#this isnt shipping this is a secret other thing. and no one else knows about it except me.

[virtual-minotaur]

thinking about a romance for a character but not in the way everyone else is doing it because its boring.

[vancemedicibutwhimsical]

hello I would LOVE to just hear you ramble about any rarepairs or ships you like in general hehe, your art is super cute btw!!

WOAH MY GOD!!! THNAN U SO MUCH ☹️☹️☹️ ure SO SWEET !!

Holy Wow okay so i never get to talk about these sillies so here we GO !! Most r mlm or wlw !!

• Lucky/Lefty

This one is So special to my heart and its so silly really, i just think they would look so cute together. Im under the impression that Lefty is a touch younger than Lucky, based on his voice, position in the shop, etc. i like to imagine that Lefty grows up looking up to Lucky for a long time and never knows why hes just about Leftys ‘favorite friend’ when one day he drops his freakin hot dog in shock after realizing that he very much thinks of Lucky when hes not even around, what he might be up to, being mad when he talks to ladies, MUCH, much like someone who has a big fat crush.

He puts it off forever and thinks hes maybe just Going Crazy, takes Pinky on an unsuccessful date, does all these ‘manly’ things that he was taught growing up.

I like to think that there would be a dance at the school, and Lefty doesn’t feel like going with anyone. No one matches up with the feelings he’s been having for his best friend.

Lucky, being his right hand (lol) man, still makes him go because, “theres plenty of broads here who’ll dance with ya”

And when Lefty is spending time out in the lot, instead of inside the gym with everyone else, Lucky comes looking for him. I think he would notice when Lefty is upset or deterred, given his typical upbeat personality.

I think that Lefty would babble about how he hasnt felt right and that he thinks somethings up with him, maybe eating those hotdogs from the gasstation all the time isnt a good idea.

But Lucky gets it.

Nothing big happens, Lucky pulls him in by his shoulder, both boys far more snazzy-looking than they ever did on a regular day. They would take things really slow, so much so that no one even hardly has an inclination that they might be together for a WHILE. It would probably take an observation from Vance, i imagine, being queer himself.

I actually love to imagine that Vance catches Lucky bringing Lefty lunch and cigarettes, and its like that scene in spongebob where spongebob realizes squidward likes krabby patties LMAOOO

I feel like they would have a VERY sweet relationship, very casual around the other greasers, like best friends who are joking about bikes and then they start smooching. They might be more careful in public, especially on their side of town, where some less-than-tasteful opinions are shared on minorities, but they would still be very much proud of their relationship :,3 these r two i could see being highschool sweethearts and being fiances/married in the future.. sighs queerly

• Tad/Parker

OUGH THESE TWO!!!!!! MEIN GOTT!!!

This is a pairing i love because its so sweet, but also so tragic just generally because of their statuses and reputations :((( 💔

I think this interest would start on Parkers end, honestly! He seems very sweet, compared to a lot of the Preps. He is also a hopeless romantic at heart, and always dreams of having someone to take care of and make happy, regardless of gender, really.

I think Parker would notice how he feels about Tad very clearly. He realizes that he’s hoping to spar with Tad more often, urging to his friends that “Tad needs the practice with someone who believes in him!” and they all look at him like. What Do You Mean By That..

And then when Tad comes around with bruises that didn’t originate from their matches, Parker worries. It’s summer, so, the sunglasses on Tad’s head arent exactly unusual for the weather, persay, but unusual for HIM.

Parker knows he can’t exactly beat Mr. Spencer till he sees jesus, so he settles for making Tad comfortable. Parker wears sunglasses, anytime Tad does.

I think that they would be very secretive, considering that their families both want them to grow up, take over companies, and marry a woman, who might or might not be blood related to them. That idea is distasteful to both, of course, so they spend their alone time in the boxing ring, or in Parker’s room at the Harrington house, dreaming of an intertwined life in the City.

Besides, they know they arent the only ones sharing a bed on occasion behind these walls.. (cough theyre all gay)

These two would probably have an exclusive, secret relationship in highschool, break up for college and to maintain their secret, and would end up inevitably meeting again in their adult lives. I like to think that they would try to just have a friendship, but wouldn’t be able to ignore how intimate they used to be with one another.

• Justin/Ted

This one.. euehueheheh

Theyre both so silly looking. Reminds me of “we’re pretty cute for two ugly people” 😭

I think that Justin has a big fat disgusting crush on Ted Thompson. He is REVOLTED and so inlove.

I like to think that Justin possibly played football as a child, or has an interest in it. Maybe this is just because he wants to grow closer to Ted, but i can actually see him wanting to play football on occasion.

He would go to football games, insisting to his friends that he was going to watch the Jocks fail, and to pull pranks, however, no one ever sees him doing…any of that.

Usually, hes perched in the bleachers, eyes trailing a body on the feild as they pound down other players and the rival. He’s kind of obvious, but he will always deny any sight of him pining.

Justin keeps a journal much much like a girl. I dont mean boys dont have journals, but Justins is solely for all his queer thoughts and gossip when Gord is busy and can’t listen to him bitch through a glass of brandy.

This journal has plenty of daydreams of Ted written in it, handwriting messy in the areas where Justin felt particularly embarrassed to feel this way, almost like if he wrote it sloppy enough, it wouldn’t be eligible, therefore, not real!!!

I think being a jock, the school would have Ted put in Art class and shop class, to try and level out his education and make sure it wasn’t all football.

Therefore, Justin and Ted get paired one fateful day for an art project. They have to do portraits of eachother. Both are very ticked about it, but.. maybe moreso ted, than Justin, because he has way too much fun during those couple of days.

He has an excuse to sit with Ted Thompson! And Talk to him!!! Oh me oh my!

And he does just that, he talks his way into sitting with Ted at lunch, and convinces him that they really need to finish this project, considering Ted’s grades are constantly suffering when he isn’t paying nerds to do his work.

Ted is a tough guy, and everyone knows it, its painted on his face. However, when Justin finishes his portrait a day or so later, Ted is stood infront of him, face looking dumb as ever. Because, justin is a great artist. He wishes the kid could have done his highlights with the way he captures him on lead-smudged sketch paper.

And Ted asks to keep it! Justin is extremely stupid in love and obviously accepts, running off to the Harrington house to bury himself in his bed and scream.

I think they would have a rlly cute back and forth non-exclusive thing going on..Justin insists on studying with him to get his grades up, alone, in Ted’s dorm room, of course :3 Ted walks him around sometimes because hes just sure that Justin will run his mouth to someone who would take it way personal, Justin constantly quips that he can handle himself, but never deters the Jock when he comes around to chaperone Vandervelde to his locker.

Ill post Actual headcanons soon but these r kind of the explanation of dynamics and stuff between the relationships :333 THANK U FOR THE ASK!! IVE BEEN YEARNING TO TALK ABOUT RAREPAIRS UGHH

[tinukis]

i may seem to lean in more towards romanticism of zolu but imma be real here

theyre a whole secret third thing to me like— idk how to explain it it other than their love and bond transcends what romance and platonic. yes i will draw them smooching and have hearts flying all around them but it is not exactly romantic/platonic... (i mean honestly i dont mind how ppl interpret zolu whether its my art or in general)

bc i saw this one comic that just... perfectly described zolu and the strawhats to me? it was about law catching zolu and then discussing with the other strawhats about it and they explained that luffy does in fact love everyone equally and the same. for luffy, romantic nor platonic is Not a thing to him. (this is how i view luffy's aroaceness !! love isnt a category for him. love isnt something he could just pick and choose or whatever. love is just... loving someone. love is for the people very dear to him.) and in the comic, the strawhats say that zoro's the one and only guy who could keep up with luffy's energy and antics. so they dont mind the things they do together in privacy or in front of them. they know how much luffy loves them ALL EQUALLY and they all love him back

on topic of zolu and aroace... i've been around spaces and talked to a few zolu shippers (qpr shipping count) and noticed how many of us are at least on the aro/ace spectrum. there's just Something about zolu's special relationship that attracts us, and if you ship them and are aro/ace, im certain you'd agree. (even if you arent, we can mutually agree that they are a third thing, right?) like, theres something so... aroace about their relationship. they can be seen as romantic and they can be seen as platonic, but what can be absolutely certain is that their relationship is definitely queer. bc it's not something you can easily describe or that their relationship is The Norm. theyre insane for each other. luffy's the sun. zoro's the moon. luffy's a good. zoro's the king of hell. they complete each other. they absolutely need each other.

my memory is horrible and i cant say the words properly but basically: zolu's love and relationships transcends romance and platonically. yes you can see it as either, but as an aroace, i Feel it is way beyond that.

and again, will repeat it a million times over (mind you, it's not canon. it's a widely accepted HEADCANON. if you think luffy's sexuality is something else, thats cool): i believe that luffy's aroaceness is way beyond "not interested in attraction/xyz/whatever" like yeah, he doesn't think about it because it doesnt matter much to him. he doesnt apply whats romantic or platonic to HIS relationships. he can recognize romantic, sexual, platonic things. it's just not his thing to really think hard about (he doesnt think much in the first place (affectionage)) he feels love for the people he cares about and if they feel loved by him, however he approaches the love (and if they accept that kind of form) thats all that matters to him. he doesnt label/categorize love because it makes no sense to Him to prioritize someone over the other just bc he loves that someone a different way. he loves everyone equally and treats them as equals.

and when it comes to Any luffy ships, calling his significant other "partner" is what fits best. theyre not just best friends, theyre partners.

this is a mess of a rant but this is just how i feel abt zolu, luffy, his ship pairs, and his aroace hc :]

[molqr]

the ask game. can we get the soy

of courseeee you can its always spy pussy indulgence hour here. or however the meme goes. smiles face

this is loooowwwngg so im putting it under a cut for any poor fucker who may stumble upon it when they open the app lmfao. thanks for the ask mr musichead aka heavy tf2's husband. grins

how i feel about this character - gestures to bio and pfp and everything about me. god. im sick in the head about her. i originally didnt like spy all that much but, like a horrible mold, he grew on me when i realised that while he claims to be better than everybody else, he really isnt. maybe even a bit worse, and god, isnt that just the funniest, stupidest fucking thing ever. have you heard some of those voice lines, shes a fucking clown. anyway. i love spy tf2 but also dear god i hate him. if he was real i'd throw a brick at him and then kiss him. terrible choice really but i wouldnt have it any other way. thank you shithead frenchman with terrible horrible problems i like to study. as for a more comprehensive thing though: i really do just think spy is interesting. i think its weird and fascinating that hes so put together and so off-putting all at once. i love thinking about what happened between him and scout's mother. i like making him a pathetic absentee father. i like that he has identity issues. i like that i can make her a woman. that spy can be a bit of a wreck and extremely put together at the same time, that when a character wants to keep everything a secret, any information you have on them feels personal. i like it when spy is written the way thick fog feels. oh and did i mention i desire him most horribly. id assume thats obvious by now. spy is like a rubix cube to me. a boring little square who i regretfully want to shoot my shot at piecing together despite the fact i am not good at puzzles.

all the people i ship romantically with this character - ME MOTHERFUCKER!! kiddinggg. well. its true, but heres a better answer. tf2 is like the yaoi franchise to me, and spy is the most yaoiful of all simply because i specifically want to suck face with him, therefore, i make him suck face with many others. gay, i know. i fuck with most spy ships really, as long as theyre Good then i'll give them a shot. engiespy and sniperspy are classic general go-tos, but well written spoovy? yummmm my fucking dinnaaarrr. i also think that demospy and soldierspy can be fun if gotten right, and pyrospy just because i think it's really fucking funny. oh right and of course spyma. christ. they make me feel sickkk and one of them is barely even a proper character. sad. endlessly intruiged by their love nonetheless <3 still gotta write a fic for them sometime, i want to chew on em like a dog with a bone.

my non-romantic otp for this character - while i did literally just mention spoovy lmfao, i also just like it when heavy and spy are just close friends. they have many layers! im a sucker for the idea of spy knowing russian and that's how they start talking. i think they'd be teerrrribllleee gossips it'd be great. heavy never thought he'd be glad nobody else on the base can speak russian until he started gossiping with spy about the things hes seen on base. i know they talk sooo much shiiittttt. they probably have a bookclub too. // i also really like it when spy and pauling get to be friends, i feel like they entered some sort of understanding that while its paulings job to kill him if he keeps on snooping around, spy is going to snoop around anyway and just hope that when it happens, pauling kills him painlessly. but thats all theoreticals, right now they're talking about nothing- both kind of infuriating and relaxing for the both of them- while disposing of corpses. yknow, people who acknowledge that they might hate eachother in a slightly different world but right now they're friends because they realised overworked, tired, definitely too smart for this but still here anyway style bitches have to stick together. i think about the 'youve lied for her then?' 'oh! uh! not to you of course!' ' ,':I mhm...' interaction a lot. spy doesnt take it personally because she knows thats just paulings job, shes not surprised. she gets to be annoyed about it though, and will then do the same thing to pauling. i like their friendship. smilllessss.

my unpopular opinion about this character - i originally couldnt think of something to say in regards to spy but then it hit me like a flash of lightning. i think people make too much dark spyhead content. and i dont understand acting like the blu spy is better than the red one when theyre the same lady. back on the head though. like i cant lie i have a paticularly weakness for it at times but theres So Much Hard Angst. and it usually makes medic overly sadistic and horrible about it when i know thats not the case. 'but he kept him alive in the fridge!' says a theoretical hater. engineer was smiling when he blew of a guys arm in meet the engineer. soldier cuts off the blu teams heads and collects them. truly you can make near everything shit scary about these guys, but i just want to see more silly spyhead stuff if its going to be done so much. not to say i hate it perse i think its really fun, it just veers really heavily into overly sadistic torture stuff really fast?? my feeling on it is 'guy who watches cartoon violence and says what the fuck thats so fucked up what the hell hes dead you just hit him with a huge hammer' or something. its meant to be silly and i get wanting to have a dark spin on it, you cant forget its still silly at its core. i feel like ive complained about this before. anyway. lollipop chainsaw his ass! let him get back at medic but not in a paticularly sinister way! like, i dunno, dyeing all his birds an ugly shade of green or something. this seems more like me complaining about a trope of spy uhhh whats something more general about him as a character. errr. hes not as put together as it might seem? i think he'd be a bit more bloodthirsty about killing people when its not neccesary on missions and its just gross and weird? that people need to like, play into his grossness a bit more because hes wearing a full piece suit on a battlefield i know hes gross and sweaty. oh and that he wouldnt try to parent scout once he(scout) figures out theyre related because scout is 27 and doesnt give a fuck anymore. spy would sorta feel the need to from guilt but scout doesnt want that father-son relationship with spy because its too late and too weird. its just that spy is trying to project almost thirty years of feelings by imagining his son needs a father in his life as much as spy wanted his son in his life. but its too late. is that an unpopular opinion? idk. i just like making spy more torn up about the absentee father issue than scout is because i think its true. yeagh. out of all of them i feel like this is relatively tame in the 'unpopular opinions' levels. i have way more hot takes about the others. shruggssss

one thing i wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon - more making fun of him. stomping on his ego. being afraid of pyro for no reason. acting like a weird cat. acting like he hates hanging out with the others when its obvious hes having fun deep down. getting to be a weirdo. i need to see what the finale of the 'pretends to be tom jones while scout is dying' thing is. my prediction is that soldiers going to talk about killing tom jones in comic 7 and scout goes WHAT!! BUT HE WAS THERE WHEN I DIED!! and it all comes piecing together and spy has a Horrible day. if it was up to me i'd get to see more of spy and scout's ma on dates too or something because i think theyre really cute. i want more people to mention he smells bad because of the cigarette breath and to have him wheezing and coughing and spluttering after every 5 breaths. can medic have an organ transplant hall of shame with 3 pairs of spys shrivelled lungs? please.

anyway. im very normal about The Soy.

i had to do something like this or id die. xoxo

oh and the ask game itself x <- behold

[not-goldy]

the way i never even attacked or said anything negative about jungkook? reading comprehension is low i get it or it's the fact that you have literally no argument so you just brush me off as a solo- its the army in you huh? im not upset at jimin including jungkook i completely get why he included him- youre just using that argument because you dont know what else to say. the point of the ask was to respect jimins words and music but you somehow want to flip it on me? as if anything i said was a lie or went against anything jimin has said or done? you and other jikookers saying letter is a secret love song for jungkook is not celebrating the song who are you trying to fool? 😭 and the comment about the credit wasnt to diminish anyone but to rather show how just like like crazy isnt jimin ft rm letter is not jimin ft jk. you are absolutely right they both have credits for their respected talent no one said otherwise? 😭 if you all can respect jungkook and what he has said about seven and golden then surely you can all give jimin the same common courtesy is all.

Get the fuck out of here and miss me with the bs

You literally sat there and compared Jungkook and Namjoon's contributions as if to say having Kook on letter means nothing cos "every one goes to him" and "namjoon writes too"

If you are trying to gaslight you doing a piss poor job at it. Try again.

Oh you are not a solo???

You confused aren't you. Having an identity crisis aren't ya??? Cos honey you're NOT AN ARMY EIIIIDDA LMAO.

Which army has a problem with two members of BTS preforming or contributing to a song????

Argument??? Bitch are you crazy???

Like I said, it's not an argument. If you want one take on your mama. She seems to have time since she has nothing to do but have you.

Shipping narrative?

If respecting and supporting both Jimin and Jungkook is a shipping narrative so be it🙂

Cos if I challenge you to point out the so called shipping narrative around letter in the particular Ask I answered you won't find one.

Absolutely I can respect Jungkook and I can respect Jimin ITS CALLED RESPECTING JIKOOK

I respect those two individuals so much I will not downplay eithers contributions on frankly anything. Can you say the same thing??

Let's try this:

win this "argument" right here right now and respect that Jungkook sings BG vocals on Letter. I'll wait.

Shouldn't be hard since you are not a solo or JK anti😹😹😹😹

Fuck outta here

[ponyonn]

pressure oc info dump!! this oc’s entire existence is for self ship/ oc x canon content so if that’s not ur style then u gotta escape while u still can

(for the sake of convenience while reading, Yonnie is solely referred to with she/her pronouns throughout this post.)

tl;dr - she’s the daughter of an Urbanshade employee who’s trying to unlock the secret ending of Pressure, which you get by making out with a computer really hard (and sebastian maybe).

Yonnie’s dad (Malcolm Polaris) raised her with the sole purpose of having her become a scientist like him in order to work with him at Urbanshade. unfortunately, he ended up committing a bigger sin than any of the ones he had committed during his 10+ years working for Urbanshade: he conceived a theater kid 🤯

Malcolm persists in his goal despite Yonnie’s lack of interest in science. he personally homeschools her throughout her entire life, purposefully keeps her isolated from other people her age, and takes her on as an intern/assistant at the Hadal Blacksite when she’s 23 (so in like. 2022). she isnt allowed near the more hostile monsters, but she still expresses frequent disapproval to her dad about the things she does see (or hears about secondhand). although Yonnie sticks by her complaints, she simultaneously feels like a disappointment for not being interested and doubting her dad.

she’s still working at the Hadal Blacksite by the time Sebastian breaches containment. Yonnie and her dad are able to evacuate, but this event is pretty much the last straw for Yonnie. she’s essentially like “hey. maybe this whole situation is kind of deserved? like maybe this is just one of many consequences that Urbanshade needs to start facing in order to atone for the more. uh. morally grim things we’ve done. and we have a LOT to atone for.”

and Malcolm is like “god you have just been one big waste of time huh. just a consistently ungrateful, consistently disappointing mess. you think we have something to atone for? you wanna make peace with the monsters? then get in a sub, go back down there, and do it yourself — because god knows nobody else is going with you.”

and then Yonnie, fueled by the desire to feel like shes doing something good for someone for once in her life (mixed with regret for problems that she technically didn’t even cause), actually does go back down. nobody is tracking her. everyone fully expects her to die, including her dad. the expendable protocol engages as normal.

Yonnie wanders around for a bit before encountering Painter. he’s the only sentient, non-hostile, responsive entity that she’s come across so far, so she offers him an escape. she says she could bring him back up to the surface and let him go free. Painter tells her about the promise he made with Sebastian and says that if he leaves with her, Sebastian has to be allowed to come too. Yonnie is like “they will gun Sebastian down the millisecond he breaks the water’s surface so. probably not. but i just want yall to be free, so i guess i can help you with your plan!”

she meets up with Sebastian, who doesn’t kill her on sight despite the fact that she’s an Urbanshade employee because they’ve actually met before! plot twist 🤯 they spoke briefly after she had become an employee, and Yonnie’s sense of basic fucking human decency and empathy really left a mark on Sebastian (although he’s still kind of cautious around her) 🥹🫶🏽 truly riveting. Sebastian agrees to let Yonnie help him out. since Yonnie isnt a prisoner, she isnt required to follow a navi-path and therefore wont be penalized (e.g. executed) for going off course, so she has access to areas that expendables dont. with this advantage, Yonnie is able to gather up more data for Sebastian than an expendable would. she also collects supplies for him to sell in his shop. time goes on, everybody bonds, yap yap yap.

Yonnie and Painter’s ship tag is #❥browse her history !!

Yonnie and Sebastian’s ship tag is #❥stars as bait !!

one of these. is probably gonna have far more content than the other. at least until i get used to drawing Sebastian.

[gorillaxyz]

17,11,8

i like how you did these backwards... ill answer for murbat this tiem... bc i never answer for them specifically its always me and murdoc... THANK YOU ANON ♥️

17. love at first sight or slow burn?

well............... even though they get together super fast as teenagers. i wouldnt say they were ever in love...

i think baxk then it was mostly murdoc looking for a consistent place for sex LOL sorry to bring that up but it is his nature.

and batty is just kind of like. well. i like him and hes my friend. and i guess i like doing these things with him. but i dont really because i feel objectified. so she never really loved what was going on. and i dont even think she really loved him THAT MUCH as a friend when they were teens. because it was really just... they were the only ones no one else wanted

so yes its definitely a slow burn....... it takes decades for them to like actually acknowledge that maybe um its more than just sexual attraction.... and they do love each other kind of... even though it isnt like normal romance at all in the slightest. its perfect for them though ☝️

11. calling each other by their names, plain and simple, or calling each other really flowery pet names?

no nicknames 😭 even though batty is a nickname murdoc gave her that stuck . other than that and shortened versions of their names... and "love" and "darling" and whatever else . thats it. deffo no flowery pet names LOL

8. constantly bragging about dating each other or keeping the relationship relatively secretive?

murdoc would want to brag about it but batty is deeply ashamed of herself so she insists it gets kept secret and Erm well ☝️ self ship lore in coming ☝️

on plastic beach they start hooking up again but its way worse than every other time because its on Plastic Beach. and they get much closer to each other than batty wants to be and their relationship toes so many lines and batty HATES ITTTTTTT and obvi she doesnt want ANYOEN to know about it

but ☝️ murdoc ☝️ in an interview after plastic beach is over ☝️ lets his loose lips sink ships and he kind of just publicly humiliates batty out of pettiness because she stopped fucking him after pb By talking about like every fling they ever had with rach other. and batty gets rightfully very angry. so thats why they dont talk at all during phase 4. <- very simplified bc i can not be arsed to type every little thing but yeargh

[histronic-gizmo]

I stumbled across your tumblr and it prompted me to ask: how are you so unashamed about being proship/shipping rick x morty? I'm 16 years old and I started shipping them when I was 14 and It's my deepest secret. I've always been ashamed by it and thought something was seriously wrong with me, but you have this whole account and even talk to others about it. I'm almost envious.

Honestly, my unashamed-y of my posting of ships, not just rickorty, was a long journey for me.

Its probably because of my bipolar impulsiveness, but when I meet people irl, the first thing I tell them is I ship Rickorty. RnM is my hyperfixation right now, so it's all i can talk about anyway. It's just my way of chasing off any antis I might meet irl.

I am almost TOO unashamed, perhaps lol. Them getting married is my lockscreen.

But I wasn't always like that. I only learned to be open about it thanks to finding out my romantic partner was also secretly proship. Being able to talk to faer about it helped me to realize that there isn't anything wrong with it.

There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Finding taboo things interesting is normal. Regardless of whether you use it to cope or just find the dynamic appealing, it doesn't say anything about you as a person. Fiction isnt reality. It often connects to reality in a lot of ways, but they are still seperate planes of existence.

Being openly proship is hard. Right now, my notifications are filled with people arguing on my Simpsons and Family Guy posts. Depending on the fandom, sometimes I can't interact with anyone in it.

I haven't gotten any death threats on this account yet, but I've gotten plenty in the past. Including uncensored gore and racist, homophobic, and transphobic comments.

Sometimes, having a proship account isn't the right thing for a proshipper. I only have one because I've been in a super good place mentally for a while (partly because of RnM).

But that doesn't mean you can't find proship communities! Having a sideblog with asks and everything else turned off just for reblogging art and posts of your problematic ships is a good way to make small connections while avoiding the Antis. If you have a discord, proship servers are all over disboard!

Being in proship communities was *so* relieving for me the first time I did it. You don't have to walk on eggshells anymore.

My DMs are always open if you need someone to talk to (just keep in mind I am 20 lol), and I'd be happy to provide my discord too.

I hope you find people who support you, you deserve more than you probably know.

[belovedcherie]

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

THAT TEASER IS GOING TO PUT ME IN A DAMN COMA

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#4

thoughts on multiplication

bc i need to scream about this SOMEWHERE. LIKE WOW. OKAY.

obviously spoilers are under the cut !!

tld;r: yelling abt adrien and WHAT ARE EVERYONES INTENTIONS??

ADRIEN FALLING FOR MARINETTE ADRIEN FALLING FOR MARINETTE ADRIEN FALLING FOR MARINETTE ADRIEN FALLING FOR MARINETTE

yes im gonna yell about this first because adrienette holds my HEART YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THEY R EVERYTHING TO ME </3

ive been waiting for adrien to pin for marinette in canon for so long and season 3 def delivered with the little stares he was giving her BUT NOW THAT ITS FRFR HAPPENING?? HIS BLUSH WHEN HE LOOKS AT HER IN THE MORNING? HIM IMMEDIATELY CALLING HER UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TO TELL HER HOW SPECIAL SHE IS? SOBBING

okay but the fact that he probs tried to kiss her every. day. we only saw 3 sequences but if that montage happened over the span of several weeks..... i am swooning. i am in tears. shambles.

adrien had me KICKING MY FEET AND RUNNING LAPS OKAY I HAD TO PAUSE SO MANY TIMESSDHFK

that being said before i write an essay on light of my life adrien lets talk abt,,,

reverse love square??

i love the idea of reverse love square bc adrien being a lovesick fool for marinette is my aesthetic but iM JUST HJDGSFSGKF BC OF THE TIMINGG

i was kinda hoping for some sudden rapid development today but im not complaining at all dw ����🏾 simp-drien is enough

the ladynoir moments are real cute tho :( them playing cards im cryingsdjhs

im excited to see the ship dynamic in the future episodes heheheh

GABRIEL. AGRESTE.

this man becomes more of a loser every episode what else is there to say

him digitalizing adrien.... funny... not funny haha...funny weird....

i hate when this guy gets smarter cuz he always has some wack trick up his sleeve 😔 but i wanna know more abt those weird siri rings

ALSO HOW DOES TOMOE PLAY IN THIS?? i think she knows hes hawkmoth but why is she helping him?? ik they were leading up to their partnership before so i guess we'll finally see why they were so secretive in the past!!

lie-la

i was gonna talk abt her in the gabriel point but this girl is so annoying she deserves one for herself

SHE GETS ON MY LAST NERVEEE

the genuine irritation i feel whenever i see her character on screen is actually funny

"ladybugs just a kid we need to forgive her ;(" GIRL I HOPE PARIS CAN FORGIVE U FOR THE CRIMES YOU'VE COMMITTED??

im sorry theres nothing productive to say abt her other than the fact that it seems shes going to play a bigger role this season (sadly) (but also yay cuz she brings the spice)

okay last point is abt felix

HELP WHEN HE APPEARED AT THE END 💀💀 THIS GUY WAS HERE THE WHOLE TIME????

i hope and PRAY he treats dusuu well homegirls been going through it D:

WHAT. ARE. HIS. INTENTIONS.

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i saw miraculous was trending and i was like OMG IS THERE FINALLY A NEW SEASON 5 EP?? but it was just beau 😭

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HI so um. back in 2020 kade made this meme thing and i dont think ive ever recovered from it bc I WAS SO TOUCHED LIKE 🙁 NOBODYS EVER MADE ME A MEME BEFORE

since we started talking again a month (+ a day bc i am late) ago i had the idea to make him one in return bc TALKING TO U MAKES ME SO HAPPY AND U DESERVE THE WORLD !!!

sooo here ya go @luymani ILYSM!! happy one month anniversary /p (that sounded way funnier in my head im so sorry LMAO)

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My #1 post of 2022

thinking abt my son syaoran li ♡

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hi sorry for keeping you waiting so long, i tried to give some actual. thought out thoughts here rather than just going. hey i really liked this (but hey. i really really like this)

so, touching on both parts in more detail (since it seemed silly to talk a lot about your addition and not go over the first part in more detail than that one comment)

In the latest draft, as in previous, I have it also highlighting Izzy's connection to his mum via midwifery and knowledge abt looking after kids/babies. in the latest draft in particular, Izzy is implied ftm who was absolutely being trained by his mum to take over as midwife for their village/town, had he not gone to sea with Ed instead. But it means he's still retained some knowledge of it all, so he takes on a lot of the baby care.

Id love to hear more about this bit in particular- i mean trans izzy is always good but i like the way this particularly works itself into the narrative, the way this could be a good moment for us, the audience, to learn this izzy is trans, or even some of the crew if thats a direction youre interested in going in- a kind of confessional moment, an opening up, letting in and hoping, trusting that its going to be ok. (im personally fond of adding a bit more grit into the canon, playing into historical setting a little (in the sense that, you have to be sure youre trusting the right people with this information, yknow? its dangerous out there) but even if thats not the kind of thing youre interested in theres still an element of revealing a secret about yourself that isnt something you say to just anyone) and not just that, but the way it works itself into the narrative in general- im enamoured by izzy having this experience because of his past. i can even see it as being a sort of catharsis for him, to find meaning with these bits of his life that often feel. complicated (ok now Im projecting gender feelings) to have learnt these skills in another life but to be able to come back to them now, to remember them and remember that time ? theres so much there to touch upon and im so so intrigued. i could continue on- izzy knowing ed before the sea? but this is just the first point i have so much more to go.

For example, the bassinet they steal off the ship goes into Izzy's room (which we've seen is small af, so like. He can't even close his door anymore with the bassinet there.) The bottle making kit (that was an interesting bit of research, to find out how the few bottles used might have looked if a wet nurse/someone else nursing that lived nearby/etc weren't available to just. nurse the kid directly) is in his chest at the end of his bed.

i love these small details in the world- of course izzy would put the bassinet in his room even at the expense of his privacy (if its an angle you're looking to play into at all there's some interesting paths involving izzy being unable to lock his door there) i love the undertone of izzy very much taking the lead on the baby in all this- yes he has midwife experience but maybe thats not all there is to it? does he like kids? is it past experiences? does he feel like he has to take on this responsibility? could he just never forgive himself if something went wrong when he wasnt full alert? maybe its not even something he understands, maybe its something for him to learn over the course of the fic.

Like, Archie reveals part of the reason she joined the snake cult was bc she just always has liked them. Even as a little kid, grabbing them gently and letting them chill on her arms/hands. Ed talks abt his mum teaching him how to sew, and jokes abt him and Izzy having darned each other's socks for years, thank fuck they both sew fairly well. That actually gets a smile out of Izzy, who mumbles out that his mum would be pleased to see he'd remembered how to keep a baby alive and that he'd maybe even done fairly well.

i think this bit in particular is really good- especially given what you say later about a return to kraken activities (even tamed), this feels like, an interlude. a moment of peace for them all, both from baby shenanigans, and from kraken business. a nice little break before everything picks up again. especially the archie bit- maybe you could play into this being like, an offering of peace between ed and the crew? ie: everythings tense with ed here even though theyre ignoring that, but its Weird having ed hang out with them after everything and archie just. opens up, is the one to invite him in- ed could make a comment about how he hates snakes and they could argue, but playfully, and suddenly the tension is cut? just as an example dont let me backseat drive your fic or anything but it would probably be good to have something in there that explains why the crew would be ok with sitting there with ed after everything (especially if you want to continue with some kraken era stuff, they would need to have a reason to trust ed in this moment if hes not already completely 'reformed' at this point in the story?)

(also: projecting my own interests hours, izzy and ed sewing is a beloved hc to me) i just love the extra depth of ed learning from his mum. specifically here, with paralleling ed and izzy and mother relationships. i also like it as an ed story for this moment because its something true, its not a fantasy story like telling the crew about the kraken, its not something that makes him look cool, its just, a precious memory.

Fang makes a gentle, kindly meant joke abt Izzy keeping them all alive fairly well, that she'd be proud of that too, and we cut to Ed's face just. Destroyed as he realises yeah, that's exactly what he's been making Izzy do, now and before. And he's just stepped back from the Kraken and the feelings that make that up to have that make him feel terrible. They used to live for each other, each sunrise they saw a defiant, blinding medal in reward of their survival. But it hasn't been that way for a long time, has it? And he can't decide if he wants to explore that feeling or make it go away as fast as possible, or maybe both.

hey. hey.

i feel like i need to make a silly joke about the constant mother-ification of izzy hands here before i address the rest of this because. ouch.

aside from how much this HURTS i do really love this as ed realisation (1)- hearing how his actions affect others outside of the obvious ways- its not just the crew is unhappy, its the crew is grateful to izzy for keeping them alive (something he would not have to do if it wasnt for ed pushing and pushing and pushing) i see it as an angle that he would never consider without this kind of thought prompting, the sheer impact of his actions across every aspect of someones life. Given what youve said later i dont see this as Ed's break open point but it would be really interesting for him to maybe, keep coming back to these realisations. keep finding himself thinking about that, about where his relationship is with izzy-

(ok coming back to this from a bit further down- seems like this bit is set, like, right at the end of the story, after theyve dropped off the baby, which would place it post kissing and realisations about toes which. could work but to me they feel like bigger moments for ed as youve written this? maybe im reading you wrong i definitely probably am but as i took it this felt like a nice interlude + first step moment rather than after all other realisations occur? ) (i should have remembered where this was placed when i was writing about it but of course. i did not. my brain does not work)

Like, should they keep the kid? Almost definitely not for various reasons, but the break of having to focus on baby is enough to make them both take a big step back to look at themselves. I have one drafted conversation in particular between Izzy and Ed that's essentially Ed lowkey forced to talk out his feelings re: Stede & Stede leaving bc the baby calms whenever he's talking, so long as he keeps talking (and unfortunately for all of them, prior to him leaving his room to check on Izzy and baby, he was in there just being sad abt Stede, so that's all he has on his mind, but it winds up being kind of sweet in the end. Izzy mentions some of the things even he liked or found interesting abt Stede, Ed is forced to step back from his hurt to remember how he felt prior to Stede leaving and to keep the convo chill regardless since baby is dozing so long as he mutters on abt how yeah, Stede did wear some v cool clothes and maybe they'll find a family who can afford things like cashmere baby blankets for baby. Stede would probably have bought one for this kid in a heartbeat.)

To elaborate more on this theme because god. its perfect i love it- it very much hits the nail on the head for me- the baby doesnt fix anything for them but maybe it provides a space for them to fix it themselves, to have those conversations theyve been dodging for years. i love the whole. baby induced cooperation for ed and Izzy specifically because yeah. for a lot of people babys are stressful and an additional tension to a relationship but frankly? this baby is a break, a breeze compared to what they normally do- especially recently. i think if having to deal with taking care of a baby could play a roll in genuinely fixing someones marriage it would be these two (again. its not the baby that fixes the marriage but the space the baby makes in their lives, the space to slow down and talk, to fret over things that arent their continued survival etc etc)

also this is a really interesting take for /why/ they start talking through things- just the pressure to keep talking about anything and everything and youve been at it for hours and you cant think of anything so you just blurt out things you never meant to say. its very them and especially very ed

I haven't written a lot beyond that bit of convo yet, but I'm leaning it towards that becoming a habit: Ed claims he's going to bed and do NOT let the baby crying wake him, bc he will not help nor will he be happy to be awake. Cut immediately to a half-awake Ed insisting on helping Izzy with the first of multiple nighttime feeds, then just. Staying put, usually dragging a cot into the hall by Izzy's room so he can be nearby (bc some feeds require them waking baby to keep baby on schedule, and sure he could leave Izzy to it, but then he feels terrible bc Izzy is pretty alone for the nighttime baby care. The crew helps a lot during the day, they take turns staying back from raids to look after baby even, but at night the crew has to try and sleep. Which leaves Izzy and Ed.) Eventually he grumbles one night that Izzy should just come stay in his quarters, and he's already moving the chest full of bottles/milk/etc supplies into them before Izzy can protest (which is more for show than anything, bc he feels Ed expects him to protest it, when really he's absolutely thrilled to be spending the nights close together again, even if it is mostly to look after the kid.)

ok i adore this entirely- one question though, why would the crew not help with nights? other than for narrative reasons, i mean. because for me, without some outside interference i cant see this crew not helping with a night shift, especially if eds 'refusing' to assist like you start with- do they not know nights are an issue? has izzy forbid them to help? maybe he doesn't want them so tired theyre at risk on raids? (does he not care for himself like that?) thats something to potentially explore a bit more in the story

one part i specifically want to highlight about this bit is ed moving izzy into the captains cabin without any regard for how izzy feels about it- i think youve perfectly threaded the needle here!!! he's doing something that is generally beneficial for izzys wellbeing but in the worst possible way and it is so very Ed its absolutely perfect. And then also Izzy's reaction- it perfectly encapsulates their co-dependent fucked up divorce™. Its very Izzy to love ed and be thrilled to spend time with him even if they havent actually talked about anything thats caused them issues, received any apologies. is it healthy? absolutely not but its absolutely the bullshit theyre on, and probably one of the things they'd need to talk though (if thats an angle you want to write about in this fic then- how is the moving addressed? maybe one of the crew brings it up, because someone from the outside is far more likely to notice the Dynamics here than they ever would)

(ok also continuing on from the ed realisation paragraph but modified bc i realised my timeline fuck up but it would work real good to have ed already having Thoughts of some kind about izzy & relationships, and perhaps it plays some influence into Ed doing this- whether he understands or not)

(bc by this point or maybe in this exact convo even I'd have them admit that their worst fear is finally finding someone to take the baby, who scoffs and tells them they somehow messed it all up so badly that this baby is just. ruined. throw baby in the trash, completely useless as a human. That won't happen, but they're both terrified of messing up a kid like their parents/other authority figures fucked them up as kids)

oh yes. i dont have anything to add here just. being scared of making the same mistakes as those who raised them did? of being the reason a child gets fucked up? of being just like your father? its absolutely perfect for what youre building to here and its a very. gentle confession about feelings. easing into it as you will.

And in the middle of his rambling he admits he's upset with himself for taking Izzy's toes (cut to an internal comment from Izzy, since the current draft is his pov, that he figures Ed's forgotten he was in the room or he wouldn't be saying any of this aloud, and he keeps quiet to let Ed talk and get the emotions out) That it wasn't right of him to do to Izzy and it didn't make him feel any better and now every time he sees the baby's teeny tiny toes he imagines someone eventually taking Baby's toes like he's done to Izzy's and it makes him want to cry because who could do that? To such tiny baby toes? But yet he's done it to someone he cares about and loves and who was once also a teeny tiny baby with teeny toes, and he hates himself for it- Finally Izzy has to interrupt him bc Ed is crying himself and working himself up into a breakdown over it, and he doesn't forgive Ed. But he does gently suggest that maybe no one takes anyone's toes going forward. Maybe he stops tugging Fang's beard (he actually hasn't done since they originally found Bonnet during s1, but he wants to acknowledge his own fuck ups as a show of solidarity to Ed) and they just. don't do punishments like that again. Surely a night up with a baby that won't sleep is punishment enough, is his nervous joke to Ed.

paralleling a lot of my feelings under ed realisation (1), i love Ed using the baby as a vehicle to process his feelings about izzy and his own actions- thinking about it all from a different perspective because as much as he can 'justify' his reasons to himself in context, thinking about it this way removes any way he can pretend it was reasonable. are these thoughts ed was already having? or even just some broad strokes of feelings induced by the fact thats hes had the headspace to think without constantly distracting himself with raids?

i dont want to repeat myself too much but. perfect izzy characterisation with him comforting ed about things that are probably things that izzy should be comforted over. ( but also i love your little note about him not forgiving ed, that is just. perfect (i have a lot of feelings about edizzy + forgiveness))

Cut to him and Ed locking eyes and Izzy softly continuing, telling Ed he loves him. That he's glad, if they're to be in this situation, that it's him and Ed, that there's no one else he'd want with him...although, that he would, also, have been fine if Bonnet had been here too, because fuck that's a third person to help at night and he's had kids, right? So surely he could help with this- Ed cuts him off with a kiss that takes them both by surprise, enough that Izzy stops rocking which means Baby starts whining again, and they wind up rocking together. Ed standing behind Izzy, arms around his waist, head resting on Izzy's shoulder, while Izzy holds Baby and half mumbles half sings every lullaby he's ever heard or even vaguely learned in the hopes Baby will finally go back to sleep.

That it's finally me and you, and you and me- Just us, and your friend Stede

everything about this is wonderful- i dont have a ton of feedback past 'more, i want to hear more, what happens next, where do they go from here what are the reactions, aaaaaa' etc etc but ill try to write something. better than that- this feels like just the absolute perfect moment for the kiss. all the cards are finally on the table, izzys admitting some... affection for stede (in some capacity) Ed's finally coming to terms with his feelings and actions and. yeah. i can just see them rocking together, both still a little in shock from the kiss, one singing and the other mumbling confessions and feelings and apologies and just. finally finally they are on the same page again. obviously not everything is fixed but. wow this is just the perfect moment. to me anyway.

But I admit that it's also just extra satisfying to me if after Baby is safe with Mary and Doug, Ed and Izzy and crew truly don't fall back into the worst of it. Yes, they're still raiding daily to keep busy and the pace is Too Much, but Izzy doesn't lose anymore toes. Ed is gruff and grumpy and back to the occasional rhino horn again now that Baby is off the ship, but his main goal isn't the raids now.

i really do like your focus of the slow burn of eds recovery- the idea that even after everything, theres still work to do, but also that they are going to do that work. not everythings fixed, not everythings even on its way to being fixed, but the doors open, both going to do their best. its going to be hard, theyre going to backslide, its going to go wrong and things will be said that they dont really mean but. theyll try and theyll try and theyll try and i think that is just. wonderful. recovery isnt easy, but all tears can be mended.

(bc by this point even he has to admit that yeah. What they have might not be as healthy as it used to be, but he does want to work on it and he still wants and cares about it and Izzy. He's even taken to again wearing the little ring with amethyst stone that Izzy gave him when he'd given Izzy his ring with the emerald in it, right around the knot of Stede's scarf that he wears as well. He'd also like to try things again with Stede, potentially, and Izzy makes it clear that he's here for all of this, so much so that part of the raids becomes Izzy questioning everyone they raid as to if they've seen a blond, pretty idiot with a small crew of more competent pirates helping him survive.)

what a wonderful ending. its so hopeful for what comes next, im just in love. i love the idea of the small things, like ed wearing the ring- did ed always wear it like that, or did he used to wear it on his finger? how long did it take izzy to notice he was wearing it again? not long i bet, thats the kind of thing izzy would pick up on immediately- also following on from that, how does that make him feel? whats his reaction- maybe he doesnt want to mention it to ed out of fear he stops if he mentions it.

some things to maybe think on here (for both this para + the previous)- how does the crew react when things turn worse again? (in any capacity, however short) does everyone hit panic stations? does this go steddyhands for you? or stede/ed + ed/izzy or something else!!!

ok thank u for making it thru all that i hope its coherent now i am just gonna gush for a sec because i really truly am in love with this idea - i mean. for me it hits several points i just adore but dont see done that much (the kid dynamics, just exactly how you hit on edizzy dynamics, particularly love the themes around not forgiving but choosing to move past, and just your silly little interjections about ed and izzy being just as fucking intense about the babys food + stede as they are about regular raid things.)

i just. aaaaa i am so bad with words but i love the way it sounds like youre handling this all. particularly like. i dont think i mentioned it up there but i can see the way bits of this (the post baby-raid bit, the calm moment after on deck) could work really really well in a story setting, as sort of a breather from the plot, a light hearted moment amongst a lot of stress (its a filler episode babey, lets go to the beach) it adds a lovely bit of texture to everything you have going on here

i love all your little world building details here i really feel like i get what youre going for with the dynamics here i feel like theyre tangible as people (thisll be a REAL embarrassing thing to say if ive got ur intentions entirely wrong but still)

i feel like theres a lot more i could say but most of it is just ! i love this i love this i love this !!!!!!!!!

i shall shut up now but god <3 i hope you finish this one day ill jump on it so fast dhvjnbdjvcn

random fic writing babbling and rambling below the cut. TW for discussions of babies, historical breastfeeding, birth, Ed's midwifery charge from his wanted poster (the inspo for these fic ideas that are being discussed below lol.)

I keep trying to write a fic based on the midwifery charge on Ed's s2 wanted poster but I keep getting hung up on the historical accuracy thing of 'where are they getting enough human milk to feed a newborn until they can get this baby to a new family.' Like. In theory, it is doable, but before I get into that:

to explain, the plot every time, even the times I've actively tried to write it differently, is that it's a thing of them choosing the worst time to raid another ship. Either they're mid-raid and hear this poor person still attempting to give birth while everyone else onboard is being killed or threatened by Ed and crew, or as in the latest draft, Ed and Izzy literally walk in to the room just as this person passes away post final push/baby fully delivered.

The baby doesn't fix jack shit between Ed and Izzy or Ed and the crew, bc that doesn't work irl and it ain't gonna work in fiction either.

But! The situation and how everyone pulls together to look after the baby does make Ed slow down and take a step back from the things that have been doing his head in abt himself and Stede and Izzy and life in general. Bc like. He didn't INTEND for this to happen, had he known someone on the ship was actively giving fucking birth, they would have passed it by and left that ship alone! That's too much extra risk/work, when he's intending to keep them on a briskly moving pace for raids. And he doesn't want to hurt a kid, so of course he's going to make their new mission finding someone or a family to look after the baby, and look after them well (god help them if he should find out that's not the case, even years in the future.)

In the latest draft, as in previous, I have it also highlighting Izzy's connection to his mum via midwifery and knowledge abt looking after kids/babies. in the latest draft in particular, Izzy is implied ftm who was absolutely being trained by his mum to take over as midwife for their village/town, had he not gone to sea with Ed instead. But it means he's still retained some knowledge of it all, so he takes on a lot of the baby care.

For example, the bassinet they steal off the ship goes into Izzy's room (which we've seen is small af, so like. He can't even close his door anymore with the bassinet there.) The bottle making kit (that was an interesting bit of research, to find out how the few bottles used might have looked if a wet nurse/someone else nursing that lived nearby/etc weren't available to just. nurse the kid directly) is in his chest at the end of his bed.

Izzy and Ed wind up, again at least in this latest draft, having a few late night, exhausted conversations as they feed the baby and take turns rocking/walking the hall with the baby, just generally so sleep deprived and focusing on the baby that they haven't noticed they're working together more again. It's still clear they have so many things to talk abt and unpack for both of their sakes, but that wax seal over their shared emotions for each other starts to crumble a little once the baby is onboard.

The conversations might not entirely evade the rest of the s2 events, but I can't say bc my drafts always falter right abt here, or when I'm trying to make it sound realistic that they are also, very much, now raiding other ships not just for loot but for anyone currently lactating to express milk for them to feed the baby

(honestly, i half wanna write at least one raiding scene in the fic simply to have Ed try and explain that demand. Yes, he's the dread pirate Blackbeard, the Kraken, your nightmare. Yes, he wants all the loot and money onboard. Yes, he's also currently an unintentional foster parent along with his first mate/husband and their crew to a newborn that needs more milk and as such, anyone currently breastfeeding is commanded to try and fill some of a bottle. Either way, you're giving up everything you have so stop thinking about it or asking questions, unless you know of anyone looking to adopt a baby, by chance. In that case, please give that information to Fang before giving up your expensive things and/or breast milk.)

There's a lot of tentative hope, among all of them re: the baby. All of them making little comments, here and there, that whether the kid winds up a pirate or not, they hope the baby will be happy. Looked after and loved, in the ways some of them either weren't or experienced a very unhealthy/dysfunctional version of.

I do know the ending pretty well, though elements of it could change.

But for sure, I'm thinking of a scene of the ship, dark, everyone quiet sitting on the deck after they've dropped the baby off with a new family (i keep hemming and hawing with it being Doug and Mary somehow having heard abt this kid some pirates are trying to unload, bc I like the idea of leaving a little room for a sequel in Mary being like 'huh sounds like this guy (Ed) is really upset over someone who sounds an awful lot like Ste-oh no' and letting Ed know what went down with Stede)

And as they sail into the night, Ed mumbles that they should consider the night as a night off, but be ready to fight tomorrow morning. He implies they can all go fuck off to bed or whatever then, but instead all of them, Ed included, wind up bunking together on the main deck. Sharing bottles of rum, taking turns at the wheel/making sure they're not about to run aground, and having conversations abt their childhoods, mainly the few happy things they remember.

Like, Archie reveals part of the reason she joined the snake cult was bc she just always has liked them. Even as a little kid, grabbing them gently and letting them chill on her arms/hands.

Ed talks abt his mum teaching him how to sew, and jokes abt him and Izzy having darned each other's socks for years, thank fuck they both sew fairly well.

That actually gets a smile out of Izzy, who mumbles out that his mum would be pleased to see he'd remembered how to keep a baby alive and that he'd maybe even done fairly well.

Fang makes a gentle, kindly meant joke abt Izzy keeping them all alive fairly well, that she'd be proud of that too, and we cut to Ed's face just. Destroyed as he realises yeah, that's exactly what he's been making Izzy do, now and before. And he's just stepped back from the Kraken and the feelings that make that up to have that make him feel terrible. They used to live for each other, each sunrise they saw a defiant, blinding medal in reward of their survival. But it hasn't been that way for a long time, has it? And he can't decide if he wants to explore that feeling or make it go away as fast as possible, or maybe both.

Cut back to Fang cheerfully telling everyone the story of how he wound up being named for his dad, becoming Kevin Jr, and we end on the implication that at least for the rest of the night, things will be calm for them.

Makes me mad as hell I can write this whole post out to discuss the fic, but I can't seem to finish a draft solidly enough to finally finish and publish lmao

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Ship : Wanda maximoff x reader

Summary : a secret relationship

It shouldn't be like this staring at her and feeling like you shouldn't. You've had other small crushes like Peter, Jason, and well that a rather inappropriate school girl crush on Loki. And you never thought twice about it, about being scared of the questions. You knew they would never judge you, not even the all-American cap. But you just couldn't deal with all the questions. Or maybe he would, the only one that really knows is your friend group.

MJ was the first person you told, once Peter met you he knew Mj would love you and you guys have become inseparable since. From then, you felt like it was right to tell the rest of them, how else would they know who to set you up with?

Even if the family did accept you, the outside world would never. Maybe that's why you wanted to hide this because Peter would never shut his trap.

They didn't even know you guys were hooking up, not even your sister. Natasha knew everything about you. You guys were quite opposites in that way, she loved being quiet about herself but you, well you loved to talk about anything that went on in your mind. But this one thing you couldn't.

This was new, this was exciting.

“What are you staring at”, Natasha asked. She caught you, you were sure this was the end of it. But instead, she smiled and said, “you like Peter don’t you?”

God she really was clueless wasn’t she?

You took a deep breath. Currently, everyone was doing their own thing. And you were staring at Wanda. When weren’t you staring at her?

It really only started as a fling, you both went on a horrible mission and kissed each other passionately as an aftermath of it. You guys wanted to see where things would lead but telling the team would ruin it. So you guys kept it quiet. Why should it matter anyway that you guys weren’t serious right?

—---

You always got calls from the other side of new york. Gotham City. You were mostly friends with the superheroes. But Jason Todd, something just drew you to him. Nights of walking all the way over there to fight crime. He was just in awe of you.

But years have passed and it's been harder to travel all the way to Gotham all the time, so he calls you every night.

You took walks late at night close to the compound of course, and your mind always drifted to her. From her amazing personality to the way she always knew how to make you smile. It was different from how you felt with MJ. This just felt so cruel.

So you screamed “I LOVE YOU ISNT THAT THE WORST THING YOU EVER HEARD”, you quickly shrank to the shadows. Even though this was new york it still was embarrassing.

You closed your eyes, it was past 12, which was when you get to spend time with Wanda.

But before you could start walking to the compound your phone started ringing. It was Jason Todd.

“Hey,” you whispered into the phone.

“What wrong? Jason said back.

You smiled and shook your head, “it's-.” But you couldn't tell him, even though he didn't even know her. You just couldn't.

“I know when my best friend is not okay.”

You smiled, of course, he would know. He knew you too well. And he would use this as a way to convince you to join the titans. But you couldn't leave the avengers, they were your family.

“I'm like secretly dating one of the avengers.”

“Oh shit,” Jason says while laughing.

“Well anyway,” He says,” why is this bothering you?”

You have been walking for three blocks now and run your hand through your hair, “I mean you know me, Todd, I tell people shit. And well I want to hold hands with her and fucking kiss her in front of everyone.”

Jason doesn't talk for a while but then he says, “you're, gay?”

You lick your lips and say, “yeah god that's a whole nother story.”

“I'll be waiting to hear that one.”

You chuckled and were in the view of the avenger's town. “Well, I have to go Jay.”

“Wait, um listen I'm obviously not in the dating department because well you know I need to fix how my family feels towards me first. And well I don't really know if I'll ever be up for it.”

“And that's totally okay,” you said while smiling.

“Also, if this secret relationship is bothering you so much just I don't know tell her.”

You rolled your eyes, “believe I want to but what if that's the cut off.”

“If that is, then she doesn't really want you, babe.”

“Why are you always so smart?”

“Must be all the hits from the crowbar I endured.”

“Jason Peter Todd.”

You can hear a laugh on the phone. You step up to the tower and say your password. “ Doozeyst avenger.” Friday opens up the door and welcomes you in.

“And I thought having bruce as a dad had its luxuries. But what is that password?”

“Another story for another time.”

“It's because your clumsy arent you.”

“Todd don't you dare make fun of me.”

“No promises, now go get the girl.”

You smiled and hung up.

—-

“Hey, you took long enough,” Wanda said.

She took you in her arms and you smiled. Fuck you were in love.

You looked up at her and tucked her hair behind her ear, “I don’t want to keep secrets just to keep you.”

Wanda’s breath hitched,” I was wondering when you’d say that. I wanted to tell people since you snuck up here for the first time but I was scared.”

“Oh, you don’t ever have to feel scared around me.”

“I know.”

“Hey, I have an idea, lets’s randomly just do couple stuff in the open.”

“I love the way you think.” She gently presses and kisses your forehead and you both dose off in each other’s arms.

—---

The next morning, you’re making each other breakfast when she walks in, “I hear someone coming in do you want to try something.”

“Without thinking about it you engulf her in a kiss and you hear a yelp.

“What the actual fuck!”

You both turn around, and it’s nat.

You hug each other closely and laugh.

“How long has this been going on?”

“SInce that mission.”

“Does anyone else know?”

“No, and please don’t tell.”

“I won’t.”

Wanda turns to you and says, “you know she’s going to tell clint right?”

“Yep, but I don’t care I want the whole world to know about us.”

By the end of that sentence, you guys heard a glass drop.

Here comes the roulette of everyone finding out.

“Clint.”

“Nat immediately told me, but I didn’t believe her, I swore you liked peter .”

“WHY DOES EVERYONE THINK THAT?”

Clint shrugs and leaves.

“Okay, she really won’t tell anyone else.”

“Mhh,” she rests her forehead against yours and it feels like heaven on earth.

“Hey, I heard someone scream my name, oh oh OH.”

You open your eyes and look at Wanda, ‘well we’re screwed now.”

“HEY, I am your best friend, why didn’t you tell me!”

“Pete, MJ is my best friend, you are just my straight cover-up.”

Peter gasps, and says,” I would say that I won’t tell anyone but well you know me.”

You both nod. No more privacy.

—--

Days passed and everyone slowly found out.

Except for one person.

Wandas brother, Pietro.

It all happened when you guys were training. And it all got flirty too fast.

And he walked in, “HOLY FUCK.”

You quickly jumped off of Wanda.

“Why isn’t anyone else surprised by this?” He scanned everyone’s faces. “Oh hell no, you all knew?”

Everyone nodded.

“Wait wait.” and within seconds he was back with Mj in his arms.

“Now we can double date.”

Wanda scoffed, “this is why we didn’t tell you.”

She had her hands on her hips when she said that and you couldnt help but smile at her.

[lauralestrange7]

Eighteen //Nikolai Lanstov//

pairing : Nikolai Lanstov x fem!reader warnings : none?

This was somewhat inspired by the song ‘18′ by One Direction

You and Nikolai had grown up together, you were bought into the little palace when you were just eleven. You were Grisha and he, well in his exact words ‘damnably handsome, brave in battle, smart as a whip, an excellent dancer, oh, and an even better shot.’

His mother never liked a Grisha as his beloved son’s company, but Nikolai couldn’t care less. He’d wait for you every day after your lessons, when his parents were off to attend some general’s party or any meetings he would climb into your room and sneak you out. Nikolai would take your hand and the two of you would run off to the castle grounds. He’d lie down with you on the wet grass and stare at the night sky. Nikolai would tell you the name of the stars, the constellations and their stories, and you would listen and stare at him.

Nikolai left at 18 to work in the first army rather than stay in the comforts of the castle-like his brother. You pulled him close and hugged him the day he was about to leave for his military services. You know you couldn’t keep him close to you like that forever, but you didn’t care. You had to leave for your services in the second army soon after. It was that day as he left at dawn on that ship, did you realize that you were in love with him.

Nikolai came back after two years of finishing his service, he came to see you at your camp near the fold. The military had done him justice, he looked different. A lot different than your childhood best friend, and he knew it. He had joked then how he had expected you to moon over him like every other girl you met and cry that he had to leave again. You had only just smiled at him then. He had told you how he was going to leave Ravka to attend The University of Ketterdam. This however was strange, “You are going to attend The University of Ketterdam?” Nikolai had smiled gorgeously and said, “Believe me I know how strange it sounds.” You couldn’t tell him then how you felt, he’d probably laugh it off and say it was ‘bound to happen’ you didn’t want to seem like any other girl to him. The two of you talked all afternoon and as it was getting darker, Nikolai straightened up and looked at the exit. He looked at you with those beautiful eyes, and you’re heart ached. You saw him out to the exit, then he turned around and said “Is there anything else you would like to tell me before I leave?” You shook your head “No-“ but you were caught off as his lips pressed against yours. You froze completely but then you kissed him back, and it was better than anything you’d have imagined. Softly he pulled away “Now that wasn’t so bad was it?” he said and even though he had meant that to come off as smug and casual he sounded unsure and a little nervous, very unlike himself. You were flushed and unable to say anything but your smile seemed to tell him all he wanted to hear. “Saints I’d waited for that too long, Y/n how oblivious are you?” he said half chuckling. You flushed an even deeper shade of red, “Well?” he said “Say something?”. “Like what?” You had said “I don’t know how about- ‘You can’t just kiss me like that Nikolai, you have to court me first.’” He said trying to mock your voice as he took your hand and started spinning you around like in a dance “’ Or at least buy me ice cream? Oh you are a shameless thing Nikolai! a very handsome one though.’” He picked you up as he would before. Laughs filled the tent that evening, and that clenching feeling in your heart that held your secret. It was no longer a secret; he knew you loved him and he loved you too. It didn’t matter that he was going to leave soon, that he was going to leave to pursue his own dreams and not to be stuck at some fancy university. You both knew what was coming but at that very minute, the both of you couldn’t care less. 

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[night-dark-woods]

YESSS another person out there who reads Mara Sov as autistic!

YES YES YES hope its ok i answer this publically if not not ill delete it as an ask and just post it BUT she is sooooo very much autistic to me like. i love her sooooo much and thats a huge huge part of it ESPECIALLY bc she gets to be SO delightfully complex and morally gray and a deeply sympathetic character who still is a bit of a horrible person sometimes which just ISNT something we GET a lot as autistic ppl like. augh!!! mara sov was constructed in a lab for me to care about.

anyway im not citing stuff bc im on mobile and copypasting to the tumblr app is Hell but i have fully read the marasenna like 4 times in the last 2 months so this is going to be rambly as all hell but:

-talk about fucking black and white morality. going back to earth is the Right Thing To Do and she will absolutely condemn* her entire colony ship to mortality for that.

-her conviction that she knows secrets and things no one else knows, that she is always in control in a way others arent, and her Need for that to be true, and her sense of herself as separate/better/other/above the rest and having a connection to a deeper knowledge. i feel like theory of mind gets tossed around as a dsm checkbox without people like. fully understanding the nuances of it.

-relatedly her... mercenary? approach to the social interactions and relationships she has (and her utter panic and confusion when she cannot use her models that she has, eg sjur). like she may not be able to Feel what other people feel but she can certainly pattern-match and manipulate.

-her absolutely oversized eldest daughter & gifted kid syndrome taken to absolutely absurd extremes (thanks osana and alis li!) bc of what authority figures told her to be true about herself at 19. (one of the times she had to dramatically readjust her model of How Social Interactions Work- the concept that how she is perceived is Her Responsibility which she immediately internalizes as Law). ALSO osana saying that mara never wanted to be her daughter like. ok we get it ur kid is strange and acts "older than her age" and is more self-possessed than a child her age should be except when shes not.

-god just. honestly everything about how shes written. idr if u have read seth dickinson's published books (the traitor baru cormorant) but baru from those books is SO SO SO similar like. ruthless in that the ends justify absolutely any means, self-centered, brilliant with a massive blindspot where it comes to emotions, manipulative bc she relies on a carefully constructed understanding of how social interactions work, most importantly disastrously world-shatteringly gay.

also i feel like part of it is that a lot of the traits and things that make me read mara as autistic are like... internal experience traits that arent easily recognizable by allistic ppl bc they dont Have a recognizably autistic-specific external manifestation and instead come off as like. being a bitch or selfish or stuck up or cold or Whatever. but are like immediately viscerally recognizable if u experience things the same way.

maybe at some point ill make an Actual Post abt mara sov, the travelers most autistic creature. but so much of it is Unexplainable Vibes. if u kno u kno. also thank u for sending this ask and giving me a chance to talk abt mara i love her SO much.

*i dont believe immortality is inherently good, so i dont think it was condemning is like, the right word, but in context of how characters see it.

[librarycard]

since you've seen catws over 30 times, can you give a summary of the plot? I've actually seen the movie multiple times, but gun to my head I cannot explain the flow of events. I press play and am transported to pure vibes. so i'd like to consider you an expert and helo me with my dilema.

this is so funny yeah i can try. edit: essentially this is not a summary i realized three paragraphs in that i am delivering a play by play with commentary of everything that happens in this movie. im still doing it though sorry

 so basically steve has been adjusting to life in the 21st century and is really struggling with it. hes moved to dc to work for shield, which he understands to be a department that helps folks (which is a dumb thing to assume of any government affiliated organization LOL they were also majorly manipulating him on top of that from the get go so double whammy but ya ya i digress) while on a run, he makes friends with sam wilson, who unlike basically anyone else in the 21st century so far is the only guy to treat him as a normal guy/what he actually is (a veteran w ptsd that 1 lost his best friend 2 has been thrown into a whole new world with no help at all and that the war was literally like what? barely 2 years ago for him?)

anyway after he meets sam he is picked up by nat and they go on a mission with brock rumlow and several shield agents. this mission takes place on a ship in the middle of the ocean where several shield agents are being held hostage by french speaking terrorist dudes. steve (the smart cookie) is like why the hell are shield guys in the middle of the ocean? anyway he thinks hes leading this mission (he is not) and tells everyone what to do to save these hostages (which isnt even the actual mission at all). inevitably this comes to light when he sees nat trying to save some data from the ships computers, as that was HER secret mission. steve is fucking pissed as hell about this and then they got blown up and shit by the french pirates. they get out fine tho

moving on steve confronts fury like. why the hell are the people IM trying to lead being given different info and instructions than me? and fury is like let me tell u about something. and then he tells them about project insight, which is this thing that shield is planning to launch that will be able to basically insta kill any body in the entire world they identify as a threat (threat being vague enough bc well as we can see we learned nothing from basically any part of history at all) before the person can act on their "intended crimes". steve is pissed again bc like who are these guys to determine who is a "threat"? how do you define that? like his iconic line here (iconic 2 me that is) is him saying "this isnt freedom this is fear" cause like it is. losers

and moving on from that we've got a kind of suspicious fury trying to decrypt the data he had nat retrieve. this is presumably bc fury as we know is apparently 5 steps ahead of every fucking body and was already having some concerns about project insight (which again i must say as an aside. any normal person would be concerned.). fury being the head of shield is one of the only individuals who should have total clearance on all shield decisions and projects etc. however, he finds that he does NOT have clearance to access this data. he takes this concern to alexander pierce, the secretary of state is like omg weird :) how weird bro sure i can ask about delaying the project but if ur asking me bro i dont think the other govt bigwigs we got in on this will want to!

anyway moving on once more fury is officially like ok wtf is going on. and is going to meet up with hill. BUT THEN. explody violence killing blah blah blah all these cops and swat members are after him! HIM! HEAD OF SHIELD! how strange! and furys like doin all this shit trying to escape but then his car gets exploded. and oh shit. theres this guy. hes got a mask on. HE WAS THE ONE THAT EXPLODED THE CAR! and hes kind of sexy. and hes approaching. and fury the crazy bitch has used some sort of laser cutter thing to carve a hole through the ground and escape. the absolute legend.

cut to steve going home. he runs into his neighbor who has told him that hes a nurse or some shit. he flirts with her bc hes trying to make a normal life for himself i guess and do normal girl things like date. anyway neighbor girl is like oh btw i think u left or record player on? music has been playing for a while and shit. and steve is immediately like omg rly haha? BUT HE KNOWS HE DIDNT LEAVE THAT SHIT ON BRO! HE KNOWS. and he enters with his guard all up and BOOM theres fury. steve is like wtf are you doing here??? and fury is like SHHHH. bro things are happening its crazy. shield compromised, eyes everywhere, people are listening, the whole shebang man. and steve is like???? wtf dude? and fury gives him a flash drive. AND THEN FURY IS SHOT THROUGH THE WINDOW. CRAZY AS HELL. and NEIGHBOR LADY BREAKS IN. TURNS OUT SHES NOT NEIGHBOR LADY. SHES A SHIELD OPERATIVE THAT IS COVERTLY ASSIGNED TO PROTECT STEVE.

now we got steve chasing over the assailant with his cool tell them im in pursuit line. steve chases this dude across buildings and shit and throws his shield at him when they reach the end of a rooftop. then HOLY FUCK THE GUY. HES CAUGHT THE SHIELD. THIS DUDE JUST CAUGHT A VIBRANIUM SHIELD WITH A COOL ROBOT ARM! OK!

moving on fury is on the operating table and he straight up dies there with maria and nat and steve watching. and i dont wanna look it up but i think here is when steve hides the flash drive in a vending machine behind some gum for some fucking reason. why the hell that would be a good place to hide it idk. anyway steve is summoned to pierce and pierce with his robert redford charm is like so :) anything u wanna tell me. and steve is like. :) no lol. and then he leaves and we’ve got the cool ass elevator scene where steve is with an elevator full of hydra agents and has to fight them all, including brock rumlow from the hostage ship scene at the beginning. he escapes and goes back to get the flash drive and nat has gotten it and blows a bubble in his face cause shes sexy like that. and they have their little moment where he shoves her against a wall and is all up in her face being like WHAT DO YOU KNOW WHATS GOING ON. and nat reveals that she knows who the guy is. the winter soldier. she met him on a mission where she was trying to protect some dude and the WS shot the person THROUGH HER. bye bye bikinis she quips. dw nat ur still sexy 2 me.

they leave and essentially go to a mall have their fake/pretend relationship ao3 moment and use a mall tech shop computer to figure out whats on the flashdrive, which is coordinates to a base. steve is like uMMMMM WTF. I DID BASIC THERE. and they go and discover that theres a SECRET SHIELD BUNKER WITH THIS HUGE ANCIENT ASS SUPERCOMPUTER. AND TO MAKE IT WORSE ON THE COMPUTER IS THE STORED CONSCIOUSNESS OF ARNIM ZOLA NAZI HYDRA SCIENTIST. and zola tells them he was recruited by shield where he helped secretly embed hydra iinto the entirety of the organization and the WS was an assassin they used to kill ppl like howard stark. and then a missile tries to blow them up after zolas gotten out enough cheeky lines and they barely escape with their lives

then: ENTER BIG SEXY. its sam wilsons time to fucking shine when nat and steve go to him for help. sam is like alright lets go and they get his falcon suit. they go and nab jasper sitwell a hydra mole and make him reveal hydra info, ie that hydra has been collecting info on threats to their evil doings (hello duh). then theyre driving and WHAM goodbye sitwell, motherfuckers yanked out the car by the WS. cue huge epic fight scene, best in the mcu if you ask me, where steve and WS end up going head to head and he accidentally rips WS' mask off, revealing BUCKY BARNES, the supposed to be dead bestie of steve rogers. steve says bucky? bucky says. who the hell is bucky? with his sexy underused voice. my beloved.

anyway steve is in an extreme state of shock and bucky, unnerved, runs, and steve sam and nat are all arrested. steve has his new mission acquired moment whereas nat and sam are like man idk.... hes kind of yknow a renowned insane murder machine. steve is like you literally do not get it. hes my fucking cinnamon apple you assholes. i will kill this whole world for him. and they are like damn steve ok AND THEN. VIOLENCE IN THE FUCKING SWAT VEHICLE WHEN ONE SWAT MEMBER STARTS ATTACKA KILLING THE OTHER ONES. and boom thats actually maria hill in disguise. shes like whats up yall. theyre like um. anyway she takes them to FURY, who is ACTUALLY STILL ALIVE AND JUST FAKED HIS DEATH. fury is like you guys have to stop this shit. here are some chips to replace the ones on the helicarriers that will fuck up hydras plans and make the helicarriers only target each other

anyway buckys back with hydra being like um did yall see that? he knew me. and theyre all like gaslight gaslight gaslight brainwash electro shock blah blah blah

moving on its time to fuck shit up. the world security council has shown up to see to the launch of project insight. except NAT IS ONE OF THE WSC IN DISGUISE and she disarms pierce. then fury shows up like hiiii hello in a way that actually doesnt feel super dramatic cause they watch him land and then walk all the way inside like ok. by the time hes there not even super anticlimactic but whatever. anyway fury makes pierce leak all of shields classified info (including nat’s criminal past as part of the red room but shes like its fine its necessary etc) so that ppl know about hydra. and fury shoots and kills pierce bye bye pierce

steve is at this time recruiting all the “good” shield guys and fighting all the hydra agents with sam while trying to get to the helicarriers. they get the first two no prob but before they can do the third one bucky shows up newly mindwiped and fights them super much. he destroys sams suit leaving the fight to just buck and steve. meanwhile brock and sam are fighting slash running and this ends with brock getting exploded to shit and sam jumping into a helicopter to escape from the building. meanwhile bucky and steve are still on the third helicarrier. steve is like babe this isnt u…… come back 2 me……. im with u til the end of the line……. and refuses to fight back and buck is like UMMM WHAT THE FUCK. SHUT THE HELL UP YOU WEIRDO STOP TALKING IM FREAKIN OUT and beats steve the fuck up. during this fight the ship is exploded and steve falls off the ship and into the potomac with bucky watching him fall with his fist raised to land another punch

cut to steve going super under semi unconscious about to fucking drown and someone pulls him out. OH LOOK ITS BUCKY. oh damn hes leaving steve on the shore. goodbye bucky.

now we cut to all the hydra agents being arrested and nat appearing before court for her red room crimes. she is like you wont fucking arrest me you need me. im sexy and competent and you all suck. and theyre all like. yeah ok shes got a point. fury fucking burns all his shit and decides to go hunting hydra in europe, presumed dead by the world. sam is like heyyy steve. whats up. steve is like well. i know he just fucked me up but im gonna go find bucky. i gotta bc i am gay and in love with him and stuff. and sam is like damn. fine ill go too then. meanwhile brock is revealed to have lived though severely burned in the hospital

i am ignoring the mid credits scene bc i fucking hate that stupid bullshit. post credit scene slays though bc its bucky visiting his own memorial in the smithsonian and him being like well damn that is me. ok.

anyway thats the movie. this is long as hell but frankly thats bc i am still insane about catws to this day unfortunately. goodbye

[words-for-holland]

Always Yours

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Summary: Sometimes dating a celebrity is hard...but Tom & Y/N have always said no matter what happens they could get through anything. Some angst but a lot of fluff.

A/N: So sorry for leaving yall hanging! Life is just crazy right now and this blog needs a lot of TLC tbh!! Also ehh I def dont think this was my best work but enjoy?

“Oof” Y/N lets out as she plops on to her boyfriend who was lying comfortable on the couch. Tom groaned at the impact with a cheeky smile on his face, his arms instantly wrapping around Y/N’s frame.

“Y’know..there are empty seats right there.” The soft brown-eyed boy gestured with the flick of his thick head as Y/N raises her eyes looking down at him, pretending to be slightly offended.

“Oh I see how it is then. It’s cool...Ill just cuddle with Tessa instead. I know she would welcome me with open arms instead of—” As she slowly starts getting off his chest, Tom is quick to pull her back in, securing her with his strong arms. “No baby, I was just kidding. I want you right here, and Im never letting you go.” he pleas.

The only thing Y/N could manage was letting out a fit of giggles into his chest, a sound that Tom adored and would do absolutely anything to hear every minute of every day. They stay like this for a while enjoying the feeling of each other as they both run their hands into each others hair, the feeling of their chests moving up and down, the subtle thumps of their heartbeats, and the little slips of adoration that came out of their mouths. It was peaceful. A moment that nobody could really take a way because it was theirs.

Y/N casually pulls up her phone, and scrolls through Twitter when she noticed a particular tweet on her timeline. Her eyebrows furrow, as she read the 160 character message.

Why Tom Holland Should Be With Aaliyah Cole and Dump Y/N: A Thread.

She knew it wasnt a good idea to open up the thread. She knew very well that everything within the shallow string of tweets would be a complete waste of her time because it was made up by fans who just wanted to satisfy their fantasy of shipping Tom with his co-star. Who can blame them? They always had great chemistry, but it was part of the job and thats all it would ever be.

“You’re awfully quiet.” Tom murmurs, as he places soft kisses at the crown of her head. “Whats going on?” She was lucky her phone was facing away from Tom, quickly closing the app and pretending to be on one of her many tabs in Safari.

“Mmm..nothing.” Y/N lies softly, a tight-lipped smiled plastered on her face.

“Absolute bullocks. Youre not a very good liar.” He chuckles. “Tell me darling. Whats on your mind?”

Y/N rolls her eyes in response. She’s heard that comment one too many times in her life from everyone shes known. After not giving it much thought, she gives in, sighing heavily. “Dont judge me for what Im about to say.”

“Mmm...I think it might depend on wha— Ow” Tom reacts as he playfully rubs the side of his chest that Y/N hit. “Okay too soon for jokes. Go on.”

Again, Y/N sighs as she props herself up. “Its just ... well a lot of your fans keeps talking about wanting you to get with Aaliyah.” She looks down trying not to make eye contact with Tom, who she’d imagine was looking at her with annoyance.

Tom rolls his eyes at the ridiculousness. Not so much at Y/N but the fact that some of his fans just didnt want to accept the fact that he was happy with Y/N. If it had to come from his mouth to stop the stupid rumors and give his girlfriend peace, then hed gladly yell it from the rooftops for everyone to hear. “Thats it Im making a statement about it.”

Y/N’s eyes widen in fear, scrambling to prevent him from grabbing his phone on the table next him. “No no no no.” She repeatedly declines. “You’ll only make it worse.”

“Darling, Im not going to stand here and watch you get all insecure because of their delusional ship.”

“Yeah well Im not gonna be the reason your fans hate me because Im getting in the way of your friendship with Aaliyah Cole.” She fires back.

Tom was ready to open his mouth only to be cut off once again. “And you know better. That is how your fans will always see it.”

“Okay, are you done?” He calmly asked, cautiously observing her. Rarely did Y/N ever get worked up about anything, but when she had her tangents, Tom always made sure she got off everything she needed to say before he becomes her voice of reason.

“Yeah, I guess.” she says feeling defeated. “Look its whatever and Im tired, can we just let this go and forget this whole conversation even happened?”

Tom was unconvinced, but didnt want to push her further. So reluctantly, he gave in and wrapped his arms around Y/N as they both tried to lull themselves to sleep.

***

Y/N wasnt sure how she ended up in the Tube. It was strange how the lights flickered off the rusted tile floor. The train was no where to be seen, but off to the side of the railroads was pitch black, she could hardly see beyond. To her right she noticed herself standing in the corner of the room, and to her surprise Aaliyah was there. Her milk chocolate kissed skin, and fashionably long frizzy hair dropped down past her shoulders. Her figure long and poised, as she wore a rain jacket and sweats. An outfit only she could pull off and make it look like she was a model for Vogue. Aasliyah smiles brightly at Y/N.

“Hey Y/N.” She says cheerfully as a genuine friend would.

To Y/N’s surprise she greeted her back in the same tone. “Hey Aaliyah...uhh whats going on?” Y/N wasnt sure if she wanted the answer of how they both ended up in the Tube or if she truly wanted to know how her day went.

“Well Im getting ready to present at the Oscars.” She replies, a smile plastered as if she was so excited about it, almost too excited like she was keeping a secret.

“Really? Oh my god, that’s amazing! Im so proud of you Aaliyah! Who are you taking?”

Aaliyah pauses for a few moment looking back and forth, making sure no one else was around. “Okay can you keep a secret?” She whispered.

Y/N nods her head slowly, not having the slightest clue of what was going on. “Im taking Tom. I think he really likes me, and well...I like him too! Do you think maybe I should ask him when we go?” Aaliyah asked genuinely. It was almost like she had no recollection of Y/N and Tom being a couple. “I think we would look good together. Everyone is already making rumors and ships about us.”

Y/N backs aways lowly only to bump into a broad figure. As she turns around she sees Tom, emotionless and almost sad. “Y/N.” He speaks out. “I dont think this is going to work out. Im leaving you.”

Y/N’s heart quickens, and her breaths become shorter as she tries to find a way to run. Running and running into the darkness, until all she could hear was Tom’s faint voice calling out her name.

***

“Y/N! Y/N! Baby wake up please.” Tom cries as he gently shakes his girlfriend from her disturbed sleep.

Quickly Y/N opens her eyes and clutches on to Toms hoodie firmly. Back home, and in Toms arms. It was a dream was all she thought. A sigh of relief escaping from her mouth.

“Darling...” he speaks softly, worried about his girlfriend. “Are you okay?”

Y/N looks up at him and nods frantically. “Mmm..bad dream.”

“Yeah it seemed like it. You were so frightened...I was scared. What happened?” He’s looking at her, trying to read her saddened eyes, wanting to desperately understand what scared her so he could make it all go away for her.

Y/N looks down at her fiddling hands, as she sits on the couch. “I uhh...” she lets out a chuckle, thinking of the ridiculousness of it all. “I uhh...dreamed about Aaliyah going to the oscars and saying how she loved you and how you two are perfect for each other. When I turned around I saw you but you werent happy and said you were leaving me.”

Tom doesnt say a word, all he could think about was how sorry he felt to put Y/N in this position. Though both of them knew, It wasnt Toms fault, or anyone’s for that matter. Feelings are feelings and that was okay. No human being was ever born perfect and without insecurities.

Y/N always tried to be a good sport with situations like this knowing every shippers theory and evidence were hardly ever true, but at some point there was only so much she could take before it all came out like an oil spill. Maybe it was a sign that she wasnt good enough to be with Tom if half of his fanbase thought this way as well.

Tom cradled her into his arms again, holding her tightly and kissing the top of her head. “Darling, I know youre still doubting yourself about all of this, but please believe me when I tell you that I love you so so much and no matter what happens...Im always yours.” He whispers gently in her ear. “It was only a dream and these ridiculous rumors and theories are just that. No one woman in the world could ever make me feel the way I feel for you.”

Y/N blinks softly, as she stares into space. Afraid and in a weird way ashamed, its funny how something so small and so minimal could affect her self-esteem so greatly. Tom gently brings her head up, so her eyes can meet his. He rolls his thumb on the bottom of her soft lips. “Hey, I love you.” Tom smiles.

Time stopped for the both of them the moment Y/N looked into his eyes, she felt safe. All the bad words and thoughts slowly disappear. Tom was right, none of the things that anyone said about their relationship mattered. She knew Tom loved her, and how much she truly loved him. Isnt that enough? Of course not. It was more than enough. A smile slowly forming on Y/N’s face. “Theres that smile I love so much.” He comments.

“Im sorry, for being such a —”

“No. Its okay. You have a right to feel the way you did.” He picks up her hand and leaves a gentle kiss.

“I love you so much Tom.” She says pressing her lips to his. “I dont deserve you.”

“Darling, its me that doesnt deserve you. Im always yours.” Tom proclaims as he kisses her back.

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(kicks down your door) i hear you are a connoisseur of gaster + rouxls or something?

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WHY, YES THE FUCK I AM!!! thank u for kicking down my door, please have a seat! oh no, just leave the splinters n stuff there, just sit and i'll start on some coffee for u uwu

literally its a godtier ship and i need u guys to understand how good it is or else i'll scream

firstly, taking into account their characters: they're both overdramatic silly dorks. with rouxls, its kind of self explanatory. that's his whole deal! "but spooky, how ever is gaster similar to rouxls in this fashion?" i hear you cry in concern like a sickly bedridden victorian era child from the ether, while i wonder how people are yet still finding my house to talk about a ship,

WHAT is more dramatic than that line? everyone presumes this to be gaster, yes? and he sounds like a big dork!! he sounds like a goofy DM having a blast thrusting upon u his newest plots he spent a week planning before u all met for this round of DnD! and from this, and the "gash weaves down as if you cry" poem, i really do believe gaster isnt going to be some senseless Big Bad, but rather, a man... a flawed man but a man nonetheless.

he is not a good man, if we are to believe he's orchestrated many things in deltarune, but i hardly believe he's doing it out of like. some innate cruelty or Evil quality or anything like that. i think he has a reason for his actions, and he feels very strongly about achieving his goals like this, even if he's going about it in a Presumably bad way... he is just a man... and i can empathize with that...

now, i know you're probably wonder Why And How this fucking Worms For Brains duke of puzzles complements him in a way that'd make me want to die on this hill of a ship. yeah rouxls is a favorite of mine but i really think they have a hidden depth to them thats beyond crackship territory! (and lest ye be reminded, fellow fandom Olds, papyton had originally started as a "crackship" itself despite its popularity now)

to start: lets talk about rouxls kaard, duke of puzzles

rouxls... is a strangely complex character, the more you look at him past his hilarious failures. he's... utterly fucking ridiculous with that speech quirk of his but lancer LOVES him despite not being his "real" dad. and when rouxls outright denies all connection to him and complains about the young Jack to the heroes? interesting. even more interesting when he admits some level of care/love for the boy shortly after.

rouxls is petty, vindictive, a liar, dramatic, and hates being wrong but... lancer loves him. and rouxls loves him back. he's stated to be the one that cooks and cleans in the castle, and is implied to have knitted that lacy scarf you can buy for ralsei and therefore helped lancer knit those itchy beanies for the puzzle guys, and gives lancer ginger ale when he's sick. he's literally the new step dad. he presumably finds it hard to claim parenthood over lancer but he DOES love lancer and cared for him more than spade king was implied to...

moreover, rouxls seems desperate to be the number 2 to someone's Big Bad again. that was pretty plainly stated in chapter 2. and who are we thinking's gonna be the secret villainous character (thats probably mostly alright if he stopped doing fuckshit) of DR? oh gaster? oh alright.

so we have 2 overdramatic, presumably villainous men that are probably not as bad as initially thought that most definitely have a chance to interact through one of them's need to be someone's high level henchman to feel fulfilled and that previous relationship of the same exact kind was implied to be Kinda Gay through certain framing and theyre both elegant goths and care a lot abt their goals and are dorks and one of them could help the other Fucking Dominate at engineering puzzles?

oh okay. new ship i'll fucking die for ig!!