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#.txt#this isnt a vent but like#its gonna be a thought dump about some stuff so yeah youre in for mental illness if you read further#not to be super down on myself cuz this really isnt a big deal#but im realizing more and more that im like a really high strung person. I take everything really seriously and i dont rlly know if thats a#good thing#like I have a hard time just having hobbies. like piano isnt a hobby for me at least not anymore im way too serious about piano for it to#be a hobby#that doesnt mean i dont enjoy it piano is the single most important thing in my life right now and i care about it more than anything#but like.#its not a hobby#and so i think this like... intensity on my 'hobbies' seeps into a lot of other areas of my life#and in rlly small ways too.#I find it very very hard to pick up new hobbies. I dont want to if i dont have the capacity to learn it very well#and i dont even have to BE good at it. But I want to have the skills and the tools TO be good at it#like what I mean when I say that is like... I deadass dont believe that if you just do a thing everyday you'll end up being really good at#it#if I just sat down at the piano and just played whatever for 2 hours a day#I would suck ass. Like I would be so bad at the piano rn#the reason Ive gotten so much better recently is that I do the exact opposite#I control VERY heavily what I practice and how I practice it. its self discipline#and its all those underpinnings of how I interact with art and the implicit goals I hold while I do it#because like the issue with what I said. Is who cares?#like who gives a shit if youre really good at something#who cares if you arent well rounded who cares#idk#but i do#i care a fucking lot like i care a lot a lot a lot#and so like. I try not to as often as possible and for the most part i do. but I apply this lens to others too#I feel like everyone has to be pursuing a really wide and refined skillset in whatever they do
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"How come disabled people are always complaining about their disabilities even if their blog isn't about being disabled" I dunno it's almost like. It's something that effects us every day and some of us just need to vent to feel better about the mass amounts of pain we're in because not everyone can just grin and bear it
#my scoliosis isnt gonna get better ignoring it or complaining about it so. whatever#also i havent gotten this myself but i keep seeing people comment stuff like that on other disabled bloggers posts and its irking me#vinny rants#ableism#disabled people are allowed to vent about their disabilities believe it or not
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me: i write for myself and no other, art is a passion project that comes from my heart, the only approval I need is my own
also me, as I think this: -refreshes comment section of story over and over and over and ove-
#this isnt fishing for comments#im just venting at my own stupid validation need#did you know for a hot second I was like man what if I just post on fimfic and ill for sure get comments there#BUT THEN I BECAME SANE AGAIN
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I am literally allergic to posting things normally here. Also kid Goku design by sporkks as per usual (hi sporkks if you see this)
#when the fixation is so bad you literally wake up to make content for it and dont eat until its actually painful#not a vent thing im suffering but im having a blast so idc#dbz#smub art#dragon ball#dbs#dbgt#son goku#trunks briefs#bra briefs#bulla briefs#bulma briefs#i know briefs isnt a canon last name but i like it too much. dr briefs name is either literally doctor briefs or briefs briefs#vegeta#vegebul#vegetabul#yamcha#dbz au#whis
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hazardous material ☣️🫀🐭
#My Characters#Haze#ask to tag#gore#body horror#eyestrain#?#also should clarify i am okay!! this isnt anything super serious#a tiny bit initially started vent-like but then felt better!! and was then just playing around & wanted to finish it ^_^
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I met the me who made different choices
#idk what this means so dont ask#got the words stuck in my head and this is what I wanted to draw for it immediately#me at my desk. so.#I dont look exactly like this obviously. doesnt matter. anyways#hard time recently in a lot of different ways#lots of work to do!#given up on getting everything done I kind of failed at that. it was too much#so now I'm just trying to get anything done that will make the next 6 months not kill me again#ideally. 3 episodes. or the book#or like at least close enough to that that its basically that#I'm feeling really screwed LOL#I dont know how I've been working every day for so long and still havent done enough...#(its because the work load is way too much)#every time I take 1 hour for myself. to cook. or clean. or draw something else. or play a game. I feel so guilty auauau#I hate webtoon I hate this damn green app...#DOESNT MATTER!!!#what DOES matter is my art is good as hell... look at this shit...#the light. the colors. I love you red I love you green#I need to get more red pants I only have the one pair.#I saw this guy with red pants that had skeleton legs on them and I was like FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!! I need them!!!!#I need to start sewing again. I dont have a sewing machine cause my apartment is too small so I havent sewn in years but I really want to..#I want to make clothes again... I need some vests I need some dresses..#I will not make pants or sleeved shirts because I dont hate myself#sketch#art#vent art I guess LMFAO its not#its just this fun little thing we like to call self expression#also this isnt how my desk setup actually is I scooted things around cause I didnt wanna draw anything twice. fuck it we ball#ok back to work
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too eepy after work to have a life, stardust? smh
#in fast and food#loop isat#siffrin isat#in stars and time#isat#kitscribbles#oddly my comfort au and vent au wrapped into one#dear whoever said that there isnt much i can do with this au. yeah youre not wrong#lmao what's Sif gonna do#wish to keep his friends in the capitalistic pit of death of never moving out of town to chase their dreams because they cant afford to?#smh you dont need timeloops for that#therefore no loop u_u or at least not conventionally#could someone help me find that art someone made of Sif having a doll loop and i think that doll coming to life#if i ever go that direction id like to credit them#that there is my inspiration#art#fanart#tfw you cant think of a personality for your stuffie so you just overlay a personality over your own and give them that#have you ever tried to cut sharp points into felt. let me tell you it does not like to remain sharp
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I'm sure Good Omens is a decent show but i wish the Azicrow shippers could understand that running up to artists and telling them how their lesbian artwork reminds them of two men is very strange!
#txt#and disrespectful. like knock it off lmao#like this isnt even about me. i saw another artist vent about this
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highchoolers (and iori)
#thoughts: miyako and daisuke are chronic dresscode violators. miyako isnt allowed to wear a bandana or as many accessories as she does#daisuke usually wears tshirts instead of the button up and gets in constant trouble because of it#takeru's look is the most ordinary out of all of them because hes just happy to be here. usually unbuttons the blazer out of dysphoria tho#iori and ken go to different schools so they arent as accessible but they hang out very regularly#iori especially needs to be included because he's like. the universal little brother and feels abandoned easily#ken and hikari get really close in their hs years since they both struggle with depression and vent to eachother often#lastly i picked that iori screenshot to redraw cause it was cute he still retains his autistic flat expressiveness#.png#chock full of headcanons idgaf . transfem daisuke#digimon#digimon adventure#daisuke motomiya#davis motomiya#iori hida#cody hida#takeru takaishi#tk takaishi#hikari yagami#kari kamiya#miyako inoue#yolei inoue#sorey ken . next time
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Bitter medicine by the crane wives is about undiagnosed adhd. By the way
#ugly sobbing ober the song#ugh#the crane wives#maybe not adhd specifically#but my overall mixture of troubles and problems#underacheiving eldest sibling#something about feeling like i have to shield everyone from my problems because its not their responsibility to fix them#and any sypmathy or help or even love they give me is wasted and better used somewhere else#yet at the same time trying so so hard to get all that and earn it and failing so hard without even knowing why#this isnt even a vent really i am just dissecting#this is strictly academic
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mascot
#this isnt vent dw!!! i dont smoke either i was just kinda going for some sort of vibe#i know its usually played for laughs or like. dark humor whenever ppl draw mascots without their heads and u can see the actor#but i always found it fascinating and a little sobering. ever since i was a kid ive always been hyperaware of ppl in costumes#like. even if i tried to block it out id be thinking the whole time 'its not real. theres a person in that suit who gets paid to do this'#it used to be an uncomfortable nagging feeling but now its like. oh yeah theres someone with a whole life story doing this. idk#i think when i tell ppl im not conscious of my body its like. im not dysphoric or experience dissociation but. at the same time#it feels like my physical body doesnt fully outwardly represent me..?? like some sort of costume#i like to phrase it as being a giant hairless mecha and inside theres a very tiny puppy piloting the damn thing#and the other thing is. when i draw my sona i dont really see it as what i /wish/ i looked like or how i want people to see me#its like being in a costume and just. fucking around with some sort of barrier between myself and others#plus mascots arent allowed to talk and i dont really. engage with other ppl in public spaces that it kinda feels like ad lib#i share a lot abt my life but ironically im also a private person..... i guess it just gives me some sort of control over my identity#my art#myart#my oc#sona#mascot#furry#??? is this furry art????#twinkle#puppysona#edit: had to outline it bc i just realized it looks really weird on dark mode -_-
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maybe its just me but i cant stand when people are like "it just doesn't sit right with me how teruhashi thought about aiura 🥺" like yes... its not supposed to ??? because her thinking badly of other girls and prioritizing male validation over everything is one of her main flaws ??? can we talk about that WITHOUT making it seem like shes not allowed to have a single actual flaw without suddenly becoming an awful person? nobody can handle complex female characters at all and its so fucking annoying
#you guys all missed the point of her development AND her and saiki's relationship development#like did you miss the parts where the only times he genuinely seems to not like something she does is when shes mean to other girls#and he still understands that she isnt a bad person for having bad thoughts in the private comfort of her mind#and besides... in this case she was literally just being a dramatic and insecure teenage girl LMAO#like dont fucking lie to me and tell me when you were her age you didnt have similar thoughts#youre worse than her if you lie about it while judging her for it#sorryyyy#she shouldve been MORE unhinged youre all just cowards#AND ALSO ? how can something even be 'mean' if its just a thought#thats like if u opened ur friends private diary without permission and then unfriended them over something they said in a random upset vent#and in this specific situation if u found out ur friend called someone a bitch because they liked the same person as her ??#LIKE THATS ?? its bad but its not as crazy as you guys make it out to be#shes allowed to be angry and insecure in the privacy of HER OWN MIND#idk if this makes sense but i just feel that her thoughts are more of a concern about her wellbeing than anything else#like she canonically is extremely kind to others even when she doesnt want to be so why are we worried about how she treats others.#theyre fine. im worried about HER.#and WHY her mindset is so negative... but u guys dont give a shit because u cant handle even a spec of complexity#sorry ive said all this before i just like to rant#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#teruhashi kokomi#meows post
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Gotta love when folks write Superman incredibly anti-clone even though he had good reason in the beginning to Not Like Superboy (HES A WINDOW INTO WHAT CLARK WOULD HAVE BEEN WITHOUT THE KENTS) and decide that forever on he’ll be spiteful towards clones even though he literally Does Not Care if you’re a clone unless you’re Superboy.
#IF YOU LIKE THIS CHARACTERIZATION IGNORE ME BUT I GOTTA VENT#bones speaks#bones writes in the tags#sometimes I wanna bash my head into a wall. SUPERMAN IS INHERENTLY A GOOD PERSON IN EVERY WAY KON EL IS JUST A TERRIFYING REALIZATION-#OF WHAT HE’D BE WITHOUT A LOVING CARING AND NURTURING FAMILY! HE DIDNT LIKE KON BECAUSE HE WAS SCARED)#RAGGGGHHHHH#for the love of god I know it’s an easy way for Danny to hate Superman (SUPERMAN ISNT THE BAD GUY YALL PLEASE) but there can be so much more#have him awkwardly go up to Danny and ask him how he handled having a clone and try to use that info to get along with Kon!#he works with countless clones in the Justice League and I don’t see y’all writing him hating them. make it make sense#just- please. you don’t have to read a comic to know that Superman is meant to be The Best Of Humanity. just write with that baseline#I’m just sad folks are being so gosh darn mean to Supes. he’s a delightful character to read and my favorite big superhero#and a lot of folks in dpxdc do the anti clone stuff and that’s Clark’s entire personality for the comic.#you don’t think he’d be sympathetic because Danny was given immense duty and power and is only a few of his kind? or having an evil self in#another dimension that showed him the destruction he could bring?#Clark is a smartass. he is a seeker of the truth. he is a reporter (and a damn good one too). he is a loving husband. he is an alien.#he is a hero. he is a god. he is a caring friend. he is a genuinely kind and good being.#I recommend reading All Star Superman. Under The Yellow Sun by Clark Kent. and Superman:Grounded
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In theory i like the idea that rick is growing and developing as a person. In practice it ends up falling short though, because no one balances him out. rick is getting better while no one else is getting worse, and it causes the whole thing to end up feeling a bit stale. The biggest draw, at least for me, has always been rick and morty's shitty dynamic, but it barely exists anymore because rick has been so watered down.
The ideal solution is literally just to make morty into a bigger asshole. Essentially flipping the main characters' personalities would offer a wide variety of conflict into the show, and would also help keep it "fresh".
Instead it feels the writers are pretending that they can't possibly do anything with morty's character, that they have to keep him the same anxious idiot he was in season one. I've said this before, but it's incredibly frustrating to watch the show have no problem with expanding rick's character while struggling with keeping morty's heavily stagnated characterization consistent. Where rick has space to develop between multiple seasons, morty is constantly forced into one of two boxes (smart/stupid) depending on the episode.
#rick and morty#again i dont hate ricks therapy arc i just hate that morty doesnt have a parallel AntiTherapy arc#not to mention how. even if morty IS more bitter it usually only lasts for like an episode#there is no smooth progression or development. the show is just ping ponging between him being an idiot vs him being capable#this is why im sooooooososososo badly hoping the roy machine comes into play again.#otherwise this is genuinely offensive treatment of a main character#genuinely at the moment i feel like fandom understands morty better than the writers.#this is a half vent post to be honest im just so tired of the rick bias within the staff. Like make. a new show at this point#i also have thoughts on the way rick has been written these past few seasons and um .#well it feels lile fans are in the writers room and im afraid this is a negative. it sort of seems like the show is trying to-#sweep ricks past actions and behaviors under the rug#as if he isnt literally the worst person ever. up until recently i guess.#like its just frustrating seeing mortys abuse being handled so haphazardly? like the s5 2 crows episode#it just feels like the writers are trying to fill out a checklist instead of writing them as people.#“what we had was abusive dont you see?” who talks like this#okay im over it(lying)#rick sanchez#morty smith
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I always feel so out of place even in system communities. Does anyone else relate at all??
Like, idk some system memes are cool and relatable bc obviously not everything is gonna line up, but so much of it doesn't click with us.
We've almost never been put off by the voices, we all wanna communicate, we don't think less of each other or think 1 deserves more front time than anyone else, etc. Idk, there's so many memes about denial and eating each other's food and all this distress. Which is i know, a major part of many system's lives. Part of what makes a meme is the repeatability and a lot of systemhood IS struggles in that area.
But what about systems who do everything right (in the sense that we have healthy coping and such)? What about systems who unconditionally love each other and dissociative barriers are something we work around instead of fighting? What about the systems who love the voices?
#this comes off as abilistic i know im gonna get some bs from this#but listen. listen to me. ur allowed to struggle and this post isnt about/for u if ur gonna get mad or defensive#im talking systems well on their path through purposeful recovery#systems years into studying themselves and having full comfort and understanding within. full love. full acceptance.#i want memes and content that isnt medicalized and saying the same stuff over and over and over and over#all this misery. where is the system content where we're just being plural and silly. im so tired#dont even start on syscourse like its so bad in here#smells like stinky#system babbles#osdd#actually osdd#minor vent?#system posting#memes#did#actually did#actually traumatized#actually traumagenic#endo safe#syscourse dni#positivity
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Pretty sure my parents think I'm a heartless freak but like idk what I'm really supposed to do about that-
#like do they WANT me to cry#about death and stuff#idk#maybe not cause theyve seen me cry over way lesser stuff#but i feel like they see me as a lil heartless freak everytime somethinf actually big happens and then#my reaction is just like 'ok :/'#urgh#anyone else just not....feel it?#anyway all this to say my grandpa died#:/#i dont really?#like idk shit happens man#also this is not a vent#i just feel guilty because im not like...sad?#i feel worse about the heartless freak thing#it makes me feel like im a bad person#i think that regardless#but thats like a whole other issue#anyway#ramble over#/gen i am fine and this isnt meant to be a vent
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