was kinda more wack to say the least. Like heheheh cuz Glitchtraps a fursuit there's no denying that I changed the dream design a bit. In my old Glitchtrap designs they'd have a zipper and so what would happen was they'd unzip and flip their insides into outsides to reveal the Shadow Glitchtrap thing which was hiding inside them.

-Like those plushies that you can unzip to reveal a different plushie design basically!!!!

-TBH I prefer Glooptrap because yeah!!!!! Amalgamation of hate let's go!!!!!! I think with how gloopy he is its just fun to draw I love the fact that the weird Glitchtrap blockers look like that it fits too much with my own preestablished AU lore.

-I feel like Glitchtrap turns into Glooptrap from like the seams of their suit. Like you see that each part the suit got stitched just turn black as black liquid pours out like ohhh that shit haunted!!!! Bursting outta the seams like oh this guy has no one inside they're all just black sludge!!!!

-In this AU specifically (The one with my millions of Vanny designs) is actually a spoof fnaf AU where everyone lives!!! Like I have 3 AUs technically one of them being the fnaf cast in my oc world where they become my ocs basically called Rabbit City. My other one which is my more serious canon adjacent fnaf AU where no silly stuff or shipping happens, and it's just more overall following my own formed understanding of the canonicity and the series of events with me trying to keep the animatronics more game accurate (I dont think ive posted any of that here due to me feeling like my style limits the nit and grit I wanna go with it). And this one I mainly post on here where everything is just silly and bends to my command and everyone lives because I love everyone <333333 Literally playing with my toys type AU where I do what I want which is why a million vanny designs are in this AU specifically. I usually tag it as this 🦭🩷🐇🐰🐇🐰🐇🐰🐯 because the original name of this au is self indulgent and I'm embarrassed but it's too iconic to change it.

-Glitchtrap in this AU is just much more goofy and silly infecting people like a zombie virus and possessing them for his own gain. Weird eldritch horror that came out of a fnaf fangame. Anything goes in this AU so if I wanna make Glitchtrap a mind controlling zombie warlock wizard so be it!!!! Sorry I love zombies soo much you will have to take this trope out of my cold dead hands!!!!! I love rot!!!

-That's why it's wrinkly because they too me are like a rotten banana (Even though his associated smell to me is lemongrass). Imagine squeezing a banana still with it's skin on. That's how I imagine bro turns into glooptrap if they didn't open the zipper in time. Also because I love the design trope of rotting and withering sue me. I love when the flesh sags across the body. Wrinkles are great bro theyre so real!!!!! Also because back then people kept drawing him as skinny as a twig??? Even though they have fat??? So I made them fatter mostly because like I love the gloop part of it hiding inside <3333

-They're more green pink and purple because imma be real my fave color combo ever <33333

-I wanna do an xray piece with them soon to show their insides but I'm still uncertain if I have the art prowess to concoct it exactly like how I envision it yet. Like I need to squash and scretch them more. They need to look more decrepit and horrible!!!!! something like the unknown from dbd!!!!

-They can't actually emote properly stuck in a permanent smile

-Glithctrap and Vanny’s dynamic is like Lord Hater and Commander Peepers in this one. There's more character adjacent to the dynamic between them concocted in my head but I wanna draw a comic abt it :]

-Like yeah one second they're besties and the next they're at each other's throats ready to strangle eachother. Vanny reluctantly trying to help him at first like how she was first called.

-Oh also in this specific AU Glitchtrap isn't connected to William in the slightest more just it's own thing!!!!

-He's like an AI that wants to be human. It believes it is human. They've mimicked people too much that they don't know what they are anymore. Or what it wants anymore. What do they want.