#this is the most embarrassing thing ive ever made lmao

[puerile-fawn]

you guys don't get it, im in love with him

[nadianova]

Thoughts on diapers?

in vacuum extremely cute and slap a paci on a girl way too old for them and its a humiliation match made in heaven.

i think girls should be bullied to be incontinent and then made fun of for pissing themselves and be put in a diaper and then be made fun of for that. but i think i have major beef with the way diaper lovers post about it so I'm pretty lukewarm in general toward diapers.

in art, as opposed to real photos of real people posting diapie pics, most of the time its easier to depict the character being embarrassed or innocent or flustered or whatever and to me that's the interesting part

i think its good when someone gets forcibly regressed through prolonged abuse or conditioning that results in situations like ok now you wear a diaper you stupid pissbaby but most art juts doesn't have the scope to show this and it just remain as this unicorn thing I'm assuming I'm never going to see unless i make it myself (and I'm more interested in others kinks so i don't think ill be doing that any time soon (or even searching for it tbh))

if its meant to be a horny thing when character is baby style baby brained agere mode i get bored if theyre not choking from embarrassment or shame and there's a good portion of people fixated specifically on diapers in the truest form of the word fetish instead of what said diapers do for the people using them

if its outside of a sexual thing, like a nonsexual agere then I'm less likely to be bothered if the character in question feels happy and cute about it little space style

like maybe a tangent but i love wedgie art but i HATE IT when every single girl has to be depicted in a wedgie like where is the dynamic if everyone does it if every girl has a wedgie i don't care. all girls do the kink has me snooze. i need someone giving the wedgie to someone else not just magically appearing wedgies or taking turns giving wedgies i need an unbalanced power dynamic to appreciate the fine art of wedgies. this applies to every kink. also what the fuck wedgie centaurs are the DUMBEST THING IVE EVER SEEN. you should look that up lmao. like its just entirely derailed from what i think about wedgies and is just the total polar opposite of what iwant to see.. what was i saying. right diapers

anyway theyre cool not really that interested i probably wont ever include diapers in any of my own stories

[timelesslords]

fic writer twenty questions!!!

I got tagged by the beautiful lovely gorgeous @tapemonkey21 who has written some of my fav star wars fics to date and who got me on the cody/obi-wan/satine train without which my current wip would not exist <333

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

55!

2. What's your AO3 word count?

812,034 😵‍💫

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Rn only star wars with Ahsoka in it, but I've written for TLOU and PJO too!

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Under Freezing Stars

have my back, yeah, every day

Violent Heart

invisible string

For Real This Time

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yesssss!!! I honestly love responding to comments just as much as reading them. I like chatting with people and hearing their thoughts and their theories and what they want to happen next!! I think it makes it more fun for everyone but especially for me hehe

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

and the waves come crashing down for sure. I'm really not an angsty ending kind of person except with that fic lol

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Roman Holiday has the cheesiest mushiest most ridiculous holiday fluff ending ever <3

8. Do you get hate on fics?

haha yea 😭 messed up some niche details in my star wars fic and got absolutely lambasted in the comments lmao i never wanted to post sw again 😭 but then i realized i just needed to find the gay people and it all worked out lol

9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

I would say I'm retired from smut writing lmao 😭 but idk maybe something will change. i am not typing out the gory details of everything ive written on here I have no desire to get cancelled again

10. Do you write cross overs? What's the craziest one you've written?

No but I do write AU fusions <3 my favorite stupid insane one was a James Potter/Lily Evans Batman universe fusion fic it lowkey ate but I had to hide it because I was embarrassed at the quality and the very just-took-sociology-101 level of social commentary 😭

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't think so???? back in the day maybe lol

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No but I have had a few podfics of my fics made and that is my absolute most favorite thing ever ever 🥹

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

yes with my wonderful beautiful brilliant best friend forever who shares half of my brain @captain-jackson

14. What's your all time favorite ship?

all-time...,, whew. rn it's definitely Codywan. Idk if I have an all-time transcendent one that I always come back to tbh. I'm really more into platonic relationship dynamics than ships tbh

15. What's a WIP you'd like to finish but doubt you ever wilI?

God, I have one re-writing the Zygerria arc where Ahsoka sneaks onto the mission instead of being incorporated into it that i want to finish SO BAD. when the ties that bind is done I'm really going to hammer it out because I do love it but its kind of a monster.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I'm good with dialogue and characterization and, on occasion, plot twists.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I hate writing filler. I can't do it for the life of me, which means I also tend to have pretty poor pacing. im also bad at ending scenes which is why many times my chapters will end with my characters falling asleep 😭

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

jesus fucking christ it's so hard. doing it for Mando'a is hard and it's not even a real language. Usually I just go for the itallics but sometimes it's nice to have the immersion (which only works if you do it perfectly lol)

19. First fandom you wrote for?

I did not stake out the username "timelesslords" back in 2013 for the answer to this question to NOT be Doctor Who

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

cheating and doing my fav from my three main fandoms:

Under Freezing Stars because it was the first long piece of fiction I ever finished, and without it I would not have made three of my best friends in the whole world so its very special and important to me

if you never bleed you're never gonna grow is one where I feel like I did something interesting and innovative with form and perspective and I'm really proud of it. I feel like a lot of times as a fic writer you can feel like what you're doing is repetitive and this one felt really unique to me!

The Ties That Bind is still a WIP but I honestly really love it and have been loving the process of writing it a lot. it's the first WIP I started posting without having at least 75% of the fic completed and it's been really interesting to see what a different process it is pre-writing vs writing as you go! Also, I love the plot contrivance that makes up the premise, I love working out all the little butterfly effects of that decision, I love making it gay and poly and I love writing a million different perspectives!!!

this was so super fun I miss doing tag games like this hehe :3 low pressure tags @bbyannabeth @lena-hills @bookishjules @captain-jackson & anyone else who wants to consider urself tagged by me :3

[liverpool-enjoyer]

hey yall forewarning this is easily the most embarrassing post ive ever made on here. like im not talking normal levels of tumblr cringe/oversharing, i mean youre probly gonna judge me and think somethings genuinely wrong with me. but i really need to get it off my chest so. yolo.

also tldr at the end in case you wanna spare yourself lmao.

mkay so recently i havent been online, because ive been really sad. and the reason im sad is that gavi got a girlfriend. which i realize is probly the stupidest and most juvenile thing to be sad over but hear me out (or dont lmao its a free country do whatever you want).

its not like i ever thought i had a chance with him or anything, im not stupid. but ive known for a very long time that, due to my asexuality (and other things but mostly that), i am never going to have love in my life. so for me, daydreaming and fantasizing about being gavis girlfriend was like,,, how i coped, i guess. it was a form of escapism for me. and now i cant do that anymore bc hes someones boyfriend and fantasizing abt another girls boyfriend just feels wrong. and pathetic.

it doesnt help that all my social medias have algorithmed so that hes all over all my feeds. and to be honest, looking at him just makes me think of his beautiful girlfriend who has everything i could ever want and i feel this horrible awful nauseating feeling in my stomach and i feel envious and sad and a slew of other things. it sucks that someone who once unknowingly made me so happy now does the exact opposite but hey what can you do.

i know it sounds stupid, but i dont think i'll ever feel for someone the way i feel about him. hes the most beautiful person ive ever laid eyes on and oh God i was right this does sound stupid ok lets continue

oh and let me be clear (you hafta read that in obamas voice) im aware that feeling this way toward a complete stranger (or anyone for that matter, but like especially a complete stranger) is EXTREMELY UNHEALTHY. unfortunately, knowing that my feelings and thoughts are unhealthy doesnt stop me from having them.

so yeah. now that ive lost my form of escapism, all i can think about at any given moment is how lonely im going to be. its hard to enjoy much of anything these days when all im thinking about is how im never going to receive romantic love, and now i cant even daydream about dating gavi to cope with it. because all i can think about when i try to is how hard his girlfriend would laugh if she found out some pathetic worm halfway across the world was fantasizing about her man.

so yeah thats it. i know that every time i angst abt my asexuality (which is a LOT like holy shit why do ppl still follow me), my friends tell me that its ok because im going to find someone someday. and i appreciate it, i really do. it means the world. but my friends saying that i'll find love doesnt make it true. plenty of people have died alone and unloved before, and i am going to be one of them.

tldr: a guy ive never met got a girlfriend n im having a depressive episode abt it LMAOOOO

[sollucets]

tag game for @khaopybara !! thank you for thinking of me i needed the boost 💜

1. why did you choose your url?

my url is from ‘sol lucet omnibus’, a latin phrase that means the sun shines for everyone. a lot of my urls & usernames and whatnot are sun themed, so this is just another in a long line. for a while it was ‘solclaw’ while i was in a werewolf phase. but i dont plan to change it again

2. any sideblogs? name them and why you have them

ahhh…. the secret come out. i guess? i have two sideblogs. @jinjjayo is my kpop sideblog, which i have not advertised having so far but does exist. i also have @solref, which is just where i collect tutorials & other reference stuff.

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

not consecutively, i took breaks, but my first blog was made in 2011. :0 i’ve had three main blogs over the years.

4. do you have a queue tag?

i do! i don’t use it often but i tag things that are queued with ‘ghost post (queued)’

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

the original one, i made because my cousin recommended it to me. we shall not speak of its url. this current one was made when i started seriously writing again (thank u rasmr <3)

6. why did you choose your icon?

i love ayluna. my babygirls. that’s all there is to it lol. im also quite fond of the lil stars i edited in

7. why did you choose your header?

i did a lot of work to edit the scene’s colors for my lfls episode series, so i wanted to keep that and use it for one more gif haha. also i love them terribly

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

it is currently this set of the 3wbf trio doing their puzzle piece hugs, at just over 1000 notes. 🥺 im happy they deserve it

9. how many mutuals do you have?

73! i know this because (and i am aware this is embarrassing) i keep a notes document of my mutuals with names & tracktags, so i counted manually. that is,,, thats a lot of you. i love you all very much 🥹🥹🥹

10. how many followers do you have?

i have just over 900 followers. ._. wild

11. how many people do you follow?

i follow 155 blogs. i try to keep the number down but there are simply so many beloveds.

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

sure lol. ive done textpost edits, and that disney only friends thing, and etc.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

i check at least once a day. usually more though

14. have you had a fight/argument with another blog?

noooo. i never have. i always just blocked people or we drifted apart. i love to block though

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

i think it’s counterintuitive. people don’t like being ordered around, so a lot of folks will instinctively scroll. then the ones you do get are often because of anxiety, so it feels cruel. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ just ask normally / say please reblog this

16. do you like tag games?

why ask this at #16 of a tag game lmao. yes of course. doesnt everyone love to overshare

17. do you like ask games?

yes very much. it always makes it feel more lively. i try to play when i have the time :>

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

ouuhh, mona @thitiponqs probably, hehe. all member of usergif and gay dot tumblr dot com and everything else. everyone should know mona u.u everyone is famous in my heart though.

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

no! >< it isn’t personal. i don’t have crushes very often. certainly you are all very lovely and cool, and i’ve had mutuals follow me who i had to go scream into a pillow about after for sure, but. it is all quite platonic im afraid 2 say. would still be happy to make out though

20. tags?

i will try! i choose u @markpakin & @lamonnaie ✨

[evelili]

3, 12, 17, 23, 26, 31, 33 for the fanfic ask meme?

3. In your opinion, what’s your best fic?

my magnum opus lol. hands down no contest best thing ive ever written (so far)

12. Have you ever written a fic and decided never to publish it? Why?

i dont think so? ive ofc got plenty of one-page docs that never made it past the first sit-down, but if i finish something ill post it. i dont rlly have any shame or regrets toward what i make, even if im not 100% satisfied, bc ill just do even better next time ^^

17. In your opinion, what’s your most overrated fic?

none of them!! im proud of all my fics and think they should all be the Best Rated Ever :3

23. What’s the nicest review you’ve ever gotten?

ough i dont wanna embarrass anyone but if youve ever left a long, heartfelt review on my magnum opus chances are i have it saved into a folder of “lili’s most precious memories” on my pc lol

26. What aspect of your writing do you most enjoy to see praised?

it makes me happy when ppl tell me they resonate with a character and their decisions! because, writing is a transient experience, so for me to put some sort of feeling into a story and express it through a character, and then have someone understand that character, it’s a very nice feeling of being seen ^^

31. Who’s the one character you’ve just never managed to get perfectly right?

in one hand i have pinkie pie and in the other i have rarity and both are equally close to causing my premature death lmao

33. Is there any particular character whose scenes always wind up being longer/more frequent than you expected? Does the quality hold up?

hmmm i dont think so? in general my stuff ends up longer than i set out for it to be, but that’s mostly due to improving my pacing like i talked about in a previous ask. if something really does end up too long, it usually gets caught in the editing process and cut back down to reasonable haha

thanks for the ask! it’s nice to talk about this kind of stuff more :D

[kasaneteto]

obviously been in my posting era for the past few months & ive been thinking about that and what it means for me so some thoughts on that

posting as much as i have been was sparked by having to end my most recent relationship due to the realization that we were codependent & it was making it hard for us to function effectively. finn was always my guy to ramble at but there would always be times that they didnt have anything to say in response so they would just be like “okay” and i would feel so annoying :( they were never annoyed (well not usually i cant say they were NEVER annoyed by me) but my mind always catastrophizes social interactions that leave me feeling self-conscious to mean “oh they hate you”

anyways. for a while i was kind of worried that my codependency habit has graduated from finn -> posting & while im not sure that ISNT the case… i do think the posting has been good for me. ive been journaling for a couple years now but it doesn’t help me in the same way as posting stuff like this. its harder to process thoughts when im just talking to myself vs writing something out thats meant to be for someone else to read. writing with the intent of it being for someone to see helps me process things so much easier, and that doesn’t really work when im writing it in a place nobody can see it. when i was a kid i would post deviantart journals in the same way. of course back then i was a neglected child who was just looking for validation in any form & where i got it most was the internet.

i think its the fact that ive been doing it ever since i was a kid that made me feel like making posts like these were juvenile in nature and something i should move on from. but since making an effort to be more true to myself & not let embarrassment or the fear of being judged get to me, ive found that i have the strong urge to make posts and that it brings me joy when i do! it really has helped me have a clearer understanding of the way i think/feel. plus tumblr rly does kinda feel like a home website. it helps that it hasn’t changed much and a lot of the userbase i was around in its heyday are still here. it feels like a comfortable place to scream into the void where im not worried about who’s potentially seeing this shit. & thats another thing - it has helped me feel less annoying in general!

im so used to feeling like my presence is inherently bothersome and that any self-assertion is going to make people wish i wasn’t there. this feeling extrnds to posting anywhere. but thats so fucking stupid!!!! if people dont like me or are that annoyed by me they dont have to fuckin look!!!!!! just unfollow me idfc!!!!! i feel good about the level of clarity i have in my life rn and posting long rambling introspective shit like this has been doing wonders in helping me keep myself grounded. so i will continue to do so. i will say though i sometimes wonder who all is reading this shit lmao. watch there be someone out there who’s just obsessed with my ass waiting on baited breath for my next post. if thats the case then get well soon bitch….im probably too unhinged for you to handle 💅

[valeriianz]

2, 3, 14, 19 for the concert asks?

yo! under the cut cos this got just a little long

2: Best concert you’ve ever been to

THE CAT EMPIRE AT HISTORY, TORONTO!

ahhhh every Cat Empire show is crazy. they are so fucking talented and you can tell they just love music. they do jam sessions on stage and the hype and positivity is so infectious. Felix does this thing that i love where he sticks the mic stand into the crowd and gets us singing. it's always such a fun time. and the fans, dude! we are all just music lovers and since i always go to shows alone, i love talking with them. they are the most down to earth, chill human beings.

and this show in particular, i got invited backstage to jam with the band 😭💖 we ate pizza and drank beer and it was the coolest experience of my life. i wish they toured N America more lmao

3: Worst concert you’ve ever been to

im very fortunate that most of my shows have been at least worth the money. but i can think of two right off the bat that i wasn't satisfied with. story time(s)!

Lindsey Stirling at the MET in Philly.

so, ive seen Lindsey Stirling three times. for those who don't know her, she's a violinist, but very poppy with dubstep mixed in. her shows focus very heavy on dance and theatrics. the first time was at a festival when she was suuuuper brand new (2015) and the crowd was alive. it was so fun. and it makes sense, her music is the type to dance to!

second time i saw her was another standing crowd situation in Manhattan circa 2016. when i say the crowd was dead, oh my god it was lifeless. i was embarrassed. New York City, what the hell?

then i saw her at the MET in 2022, which is a seated venue. and like, holy hell... everyone remained seated, even when Lindsey told the crowd to get up and dance multiple times. at one point i had put my phone up to record a certain part of the show and the girl sitting behind me immediately tapped me on the shoulder and told me to put my phone down. like, okay i get recording the show is annoying, but im not that guy. i just wanted to record a 10 second sequence she was doing but fine. i barely took my phone out during that performance.

but anyway, the stillness. listen, ive been to seated venues before (rock shows) and no one ever remains seated through the entire show. what the fuck is that? i was dancing in my seat while everyone around me looked at me like i was crazy. omg i just wanted to jam! and then my favorite song came up, Roundtable Rival (listen to this song and tell me how im not supposed to dance to this) and fuck it, i stood up and started to shake it.

to wrap up this long story, the girls behind me were so disgusted by my actions they full on left. there was only one other person in the floor seats that i could see who was also standing and dancing. and during the last song, Lindsey actually made everyone stand up and groove to the song (but even standing, these people were fucking dead).

i took my frustrations to reddit, asking if i was in the wrong, and got absolutely dog-piled with hate. even though Lindsey clearly said at least twice during the show to stand up. i haven't listened to her since. she's a talented musician, but the fans absolutely killed it for me.

Fall Out Boy at the Key Bank Center, Buffalo

this is gonna be a short one. this was in 2017-early 2018 i think. it was for their Mania tour. I had seen them the year before in Brooklyn and the show they put on was super fun, they really made use of the stage (this was an arena tour) and for that show, i had purchased nose-bleed seats. and for this one in Buffalo, i purchased floor tickets (it was significanly cheaper in Buffalo).

but they didn't utilize the stage at. all in Buffalo. all the theatrics i had seen in Brooklyn didn't exist here. the tracklist was pretty much the same, the graphics and pyro the same. but just a weak performance with no energy. i was so bored.

14: Moshpit, barricade, back, or rafters

i have sampled all these options, and 100% always prefer the barricade. i love being up close to the action and (usually) that up close is where the party is happening. (though i could go on a rant about how concert goers don't jump/dance at shows anymore, even some rock shows ive been to have just been. muted. i still dance my face off and make it a problem for the people around me).

tried one moshpit in my experience and the adrenaline is like nothing else. but i'd probably steer clear of it now. gotta protect my weary bones in my older age haha

19: Farthest traveled for concert/festival

before my trip in June, it was 400 miles (within the states). but after my last show, its now 560 miles (900 km)!

ive definitely thought about going to festivals overseas, especially since two of my favorite bands are English and Australian... but as much as i love traveling, i find it annoying to plan a trip around a concert so. traveling further than a few hundred miles just for a show is not something i typically do.

concert asks

[dwarfsized]

tagged by the beautiful and amazing @aevallare thank you!!

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

9!

2) What’s your total AO3 word count?

63,696

3) What fandoms do you write for?

it's all bg3 right now, but I've also written for critical role and the arcana (visual novel)

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1 - that's the kind of love ive been dreaming of (bg3, astarion/f!tav)

2- ain't it warming you (the world goin' up in flames) (critical role, jester/caleb)

3- Liebe ist Fürsorge (critical role, jester/caleb)

4- Fighting the Hurricane (critical role, jester/caleb)

5 - true colors shine in darkness and in secrecy (bg3, astarion/f!tav)

5) Do you respond to comments?

yes! i try to do the "comment when you upload the next chapter" thing but sometimes its been a while since the last chapter and i get embarrassed and just respond to everything in one big rush

6) What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

where i left Fighting the Hurricane probably combined with the (checks notes) 1+ year long update hiatus, i am coming back for you baby i promise. i have plans for it. i just. god. so much happened to me right as i was working on it.

7) What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

All of my fic ends happy (this will not always be the case, eventual AA!AU will be. well. i shan't say.) BUT, and this might just be because its my most recent finished work, i think new steps might end off on the most hopeful note.

8) Do you get hate on fics?

this has never happened to me and id love to keep it that way lmao

9) Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yes :) the only real posted smut ive got rn is that's the kind of love ive been dreaming of, but i have other smut in the works

10) Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Fighting the Hurricane doesn't count, really, but that's the closest we've got: its a Critical Role/Pacific Rim fusion.

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i'm aware of

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope!

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

i have nooooot, but i am not sure that the way that i write (terrible first draft and then editing for 1000 years) is very friendly to co-writing. I'm not against the idea at all though, its just. you know. i wouldn't want to torture a friend with the everything about me. maybe someday though!!

14) What’s your all time favorite ship?

in this house we multiship, peace and love. :) though honestly i made a joke once about retiring kira as an oc after bg3 bc of everything im putting her through after becoming so enamored with kirastarion so maybe that? sorry blorbo from my brain, enjoy the conciliation prize of elf dick.

15) What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

stares guiltily at Fighting the Hurricane ch 2, languishing on my wip pile. listen, i still fully intend to finish that story. i was doing cool stuff in there. the only problem is that my brain exploded while i was writing ch 1, and this wasnt supposed to be more than 2k words but i am myself, and i didnt use outlines then, so my notes are a mess.

also i cannot possibly underline enough the bit where my brain exploded. this is an exaggeration only in that none of it came out of my head, but i was Not Myself for a Long Time.

16) What are your writing strengths?

i think my internal monologue bangs. this is because i agonize over it.

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

moving characters around in the space is like pulling teeth and i feel like a solid 30% of my editing is focused on that. getting someone from point a to point b elegantly and without it feeling like "astarion got up. he moved his feet. he sat down. he looked out the window" makes me feel like walking into the sea

18) Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I like it when it makes sense! Why does this character use another language? Does the reader need to know what they're saying? Is the POV character unfamiliar with the language? Does the reader learn anything from this? If you don't have good answers, why do it?

I find tieflings really neat, and bg3 does the typical dnd thing of "tieflings are looked down on," without, like, doing much with tiefling culture. So Ive had Kira use Infernal as a shortcut to create familiarity with other tieflings, and use it to have private conversations bc why would anyone but tieflings and people living in The Hells know that language--this solves some problems for her! And it creates others.

19) First fandom you wrote for?

Naruto...... once upon a time i wrote shikamaru/sakura fic. i was going to make a joke about that being my actual first longfic but i just checked and it literally isnt, i worked on it for a year and if you dont count the in-text authors notes (it was a different time) the whole thing is shorter than true colors chapter 4.

can you imagine me, now, updating something for a year and it being less than 11k. lol. lmao, even.

20) Favorite fic you’ve written?

eldath's mercy is my darling right now who also scares me to death. update coming soon (this week? i hope?)

i will tag @simon-says-nothing and @raccooncrimes and @septemberskye and YOUUUU reading this if you want to do it, tag me if you do!!

[narcolini]

Oh you KNOW I had to do it to em picks some of the most tormenting questions alongside some of the nicer ones

😅 What's a story or scene you've created that you're a smidge embarrassed exists?

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

🙋‍♀️ Do any irl people know you write fanfic?

💖 What made you start writing?

🧠 Pick a character, and I'll tell you my favorite headcanon for them. - Kitty (since he's on ur mind lately)

😅: omg.. thats a hard one a-oh no its not LMAO my first ever fanfic i ever posted ever. i despise it i hate it im mortified by it and i would delete it entirely from the internet if people didnt so frequently message me about loving it so. this is my curse to bare now ( i just dont think its good at all, it makes me cringe severely)

✨: i think i'm very good at realistic dialogue :3

🙋‍♀️: oh so many SKSKSK i gave up hiding that a good few years ago. ive found people are absolutely incapable of making fun of you for it if you talk about it in a certain way so, im always on twitter talking about my silly little stories and things + in friend groups theres regular 'what are you writing?' 'narcos fanfic' exchanges so

💖: in general ive no idea, ive been writing since i can remember, for fanfic it was literally because i didnt like any of the tommy shelby stuff i was finding so i just decided to write what i wanted to read and here we are

🧠: omg kitty... ponders.... god im such a thief because all i can think about now is how @cositapreciosa said he needs glasses but never wears them and just squints instead because i love that image so much SKKSKSSK iive no idea why i just love the thought of it. dumbass cant even read the board in lectures uno. OMG maybe those tinted sunglasses he wears are actually prescription and thats why hes always pissin wearing them lmao im snorting

[figula]

ok this is a genuinely embarrassing post im GENUINELY ashamed of lmao but ... i dont know where else to post it so here we all go

tw for SA/predatory behaviour + uh me being stupid

OKAY. so i'm neutral to negative on what we might call "porn", i think the rebranding of porn as a feminist thing is a bit weird + i dont think that makes me sex-worker exclusionary bc i fully support sex workers as people + i hope they always have access to everything they need while wokring that job - i just think it's weird and disingenuous to pretend that sex work is always a choice, that it isn't often dangerous, that middle class women using onlyfans without any interaction with men IRL is how sex work looks for most sex workers

ANYWAY! that's a tangent already

anyway, ages ago (maybe 2020/2021) i was bored + found this dude on twitter who made porn i thought was really hot + good, he posted a lot of pro-woman content, posted a lot about keeping his co-stars happy and i was like :) that's nice :) i have watched very little porn in my entire life, ftr, it's never been a "thing" for me, so i was probably (and still am) quite naive re: this kind of thing. he was also open about his body image issues which i appreciated as well + he often worked w/ girls of all sizes which again was like? nice to see

here's where im an actual idiot: he was a male porn star who did a lot of dominant stuff and i was like "im sure that's fine and he's the one good one" LMFAO despite like literally knowing better + knowing that i was an idiot to think this at the time!!

anyway - i even paid for his onlyfans content for a few months bc again: idiot :( the ONLY TIME ive ever paid for any porn in my life + i literally told myself it was ok bc of how nice he seemed lol. IDIOT!! ftr we never had any personal interactions at all - i'm not THAT stupid

anyway ofc it all turned out that he's not nice + he is, ofc, a serial predator LOLLLL of course of course!! receipts in the twitter thread here:

i feel absolutely horrified at the fact i've given him money + had been like absolutely hoodwinked by his nice feminist man shit despite KNOWING BETTER AT THE TIME + refusing to like believe my own intuition on this kind of thing :| anyway ... ill never make that mistake again fr. im done w/ it all, grubby grubby grubby

for the record after finding out i did immediately send money to sexual assault charities based in the UK bc like. the knowledge i had actually given him money was really quite disturbing to me? i have never had a similar exp so i didnt know what to do

[stormyoceans]

can i share my love for mork here because this bitch graced my screen for four minutes and snatched my heart completely. he's so sexy for being poor, he's so sexy for working with his hands, he's so sexy for having such messy style with the softest hair ive ever seen and baggy tshirts and ripped jeans and that earring (?) UGH he's so sexy for being snarky and flirtatious and strong willed and dealing with hard life situation and idk not loosing inner light yknow what i mean? he's so sexy for not sucking up to rich people lmao he really said right in day's mother's and day's faces if ya boy is a little bitch I'll say out loud even if i need your money. and I hope the creators will make him such a character that you can damn well see that he is in love and this greatly affects him. day can barely see but if someone looked at me like mork looked at day when they touched sunflowers or when he made 👉 gesture or when they were at the beach I would grab his hand and run to the altar, let other characters comment on how whipped mork is i want day to knooooow (and i know he'll be super whipped for day). last but not the least he's so sexy for having namtan as his bestie, i need to know how they met

AMEN HALLELUJAH I LITERALLY COULD NOT AGREE WITH YOU MORE ANON!!!!!! JUST LOOK AT HIM

ALREADY THE MOST CHARACTER EVER and i love how he looks rough around the edges but also so incredibly soft and how that's basically a reflection of his character too: he is blunt and flirty and cheeky and yet affable and selfless and kind. his hands are often gonna be stained from motor oil and covered with cuts and scars from having them inside engine compartments, but when he touches day they're always so gentle, and it's not because he thinks day is something fragile, but because mork loves and cherishes him so much that it makes him want to be tender

you also made me realize that i need day and namtan's character to meet SO BADLY!!!!! i need her to be like "so YOU're day. i heard so much about you" and day just raises an eyebrow and goes "only good things i hope" to which she replies "oh, don't worry. mork has nothing but praises for you" while mork blushes and desperately tries to change the subject, but at one point he has to leave them alone for a while and when he gets back they're already friends and sharing embarrassing stories about mork. I JUST!!!!! REALLY NEED NAMTAN'S CHARACTER TO SEE THEM TOGETHER AND POINT OUT HOW SMITTEN MORK IS!!!!! and maybe at first she is a bit worried about mork getting so close to day because mork still works for him, but after she sees them together she has no doubts they both have feelings for each other, so the first time she is alone with mork she's like "you know, i've never seen you look at anyone the way you look at him". after that every time day is around she makes sure to comment out loud when mork is blushing or looking at day with the softest smile and eyes full of adoration

ANYWAY CAN THEY GIVE ME THIS SHOW ALREADY AT THIS RATE IM GONNA LOSE IT BEFORE IT EVEN AIRS

[x1e3ju]

hi friends^_^ this app has embarrassed me 2 times today i hate my life

drinking my appy juice...... sigh.... ok so life update im blonde now and drawing traditionally again! .. exciting ! oh what a year this will be what a year indeed but i still have so many shuake bungles all up in my head and i was rly thinking abt their transness and stuff as of late i finally re-did my pinterest and made it based on headcanoned character aesthetics and UGH goro akechi the beautiful transfemme u are so ive been thinking abt that a lot recently ALSO i watched mean girls ! what fun, i LOVED the movie the musical... not so much but i saw regina and js the main trio and was like !!!! akechi would love this... like in secret lol so ill be using that and specifically regina and cady as reference?? eherh lol

i love thinking abt his transness bc i didnt rly have like a set line-of-thought on what i was thinking at the time like last yr when i got more seriously into shuake and js the game in general but ive cleared my head on them a lot more now, i think watching mean girls and just being thrown back into that "girly pink" aesthetic of the early 00s its like making that pinterest board and thinking about all that encompassed the "girly" aesthetic in 2014 and the time in which akechi wouldve grown up in and all the standards that come with it, its interesting to place him into that and just think about it. its like with akira too, its interesting to imagine what they wouldve imagined as their "ideal versions" of themselves like what is prime masculinity and femininity to them, if that makes any sense. i envision and feel like what fits with akechi's character the most in terms of how he would express his transfemininity would be like that 2014 tumblr girly aesthetic and im rly horrible at describing things so lemme attach some pictures :0

ok so i did a general overview video of it instead lol and i hope i didnt add anything that could potentially trigger anyone i tried to add some not-so-nice things (lmao) to the board bc i wanted the boards to be as cringe and realistic as possible lmao (i emphasized that especially with sumire ToT) again, i think its rly interesting to see these aesthetics like how they wouldve seen it or how they wouldve wanted and envisioned for themselves. i dont think akechi wouldve been open to this with anyone at all, he definitely wouldve had like an anon tumblr page and only wouldve logged on on super extra not busy days and it wouldve felt almost like a guilty pleasure for him, like being super embarrassed and always freaking out thinking someone was watching him lol ToT and i think even with anything and everything, the things he wouldve seen online that he wanted to be.. very badly still wouldve been reflected in the way he dressed and presented himself and i think sae and everyone else wouldve gave him weird looks for it definitely wfhufew its like for example i like to draw his little brown suit thingy with little flaps and i think he wouldve done that himself to give a more "flattering" feminine look to it, thinking he was being subtle abt it even tho... it definitely gives the look lol ToT and just so many things, i think his internalized transphobia would even affect his connection with akira too and just like even the way he interacts with others and himself and not in the usual way if that makes sense.

its like how i mentioned earlier, i watched mean girls and i saw regina and was like omg akechi would DIE for her but at the same time, i dont think he would like her as a character at all ToT he's very much the cady to me like that scene where cady was like "i didnt do anything wahh!!!" reminds me sm of him and how he was and i think so much of his personality wouldve been affected by that as i stated before due to the way femininity is perceived by like, everyone and everything ever omg. like he would definitely have that view that femininity is almost like oversexualization especially since they wouldve grown up at a time where the whole girlboss troupe in media was making its debut but at the same time, he'd have this burning passion for how "girls can be strong too!!!" its kinda like all those skit videos ppl would make where the parents are like "why are u defending gay ppl sm" like hopefully that makes sense lol but i think thats how itd feel to him and ultimately it'd just lead to him closely it off completely from himself. like for example, he'd see how free akira is to express himself in like all ways and be like "wow.. so uncivilized" lol even though canonly he envies him for being so much free about things and not constantly holding himself back like akechi did. ofc not in the trans aspect but u get the point lol so again, he would kind of be like the cady. cady was so scared of becoming like regina and she tried so hard, literally became a pick me and in the end, she was just like what she feared? same thing with akechi but reverse. he wouldnt stand with regina's character and motives/morals at all but would ADORE the way the plastics like dress and all that, especially with how much the actors SERVED in mean girls, the confidence is certainly admirable but would get embarrassed aside from being a man who expresses femininely and thats already an automatic no from society it also is viewed that the more feminine a woman is the less they are taken seriously and even from someone who has struggled with that myself, he would alr be like against being more feminine thinking that those thoughts he has are js negative or intrusive when in reality those things are FAR from synonymous

ok i feel like im repeating myself here and i had rly good points to bring up when i thought of this the other day but i hope yall understand what i mean!! this is such an important topic to me cuz i fucking LOVE trans ppl and always will and i LOVE transfemme characters and just dealing with that storyline, although im not femme presenting myself necessarily by choice but i love it sm and diving deeper into it is so fun to me and very healing, especially for my little girl lol. i think it fits rly well with his character and it js automatically made sense to me even if most ppl see that as "dumbing down" a character, i love connecting that to all the other serious bits of his story and i think headcanons as a whole give sm depth to a character and so much personal special love lol

ok i got sick ig and my throat is bothering me SO BAD like if it isnt my head my back ITS SOMETHING ITS ALWAYS SOMETHING maybe some other time ill get into akira and naoto and their transmascness like i had hoped but i think the world is telling me to hit the hay :'( ugh i hate my life... god bless u t4t shuake erbheu

[dokiyeom]

DORI DEAREST 💔💔😭😭😭💔💔😭😭 mmm i will have a lot of free time & since it's the last trimester of the school year and most exams are alr done, it will be less stressful + more fun so yay! but i will still have to study for my two last exams but i hope i can get more into writing & prepare for uni!! im also planning on throwing a bday party for my 18th bday in april so yayaya 🥳🥳

aww no :( i hope ur doing better and that ur well!! SENIOR TRIP??? hello that sounds so cool ! ive always wanted to go to japan so that just sounds super fun 2 !! no no igu it's the same where i live, u basically only see Dutch people during the holidays because they (+ english tourists) love this area LMAOO

NO NO ITS ALRIGHT HAHA i was only sure because he posted a bunch of other pics without the mask yk so don't be embarrassed 🙏 ok and what if i watch an episode today . what then . BUT YES DO SO!! i love it when people ramble about shows or other stuff 🫡

YAYAY scoups said they would have a cb in april and another one this year during caratland but he didn't mention the exact date so im just patiently waiting for the official announcement 🤭🤭 since im an april baby ill just ask my friends to get me that & ask my 1 kpop fan friend (that sounds funny idk why) to organize it since it's pretty complicated to buy an album with all the versions 👎👎 IM AN ARIES .. or a taurus?? april 20 baby here so it's right between them yk? but i did some research about zodiac signs and personality and bla bla bla && decided im more an aries hihi 😇 also why are u losing ur mind over photoshop im curious, tell me all about it!!

dori dearest indeed :D ykw i should start making individual tags for my moots so i can tag dori dearest on these :DD and aagh excited for u to have free time !!!! i’m vv much looking forward to reading whatever u write !!!

thank uu !! i just hung out w family friends && we had malatang && sukiyaki + milk tea & a strawb matcha chiffon cake that i baked + two whole tomahawk steaks && played sm mahjong !! i don’t have any cousins/extended family where i live,, so my family friends have really grown to feel like my family ?? and i literally love them sm,, like hanging out w them today has absolutely made this month exponentially better :D

&& yesyes im actually going back to japan for a bit next month,, so hopefully i’ll b able to buy some tickets to more popular exhibits n stuff domestically in advance for the trip w my friends :D ticketing there is literally insane if ur buying them internationally omg,,, vv much a nightmare process && DORI UR DUTCH ?? woah omg :000

if u watch an ep,, PLS LMK LMAO i need people to talk to abt hospital playlist bc it’s my literal fav thing ever,, like istg it’s the only thing keeping me sane rn :0 AND ALSO HELLO UR BORN ON 420 && SHARE A BDAY W JAY FROM ENHA,, stop i’m so jealous i literally share a bday w,, noah centineo,,, && aagh i hope it’s released around a time that’s convenient for ur friend to buy the album as a gift for u !!!!! tbh if it’s that time too,, mayb i can find it for slightly cheaper in japan :00

and dori. i’m like. constantly losing my mind over photoshop and sudoku. and digital magazines that require paid subscriptions to read their articles. but photoshop is just,, vv difficult to navigate atm bc i’ve only started using it a month ish ago to learn graphic design !!! so i still have a long way (and many more headaches) to go until im comfy && can use photoshop fluently <//3

[carovisetto]

I DO NOT FEEL ASHAMED

[mblue-art]

Saw your most recent post... it inspired me a little, so I just quickly wrote this down for you. Might be a little messy, but hopefully it's still good. Glad to see that you're feeling better!

♡ﾟ+｡.｡+ﾟ’ﾟ+｡.｡+ﾟ♡

“I hate you two…”

“Lies don’t suit you, love,” Lust said, chuckling a little from the pout you gave him. “If you’d really hated us being here, then you’d thrown us out the second we came in.”

You were about to protest, but words left you as the sight of a bowl filled with deliciously prepared soup was held out in front of you. You looked up at Cross, but he glanced away just as your eyes met. He was blushing.

“You need to eat,” he said, sitting down on your other side only after you took the bowl from him. “You haven’t been eating well enough these past days.”

“How do you know?” you asked, genuinely curious. You hadn’t told anyone about that.

Cross smiled, and he leaned in to nuzzle your shoulder. Obviously, he wasn’t going to tell you.

“Just eat the soup, sweetpea. We’ll cuddle and keep you warm and comfortable once you’ve finished it,” Lust purred softly. He leaned in to kiss your cheek. “We’ll take care of you until you’re better, alright?”

You weren’t sure whether it was the fever or the embarrassment that made your cheeks heat up, but you tried your best to ignore it.

Well… tried was the key word here…

The two idiots on either side of you made that pretty much impossible with the way they nuzzled and kissed you, and it only became worse once you actually finished the bowl and gave it to Cross to put it away.

Lust leaned in to kiss your cheek again, and Cross quietly purred as he laid his skull upon your shoulder. They both made themselves perfectly comfortable against you, and - despite your embarrassment - you couldn’t help but accept the affection. They were warm, cuddly, and so annoyingly sweet.

“Thanks…” you eventually mumbled, burrowing yourself back against the pillow and pulling the blanket a little further up. “For coming over, I mean.”

“Of course, love,” Lust said, smiling to you ever so sweetly.

“Always,” Cross added, taking your hand and giving it a gentle kiss.

You already felt so much better.

It was still morning when I first read the first sentence in your ask and i went !!!?!?!?!

feral reaction under the cut

WWW-WAIT WAIT WHAT??? WHAT??!?!

VALACRE. VAL. VALAACRCECEVSVDNFMCKAAAA

ive only read the first two lines bUT I AM!! PAUSIGN TO UM UH UM UM GO FERAL??? UM Uhhhhh dont imagine me rolling around in bed like a romcom anime character—

JUST. LOSING MY SHIT OVER VALACRE WRITING A THING FOR ME (one of the sweetest fic authors i know and has written lust fics that have become my comfort fics??? HELLO???) AND IM JUST. DJDNS UWAGH LIES DOWN. LIES THE FUCK DOWN………

ur getting a long feral commentary abt this valacre im sorry but also not<3

["…love,"] OURGRHCHCHXBD SOB HEAVES SOBS,, thats so him,,, (aka my skelesona's lust variant uses that for them and its special to me and i am being an emotional bitch) uwegh,, /pos

CLUTCHING.

CLUTCHING MY KNEE AWAGDHDZH CROSSSS

["You haven't been eating well enough these past days."] UM. insert emoji thats frantically looking up and down

["How do you know?"] LMAO HELLO??? i should. Read instead of commenting after every paragraph-

[The two idiots…] YES THE TWO IDIOTS I LOVE AND ADORE HHHHHHRRRFGHHH OTL BANGS FISTS ON TABLE.

[…and so annoyingly sweet.] 😭😭😭💕💜💙💜

["Of course, love,"] !!!!!!!!!

lust really is my truly, dearly beloved- good GOD i love him- FACK, MAN!!!!!

THTHTHTHTHE HAND KISS VALACRE YOU ARE KILLING ME?????? HELLO?????

FACK THE ENDING LINE IS PERFECT IAM- IAM- SLAPS THE COUCH AGGRESSIVELY(??)

Hi Valacre thank u SO much for this u r making my morning GREAT i am simping so hard rn, u know how to write the Soff Words and i appreciate that, u r very pog and awesome i hope ur day goes well 💜💙💜