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Sheâs trying to kill you.
Well, not literally, but close enough because the Kith polo shirt and back slacks and those fucking loafers are making your knees fucking weak.
Itâs big east media day, and as a media intern you were lucky enough to get the opportunity to fly out to New York and interview some of the athletes today.
You worked through some of the Marquette girls, the UConn team as well, but you had to keep away from her. From Paige.
Your relationship was complicated. Namely the fact that you were having casual sex. Paige was cool about it all, and so were you. However, the pressure of her staring at you and making your cunt soak in the confinement of your pants was not something you wanted in front of your peers.
You sit with your legs crossed towards the back of the group, getting a head start on some reports that would be waiting when you got back to Storrs, when Paige takes a seat next to you.
âItâs taken.â You mumble, eyes still glued to the small tablet.
âItâs not.â
âYou know that how?â
âBeen watchinâ, ma. You and this tight ass outfit.â She mumbles the last part under her breath. Her finger darts out from her lap, running over your bended knee.
Youâre wearing a brown striped monochromatic button up that hugs your waist, the black dress pants tight on your hips. You look good, as always, but itâs something about the business attire you have on that makes Paigeâs mind travel to an otherwise dirty place.
You stand up, turning off the device and sticking it in your purse as you wipe off the back of your pants. âI have work. And so do you.â You mention, giving her a cunning grin as you begin to walk off.
Sheâs chasing after you, fast. âIâm all done for today. Why you ainât interview me earlier? I was lookinâ forward to it.â
Fucking killing you.
When you look back at her, Paige is smirking, her long legs in stride as they catch up to you. Her diamond studs glisten in the light of Madison Square Garden.
âYouâre a distraction, P. I have a job to do.â You mumble.
Paige hums. âYou think I wasnât distracted seeing you in this? Your tits are damn near falling out of this shirt.â She says under hear breath.
Youâre immediately soaking again.
Paige has a way of making you forget all of your morals. You didnât do casual, yet here you were with her. Itâs how she convinced you to spend the night, or to let her eat you out in the back of her car. It worked every time.
And it always started like this: the teasing.
âPaige, câmon.â You beg, trying to hold onto what was left of your sanity. You stop in your tracks, turning to face her with a pleading look.
âLet me.â She states, firm and serious. âYâknow Ion even need five minutes.â
Thatâs how she got you, convincing you to step into the closest bathroom. Your arm wrapped around her neck while the other tugged her to you by that chain. The cross on it nearly burns your hand as Paigeâs lips slotted against your own.
âCanât ever fuckinâ resist me.â She comments with a smile, hands holding onto your waist as she backs you into the bathroom, locking the door behind her.
âShut up. Iâm givinâ you five minutes.â You breathe and your tongue prods at her bottom lip, slipping into the warmth of her mouth. Itâs messy, saliva swapping between you both.
You allow her to back you into the sink, hands gripping at your ass and teeth biting at your lip.
The purse on your shoulder falls to the floor and you pull back, catching your breath while Paige instantly grabs at your waistband.
She undoes the button of your pants. Her fingers deliberately and delicately popping the button.
Her hand slips into the confinement of your pants, traveling further in search of your clit. When she finds it, and the lack of material that covers your sopping wet cunt, a moan tumbles past her lips. Loud and guttural and almost full of shock.
Youâve done a lot of things; nudes when sheâs at practice, copping a feel under the table, even shameless makeouts at Tedâs. You two have done it all, but crotchless panties was wild even to your standards.
âFuck, P.â You sigh and Paige applies more pressure.
âFuckinâ slut. Yâshowed up to work like this? You crazy?â She asks. Paige looks at you like a piece of meat, and that, combined with her middle finger on your clit does a terrible job at helping you keep your composure. âBeen wantinâ me, yeah?â
You attempt a nod, âYou like easy access, right?â You tease, breath shuddering as Paige pulls her hand away and you see the way your slick drips down her fingers.
She had barely even touched you.
âHurry up.â You rush out, hands gripping the collar of her polo and pulling her lips to yours. This kiss felt necessary. It was eager and filled with emotion and excitement that you both carried. Her tongue navigated your mouth while she tugged down your pants down to your knees.
You try to gently pull away, but Paige pulls you back with a hand at the back of your neck. âIn a minute.â She responded, each movement calculated.
You finally do pull back, breath deep and ragged, a string of saliva connects your lips. She licks it away and without a word she spins you around and bends you over the counter.
The air hits your cunt immediately, forcing a gasp from your throat. Paigeâs hand follows, giving a sharp slap to your ass that makes you jolt.
âUnbutton your shirt.â
âPaige, I donât have all dââ
âUnbutton, your shirt.â She instructed while sinking behind you. You watch that blonde hair, that is just a twinge of pink, travel behind you until the soft thud of her knees htting the ground follows. âBra too.â
You try. You really do, but Paigeâs hands shock you by spreading your folds apart. Her hands cold and a bit rough as they scissor you open.
âMore. Fuck, more, please.â You whine, pushing your hips back against her.
âI did this shit to you, baby? You get all wet from watchinâ me answer a few questions?â Paige teases, pout obvious in her voice. Youâre lucky she canât see your face in the mirror, the obvious flush on your face would be too embarrassing to handle.
You donât even get a chance to respond before the warmth of her tongue wipes away any other thoughts.
Itâs criminal how good Paige is at this. How her tongue navigates through every line of your pussy like sheâs made for it.
Her large hands press to your ass, spreading your cheeks apart to get better access to the depths of your cunt. Paigeâs nails dug into the flesh while her tongue pushed in and slowly fucks into you.
âOh! God, yes, P.â You groan, slamming your hand down on the counter to keep you stable.
âWhat I say about that shirt?â She grumbles against you, pulling back briefly to see just how good you look from behind. The curve of your ass and the slight pucker of your asshole, your cunt dripping and the juices trailing down your leg.
Those panties arenât helping, hugging tight to your core and a darker shade of burgundy, from her own spit, than the one she saw a few minutes ago.
Paige dives back into you, humming as she suckles on your swollen clit.
You know better than to piss her off, so you unbutton the shirt, following that by popping the clasp on the front of your lace bra. Hushed moans spill from your lips as you grind back against Paigeâs magical fucking lips.
She was so messy with it, her head shaking side to side. Her tongue stretched flat over the expanse of your pussy.
âTaste so fuckinâ good, baby.â Paige mutters, pulling back to spit down your backside. Her thumb trails through your folds, making you shudder, until it reaches your ass. âLemme have you here?â
You think sheâs crazy. Either sex deprived or pussy drunk but you still let her. Youâre nodding, desperate for her to touch you again. Whether itâs her lips around your clit or her tongue in your ass.
âHurry up, oh my God.â You groan, pushing back once more. Paigeâs thumb circles your ass before she sinks it deep, hooking it inside of you and going back to wrapping her lips around your clit. Paige sucks on it like a fucking pacifier, running her tongue over the hood.
âFuckinâ tight. You such a slut for it, huh?â She degrades with her mouth busy. Her thumb fucking into you at an ungodly speed.
Your breath hitches and your legs start to tremble. âPaige, Iâm gonna cum.â You moan, that pit in your stomach feeling like fire. Your lip finds its way between your teeth in an attempt to quiet your moans.
âHold it jusâ a lil longer, ma.â She commands.
Again, you know better than to disobey her, so you do. Your eyes bore into the mirror, watching her stand up behind you, her face completely covered in your arousal. It drips down her chin, some staining the top of her shirt.
Paigeâs thumb finally leaves you, making you feel like you can breathe again. She reaches forward with her other hand, wrapping it gently around your neck, and pulling you into a kiss.
You taste very bit of yourself on her tongue as she kisses you slow. It distracts you from everything. Which gives the blonde a perfect opportunity to sink her finger into you.
âSheâs so wet for me, ma.â
You try to hide the face you make at the stretch, your cunt opening up for her like that was its job. You pull away from her and your jaw falls slack, gripping the edge of the sink as she moves it faster.
The echo of your arousal is loud, probably heard by your peers out on the floor right now. But you donât care. It feels incredible, like she was made for you. And Paige feels it too.
âSo perfect, baby.â She whispered into your mouth before turning your face so you see yourself in the mirror. Youâre a mess, eyeliner on your lower lash line slightly smeared and your hair disheveled. âJusâ sucking me in.â
A response built on your tongue, seconds away from traveling to her ears until she slipped another finger inside of you. You watch as Paigeâs eyes slightly roll at the squelching sound.
âFuckingâshit, oh my God.â You moan, this time itâs too loud.
The hand that is splayed across your chin moves to cover your mouth. âI know it feels good, but you gotta stay quiet, baby.â She says, curling her fingers until they hit that one gummy spot and youâre nearly falling apart.
Paige looks incredible. Her lips pink and swollen, those crystal blue eyes drinking up every inch of your body through the mirror. Itâs literally a scene from a movie. The lights dim and illuminating over every single detail of the both of you.
Your tits bounce with each thrust of her fingers, giving her more motivation to keep going.
Her hand leaves your mouth to knead one, pinching at your nipple and tugging it until her name spilled out of your lips like a broken prayer.
âPaige! Yeah, baby, just like that. Fuck!â You babble, head falling back onto her strong shoulder as she speeds up. And youâre gushing, all over your legs and all over her hand.
âYou wanna cum for me?â
âPlease. Mâright there, P.â
âCâmon, mama.â She leaves a kiss to your neck, followed by a bite to the same spot. âYou got it, princess. Let me have it.â
And thatâs all it takes for the cord to snap as for you to let go on those fingers, a hushed cry leaving your mouth as your body writhes.
âGood girl. So good, look at that.â Your eyes nearly roll into the back of your head at the praise. Paigeâs fingerâs finally slow as they work you through it, her other hand leaving your body to run a hand through your hair.
âFuck.â You breathe. âI said five minutes.â
âI couldnât help myself, those fuckinâ panties you got on. You knew better.â She defends, kissing your neck as her fingers finally leave you.
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CHAPTER 16: CUPID'S CHOKEHOLD
à©â© gojo satoru x reader
His touch ignites something within you - a spark of desire you've been trying to suppress for far too long. The want in you hurts. The frustration, the anger, the tenderness, it all boils within the core of you. Itâs all coming to a head.
à©â© chapter cw/tags: mentions of pregnancy, angst, dom!reader, sub!satoru, handjobs, riding, teasing, light degradation, dacryphilia, vaginal sex
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à©â© a/n: happy thanksgiving yall can stop threatening me with bombs now
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December, 2011
The crisp December air nips at your cheeks as you lead Megumi and Tsumiki down the bustling street. Christmas decorations twinkle in shop windows. You pull your scarf tighter, glancing back to make sure the children are keeping up.
Megumi trudges along, his hands shoved deep in his pockets, his expression as serious as ever. Tsumiki, by contrast, practically skips beside you, her eyes wide with wonder at the festive displays. They both wear matching blushes, the cold painting their pale cheeks the same roseate pink.
"Can we get taiyaki?" Tsumiki asks, tugging on your sleeve and pointing to a small shop ahead.
You smile down at her. "Of course. What about you, Megumi? What would you like?"
The boy shrugs, his gaze fixed on the ground. "Whatever's fine."
You lead them into the warmth of the taiyaki shop, the sweet aroma of red bean paste and custard filling the air. As you wait in line, you crouch down to Megumi's level.
"You know," you say softly, ruffling his hair, "it's okay to want things, Megumi. To have preferences. You don't always have to go along with what everyone else wants."
He looks at you, surprise flashing across his face before his usual stoic expression returns. "I... I like the chocolate ones," he admits quietly.
You scratch his head affectionately. "Chocolate it is, then."
You place your order - custard for Tsumiki, chocolate for Megumi, and red bean for yourself. Afterwards, you find a bench in a nearby park to enjoy your treats. Tsumiki chatters away about her upcoming school play, while Megumi listens intently, occasionally nodding or offering a quiet comment.
"Youâre gonna stay with us for the holidays, right? Are you gonna move in?" Tsumiki asks suddenly, her voice hopeful.
The question catches you off guard, and you fumble for an answer. "Um, yeah, I will. Stay, that is. And you guys know you can always just knock on my door downstairs."
Youâd agreed to stay until the semester ended in the spring. Youâd been around for a little over a month, but you already had your doubts about going back to Kyoto. Already, you found yourself looking forward to getting up in the morning while in Tokyo, seasonal depression be damned. You tell yourself itâs not because of the white-haired sorcerer that occupies your thoughts constantly â itâs the familiarity of the city. And the kids, of course.
To both Tsumiki and Satoruâs dismay (and a slight frown from Megumi), you decided to take the offer of an apartment the floor below them. It wasnât exactly vacant, as Satoru claimed â the previous tenant, a well-off socialite of some sort, needed a sublet. You needed your own space from Satoru for your own sanity, and he was willing to pay the rent for the allotted time you could be there.
Tsumiki pouts. âBut itâs easier if you just live in our apartment!â
âI canât do that since youâve converted the spare room into yours with all your dolls laying around,â you snort. Tsumiki opens her mouth to protest but decides against it, considering you have a point.
âHmph. Still. You can sleep in Satoruâs room, right? Itâs so big!â
Your face nearly pales at the suggestion, ironically. As if it was something scandalous, which perhaps it would be considering your complicated relationship. Youâre sure heâd be thrilled if you brought it up.
Megumi looks up at you, his green eyes serious. "We like having you here," he says softly. "Satoru-san is... different when you're around. Better."
You feel a warmth bloom in your chest at his words. "Better?"
Tsumiki nods enthusiastically. "He smiles more! And he doesn't forget to make breakfast as much."
You chuckle, imagining Satoru's indignant expression if he could hear this conversation. "Well, I'm glad I can help. But Satoru cares about you both very much, you know."
As if on cue, your phone buzzes with a photo attachment from him. Thereâs a boiling pot of⊠something, on the stove.
satoru: you guys arenât going to leave me to eat by myself, are you????? ^-^
you: weâll be home soon. the kids wanted taiyaki
satoru: donât help them spoil their dinner :(
you: itâs probably more edible than what youâre making
satoru: :( say that to my face at least :(
You chuckle, locking your phone. âCâmon, guys. Letâs get home before Satoru burns down the kitchen.â
As you walk back home with Megumi and Tsumiki, their words echo in your mind. The realization that you've become such an integral part of their lives fills you with a trepidation, but also tenderness. You've been careful not to overstep, to maintain some semblance of boundaries, but the lines have been blurring more and more each day.
The apartment is warm and inviting when you return, the smell of something delicious wafting from the kitchen. You help the kids out of their winter gear, hanging up coats and scarves as they rush to see what Satoru is cooking.
You follow more slowly, pausing in the doorway to take in the scene. Satoru stands at the stove, stirring something in a large pot. His hair is slightly mussed, and he's wearing the ridiculous "Kiss the Cook" apron you bought him as a joke for his birthday.Â
Satoru looks up, catching your eye. His face breaks into a warm smile, one that reaches his eyes and makes your heart skip a beat.
"Welcome home," he says softly. âDid you guys have fun?â
Tsumiki launches into an excited recounting of your afternoon, while Megumi nods along, occasionally adding a quiet comment. Satoru listens attentively, his expression softening as he watches the children.
You move into the kitchen, drawn by the warmth and the tantalizing aroma. "What's for dinner?" you ask, peering into the pot.
"Curry," Satoru announces proudly. "My specialty."
You raise an eyebrow skeptically. "Since when is curry your specialty?"
He grins, leaning in close to whisper in your ear. "Since I found your recipe book and followed the instructions very, very carefully."
His breath tickles your skin, sending a shiver down your spine. You playfully push him away, ignoring the knowing look Tsumiki gives you.
As you all sit down to eat, the conversation flows easily. Megumi talks about a new technique he's been practicing, while Tsumiki regales you with tales from her drama club. Satoru watches it all with a contented smile, occasionally catching your eye across the table.
Later, after the kids have gone to bed, you find yourself alone with Satoru in the living room. He's sprawled on the couch, his head in your lap as you absently run your fingers through his hair.
Satoru stretches languidly, cat-like. The movement causes his shirt to ride up slightly, revealing his stomach. You force yourself to look away, busying yourself with whateverâs on the television.
âSo," Satoru says, his voice low and teasing, "what do you want for Christmas?"
You look down to face him, scoffing. "Who says I'm expecting anything from you?"
He grins that cocky, infuriating grin that still makes your stomach flip. "Come on, Twigs. There must be something you want."
âHavenât really thought about it.
âCâmon. You must have.â
You weigh your words carefully. "How about... a nice, quiet evening, where you donât bother me with your bullshit?"
Satoru laughs, his blue eyes warm as he regards you. "I think that can be arranged," he says softly.
He gets closer, his hand reaching out to tuck a stray strand of hair behind your ear. The gesture is so tender, so intimate, that you find yourself leaning into his touch despite your better judgment.
"You know," Satoru murmurs, his voice low, "the kids were asking me the other day if you were going to be their new mom."
Your breath catches in your throat. You narrow your eyes. "Thatâs not funny."
âWhat? Their words, not mine.â
You sigh, leaning back against the couch. "Satoru, we've talked about this. We can't just jump into playing house. It's not fair to the kids."
He sits up, his expression suddenly serious. "I know. But... is it so crazy to think about? Us, together, raising them? I mean, weâve already been doing it, basically, right?â
The weight of his words hangs in the air between you. You can feel your heart racing, a mix of longing and fear swirling in your chest.
"It's not crazy," you admit softly. "But it's complicated. We have a lot of history, Satoru. A lot of things we still need to work through. Also, youâre freshly twenty-two. Thatâs hardly the age to be a considered a guardian."
âBut I am their guardian!â he frowns. âAnd your momâs pretty young. Didnât she have you around our age?â
âThatâs not even â weâre going off topic. This isnât about me having a kid,â you blush, the brief thought of mothering a child of your own with Satoru send a brief shock to your chest. âJust relax, okay? Take things slow.â
Satoru intertwines his fingers with yours, his thumb tracing gentle circles on your skin. "Slow," he agrees. "I can do slow."
But even as he says it, you can see the mischievous glint in his eye. He leans in, his lips brushing against your ear as he whispers, "But just so you know, I'm not very good at being patient."
You laugh, pushing him away playfully. "Oh, I'm well aware of that, Gojo Satoru."
He grins, pulling you closer until you're practically in his lap. "Can you blame me? Do you have any idea how irresistible you are?"
Your breath hitches as his hand trails up your thigh. "Satoru," you warn, but there's no real heat behind it.
"What?" he asks innocently. "I'm behaving. This is me behaving."
You roll your eyes, but you can't help the smile that tugs at your lips. "You're impossible."
"Impossibly charming, you mean," he quips, leaning in to press a soft kiss to your neck.
You shiver at the contact, your resolve weakening with each passing moment. "The kids," you remind him weakly.
"Are fast asleep," he murmurs against your skin. "And I can be very, very quiet when I need to be."
âSpeaking of asleep,â you say quickly, leaning away. âThatâs exactly what I need to be right now.â
He lets out a noise in between a groan and a whine, which you would rebuke more efficiently if the sound didnât make heat settle in the pit of your stomach.
âYou still didnât give me my birthday present,â he murmurs. You donât miss the suggestiveness in his gaze.
âI didnât say Iâd fuck you.â
âYou kind of did,â he pouts.
âYouâre still on that, huh? I was teasing you. And drunk.â
The last time youâd went out for drinks with him and Shoko, youâd gone home with him in a good mood, apparently good enough to let him be handsy. He took whatever crumbs he could get from you, played the part of a good dog after he had a few fruity cocktails. You let him kiss you on the side of your mouth and you wouldnât hear the end of it. Even if heâd shut up, the puppy-dog looks heâd throw you would push you over the edge.
âYou tease me every damn day by existing. I should banish you.â
âRight. Like youâd survive more time apart from me,â you snort.
âOf course not,â he rolls his eyes. âI love you too much.â
You meet his gaze, face warming at the casualness of his declaration. This is Satoru stripped bare, all his walls down, offering you his heart. Itâs still something youâre not used to â the way he gives affection so easily. He always had, of course, but never so candid in sincerity.
It made you sick almost, like being sugar-drunk on something much too decadent. Humiliated you with how warm it made you, your tongue heavy as lead in your mouth like a teenager again.
âOh?â Satoru grins. âDid that get you going?â
âNo. Shut up.â
âYou like that. Noted.â
You scoff, rising from the couch. âIâm going to bed now.â
âGoodnight, sweetheart!â he calls after you. âLove you.â
âGoodnight, weirdo,â you huff, trudging your feet towards the door. You pause as you touch the doorknob before turning around. âI love you too.â
You leave too quickly to gauge his reaction, but you feel his smile burn into the back of your neck.
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You come home to Jiji rubbing his head against your shin. He was still small â a runt, resembling more like a soot sprite than the Ghibli cat he was named after. He acted a lot like Megumi, truthfully. Clung to you, bombarded your space especially if Satoru was around.
âHey, sweetheart,â you coo, scooping the cat from the floor to nuzzle. âYou miss the kids, donât you?â
He mews at you as if to say yes and you grin. You make your way upstairs, Jijiâs head tucked in your shoulder as you unlock Satoruâs apartment with your spare key.
Satoru is already in the kitchen, hair tousled from the dayâs mission. His eyes light up when he sees you walk in. âTwigs! Ready for Operation Birthday Boy?â he grins, eyes twinkling with mischief.
Before you can greet him properly, your gaze drifts over the amount of balloons and streamers haphazardly aligning the walls. Many are Digimon-themed, despite knowing full well that Megumi preferred Pokemon, but that isnât an argument that was worth having with Satoru unless you wanted him to revert to his child-self.
âYou⊠went all out,â you mutter, still examining the expanse of the living room. There were streamers every color under the sun strung around, comically bright in contrast with the luxury apartments plain white walls.
The smell of cake batter and melting chocolate permeates through the air. You notice then as you step closer towards Satoru that the Italian marble of the kitchen island is dusted with flour. You groan.
âSatoru, I thought we were picking up a cakeââ
âBut a homemade one has more love!â he scoffs. Heâs made a mess of his apron, not to mention there was a streak of pink frosting on his cheekbone.
âAnd who said you were qualified enough to bake?â
âHey! Iâm trying here! And donât worry, Iâm not making dinner, obviously. We still have to pick up the hors dâoeuvres from the catering placeââ
âWhat? Weâre celebrating a nine-year-old.â
âYou get expensive taste when you live with me,â he shrugs. âYou like oysters, right? I heard itâs a really good aphrodisiacâ ow!â
He flinches when you flick him in the forehead. He pouts, rubbing his head as if youâd actually inflicted damage on him.
âThe hell was that for?â
You ignore his question. âWhere are the kids? Itâs like⊠dinner time. School should be out by now.â
âI told Shoko to pick them up and stall. Iâm still preparing.â
âSatoru â seriously? You decided to make the cake right before we celebrate?â
âIt wonât take long! This is a state-of-the-art oven for your information!â Satoru scoffs, rinsing his hands in the sink. The amount of flour on the marble of the island makes you cringe. And was that⊠an egg yolk stain in the corner?
âThat doesnât meanââ
The oven beeps as if to taunt you. Satoru grins, putting on oven mitts that are comically too small for him to take out the cake. Itâs certainly cake-shaped despite the lumpy bubbles on top.
âWanna help me decorate the cake for the birthday boy?â
You move in front of him, shooing him away. He pouts again, the expression making you want to simultaneously hit him and kiss him, and hands you a butter knife and a tub of mint green frosting.
âGo crazy, Twigs,â he sighs. âI should shower anyway.â
You take the time to meticulously cover the entirety of the chocolate cake in the frosting, with Happy Birthday, Megumi! in loopy script in the middle. Youâre quick to clean the rest of the kitchen, still reeling from how much of a mess Satoru managed to make in your absence.
By the time Satoru emerges from his bedroom, the kitchen is mostly clean, and he steps into the room in a crisp baby-blue dress shirt and black slacks. You try to ignore the fluttering sensation in your belly at the sight of it. It was your favorite outfit on him and he probably wore it knowing that. You huff lightly, looking away.
You gain reprieve from his teasing when you hear the door open. More balloons float into the room, all bound in Tsumikiâs small hand as she walks in with Shoko and Megumi.
âHappy birthday, Megumi-kun!â you exclaim in glee, walking towards him for a hug. He smiles brightly, blushing as he hugs you back.
Satoru notices the takeout boxes in Shokoâs hands and raises a brow. âYou took them to eat dinner already?â
âObviously. They definitely werenât going to eat the foie gras you ordered or whatever the fuck,â she snorts. âBut more for the adults, eh?â
âCan you not swear around them ââ
âI knew the word fuck before!â Tsumiki beams. You share an exasperated look with Satoru, but heâs only holding in a laugh.
As Shoko and Satoru get the kids settled, you lock Jiji in the spare room to prevent Megumiâs Divine dogs from chasing the poor thing. They were all bared teeth, bright eyes. Still puppies, still young like the kids.Â
Afterwards, you return to the living room just in time for Satoru to bring out the cake with pastel lit candles atop of it.
Megumi is quiet as everyone shrouds him, gazing at the birthday cake like heâs never seen one before. He hasnât really â maybe he did when his parents were still together and alive and didnât fuck off to somewhere else, he doesnât know â but even he did, he wouldnât remember. He had only known shared dandelion wishes with Tsumiki, fuzzy memories of Toji patting his head when on his sixth birthday.
You look at him now and you see a child who doesnât know what to do with all the love surrounding him, and the sight reminds you of yourself.
âMake a wish, Megumi,â you say softly. He looks up at you with wide eyes as if making a wish were to make a sacrifice. He closes his eyes and blows the candles out, smiling softly as everyone claps.
You lean back on the couch as you watch him unwrap his presents, which include an abundance of hastily-wrapped boxes from Satoru. Toya and electronics that the kid probably havenât dreamt of owning. Satoru was still young in his own right and it showed in his animated way of speaking, excitedly presenting his gifts to Megumi like he was an older brother. Your chest feels uncharacteristically warm as you watch.
You, Satoru, and Shoko watch as the kids play amongst themselves, indulging yourselves in the catering that Satoru had bought, which was more of a luxury takeout order more than anything. The bottle of wine that Shoko had brought makes you able to tolerate Satoruâs antics. You refuse to admit to him, but you even find him endearing tonight.
After the ordeal, Shoko hugs you and departs to her own apartment, while Satoru entertains the kids with a new video game console heâd bought for Megumi. After cleaning, Satoru insists in you joining, which results in many competitive games of Super Street Fighter IV.
Tsumiki is the first to doze off on the couch, her head cradled in your lap as you stroke her hair gently.
âHey, kid,â Satoru whispers to Megumi, âLooks like your sisterâs knocked out. Itâs about time for bed, donât ya think?â
âBut I wanted to play more Final Fantasy!â Megumi whines.
âWe can play some more tomorrow,â you quip. âItâs been a long day.â
âOkay,â he pouts, taking your hand as you lead him to his bedroom.
Satoru is lounging on the couch once you return, grinning.
âWhat?â
âNothing. Youâre just a good mom.â
You narrow your eyes. âIâm not their mom.â
âYeah, but ââ
âTold you weâre not playing house, Satoru,â you scoff, slumping your body into the couch next him.
âI know,â he says softly. âIâm just complimenting your ability to rein in some brats.â
âHad a lot of practice from you.â
He laughs.
You glance at him, noticing his mussed-up hair, the soft wrinkles of his button-down. He looked more grown-up than he meant to be. It wasnât that Satoru looked particularly mature, but seeing him slightly disheveled after handling Megumiâs birthday made him look older than how youâd seen him in earlier years â childish, boyish. In the light of the dim lamp beside him, he looked like a man with responsibilities.
It was like seeing him in the future. But youâre here now, in his apartment, in the present, and the sight of him looking so domestic is doing awful things to your heart.
âYouâre⊠really good with them, too, you know. You donât really need me,â you murmur.
âHuh?â Satoru raises his brows. âNo. Of course I need you.â
You almost blush at that. Youâre glad for the wine that heâs given you, relaxing your muscles, giving you an excuse for the flush in your cheeks.
âYou can do it on your own, though,â you say softly. âYouâre just⊠better at this than I thought youâd be. Itâs admirable. Thatâs all.â
His gaze softens. âThanks, Twigs. That means a lot.â
He looks at you then, almost amused, as if the concept of a compliment from you had been completely unheard of. As if the notion alone made him flattered enough to forget humility. (Though, youâre sure the prodigal Satoru Gojo has never known humility.)
âSo youâre praising me, then? Do I win best babysitter of the year?â he chuckles.
âSure. Whatever,â you snort. âDonât get such a big head about it.â
âOh, but I must. You think Iâm a complete disaster usually, but youâre telling me I was good with the kids tonight? My head is huge, Twigs.â
You roll your eyes, trying to hide your smile. Trying to hide the way your stomach feels hotter when you look at him and his charming grin. He looks back at you with an expression that makes your pulse go faster.
âYouâre cute.â
You blink at him. His voice is heady and husky, his gaze soft. Tentative as he leans in, clearly wary that heâd spook you by crossing the invisible line youâve set since you decided to move back to Tokyo.
âSpeechless, baby?â he drawls. âI didnât even try hard at flirting this time.â
âShut up,â you scoff, paying more attention to your glass of wine. âYouâre hardly seducing me right now.â
âNever said I was trying to,â he murmurs, leaning into you. His hand is on your knee and you donât swat him away, for once. In his mind, this is progress.
âBut youâre always trying to.â You narrow your eyes.
âAm not.â
âAre too.â
He hums, the vibration of his voice like warm honey. âMm. Am not.â
âOkay. Iâm going to bed now.â You rise from the couch, but Satoru catches your wrist in his large, pale hand. You look at him with a brow raised.
âSleep here tonight?â
âNo.â
âCâmon. Please? I wonât try anything.â
You contemplate. You arenât truly at the brink of exhaustion, but the demands Yaga-sensei made of you at school had started to become one of your main stressors. Youâre tired. You definitely donât feel like going downstairs to your own apartment, Jiji in hand, having to clean up the mess in your own space that you ignored in lieu of preparing for Megumiâs birthday.
You swallow, clenching your jaw. âFine. Iâm feeling lazy tonight.â
Satoru smiles wide, flashing his white teeth. Angel-headed under the soft glow of the lamp. You have to look away before your stomach stirs with something youâll ruminate over.
âStay in my bed?â
âSatoruââ
âCome on. Iâm not letting you sleep on the couch. Also, the spare room is a mess. The kids made a blanket fort in there last night that is yet to be deconstructed.â
âOkay. Whatever,â you mutter, retreating to the bathroom to freshen up. Afterwards, you return to Jiji and scoop him up in your arms, pleased at the way the cat nuzzles into your face.
You step into Satoru's bedroom, immediately overwhelmed by the sheer size of the space. The bed is enormous, draped in crisp white sheets that look almost too pristine to touch. It smells faintly of himâclean, like fresh linen and a hint of something sharp and sweet, like cedarwood mixed with sugar. Youâre already regretting this decision, though perhaps not entirely for the reasons youâd like to admit.
You undress and change into one of his t-shirts before crawling into his bed. Satoru follows you in shortly after, pausing in the doorway with an infuriatingly smug grin plastered across his face.
âYou know,â he begins, leaning casually against the frame as he folds his arms across his chest, âI didnât think my birthday present would be you gracing me with your presence in my bed tonight, but honestly? Best gift ever.â
You glare at him from over your shoulder as you set Jiji down on the floor. The little cat immediately darts under Satoruâs bed for refugeâlikely avoiding any further encounters with Megumiâs Divine dogs, or perhaps the bubbling conflict in the room itself.
âYour birthday was weeks ago. Donât push your luck,â you warn flatly. âI gave in because Iâm tired. This isnât some⊠romantic gesture.â
âOh, sure,â he teases, taking a few steps closer until he towers over you. His voice drops to a playful murmur as he gleefully adds, âBut it could be.â
You groan audibly and climb onto the far side of the bedâintentionally as far away from him as possibleâand tug the edge of the comforter over yourself without sparing him another glance. "Goodnight, Satoru."
âYeah, yeah,â he chuckles, pulling off his socks and tossing them carelessly across the room. He casually strips off his shirt and pants, throwing them somewhere near the hamper â not inside it, of course â before flopping down beside you like a content cat. He stretches out languidly, one arm tucked behind his head as he turns to watch you. You try not to dwell on the fact that heâs beside you, only in his boxers.
The room falls quiet save for the soft hum of the heater kicking on and Jiji occasionally rustling beneath the bed. You shut your eyes tightly and try to relax, but thereâs no ignoring how aware you are of Satoru's presence beside youâthe way his breathing evens out gradually or how his arm brushes yours when he shifts.
Minutes pass in silence before he finally speaks again, his voice softer this timeâdevoid of its usual teasing edge. âYou really think Iâm good with them? Megumi and Tsumiki?â
You open your eyes but donât immediately respond. Thereâs something vulnerable about his tone that catches you off guardâa rare glimpse at the pieces of himself he so often keeps hidden beneath his bravado.
âYeah,â you answer quietly after a pause. Turning your head slightly to look at him in the dim light filtering through the curtains, you add honestly, âI wouldnât have said it if I didnât mean it.â
He turns his head toward you now too, studying you intently. For a second, neither of you speak. His gaze holds yours long enough for your chest to tighten uncomfortably under its weight.
âYouâre good for them too,â he says softly after what feels like an eternity. His voice has lost all pretense nowâitâs raw and earnest in a way that has always made you feel unsteady around him. "For us."
âThanks,â you mumble.
âI mean it.â
âI know.â
Silence falls over you both, but you can still feel Satoruâs begging eyes boring into your skull. You look over to him and it feels like his blue eyes are glowing in the dark. He strips his gaze from you and looks up at the ceiling instead, feigning a casual demeanor.
The silence stretches between you, heavy with unspoken tension. You can feel the heat radiating from Satoru's body, achingly close yet still too far. His eyes, usually so bright and mischievous, are dark and intense as they roam over your face.
"Twigs," he murmurs, his voice low. "Look at me."
Reluctantly, you roll over to face him. In the dim light, his eyes are impossibly blue, gleaming with an intensity that makes your breath catch. He reaches out, his fingers ghosting along your cheek with a tenderness that surprises you.
"I meant what I said," Satoru continues, his thumb tracing the curve of your jaw. "You're good for us. For me."
He moves closer, his hand coming up to cup your cheek. His touch is gentle, almost reverent, as his thumb traces the curve of your cheekbone. You can feel his breath, warm against your skin, as he leans in.
You swallow hard. "Satoru," you warn, but your voice lacks conviction.
He sighs but leans in, his lips brushing against your ear as he whispers, "Please."
You know you should push him away. You know this is dangerous territory, that you're teetering on the edge of something irreversible. Youâre too stubborn for your own good, both you and Satoru know this. Itâs why you curl into his chest instead of pressing your mouth to his. The fear of falling into his charm is futile, especially with how much you want him, frustratingly so.
Satoru's hand slides from your cheek to the nape of your neck, fingers tangling in your hair. You can feel the rapid beat of his heart beneath your palm, matching the frantic rhythm of your own.
His touch sends a shiver down your spine, and suddenly, it occurs to you how close you are to him, how intimate this feels. The air between you feels charged, electric.
He says your name, this time, bedroom-soft. Not Twigs, not baby, but your name.
Instead of shying away as you normally might, something shifts inside you. Maybe it's the wine from earlier, or the vulnerability in Satoru's voice, or simply the culmination of months of unresolved tension. Whatever it is, it emboldens you.
His touch ignites something within you - a spark of desire you've been trying to suppress for far too long. The want in you hurts. The frustration, the anger, the tenderness, it all boils within the core of you. Itâs all coming to head. When you hear the way Satoru says your name, you decide that you need catharsis.
In one fluid motion, you grab Satoruâs wrist, pinning it above his head as you roll on top of him. His eyes widen in surprise, lips parting in a soft gasp.
"Is this what you want, Satoru?" you breathe, your face inches from his. "Is this why you've been pushing so hard?"
"W-what are you doing?" he stammers, caught off guard by your sudden assertiveness.
Your free hand trails down his chest, fingernails scraping lightly against the skin of his bare chest. Satoru shudders beneath you, his body arching into your touch. You can feel his heart racing, see the flush creeping up his neck under the pale moonlight.
"You talk a big game," you murmur. "But can you handle it when someone else takes control?"
Satoru swallows hard, his Adam's apple bobbing. "Try me," he challenges, but there's a tremor in his voice that betrays his nervousness.
You pull back, meeting his gaze with a taunting smile. Slowly, deliberately, you grind your hips against his, eliciting a low moan from Satoru. His free hand moves to grip your waist, but you catch it, pinning both his wrists above his head.
"No,â you chastise. "No touching unless I say so."
Satoru's eyes darken with desire, his chest rising and falling rapidly. "You're killing me, Twigs," he groans.
"Good," you purr, leaning down to nip his jaw.Â
You take your time exploring his body with your hands, savoring every gasp and shudder you draw from him as if itâs the first time youâve touched him. Satoru writhes beneath you, struggling against your grip, desperate for more contact. But you maintain control, setting a torturously slow pace that has him practically begging.
"Please," he whimpers, his usual cockiness completely shattered. "I need you."
You smile against his skin, enjoying this newfound power. You scoff. "I thought you said you could do slow?"
He lets out a frustrated groan, his head falling back against the pillow. "That was before I knew how evil you could be."
"Evil?" you chuckle, trailing your fingers down his chest. "I'm barely taunting you. If anything, Iâm just giving you a taste of your own medicine."
You lean in close, your lips brushing against his ear as you whisper, "Besides, I thought you liked it when I took charge."
Satoru shivers beneath you, his breath coming in short, ragged gasps. "I do," he admits, his voice strained. "God, I do."
You smile, a predatory glint in your eyes as you slowly grind against him. The friction draws a low moan from Satoru, his hips bucking up involuntarily. He can feel the warmth of your core, your heat against his cock with only two layers of fabric separating him from what he truly wants.
You tsk, pressing him firmly back down onto the mattress.
"Stay still," you command. "Or I'll stop altogether."
With deliberate slowness, you trail your fingers down his chest, savoring the way his muscles quiver beneath your touch. Satoru's breathing grows ragged as your hand dips lower, tracing the V of his hips before stopping just short of where he wants â no, needs you most.
"Twigs," he groans, frustration evident in his voice. "Stop teasing."
You laugh, nipping at his collarbone. "But you make it so fun, Satoru."
Your free hand ghosts over the front of his boxers, barely applying pressure. Satoru's hips buck involuntarily, seeking more friction, but you pull away with a wicked grin.
âI told you Iâd stop if you misbehave.â
Satoru's eyes flash with a mix of desire and defiance. "You wouldn't dare."
You raise an eyebrow, accepting his challenge. Slowly, you begin to pull away, but Satoru's words tumble out in a rush.
"Wait!â he gasps, panicked. âI'm sorry, I'll be good. Please, don't stop."
The desperation in his voice sends a thrill through you. You've never seen Satoru like this - completely at your mercy, his usual bravado stripped away. Even in the dark, his eyes usually glow aquamarine, but right now pools of onyx stare back at you underneath heavy white lashes.
"That's better," you murmur, rewarding him with a slow, sensual kiss. He whines into it, licks into your mouth like heâs begging you to eat him whole.Â
You take your time with him mapping every dip and curve of his upper body with your lips and tongue. Satoru writhes beneath you, soft whimpers escaping him as you lavish attention on his most sensitive spots.
When you finally free him from his boxers, Satoru lets out a sigh of relief. But instead of giving him what he wants, you continue your slow pace, placing feather-light kisses along his inner thighs. He huffs when you press his thumb against his leaking slit, while you look at him with a grin as you apply pressure.
âYou have such a pretty cock, Satoru.â
His face gets even warmer, if that was possible. âSh-shut upââ
You raise your brows. âWhat was that, sweetheart?â
His eyes widen aa your mean expression. "N-Nothing! Iâm sorry. Just â please," Satoru begs, his voice hoarse. "I need you. I needâ"
You silence him with a finger to his lips. "Shh. The kids are sleeping, remember? We wouldn't want to wake them, would we?"
Satoru's breath hitches at the reminder, and he bites his lip to stifle a moan as he watches you spit on his cock, finally wrapping your hand around him. You set a maddeningly slow rhythm, watching with satisfaction as Satoru struggles to keep quiet. Your mouth grazes him, only barely. He needs you around him, completely. His cock is fucking aching for it.
A whine escapes Satoru's throat, his hips jerking upward. "Twigs, please. I can'tâ I needâ"
Cruelly, you cover his mouth with your palm. You have half the mind to gag him. Youâre tempted to, really, but youâve already slipped off your panties and thrown them somewhere across the room.
âBabyââ
âStop fucking talking,â you hiss, your hand around his throat. He gasps, looks at you with half-lidded eyes. Mouth parted. Lovestruck. âBe good.â
He complies, whimpering softly instead of pleading with useless words. You watch his eyes roll back as your hand moves from his shaft to his tip, your spit lubricating his twitching cock along with the precum collecting at the top.
You savor the power you hold over him, watching his chest heave with each labored breath. Satoru's usual cockiness has evaporated, leaving him vulnerable and needy beneath you. It's intoxicating.
You can feel him trembling beneath you, every muscle taut with the effort of staying quiet. His hands clutch at the sheets, knuckles white, eyes shut tight. You release his throat, trailing your fingers down his chest as you position yourself above him.
"Look at me," you command softly.
Satoru's eyes flutter open, hazy with desire. His hands graze your waist tentatively, smoothing over the soft skin over your ribs underneath the t-shirt (his t-shirt) that clings loosely to your frame.
He can almost feel how wet you are, he swears it. His Six Eyes can see everything from the tremble of your pulse, sensing how much your desires are waiting to jump out of your skin. The wetness of your pink mouth. He feels delirious with want, deluded, maybe, just from the intensity of his senses as he takes in your presence.
He could be hallucinating how intense it all really is. He isnât sure â heâs too drunk on the fact that youâre in his lap at all, partially bare. Your bare cunt hovering over his cock. Taunting. Fucking tease. If he wanted, he could flip you over and restrain you. Have your hands yanked to your lower back, make you yelp like a slut.
But he doesnât. Heâs already a mess for you, no matter what you intend to do to him. He knows thereâs something so awful inside of him thatâs waiting to crawl out something only you can coax out.
When you look at him with moonlight reflecting in your pupils, the desire overtakes him. Despite himself, he rises him to meet your mouth, desperate for a kiss or any semblance of one, but your hand tightens around his throat. He moans at the pressure of it and blushes, embarrassed. He whines.
âHa. Nice try. Youâre so fucking eager, huh? Missed me that much?â you taunt. Itâs cruel and you know it. Youâve known how much heâs wanted you â youâve defied it when heâs been too candid about it. And now, while his heart is on his sleeve with your name in the center, you tease him.
He would take you over his knee for it if he wasnât fucking melting underneath you.
âOf course I missed you,â Satoru grits.
âOooh, so feisty. You look like an angry dog, you know that?â you sneer.
âBelittle me all you want,â he narrows his eyes, âJust let me â fuck ââ
He perks up his head and tries to kiss you but you reject him. He has to stifle a groan. His resolve is crumbling into nothingness.
âPlease fuck me,â he gasps. âOr just kiss me. Do anything you want. I just â I donât care. I need you ââ
Satoru writhes against the bedsheets. Grits his teeth, baring his canines like a dog ready to fight. But youâre as gentle as you are evil, able to weaken his efforts just by the slight tilt of your plump mouth. A knowing smirk.
âYou need me?â you laugh.
âYes,â he gasps. âNeed you. Only you ââ
You spit and he watches the drool cascade down to his aching cock. His eyes widen, mesmerized and choked up as you stroke him. He shudders, body arching towards you at the contact.
âOh, fuckââ he breathes, unable to form words. Your hand feels better than his own. The warmth of your body above him makes his blood sing.
He pants pathetically as you grin down at him with wolf-teeth. He could cry from your touch alone.
"Relax," you breathe, leaning down to nip at his earlobe. "I'll give you what you need."
âCanât relax â need â ah!â he whimpers. âPlease, please ââ
âAre you begging?â you taunt, laughing.
âYes!â he groans.
You hold his gaze as you slowly sink down onto him, savoring the stretch and fullness. A strangled sound escapes him, quickly muffled as he bites down on his bottom lip, nearly drawing blood.
You roll your hips carefully, rising and falling with agonizing slowness. Satoru's hips twitch upwards, seeking more, but you pin them down firmly. Your movements are languid as you relish each tiny gasp and stifled moan you draw from him.
You gradually increase your speed, grinding down harder with each thrust. Satoru's breathing grows ragged, his chest heaving. You can feel him getting close, see it in the tension of his jaw and the desperation in his eyes.
Just as he's about to fall over the edge, you slow to a stop. Satoru lets out a frustrated whine, cut off as you press your lips to his in a bruising kiss.
"Not yet," you murmur against his mouth. "I'm not done with you."
âIâm so â fuck,â he slurs, âSo close ââ
âThatâs too bad. Fucking wait.â
His cock throbs at your tone. Your face is calm, tauntingly so, but your voice is cutting with authority.
âGod, if I wasnât so in love with you right now Iâd be giving you the worst spanking youâve everââ You cut Satoru off, shoving your fingers in his mouth. His eyes roll back immediately, gagging, and you laugh cruelly.
âOh, you love that. You little slut.â
He moans at the degradation, bucks his hips up in attempt to meet your core again. His large hands are around your waist, trembling as they press in with a bruising grip. You remove your fingers from his mouth, using both your hands to pry off his hands and pin them next to his head.Â
âHey,â you warn, talking to him as if heâs a bad dog. âTold you to be good. Hands up here until I say so, Satoru.â
âY-Yeah,â he breathes, trying not to whine. His hands curl into fists, clenching and unclenching as he tries to calm the lion heart beating out of his chest while his body is forced into submission by the girl heâs always had power over.Â
He stills his body despite himself, though his dick still aches in anticipation. Heâs trying to be good for you. The best.Â
You lean over to bite at his nipple and he gasps. The role-reversal was dizzying, particularly because you were using his own tricks against him. He feels like he might lose his mind.
âStopâ stop thatââ he rasps.
âWhy should I? I know you like it. You like when I play with you.â
âIâ Iââ
âYouâd love it if I just used you, right? You want me so much youâd let me touch you in any way, any time of the day. Am I wrong?â You lift your head to meet his gaze, lifting your brow.
He flushes with embarrassment, stomach flipping at your words. âN-No,â he mumbles.Â
âThatâs what I thought, baby,â you chuckle. Your nails run through his undercut and he sighs in satisfaction, looking at you through wet eyes.Â
âIâm keeping my hands to myself,â he simpers. âPlease, just fuck me, I promise Iâll be good ââ
âOh? You want me to fuck you?â
âYes ââ
âMm. Wanna keep playing with you. Lay your head on the pillow properly for me, Satoru.â He obeys you without question, eyes half-lidded with lust as he awaits further instruction. Thereâs a stupor in his face, dumb with love. Heâd do anything you asked.Â
Your cunt pulsates around nothing, pleased at his obedience â youâve never seen him so desperate, despite knowing he wasnât above begging. Even before, youâd give in, allowing him to use you like a ragdoll. But this â this was entirely new territory. Satoru Gojo was being reduced to tears.
You climb over to him, cunt above his neck. His eyes are blown out, wet as his mouth.Â
âYou want a taste?â
He nods eagerly, too quickly, too possessed by desire to be embarrassed about it anymore. He wanted you any way he could have you.
You sink down to his mouth and the groan he lets out is louder than you expect.
âSatoru,â you hiss. âKeep it down.â
He whines, lapping at your pussy sloppily. You gasp when he flicks the tip of his tongue your swollen clit. Your thighs tremble as you try to stay upright, knuckles straining against the top of his headboard. At the same time, he uses the opportunity to squeeze the plushness of your ass â something youâd admonish him for if his mouth didnât feel so fucking good.
âOh,â you moan out softly, âThatâs so good. Just like that, Satoru ââ
He moans, his mouth leaking with his own drool and your arousal. It was a treat for him â you never liked sitting on his face for some reason, always blushed when heâd suggest it. But now, he was getting what he wanted. You were throwing him a bone.Â
Satoru wants desperately to fist his cock, relieve the ache inside him that keeps building when he hears you whimper, but his hands are too preoccupied with touching you everywhere else. Your ass, your waist, the softness of your breasts underneath your t-shirt. His girl in the palm of his hand.
Your nails scratch his scalp, pulling on the strands of his hair as you grind on his face. Smearing yourself all over him. âCloseââ
He doubles down on his efforts and all of it makes you see stars â supernovas clashing together in the fuzzy black behind your eyelids. You have to cover your mouth to keep down the sound of your moan.
His hands are squeezing your thighs. You yelp, overstimulated as his mouth latches onto your clit with no intention of letting go despite your orgasm.
âSatoru, no â no more ââ
You roll off of him, ass tumbling onto his torso as he holds you upright.Â
âYouâre so fucking hot,â he mutters, kissing you hard. You donât have a chance to breathe before he does it, but you donât care â your pussy drips in his lap as he maneuvers you straddle him properly, mouth moaning as you taste yourself on his tongue.
You canât take it anymore. You need to be full of him.
You push him off you, pinning him to the bed as your cunt swallows his cock. You wince at the stretch after not taking him for so long, but the resistance quickly disappears from how turned on you are. Youâre so overly sensitive from your orgasm that his tip hits your g-spot immediately, stimulation to the max as you grind on him at an angle that brings pressure to your insides.Â
âHoly fuck ââ Satoru gasps, hands on your hips in a vice grip.
Heâs determined to take back any semblance of control, but he fucking loses it at the feeling of being inside you after months and months of a dry spell. You were better than any of his wet dreams.Â
He bites his lip in attempt to suppress his whines, hands encouraging the roll of your hips as you grind down on his cock. He loves being used by you, fucked dumb and marvelling at the warmth of your skin on his. He lifts up your t-shirt and you let him pull it off you.
You look down and see puppy-dog eyes gazing at you spilling with tears of pleasure. Angel boy.Â
You donât give him a warning when you finish like you have in the past. It crashes into you, a collision of ecstasy. Months of denying him from your bed and your brain made you forget that he was your very best. Your first and perhaps your last.Â
The thought takes the breath out of your lungs. In a moment of lucidity, you look at Satoru full-on, your lust-filled haze clearing to see him fully in adoration. Tears streaming down his cheeks, love painted all over his face.
He hiccups, whimpering. âBaby, Iâm close â fuck, Iâm sorry, I canât help it! P-Please, can I ââ
You shut him up with a kiss. âCome for me, Satoru,â you whisper against his mouth. âYouâre so good. So good to me.â
His eyes widen. Heâs about to gasp out a reply but heâs so overwhelmed by your words, the impossible warmth of your cunt sucking him in.
âI love you so much,â you coo, hips gyrating in tandem with his hands guiding you. âYou wanna be good for me, right?â
âY-Yeah,â he whispers.Â
âThen go ahead and come for me, baby.â
âAh â fuck ââ Satoru feels his mouth part involuntarily, letting out the ghost of a moan as he chokes up. The ache in his body bursts into sparks, his cum filling you up to the brim as his orgasm plundered through him.Â
His legs are shaking.
His comedown is all erratic breaths, small gasps as he wills his heart rate down to a normal speed. He whimpers as he lifts his head to nuzzle your neck, nipping at your warm flesh before you allow him to kiss you tenderly.Â
He mumbles something against your mouth that you donât quite hear.
âHm?â You attempt to pull away and he whines like a child. You kiss him again and he deepens it, fingers gathering the hair at your nape.
âLetsgetmarried,â he mutters into your jaw.
âWhat?â
âWhat?â
You pull back, staring at him with an amused grin. âDid you just propose to me?â
Satoru stares back at you, his snowy hair sticking out haphazardly. âMaybe. Yes. Like, yes, but also no.â
âYouâre giving me mixed signals here.â
âI donât know what Iâm saying,â he slurs. âYou fucked me too good. I wanna buy you a house.â
You burst into laughter and pet his head. âYou donât need to do that. You already pay my rent.â
He hums, wrapping his arms around you. Cradles you to his chest, which you donât protest.
âI love you.â
âYeah. I love you too.â
Silence fills the room, save for your soft breathing. You clear your throat and stretch your limbs.
âYouâre not actually asking me to marry you, right?â you ask warily.Â
âWhy not? We already have kids.â
âThey are not our kids ââ
âThey may as well be!â
âSatoru,â you snap.
âOkay, okay. Iâm half-joking. But Iâm serious when I say that I⊠I think youâre it for me,â Satoru mumbles. âDonât want anyone else. Ever.â
You look up at him, your eyes glistening. âMe neither.â
You mean it. You suppose that the months without him were a lesson in patience, in self-preservation. You canât deny that he was your missing piece despite it all, despite the hell you went through with him.Â
Satoru has always held a slice of heaven â it clung to him, that divinity. You are the only thing that keeps him from dimming.
#gojo smut#gojo x reader#gojo satoru x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk x reader#jjk smut#gojo satoru x you#jujutsu kaisen x you#jjk x you
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pair. surfer! chris x felix's soon-to-be wife! fem reader | genre. unrequited love (?), angst, slight smut| warnings. use of pet names, mentions of smoke, allusion to cheating, penetrative/unprotected sex.
synopsis. He's a tidal wave, sudden and unrestrainable, cataclysmic, sweeping away everything getting on its way. "You've never been more human to my eyes than you are right now," you confess.
author's note. learning to surf has always been on my bucket list, as much as being mr. bahng and mr. lee's object of desire. yup! thanks in advance for any form of feedback you'll decide to give to this new story. happy reading, guys!
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Chris drives the coast with the windows open and the radio turned off, in solemn contemplation, cradled by the regenerating caress of crisp air and the spellbinding play of lights on the waves crest. Everything around him feels like a promise of reconciliation, a long-awaited second chance. As his thoughts dart fast like the wheels on the asphalt, his heart succumbs to a flicker of hope. Nothing lasts forever.
What's not fated to perdure, always falls apart. That's an incontrovertible truth, a solace. Sandcastles dissolve into the fury of the ocean, unspeakable desires plummet gracefully into the forgiveness of the unknown, of the unresolved, becoming nothing more than spectres of draining obsessions.
It's a gory war the one against them, Chris knows better. So he patiently relies on whatever God is available, merciful, choleric, on weekdays or on holidays, and waits. Waits for an exemplary punishment to accomplish, for this arcane design to spare him from his demons, unslakable, compelling, always shaped on something - or someone - he can't have but he'd kill for, always voraciously aiming for his wandering soul.
But if this agony can help avoiding his entire universe to collapse on itself, he'll gladly greet a request of immolation, mastering the art of camouflaging, of denying, burying secrets and crucifying longings. It won't last forever, and it's a relief. Though sometimes it feels just like a blatant lie he tell himself to stay anchored to his sanity.
He finds you sat on the wooden porch steps, loose braid, white tank top and a pair of worn out jean shorts, a gaze crossing horizon lines and vanishing points, astray, imperscrutable. You wave listlessly in his direction, a cigarette butt still firmly set between your fingers, a form of latent slavery you seem to accept willingly, uglier but less striking than the other you show off on your left hand, a glaring warning, a coveted chain for many.
You walk towards the vehicle and bend down over the passenger window, the strap of your black bra falling off your shoulder. "I'm afraid we'll ride the waves alone today, lone wolf. Felix can't make it," you start off, throwing the cig on the gravelly ground.
Chris nods unsurprised while he connects the dots. Earlier that week, Felix, his undisputed soulmate, the only home he has ever known, suggested him to spend some extra free time with you to strenghten your bond. Chris didn't even know you two had one, until his little brother decided so.
"I'd do anything for her," Felix confessed him, watching you while you were feeding stray cats roaming around his beach cottage.
"I know," Chris answered, passing him a bottle of water after their daily run.
"No, I don't think you really do," he insisted, taking a long sip, asking his body one last effort to take you by surprise with a back hug, making you scream, laugh, turning you around to lock lips and then vanish inside that instant forever.
But Chris looked hard enough to perceive it, to watch it while it put roots in his rotten brain and invaded his heavy heart. He knew all the burdens and the ordeals of selflessness and deep veneration in their most virulent shades, and tolerated them. He knew, and fervently prayed he didn't.
"Surfing without sunshine. Ironic, isn't it?" He hints, staring absentmindedly at the road in front of him.
"Sacrilegious," you add sarcastically, shielding your eyes from the scorching sun, the elegant gem almost cleaving the air with its sharp facetings as you raise your hand, capturing egoistically the morning glow and returning it as countless thunderbolts, forcing Chris to look away, blinded, deafeted by its ruthless splendor.
"You still feel like doin' this, yeah?"
"Why shoudn't I?"
He shrugs, rubbing his nape. "Just thought that's the kind of thing a girl does only with her fiancé."
"Unlike you, I still can survive a day without sunshine," you clarify.
"Better not telling him. He thinks you're such a damsel in distress when he's not around," he warns, vaguely sore by your assertion.
"Yeah, I know. That's the kind of thing a girl does for her fiancé."
Is it really like this, Y/N? Well, it must be. Feeding a man's narcissism, enchanting him with your fatal feminine artifices, meekness, submissiveness, pretending you're his to take, to mold, while you turn his vanity, his naiveness into your trophy. Nasty, brillant little thing. You deserve to be taught a lesson, you deserve an award.
"Seriously, the wind is crazy. We can always reschedule this first lesson if youâ"
"Wow, you're really doin' it, aren't you? You tryna back out, lone wolf?"
"No, it's just...it's gonna be tough," he explains dryly.
"Never expected you to go easy on me," you cut him off, getting in the car and pulling your pack of cigarettes out of your shorts pocket, but Chris promptly takes it away from your hands.
"My car, my rules, buttercup," he says with an authoritative stance.
"Fuck Christopher. Why do you even care so much?" you protest, rolling your eyes in a very childish way.
It's rare, unheralded. No silly nickname, no endearing mockery. Christopher. Vowels and consonants coated in honey and insolence, a venomous balm delighting his ears and hurting his pride.
"I've been asking myself the same question a lot lately."
His hand's steady on the gear shift, his jaw clenched. He feels his loins on fire each time you rock your bare upper tigh from side to side, rhythmically, hitting his calloused fingers, turning unbearably itchy, curious to plunge into your luscious flesh, glistening in the warmth of the sun filtering through the windows and inundating the narrow car cabin. He commands himself to regret it the moment he indulges in the mirage of sinking his teeth into every inch of your skin, of healing every deep wound with his mouth, sucking, draining, swept away by an orgiastic dance of blood and mellow nectars.
In the darkness of his unmade bed, enveloped by the hot steam of the pouring shower stream, these fantasies come to inebriate his mind, to take control of his muscles, of his arts, aching, yielding as these visions become vivider, nerve-wrecking, leading him to chase a crumble of inner peace by satisfying their disgraceful nature. He runs his hand over his stiff lenght, his grip firm and tight, emulating your walls, pulsing, contracting, engulfing him, swallowing him in to the hilt, driving him insane with the friction against your slippery crevice. He dreams of pushing himself inside you violently, hurriedly, from behind, nails digging into the softness of your buttocks, your bones hitting his just the way he needs, as a punishment, because he knows he shouldn't have you like this, on your fours, spine breaking under the weight of his quivering body and his guilt, he begs his reason to manifest again soon just to take him back from this mortal rapture, to reveal, or remind him the truth he's desperately trying to elude. You'll never be his. You'll never choose the traitor over the hero. He comes in groans and moans, with the raging force of a torrent, his fluid slipping through his digits because you're not there to contain it, to let it nourish your immaculate womb, and you never will.
"Lone wolf?"
Chris flinches, eyes still glued to the pavement. "Mmh?"
"I know what you're thinking."
No, Y/N, you don't. If you did, you'd see the monster you've made out of me, and you'd be aghast. You'd watch me meandering in the ghost lands this delirium has generated, eager to betray the man I was before this passion ate every shred of my heart, becoming the bastard I am right now, a shadow who bends to your fucking will even if you don't ask to, don't notice it, don't even care.
He clears his throat, tapping nervously his thumb on the steering wheel. "Iâ"
"I know you think I don't deserve him, but let me show you I do, I will."
He smirks, relieved, resigned.
"Oh buttercup, no one will ever deserve Felix."
"We're gonna get wet anyway," you protest, watching rain falling inesorably from the outdoor shed as Chris applies a layer of wax on your surfboard.
"Typical of beginners," he comments, chuckling, not giving in to your pleas. "Don't you know half of the fascination with this sport is the mental preparation and waiting for the perfect weather?"
"How could I? I'm a beginner," you retort, mocking him and rasing an eyebrow. "Anyway, isn't it the instructor's responsabilty to check the forecast and surf conditions before a session?"
"You can't predict everything, that's what makes surfing hard and rewarding," he elucidates patiently, undressing himself to wear his wetsuit, forcing you to look away.
"I thought in Australia you only knew about rain for movies and songs," you mumble.
Chris smiles fondly. "Considering it's gonna be your new home, I thought you knew more about Australia than what they tell you in movies and songs," he remarks, handing you your rented wetsuit.
"He is gonna be my new home," you state, taking the garment, gazing into his eyes purposely.
He turns around to let you change, hearing the muffled sound of your clothes falling on the ground confusing with the melodious crashing of the waves against the shore, seeing out of the corner of his eye you throwing your bra and your knickers on the only stool present, just over his boxers.
"The only good thing I've ever done in my entire life was protecting Felix, committing myself everyday to make him feel safe. I can't do anything else. It's a mission, a curse. My life revolves around him. And I know you love him, I can feel it, but it's hard to accept how easily he can get along without me. It's not about you, Y/N. But, what will be left to do for me then, if I lose the only thing that still makes me human?"
He's a tidal wave, sudden and unrestrainable, cataclysmic, sweeping away everything getting on its way.
"You've never been more human to my eyes than you are right now," you confess.
He gets closer, the superb gem still there, looking heavier, bigger, more blinding and menacing each time Chris avoids the distance between your exposed back and his covered chest, just enough to inhale sublime notes of lavender when your braid moves on your shoulders. The sillage trails him in a narcotic embrace that lulls his senses, dazing his lucidity, coaxing him to let his guards down, to swim towards the current, the trap, the end.
He brushes his lips gently on your nape, shivers mantling your skin when he places them on your neck, a weary butterfly dying on an autumn leaf.
"Lone wolf..." you say under your breath, paralyzed, afraid.
"What will be left to do for me, if I take the only thing that still makes him human?"
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Angsty Continuation of this Crack Szeth/Kaladin Time Travel AU:
"Sir, may I speak with you? It's a matter of some importance."
Dalinar looked up sharply, locking eyes with his Captain of the Guard.
Some of the clerks he had been meeting with had bristled, affronted as ever by what many saw as the unreasonably jumped up dark eyes. His intrusion into the room with barely a knock probably hadn't helped their opinion.
Dalinar ignored them for the moment, choosing instead to maintain eye contact. A chill ran down his spine.
Stormfather. When had the Captain started looking soâŠworn out? The man's gaze had always been strikingly intense, tired shadows kept at bay by a fiery rage. But now⊠Dalinar had perhaps seen that expression before, in a dying Chasmfiend. Embers of an unfathomably immense blaze, finally burning itself out. The heat it gave off still enough to scorch a man, but dying nevertheless.
He felt a twinge of guilt. Surely⊠he hadn't done that? Almight knows he asked a lot of the young man, too much perhaps. But storms⊠no, something must have happened. He had just seen the man, what, yesterday? Perhaps it had been a week since they had spoken more than in passing, but still. A week of overwork didn't burn through a person like that.
The Highprince cleared his throat. "I assume this has something to do with security?"
Captain Kaladin nodded firmly.
"Very well. Zaninel, Sherath, you're dismissed."
They left without a word, and barely a glare. Perhaps they had also caught something in the Captain's expression.
Kaladin closed the door behind him as he entered. He proceeded to the table, then all but collapsed into the chair across from the Highprince.
Dalinar raised an eyebrow, but didn't say anything.
The darkeyed man rubbed a hand across his forehead, palm seeming to linger across the brands there. He started, sitting up.
"Sorry sir," he said hoarsely. "I forgot myself."
He pushed his weight forward as if to stand, but Dalinar waved him back.
"Its alright," he said. "I'm not one to make a soldier stand when hes clearly on his last chip."
The Captain sagged back.
"I apologize for the breach in decorum, I⊠last nightâŠ" He sighed, squaring his shoulder's and seeming to steel himself. "Well, sir, there's been vital matters I've been debating how to best present to your attention, but now one aspect has come to a head. Bridge four had⊠a visitor to our fire last night, scared the light out of my men. I've been trying to figure out what to do with him all night."
"A visitor?" Dalinar frowned. "This man is a security concern?"
Kaladin barked a humorless laugh. "It would be fair to say that, yes."
Dalinar waited for more of an explanation.
Kaladin sighed heavily. "I'd like to make a request sir."
"A request."
"That you not immediately put this man to death."
"NotâŠimmediately?" Dalinar felt like an idiotic river spren, only able to mimic words/ But for the life of him, he had no idea where this conversation was going.
The captain nodded, drumming his fingers on the table. "I think he's of more value alive than dead, sir. And⊠I swore to try and help him regain some measure of his sanity. I can't do that if you kill him on sight."
"Kelek's Breath!" Dalinar said with some disbelief. "This madman if yours, he's truly so alarming, that you think I would do such a thing?"
Kaladin nodded, and Dalinar felt dread pool in his stomach.
"Who is this man?" he whispered.
"His name is Szeth."
"Szeth."
"Yes sir."
"That sounds like a Shin name."
"It is sir."
Dalanir stared down at the Captain, uncertain at what point he had stood up.
"Captain Stormblessed," he said with calm he didnt feel. "I can think of only one Shin man that I would desire to kill on sight."
Kaladin winced, then looked up locking those exhausted, burning eyes with his. "Yes."
"The assassin in white is here." Dalinar stated flatly.
"Yes."
The Highprince took a deep breath to steady himself. "The assassin who killed my brother?"
"Yes."
"The assassin who has been killing world leaders, throwing kingdoms into chaos."
"Yes."
Dalinar grabbed the lapels of Kaladin's jacket, towing him up with an enraged growl. He breathed heavily for a moment , attempting to restrain himself as he stared at that tired, dark expression.
"I trusted you," he hissed. "I trusted you with everything I had, everyone I loved, and you've been working with the Assassin in White."
Storms, did he feel tears in his eyes? Surely this betrayal couldn't hurt worse than Sadeas, but the dagger sharp pain in his sternum said otherwise. Had it all been a ruse? The tower, the retreat, OathbringerâŠall one large, intricate lie to trick an old fool?
"No." The captain said firmly, meeting his unsaid questions with a steady, inarguable honesty.
"No, your maj â Sir. No, I have not been working with him. No, I had nothing to do with your brothers death â I was a child at the time, and Szeth and I hadn't even met. When we did first meet, I fought him. Then we fought again. I thought I killed him. I⊠I actually did kill him, from what i understand."
Kaladin Stormblessed's expression went very far away, but his words continued with that discordant lighteyed crispness he had had from that start.
"He was brought back by⊠a higher power. I'll explain what I can, but honestly, there's a lot a don't understand. He still very disturbed, but he is trying. He's taking another step along the journey, each day. Szeth is only a danger to himself now."
Stormblessed paused, then looked pained anew.
"WellâŠmostly. He's prepared to serve you, including as a killer. AndâŠhe's indicated that he's similarly willing to listen to my commands. He trusts me, sir. ItâŠI realize this puts you in an uncomfortable position."
Dalinar felt his fingers unclench, and he lowered Stormblessed gently to his seat. There was no question in his mind if he could accept the Captain's word on this, he knew as instinctively as ever that this mans could be trusted.
Knew it more now than ever, seeing in those eyes a man who would rather break himself than break his oaths.
The pain of betrayal ebbed away, leaving a mess of emotions and thoughts in their wake.
Dalinar sat back heavily, rattling the maps and folios on the table.
"Storms!" He scrubbed a hand across his face. "You realize how mad this is, right?"
Kaladin laughed humorlessly. "Very much so."
"I â" Dalinar didn't know where to begin. "Where is he right now?"
"My office â my quarters in the Bridge Four Barrack."
"And he's under guard?"
"I have the Lopen and Rock switching off with him, but like I said, hes rather not a threat to anyone right."
"The Lopâ wait, isn't Rock your cook's name?"
"Yessir. And youâve probably seen Lopen before, he's hard to miss âsmall, loud, Herdassian."
"The one with one arm? You have a cook and a one armed man guarding the most dangerous man alive? Guarding a known shardbarer?" Dalinar found himself standing again, voice close to a shout. He forced himself back down.
Kaladin smiled weakly for some reason. "He gave me his shardblade, actually. As part of his surrender."
Dalinar glanced at Kaladin's hands, as if to find a shardblade he hadn't noticed.
The Captain opened his mouth, but Dalinar raised a hand. "âŠI'm not going to enjoy your answer on the location of that either, am I."
"Probably not, no."
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#stormlight archive#stormlight fanfic#my au#stormlight au no 31#kaladin stormblessed#nevertheless cosmere#Kaladin: Keeping him alive is your best chance at reforming the knight's radiant#Dalinar: you want me to have him teach my men??#Kaladin: No i'll do that. but my help is conditional on keeping him alive and letting me treat his mental health.#Dalinar:#Kaladin: ignore my men's snickering about treating him#Dalinar: I think you might have forgotten to mention something#Kaladin: I've been working on a way to help so called madmen â Drehy if you don't stop laughing I'm throwing you in a chasm#Dalinar: the knight's radiant. you teaching how to be a radiant.#Kaladin: ...I mean I DID say I beat him in a duel to the death. I don't know how I was supposed to do that without surgebinding.#Dalinar:...#Dalinar: I think it might be time for that longer explanation#Kaladin: Yeah that's fair
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It's good for the sanity of everyone that Tony Stark revealed he was Iron man when he did.
Can you imagine the havoc that this man would wreak of nobody knew he was Iron man?
Interviewer: what are your thoughts on the recent development of the avengers? Is there anyone that sticks out? Who is your favorite?
Tony stark: Ah yes the boy band? Wait no, the super hero dudes right? And dudettes of course. Oh yeah I don't care for it but iron man kinda sucks don't you think?
Interviewer: uhh
Tony: Like what is he supposed to be? A tin man? I could make that thing if I was stuck in a cave.
Interviewer: umm
Tony: though I will admit that suit makes his ass look great. Whoever he may be.
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Talk show host: So Tony Stark! We're now playing Fuck, Marry, Kill however with a twist! You are given a category of people instead of just three. You first group issssss The Avengers!
Tony: mmh hmm As you see I'm married so Kill Iron man he's useless, no powers at all. And he took too long to save me from a kidnapping once.
Tv host: [blinks] i- okay umm okay. Next question. What are your thoughts on Spider-Man? He has been seen around Iron man and some even call him his sidekick.
Tony: Iron man doesn't deserve Spiderman. Spiderman is great and awesome and a genius. He is amazing and lovely and adorable and should not be associated with iron man much less be called his sidekick.
Tv host: [nods nervously] okay uhh it seems you know this spiderman quiet personally?
Tony: Don't know what you mean. It's just obvious that as much as Iron man obviously loves and cherishes Spiderman he does not deserve him. I on the other hand would love to have him work with me.
Tony, leans closer to the mic: Spiderman is very much loved and cherished and not deserved at all by Iron man.
Tony, grabs mic and looks at camera and whispers: no matter just how awesome that ass looks
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Interviewer: what do you have to say about the speculations about your and Iron man's relationship?
Tony: oh I hate him. I'm just using him for his body.
Interviewer: [splutters] w-what?!
Tony: what? Was it not obvious? I have been very clear for my love of that butt on him.
Interviewer: wh-what about Miss Potts?
Tony: she understands. I'll tell you a secret [leans very close to the nic and whispers] she likes that ass just as much as I do
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The Avengers Saturday night is just watching every interview Tony has given and how much he fucks with the public
#incorrect tony stark#tony stark#marvel#iron man#spiderman#tony stark and peter parker#incorrect iron man#iron dad spiderson
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I may or may not have lost my sanity since the first trailer for The Bad Guys 2 came out. Literally been brimming with thoughts and theories for almost a week now and dying inside because everyone I'm annoying with this I do not want to spoil lol. But creativity has struck me so after 2 years here I am again :)
The artwork and some brain ramblings will be under the cut since I got at least three people following me that I don't want to spoil what's coming
So here we go :)
"You seem to have forgotten why you are here... PRINCE"
I've been wondering for a while now how his disguise actually works and how the movie will handle it. Personally, I think it could go one of two ways. Either it's essentially a suit like in the books with all his limbs stuffed inside or a disguise he morphed himself into. And while the first one seems more likely, and I don't mind either being true, I found the second option quite interesting in a design and logic aspect, especially when considering his appearances from the first movie.
When he actually does walk around in a costume, we can see that his whiskers poke out. Flaw in the costume? A device for foreshadowing? Perhaps. But maybe, if his disguise was actually a meticulously crafted and trained on appearance, he doesn't even turn the small details of his disguise off, due to doing it subconsciously at this point.
His hair also behaves quite odd if it were just essentially a body suit, as it morphs with how he likes to appear - either neat and innocent or frazzled and crazy. Additionally his hair during his reveal does match the squiggles of tentacles quite a little bit, no?
Besides, there might be a reason why he wasn't shown at all in the trailer. Maybe he doesn't quite look like he used to... I like to think that his disguise is starting to falter after his defeat. He isn't seen as the innocent little piggy anymore and we all know what's coming after his reveal, so why keep up appearances? The way I drew him depicts this process, the crumbling of his disguise. His true colours start showing through, he doesn't bother concealing it anymore. Although maybe, he clings on a little bit after all, just as long as he is conspiring with a certain someone to achieve his goals from the dark, but it's all slowly falling apart...
But who knows, I might just be talking crazy :) So long we can only wait for the next trailer and the movie itself to see what will be his entire deal...
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#considering his backstory I'm starting to believe he is straight up coping#bro doesn't really want to go ahead with the original plan#he just wants to live a life without being chastised#but hey if you do this and still play stupid games you have to live with getting stupid prizes#sorry bro life is unfair and you are the reason#the bad guys#the bad guys 2#the bad guys books#professor marmalade#book spoilers#headcanons#brain ramblings#fan art#character design#i guess ahdbsidn#artist of tumblr
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wait tags aren't enough, i need to go more insane
FIRSTLY bringing back my discord reaction because. i stand by it okay.
okay so first thing i notice is the colour, the very monochrome red/salmon pink (?) in the background, their skin, even the hair. and then the bright contrast of the white shirt, the green pieces and words (AND WHAT WORDS THEY ARE!), the gold necklace. sidenote but i am IN LOVEEE with the way you render the necklace, it looks so slinky and fun. like not what a necklace looks like but what a necklace should look like if that makes sense?? it looks better than a real necklace basically. the composition?? oh my god. the rectangle that can't perfectly contain them is so fun, and then the words at the top and bottom (like teeth!) with "promise" emphasised like that! the ANGLE of them!! charles' completely focused expression, his lashes (the most important part!!!), his pointy ear and his wispy hair. what little we can see of edwin and what it hints at, the perfect hair and the back of the ear (which is so difficult to draw, i'm jealous of you!!) and the line of his neck and uh. his fingers. still so put together. also the lighting is just beautiful, i adoreeeeee the highlights over charles' eyebrows and eyelids, the side of his face, his chest, that seem to come from the bright background! âš
SECONDLY NEW THINGS
comparing this against the previous version is insaneeeeeeee it's like spot the difference but difference is my sanity. no joke. i feel like i see the most difference in charles' face? so so gorgeous, i am in LOVE with the line of his nose and his lashes and his curls aaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! THE GOLD MARCELA YOU ARE A GENIUS charles should wear gold eyeliner always and forever. thanks for coming to my ted talk. MULTIPLE EARRING CHARLES MY BELOVED and the NIP PIERCINGS?????? if you're trying to kill me you're. succeeding. holy shit. edwin playing with the piercings........
i've said this before but the angle is everything!!!!!!!!!! the subtle power dynamics, charles tilting his head up like that, even furrowing his eyebrows slightly.... and then the effect of this constrained rectangle with charles' head the only thing that pops out! and you know i'm crazy for that green/pink/white contrast we don't need to repeat this discussion.
AND YOUR TECHNIQUE?? the colouring and the shading and the sketch-like lines and the texture... it is everything i fear. dreaming of a date where you just show me your art techniques. holy shit
AND THE QUOTES??????? nick's quote will always be famous ofc (love those changes too, the added contrast and the sketchy quality of the blocks, but still matching the dark pinks!) AND CHARLES' BOOK OF SECRETS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i am NOT ready for the day that drops fr i'm telling you now
OVERALL
i did not think it was possible to fall MORE in love w nip touch art but you've managed to prove me wrong once again. JUST LOOK AT HOW HAPPY THEY ARE (okay okay i'll stop) charles in gold is everything to me. currently hyperventilating into a paper bag. if you care. also you dropped this đđđ they're yours now to do with what you will
10. in the meanwhile as you chop down our roots measure out D E V O T I O N add lantern oil stir the concoction counter-clockwise. leave it to simmer on the lowest heat. [charles' book of secrets] poem by me art quote by @wordsinhaled
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Hello to Everyone on this Beautiful day, my brain is full of Kudou Shinichi and his cute little nose, his soft features, BIG PRETTY EYES, and the very fact that his looks he mostly inherited from Yukiko.
#la junk talks#detective conan#meitantei conan#kudou shinichi#the detective gremlin#yes i spent the past hour looking through the manga to find good shots from all of the kudou family#and comparing them#bc while the thought has been in my head for a long time i never actually backed it with evidence#and now i HAVE FCKIN EVIDENCE#this is what sanity looks like... wait no#this is what INSANITY looks like.#sanity is overrated anyways it's time to simp over fictional characters#anyways have a good day#i'm the ''no thoughts head empty'' meme#but like. ''only one thought'' instead of none#and this is the only thought clattering around in my head currently#thank you very much pls proceed with your day like a normally functioning human being#notes on shinichi's looks: yuusaku's hair and eyebrows#while his face and eyes in general are more of yukikos#and yukiko is also super expressive with her face which shinichi also does a lot#tho yuusaku's gremlin look is still there#i'M done a swear i'M DONE
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hello kross nation
cross belongs to jael peñaloza killer belongs to rahafwabas
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#armageddon art#horns and wings#<- thatâs what iâm callin this thing. for now#they look like they live in ENTIRELY different eras but like. they kinda do. not literally but you know#these are like their ânormieâ designs for my own sanity i might or might not make them more creature here and there. as a treat#ALSO i should mention killerâs smoke doesnât smell Strong or particularly Bad#anywayg#i had more commentary but iâve forgotten most of it#i think killer calls cross angel. originally as an objective title but over time it grew soft#what if you clawed your way up from hell and i was forcefully cast out of heaven. and we were both boys. or whatever /silly#not fully satisfied with crossâs clothes but i struggled immensely with those so itâs good enough#cross sans#killer sans#cross!sans#killer!sans#cross x killer#killer x cross#kross ship#criller#sanscest#utmv#utmv fanart#ut au#sans au#ut au fanart#sanshipping#thereâs several tidbits i could say about their designs and like my inspirations and intentions with certain things but iâll wait cackles#definitely feel free to ask about it tho
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itâs funny how things have gone full circle with malenia. she was so hated when the game first came out, but then people grew to like her. then the dlc came out and now people hate her again lmao
#i mean itâs hardly surprising given what we now know#she did all that awful shit and wasnât even charmed#like i see people talk about how stupid miquella is because of this plan to essentially trap radahn#but that also makes malenia look stupid af too#âgo to caelid and kill radahn so i can marry himâ ans she was like sure#miquella wanted the one guy in the lands between who loves war and fighting to be his consort for his age of peace and compassionâŠ#what a genius he is.#makes me wonder why he even needs some heavy weight to keep order for him when he can just charm people into submission#was radahn just there as a ceremonial position?#oh wait i forgot miquella thinks heâs super kind so thatâs why he wants him#miq learnt about the gravity magic horse thing and swooned#honestly still canât get over how incredibly stupid the twins look after the dlc#i think people like to imagine malenia was charmed just because it makes it all look slightly better on her part#like they are just making excuses for her#but holy shit the fact she was all but willing to fucking die so miquella could bag radahn..#what a thing to die for lmao#and he was apparently present after the battle? but didnât do anything to help either radahn nor malenia?#instead he was helping a random redmane?#he obviously knew malenia had bloomed but ultimately didnât care i guess#kind of like âoh well if sheâs still alive when I get back iâll deal with it thenâ#honestly wish miquella had just died in that cocoon at this point#tbh he doesnât really do much in the dlc anyway they could have made it more about messmer and marika#hell bring melina into it please that would have been more interesting at this point#we didnât need the dubcon incest plot micheal you could have left that one in the drafts#i gotta get this out of my head itâs driving me nuts#seriously need to move on from this game for my own sanity
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inside of you there are two drives
#jowan and granrodeo anchoring my sanity#actually yk what. here's a funny story that just happened#had a most fearsome exam spanning over TWO days. the horrors were unimaginable#(excruciating wait for one's turn at the oral exam included)#then at the end the prof looks me in the eye and goes#'so did you like the subject? because you had *checks list* this year's best result'#i think my dropped jaw is still there on that desk
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i finally finished bg3
and it only took me [looks at steam]
SIX HUNDRED HOURS
#merlin.txt#w/ the new computer the rest of act 3 went by super quickly#honestly i dont think my computer and my sanity would have survived all those cutscenes#ANYWAYS initial thoughts:#cried like a baby. ending credits songs really really good. i can't WAIT to start a new playthru. HOWEVER:#oh my god the ending felt so fucking rushed. i was expecting like a typical rpg ending slideshow at LEAST but nothing???#like you only get One cutscene with your romanced partner (a short one too) but i don't get to see what everyone else is doing??? hello??#gale is literally like 'lets celebrate' and we don't get to see the celebration??? or at the very least a chance to talk to everyone again#like in act 1 and 2????#imo i think the most satisfying one was lae'zels. god i love her#also act 3 is hella buggy especially towards the end. a lot of broken dialogue. but ah well#OK NOW SPOILER THOUGHTS SAMMIE DONT LOOK:#the game Really wants you to turn illithid but i ended up just letting karlach do it ... i felt bad .. but like#i found the arc of my tav like. getting So close to going full power hungry and martyr and hero only to finally be humbled like -#'you dont have to always play hero' was really interesting. like doing that and then hearing the post credits 'the power' song. gshldgksmal#guy who is soo miserable abt the fact that all their cool illithid powers are now gone. has to go back to being normal#ALSO. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THE ENDING AST SCENE. HELLO?#HIM RUNNING AWAY FROM THE SUN. IT BEING COMPLETELY PLAYED FOR LAUGHS. SO MEAN#any other time i may have laughed but the fact that you dont really get epilogues made that Really sting.#THE FACT THAT THE COMPANIONS ARE NOT EVEN NICE ABOUT IT??????
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didn't get cast in ensemble. they did cast a girl at callbacks I literally taught the harmony to though. fucked up
#spent a year thinking about the audition#have actively waited for an opportunity to audition for at least seven years#show on my radar for at least 14#love to be good enough at the audition that they call you back and then have them be like#actually never mind we don't want your voice even with the other voices.#we have no place for your body on stage with the other bodies#this is what I was afraid of. this is why as soon as it was announced like two years ago this might be produced I was as#stressed as I was excited.#it's not about ego or rejection it's just about getting to do a dream there aren't many chances to fulfill. I just get fixations you know?#rehearsals start tonight without me!#only thing helping me hold onto my sanity is an inside source telling me that the director is horrible#it's hard for grapes to be sour enough for me to not to hurt bad bad bad#but it takes away a little bit of the grief#as does the fact that a friend has the kindness to try and comfort me like that#mensch behavior#I have othr things to look forward to this was just high stakes you know#not a lot of chances. dependent on others to provide chances. autistic hyperfixation on little scraps of the score#most passionate out of anyone who auditioned for sure#and I'm not even bad#I fucked up at callbacks a little but I was hoping they wouldn't be insane about it#but holding my breath until I could get the relief of knowing I was in#which would also have been incredible news in other ways tooââbeing in any show has been a long-term goal and I would be like okay I've hit#that milestoone and should actually invest in a headshot#but I guess not!!!!!!#going to try and not be angry at myself though#I'm good and will throw myself into my work#which I have much to do of and talent to apply to
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jjk men calling you annoying...
"hi! ik u have a few reqs to do and ur going on vacation but i was reading some of ur works and saw u did a headcannon for calling jjk men annoying. i was thinking what if u did the opposite w the jjk men calling reader annoying? if u dont decide to do this thats okay! cant wait to eat up your other upcoming fics <3" -anon
some angst, jjk men being assholes (except for nanami)
satoru, suguru, kento, choso, toji, sukuna
satoru gojo:
normally, satoru is the one that is considered to be annoying. every higher up, coworker, and student of his alike would agree that satoruâs personality is pestering on its own, for his behavior doesnât align with the severity of the jujutsu world in the eyes of others.
satoru has never cared how others judged him, for he often takes to picking on others for the sake of getting a reaction. he enjoys lightening the mood of drab situations, therefore heâs tossing around inappropriate jokes during meetings, teasing utahime for the umpteenth time, or trying to force megumi into spending quality time with him while the sixteen year old does his best to pretend he doesnât know him in public.
and with you, heâs far worse. satoru can not bear being away from you or your attention being focused into anything other than him for longer than two minutes, and heâs always making an excuse to abandon whatever heâs doing to be by your side. satoru is the very definition of clingy, and while everyone finds it annoying, you can not deny that you adore how the strongest glues himself to you as though he can not bear for the two of you to be parted.
those around him believe itâs impossible for someone as annoying as gojo to actually be annoyed by anything, but you know what pisses him off. you know that he can not stand the jujutsu higher ups and how they antagonize children who were given no choice but to live the lives they lead. he can not stand the way they order him around to carry out unfavorable tasks with no regard for his past experiences or the experiences of the students that he is meant to monitor. he can not stand the lectures, the judgmental tones, the expectation of respect when it is not given in return.
and he can not stand when he is forced to attend hearings or meetings with them, where he has to listen to them drone on and on about how irresponsible he is when satoru is the only one truly looking out for the good of all groups. they demand so much of him, yet treat him like trash in return. nothing peeves him off more.
he knows that you understand this about him as a jujutsu sorcerer yourself, but you have the tendency to be more tolerant of injustices than he is. what he means is that you know how to save face for the sake of your own sanity and pay the elders no mind whilst simultaneously making them think that you are in cooperation with them. you know how to feign manners and respect, which satoru does not bother to do.
consequently, when you tell him that the upcoming meeting that he has scheduled with the higher ups is one he should attend instead of skipping due to its level of importance, he canât help but be irritated with you.
âiâm just saying, satoru,â you say into the speaker with your phone pressed to your ear. the blue eyed man is on his way to said meeting after you practically forced him to attend, and heâs not at all happy about it. âonce youâre in there, youâll be out in no time.â
â(y/n), somehow those pricks make a half an hour feel like two,â your boyfriend complained into the phone. you place your hand on your hip and look up to the ceiling.
âyouâre being so pessimistic about it,â you sigh. âitâs gonna be worse the worse you talk about it.â
âno, itâs gonna be bad regardless because these higher ups donât know up from down or left from right.â
you can tell heâs growing aggravated, which was the opposite effect you wanted this call to have. you lower your head and attempt to shift, to reassure him in a different way.
âitâs gonna be okay, toru,â you tell him. âyouâre above these people anyway, no matter what the hierarchy at this school is-â
âif you really thought that, you wouldnât have made me go.â
you frown. âyou didnât really have a choice with this one, you know that right? whether you like the assholes or not, the meeting itself is important. you need to be there.â
âi really wish youâd stop saying that,â he exhales, agitatedly.
âstop saying what?â you scrunch your face, hand falling from your hip. âthat itâs your responsibility?â
âyeah, actually,â he snaps. âhell, youâre starting to sound just like everyone else.â
âwhatâs that supposed to mean?â you scoff. âsatoru, iâm just trying to help you. sometimes you just have to suck it up and deal.â
âsuck it up?â he repeats incredulously. âi suck it up every day of my life. everyone wants me to do something for them, but expects me not to have my own opinions in return and that shit doesnât make any sense.â
âthatâs not what iâm trying to say-â
âthen what are you trying to say? to just go along with all the messed up shit the higher ups want me to do?â
âno.â
âthen what?â
âto just attend a meeting for the sake of your job, satoru. my god, thatâs all.â
he tchs, and you can imagine him rolling his eyes on the other line. âfine. whatever.â
âwhatâs with your attitude? iâm genuinely just trying to look out for you, likeâŠ?â
âyouâre not helping, (y/n). youâre being annoying.â
his words sting, and you stand still in the hall to your classroom as you register satoruâs tone and accusation. thereâs silence, and satoru knows that when you say nothing more, heâs crossed a line.
even so, heâs too heated currently to own up to it in this moment, so he lets the silence swallow you both as he walks.
âokay,â you mumble apathetically after a while. âbye, satoru.â
you hear him prepare to say something, but your thumb is already hiding the end call button.
throughout the next half and hour, you try your best to focus on teaching your lesson to the second years, but you find yourself struggling.
you understand satoruâs frustrations with the higher ups, but to take that frustration out on you is completely uncalled for.
and to call you annoying? for ensuring that he doesnât further endanger his already shaky position with the the authorities over him? how ungrateful is that! how could he label you as a disturbance to him when all youâve ever done was try to lighten his load?
you donât understand it. and it hurts to know that one little thing in comparison to the plethora of clingy annoyances that satoru has the habit of displaying that you donât even find aggravating is enough to send him over the edge.
youâre aggressively erasing your chalkboard at the end of your lesson when you hear the sound of air flushing and papers fluttering behind you. immediately, you feel satoruâs presence much to your displeasure.
âbaby?â he calls you tentatively, though you already know full well that he is there in your vacant room. you donât reply, continuing to swipe your eraser over the chalk. âbaby, please donât ignore me,â he sighs guiltily. âcan i⊠can we just talk?â
âget out, satoru.â
you can physically feel Satoruâs mannerisms droop behind you, but you do not fall for it. he deserves your standoffishness, your unwillingness to engage.
âi just wanna talk, (y/n)⊠just five minutes?â
you clench your jaw, brows angling tensely as his earlier words run through your mind again and again. your pace picks up and your movements grow harsher.
before you know it, you feel the white haired man brushing behind you inches away, reaching a hand to your shoulder. â(y/n)?â
âstop!â you rip away, stepping back. satoru retracts his hand quickly, crystal eyes blown wide as he watches you. you slam your eraser down onto the ledge and hold your hands up. âjust stop! you donât get to be rude to me and then just come back around as if everythingâs okay. what if I donât want to talk to you?â
having removed his blindfold before coming here, you can see the pain and remorse circling in his gaze. âpretty, i didnât mean to say what i said,â he starts again slowly. âi-iâm sorry, i was just overstimulated and angry- not even at you, and you were telling me to do something I didnât want to do but had to do, then iâŠâ he huffs. âiâm so sorry.â
you fold your arms and stare harshly at the board, brows twitching as satoruâs smooth, genuine apology flows through your ears.
when you still donât say anything, satoruâs mouth tugs downward and his lashes fluttere prettily over his cheek. âitâs okay if you donât wanna talk to me or see me right now. i was being shitty, and i didnât mean it, baby. i just had to come and tell you that as soon as the meeting was over⊠and you were right. i needed to be there.â
you close your eyes. âwhy donât you ever listen to me?â
satoru practically jumps when he hears you speak. âwhat did you say?â
âyou never listen to me, toru,â you look at him desperately. âyou always do what you want to do, and when i have to make you do something, you pout. is what i say really that unimportant to you?â
âno,â he rushes out, swooping in to stand before you so he can meet your eyes up close. âno, no, no. no, thatâs not it.â
âthen what is it?â
âi listen to you, baby. i do, i just struggle when you give me suggestions about work because we have completely different approaches. you play by the rules more and i do what i think is best even if itâs not what Iâm told is best. which is okay. iâm not saying that either way is better than the other, itâs just that difference between us clashes sometimes.â
you hum.
âbut that doesnât mean i donât listen, or donât respect you, (y/n). i respect you more than anyone i know.â
âthen you should act like it.â
âi know,â he pushed out his bottom lip, taking your forearms in his hands. âi know, i can be all over the place sometimes. iâm sorry pretty girl.â
you wish you could stay angry, but satoruâs touch almost instantly melts away the tension in your body. almost.
âplease donât call me annoying like that again,â you look over him. âseriously, that wasnât nice.â
ânever,â he swears. âi promise, never again. i donât even know why it came out in the first time. please forgive me, baby, Iâm sorry.â
you exhale, and before you can respond, satoru is ducking down and suffocating your face with a plethora of kisses from your forehead to cheeks and down to your jaw. murmurs of apologizes slip through as he attacks you, and you squeal as you try turn away.
âokay!â you shout, pushing at his chest. âi forgive you, get off!â
âi love youuu,â he lands a particularly long kiss to your nose. âso much. let me take you out tonight to apologize properly, pretty. will you let me?â
you stifle a smile, keeping your hands to your chest as you glare up at him when he pulls away with a grin. âfine.â
suguru geto:
suguru loves you dearly, truly he does, but he notices that the longer he is in a relationship with you, the more entitled you become. granted, he spoils the hell out of you because youâre his one and only, therefore he only feels it is appropriate to shower you with the unconditional love that he has for you.
you know that suguru rarely ever says no to you. hell, he doesnât want to deny you of the things you ask of him because he should be the person that you always come to for anything. along with his girls, youâve stolen his heart, and his love language is taking care of you - making you rotten.
so when suguru can not abide by what you demand, you pout and poke and prod and pester. in some ways, you remind him of how satoru used to behave in his company, so commanding of what you want from him in the most combative, brattiest way that it has him rubbing the space between his forehead with angled brows.
and the attitude on you is criminal. suguru knows he can not necessarily talk because his attitude is just as bad, but the moment suguru disagrees with you about something, you make it a point keep pressing the matter sassily.
there are a million things that suguru finds to be more of a pain to his peace than you, but he can not deny that when you get on his nerves, you truly tick him off.
suguru is known to have very little patience in general. he chalks it up to his occupation, having to deal with idiotic human beings all day to the point where it wears down his capacity for bullshit. he needs things to resolve themselves at his pace in order to feel as though he can go about his day, but when they donât, it frustrates him to no end.
that is why when you fail to give it a rest after suguru has told you no four times now to getting lunch with you because he has business to take care of, he is beginning to lose his cool.
â(y/n),â suguru exhales your name in exasperation. heâs on his way out of the front door. âangel, you know iâm busy today. youâre usually a lot more understanding when it comes to my schedule, i donât know where the disconnect is right now.â
youâre growing upset, for youâve never enjoyed watching suguru leave, but for some reason you are feeling all the more sensitive to his departure today. the dark haired cult leader has been so busy lately that you and the girls have hardly been able to catch him for longer than five minutes when heâs home. you want to sit and talk with him, to at least have a quick thirty minute meal together, but heâs still refusing you, and you never fair well with being refused by geto.
âbut suguru,â you curl your brows and gaze at him sadly. âIâm just asking for one day. thatâs all, we donât even need to be out long. i already have a place in mind thatâs right around the corner from the group- i can even pick you up. you wonât have to worry about a thing. please, just this once?â
the hazel eyed man can not stand saying no to you, even more so when you look at him with such pleading in your eyes, but heâs told you a hundred times that he canât do what you please today. as much as heâd love to go to lunch with you, there are no exceptions. heâs already pushing himself behind by trying to reason with you.
âthe answer is no, (y/n),â he tells you with soft sternness. your frown deepens leading Suguru to walk over to you. he guides his hand to your waist and presses a kiss to your forehead in an attempt to make you feel better. âiâm sorry. i know things havenât been the best lately with me being home, but iâm trying my best.â
you want to be more supportive, but you miss suguru. you do, and to feel like a second priority to a cult he doesnât even like makes you upset.
you grumble incoherently under your breath and cross your arms. suguru feels your stature shift, and he pulls away to eye you. you avoid his gaze purposefully, and suguru instantly knows whatâs going on with you.
âdonât start,â he advises as a warning. you donât take well to the comment, the muscles in your face tightening as you go to ease away from suguruâs grasp. he doesnât have time for this right now. âi mean it.â
âiâm not even doing anything,â you murmur, looking down as suguru examines you closely.
âyouâre sulking.â
âokay, and maybe thatâs because i donât want my boyfriend to leave?â you snap.
âi know, (y/n). youâre acting like i want to leave too, but this is work.â
âand clearly workâs more important now,â you roll your eyes.
suguru shakes his head and pulls away with narrow eyes. âyouâre being incredibly irritating right now.â
you freeze, getoâs words stabbing you through the chest like a stake to the heart. âwhat?â you repeat weakly, your grit having gone.
âyou arenât listening to me. itâs getting old and itâs irritating,â he says again, this time as he turns away and walks back to the door.
you stare at his back blankly. your heart hammers against your chest, and your face falls. normally when you behave a certain way that suguru doesnât appreciate, he spends his time either circling back and trying to reach and understand or punishing you. but now, heâs just walking away with no intention of doing either. you expected more, and you hadnât expected for him to outright call you annoying.
sure, you push a little too much sometimes, but annoying? all you want is him. is it annoying to desire such a simple thing?
âiâll be home later, alright? we can talk about this when i get back,â he tells you, pulling the door open and allowing the sunlight to peer in. when you do not respond, he speaks again in annoyance. âalright?â
you still donât answer, and this time he turns over his shoulder to see what is keeping you from giving him a verbal affirmation.
his face relaxes, however, when he says you standing silently with your hands at your sides. your gaze has turned to one of subtle embarrassment as you frown, mulling over suguruâs emotions in a less stubborn, more deflated manner.
despite suguruâs irritation with you, the moment he sees your discomfort, heâs flipping the switch in an instant.
slowly, he shuts the door again without a word. he figures it wonât hurt anyone to be another five minutes late, for he is the founder of the religious group after all. what he says goes, and he will not leave until this mild conflict with you is sorted out.
he walks over and takes your head in his hands, tilting your face up to reveal your big, shiny eyes. with another quiet sigh, heâs taking one hand and rubbing your shoulder as he holds your stare.
âi didnât mean to hurt your feelings,â he tells you gently, immediately knowing what is plaguing you. âiâm just frustrated.â
ââŠfrustrated with me?â you ask slowly.
he presses his lips together. âyeah, angel. i am a little bit,â he confesses honestly. while this isnât the response you wanted, geto knows itâs the response you need to hear⊠even if you struggle to accept it, your head nodding stiffly but your eyes telling a story of humiliation. and he hates it. he hates how unhappy you look, but no good has ever come from partners lying to one another about how they feel.
âbut,â you start as suguruâs swipes a thumb over your brow lovingly. âsuguru, all i wanted was to have lunch with you. is that such a crazy thing? youâre hardly around anymore.â
âi know, (y/n), and no itâs not, but youâre not respecting the fact that while i want to more than anything, i canât. not today,â he says once more. âi do this for you and the girls too, you know. itâs not just for me. any money i make is yours, and if i need to work my ass off to provide for you and our future, i will. and itâs not fair for you to throw a fit when i canât drop all of that when you ask me to.â
itâs a hard pill for you to swallow, but you know that suguruâs point is more than valid.
you inhale and exhale deeply, his touch swarming you tenderly despite how he feels. âIâm sorry,â you apologize. âim sorry for pushing. i just want you here. it gets hard sometimes, you know?â
âI know.â
he pulls your face in to kiss your cheek softly, your hand going to cradle his wrists.
âand iâm sorry if youâve felt neglected in any way, and for calling you irritating. there was probably a better way for me to say that.â
âitâs okay,â you mumble as pulls away. âi probably was being annoying anyway...â
geto smiles softly. âyou were,â he chuckles, and you gap at him.
âsuguru,â you frown and he laughs again.
âsorry.â the hazel eyed man leans in to capture your lips in a soft kiss before you can pour any longer, eyes gleaming kindly when he draws back. he at least does not look aggravated any longer, his features much calmer than before. âhow about a day out this weekend? you, me, and the girls.â
your eyes light up. âreally? youâre sure?â
âyeah, angel,â he nods. âi miss you all too, you know. youâre all i think about when Iâm dealing with those monkeys all day.â
ââŠcan we maybe go to the farmerâs market?â you suggest. âi wanna get some stuff to make a big dinner for us, and the girls want to get some flowers.â
âabsolutely we can. sounds great.â
âthank you,â you smile, wrapping your arms over his neck and tugging him down into a tight hug. suguru laughs gently, sliding his arms around you. âi hope you have a good day today. i wonât pester you about work anymore.â
âokay, baby,â he rubs your back. âI gotta go now, okay? iâll try not to be out late. i love you.â
âi love you too.â
kento nanami:
despite kentoâs remarkable talent in serving you as your partner, he is still a human being subject to human emotions. when heâs annoyed with you, he doesnât make it your problem. he simply makes it known that he is beginning to be plagued by the feeling, and though it hurts your feelings, you understand and give him the space he needs.
kento does not get irritated with you often at all. you are a gift upon his stressful life, and itâs difficult for you to pose as a source of stress when the rest of his life is already so anxiety-inducing. youâre his everything, and even when he does get ever so slightly annoyed with you, itâs never at the same level as other factors - like gojo. you donât even begin to compare.
the only time nanami finds himself growing upset because of you is when you choose not to listen to or communicate with him.
nanami works hard to put your needs before his own and he is more than happy to do so. he feels it is the only way things should be, for as long as you are happy and well cared for, he is content.
however, there are moments when he does so that can come off to you as a tad overbearing. he cares for your physical and mental wellbeing, so that also comes with constant check ins about whether youâre eating properly or how much sleep youâre getting. itâs sweet, his persistent doting, but you donât always fair well with how often heâs interrogating you about your lifestyle when he literally witnesses every second of what you do as your fiancĂ©.
and of course, when you react poorly by getting even the slightest hint of an attitude or portray your own annoyance in a poor manner, nanami, who always tries his best to find a solution to problems if you are bothered by something, is bothered himself when you do not cooperate.
nanami is incredibly patient with you, and he tries his best to practice patient with you when he internally feels you are being unreasonable.
so he resorts to silence as he ponders what to do next. youâre both sitting at the kitchen table as tension swirls about. your knee is frantically bouncing as you glare ahead. you donât like when kento does something to bother you, for everything he does is so perfect you feel like you donât have a right to be bothered, and you rarely ever are. and you may try to hide when youâre upset, but nanami sees you so clearly. he knows you like the back of his hand, therefore, there is no hiding.
and of course, nanami would never grow annoyed with what you feel⊠itâs how you communicate with him when you feel a certain way. you shut down and make it impossible for him to talk through it, and as someone who likes to work through things while they are occurring, itâs a bit of a pain when you go quiet and refuse to give him anything.
now, you both sit rather annoyed with one another, for that is likely the only instance nanami will feel some sort of irritation sparked by you. the blonde taps his finger against the table with his legs crossed, unsure of how to move forward. heâs tried calling your name, tried asking you whatâs wrong, tried suggesting anything he can do to fix it, but you, afraid to even further speak truth into your emotions, reply with shrugs and mute shakes of your head.
it takes at least another few minutes for nanami to rise slowly, fixing the collar of his shirt and clearing his throat you look up and see by his rigid posture that he is not in the happiest of spirits, and when you finally notice, you realize that he had been silent along with you for quite some time now, his series of questions having ceased.
âi am going for a drive,â he announces formally. you blink up at him, your knee still bouncing. his chocolate eyes meet yours with a hefty sigh. âi wonât be longer than forty minutes.â
forty?!
ââŠokay,â is the very first word you have said in a while, and nanami nods curtly. though he appears indifferent, his shoulders are tense, his jaw is taut, and a dent creases the space between his brows. you can tell by these signs that he has grown to match your previous feelings. âwhere are you going?â
âto clear my head. i donât believe anything productive will come from the both of us sitting here like this.â
you furrow your brows. âare you angry with me now?â
âno,â he gathers his keys. âi am not angry. only, admittedly, a bit perturbed,â he says without looking at you.
you know that nanami had annoyed you first, but to hear him tell you so is humbling nonetheless. what reason does he have to be annoyed? what did you do?
âum,â you stumble. âwhyâŠ?â
the prospect of you now trying to interrogate him after he had spent so much time trying to get through to you, or at least a word out, does very little to ease the man.
he lifts a hand, guiding his palm out to ease the conversation before it can escalate. â(y/n), iâm not in any state to talk about this right now. give me a bit and i will be back.â
his eyes find yours to ensure that you see that earnest in his brow hues, and your shoulders slump, your knee stilling completely.
âis that alright?â
you nod slowly. âyes. that's alright.â
kento nods again, swiping up his jacket from the back of his chair before stepping out of the door, clicking it shut behind him.
you reel in his absence, sitting in the aftermath. maybe you reacted poorly⊠but you couldnât help it. you donât always enjoy being overwhelmed with a series of questions from your boyfriend as though he is your doctor or father. sometimes you just wish to be.
you know he only does so out of concern. you know he loves you, better than anyone has ever loved you, but your reaction had been involuntary.
the look on nanamiâs face only proved that you should have handled the situation differently. you hate when heâs upset, but that way of thinking alone is unfair. he likely hates when youâre upset too, and you shut down when he was trying to help.
as guilt swarms you, you retreat to the living room where you mindlessly flip through the tv channels, your focus elsewhere.
kento ends up returning hardly twenty minutes later. you look in surprise to the door as he enters with takeout in his hands. he looks up, his face a bit more relaxed as he enters.
neither of you speak as he kicks his shoes off at the door and makes his way toward you. he sets the bags of food down on the coffee table before you and slowly sits down next to you, hands to his thighs.
âi got us dinner,â he says as you shuffle to make room for him. the aroma of your favorite thai food fills your senses and makes you become rather aware to your hunger, for you havenât eaten in a while.
kento sits with his forearm resting on his knee, his body facing you. you look away, embarrassed to even speak to him, though you do whisper a âthank youâ that is only audible to nanami because he is seated right beside you.
he reaches a hand out to hold yours, his other sliding over top to caress the back of it. âhoney,â he starts softly. âI donât want this to go on longer than it should.â
âyouâre back earlier than you said,â you mention, looking down at his hands over yours.
âi didnât need to be gone long to want to sit down with you about this again.â you nod. âare you okay?â he asks you, and you nod again.
âyeah, are you?â
âiâm better,â he answers. âmy intention was not to leave on a bad note so abruptly. i just needed a moment to myself.â
âno, i understand, ken. i donât blame you for taking a step back.â
âare you okay with me telling you why i was upset?â
âof course i am.â
he gives a gentle smile before proceeding. âit seems that every time i try to work through something with you, you do not wish to cooperate. if you were to tell me that you need space before explaining, i would understand better and give you time, but you say nothing. you barely even look at me, and i try my best to give you the patience you deserve but you do not do the same for me.â
âitâs not that- I wasnât trying to be impatient with you, itâs just that sometimes i donât want to talk about things.â
âthen I would prefer it if youâd say that instead of shutting me out, because then iâm left to pick up the pieces with nothing to go off of,â he pleads. âand itâs unhealthy for you to harbor everything that bothers you inside. you could get sick doing that, and it hinders our communication.â
you can tell he is about to give you another lecture, which is what led you here in the first place. you take in a deep breath and try to regulate yourself, glancing down. âyeah, i hear you,â you mutter. âi just get⊠i donât know, it feels weird to tell you when something youâve done bothers me.â
âwhy, sweetheart?â
âbecause youâre so good to me,â you frown. âyou donât deserve to hear that iâm upset with you for probably no reason.â
âlook at me, honey.â you oblige, locking eyes with his once again shyly. âas good as i am to you and you are to me, getting angry or upset or irritated with one another is normal. itâs healthy. no relationship is free of trials, and if this is our worst problem, iâd confidently say that we are doing quite well.â
you listen to him carefully, taking in his words as you look over his face.
ânow, will you tell me what it was i did to upset you earlier?â
âitâs so stupid, ken.â
âyour feelings are not stupid. please. i need to know so i donât repeat my mistakes.â
you huff and eventually give in. âwell, sometimes... you do this thing⊠where you lecture me⊠and i appreciate you looking out for me all the time, but sometimes when you ask me a hundred things at once about stuff that Iâm more than aware of as an adult, it makes me feel like youâre patronizing me.â
a stern look of realization crosses the blondeâs features. âi had no idea.â
âi mean⊠i never told you, so i was getting upset with you for something you werenât even aware of,â you exhale. âiâm really sorry, kento. I struggle with communicating certain things, and i shouldnât have allowed myself to get so irritated in the first place.â
âthereâs no need for you to apologize,â he dismisses. âi apologize for making you feel as though Iâve been speaking down to you. i only check in so often because i care.â
âi know,â you lean in. âand thereâs nothing wrong with that.â
âbut i can see how it may be a bit overbearing,â he admits. âiâll try to mind myself in the future.â
âoh, itâs okay, ken,â you lift your hand to his cheek, smoothing a thumb over his cheekbone. âyouâre perfect, baby. iâm sorry if i made you feel otherwise.â
âi am far from perfection, my love,â he kisses your inner palm. âi make plenty of mistakes.â
âso do i, clearly,â you chuckle.
he smiles again, and this time it reaches his warm eyes. âyes, but the way i see it, you would not be perfect without them.â
choso kamo:
choso, bless his heart, has never found anything you do to be even remotely close to what he could find annoying. everything you do in his eyes is perfect, flawless, and he clings to you so much that he finds it impossible to think of your actions or words as something that poses as an aggravation to him.
what he finds irritating is when yuji will borrow his shirts without asking and fail to return them for days, or when heâs been assigned on a mission and it lasts far longer than he intended to be there, the task cutting into time he could be spending with you, or even when other people serve as a nuisance to you. you have never, ever been on the list of things that get on his nerves, and he doesnât think you ever will be.
thatâs why he feels such guilt when he starts to feel that familiar sense of annoyance bubbling in his chest when you keep asking him to let you know about his plans for the weekend.
youâve asked him numerous times at this point, and he has given you the same answer: he doesnât know exactly what heâs doing with his brother or when heâll be home, and that heâd let you know as soon as he figures it out. but you know that by the time he âfigures it outâ it will be past the time you need to plan around his absence.
youâre an organized person, and you like to know in advance what is happening in your boyfriendâs life so that you can either prepare to spend some time with him or not waste the effort looking forward to doing so if he will be out late. this is especially a big deal to you because choso tends to get carried away when spending time with his little brother. the brunette loves his family so dearly, and you have always admired how fiercely he cares for those close to him, but his tendency to just go along with whatever yujiâs hyper mind thinks of on the spot without having the sense to think of how it will impact his brotherâs girlfriend yet always gets to you.
you want choso to spend time with his brother, you do, but you just wish that he would have the decency of letting you in on what he plans to do on the days they are together more often.
therefore, it is friday and you continue to ask him to let you know what the plans are, and choso, still not completely understanding of what you want, is growing tired of the nagging.
âi already told you, love,â he reasons as best as he can with you, his voice dipping lower. âi donât know how long weâll be out. i promise you iâll let you know.â
youâre moving about the kitchen while choso stands at the corner, eyes heavy as he watches you. heâs trying his hardest to mask his growing agitation, for he knows that you are very keen on picking up on his tells that reveal his emotions. when heâs aggravated, his brows angle ever so slightly and his lids weigh over bored vision, his lips curled in a frown.
you havenât looked at him yet. your back is to him as your rummage through your fridge. âyeah, cho, you said that already, and you say that every time you go out,â you close the fridge door, carton of eggs in your hand for you to prepare lunch.
âand i always come back,â he says, shrugging slightly. âI donât understand what the problem is⊠iâd never stay out all night without coming back.â
âitâs not about you coming back or not, itâs about when you come back,â you try to explain, placing the eggs on the counter to turn and reaching to grab a bowl. âiâve definitely talked about this before, right? sometimes i stay up for you or want to hang out with you when you get back, but you never give me an estimated time when youâre with your brother so i can plan around it.â
choso exhales through his nose slowly, looking down. âthe point is that if i knew, iâd tell youâŠâ
you look up, catching the dipped pitch in his tone, and tilt your head to the side upon taking in his stature. heâs pouting.
you stop what your doing, pressing your hands to the ledge of the other side of the counter and leaning over with a suspicious look.
âare you alright?â you ask slowly.
choso meets your eye, a hint of a deer in in headlights look capturing him. âyes,â he says stiffly, quickly, and you are not convinced whatsoever.
âyou sure? because your face says otherwise,â you nod toward him.
conflict is pretty foreign to the two of you within your relationship. neither of you ever want to upset the other, so in tiptoeing around certain issues, a lot of them are either brushed over and pent up. choso specifically things itâs damn near a sin to be upset with you, and you him, for he still does not understand certain inner workings of human connections.
he does not want to ruin what he has with you, and he does not comprehend why he is growing annoyed with someone he cherishes so much. he still loves you, but he canât help this feeling. it burdens him with guilt, and he does not know how to respond once you catch him.
âis something bothering you?â you ask carefully. âare you upset because i keep asking about this weekend?â
choso doesnât respond. he feels like itâs a trap, for he would never lie to you but to admit that heâs annoyed is an entirely different ball park that he is horrified to step into. he looks at you shamefully, face still tense but heâs trying hard to relax, to mask the way he truly feels.
you raise a brow. ââŠchoso?â
âiâm fine,â he tells you. once again, heâs answering far too quickly.
âokay,â you exhale, shifting on your feet. choso watches you anxiously, keeping incredibly still as though moving will make the earth shatter. âI know you really well, cho. clearly the conversation is bothering you.â after another moment of silence from your boyfriend, you continue. âyou can be honest with me, or else youâll just be carrying this around with you all day.â
ââŠi donât wanna upset you,â he eventually murmurs.
âI understand, but thatâs not realistic,â you say with subtle sternness in your tone. âjust like itâs not realistic to pretend like you arenât upset right now when i can clearly tell you are. we both have rights to feeling whatever we feel, so just⊠come on, tell me whatâs going on.â
with a pensive expression, choso slowly allows himself to give in. âitâs just thatâŠâ he begins hesitantly. âiâm not really sure what you want me to tell you anymore. about my plans.â
âi'm not asking anything out of the question, i just want you to plan more for my sake.â
âbut i keep repeating myself when i tell you that yuji and i donât plan⊠itâs a littleâŠâ
âitâs a little what?â
âjust⊠kind of⊠annoying.â
you reel, staring at choso incredulously. you never thought you would have seen the day where your sweet significant other, horrified of touching you the wrong way, would call you annoying. admittedly, youâre a little wounded. you havenât done anything wrong, and yet choso is aggravated by your desire to simply know what time heâs coming home. youâre not asking for too much. you hardly believe youâre asking for anything at all. you know that choso can be irrational, but never with you. never like this.
you nod to yourself slowly, pursing your lips. choso eyes you carefully, uncertain of how his own words have landed. you wanted him to be honest, and this is how heâs feeling. should he have just lied? should he have kept it to himself anyway?
suddenly, you resume what you are doing and turn away from choso wordlessly. the violet eyed manâs eyes widen as you go searching for a pan, and air of intensity about you.
â(y/n)?â he says your name cautiously after a while of you shuffling about. âyou okay?â
âitâs cool,â you respond shortly, and choso shrinks.
he moves to round the counter to approach you slowly, but you do not slow yourself when you notice him moving into the kitchen beside you. âi donât think it isâŠâ
âchoso, i know how you feel now and thatâs that. iâll leave it be.â
you sound mad. choso doesnât like it at all, and heâs unsure of how to even speak to you this way. he doesnât want to further ruin your mood, but he has to make sure youâre alright⊠that he didnât cross some sort of line.
âiâm sorry,â he hastily apologizes. âI wasnât trying to make things worse.â
âdonât apologize for what you feel,â you strictly say, moving to the other side of the kitchen the second choso gets close to you.
he stops, his traces of annoyance having completely washed away. âbut youâre mad now.â
âiâm not mad, i just- iâm a little annoyed too now.â
he deflates. âoh,â he mumbles, hands falling to his sides. âthen, what do what do now?â
you exhale, taking a moment to pause and turn to face choso from the other side of the space. âi wanna talk about why iâm irritated.â
âokay⊠and that wonât make it worse?â
âno, because iâll at least be getting my point across.â
he nods dejectedly. âalright. why are you upset?â
âbecause you wonât take a second to put yourself in my shoes and understand that planning for my sake now that we live together will help ease my anxiety,â you explain, your hand moving about as you emphasize your stance. âi donât care how long you and yuji are out. thatâs not the point, and i know you donât plan, but Iâm asking you to at least start to, because i get tired of falling asleep waiting for you because i donât know when youâre coming home. if i knew in advance, i wouldnât have to stay up or get my hopes up about you coming back at a certain time. and then you tell me that iâm annoying you because i just want to be informed. like, thatâs a little rude, choso. itâs basically like you saying you donât care what i ask for.â
âi do care,â he cuts in passionately, brows knitted with a look of guilted sadness. âiâm sorry. i didnât know it was like that for you.â
âbecause you never bothered to ask.â
âiâm sorry,â he says again. âi shouldnât have called you annoying. that was mean. you just⊠told me to be honest, so i said what i was thinking.â
âthatâs another thing, choso, weâre not perfect. weâre people and we react to things differently. this isnât the last time weâll be annoyed with each other.â
âi donât like that,â he grumbles.
âwe donât have to like it, but thatâs just how things are. it doesnât mean we love each other any less, and weâre not always going to agree on why weâre annoyed with one another.â
ââŠare we fighting?â
you scoff a slight, tired laugh and shake your head. âno, weâre not fighting. weâre just talking.â
âokay,â he nods. âwell, iâm sorry. i am. iâll try to do better about planning for you. and youâre not annoying, (y/n). i love you.â
you soften. âi love you too, cho, just please be more mindful of how you react sometimes.â
âi will,â he mumbles. ââŠcan i⊠i mean, is it wrong to ask you for a hug or do you need some time?â
âcome over here,â you beckon him over. the brunette is quick to comply, stepping heavily over to you and burying his face in your neck. you wrap your arms around his frame as he holds you, murmuring numerous apologies to you over and over in your ear.
âmaybe iâll just stay home,â he suggests, mumbling into your skin.
âyou donât need to do that, cho, thatâs not what i was asking of you.â
âi know, but iâd rather stay in with you anyway. or maybe we can make it a group thing if you want to come with.â
âiâll see how i feel this weekend, but thatâs sounds great, baby. thank you.â
toji fushiguro:
toji has a habit of getting caught up in his stress accumulated from the day. heâll return home grumpily, muscles twitching and lips tight in a scowl. his back aches and his head hurts, and all he wants to do is crawl up into bed with you and snooze for the rest of the night.
of course, this isnât always plausible. life presents its daily interferences that throw off his plans of laziness with the woman he loves, and sometimes, the woman he loves herself is the very thing standing in the way of his tranquility.
you donât do so on purpose. while toji leads his life of chaos and crime, you busy yourself with your own less illegal tasks, and those tasks and your desires by the end of the day donât always match his. and toji, despite how wholly he loves you, has the unintentional tendency to be selfish, for itâs how heâs lived his whole life before meeting you.
and that tendency especially shines through when his mind is clouded by exhaustion. if he wants you to lay still with him for the rest of the night, why canât he? why the hell do you have to run out to the store instead? or finish up an assignment that takes an extra hour and a half to complete? or try to talk to him about your day when he just wants peace and quiet in your wordless physical presence?
it ticks him off, and heâs already moody enough before he comes home to realize that he is not going to get what his mind and heart have been set on for hours. he tries his best not to take things out on you when he is in a healthy, normal conscious state, but he can not help it at the worst of times. before he knows it, heâs snapping at you all because you wanted to show him an album of pictures you came across during your visit to your parents today.
âoh!â you gasp excitedly, leaning into tojiâs shoulder as you lounge with him on the bed, your phone presenting itself to his face. youâre propped up with your back to the headboard while toji is laid flat against the pillow with a sour expression. âand this one is from halloween when i was eleven! holy shit, look at my braces! damn, they really threw off the whole costume. i still look cute though, don't i?"
toji doesn't know how you haven't noticed his lack of response as you swipe through photo after photo, your voice a blabber of nonsense in his ear as he closes his eyes in vexation. he can feel himself nearing his last straw as you shift your entire conversation enthusiastically, diving into some story about your family that is hardly related to the pictures you have been sharing.
the dark-haired man is so tired, so fed up with noise and the questions you ask him that you do not even wait for him to respond to before you're cutting in and rambling on again - not that toji even would have responded.
he just wants to sleep... you're still going on, and he wants to sleep.
"and then there was the time that i-"
you're interrupted by a loud groan and the run of toji's large hands down his face. you falter, lowering your phone and furrowing your brows at him slightly, your smile dwindling upon finally taking note of toji's body language.
silence stills the room while toji keeps his hands concealing his face and you simply watch him, stunned.
"uh..." you start pensively, confused. "...why did you just-"
"for the love of christ, girl, can you be quiet for one second?" he interjects once more with the tear of his hands away from his face and the strike of his weary, tense eyes into yours.
you jump. "what?" is all you can ask, awed by the way your boyfriend just spoke to you.
"i had a long day, (y/n). the fuck don't you understand about that?"
your face is scrunching in offense now, your body retracting and your energy transitioning into dejected anger. "toji, why the hell are you talking to me like that?"
"cause you've been workin' my last nerve since i got home," he grits out, tense hands swiping the air. you stare at him with wide eyes. "i'm fuckin' tired. i don't wanna come home to you talkin' my ear off about shit i don't care about. just let me sleep, alright?"
you clamp your mouth shut, a lump forming in your throat and a pit swirling in your chest as you take in toji's hurtful words. his face is hard as he awaits a response from you, and you can do nothing but look at him pathetically, completely torn apart by how swiftly he had made you feel as though you are a burden to him.
you had not meant to interfere with his rest time. you thought he was resting by sitting cozily in bed with you. you thought that he would enjoy seeing pictures of you from the past, hearing about old memories that you revive for the sake of his enjoyment. hell, you would have enjoyed it if the roles were reversed and toji was sharing his childhood memories with you after a long day (if of course, his childhood had been a bit more positive).
you understand that you may have misread the situation, but there was no need for toji to be so cruel to you about it. you hate when he gets like this, so rigid and ruthless with his tone and his words that it makes you feel as though he wants nothing to do with you.
you fight the urge to cry, your body tensing as you swallow hard. you tear your eyes from toji's face, the vision alone scarring you as his words seep in. the green-eyed man watches you shut off your phone swiftly and tuck it carelessly into your pocket with a scoff.
he quirks his brow in befuddlement now as you push yourself off the mattress and cooly whisk yourself around the furniture and to the bedroom door. he pushes himself up, for he didn't want you to leave. he just wanted silence.
"where're you goin'?" he asks as though you have no reason to storm off. you halt in the doorway, whipping your head over your shoulder to glare at him with glassy eyes.
"to give you your space," you hissed. "after all, i don't want to 'work your last nerve' any more than i already have."
toji can tell by the glossiness of your gaze and the tremble of your voice that he fucked up. he sighs heavily, swiping a hand over his hair. "i ain't mean it like that-" he tries to defend himself, but you have none of it.
"sure you did, toji. or else you wouldn't have said it," you growl. "it's fine. really. you can be an asshole all by yourself while i'm gone. maybe you'll be able to sleep now that your girlfriend is out of the way."
you leave with a slam to the door, the walls shaking in your wake, and toji stares at the wall harshly. the overwhelming silence now envelopes him, the silence that he had been longing for since you started talking, and now that he has it, it doesn't feel right.
he curses to himself, scratching the back of his head. he shouldn't have snapped at you. all you had been doing was sharing something close to your heart with him, and he completely blew you off. it wasn't as though you were the source of his stress - it was his job, yet he reacted in such a way to make it feel as though you were the problem.
fuck. toji knows he has issues with regulating his anger, but he continues to swear that he will work on leaving you out of it, and yet here he is again, mulling over the after-effects of dragging you into his acidity once more.
he's not even tired anymore. he tries to doze off, but all he can think about is your face and how he hurt you.
when he steps out of his room, he finds that you are nowhere to be found in his apartment. he tries calling you, but you don't pick up. he resorts to texting you, asking where you are. you read the messages, but refuse to answer, ensuring that he knows you're pissed off.
he shakes his head and goes to check your location instead, which he is grateful to find that you haven't shut off. he knows you too well. you want him to chase after you and apologize, to put forth the effort that you at times feel he would not extend for your sake.
toji finds you at a bar around the corner, your chin propped in your hand as you stare ahead over the counter emptily with an untouched drink before you. you're slumped in your seat with your phone tucked under your hand, appearing so sad before him, and toji feels his heart ache knowing that he's the reason you look like this.
"go away," you grumble when you see his bulky figure approaching you out of the corner of your eye, not even bothering to look his way. the fushiguro leans his forearm against the counter beside you with his other hand propped on his hip. he tilts his head down to try to catch a glimpse of your face, and you simply turn away stubbornly.
"c'mon doll," he attempts to coax. "don't be mad."
"don't fucking tell me not to be mad, you dick."
toji drops his head. bad start. "listen," he begins, unsure of how to proceed. he has never been good with finding words in these situations. "i shouldn't've said what i said."
you turn to scour at him. "no shit."
he wants to chuckle at how angry you are, for you start cursing up a storm the way toji does on a daily basis, and he finds it rather endearing how quick you are to violate him with your language when he gets on your bad side.
toji doesn't realize that the skin beneath his eyes is creasing a the corner of his lip is tugging upward, for you're gaping at him and smacking his chest rather aggressively. "you think this is funny?"
"no, (y/n), i don't think it's funny," he chuckles, and you fume. you go to slam a few bills onto the table before jumping up from your stool and storming away. toji panics, reaching out and snatching up your arm in his grasp. you're tugged back to him against your wishes, fiery (e/c) hues seething into him as though you seek to kill him with your gaze. "stop, i'm tryna talk to you for a second."
"clearly you think my feelings are a joke to you, toji."
"i don't think that, doll, you know that."
"do i?" you raise your brows. "i wasn't so sure when you talked to me like i was nothing but a nuisance to you."
you go to tug away, but toji holds you to him, looking into your eye intensely. "you ain't a nuisance."
"then why talk to me like that?" you frown. "i wasn't even doing anything to hurt you, i was just trying to share something with you."
"i know baby," he softens, hand coming to cup over your neck. you turn away, leading him to smooth his hand over the back of your head instead as you look off to the side bitterly. "it wasn't you, it was my day-"
"i don't care," you huff. "you can't blame the way you treat people on shitty days - especially the way you treat me! i'm the person in this world who loves you, toji. if you need me to reel in on something, then just say that respectfully, but don't you dare go yelling at me the way you just did. it hurts my feelings."
toji sighs, looking over your face and caressing your hair. "i know, doll, m'sorry," he mumbles. "shouldn't be taking my shit out on you. you ain't ever done a single thing bad to me."
"yeah, you prick," you bite, and toji lets himself smile. "and stop smiling," you push against his chest. "nothing's fucking funny."
"you're right. nothin's funny at all," he agrees. "m'just happy i got a girl who knows how to fight back when i'm bein' an asshole."
"oh, what the fuck ever," you roll your eyes. "you're lucky i don't chop your balls off and hang them on display in the living room."
"nah, i much prefer you gettin' mean with me." he moves to cup your neck again, and this time you allow him, a pretty pout still on your face. "i deserve it."
"you sure as hell do..."
he chuckles, smirk spreading. "c'mere, doll," he pulls you into him, securing his arms around your frame and pressing you to his chest. you ease into him reluctantly, glowering off to the side as your check squishes into his pectoral. you don't hug back, for toji's biceps crush over you and trap your arms within his embrace as he rocks you slowly. "what can i do to make up for it?"
"go jump off a bridge," you mutter, body relaxing into his warmth as his chest rumbles with laughter against you.
ryomen sukuna:
sukuna belittling you with his words has never been anything new to you. while you understand that you withhold a space of softness in his heart that is reserved for you and you only, at times his comfortability with insulting you can go a bit far.
and of course, youâre used to it. he calls you âbratâ and âwomanâ as though you are a nuisance to him when in reality, you are the only person on this planet he has bestowed those names upon with his own definition of affection. he clicks his teeth and rolls his eyes at you when you talk about something that he wants you to believe is of little interest to him, when he is taking mental note of the things you enjoy talking about so that he can suffocate you with your desires long after you have presented a specific like to his attention. and of course, he tells you you are an aggravation to his soul every damn two seconds, as though loving you brings him stress after eons of having lived so freely and ruthlessly - though he still does, your presence does more to ease him into a state of mellowness than anything has prior to his commitment to you.
he very clearly welcomes the feeling and connection to you, but masks so by calling you annoying. all the time. so of course, when he does normally, you are completely desensitized to it.
unless youâre already irritated.
occasionally, there is only so much of sukuna you can handle. you love him to death, but the two of you butt heads so often due to your stubborn natures and unwillingness to allow the other to win that it tends to wear you down after a while. sukuna calls you disrespectful for even talking back, yet allows you to continue to do so as if he gets off on the way you get snippy with him.
itâs entertaining to the lord, after all. why would he spend his time doting on someone boring?
nevertheless, if youâve had a long day and are in no mood to deal with sukunaâs rather wide range of complex reactions to even the smallest of things that you do, his habits tick you off - especially so when he calls you annoying for something that you feel is anything but.
so as you complain to sukuna about how he needs to be mindful of how many sheets heâs running through by staining them with blood when he carelessly returns to your shared bedroom from yet another colorful expedition, you're peeved by the way he stares at you so carelessly. youâve been begging him forever to be more mindful of how he treats his belongings, especially now that you share the same things, but he always brushes your concerns aside by saying that he can just get more. but god forbid someone else were to stain his sheets, then heâd be out for blood.
his arms are crossed as he stands before you, eyes rolling over the ceiling as he makes his agitation rather evident. youâre a little thing in comparison to him, yammering on about the tenth set of sheets he has stained this month, but he wants to hear none of it. why is it such a big deal to you anyway? he has thousands of servants and limitless access to resources, so it shouldnât matter to you whatsoever. besides, youâve stained numerous sheets of his over the years with your arousal and heâs never complained. why does it all of a sudden hold importance to you what state his belongings are in now?
âwould you quit your moaning, woman?â he snarls, overpowering voice speaking over you. his eyes are hard and slim as they stare over you, and youâre bubbling with rage the moment he cuts into what youâre saying. âit is not of relevance to me, so why is it of any relevance to you?â
âbecause it is, sukuna! why do you only hold value to the things you care about? we share a bed, obviously iâm affected by this too!â you argue.
âyou are not a servant. servants concern themselves over such things.â
âoh, so now iâm beneath you for talking about this?â
sukuna groans. âi did not say that, brat.â
âyeah, but you insinuated it!â you retort. âiâm tired, sukuna, i wasnât trying to make this a big thing.â
âyet you are attempting to by persisting so irritatingly.â
you throw your hands up, at your witâs end. why does he never listen to you when there is something on your mind? why does he always push aside what you feel matters when he decides it doesnât matter to him? why is he always so cold with you, so steely and headstrong as though he remains above you like you havenât been by his side all this time?
you know how sukuna is, and yet him calling your opinions irritating riles you up in this moment. everything has to turn into an argument, and it weighs you down. nothing can ever run smoothly without sukuna taking offense or scoffing at the idea of you coming to him with something you feel should be fixed. you canât win.
"seriously?" you plead. "i mean, really, i'm irritating because i don't want to sleep in blood every night?"
"christ, you don't sleep in blood. the sheets are changed before you come to rest!" he barks. "that is why i find this so annoying. you are complaining for nothing."
"you know what? you're annoying!" you point a finger to his broad chest. the king of curses lifts a brow, looking down at where your finger prods into him.
"i beg your pardon?" an amused, low chuckle ripples through him as though the sentiment is unheard of, which only pisses you off even more.
"you heard me. you're the fucking annoying one. you're always going on about how i shouldn't talk back, or how everything i feel doesn't make sense, or how the things i want don't matter because you don't want them! you act like you're so far above me, when i'm the only one sleeping in bed with you, sitting on your throne, supporting your psycho-ass ambitions - but i'm the irritating one, right? your girlfriend is such a pain in the ass, isn't she? for caring about your wellbeing and loving you when nobody else will?"
the salmon-haired king's eyes go dull as you shout at him, fury raging in your eyes as you continue to poke at him. you're playing with fire, but you don't care. you're fed up with the pretending, with the sly comments about your intelligence as a human being and the value of your interests.
"woman-"
"shut up! i'm not done."
oh. you've really lost it now, haven't you?
normally, sukuna would have made it a point to silence you and teach you a lesson by now, but for some reason, he's feeling generous. slightly intrigued by your outburst, he lets you go on with a domineering smirk.
"i don't care of you're the king of curses, or if you could kill me with the snap of your fingers, or if you've got thousands of people who bow down to you without a second thought like mindless sheep-"
"you are not those people."
"exactly!" you agree without thinking, and sukuna's smirk brightens. "i'm not! so stop- stop treating me like i am! stop talking to me like i'm unimportant and like i get on your nerves more than i do anything good for you! stop blowing me off because you don't know how to empathize! i'm your girlfriend. i care about you, and i also care about the state of your things which you always make a point to say are mine too- and fucking sue me if i'm tired of walking into your room after a long day to see blood stains from random ass civilians while your servants work to replace them in the next hour! what if i wanna lay down before then, huh? ever thought about that?
"god, i just wish you'd care! is that so hard for you to do, sukuna? to care about me and what i care about? i didn't wanna argue with you, but you make it so damn hard for me not to lose my mind! you never hear me talk about how much you drive me crazy, and you drive me crazy every damn day of the week!"
"is that so?" he pries, slyly.
"yes!"
"i implore you, tell me more about how i drive you crazy."
"have you not been listening to anything i've-?!" you freeze, reconnecting with the moment to look in sukuna's eye and see how he is enjoying listening to your rant. you stop, stepping back and lifting your finger from his chest. you breathe in and out deeply, worked up by your own emotion, and you finally take a second to realize what you have been doing. "you're mocking me," you conclude.
"i am doing no such thing."
you scoff. "whatever, sukuna. just forget it. sorry i'm so irritating to you."
you go to walk off, but sukuna is already wrapping a set of arms around you, tugging you back to his chest. you grit your teeth, peering up over your shoulder to look back and find the demon grinning down at you teasingly.
"you need to relax," he muses.
"don't fucking tell me to relax, sukuna, i'm already pissed off."
"mm. i can see that, and in feeling so you have forgotten who you are speaking to."
"see, this is what i'm talking about! i'm not your servant-"
"yes, yes, i know. it was hard not to catch what you were saying during your little tantrum."
"fuck you," you groan, moving to push away. sukuna tightens his grip, winding his arms securely over your stomach and pressing you to his chest. "sukuna," you whine.
"stop taking everything so personally," he ducks down to speak into your ear over your left shoulder. you jerk, turning your head in the direction of his voice. "you are fully aware that you are not the same as everybody else. if you were, you would not be so mouthy."
"yeah, well it's hard to tell what you think sometimes when you call me annoying all the damn time. if you want me to leave you alone, just say that and i can stop wasting my time."
"enoughhh," he hisses. "you must stop taking things so far."
"and you must stop being so mean," you mimic his speech.
sukuna snorts. "do not worry about the sheets. i will retreat elsewhere after massacres if it while cease your whining."
"oh, how lucky i am," you click your teeth.
"quite so," he turns in to press his lips to the space under your jaw. "if you were anyone else-"
"i'd be dead," you finish, involuntarily leaning into him though your face is still tense. "no one else should be in your bed anyway, you know."
"that is why no one ever will."
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The frustration I feel everytime I see tweets that just so... I don't know stupid? They even use OLD FREAKIN clips to justify this insane witch hunt and even if there are completely sane comments to point the flaw of their argument(if you can even call it that) they just go "Oh Wow LoOk tHe NiJiCoPs" LIKE ARE YOU FOR REAL RIGHT NOW.
Twitter is a cesspool that Iâm afraid of contributing to, so hereâs the post I would be making there.
Millie and Luca have spoken up about not having a shitty time with Niji management. This is a GOOD thing. They donât deserve that mistreatment. Moreover, this does not make them the bullies. Leave their asses alone.
Vox and Enna are well known members of Nijisanji for their creative endeavours, and obviously they havenât graduated yet. This does not make them the bullies. Leave their asses alone and stop asking when theyâll graduate.
Ren just lost a genmate and now a senpai, both of whom were very positive and influential figures. He is not faking being upset for clout. You guys are fucking insane. Leave his ass alone and support him.
Rosemi and Elira have been said to be the last remaining pillars of NijiEN. This does not mean theyâre the bullies, sucking up to management, the head of âcliques,â or have a moral duty to graduate. Leave their asses alone.
Anycolor threw every single talent under the bus for mentioning the âbullying by affiliated Liversâ in their termination announcement. Anycolor is just trying to make themselves look good. Anycolor is not your friend.
These talents are understandably stressed, have just lost THREE important friends and coworkers, and now have the entirety of social media coming for them. Doki is not the only victim here. Their agency is going up in flames. Theyâre allowed to be upset.
#I lose a handful of sanity everytime I go to twitter#People can't ceomprehend shit anymore#God knows I feel sorry for Selen but attacking other livers? What the heck#They're acting like bullies#Look just because some other livers are being treated well doesn't mean they're the bad guys#Like what do they want EVERYONE to be suffering?#Just wait for her to out the actual perpetrators instead of blindly pointing fingers at others
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The Colors of the Moots ask game
Lemon - idk but like you seem really sour and scary Yellow - every time i see you on my dash you're always so happy and it's so lovely! Cyber - when the frick are you offline? like tell me when, i need to know for your sanity!!! do you even have it??? Goldenrod - i really wanna sit next to you and watch a sunset/sunrise. or maybe just look at you. Orange - if you were a fruit you'd be a orange. no explanation. Rust - you seem like you're hanging on by a thread. Mahogany - let's go on a late night drive together and listen to one of your playlists. Red - i am so in love with you. first it was ironic, now it's unironic. so in love. Ruby - you are such a gem, you deserve so much better <3 Pink - biting you biting you biting you biting you licking you biting you biting you Violet - honestly i just wanna kiss you just to shut you up. yeah. Blue - you are the sad mood. the crying moot, even. i am offering a tissue in this trying time. and maybe a hug. only if you want ofc Navy - i have a feeling you hate jeans. Lime - i can't tell if you're serious or what but i am avidly waiting your next post. Green - wanna go touch grass with me? Jade - honestly you have some of the best takes on this hellsite.
#ask game#ask games#rb bait#anons welcome!#spent like 30 mins trying to figure out why the colors weren't working#this is my pride and joy#my own ask game <3
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