#this probly needs cw's
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the k in my name stands for king
#i have too much shit to say#im not a good person im selfish and undeservedly arrogant#i think bad things and then claw at my own face for it and imagine myself impaled or shot or stabbed#i need therapy so fucking badly its not even funny#and yet i cant because i dont want to reveal things that will put me in an institution or chain me down forever#i wish someone already understood all my problems but its not that easy#gotdam it im fucking crying again#personal vent#cw violent thoughts#in the tags#you know i think it fucked me up telling me at 12 years old that im so selfish i act like a king whom the world revolves around#when i wanted to not be miserable and not have to pretend to be happy so you could look and feel happy yourself#lets both be freed from this performance#i almost wanna change my name#never felt that it was one that i identified with#kinda have just been dissociating from my entire identity my whole life. thats why im aroace and agender probly#so anyway i decided to write a novel about my shitty inner psyche#now THIS is a great birthday present#at the very least could i have not had a food i dont like for dinner
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Accidental Courtship :3
Accidental courtship
ft: Savanaclaw, Octavinella
cw: possible minor spelling errors (blame the dyslexia), established relationship, swearing, implied fem reader
Penguins have this adorable courtship ritual where the male gives the female a smooth pebble, if the female is impressed by the pebble she accepts the gift and mates with the male
I know that jade, Floyd, and Azul aren't penguins, but i thought it would be so cute if their s/o gave them a pebble and basically proposed but not knowing what it meant.
And for the beast-men (Leona, Jack, Ruggie) i thought it would be cute if there was a special beast-men way of courtship, I couldn't think of anything though, but then i remembered that for a lot of mammals (and animals in general) grooming is a form of bonding, so what if licking was a form of courtship?!?!
ENJOY
Savanaclaw
Leona: he awoke from his nap when he felt a pair of hands running through his hair, he sniffed the air, realizing it was just his s/o he closed his eyes once again, surrendering to the comforting feeling of your hands, he hated to admit it but he loved when you played with his hair, it was something he looked forward to and expected. what he didn't expect however was the sudden wet feeling that graced his cheek his eyes shot open and his head snapped in your direction
"so soon? at least wait till we graduate"
your so confused, he realizes that you probably dont know what you just did
"for beast-men, your lick was you asking me to marry you you dumb herbivore"
he wont admit it but his heart was pounding in his chest
Jack: he had finished his classes for the day and was walking around the campus grounds, when he spotted you his tail started to wag a bit, he attempted to stop, annoyed that he was giving away how he felt. he walked over to you, he wrapped his arm around your waist pulling you closer to him you smiled up at him, kissing his cheek, he smiled at you and walked with you to the ramshackle dorm, you guys sat in the guest room you had been working on you had been pretty bored all day and wanted to do something to make you laugh, why not lick your boyfriend see what his silly reaction would be, little did you know the implications behind this supposedly innocent action. as soon as your tongue brushed his cheek he was off to sofa and staring at you in shock, he moved so fast that your tongue was still hanging out of you mouth
"i-im not ready"
his voice was shaky and his tail was wagging at a super sonic spread
"i mean you need to meet my parents and my siblings, and i dont have any money, i mean were still in high school, marriage is a very large leap"
you were so fucking confused Marriage? when you asked what he was talking about he looked at you confused
"you licked me... you want to marry me...right?"
you blushed and told him that in your world its just a weird thing to do. he sighed in
"so no marriage then, good, i love you but im not ready for that yet... try again in a few years"
he winked, his tail giving away his feelings
Ruggie: you had gotten some powdered donuts from Sam's store earlier and you were super excited to eat them, you rushed to your dorm hoping to avoid the food thief you called a boyfriend but it was useless, he could probly smell them from 3 miles away, he saw you running smelt the sweet scent of donuts and took off after you, he caught up quickly, snatching the box from you hands
"watcha got here shihihi"
he held the box out of your reach and took a donut out, he quickly shoved it into his mouth as you pouted, you loved him to death but god was he annoying sometimes you noticed how he had gotten some of the powdered sugar on his nose and an idea of revenge sprung into your mind, you grabbed the collar of his shirt and pulled him down to you
"you gonna kiss me~" he teased you, he wrapped an arm around you resting a hand on the small of your back while his other held the donut box.
you licked his nose, he tensed up, his eyes widened and he stumbled back almost falling over
"i-i dont- i mean-" he turned around, he grabbed his ears and pressed them down, trying to calm himself down, he had never felt so flustered before, but could you blame him? his s/o just asked for his hand in marriage "i accept but... so soon?"
you looked at him confused, he took a moment, realizing that what is a marriage proposal for beast-men might not be the same for humans, but everyone was aware of the tradition, then it clicked, you weren't from here, you had no idea what you had just done. his blush was still there, and to be honest he was dissipated, he licked you cheek "that is a proposal for marriage" he admits, looking away embarrassed, he shoved the donut box back into your hands and quickly walked away mumbling a quick "i love you" his tail was small, but it was wagging as he zoomed away from you.
Octavinelle (penguin esc courtship)
Floyd: he hated working at the cafe, it was so boring, why would he work when he could be with his little shrimpy? he found you outside of the ramshackle dorm, you were on your hands and knees digging round a pile of rocks
"shrimpy~" he lifted you up and hugged you from behind "what are you doing?"
he asked, examining the rocks you held in your hands, you didn't answer, instead you picked on of the rocks you had and handed it to him, it was smooth, and had a faint blue undertone to it, he squealed and snatched it out of your hand, he wrapped his arms around you, squeezing you till you felt like you were about to burst, he kissed you passionately before skipping off to tell his brother and Azul, you just stood there, confused as to why your boyfriend was so happy about the rock you gave him, i mean sure it was cool but was it that exciting for him? a couple hours later there was a knock on the door to the ramshackle dorm, you opened the door and say Floyd standing there frowning slightly
"do you know what a rock means"
you shook your head and you swear it looked like he was about to cry
"so you weren't asking me to marry you?"
you shook your head again, now understanding why he was so upset, you hugged him and kissed his cheek promising him to marry him one day, as soon as he heard that he was happy again, hugging and squeezing you all night long.
Jade: he was observing the mushroom he was growing, they had a strange mutation that he hadn't seen before and was eager to study, he was writing down the differences and comparing them to known mutations when suddenly you burst into his room clenching something in your hand, he turned to you smiling at you, he closed his mushroom guide and walked over to you, kissing your forehead and ruffling your hair, you hold out your hand and show a small smooth rock to him, he blushed, hugging you tightly
"are you aware of what your asking me?" he asked, his voice shacking lightly as he hugged you tighter, part of him wished you meant what mer-people mean when they give rocks, but he knows you arent used to the tradtions and culture in this world
he pulled away slightly and when he saw your confused face he smiled sadly "in merfolk culture you asked me to marry you" he chuckled as you blushed "i want to be the one to give you the rock dear" he mumbled into your hair he pulled away caressing your face before picking you up and taking you to the couch to cuddle.
Azul: he was in his office doing paper work and for the cafe, he was stressed, his hand was starting to cramp from the amout of writing he had been doing. the door to his office opened and you entered, his eyes lit up as he say you, your presence always made him feel better.
"hello my love"
he smiled at you softly, he open his arms for a hug and you wasted no time crawling into his lap and hugging him tightly, he kissed your shoulder, you reached into your pocket and handed him a pretty rock you had found earlier, his faced flushed with a blush
"m-my love? i- i mean y-yes ill marry you, but at least meat my family first, do you have a venue in mind? a dress? i can help you look- wait your not proposing? oh... you dont know do you"
as disappointed as he was that he wasn't going to marry you he chuckled and laughed
"my beloved your little rock was a proposal of marriage"
he smirked at you, watching as you face as you realized what you had done, he kissed you shoulder and cheek again
"just know love.... i will say yes, i will always say yes to you"
a couple days later when you walk into his office you she the rock you gave him on the shelf behind his desk, it was in a glass container, when you asked Azul all he said was
"its special to me, i wish to keep it forever"
End notes:
i had no idea what to do for leona and i think its pretty obvious, but i had fun writing this! its my first time writing for twst characters and i think i did ok... i hope
I am accepting requests :)
#twisted wonderland headcannons#disney twst#twst#twisted wonderland#twst wonderland#floyd leech#azul ashengrotto#twst azul#jade leech#twst leona#leona kingscholar#ruggie bucchi#ruggie bucci x reader#twisted wonderland ruggie#ruggie x yuu#jack twst#jack howl#twisted wonderland x reader#twisted wonderland imagines#twst x reader#twst headcanons#twst fluff
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Hi um I’ve been on edtumblr for a while I got extremely underweight then after my dad passed away I gained an excessive amount of weight and I also got all the health issues that came with that. At my HW I WAS 290 lbs CW 244 lbs. Now y’all are problie wondering why is she posting about this here that is because I start college in about 3 months and I need to be under 200 lbs so what ever y’all can recommend that won’t cause any further health issues to get me to 199lbs in 3 months time. I’m also open to a buddy or a coach if anyone is willing. I can send weight updates in a bikini or smt. I do not do well with meanspo it makes me want to binge.
Any help is appreciated thank you💋
*I DO NOT SEND SPICY PICTURES SO PLEASE DO NOT ASK*
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so... that halloween stream sure was... something. arginnit? argbur?? i am losing my mind.
figured i'd ramble about what i noticed, because god knows this won't be leaving my brain for a good while.
ARGINNIT THEORY TIME
(EDIT 8/11/2021: Yea now Wilbur has confirmed it wasn't an ARG but I'm still keeping this up. Just think about it as speculation or a cool au. I think regardless of whether it was an ARG or a bit the art and theories and conversation about it were really cool and fun!)
"Tommy quotes are in quotations" "Wilbur quotes are bold" "Everyone else is italic"
chellepop's transcript of the Wilbur call from twitter (godsend)
This is in reference to Tubbo's "HALLOWEEN STREAM w/ Tommy Ranboo Aimsey Badlinu & Billzo" [YOUTUBE and TWITCH vod links]
Theories below cut!
Tommy is acting... off, even during the apple bobbing. On his second attempt for a minute it seems like he's trying to drown himself, and even for Tommy the level of his struggle seemed a little ridiculous
Theres a couple of comments about the cold (a la argbur), but i dunno how much that counts considering it's autumn over there and water generally does that to you. though, it is notable considering Tommy continues to keep piling on more warm layers, even when inside...
Tommy says he's had a "premonition", and Ranboo asks if they're going to die. It was definitely in reference to the apple bobbing vote, and probably a bit, but still notable
This interaction; "How was it drowning?" "Well it was uh- You know, I'll- I'll- I'll- I'll- ahh- I'll um be honest-" "I think you should've stayed for longer" "I saw-" [interjection] "I- I saw- I kinda saw my life flash before my eyes, I thought about all my memories, and then I thought, 'I haven't done enough, this sucks!' uhh- and then i got transcended back to the real world" - (again, probably a bit, but notable)
Throughout the stream, it's questioned as to why Tommy is even there. It's difficult to tell whether that's just teasing, or another indicator.
And then. ah yes. Wilbah phone call. Very spooky very cool (Tommy's acting is so enjoyable to watch). Just a couple notes because no way in hell am I breaking all of that down.
Wilbur sounds.... definitely off. Almost like an announcer/stereotypical horror movie antagonist (considering his history of using different voices and tones for different characters, this seems another indicator of an ARG)
Even considering the fact that Tommy is acting off, his single-minded focus on getting Wilbur to the camera/microphone is strange, but he seems almost skittish about the others being involved in the conversation
There are several references from Tommy about being forced to "do weird shit", "saying things [he doesn't] wanna say". Does this imply coercion? Possession?
Tommy and Wilbur's focus on "beating the hell out of Williams" was maybe a little bit suspicious... (y'know, with Will/Wilbur being derivative of William and all, especially given Billzo's frequent denial of of the name)
What the fuck is this Lamborghini shit
Obviously theres the part where Wilbur seems to be instructing Tommy to fight/harm/possibly kill one of his friends, sizing them up, trying to determine what weapons Tommy has experience with.
"The knives are out right now" "A knife's not gonna tear into it" "a knife's not gonna penetrate anyone" Probably talking about a human body, possibly talking about something... else (if this is going to involve spooky stuff like possession n shit, it could involve the paranormal)
"Can they get out, by the way, can they-" "No, no, they can't." "Okay, good, good" is... yeah. It's also interesting when considering that Tommy later seems to panic at the suggestion of being let back in/having doors unlocked when he's outside
Tommy seems very willing to put himself in harm's way, especially at Wilbur's suggestion (the drowning, threats of fighting, collapsing as soon as Wilbur says "Collapse down there.", etc.)
"The collapse went-" "It looks like it's on your friend, Will" "I can't anyway, I'm pinned down from the fall" ....???
Why did Wilbur want Tommy to unplug things/switch them off so badly? What happened during the blackout?
Why aren't you having a good Halloween Wimbly Scoot? What's going on? Huh?
And then there's the whole part where Tommy goes outside.
The first time, when he's outside the window, apart from being... generally weird, the whole breathing bit seems very off. Not sure whether there's something to decode there or just Tommy Shenanigans
When Tommy goes out a second time, there's a whole struggle with doors being locked and keys and whatnot
When Tubbo suggests to let Tommy in, he starts panicking immediately, yelling out protests, aggressively finger-pointing and banging on the window, running his hands through his hair, etc. Is it because he wants to keep them in, or keep something else out?
Tommy then disappears for about 6 minutes, in which Aimsey can't find him, before returning, covered in mud and leaves, and acting dissociated, disturbed, and near-catatonic.
I've seen loads of people saying the mud is possibly from digging a grave (which does seem like a likely scenario), but it is curious that Tommy has leaves in his hair, and looks otherwise dishevelled. Could this be a sign of a struggle? A scuffle? Can't be sure.
And a last couple of notes
I've seen several people talking about a point at which Tommy's blinks create the Morse Code for "stop", but I'm not sure which point it is, and am not familiar enough with morse to check it, unfortunately
The theory of Tommy/arginnit being controlled or possessed by Wilbur/argbur seems likely. Obviously, Tommy is acting off, Wilbur is commanding him, etc, but also in the sense that Tommy seems to be attempting to fight back, somehow? Between letting everyone hear the call, the "stop" blinking, and his panic at being let inside, at least. Perhaps the leaves and dirt, attempted drowning, and so on, weren't just instructions from Wilbur, but perhaps some rather violent/extreme attempts to stop himself/whoever it is from hurting everyone else...
If Tommy's resisting Wilbur somehow, it could also explain why Wilbur's Halloween don't seem to be going so great.
obviously this is all speculation, i don't claim to own anything lol, and it's too early to know anything for sure. but goddamn.
all tommyinnit and wilbur soot know is make personas, traumatise teenagers, eat hot chip and lie 😔
#this stuff is soo cool#arginnit#argbur#this probly needs cw's#tw drowning#tw referenced self harm#tw self harm#tw possession#tw possible death#tw death#tw murder#tw injury#tw violence#possibly but better to be safe than sorry#is there a tw for like. being trapped#tw trapped#?#tommyinnit#wilbur soot#tubbo#aimsey#billzo#badlinu#ranboo#cricket crew#we are calling them that#theory#ramblings#mcyt#woo thats a lotta tags
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la soupe (the soup)
#soup#should i jokingly put a cw for french#probly nah#anyways got french class tmrw and need to wake up early
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huh..
d say 'traumatic memory unlocked'
but i can't really remember for sure
every time i think about it my throat starts burning like when you swallow pool water
it would explain a lot...
edit; not like she was wrong. everyone in that house would've been better off if i wasn't around complicating things. all i do is drag people down and mess shit up by being selfish
#glitch hijacking here. mostly#needed to.. think... but dont wsnr fhis on the main blog#uuuuh#drowning trauma#as a cw i guess?#turns out my step sis probly did try to kill me. just a bit...#cool cool cool cool cool....
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At some point in the near future, I plan on dusting off my “tags I use” page and making it viewable to more folks than just me.
And updating my tumblr theme.
But for now, some important tags I use/am working to start using:
politics - blanket tag for gov. related sj, potus, and all other gov. fuckery
rise up - info re: protesting, resisting, community action, mostly positive
wise up - information dissemination, probly not often positive rn
trump tag - does what it says on the tin, unfortunately
betsy devos - she gets a fuckery tag too, I get heated re education bc
goddamnit kansas - I’m from Kansas, I live here, this is my generic Kansas tag; even the good Kansas shit gets this tag; older tag
aca - Affordable Care Act anything, good or bad
institutional ableism - government fuckery re disabled and chronically ill folks
epilepsy warning - this is my gif tag, I’ve been using it since ~2012ish?
celebrity death - may be followed by cw or tw, but yeah older tag
family death mention // - what it says on the tin, older tag
If you want me to add any more, let me know. On messenger or ask, anon or not, w/e, if you need a break from my tumblr that’s cool too. I totally get it, keep your brain in a cool, dim place out of direct sunlight, y/y?
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