#this just sounds like lucid dreaming ngl

[embarressment-erradicated]

moooooooooooooom, their inventing spiritualism again, yes they are using improperly, uhuh, yep 3d, yeah you gotta escape it, yes they invented lucid dreaming again but different. lol

[b4ddprincess]

Heyyyy , I found about your blog a few days ago and I read some posts it was incredible. I can’t describe you how light I feel . It’s like there were no burden , like I have no worries . So last night I was meditating and got irritated and woke up and I was so bored I was using my phone and than I saw your post and I was like I am not gonna force myself to enter void and like who gives a shit . And slept at 4 am . Today at 2 pm I was meditating and I felt sleepy so I slept and I had a lucid dream but I was trying to speak but couldn’t and than I couldn’t move at all and it felt like I was in really fast train I could hear the engine , my whole body was like racing and stuff and I could hear the hfg’s self hypnosis audio and than I heard next stop is void state and than I got a call and I woke up . And now my whole body is light . Now heres the thing I personally feel that lucid dreams are reflection of my thoughts . So now I know if I was affirming even when dreaming so I don’t need to overthink about anything .

Ps: my 2nd semester has started and I am not stressed about it cuz I am just pure consciousness duhhh .

tht dream actually sounds so gd ngl, an LUVVINGG the attitude 😌💗

[themanifestingbrat]

Shifting Update!

Last night I had the craziest experience.

I woke up during my rem sleep and stayed in bed while waking my mind up. I decided to put on my favorite shifting subliminal. I stayed awake for maybe an hour and then I started to meditate to fall back asleep. I began dosing off and I started to make intentions to shift (ngl I was making intentions to also have sleep paralysis, lucid dream, tap into the void.) I started to affirm, “I am,” and that helped me go deeper, I began to affirm, “I am in the void state,” and it was getting hard to continue because I was on the verge of falling asleep and dreaming. Then as I was slightly still conscious, I was like “hold up, in the void state? No I AM the void state!” Seconds later, I start to see white and I hear whooshing sounds and it felt like I was falling backwards. And then…I hear something from my 3D that jolts me awake and I could hear the subliminal again. I was too tired to question anything so I set an intention to shift again and I think I fell asleep?

Next thing I know, I’m back at my childhood home, everything looked the same except the furniture was different. Everything was so vivid, and I felt so disoriented so to make sure I was dreaming I did a few reality checks. Except…it wasn’t working meaning I wasn’t in a dream. I had all ten fingers, I couldn’t breathe through my nose when I pinched it, and my finger couldn’t go through my hand. I was like woah but before I know it, I’m in a different scene. I do my reality checks to make sure I wasn’t dreaming and my scene actually gets more vivid. However, this happens for a few times where my vision would began to get blurry after a few minutes and I would shift to a different scene.

Then, my reality checks started to work meaning I started to count more than 10 fingers and I knew I was in a dream. By this time, I was just so confident what was going on, I just let go and went off into dreaming.

Does anyone know what happened? Is there a such thing as stabilizing your reality once you shift? Or maybe I should’ve grounded myself?

[liesmyth]

If (almost) everything John and Harrow say to each other are just Alecto's memories with Harrow overwriting the name with her own, why do some of their speech have quotation marks around it? I took that to mean that they have left the strict memory and are interacting as themselves in some sort of current-ish time.

Honestly, I could be wrong! But some of the exchanges and sounds very Not Harrow, like this one

and some others could go either way

While especially this one sounds like Harrow.

But I don't think it's Harrow's consciousness in the driver's seat, because when she shows up, she is very argumentative and deliberate (and her behaviour towards John reminds me of the GtN epilogue, pre lobotomy)

I think her visions of Alecto's memories are interactive to some extent, and she's probably putting a different spin on a dialogue that already happened, but her consciousness is filtered through them when it emerges—like a lucid dream. John 5:4 has a whole different vibe.

ngl I hope in AtN we find out how much of the dreams where shared visions John was aware of

[healeroflightanddark]

Stolen Hearts, Chapter 9: Text

Sawatari lay in his bed later that night, texting Yuya with a warm smile. Yuya still hadn’t told his parents about them, but the blonde didn’t mind. He was perfectly fine with keeping their relationship secret, a delicious secret all for them, for as long as Yuya wanted. Although he would love to broadcast the news of Yuya being all his on every social media account he had, Yuya’s comfort and happiness was more important to him than boasting about his pretty little boyfriend.

As Sawatari and Yuya texted, the blonde had almost forgotten about his dreams. But one little text from Yuya brought them all back to the front of his mind.

Yuya: So, I was wondering about something you said earlier. You said after the last fifteen, I think you said? nights you had to find out if I was attracted to boys. What’s been going on those nights?

Sawatari: Uhm… I might have maybe kinda sorta had some dreams about you every night?

Yuya: Awww! That’s so sweet! I’ve had dreams about you too! Like a few nights ago, I had a dream that you and me were at the arcade playing games together and having fun!

Sawatari: Well, your dreams sound cute. Mine are more… NSFW…

Yuya didn’t respond for a few moments, and Sawatari thought he might have screwed up big time. He was about to send a frantic apology text, when Yuya suddenly started typing again.

Yuya: Sorry, I had to stop Yugo from going to his D-Wheel. He was reading over my shoulder :( I’m sitting on his back now lol

Sawatari: So… You’re not weirded out by my dreams being not-so-innocent?

Yuya: Nope! I don’t mind at all! <3

Yuya: Oh, uhm, if Yuri offers you some flowers, DON’T accept them. There will DEFINITELY be a dangerous plant among them. Seriously, Yuto’s the only one who isn’t plotting to get you for your dreams… I think…

Sawatari: Good to know

Yuya: Hold on, let me try to calm them down

Sawatari waited patiently, focusing on the heart that Yuya had sent when he said he didn’t mind the not-so-innocent dreams. It made his own heart flutter in his chest. After what must have been at least fifteen minutes, Yuya finally sent another text.

Yuya: I think I got through to them. Told them it wasn’t your fault that you were having those dreams, and pointed out that it’s impossible for you to control what you dream about unless you’re able to do lucid dreaming, and even then it’s not 100% guaranteed that you can really control whether or not your dreams are lucid anyway

Sawatari: Oh, believe me, if I could control my dreams they’d be all about sweet stuff about you, not dirty dreams. I wanna have dreams about going on picnics with you, and watching the sunset together and dueling and dancing, not dreams about you walking into my bedroom wearing nothing but a towel and teasing me until I wake up with a problem every night!

Yuya: O////////O

Yuya: NGL, I’ve had one or two dreams like that…

Sawatari: >////////<

Yuya: Yugo just forbade me from ever going to your house alone for a sleepover lol

Sawatari: XD

Sawatari: While I would love for you to spend the night at my place sometime, I would NEVER do something like that to you without your consent

Sawatari: But, you know, if you DID want to do something like that…

Yuya: lol as much as I’m enjoying talking to you I think I should go before Yugo wakes up the whole neighborhood with his screeching. I’m just glad Mom and Dad are out of the house atm

Sawatari: lol, alright, talk to you tomorrow?

Yuya: Definitely!

Sawatari: Love you, Yuya! <3

Yuya: Love you too! <3

Sawatari sighed happily and lay his head on his pillow. He was so happy that he felt like he was floating on air. Yuya really was the perfect boyfriend for him.

[soobberries]

also babes I’m tryna get into cix, any songs you would recommend?

Hell yeah!

Alright a small disclaimer though: In my experience, all of Cix's songs are growers. If you aren't feeling it initially, you will totally vibe after the next few listens.

Also, some of their songs are very heavy in the sense that the content can be rough, and perhaps a little angsty but I mean... Their meanings are pretty solid at least.

Let me start with their title tracks since, most of those are bangers ngl.

These aren't recommendations per se but I'll give you a sloppy description and you can probably gauge what might be worth listening to.

[the red and blue ones are the main ones that I'm technically recommending or they're my faves.]

I hope this helps? lmao-

Movie Star - It's sultry and kinda groovy; reminds me of lucid dream by aespa and some of vixx/sf9 songs. (one of my favorites for sure).

Jungle - straight banger, pretty moody though, somewhat slow bpm and is 100% a grower. the more I listened, the more things I noticed within the song that just accentuates the overall song.

Numb - the break at the chorus is pretty solid, not my first recommendation but can definitely be enjoyable if you like a mix of noisy sounds and what I'd describe as 'sleek' sounds lol.

My New World - This is their Japanese release and ... I'm starting to realize their overall sound tends to be smooth and steady... powerful sounds that make you feel like a main character that's trying to overcome some great evil. So that's the main essence of this song lmao.

Wave - pretty feel good, relaxed. Reminds me of the view by stray kids.

Off my mind - has as rich rythmic instrumental, pretty sultry/groovy sound. Nothing stand out but a solid song. The chorus has an engaging beginning.

Pinky Swear - Another Japanese release that is very wholesome and just feels like someone is telling you things will be alright.

Save me, Kill me - It makes me oddly nostalgic. It has this bittersweet sound to it. It's basically a tragic song but you can do a dramatic contemporary dance to it that would slay-

Bad Dream - I really like this one so much but again, it has that main character fighting their inner demons or something. It has the coolest break though. It's so like, 2010's club sound in a good way.

458 - banger, pretty moody as well, but gosh the chorus just GOES HARD ngl.

Tesseract - The ultimate movie song lmao. Picture someone walking in this vast desert-like terrain with a sword in hand, and then they plunge it into the ground causing shockwaves into the ground, absolutely annihilating the enemy in style. That's all I'll say.

Cinema - I really was underwhelmed with this initially but then I found myself humming the chorus. It has a light feeling to it. A simple song you can play in the background and it makes your chest less tight.

Okay, I think those are the title tracks.

Overall I'd recommend their album "'OK' Prologue : Be OK" just because it's a pretty solid glimpse into their discography OR their EP "HELLO Chapter 1: Hello, Stranger" jeez their names....

Then there are some that I find myself liking:

What you wanted - has some cool melodies. again, has a mix of sleek and noisy sounds. The chorus is sleek and the verses are what's noisy. Reminds me of Exo.

Like It That Way - Those chilled tropical vibes that were really popular a while back.

Move My Body - IT BANGS IDK WHAT ELSE TO PUT. It's the type of song that feels like a guilty pleasure. Like you play it at 3am and dance in your room but you won't outright play it for just anyone.

Black Out - Solid noisy goodness (It gives NCT 127 vibes)

Round 2 - It reminds me of Dean's music. Idk if it classifies as rnb but definitely has that laid-back vibe.

[too-queer-for-school]

This sounds like the plot of a marvel movie. HONESTLY NGL THAGS KINDA COOL BUT ALSO A LITTLE CONCERNING

Ur basically making, as the kids say, "delulu come trululu"

I tried lucid dreaming a few times but usually just ended up falling asleep normally 💀

I had my first real day of a new job today :3

I came home, napped like a baby, then woke up and watched Andrew Russel’s stream. I had to leave to avoid story spoilers though 😔

WOWIE WAIT THAYS DO KEWL

HOW WAS YOUR DAY JOB DID IT GO WELL

[seggsyxavier]

Look at me, shamelessly requesting again.

No seriously tell me if I get annoying sooner or later 😭😭😭😭

Ahem what about Feitan and Shalnark with an s/o that moves a lot while sleeping? No literally Maria I randomly kick and punch and talk during my sleep. 💀💀💀

TYSM DNSNSNZK

PLEASE WE ARE BOTH SHAMELESS AND IT NEVER GETS ANNOYING 😭 and also ngl dats cute😩✋🏻

Feitan + Shalnark headcanons having an s/o who moves around a lot while they sleep

ahhh my pure title making skillz🙂

Cough cough, you have at least once kicked this man off the bed.

He low-key landed with his face and was like "."

He was low-key so annoyed at first

He tried to ignore it and tried going back to sleep but you punched him in his sleep.

Feitan was like "🙂"oh my lord

He really just had enough, he grabbed the blanket and wrapped you in it so tight that you couldn't move a single finger

He Mumbled something like "serves you right" in his native language

And after he finally layed down on his bed, got comfortable and grabbed another blanket for himself

You mumbled "Fuck you" in his ear

...

Feitan grabbed his pillow, blanky and slept on the couch, far far away from you, safe and sound.

Shalnark 😳

Okay so you didn't necessarily kick him even tho you move around a lot in your sleep

Slanark observes you a lot and whenever you fell asleep on his lap, he would see you moving around a lot

So instead he becomes the big spoon and hugs you from behind with his big, sexy, muscular arms(🤤), so you can't move anymore

You can move all you want but your kick's not gonna be as strong from behind

🤺he enjoys while your little mumbles in your sleep

This man won't have any problems and he'll probably sometimes mumble sweet nothings in your ear

And this is why you'll have a lucid dream🤠

I'm the morning you'll wake up having the sexy dream and shalnark just looking at you drinking his tea and his big smwile (I added the w on purpose, you see dat?🤠)

Of course he's gonna be smiling cuz u talked dirty to him all night long( ꈍᴗꈍ)

That's it for now you lil troublemaker 🤺

[yddaw]

30 Questions

Tagged by: @mimikyu-kun 🥰

1. Name - Jay in person, Waddy online

2. Gender - Cis male

3. Starsign - Scorpio ♏️

4. Height - 6′3″ (1.9m)

5. Time - 3:46pm EST

6. Birthday - November 9th

7. Favourite bands - State Champs, Yellowcard, Marianas Trench, Cartel, The Maine

8. Favourite solo artists - Um..... Kesha?

9. Song stuck in your head - More - K/DA and Baddest - K/DA 

10. Last movie - Kung Fu Hustle (I can explain)

11. Last show - The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina and Drag Race 13/UK

12. When did I make this blog - April 21, 2011, almost a decade!

13. What do i post - “... just malicious, jay gay faggotry that [we all knew] we were gonna run into here” -NPB

14. Last thing i googled - “Afterburn Carowinds” (guess who’s playing planco 🤪)

15. Other blogs - I deleted it December 17, 2018 👀

16. Do i get asks? - Sometimes, usually whenever I announce that I’m drinking LOL but it’s more so DMs

17. Why I chose this URL - Waddy was taken and all of my previous URLs had my name in it (do people still follow from those days???)

18. Following - 1,574 (most are deactivated rip)

19. Followers - 2,398 fuck I’m close huuuhhhhh

20. Average hours of sleep - Bitch? idk between like 4 and 12

21. Lucky number - 27, 139, and 217 seem to follow me around so those I guess

22. Instruments - I was a percussionist in school, played a bit of trumpet, a little guitar. If I had to choose one, definitely marimba for sure!

23. What i’m wearing - Black t-shirt, black shorts, black boxer briefs lol

24. Dream job - Indie game dev or freelance web dev 

25. Dream trip - World wide coaster trip! Stopping by to pick up mutuals

26. Favourite food - Dolsot bibimbap, general tso’s, leftover pizza

27. Nationality - American :\

28. Favourite song - I have like 6 :\ I still listen to More - K/DA daily though

29. Last book i read - Eloquent Javascript 3rd Edition, I almost reread Eragon the other day but 

30. Top 3 fictional world to live in - Ready Player One (but I’m like.... in the city), The Magicians (magic tutting sounds fun, the rest sounds pretty awful ngl), ummm idk anything that alters reality (or VR) into whatever I want I guess lol

I tag: @enthronedremains @persistent-wallflower @cardsonthemartyn @woodlandqueer @shanethvarosa @lucid-persona @bluemagereigma @gayplasma

[katnissdoesnotfollowback]

👀

end of year WIP meme!send me a 👀 and i’ll post a snippet of art/writing that i never got around to finishing this year (r.i.p)

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Good morning, Anon! Thanks for the ask. This game has been both depressing (ugh I was gonna finish that this year) and also kind of exciting. I’ve sort of drummed up some excitement for stories that I’ve left neglected for quite some time. Hopefully we can carry that excitement into the New Year and I can knock a few more of these off my list.

This one is a little darker... okay it’s A LOT darker. I was playing around with a sequel to The Midnight Train and it sort of grew into a monster. That Peeta was insanely compelling to me, ngl. I love all the Peeta’s I’ve written but this one just intrigued me?? Not sure how to explain it. Anyways. The monster turned into a multichapter fic that spans the events of The Midnight Train and extends into how Everlark deals with the aftermath. So it’s a different POV plus a sequel I’m sorry I apparently lack self control.

I don’t plan on posting this story until it’s completely done because... well it’s really fucking dark. Also the timeline is scrambled to all hell and jumps around between three different points as Peeta is struggling to figure out what’s real and what’s not. Also, Peeta has some seriously fucked up dreams in this. So it’ll be better for everyone if it’s done, written, and posted regularly. That’s all I really wanna say without giving away too many spoilers, but here’s a snippet, and here’s hoping I can finish it before the end of 2021 ;)

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Glass shattering and a hand grasping pearls. The strand snaps and pearls rain down, melt into stains of blood on the carpet where they boil and hiss, giving birth to snakes that slither into the shadows.

Footsteps in the hall and sounds in the night. He’s heard these sounds before, but the maids always gently guide him away from them. The butlers shoo him away more forcefully.

Tonight, there are no maids. No butlers. Usually there are butlers lurking about the halls. He should be elated by their absence but instead it fills him with dread. He had a bad dream and just wants someone to tell him it’s not real. He should wake Rye or Levi, rather than bother their father, especially since he made it clear he would be busy the rest of the night, but the strange sounds are a siren call to his curiosity, unhindered as he approaches his father’s door. And Peeta’s been feeling odd, out of sorts all day today, all through the wedding.

So he follows the hissing snakes to the doors where they climb and wrap around the handles, promising him answers.

He knocks, the sound timid and unanswered. Who could hear him over that grunting? Slowly, Peeta grasps one ornate handle and opens the door, jumps at the touch of a hand to his shoulder, shaking him awake.

“What?” he asks and then blinks himself to awareness. His eyes hurt, assaulted by bright light. He groans and shifts, the hand stops shaking but remains on his shoulder. He’s in a familiar bed and familiar room. The sounds of the Capitol in the morning drifting through the open window. Images slowly come into focus. A pack of cigarettes and a lighter next to a glass of water and a vial of pills. Half a dozen haphazardly stacked sketch books. A blue glass vase filled with pencils.

The dreams are slow to recede.

Lavinia watches him with concern, waits until he’s slightly more lucid, and then lifts her hands to sign.

“You need to get up. I told them you came home late, drunk and smelling of cheap perfume. Mrs. Bulgary did not like that. Davis wants details. Mostly I think he wants to know if it was Miss Lucianna again or someone else. He mentioned Horatio?” She pauses and tilts her head, a teasing smile on her face.

“Neither,” Peeta manages to croak and burrows a little deeper into the covers. Winces at the sharp shooting pain up his side. “How am I still alive?” Lavinia lifts one eyebrow at him and he grins before signing to her. “You’re amazing. What are they paying you? I’ll double it.”

She shakes her head at his joke and continues the pressing topic. “I can’t keep her away much longer. You know how she gets.”

“Yeah,” Peeta says and can’t quite meet Lavinia’s eyes. He’ll have to make it up to Jocasta somehow, he’s sure. His cover stories cost a lot sometimes.

“Though I did manage to stitch you up,” Lavinia continues.

“It’s fine. Tell them I’ll be right down,” he signs back to her. “Thank you.”

“Did you get in a fight with a wolverine?”

“Ha-ha,” he says and shifts to sit up. Lavinia gives him a soft smile and motions towards the painkillers and water on his bedside table. Peeta winces again as he reaches for them. Thanks her once more for her kindness. Swallows them as Lavinia rises to go.

“How did you...get me up the stairs?” Peeta asks out loud and she signs that Castor helped her. Peeta nods. Castor can be trusted. He’s got a twin brother being held in avox servitude down below. Indefinitely. Castor has no love to spare for the Capitol, and for Peeta’s needs right now, that’s perfect.

“Also Mr. Wellington called this morning to congratulate you on graduating. He’ll be at the ceremony,” Lavinia tells him.

[lordxgrinnyxboy]

i’m watching London now and

Gwyn’s reacting to meeting Mojo for the first time and i’m. so upset. he sounds proper terrified. :’(

he either just said “wow...wolf...” or “warmth”

LONDON MOJO HAS A TAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLL

MOJO BARKED

that howl sounds like me whenever i see new tgm content

URSUS CROUCHES DOWN TO THE KIDS’ LEVEL

I’M COMPROMISED

oh sh he immediately follows it up with “you can’t stay here” damn ursus

WHY IS IT DANGEROUS URSUS. WHAT DOES THAT MEAN.

Mojo sounds like he’s about to end Ursus’ life fr

the NOISES in this version. We’ve got dizzy!Gwyn and i am getting serotonin. which is a little weird but i’ll take it

 the baby noises are super real but nothing beats Ms. Brisson’s baby noises i’ll tell u that

“Who is this? Your sister?” “No.” ashfajfhaj

there’s both More and Way Less going on in this scene like Gwyn’s just kinda standing there like “okay”

he’s walking around now

just dropped like a sack of potatoes when Dirry-Moir goes “HIS FACE DID IT”

ooh Ursus sounds even more Done

why does she have a necklace that says Dea. does Ursus not know his wife had that. why does she have necklace

is “loved by the father she would never see” part of the inscription?

Did Ursus Get A Necklace For His Unborn Kid And Try To Send His Family AWAEY?

Mr. Maskell’s just yanking that puppet’s head all over the place

this poor kid sounds like he’s straight up dying i feel so bad

he’s like sobbing and Ursus thinks it’s a laugh

side note that the cowl is Stunning and An Excellent Look as always

*harsh whisper* “and it was then that i saw! that the boy could do nothing but! . . grin.”

“gaAAaaah” oh Gwyn

“I watched you, boy, I saw your poor mother drown” AND YOU JUST LET HIM WANDER OFF INTO THE SNOW???

Ursus no disrespect but he’s kinda having a moment and you’re just

Ursus i swear if you do not get that child a tylenol

god he went after that like a magnetized kitten holy heck Gwyn

points awarded for sounding delirious

you are like super coherent and goal-oriented laddie

i don’t know what this voice is Mr. Maskell is doing but i kind of love it but it also Does Not Fit

he’s like simultaneously delirious as hell but also more lucid than Bristol!Gwyn couldve ever dreamed of being

AHSFJAGHA THIS VERSION OF BROKEN AND ALONE I’M

WHAT

IT’S HIGH IT’S HIGH HE’S HIGH IT’S HIGH

Oh god the sobbing

i’ve held out this long but i’m finally forced to say it. think i might kinda love Mr. Maskell a little bit.

nvm i hate the way he just stood up i take it back 

oml the voice on “father?” hsjhsj

kinda abrupt transition to stars in the sky

it sounds different but ooh smooth ooh i kinda like it

“am I dreaming” BABEYYYY

Ursus just like “Lemme go ahead and Not Answer That Question.”

idk why but this song always feels like Ursus half expects Gwyn to die in his sleep or something

dang Ursus doesn’t even wait for him to fall asleep he just jumps right on back like “sink or swim kidlet my hand in this is DONE”

i just realized it’s Just Him puppeteering this kid. somehow looks Stranger than multiple ppl workin the puppet but it might be the angle

on my life i swear it looked like Ursus just either punched the wall or threw a dart at a board

aw Ursus has a lil lie down in this one. about 672000 feet away from the Mojo + Kids pile but still

Mr Maskell just levitated the puppet

what on earth kinda rotational maneuver w

i think they just did actual magic of some sort. i am. bewildered. what.

“Dea!” awwwwwww

“mMOJO!” good gracious.

SHE’S ON THE WOLF

man they cut out “I DON’T WANT STORRIES”

Gwyn’s tone on “no, Beauty and the Beast” here XD

“The Goblin and the Fishmonger?” “No”

“The Bride Who Loved Salt?” “Noooo”

Gwyn’s got a favorite word in this edition and it’s “no”

awwwwwwwwwwweee the “YES!” reactions that’s too cute actually

the Beast voice in this one X’D

“I’m...dying. I’m. . .bleh.” *slaps puppet down on table” i am in tears

wait a second they cut out the whole “You’re the wicked witch” thing. DISAPPOINTED

“WHOoOoOAH” GWYNLIT STOP

abrupt swerve into super smooth “never did I dream” i’m so

i have mixed feelings about the “I’d like to be a Lord” but oof “and wake up in a real palace” hits different after “Am I dreaming?”

why are they reacting to the floaty bit or are we just supposed to imagine that the kids are still dancing and are just going all spinny or

OHHHHHHH HOLY NIIIIIGHT THE SPINNING THE SPINNING THE HAND HOLDING THE SPINNING THEY’RE SPINNING WHAT WHAT I

IS THIS REAL

I HAVE ASCENDED

im cry

i like how he just yeets her across the room and he starts up with “never did I dream” like “pls ignore the fact that I totally just threw you across the room”

she just flung out a hand and drew him to her like the gosh darn force and that’s on

his outfit has colors this time

she kissed him so good he lost his right elbow for a second

ngl i do love the way London!Gwyn does the “has given me LIFE” like that little upward hitch on the ‘i’ i just like the sound okay

the choreo is a little odd tho

Gwyn fully looks like he’s two seconds away from doing a little dance number but he keeps stopping just short of getting to it

what is this headbob he’s doing good grief

go off with your little dramatic hand wiggle and holding Dea’s hand up like it’s simba! i see you! yeah Gwynplaine! strike that pose!

London!Gwyn uses crimson lethe instead of milk in his cereal, that’s the only possible explanation

the man is LIT UP

he is drunk on love and homebrew painkillers

what does Dirry-Moir swear was real? the puppets? He just pointed out everything going black so he’s either breaking the fourth wall or Clarence’s death literally triggered an eclipse

QUAKE?

they just hop in the cart and Ursus locks it up X’D “Get in the car, kids!”

he let Dirry-Moir come in their HOUSE oh no

and this post is way too long so i’ll cut it here but! Bristol owns my heart but i will not deny having a good time so far.

[fmdjaeinarchive]

this is mostly for organization purposes because having four muses means i’m most likely going to mix them up all the time, but it’s also a mini plot call if anybody would like to plot for event purposes ♡ so please like this post, and i’ll come running to your dm’s! also none of my girls have roommates if that’s something you’re seeking as well!

jaein

her whole attitude throughout this thing is: i can’t believe i got pulled out of working in seoul only to work on a boat and in three different cities in a span of a week. she also can’t believe that all these idols are gonna have to technically greet the new years together lmao thanks a lot, three companies

i random generated all the balls that my girls will be picking because ngl i didn’t wanna put in thought. it would require me individually thinking out too many possibilities and... no <3

december 26th: she draws yellow and has to figure out some flash mob thing which makes her go ??? who thought of these activities because they should be fired

december 28th: she draws yellow again and honestly the zoo mission is a nightmare, but she’ll do her best because she doesn’t want to find her own way back 

december 30th: draws blue and will definitely be taking advantage of a free massage because god knows she needs it

any other day that’s free will consist of her probably trying out a lot of things on the boat because hey, she’s being paid to be on it so might as well try whatever she can? it’s not like she’ll pay to be on a cruise ship on her own so join her in trying to relax!!

unless you’re a lucid member. in that case, please be wary of the cameras and don’t cause her too many headaches. other than that, y’all can go wild

hyeju

she likes the cruise better than the wellness retreat in the past at least. though she would rather be in the practice room to prepare for her comeback. if anybody would like to discuss her comeback with her, she’s more than willing to!! she’s a lot happier with this one than her previous one because it doesn’t feel as rushed

december 26th: she draws red! she’s not big with the holidays tbh but she thinks boat decoration sounds kind of fun since it doesn’t require too much energy

december 28th: she also drew yellow, but she probably won’t work as hard as jaein and honestly, if anybody wants to plot it out, she can be one of the losers who has to find their way back to the ship on their own 

december 30th: draws red so she’s cleaning lmao what a terrible task like hyeju is not a great cleaner but she just does it because whatever. i don’t see her having a lot of screen time during any of these days unless it’s a word or two of her complaining

she’s in love with the idea that lipstick gets to perform lil touch for the concert, and she’s just big when it comes to concerts. like that’s where she feels the best so concert days may be when she’s in her better moods/up to more things

suji

suji’s used to having to work on her birthday since it does fall at the end of the year, but it usually meant that she would work and then get to go home and celebrate it with herself or a couple of friends at the least. this whole thing kind of ruins that so she’s kind of bummed : / 

december 26th: she draws red and is much joyful that hyeju when it comes to decorations because she does love the end of the year a lot!! much festive much joy!! 

december 28th: she draws blue and decides to spend the day as if it’s a belated birthday gift to herself. thank god she got some of the events that might actually boost her mood

december 30th: suji has the best luck or something because she draws blue again, and she’ll probably get the mani/pedi 

like she is during any event, suji’s very approachable, and she might whine once or twice about having to spend her birthday on this thing, but overall she still likes the festivity at the end of the year so she’s all sparkling eyes and whatnot 

yujin

my girl yujin being able to spend the new year at busan is just 🥺 especially since this is after she reconciles with her family so she’s super excited throughout the whole event because the very last thing will be busan!! getting to perform there too?? it’s such a dream come true and her family will very much be coming to see her, and she’ll probably spend the free time at busan with them

december 26th: draws blue. a busan girl so she absolutely loves the water and the pool so she’s genuinely having such a great time

december 28th: draws red, and she’s element’s resident cook anyway so she’s super happy with what she ends up getting to do

december 30th: draws yellow and honestly the idea is so funny, and she probably gets caught so that can be a plot lmao your muse can catch yujin in the act!!

also completely in love with the fact that she gets to perform!! on stage!! element music!! she missed that so much because literally the last time she got to perform was in july with oh my mistake 

as always, yujin’s just : ) throughout !!!

[violentviolette]

This isn't a secret but it is conversation uh today I re-unlocked my ability to start dreaming while still awake And not like lucid dreaming where you go to sleep but like your brain stays awake or wakes up in the middle this is like. Just. With my eyes open thinking awake thoughts and then I am having dream also and I go "oh hmm I am awake dreaming again" anyway idk why I wasn't able to do it for so long but it's fun

ooo, that sounds p cool ngl. I've never experienced anything like that but it sounds interesting

[sk3tch404]

(Is that a new pfp I see 👀👀 looks nice 👌)

On the topic of Creepypastas, I'm still astonished that they never gave me nightmares. Which is funny, because I used to have like, an average amount of nightmares per sleep, but during my Creepypasta Phase and also after it, I never had nightmares anymore 🤔

Kind of at least, sometimes I had dreams that are very obviously in some sorta horror setting but I never felt scared, a bit unnerved at most, but I usually felt more curious and a bit cautious. Heck, sometimes I get attacked in my dreams but I actually manage to counter the Attacker and come out victorious (Rip to that one Jason Voorhees whom I K.O'd by bonking him with a metal bat, u tried 😔🙏) ngl, I think the possibility of having nightmares terrified me more than my actual "nightmares" ever did, as strange as that sounds O_O

I think the closest thing to a creepypasta nightmare I've got was that one dream I had about The Rake.

Okay so picture this, the setting and atmosphere of the Slender game, in that dream me and my friends went camping there for some reason and we decided to split ways so we can explore the forest (like true horror media protagonists 😔) and I found like, an abandoned silo that was low on the ground with a ladder. So I decided that I wanna see what's inside it and climbed into the silo.

It was empty, I noticed that my flashlight was pretty weak, but before I could do anything else I heard the screams of my friends in the distance, I turned around of course and lo and behold, The Rake was standing right behind me, to be precise, he was blocking the way between me and the silo exit. So I was kinda panicking about how I should proceed obviously, if I did nothing he would probably maul me, but if I tried exiting he would probably maul me too. So we were just having a stand-off there for what felt like an eternity, before The Rake decided to leave out of its on accord for some reason.

I waited for a while after it left and then hurried back to camp to assess the damage. After I found the corpse of one friend, I immediately decided to GTFO of there and ran blindly into the forest to find some way out.

In the midst of running a police officer actually found me and told me that I had to leave (no shit Sherlock) because he apparently found the corpse of my other friend. He ended up taking me to his police car so we could get out.

Except, that wasn't the end, before we could start the car, The Rake's hand broke through the car ceiling and tried dragging the police officer out of the car by his neck. I ended up just moving over to the drivers seat and frantically smashed my foot onto the gas pedal. The sudden acceleration caused the police officer to be dragged out of the car completely, but at that point I was solely focused on my own survival so I didn't give a shit. I finally escaped.

It suddenly cut to a newspaper report about the dead police officer and the ~mysterious forest creature~ that could've caused his death.

I woke up not exactly scared, but just mildly confused and concerned about wtf I just dreamt and why was that ending so jarring- (insert Man Door Hand Hook Car Door reference lmao)

Anyways, have you had similar experiences with creepypastas and your own dreams?

(Also did you ever get my ask with the link to the creepypasta AMVs that I used to watch? I fear it may have gotten yeeted into the abyss by tumblr)

-Ren'py anon

Nightmares per night? I didn't have many nightmares when I was younger, so I don't really have much background knowledge on em 😥

Maybe bc u were super fixated on it, it effected your dreams? Idk that's been happening to me lately.

In normal dreams you don't have a lot of control unless you realize you're dreaming? Personally I just start waking up when that happens (I WANNA STAY IN IT DAMMIT)

Any weird shit could happen and u could just be like, "Well goddamn, ain't that a shame. Anyway-"

That loss kf fear is definitely strange 😭 some dreams are way more lucid for me, sooooo

ALSO YOU FOUGHT JASON???!?!!? NONNY I'D BE SO SCARED. I'VE ENCOUNTERED RISOTTO FROM JJBA AND CHROLLO FROM HXH, AND MY HEART LITERALLY FELL TO MY ASS BOTH TIMES.

Don't make eye contact with Chrollo. Just don't.

But you won SO AYYYYYYYY LET'S GO

And yeah same! The nightmares I've had scared me so bad that I fear that I MIGHT have them.

Have you ever seen some yakuza guy stab a dudes face with a white colored pencil over and over again? God I hope not 💀💀💀

NOT TO MENTION I HATE THE RAKE. IT'S SO UGLY AND CREEPY. IT AIN'T GOT NO CLASS 🙄🙄🙄

Gosh your dream should be a game itself. That camping intro and the, "Come on you guys! Lets be brave and rebellious by searching this big dark forest!"

The stand off with the Rake was scary enough, but the CAR DRAG OUT? AW HELLLLL NOOOO YOU HANDLED THAT WAY BETTER THAN I COULD

SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST I GUESS 😭

And can I just say I hate weak flashlights? LIKE WHAT HELL ARE YOU USEFUL FOR? NOTHING.

Ah yes, the newspaper ending. Are you dead or alive? I like em, and this dream of yours knows EXACTLY what it was doing.

Waking up from dreams is always confusing, but you always get to piece the story together through that confusion! It's like a cute little mini game after you've been subconsciously traumatized 😃

Man Door Hand Hook Car Door? Is that the one with the girlfriend in the car and the boyfriends blood dripping on the top of the car? Idk but it sounds spooky >:D

The only 'creepypasta dream' I've had is with Chucky (Yes the serial killer doll, that one) I was like 6, and my mom let him in after he knocked on our front door. He asked us if we wanted to play AND EVERYONE THOUGH IT WAS FUN??!!?!?

I was so terribly scared and cried when I woke up lmao

And yes I did get your ask! I'm just waiting to copy and paste the thing on a computer.

The only computer I use is my school computer and my mom is gonna bark at me for my missing schoolwork if it she catches me using it while school isn't in session 😃 BUT I PROMISE YOU I WILL LISTEN TO THAT DARN PLAYLIST WHEN ITS SAFE AND CLEAR

I also have writing burn out, so that's there too :/

Don't feel guilty for sending in asks though! I'm just glad you're still here to stick around Ren'py nonny :)

God I love talking about dreams because I've had a ton of 'interesting' ones. Especially my most recent one.

[silasbug]

dream log Nr. -014

14/03/2022 (extracted from a chat, unstructured)

hade:

I had a dream where we were running dungeons and kept getting Elden Hollow I and you were getting sooooo frustrated

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Tuffi:

lol

somehow i am jealous of you dreaming so much but since you told me it feels like not sleeping, i am not jealous

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hade:

You shouldnt be, plus I was half-conscious during that dream and was aware I was half-awake, but the dream kept repeating somehow & I wasnt actually falling back asleep

I did feel a little rested during that time

then I fell deep again, had another intense dream where I was sprinting across fields with a plant-farmers market on them and I kept passing out while running and hence tumbling and rolling off the floor

then I felt fucking tired again when I woke up lmao

idk man I have periods where I dont dream or cant remember and sleep is super uneventful, and then there are times like these where I'm just.. "please, no more”

but ngl its very interesting being able to remember full cohesive dreams, I kind of love it besides the tiredness

Getting control of them would be sweeeeet

but idk how, I can be aware of thr fact that I'm dreaming but it'll have no bearing on whether or not I can change or impact that dream

when I am a little more conscious or close to consciousness (so waking, or being aware that I have to go to the bathroom for example) I can repeat parts of the dream but it will no longer organically continue

I just recounted them and I had 4 dreams last night, all of which I can remember in most-detail

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Tuffi:

when i have strong dreams with some kind of loop in it where i can't seem to move forward, i feel like i have a smidgen of influence on it and i bet if it would happen more often, then i could trick myself a little to gain more influence on it

it feels like a psychic wall i need to train my brain for, before i can cross it

maybe i would never be able to cross it though, no idea

that's crazy

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hade:

I'm usually pretty blank? But I notice when I close my eyes that the moment I start to fall asleep a shit ton just goes on in front of my eyes and if I wake without having fallsn fully asleep I kinda feel like what the fuck was that mess and where did it come from.

it's like rapidly switching channels but with some cohesion

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Tuffi:

i can barely remember one dream, if i dream at all. since we are supposed to dream every night, i guess i almost never remember my dreams =/

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hade:

usually same for me

but the last two days have been intense, because the night before this I was also able to recount 3-4

Tuffi:

holy shit, that sounds .... confusing

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hade:

maybe implementing some kind of trigger, or designating something as trigger that could make you realize you're dreaming but in a way where you can become lucid would be neat, but I don’t think every dream would include that trigger

but thats only when I'm almost falling asleep and then wake back up before really falling asleep, that's like a 5-10 min window

usually when I fall asleep it's just snap I'm asleep

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Tuffi:

dude

our brain is so crazy

it's also quite interesting how little we still know about it i guess

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hade:

"brain-daddy, no! please! no more!""

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Tuffi:

lol

you just humanized your brain and made it a naughty man

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hade:

hahahaha

I mean it almost feels abusive

if it werent so interesting

ive always loved dreaming and being able to remember that shit because theres just absolutely nothing like it

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Tuffi:

let brain daddy poke you a little

i'll be gentle

(maybe)

Muahaha

oh? you think you can run? let's trip you a couple dozen times

I HAVE THE POWAH

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hade:

movies, tv, dont even come close to the weird shit your subconscious projects, the itch it scratches is so very satisfying

lmao

literally

towards the end I had rapid succession of pass out fall down roll off back up and immediate repeat for like 4x in a row

it was almost like cartwheels with your shoulders and more scrapes

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Tuffi:

where did you want to go?

where you running?

why? where did you come from?

so many questions

where you just happily skipping across the field, enjoying the weather? or were you trying to reach the market?

we need to analyze the shit out of this

i mean ... your subconsciousness really gets to live out its shit when your consciousness falls asleep so ... i know i had quite a lot of dreams that made so much sense when thinking about what they've shown me

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hade:

oh I remember more than running and tumbling, I just didnt write it all out, just the part that stuck the most vividly

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Tuffi:

ah okay

no worries, if this gets a little too personal. they are dreams after all

quite vulnerable state that is

no control of what you think and do

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hade:

for one I had a girlfriend (someone who was actually my “girlfriend” in my childhood, her name was Nina), there was a plant market across thise fields and I was looking for a new plant  because one of mine died

this one was just weird, I just didnt write it all out because I didnt know how interesting dreams are for you and jusg the tumbling was super exhausting and memorable, plus funny

a new plant, I was looking for a new plant! at the plant market, because my girlfriend was a botanist and coming over and one of my plants had died and I wanted a new one and also to show her

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Tuffi:

didn't you say something about your plants just yesterday ?

when we briefly talked about the vinegar smell

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hade:

I got soil gnats in my plants, yes (hence the apple cider vinegar traps)

but I dont think it was related

one thing that really sucks about these phases though, despite the exhaustion, is that once the dreams fade again, either from memory or me having any, it feels sooo empty

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Tuffi:

what do you mean exactly? you feel empty after forgetting what you dreamt about?

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hade:

no, you feel the absence of the dreams

knowing you dreamed vs suddenly only waking up after falling asleep, just coming back from the black instead of movies in your head

it's a very distinct empty feeling

and also after forgetting what you dreamed about, because before there was knowing and remembering, and suddenly it's gone and you cant grasp it anymore

[missrown]

Ok so these dreams are more wierd than scary to me and ngl I vaguely renember the first two and each dream was a cruise ship each time not sure why. Also tw warning? (murder and corpses) also there is my multiple shitty spelling and gamma mistakes.😂

Ok in the first dream it was basically just like a normal cruise with me and my parents and it was mostly fine but when it can to packing we each noticed we were missing some clothing items like sweaters and we couldn't find them in our room so we ignored it.

During the second dream it was on a different cruise, the first few days were fine but one day when we returned to our room there was literally multiple dead corpses (some of them were dismembered) on one of the beds and had blood all over the walls. For some reason the mattress of the bed was visable (instead of having the bedding cover on it) and had a label attached to it saying for every corpse found they'll pay you money for it (because that's apparently that's something that happens alot😐) it even had a chart thing with silhouettes and as the amount of them increased so did the amount of money (like: x3 👤=£600). Murder was still illegal ofc and I concluded someone trying to frame us for the murder and what I also noticed is that the bathroom door was closed, without thinking about it I opened the door, and found someone standing inside the bathtub. The person who I presume was the murderer had a crazy smile and a knife and after making eye contact with them I woke up (I didn't renember what they looked like)

In the 3rd dream (once again on a different cruise ship) we just to our room and the bed were messed up, the clothes that we lost from the first cruise where on them and the bathroom smelled like puke. For some reason my parents left me in the room and went somewhere. In this dream unlike the other two I realised I was in a dream/nightmare so I chose to lock the other lock of the door (like how hotel rooms have that extra lock on the door inside the room which isn't the key card one) and right after locking it the handle move meaning someone was trying to enter room. The room's door had a gap that was like 2 inches underneath it so I stepped away from the door first because I guessing someone or thing was going to grab me if I close and went onto my knees so I can look under to see what was on the other side. On the other side also looking through from the gap under the door was something which had a human shaped head (no hair), black skin, a crazy looking smile, eyes (that had a glassy looking sclera, black irises and a grey pupil), curled sheep horns and a fancy royal cape (red cape with white fur). At the time I was thinking "Fucking great I have a dream demon or some shit like that(!)" and me, being the genius I am decided to flip it off with my middle finger😂. After flipping it off it was making an angry sound which sounded like some sort of animal (while still smiling) and the sclera of it's eye had a tv static type effect and then it dissapered. Then I woke up and thought 'Why the fuck would you do that dream me?'😂

-Cursed Anon

Also I may or may not have a stupid theory that demon was a fucking anime reference for some reason🤔 (because it has a fancy/royal cape and sheep horns it would suggest royalty and I was like what if that was a stupid af reference to Chuuya becuse you know king of the sheep)

either way weird dream would rate it a 0/10 for not wanting to flip off my possible dream demon becuse if I have another dream related to it again I bet it's going to fucking kill me😓

This has a horror story potential and I'm here for it. Literally! The second dream and the third one mostly! The protagonist would be a bad bitch 😍 oh wait this was supposed to be a nightmare sorry-

Your third dream was lucid one huh? Nice!

For some reason, when you said red cape with white fur I thought of Luci. Probably because, the way you described it, it sounded regel. And also the horns.