#this is the first time ive done a degree at university

[simside]

Limerick: Does anyone feel like our childhoods are being rushed through?

Tansy: Yeah, sometimes.

Peony: Probably because the watcher is sick of how long our generation has been and is eager to post the bachelorette challenge for next next generation.

Limerick: Huh. Guess that makes sense.

[soobieedoo]

Formula of Love CH. 7 - failed disguise (written)

word count: 683

finding out that the guy who you purposely cut out of your life, now goes to the same school as you was NOT on your bingo card this year.

you’ve now become even more cautious. Wearing a hat and a mask in hopes of hiding your identity, glancing side to side in the hallways. It’s a bit ridiculous really, he respected the way you wanted to end things despite your lack of reason and it’s not like you insulted him either…at least not that you know of. But still, there’s something dangerous about lee donghyuck and you’d rather not venture into that territory... again. You liked your routines, you talk to the same people everyday, you go to classes, you did NOT need him to ruin that.

letting out a heavy sigh you didn’t know you were holding, you make it to the door of your chemistry class, you feel someone tap your shoulder as you try and open the door. With your heart beating you slowly turn around to see Jeno, Professor Kim’s TA who, according to everyone in class, is the hottest TA they’ve ever seen. Most of the time he just sits at the front of the room or hands out tests and assignments with a smile. You used to think it was annoying, he’s handing you hell on paper with the sweetest smile. But, you’ve grown to like it as there really is something comforting about it.

“um hi?” jeno says taking you away from your thoughts.

“hi?” you’re a little confused as to why he’s talking to you, thinking you’ve done an assignment wrong or failed the quiz professor kim gave the other day, you instantly start to panic.

“Y/N right?” jeno asked taking you away from your thoughts again.

“yeah, did i do something wrong?”

“oh nono! nothing” jeno smiles at you “actually i wanted to ask something! um i have a friend. He recently transferred to NCityU and is looking to speak to a fellow pharmacy student. I know you’re taking this class as a requirement for the degree so-“ an arm wraps around jeno’s shoulder taking him by surprise.

your breath stops.

as you look at him, your heart starts to beat. you pray he doesnt recognize you under the mask or the hat. Already preparing to decline jeno’s offer, he suddenly steps away from jeno and closer towards you.

“hey y/n, how’s it going?” you stay silent at first, frozen, words stuck in your throat. “hello?? earth to y/n” haechan says waving a hand in front of your face.

“s-sorry, hi…i’m fine how are you?”

“good! doing better now actually” he smiles at you, a small dimple showing up.

God you hate this. “i have to go i’m sorry class is starting soon it was nice seeing you donghyuck” “wait y-“ too late. You walk into the room, as haechan stares through the window watching you practically run to your seat.

“dude i had that in the bag, i was going to get her contact info for you. you freaked her out” jeno sighs from the side.

“i’ll get her contact info myself thanks”

“how? she can barely even look at you, i’ll give u 10 bucks if you manage to actually hold a conversation with her” jeno’s smug expression makes haechan laugh.

confident he stares through the window watching as you silently type away at your phone “well u better give me that 10 bucks now. i managed to get her to like me before and i never even met her in real life. what more now that she gets to experience all THIS in person.” he winks at jeno who gives him a disgusted expression in return.

“that might be the reason why she liked you in the first place, because she never actually MET you in real life.” jeno laughs preparing to enter the room.

haechan flips him off as he walks away.

with a slight skip to his walk, he smiles at his decision to move to this university. Determined, he sets a goal for himself.

note: currently preparing to travel to america for the first time to see dreamies!! so i apologize for late uploads coming up! ive been out and about doing last minute things :/ but! still hope u guys enjoy this written chapter :)

taglist: @bloomyroses @lionzyon @ourbeautifulaffair @yewshi @injunnie-lemon @nessaassen02 @dudekiss3r

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[deathclassic]

art tag

love a good art tag so thank you @doshiart for thinking of me <3

How did you start drawing? What year was it that you become more seriously and consciously interested in it?

uh ive been drawing all my life, i wanted to be an 'artist' when i was 6 and then it kinda went into different ideas surrounding art - tattoo artist, graphic designer, illustrator, etc etc and then i decided to pursue graphic design afer high schoo about 8 years ago? and have a degree in that now

When you felt the urge to share your art with other people? When did you start posting your drawings on social media?

i was always drawing for other people and then i started posting my fanart when i got twitter and tumblr in 2010, so it's still floating around on here

Your first/earliest drawing. What were your impressions of it back then and what are your feelings now?

i was probably really proud of it and had probably never seen a giraffe at all, i was 5. there's earlier ones out there of course but this is the earliest i could find around me

Your first fanart ever

i cant find my fanart of my little pony from 2004, or my fall out boy, panic at the disco and my chemical romance stuff from 2008. i drew this of ian in 2011 though.

Your first gallavich fanart

see above

When you had bad days and things didn't work out, what inspired you to keep trying?

what else was i gonna do with my life lol, im not good at maths, im not good at english, im not good at science so this was the only thing left. i dont share what i draw most of the time, no one needs to see it, so i just sketch whats around me, i scribble just to get the anxiety out. and then i come back sometimes weeks later like it never happened.

Show your old piece that you strongly dislike and tell why.

i was just getting back into the shameless fandom after being in and out since 2011 and i hadnt actually drawn them for a long time so i hate this one with a burning passion.

Show your old piece that you very like and tell why. What's the difference with the previous?

this is a scanned version, it's done entirely in sharpie. i like how simple it is, just one medium, stark contrast, and yeah. difference between them is that one is digital and one is traditional, one was done after drawing them for years and the other was done after taking a break to draw for other fandoms.

Show your old piece that you were very proud of back then.

maybe this one from university? i made a guidebook of architecture of melbourne and i drew every building by hand, i did this maybe 4 years ago?

Do you do any practice sketches or warm-ups before you draw something big?

oh yeah - mind maps, thumbnails, hand drawn text exploration, figure sketches, writing down different values. every single one of my drawings that get posted start like this

Sketch vs Final. Show your process.

i had to redesign the blair witch movie poster

Your most recent drawing.

logo ive been working on for a client - not bound by contract so i can share it with you because i dont want to share my secret santa thing lol

Give yourself some praise! Look at what improved in your art!

im glad you kept going. through all the death threats, through people selling your stuff without you knowing, through the depression. who knew you'd still be drawing for the same fandoms decades later?

Any advice you'd give to your earlier self?

stop giving a SHIT about everyone else. draw for yourself and no one else.

Set a goal for yourself for the coming year.

stop getting taken advantage of <3

im tagging @spookygingerr @ghoulish-art-tendencies

@vintagelacerosette @suzy-queued @cal-tastrophe @iansw0rld @heymrspatel @grumble-fish

[mallorykeen]

Elaborate on the letting go of grudges 👀

did i get sent this ask in ummmm september 2021 when i was actually still in school? yeah. am i now halfway through a university degree? yeah. sorry this is late. anyway.

for context this ask is about something i said about a theme in mcga being about letting go of grudges, letting things go et cetera et cetera particularly in five areas (some of it crosses over but yk):

hunding and helgi

magnus and his mother

randolph and his family

tj and jeffrey toussaint

magnus and loki

hunding and helgi is basically you hold onto a grudge until after you die and one of you suffers at the hands of the other until the end of the nine worlds. whenever that happens. it doesn't need too much elaboration on it's own i think but you know? they've both been there since the eighth century ce. and they could have moved on, helgi could not have had odin put hunding into his service and so on but he did and hunding might have made it to paradise but it's going to suck. forever

magnus in book one is given the offer of let us end the nine worlds and in return you get your mother and he picks to save the nine worlds even though he will never see his mother again. he has to let go of his hope to see her again in order to delay ragnarok for the time being

in contrast, randolph doesn't stop trying to see his family again, even when it involved the deaths of his sister and nephew. he could have taken magnus' hand at the end of hammer of thor but he chooses to fall instead because he can't let go of them

tj and jeffery toussaint spend years and years rehashing their first fight. they go into the daily battle, kill each other, repeat because they can't let go of the grudge until tj does let go since he sees hunding and helgi and decides he doesn't want to be like that but jeffrey just disappears one day (i think he fades but its been a while since ive read sotd)

and finally: magnus chooses not to use his flyting with loki to try and bring down loki but instead honours his friends. it's a bit power of friendshippy but he chooses not to go into his anger about what loki's done to him and the people he's cared about and instead move past it onto better things

[spacenutspod]

Casey Wolfe is developing and producing the next generation payload adapter for NASA’s SLS (Space Launch System) super-heavy lift rocket. The adapter is made with some of the world’s most advanced composite manufacturing techniques.NASA/Sam Lott While precision, perseverance, and engineering are necessary skills in building a Moon rocket, Casey Wolfe knows that one of the most important aspects for the job is teamwork. “Engineering is vital, but to get this type of work done, you need to take care of the human element,” said Wolfe, the assistant branch chief of the advanced manufacturing branch in the Materials and Processes Laboratory at NASA’s Marshall Space Flight Center in Huntsville, Alabama. Together with her team, Wolfe is developing and producing the next generation payload adapter for NASA’s SLS (Space Launch System) super-heavy lift rocket. The adapter is made with some of the world’s most advanced composite manufacturing techniques. Wolfe’s work integrates the technical day-to-day operations and personnel management of the composites manufacturing team and additive manufacturing team, balancing production of SLS hardware with the creation of new engines using the latest manufacturing technologies.  “A lot of my day to day is in managing our two teams, making connections, building relationships, and making sure people feel supported,” Wolfe explains. “I conduct individual tag ups with each team member so we can be proactive about anticipating and addressing problems.” Wolfe grew up in Huntsville, a place known as the “Rocket City,” but it wasn’t until she visited a job fair while studying at Auburn University for a polymer and fiber engineering degree that she began to consider a career at NASA Marshall. Wolfe applied for and was selected to be a NASA intern through the Pathways Program, working in the non-metallic materials branch of the Materials and Processes Laboratory. Wolfe supported a coating system for electrostatic discharge on the first uncrewed test flight of the Orion spacecraft. Launching December 5, 2014, Orion traveled to an altitude of 3,600 miles, orbited Earth twice, and splashed down in the Pacific Ocean. It was during her internship that Wolfe realized how inspirational it felt to be treated like a vital part of a team: “The SLS program gave everyone permission to sign the hardware, even me – even though I was just an intern,” says Wolfe. “It was impactful to me, knowing that something I had worked on had my name on it and went to space.”  Since being hired by NASA, Wolfe’s work has supported development of the Orion stage adapter diaphragms for Artemis II and Artemis III, and the payload adapters for Artemis IV and beyond. The first three Artemis flights use the SLS Block 1 rocket variant, which can send more than 27 metric tons (59,500 pounds) to the Moon in a single launch. Beginning with Artemis IV, the SLS Block 1B variant will use the new, more powerful exploration upper stage to enable more ambitious missions to deep space, with the cone-shaped payload adapter situated atop the rocket’s exploration upper stage. The new variant will be capable of launching more than 38 metric tons (84,000 pounds) to the Moon in a single launch. “While the engineering development unit of the payload adapter is undergoing large-scale testing, our team is working on the production of the qualification article, which will also be tested,” Wolfe says. “Flight components should be starting fabrication in the next six months.” When Wolfe isn’t working, she enjoys hiking, gardening, and hanging out with her dogs and large family. Recently, she signed another piece of SLS hardware headed to space: the Orion stage adapter for the second Artemis mission. With as many responsibilities as Wolfe juggles, it’s easy to lose sight of her work’s impact. “I work in the lab around the hardware all the time, and in many ways, it can become very rote,” she says. But Wolfe won’t forget what she saw one evening when she worked late: “Everybody was gone, and as I walked past the launch vehicle stage adapter, there were two security guards taking pictures of each other in front of it. It was one of those things that made me step back and reflect on what my team accomplishes every day: making history happen.” NASA is working to land the first woman, first person of color, and its first international partner astronaut on the Moon under Artemis. SLS is part of NASA’s backbone for deep space exploration, along with the Orion spacecraft, supporting ground systems, advanced spacesuits and rovers, the Gateway in orbit around the Moon, and commercial human landing systems. SLS is the only rocket that can send Orion, astronauts, and supplies to the Moon in a single launch.

[dailybrandonrogers]

hiya so i used to be a huge brandon rogers fan but fell out for a few years and. oh boy did I miss a fuck ton of lore in those few years. i stopped watching basically when stuff and sam just started, so ive missed... a lot. while ive been trying to catch up (i cried my eyes out over bryces series), you seem to have the timeline worked out pretty well. what order would you say the brcu should be watched in? and is it important to keep up with "minor" roles/series like theater class or the grandpa hates ___/elmer hates ___/other solo skits, or is it better to stick to the "main" series (stuff and sam, blame the hero, etc)

also, I wanna say your analysis of the brcu is awesome. it's a confusing set of timelines that you've ironed out and theorized about pretty damn well. im curious if brandon rogers has done all this on purpose or if he's just making the timeline up as he goes

Hi! My sorries if this reply is a tad bit late, I always have trouble saving answers to my drafts.

In my personal definition, I'd say the BRCU encompasses (almost) every single video Brandon Rogers has ever made. Within the BRCU, I definitely think there's a "core" overarching storyline that revolves around certain characters. This core storyline is primarily explored via the several series, but nonetheless includes elements from other creations of his.

These "core" characters are primarily:

Sam & Donna

Elmer

Blame

Bryce Tankthrust

Bobby Worst

The Mingeworthies

The majority of them have been protagonists of a series at one point or another. However, almost every character played by Brandon himself can be considered important to the overarching plot. Therefore, I think watching individual character skits released 2015 - 2018 offer valuable insight into the personalities and smaller nuances of reoccurring characters. At the very least, I would recommend watching the videos centred on the aforementioned characters released in this time period prior to any of the series.

In general, I think the BRCU is best watched in the order the videos came out in. Although tricky at first, I think Brandon makes it easy to discern "where" we are at any given moment. And as a rule of thumb, outside of series, every video takes place chronologically in-universe after the other.

Moreover, as of 2022/2023, I believe we're going through a renaissance of sorts with an abundance of new characters being regularly created. Pretty much anything after Normal British Series. While very entertaining, I wouldn't say these are essential to understanding the main plot, as Brandon does have a degree of separation between old & new characters.

To hopefully simplify things, here's a playlist I made that imo includes more than enough context needed to understand that main storyline. If it appears a bit overwhelming at first, I'd rerecommend just sticking to skits of the characters I mentioned above before moving onto the series. Anything else can be a fun bonus!

Thank you so much for your kind words!! It makes me happy to know that you're enjoying my attempts at unravelled the complexities of these timelines.

[erismourn]

ok ive been thinking about a destiny university au that im ultimately not going to do anything with (probably) but I just want to talk about it so here is a list of some characters and what I think they would do at uni

osiris: physics prof specializing in quantum + theoretical physics. undergrads find him extremely difficult to follow but master's students love him. will occasionally heckle ikora's philosophy seminars

saint: kinesiology prof, former football quarterback. everyone takes his first year classes because he's the best and also might let you throw things at each other for a grade. too much of a meathead to truly understand what's going on in osiris' lectures, but sits in on his beloved's lessons anyway.

ikora: philosophy prof, has like 4 undergrad degrees because she couldn't decide what she wanted to study ("but mads that's bonkers" my friend has done this and is currently getting their phd in social work. it happens). playful academic beef with osiris on the nature of life itself. was the scariest player on the women's lacrosse team

eris: perma-phd student in archaeology with a minor in anthropology. spends way too much time in the bone lab, which is why she looks like she doesn't go out in the sun. spends a little too much time hanging around the philosophy department for someone who isn't a philosophy major

zavala: extremely jacked anthropology professor. did his phd thesis on the value of fibrecraft to the human experience (more specific than that but I'm not about to come up with a feasible phd level thesis for a field I know nothing about). many of his students think he's in the mafia or something because of how ripped he is, but he just really likes working out

asher mir: chemistry professor. kind of a hardass, HATES teaching undergrads, but might let you blow something up in a controlled environment on the last lab day of the semester

amanda holliday: engineering master's student. EXTREMELY passionate about the yearly engineering go-kart derby where teams of students build their own go-karts

banshee-44: engineering prof. the smartest, most capable engineering prof at the school, but god forbid he remembers where he put that caliper. do not go into his office. it's a hazard.

shaxx: the football coach. end of thought.

drifter: math and stats prof. weirdly grungy for a nerd. I almost put him as an ethics professor bc I think his morals are really interesting but then I remembered he likes math a lot and I think he can have a little treat. has way too much energy for undergrads

mara: history prof. you thought history was boring until you took a class with dr sov. that woman can spin a yarn like nobody else. often has academic beef with ikora

riven: the school mascot

[needsmoreresearch]

get 2 know me meme

tagged by @thatswhatsushesaid

tagging: whoever feels like doing this, i lose track of who has or hasn't done one recently! please please consider yourself invited

Do you make your bed?

Yes--my husband is motivated, so we both do it.

What’s your favorite number?

Hm. Probably 2. 20 and 21 also have good vibes.

What is your job?

i'm a program coordinator at a little neighborhood community center for refugees and immigrants. i do a bit of everything, including substituting when any of the english teachers can't come. i really love it.

If you could go back to school, would you?

ugh i think about it, but there just isn't a degree program nearby that hits what i want to learn/do more than what i'm already doing. at this point it turns into a question of investment--will the time and money and annoyance turn directly into work that i want to do? it's tricky because the world of adult English/literacy/basic education, which is what i really love, doesn't have a lot of defined certifications/requirements in new york (unlike K-12 public education), so it's hard to say if any given master's program would really translate usefully into a clearer career path than i have now. there are certainly things i'd like to learn more about (many!) but also i'm lazy and going back to school a few years ago kind of sucked. i'm too old for homework. fuck homework.

Can you parallel park?

um. i mean. i have done it once or twice. i avoid it whenever possible.

A job you had that would surprise people?

i used to make tiny glass needles and poke cells to read their electrical currents! also i worked in a liquor store for a while, which sometimes makes people get a funny look

Do you think aliens are real?

is there, has there been, will there be, something that you can call life somewhere else in the universe? seems quite possible. are they zooming around looking at us right now? i doubt it.

Can you drive a manual car?

no. i've had a couple of sessions working on it in a parking lot.

What’s your guilty pleasure?

all pleasure is guilty, we must atone

Tattoos?

nah, there isn't anything i really want on me

Favorite color?

deep reds, all kinds of blue, earth tones

Favorite type of music?

my spotify playlist is really heavy on the 30s - 70s, mostly 60s. folk, rock, motown, johnny cash, linda ronstadt, blues, some gospel

Do you like puzzles?

i love jigsaw puzzles! i can't have them Because Cats

Any phobias?

no

Favorite childhood sport?

no

Do you talk to yourself?

always

What movies do you adore?

um um um okay some top favorites. Seven Samurai. After Life (the 1998 Japanese movie). Star Trek IV: the One with the Whales. Master and Commander. Bedazzled (original 1967). Spirited Away.

Coffee or tea?

tea. i am too weak for coffee.

First thing you wanted to be growing up?

artist, teacher, naturalist, veterinarian

[friendlyfaded]

hi for the rarepairs have u done guy/james because ive been thinking abt those two recently 😍

/nf :3

Literally the first thing that came to mind was "oh my god they were roommates" and I cannot tell you how hilarious that is to me. Like, just imagine James finishing up his degree at DAMN while Guy, completely fucking unaware that magic exists, is pining after him in his senior year at an unempowered university.

Immediately I think about their personalities. James is stoic, quiet, and deliberate. He's got strong convictions. He also cares extremely deeply for the people he loves, and he'll make big sacrifices for their safety and happiness. Guy, on the other hand, is loud, eccentric, and erratic. He's James' perfect opposite. For some people, I feel like that could make the relationship fall apart. With James, though, I feel like it would be endearing.

James is very clearly patient. This, I think, is especially clear in the Valenmonth audio, when he's talking to his partner about an argument they had. It's also obvious in the Imperium, when he talks about how he bided his time and did what he had to in order to see them again. I feel like he'd be very patient with Guy. Guy is undeniably annoying, but James would agree with many of us that it's the adorable kind of annoying, like an excitable golden retriever puppy.

After spending so long surrounded by his stuffy colleagues, and with the doom and gloom that I'd have to imagine comes from working for the Department (especially in a position like James', since he's called in to make "tough decisions"), it would be a genuine relief to come home to a bright smile and the third pizza of the week. It would feel amazing to be wanted for kisses, rather than for his reputation of being a hardass. The admiration Guy would have for James would be genuine, not shallow and conditional like at DUMP.

Also, I have to assume James makes bank. I feel like we haven't addressed this nearly enough. He's clearly got a high enough position in the Department that they ask for him specifically for important jobs. You know this man is getting that bread. Money would most certainly not be tight in that household. Still, I feel like Guy would keep making and delivering pizza for Max's. He'd get bored if he didn't have something to do, after all, and he likes his job. He'd appreciate the financial stability, but I can't see him quitting (maybe that's just because he's literally the Pizza Guy and I can't see him as anything else).

Oh, and once Guy finds out that magic is real, his mind is going to fucking explode. So you're telling him that the fuckoff massive dog that weird couple has is a werewolf?! And that the super hot guy who likes to answer the door shirtless and smells like chocolate cake is a sex demon?! James can read his fucking mind?! He'd be mindblown. Obviously he'd come to just accept it as a part of life, but those first few weeks will absolutely be filled with questions and curiosity.

I love them both, and I love them together.

[its-a-hil]

answering everything for this ask game

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect? there are. a number of them. flare (clark powell, for homestuck) magilou's theme (motoi sakuraba, for tales of berseria) electricity forecast (inabakumori, really everything by them is just. so good) 14.3 billion years (andrew prahlow, for outer wilds)

cactus ⇢ something you’re currently learning (about)? how hard teaching is :/ idk it's difficult to process anything else when im having a fulltime job for the first time in my life -_-

bamboo ⇢ do you change into a different outfit when you get home? yes absolutely i need to wear something comfy and soft and unrestrictive so like. leggings and a t shirt. having to wear vaguely formal clothes to work is nice for my self esteem but they are absolutely not home clothes at all

abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with? not at the moment but i want to!! new year's resolution is to buy/make a necklace with 30 lunar phases and wear the appropriate one every day in 2024

daffodil ⇢ do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them? i have an older sister, we're extremely different lmao i guess we're both academically inclined and like reading fantasy, but that's like. it. though we are both currently getting our masters degrees from the same university so that's neat

mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does? i guess… seeing something that was more beautiful than i expected? that's very vague hold on one time i was walking home from my office hours as a ta after a student had held me late these were evening office hours, so like. it was 2230, i was not dressed for the cold, i was annoyed at the student but but as i was passing a little field of grass, there were little ice crystals on the blades in the light of the streetlamp, as the wind was blowing the grass and i was walking past it the grass glittered i cant think of a better way to describe it but ive never seen anything like it since it completely made my day so yeah. that's my answer

chia ⇢ what’s an inside joke you have with someone else? hm idk ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i feel like inside jokes usually just become part of my vocabulary

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is? fiction i think it's because im much closer to being good at writing than i am to any other art form so it resonates more with me since i can feel/imagine its creation in a way that i cant for music or visual art also sometimes i read my own past writing and it eats me alive

edelweiss ⇢ how’d you think of your url/username? what’s it associated with to you? it's associated with my name obv, since it's just a pronunciation guide but it's also associated with my avi edits, which are wonderful and make me feel great joy

camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot? oh absolutely also not at all past me and present me both had/have an absurd inability to compartmentalize, a large degree of silliness, and a general love for the world the main difference is that ive… done more things

jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again? not quite a movie or a book but. katanagatari. i really liked it but also it is so fucking slow i tried to rewatch it a couple years ago and i couldnt bc it was just so wordy

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired? it's quite easy to tell if im upset or tired i feel idk if theres a difference between them just like. looking at my eyes. also i take pauses when im tired/upset. also my voice is just. god. unsure about a tell for whether im happy though im not very in tune with my emotions to be able to tell that at least with other people if im by myself ill stim and the cadence/type of stim makes my emotional state obvious but who ever sees that

chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts? things that encourage me to do something i want to do but need the motivation for my college friend group does a yearly gift exchange and a couple years ago i wished for earrings as motivation to get my ears pierced (it took me another 9 months but. we still did it girlies !!)

aloe vera ⇢ what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life? hm. failure? failing a class, or having a relationship break down, or tripping and getting myself seriously injured just. something that reminds me how ubiquitous loss is, that forces my brain to accept the fact that it's okay to not try to be perfect

palm tree ⇢ do you have a fictional villain you shouldn’t like but love regardless? aranea homestuck!! something about the way that she knew that the game over timeline would break, did her best to avoid it, and everything fell apart anyway the part where she kisses jake and is like "wait why are you freaking out?? i know you like me this was supposed to encourage you" is just. she's doing her fucking best and putting her all into saving the timeline and yet everything she's doing is hurting and she doesn't know why also the part where she snaps and mind controls damaras to smash planets together in a desperate attempt to kill the condesce. so important. love her idk if she even counts as a villain but the story hates her so. it counts for me

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on? haha… "decorated"... that sure is a word…………

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with? oooooh answer !! god. tales of luminaria was so fucking good!! (this was the trailer theme, and it was honestly the first thing that clued me into the fact that the game would be amazing)

taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about? i guess for a general hypothetical person, i'd tell them how i have a teaching job now, how i have to manage a horrible curriculum that's just. extremely pedagogically unsound i'd also tell them that i went to la over the summer and got to see my 2nd space shuttle orbiter, that i don't yet live somewhere with public transit but that day is growing ever closer and im so excited

[tycal12345]

14 Ways An Artist Destroys His Art

I.

You are looking for methods instead of Truth. But there’s no method. There are no steps to teach. The more time you spend learning those steps, the more time you have to spend unlearning them. The more you read, the more you have to unread. The true Artist spends his time in that liminal space — between hero and loser, between permanent and gone.

II.

You labor in vain, striving to please the voyeurs of society. You must transmogrify their gaze and live as if they do not exist. Only then will art flourish.

III.

The reason you Create can only be: Because it’s the method by which you slough off, however temporarily, the self — the intolerable burden. In that moment you are Free — untethered, floating in Perfection, a moon-driven space man.

IV.

You think too much in images. Images ruin art. You are very likely hung up on some facile picture, a child’s cartoon, in your mind — or on paper, or on the screen — that crowds out the truth, your rawest, deepest nature. Art requires no imagery.

V.

“How do I find the truth?”

You can’t be told directly — nor can it be chased directly.

VI.

You are stuck in the digital. Computers are the devices of gadgeteers, not the Plane of artists. If you work only in digital, you’ll never create real art. Analog is the domain of mankind’s body ontology.

VII.

You are forcing it. All force is farce. All “pushing past” is ego. Allow yourself to speak in tongues — to the degree it’s possible given your situation. Discipline is distraction.

VIII.

You are trying to “say” something — to send some missive into the universe, your Big Thing you want to convey, some political contrivance or “altruistic” pseudo-do-goodery, because I am “me” so listen up, so you’re gonna choke on this idea. Stop this nonsense. Messages corrupt art. All things worth saying in art — what can actually be said — are unsayable.

IX.

You are scheduling in time to “work” on your creative project. What a bunch of garbage. Making time for art means tossing it in the waste basket of time and setting it on fire. You may as well quit because you’ve already quit. Some broken brook of pulchritude. Don’t make time for art; if you are lucky, art makes time for you.

X.

You are trying to “sell,” “market” or auction off your art. This makes you a fake. A car salesman with a beard and tattoos. Another hipster with a fake dream — the dreams of others, an apparition set apart by nothing, see-through and hollow. Your world must be Art, in the purest sense — all else is fakery, money-grubbing status-seeking, a feeble attempt to suckle from the nectar of a blinkered populace.

XI.

You are working on something even though it’s done. You’re trying to make more somethings out of nothings — as if it’s “you: making it in the first place. You are not an artist. You are trapped and irrational, a muskrat groping for cheese — when all you need is — or was — a push, a reason to fall again into poetic motion.

XII.

Stop searching for something that makes sense. Stop making sense.

XIII.

You spend too much time working on and slaving away at your creative projects and dreams, neglecting your friends and family and children. What a bastard. Stop working so hard on your art. Stop being an asshole and spend some time with the people you love.

XIV.

Now get back to work.

[sexdrugsrocknroller]

aight im making a post so i can say im using this shit like an actual diary

right now i have a grandeur of disorganization on my phone (laptop too but thats been a piece of junk since forever, fuck acer), between the basically full storage, mostly from the gallery (as of now i have a grand total of 93k photos. yes, 93 000 photos and videos.) plus my socials are fucked between the excessive saved and liked posts on instagram, same goes for tumblr here and twitter (i dont really use twitter, i only have an account to like and bookmark posts) and the youtube playlists and chronology.

plus my room is all messy with my not enough space for clothes and random papers and shit thrown together on any surface

i decided i dont like that and im changing it.

for the storage, i have already started deleting quite a bit, right now i deleted like 2300 elements but theres a lot more. sad part is that a lot of it is porn, wether drawn or short videos. im not gonna go full monk and delete all of it, though it would be easier, cause some of it i like. not to talk about the amount i already had to transfer on the laptop when i was tired of receiving warnings about the full storage in the last 2 years. i was also thinking of doing a backup of the whatsapp chats on the laptop so i can delete all the data on the phone storage. it would save me like 6 gb but its kinda extreme.

for socials, the solution is the same. tumblr: gradually remove liked posts i dont need to keep saved, and post what ive been keeping to post like i should have. last i checked, i had like 35k liked posts, and again, a lot of it porn. im not sure i want to post porn and erotica on this blog so for now im reblogging it on an alt, hoping it doesnt get deleted again. then ill have to unfollow some of the 4k blogs im following. guess what part of them are?

instagram, im not even going to remove all of the saved posts. its the social i used most to scroll at, i dont have the option to see how many posts i have saved but i dont think it would be an exaggeration to say i have at least a million. yea i know. im just going to get to a certain post i remember saving this summer, once im at that i will probably make another account altogether since i would never be able to clean all of it. i started this on around mid to end january, and as of now im just at mid october. after something like 20 non consecutive hours. yea its bad. it wouldnt be worth it to go past a certain point. better to just make a new one at that time and be more careful there.

youtube, i have the same problem of all social, i open a video just to keep it in the chronology so i can check it later and maybe save it. ive done it far too much. at least youtube is much faster to clean, but again i would never be able to check every single video i have left in the chrono to save at a second moment. thankfully once im done i could just go on settings and choose to do a tabula rasa of it, removing it completely.

twitter is probably also not worth the trouble of sitting thru all the posts i liked as a way of saving them. i probably shouldnt even care about it. this one has the least priority.

saved tabs on the browser? the easiest one by far out of all of it.

my room and the house in general, there isnt any second road, i just have to first remove and throw what i clearly dont need, store away whats left with some degree of order and hope i saved some space, and try to keep clean, plus store things with stricter orders so its cleaner. after my room and things, its time for the rest of the house.

all of this will be slow, gradual, and a major pain in the ass, but it has to be done and i intend to do it.

and all of this doesnt even include having to remake and update my cv and linkedin in preparation for when my contract ends, planning what to do for university between tests and papers and documents needed and all that, and this arguably has higher priority than all of above time and importance wise. but yknow. actually you dont know. even i dont know.

[kaiwry]

I'm Back Soon

Where have I been and what ive been up to

So im not sure if I mentioned it here but I actually got a job over the summer working at a summer camp for 3 months and I had to live on site. I brought my laptop with me but obviously couldn't bring my pc so I couldn't really play sims and take screenshots. But I had a bunch of screenshots so I had plan to still post gameplay regularly but suddenly I got too busy when I started working and ended up stop posting without warning. But I had YouTube videos scheduled until I was supposed to finish my job. And I was supposed to record more videos as soon as I was back home but idk I just wasn't interested in playing anymore. And it was pretty hard to get myself to play any video games at all so I was pretty bored until I started my current job. At first I wasn't sure what kind of job I wanted to do until I got a job working at a daycare which usually you need a degree for in my province but I'm an assistant (which I basically do the same thing but just get paid less 😅). Anyways, the pay is pretty decent so I'm happy with it and I'm definitely more stable than I was when I was solely depending on disability support payments. Long term tho I don't think I wanna do this for the rest of my life. I don't even want kids. Not that I hate kids or my job just yeah I want something more. And these kids just get on my nerves. So yeah I'm going to university again next year and doing something in math and science.

What's next

So i still have screenshots for my werewolves gameplay series and screenshots for another series where i play with dream home decorator. But honestly i probably won't post them anymore cause the werewolves series was just a side series and the dhd one i didnt have that much fun with so I dont think its worth posting. So now I've started playing the sims 4 again. I've recorded 1 episode of my 100 baby challenge for my YouTube channel so far. It's hard cause I don't have a lot of time during the week. And I also have a small side series playing with paranormal that I had planned to post but I don't know if I will anymore. But for main series I don't know. Next on my whole plan for my save is to play with high school years but I don't own the pack yet. I might get for rent for Christmas so I don't know if I will play with my series I have planned for that pack next or wait until I can get high school years. I also want to wait for a sale for that pack cause I don't want to pay full price but I don't know when the next sale will be. So yeah not sure when or what will be my next gameplay series. But anyways, for those that are wondering when I'll be releasing my next styled look set, good news I started working on one I was making for Growing Together again. And it has a lot of looks but I'm halfway done or almost. And as for other cc. I'm itching to make some stuff but idk I kinda suck at making cc but I think I'll try it out again. I especially want to make some wedding outfits but we'll see.

[areasontoexist]

a September 7th night blog

Im trying to be consistent with this. I swear i am. Ive been so sleepy though. The past two/three nights ive been asleep before 9pm its crazy.

I think i discovered the trick to living a healthy lifestyle: be lonely and bored. All my friends are gone. Only my best friend reaches out to me one or twice a day. Ive got my morning job. Its really motivating as i have to wake up at 6:30 and then im done before 9am. I've had 3 days in a row of walks and a couple last week too. Im in my housewife era lol. I have been folding my laundry, cooking, cleaning, running errands, etc.

Since im done with my morning job so early, i decided to go back to my old parttime job for 3 days a week in the afternoons. I have been getting really bored by the time 2pm or 3pm rolls around so i decided, why not? Today was my first day back in a few months and it went pretty well but we closed early due to the heat.

Speaking of... why is it 95 degrees in september. Where was this weather in july? After it rained literally all summer. Its making my hot girl walks way harder.

Ive been watching so many steven universe video essays. I dont know why. I never fully finished the show even though id like to. I do think the finale is super cool. A lot of people misconstrue a ton of stuff in the video essays critiquing it tbh.

Oh, big moves were made today. I scheduled a dentist and doctor appointment for next week on Monday and Tuesday. I am nervous but trying not to think about it.

Tomorrow im going to bake!!

[automatismoateo]

My (19F) mum (56F) has rendered me family-less and homeless via /r/atheism

My (19F) mum (56F) has rendered me family-less and homeless I'll probably delete this later out of paranoia. Some context - I'm an ex-Muslim. I left home at 16 because of DV from parents. I have a restraining order against my dad. I come from a very strict fundamentalist family. I have nothing against most Muslims. I just realised from an early age that the religion doesn't align with my views personally. My parents didn't take that lightly (apostasy is punishable by death according to the Quranic literature), so I was forced to flee home. I finished highschool while being homeless. I've done pretty well and I've saved enough money to rent an apartment. I'm studying a really good degree in university. I'm okay now, physically. But Ive recently tried to reach out to my younger sibling. I have a little brother I was very attached to. I managed to find him on social media. We managed to text back and forth for a bit. He's been brainwashed badly, and he called me every sexual derogatory term under the sun because I don't wear a scarf and left Islam. It broke my heart. My mum then texted me (first time since her influx of threats against me after I left home 3 years ago), and she told me she wont let me talk to my brother until I return back to the religion. She then proceeded to spurt out a bunch of threats. I then try to text my brother again and I find out I've been blocked. I guess I'm looking for advice on what to do next. Having absolutely no biological family or relatives is hard. I feel alone. I feel angry and I feel so depressed. I'm trying to supplement that void with friends, but I don't think it'll ever be the same. What would you do in my situation? Btw, I've been blocked and cut off by all biological family at this point. I was only really interested in reconnecting with the lil bro, but I guess that's out of the window. Feel free to ask any questions if you have any. I'll answer honestly. I wish there was more awareness on this sort of thing. Submitted September 01, 2023 at 03:54PM by Revolutionary-One134 (From Reddit https://ift.tt/uWILUG2)

[kinetic-elaboration]

January 27: Halloween (2018)

Didn't start as early as I wanted to but I did finally watch Halloween (2018). I enjoyed it overall but I also have somewhat mixed feelings.

I was really digging it in the beginning. I felt like I was watching a pretty serious horror movie that was also intent on being just a generally good movie. It was visually interesting, it was moving along at a good pace, it had a certain amount of dread, and I was very interested in all of the new information it was giving me: where Michael is now, where Laurie is now, what her family is like, etc.

But as it went on, I felt... like it was trying to be many different things at once. There's Michael's new killing spree. There's Laurie the recluse and her family drama. There's all the little teen drama and other shenanigans. There's the podcasters, for at least a short time. I guess they were sort of the Marion Crane of Halloween 2018. There are some attempts at Deeper Meaning and the weird little twist with the "new Loomis."

It’s not that I disliked any one of these story threads by itself, but there were a lot of them, and at some point I just started to feel tired. In some ways, it reminded me more of, say, Halloween IV than the original Halloween. Yet again, I’m reminded of just how genius that film was, how deceptively simple it was, to a degree that nothing else has been able to match.

I had mixed feelings about the podcasters. I know that their reasons for being in the film were, first, exposition, and second the misdirection of thinking the story is going to be way more about them than it is. I found them extremely annoying and so I didn’t miss them when they were gone. But I did feel a certain… sense of time wasted with them? Like, I sat through all that and they’re not going to be important? There isn’t going to be like a true crime/podcast exploitation angle to this? Okay then.

I’m also not sure I fully bought this version of Laurie. I liked her more in Halloween H20, and if they had tried to connect those two characterizations more—not include the canon of H20 specifically but more the outlines of the character—I think that would be better. I could see more of 1978 Laurie in H20 than here. Also… I just find it hard to believe that Laurie, or anyone, could maintain this level of reclusive paranoia for 40 years. She built this house, she put a trap in the basement—must have done that early because Karen remembers/knew all this—and then she just, what, shot mannequins for another 30 years? I just don’t think this is sustainable. Forty years is a long time. I feel sort of awkward saying this as if I were some kind of expert on trauma but I just think that humans generally do have a pretty amazing ability to pick up and move on. In one sense, we’re so fragile, and many things less traumatic than being the survivor of a killing spree can definitely mess you up and leave their indelible marks. But in another sense, we’re so strong. We keep getting up in the morning and going on with life even after terrible, terrible things. Not everyone, I do get that, but Laurie is lucid and controlled enough to basically take care of herself, and yet damaged enough to have done literally nothing at all for a solid four decades. I just don’t get that. (Oh and also she got married twice somehow and those people left no mark at all I suppose.)

Which is what I mean about combining the characterization with H20. Like, I don’t hate recluse!Laurie. But what if she’d devolved that way over time? Maybe that wouldn’t seem realistic since in this universe she’s only met Michael once and there haven’t been new triggers since then, but…maybe there were? I just like the idea of her being pretty normal, on the outside, for a while, but maybe always having this cabin in the woods, just in case, and then she spends more and more time there, and develops it more and more, and feels increasingly comfortable there…

I though the parallels between Laurie and Michael were cool, or rather, the places where she stood in for him in the parallel to 1978, like when she appears outside the school or when she falls from the roof but miraculously survives. But, I’ve never been fond of this faux-deep idea that the final girl is, like, in some way morally equivalent to the killer, or this Batman-morality logic that what the final girl does to survive makes her a sort of villain or monster herself. Laurie is a damaged person because of what she went through but she’s not a bad person, let alone the Epitome of Evil because of it.

I did like that the three generations of Strode women were the final girls. I mean I did see it coming but I liked it a lot too and it was satisfying. I liked that they included a moment for Allyson to injure Michael, and that Karen contributed to saving the day by remembering the things she’d been taught as kid.

I actually did like the teens, the humor they brought to the movie, and their little dramas and things. They felt like more realistic teens than those in the Rob Zombie films. A part of me… almost wishes they’d gotten more of the run time? Like Vicky and the kid she was babysitting were really cute! I also found it somewhat weird and unsatisfying that all this time was spent on Cameron just for him to be forgotten at the dance. Not even killed off. I know the point was that he ruins Allyson’s phone when they fight and so her family and the police can’t contact her, but it still felt like a loose-ish end to me. Anyway, I hesitate to say ‘this should have just been about the kids’ because I LOVE Laurie and Jamie Lee Curtis is the GOAT but… it might have been more compact?

The movie was definitely very clever in its callbacks. It got the big ones like the laundry but I’m also pretty sure I saw some Shamrock masks in there!

I think my favorite scene was when the police officer discovered Vicky’s body, because the tableau of the figure under the ghost sheet (another parallel!) sitting next to the pumpkin in the fish tank, all lit by the unexpected colorful lights of the kid’s room, was so spooky.

All in all, I did really like it! But I don’t think I would rank it above H20 and of course not above 1978.