#this rly doesn’t need tagging i’m just mentally ill abt them

[coffeebooh]

sometimes i think abt the fact that yja’s fire and ice are the same age vs guy being like 20 years older than them so guyt*ra can’t rly… exist on earth 16 and i smile bcoz then that means we could have had beatora holding hands in the background of some random s5 scene w/o any dialogue whatsoever but you still would have gotten the gist that they were dating 🥹

[fuckingrealityshifting]

This account is mostly inactive.

I have left shifting.

I STILL LURK on tumblr itself so a random post or random ask response may happen. Everything on this account will be left up bc the effort of deleting or pirating every. Single. Post is a no. I might check my old stuff in the inbox occasionally to see if there’s anything I want to answer but otherwise I will be leaving the asks and such

Here is this big Masterpost thing with a bunch of links here. Here is the old pinned post. Off a quick search here are some active shifting accounts sorry for the tags: @shiftingshiftingshifting (hi) @my-reality-my-rules @shiftingxsparkles

1. Do I no longer believe in shifting?

Yeah no I rly don’t. Maybe deep down it’s hard to fully shake a belief you’ve gotten into for like a year or whatever. But like…. no. I just know I’m frustrated at myself by the way I brought it here and I feel guilty about the role I played in creating the community here. Because it’s just… aaah.

Because let’s be honest. Nobody here is using it for anything other than escapism—there is like, no shifting blog with a DR that’s not centered around a fun piece of media or a fun scenario or something. You have to admit it. Even if you don’t think you’re doing it, it’s just really escapism.

And because of the demographic on this site you really have a bunch of teens looking for spiritual explanations for things that are to others clear mention health issues or just common stuff (dissociation, hallucinations, sleep paralysis) and it’s just…… Ah.

AND guys. The CIA documents don’t prove shifting. They really do not. There are better explanations on this but like. Have we actually read them…? Or do we just parrot the ‘proof?’ Like. Ancient cultures had shifting. WHAT ancient culture? I’ve seen the rare mention of Hinduism. And the evidence for that is WHERE? Evidence. What specific source?? There never is one. The response is usually passive aggressive abt doing ur own research or not demanding answers…. because they probably don’t know. I’ve LOOKED. I just don’t see it anywhere?? Or heard even why people say that?? I’m literally begging anyone to point me somewhere. Y’all don’t know and you don’t know because I also didn’t know! I didn’t fact check anything when I echoed it or believed it. I just accepted it. I do not think I’m the only one. I know I’m not.

Are we going to talk about the shifters who’ve admitted they lied, and the implications they have? I’m not big on shifting tiktok so I can’t remember names but I’m pretty sure there’s been multiple decent sized shifting creators undergo drama about admitting to lying. And then everyone goes like THIS OTHER CREATOR WOULD NEVER <3 genuinely how do u know that cause people probably said that about the one who just got exposed ?

There is a major issue with clear mental health experiences being interacted with, encouraged, and worsened by others. Seeing shit and hearing shit, major dissociation, experiences that doesn’t make sense within the concept of reality shifting and the logic that’s in place—it really sounds like unchecked psychosis and other mental illness is being encouraged by people who take anything as shifting related. Some of y’all don’t need to be told you’re getting closer and closer or that you minishifted or whatever. You need help. Me included! I wasn’t shifting. I was mentally ill. Nobody in the shifting community recognized that because rarely anyone can differentiate.

I don’t even want to mention the suicide parts of respawning. Who knows if people actually killed themselves and it wasn’t just internet rumors? It may be true but I’ve never seen a source. But the whole thing as a concept? People trying to leave this reality forever, involving death or not? We really should have paid more attention to that as a community and asked what we were doing that could bring about something as fucked as that rather than just going We Don’t Do That Here. Like in hindsight…. Oh Boy

Let’s say shifting isn’t real. It doesn’t matter if you believe, you always have to acknowledge there’s a chance you’re wrong. And in that scenario: these kids dissociated and killed themselves because of us as a community. We’re just going to shuffle away from that?

And okay, let’s say shifting is real: I’ve seen people ask why they should care about this reality if they’re just going to shift, I’ve seen people talk about how disconnected they got with this reality because of shifting. If it’s real it’s a Big Fucking Thing and I just think it’s often being used recklessly because we are young. Adults in the community are usually like, 20 to 25 at BEST. They are still young. Yes I’ve seen a few exceptions but that generalization is based off the majority of what I have seen. Age has been so warped by the concept of minors versus adulthood where it’s like once you’re legally an adult people think you’ve got the mental capacity of someone who’s 60. Your brain is still developing. In the grand scheme of things, you are still young. Most importantly: You are still impressionable. You are still more susceptible to mental health struggles due to your place in life.

And I’m gonna be so honest: yeah yeah no timeline to shift but. I really haven’t seen one person from the old days of shiftblr who’s successfully shifted since then. More and more people I see in shifting comment sections are asking for help because it’s been years and it hasn’t happened yet. How large are we gonna grow as a community with nobody but a select few having shifted? How long are we going to wait without ever questioning it? And additionally, a lot of people after a long time ‘shift’ with lucid dreaming method and I would like to point that out. Or just minishift (?) or shift once and can’t for a long time.

2. What’s your opinion on spirituality in general then?

Idk I had this question up for a while as a “I still believe in manifestation’ disclaimer to try and soften the blow of leaving but I don’t care abt any of that anymore—the point abt shifting is I truly don’t believe it’s another reality but that people are finding ways for like intense mediation/lucid dreams that mimic reality.

Bottom line, I just want a fresh start away from this. I don’t like being a Person People Look To For Advice. Like if someone’s going to make a video essay on shiftblr one day I don’t wanna be An Even Bigger Part than I very well might be

Like I don’t want to overestimate my importance bc I am sooooo super irrelevant now. But I would like to point out I started a lot of these hashtags the community used. I came up with #shiftblr. If memory serves, I was the first exclusively shifting centric account. I know at least another account had mentioned it before, but I’ve been around a while.

I’m not someone who’s leaving because I’ve gone off the rails crazy, or because it didn’t work, or I’m turning on shifting because I just tried it once and decided it must be false. I was fully immersed in this community and STILL made the decision to leave. If you can’t handle that, if you still feel like I haven’t tried it ‘right’ or I’m misunderstanding stuff and THAT’S why I don’t believe, if u keep finding annoying justifications like it’s impossible for someone to validly stop believing, you annoy me. please leave me alone at this point it’s been ages

[linos-teeth]

i got tagged

in the 50 questions and the about me tag by @chngbok ty browse!! these are a lot of questions and idk who i want to bother with them (unless you wanna be bothered then consider yourself tagged) but in case you wanna know some random stuff abt me there’s a lot of that under the cut!

what takes too much of your time?

currently, fic writing for sure

what makes your day better?

uhhh ideas, music, skz (except lino bc he literally just makes me cry)

what is the best thing that happened to you today?

lino in the victory song dance practice? (wow there's a theme already)

what fictional place would you like to go to?

hmmmmm the arbor wilds, the crossroads, the forge, h-047c, watford

are you good at giving advice?

nah

do you have any mental illness?

uhhhh not theoretically (as in not diagnosed oops)

have you ever experienced sleep paralysis?

luckily not

what musician inspired you the most?

boy i rly can't say, usually it's writers or games that inspire me and music not so much?

have you fallen in love?

most likely yeah

what’s your dream date?

idk man surprise me like...going out exploring and doing things i haven't done before that don't include any drugs or stuff also movies are good

what do others notice about you?

my hair (it's long)

what is an annoying habit that you have?

biting my uh...the skin next to my nails? and my lips? i guess?

do you still talk to your first love?

ha nah

how many ex’s do you have?

zero

how many songs are in your playlist?

i have 685 deezer faves

what instruments do you play?

piano, idk if recorder counts, used to play the oboe but...not any more

who do you have the most pictures of?

myself XD, my da/me chars, also random idol pictures for reaction memes

where would you like to go before you die?

uhhhhh a lot of places like...there's a lot of cities in europe i still wanna see and i wanna go back to paris and london and i also would love to visit like 294503 national parks in the us also maybe a desert (bc stars) and somewhere far north (for northern lights)

what’s your zodiac?

scorpio

do you relate to it?

nope

what is happiness to you?

just like...a content feeling? like...idk words for it but when you just stop and go like fuck this is rly good i'm rly comfy rn and not sad??? like just being good in your own skin?

are you going through anything right now?

not more than usual

what’s the worst decision you’ve ever made?

i made a few sucky time management decision throughout my uni time and still am so i guess that

what’s your favorite store?

what's a store

what’s your opinion on abortion?

i don't rly think i get to say much abt it while i'm not in a position where i can talk yknow? you should be allowed to but i imagine it's tough as shit too

do you keep a bucket list?

nah

do you have a favorite album?

A FEW there's wildness by snow patrol and mania by fob and wild world by bastille and miroh (that's currently tho that shit changes a lot)

what do you want for your birthday?

my birthday isn't happening for a while and what i want i kinda need before so xD for my birthday i wish i could be with my family but i won't be able to :/

what are most people’s first impression of you?

uhhhhh awk i guess which is right, also rly smart and like...organised which is wrong

what age to you seem according to most people?

apparently like 16, i always get asked when i finish school

where do you keep your phone while sleeping?

on my bed next to my pillow, stuffed under some plushies

what word do you say the most?

idk honestly i don't talk much probably some expletive

what’s the oldest age would you date?

idk man i'm not rly attracted to ppl much older than me never have been if it ever happened they'd prolly be like 2 years younger oops that's like the norm with crushes

what’s the youngest age would you date?

oh uh see above i guess like...currently i'm 23 so like? not younger than 20?

what job/career do most people say sould suit you?

they don't rly say anything abt that xD

what’s your favorite music genre?

uhhh rock? alt stuff? i love some folk and some pop too and i'm a slut for lofi

if you would live in any country in the world, where would it be?

here tbh

what’s your current favorite song?

u h h probably still chronosaurus! doesn't look like it's leaving that spot any time soon oops

how long have you have this blog for?

a bit over a month now?

what are you excited for?

how pathetic is it if i say my summer course? idk just...smth new i guess i'm looking forward to it (not to being away from games and photoshop)

are you a better talker or a listener?

listener

what is the last productive thing you did?

i finished vacuuming the house today

what do you want for Christmas?

s h r u g

what classes do you get the best grades in?

language stuff, music

on a scale of 1-10 how are you feeling right now?

a 4? maybe?

what can you see yourself doing in 10 years?

idk man i wanna go into speech therapy so?? that? or research even? but i gotta get into the masters first rip

when did you first get your heartbreak?

oh dear. probably like...in kindergarten when my crush was an absolute ass (so far, 80% of them have been there's a theme) i was pathetic

at what age do you want to get married?

idk man i guess in like 100 years when someone finally decides they rly want to put up with this mess

what career did you want to have as a child?

florist, author, actress

what do you crave right now?

hugs? and drawing skill

1. How tall are you?

i'm jisung-sized

2. What color are your eyes?

hazel

3. What color and style is your hair?

uhhhh dark blonde would be the accurate desc prolly? it's like...blondebrowngoldish and too long and i usually braid it and i have a super messy fringe

4. Do you wear glasses?

no

5. Do you have braces?

luckily not!

6. What’s your fashion sense?

casual and basic with a dash of experimental and sometimes a bit cutesy

7. Full name?

8. When were you born?

long, long ago, too long ago

9. Where are you from and where do you live

germany!

10. What school(s) do you go to?

no more school for me, i'm going to university

11. What kind of student are you?

the one that kinda gets by far too well for procrastinating so badly (all i have to say in my defense is that i'm anxious as shit abt everything)

12. Do you like school?

i used to!! like...the last 3 and first 3 years were chill

13. Fav subject?

music, history, english, latin

14. Fav TV shows?

i rly only watch b99 but i would be careful calling it my favorite since like...3 eps ago

15. Fav books?

my current fave is less by andrew sean greer (aka it was my fave last autumn and i've read like 3 since and they weren't super great)

16. Fav pastimes?

uhhh writing gaming music and lately, giffing too!

17. Do you have any regrets?

a couple

18. Dream job?

i mean i do still wish i could just like...do smth artsy like be an author or an illustrator but i'm bad at writing and literally cannot draw at all so

19. Would you ever like to be married?

yes absolutely

20. Would you like to have children?

kinda yeah?

21. If so, how many?

2

22. Do you like shopping?

only for a limited amount of time

23. What countries have you visited?

denmark, norway, france, the uk, spain, italy, austria, slovakia, we also drove through switzerland like twice

24. Scariest nightmare you’ve ever had?

uhhhhhh basically all of the end of the world/war scenario dreams i've had?

25. Any enemies?

does myself count

26. Do you have a significant other?

nah

27. Do you get along with your family?

yeah? we're not super close but we don't hate each other

28. Do you believe in miracles?

I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES WHERE YA FROM YOU SEXY THING no but rly i do

29. How are you?

not terrible

[tmabutlesbian]

this is a kinda personal post and I’ll be talking about my own mental health but because of covid i cant see my friends, we all know we talk better to each other when in person, we’re all kinda waiting to spill the tea and dump everything on each other when we next meet, so. I need a place to. Place. My thoughts?? To vent. I’m gonna vent so. This is your warning.

(VERY LONG POST ahead so. Yeah.)

Some time ago, I asked a blog that I won’t tag cause. I feel like, i have to be on my best behavior around this person? But um, basically I asked them about like, adhd and stuff and they decided not to answer (which very much fair, mistake on my part truly) but! They did help me get like a little help to talk about it, because I’ve been learning more n more abt neurodivergency and I just felt like every adhd post just hit way too close to home too regularly to be normal so! I got help and then... because of other very useful developments with my family, I got to see a therapist!!

And i love her to bits!! She’s so fun, sometimes a bit too energetic for me but she’s very cool! Our first session isn’t very useful for this post so let’s skip over to session 2. I wanted to go to therapy for my possible adhd, right? And i told her that and she told me that she has been diagnosed with adhd! Which is so nice!! I was afraid of not being able to explain it? Mind you, our country doesn’t have english as the primary language so i was afraid she wouldnt know about it or something. But she did ofc.

So then we started talking, I tolde her some stuff, she did the same, and her symptoms were very ‘severe’ (i guess its the word? we used that word so im gonna use it). Like stiches and getting hurt all the time and bruises and. I dont have that. She told me it doesnt change anything, adhd is a spectrum so its gonna be different for everyone. So anyways, she ends up saying she can see some things that could be adhd, but she needs more stuff, so she gives me a task of writing down stuff that i think may be weird stuff that i do that may be adhd or smth else.

And. I did it? But it was HARD like so hard to do it, cause so many things repeated themselves (like everyday), i would be like ‘oh ill remenber afterwards!’ and then i wouldnt so it was a mess. Combine that and im inability to fucking explain myslef and youve got a big load of shit.

But i did have some stuff there that i thought could be smth so. I just went with it, was honest with her, and in our session 3 we got to reading my stuff.

And it was. Very unhelpful? Just, useless i guess for a ton of reasons. Like, every single one or the majority of things that others talked about and said they were symptoms or things that ppl with adhd do/have or just other stuff really, she kept debunking them? And lots of shit was said and i get very weird thinking abt it so basically...

She told me that I’m probably not adhd, just hyperactive. And very tense, thats why my chest hurts all the time n stuff. I run around a lot, i move a lot, so im hyperactive. She told me that if i do have adhd, then its so... light? That it doens’t even affect me much and i can just live my life normally with it (we’re still working to see if my chest pains r rly tenseness or smth else but yh).

And it’s. Weird. Because i dont wanna have adhd, if i can help it i prefer to live with any disorders/illnesses/whatever. But i guess i just felt very lost? I kinda just, didnt wanna read anyhting i had anymore because, what was the point? Everything boiled down to me being: hyperactive, tense, and weird. And that’s it. Idk why i feel so bummed out for, what, not having adhd???? like??? thats great! I just feel so lost and confused. Everytime i see a post abt adhd and i relate im like ‘do i rly relate to it? this person suffers everyday with adhd, you probably dont even have it, why are you relating to this person if you can live normally, only with some weird quirks here n there?’. Idk. Its so weird, weirdly discouraging.

I just think that a lot of what i read abt these things i dont rly get!! What if what i thought i related to is nothing like that at all? What if im misreading everyhting?? Do i even relate to this really? Do i truly feel like this, and this, and this???? I’ll read smth and ill get what that person is saying but, like!!! For example: breakdowns, mental breakdowns. I understand what they are. But do i really?? Have i had them before?? Wouldnt i know?? How does it feel like?? And its not like i can just ask these questions like these because theyre so personal!!! I dont understand all the medical stuff, fuck!!

Another thing is that, apparently, i already have ways to help myself?? Like me jumping around and running around my house helps my tenseness (i dont think so but we shall see), which in turn means im helping my hyperactiveness??? I dont understand. If im already helping myself, if im already so good at managing this shit, if im so. ‘stable’. Why do i feel like smths wrong with me?? Just not right. i dont fucking know. I dont know anyhting i feel like, it stresses me out so much. 

What if ive been bothering these ppl with my questions when there wasnt anyhting to worry about?? I feel so stupid. Talked to my friends abt if ffs. Fuck.

This genuinely makes me so upset and i cant rly breathe right, right now? my chest’s feeling tight again so i dont fucking now. Im bitter abt it which is so stupid too. She’s helping me ffs. Fuck.

I dont knwo what to do with this post but ill keep it up. I dont care about reblogs, do it dont it, its same shit just dont be a dick in the tags/comments. This is upsetting to me, but im hoping somebody may know. smth??? idk. Im just lost rn.

[daddys-chaton-noir]

1, 3, 5, 6, 7, 10, 11, 17, 18, 19, 22, 24?

lullabies - yuna: who’s your first love?

DM. i met him @ 18

the remedy - puscifer: if you and your partner had to lay the smackdown on some fools, how would you do it? tag team off the ropes? you go high and they go low? OR tell me about a time you and your partner worked together straighten someone out cuz they overstepped their boundaries

i’m really short & DM is tall so i’d go low & he’d go high

also he’s big so i think he should do the initial hit to stun them & then i come in for clean up after. with a bat cuz i’m little so i need tools ok

lol this question is soo funny to me

sky walker - miguel: describe your perfect party

um rly chill ppl + weed + nakedness + spankings + play + sleepover + movie

bodak yellow - card b: tell me what makes you feel confident

fresh nails & weed lmao

best of you - foo fighters: who would you let take advantage of you? why that person?

DM gets to take advantage of me the most b/c i love him & trust him & he gets a lot of leeway as my husband

i let everyone take a little advantage of me b/c we all fuck up & i give everyone the benefit of the doubt for as long as i can

big boi - abra: what’s something ppl do that really turns you off but they think is super sexy?

umm a know-it-all who doesn’t know enough. when someone is overly confident abt my feelz

black honey - thrice: when was a time when you wanted what you wanted despite the fact that it wasn’t in your best interest?

when i met DM lol

my weed habit daily – legally totally annoying, tho it does wonders for all the mental illness ickies lol

i love kanye - kanye west: what do you miss about yourself? what do you love about yourself?

i miss when i was passionate abt making time to write

i love how well i adjust to things in general. it has been a long road of unhealthy coping & i have done a rly good job of protecting my energy these last few years

fmlyhm - seether: would you ever hate fuck someone? why or why not? what would that look like?

love the idea but don’t think i can. i can’t even have sex when i’m irritated, let alone a hatefuck.

i’d like it if it looked like…hm, lemme think of a scene from a movie or something. um don cheadle banging his ex @ the beginning of that one show? ugh what’s the name of it. kristin bell is in it. hold on. house of lies? or that scene with um mark ruffalo in thanks for sharing? the one that made him suddenly way too hot & i hope to never look into his face b/c he’ll see it all in my eyes? lol

smoke - pvris: who would you let hurt you? how? why?

mark ruffalo. wait sorry, still buzzy from those gifs. ok srsly here’s a v short & not complete list but i don’t wanna get too tag happy. dis post already tew long

@daddysmaison

@d-o-l-l-i

@i-hey-hi-bye

@just-a-little-taste

@erotic-nonfiction

@dontgetwisewithme

oh oh & @bone-and-brawn - wut dem dad hands do

i think these ppl are good @ it (or would be) & it would be fun!

love - kendrick lamar: who can’t you live without? why?

u already know it’s DM lol & b/c he’s my person. The Person

freak - adina howard: if you had to rate your sex drive on a scale from 0 (nonexistent) to 10 (always on), where would you put yourself? why?

um 7 or 8 b/c  i’m almost always “on.” almost. & also cuz i am easily turned off. lol