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ok i finished malevolent season 1 and i have a LOT of thoughts that im gonna write down becausr im bored. spoilers for season 1 and warning for me being a picky listener !
first off. HARLAN GUTHRIE THE MAN THAT YOU ARE. insane that this guy is doing ALL the voices?? AND all the writing??? AND all the editing and sound design????? WHAT the fuck. honestly the fact that hes (almost) the only guy working on this podcast kind of negates all my gripes n nitpicks
i LOVE the arthur/john dynamic. it reminds me a lot of venom and eddie brock but its def distinct. and its great
i rlly appreciate the amount of guidance john gives arthur, i think more would be realistic but tedious so this is a good compromise
now. speaking of realism. my main gripe
(i feel like this is gonna be a very subjective take so yknow dont take it too seriously)
two main things kind of bother me: arthur recovers from major injuries SUPER QUICKLY, and in 12 episodes he has only eaten once. yknow that post where someone's talking about their immersion in period pieces being broken by the chicken breeds bein wrong? this is very much how i feel LMAO like ok theres a supernatural healing element (this too shall pass) fine yep good. but arthur should NOT have been up and walking and ROWING so soon after a month of coma. he loses a shitload of blood from his abdomen TWICE and sure he has major reactions but after that he just sort of. keeps going. and not to mention THIS GUY DOESNT EAT HOW IS HE HEALING!!!!! SIR!!! YOUR MACROMOLECULES SIR!!!!!
obviously if we were with him every single time he eats and for every second of his recovery it would absolutely drag so im not expecting him to be seeking out food every episode but this is another compromise issue that i feel like isnt as well balanced as john being arthur's seeing eye eldritch god
but again this is probably just a case of me being sensitive to certain parts of realism that other people arent so this is very much a nick picking complaint
as for the writing, i rly like the diegetic framing of the narration as john describing any given situation to arthur
however i think an unfortunate symptom of this is that sometimes the narration feels overly descriptive and eloquent in situations where it shouldnt be. like when theyre being attacked by the amphibious river creature, john says something like "stomach and ventral area", which was honestly. So unexpected it took me out of the scene entirely i was just like he would not fucking say that lol
another thing is sometimes the tension building does not work at all. the rising strings feel too cliché to have any real effect, and the way john speaks about horrors can get repetitive to the point where it just doesnt bother me. "fuck. arthur.... there's *something* in the water/in the room/hunting us". that kind of vagueness doesnt work well for me a least anyway, but when its happening every episode or more it really gets old
anyway that being said i think those are my only real complaints and i think theyre so subjective anyways so like do they even count
also im heartbroken im unable to stop myself looking up spoilers bc the john is the king on yellow reveal would have been so cool if i didnt know it was coming
and the fanart. is so fucking good
#this is such a good podcast im having a good time thumbs up#malevolent#malevolent.txt#harlan guthrie#catwyk.txt
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Part 2 of Neighbor!Johnny!
(Feeling a bit ✨naughty✨ this Christmas Eve so… here.)
After the fight with Ryan, you try to keep your distance from Johnny — keep the peace and all that. The more you think about the accusations your husband made… the more that guilty pit in your stomach grows.
It’s all been platonic, at least on your end. Sure, you let Johnny get away with a bit more than the average stranger, but he’s a good friend! Nothing you wouldn’t let one of your other friends do. (Even if you would find the lingering touches and general disregard for personal space a little strange from someone else.)
Sure, you have a suspicion every now and then that Johnny has more than platonic feelings for you… but they’re fleeting. Every time you worry that he’s about to cross a line, he always draws away from it. Evens out his smile, break his gaze, drops his hand. You’re close, that’s all.
But… if it’s bothering your husband. Well, you’re obligated to take that into account, aren’t you?
Even if you ache, missing your friend. Missing his silly little jokes, his cheeky grin. Miss his company while you do laundry, a helping hand in the yard, even just someone to chat with over podcasts and tv shows.
Hell, you miss hugs. Ryan’s never been big on… affection. Especially not in public.
(Barely in the house, either, really. You’ve tried talking to him about it. He swears he loves you, he just doesn’t show affection that way. You struggle to figure out why that’s so with you when he has no problem hugging his mother, sister, hell, even his secretary.
Actually… you struggle to figure out how he shows you affection. So you’ve stopped trying to figure it out at.)
But Johnny. Oh, Johnny is just so sweet to you. A hug when he greets you, a hug before he leaves. A kiss to your cheek when you hand him a drink or a snack. A hand on your hip when he leans past you to get things from high shelves. Nudges to your thighs during good parts of shows.
You miss it. Him. The friendship you’ve built in your too-quiet home, where the other neighbors seem to like your husband so much more than you.
“What’s goin’ on, hen?” Johnny asks one morning. You’ve been keeping coffee dates meetups on the porch. Which is almost worse, because it’s cold and you find yourself cuddling up to the heat he exudes like a furnace. “Hardly seen you in a month; miss my best girl.”
“Sorry, Johnny,” you sigh, rubbing at your face. Ryan’s been working late most days this week, comes in so late and wakes you up. “Just… Ryan, ya know.”
His jaw tightens, eyes flashing dangerously. You’re reminded suddenly, inexplicably, of just what Johnny does for a living. How often you’ve seen him just back home with blood still buried in his nail beds.
“Dinnae, hen,” he replies. “What about ‘im?”
You fidget, eyes on your half-empty mug. It feels wrong, admitting relationship quibbles to someone outside of family. You used to have a policy that marriage matters should stay within the marriage. But… it’s hard when it feels like you’re the only one working on the marriage. It’s a lot of work to do alone.
“He just… he doesn’t think it’s proper,” you admit, “how… how often you’re over. How close we are.”
“That so?”
You hunch your shoulders, feeling wrong. Feeling guilty for a whole new reason; for disappointing Johnny.
“Look at me, bonnie?”
He has to tip your chin up with his hand to get you to meet his eyes. His expression is softer than you expect.
“What about you, eh?”
“Me…?” You blink, peering up at him through your lashes.
“Yer feelings are all I care about, hen.”
“Johnny,” you sigh, trying to reprimand, but sound more pleading instead. He shakes your head a bit, gently; his own reprimand.
“Answer me, bonnie.”
“I like spending time with you,” you whisper.
The corners of his mouth twitch up as he hums.
“‘Course ye do,” he hums, “‘n I like spendin’ time with you. It’s not fair of ‘im, is it?”
You blink, brows pulling together in confusion. Johnny continues, the thumb on your chin gently stroking.
“Not fair of ‘im to keep you all cooped up here, come home so late, neglect ye when he is around,” he coos. “And now he’s tellin’ you to keep away from your best friend.”
He tsks, that dangerous glint in his eyes again.
“Wastin’ his tongue for bullshite when he should be usin’ it to lick your pretty pussy.”
Your mouth drops open, shock and heat flooding you hotly. “Johnny!” You gasp, scandalized.
He finally cracks a grin again. “Tell me I’m wrong, bonnie, ‘m not! When’s the last time he worked you over the way you deserve, huh? When’s the last time he made you squirt all over your sheets?”
You shove at him and then cover your burning face, trying not to squirm. Can’t answer because it would be proving him right and you don’t want to encourage his scandalous teasing.
“Bet he’d try to make you change ‘em even if he did,” Johnny grumbles, shaking his head. “Disgraceful. You ought to be put to sleep on a nice, thick cock.”
Whack!
“Oi! What was that fer?!”
“You’re being a creep, Johnny!” Your stern tone in undercut by your embarrassed laughter. “Quit talking about my shitty sex life.”
“So it is shitty!”
“Shut up!”
When a discreet box shows up at your door two days later, you know exactly who it’s from.
…that doesn’t stop you from using the (shockingly detailed and realistic) dildo inside the packaging.
#cod#my writing#fanfiction#reader fic#dark fic#neighbor johnny#merry Xmas you filthy animals#more like xxxmas#john soap mctavish x reader#john soap mactavish
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listen im lowkey obsessed w the idea of schlatt x reader who doesnt stream or anything but is a guest on chuckle sandwich
Ok I LOVE THIS! My mind immediately went to when Charlie was still on the pod so hope that’s ok! (You can just pretend it’s tucker for all the tucker lovers)
Also, this is Fem reader!
Jschlatt || Podcast Cameo
You’ve always been a little outside the world of streaming and content creation. While your boyfriend, Schlatt, was making waves online, you preferred to stay in the background, supporting him quietly. You loved the privacy, the comfort of your normal life, and the knowledge that while he entertained millions, he came home to you.
But one day, that quiet routine was interrupted when Schlatt casually mentioned, “Hey, how would you feel about being on Chuckle Sandwich?”
You looked up from your book, eyebrows shooting up in surprise. “Me? On the podcast? Schlatt, I don’t even use social media. No one knows me. What would I even talk about?”
He grinned, leaning against the doorframe with that mischievous look you knew all too well. “That’s the point. You’re not like anyone else we’ve had on, and I think it’d be fun. Plus, it’s a chance for the world to see why I’m so obsessed with you.”
You rolled your eyes, your heart fluttering despite yourself. “Obsessed, huh? You’re laying it on thick today.”
“Can’t help it,” he shrugged, walking over to sit you, pulling you into his arms. “I just think you’d be great. Besides, you already know and like the guys. They’ll make it easy on you.”
You hesitated for a moment, then sighed, resting your head on his chest. “I don’t know, Schlatt. I’m not used to being in the spotlight like you are.”
He tilted your chin up, his gaze softening as he looked into your eyes. “You’ll be fine. I’ll be right there with you the whole time. And if you don’t like it, we never have to do it again. But I really think you’ll surprise yourself.”
With his arms around you and that earnest look in his eyes, it was hard to say no. “Alright, fine. I’ll do it. But only because you asked.”
“Good choice,” he murmured, leaning down to press a slow, lingering kiss to your lips. “I can’t wait to show you off.”
The day of the recording arrived faster than you expected. You felt a mix of nerves and excitement as you walked into the recording studio with Schlatt by your side. Charlie and Ted greeted you warmly, as they always did, immediately making you feel at ease. They were as goofy and charming in person as they were on camera, and it wasn’t long before you were laughing along with them.
“So, what made you decide to put up with Schlatt here?” Charlie teased, leaning back in his chair as the recording began.
You shot Schlatt a playful glance, “Honestly? I think it’s his weird mix of sarcasm and sweetness. It keeps me on my toes.”
Schlatt grinned, resting his hand on your thigh under the table.
Ted jumped in, his voice full of curiosity. “So, how do you handle the whole ‘dating a youtuber’ thing? It’s gotta be pretty different from a regular relationship.”
You thought about it for a moment, feeling Schlatt’s thumb gently stroking your leg. “It is different, but it’s also kind of nice. I love that he has something he’s passionate about, and it makes the time we spend together even more special. Plus, I get to see a side of him that the audience doesn’t. A side that’s softer, sweeter… maybe even a little bit shy.”
Schlatt laughed, his hand giving your leg a light squeeze. “ Me!? Come on, you’re making me sound soft.”
You turned to him, your eyes sparkling with affection. “You are soft, sometimes. Especially when we’re alone.”
The guys erupted in playful jeers and teasing comments, but Schlatt just leaned in closer, his lips brushing against your ear. “Keep talking like that, and I might just have to show you how rough I can be.”
Your breath hitched slightly, your cheeks flushing at his words. You shot him a look that was both amused and flustered, and he chuckled lowly, clearly enjoying your reaction.
The conversation continued, flowing effortlessly from topic to topic, with Charlie and Ted keeping the mood light and fun. They asked you questions about how you and Schlatt met, your life as someone without social media, and what it was like dating someone with such a large online presence. You answered honestly, with Schlatt chiming in every so often with a sarcastic quip or a teasing remark that had you all laughing.
At one point, the conversation turned to pet peeves, and you couldn’t resist poking fun at Schlatt. “He leaves his clothes everywhere. I swear, it’s like a trail of evidence from the front door to wherever he is.”
Schlatt groaned, but there was a playful look in his eyes. “And you’re perfect, huh?”
You shrugged, giving him an innocent smile. “Pretty much.”
The banter flowed naturally, and before you knew it, the recording was wrapping up. Ted turned to you with a grin. “You did great. You’re super entertaining. Ever thought about starting your own channel?”
You shook your head, laughing. “Oh, no. I think I’ll leave that to you guys. I’m happy just being the supportive girlfriend.”
Schlatt wrapped an arm around your shoulders, pulling you close. “And I’m more than happy to keep you all to myself.”
As the recording ended and the mics were turned off, you felt a wave of relief mixed with a sense of accomplishment. You’d done it. You’d stepped out of your comfort zone and had actually enjoyed yourself.
Charlie and Ted both gave you hugs, thanking you for being a guest. “You’ve got to come back sometime,” Charlie said with a wink. “We’ll make a regular out of you.”
“We’ll see,” you replied, smiling. “Maybe I’ll make a cameo every now and then.”
As you and Schlatt left the studio, he slipped his hand into yours, giving it a gentle squeeze. “See? Told you you’d be great.”
You leaned into him, feeling the warmth of his body against yours. “You were right. I actually had fun.”
“I’m glad,” he murmured, his voice softer now that you were alone. “And just so you know, I wasn’t kidding when I said I wanted to show you off. I love that you’re mine, and I wanted everyone to see how amazing you are.”
Your heart swelled at his words, and you stopped walking, turning to face him. “You know, for someone who tries to act tough all the time, you can be really sweet.”
Schlatt grinned, his hands finding your waist and pulling you closer. “Only for you. Don’t go spreading that around.”
You laughed, wrapping your arms around his neck as he leaned in, his lips touching yours. “Your secret’s safe with me.”
#chuckle sandwich#chuckle sammy#ted nivison#jschlatt#jschlatt x reader#jschlatt hcs#hc#jschlatt headcanons#jschlatt imagines#jschlatt imagine#jschlatt fanfic#jschlatt x you#schlatt hcs#schlatt x you#schlatt fluff#schlatt x reader#schlatt#jschlatt fluff#schlatt imagine
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The AOT Guys on Your Period
a/n: I'm on my period rn and its so awful and just wanted to imagine what the aot guys would be like when reader is on their period <33
CW: fem reader, pure fluff, periods (duh), slight mention of blood
Jean:
Literally the sweetest
totally watched a bunch of youtube videos and listened to podcasts about the "female experience" so he can try to understand what you're going through
"I'm right here baby, I'll lay with you as long as you want" then proceeding to let you be the little spoon all night long
gives you the best back rubs when you're cramping to soothe your muscles
Puts on your favorite movie to distract you
Lets you cuddle into him while watching said movie and strokes your hair the entire time
just the most gentle ever.
soft delicate touches, he's scared of accidentally hurting you when you're on your period
Would stop by the store after work to get you flowers and chocolate becuase he knows it's a rough time for you.
Your favorite kind of flowers of course (he knows all of your favorite things bc he's so thoughtful)
Constantly compliments you because he knows you feel disgusting
"No baby I mean it, you're so beautiful like this"
"There's no better feeling than having you lay on my chest"
"I can't believe I have the most beautiful girl in the entire world"
His big strong hands rubbing little circles on your belly omg
Would run you a hot bath for your cramps (see soft jean for more ;)
bought you one of those stuffed animals that you heat up for cramps and was so excited to give it to you.
Literally smiling like a 5-year-old when he told you he had a surprise for you and got so excited when you like his present.
only calls you babe and baby because he doesn't wanna accidentally hurt your feelings by calling you by your name
looks like a big teddy bear, is a big teddy bear
snuggles all the time
always worried about you
would definitely be one of those guys with an "i love my hot girlfriend shirt"
Eren:
Likes to joke about you being on your period when you're off of it but is always super considerate when you're on it
"Ts okay babe I'm right here" while he kisses your forehead to make you feel better.
Drapes a blanket around you on the couch to make sure you're comfortable
brings you food from your favorite restaurant to make you feel better
knows what you order of course, he pays attention
Frowns and acts all tough when you call him a cutie pie
"I am not. I'm just being a good boyfriend- I'm tough okay"
sure
You have ex fuckboy Eren totally wrapped around your finger
He's literally at your beck and call, not because you asked him to be but because he's so in love with you that he just wants to do all the sweet cheesy things with you
Would never admit all the cute things he does for you in front of his friends
Used to be a firm believer that getting kicked in the balls hurt more than period cramps until he met you and you changed his ways
lets you hold his hand and squeeze it when you're in pain
If you get nauseous he stays up with you all night, telling you little stories to distract you
Reluctantly holds your hair back when you throw up
Gives you his clothes to sleep in because they're looser and more comfy.
Adores seeing you walk around in his t-shirts and pajama pants becuase they're so big and it's so cute
the next time he wears them they smell like you
Would offer to rub your back but can't do it without getting horny so he doesn't :(
"Hey a real soldier isn't afraid to get blood on his sword that's all im saying..."
Levi:
Just like Eren in the way that he acts super tough most of the time, even more than Eren.
Rarely calls you cute names like "baby, honey, sweetheart" but totally does when you're on your period
The fact that it's so rare for him to do this makes it even more special when he does
Makes you blush every time
Would hold your hand as often as possible, rubbing little circles into it with his thumb
Not a fan of PDA but would hold your hand in public and let you kiss him on the cheek
If you're feeling especially emotional that day he'd put his arm around you and rub little circles into your shoulder with his slender fingers
Shows his affection in the most subtle ways
Would go grocery shopping bc you were out of food and come back with a stuffed animal he thought you might like from the store
"Yeah whatever, 'ts not a big deal just thought you might think it's cute"
You would wrap him in a bear hug and he would secretly blush, determined to maintain his "tough guy" exterior
Would'nt pick up food for you but would cook for you instead
Your favorite food of course
Doesn't get horny easily like a teenage boy so he could give you a massage whenever you wanted wherever you wanted
would offer to get things for you so you don't have to leave bed
Loves being the big spoon and would be wrapped around you all night
Like I said earlier, when you're on your period he tries to subtly be more sweet (he thinks you don't notice)
speaks so much more softly to you when you're on your period
is just more gentle in general
you're so needy for him both emotionally and physically and you'd want to be wrapped around him all week
and he'd let you
Armin:
Ik I said Jean's the sweetest but I changed my mind its Armin
THE CUTEST EVER
super smart so never had the misconception that periods were a walk in the park
knows all about hormonal cycles and how things would affect you differently
"I got you some dark chocolate, it's really good for soothing the cramps because of the high concentration of magnesium which eases the uterine lining so-"
"Thank you Armin" is all you'd say and giggle at the research he put into helping you
Constantly touching you, not in a sexual way but in a romantic, protective way
Holding your hand, arm around your shoulders, forehead kisses, cheek kisses, his hand on your knee when you're sitting down.
Constantly checking in on you making sure you're okay
always asking you to tell him how you're feeling and what specifically was wrong, kind of annoying but very endearing.
Would sit with you and watch whatever you wanted all day as long as it made you happy.
Would bring you whatever you want. Coffee? picked up. Blanket? on your lap. Heating pad? Plugged in. Takeout? Ordered already.
Genuinely the most thoughtful boyfriend
does everything you want before you even have to ask him it's like he reads your mind
Lets you lay on his chest and fall asleep, not moving until you wake up on your own even if his arm is asleep
Whispers sweet nothings in your ear when he thinks you're asleep but sometimes you hear them
"You're the most beautiful girl in the world, I'm so lucky to have someone like you"
"Watching you sleep takes my breath away every time"
CEO of cheesy love-sick boyfriend
Reiner:
Acts like Levi on the outside is actually Armin on the inside
Always so worried about you all the time, ESPECIALLY on your period
hates seeing you in pain so does whatever he can to make it better
constantly reminding you to take advil
one of those boyfriends who thinks drinking water will make it better "Just try it babe it can't hurt. It works, I saw it on TikTok"
Totally captivated by you
actually thinks you're really pretty on your period bc he loves seeing your natural beauty
picks you up to carry you to bed so you don't have to walk
Gets you flowers as often as he can to remind you how much he loves you
clueless about periods but very enthusiastic!
"I was talking to Armin and he said vitamin C was good so I got you a bunch of oranges from the store!"
thanks babe...?
Always calls you babe or baby, sometimes princess
you're mainly princess on your period, he wants to make sure you feel special
adores cuddling it's like his favorite thing ever and is so excited when you want to cuddle more because you're on your period
loves feeling how small you are against him and smelling your hair as you're curled into his chest
so possessive
would buy you things constantly
his love language is definitely gift-giving and physical touch
smothers you with hug all. the. time.
not opposed to period sex
would share a hot shower with you to ease your cramps
he'd wash your body for you and kiss the top of your head and your shoulders
would kiss every inch of your body to make you feel beautiful
the most protective boyfriend in the aot universe I said what I said
looks like a big scary grizzly bear on the outside but is a teddy bear on the inside just for you
#anime#aot#attack on titan#jean kirstein#eren yeager#eren jeager#armin arlert#levi ackerman#reiner braun#reiner attack on titan#reiner aot#reiner braun fluff#reiner braun x reader#reiner braun x you#reiner x reader#jean kirstein fluff#jean kirstein x reader#jean kirstein x you#jean kirschstein#jean kirschstein x reader#armin arlert x reader#armin x reader#armin snk#jean snk#jean attack on titan#reiner snk#eren snk#eren aot#eren jeager x reader#eren yeager x you
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hi. so because i'm normal about jonathan sims and jmart. um.
i really like jmart. i think there could have been MUCH better buildup, but... ultimately it's a very cute ship. i think the appeal, yeah, is a lot that it's just canon. but.
they're both deeply broken people. jon wasn't loved enough. his grandmother tried her best, but he was never cuddled, never read to, never had a chance to *be a little kid*, really. and martin was never loved. maybe he convinced himself he was just never loved the right way, that his mum just didn't know how to show it because he was so *insufferable* and *incompetant*, but no matter the lies he tells himself, martin was not shown love by his mother.
and then they meet. and martin gives and gives and gives because that's all he knows. and jon has no idea how to receive because he never really had anything to receive. and jon's coping mechanism, with that unknown situation, is to reinforce his emotional walls. martin does not know how to stop giving. so they don't work at this point, not at all.
and then jon's emotional walls come tumbling down. well, moreso that they were violently destroyed, with prentiss and all. jon has no support system!!! tim hates him because he's a fucking *stalker*, martin... well... he can't rely on martin, of all people. and sasha... he never knew her too well, but she's acting strange. so jon and martin don't work together at that point, romantically, i think partially because jon won't let it.
in big part, jmart is built on mutual trauma (NOT traumabonding!! i know it's used that way in podcast, but that's not the correct definition) and ... martin being pretty much the only person jon has left. of course, there's basira and melanie and georgie, but they don't *get it*. they didn't go through everything jon did alongside him. sure, martin didn't either, but martin has been there the whole time.
it's partially a relationship of proximity, partially shared trauma, but i do think a lot of it is genuine care for each other (even if that care stems from the former two reasons).
anyways. theyre really cute. tma could have been just as good without it, but---and im saying this as someone who typically despises most romance in media---i really adore them and their dynamic. it opens up so many doors for both character- and self-exploration.
martin learning to love without sacrificing himself. jon learning to love openly, period. explorations of trust and how mutual trauma that affected people in different ways can shape them, etc etc etc. and of course, this is all in fics and in my own mind, because . theyre dead . (i wont accept any ending but that, honestly. theyre not Somewhere Else to me). but. it's nice. they mean a lot to me as characters and as people and as a pair. thumbs up.
and some jon ranting!! because i. admit. finally. that i might be a bit of a jon kinnie.
jon doubts himself, constantly, unless his decision is completely impulsive (ex. the coffin). he can't *let* himself feel, fully, because as a child it was always annoying/obnoxious, or too much, or wrong in some ambiguous, nebulous way.
he's out of touch with himself emotionally. it's... not so much that he doesn't get emotions, it's moreso that he's repressed the majority of his own so intensely that he has a hard time dealing with others' emotions because he's not too sure what it's supposed to feel like without a heavy flavouring of shame.
he's read a lot of books. he knows, in theory, what sadness or romantic love or anger or excitement feels like---and occasionally in practice, when the repression and 'compartmentalisation' (bottling it up) becomes too much and it all boils over---but he has a hard time relating those hypothetical and heat-of-the-moment feelings to actual, real life people.
he struggles with empathy, severely. partially an autistic thing, partially a trauma response. yknow. he's genuinely well-meaning when it comes to comforting those he cares about, but he's not sure of the right thing to say because of how severely that muscle has atrophied. he was never taught that with his grandmother and her neglect (and yes, no matter what he says on tape, it was emotional neglect) and then not having very many friends... he missed those prime developmental stages as a child.
he never empathised with book characters, i don't think. he was always the observer, never really fully putting himself in the role of the protagonist. he definitely used books as an escapist coping mechanism, but it wasn't in a visiting-this-fictional-world way, it was more of a losing-himself-in-the-story way, if that makes sense. there was always a sense of detachment. reading was an *in between* of his life and the life of the protagonist.
he struggles with his and others' feelings because, from his perspective, his emotions are uniquely shameful, uniquely embarrassing, and uniquely *harmful* to other people. so, he represses them, and doesn't let himself feel them unless they're 'useful'. and then, when he can't apply this ideology to others' emotions, he has no way to deal with them. he freezes up because this is a situation in which he has no real experience in, and, as a child who was punished for behaving autistically *wrong* ---whether by his peers or his grandmother---he's scared to make a wrong move.
he sees himself as a person who is uniquely capable of harm. other people can hurt other people, sure, but jon can hurt them in a *special* way, a *worse* way, because he is a fundamentally wrong, bad person.
yeah👍
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I AM EATING THIS I agree with this yea
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Hi! ৻(•̀ ᗜ •́ ৻)⊹。 Welcome to my tumblr page! I’m Ryn I go by they/them! And I’m pansexual/demiromantic
fandoms I draw for:
•demon slayer
•jujutsu Kaisen
•spyxfamily
•sk8 infinity
•Tokyo revengers(haven’t finished the show yet)
•httyd
•the owl house
•mincraft
•the Magnus archives(haven’t finished the podcast yet)
•DND
•hazbin hotel
•sky: children of light
•Ramshackle
•bungo stray dogs
•Sanrio
•Luigi’s mansion
•Pokémon
•Kirby
•Arcane
•splatoon
•doctor who
•the apocathary diaries (haven’t finished the show yet)
•yaeklore
•castle
•house MD
•bones
•gravity falls
•the outsiders
[REQUESTS ARE OPEN, no ocs right now sorry]
☀️I TAKE ART REQUESTS☀️I can’t promise I’ll get to them but if you have any do send bc my ass always has art block- ill be doing two at a time at most
I will draw your ocs or any characters I’m okay with ships but i can say no if I’m uncomfortable with the ship that also goes for any other drawing I can refuse if I’m uncomfortable
Things I’m ok with:
oc x oc
oc x canon character (no minor x adults)
Canon character x canon character (DEPENDING ON THE SHIP)
Chibi characters
Regular animals: parrots, cats, dogs, lizards, snakes, fish, tigers, chickens, anything like that
food
mild gore or candy gore
any of the things on that list I will draw :]
Things I’M NOT OKAY with drawing! You will be blocked if you ask for some of these things! (Also this is a DNI list for some things):
proshipping(minor x adult) -immediate block don’t bother following me
racist or homophobic or transphobic don’t follow me istg
NSFW
heavy and graphic gore
Anthro/furries (i don’t have a issue with them i just don’t know how to draw them)
mechanical or mecha stuff (idk how to draw this)
any depiction of ‘Yandere’ or unhealthy toxic relationships that shits not welcome here
‼️this should also be clarified i will NOT draw ANY nsfw or suggestive material i may make jokes but don’t ask it of me i don’t mind blogs with mildly suggestive material follow me along as its not straight up nsfw. I’ve seen a few blogs like that follow me but general rule of thumb here DNI if you are a blog that has graphic nsfw art or material it’s just weird I’m a minor it’s not hard to understand you’ll be blocked :3 Ty for reading‼️
this is my oc ryn!
my moots/freinds :]
@bin-s0 (lovely artist and very sweet :] and my bf they are literally one of my favourite people 🩷🩷🩷)
@boo-simplified (also a banger artist and a very wonderful friend i know them irl and they are so goddamn nice✨)
@mercurymaceo ( EDIBLE ART. Need I say more! And a very close friend ⭐️✨)
@kimetsu-chan (LITERALLY SO SWEET OMG 💖💖very pretty art and a good writer)
@thesilliersakura (ART IS VERY SILLY AND ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS and very silly freind)
@swisscheeselovers-blog (he is another close irl friend of mine dose some silly doodles once and a while. SO FUNNY ONG very goofy and silly friend 🫶💖)
@shycroissanti (some more edible art has one of the silliest ocs ever and is so nice!)
@clownpalette (ART IS SO SILLY AND CUTE!!!)
@aceofstars0 (so sweet makes some SCRUMPTIOUS ART- I wanna eat it please follow them :] )
@rion-isnot-an-ai (yet another underrated artist who is also very nice! Makes lovely art!)
@silas-png (bro im bouta eat your art if you’re not careful THE RENDERING THEY DO IS JUST 😭💖✨🤌)
@pearlymoonn (OMG they are so nice iv spoke with them before and they’re lovely fncndhshchvu they make very cute art!)
@scrimblyscrorblo (very silly doodles iv spoken with them a couple of times and i absolutely adore they’re art its so goofy and cute and are also very nice 🫶)
@delirious-dan (THE ART <3 so good and they are very silly and cool)
ANYWAY VERY SILLY MOOTS GO FOLLOW EM :D
thanks for reading and welcome to my blog :]
divider creds to:
@cafekitsune
my art tag is #Ryn’s art 💜
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INTRO POST
post status: free
Im just a silly little person with an ocean obsession who lives in your phone.
My names are Erin/Eris/Eve/Jess/Red (Erin or Eris is preferred, but I'm fine with any of them)
She/They preferred, but you can call me anything so long as it is NOT he/him (on the same note, if you call me man/dude/bro/guy I will flood your house)
Im a minor (17 years old), and am enby/trans, poly, and a Massive Lesbian, and also probably demiromantic? idk about that last one im still trying to figure that out
im definitely neurodivergent but im not entirely sure what all I have going on up in here (definitely undiagnosed ADHD, probably a lot of other things too)
American/Californian
If you're a terf, a homophobe, or a pedophile: go away please okay? Otherwise pretty much anybody is welcome here so long as you arent hurting anybody
Im pro-palestine
Im an artist, animator, and a game designer (i have a youtube and an itch.io page but neither of them have much on them) (im uh. not quite as good at finishing projects as i am at starting them)
my 2 alt accounts are @red-gamedev-0w0 and @rant-ventvet-0w0
my DMs, asks, and anons are always open if you wanna be silly, and honestly it really makes my day when i get a message. boundaries and norms for talking to me are at the very bottom
i have a silly little OC universe im hoping to turn into a webcomic eventualy (hopefully)
I AM VERY STRONGLY AGAINST AI ART. (and just. generative AI in general) (yes that includes chat gpt and character AI)
I am... incredibly normal about the ocean. I have healthy and reasonable emotions I feel when i think about it. dont question why "erins ocean posting" is one of my most used tags its totaly healthy trust me (is it a religious thing? a sexual thing? a gender thing? you will literaly never know)
The fandoms im in are: Tiger Tiger, Roblox Pressure (Sebastian Solace), Aurora Webcomic, The Killers, Tom Cardy, The Mechanisms, Life Series, Hermitcraft, Parkour Civ, Mineraft, Marble Hornets, Terraria, Hollow Knight, Celeste, Hades, Camp Here And There, Murder Drones, The Art of Murder, The Magnus Podcasts, Epic the Musical, Hello From the Hallowoods, Witherburn After School News, Dont Hug Me Im Scared, The Locked Tomb, Hatchetfield, Centaurworld, Amphibia, Epithet Erased, Kid Vampire, and Bigtop Burger (+ a few more but those are the ones you'll see the most of) (Red means highly likely to post about it, purple means very unlikely to post about it often)
#1 Killers fan (their best album is Sams Town and the best song is Bones and thats a fact)
i also sometimes rant about spanish literature sometimes but thats a rare occasion
I really, really hate Dantes Inferno and the Sierpinski triangle
Id love to be friends, enemies, or really anything in between if you let me.
Tags I use (in case you want to block them):
#erins cryptic ramblings (generic tag)
#erins ocean posting (for ocean related posts)
#axe and erins dnd bullshit (for when im talking about dnd with one of my mutuals)
#the forever day (my OCs/potentialy hopefully a webcomic im working on??? hopefully well see how far that goes)
#erin answers asks (self explanitory)
#erin talks about life /#erin rants about life (also self explanitory)
#erins tumblr ad saga (my compilation of all the worst ads this hellsite has to offer)
BOUNDERIES, NORMS, AND RULES OF THUMB FOR TALKING TO ME:
No horny/vaguely sexual messages unless 1) we are friends, 2) you are under 18, and 3) you have asked me directly in the past whether i am comfortable with that sort of thing or are otherwise aware that i am comfortable with you talking to me like that
Avoid using male terms as much as possible (ie. guy, dude, man, bro), and id prefer avoiding gendered terms as much as possible, but when you have the choice female terms are prefered (ie. girl). i may refer to myself using male gendered terms from time to time but that does not give you permision to
Do not EVER use the r-slur on me.
Do not EVER say "KYS" or anything of that nature to me, even as a joke
If you send me hate mail of any kind i will either just delete it or if ill just mock you. nothing you can say will ever be as hateful as the stuff my brain says to me on a daily basis so dont bother
If i say i dont want to talk about something, i dont want to talk about it.
Nicknames and terms of endearment (ie. dear, love, bestie) are fine from friends, so long as you have cleared with me that I am fine with you calling me that
I have a tendancy to be VERY flirty with some of my friends, but just know that i almost certainly mean it entirely platonicaly, unless i specificaly tell you i mean it in a different way. Even something like "i want to make out with you" can be platonic coming from me, so in general dont assume im flirting with you (likewise if you ARE actualy flirting with me be warned that I will not realize in the slightest and you will have to be very clear that you are actualy flirting because there is no other way i will ever know)
If i am saying something nice to you, it is genuine. period. i would never lie to you about something like that. if i tell you i care about you, its not out of pity or out of some strange malice. its because i care about you
you are ALWAYS welcome and encouraged to talk to me, especialy if you are feeling sad or at risk of hurting yourself. Even if we have barely talked, if you need somebody to talk to or rant to I am always here for you.
And that’s about it!
Nice to meet you!
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this isnt about the ask game but i need you to tell me more about your take on pausetho. i just binged starblight desert and theyre the worst /aff what do you have to say about them
the fact you've specified starblight desert is really interesting to me because not only it is a team canada series but it's also the most recent team canada series- which isn't a bad thing to be clear, because pausetho is eternal and forever, but it interests me because i think pause and etho's dynamic changes a lot in a way that i wouldn't consider applicable to other ships of his that have that long and ongoing history (eg. ethubs, beeftho).
when i think of pausetho i think. the two of them are fundamentally quite lonely characters. full disclaimer that i'm far from #educated on their respective mindcrack povs because i haven't watched them in a hot minute, but. etho is extremely lonely often through choice, especially imo with the way i interpret his time on mindcrack as being shortly after all the 404 nonsense on the lp (tldr he has just went through the most traumatic experience of his life and learned most of what he remembers prior is probably fabricated). etho is also known for his masks and during mindcrack i think a big one was being this very respected and almost famous guy.. a lot of it was in jest ofc but like he's Thee Etho's Lab! this in addition to the fact that he's sort of intimidating in the same way he was in 3l+ll because his uhc rankings were pretty solid.
meanwhile pause is also lonely but imo in a different way. because etho is a guy who chooses loneliness to avoid the eventual hurt that comes from connection whereas pause is a guy who chooses connection time and time again but never really properly connects. hes a lot harder to analyse so forgive me because i also have to tread the dreaded rpf/fiction line here and start pulling from examples most people wouldn't consider due to it being Too Real (also i dont care because its complicated but anyway) one thing that always sticks out to me is the various mindcrack podcast episodes where he ends up being outspoken? i dont have any actual numbers on hand but i Def remember it in regards to like, discussions of female gamers and gamergate and the like and pause often being the one guy to speak up and be like This is shitty actually. that in addition to some far more complicated things i dont have the words to get into right now eg. being the guy on the gayest straight server ever who is actually bisexual But anyway. my point is that among mindcrackers pause to me is in a weird situation where he certainly fits in very well but simultaneously sticks out like a sore thumb in ways he cant really do anything about without massively compromising himself, so despite not being lonely in the same way etho is, there is a certain Something there.. sorry this makes zero sense but this ask has been sitting in my drafts for like a week and im desperate to get rid of it. PLUS he also deals with this in the form of a mask (he is actually a very anxious and soft hearted guy imo but often plays up and is fiercer and shouts more to get laughs but also to come across as bigger and more intimidating than he actually is. not that he needs to because jesus have you seen this guys uhc stats? frankly i should have skipped this entire essay and just linked the various times that etho and pause have clashed in uhc)
anyway jesus this got long . all of this is literally not real btw the main reason i like pausetho is because theyre funny and pause is one of my favourite guys and i wish there was more content for him. but also generally like.. this is the complicated messy reason to like them but also yeah generally just watching team canada and seeing their dynamic is fun bc they are just really good friends ^_^
#anon#asks#pausetho#I need to go back and watch more mc because this is like all based on my vague memories from 2 years ago. And a dream
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Hiiiiiiiiii i kinda had a question #lol. The fact that you write is awesome and makes me wanna write too, but every time i try i feel like i have such a large amount of self doubt that comes with it. Every single scene i finish is accompanied by an "oh god this sucks" in my head. Im also having a lot of trouble getting character voices down?? Like wow. Writing's harder than i thought it would be🫡 anyways just wanted to see if you had like tips or anything for dealing with that😨😨😨
Okay so my most practical advice is for how to get character voice. What I'll do as a writing exercise is I'll pick an episode of a show or like a scene from a movie or maybe a podcast episode, pick a medium that has a focus on dialogue. Transcribe the dialogue as you watch or listen (pause or turn on subtitles as needed) and pause the thing between chunks of dialogue and add the action tags, describe what the characters are feeling, give them internal monologue, describe the setting. I know this sounds tedious and like it is and it might not work for you and you definitely can't post it. But it makes me super aware of characters' speech patterns, the way they pause between words, what nicknames or phrases they use often, etc. It's also something that I just pick up on naturally, like I'll talk like my friends not as like an impression of their voice but how they talk and people say it's spooky.
The short cut to nailing how a character talks is to steal dialogue directly from the source, have them use nicknames from canon, and like be aware of their general tone. Like in most situations, Deadpool leans into a more jokey way of speak while Spider-Man is sarcastic with dry jokes and Daredevil is serious and gruff. These will change with each situation you know characters have moods and stuff. But if you're familiar with the source material you're probably really close to a character's voice that you think
with original stories, if I want to create a strong voice for characters and narration, I'll do a writing warm up by going outside or like a library and describe what I experience. I'm not allowed to start writing my actual thing until I include all five senses in those descriptions. I also tend to narrate how I think which doesn't work for everyone but I love metaphors and alliteration so it works. With original characters, they're usually based on someone I know so I'll just memorize their exact words or watch videos that they send me. It's kinda creepy tbh. But rule of thumb is to always read your stuff out loud, heck I usually say the dialogue before I write it, and it gives it a more human sound.
Okay practical advice done now I gotta tell you the thing you won't like. The best way to get over the "this sucks" mentality is to just write a lot. Anytime I'm not so sure about my own writing, I got back to the Hamilton fanfic I wrote in middle school that I proudly put on the internet and sent to my friends and I think "okay it could be so much worse" self-doubt will always be a part of the process you will always be your worst critic. But also you've also gotta be your biggest fan, it helps to find someone else to hype you up, but I dare you to read what you've written a say at least one nice thing about it. Any time you're in the editing stage, say one nice thing about what you've written before you say something that's not working. When you finish editing, say one thing that you're happy you added. You gotta write a lot but you've gotta be good to yourself
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(Lena is my MC for “YOU AND HIM” and Jamie is my MC for “Hot Killer Babes”)
“Aw come on it can’t be that bad” Lena smiled, rubbing her friend’s back. Jamie looked up from their coffee with a frown.
“You don’t understand, see that guy behind the counter?” They stated. Lena turned her head and her eyes went wide.
“Woah!” She exclaimed, putting a hand under her chin.
“That’s him, that’s Eddie”, Jamie sighed, face-planting onto the cafe table.
“Yeah, you fumbled big-time, there’s no salvaging this, we have to fake your death”, Lena said. “I’m thinking a boat accident but we can do ‘mysterious murder’ if you want to become a podcast episode one day”, she added, reaching out to pet Jamie’s head.
“Hey, are you done with that cup?” A voice said and both people looked up.
“Eddie…hey…it’s good to see you, what are you up to?”, Jamie asked with a strained smile. Eddie gestures towards his apron with a deadpan expression. Lena looked back and fourth between the two, it was the kind of awkward moment one would skip out of secondhand embarrassment had this been a TV-show.
“I’ll be right back!” Lena exclaimed, getting out of her chair. The look Jamie gave her sent chills up her spine. She gave them a thumbs up.
STOOOP(/j) IM KICKING MY FEET
Besties gossiping about the hot boy working at a cafe never fails. NEVER
#this part is literally so cute#i can’t even put a finger on why#POOR JAMIE#hot killer babes ⭐️#hot killer babes vn#💗xoxoeddie#💗fanfic
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ough augh eoughg it’s Time. apparent it is time to revive dormant fics.......
heart beats best in a bed (chapter 19)
[ch 1] [ch 2] [ch 3] [ch 4] [ch 5] [ch 6] [ch 7] [ch 8] [ch 9] [ch 10] [ch 11] [ch 12] [ch 13] [ch 14] [ch 15] [ch 16] [ch 17] [ch 18] [ao3] [ch 20] [???] [Rating: Mature Fandom: The Penumbra Podcast Relationship: Lord Arum/Sir Damien, Sir Damien/Rilla, Lord Arum/Sir Damien/Rilla Characters: Sir Damien, Lord Arum, Rilla, (others? eventually?) Additional Tags: Second Citadel, Lizard Kissin’ Tuesday, Rivals With Benefits, (I CANT BELIEVE THAT WAS ALREADY A TAG THANK FUCK), Mutual Pining, Secret Relationship, Denial of Feelings, Alternate Universe, (it’s not ROLE reversal it’s like. RELATIONSHIP reversal), (the timing is fucked with), (who knows who first), Sex with Feelings, Relationship Negotiation, (i literally never know how to tag things), (some miscommunication and mild angst in the future), Pining While Fucking, Porn With Plot Summary: Sir Damien is a committed, dedicated knight with a shining record and spotless reputation. Barring, of course, his one minor indiscretion, his singular, secret exception. It does not bear mentioning, of course. The arrangement is purely practical, purely physical, utterly inconsequential, of course. It is not as if a monster would- could care for him in any meaningful way, after all. The idea is impossible; as impossible as the idea of Sir Damien possessing any feelings whatsoever for the monster in return. Chapter Summary: Questions, apologies, and... kitchen time. Chapter Notes: a shorter chapter but i think/hope y'all will forgive me considering. the horrors. im not sure i'm going to have time for LKT next week cuz i'll be coming off a seven day work stint before a trip. wish me luck??
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Before Damien leaves in the afternoon, after her brothers depart, Rilla gives Damien a proper examination. When finished, she chews on her knuckle thoughtfully for a long moment. She sighs, and then she puts the roll of bandages back away, unused.
"I think you're good to stop wrapping it," she says when Damien gives her a baffled look. "And that doesn't mean you're good to return to duty early, don't get me wrong, but- I think the bandaging is past use at this point. We'll be switching salves, too, now that it's pretty much closed up."
She turns for the cupboards, then, humming as she rummages, and Damien glances down at the mark on his side (thumbs above and below the bandages, hands steady on his side) and notes just how well it has healed. Better than any injury he's suffered in years, perhaps. And she's right; it's fairly well closed, by now. The bandages are past use.
"Now," she says, still looking into the cupboards rather than towards him, "I know that a lot of knights sort of brag on their scars and all that, but scar tissue isn't particularly healthy tissue and the more we can do to minimize the permanent damage, the better, yeah?"
She turns, gently tossing a glass jar back and forth in her hands, and Damien realizes after a belated moment that the question was not rhetorical. He nods, a little dubiously. "I do not suspect that one more scar atop the rest would affect me one way or the other," he admits. "But I would certainly not dare disobey my doctor."
[read more]
#elle's fanfic#second citadel#rad bouquet#lizard kissin' tuesday#sir damien#amaryllis of exile#lord arum#heart beats best#aaaaaaAAAAAA
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If I Were A Blackbird, part 9 [co-written with @darkmagyk] [read on ao3]
For three days, Percy had gone back to his room in the evening, taken out his phone, and stared at the name Annabeth Chase in his contacts. He’d toyed with the idea of changing it a few times to Princess Annabeth. Or maybe just adding a crown emoji or something. But he’d done nothing, save for closing his phone, and sighing with relief when Jason showed up and he no longer had the space for a long, quiet, private conversation with… no one.
But on that third day, he had nothing to do. It was a rest day, with no practice, press things, or even friend’s events to watch. Jason was right on the cusp of his big race, so he wasn’t even around to distract him.
And as the hours dragged on, the name in his phone could not be ignored.
He’d called his mom. He’d facetimed Estelle, managing to avoid Paul for royal watcher reasons. Luke was technically at work, but they’d spent an hour or so texting. He’d even IMed Nico about his travel plans.
All his attempts to reach out to Rachel had ended with her asking if he’d called his princess back yet.
He was basically down to messaging Thalia, who would be rightly pissed if he interrupted her in the middle of something important, or breaking down, and actually calling Annabeth. Just to talk to her. Just to hear her voice.
So he listened to half a podcast on the history of the Byzantine Empire. But he could not focus, barely making it through half an episode on the history of the Fourth Crusade. Not when Annabeth’s phone number waited for him.
He tried to imagine what she would even say to him, if he called to talk. In your dreams? Thanks for the memories?
For that matter, what would he even say to her?
The minutes ticked on. He watched his battery drain, ever so slowly, rubbing his thumb across the screen every time it threatened to go to sleep. It was just after 3 pm when, finally, he hit her name on his contact screen, and listened to it ring.
After two rings, he was ready to give it up. This was a stupid idea. She didn’t want to talk to him. She was screening his calls. She had something more important to do. She didn’t…
“Hello?”
And his heart jumped.
He’d almost expected her to sound different. More princess-y? What were princesses supposed to sound like? More European, at least. He still didn’t hear much of an accent from her.
“Percy?”
Oh, shit, he hadn’t meant to not say hi.
“Oh, did you not mean to call?”
Oh, shit, he hadn’t meant to swear! “No,” he said, quickly, “no, I just… I didn’t really expect you to pick up.”
“Why wouldn’t I?” she asked, sounding… confused. Or sad. Maybe.
“Cause… I figured you had more important things to do than talk to me,” he said.
“I always want to talk to you,” she said, simply, and with a palpable conviction, even over the phone.
He blushed, even though she couldn’t see it. How do you even respond to something like that? “Me too,” he said, then immediately had to physically sit on his hand so he didn’t smack himself. Fucking idiot.
But she laughed, a tinkling, musical thing. Like stars strewn across a dark sky, pointing the way to shore.
He let out a laugh too, shaky, but firm. “So… am I going to be put on some government watchlist for calling you?”
She laughed again, a soft chuckle. Gods, her laugh was the same as he remembered it. And so damn pretty. “I don't really know how to tell you this, but they've already run like four background checks on you.”
That was… something. Not exactly surprising. But still not something he’d considered. “So… find anything good?” he asked, partly out of a sense of preservation, because boy, did he have some wacky stuff in his background.
“We have determined,” she said. Was that the Royal We he had heard so much about? “That you, Percy Jackson, are a sailor, a historian, and an upstanding gentleman who loves his family and his sport.”
Oh. Well that was nice.
“My dad was very impressed by your academic background, too,” she added.
“Oh.” Her dad was impressed. He had impressed her dad, the future king of Sweden. If Paul were here, he would have had a coronary. “Anything else?” Hopefully he would impress the future queen, too.
“Yes. We determined that you were also devastatingly handsome.”
“Well… that’s nice.” He had expected flirting even less than the future king of Sweden being interested in his academics.
“Were you expecting them to find something?”
Talk about loaded questions. He was suddenly extremely thankful for all the times Luke had been there during a run in with the police. No one ever caught Luke up to anything. And some minor larceny had never been Percy’s modus operandi on his own, anyway. “Not really,” he said instead. “But, ah… got any weird holes I might be able to fill?” he offered up, thinking about a rather glaring one, and wondering what her people might have come up in the father-sized void in Percy’s life.
“Yeah, actually.” He thought he could sense a light layer of trepidation in her voice, hidden beneath her casual tone. Oh, what he wouldn’t give to listen to her voice for hours, mining for every hidden meaning and nuance. “Your father? His name’s not on your birth certificate.”
“So,” Percy said, “before I actually tell you,” sort of, “I want to state, for the record, that it is super weird that you know that.”
“Sorry.”
“No, no, don’t be sorry,” he said, sitting up as the tone of her voice dropped. “It’s okay, I totally get it. And I’m sure Swedish James Bond has a gun trained on me right now.”
She laughed again, maybe a little bit more subdued. “You aren’t that big a deal.”
“Ouch,” he grimaced. “That is just what my ego needed to hear.”
“Good. Girls like a little humility, especially from a sports star-turned-influencer.”
“Do they? I thought they were into bad Olympic puns and blue sandwiches.”
“Some of the weirder ones, maybe.”
“Nah,” he said, “only the ones worth knowing.”
She was silent, for a moment. He imagined her maybe sitting on her hotel bed, a mirror image to him, holding her phone, and smiling down at it. At his words. He imagined her lips as they curved upwards, highlighting her strong cheekbones, little crinkles at the corner of her gorgeous eyes.
He coughed, dry and useless. “Anyway, um… my dad.”
“You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to,” she said, extending him the same grace he had given her earlier.
“It’s okay,” he said. “If it helps, I don’t mind.”
And she didn’t push back against it.
Percy sighed, leaning back against his headboard. “My dad… He’s… I don’t even know how to describe him.”
“What does he do?”
He had a sudden image of Annabeth at a desk, pencil in hand, bent over and furiously scribbling away in her Percy dossier. It had hearts all over it, and a cartoon valkyrie on the front. The mental picture made him smile. “He’s kind of a bum. He fishes a lot, but other than that… I’ve gone fishing with him a few times, but,” he shrugged, “I’ve really had next to no contact with him.”
She hummed over the phone, sympathetic. “Does that bother you?”
“Not really,” he scoffed. “My dad’s the kind of asshole who had a fling with an eighteen year old girl who was completely alone in the world, and then didn’t even stick around long enough to put his name on the birth certificate.”
“I’m sorry.”
“I’m not. And I don’t need you to be sorry about him, either,” he said. “It’s just… you know when you spend your whole life swinging wildly between cursing someone’s name and wanting nothing more than their acknowledgement and approval?”
“Yeah,” she said, softly, and with more than a little bitterness. “Yeah, I do know that feeling.”
“Things are good with your dad, though, right?” He prodded, softly. Her dad. Prince Frederick. Future king of Sweden.
“He’s only about half of it.”
Ah. “Your mom?”
“Mmhmm.”
“Wikipedia said she died when you were a baby.” He cringed as soon as he’d said it, as absolutely nothing from that sentence worked on any level.
Annabeth actually snorted in response. “Want to talk about weird? Cite my Wikipedia page.”
“Well, you were probably breaking down my high school transcript with Maxwell Smart before I even knew you had a Wikipedia page. So there.”
“Oh, yes, I was very disappointed by that B+ you got in Latin.”
“That was my teacher’s fault for scheduling the midterm the day before my swim meet.”
She sobered. “Percy, I was kidding. I haven’t seen anything like that. I… doing checks on you wasn’t my idea, I swear,” she said. “It was more a… preventative measure once the pictures got out. I only knew about the thing with your dad because it was mentioned in the debrief.”
“You had a debrief on me, and my calls are still allowed to come through?”
“I wanted to talk to you,” she said. So damn earnest. His heart skipped another beat. “And I didn’t mean to be weird about your father. I just… I do know what it's like to be missing a parent and to desperately want their approval, and also to hate that they aren’t there for you.”
“Did your dad ever look at you, and you knew he was seeing your mom, and it kind of crushed you?” Percy asked, quietly. It hadn’t happened a lot, not really. But every time he’d noticed it, he’d felt it in his chest. He’d felt guilty about it, too, which was why he’d never mentioned it to Luke. Luke had so much worse to deal with on the mom front than he did. It hadn’t seemed fair to bring it up.
She sighed, heavy, world weary, and tinny. “He did.”
“It sucks.”
“It does,” Annabeth agreed. “Is… I saw that you had a stepfather. What’s he like?”
In his mind’s eye, he was at his mother’s wedding again, walking her down the aisle, and trying not to cry at the naked love and adoration on his stepfather’s face. “Paul’s amazing,” he said. “He’s just what my mom always deserved.” She’d avoided relationships for so long, devoting so much of herself to taking care of Percy and May and Luke. He couldn’t even really remember her having a lot of friends. He’d been so happy when she’d seriously started working on her writing again, and then going back to school. And then when she’d met Paul, and they’d gotten serious, he’d been absolutely thrilled for them.
“Oh,” said Annabeth, taken aback. “I… I’m glad.”
Oh. “Um… I guess you and your stepmother… uh…” He trailed off, unsure how to continue his thought without accidentally insulting a member of the royals. Somehow, Paul would sense it, and then he’d probably have a heart attack.
Annabeth sighed. “You don’t want to hear about my messy family politics.”
“I think family politics for royalty might just be normal politics.”
“That’s my point,” she said, tiredly. Percy figured maybe she had tread this ground before, maybe even hundreds of times–with her family, with her friends, with her country, even. She had no reason to rehash it, and especially not with him.
But. “I love my stepdad,” he said, “and he's awesome for my mom. But, also, when I was two, my mom started working for my Aunt May, who we later found out had a relationship with my paternal cousin. I am pretty familiar with weird, fucked up families.” Even giant, old, European ones. Though he didn’t say that part. “So, if you want to vent, or something… I can listen. I don’t mind.”
She didn’t say anything, not for a long time. But he could still hear the gentle static of the ambient noise of her room. Sitting here, together, in silence, separated only by a phone signal, it was strangely, wonderfully intimate.
“I don’t really want to,” she said, after a few minutes.
“Of course. You don’t have to share anything with me.”
She sighed. “It's not that. It's more just like… I want to talk to you about happier things. Things I actually like. I may not like my stepmother, but I do like you.”
Percy smiled, slow and creeping, even though she couldn’t see him. “You… like me?”
“I do,” she said. “Do you like me?”
“I do.”
And if either of them noticed that those sounded like the responses at a wedding, they didn’t say it out loud.
“So,” Annabeth said, the noises over the phone making it sound like she was readjusting her position. Maybe she was snuggling into bed, pulling a blanket over her, her hair spread out over her pillow as she relaxed. “What are you up to, today?”
“It's a rest day,” he said. “With the big race coming up, I have to relax at least a little. I have one every two or three days, but my last rest day fell on the equestrian event, so I went and watched my cousin. And my other cousin Nico was there, so we had fun.” He was finally going to get to properly see Nico at dinner tonight, which was good. And Nico hadn’t given him any shit about the whole princess thing. Which was doubly nice. Though, Percy couldn’t help but wonder if it wasn’t because of the whole countess for a mother thing, or because he’d spend so much time in his father’s court.
“But not today?”
“Not today.” Nico and Hazel were celebrating her silver together. And he’d been invited, but with that kind of reluctant vibe that made it clear the siblings wanted some sibling time, at least until dinner. “What about you? Don’t you have some babies to kiss, or some war to avert, or some village to sack?”
***
She laughed, despite herself, her head back against her pillow. “I wish,” she said. “You could come with me. We’d sack up and down the coast.”
“You think I’d be good in a fight?” He asked, a smile in his voice.
And yeah, actually, she did. But she wasn’t sure why. “You did mention fencing in an interview, right?”
“You watched my interview?”
“Wikipedia,” she quickly responded. That was going to be a good get out of jail free card so she didn’t look like a total stalker. At least for a while.
“Well, I did do some fencing, both standard style and more of a–period style, for a time. People tell me I’m not half bad with a sword.”
“Neither am I,” she said, “We should have a go, sometime.”
“Oh, I’d like that very much,” he said, his voice tipping down an octave or so.
Color rising in her cheeks, she changed the topic. “I was–I was actually thinking about the boat thing. Vikings were seafarers, as much as anything. I bet you could get me to all the most well-stocked monasteries.”
“Well, I’ll admit I’m better in salt water, then fresh, and I know the vikings liked to go up river.” His voice was so bright, like he was talking to a normal girl, a regular old twenty-something who was chatting up the boy she liked, asking if he were down to do some pillaging. “But I bet I could handle a longboat. I’ve managed a lot of boats in my time. I could get you anywhere you want to go.”
“Guess you should have run away with me that day in the marina. We could be living large by now, viking down the coast of Florida.”
“I do hate Miami,” he said.
For a moment, she could picture it: him, her, a boat, and the open waters. No shitty family to hold them down. No reporters to trail their every step. No responsibilities beyond each other. “I’m sorry, Percy.” The words tripped out of her, like a runner out of the gate. “I’m so sorry that I dragged you into all this.”
“It’s okay.”
“It’s really not.”
He sighed. “I guess not. But I understand.”
“You do?” she asked, twisting the blanket around her finger. “You’re… not mad?”
A pause. “Maybe I am, a little bit.”
She swallowed. “Makes sense,” she mumbled. “I did lie to you. I’m really, really sorry. I should have told you the truth from the beginning.”
He actually let out a little laugh. But it wasn’t his normal, buoyant, grinning laugh. It was wry, instead. A little dark. A little guarded. “That’s not why I’m mad.”
“It’s not?”
“Of course not,” he said. “Look, I’m not, I don’t think, unreasonable. You had no reason to tell me at the beginning. Honestly, it would have sounded like a line. And as hard as it is for me to believe, we did only just meet a little while ago.” And that was the truth, wasn’t it. They’d only just met, not even more than a month ago. They’d known each other for so little time… but it sure as hell didn’t feel like it. “And I’m not entitled to all your secrets. Just like you’re not entitled to all of mine.”
“You have secrets?”
“Of course I do, Annabeth. Gods, yes, I have secrets. And I like you–a lot. But I’m not–I don’t want to share them all with you right now. And I’ll always extend to you the same courtesy.”
“Oh,” She said, a wave of curiosity bubbling up in her. A desperation to know. To find out. He’d learned her secrets, after all. But then again, not all of them. Not even the juiciest of them. But, then… “So, why are you mad?”
She heard him blow his breath out, tinny and staticky. “Because… Look, I totally get not wanting to give me the whole story. I’m sure starting off with ‘Hey, I'm a princess and I have security and sometimes the press follows me around’ would have been intimidating. But we didn’t have to go somewhere so public as a movie theater. Or even just walking around the city. I would have happily kept up seeing you in private places.”
And then, a second fantasy, even more whimsical than the first. They were walking down the streets of Stockholm together on a bright, sunny afternoon, holding hands. She closed her eyes, willing it away.
“I’m not mad that you didn’t tell me you were a princess. I’m still scared the Swedish government is going to put out a hit on me, but I’m not mad about that. But I am mad that you put me in a really shitty situation with the paps and Twitter and the world, when you knew better, and I didn’t.”
“I’m sorry,” was all she could say in response. It was not enough.
“Me too,” he agreed. “I… I can’t say it's okay. Or that it isn’t a big deal. But I know you didn’t mean to do it. So, that helps. I can take negligence over cruelty any day.”
“Still.”
“Yeah. But I’ll get over it.”
“Soon?” And it was such a dumb, childish thing to ask.
“Probably,” he said. “You’re pretty cute.”
“I thought I was beautiful?”
“That, too.”
“Well,” she said, biting her lip to keep herself from smiling too hard, “if… if you want something private… You said it was a rest day. I could send my driver to pick you up. I’ve got a princess suite and I can get you almost any kind of room service for dining.”
“Almost?”
“Well, I haven’t tried everything yet.” Or… “Or, if you wanted… Maybe I could give you something better to eat.”
“Oh, yeah?”
Sense memory reared its head, the tug of his lip between his teeth, the feel of his hair in her hands. “I think it could easily be arranged.”
He hummed across the phone, vibrating into her ear. “I like the sound of that. Tell me more.”
“This bed is awfully big,” she said, lowering her voice to match. “And I’ve been in it all by myself for days now.”
“No other Olympian gentlemen callers?” He asked.
She shook her head. “No one else would help me sack Palm Beach. What use would I have for them?”
“Is that all I am to you? Some muscle? A tongue and a pair of thighs?”
He didn’t sound too put out at the idea. “But what strong thighs they are, and what a talented tongue. I’ll give you a sword, if you want.”
“But I already have a sword.”
Boy did he. It reminded her of her favorite dagger, actually. It wasn’t the biggest or flashiest. But it could get into where it needed to go. And do all sorts of damage once inside.
If Percy had taught her anything, it was that the old saying was true: it wasn’t the size of the wave, it was the motion of the ocean.
“I mean, I do really have a sword, but… that’s not what you meant… uh…” And now he was all tongue tied and adorable and he was probably blushing and she was so blindly desperate to see him. And his sword. Metaphorical or not.
“Um,” she confidently began her offer, “I can call Hans, my driver from the other night, to go pick you up. Sound good?”
But she was not met by any more delicious flirting or awkward stammering. Just a long moment of silence that got longer and longer.
And his voice had returned to its normal, pleasant tenor when he said, “Maybe we should pump the brakes a bit.”
“Oh.” And she knew she couldn’t keep her deep deep disappointment out of it.
“Not–not for long,” he rushed, “just… maybe until after the Olympics are over.” Another three weeks. She felt her heart jump into her throat.
It was probably the smart thing to do. She was working. They were both working. But, then again, the idea of waiting on pins and needles for the rest of this pomp and circumstance was not exactly her idea of a good time. “Sure,” she said, eventually. “That sounds good.”
“Thanks.”
But, she supposed it was worth it, just to hear the relief in his voice. She could give him a little more time to think about it before dragging him down with her into her world.
“I should probably warn you, while you think about things,” and she hated to do this, but it was only fair. “Things might calm down a little, but speculation, attention, media stuff. It won’t go away. Even after the Olympics. So… you should probably consider that, while you’re deciding if this is a thing you want to get involved in.”
“I think you misunderstood,” he said. “I’m not deciding about anything. I’ve made up my mind. I am so down to date you.” The grin that broke out on her face could have left a permanent scar, her heart jumping in her chest. “I just… I need some time for my races. And maybe to warn my mom.”
“You’re really cool with this.” It was kind of unbelievable. It was kind of amazing.
“Should I not be?”
“No, I’m just… surprised, I guess. But, pleasantly.”
“Would you believe me if I said that the hot girl I was seeing turning out to be a princess isn’t the weirdest thing that’s ever happened to me?”
She paused. Because not really, no. And then Piper’s words came wiggling into the back of her mind.
“So, I have to ask,” she finally said, hating every word that was about to come out of her mouth. “Are you a secret prince?”
“...Am I what?”
“Like, maybe of some dynasty that lost its power in the wake of one of the world wars? Or maybe in the German Unification?”
There was a long moment of silence.
“Is…” He didn’t seem sure how to respond. “Um… is that a thing that happens?”
“Not in my experience,” she admitted, “no.” But stranger things had happened.
“I mean… there’s a family legend that my mom’s mom’s family was descended from the Byzantine emperors,” he said. “But other than that… probably not.”
“Probably?”
“Anything’s possible, right? But really, no. I promise, I am just a Connecticut Yankee in Princess Annabeth’s Court.”
“That’s so fucking cute,” she said. “I hate that.”
“Thank you. I try very hard.”
“I’ll talk to you soon?”
“Definitely, princess.”
She shuddered. “Annabeth.”
“What?”
“Please, just… call me Annabeth. All the time, but especially if you’re just talking to me.” Beneath her blanket, she curled her legs up, tensing her toes against the soft fabric.“I can do that, Annabeth,” he promised, and she felt like she could breathe again. “I can do that.”
#princess sailor au#percabeth#pjo fic#my fic#perseannabeth#darkmagyk#patatayo#frenchswissborder#the rivalry ends here#tadaaaaa
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can you please write about having sex with gray in the podcast room and him telling you to be loud because it’s soundproof, he keeps going faster and saying he knows you can louder than that🤤🤤🤤
[im so mad tumblr fucked it and made me lose the original]
grayson moved quickly to pull your shorts down, throwing your lacy underwear to the side, before bending you over the table in the podcast room. you pushed back against him as he teased against your slit, his fingers rubbing against your clit. the two of you fumbled into the podcast room after his morning workout, removing each other’s clothes quickly. there was something about watching him workout every morning that just turned you on. the moment that grayson walked into the house you nearly tackled him to the floor.
“god I love how fucking wet you always get for me,” he moaned as his fingers thrust inside of you, causing you to moan loudly. “this little pussy eager for my cock?”
“p-please...i need you so bad,” you whimpered, looking back towards him. “please...”
grayson slowly pulled his fingers from between your legs before removing his pants and teasing his cock against your slit. his fingers gripped at your hair tightly, pulling back on it, before he thrust deep inside of you. loud moans sounded throughout the room from the both of you as he sank deep inside of you. grayson smacked his hand down against your ass as he set a rhythm, hitting all the right spots.
“yes...yes! right there...oh god...grayson!” you screamed for him, gripping tightly at the table as I rocked beneath you.
“that’s it baby. fucking scream for me, wanna hear how good i make you feel” he smacked your ass causing you to scream in both pleasure and pain.
“fuck me so good baby, god! y-yes...” you reached back to grip his wrist tightly as he held your hips, pulling you back against him more. “s-so big daddy...”
a small yelp passed through your lips as his hand removed from your hair before grasping your throat. he pulled you up against his chest, his thrusts becoming slower and deeper, making your eyes roll slightly and a filthy moan filled the room.
“that’s it baby...be a good girl and take my cock.” he growled in your ear, the depth of his voice causing your pussy to clench around him. “such a eager little whore for me arent you?”
you whimpered a small “yes”, causing him to smack your ass again.
“louder! i wanna fucking hear you!”
“yes! yes! oh god” you could feel yourself clenching around him more, you knew that you were going to cum soon, and so did grayson.
he wrapped his arms around you before carrying you towards the couch, pulling you back down to straddle his waist. you eagerly followed his lead, gripping the base of his cock, before slowly sinking down around him. the both of you moaned as you felt him fill and stretch you. grayson gripped tightly to your waist as you started to ride him, eager for not only your own release but his as well.
“fucking ride this cock.”
your moans became louder and louder, gripping tightly to his shoulders as you rode him faster. grayson was amazed at how beautiful you looked above him, your tits bouncing every time you bounced on his cock.
“that’s it baby,” grayson moaned, before moving his hand down to your clit, rubbing it in rhythm with you. “make me cum for you,”
“oh fuck...fuck! grayson” you ground your hips against him as you felt yourself cum hard around him, your movements erratic as you felt your body tremble.
you heard grayson shout out your name as he came deep inside of you, pressing your body down against him. you rested your forehead on his shoulder as you fell slank against him. he wrapped his arms around you and gently rubbed your back as you both came down.
“holy fuck...” grayson panted “...that was so hot”
you let out a small weak giggle “mmm, that was.”
“we need to come in here more often,” he pulled you back to caress your face, his thumb rubbing against you lower lip, you moaned and sucked on it gently. graysons cock twitched from deep inside of you. “love hearing you scream like that for me...knowing im making you feel so good.”
“you make me feel amazing, baby. and if we come in here i can tell you more often,” you smirked
“i love you so fucking much” grayson pulled you closer to him.
and soon the podcast room became your spot, till one day where you and kris sat on the couch to watch the boy record. thankfully nothing was recording yet as ethan bent down and picked up a piece of red lace from the ground. your eyes quickly widened as you recognized it as a pair of your underwear.
“oh fuck,” you whispered, your hand cupping over your mouth in shock.
“bro! seriously!” ethan turned towards grayson “really?! in the pod room?”
grayson bit down on his lip to try and hide his smile, as he reached across and grabbed your underwear from his finger. “what...it’s sound proof”
grayson winked towards you as he slipped the underwear into his jean pocket, causing you to flare a deeper shade of red.
@bubsdolan
#grayson dolan x reader#grayson dolan smut#grayson dolan fanfic#grayson dolan concept#grayson dolan blurb#grayson dolan imagine
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July August September OCTOBER Wrap Up
I forget the last time I did this so I'm just going to talk about life in general and wrap up food and books for October!
So yall know by know this year has been Awful to me, and October really hasn't been too different. I've got a couple new words to add to list of diagnoses but that doesn't matter when I still feel like shit! I haven't felt like reading, and my hands hurt too much to do much of anything, but honestly October was the best month I had in a while (though it still sucked lol)
BOOKS
The Bone Maker by Sarah Beth Durst 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
Across the Green Grass Fields by Seanan McGuire 🌟🌟🌟
The Lights of Prague by Nicole Jarvis 🌟🌟🌟
I really enjoyed The Bone Maker, so much so I want more like it, but not in the necromancy kind of way. More in the "found family grieving together but apart and learning once more its okay to lean on each other" kind of way
Green Grass Fields was fun, I always enjoy a Wayward Children story, but it ended very abruptly. I felt like we needed a bit more of a conclusion than what we got. I'm sure we'll see Reagan again in future books and get that conclusion, but on its own I needed More.
Lights of Prague was one of my most highly anticipated books, not just of the year, but of the last two years! The release kept getting pushed back because of ~Unprecedented Times~ so I was really looking forward to it! While it was still good, it wasn't at all what I expected. I wanted more monsters and less romance and the timeline was too rushed for my tastes. Also the romantic conflict was solved too easily, sorry but I don't believe someone would be all lovey eyed and apologetic mere hours after storming out of the bedroom vowing to kill the person if they ever met again. It had a satisfying ending though!
OTHER MEDIA
MBMBaM
Love Live SIF
Love Live SIP (season one)
QUBE 2
There's Someone Inside Your House
yall im caught up on MBMBaM and don't know what to do on walks now. Obviously the answer is "start a new podcast" but how can I when theres no more MBMBaM binging (bingeing?). I'll probably go back to TAZ and then The Magnus Archives.
Still playing School Idol Project, though with the recent Persona Collab I'm not sure how long that will last. The collab....sucks so much. We have to play the same song like twenty times in a row to progress and I hate it the songs are so boring Persona has awful boring music and the art is ugly and we have to pay to get the good cards. I play almost exclusively on master though so that feels good! Surprisingly it doesn't hurt my hands, though getting full combos is hard when my thumbs are stiff. I also watched season one of the anime and oh gosh I loved it so much!
QUBE 2 was a quick game that reminded me of Portal. Probably won't play it again like I did Portal, but it was a fun puzzle game.
There's Someone Inside Your House on netflix was disappointing and I'm still angry about it because the killer had NO MOTIVE at ALL other than "weh I have privilege you don't know how hard that is on me" lol shut up and go kill your dad like a normal asshole
FOOD
sticky buns
chicken katsu
bread rolls
falafel
dutch apple pie
grilled chicken
chocolate chip muffins
bagels
cranberry muffins
mint chocolate chip cookies
spaghetti and meatballs
challah
oh I did cook a lot huh! I didn't eat a lot, but I sure cooked it. If you want my cookie recipe you can find that here.
I'm very behind in my goodreads goal but hopefully I can fix that?? It's been suggested I get minor surgery soon to check to see whats going on inside of me, so I'll have recovery time for that to read. In theory. In practice I'll probably watch youtube and scroll through twitter.
Anyway happy November, time is fake, don't forget to buy half price Halloween candy!
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Uh...I meant the first, so where the squad is autistic (like in the headcanons you wrote, I love those)
-Pal
Say less those are me in my element 😎😎 I added some dadzawa at the end cus im a sucker for Aizawa and his class of mostly autistic kids.
I generally only headcannon Kiri and Bakugou as having autism. But, for sake of the ask lets say they all fall somewhere on the spectrum. From experience people who are neurodivergent or are just generally mentally ill attract one another so its not that weird to imagine they all are on the spectrum and/or neurodivergent
Mina and Denki are both autistic and have ADHD
Bakugou is the most sensitive when it comes to sensory input. He’s hypersensitive to A LOT of things
Denki on the other hand is hyposensitive(undersensitive) to a lot of things
Nobody ever talks about ticing as an autistic so like lemme talk about everyone's individual tics. I also think that ticing became a lot more apparent after the summer training camp cus that was a traumatic experience for all of them
Denki - I feel like he does the double thumbs up as a tic from time to time. Also like I think he has lots of little tics like rubbing his hands together or going “hmmm” for no reason.
Sero - rubs or scratches his neck. Pats his chest with an open hand. Blinks really hard like he’ll do it over and over and it’ll make his vision cloudy sometimes.
Mina- Taps her fingers against things like she’s typing or playing piano. Makes little clicking noises. Rubs her noise.
Kirishima- I feel like he tenses up his arms a lot and that this has definitely lead to him accidently activating his quirk more than once. Clears his throat. jerks his head to his left. Echolalia
Bakugou- Echolalia (he does this like under his breath) and Coprolalia (specifically the word fuck but occasionally other swear words. Tenses up his hands. Scrunches up his nose.
(afgfgfhfshoisfhfhf Writing about tics made me tic)
Now lets talk about stimming an their favorite stim toys
Denki - Olfactory and auditory stimmer mostly but also a visual stimmer to a lesser extent. I feel like he really likes scented slime. Definetly has room sprays that make him feel calm and help him focus (Im thinking ozone and lavander?) his favorite smell his the earth when its raining, the sent is intoxicating to him and grounding
Definitely has his balcony door open when it rains even if it is cold
Mina - Auditory and tactile stimmer with a lesser love for olfactory stimming
I genuinely see her as someone who constantly has short acrylic nails (short so they don’t interfere with training and so her nails aren't like constantly ruined) so i feel like she stimms a lot with them. Like she’s constantly tapping her nails against things and softly runs them up and down her arms. Also fidgets with like plastic candy wrappers cus she likes the crinkle sound.
She definitely has one of THESE on her bag and she bought the whole squad ones. She also definitely has a scented microwaveable plush pink lama
The squad all definitely have a sensory stuffed animal whether it be one like Mina’s or a weighted one.
Sero - I feel like it depends on his mood but mainly auditory and visual. Like I just see him chilling in his room listening to music or podcast while he does stuff cus the extra bit of stimulation helps him focus
I feel like he likes those roleplay ASMRtist (like yurivoice , cardlinaudios, madame wigglesworth) he also likes just listening to people ramble?? its like being around people without draining his social battery
He has a whole folder on his phone dedicated to visual stimm videos.
Bakugou - I mentioned it here but he’s an auditory and tactile stimmer. He’s a chewer but he prefers smooth chewables without texture or like ones with minimal texture. He likes listening to the bakusquad talk specifically Sero and Kirishima.
Kirishima - Tactile stimmer mainly. He prefers the chewables with texture and he has a bunch of tangles that he always leaves around the dorm. He likes having his hands occupied
ALL OF THEM HAVE SOME LEVEL OF AUDITORY PROCESSING DISORDER THIS ISN’T UP FOR DEBATE
That being said movie nights always include the close captions being turned on
Movie night happens at least once a week as a way to decompress after a stressful week and they take turns picking a movie.
They all have comfort movies but those are saved for bad days
When one of them is having a bad day they either give them space or smoother them in love and affection. There is no in between.
Bad day movie nights include the persons favorite snacks, favorite movie and they get to be in the middle of the group cuddle pile.
They go shopping for groceries together and remind each other to grab what ever safe food they ran out of.
Bakugou almost always cooks (cus he finds it calming) and he always takes into consideration the groups food sensitivities (he’s bad at feelings but he’s a good friend)
Aizawa has done a curfew sweep and has found them all cuddled on the common room couch more times than he can count. He’s just happy that they all have each other to rely on.
#Morph has mail#morpho writes#autistic bnha#I think about the Bakusquad too much#bakusqaud#Kaminari Denki#Kirishima Eijirou#bakugou katsuki#Sero Hanta#mina ashido#anon: pal#morpho talks: characters on the spectrum
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the darkest hour pt 2
i'm back with my bs. this is for my bestie @lady-ofmagic-andstars. basically, all of my dumb thoughts while i watched 'darkest hour pt 2', 04.02 of merlin. in case you weren't aware.. ✨spoilers✨
right off the bat i'm sad
ok when i first watched this i was really confused. i mean, you see others when they interact with the dorocha have that perpetual frost on their face right? all of them, every single one. so imagine my surprise when merlin has no frost on his face, and he's miserable yea- but he's not dead??
like tbh, watching this again, ik why but when i first watched this, i was SO confused.
arthur looks so worried slkdjfalskfsd
him being willing to abandon the mission to get merlin back to camelot to be treated 😔🤪😎🤤🤩 lots of emotions
LANCELOT. of course it's lancelot. santiago is perfect. actually.
merlin looks so SICKLY. it physically pains me to see him like that
okok hahaa. the scene where percival is carrying merlin. i have several notes on that.
1) ik it's supposed to be all 'noble' looking. yk? them walking in slow mo, percival carrying merlin like he's been slained in battle. knights looking knightly
ALL I CAN FOCUS ON IS THE LACK OF PROPER NECK SUPPORT FOR MERLIN. PLS TELL ME I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE.
like pls
second note, idk why this remind me of hagrid carrying harry back
idk maybe that's just me but it feels oddly reminiscent
colin is SO pale my heart is actually hurting for him what the heck
asf;lsdjfa;lsdfj 'take me with you' stop.
dude they ACTUALLY care about each other. i just love them. arthur is so worried rn and while i'm like 'alsjfalsdj i don't want arthur to be sad and worried' we can see just how MUCH arthur cares about merlin.
like yea, we KNOW that they care about each other. but arthur is the prince and merlin's a servant so arthur can't have friends, but they're friends, and they care, and it makes me happy
ok it's sad and everything that merlin's basically dying but is it bad of me that i chuckle at merlin SLUMPED over on his horse?? probably.
but i mean, merlin is already raising himself up so he can sit more comfortably on the horse. ik that doesn't mean that he's in the clear yet, but he's doing a LOT better than the other people who ran into the dorocha. idk where i'm going with this
to quote the destiny and chicken podcast (who i love btw, if you want an awesome merlin podcast, check them out), they stay on arthur's face for SO long after merlin and lancelot leave.
i feel EVERYTHING that arthur is feeling in this moment. he's so pretty
there's another beautiful landscape. i'm not even sorry i'm gonna attach them ALL.
tell me that's not gorgeous
LMAO WHAT IS GWAINE DOING IN THAT TREE.
gwaine is the EMBODIMENT of 'boys will be boys' when he sticks his hand into that tree and gets swarmed by bees.
he's adorable and i love him
ok but also, someone tell me why capes are so hot. someone TELL me.
separate from the episode but on the note of capes being hot, i want a cloak SO BADLY. like the whole gist. floor length, big hooded cloak. why?? it's not like i'm sneaking anywhere but still. ✨cloak✨
ok the line where leon goes 'if anyone can get merlin back to camelot, it's lancelot' and arthur's face?? idk what to make of it. someone help me pls.
ok actually this probably isn't the best reaction shot but someone please help
the only thing i can think of is that arthur momentarily forgot and was reminded that merlin was in danger bc of him?
another thought is that he thinks he should take merlin back instead of lancelot?
ik for a fact you guys are better at analysising this stuff than i am so pls, thoughts?
i love lancelot so much. first time i watched this, i was CRUSHED
him carrying merlin to the lake(?) pond(?) area and then covering him with his cape? i love it
ok idk why but i love the idea of merlin instinctively going towards the water
it makes me think back to how he's made of magic and basically everywhere, espeically nature, has magic and instinctively- he wants to connect with nature as much as he can so his body just puts his hand in the water
a dumber thought i had, his hand is ✨sparkly✨in the water HAHAH
omg when the water called lancelot i deadass thought it was freya. i'm actually dumb i have WATCHED this before and i STILL thought it was freya
'a future that has been written since the dawn of time' makes me so proud but also so sad at the same time
it's like, yes, merlin is going to 'save the world' but it's like he's there just to do that. anyways, i just want him to be happy
MORE SPARKLY
these water spirts are op but also MORE SPARKLY. hehe i thin kthat's so funny
also, i'm literally only like 7 mins in. buckle yourself in
l;askdjflskdjf arthur going into the tunnels with the wilderons?? i miss merlin ouch. AND THE GAJA BERRIES. arthur misses merlin.
ok percival tackling gwaine?? cuties ;))
heheheeh gwaine kicking a skull and then running directly behind arthur for protection?? pls stop. i already love you
HAHA OK. THEM WEARING THE GAJA BERRIES ON THEIR FACE REMINDS ME OF THIS FACE MASK . THAT'S LITERALLY HOW I LOOK WITH THAT THIS FACE MASK ON HAHAA
yes im dumb, but the 5 of them slowly peeking over the rock and then ducking back down?? i love that so much they're so cute
omg what's wrong with me. not these knights literally FEARING their lives and me going 'they're so cute'
ANYWAYS
gwaine you absolute dumbass. smh merlin just took it but you just HAD to stab it. #cancelled
FRICK. YOU. AGRAVAINE.
YES. i have a love hate relationship with gaius, but BUST into the council room. king energy right there
smh gaius you pUSH over.
I LOVE GWEN RIGHT HERE
YES
FIGHT FOR WHAT IS RIGHT
DON'T LET ALL THOSE SMELLY OLD COUNCILMEN PUSH YOU AROUND
THIS IS ACTUALLY QUEEN SH!T RIGHT HERE EVERYONE ELSE CAN LEAVE
stfu agravaine 'gueniviere'. ST F UP
ok gwen. pop OFF
you KNOW that arthur would've fought agravaine on this. GO GWEN for speaking her mind
oh look at me with anotehr fic rec. sort of, not really. ok but this scene with gwen talking about all the villagers remind of this fic called To Love, Honor, and Piss Off by @thenerdyindividual .
ok so it's basically a fic where basically merlin and arthur have this 'arranged marriage' type thing for 3 years, and merlin is arthur's 'common consort'. what that means is that arthur marries merlin as a show of good faith and to learn more about what it means to be a commoner- merlin giving arthur the tea about commoner life
anywAYS. check that our if you want, but i loved it
stfu 'i feel the pain as much as you' agravaine. hop off my dick
YES. GWEN. PLANT THAT SEED OF DOUBT THAT AGRAVAINE MIGHT NOT BE ALL THAT HE SEEMS. i love gwen :,)
wow when she's intellegent with her speaking so everyone HAS to side with her but also respectful so NO ONE can get mad at her?? i stan. i ACTUALLY stan
santiago is so pretty
the PANIC in his voice. i stan.
HAHA AND MERLIN'S SNARKY 'SHH'
merlin is ready to GO. he's like, sorry for almost dying. that was ill advised of me.
i'm actually soft for any displays of friendship ever. what does that mean about me 💀 KIDDING. anyways..
i love the *swing* *duck* 'yea, not as quick as arthur
sa;kfs;akdfj lancelot insisting that merlin go back to camelot and merlin just nOt
LADS
stop rn. lancelot's face when merlin turns away. i am in pAin. I AM SO SAD OVER LANCELOT. PLS LANCELOT.
this isn't exactly, but morgana's paleness from here on out reminded me of merlin when he was literally DYING.
anyways, that's my note on that
like, yes- i get it- morgana is evil now. but idk should i feel bad for her? she looks so pale and ghasty and just :(
aksfhaskdjfas;ldf morgana
HAHA MORGANA IS SO EDGY IN THIS MOMENT. 'I'D RATHER DROWN IN MY OWN BLOOD THAN SEE THAT DAY' SO DRAMATIC. WHY IS SHE SO EMO/GOTH. LIKE IK I SHOULD BE SCARED FOR WHAT THAT MEANS BUT I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING
stfu don't kill gwen i'll KiLl you
agravaine literally needs to die
stop. i am literally SCREAMING when agravaine is asking gwen to meet him in his chambers. PLS. STOP. STOP STOP STOP. I NEED A WHISLTE. I BITE MY THUMB AT AGRAVAINE. HE NEEDS TO SACK THE HATEFUL MANSION. BETTER YET I'LL BURN HIS MANSION
again, someone tell me why capes are so hot. especially these red ones?? i'm in love with them.
ok see this guy?? he just died with the forst on his face. not merlin?? he started getting better. surly that should've tipped them off that merlin was different
merlin's little head quirk when he does magic. ALSFJASLDFJAS MERLIN. NO ONE SAID YOU WERE USELESS. AND IF THEY DID I WOULD BEAT. THEM. UP. GIVE ME ADDRESS RN.
wow. seriously. i'm gonna attach all the pretty landscape pictures
morgana's like 'i'll cut a b!tch'. ok ik morgana's evil and everything, but morgana flinging that guard against the wall is bad ass
oh this is weird but gwen telling agravaine to 'show courage' but the whole room tinted green? ik this isn't harry potter or anything but idk i thought that was interesting. i'm not abt to go into if i think agravaine is a slytherin or what but still
STOP. GET. YOUR. HANDS. AWAY. FROM. HER. I ACTULALY HATE HIM. SHE'S SO UNCOMFORTABLE. BACK THE FRICK UP AGARAVINE.
morgana :( smh you can't deny that morgana and gwen carried for each other and morgana flinging gwen away is making me sad. don't touch me
asldjfasldasd 'you're never alone' elyan i love you
lancelot and merlins being lads. omg no them talking about gwen
lancelot is SO noble. stop this reminds me of Die for you in secret by @emrysofmagic so much right now. not gonna lie. your fic LITERALLY lives in my head rent free and sometimes i think of it and my heart just HURTS in those last few chapeters. PHYSICALLy. i am in pain. anyways.
stop the trope where it's like "i love them, but i just want them to be happy. it doesn't matter if they're with me or not. i just want them to be happy"
I WAS LITERALLY SCREECHING AS MERLIN WAS CALLING KILGHARRAH i'm not even capping
ok so it's been like a month ish since i've watched merlin bc i was waiting for @//f-f-podcast 's destiny and chicken podcast, so i don't exactly what terms kilgharrah and merlin are at right now
still i think it's very sweet of merlin to bow slightly when kilgharrah looks at him
'the bravest and most noble of them all' 🥺
aw. merlin is really saying good bye right now
ok this scene is weird bc like i said, i don't rlly remember how merlin and kilgharrah are right now but it still makes me sad
asldjfslakdjfasd merlin and kilgharrah are old friends now. that makes me happy but sad at the same time
ok the 'it will be an empty world without you, young warlock' kills me.
obviously, we know that even though they butt heads, kilgharrah and merlin both care about each other
not only is kilgharrah being forced to let merlin go right now, but he's making peace with the fact that he'll be alone
the last dragonlord is planning to die. and kilgharrah is going to be alone again, like he was in that cave.
another thing is that if merlin died rn then we would never have aithusia. i'm kinda going on a tangent now but idk this scene is sad
this forest is so pretty
literally just lancelot's face and lancelot in this whole episode.
that's my note
HAHA GWAINE BURNING IS SOCKS
LADS BEING LADS
I LOVE THEM
omg i always see posts about this.
like merlin and lancelot planned that lancelot was going to walk in first and trick them and THEN merlin walked in
that's so funny to me. they're SO dramatic HAHAH
merlin looks so happy
BRO
ARTHUR
JUST HUG
HIM
PLS
STO
P
JUST HUG HIM WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM
Tell me why they actually look MARRIED here. PLS
🥲🥲 SELF SACRIFICING IDIOTS I LOVE YOU BOTH YOURE BREAKING MY HEART
LADS I LOVE THEM
🤠🤠 arthur wanting Gwen to be happy is KILLING ME. He loves her so much
This is so pretty. Honestly like how
Who let merlin have this many pretty landscapes
HOENSTLY
Lajs;dlkfajd buds in a boat together.
This reminds me of going to amusement parks and there’s always that boat ride
They’re the cutest
Ok so they also have this picture. It’s actually 3 pictures spliced together because the episode pans down and it’s really badly spliced (sorry) but LOOk how pretty that is.
WTF
Omg not me literally copying merlin with his slow mo head flick at the wyverns to make them go away
;sldkfjasdlkjasd leon percival and elyan and my heart.
Ok i’m not even gonna try to lie. They all have my heart
Frick you cailleah
Omg i was like ‘gwaine you dumbass’ jK i love him. Pls don’t come for my neck
Asldjfasldjfka ‘i’m prepared to pay whatever price is necessary’
HAHA CAN YOU NOT. WHAT IS WITH THIS CREEPY ‘COME HITHER’ HAND MOTION MS CAILLEAH
Stopp rn. ‘It’s my density
STOP. I AM HOWLING. LANCELOT
WHY
COME BACK
NO NONO PLS. YOU CAN’T DO THIS TO ME.
stop rn merlin is all alone.
PAN TO ARTHUR WHO IS LITERALLY SURROUNDED BY EVERYONE.
Stop they all look so sad. I’m so sad.
merlin looks like he’s cried
I’m not sure abt arthur with his ‘no man is worth your tears’ type business but still
I am ✨sad✨
I screamed at this picture. I am depressed
Anyways
Gwen’s face is killing me
I’m so sad i don’t even want to write commentaries
Arthur realizing that lancelot only died because he loved gwen
Gwen standing in front of the fire
Aslkdfjasldjfa im so sad
HER STANDING IN FRONT OF THE FIRE ALL ALONE.
I. AM. SO. SAD.
STFU THAT THRONE IS NOT “RIGHTFULLY” YOURS MORGANA
STOP PLS GET AWAY
WHAT IS WITH THIS WEIRD TENSION
PLS DO NOT STAND WITHIN KISSING DISTANCE
IK YOU’RE NOT TECHNICALLY BLOOD RELATED BUT STILL.
PLEASE.
STOP.
I HATE AGRAVAINE
✨we hate agravaine in this house✨
😭😭 not merlin having ANOTHER secret. I’m so sorry bby
Anyways! I’ll be back next week to rant more about the wicked day so I’ll see you then! thanks I love you bye
#bbc merlin#merlin#colin morgan#bradley james#arthur pendragon#king arthur#the darkest hour pt 2#literally every single thought I had#destiny and chicken I love you#this is for you bestie#I have so many thoughts#WHY do I have so many thoughts#gwen#morgana pendragon#angel coulby#katie mcgrath#gaius#richard wilson#uther pendragon#anthony head#anyways#sorry this is so long
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