#this is the best bf shes had and its still a shit show

[thevoidisyellingback]

I can't post this on main bc she follows me there. But I invited my friend and her bf on vacation to a cabin with me when I was drunk but now I regret it. Her and her bf always fight, and she's gotten into multiple physical altercations w bfs in my place in the past. I'm just worried, I think. We're going to be on an island, and if something gets out of hand... well, the cops can't get there easily (not that I'd want the cops there). I just can't deal with anger myself. I shut down even when it's not directed at me, and I wouldn't be able to deescalate the situation. Plus they always break shit :/

Idk what to do it feels too rude to uninvite them

[ienjoywritingfilth]

a sinner i am part iv

trope: Boyfriend's Dad PP character: Joel Miller x f reader / Shawn Miller x f reader / Joel Miller x Tess chapter summary: You and Joel find yourselves alone and things finally come to a head.

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please reblog and review and follow me and all that good shit - IEWF

warning: oral (m and then m gets it), p in v sex, cheating on your bf (but it’s cool, cuz its with Joel and everything is fictional in this universe), fantasy cheating, daddy thrown around, cum swallowing, dirteeee talk, alternative universe b/c daddy miller stays alive and hates golf and he has a son named Shawn, no Sarah. rating: E

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part iv : a moment alone

My heart tells me this is the best and greatest feeling I have ever had. But my mind knows the difference between wanting what you can’t have and wanting what you shouldn’t want. And I shouldn’t want you. — Cassandra Clare

Joel and you sit awkwardly across from one another that evening after dinner, trying to join in on the laughter from your partners. 

"Tess couldn't stop screaming," Shawn laughs as he shows the table the video he took of Tess in the ATV next to him. 

"You were driving so crazy!" Tess giggles back. She's under Joel's arm, smiling. She's beautiful and flushed from the wine.

"How was your ride today you two?"  

There it is again: That strange energy that seems to exist between you and Joel. You shoot him a look, surprised to see him looking strangely at you as well. 

"It was really beautiful," you say as you bring out your phone from your shorts pocket. "This was the lookout." 

Shawn and Tess bend over to look at the beautiful shots you took this afternoon. You'd been so peaceful at that lookout over the ocean, thankful to be away from Joel and your strong desire for him. 

"Thankfully Joel drove safely," you say forcing a grin at him over their heads. Tess and Shawn laugh as Joel offers a shallow snigger. 

"Despite this Tess still wants to hike that damn volcano tomorrow morning," Shawn says smirking at her over the table. "At fucking sunrise."

"It's supposed to be gorgeous that time of day!" Tess takes another sip of her wine. 

Joel takes a deep gulp of his beer, trying to be present but unable to stop thinking about his daydream earlier. Joel watches his sons arm crook around your neck, pulling you close to him. 

"Well I know my girl here likes to sleep in." 

Shawn's palm grazes your breast as he shifts and Joel watches your nipple pebble in your thin shirt. Joel feels his cock twitch in response and he prays that Tess doesn't notice. 

"I also like to sleep in on vacation," you remind Shawn playfully. Your head rests on his shoulder and you feel fondness at how attentive Shawn is being to you today. 

"Well you're gonna be bored tomorrow then," Shawn teases you, "Cause we're all hiking it."

Joel gives a groan at the idea. He agreed to it because Tess insisted he join them. But he doesn't really want to do it. His back is sore and he’s so fucking pent up because of you. This vacation is turning into a nightmare.

"If we're leaving early we should hit the hay," Shawn says with a yawn. "Meet at the car at five?"

Everyone agrees and you rise with Shawn taking your hand in his. Joel watches you murmur something to his son and Shawn chuckles, nodding. The two of you disappear into your bedroom, the door closing quickly. 

Tess bounces on Joel's cock her pretty breasts jumping with every thrust of his hips upwards. His wide hands keep her from falling over and he grunts with every fall of their bodies. The second they got into the bedroom she pushed him onto the mattress and handed him a condom. 

"Missed this cock," she whispered as she guided the head through her damp folds. 

"Missed this sweet pussy," Joel whispered back. "Missed how she looks when she's full of me." 

Even through the condom Tess feels good. So tight and warm it's only a matter of time before the two of them are groaning into each other's mouths in an attempt to keep quiet. Tess tilts back and begins to ride him earnestly her hips rolling. Joel watches how she slides her pussy up and down his wet dick. 

It's just like the fantasy in the ATV. Only it's not Tess he's seeing, it's you in your flimsy clothes riding him. Your pretty face all scrunched up as you bounce on him. 

"You're so big Joel," you cry for him. "Too big for my tight pussy." 

"Fuuuuuck," Joel groans. 

Tess grins down at her boyfriend watching the hypnotized way he gazes where his cock is swallowed by her cunt. 

"You feel so good," she tells him before she begins to ride him furiously, the bed squeaking. Joel grunts with one hand fisting the pillow behind his head. 

"Fucking take it," he grits out as your tight body continues playing behind his eyes. "Fucking take my cum like a good little whore does." 

Tess, turned on from the dirty talk covers her mouth with her hand and moans into her palm. She doesn't want you and Shawn to hear.  Joel is in a state of bliss with Tess squeezing his cock and your phantom body riding him. He can picture your face squeezed in an expression of pleasure. 

"This is so bad, daddy." 

All of a sudden Joel is sitting up and bouncing Tess furiously in his lap. She cries out in pleasure. 

"Beg daddy to let you come," Joel growls into her ear. "Beg daddy to use your cunt." 

Tess feels her core tightening. Joel has always been good in bed but this feels different almost like he's desperate for her. 

"Please daddy," she whimpers. 

"Please daddy what?" Joel groans back. 

"Please cum in me," Tess says as the orgasm starts in her lower belly. "Use my cunt."

Joel falls back on the bed, his forehead slick with sweat and his hips jutting up brutally. Tess rides him, body twitching as her orgasm nears. 

"Show me how a good girl cums for her daddy," Joel rasps.

Tess grips the headboard of the bed and begins to drop down onto his cock over and over until she lets out a muffled whine. Joel lets out a choked moan and spurts into the condom. 

When Joel returns from tossing the condom in the bathroom trash Tess is already in her nightdress smiling at him. He crawls into bed next to her and pulls her into a hug. 

Tess smiles at him with a glint in her light eyes. 

"Daddy huh?"

Joel feels his cheeks going red. He tries to shrug it off casually, unable to look her in the face. 

"Just wanted to try something new."

The truth is Joel has never used that nickname in the bedroom. He never understood why men wanted to hear it. But for some reason when he pictures you, he wants you to moan it for him. He wants that taboo edge that comes along with it, that desperate notion that it's wrong on so many levels that makes him think of you naked and blissed-out underneath him while he fucks his girlfriend.  

"I liked it," Tess says as she snuggles closer to him. He feels a pang of guilt at what just happened and he kisses her sweetly in remorse. He can’t look at her anymore so Joel flicks of the lamp next to the bed and leaves the room dark.

"I've missed you," Tess says breathlessly next to him. "We've both been so busy at work." 

"I know," he sighs tracing little circles along the side of her ribcage. "Gotta get better at that work life balance shit." 

Tess laughs, pulling his face to hers for a kiss before announcing that she's exhausted and going to sleep. Joel lays awake as he hears his girlfriend drift off to sleep. Her snores begin but another sound soon has his attention. 

You kneel between Shawn's spread legs on the bed with your mouth wrapped around his cock. Your hands are on either side of his thighs and your ass is in the air. You moan around his length trying to sound enthused but in truth all you want to do is go to bed. However you feel so guilty over the dirty thoughts you've been having about his dad that you felt you needed to do this. He lies back on the crisp white bedding with his hips jerking up as he passively lets you suck and taste. 

"Your mouth is so good," Shawn grunts as you go down on him. 

You breathe through your nose, frustrated that you've been at it so long because your jaw is starting to hurt. You need to think of something to keep you going. Your eyes fall shut and even though you don't want to you begin to think of Joel. How thick his cock looked through his shorts and how much bigger he is than Shawn. Shawn groans appreciatively as your tongue flicks the underside of his cock. In your head its Joel your leaning between the legs of. Joel's cock hitting the back of your throat. You groan again but this time with sincerity at the thought. 

"I'm gonna cum," Shawn tells you with a whimper. Your eyes pop open and go up his body to see his eyes squeezed shut. You begin to suck harder just wanting this to be over. 

He grips the pillow behind his head as he erupts in your mouth sending hot seed coating your tongue. 

"Fuck fuck fuck fuck!" 

You hate swallowing cum. It's always grossed you out and tonight is no exception. You throw your legs off the side of the bed and rush into the bathroom. 

Joel hears the sound of the adjoining bathroom door swinging open and of bare feet slapping over the tile floor. He rolls onto his side and looks at the crack under his door to see the individual hasn't turned on the light. There's the unmistakable sound of spitting into the sink then water running.

The figure begins rinsing it's mouth and then he hears them spit into the sink again. After a pause there is a gentle sigh and Joel knows that it's you in there. His tummy tightens. He realizes what's just occurred. You spit again and then the door on your side creaks shut. 

You didn't swallow his cum. 

Joel can't understand why that turns him on so much. All he knows is despite cumming moments earlier he still goes to sleep with his cock so hard it throbs. 

Shawn rises early the next morning to the soft chime of a text. He looks at it then at you and sighs before sending something off in reply. He feels tense as he dresses for the day, sure to wear his best hiking shoes. He looks at you again and sees the drool at the corner of your mouth. 

"Gonna head for a hike to that volcano," Shawn whispers, pressing a ginger kiss to your temple. "Be back in a few hours."

"Mmmmhmmmm okay babe,"' you mutter drowsy with your eyes closed. You're barely awake, still warm and half slumbering. 

You don't know how much time has passed before you wake up again to the empty house. You stretch, groaning as your back pops. You yawn, heading into the bathroom, surprised to see it's foggy. You're eyes are closed as you walk to the sink, squeezing toothpaste onto the brush and staring to scrub. You don't even hear the shower running until it suddenly turns off. 

"Hey." 

Your eyes fly open to look at the mirror in front of you. Joel stands in the glass shower with his brown eyes wide. He's naked and wet from the shower. 

"Fuck!"You drop the brush in the sink and go stumbling back groping for the door. "Shit I'm sorry-" you sputter with a loud thunk of your heart. You feel like your whole body is shaking. 

"its fine," Joel says in a strained voice. You're thankful his lower half shielded by the shower etching. "Don't worry, it's fine!"

Your hand flies over your eyes as you finally push back against the door, trying in vain to locate the door handle. You hear the creak of the shower door. 

"I didn't know," you shriek, "I thought everyone was hiking!"

You hear shuffling and you assume Joel must be wrapping the towel around him as he steps out of the shower. 

"Honey its fine."

You feel thick fingers coming to wrap around your wrist, tugging it down. Your eyes are exposed, wide and stuck on Joel. His hair is pushed back from the water and he glistens with droplets. 

"It's not a big deal it was an accident.”  

"It feels like a big deal." Your eyes begin trailing down his strong stomach to look at the pristine white hotel towel wrapped around his waist. 

"Why?" 

The moment is charged now, the two of your breathing increasingly quicker. Your eyes trail back up his body, taking their time along his naked chest before they finally glue to Joel's parted lips. 

"You know why Joel." 

His dark eyes grow darker. You can see the way that the pupil edges out all remaining chocolate brown leaving him with an aroused look that makes your pussy clench.

You feel like you're in a dream when his hand goes to where his towel is tucked at his hip. You don't try to stop him when he tugs it loose and let's it slip to the tilted floor. He stands boldly, not a shred of insecurity in his tall frame. 

His cock is thick and large with a slight curve. The colour matches the rest of him but the tip is a blush of mauve. He's half hard but the longer you stare at it between you it hardens further, coming to graze your belly in its ascent. 

You lick your lips subconsciously recalling the desperation you had for just a taste of his cock. Joel sees this and feels arousal nudging the base of his spine. Again you lift your eyes to his, uncertain of what Joel is thinking. 

Joel can't stop looking at you all soft and sleepy. Your tank is practically see-through and the short panties you wear underneath cut you perfectly to show your ass. He's sure that his need for you is seeping out his pores at this point.  

You're halfway onto the cool floor before you realize what you're doing. When your bare knees make contact with the tile you seem to come back into your body. Joel's cock juts directly in front of your face, his head tilted to look down at you. 

Tess is gone on a hike. She left him with a kiss to his sleepy mouth and a quick love you. That's what he should be thinking of. Not his son's girlfriend on her knees, her plump lips inches from the head of his cock. 

But all of that seems so far away right now. His heartbeat is pounding out of his chest because you look so seductive with your hair falling into your eyes and your mouth glossy from anxiously licking your lips. You wait there on your knees, your hot breath fanning over the head of his cock and Joel feels himself get desperate. Joel's hand comes to lace its fingers through your hair, the thick digits cupping the back of your skull. He tugs gently at the roots and you shudder an exhale in pleasure. You feel his hand cupping your skull gingerly urging your face forward. 

"They won't be back for a bit." He says in a husky murmur without tearing his eyes from yours. 

His hips roll incrementally and his thick cock bobs up and down. It’s so big that you have to drag a shaky hand to it and wrap your fingers around the base. Your fingertips can't even touch when you circle him.

Joel groans when you touch him, a low, rumble that makes your pussy tingle. You drop your hand nervously. Joel stares down at you, the both of you clearly waiting for the other to make the first move. 

You gaze up at him in supplication before you tilt your head back and let your tongue slide out. Joel takes a deep sharp breath at the sight of your mouth open luridly and your tongue begging for his cock. 

Joel grips his cock by the base while transfixed by your mouth. You sit patiently as he shuffles forward and he taps the head of his cock against your wet tongue several times. He enjoys the damp slapping sound. And so do you if your squirming is any indication. 

He begins to guide the head of his cock along your tongue in slow stripes. Back and forth, rocking it closer and closer to your open mouth. 

I'm a bad man. 

You begin to suckle the tip of him, intimidated at his girth. You're rewarded with a deep growl from Joel and his fingers tightening in your hair. The sound makes you excited as well as nervous. What if Tess and Shawn come back early? There are so many opportunities to be caught. That shouldn't make your pussy ache but it does. Joel sees your hesitation and loosens the fist in your hair. He doesn't want you feeling forced to do this but he also thinks he might die if you don't wrap your mouth around his cock soon. 

"It's just the two of us here." His words are slow and low and soothing and his eyes are black and glossy with desire. 

You feel lulled into moving forward once more and now you begin to lick the tip of him without looking away. His thighs shake as he watches and feels you. You're so desperate for him and you begin to take him into your mouth. 

I'm a bad man. This is wrong and immoral and disgusting and Joel had never been so hard in his life. 

"It's okay," Joel soothes like you're a feral animal he's trying to tame. "Just relax." 

His hand sweeps back your hair from your face. He wants to watch every moment of you blowing him. 

"You want it don't you?"  Joel coos, his hip slowly edging forward when you make no move. "I know you want it, honey. You want this so bad," he mutters and he's not sure if it's for him or you. "Just open up a little and I can give it to you.”

You nod up at him with luminous eyes. He wonders if there's still a part of you that feels guilty. Your mouth parts as you begin to take him, your cheeks bulging as his cock begins to fill your mouth.

"Uh huh just like that," Joel tells you warmly. "Just like that yea just like that honey." 

Your palms balance on his naked thighs, warm and damp from the shower. Then all of a sudden you pull yourself off of him, saliva clinging from your lips to the head of his cock.

"Wait Joel maybe we shouldn't."

This is so wrong. Shawn is your boyfriend you love him. What the fuck are you doing in here sucking his father’s cock?  

"Shhh," Joel offers in a sibilant hush. "It's okay honey. You're feeling guilty I know, but I know how much you want this. You do, don’t you? It’s okay you can tell me.”

You squirm on the ground at the way he’s speaking to you. All soft and charming like his wet cock isn’t brushing impatiently against your lips. Everything in you is commanding that you stop this immediately but a sinister voice in the back urges you to continue.

“We’ll just do it once,” he promises in a voice of velvet. “Just once.”

You gaze up the length of Joel’s naked body, taking in the strong shoulders, the lean neck and the plush mouth that smirks down at you right now. He takes his cock by the base and and drags the head along your lower lip, tapping it there like he’s knocking at the front door waiting to be let in.

“You want my cock baby girl?”

You exhale, surrendering.

“Yea, I want it.”

“Show me.”

You hate yourself for exhaling before licking the tip of him and whining when you watch his cock drool pre-cum. But you don’t hate yourself enough to stop taking him into your mouth. You whine around him, the guilt and the desire mixing up inside of you.

“I know,” Joel coos as if he feels your turmoil. "It's okay to want this."

You hum around his cock and he smirks at your cock-drunk expression. He begins to slide his cock deeper into your mouth and smiles contentedly to himself when he sees how your mouth strains around him.

“Wider.”

He groans down at you as you work your mouth over him, obeying his order. You want to pleasure him and show him how good you are. You want him to make those low growls again. He begins to shift, his hand holding your head in place as he thrusts into your mouth. You gag slightly but Joel doesn't notice. His head is thrown back and he moves like a wild animal. 

It's only your mouth and you feel like heaven. He can only imagine how your cunt would feel. He needs to feel it, taste it, smell it. He needs to taste every part of your body. He needs you to call him daddy in a whine as he fucks into your beautiful body. 

I'm a bad man. 

He's close now, his balls tightening. He doesn't know why but he thinks of you spitting into the sink. About how his son's cum wasn't worthy enough for you but Joel's is. His hands move to your cheeks, caressing them as he continues to thrust. 

"You'll swallow mine, won't you, baby girl?" 

Yes, you will. You want to feel him down your throat you want to savor any part of him he'll share with you. 

He grunts in approval when you nod and, his hips start slapping against your face. He’s gonna come and he’s gonna make sure that you don’t waste a bit of him. His hand goes to the top of your head, holding you in place again. You've taken his cock so deep your nose is smashed in the thatch of hair around his cock. 

You're gonna swallow his cum. You want to do it. You wouldn't swallow for his son but you'll swallow for him. Joel feels dizzy with elation and deplorable need as his body tightens. He holds your head as ropes of cum shoot down your throat. It's so much that your cheeks plump and he lets out a strangled moan. 

He holds you and waits, watching as your delicate throat bobs, swallowing him down before you beam up at him. He doesn't have to say anything. You simply hold out your tongue to show him it's clean. He gives a wobbly smile and nods in approval with his blushing chest heaving.

You go to say something when the sound of your cell chirping in the other room drains the blood from your face. What did you just do? You've crossed the line. You sucked the cock of your boyfriend's dad. You swallowed his cum. He tapped his cock on your tongue. He fucked your mouth and you loved every second. Your face goes beet red and prickles in the heat of shame. Joel seems to be feeling the same because he helps you to your feet looking concerned as he re-wraps the towel around his waist breathing in and out quickly. 

"Better answer that. Might be Shawn." 

“Yea." 

Joel twists away and walks to his bedroom. His eyes fall shut and he grimaces as he closes the door behind him with a click of the lock. He hears you chatting on the phone to his son and catches his reflection in the bedroom mirror. His face morphs from that of a disgusted father to that of a depraved man.

I'm a bad man and it feels so good.

[sturniolo04]

Request—> Chris going for advice to Matt about how to finger/eat out a girl properly

(Not saying Chris would be bad but maybe there’s a couple of things he could work on or at least that was what the last girl he hooked up with said to him)

A/N: i hope you like it :)

Bf!Chris xGf!Fem!Reader

Chris never had a hard time pleasuring a girl that was until his last girlfriend, now his ex, said otherwise. It got so bad that it often resulted in her 'faking it' when they had sex most times. It wasn't until they finally ended up having an argument and her finally admitting that that had been the case the whole entire time of their relationship.

So fast forward to current time, Chris finally gaining more confidence to date again, and he finally started dating you. Although his confidence in pleasuring a girl still wasn't fully back to 100%. Every time you and him would be causally be making out, Chris would hit the brakes before it went any further.

"Okay we should probably go see what we are going to have for dinner, yeah"

he halts your guys actions breaking the heated kiss you were sharing.

" what chris"

you giggle as you try to lean back in to continue to make out with your boyfriend.

"baby you know i love you but you haven't eaten all day"

" chris you cant be serious"

you state simply looking into his glistening orbs showing no sign of lust what so ever puzzling you.

"what"

" i dont do it for you do i?"

you huff out getting off of his lap looking at him

"what no god no"

he lies as you let out a sigh believing him.

Chris hated lying to you so he knew he was eventually going to have to figure out this or get advice from someone and if he was going to get advice why not his own brother, Matt. Matt has been in the same relationship with the same girl for almost 2 years and they are sexually active enough to the point that it annoys him and Nick since the walls are so thin in their house. In reality, he must be doing something right.

"Matt i need to talk to you about something kind of embarrassing"

Chris states mumbling the last part quietly from pure embarrassment of him having to come to his older brother about this subject.

"okayy.. whats up"

matt replies unsurely looking up from his phone momentarily and then shifting his focus back to his phone as Chris took as seat across from him on the couch in their living room on the coffee table.

"so i need some advice on how pleasure a girl properly"

chris trails off as Matt quickly shifts his focus to his brother trying the see if he is being serious about this question.

"chris what the fuck why would you need advice on that you know what to do when it comes to-"

he replies shocked

" not neccessarily-i just want to make sure I am not going to blow it with her"

he states shyly referring to you.

" i just figured you would know something I don't because you and Becca are so annoyingly active with all that shit"

he trails off looking down and fumbling with his fingers.

"fuck you know what never mind this was stupid-"

chris states fully embarrassed attempting to get up and leave this conversation.

"wait no chris its not stupid it's just- i -nevermind so you want some advice"

matt stuttered with his reply as he thought of where to start.

"yeahh"

"okay so basically oh god- well i just start out by eating her out; you never just start with your fingers"

matt trails off uncomfortably with this conversation

"honestly the best thing is to just be super communicative with her; see what she likes dude but anyway- when you start first with eating her out just do a lot of figure eights and then occasionally fuck her with your tongue"

"okayyy"

Chris replies trying to fully understand where matt was going with this lesson

"yeah so when i guess she is wet enough then you can use your fingers and when that point comes you should use your ring and middle just cause its easier"

"middle and ring okayy"

" and you kind of want to curve them as you go in and out you don't want to go just straight in and out but also add your tongue on her clit occasionally that also makes them feel but I think that's all the advice I can give you"

he trails off causally scratching the back of his head.

" you sure i just dont want to blow it and if I do I'm blaming you then"

" you can blame me if you blow it because that probably means you were half listening to me"

matt rolls his eyes.

"yeah yeah whatever but thanks dude"

he responds before heading back to his room

"for sure i got you bro always"

[highvern]

Ateez in Different NSFW Careers

Pairing: ot8

Genre: smut, 21+

Warnings: lots of sex, masturbating, porn, domination/submission, fetishes, lmk if i missed anything egregious

Note: this is an idea for a miniseries but idk and thought id put it out there to see if people are interested (dont bring up the ateez mixtape series, im working on it!) thank you @wingsofimagery @yessa-vie for listening to this brain rot

read more here

Hongjoong:

onlyfans creator, solos of him masturbating or nudes. weirdly artistic? like camera angles on point, edited to perfection, color graded. rarely, if ever, collabs with others. occasionally posts erotic photography of one unidentifiable woman. his subscribers aren't sure what to make of it but pictures of them together are some of his best work. daylights as a photographer and has some of his work in small galleries across the city.

Seunghwa:

amatuer porn star, makes homemade couple porn or something with a close female friend. domestic/bf vibes in every video. v soft with each other even when they're having rough sex. people assume they're actually dating bc of the insane chemistry even though they never show their faces. its his fun dirty little secret no one in the office knows.

Yunho:

boyfriend for hire. specializes in "turn your brain off for the night, i'll handle it." rent him to be your date to an event or just for a night on the town. doesn't always sleep with his client (his discretion) but usually cuddles and will spend the night. just trying to pay off his student loans since being an analyst pays shit. big yunho bc he has a big... u kno? and loves hearing the women he sleeps with rave about it. has had several repeat customers and older women that recommend him to their friends.

Yeosang:

audio erotica. just aside hobby for him. tbh 9/10 times forgets to record or that he even has the account. started bc a girl he was seeing freshman year of college told him she wanted a video with the sound on and he didn't know what that meant but she liked his voice enough to let the completely black screen slide. posts sporadically but always makes waves when he does. people have offered him money for custom audios and he always turns them down.

San:

fetish model. shibari, leather, latex. you name it, he's most likely modeled it. has portrait of himself (unrecongnizable, facing away just his back criss crossed with ropes, hands bound at the base of his spine) hanging in his apartment. his friends think its weird since they know he's the one in the picture but most of the girls he brings home just think he's into some freaky stuff. started bc he would nude model for the art classes at his college when he needed fast money for weed. people assume he likes really kinky sex bc of his job but he prefers vanilla sex most of the time bc his job is so kink heavy. works as a fitness instructor as his 9-5, and had a few people recognize him but most are cool and leave him alone

Mingi:

nsfw twitter creator. videos, pictures, sliding into dms. mingi does it all and enjoys the comments of people thirsting over him even if he's one dick among thousands. for his day job he works in a sex store and flirts with the exotic dancers who come in to buy their costumes (turned down every single time, there's even a pool for how quickly he'll strike out). the one girl that flirted back still lives in his brain rent free bc all she did was smile and he folded like origami. now when she comes in mingi has to remind himself not to drool.

Wooyoung:

cam boy brat, sugars on the side. likes being degraded by his audience when he's bad. lover of milfs, and has a sugar mommy he sees once a month. loves being wined and dined by her and then loved on at her fancy apartment uptown. started doing both in college to pay rent, now works at a dance studio and keeps it up bc the extra cash is nice. enamored with taking pictures during sex. has a collection of polaroids with his current FWB that he cherishes more than anything (always carries one in his phone case). toyed with the idea of having her come on his streams but he doesn't want to share. he should probably look into that more.

Jongho:

dungeon dom (IDK), the kind thats a look don't touch dom. if you need a session to work through your stress, go to him. sexy spanking, punishment spanking, therapy spanking. he's got the knowledge and know how. has a strange collection of vintage dvds and magazines. rare stuff that he treats like art rather than smut. jongho i never want to speak on your name im sorry

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[sparklyskies0]

𝐌𝐄𝐃𝐃𝐋𝐄 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓

‘No, I wanna see you undress now

I wanna hear you confess now,’

parts: 1 ᥫ᭡

( 𝙞𝙣 𝙬𝙝𝙞𝙘𝙝 ) after having her birthday practically ruined by her shitty bf, y/n finds herself face to face with her enemy who she recently shared a drunken night with. confronting the situation, but still fuming with hate. chris is determined to prove to her that her boyfriend is exactly what he says he is and that she deserves nothing other than pleasure on her special day.

warnings/disclaimers : poc!reader, oral sex (fem receiving!), softdom!chris, cursing, pet names, sort of fluff(?), etc..

The music blared through the speakers as everyone conversated and enjoyed themselves scattered around your apartment. Your friends had thrown a surprise party for you, considering you will do the same for them. Everything was nice, perfect even. The balloons everywhere, the colors, even the cake surprised you. The only thing that was missing was your boyfriend.

You haven't seen or spoken to him all day, but you only just assumed it was a part of keeping you out of the loop for the party, but he has yet to show up or return any of your texts or calls. He always does this, completely ghosts' you over the slightest disagreement or inconvenience instead of communicating and talking it out. You had one tiny argument, one. And now he won't even show up to your birthday party? You were angry, no, more than angry. Out of all the people that are here to celebrate you the one person you're constantly searching the room for, is him.

Shifting in your seat on the couch you pull down the small part of your dress that has risen up. There was no way your friends were going to just let you sit and mope around at your own party, so they offered you to come smoke with them and you told them you'll be there in a second, now you're just sitting on your couch, in the crowded living room. Surrounded by a bunch of drunk people who you honestly love dearly but know that none of them care or notice about your off energy tonight. How could they though? everyone who knew you would know that the last thing you like to do is talk about how you're feeling or anything remotely personal, so there's no point in trying. You grab the red solo cup in front of you bringing it to your mouth, taking a sip. Your face scrunches up at the sourness of the drink, but the familiar taste tells you that its your best friend Samara's famous jungle juice.

You manage to get it down and settle into it, letting out a hum of distaste but you know you're going to drink it anyway. You glance up to see Chris approaching you. Almost like a reflex, you roll your eyes. Your eyes watch the boy, but your mind drifts off to about a week ago. The night after the club, drunk, angry, completely fucked out. You two honestly haven't spoken about it, you haven't even spoken to each other period. The complete irritation in his presence and hatred for one another still very much apparent no matter how good the sex was. How and why was he even invited? you asked yourself. But you knew the reality, you can't get rid of him, even if you pray on it.

You can see his stupid smirk from your seat as he got closer. You weren't in the mood, not for his shit. "look at the birthday girl" he speaks, now stood towering in front of you. You look up at him, shooting a fake smile "just the asshole i wanted to see" you say, sarcasm in your tone.

Causing a chuckle to leave his lips as he sat down next to you. "sitting by yourself at your own party? i expected more from you princess" he says

You cringe at the nickname, where the fuck did that come from?

You shrug "not really in the party mood anymore"

you notice his furrowed eyebrows, curiosity peeked in him. "you good?" he asks, if you didn't know any better, you would think he sounded like he actually.... cared.

"Not that it's any of your business but, honestly no" you say honestly. Truly not knowing why you're telling him the truth about how you're actually feel right now.

that damn jungle juice.

The look on Chris's face read anything but shocked. He took a quick scan of the room, the party still active and energetic than ever. The one person he was looking for, not there. A smirk forms on his lips as he turns his attention back to you. you practically cursed at yourself, at how predictable and easy it was for you to read his thoughts and expressions, at the fact that you knew exactly was he was going to bring up next. "no boyfriend?" he asks

"—If thats even what he is now" he added. "the fuck does that mean?" you asked, you thought you had said it to yourself but, guess not.

"you know what that means, what kind of boyfriend ditches his girls party" he questioned, to himself. He didn't understand, why you did this to yourself. He hates you for it.

you let out a sigh, not ready to get into specifics especially with him.

He stands up from the couch, facing you. He held out his hand "c'mere"

you look at his hand, then at him. Your eyebrows automatically raising. "what?" you ask, like he was stupid.

"you heard me, come on" he says again. you can tell he wasn't taking no for an answer.

instead of taking the hand he held out for you, you stood up on your own. he dropped his hand sucking his teeth. you just had to be difficult. "wheres your room?" he asked. You gave him a look like he should know but then realized that you two never made it to your room that night. You walked in front of him, leading you both out of the living room area. The entry way into the hall that lead to your room and bathroom had a tape blocking it for your room privacy. you ducked your head going underneath it as chris did the same. You stood in front of your bedroom door and you opened it.

The room was neat and clean, your best friend made sure of it when she was setting up. you step inside, hearing chris close and lock the door behind you. You look at him, the smirk seemed to be permanently on his face. he walks towards you. "you deserve better" he speaks

do i? you ask yourself. "what?" you respond, the forced attitude obvious in your voice

"your boyfriend isn't here, why is that?" he asks

"that's none of your business" you counter

"but it is." he states

"it is when its bothering you so much"

you felt yourself wanting to laugh, he cant be serious right now. acting like he cares. "very funny" you say. "I'm not laughing princess, its your day. you should be enjoying it" he retorts

"not sitting around wishing the guy that is totally wrong for you by the way, was here"

"hes a dick, and you know that"

"and you're any better?" you speak up, chris chuckles "probrably not, but i know that i make you feel good, better than he does" he says

you wanted to laugh but there would be no use. cause he's right.

without any further words chris pulls you closer to him. your bodies flush against each other. He could feel your rapid heartbeat against his chest. he looked down at you. "come on princess..."

"let me make you feel good"

he didn't wait for your approval before he pressed his lips on yours. You didnt hesitate to kiss back. Completely melting into it. You bring your hands to cup the sides of his face, pulling him closer. He let out a small guttural moan into your lips.

you both backed up, until the back of your legs touched the bed. he slowly sunk you down, leaving trails of kisses over your neck. Once you were layed on your back, he trailed his kisses down. His hands pushing the bottom of your dress up to your hips revealing the rest of your thighs and underwear. He moaned at the sight. Completely obsessed with the picture of you.

he buried his head down to your lower stomach placing kisses everywhere, you arched to him. "i wanna to taste you princess. make you squirm f'me" he spoke lowly, seductively.

you bit your lip. looking at him, hearing his words. His fingers hooked the hem of your underwear, pulling them down slowly. Your dripping wet core now exposed to him. "mm fuck ma, so wet for me already" he moaned. His index finger tracing a line down your glistening folds. you moaned softly at the brief contact. But you needed more.

It wasn't long before you felt his wet mouth take you. you gasp at the sudden contact of his tounge with your clit. He teased it lightly before licking between folds. His tounge circled your wet cunt as you let out glorious sounds that were like music to his ears.

You felt yourself relaxing under his touch, and pleasure. "mm fuck" you moaned out, your hands ran through his hair. He focused on your clit, and you felt yourself coming closer and closer to the edge so quickly.

Without warning, he slipped a finger inside. Your body arched up, you let out a sharp moan. he glanced up at you, biting his lip in a smirk "like that princess? you like my fingers inside you?" he taunted

it only made you hotter. His fngers picked up pace, your body natural squirming against him. "mm too fast baby?" he hummed out, but he wasnt going to slow down any time soon.

"your boyfriend doesnt do this huh?" he speaks

"he doesnt make you feel this good.."

"only i can." he says, you let out a loud moan and it only made his head bigger. he grinned cockily.

"oh ffuck chris" you stuttered out a moan. Feeling your orgasm get closer. "g'na cum for me, baby?" he groaned. bringing his face back to your core, his tounge flicking over your clit as his fingers thrusted into you rapidly. Your words became mumbles and your moans got louder and more high pitched. you gripped his hair tightly. You can hear him groan against your throbbing pussy. "thats it. pull my hair princess, come on" he mumbled against you.

Your body arched once again, a string of moans leaving your lips as you release over his tongue and fingers. His name fell from your lips so naturally, like it was meant to be that way.

He continued with kitty licks against your sensitive core, placing a kiss to your clit and all over your inner thigh. you watched him. As he placed kisses over your sensitive areas, thinking to yourself how someone who seems to hate you so much can make you feel like the only girl in the world. How your relationship is full of hate but also so much intimacy affection. You panted lightly catching your breath from your intense orgasm.

Chris brings his fingers to his mouth licking off any remaining juices, like he was starving. He brought himself up to you, face to face. Attacking your lips with his. you can taste yourself on him and it made you main. The kiss grew deeper and more intense.

A sharp knock was heard at the door, catching both of your attention. You lifted your head up. "y/n!!' a voice was heard from the other side of the door. "bitch come out its time to cut the cake!" you recognized the voice to be samara's.

you hear her footsteps faint as she walks away. you breathe , glad that she didn't catch on to what lies inside the room. chris grabs your discarded underwear from the ground and gently puts them back on for you. You unknowingly feel yourself give him a slight smile of appreciation and you immediately curse at yourself. You sit up as he stands to his feet. You pull your dress down straightening out.

Chris makes his way to the door, unlocking it. placing his hand on the door knob, before opening it to turns to you. "happy birthday princess" he winks. You chuckle at his cockiness "shut up, go" you say as he opens the door and you both walk out.

When you both enter the living room , all the lights are off. The only form of light is the candles lit on the cake. Once they saw you enter everyone burst into song. "Happy birthday to you" they began to sing

you chuckle looking at all of them gathered around. you step closer. now at the kitchen counter, the heart-shaped cake in front of you.

As they sang, chris stood infront of you along with everyone else. His eyes glued to you, though everyone was staring, you could feel his eyes piercing into you. When they finished singing happy birthday, and you made your wish, you were showered with love.

"happy birthday baby" a voice was heard, you turned, and looked up.

Your boyfriend, stood towered over you.

ᥫ᭡ Authors Note

this was pretty long 😭

def gonna make this a series bc

this is my fav.

Hope you enjoyed!! love you 💋

xoxo paris

[leclerced]

hear me out

lando and oscar just can’t keep their hands off of you and it’s kinda a secret like you were dating oscar and then all 3 of you started dating but McLaren was like “ummm guys this isn’t good for our PR” and so you keep it hush hush like NO ONE knows except for you 3 , the boys trainers , and Zak Brown. So during COTA you guys do the little teenage dream fuck your small town bf on a back road or whatever… but a group of teenage boys were out hunting , and coincidentally were F1 fans , so they recorded you and leaked it on F1 twitter so your relationship is not only OUT but so is your new sextape !

and there is a race the next day meaning none of you will be escaping this.

-🪼🪼🪼

ur insane for this jelly. adding a read more bc this is lonf

the thing about small towns is that everyone knows everyone. and they keep up with each other even if they move out. you start popping up around formula one drivers and people are gonna see it. even if it’s just one of them, they send it to all of their friends and family. the first time, it’s a screenshot of you in lando’s vlog, “hey didn’t we go to school with this girl?” and later, when you’re being posted on main at every race, every kid you went to school with is sharing the photos, “how do you think they met?” “which one is she dating?” the guy you went to prom with has an odd sense of satisfaction knowing he got to feel you up after the dance and now you’re rumored to be dating some race car driver(s).

when you get spotted in a club with them getting handsy, it 100% makes its way to your parents. your kindergarten best friend’s aunt sends it to your mom, “honey, is she doing okay?” and you want to die in a hole when she forwards you the texts, “honey, i hope you’re being safe! nancy is worried. send her a text to let her know you’re doing fine. she said she messaged you on christmas and never heard back.”

when the race is back in your area, the whole town is buzzing thinking you’re bringing them back home and they’ll get to meet some celebs. you’d never allow it, you just know the girl you fought with from preschool all the way to your high school graduation would love to tell them any and all embarrassing stories. even stopping at one of the small stores is risky, no telling who is the cashier now.

but if you stay on the back roads you can avoid most of the houses you know, and the rental truck conceals your identity. there’s an old spot you want to show them. you def think it’s secure. it’s got a decrepit house on the corner, no one really knows who owns it so you know the owners won’t be around to yell about trespassers. you have to climb through a barbed wire fence behind it and make your way through some woods before you find the clearing. it’s obvious it’s still the spot for some people, it hasn’t been forgotten since your class graduated. the tradition of debauchery in the woods has been passed on.

there’s a circle full of ashes, the same spot your friends had campfires years before. it’s the first spot you ever kissed anyone, smoked weed, drank. you just planned on driving through the town and pointing out your childhood home, where family lives, the school you went to. you decide on popping by and showing them the clearing last minute because it’s on the way out of town. it’s chilly out and you carried the blanket from the truck to shield you from the evening breeze. lando takes it and lays it across the bed, wants to stargaze for a bit. within minutes of you and oscar joining him, he’s turned it into a makeout session, and then you’re being fucked in the woods in the middle of the night.

the ones hunting don’t even recognize you, they just hear moaning and go to the clearing, expecting to find one of their friends so they can give them shit. they record it, send it to someone who forwards it to others. it’s the way small towns work. “who’s fucking at the clearing?” with a video attached. makes its way around until someone recognizes you or the drivers. then it’s back down the chain, “ohh its the girl from my sisters class, the one dating those drivers. apparently they’re in town for the race this weekend.”

by the time you make it back to the hotel, it’s being shared across the internet. most of the people in your town disregard it, but there are some asshole guys who post it on snapchat, twitter. share it in the gross group chats men have with each other. the f1 fans find it by searching “lando and oscar” on twitter and looking at the recent tweets. then it’s spread amongst them, people trying to figure out if the grainy footage is real, if the audio is real.

the next morning, the mclaren team is sitting them down for a pr course and training them on the responses to give. you stay at the hotel to avoid any and all attention, but the lack of your presence at the track leads to them being asked why you aren’t there.

[jamietarttownsmyheart]

please i need colinjamie headcanons or prompts i’ve been deprived of them for too long

i am. so so sorry for how late this is. and how uncoordinated the rest of this will probably end up being, but, just, ima unleash random colinjamie thoughts on u and hope it makes sense lol and that you enjoy them, but since idk how long it'll end up ima put everything under the cut

random hcs

colinjamie have definitely watched the owl house at some point. maybe this is fresh in my head since the final episode just came out a few days ago, but i definitely see colinjamie watching the owl house together. two options:

maybe colin was chilling with his niece (i want colin to have a niece or a nephew so bad, he gives uncle vibes and also i want jamie to interact with the kid at some point too) and she was watching it and he got invested. and then jamie got invested via colin. OR. henry was visiting the stadium on spring break and mentioned the owl house to jamie, who was curious, watched and episode, and then got invested. flash forward to colinjamie fwb era and colin dropping by one day and finding jamie losing his shit over the episode hollow mind. jamie needs to lose his shit with someone and colin is the poor soul who came over for a hook up but ended up having to watch two seasons of a disney cartoon.

that being said, i also think that jamie, if he ever watched avatar the last airbender as a kid, only ever watched until mid season 2. life got more complicated and he was more concerned with playing well than "lazy" things like cartoons. he never got to zuko standing up to his dad. he'll get there someday, it's gonna be great

colinjamie have a unique sense of style that they somehow make work, it drives so many people mad

colin had a crush on lightning mcqueen when he was a kid. (11 years old? idk how old colin is, so im putting him at 28 in s3, making him 11 when cars came out) he thinks about this childhood crush and figures its pretty telling that he's got a speedy car and a cocky but talented boyfriend

jamie is dyslexic, and when he realized audiobooks existed, he was thrilled. still, his favorite way to experience books is to have colin read them out to him.

that being said, his favorite way to enjoy drake is to have colin rapping along

colin takes jamie along to theater performances, musicals, and the ballet.

jamie found the "whose the worm now" moment so hot. he can't let colin find out

random prompt

prompt #1

so this might be because i just re read the seven husbands of evelyn hugo, daisy jones and the six, and carrie soto is back, as well as binging all of the daisy jones and the six show, and have been listening to taylor swift all month, but i am craving something specific?

like, i am so here for an au with actor or pop star jamie (have y'all heard phil dunster's voice?) and richmond player colin hughes. its giving posh spice and david beckham.

just the different flavors of it all. if we have it in modern times, as in, the time ted lasso is set in the show, we can do so much. (we can also have a colin who is not actually a fan of his bf's music. it's not that he hates it, it's just not his style. jamie knows this, and writes songs about colin anyways. colin loves listening to these songs regardless of them not being his style.)

then of course there is the other option--i am so bad at timelines and math, so dont come for me when this is all wrong, but i, on my 7 husband of eh kick, was like omg?? give me hollywood star jamie tartt and football player colin hughes who are "roommates."

prompt #2

im a sucker for vampires and vampire hunters. i think it can go either way for them in terms of whose the vampire and whose the vampire hunters.

prompt #3

a canon divergence au where colinjamie were dating s1. jamie and keeley were dating prior to his loan to richmond and stayed friends after their breakup. he really did love her, but still hadn't learned to be accountable yet. keeley still comes around to the club bc she's jamie's best friend and wants to test the playing field with roy.

[blood-starved-beast]

Youl ever think about how when Mai and Acxa had a change of heart, they helped their bfs escape from a prison, turning on their best friends in the process, and the boys were in awe that their badass knife gfs did it and how proud the girls were of their bfs for changing the Galra/Fire Nation to something of unity, not hatred or is it just me.

P.S. I love you!

See while I understand the viewpoint of comparing Mai to Acxa, there's a fundamental difference between them that should be noted and it's a consequence of how their respective arcs are constructed.

Acxa's arc is specifically written outside of a necessary romance. The point of resolution - her redemption and understanding of the empire being wrong is key to her arc - regardless of whether or not Keith is factored into the equation. Keith in the Grudge, where her arc is most significantly highlighted, is a macguffin at best. He can be replaced with anyone or anything plot important and the narrative of that episode does not change. Acxa still will confront Zethrid cause she now understands that she is worthy of change, and by proxy, she wants to see change in Zethrid, who despite everything is her friend. This is willingness to see the possibility of change or lack of it rather, was why she initially "gave up" on Zethrid and Ezor before. They were stuck in their ways in Acxa's mind, and much like Acxa herself she sees them as immovable products of the Galra war machine. That changed in the Grudge. Keith helped with that change by being a model, and Veronica helped her see the light, but in the end the change was Acxa's own and that's significant.

Mai by contrast, her arc doesn't necessarily touch upon the Fire Nation as a regime, but she is aware of its problems - that's what presumably she and Zuko talked about in the cell at the Boiling Rock if I'm remembering correctly. But ultimately her stand to Azula is defined by standing up to Azula's control and abuse, and by lesser proxy, the Fire Nation as a whole. While there are similarities to Acxa - both were subordinates to a higher power in their regimes, the arcs are different. Mai is showing that not only does she care about someone - Zuko - that care is more significant than tolerating abuse. This is significant for Mai, who's been highlighted by her lack of care of many things (a coping mechanism for the shit she had to deal her whole life, but even then, Mai is nobility, and her growth differs in that key area from Acxa, the child soldier bred in the fringes of the empire).

I feel like I'm not talking about it to the best of my ability, and ngl I am a bit sick atm, but yeah. While there are some similarities as you pointed out - they do end superficially. Acxa is a poor child soldier whose arc is more Zuko esque in development - and this reflects how she engages with Keith. Keith, who is thoroughly sexualized and turned into a damsel in that iconic episode. He is the macguffin in her and Zethrid's arcs. Zuko retains a level of autonomy and specific personal importance to Mai in the Boiling Rock that makes Mai's arc markedly different from Acxa's - and part of it is due to Acxa being a person with very low cognitive empathy normally and a distant relationship with Keith furthermore, which Mai has no issue with and is in fact, Zuko's current girlfriend. If that makes sense.

Thank you for the ask and sorry that this is messy, again I am not feeling all that well so that's the excuse I can give for it. Feel free to send me another ask if you want more elaboration on that regard.

[inkedmyths]

S2: E4 "Children Shouldn't Play With Dead Things"

Brought to you by I FINISHED THE QUARTER I'M ALIVE THANK GOD

This episode featuring: Don't cry and drive, interrogating the grieving, stupid men making bad decisions, and lessons that I'm SURE will be taken to heart

Ohhh this chick having a breakup or a death or something and this guy gets her alcohol and chocolate and emo rock. Thats so nice

Whshsgsg did she climb out the window

DONT TEXT AND DRIVE

Or call and drive and yeaaaah thats what I thought

[ Kayla inquires about this, and I amend it to being a sobbing mess while at the wheel. Kayla then goes on a continuous tangent about how much she's cried while driving. Friends, if you're reading this, please be aware that Kayla is not a model for any behavior you should be exhibiting. ]

Oh their dad's necklace on their mom's grave. Ah :(

Ohhh its a dead tree so spooky. What are you looking at Dean

Ooookay the dead grass circle is actually spooky. Uh?

Sam neither you or Dean are doing any kind of coping

[ Kayla says that if they were, we wouldn't have a show. ]

NOOOO GOD NOT THE HARASSING PEOPLE WHO JUST HAD SOMEBODY DIE

I get its for the job but :(

GOD THIS POOR DUDE IS LIKE. HES SO SO SAD BC HIS DAUGHTER DIED and then Dean's like "Yeah yeah so do you ever feel like she's still ~present~ orrrr" and Sam's clearly glaring at him to STFU

Traumedy at its finest

[ Theres some discussion now on Dean and how he handles things, due to how he was raised and his position as the Older Brother. Basically, he handles things badly, for a variety of fucked up reasons. This isn't news. ]

Sam is, in this case, right. But Dean is going to continue repressing!

Oh hey is this the best friend guy?

Or the bf?

OH THAT PLANT JUST DIED

Boi you're so dead

Ohhh spooky reflection

Oh he deeaaaad shooocker

Dean. What are you doing.

IDIOT

Dean has now ended up with a sad crying girl and he's sitting there with the clear expression of someone SO not equipped with what's happening

This is why you don't break and enter. You end up being faced with emotions.

Dean being such a brat but when is he not

COLLEGE EMPLOYED GRIEF COUNCILORS

Every new thing they impersonate is funnier than the last

Except maybe the priests. Idk if anything will top that

[ Kayla says it will. I am delighted by this. ]

Ok I was right the guy was her bf and was cheating

Grave digging. Of course. I get it but also Why

[ Kayla says something in spoiler text, and Aspen says to stop posting easy to click spoilers. Kayla says to stop clicking the spoilers. How do you think I feel? You people will have paragraphs of spoiler discussion. Right in front of my salad. ]

EMPTY COFFIN??

Oh shit there she is

Wh

I mean. Ok. Make out with a dead girl. Yeah. I mean I guess I would assume I'm dreaming but also man doesn't that raise any red flags my dude.

Also Sam yelling at Dean so true

Zombie??

Dude? Red flags?

OHHH

OHHHHHH THIS MOTHERFUCKER

I seeeeeeeee I seeeeeeee

He resurrected her bc he wanted her back

[ Kayla and Melon discuss the existence of zombies in SPN. I mostly ignore it. ]

Ohhhh oh the roommate

Uh oh girl!!

UH OH GIIIIRL

Ohhh thats scary as shit but epic

"Damn that dead chick can run"

[ Melon asks if I'm going to watch another episode, even though I'm in the middle of this one. Heathen. ]

[ Mom then interrupts to try and get me to try some foundation. I protest. Kayla says the phrase "dolled up for Dean", and Melon follows it up with "dressed up for daddy", and I immediately begin planning on ways to send them both to an early grave. Why am I friends with these people. ]

WHATS IN THE BAG BITCH

Ooooh bitch you did this you resurrected her

Ohhh you're so dead you're so stupid

OHHH SHE JUST STRAIGHT UP SNAPPED HIS NECK

Luring her in I see

Not a vengeful spirit but something turned angry and dangerous because someone decided to fuck around and find out

WHSHSHS something a little funny about Sam running from some chick in a nightgown

What's dead should stay dead! Correct Dean! Hope you all take that to heart

Don't tell me anything bc I'm already so sure they don't

There's 15 seasons and these guys love to fuck around and find out. What's a little necromancy

Pulling over? Whatcha doing. Getting out to yell at the void

Oh shit is Dean Winchester APOLOGIZING? (gasp)

[ Kayla says he actually does that quite frequently, due to generally being apologetic for committing the crime of existing. This is a fair assessment. ]

Its not your fault buddy... you couldn't have controlled what your dad did. You never could.

Oh my god men crying

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Dean continues to do bad at feelings. Sam is only marginally better because at least he's addressing that there are feeling being had. Anyways, don't resurrect people, they come back Wrong, and I'm suuuure this is so totally a lesson that the Winchesters are taking to heart and therefore will definitely not be attempting any necromancy at all in the future.

[astrangeghost]

ummmmm silly ninja turtle show. for the ask game :)

GHWEFHEFHVGWFJHSDHGRRAAAAAEXPLODEISJH Favorite character: MIKEY :D!!! SOO BLORBO TO ME Least Favorite character: hmmm I guess I'd say the sando brothers! I just don't really like them(they're the crab acrobatic villains and sound much more interesting than that actually are ftghj but theyre fine) 5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): uhmm I don't really ship anything in rottmnt that I can think of..? Like pretty much every relationship in the show is platonic or familial :) i have been entertaining the idea of making an oc to be mikeys bf(cause he strikes me as the type to start dating before any of his siblings even if teh relationship doesnt last ya know) Character I find most attractive: big mama. shes hot Character I would marry: fuck it! Casandra is so fucking cool id love to do crime with her Character I would be best friends with: I would like. to be besties with Leo. I think he needs it DRFTGH a random thought: i wonder where that rat who turned splinter into a mutant went.cause baren draxum didn't MAKE splints turn into a rat that was just something that happened. like if that rat didnt bite him he wouldve still been human. idk! An unpopular opinion: RAPH!! ISN'T!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!! PEOPLE WHP SAY THAT IM. ATTACKING GRA My Canon OTP: mad dogs x trauma My Non-canon OTP: mad dogs x therapy Most Badass Character: there could be a good case made for each of the mad dogs tbh i mean. donnie and the us arsenal mikey and chucking boats at people raph and brute strength leo and his killer shots Most Epic Villain: baren draxum man did you even SEE HIM in that ep after the train like the jailbreak one that was wild Pairing I am not a fan of: leo and that bunny character ive seen everywhere i dont know who they are and its so confusing.. Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): uhmm idk! im not really into any other tmnt thing(weirly looks twords the 2012 show.for now) so i wouldnt be able to compare to other iterations of characters :) plus im really not good at being critical of things i like fghbj Favorite Friendship: COLLAPSES. OHHH THIS ONE WILL HURT. i really like the goyles.... april and the mad dogs obligatory mention<3 Character I most identify with: tbh? havent kinned anyone yet but most of the mad dogs have had their moments of oh shit me.. Character I wish I could be: maybe some yokai in the hidden city : ) seems like a fun place!

[xxxg0ryygurlll13xxx]

something that has been bothering me a hell of a lot more than usual is ppl seem to never have time for me (sorry this is so incredibly long)

when i was a kid ofc ppl didnt either like for basketball games or band concerts my friends never went they said they never have time. but now on tuesday is my NAHS induction, i cant stress enough that this is only 15 mins, from 5-515. and no one can go....everyone ive invited except my parents are too busy, my best friend of 10 years, my bf, my only school friend, everyone. shes always busy tho and refuses to make time for anyone but herself even if she makes everyone else make time for her events, which i do go to. i think swingin 15 mins on a tuesday evening isnt that difficult. i mean my bf lives kinda far and my best friend has some kind of other event, and my school friend just never has time for anyone but herself. youd think id be used to ppl not going to my things (ive had many bday parties as a kid that turned out to just be me and maybe 2 other kids from school...) i wanna know why tho. why ppl never seem to make time for me. am i not important enough to just miss out on some studying? skip a school meeting? catch a ride from someone who lives closer? i mean it stings. it really does. to go to all of their events and important things and then when i have one important thing (most important thing thats happened to me in my 2 years so far of highschool) no one seems to make time for me. im grateful my parents are going ofc but still itd be nice to know other people like me as much. again i thought i was used to sort of being left out or forgotten about i mean it has happened my whole life but this this is so important and these people know that and they still wont go. i mean its 15 mins. FIFTEEN MINUTES OF THEIR TIME AND IVE GIVEN THEM HOURS AND HOURS. ive missed therapy appointment, dr appointments, family dinners, schoolwork for these people and they wont even give me 15 mins of their evening. i feel bad esentially being on my knees begging them to go so ive refused to ask again. i might ask my bf again and see if i can emphasize that its only 15 minutes. he doesnt have to stay for the whole art show which is till 7. he only has to sit in the auditorium for 15 mins and maybe hang out a bit in the lobby afterwards. thats all any of them have to do...maybe im the problem w this i mean the only common thread is me so maybe im just a shit person and unaware of it and thats why ppl never seem to want to hang out w me. i mean they know its so important to me but here they are not planning on going. it really burns to be the friend thats always forgotten about.

[wonyrs]

like the movies

enha hyungs x fmr gnr fluff, established relationship warnings cursing wc 935 + library #

‘ type of duos with the enha hyungs! headcanon style

lee heeseung | embarrassing and embarrassed

will definitely yell out "I LOVE YOU" in the loudest voice he can muster up before dropping u off to class and won't leave until u yell it back. he does this with the most shit eating grin ever

he's so dreamy when ure together but sometimes he just gets that burst of energy where he absolutely NEEDS to do something that makes u question why u even liked him

"um she asked for no pickles 🤓☝️"

he buys u guys those ugly "if lost return to her" "hi im her" shirts and forces u to wear them everytime u go on a date

unironically likes it and is a proud matching shirt buyer

everytime u post he'll spam ur comments with all the compliments in the entire world, tags all his friends and old people he doesn't even know saying shit like "hey this is my gf you know my gf go follow my gf"

"hey babe does my hair look good?" and its a picture of him smoldering, showing off his godly jawline. probably thinks hes the sexiest guy alive (he is)

park jongseong | chivalrous and princess

u guys saw that one vlog w his mom? jay literally gave her the more appetizing plate while he just dumped everything on his

opens the car door, cooks ur meals, helps u w hw, and even buys ur parents flowers everytime he visits

"open the door for a big surprise (not clickbait)!" and he doordashed u ur fav foods after his spidey sense told him u felt down

ok i imagine him buying a 100-recipe cook book and making every dish whenever u stay over

"but babe i'm ful-" "please just one more, i promise this will be the last"

spoiler alert- it's not! dw tho, extra servings get sent to ur friends/family. ur mom teaches him some of her special recipes while ur dad is his assistant chef (taste tester)

he's a gentleman, yes thats true. but once u too get real comfortable w/ each other is when the side of chivalry u never knew existed revealed itself

he pampers u when ure tired but still likes to tease u if he sees the oppurtunity to. ex: massaging ur legs after an intense cardio workout, "ur feet are smelling kinda stinky. no need to worry, i'll lick the dirt away for u babe 😉 " NASTY.

he pays for all ur cafeteria meals and always says something along the lines of "let's go out on saturday, except ure paying for everything"

do u ever end up paying? no.

he'll distract u the moment ure at the counter and pays w his card before u can even look back. "i guess they gave us a free discount for being their best customers 🤷" u know what he did even if he won't admit

it's okay, u buy him a cheeseburger using ur free mcdonalds app awards

sim jaeyun | rizzler and rizzed

no lies here: sim jaeyun is the dreamiest man ever

casually explaining to him what happened in ur day blah blah, u look to ur right and the softest eyes are staring at u with so much love u almost combust

but not only was he staring at u, bro was unconsciously licking his lips, tilting his head and holding ur fingers so delicately like it might break any second (cute and sexy?) u had to stop talking for a sec and scream into ur hand

ESP AT SCHOOL DUDE he'll run to u after a soccer match and hug u so tight ur friends start puking

like ewww sweat but at the same time omggg ur bf's sweat 😝 u still have to push him off before u starting stinking too tho

he's defo the type to lift his shirt up to wipe the sweat off his face and it kills u everytime... u look to see if anyone's looking before snapping a quick pic (who wouldn't)

when u guys r studying together, he'll either pull u by the waist or by ur chair so u can get closer to him without having to stand up

struggling to see the paper? no need to fear, dikeu is here :3

he'll slide his hand (purposely) under ur shirt and scooch u over to his side of the table, never even stopping the conversation

mind u, his hand is still on ur waist

park sunghoon | socially awkward and socially awkward

ur relationship makes ur friends giggle at how silly u guys r

imagine: blah blah blah ure in a really interesting conversation with ur boyfriend and someone interrupts, asking if u guys did the hw last week

"oh uh" "uhm" "idk" "sorry" UR REPLIES. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

cue the intense eye contact until that person leaves the room. then u go back to whatever u were talking about. "so yeah lebron should honestly retire this season"

since u have all classes together, ur teachers always make sure to pair u up as partners since no WAY in hell will either of u be able to talk to someone else willingly

if ur friend group isn't at the cafeteria, the top 3 lunch spots would be @ the field, rooftop, or back of the classroom

when u accompany him to skating/dance practice, all u do is record him reviewing a program or choreo and silently cheer him on

both ur parents share concerns about u two not having any friends at/outside of school 😢

no one really knows that yall r talking about the weirdest shit during class... they just think ure being little nerds and working on math answers

"messi is literally better than ronaldo what are u on about boy" "ok buddy but who has more insta followers" "HOW IS THAT RELEVANT TO THE WORLD CUP"

@ wonyrs 2023

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[naughtyintrusivethoughties]

lifes honestly been so much better recently. like aside from processing a retarded amount of trauma ive dealt with since i was a kid and even recently (circa 2016-2021), i think ive gotten past a good chunk of it

my dad sucks is really the take away. my mum does too at points but less so than my dad. shes just kinda fucked up from her own bs and thats okay. she tried processing it and going to therapy, and my dad did the opposite

ive kinda just accepted ill never have any kind of relationship wt my sperm donor again, and it feels really good. he put me through so much shit. been telling my mum whats been happening over the years and shes fucking HORRIFIED. she broke down after i told her some of the shit hes done over the years. like a part of me knew it was bad but it was so normalized that i never thought about how fucked up it all was until actually verbalizing it

the bastards been stealing shit from the house too to sell of for drug money. he hasnt lived here for a year but hell still show up when no ones around and take shit. hes stolen shit from me too, thankfully we have cameras everywhere so my mum was able to tell him to give me back my shit and he actually did. but then he stole other shit from the house to sell so it kinda cancelled out lol

he SUUUUUCKS

other than that shit, life been okay. positives being ive been dating my bf for a year now and were pretty happy with eachother. hes talked about marriage and stuff and thats pretty cool. id marry the shit out of him

works been great too. i transferred to another building and its been goin super good. i got promo offers my first week, and months later (ie now) im being told that they wanna promo me to a management position which is fucking fantastic. i like MONEY, and i like that this building actually appreciates the effort im putting in. i had people rooting for me at my last building, but ive been fucked over way too many times at that building to stick around, so its nice to be given some actual direction now

my ex best friend is apparently getting fat and that made me laugh pretty hard. for all the shit she put me through and how insecure she is, enjoy the extra weight queen xoxoxo

ive been really enjoying paddle boarding recently. my bf and i go out on the water and just kinda chill and listen to music and eat n have beer and its really relaxing. im also actually tanning and not staying super pasty white LOL

im a LITTLE tequila fancy rn so im probably gunna log off now, but im gunna try to journal again, and this is the easiest way to do it. gunna try to stick to it

[takizuzufu]

Holidays with my family stress me out

TL;DR: I feel the need to complain about family. Holidays stress me out partially due to a sibling who is bipolar. On my phone and not a usual reddit poster so formatting is probably terrible. If anybody manages to read the whole thing, thank you

I just want to start out this complaint by saying that it's has officially been a year since my first everything bf of 10 years broke up with me. I am doing much better and actually for the most part I don't miss him anymore, except for moments like now. I would complain to him about my family. I am super introverted and shy and he was also my best friend so its hard to replace him when it comes to someone I trust enough to complain to but I just really feel the need to complain to somebody.

Anyways, I will stick to complaining about one subject even though i have so much I want to say. My immediate family is a huge source of stress for me. I love them, I really do but I also can't stand being around them. My older sister is bipolar, my fraternal twin and I both are anxious and depressed and on meds for them. I think my dad is on depression meds too. My family is not the worst around but that doesn't change that fact that my childhood was pretty crappy. Like my dad was apparently abusive (not like super abusive. I really can't say much since he wasn't as bad to my twin and I) to my older sister who then turned around and was abusive to me. Once we all got older (whatever 3rd grade age, my older sister is 2 years older ), depression and anxiety def became issues) and since then every holiday someone ends up having an emotional breakdown (usually my older sister or me) Finally got diagnosed and put on meds for depression and anxiety the summer before college and things got better for me. My older sister and I still clash but most of the time I feel pretty ok. I went to college in a different state. Made a friend, got a bf. Had some ups and downs emotional but the first 3 and 1/2 years were ok. I ended up taking 9 years before getting a degree and had one serious suicide attempt (as in I was in a mental health ward for a week). About year 4 I started taking summer classes so I was only home for winter break and spring break. My friend left the college after 3 years so I leaned heavily on my bf emotionally, my grades tanked, my mood tanked, etc. Being home even for like a week would be super stressful.

Sorry, more background than I planned so this post is getting long. I will move on to what my original complaint was going to be. So back to my older sister being bipolar. She gets upset so easily. Every holiday celebration is awkward because she usually ends up threatening to kill herself over something pretty insignificant. After years of this, I am seriously over her behavior. I have talked to my parents about how they need to start doing more to show her that her terrible behaviors is not ok and I'm just told that I'm not the parent so it's not my problem. What spurned this complaining session is tonight my family is doing a winter solstice celebration (no specific reason) at my older sisters apartment (my twin and I still live at home). I woke up from a nap to a message that the celebration was cancelled. I was a bit happy. Then I am told we are going. It's a short drive but it's snowy and icy. Then we get there and my older sister is all angry and tells us to leave but then not because she wasn't sure what she wanted, so we stayed awkwardly and I started this thread. She is doing better and things are less tense for the rest of the family but not me. I am still on edge because I am just waiting for something to upset my older sister and things go to shit again. And that's my state around my family. I am just waiting for things to go wrong and 95% of the time things do go wrong and 80% she ends up saying she hates and she has gotten better but still sometimes threatens to kill herself. I mentioned it has been a year since my bf broke up with me and it was really hard. I am doing much better, but still hurting.I feel lonely and my family stresses me out but I can't get a job (that's a whole other complaint you don't want me to get started on) and live on my own or run away when my family upsets me and I have no friends to turn to or anything. I do go to therapy but you know thats not always helpful because I can't really turn to my therapist to complain every time I get upset or stressed, hence me posting this.

I think I will end things here. I know my thoughts are probably a mess and thoughts may be unfinished but I think I have already gone on longer than I should. If anybody does take time to read this, I thank you. I just needed to complain to somebody since I no longer have my bf to complain to when I get stressed. And I am not worried about my family finding this post because no one else uses reddit.

[limpnoodles]

Okay, first off hell yeah. Like just yes. You're a frickin genius.

I honestly love this modern Au idea, and I think you should definitely have Hunter as a tattoo artist!! (It also would be so cute if Hunter was just the one that did everyone's tattoos)

Now I like the idea that Tech AND Wrecker are in College. And how much Wrecker struggles with his studies and tech is way too busy to always help him. So I just love the thought of Wrecker shyly asking one of his 'associates' from his class to help him out!

I'd like to think that Wreakers part time job is helping people at the warehouse/farm, caring for the farm animals and easily lifting the bails. (if they live more farther in the Urban) or a Gym instructor helping a lot of people on new routines and such! (Probably more towards the local city's)

Lula as a real tooka has got me screaming into my pillow! It would be so cute and so nice for the batch to have a pet!! (Also I'm not entirely sure if the species and animals from star wars will still be the same as in the Au, but if not then Lula is definitely a cat.)

Also I'm very curious of what and who your oc is and how they contribute to the Au! Please vent..

I think it would be a great idea for readers boyfriend to be kinda an ass whole. Maybe cheating on the reader or lowkey was very manipulative to be around. Meaning that reader was COMPLETELY reliant on her bf. ( Which is kinda stupid but let's give the girl some slack she's been though shit. )So overall the reader is so broken. Reader has a part-time job, but that's barely holding her together when shes sleeping in her car. So when she finally remembered that she had to help one of her best friends out with tutoring for his project, she panics.

(I definitely think reader and Wreaker will be the closest out of all the batch as they have interacted more, with the reader having some conversations with Tech. Probably has heard a lot from Wreaker about his brothers and his niece/lil sister cause I mean-come on, the boy who loves his family. And maybe JUST maybe having met Hunter from the local tattoo shop to get a tattoo. Reader must have some flowers on her body)

And so when she finally goes to the college library to meet with Wreaker, he immediately notices something is wrong. Now Wreaker isn't as smart as tech in the brain, but he sure as hell is smart in the heart. And when he saw readers disheveled hair, red eyes, and frown, he knew something was wrong. He doesn't dare bring it up right away, afraid that reader will just give him another soft glare. But eventually when he points out that he can't find her cute little lucky charm that was always on her backpack..she just...breaks. (it was from her bf.)

She tells him what had happened though stuttering sobs and when pulling reader close, he only thought of the best thing for his friend.

Wreaker contacts Tech first, needing all the support from how Hunter and Crosshair were immediately skeptical at the idea. Echo is weary of the situation but with their extra rooms and how even 5 grown men couldn't care for a growing girl. ( Hunter almost had a heart attack when he realized that Omega was now at dating age after she started crushing on a famous popstar.)

So after much consideration, and a set of puppy dog eyes from Omega, Hunter agreed.

My idea is that Crosshair isn't all for a stranger let alone a woman, staying at their house. I headcanon that Crosshair has a real connection to his house and room, it's his sanctuary. So it makes sense why he would be inferior to reader and closed off. (He has to admit they are pretty cute tho)

For Hunter he's formal. I mean don't get me wrong he's very nervous at the idea of a woman living with the batch, but he helps tour around the house and etc. When he first saw you and you him it was lowkey, "WAIT ITS YOU?!" moment as reader has been a frequent customer.

Wreaker is eager to show you around the house and your room, even showing you the point to the attic to prolong the tour. ( He just loves to see your amazement at the sight of how unique the house is.) And showed you Lula as fast as he could. I honestly couldn't decide if Lula would be completely aloof to read her or that Lula would be very comforting and eager to cuddle with her.

Tech is right alongside Wrecker for the tour pointing out and specifying how certain things within the house compute. He will go into unnecessary detail about the microwave or the fridge door and how you need to close it a certain way so that it clicks just right.

Echo is the cook in the family. Don't you dare try to deny it. We all know he's a great cook. Come on, we've seen so many photos of him in an apron, It's cannon by now. After you are situated most likely, I'd like to think reader is eager to help out with dinner everything the batch has done for them and Echo is very pleased for the help. He only gets a few helping hands with the batch, Tech far too busy with his studies and Wreckers hands too big for the kitchen instruments. Hunter and Crosshair though are good companions in the kitchen, with Hunter's knife skills and Crosshair not afraid to get his hands dirty once in a while. Anyways- he goes around showing wear the spices and dish are etc. So the reader is more accustomed to the kitchen. I'd also like to think the boys would be shocked with how fast the reader could cut vegetables.

Anyways- *ahem* let's get down to our fav girl.

Omega. God the first time you walked though that door, she was immediately at your side, grabbing your hand and dragging you throughout the house. She was ecstatic, rightfully so. Having been the only female in the house, Omega was thrilled to have another figure to look up to. (Preferably not another male) She made sure that her room was the first reader visited, introducing all of her stuffed animals and her drawings with so much enthusiasm, the boys were scared you would have ran away. But you didn't, you only responded kindly with a smile and they took could only smile at seeing the newfound sparkle in Omegas eyes.

Now I know you may question my previous statement on "your amazement at the sight of how unique the house is" readers reaction to the house. And here me out. Bear with me. But the house they in the Au is the Havoc Marauder (had to search up oh to spell it 😭) technically speaking. The Marauder has and always is their home, so I think it would be cool to have the house as the ship! I'd like to think that the house has special modifications just as the ship. It was most likely an old cabin, and with how many people were going to live there..they got to work. originally Omega's room was in the attic, but once they Wreaker and Hunter had ' renovated' it, it turned into an open loft with little fairy lights. It's still a smaller room, but the girl now has a bunk bed with a desk underneath to save space! I'd also like to think that the batch added more extensions and porches for the cabin, maybe a little e balcony here and there.

Now for readers room, they move into the guest bedroom. I mean come on. With Rex and most of the batches bros visiting them they are bound to have to have a guest bedroom.

I have no idea how or what Gonky will be I just hope he has some sort of sense.

Anyways these were just some ideas for the Au, and so sorry if I wrote too much! I hope you have a good day and stay healthy!

I have something that I want to write.

AU Bad Batch to be specific.

Like a modern AU.

I want Wrecker and Tech to be college students (Tech will also have a full time job debating on what though).

I don’t know what kind of careers Hunter, Echo, and Crosshair will have.

Even though I think it would be pretty cool if Hunter was a tattoo artist with that head canons that he’s the artsy one and the half full body skeleton tattoo.

Wrecker will have a part time job because college but what his job job and major will eventually be I’m not sure either.

I’m going to make this an x reader since I already have an x oc on here.

I just wanted another consistent story on my page that wasn’t an x oc.

The basic run down of reader is she’s a college student who balances work and school. She begins the story in a serious relationship with someone and meets Wrecker because they shared a class together and he needed help in it or even a group project. She meets the rest of the batch when she visits their house to help out Wrecker, and then one day the worst happens.

Boyfriend kicks her out, loses her job, and what money she has leftover isn’t enough to keep her head above water. She meets Wrecker for their project, assignment, tutoring, whatever, and just ends up breaking down on him.

Wrecker then offers their home and she first refuses cause of all the others and then Wrecker’s like “let me talk to them” and they all mostly agree.

I have a lot of fun ideas for this scenario, I’m just missing the details especially with Omega, plus I want to make Lula a real Tooka.

Obviously this isn’t a project that would be out asap, but I at least wanted to open a window per se.

If you have any ideas please feel free to share!

I plan to write this in 2nd person even though it’ll be fem reader (sorry).

I’ll be keeping things as gender neutral as possible in my requests unless stated otherwise.

Anyway! Thanks for stopping by! Let me know what you think! :)

[littlebunnygold]

Hell N Back (JJ Maybank x reader)

Scene I

I went out last night with my friends and I got into fight with my bf and I'm still mad at him so I’m writing about it so yeah. enjoy my anger. I’m gonna finish writing when I’m not pissed off so I can actually make it fluffy and shit. 

Summary: While at a party, your ex shows up and causes a scene, which of course makes your boyfriend JJ angry.

Warnings: swearing, yelling, cheating accusations, talks of abuse, alcohol, JJ being a fucking asshole 

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“Shut up!” you say loudly and laugh to Kie who is sitting directly beside you. You can hear how drunk you are, but who cares it’s the last party of the summer. “Dude, I swear to god they were the biggest waves I've ever surfed, I wish you could have been there” Kie laughed, taking a gulp of her drink. She’s been your best friend since before you can remember, she’s the one who introduced you to her friends, who you have come to love. They were like your family, considering you had a deadbeat mom and your dad was too busy either working or getting too high to give a shit about you. You took a look around you and were surrounded by Pogues, Kooks and Tourons, but you were just trying to find your boyfriend. After a couple glances around, Kie spots him and points him out to you. He was standing across the bonfire talking to Sarah, John B and Pope, so you and Kie decide to go over and talk to them. “Well hello gorgeous” JJ said to you as he slung his arm over your shoulder and kissed your cheek, “Hey” you said back and smiled while taking a swig of your drink, “There are so many people here” Pope said looking around. He wasn’t wrong, it looked like everyone who lived on this island was here, the beach almost felt small. It was a pretty warm night, the light breeze feeling refreshing over your body. You found yourself leaning more and more into JJ’s arms, looking up at him as you listened to the others bicker over what we should do tomorrow, feeling safe knowing he's here with you, “You know, some people think its rude to stare” JJ said, clearly noticing that you were looking up at him. But you couldn’t help it, he was eye-candy, “I’m not staring.. I’m... admiring” you said back to him grinning, and giggling when you saw him blush. He leaned in and gave you a soft peck on the lips, “Oh how did I get so lucky? A lady who surfs, cooks, smokes and makes me blush? Who would have thought” JJ almost whispered to you as he pulled you in front of him and hugged you from behind, resting his head on top of yours. You couldn’t stop yourself from smiling, “I know, I spoil you rotten” you laughed back to him. 

After a couple of more laughs with everybody, you found your drink empty, “I’m gonna go refill” you said to JJ, who was talking to John B about fishing, “Okay baby” he said quickly before going back to chatting with his friend. You started to make your way to the keg when you realized someone all too familiar was guarding it. Your ex-boyfriend to be exact. You froze, standing only a few feet away from the man who absolutely broke you only a short four months ago. It felt like the oxygen was running out from around you, you could feel your heart beat speed up and you almost felt faint. The extreme amount of alcohol in your system was definitely not helping. Before you could turn around to walk away, he met your gaze and grinned, “Y/n!” he yelled and waved for you to come over. Without even thinking you walked over to him, “Hey Ashton” you said quietly, “Can I get a refill please?” you asked as he took your cup, “Haven’t seen you in a while how ya been?” he asked. He was acting so normal, as if he didn’t ruin your life. “I’ve been good, you?” you asked back, trying to keep conversation light and quick. Your cup was full. “Honestly Y/n, I’ve been lonely” he said, looking into your eyes and half smiling. You didn't say anything, hoping he would just give you your cup so you could go back to your friends. You gave a fake laugh and reached your hand out to grab your cup but he pulled it back so you couldn't reach, “What, you don't wanna talk to me?” he asked still grinning. You turn your head around to look back at your friends, looking at them laughing and hoping they don’t notice what's happening. When you first started hanging around the Pogues you were still with Ashton and as far as everybody was concerned, he was just a shitty boyfriend. Until he beat you so bad, when you ran to Kie’s for help you couldn’t hide the blood and bruises scattered over your entire body. Her and Sarah are the only ones who know what he truly put you through. After you broke up with him, JJ told you how long he'd been in love with you to which you confessed your feelings for him. JJ’s only asked about your ex a couple times, each time you shut him down and changed the subject, but you could only imagine how pissed and confused he would be if he saw you standing and talking to him right now. Turning back to look at Ashton you felt a bolt of anger shoot through your body and into your words, “Not particularly no, can I just have my cup?” you asked sternly. You reached out for your cup again but he grabbed your wrist, “Ashton come on, it’s not funny give me my drink” you said as you tried to pull your wrist out of his hand but his grip tightened, making you wince, “So what Y/n, you’re just gonna break up with me out of no where and than go and fuck some pogue?” he asked in a low voice, “You don’t get to tell me what to do anymore Ashton and you definitely don't get to talk about JJ like that. Just give me my fucking drink!” you said raising your voice loud enough to get your friends attention. “Was that Y/n?” Sarah asked to the group, all of their heads whipping around to look at the keg where they could see you standing with your ex-boyfriend. JJ closed his fists so hard his knuckles were white, and his jaw clenched so tight he though he was gonna crack his teeth. But he didn't care, all he could focus on was you talking to Ashton, and him grabbing your hand. Sarah and Kie both looked at each other, panicking on what to do and more importantly, what to do with JJ. They knew if he went over he would end up fighting Ashton which would only cause more drama and upset you. “We’ll be right back” Kie said, pushing past Pope with Sarah right behind her. JJ just stood there, not knowing what to say or think, “What the fuck is she doing over there talking to him? They broke up” he said to John B and Pope, “Man I’m just as confused as you. But you know Y/n, she wouldn’t just go and talk to him. She loves you dude” Pope said, reaching out to spin JJ around so he would stop staring at you, “Yeah J, it’s just bad luck he was up at the keg when she went to get a drink. No big deal, Sarah and Kie are bringing her back right now” John B. stated trying to make his friend feel better, but the blonde boy couldn’t help but assume the worst. “Look at him touching her, what are they doing?” JJ asked his friends. They stayed silent, neither of them knowing the answer. JJ huffed and finished the rest of his beer, trying to imagine what you possibly see in Ashton... or if you’re regretting your decision of breaking up with him.

 “Don’t speak to me like that” Ashton said, pulling you closer to him by your wrist which he was now twisting so hard you knew there were going to be marks when he let go. “We’re not together anymore. You don’t get to treat me like this. I’m not afraid of you anymore” you said shakily, trying to keep your composure together but being this close to him was difficult for you. All the bad memories of him come flooding back when you look up and into his eyes, you can see the anger and emptiness in them, “Hey, there you are Y/n! We’ve been looking for you” Sarah said while walking closer to you, Kie right beside her. Ashton’s grip loosened and he let go of your wrist as he stared at your friends. He shoved you back hard enough to make you stumble, but you stand back up quickly and make your way towards Kie and Sarah, walking between them and linking your arms with theirs, “See you around, baby” Ashton shouted from the distance. You felt a shiver go down your spine. You haven’t seen him in 4 months and now all of the sudden he's at a party? Your mind can’t help but race over the events that just took place in front of you, until the silence breaks, “What was that about?” Sarah questioned, before the three of you made it back to the boys, “I don't even know” you replied to her and shrugged. You grabbed Sarah’s drink and downed it, needing to focus on something other than your aching wrist, “Seriously Y/n, are you okay?” Kie asked again, a worried expression across her face. She’s seen the damage Ashton can do to you, and the dark places he can put you in and the last thing she wants is for you to fall back into them. You looked at her and took a deep breath, “Yeah, I’m okay. I just wasn’t expecting to see him here, he caught me off guard” you replied, “I think I’m just gonna go home, where’s JJ?” you asked as you got back to the group, not seeing him standing with John B and Pope anymore, “Pretty sure he went back to the Chateau” Pope answered. You gave him a confused look, “Why did he leave?” you questioned, looking between the two boys. They both looked like they were hiding something, “Guys, come on. What happened?” you asked again. They looked at each other and John B sighed, “He saw you talking to Ashton and got super pissed and left” he said. 

A million emotions ran through your body, but considering you were drunk and already annoyed with seeing your ex, the most prominent feeling you had was anger. As if JJ left you here without even saying goodbye because you were talking to your ex. You rolled your eyes and began to storm off, grabbing Pope’s drink before you got too far, “Wait, Y/n maybe you should just leave him alone for now, you’re both drunk” Sarah called out, hoping you would turn around and try to have a good time with your friends. But, of course, you didn’t listen. Any sane thought you had left your mind as you quickly drank Popes drink and threw the cup on the sand. “Should we go after her?” Kie asked everybody, but John B shook his head, “We should probably let them talk” he replied. “Yeah, JJ was pissed. He just marched off like he was on a mission or something, I’ve never seen his face so red” Pope answered. Sarah and Kie looked at each other exchanging nervous looks, “ Do you guys know something?” John B asked the girls who both remained silent, “Yeah, come on. Share with the class” Pope added on. Sarah let out a shaky breath as she began to explain how shitty your relationship with Ashton really was to the clueless boys in front of her.

Meanwhile, you were stumbling your way into the Chateau on the lookout for your boyfriend. You looked around in the living room and saw nothing, so you headed to the guest room where JJ spent most nights. You opened the door to see him sitting on the edge of the bed staring at the floor with his hands interlocked, “Hey, why did you leave me at the party like that? So not cool” you said leaning against the door frame and looking down at him. He didn’t respond. You pushed off the door frame and took a step closer to him, “Listen, if this about me talking to Ashton I can assure you I didn’t even want-” you began but he loudly interrupted you, “I saw him touching you Y/n! How the fuck am I supposed to feel when my girl goes to get a drink and is held up talking to her ex who she was in love with like 6 months ago!?” he yelled at you standing up from the bed, “I didn’t want to talk to him, he was just up there! I can’t believe you’re acting like this right now, you didn’t even talk to me, you just left, like what the fuck” you yelled back, getting in his face. He rolled his eyes, “Listen, if you wanna go and talk to your ex, be my guest alright? I don’t need this type of drama in my life! I already have enough shit to deal with, I’m not adding cheating girlfriend to the list!” he raised his voice at you. You rolled your eyes and began walking into the kitchen to grab a beer, “You see me talking to my ex one fucking time and all the sudden I’m cheating? Really?!” you yelled while opening the fridge. You grabbed a beer and immediately began drinking it. You turned around to find JJ right behind you, “What am I supposed to think Y/n?! He grabbed your hand and was smiling and laughing!” JJ was screaming at this point, throwing his arms up in the air and clearly getting more frustrated. 

In the back of your head, you didn’t want to be arguing with him right now. You love JJ more than you’ve ever loved anybody, you knew he was the one for you. But after seeing your ex tonight, combined with all of the alcohol in your system, you couldn’t help but be angry. You’ve always had kind of an anger issue, which is why arguments between you and Ashton always led to him becoming violent. When you get angry you just don’t know how to shut up. 

You just stared back at him, he was so close you could feel his warm breath against your face. You took another swig of beer, “I don’t wanna talk about this anymore, if you’re just gonna be a jerk and yell at me I’m going home” you said walking away from him, “Yeah, I’ve heard that before” JJ mumbled. You turned back around and looked at him, “What?” you asked, crossing your arms. He looked down at you, “Just admit you still have feelings for him! That’s why every time we bring him up you get all flustered and quiet!” JJ raised his voice at you again, “Or maybe you just like the attention everybody gives you because he treats you like shit, but whatever it is, I’m done with it” he said moving closer to you, getting right in your face. You tried your best not to let your jaw drop but you knew the look on your face gave away how hurt you were by his words. More than anybody, JJ helped you through your breakup with Ashton. He was there for you when you cried over him, and he knew how difficult it was to get away from him. So for him to be using it against you right now took you by complete surprise. You took in a shaky breath and looked him right in the eyes, “Fuck you, JJ” you said almost in a whisper and turned around to walk out of the Chateau, but before you could get too far he grabbed your wrist to stop you, the same wrist Ashton had left bruises on not 30 minutes ago. You winced in pain and quickly pulled out of his grasp. The look of anger on your boyfriends face immediately dropped when he saw you wince, replaced by a look of concern, “Wha- what happened to your arm?” he asked, but you didn't answer. You just held on to your wrist quietly. You could feel the tears welling up in your eyes and you knew you had to go home before you began sobbing, “I talked with Ashton, that’s what happened” was the last thing you said before you walked out of the Chateau, ignoring JJ calling for you to come back. You started running, just needing to clear your head. When you finally found your way home, your legs felt like they were on fire and you were exhausted. You laid down in your bed, your body tired and in need of sleep but your mind wouldn’t let you. You replayed the night in your head on a loop trying to figure out how you let your argument with JJ get so intense, and if there was going to be a way to fix it...