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[esprei]

warden ingo ✨

[eyeheartboobiez]

-> 𝗃𝖺𝗌𝗈𝗇 𝗍𝗈𝖽𝖽 𝗑 𝗌𝗂𝗇𝗀𝖾𝗋!𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋

-> 𝗌𝗈𝖼𝗂𝖺𝗅 𝗆𝖾𝖽𝗂𝖺 𝖺𝗎!

-> 𝖺/𝗇: 𝗈𝗄𝖺𝗒 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗂𝗌 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖫𝖠𝖲𝖳 𝗍𝗂𝗆𝖾 𝗂𝗆𝗆𝖺 𝗎𝗌𝖾 𝗏𝗂𝗇𝗇𝗂𝖾 𝗁𝖺𝖼𝗄𝖾𝗋 𝖺𝗌 𝖺 𝗃𝖺𝗌𝗈𝗇 𝖿𝖺𝖼𝖾 𝖼𝗅𝖺𝗂𝗆 𝗂 𝗌𝗐𝖾𝖺𝗋😭

Jason Todd and ex girlfriend, Artemis Grace, spotted outside a club together just hours ago! May this old flame be finding its spark again? (8/20/2022 3:14 AM PT)

For months now, people have been buzzing after Gotham elite Jason Todd and singer Y/N Y/LN hinted at being in a relationship. Ever since this past March when they were initially spotted together, fans have done nothing short of obsessing over the two.

Artemis Grace, former girlfriend of Jason, had gotten into some hot water recently when insiders claimed that the singer had something to do with leaking Y/N’s unreleased track, Fantasize.

As mentioned in former articles, TMZ investigators came to the conclusion that Artemis was involved in publishing the song as a way of “getting her lick back”. Time logs show that the dubbed “rival” singer entered the same studio as Y/N not too long after she left for the night.

Many people online have been more than vocal about their love for the song, despite the fact that it was released without the artist’s consent.

While Artemis has yet issue a statement regarding the accusations, she seems to have plenty of time to be out partying with her ex.

Fast forward to last night, when just hours ago, Jason and Artemis were seen leaving a nightclub together and looking very close for comfort. Onlookers were not only shocked, but absolutely gagged when they saw the two hugging each other goodbye.

With their late night rendezvous breaking headlines, some fans are starting to question if Jason may have also played a part in helping Artemis, or if they ever really broke up at all!

The exes, who were romantically involved for almost two years, have a long history of being toxic towards each other. Their on-again-off-again relationship was notorious for its dysfunctionality, making it hard to keep up most of the time.

It wasn't until late last year when both Jason and Artemis officially called it quits by posting an announcement on their respective Instagram accounts (although many were skeptical to believe it).

Despite the initial shock of the situation, it begs the question: Where does Y/N stand in all of this?

Fans of the singer songwriter were quick to come to her support, majority of whom expressing their clear disappointment in Jason.

“I was really betting on these two,” says Twitter user @y/n’scoochiehairs. “I feel like a child of divorce…”. The fan account, while only just a few months old, grew exponentially due to their constant posts about the alleged couple.

Many sentiments like this have been circulating the internet once the pictures from last night began to surface. Y/N is notorious for putting her emotions into her songs, so at least we know she’ll be releasing new music soon, right?

— replies —

user1: oh she really aint playing...

user2: COOK HIM GOOD SIS!!

user3: girl this is a whole bar put this energy into a song or sumn😭

user4: sooo what im hearing is that ur single🤔

⤷ user5: ntm on my wife now..

user6: this next album bouta be BIBLICAL

user7: genuinely hope youre doing okay🥺🫶

user8: ily queen🩷

people you may know!

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@artemisofmighdall: last night was a dream✨

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user1: first you mess with her music then you mess with her man.. if bold was a person…

user2: the hell is she smiling so damn big for?? ain’t shit funny😐

user3: girl you betta PRAY i don’t catch you in these streets…

user4: “last night was a dream” yeah and you in for a rude awakening cuz wth💀

user5: these comments killing me😭

user6: you already going to hell for being a ginger now you just making it worse for yourself🤦‍♀️

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end notes: is jason involved or is he just being framed👀 lmk what you think!!

[palomahasenteredthechat]

I KNOW WE KEEP BRINGING UP TOM HIDDLESTON AND I'M SORRY! But at the risk of giving myself away, I have been saying since the beginning that Joseph's breakout into fame mirrored Tom's in a big way! I made a few posts about it back when the fans were being insane in late 2022. I was there in 2012 when Tom first rose to overnight fame and I stayed for about 3 years before fully moving on. Just before the T.S fiasco thank goodness. The point of saying this is that in the beginning when I was seeing Joe do all these interviews and saying whatever he wanted without really thinking and making inappropriate jokes I was reminded of how Tom used to be and I wondered if the similarities in their journey's would continue in the coming years. I wondered, would we see this version of Joseph that we started seeing in the media tour for AQPDO. Because I used to wake up in the mornings and read Tom Hiddleston's twitter like the morning paper. The man was SO funny and he posted ALL THE TIME. But about 6 months in, after someone found his old Myspace (showing my age there) and posted a bunch of photos from his 20s and screenshotted all the silly things he said as a young man, he hired a publicist and that just stopped. Not like, slowly dwindled. Like went from posting several thoughts he had 10 times a day since like 2006 to radio silence. Only ever posting to plug his new things . He went from giving titbits about his life and making jokes in interviews (He sang a very inappropriate part of a Tim Minchin song in an acceptance speech after Tim gave him an award for example😂) to strictly professional and very private. His Publicist at the time (Luke Windsor) was always watching to the point that it became a fandom joke because he was just THERE all the time in the background of photos, giving looks off to the side of interviews etc. It was pretty clear that he was getting absolutely reamed behind the scenes for saying things he shouldn't and posting things on socials that they didn't approve of. Don't get me wrong, Luke was seemingly lovely and the fandom enjoyed his presence but he was GOOD AT HIS JOB which meant that while Tom lost a lot of fans that "missed 2012 Tom" and wanted him back, he was taken way more seriously in a professional setting and ultimately it was great for his career. This is what's happening to Joseph. The parallel of 2012 to 2014 Tom Hiddleston to 2022 - 2024 Joseph Quinn is so extremely interesting to me, I could go on about it forever but I won't force you all to listen. The point of the message is to say that Tom never did go back to "who he was" or at the very least his public persona changed completely and we never did get "The Old Tom" back. Even if he may have still been that person behind closed doors, we never saw him again. So I'm sorry to say, for anyone hoping that Joe will magically reverse his image and behaviour after the DC thing ends or if he changes publicists that that is not likely to happen, especially now that he's signed with Marvel. So I encourage you all to do your best to digest that info. Sit with it for a bit and decide if you want to be a fan of or follow "The New Joe" because unfortunately, he's here to stay. :(

Fascinating, fascinating stuff Nonny. I also remember Tom's 'I am incredibly excited' tweets.

I have to believe these publicists do what they do not only to professionalize the actor's brand/career prospects but also to help the actor manage fame. If you are constantly giving up a part of yourself to everyone it can consume you. Only giving the 'persona' is probably a shield.

Thank you for writing!

[heaventree13]

How Jikook Found Me

Hi anyone who happens upon this!

**I'm going to preface this with the information that I don't know how to link stuff, embed etc, so hopefully my attempts to do so will work!!**

I've been thinking of doing a "how I discovered jikook" post forever, because I love coming across other's similar stories, and was inspired this morning by @jiminieloved post below:

We discovered jikook at pretty much exactly the same time, if in slightly different ways.

I first joined instagram around October 2019, after only being on facebook prior to that (I had started a twitter account at some point, but had never used it), and somehow the algorithm decided I would be interested in Larry Stylinson. I don't know why. I knew who One Direction were, but didn't really listen to them. I didn't know what a "ship" was, except for "Bennifer" and "Brangelina", and that's not even really the same thing, is it? Anyhoo- it turned out I was a bit of a Larry. They were adorable and what I saw was compelling at the time.

Then, of course, the algorithm started throwing in some other ships for my consideration, and along came the vmin ship videos.

I had no idea who they were at first. I had heard of BTS, vaguely recalled seeing them on some entertainment news program once, but (much to my chagrin, as I could have been listening to them earlier), hadn't paid attention. I'm embarrassed and a little ashamed to say I just remember they all had different coloured hair, were so impossibly pretty, and thought they were likely just a fad.

Don't hate me!! I would fight to the death for all 7 of them now!!!

But I digress! So, I thought vmin were so sweet. Nothing necessarily romantic there to my eyes, but I had an open mind about it, and I had never seen that kind of affection between males. I ate it up. I'm a 50 year old female (46 at the time), and from Canada, and this was so outside my personal experience. I adopted them into my heart. I watched everything I could find on instagram.

And then some stray jikook content started sliding in.

And I got worried. What about my vmin babies? Was my mischievous little V ( I didn't know him as Tae Tae yet) going to get his heart hurt? Of course, I was seeing stuff that had already happened years before in most cases, but all very new and "real time" to my heart, that was slowly turning a vivid purple without my knowledge 💜. But what I was seeing in jikook was quickly becoming undeniable in my eyes.

And I was blown away. My heart remembered what it was like to believe the stories I read and watched in romantic books and movies when I was young. I had decided that was all just the stuff of fiction, and that maybe I was a fool to have believed in it. But no- these two young Korean men were putting Mr. Darcy and Miss Elizabeth to shame! In real life!! I had to slide over to YouTube. I had to start searching stuff like "the way Jungkook looks at Jimin":

And I was able to reconcile vmin and jikook for what I believe it is- no animosity, no competition (at least romantically) because it's two different kinds of love, both just as real. Not that I don't see moments in the content where I think our Tae Tae felt left out, but our babies (all seven of them) had all lived together and done everything together for so long, I think their relationships are not like anything most of us will ever experience or be able to fit into any tidy relationship categories. They are so much more than that.

Somewhere in my searches I found this excellent 3-part commentary by @mimiandkookie4607 :

And this then this favourite by @themooniswaitingforus (who also makes some really beautiful song edits ,btw) :

Then I started wanting to watch original content, so I joined WeVerse and VLive. And then of course, as will happen, I fell in love with all 7 of our amazing, hard working, passionate, talented, brave, fun, impressive young men. I will love and support them until they are old men (or at least much older, as I won't be around as long as I fervently hope they will).

There is more, of course. So much more, but I've run out of steam for today! I do want to say that I joined tumblr because of jikook, as well. I first discovered @dalloga through the Korean Perspective video (they haven't been active for a little bit, but it's worth it to go read their blog, for those who haven't), and then @stormblessed95, and went further down the proverbial rabbit hole from there.

Thank you for reading. Stay positive. Be kind. Seek out happy!

[ingravinoveritas]

Hi!! Neil Gaiman just answered my question if Anna and Georgia are in GO and the answer is NO. Anna was pregnant and Georgia was offered a part but turned it down for….. reasons? Unknown to us other than that she believed the part should go to someone older and more experienced? Wonder what part she’s been offered and what her character could’ve been. Also, if there was a hypothetical season 3 we have to be worried if they’ll be cast in it now. Cause he said that they’ll definitely get a part somewhere in the show

Wow, okay...my inbox has been blowing up since Neil's post earlier. Well, for those who haven't gotten to see it, @yami-no-kokoro helpfully posted a screencap above, and it seems that Georgia and Anna will not be appearing in GO season 2...but I'm not entirely sure I buy the explanations as to why.

The first thing that struck me was that Neil actually answered this question at all, instead of "wait and see"-ing it as he has done with seemingly every other GO 2-related question. I also noticed that Neil specifically mentioned that Georgia was offered a part, but AL was not. I'm sure there was a reason for it being phrased that way, but had AL been offered a part, it would've been very easy and made sense to say that there.

As for the explanation of her being pregnant and avoiding people because of Covid, we know and have evidence that this is not really true, as AL was in Scotland during filming with Lyra, and was photographed in a restaurant in Glasgow eating with Michael and Jon Hamm. Also, Michael was on set every day with countless people and then with her, so anything he would've been exposed to, she would have been as well. Logically, then, it seems like she was not taking stringent precautions against Covid, because had that been the case, she would have stayed in Wales instead of following Michael to Scotland for six months for a film shoot while pregnant during a pandemic. So to me, that makes Neil's response seem like a PR one, for the sake of glossing over the fact that AL was not offered a part.

In terms of Georgia...again, the explanation given is a curious one. My feeling is that Neil was softening up the truth, which I am guessing is that Georgia was offered the part, looked it up online, found out the person she was asked to play was older than her, got pissed off, and declined the offer. As you said, Anon #1, there don't seem to be many reasons that Georgia would turn down a role or any opportunity to further her career, so had the part been a more glamorous or attention-grabbing one, she probably would have accepted it without hesitation. I do not at all buy for a second that this had anything to do with Georgia pushing for "age appropriate" casting, except in the sense of "I'm too young to play this part and how dare you even ask, go cast some old hag instead." But again, that translated into another PR response (and a nicely finessed one, which is not at all surprising since Neil is a talented writer) that does indeed reflect well on Georgia.

I know tonight was the BAFTAs, so I'll just touch on that briefly, but Anon #2, it seems that Georgia was there at the event, but just not on the red carpet:

Right away, I have to say I'm confused by "I find it all too much" and am not even sure what that means. Earlier in the day, Georgia posted a picture of herself breastfeeding Birdie and hashtagged it #mybaftalook, but it didn't seem to get a lot of traction, as all I saw on Twitter and elsewhere was pictures of David (and Catherine, and Billie) at the BAFTAs. So I don't really know what was going on here, but her entire vibe today just seemed so weird overall. Why would she not want a picture with David on the red carpet? Was she not invited to walk the red carpet? I don't think we'll ever know for sure, but putting out the narrative of "I find it all too much" just seems disingenuous, especially since she was on the red carpet with David only recently at the Olivier Awards. (EDIT: What I wrote here was based on a misinterpretation of Georgia's post that was very different to how other people read it. I have attempted to clarify my thoughts here.)

Going back to GO 2, though, I did see some of the comments that you mentioned, Anon #3, and I find it interesting that people want to categorize specific blogs as "haters" or "anti-Georgia/Anna" when a) More often than not, it seems like I end up saying out loud what others are thinking, but by no means am I the only one thinking it--especially if the results of the recent poll about GT/AL being in season 2 are any indication; and b) I do not categorize myself as anti-Georgia/Anna, but rather anti-the mentality that they are somehow above reproach or criticism simply because of who their partners are.

I have never and will never tell anyone that they shouldn't like Georgia or Anna. If you are a fan of theirs, then by all means, be a fan. Nobody is all bad (or all good, for that matter), and if you like them, that is completely your prerogative, and go ahead and have a gay old time. But I will not be quiet about the things I've seen from Georgia and AL that discomfit me, nor put up with a narrative that I feel is phony. And I think that right there is the nuance that seems to be getting missed--that what I have a problem with and dislike is Georgia and AL's actions/things they've said, rather than just them as people. I think if folks looked at it that way, it might also help them view Georgia and AL as their own person instead of "David's wife"/"Michael's girlfriend" and would enable us to better have these discussions.

If what Neil said is, in fact, true, I do feel relieved to know that Georgia and AL are not in GO 2. To me, GO is something incredibly special, and Georgia and AL just do not "fit" in that world, and them being in the show would have had a detrimental effect on the illusion/magic of the GO universe. I think the analogy that best explains this is Mary Martin as Peter Pan on TV in the 1950s. In the scene where Peter flies, the actor is put in a harness/on wires to give the appearance of flight. It's the illusion that enthralls us, that immerses us in that sense of magic, and in that moment--even just briefly--you don't see the wires and start to believe that human beings can fly. Season 1 of GO and the incredible chemistry between Michael and David created that same sense of magic and wonder in so many of us....but having Georgia and AL in it would be like seeing the wires.

As for a possible season 3, there's about a thousand different factors that will determine if there even is a season 3, let alone if Neil will cast them or even have parts for them to play. We saw how long it took between seasons 1 and 2 of GO (though Covid was obviously a large part of that), but if that is any indication of how long it could be until season 3, a lot of things can change in a few years' time, so who knows what will happen.

So, those are my thoughts on today's developments (and of course this had to happen on Mother's Day, of all days). Hopefully we'll have more GO 2 stuff to talk about in the coming weeks...

[lcndonboysstuff]

Tbh I feel sorry for Taylor. It must be and feel very lonely up there where she is, at peak stardom, in celebrity hyper heaven. She has no family around, her mom lives in Tennessee, her father in Florida, I think her brother in LA? She can trust very few people because she must suspect and rightfully so that everyone wants something from her. She's mostly in New York alone with her cats, sure she's friends but they have careers and families/Xfriends of their own, they can go out with her to dinner, once in a while, but they've their own lives to live. She can go out every night with different friends but at the end of those nights she comes back to a house where nobody is waiting for her, excepts the cats. She had one true thing, a life with someone for six years, a someone who just lived her and wanted nothing from her except her, in a city where his family and friends lived nearby and could be reached anytime, they all spent time together constantly. Life in Europe is less alienating than life in the US also because of the different sizes of the Countries and mental attitudes IMO. But she felt it was too cagey for her, it looks like that feeling was mostly caused by Joe's difficulties, some she couldn't deal with and it's understandable because she's not the proper person to deal with stuff like that. She's been a child star, more used to be adored and supported than vice versa, I think she tried but she didn't have the right tools to face it, and the fact that she doesn't think she needs help in getting those tools is an obstacle to real growth in that direction. Also she has this idea, weird for a child of divorced parents, that love isn't love if it's not a thrill, possibly a secret thrill.l, love must be exciting and surprising and make your heart blows forever and ever. But that's a childhood idea, it's a love without growth and progress, love changes as we do. She might have sung and written about placid, quiet love and fighting each other's wars that sometimes means fighting only his wars but I don't think she really got what that's like, she probably just loved the romantic idea of it. So, feeling like her the current situation was too much, she wanted to leave but where do you run to, to a place empty and where the only presence is you and the ghosts of your thoughts? So enter her sudden wild uncontrollable passion for Matty, which was lived with an abandon unworthy of a 33 year old wise woman (reminded me more of the life of divas like Liz Taylor with her multiple husbands, again a child raised to fame) and more of a teenager's feelings, and the ridiculously amount of currently released thoughts/words spent for someone that might have been chasing and love bombed her for months but was really in her life for what, 3/4 weeks? And then the pain of the abandonment spent in a lonely house between concerts, going out to dinner every night again, surrounding herself with girlfriends on July 4 but always, always, ending up alone. Enter Travis. And I hope for her this is the real thing but the way it started, the way she jumped into it while being what, months away from her longest relationship breakup and weeks away from her he's the real love of my love obsession manic episode, makes me believe that if it happens it would be fir pure luck. And luck is an ungrateful and petty queen. It's very lonely being a 30/35 year old single woman in America, it must be even more lonely being her.

sometimes i feel sorry for her but recently i’m finding it very hard to, she brings a lot of it on herself. not wanting you’re dating life to be a spectacle and then liking instagram posts ranking all your exes? like who does that.

i do think she’s lonely and has difficulty not being in a relationship. that’s why she quickly jumps into things till she finds something that longer lasting: calvin-tom-joe in 2016 and joe-matty-travis last year.

you hoping it’s the real thing reminds me of something i saw on twitter yesterday. it was a swiftie being like “thankfully she has travis after this” and another swiftie being like how can you confidently say that when she always seems happy and then she’ll come out later and tell you she wasn’t happy at all. and i agree i don’t think you can ever confidently say she’s happy and she’s found “the one” you just have to wait and see

[cinnamonwolfy]

modern gui development...

this is a bit of an opinion post, so please keep that in mind :3

so, i logged back into twitter to see what i had missed (i don't post anything there anymore, and the times i do, it's just to link my tumblr x3), and i saw that the epic games launcher was an unreal engine application... the fact that somebody thought that was a good idea scares me, especially since electron is right there.

anyways, it got me thinking about how unnecessarily bloated and inefficient all of these cross-platform, non-native solutions were. chromium embedded framework is just chromium, but now there's no tabs. electron is just cef, but it's now bundled with a node.js runtime. these are all full copies of chromium modified to not let you use tabs, the core of them remains unmodified. this means that a bunch of rendering cruft is left behind, making them have to do unnecessary checks in the parser and renderer (nobody uses the marquee tag anymore, especially professionally made applications, and yet there's still support for it in chrome).

there's a lot of legacy cruft which is necessary for a browser, but not for a native application. these repackaged web apps were already inefficient since they were basically being put through a gigantic interpreter, but the interpreter itself is also very inefficient, which ends up in apps absolutely choking on older devices ("just upgrade", try telling that to the 14-year-old in a poor neighborhood in colombia that wants to run discord so that he can learn how to write mods for his pirated copy of gta san andreas that runs on a secondhand core 2 duo laptop he got from his parents after they upgraded to a first gen core i3 laptop. yes, i know this person irl, they're one of my cousins).

while i personally believe that you should do your best to make native applications instead of these webapp repackages, i understand why they're done (to put it short: capitalism). i just think that these projects should put more effort into making them less resource intensive. the rendering engine should be paired down to only support html5, v8 should be replaced with ruby and all javascript should be transpiled into ruby (javascript is not a good language for any of this anyway).

i consider this more of a temporary fix rather than the actual solution. the actual solution would be to make a good gui toolkit that is cross-platform, but also manages to look good and doesn't make it so that your computer has a heart attack every single time you run any application that uses it. however, that is very difficult, especially when windows is involved (win32 murders any and all codebases that touch it). while i plan to fix the issues the linux gui space has with pltk, pltk will never get an officially supported release to windows, so it won't ever truly be cross-platform.

this one was quite the long post, but i mean, that's kinda what tumblr is for x3

[starabram97]

----- I know this is an extremely late post but the reason for that was being afraid of what I perceived as an implicit threat to hurt me further if I ever spoke out. I've been told by the friends(?) of people who are associated with those who either treated this as a joke or expressed their disliking for me based on the allegations that they genuinely do not want to engage in any further drama about this, so after a lot of support to speak out trusting that everyone's interested in burying the hatchet, I'll be giving my piece. AGAIN, this is not to resurrect old, dead drama, but to amend misunderstandings. I want to make it VERY CLEAR that I do not want this to be taken as an excuse to attack anybody. Everyone makes mistakes, I did, they did, we all did in one form or another. I don't want people on either side to be harassed from what I'm revealing. Of course, I want to make another clear apology to anybody that has either been hurt or distressed by me for any reason. I do not want to hurt anybody, that was never my intention and I'm deeply sorry for it. ----- Now to start, I want to make it extremely clear that I am not a supporter of any racism, pedophilia, anti-semitism or any other hateful, predatory or otherwise stupid attitudes or opinions. Many of those who have investigated me on a personal level or have known me for years can attest to this. However, I cannot blame anybody for misunderstanding my silence on the matter regardless of reason. So that context of what I have to say is clear, I will try to split it into three parts that will help disprove allegations. == twitter.com/mega_strimp/status/1468592642585997317 == Previous public responses to this situation:

Understand that a lot of the images shown and things said in the main allegation post are taken out of context. I do not believe it was made by the poster to intentionally frame me wrongly, but I hope the following helps understand what's my and my friend's perspectives on this. ==================== 1. Strimp's Characters Art This was an artwork that he endorsed himself as part of some @#$%posting we would do. I have no idea why he's decided to lie about this, but whatever. Regarding his age, I only recently-ish was told he was 19 by him in an unrelated Kirby server. Prior to this, I had no idea how old he was and it did not help that he'd engage with these kinds of jokes in the past. (I want to note that Strimp said he just turned 19 on January of 2022, his Twitter states his birthday's on August 13 and the artwork was made on March of 2020, which implies he was 18 and not a minor, but I digress.)

==================== 2. The Fairy Queen Drawing This artwork is one of poor taste. However, I remember it showing developed breasts and I think pubes as well. Regardless, I am told by a friend that it's real and we all agree that the art style presented was an extremely poor choice (one I will never replicate for obvious reasons), however I want to note that this artwork was apparently made in response to a request... there is reason to believe it might have been requested to cause trouble as troll accounts have been seen posting a sketched-version with red headphones, but I no longer have evidence of that. edit (12-16-2022): User DeafeningGardenerPanda has suggested that I strikethrough the above comment to clarify that I'm not trying to shift blame onto trolls for past artwork. More clarification on this can be found on this Twitter post: twitter.com/StarAbram97/status/1601847651082727424 ==================== 3. "Raiding" of TG Server This is something that I do not understand why he calls a raid. This is a situation that was amended long before his post regarding two users egging on Strimp for having previously insulted the programmer , Wynaut, of the fangame " Project Ice Cream" - This situation was de-escalated and taken care of while alongside those who were banned and Light MetaS - we all agreed that tossing "brutal fighting-words" (memes) and egging on him "under his own roof" was grounds for a fair banning - Strimp was with us throughout this entire situation.

I do want to note that I have cought Wynaut starting arguments out of thin air with Strimp in public, which flies at the face of trying to operate in isolation on our project. Wynaut is no longer with us, so I cannot gather their reasoning for this. I cant agree with whatever Strimp wants to call the back-and-fourth, but I understand after investigating the timeline of events alongside Strimp's own friends that there was pointless drama fueling friction. Because Strimp (we believe) assumed that I knew this was going on, he likely thought I was involved in trying to start pointless fights. For more context regarding the events shortly prior to the allegation posts and Wynaut, the below images should detail it.

==================== 4. Edgy Political jokes regarding Kirby Characters To be honest, I fully take responsibility for the "Ultra Hyness", Meta-Knights Adeleine and Haltmann Conquerers memes - these are artworks made to laugh to between friends due to how ridiculous they are - specially as two of them are doing roman salutes. While I do nowadays better understand the sensitivity one can feel towards these types of jokes, I hope it makes sense that making fun of these things is to put them down and mock them, not to promote the context of their joke. I want to note that Strimp and his friends who promoted the allegations post share this type of edgy humor in one form or another, so I don't know why it was brought up in this light. I do want to re-state that if for whatever reason these jokes or types of @#$%posts have offended or hurt you somehow, that I am sorry. I truly mean it when I say that all I hoped was to make people laugh.

==================== 5. Regarding who I am as a person and Final Allegations. I want to note here that the following statements are not mine's but of people that have known me for a very long time. Although some may want to argue there's a bias involved, please take note of their honesty towards me and the mistakes I've done.

Both these statements come from friends/contributors of TG and Strimp, some of which y'all might recognize. In the past, I naively expected anyone genuinely interested in figuring out the truth of a situation to consider these kinds of opinions, but I'm only recently coming with the realization that I need make a statement of my own, as the silence has not contributed at all.

===== IMPOSTORS, ALTS AND TROLL ACCOUNTS ===== === https://twitter.com/MasterUja/status/1590906956843483136 === Below I will explain my experience with harassment campaigns that go back years and how they've affected this situation. Like many others, if you were unaware of this prior, you might come to realize that in this situation it is possible that both me and Strimp are victims and that this whole string of events is all a misunderstanding. Why did I argue that my accusers were/are playing foul? The history between me and harassment accounts go all the way back almost 5-6 years. As stated in one of the statements about me above, it was born from a splintering between people who wanted to use free speech to be rambunctious and those who wanted it as a cherry on top for a space meant for artists to make music videos and games. There are multiple people that can attest to having been invited to the split-off space years ago, they've described to me that this was a space where they would set up literal "fuck star" chatrooms and do nothing but plot raids against me, try to dig dirt non-stop and generally circle-jerk about how awful I am for calling them out as undesirables to the space. (Again, this is what I've been told - I personally avoided this space and had no interest in meddling in their free-will hence my general ignorance of it) PLEASE DO NOT hold the following stuff against those who perpetuated it. I do not want drama, but I want to let the world know what my whole perspective is and why there was friction between me and Team Gamble, friction that lead to the allegations post. For years, I've been begging the admin (Diamond) of the space to please ask that the particular members members involved with trolling tone it down and to not harass my friends. Over time of being told I was being a crazy conspiracy theorist for even thinking that, or be given a fake "safe space" to spill my guts with the admin, eventually limited to only asking those who were mutual friends that did not agree with the trolling but did want to keep in good terms with the splintered group, I've been sent this as a response when openly trying to rationalize if it's all a figment of my imagination or not.

I want to note that the questionable users have told me that this is a thing of the past and that they do not engage in this behavior anymore. However, I want to show this because it is critical to understanding what perspective I hold regarding why all of this has happened. The following Screenshots are public and were published by a twitter account that goes by "@TeamgambleT". In these screenshots, you can see the admin and users that previously thought of slandering me as fun, calling me slurs and other things closely interact with the inner circle of Team Gamble.

Below are examples of troll accounts that reacted to the fallout at DreamCrafter. Note the Date (if it matters)

AGAIN, I do not want to point fingers, but make it clear what shaped my perspective regarding this whole situation - What you make of it should be based on whatever all these things mean to you as an outside observer.

As of the time of writing this, this Twitter block list is exclusively made up of impostor, troll accounts and a few people who would spend time to spread allegations on me. When said accounts are looked through, they often interact closely with Team Gamble. Impostor accounts have a history of sexual misconduct with others, often minors and have a history of posting a lot of racially charged gay sex videos and other types of content making a mockery of skin color or sexual deviation. They've also been used across Discord to do similar activities. These accounts also have a history of harassing TNHGameRemixes for being black, which seems fueled by past friction between him and Strimp when I was being consoled and being helped in putting together evidence of troll account behavior.

Above are examples of impostor accounts interacting with people and even a popular gimmick account in a mock conversation. This account's best known for it's awesome "THE SKELETON APPEARS" meme. People might have noticed that the account is also used to refer to me by name to target me, and only did so once it knew of my new account which contrasts with the prior interactions of "owning" me for fake NFTs. I personally do not mind this, but it's worth noting the same people that participate in a lot of the content above are related to the few gimmick accounts. A reason for my silence has been the fear of the implicit threat to use said gimmick accounts to target me in retaliation for any drama that might arise from explaining my side publicly. It would certainly explain why an account of over 25k followers would target one with less than 50. However, again, this is just an explanation of my perspective and the silence I've held onto. The folks behind this content should be allowed to thrive making content that is fun and meme-tastic. Although i would prefer not being targeted like this, I would lie if I said I do not enjoy the account's content and memey edge. ....

Lastly, I want to make it clear, once again, that my intention is to explain my side for once and let people see what things look like from me and my friend's perspective - to understand my personal reasons to having stayed silent and why I feel like I'm taking an incredible risk to post this online. I've made it clear to many people throughout the whole time, going back over a year in private phone calls and even people who would allow me to vent about this that all I wish is peace with others. That I do not blame anybody for having issue with my past jokes and sense of humor. I live with the shame of thinking I might have hurt somebody, and am reminded every. single. day. But even through it all, I still reach out hope that these things can be amended and that everyone involved could agree to bury the hatchet and move forward our own ways. I've been silent, isolated and trying to only do things in my own space - not bothering anybody, not interacting with the greater fandom, dealing with the unavoidable anxiety and stress that I can only imagine would make anybody weaker-willed think of suicide as a viable escape. People have been hurt from this, including those the people involved with trolling and fake allegations called their close friends. There are victims of this that churn my heart every time I think about them and the guilt they expressed for all this. The following images are posted not with permission, but I hope that those who saw this person as a very close friend can understand the amount of harm they're causing others by enabling all this pointless, overblown allegation nonesense.

I thank anybody from the depths of my heart for reading through this. I genuinely feel like in retaliation I might be targeted with a force beyond my imagination, so please understand how I feel to post this and why I was silent. As a last note, This was a public apology I made on my last Twitter account. It was made under the supervision of Strimp and some friends of his that helped get in touch. Sadly the conversation was not perfect on his part, but I hope it expresses how badly I wish that this can all be put behind and for all this harassment to stop - but also express how deeply sorry I am for anybody I would have hurt in the past.

Thank you for your time.

================= Update 2.21.2023 added image and expansion regarding pufferfish inside-jokes, references to being "famished" relating to impostor and troll accounts.

[st4rdust-ch0rds]

I posted 1,877 times in 2022

That's 1,710 more posts than 2021!

279 posts created (15%)

1,598 posts reblogged (85%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@mywaykiszka

@shutupdevvie

@myfriendtheghost

@hellfireclubs

I tagged 650 of my posts in 2022

#greta van fleet - 148 posts

#gvf - 131 posts

#josh kiszka - 96 posts

#book club with mj - 82 posts

#josh gvf - 75 posts

#joshua kiszka - 68 posts

#joshua michael kiszka - 58 posts

#jake kiszka - 38 posts

#jake gvf - 31 posts

#mj answers inquiries - 30 posts

Longest Tag: 96 characters

#someone on twitter said this is what he looks like looking down at you with your head in his lap

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

if i speak………..

232 notes - Posted September 18, 2022

#4

i, for one, need to be sedated immediately!

242 notes - Posted June 27, 2022

#3

Fresh || J.M. Kiszka

pairing: josh kiszka x reader

word count: 2308

warnings: 18+ CONTENT! MINORS DNI! oral (m/f receiving), fingering. mullet!josh.

summary: josh surprises you with a new haircut, and he receives a good review.

a/n: i haven’t written smut in so long, but somehow the new cut has inspired me to make this. i apologize if this is lack luster, but hey, it’s a valiant effort in my opinion.

You have spent the past few months following Josh and the band around on tour with few and brief breaks in between. Currently, the band was on a ten-day break from the second North American leg of the tour, allowing you to find some reprieve in your home. Normally you would spend this time catching up on laundry, clearing out old food that went bad in the fridge while you were away, or with Josh to make up for some alone time.

Josh was out of the house for the day to do some studio work and “run some errands,” as he said. One of the errands included going to the hairdresser. This wasn’t too out of the ordinary for him to do since he would go every so often to get the dead ends off for his hair to maintain its signature shape. Ever since you and Josh started dating, he has stayed consistent with his hairstyle. It would change from being a bit too short or a bit too long every now and then, but nothing super crazy. You were obviously aware of his former hairstyles, but you were only used to his current style.

It was about 3pm when you decided to call it a day on doing chores. You knew you probably should have kept going, but you had nothing else to do for the next few days and decided to pace yourself. You were in the midst of watching TV when Josh called your phone.

“Hello?” you answered.

“Hey, hun, I just left the hairdresser and I’ll be home in about 15 minutes. I have to drop Sammy off first.” Josh said.

“You won’t believe what Josh did!” Sammy shouts from the passenger seat. Your brows furrowed at his statement.

“What do you mean?” you asked.

“Nothing, nothing,” Josh affirmed, “He means nothing. I’ll see you soon.” You exchanged your replies and ended the call.

The hell did Josh do? You thought. You became unnecessarily unsettled by Sam’s comment. He probably didn’t mean anything by it and just wanted to create drama for fun. Before Josh left for the morning, he didn’t mention what he was doing with his hair. Even when he had intentions of booking an appointment, he didn’t express his desire to possibly change his hair. You refocused your attention on your show when you heard the front door unlock. The couch in your living room faces away from the front door, having you to fully turn your body around to look at Josh.

“Hello,” Josh drew out the last syllable like a note. Instantly your jaw dropped, eyes going wide. Josh stopped in his tracks, “What’s up?”

“‘What’s up?’ That’s ‘what's up,’” You pointed at his hair. He had buzzed the sides of his hair making his hair into a mullet. It looked very similar to how his hair looked during the early days of the band, which you have shamelessly expressed your love for.

Josh ran his hand on the freshly shaved sides around his ears, blushing a bit. You darted up from your spot on the couch and made your way over to him. Your hands replaced his as you ran your hands through his curls, fingertips brushing the rough sides.

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252 notes - Posted August 12, 2022

#2

look at him 🥹

(📸: Fernando Aceves)

308 notes - Posted May 17, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

don’t call. don’t text.

341 notes - Posted August 9, 2022

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[gunlord500]

Kinda random, but reposting my Twitter thread about how despite their loudly proclaimed superiority, conservatives haven't made as much of a splash in culture and the arts as they say they should. Check out an except from this essay a righty wrote on his blog, concerning the literary influences of the old Dungeons and Dragons games:

I was reading this essay by a righty extolling, as they usually do, the virtues of Old Books, especially those written before everything went "woke," in this case being the guys who inspired Gygax in making AD&D-Vance, Howard (conan), etc. (2/14)

This isn't uncommon on the right, obviously, but what really interests me is his attitude to the Old Books, which reflects something often seen on the right, and which, in my view, is a reason they tend to undermine themselves in the arts. (3/14)

Look at how he talks about classic 80s D&D authors who nevertheless weren't the 60s-70s inspiration for the game themselves: Weis and Hickman were just imitations of the "Platonic Form" of Vance. (4/14)

It's very common theme in right-wing thought: That there was some Golden Age in the past, or in this case some Ideal, and everything since then/farther than that is just a decline and the best we can hope for is just imitation (5/14)

Now, right-wingers like this guy always make a show about how they're making fiction/art that Sticks It to the Libs by consciously imitating the Glory Days of the 80s, or even before that, the mid-century pulps, before Woke. (6/14)

Here's the thing, though: Their very worldview gives their prospective customers a perfect reason not to actually buy anything they make, for the reasons laid out, or at least alluded to, in the guy's post I screenshotted. (7/14).

The old greats--Howard, Vance, etc.--were closer to the Great Story than we are? And even non-woke masters like the Dragonlance authors were just shadows of Vance? So why should we believe you, o rightwing author, are any closer to greatness? (8/14)

Yeah, you don't know what you're missing out on if you've only had reheated dinners. But the right-wing artist, by his own admission, isn't providing anything but a reheated dinner-the real good meals were and are the original Vance, Howard, etc. (9/14)

So in that case...why should I ever buy anything from this guy, or Vox Day, or Castalia house, or any of the rest of them? I can get the original Good Old Books, rather than just imitations, much cheaper (and in many cases free) (10/14)

"Woke" authors nowadays, on the other hand...you can say they're unskilled, you can say they're completely callow in their lack of knowledge and appreciation of the past, you can say they're nothing compared to the greats, but...(11/14)

You have to admit they're much better at marketing than their adversaries, the 'traditional' righties. They can at least make the case they're making something new, even if it sucks or even if it actually is just a crappy imitation (12/14),

And thus, the people listening to them will be motivated to actually go out and buy their work, whereas a conservative writer's fans will just go back to the Good Stuff of Vance and Howard rather than shell out for an imitator. (13/14)

You do not have to be a genius to figure out that the lefty's approach will lead to more sales and thus more reach in the culture over the long term. 14/14 (END)

[cycagp445]

What is democratization

Remember her? Well, if you don’t, this is Charli D’Amelio who became TikTok famous in 2019. Let's talk about it. 

Let’s not forget her family TV show on Hulu called “The D’Amelio Show” which has 3 seasons as of 2023 (Caldwell, 2023). 

This is a prime example of the concept of democratization which means that the internet and social media are very accessible to everyone now (Oxford Languages, 2024). I think a lot of us can agree that we catch ourselves scrolling on TikTok or scrolling on Facebook for what feels like 20 minutes but it’s now dark outside and you didn’t make dinner. We as the audience determine what videos or what pictures we like and that is what gives the creator traction and that's the key to becoming internet famous. If you have ever seen a post that makes you so mad or so disgusted you want to comment on it trying to reach the creator to make them stop or you send it to your friend so you aren’t the only one who had to see it, well, that is also giving traction and making that creator one step closer to rising in fame. 

Now, what would happen if social media wasn’t a thing or it wasn’t so accessible, would Charli D’Amelio still be able to become famous? Considering her journey of competitive dancing I believe there could be a possibility that she would become famous for a dancer however, It’s very unlikely. In my opinion, Charli was able to gain her confidence online and with creating content with friends, if she didn’t blow up from that first lip syncing video or those dancing videos, I don’t believe she would've gained this confidence to become a famous competitive dancer therefore, In a way, she wouldn't becoming famous if social media was not a thing.  

Since democratization can work both ways, let’s look at someone who received negative consequences due to their social media access. 

In 2018 a woman proudly posted on twitter her new internship at NASA but later on, got let go. 

In the article written by Robyn Merrett shares that this woman posted “EVERYONE SHUT THE F... UP, I GOT ACCEPTED FOR NASA INTERNSHIP” and of course that post was seen by the NASA engineer, Homer Hickam where he replies with “Language” (Merrett, 2018). The woman then replies to Hickam saying “Suck my d... and b.... I'm working at NASA” then he reveals who he is. (Merrett, 2018).  

While the internet gives you the freedom to post almost anything, it doesn’t mean that what you say won't have repercussions such as getting fired, however, democratization can give you the desired fame you want on TikTok or Instagram as long as the audience clicks the right button. 

References 

Carolina Muniz, 2023. Marketing 4 ecommerce, How Charli D’Amelio became the second most popular tiktoker in the world. https://marketing4ecommerce.net/en/how-charli-damelio-became-the-second-most-popular-tiktoker-in-the-world/  

Google, 2024. Oxford Languages, Democratization. https://www.google.com/search?sca_esv=4c908fbc6c8bfb37&rlz=1C1SQJL_enCA921CA921&sxsrf=ACQVn09K7EgsPxrunJJxo_T9JXboOOa7yg:1709943862635&q=democratization&si=AKbGX_qbffDhNJNmNuoQO9DPv_17C1K1XhS0E42xOOmOMD5kdtCff_uel2bzCuTmhOiMWyHBmymGqLVtOS1tgaytRAgGxJvqthCWFqvaULJUTEZ8hhxJBZA%3D&expnd=1&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjbp5Kk9eWEAxW6jYkEHZ-ZDrAQ2v4IegQIHxAT&biw=1366&bih=599&dpr=1  

Sophie Caldwell, 2023. TODAY, Charli D’Amelio reflects on fame and the future: ‘Sometimes I feel like I’m still 15 years old’. https://www.today.com/popculture/charli-damelio-tiktok-profile-future-rcna91650  

Robyn Merrett, 2018. People, Woman Loses Prized NASA Internship over Vulgar Tweet- but she might get a better position. https://people.com/human-interest/woman-loses-nasa-internship-over-tweet/  

TikTok, 2024. Charli D’Amelio. https://www.tiktok.com/en/  

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[monstermaster13]

Werebelushi:

So are you saying that the Jade Harley fanboy's shitty behavior isn't enough to warrant being banned? Allow me to explain his actions for you then. 1. He called Nathan a lolcow and said he still was one despite saying that Nathan was the politest lulcow he had ever met. 2. He called Nathan's photomanipulations terrible. 3. He then posted a post on that site that shall not be mentioned calling Nathan's stories insane and creepy despite not having read them AT ALL. 4. He caused a bit of mild drama between Nathan and another person who Nathan avoided for a long while. 5. Got all worked up when Nathan criticized his Undertale AU that wasn't even a legit one, just a joke one. Made a childish threat against him because of this and apparently just because Nathan tried to tell this user off on their own profile he got warned about it, oh sure…the creepy Homestuck fanboy gets away scot free but Nathan doesn't? 6. Made it look like Nathan hates Homestuck just because Nathan has a stamp about it on his profile, took a reblog Nathan did of a post that was about the Homestuck creator's reportedly awful behavior out of context, making it sound like Nathan hates him, but then again if I was Andrew Hussie i'd barricade the door and never leave my house again especially if the fans are anything like this person.

Cleared off for a bit year, then came back only because he got all triggered because his videos got taken down and pretty much acts like Nathan was attacking Mr Metokur when he was just asking him to take down a video that mentioned him by name because he was embarrassed to hear about his old account, called Nathan a false-flagger, acted like a triggered crybaby and called Nathan's fic about someone turning into Jade Harley disgusting and incomprensible even though he obviously didn't read it, acted like Nathan's comments on Youtube on CWC related content were him denying that he was anything like that sicko (yes, he actually believes that Nathan and Chris Chan are so similar that they're the same person), and said it was stupid for him to have a Youtube account to begin with, when anyone who is over the age of 13 is allowed to have one and also apparently thinks Nathan bitched about him on the youtube forums..if he's refering to lolcow.farm which is basically just where all the rejects of THAT site that shall be named end up, he was just asking nicely not to be brought up or mentioned and it got him mocked and screncapped by the admin and banned even when he went on there to explain why he was uncomfortable with being mentioned., if he's referring to the google products support forum, yes..he did report this guy on the forums but that person's videos and channel came down on their own, as well as Mister Metokur's video on him because guess what not even Youtube's low standards tolerate 'Papa Metokur's hateful words. 7. Childishly challenged him to come at him on his own wiki for his own fanfiction, which of course Nathan declined because it was that stupid. I mean why bother? All Nathan said was he thought the fic was as horrible as the holocast and that was just to get his attention. Even if I could talk about it myself it would just be 'this is fake AU for Undertale with little to no visual representation and it's just music and it's focused around the bizarre niche of tf-tg-writers and artists and Youtubers the author fanboys over. it is a joke in every way and a terrible one at that'. 8. Made a post on Twitter about wanting NZ to get bombed because of Nathan. Dude, I get it, you were pissed because Nathan called you out for being a creepy perv, i'm sorry but you deserve it, and you honestly deserve to get banned too. PS: Jade Harley deserves better than you, you're a nasty man-whore who only wants her for her body and nothing else.

If this fucked up shithead wasn't horrible enough, he very much had this sick fetish of wanting to be Jade Harley. I am guessing he only wanted to be Jade because he secretly has a pet play fetish too and Jade is half-dog so it will be like having a woman he can treat like a pet or he wants to be treated like a pet by her or a woman like her. Nothing against the Homestuck fanbase, but if fans like him exist…i'm going upstairs to barricade my room and hide away.

[mademefuturewhatever]

Story Playlist(s): songs that could tell what’s happening in a book

It’s me, Hi, I Have a Problem, That’s Me! 

Anyway, I used to do Taylor Swift Twitter but I wasn’t very active there. I mostly read through the playlists people made and the connections of songs from all of Taylor Swift’s Discography. For example: playlists like “Lana Del Rey would listen to this” or “Do you think there could be a movie with this collection of songs?”

However when Speak Now (Taylor’s Version) dropped I couldn’t find one. I just figured with the changes to Twitter I wasn’t seeing the same posts.

My boyfriend suggested to search Tumblr for fan made playlists. Unfortunately, I was looking through some of the Taylor Swift pages I got bored and distracted by other cool Taylor Swift things I found. However, I’m looking for people that come up with their own Taylor Swift Stories from her songs. 

To kick it off I made my own as an example!

Here is my story playlist - Augustine (A) Vs Betty (B). (Taylor’s Version songs when there’s two versions) 

1) Get Away Car (A)

2) I Knew You were Trouble (B)

3) Lavender Haze (A) 

4) Better than Revenge (B)

5) I’m only me when I’m with you (A)

6)Picture to Burn (B)

7)Paris (A) 

6) Bigger Than the Whole Sky (B) 

7)Lover (A) 

8) Cruel Summer (B) 

9) Story of Us (A)

10) Vigilante Shit (B)

11) August 

12) Come in with the Rain (B)

13) Question…? (A) 

14)  Betty

15) Foolish One (A) 

16) Innocent (B) 

17) Better Man (A) 

18) Ours (B) 

19) Babe (A) 

20) Today was a Fairytale (B) 

21) You Belong with Me (A) 

22) King of my Heart (B) 

23) Tis the damn Season (A)

24) Should’ve Said No (B) 

25) I did something Bad (A) 

26) News Day (B) 

27) My tears Ricocheted (A) 

28) Begin Again (B) 

29) Come Back be Here (A) 

30) Mine (B) 

31) Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve(A) 

32) Sweet Nothing (B)

33) Closure (A)

34) I Think He Knows (B) 

35) I Forgot You Existed (A) 

36) Paper Rings (B) 

37) I Bet You Still Think of Me (A)

38) Stay Stay Stay (B)

39) Speak Now (A) 

40) right where you left me (B) 

41) The greatest American dynasty (A)

42) Death by Thousand Cuts  (B) 

43) This Love (A)

44)  All Too Well (10 min) (B)

45) You Are in Love (A) 

46) The 1 (B) 

47) End Game (A)

48) Clean (B)

49) Mastermind (A) 

50) Long Live (B)

51) Mary’s Song (Oh My My My) (A)

54) Ronan (B) 

55) Majorie (A) 

56) Hey Stephen (B)

It’s the beginning of Summer Betty thought her boyfriend and her would spend the days together for it being their last summer of college. Yet, when his grandparents become sick, he moves to take care of them since being a nursing major. While he’s a couple states away he runs back into his first ever girlfriend, Augustine, and has a summer romance. It got complicated when Betty showed up by surprise on the Fourth of July.  ( That’s when my playlist begins) Augustine knows it’s just for the summer, even knows about Betty, not thinking anything he will have that much impact on her since she’s just wanting to focus on her own future, but when Labor Day comes around she realizes she loves him. When classes resume in the fall he begs Betty forgiveness. She of course takes him back they’ve been together since junior year of High School when he moved to town. However, when he visits his grandparents for Winter Break he can’t help but to see Augustine again. Betty is furious, but when he kisses her at midnight on new years it all fades away. His New Year’s resolution is to never see or communicated with Augustine again. 

Two years, Augustine hears of his engagement to Betty. That’s when all these old feelings come. While Betty and him usually do not fight the planning of the wedding has been stressful. Augustine knows she shouldn’t go but if he didn’t want her to show up he wouldn’t get married 5mins away from her. Betty doesn’t believe it only in movies someone objects to weddings.  

Five years and three months later Augustine is married to him plus pregnant with his second baby, Majorie, sitting on their front porch. While Aunt Betty is tucking in Ronan upstair Uncle Stephen, Augustine’s older Brother.

If you made it this far I hope you share your playlists and stories with me!

[rozinaaa]

r/nosurf - The Most Ironic Subreddit to Ever Exist

There's a subreddit (basically a forum) called r/nosurf where people talk about leaving social media and the internet, ironically on a forum style website which can be accessed by anyone, even those that don't have an account on reddit, such as myself, where I've lurked on a few different subreddits, with this being one of them.

I first came across this subreddit during lockdown (so much happened during that time, it almost feels as though my life has changed as a result of lockdown for some reason, and it feels like this time period has determined a large portion of my life and practice), simply because I started to feel disillusioned and bored of social media, and I wanted to find out if others felt the same.

Enter r/nosurf, where there's a whole echo chamber of them, all saying the exact same thing, but worded slightly differently, where the main themes of the posts on there consist of: 1) being aware that they've spent too much time on social media/their phone/the internet; 2) being aware that social media platforms are bad because they swallow up all of their time and attention; 3) making a post where they announce that they'll delete their reddit account, regardless if they literally created a throwaway account just to create that post, or if they've been on the site for over 10 years (u/[deleted] is really making the rounds over there, since they've got so much posts, but no account to link them), which to me, feels very performative since 9 times out of 10, they will be back under a different alias; 4) making a post announcing that they've deleted the main culprits (Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, Snapchat, TikTok etc), and that reddit is now the only form of social media that they use; 5) telling people that they intend to buy a flip phone that will replace their smartphone (with the flip phone in question being referred to as a dumb phone, due to the lack of features it has compared to a smartphone), although they aren't aware of the fact that you still might need to have a smartphone to still be able to do things in order to be a functioning member of society; and 6) telling people how much time they've got since quitting social media cold turkey, which means that they abruptly decided to shut it out from their lives, instead of gradually easing their use, since they believe that being abrupt about it is usually the best way to go.

For me personally, I find this part of the internet ironic, since the whole subreddit could just be one big post explaining all of the things that I've listed above, instead of a bunch of random anonymous people just echoing the same few things over and over again, to the point where it slowly starts to get boring to look at (especially if you use the old reddit interface), so I guess it lives up to its name and expectations, and I guess it's good to have constant messages and reminders for people to get off the internet and to do something useful instead.

I get where this subreddit is coming from, but to me, it just feels like a permanent intentional stage, where you intend to do something, but whether you actually set out to do the thing or not isn't known, so to me, this feels like an eternal step 1, designed for those who have just become aware of how much time they've spent online, and want to know how to control it, as well as being able to do something about it.

The subreddit does have a list of activities that replace mindlessly scrolling, but ironically, it typically links to other subreddits, which will end up promoting people (who are looking to spend less time online) to spend more time on reddit, and to me, this gives very mixed signals, which would lead me (and potentially others) to a lot of confusion. Do you want me to spend less time online or not?

For me personally, I find unclear instructions (such as this subreddit I've talked about, and the list of activities) and mixed signals extremely frustrating, since I like to fully know what I'm doing beforehand, how I need to do it, and roughly how long it will take me to carry out a task. The subreddit and list of activities mean well, but is deeply ironic.

Perhaps if there was an offline analogue thing, such as a physical book which listed these things, that would help, and there probably already is a whole genre of books that already go into detail about this, but only focus on the obvious (such as saying that social media is bad, and spending too much time online will damage your mental health), rather than the alternatives (such as emphasising on the fact that you need to spend time doing other things to the point that you forget about browsing the internet because you're occupying yourself with other things), as well as having physical meetups, so that there's an actual community of people that you can be accountable to and for.

Well, that previous paragraph sounded like a very basic draft for a business plan, but the whole concept of this (of criticising the internet on the internet) feels like holding an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting at a bar, which kind of defeats the whole purpose of having it in the first place.

So, if the cue is there (such as browsing the internet to find solutions on how to use the internet less often), it already feels a bit pointless and ironic, since there's an endless amount of content out there, which could turn this into another online rabbit hole, rather than just having a list of things that you need to do (such as doing the chores, running errands, and going to work) and a list of things that you'd like to do (such as taking up a hobby you've always wanted to do, going somewhere that you've always wanted to go etc), essentially hiding the cue, unless you actually need to use the internet.

In short, my best approach to using the internet less is to fill my time with other things to the point that I forget about recreationally browsing the internet (by not even remotely thinking about it), since being too aware of it will only lead to me overthinking about it, and overanalysing everything to death, which is tiring, so trust me, I've been there and done that, and now, I just want to Get On With It And Do Things without having to write a whole thesis in my head for something as simple as waking up.

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

25 Jan u ary 2023 Wednesday 3:24 am pdt

I had awoken to pain and felt more heart ♥️ pain I think. When I am in the middle of doing something I sometimes 4get. 3:25 am pdt sometime soon after my parents separated my mom tells me things such as don’t make that face you look like your dad and something I think was I only love 💕 you because I am your mom which for some reason I took 2 be interpreted as she was obligated to love me and that she didn’t really like me. 3:29 am pdt I was probably 8 years old. 3:29 am pdt 8 or 9 years old I don’t remember 🤷🏻‍♀️ 3:35 am pdt but my grandma 👵 snipping my long hair was probably b4 the separation maybe when I was 6 or 7 years old when I had long black hair and I was probably 9 years old when my mom told me I looked like a sick old woman 👵 and she said “I know! You should get a haircut!” 💇‍♀️ Deshana barber 💈 Iranian Kurdish people hair cutting themes. 3:39 am pdt king 🤴 David mentioned in a song. 3:40 am pdt

3:30 am pdt ⏰ when I typed 8 million in the previous post 23 Jan 23 I thought 💭 I typed billion. I heard the population reached 8 billion. Hard 2 believe especially when COVID happened and shootings still happened. 3:34 am pdt

3:40 am pdt when I lived in king 👑 city 🌃 I saw 👀 the ring 💍 pop commercial and wanted one ☝️. When me and mom and probably younger sister went to a small store 🏬 2 get cookie 🍪 mix I found a small bin of ring 💍 pop but all were broken 😞 so I didn’t get any. Reminds me about my mom’s promise ring 💍 falling in2 the river and finding out her boyfriend was caught in bed 🛌 with the ex girlfriend and had a shotgun marriage after the ring 💍 fell into the river. 3:45 am pdt meant 2 b... go with the flow? Bcz dirty old men are in power 2 say it’s ok 👌 2 have extramarital?? Affairs bcz it’s meant 2b. If that’s the case then I guess there’s no real thing as loyalty long lasting until death old age together do you part love and he holds us to a double standard where he expects us to fall so deeply madly In love otherwise he calls us whores , so that when he leaves 🍃 us 4 another bcz love 💕 died he cannot feel it anymore so we weep 😭 deep rivers when he leaves but he’s bouncy happy Bcz he found a younger chick 🐣 to rob of her virginity, friendly unicorns 🦄 only liking virgins to devirginize. 3:51 am pdt is this what he wants????? But he 4got? 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ 🎶🎼🎵🎤 3:53 am pdt

Sierra LaMar Twitter tweeted if you’re a bird I’m a bird say it with me the notebook 📒 movie 🎥 clip. 3:54 am pdt birds of a feather flock together???? 🤷🏻‍♀️ 3:56 am pdt sirens 🚨 half bird sea 🌊 gulls fallen angels 3:57 am pdt. 2 types of sirens 🚨: half bird 🦅 creatures, & mermaids. Tandem opposite meanings/definitions. Yin and yang ☯️? Chinese word was it shanyang? Can b used 2 mean goat 🐐 or ram 🐏 depending on modifying??? Addditional words. 3:59 am pdt but if you’re suffering that is probably a clear indication of a sacrificial lamb 🐑???? 4 am pdt

4:30 🕟 am pdt when I typed shanyang my head got VERY hot 🥵 maybe my brain 🧠 too 😞. I think it was about a year ago my aunt told me nobody likes me. Thanks 4 telling me that. If it’s the truth I need 2 hear 👂 it? I’m receptive 2 those comments/feedback. Ever since I was a kid since at least my parents separated I felt the need 2 change myself in2 the ideal person. I fall short all the time though. I practiced drawing ✍️ since probably kindergarten and somehow I lack technique like example drawing with geometric shapes and planning out spatially. Usually I look 👀 at something and tried 2 feel it out and hopes 4 the best. When I was in school 🏫 I was often distracted. Unfortunately. But high school 🏫 onward we were taught 2 b receptive 2 criticism because that was how we learned 2 see how flawed our work was I guess. 4:39 am pdt I wonder 💭 if my need 2 change was bcz I thought my mom didn’t like me. Maybe I feared no one would like me. And that I’d never have friends and a lover. I romanticized and thought I wanted a slow court ship the type that start off as friends and progressed into best friends then lovers. After my first boyfriend broke up 🆙 with me it got harder 2 find a guy who would take it that slow. A lot of them rushed into s*x. 4:43 am pdt I had wanted something that would take years 2 develope and I was willing 2 wait if my addictions? Didn’t kick in. If he was very attractive all it would take was a kiss 😚 2 get hooked 🪝. I’ve only been physically intimate (s*x) with 4 young men. 3 of them I tried not to, I fell into the hole 🕳 (rinpoche? Poem read from Karen sahlmonsen ? Spelling bounce back book 📚) and it wasn’t my fault bcz of addiction? And he wanted to and we only did it once through pants 👖 at my request but I don’t think I anticipated that semen was going to rocket 🚀 launch out through the pants 👖 until last minute and I don’t remember if I anticipated his 🍆 being felt through the pants 👖 bcz it was my first time doing that. I wore his sweat pants 👖. To be honest, that was the best s*x I had. He was a healthy skater 🛹 and very productive active person mellow artsy tall great voice. Probably not the most handsome but I think his 🍆was long enough 2 fit me well. The following 2, I believe I was somehow in someway psychologically ? Forced into it. I 4:59 am pdt ran my left middle finger 🖕 through my hair and it forced its way through a thick knot 🪢 pain, intestines pain 🐒💨 5 am pdt that was probably 4th knot 🪢 this morning. 5:01 am pdt with second guy, I had tried 2 tell him I needed 2 take it slow, but I said the wrong 😑 words. I said I wasn’t ready 4 a relationship yet after he kissed me. I did not want to kiss at that moment but some reason I felt like hugging him and he took that as a que to kiss me. 5:05 am pdt I even felt magnetism magnet 🧲 between us to pull me into hugging him. Uh oh incubus is trying to erase my memory of the magnet 🧲 feeling i felt between us. 5:07 am pdt bad incubus! 🤬😡🥵😤🥵😤🥵😰😱 5:07 am pdt

5:54 am pdt I remember he had I think this was the order: he had started to unbuckle his belt of his pants 👖 and I remember him asking me “you want to have s*x, right?” And then I told him through clothing. He did seem irritated when I probably told him to “wait” bcz I think I was trying to keep from going too far s*xually with him, bcz I think we had not been on many dates with each other yet but he was willing to jump into s*x without much discussion or verbal or written promises of a future together. We didn’t even know each other b4 we started dating. My sister might have known him a little b4, but I don’t recall her telling me how long. 6:01 am pdt I was stupid to think that through clothing (supposedly I assumed dry humping was this and that there wouldn’t be semen but I was wrong! 😓) abstaining is probably safer. 6:04 am pdt

6:18 am pdt I think that was the only time I had s*x with the 2nd guy. 6:19 am pdt 6:25 am pdt We both changed pants 👖 when I requested through clothing. The third guy I had sat on his lap and dry humped? Grinded? And probably each time I did that he said I was driving him crazy. Long before we had “s*x” but maybe some might call it rape? He drew/wrote my name with a lot of backward little 7’s in sets of threes??? I think I did not learn about triple 7 represented perfection until recently, maybe it was last year I learned this? Probably within last 5 years, and the drawing ✍️ was from summer 2007. 6:32 am pdt I am guessing backwards means =not perfect. 6:33 am pdt

6:39 am pdt we both wore blue jeans 👖 pants 👖 and it I think always happened in his car 🚗 6:40 am pdt.

6:59 am pdt I need 2 clarify that I did not learn the word shanyang until last year? Or the end of the year before last year. 7 am pdt

7:19 am pdt From 2009 onward there were guys I hung out with who were 3 or 4 years younger than me who seemed they wanted more from me than friendship. One of them reminded me a little of my ex in some way but I wanted to friend zone him and hopefully 🙏 grow a brotherly type of friendship with. He touched me inappropriately during a hug at the olive 🫒 garden 🪴 parking lot without permission. There wasn’t any open discussion about feelings. Such as him saying I like you and I want to date you and see if this can be a long term romantic relationship. Nope. 7:27 am pdt it was for Q’s birthday 🎂 maybe 🤔. 7:28 am pdt It was very awkward when he decided to pull me down to sit on his lap in front of everyone and I felt as if I was cornered into playing along bcz I might embarrass him and hurt his feelings and I would end up 🆙 looking like a b*tch from the awkwardness and conflicting feelings and the confusion it was probably causing (I think I felt angry head hot 🥵 7:46 am pdt). For some reason I met men that wanted to have s*x with me without knowing me 4 long. I texted a guy giving him a chance bcz my mom wanted me to back when I still had a job and b4 we could go out on a one-on-one date in person (which never happened) he already was telling me he wanted me in his bed 🛏. 7:37 am pdt 7:38 am pdt I never played love 💕 like it was only a game. I had hoped for feelings to grow that would often plateau, stagnate? And die off b4 or after feeling the butterflies 🦋 and amourous feelings. One guy that I thought I fell in love 🥰 with twice I thought he was going to be the one, but periodically he rejected 🙅‍♂️ me and told me I was going to make blonde 👱‍♀️ blonde 👱 hair babies 👶, (that was his funny line to tell me he rejected me, which is more likely to happen if I married a blonde 👱 man). 7:42 am pdt 7:43 am pdt weird watery gurgle like sounds from left side 🐒💨 7:44 am pdt

8:27 am pdt roku = 6 nihongo. I read something online that god is also referred to as a rock 🪨? If you want to be funny you can break the syllables differently and say rok-u instead of ro-ku. 6 is even. But 7 is odd. Aud-Rey Hepburn? Au = gold. Go ill 🤒 d. D= dominus or devil? Devil = lived backwards. How does someone live backwards? What does that mean? Lucifer? Or Lucia/Lucy? I love 💕 Lucy. Backwards 7? 8:33 am pdt @_@ audi car 🚗 au-di?? 8:34 am pdt we all die 2 things are for certain death 💀 and taxes mark Twain? And if you drop 3 objects you can probably draw ✍️ a triangle between the three. 8:36 am pdt rock 🪨 and roll 🎸 chuck berry???? 8:36 am pdt

8:47 am pdt roll, turn over? High turnover???? 🥵😤🥵😳😖😭😞 Head hot 🥵 they’ve punished me for putting ice 🧊 on my head. 8:49 am pdt 😖😭

8:52 am pdt I have read stuff online that when you meet someone new it’s probably best in a public place and to tell some friends and probably not go alone. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ Maybe also take public transportation? I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ my head is hot 🥵. If you read previous posts probably should take precautions also if introduced by someone else you have been hanging out with for a while. Unfortunately I never know 😑😖😭😤🥵😤🥵 or I did not back then???? 8:58 am pdt

8:59 am pdt clarification my mom probably did not know that guy like longer than I did, which was not at all, the one she wanted me to give a chance to who I texted. 9:01 am pdt

9:03 am pdt the sudden thought 💭 popped n2 my head that some people divorce and say “irreconcilable differences” ? I heard 👂. Can you date someone a long time and still find irreconcilable differences after saying “I do”? Sometimes you just bite the cookie 🍪 and hope it works out. Movie 🍿 5 year engagement? 9:07 am pdt I don’t remember going on any dates incubus. We are still at negative square 1,000,000 the way it’s going. 9:08 am pdt 😑😭😖😭he thinks he can trick me?! 9:09 am pdt I don’t want you anymore! I told you in 2017 (9:14 am pdt and preferably divorced is what was also in my head) we have 2go on dates 2 get 2 know each other 2 see if I can like you. Preferably in public in a group setting 2 allow organic spontaneous partnerships 2 happen. 9:11 am pdt

12:13 am pdt call me crazy but I think I like structure in social relationships: I like for a father to only be my father not my husband; if I had a brother I would only like him to be my brother ideally not my husband; I think I would like my cousins to only be my cousin not my husband no matter what weird feelings incubus wants 2 give me 🤬😡🥵😤🥵😤😖😭. With polygamy I think that makes it more difficult, what I mean is more likely to cross those lines if they secretly cheat. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ what happens if you do do it with a cousin or half brother; I don’t want to find out. It’s not only about genes 🧬 but I like to think about relationships in general having their designated roles. 12:20 pm pdt my grandpa cheated on my grandma so I should probably b more cautious about my mom’s home country and try 4 someone different ethnic identity? And I don’t really know many people on my dad’s side either 😞 but I don’t think my grandpa cheated on grandma 👵 on that side, I guess my grandpa was maybe ugly? My mom said it’s better to like a man not every woman 👩🏻 wants. Steve Harvey said an ugly man is probably the most well behaved man 👨 (I don’t know if it’s true 4 all men but maybe 🤔 it’s true 4 some?) 12:27 pm pdt

1:20 pm pdt funny how I remember things after I type about it. I did have a few drawing books 📖 📚 one for Pocahontas, my dad had Spider-Man and X-men. I stupidly gave the X-men one to Scott when he probably didn’t need it. And my sister had one for horses 🐴. I practiced those but I don’t really recall applying that method/technique much when I wasn’t looking at those books. 1:24 pm pdt

1:29 pm pdt if I had mastered the technique I would have drew a lot more drawings in the amount of time I spent drawing ✍️ probably. In 2015 I tried coloring in a skeleton copy to help myself learn anatomy drawing and then tried to draw ✍️ it but I was slow. I remember also trying to play the guitar 🎸, to learn it on my own but I started falling asleep 😴. So I had to decide to focus on my health and I remember I slept 🛌 a lot, probably between 10-14 hours a day. 1:34 pm pdt

4:14 pm pdt I 4got 2 type uncles, whether blood 🩸 related or in-laws; if there potential 4 cousins 2 b born then an uncle idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ probably b considered like a father figure? Are cousins similar to half-siblings? 4:17 pm pdt

10-14 hours a day would have given incubus a lot of time with me. I remember times when I slept 🛌 I had nightmares and felt my body being weighted down. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ if this is the time incubus was on top of me. I remember feeling the need 2 scream and my mouth 👄 opening and no noise coming out. I might have written a little about it in previous posts. 4:22 pm pdt it’s getting difficult 😞 4 me 2 remember. 4:23 pm pdt incubus tried to dig a hole 🕳 into my right ear about 40 minutes ago and I woke up 🆙 with a dry throat again. Immediately after I felt the pain in my ear 👂 I heard a loud bass booming sound then minutes later heard a text message alert 🚨 sound from this cellphone 📲 and it didn’t sound as good. I’m hoping that it was bcz of something it was touching, otherwise I would have 2 anticipate that the phone 📲 speakers 🔊 are degrading suddenly, even though this phone probably cost a lot of money 💰 in its original msrp? What does it stand 4 again 4:30 🕟 heard a loud sliding click don’t know if that’s my mom coming back. 4:31 pm pdt my mom bought me this phone 📲 at a clearance price of ≈$300 which is still expensive 4 an electronic device that only fits in your hand ✋ & I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ how effective it is to editing on it other than very simple little stuff. Back in 2005 when I took fashion classes we were told China 🇨🇳 would sew 🧵 garments 4 a few cents a piece, she mentioned 7 cents I think 🤔. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ if that’s accurate but that’s what I remember. 4:37 on pdt It is a lot nicer than the cheaper android phone 📱 which I tried last year. If everyone recycled would it bring down the cost? Or would inflation continue 2 rise? 4:41 pm pdt I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ enough of anything 2 probably b helpful. 4:42 pm pdt

I believe the twitch is really dead 💀. I believe incubus will drive me to the point of wanting 2 commit suicide. I believe he will control me like a muppet and make me walk 2 the train 🚊 and get hit by it/smashed by it similar 2 his maps video. 4:46 pm pdt

6:49 pm pdt I believe incubus is running 🏃‍♂️ the same game on me that he did on other women. On Q in particular years b4 me. Q’s bday is one day after my grandma’s bday. Incubus is yelling “NOOOOOO!!!” Usually that means they’re going 2 do more stuff 2 kill me. Even though he has a lot of knowledge of what’s going 2 happen b4 hand, would make me believe it’s all actually his own decisions. He owns what 3 mansions? Many cars 🚗? Stocks in several companies? A fashion line? A fragrance? The verve? Royalties? Am I missing something? He throws a basketball 🏀 from far away and it seems to fly a tremendous? Distance. I see pictures that it looks like he’s doing poses in mid air as if he has powers to levitate. He may have had me half fooled, & telling me things I want 2 hear 👂 but aren’t you spreading yourself thin incubus? How can you have much genuine feelings romantically deeply 4 that many women? How are you carrying on with all these relationships if we are only capable of having 150 connections???? 7:01 am pdt you keep on running game incubus, rapist, murderer. 7:01 pm pdt the train 🚆 passed by and it shook the place. It’s going too fast past a residential area. Cramps after gurgle feels like burning diarrhea 🐒💨

7:03 pm pdt nihongo has different counting systems? To = ten-> net backwards which looks like a spiderweb 🕸 to like toe tag 🏷 on cadavers. 7:04 pm pdt

7:22 pm pdt time goes by too fast 💨😖😭 he’s playing love 💕 like it’s a game pretending to feel love ❤️. With memory loss, he can con anyone. 7:24 pm pdt head is hot 🥵 came back from bathroom 🚽 7:19 pm. Not good. 7:25 pm pdt

In December 2012 me and Q went to a restaurant with karaoke 🎤. Met some people Q was friends with and some acquaintances or new people I guess. 3 of the men were actually from my high school 🏫 I wonder if they are still alive. I was interested in a blonde-ish haired man 👨 and I thought 💭 he might have been interested in me bcz he started talking 2 me. But I said something that turned him off and he lectured me without asking anything else about me. I thought 💭 maybe we can see eye 👁 to eye 👁 on somethings and maybe I could respect him. But when we said goodbye 👋 he was totally shunning me I guess if I’m using that word right. I had hoped if he knew me more that he would not be so strict? Like if he had noticed that I was completely shy ☺️ around him, and that I had suffered a lot and I do try to work even with my difficulties? 7:34 pm pdt and the only vacations I took were to visit family I don’t see often and once bcz of my eczema. After we left the building, in the parking lot Q told me she thinks she likes him and if it would be ok if she could have him, and she said I could have his twin brother. If you’ve ever watched sister sister or met identical twins 👯‍♀️ you might notice they have slightly different personalities?? Is that right? One might be extrovert and the other introvert? Or did I jump to conclusions? I didn’t think about that back then , but it bothered me that Q asked 4 me 2 back off. I didn’t tell her, but if someone asks an introverted person to do something without really asking their feelings... it seemed like my feelings didn’t matter. I told her I think he likes you more anyway. And then I chose not to hang out again sometime after that. I think it was after another time of hanging out there again with almost the same people but he didn’t show up 🆙. One of the other guys tried to invite me to the house party coming up 🆙 but I felt unwelcomed by his twin brother. Twins 👯 friends with twins 👯. So I tried not to be too disappointed at feeling unwelcomed probably and I stopped trying. 7:44 pm pdt it almost feels like Q is cock blocking me selectively. Even though she put music is her boyfriend on MySpace. 7:45 pm pdt 7:46 pm pdt the twin I felt unwelcomed by was dating one of Q’s friends and was friendly with Q in front of me. 7:47 pm pdt

7:55 pm pdt once my mom gave me an ultimatum that she would leave me unless I took accounting classes, so I enrolled. 7:56 pm pdt unfortunately I didn’t finish the certificate program. I started getting too scared to go and I made excuses. 7:57 pm pdt my eczema started flairing a lot anyway and it was getting harder for me to get to class on time with anxiety. 7:58 pm pdt

12:18 am pdt incubus has been pouring vinegar down my throat I suspect. If this is his way of giving me diverticulitis/crohns whatever it’s called that’s a very cruel way to make someone die especially when you’ve already put me through a lot. 12:20 am pdt divorce relationship came up in auto fill correct. Permanent divorce 2 an imaginary husband. If you were dating stroh 4 a year I wonder if your children ever see you that much and probably don’t know you. Every one thought he was being a stay at home dad. Guess NOT. 12:23 am pdt 26 Jan u ary 2023 Thursday

12:32 am pdt incubus is probably the reason why dusty rose is so short in comparison to gio grace. 12:32 am pdt

12:37 am pdt incubus destroyed love.

that tattoo should be “you’re so cold you’re so cold you’re so cold” 12:39 am pdt

[weedeaterisback]

I was born with a extra chromozone that fucked me over with the ability to speak or WRITE! And if you have seen how i write on my first day on discord. You realized that my writing on the document is more of a 3rd grader.

"2: you bring up the fact that they called you mentally ill (literally one time i think) constantly. yet you also call snail two faced. nose a fetishist and a pedo (its implied dude), the entire 'effin mod team narcissistic, and probably more!"

Hmmm... Maybe its because that Snails is a TWO FACE and Nose a fucking fetishes because he cannot keep out his fetishes out from any game he has ever made. Literally any old fans before votv can fucking confirm that he inserts his fetishes and talk about around minors on discord. And it is not fucking implied that he is a pedo. I literally said in the same fucking document that I don't think he is a pedo! Have you forgotten or did you ignore it? And to compare it to call shit about a minor (which they are fully fucking aware about) mentally ill or disabled? They've been doing that before the document. And because of them I see fucking idiots calling me that while they try "debunking the document" to people who believe me. 3. You misunderstand on what my point on 'growing up' but that is on me because of my fucking dumbass ability to fail to proper explanation of ANYTHING. "Refusing to accept criticism? what criticism? you cant act like an expose doc is criticism. you were borderline dehumanizing him, not really criticizing him in any way other than calling him a million different ways of saying "irredeemable creep"" This guy has been already exposed to fucking argue anyone who criticize or fucking delete it entirely. It has been exposed already about how itch comments that criticize his game in any way gets deleted.

"7-A: when you say things like this, all I see is that you are very angry. It isn't a coincidence anymore. You're pissed. It's a nothing burger of a point and only showcases that you are pissed the hell off." Nothing burger. Of course you missed all the recent shit that has happen. 1. Refusing to ban an exposed pedophile from their server. A member has exposed a pedophile, who has sexually harassed multiple minors, in their server and brought it to the mods. The mods did nothing. And than that member sent me the dm and me and the victims brought it light. Now the pedophile is gone from the server (unsure they were banned or just left). 2. Fucking abusing the Russians from their server. Now there is this big separate drama because the mods and nose has been mistreating Russians. And now been exposed by a russian youtuber who made a video and even reference my document. Где рутина, Там и Сиськи... | Voices of the void (минусы игры и не только игры) (youtube.com) 3. Actively choose to ignore their fucking fanatic defenders going around harassing people who supported the doc and spamming gore into their dm. And they are aware of this happening because two or three people has brought this to their attention. One being a itch post which got deleted by the mods and the others were a discord user and twitter user who told him about this. He fucking ignored them. 4. Actively insult anyone who is against him And there is so much more I can't list here because that will take forever. But because of this drama that I've been contacted with multiple patron supporters who came to help me find more evidences. "7-C: you made a point in your doc about nose always playing the "Tee hee I was just joking bro" card, but that point is completely null and meaningless if you were always... Just joking. Right?" That does not excuse fucking publicly sexualize their characters in a public full of channels.

"8: This comment sums up my stance on your doc well. (Also all the positive comments called you the world's best guy for some reason? That's odd.)" They are fucking kids from gamejolt going onto my youtube to call me that. They are not my fucking alts because it requires another email to make another account which I DO NOT HAVE. And these comments have grammar worst than mine.