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freddleafton12345-blog · 2 days ago

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ShadowMilk cookie x lonely! Desperate female reader, who's a Kitsune!))

WARNING! MENTION OF SELF HARM!

You've had enough.

Time to start cutting away at your arms again with a small knife.

Seeing so many people having a lover made you jealous. You wanted that sort of affection. To be held. Cuddled. Kissed. Wanted.

But nobody seemed interested in you.

Was it because you were too skinny/fat? Was it because you didn't wear enough makeup?

"Well, this is an interesting bunch of thoughts~!"

The sudden voice in your head made you stop yourself from getting ready to add another cut into your dough.

"Who's there!? Show yourself!" You looked around the bathroom, your ears flicking everywhere to pick up any plssible source of the voice.

"Relax, my dear! I'm a friend!" The voice chimed. "Looking for a conversation! You see, your upset, yes?"

"Wha-"

"Tired of being single? Seeing couples makes you think your too useless, right? Everybody's neglecting you! But I...I like you."

"You're saying nonsense! I don't even know you!"

The owner of the voice smirked to himself. He knew that manipulating you into being his forever was all too simple.

You were meant to be his.

"Yes you do~! We've interacted in your dreams many times!"

You paused.

There was a cookie that had been seeing you in your dreams a lot. He looked like a Jester that was decorated in black and blue, with a dash of white. And he had gorgeous mismatched eyes.

Was that the owner of the voice in your head?

"I can read your thoughts, and yes! I'm the guy from your dreams! ShadowMilk cookie!"

"ShadowMilk cookie? Wait you- YOU'RE THE BEAST THAT TRIED TORMENTING PURE VANILLA COOKIE!" You panicked, gripping your tail to calm down.

"Pssht, relax darling! I don't wanna hurt ya! I wanna help you! You seem like you want to have a lover. A companion. I can do that for you, if you become my...helper, hehe!"

'Helper?'

Becoming the assistant of the most powerful Beast cookie, in exchange for affection?

You wanted to say no. To warn Pure Vanilla that ShadowMilk was watching you.

But...finally being loved and cared for was all too tempting.

And the Beast smirked as he knew...

You were already under his control...

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ShadowMilk cookie had given you a glowing blue trail of energy only you could see. So you could find his domain.

And it was fun but twisted.

You admired some of the carnival games, and even attended a theater show. You indulged in your curiosity and fun.

Then you headed into the castle.

"Oho, I see I've got my favorite person is infront of me? FINALLY!" The Jester exclaimed, flying off his chair to inspect you.

Your ears pinned back, he didn't look scary, but you knew better than to let your guard down.

"H-hi there, ShadowMilk cookie.." you muttered shyly.

"Now now, no need to be shy! If I'm going to be your boyfriend, then I wanna see your cute face!" He tilted your head upwards slightly with his hand, smirking.

Would he ever let you go?

No...

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It's been about 6 months since you got to meet the Beast cookie and stay at his twisted castle.

And you asked yourself why you didn't do it sooner.

Was him pampering you and telling you he loved you everyday a lie? Probably. But did it feel nice being treated like that?

Yes, because you were so damn desperate.

As you played around with the giant black and blue snake, his pet, he simply watched you from afar.

...did he like you?

The Beast really didn't know. He got jealous and angry anytime you spoke about PureVanilla. Saying he should've noticed how badly you were hurting on the inside, and that the fact he didn't, made him a poor excuse of a true friend.

But he also didn't know if he wanted to give you his heart.

So, he continued to simply treat you like his partner, when he didn't consider himself as such a thing.

"Hi ShadowMilk cookie!" You went over to him, the snake following you. "I fed Noodle, just as you asked!"

"Ah, very well done then! Noodle doesn't like anybody who's not me! Count yourself a very lucky, lucky cookie!" The Beast pet his snake, then sent it elsewhere.

Then, he looked...serious?

"..." ShadowMilk removed his Jester crown and looked away. Like he was..scared?

"Now then, um...you see, I had a script. Bring you here, feed you sweet, little lies, and make sure you would go against PureVanilla cookie. Help me get his soul jam. However, you ruined that script!"

"W-what-? No, no, I don't know what you mean!" You felt scared. Was he gonna kill you?

"...you made me feel warm and fuzzy when you're around. You haunted my mind and it was so...so ANNOYING! And you made me want more of it.."

No way.

No fucking way he was confessing!?

"..." the Beast cookie said nothing as he took your hand in his, his gaze on the floor.

"...I like you too, ShadowMilk cookie. I didn't think I'd be able to learn to love you, but...I can't help it." You admitted, your ears pinned and tail wagging.

"Oh, is that so~?" He put his crown back on and pulled you in close, summoning an apple.

"Then...why don't you and I become one, heart and soul, hm?" He held it up towards you.

You leaned in and took a bite of the apple, and he did the same thing while maintaining his eyes on yours, like a hungry predator.

Even when the apple slipped and hit the floor, his gaze didn't leave yours. It only closed once he shut his eyes as you kissed him deeply. And he wasted zero time in reciprocating.

And in that moment you knew he was actually being honest for once.

And it made you happy, knowing you were worth his complete honesty~

Guys this fic is one of my longest, sorry if it's bad. Also, idk if that's his pet or not, but I hc this is his pet snake, Noodle! (He would name it smth silly lmao) (also that wasn't an apple of deceit, just a normal apple idk it was hot 2 think about :3)

"PLEASE, REBLOG AND SHARE THIS, FOLKS! AND I'LL SEE YOU NEXT TIME, MWEHEHE~!!"

#crk shadow milk cookie #crk x reader #crk #cookie run kingdom shadow milk cookie #cookie run kingdom

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ceslatoil · 6 hours ago

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Ghost Filbrick AU

So a few weeks ago I was in the group chat and I pitched an idea for a fic (not writing it anytime soon, I have enough projects on my plate for now!) and it’s about the Pines family visiting Ma Pines before she moves to an assisted care facility. Main idea is that Dipper and Mabel meet Filbrick’s ghost who is trying to hinder the move, and the family trying to get him to move on. Lots of family drama ensues.

I wrote like, a scrap of a script draft for it if y’all wanna read it below:

(Scene: The grown ups, including CARYN, STAN, FORD and COOPER, MABEL & DIPPER’s dad, are all up playing cards. CARYN pulls out the Tarot Deck)

Caryn: I call this one “Last Man Standing!” You put down a card and the other player has to put down either the same suit or card number. If someone plays a major arcana card like wheel of fortune or the star, they can switch up the minor arcana suit. If you play death or the tower, the other players draw four. Whoever has zero cards wins!

Dad Pines: Grandma I think you just reverse engineered Uno

Stan: Dad wouldn’t buy us more than one card deck, so we made due with Ma’s tarot.

Ford: I thought it was to keep you from cheating the deck

Caryn: Both things could be true! Now hush.

Stan: … Coop is everything all right with Dipper? It’s not my business but… he seemed pretty cagey with ya earlier.

Caryn: Cagey? The kid stormed out of the room in the middle of dinner! Granted it was *my* cooking, so I can’t really hold a grudge on that front. (*plays a card*) That’s The Fool, so we’re reversing direction.

Ford: … It just doesn’t seem like him.

Coop: … that’s been the norm lately, I’m afraid. I don’t think he’s handling the divorce well, with me moving out and I just haven’t been around as much since then.

Ford: Mabel told us in one of her letters you were in family therapy together?

Coop: We’ve had a few sessions, yes. She loved it, got along great with our counselor. I think she asked a few times about becoming a therapist someday! But Dipper doesn’t really participate much during the sessions. He just sulks in the corner, like he doesn’t want to be there at all.

Stan: He’ll get over it. He’s stubborn, but not the type to hold a grudge.

Ford: I can’t imagine any of this is easy for any of you.

Coop: Weirdly enough, me and Annie— uh, Annie and *I*— have gotten on better than ever. Divorce was the best thing to happen to our relationship, it’s like we’re finally friends again?

Stan: Divorce ain’t so bad, I’ve done it at least six times now!

Caryn: I thought about divorcing your father, but he died before I got around to it. Suit change.

Ford: when did Dad pass?

Stan: … ‘97.

Ford: … I see. (*silence*)

Caryn: … Let’s not talk about funerals right now. God knows I’ve been to enough of ‘em. I’m just glad one of ‘em didn’t count. (*pinches Stan’s cheek.*)

Stan: … me too, Ma.

Ford: … Last Man Standing

Stan: Like hell you are, you shit, draw four!

Ford: … that’s not the tower, that’s a Stan Buck!

Caryn: Don’t tell me you’re still making Stan Bucks! You know damn well that’s not how money works!

(This next part is self indulgent and idk if I’ll include it in the fic proper)

Caryn: Now Stanford… let me ask you a question. Why the hell have you been hiding your left hand in your pocket all night?

Ford:…. I don’t know what you mean— HEY!

(Caryn pulls his hand out of his pocket, examines his second ring finger)

Caryn: Stanford Filbrick why does it look like you have a wedding band on your finger?

Ford: …. (*sighs*) because I have a wedding band on my finger.

Caryn: AHA! Here we are moping about death and divorce and you sit on good news like that! Who is she? Who’s your wife? Where’d you meet her, what’s her family like, what does she do?

Ford:… I don’t have a wife. I have a husband.

Stan: The guy used to live in the dump and now he’s a millionaire inventor running for president.

Caryn: You married McGucket?! Me and the girls canvassed for him this year! Wait till I tell that Janine, that’ll get her to pipe down about her Chiropractor Son-In-Law for once!

Coop: I really like his policies on infrastructure, very forward thinking!

Stan: Eh, I’m voting third party. Nothing personal, I just don’t want a brother in law who’s commander in chief. It would make thanksgiving a nightmare.

Ford: You’re a felon, you can’t vote at all.

Stan: That hasn’t stopped me in thirty years!

Ford: So Ma, you’re… fine with—

Caryn: Sweetie, until this morning I thought two of my sons were dead and one cut all ties. I figured I deserved it. Sitting back while your Father gave you all grief for nothin. I told myself if I ever saw you again I’d take you as is, and I meant it.

#gravity falls #pines family #stan pines #ford pines #dipper pines #mabel pines #ma pines #Caryn Romanoff Pines #filbrick pines #fiddauthor #book of bill

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u3pxx · 11 months ago

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chat i dont think i can explain this one

#i wanted to do a clothes-swap with all three (yall know who) but then i ran out of juice DFGHJD #why did i learn how to draw if not to make things that are self-indulgent and caters only to me #and sometimes you wanna dress em up like little dolls DFGHJD #dungeon meshi #chilchuck tims #sunnysidedraws #sunnysidedoodles #sunnysidemeshi #described #id in alt text

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peacockrulz · 2 months ago

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Sorry for the lack of posts, have some more headcanons!!

#MYYY self indulgent V headcanon number 234 is that shes a huge fucking dork #i.e she was a huge bookworm as a worker #well she was a dork in general #reading. painting. dancing. all of it #but alot of that. was kinda things she had to leave with the rest of her. when she became a Disassembly Drone.#And while alot of her died in the manor. she still kept some things close.#and one of those things is reading!!!#she cringes at like 90% of what she used to read but still goes out of her way to reread the copies she finds or is given #N usually gives her copies #She acts like she hates it but still reads them alone anyway #theres a reason she has bad eyesight and its because she reads with the book 3 inches from her face in the dark #also Uzi probably makes her read Twilight at some point and laughs the entire time (they both hate it. Uzi just likes messing w/ her)#anyway i just like the idea that in a world where V is finally allowed to start her life again #she looks for the things she loved that she had to leave behind #and finds new joy in them as who she is now #she might not be that little worker anymore #but shes still the girl who loved to curl up in the library when no one would notice. reading any book she could get her hands on.#idk i just like the idea that V deep down is still just a girl who wants to have fun.#i just want her to be HAPPY #anyway do you guys wanna hear why Chappell Roan's “Pink Pony Club” is so V code- (i fall down the stage stairs)#murder drones #serial designation v #serial designation n #uzi doorman #also for context ive never read Pride and Prejudice despite meaning to #its just one of the only actual romance books i know off the top of my head #imean no offense to it. I just like joking abt V reading romance sdkfjkldsjf

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employee052 · 8 months ago

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this is your reminder to make ur cringy n self indulgent art bc cringe is dead and you gotta live life (I say, despite the fact i still feel a bit cringe but im being so brave abt it)

lettin myself post n do more art for myself so apologies for the more selfshippy art than usual

#artswin #tsp narrator #tspud narrator #selfship #oz rambles #in the tags oz rambles go brrrrr #been hyperfocused on the numbers for a while recently which is why ive been pretty low if uve seen sdkhf #but im starting to feel better so in an effort to let myself feel better im doin more self indulgent art #with these types of things i usually make myself as a generic gray human instead of my sona (or recently my sona fusion)#(the sona fusion has my white swoop but black irl hair)#but making this made me remember how much i love drawing myself with narry n i dont wanna get rid of that #i only made the generic gray human art just bc i wanted other ppl to insert themselves which i still wanna do #but at the same time *I GOTTA LET MYSELF BE CRINGE MAN THIS IS MY OLD GEEZER I CAN BE CRINGE FOR HIM*#anywho if yall havent seen my updated intros recently. i selfship with the narrator (specifically virgil) in a bff/qpr way #so it might look hella romantic and couply occasionally were just a couple of besties /pos #gonna tag it with a selfship name tho just so i can access my posts on it easier #n so if yall wanna block me n my cringe for any reason then feel free! /gen /nf #naroz #digitalmuse #(or smth idk ive seen ppl have pretty cool selfship names so i wanna try smth similar but who knows it could change) :P

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fenicearts420 · 2 months ago

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CAN YOU PLEASE STOP COMING UP WITH COOL ANIMATIC IDEAS FOR ONE SECOND, BRAIN?!?! I already have an animation I wanna work on but haven’t touched cuz of procrastination and now you give me THIS?!?! PLZ STAHP!!!

#rant #httyd #httyd toothless #not sure what else to tag here #it’s a self-indulgent animatic but the ideas are SO COOL!!!#BUT I ALREADY HAVE ANOTHER THING I WANNA WORK ON SO I CAN’T JUST DROP IT!!#BUT I WANNA SEE THIS ANIMATIC IDEA COME TO LIFE TOO DESPITE IT BEING SELF-INDULGENT!!!#WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME BRAIN?!?!? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!?!?! 😭😭😭😭😭

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rainbowpufflez · 1 year ago

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Lily colored glasses

Get it cause— cause— ca—

NEVER LISTEN TO THIS SONG WHILE DRAWING THOSE MFS IT’LL RUIN YOU /j

#flipping their color palettes like WHO TF ARE YOU #I’ve had this thought since last year actually #finally wanted to draw something super self indulgent tho #Lys looks like count Olaf core here but hey what am I to do #I had a really fun time drawing Gus tho #‘Hey babe why did the flowers wilt and die when you walked past them’#<- and he’ll still kiss him on the mouth #just ignore all those red flags king 💙#I got lazy with the flowers lmao #they also both don’t have their coats on #tbh just because I didn’t wanna draw Lys’ weird fluff thing on it #his hair put me through enough hell /hj /lh #professor sycamore pokémon #professor sycamore #lysandre pokemon #team flare lysandre #perfectworldshipping #rainbowpufflez art tag

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scatterbrainedbot · 1 year ago

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i am plagued....with.......

I D E A S

#WANNA MAKE THINGS BUT WORK EATS ALL MY TIME #AHHHHHHHHHHHHH #gotta do like four comics for rat sons #and more character intros #and then i also got an idea for rottmnt au/fanfic/comic/not sure yet that is super self indulgent and im excited about #and everyones posting turtle babies ideas which normally i dont really make fankids (tho i love seeing them!) BUT WOULDNT YA KNOW IT #GOT THOUGHTS TM ABOUT AN 03 LEOSAGI BABY CHILD THAT I THINK IS REAL CUTE #AHHHH #TOO MANY THOUGHTS #I WANNA SHAREEEEE #WHY DO I MAKE ART SO SLOWWWWW

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moe-broey · 29 days ago

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Borrowing

#can uou pleas e look away this is private.. thank you.....#moe is constantly stealing his shit in askr but like. a concept i ALWAYS find funny.#is alfonse having to borrow moe's clothes in the world of steel. granting....... everything is mostly untouched ect ect #don't let me think about the details. the only thing that matters is the fact that moe is short and stocky.#like. almost deceptively. it's more bottom heavy. which is why you see it in baggy pants/knee length shorts #like almost all the time.#the idea that only ONE pair of moe's pants would feasibly fit alfonse and they're the big oversized ones #like i'm talking leg length too. alfonse is almost ALL fucking leg. ESP compared to moe #the idea that those do actually fit nicely. at least length wise. something about it is SO funny to me #and while i did just give him a plain muscle tank like. god it would be SO funny. to put him in #one of moe's one million band t shirts.#i'm taking a break today so like. self indulgence....#i also have so. at least a few. concepts. about moe and sharena actually being about the same size.#but i'm not ready yet LMFAOOO #first. i gotta be on my faggot shit #I HAVE SO MANY CONCEPTS. FUNNY CONCEPTS. of moe having free reign to dress him up #visiting or straight up au. it's just really important to me that moe is entirely 100% focused #on the task at hand. maybe a little bit of jealousy/dysphoria in there. but ultimately it is On A Mission #meanwhile alfonse is fighting for his life. he's gonna fucking explode.#idk what else i'm gonna do today i am just resting. for the most part. also tumblr keeps crashing.#i do just need to take a break maybe though. i wanna play touys... but i do need a break.#fe alfonse #moe tag #my art

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skitskatdacat63 · 2 years ago

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2005 - Pit crews acknowledging the camera(because I think they're really endearing)

#renault crew being super silly and friendly w the camera vs mclaren crew scared of the camera #this is very self indulgent but that first gif is what pushed me over the edge and made me make this post #the others ive had sitting around since january bcs they showed the pit a lot during the french gp but i didnt end up posting them #but then i clipped that 1st one(during the brazil gp) and ngl i think it actually might be my favorite thing ive ever clipped from a race #i almost just wanna post the the full clip just on its own bcs i rly genuinely cant stop rewatching it #ITS SO CUTEEEEEE #the way the guy next to him(before the gif) points out to him that hes on camera #so he looks over and winks and then the other guy shoves his face down LOL #this is why im rly glad i watch races fully bcs then ever once in a while i come across clips like these that own my heart #hugging these gifs squeezing them biting them #watching these old races for my blorbos: the renault pit crew #renault #2005 brazilian gp #2005 french gp #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #mclaren

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burymeinwillow · 1 year ago

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#IM NOT DONE!!!#When my mom got sick and died- during that period I only watched Bonanza. It was my escapeism. It made me happy watching it-#it made me laugh during a time my life was falling apart around me. I was loosing the person most important to me -#I dont remember much from that time but I do remember how much I watched that silly western and how happy it made me #and that's what it means to me!!! that's why Bonanza is so dear to me!!! and it breaks my heart that I was scared to be more self-indulgent #with it. I was led to believe that I shouldn't like it. That I was strange for liking such an old show. My closest friend made feel weird-#about it. So Bonanza being my fav show was like... my little secret. I felt if I told people I liked it they wouldn't wanna be my friend.#Then Juni became my friend and she just changed all of that. She swooped in and just 'Hey you should be more self-indulgent!'-#and I remember thinking 'Is that okay?' She encouraged me about everything. About drawing... about Bonanza... she made it possible for me t #do things i thought were impossible. Like traveling to the US alone and go to a Bonanza Event?? She changed my life.#Made me realize it's okay to be self-indulgent. Made me realize liking niche and obscure things is NOT wierd.#as you can tell im very passionate about this #Juni came into my life during a very dark time and she changed my life and she changed me #and now im sitting here giggling and drawing this silly stupid cowboy from this silly old western #AND NOW IM REAL ANNOYING ABOUT BONANZA HEHEHE

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daz4i · 11 months ago

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how to stop thinking any good thing someone says to you (like compliments or being proud of you or other positive expressions such as these) is a lie just to be polite or bc they're biased and thus can't judge you work and your being objectively bc they love you. asking for a friend

#lovebombing won't work on me i will automatically assume there is an ulterior motive there #i may be off on what it is. but i won't trust it either anyway #(joking btw ik i'm not immune to abuse tactics. that's actually part of why i'm vigilant to all that i think)#(but not only)#i think my main issue is i know in my heart these things can't be right. the bigger the compliment the less i believe it #bc i'm below average and so is anything i create. propping it (and me) up as smth unique feels disingenuous #in my heart i do want this like i wanna be told nice things but they usually make me feel worse lol #bc i still think i'm shit and now i feel like i can't trust that person either.#(still. if someone is mean to me or even just harsh instead. i will cry)#also while this is already very deep and digging into my core the next tags are gonna dig into therapy level deepness lol #i think this is actually why i only want ppl to be sexually attracted to me honestly #smth abt it being like. a physical reaction. makes it easier to believe for me #also smth you can express smth you can do to prove it beyond just saying words #(i will sometimes still doubt it when i have a steady partner of any sort lol like i'll ask if they just indulge me or actually want it)#which is why it's fucking me up sm that i'm getting uglier 🥲 i'm already not great - being trans and fat limits a lot of your options - but #things are getting even worse lol 🥲 who knew that was even possible #all this isn't really a very good base to stop hating yourself. so my self loathing is only getting worse every day #thus making any good word harder to believe. and the cycle continues #. yknow when i started typing this post i did not expect to go on for this long #i am on these sleeping pills that make me lose my filter i'm sorry 😔#vent

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starheirxero · 1 year ago

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what are some major events that happened in your lord eclipse au? and do ones similar to canon like old moon sending him a wither storm go differently?

is there special events that eclipse, Sun, or that one of the followers made around him? does he have activities he likes to do in general?

OH MAN. I'm gunna be honest, I'm actually not entirely sure about the first question?? The timeline/canon I have is very loose and changes from scenario to scenario, but I suppose a few events that are pretty consistent are "The Centipede-ening", Eclipse's fall from grace (isolation from his followers due to boredom) with unwavering loyalty happening somewhere around that time period, Moon n Lunar show up... and then i Guess they release the wither storm?? Though, I do like to replace the wither storm with something that isn't. The Minecraft Story Mode Wither Storm LMAOSJWLDK

After that, though, I usually divide into two different outcomes from there and either go "Sunvant dies and slowly heals in the afterlife with his Moon, Lunar, and Bloodmoon" or "Moon and Lunar takes Sunvant back home with them and he slowly heals in the main tsams universe." Both are varying levels of angsty and bittersweet so he has to endure Healing Horrors no matter what LMAO

ALSO YES ‼️ I actually started making a small list of events/important days for Lord Eclipse's world (before getting distracted so there's only one date on it LMAO 😭) but I imagine that some days were sort of... pre-installed?? by Eclipse, like his primary day of worship (which is June 1st bc that's when he first started existing!), but some events may be entirely made by the rest of the followers! I just. dunno what those events would be yet LOL. I could also absolutely see Sun making his own personal special days that revolve around Lord Eclipse just so he feels like he's especially faithful tbh!