#this post alone just m*rdered me

[chet-ho7mgren]

WAITTTT I JUST CAUGHT THIS

I spy: short shorts (boxers?) ✅

thighssss ✅

manspreading to the heavens ✅

Ohh he looks like a nice place to sit 👀

[wildcmbcrsmuses]

Trigger Warnings: mentions of s/xual ass/ult, r/pe.

So apparently we’re giving passes to the part of my previously shared post that called out Johnny Depp for defending Roman Polanski, because Polanski’s case only involved one 13 year old and he “already settled with the victim”? I’d like to start this off by repeating my point that one victim or ten, it doesn’t matter, he shouldn’t be receiving support, let alone someone saying “very clearly, very clearly, Roman Polanski is not a pr/dator” about a man who literally fled the country after taking a plea deal for what he had done. I’m also going to repeat my point that this post is not mine, I shared it because I felt it needed to be shared. All of that aside, to settle your poor mind @lepuffpuff​​, with just a little bit of research which you could have just as easily done, I was able to find at least ten victims who have spoken out about what they endured at the hands of Roman Polanski and compile it in a rather easy to understand list for you. No, not all the cases were r/pe as the tweets I shared said, though not all of them share complete or any details either. Lastly, as a victim of SA myself, the fact that the number of victims, exactly what level of ab/se they did or did not endure, or the fact of whether or not it was settled in court makes a difference to you, is disgusting to me. A pr/dator or ab/ser with one victim or ten is still just that and do not deserve people standing up for them. End of.

Jane Doe # 1 - 1969, aged 10: “of the new accusers, two say they were attacked by him in 1969, the same year in which his first wife Sharon Tate was m/rdered by members of the Charles Manson family. It is not clear whether the alleged attacks happened before or after her slaying.”

Jane Doe # 2 - 1969, aged 16: “of the new accusers, two say they were attacked by him in 1969, the same year in which his first wife Sharon Tate was m/rdered by members of the Charles Manson family. It is not clear whether the alleged attacks happened before or after her slaying.”

Jane Doe #3 - 1972, aged 9: “one woman who claims Polanski m/lested her in 1972 or 1973 when she was nine years old. He was around 39″.

Renate Langer - 1972, aged 15: ”German actress Renate Langer claimed on October 3 that she was attacked by him in Gstaad in 1972”.

Robin 'M' - 1973, aged 16: “In August, a woman who identified herself only as Robin M. claimed at a press conference that she was attacked by Polanski when she was 16 in 1973″.

Marianne Barnard - 1975, aged 10: “an artist who says he photographed her n/de and then m/lested her on a beach in Malibu, California, when she was just 10″.

Jane Doe #4 - 1976, aged 15: “the unidentified woman said she was 15 when she was at a dinner party with Polanski, Jack Nicholson, his girlfriend Angelica Huston, and her parents who worked in the film industry. She told the website imetpolanski.com: 'I sat on my left side, put his hand on my leg. 'He then proceeded to touch my g/nitals and tried to squeeze and rub it with his hand, all that under the table in front of my father's face,'.”

Jane Doe # 5 - 1976, aged 12: “the other alleged attack happened in 1976 when the woman was 12″. 

Samantha Geimer - 1977, aged 13: “Geimer is the most well-known of those who have accused Polanski of s/xual ass/ult. In 1977, he gave her Quaaludes before r/ping and s/domizing her at Jack Nicholson's house in Los Angeles. She was just 13 at the time. Polanski was arrested and was due to go to jail the following year after pleading guilty to a lesser charge but he fled the country at the last minute in fear that prosecutors had lied to him.”

Charlotte Lewis - 1983, aged 16:  “claims to have been ass/ulted by Polanski. She said he forced himself on her as she auditioned for a role in one of his films in Paris in 1983".

(Source.)

[nightonics]

so i only have a handful of irl friends (3) and they are all going on a post graduation trip next week - meaning that i’ll be alone in the states oof. i feel like the shitty feeling i have rn happens more often and gets worse cause the date is getting closer and there’s been a lot of talk about it. it sucks i’m not allowed to go and i’m happy that they get to enjoy themselves. while it sucks being left out that’s not really the source of my shitty mood. i want to see my friends enjoy themselves cause they deserve it.

mostly feeling like shit because past feelings that’s been resurfacing - especially about [redacted] - and i think it’s been building since a convo i had with my which sorta brought back up a fear younger me had about loneliness and shit (and ig it’s a fear is still have if i’m feeling like shit about it). i think this means i should idk download bumble or hinge or some shit to get over myself (i considered a therapist - decided it’s too weird to talk about for me) but that shit gives me second hand embarrassment just thinking about cause dang that means weird interactions and small talk (and wtf you have to pay extra for a these apps now - i’m not letting capitalism prey on my need for intersection). and like i said before i watched forensic files - i’m not tryna be m*rdered on a date lmaooo. sorta wish i had more friends that i can go out and spend time with while they’re on their trip. like don’t get me wrong i’m a homebody but sometimes (esp in the winter) staying inside for an extended amount of time by myself makes me d*pressed so that’s when i need a reason to go out and a friend asking to hang out is what pulls me outta that funk.

me now realizing that my test was right in that words of affirmation and quality time are my love languages.

i said way more than i wanted to. i think that means i should sleep it off with my daily nap which usually helps.