#this is something im like. agh. i love it
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SCREAMING. AT THIS. AGH. This is so GOOD and so EVIL. And feels very in character and interesting,,, AGH always giving me THOUGHTS
ANYWAY
THE DESIGN OF THIS!!!! OH MY GOD????
LOVE HOW THE LANTERN IS LIKE. DIRECTLY CONTRASTING THE LIGHTBULB. AND I ALSO AM VERY VERY VERY INTRIGUED BY THE FACT ITS GLOWING LIKE. YELLOW AND NOT RED??? IM WONDERING IF SOL HAS ANUTHING TO DO WITH THAT. BECUASE LIKE. SUN GOD
And this is SUCH a good idea for the final boss oh my god makes so much sense. Of COURSE basil would see sunny acting “off” and his subconscious would scramble to the conclusion that it’s some sort of impostor or parasite… and I I I love love love this thing and its design.
Because its just sunny’s silhouette, but the red part not only resembles cracks sort of (as though sunny has been broken and something is peeking out through the cracks it made) but it also looks like something itself!!!! Whoch I feel like kinda represents how basil sees something (or at least the incident, I don’t think his subconscious truly believes in it) as the root of this parasite. BUT it being red gives me the impression of like… the blood once again.
And I think depending on the route you’re doing in the hypothetical game that can be interpreted in two different ways- marze seeing HIMSELF as the cause of this, if he’s using his own blood, or seeing depending on others as an evil act akin to this creature who’s taking over sunny, that he’s no better than it, and if you’re on this route I feel like the fight can symbolise the deconstruction if that concept- but then again it remember something about this fight being different or even absent from that route so maybe that’s just yapping JAJDJS
Anyway I LOVE YHIS ough marzenie designs always go so so hard…
I feel like drawing scenery
Some of these names are permanent and others aren’t, questions about these locations are welcome if you aren’t sure!
#omori#omori au#omori basil#omori omori#omori sunny#hey just as I was writing this my fucking electric went out. what the hell HIM#gonna blame it on HIM basil core.#I’m on 17% too… fuckkkkkk
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Yes, of course I have a thing for the rich lady that sets up elaborate games to hunt and eat people for sport. She’s British she’s posh she’s old she’s commanding and she’s morally revolting. How the hell am I supposed not to have a thing for her
#her name is LADY MOWBRAY for fuck’s sake. she ticks all my boxes!!!!!#like literally she’s got an enormous rifle and calls people ‘dearie’ what the hell am I supposed to do#i heard her voice and I was gone#jon sims really is the gift that keeps on giving. first gertrude and now this lady. I’m having the time of my life#thank god mr bonzo isn’t the OIAR’s only hitman lmao#im a bit late but this was a damn good episode! poor alice got extremely traumatised!#this was not a good one for her between the catastrophic flirting failure at the beginning and… that… at the end#and we got to meet luke! something terrible is gonna happen to him isn’t it#obsessed with the fact that gwen has apparently fully embraced her role. she’s got her customer service voice ready and everything#she offered the HUMAN HUNT LADY some REFRESHMENTS like girlie what are you doing#and what are the Cheshire Bouchards?????? you can’t just name-drop that and not elaborate???#overall I feel like the one that comes out of this episode on top is celia. she’s got some serious guts!#standing up to the human hunt lady right after listening to a statement about said human hunt lady? holy shit celia#VERY very good episode overall. i had a blast and lady Mowbray was genuinely scary (I love her already agh)#the magnus protocol#tmagp#tmagp spoilers#tmagp 15#lady mowbray
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i made a cover for my gender playlist* and i think it came out pretty nice
current tracklist under cut, though i will be expanding it and welcome suggestions!
*a playlist that i think encapsulates what i want my gender to be :-)
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Stayin Alive by Bee Gees
You Should Be Dancing by Bee Gees
Hot Cop by Village People
Love Machine by Wham!
Take on Me by a-ha
Down Under by Men At Work
Working for the Weekend by Loverboy
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Big Iron by Marty Robbins
The Devil Wears a Suit and Tie by Colter Wall
Sleeping on the Blacktop by Colter Wall
God's Gonna Cut You Down by Johnny Cash
Daddy Sang Bass by Johnny Cash
Folsom Prison Blues by Johnny Cash
Sixteen Tons by Johnny Cash
#autismsupersoldier originals#disco#disco ball#cowboy boots#disco aesthetic#70s aesthetic#trans artist#idk what else to add#im kind of sad right now so i appreciate any compliments#never be afraid that i will be creeped out or something i love when people say nice things to me!#maybe i should add the artists too so i can find others who like em but i dont wanna be annoying and spam the tag but. agh#well. whats the worst that can happen#wham!#bee gees#village people#a-ha#colter wall#marty robbins#johnny cash#men at work#loverboy#playlist
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so i'll throw the bottle out, and be myself again-
#hagsdhhdffhfhfh the moment i start drawing before the breakdown. or engaging with that song properly#something is definitely up o-O it's fine i'll be ok once the week is over!#in the meantime have a farrah. i love her.#watt#we are the tigers#farrah watt#have you heard of watt week im so terribly excited. aaaaa#they can all go a little insane. as a treat. agh#finish the lyrics in the tags for my everlasting adoration and love#i'm going back to papers because doing stuff makes me feel a little better#also idk how y'all drink normal tea without milk. like asian teas i get. but i got earl grey from the cupboard and it's odd
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yknow when u scratch the top of a cats head and they close their eyes and their ears flatten down? thats what if feels like for me whenever someone plays with my hair
#like im not joking that shit is so nice#i havent had anyone rlly play with it since i cut it but the thought of someone just scratching thru my hair while we're sitting together??#bliss. perfection.#like i wanna have my head in someones lap while we're watching a movie or something and they just start playing with it for fun. agh.#id fall asleep so quick gonna be so real#anyway. ive had so many thoughts recently. KJGSHKLJGHLKSJGHLKS#mlm#mlm yearning#mlm post#mlm love#gay mlm#trans mlm#mlm blog#t4t#mlm thoughts
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yknow what I think I'm never gonna be good at art. It's at least like not for a long time and not without it being incredibly exhausting trying to force myself to draw. so like idk maybe I should. stop doing that? because I just draw and it turns out bad abd then I feel like shit abd I don't draw and feel like shit for not drawing and then when I do try to draw again I'm carrying that weight of like. It's been so long since I've drawn how can I call myself an artist + maybe I just atraigjt up can't draw and those few times I've made something decent are just a fluke because o stg I'm getting worse but also I'm probably not? But then art has just felt so much harder lately and 9 times out of ten I just give up ans feel like shit and that tenth time is just me thinking something is. Decent enough but still not good and posting it. like idk I got other hobbies. Other art forms. But I don't wanna give up on drawing because I do really enjoy it but also I haven't really been enjoying it lately but also I don't think I could live without it but also I'd really fucking like to be good but also the amount of stress that brings is. Idk it's like 1 am maybe I should just sleep I'll probably be more normal about this in the morning
#thjs isnt even like something im upset abkut its juat 1am and im thinkin#trjed drawing tonight#looked like shkt#usually does#satisfied the urge tk#*to draw ig?#but jts less satisfaction at creating and more well that was fuckinf shit why try again#idk i shouldnt be judging my art by the metric of whether its good enough to post#but also i love enagaging qith people through my art#hut my art isnt good enough fkr that yet#been drawing for years and yeah im better than i was but im not *good* yk#especially not compared to my peers who arent knly drawing better than me but more frequently and consistently#while i get exhausted after drawing one thing#feels like im doing something wrong bjt idk what#agh#whatever#pribably something to do with thr 5+ hobbies + work + uni im stretched between but fucckin whatever#me.txt#lmao morning mes gonna crimge so hard at this shit
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Fic idea I might work on one day based on a headcannon or comment on a walkthrough I saw one day:
A little wholesome fic of MC and Erik. MC romanced one of the other brothers, and Erik is talking to MC one day about a crush he has and she’s like *GASP* and makes him tell her EVERYTHING. The fic progresses to Erik slowly losing his little mask and it’s about how he still calls MC “Princess” bc of how she’s family to the brothers and they were nobles which would make her royalty as well. It only fits. It’s a wholesome fic bc I said so. He tells her about Irene and she gives him tips on how to be his real self (which she knows obviously) and AGH.
I remember seeing a comment on YT or a playthrough with the commentary saying how Erik still calls Mika “Princess” because she’s family to him (and the other brothers obviously) and they were nobles in the Abyssal Planes and he can’t help but give her a title too. She’s so important in their lives, so. Yeah. I think this commentary was from someone watching the scene of Erik and Irene in SM2, where she’s all “What’s with the ‘Princess’” and her being slightly jealous. I just…love that idea and it’s completely canon in my head.
No one can change my mind.
#seduce me the otome#seduce me the otome 2#seduce me the demon war#my writing#I just wish there were more interactions between the other boys and Mika#it’s just like…so sweet. LIKE IN ERIK’s ROUTE??? WHEN SHE IS GETTING THAT RITUAL DONE???#they were all excited and ready to help her and were worried when Damien said what could go wrong😭😭😭#especially Sam’s angry face then LIKE AGHHHHH#I love them so much and AGH I wish there were more interactions#like that old fic of the brothers giving Mika their real names just in case something happened to her and their brother LIKE GUYS#IM EMOTIONAL#seduce me the otome 2 the demon war#seduce me erik#seduce me the otome Erik#so many tags guys-
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i'm going to my cousin's bday party tomorrow which is fun and great except that my mom is also going to be there. we don't talk. she literally skipped my other cousin's graduation party just bc i was there.
#for context shes a huge transphobe who wants nothing to do with me and thinks im soiling her good name just by existing#so. im not v excited about that.#but it's something i can handle and i have support around me!#what i however cannot handle are regular mom things. ive gained a lot of weight since i last saw her and#i cannot handle it if she comments on it im so stressed out about it bc she knows just what to say to hurt me#i got chubby after starting t and i think it suits me. especially if i start hitting the gym or something so i'll also have some strength#like im not looking to lose weight im looking to have a dad bod by my 30s#with my soft round features and curly hair i already look like a hobbit so i just need to get a little bit of muscle to complete the look#bc those bitches work outside i know how theyre built#i however cannot achieve that with just my office job so yknow#im mostly just saying this to motivate myself to excercise bc i know it makes me feel good but actually getting around to doing it is hard#also i would love to stop being weak#i just want to be able to lift heavier things#like. it's unhealthy how little i do rn and i dont feel good about it but school has been sucking the life out of me#so i dont have the energy to do things that will increase my mental wellbeing which. not ideal.#agh now that my thesis is done i might finally get around to doing stuff#after a while once my brain and body registers that i'm literally fine#anyways. im nervous about tomorrow.#but it's fine i'll get to catch up with the nice relatives too#leevi talks
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gloomstalker assassin haima
#by god does it fit the vibe#not with how druidic ranger tends to lean though#MONK IS SO IMPORTANT TOO AGH#i’ll have to play a run with it eventually#the more i think about it the more i love it like narritively#i also wanted to try a solo run sometime and this build might be better suited for that#future simon.. THINK ABOUT IT!!!!#simon says#EDIT. NOW IM CRAZY ABOUT IT WHOOPS AHAHA#that whole philosophy of distance as a means for control#and range letting you carefully and accurately set up a shot#as opposed to getting up close and personal with melee#plus bhaaly boys whole thing with daggers#something something again that idea of distance#can’t spin out and attack someone by accident if you’re chilling in the bushes 30 feet away#edit 2 do arrows count as piercing#edit 3 THEY ARE. WE’RE IN BUISNESS BABY#edit 5 now i’m talking myself out of it with rogue/monk favoritism#the build for my fictional video game oc is IMPERATIVE it’s got me weighing pros and cons rn /j#i leave this for mornjng simon who will either continue the nerd debate or think i’m bonkers
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i just had cute small talk w a white gay barista but im afraid i came off as arrogant
#they looked lesbian asf idk#they asked how my day was so far and i decided to say something other than fine thanks for once#so i was like “i just had a morning class and now I'm pretty tired haha”#and they were like oh? what class? so i responded 'spanish :]'#basically they asked if i was any good and i was like umm. uh well i have to take a certification exam to prove fluency in the next year#so i hope so! :P#and they were super stoked and then they asked about other languages i speak so i talked abt that briefly#basically they kept seeming interested and praising me and i felt really awkward so i was like omg u draw or paint right#and they were like ??? howd u know#and i was like haha i got a vibe ^_^#and they were like... :D that's a good thing right? and i said well yeah ofc that's so cool! and then they told me theyre an art his major#and i was like woaah sick#but basically it was sweet and i felt like i was getting way too many compliments at 10:15 am like way too early for this#im just so worried i came off as self centred or like overly self assured about my intellect#but also why do i gaf. why. some white ass barista who i see every so often is not going to give me a job or be the love of my life#also THEY ASKED!!! i just answered. i also tried my best to ask abt them as much as possible...#agh i hate talking next time ill jsut politely smile and say good thanks ☺️👍🏻#like i always do..#z.post
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i am THINKING and PONDERING bc i just finished season one of My Beautiful Man/Utsikushii Kare and the godhood stuff with Hira placing this godhood on Kiyoi and Kiyoi trying to get Hira to see him as an equal/ "just an ordinary man" is bringing me back to my punkflower & ghodhood stuff liiiiiike imma have to binge s2 and mbm: eternal bc ooooooo i might start talking about punflower & godhood again
#like its DIFFERENT bc for punkflower the placement of godhood is MUTUAL#they BOTH feel this way abt the other- in that detatched sort of way of something you love but could never dream of having#something that brings both immense pain and incredible joy#but see i think that its a direct effect of the godhood/priest dynamic and SO to change out of that into equals would be soooo good#equals as what though is the question. both gods? both human? they've only ever known humanity and godhood is a human concept-#its parameters are decided by humans so who is to say that to be human is not to be godly? that to be godly is to be human?#the punklflwer & godhood as it stands is where they both have strong desire but that's all. connection and nutual understanding is next#in the spirit of a not-quite-yet though it might be only a little closer to the Finally but i have no issue getting to the Finally if it so#calls for it#AGH ok gods im fr abt watchign the rest n thinking abt punkflower#fishy's bubbles
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jumpscared by least favorite seasonal chore
#I THOUGHT WE WERE JUST LEAVING IT THIS YEAR SINCE IT WAS SO LATE. FUCK THE GRASS IT'S SHITTY GRASS#it's almost xmas why did you not rake the yard while i was um. not around#IT SUCKS OKAY. I"M NOT A TEAM PLAYER#ALL'S FAIR IN LOVE AND MANDATORY POINTLESS YARDWORK#it hurts my back and my joints and it takes me forever and it's always stupid bright outside and i hate kicking the rakes and it's never#good enough because if i'm raking the yard it should be perfect right?? it always turns into a 3 day thing and the yard isn't even that big#we just all suck at it except for my dad so he spends the whole time being like well why don't you just do it this way. dad i CANT that's#why i'm doing it my way. it's shittier but it's Possible and yours is not. bruhgh i hate raking the yard sorry that's all#i am feeble and sore and i hate moving please don't make me do this#he's like why do you sit on the ground to scrape the leaves into the bags girl what else do you want me to do. i can barely do the dishes#without sitting sometimes and you want me to rake for 6 hours??? what?????#look i know this is mostly trivial but it sucks okay. fuck my stupid baka life#i have been exactly this bitter about such chores my whole life and im not stopping now. i hate being made to do stuff on a whim that hurts#me for an entire day when i wasn't expecting it okay. i feel like that's a normal response adults are allowed to have even though children#are not. something something children's autonomy etc#and honestly i just hate being in my yard doing manual labor in full view. you should not be able to see me moving around what ew gross#(<- super weird about being perceived doing anything physical) (<- hates being seen moving awkwardly and so anything but small practiced#movements are just. agh. unless they're silly and i can make them smoother but like exertion? No. oh my god i hate that)#shit like oh i don't wanna put a bra on bc that's uncomfy but what if my neighbors ogle me while they drive past i don't want that#just some gangly twink failing a basic task in the clumsiest way possible and fucking all their joints at the same time. sucks. hate#(<- man i don't even feel right EATING around people for the most part like. you want me to RAKE?? movement is a performance and you put me#up there with no rehearsal no script nothing just the wikipedia page for hamlet. i can't do this all of a sudden. what. what)#(<- i just. waughhUAGHH i hate it so so much i don't like it okay. for reasons that are yet to be diagnosed)#(<- no body language is natural to me so it must be practiced to feel natural AND YOURE PUTTING ME ON THE SPOT. IT FEELS WEIRD)#aughh. if i had the leaves on a table and a chair or something i'd be better. not great but better. but all the bending over and crouching#and scooping and getting leaves under my gloves and the scary scuttly bugs and scraping myself on the branches mixed in on accident i just#do not like it. gross#ugh at least now i have wireless earbuds. used to yank out my corded ones with the rakes pretty regularly and Oh Boy Did That Not Improve M#Situation There like. whewwww#and my dad's always like hey i know we're starting late (it's past noon here) but ummm i'd really appreciate it if we could really push
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i need to have a gay romance.... right... NOW !!!! *uses my mind powers to blast everything around the room*
#just. romance....#and romance is so funky . realizing im arospec made me realize things about romance#also i finally realized i havent been missing my ex ive just missed being loved which is. certainly something#especially considering my ex didnt love me for like half of our relationship LMAO#i feel like i dont get crushes often but when i do i get them BADDLY .#demiromantic <33 ohuagh agh#some blue thoughts
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hm. my dad is now aware that i have slept over at eriks when i visit him.
#dont love that.#he brought it up bc i have an aunt and uncle in his city and i think he was going to offer to like see if i could stay with them at some#point to visit him#he was like have you thought of visiting erik in (city)? and i was like. yeah#and he was like. have you? and i was like. yeah. and he was like how many times? and i said twice and he was like oh. where did you stay?#and i said. eriks place. and he was like. oh. well you know you have an aunt and uncle there that would let you stay right? and i was like.#yeah i know. and it was in front of my mom and sister and brother in law and HIS sister and everyone was so quiet because they know how my#dad is#and i was like in the process of leaving so i just like said bye to everybody real quick and left so im still like. agh. scawed!#idk why even its not like theres anything he can do to me its just like. god i really want to have peace with him i do not want to ever hav#another lecture from him or get yelled at by him again idk im still scared of that. and he hasnt even met erik yet and probably has a#terrible impression of him now just based off of that even though i am always telling them great stuff about him i dont want HIM to deal#with that especially because i do not think that he would take as much bullshit which he shouldnt have to but god i just have this vision o#my dad like. pulling erik aside for a talk or something if they ever meet and trying to scare him and them getting into an argument bc erik#would stand up for himself#idk who knows if that will happen im literally making up scenarios in my head to scare myself but christ. \#the thing is also at this point in my life i just like. i have to keep moving forward in like. the whole living my life without constantly#thinking about the church's and my dad and the rest of my family's expectations. I have to. I almost lied to him but i didnt and thats#really big progress but im still so scared. but whatever. do it scared. agh!
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my art teacher is so frustrating
#THE THING IS SHE DOENST EVEN MEAN TO BE OFFENSIVE OR THAT WAYANYWAY#BUT ITS JUST SO UGHH UGHH I KNOW MAYBE ITS MY FAULT MAYBE IM PICKY#but also ALSO HOW FCAN ANYBODY MAKE ART THIS DREADFUL#i love art !! i love doing it !!! right when I feel like im worth something and getting better SHE INSISTS ON REALISTIC SHAISNG BLAU BLAH#NOT ENOUGH#i meaj yeah maybe its my own problem if i dont know how to do realism and if i suck at this#but she kept nickpicking at how i draw too fast i draw too fast#maybe i do need to slow down but its he way and fact this is DEPENDENT ON MY G R ADE#and yes fine i do need to learn things BUT CANT THAT BE AN EXTRA??#ISNT THE PURPOSE OF ART TO HAVE FUN??? ISNT IT?????#AND IF YOU WANT TO DO MORE SERIOUS STUFF THEN TEACH IT BUT DONT GRADE IT LIKE TJAT DO IT FOR EXTRANCREDIY#i don't know its just stupid maybe its my own spite or spoiled behavior of me not being able todo it and maybe#i do need to draw less fast but agh. agh#negative
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the fact that i don't have a boyfriend to share my every thought with and spam constantly is actually horrible
#i want good morning and good night texts! especially when im still asleep and he just woke up or is going to bed and telling me so i don't-#-worry or anything!#i want someone to update me on their day and how theyre feeling and what their schedule looks like!! agh!!!#idk i wanna feel involved and part of ur life even if my energy is too low to carry a detailed conversation or something#mlm#mlm yearning#mlm post#mlm love#gay mlm#trans mlm#t4t#mlm blog#mlm thoughts#t4t yearning
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