#this is our relationship in a nutshell lol

[a-vibing-potato]

Flashback to when I watched the season 4 finale of Supernatural and was screaming crying throwing up because HOLY CRAP OH MY GOSH and the literal APOCALYPSE was being started in front of my very eyes (also I was having VERY dramatic and painful Magnus Archives deja vu and parallels with the end of season 4 of THAT also starting an apocalypse and the Eye/Fearpocalypse) and I looked over to my sister to see her reaction to everything going on onscreen and that bitch was sleeping.

[qsupremacy]

i will never see q as someone wildly in love and pining over picard i think the way some others do. i don't even think he's in love with him in a way we would understand. i think that q has a fascination with humanity that crystalizes into picard and moves on from there into an appreciation and various feelings that don't really translate 1:1 for us because he's you know a omnipotent immortal quasi-hivemind alien.

but also generally i think he has enough self respect and dignity to not pine or wallow over a man who's so obviously uninterested in even treating him with the same level of respect he'd show to a "less evolved" species like the proto-vulcans. he is q for fuck sake.

[kneelingshadowsalome]

Genuinely so obsessed with the ask you answered about reader being associated with König’s childhood bullies and coming back years later to try and make amends……. I need the angst, the drama, the nasty disgusting degrading sex, the absolute turmoil on both of their parts 😭 I am starving for this, the way you portray König especially there is exactly how I’ve always envisioned him in my mind!!!!!! And then with reader desperately trying to make him happy now out of guilt and her crush that’s grown 10x since she saw him in school, delusionally hoping and believing there’s a *relationship* between them and she can fix what she thinks she allowed to happen back then 10 years after the fact, while König is constantly fighting himself to not fall for reader despite his own buried crush resurfacing, and convincing himself he’s only using her to release stress and tension after assignment while simultaneously holding so much resentment for her and her sheer proximity to the people that tormented him back then, I am foaming at the mouth for the toxic dynamics to be found there !!!!!!!!! The old him begging to fulfill some childish need to have her, while this new monstrous version of himself only wants to watch her suffer to repent for how he had to suffer !!!!!!!!!!!!

I know right?! I’m obsessed with this too!

I’m so here for the toxic relationship dynamic (sue me), also me and @bucca2/@wordstome had a whole conversation about this yesterday because König would bend over backwards to self sabotage this shit.

(The following is mainly a summary from our brainstorm session from last night + I have bucca to thank for the precious meme at the end, it’s König in a nutshell with his high school crush lol)

First of all our girl is sooo in love. She was in love when they were young, but now? She’s a goner, König is out of this world. He's so handsome, so confident, the epitome of cool if there ever was one... and God, would you look at those muscles?

Now she can finally drool all over him but back then, what was she to do? As the shy one of the clique, she always tried to avoid attention; she could never have endured what König did. Perhaps it was cowardly of her, but she really was just scared. She could only dream about him from afar, and in her dreams, they would both change schools due to their parents moving or something... Ending up in the same area, finally getting to be together like it was a miracle, Deus ex Machina.

Her silly dreams never came true, but it looks like they're coming to fruition now. And this time, she's going to make everything better! Now that they're both grown up and free from their tormentors she can finally admit that she has feelings for him, feelings that are only sparked fast aflame when she sees the man he has become.

And König can’t stand it.

Where was she when he was odd and scrawny? Where was she when he cried himself to sleep over her?? Of course she wants him now that he’s big, independent and menacing, an odd nerd who discovered guns and gym... He thought she was better than this.

Deep inside, he’s still like this:

...but we just need to forget about it because König is NOT going to fold for this girl.

He’s not.

And the sex is so NASTY. Bordering on degrading, König wants to be a gentleman when it comes to ladies, but this one? This one he wants to fuck like he paid for her. She brings out the beast in him, and he finds himself asking her to get on her knees and blow his cock on some filthy cruise... Fucks her like he doesn’t love her, and she’s absolutely lovestruck, when did König become so mean? (God, that she loves him)

Trying not to fall in love with her (as if he ever fell out), König is so incredibly mad at this girl – is this what she wanted this whole time? A buff jerk who fucks her doggystyle until her knees bleed, who gives her the bare minimum, who barely even calls her when he’s away? (He has to physically restrain himself from doing that because of course he’d like to hear her pick up the phone with pure hope in her voice)

While changing his tactics and devising a plot to make her pay, König doesn’t even understand that he’s falling fast for her again while becoming now (seemingly) the best version of himself. It's only to dump her later, of course. He's just being nice so that she'll cry over losing him later. He brings her flowers, eats her out for hours, getting sick satisfaction from the way she cries about how it’s the best sex she’s ever had. He’s going to bring her to her knees, in more ways than just one... She’s going to remember him for the rest of his life when he rearranges her guts, ruining her for any other man.

König is becoming the thing he hates the most while she’s learned her lesson, now wearing her heart on her sleeve. No more shame and secrets, she’s not afraid to tell him how she feels! How she always had a small crush on him… And not even that small… How she loved to hear his presentations, no matter what silly subject they were about because he had actually done his research. How she could’ve swooned when his voice changed. After a short breaking period, he started to talk lower than anyone else in the class, earning himself more of that bullying because he sounded so manly at such a young age.

König is about to burst a blood vessel when hearing all this: she had a crush on him back then? What the actual fuck??

And then come the cuddles, the slow mornings, the coffee and toast, the showering together… She leaves her toothbrush in his place, and it stares at him accusingly from the side of the sink. She wears his t-shirts and looks absolutely gorgeous, mouth-watering and sweet in them. His sexy little minx, the one who didn’t get away…

Wait, what? No. No. No!

And when his high school sweetheart confesses her love for him for the first time, she's so open and vulnerable and sweet about it. Like she has been from the start, his sweet, sweet girl, exactly the kind of woman he always wanted to bring home to see his mom. König is about to lose his mind when she tugs at his shirt, almost cries when she says how much she loves him and couldn’t bear to live without him… She would cry herself to the grave if anything ever happened to him…

(König is like:)

[tellmeallaboutit]

A couple more thoughts on hells lore and why I found it contradictory. So there are two things. There is "this was written this way in the lore book" and there is "this is the way it was actually written".

In the lore book, it says that devils are genderless and the concept of gender does not apply to them. In some other older sources, it says 1/3 women, 1/3 men, and 1/3 "other" as was pointed out me today. It also says that devils have no familial relationships and do not feel love or affection or sexual attraction like mortals do. Let’s ignore the fact that there were many re-writes and editions for now; most of them follow the statement that gender is not relevant:

And then there is a way it was actually written, which is a completely different story and which has all the real world biases and power structures. Let's look at our beautiful she-devils aka devils presenting as female (for what reason, I wonder, if gender has no meaning?):

Baalphegor (consort to a more powerful male-presenting fiend), Glasya (daughter to a more powerful male-presenting fiend), Fierna (daughter), Baftis (consort), Lilith (consort), Cozbi (consort), Benzosia (consort). If no gender identity or familiar relationships, why... all of this? Why extremely pronounced gender dimorphism, why consortship, why nepotism, why, lol, heterosexuality in all of these consortships and note the type of heterosexuality: a female-looking devil subservient in hierarchy to a male-looking devil?

The exception sorta kinda is Zariel, but not quite because she is the protege of Asmodeus. He put her in her chair. There are a couple more that do not really disrupt the general pattern for me. There is no female arch-devil that is neither consort nor daughter nor granted power by a more powerful male.

Now you can argue whether it was bias of writers, or design (I am pretty sure it is the former, but what does it matter in the end?), but there is a very obvious contradiction in there for me.

So in a nutshell, the situation is like sitting in front of all-male board of directors that point to their company codex and saying our company is absolutely gender-unbiased, yes, all equal opportunity here, IT IS WRITTEN RIGHT THERE YOU BLIND MORTAL FUCK, in fact, our CHRO is a woman, yes, daughter of the CEO but she is like totally competent.

[scrumptiousstuffs]

as i see, FK doesnt have a lot of fanservice they seem so real and honest about the things they do together i think this is the best thing about them! do you see the same way? or am i just crazy abt them lol

Hello Anon! Welcome to my corner of FK obsession 😂.

To answer your comment - I genuinely do not think our wonderfully, weird co-dependent besties are doing any major fanservice (I mean, they might harped it a little during events/concerts), but their interactions off-screen tells a lot about their relationship.

I can’t put it as eloquently as the talented Sarah @/firstkanaphans (who has ways with words) and it seems she answered some questions/comments already re: FK in the last 24 hrs (so, if you haven’t check it out, please do!). Not surprisingly though, after the wild 24 hrs we have in SomSoms fandom. And who could blame us? - we have Khaotung (plus Joong) looking smoking hot in those suits, followed by FirstKhao sitting on each other lap and now them drunkenly kissing during karaoke?? (Also - this is me bowing to Joong who continues to be our lord and saviour in detailing us FK shenanigans 🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️)

But in a nutshell, I agree with what you (and what most of us think) - the boys just genuinely enjoy each other company plus they have found their safe haven. FK themselves admit in an interview their relationship could only be defined as “First-Khaotung” cause even they are aware to some degree the things they do for each other are not most people will do even in a good friendship scenario 😂….I mean, these 2 have GPS activated? on their IPhone so that they are constantly aware of each other location, spoils each other with expensive gifts, sulks if the other don’t show up to any event (First’s graduation ceremony come to mind! - he was so upset and whining to Ciize when Khao pranked him into thinking that he would not make it to the ceremony. I also recalled him playfully sulking and refusing to say Khaotung’s name during a solo event [and instead use variation of “rice” instead] cause Khaotung was asleep and didn’t tune in to his solo event 😂🙂‍↕️ )

Also, I have always thought between these 2 - First is the more expressive and eloquent speaker. You can tell by the way he effortlessly carry out any host duties or events/interviews (while Khaotung usually stares adoringly to his bestie face 🫣 but he is getting better!). Or how about the way First wrote those beautifully penned out what I can only described as love letters to his bestie (during LOLFanfest 2024). Khaotung, on the other hand, he is the epitome of what I will call “action speaks louder than words.” He quietly helped First throughout Safe House season 4 when the latter broke his arm/wrist, and if I recalled, Khaotung helped First ties his shoes during a photoshoot they did together (with the photographer/staff member actually showing a BTS photo of him doing just that) during the same period. It’s not to say Khaotung can’t expressed himself or function without First, but these 2 just sparkle ✨ more brightly when they are together.

And while Sarah rightfully pointed out that during Khaotung’s bday event last year, he kept looking up to see if First is present yet, I will say the same applies with First - during his bday event this year, a Thai fan who went to the event (@/pannjed) said that First checked the door multiple times throughout the event for his bestie’s presence 👇🏽, and you can see his face just lit up when Khao finally showed up

Sorry, I seem to have gone off tangent, but I adore these two boys. I do not know if their relationship is platonic or not, but whatever it is, they are just so so genuine and loving towards each other (and to their fans) that I wish them the very best in life and their career .

I’m going to finish up by putting up 2 of my fav photos of them, cause it sums them up well:

Anyway, our boys may not be as busy or active with events lately, but we are bless to see their beautiful relationship in display! 🧡🤍

25/09/2024

[kasaneteto]

i need advice on how tf to deal with my crazy ass sister

my sister has big fucking problems. i don’t really know where to begin with them but basically in a nutshell, she is 30 yrs my senior but acts like a teenager. in the past she has harassed me & my friends on Facebook as a way to lash out against my dad, stolen my glasses from me when I preferred to take a nap then go out with her, taken all of the gifts she gave me back for no reason while also taking all of the trash out of the can and placing it around the house (and denying that it was her) and that’s really just scratching the surface. it’s always something with her. ive never had a tight relationship with her and only saw her regularly during the holidays (which is the main reason i really don’t like Christmas lol) but she really wants a relationship with me. she wants a relationship with me so bad that she tries to brute force it, texting me guilt trippy shit to try and get a response out of me (i.e. “Why do you completely ignore me?” “Where’s my little sister?” “HELLO!!!!?????”) and complains to my parents that I don’t talk to her. she doesn’t seem to understand that she fucked up our relationship and that I can’t just… pretend that didn’t happen. not to mention SHE HASNT GOTTEN BETTER she’s still pulling crap like this!!! let’s review this Christmas

she arrived and immediately started complaining that she felt sick (I’m pretty sure she’s a hypochondriac bc she’s always sick with or just almost died from something) and hid in her bedroom. she was in there 90% of the trip. she then TEXTED my mom that she needed fruit flavored popsicles and grape Gatorade. she even texted my mom to get her things like a glass of water… when they were like 10 ft down the hall from each other. my mom makes her dinner the first two nights and she doesn’t eat it. so the third night my mom didn’t cook for her. so she ate my dad’s portion before he could get it. the next day was Christmas and she didn’t come with us to the family outing my parents planned. she came on the family outing the next day but was complaining to herself under her breath the whole time. and on the day my mom was driving me home she decided she was coming with us to see her friend, but she couldn’t (thankfully) since the backseat was all full of my dad’s crap. then after my mom & I left she was apparently acting totally chipper and fine compared to how sick she allegedly felt until her friend came to pick her up, and apparently is having her flight home changed to the airport closer to her friend’s. she also asked if I had her number before we left and I said yeah I have it to which she replied “well then use it” … then started texting me a bunch when we were on the road. I couldn’t reply because I had shitty service and she took personal offense to my lack of reply and texted my mom a rant about how “she tried” and “is done if I don’t want a relationship with her”

well she’s not fucking done. she texted me again today at work saying how great it was to see me and she hopes her texts are going through (my mom called her when she got the text to tell her that I tried to reply but couldn’t bc bad service) and I’m like… how do I respond to this. because I want to be honest and let her know that our relationship is fucked beyond belief and it’s going to take a lot of heavy lifting on her end if she ever wants a proper relationship with me. however I know how vindictive she is and I’m afraid that her reaction to my honesty will be worse than her reaction to me just ignoring her. what do you guys think. should I be honest or just keep ghosting

[charlie-pippin-faraday]

V3 TRIAL 2 UPDATE

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH I WAS RIGHT I WAS RIGHT I WAS COMPLETELY FUCKING RIGHT!!!!!!!! SHE DID IT KIRUMI DID IT I WAS 100% RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! god i'm so smart i'm so fucking smart i caught onto it immediately i knew it and it feels so good to be right about it. and i was like mostly right about how it went down!! i KNEW she handcuffed him and drowned him in the big fucking sink!!! and i knew she moved him window to window into the gym!!! i knew she used the cable and the rope! i didn't predict the rope slide on the inner tube and tbh i thought she would've knocked him out by putting something in his food rather than clocking him on the head, but overall i was still right!!!! AND i was right about him being in the piranha tank!!!!!!!! i totally forgot about the pane of glass so that makes sense why they didn't eat them but i TOTALLY called him being in the piranha tank. i didn't predict the right timing, but i don't think that's my fault, they kind of threw a curveball on me mid-trial with maki revealing she'd talked to ryoma after nighttime had started

the motive/why she did it i was a little less on the mark on. i DID predict it had something to do with her getting her kubs pad, though was not correct on the manner, i really thought kokichi would've given it to her, i did not expect the sheer luck of her getting her own (luck? makoto naegi haunting the narrative once again). and no one requested her to kill him like i'd predicted - though ryoma kind of gave himself up to be killed, which was kind of in the general vein of one of my theories. she didn't do it while everyone was in the bug room like i'd thought, but i'm pretty sure she was running around preparing at that time, and her having access to the stuff she'd helped prep in the gym helped her with the murder, so i'm counting my lines of reasoning here to be right as well.

additional commentary throughout the trial:

lmao kokichi was taking NO fucking prisoners with all those absolutely scathing insults to miu

"my goatee makes me look like a glamorous celebrity" lol

"that's our kaito, right?" aw shuichi

lmao everyone be calling kaito an idiot

"that hopeless idiot may have encouraged me a bit" lol is that just maki and kaito's relationship in a nutshell?

"she's not lying! can't you tell just by looking at her?" i think i'm watching a man actively becoming down bad in real time. during a TRIAL

i relied on the walkthrough much less this time! being razor-focused on what i thought went down and who i thought did it (and also being right about it) certainly helped. multiple choice questions were no problem, and i can do the mass debates pretty well - didn't need help with that part! the shooting is actually alright, i can do that (i also got the laser beam perk or whatever it's called to make it shoot faster which was a HUGE help). now, the other minigames in the trial? uhhhh now those i needed help with lol

was i, shuichi saihara, hitting hookers with my car in that minigame? was that what was happening???

i REALLY hate the lying mechanic. i hate hate hate it. it's difficult, it doesn't make sense, and i'm fundamentally opposed to it. this is a TRIAL, it's about finding the TRUTH, why in the world are you fucking forcing me to LIE?! developers there HAD to be a better way than that

okay i've come to the conclusion that the stuff on the kubs pads is utter fucking bullshit and completely made up. because you CANNOT convince me that kirumi was running the nation, that simply is not possible. like i simply refuse to believe it. and also, i know the lore of these games, the world has already fallen into despair, is there even a government to run? if the dumpling that looks like makoto naegi is "someone i'm pretty sure i've seen before" then this doesn't take place in the past, and this is already a despair-filled world! and i might not remember correctly, weren't the motive videos in the first game fabricated as well? to a point, at least, 'cause didn't it show sayaka's idol group dead, but in reality they were just abducted? idk, i might not be remembering that right. idk, something about this just doesn't pass the smell test. there's no way her kubs pad is real. and i don't care that upon seeing it she "remembered" the memory, they have erased and tampered with the memories of the kids in every single one of these games. it would be easy to implant false memories, especially ones that preyed upon her internal need to serve and help people and even amplified it so that there were millions of people needing her help. like giving her a false memory like that is such an obvious way to potentially make her go off the deep end. there's no way it's real, it's just a manipulation

another reason i do not believe it is real: there is NO FUCKING CHANCE ryoma had NO ONE who cared for him, like i also fucking refuse to believe that. THAT is ALSO a deliberate manipulation of ryoma, a man who was already hanging by a thread searching for something to latch onto and to fight for. like that's nothing but a manipulation into making him give up. there probably IS someone, but of course monokuma wouldn't tell him that, it's just a lie to make him give up and die in the game. and that's absolutely cruel

man kirumi really fucking lost it right at the end there, huh? there's something so fascinating to watch about the most dignified, composed person here losing their composure and rapidly unraveling, fighting to reach an outside world that is probably a complete fabrication. man, what a tragedy.

the maki reveal is...not unexpected, tbh. there was so much shady stuff about her. and like toko in the first game, there is not a CHANCE she is killing a single person in this game lol

keebo watching maki strangling kokichi by the throat like "man, why didn't i think of that?"

and thus concludes my trial commentary! man i almost hit the bullseye on this one, i feel so fucking smart. and i think that's about as high as i'm gonna feel, i don't anticipate i'll be as right on the money with any of the rest of these murders lol

on to chapter 3!

[deepdarkdelights]

Hello, I hope you're doing well. I'm sorry to come here and be sharing this again but I feel like I have no one else to talk to about this: So an ex-coworker unfriended me on social media. I admit I also have flaw because he had asked me a question in my DMs but I didn't reply because I believe HR is the best department to answer that question (I was waiting for him to realize that). For so long since 2023 he had been asking me questions on how to get in in the new company I'm working at and I have answered him many times even if his questions are repetitive. Even if I know he can just go and backread our conversations, he'll find the answer to his repetitive questions.

Then there came a time he's struggling financially because he had many absences at work and he asked me if I could loan him money. I told him I don't have money to loan and then he goes posting rants on social media that a "true friend should be gracious."

Idk why he expected so much from me. Idk why he expected me to make his problems my problems. and then when I couldn't help, he makes it seem I'm a bad person.

Looking back, he didn't even come to my mom's funeral when all our other coworkers came. When I was the one struggling and I didn't have a job for 6 months, I never asked for his help as we didn't have any communication then. And I'm surprised when I finally got a new job, he started talking to me through messenger again.

Honestly, I'm just flabbergasted at his audacity to demand for my help as if he's entitled to it when he wasn't even there during the difficult times in my life, when my mother passed away and then when i didn't have a job. I suffered in silence. I beared everything and had to pick up the pieces to be able to start again. He doesn't know what I've been through to get at this point in my life where I'm somehow happy.

(maybe it's confusing but this guy isn't my boyfriend. We're never in a romantic relationship whatsoever, he's gay)

The latest post on his profile (his profile is public) is a snip of his friend count which is 8--- as he recently unfriended me. The caption says in a nutshell that he was subjected to mental torture and he knows he can't really rely on anybody as nobody will help him but himself.

Lol he really believes I subjected him to mental torture? I guess I'm glad he unfriended me. I don't need a person only calling me a friend when he needs something from me, and labels me a foe when I couldn't help. ☺️

Hello, I'm sorry for the late response - I have been very busy as of late.

First and foremost, I want to express my condolences for the loss of your mother, that is an incredibly difficult and even traumatic experience to have to go through. I hope that you know that I will be thinking of you and wishing you peace and comfort as you navigate this loss. Grief is not linear, you are entitled to how you feel 💜

As for your coworker, you owe them nothing. You don't owe them money, or your time, or you help, or your advice and that does not make you a bad person. We are human and when we feel poorly, we like to find blame and direct it to someone else, he is saying those things because he doesn't want to believe that he has had a role to play in the challenges in his life. This is not your fault.

With the time the short time that we have in our life, find those who uplift you and continue to be who you are.

[pallastrology]

FAQ: interceptions and duplications

hello loves, tonight we're talking about interceptions and duplications in astrology. what are they, what do they mean, how do we interpret them? the specifics of each intercepted/duplicated sign and such will be up in a future post! i'll be using my own chart for examples here, and if you have questions about interceptions or duplications in your own chart, i'm always down to try and help via asks :-)

interceptions are an astrological concept that indicates an imbalance somewhere. there are a few ways they can be interpreted, but generally it points to either a lack of guidance or opportunity to express the qualities of the intercepted sign in early life. this leads to insecurities, negative beliefs and problematic behaviours later in life, often manifesting in the way of the opposite sign to the first interception. an intercepted sign will always have its sister intercepted too, so you can kind of see that it has a polarising effect. duplications are often where and how we find our path towards healing from these difficult patterns. duplications show us where we received a lot of guidance or opportunity, where we were shown the right way to express the energy of the sign involved, and where we have a lot of those traits. although there is still an imbalance, utilising our duplications helps us grow and develop the intercepted signs and consciously bring their energies into our daily lives.

when it comes to interceptions, we're looking for a sign that is fully contained within a house, and doesn't rule any houses, and for duplications, we're looking for one sign ruling two concurrent houses. for example, i have sagittarius and gemini intercepted in the fourth and tenth houses (purple highlight), and virgo and pisces duplicated in the first and second/seventh and eighth houses (pink highlight).

time for a personal example: as a child, i was very isolated. i never traveled and had very little contact with my grandparents, teachers or other adult role models. i was taken out of school at a young age to be homeschooled and had undiagnosed ADHD, so didn't take to it very well. in a lot of ways, i had a very unconventional upbringing and was often told i was very clever, but i was taught (not explicitly, but through the actions of the adults around me and the at-the-time unnoticed ADHD) that i was stupid, lazy, careless etc., and that my thoughts and writing weren't good enough. as an adult, i carry those beliefs with me, and until very recently have behaved as if i was stupid, lazy, thoughtless... i would not apply for things, not work hard due to the fear of not shaping up, and would unconsciously sabotage myself, even to the point of deleting projects, ghosting people and opportunities. i think this is very sagittarian, but you can see bits that reflect gemini too. it's pretty bad, and i'm embarrassed to admit it, but after a lot of work... i still hold those beliefs, and the fear of failure, and the worry that people will see i'm stupid and will reject me. but for the last couple of years i have returned to this blog and continue to write, i got my high school education and a counselling certificate, and am now at university studying an academic subject. i even have hopes of writing a book in the near future. what helped me was therapy, psychoanalysis to be specific, and meaningful relationships with good, safe people. over time i became aware that these beliefs weren't normal or right, and that awareness and curiosity about myself is what started the process. i slowly started to be able to put my hectic brain to use and start gathering more practical knowledge. my relationships are what keep me grounded and connected to the world, and my loved ones are quick to reassure me when i need it, or talk things through with me, for which i will forever be grateful. i think it's pretty self-explanatory that these are very virgoan and piscean concepts, lol. in a nutshell, the traits and experiences of the duplicated signs help you to rebuild the qualities of the intercepted signs in a healthier way, and bring balance back into your chart.

are they bad? i would say that interceptions are a challenge. they are painful, and can be hard to deal with. they take time to master; i'm nowhere near done with my own interception 'journey', and i've been at it for years. but a birth chart is a blueprint, a list of potentials, and we have all the tools in that list to rise to these challenges. learning to heal interceptions makes for a fuller experience of life and accessing more of our own potentials. that being said, some things just suck for no reason at all, and interceptions definitely fit that bill. it's okay to mope about them from time to time.

a note on house systems: not all charts or house systems will show interceptions. if you were born very close to the equator, your houses will most likely be very even, and systems like equal houses or whole signs cannot express interceptions. i work mostly in placidus, and so this post is geared towards that house system, but it's always a fun learning experience to look at your chart through different house systems and note down the differences and what that might mean to you :-)

[bills-blog-now]

You know, they say exposing yourself to something that makes you uncomfortable in small, controlled (and safe!) ways is actually a good way to reduce your negative responses to it. You know - like exposure therapy and whatnot. What I'm saying is that interacting with art and such can actually be a good way to desensitize yourself, a little at a time. It's good not to overdo it, you don't want to cause yourself serious distress, but a little at a time in small increments, and in controlled fashions, can actually be helpful. Also it's your blog and who cares what other people think about what you reblog, right lol?

Also though - finding other interests can help too! Finding other people/characters that you like can help with moving forward from a past relationship over time. Either way, I'm sure you'll feel better about it eventually. But also according to what I've read, IE. isn't 30 years like, 1 week for you? (Not literally ofc but perspective wise.) So of course, it's gonna take you more time to move on from something. And that's okay, be patient with yourself!

this was a bit of a ramble lol but I hope this makes sense and helps a little bit. take care of yourself!

...Maybe so. It's why I unblocked the tags "Billford", "Stanford Pines" and, "Ford Pines". It still gets to me, but, slowly, I'm starting to get used to the idea of the past being the past.

As for the finding other interests... I have been wondering about who I am much more recently. Like... what defines me as Bill Cipher? Personality-wise, anyway. Just who am I underneath all the bull? What do I like? My dislikes??

I feel like a Goddamn toddler, honestly.

I know that I enjoy the beauty of space. Always have. Her stars overwhelm me, it's only a shame that I've yet to see a proper night sky. Put it on the bucket list of this life, I suppose.

I also know I enjoy science. I recently signed up for a daily science email newsletter, as well as just today signed up for a free month-long trial of Brilliant through a link from the latest Kurzgesagt - In A Nutshell youtube video. (Not sponsored here.) I've already gone through the first 1.0 set of lessons. This brain of ours has not seen much use outside of art for a long while. I plan on changing that.

I know that I'm not as big of a fan of coding or video games as Kevin is... and I enjoy black humor far more than he does, which is saying something.

And coffee is a delight, but black tea is better in my opinion. White tea is a rare delicacy. I should purchase those leaves every once in a while when I get the chance.

...Other than those things, I'm still rather lost on who I am. It's a good start though.

Also, that 30 years equalling 1 week thing... I'd say that it's certainly a problem for us. We have a shit sense of time. Most likely due to the mild brain damage we have... but also, that shit sense of time keeps getting us into trouble. How long ago did we do something? If over 5 hours pass, we're rather lost on when exactly something happened. And DO NOT get me started on our memory after we sleep. Practically a bleach wiped clean new start every. single. time. Ugh.

Also, I get the feeling that I never slept in my previous life. Which made the whole, "30 years as 1 week" thing more... yeah.

...Perhaps i will start reblogging some more art stuff.

[jerseybumpkin]

every tmbg album in a nutshell

idc if i skipped albums it's my post my choice

THE PINK ALBUM 1: paranoia??????? 2: puppet heads 3: writer's block 4: i hate my life 5: oh no home invasion 6: why did my gf leave me :( 7: i'm a dad 8: kids with rabies are weird 9: the beatles suck ass ngl 10: FGEBUHIWJOKPOFJEH(W*)POKD 11: aNgeLS aRe rEaL 12: MY DOG FUCKING DIED 13: okay what the fuck 14: schizophrenia 15: disfigurement is cool 16: i don't wanna fucking die 17: stereotyping is real guys 18: huh 19: idk what this song is about but it's silly

LINCOLN 1: long distance relationship 2: MOOFBEHUJWIRU#*u9IKM 3: don't do drugs 4: male pattern baldness 5: parodies are fun 6: childhood nightmares amiright? 7: is this a metaphor for being a piece of shit 8: don't be sad bro 9: goddamn i sure love war 10: HAHA PUNS 11: abusive relationships frfr 12: fuck santa claus 13: fuck the haters 14: DIVORCE :D 15: whaaaaaat theeeeee fuuuuck 16: handstands are cool ig 17: i am going to kms 18: manipulating people to get what you want is awesome

FLOOD 1: self-advertising 2: nightlights are epic 3: COWBOY DIVORCE 4: history is cool 5: reincarnation 6: DON'T BE RACIST I AM A BUILDING 7: this can be a metaphor for anything 8: it's not the 1960's dude 9: cool rocks 10: stop moving chairs KYLE it's not cool 11: old people 12: this one's for all those lower-class workers 13: birds are so epic 14: more like taking a shit in the park 15: who the fuck is this guy 16: cave people 17: abusive relationships AGAIN 18: self-advertising AGAIN 19: the goddamn berlin wall

APOLLO 18 1: death lol 2: palindromes are so epic 3: enlarged to show texture 4: doppelgangers bro :( 5: biology class 6: is this about drugs 7: everyone skips this song 8: guitars are epic 9: pavlov's dog 10: why do they love singing about hateful relationships 11: why is this intro so fucking long 12: is this about jesus 13: wooooaaaaahh space 14: don't be shy bro 15: DEATH!!!!! 16: magicians 17: my adhd brain 18: oh finally an instrumental

JOHN HENRY 1: dreaming about death XD LOL 2: snails are amazing 3: getting stoned is cool 4: COWBOY DIVORCE AGAIN?? 5: LEAN 6: this song was made for neurodivergents (in a good way) 7: french is cool 8: alice cooper is so fucking cool 9: does anyone even like this song 10: why does this song even exist bro 11: jail and greek philosophers 12: religious cults 13: this is apollo 18 all over again 14: it's giving tomorrow never knows by the beatles 15: SPOILER ALERT: james ensor 16: "it's too hot" "it's too cold" OH MY GOD AN EXPLOSION 17: stalker 😒 18: roblox jailbreak 19: what 20: woah this is darker than i thought it would be

FACTORY SHOWROOM 1: whore slut bitch cunt 🥰🥰🥰 2: drugs? AGAIN???? 3: transgender 4: i see dead people 5: song of the summer 6: the original song was better 7: dysfunctional family 8: new wave battle 9: hypnotist of ladies's evil cousin 10: presidents are cool 11: ya like jazz 😏 12: I HEAR YOU 13: this is like take me to church by hozier but cooler

LONG TALL WEEKEND 1: oh my god we get another instrumental 2: mink car foreshadowing 3: lesley gore is an icon 4: rats are awesome 5: oh no we lost our token 6: mink car foreshadowing again 7: women are epic 8: this is such a vibe 9: evil 10: violence and killing and murder and crimes :3 11: nuh uh 12: oh shit we got lost oh fuck 13: shhhh don't cry 14: backwards shit 15: thomas edison is a bitch

MINK CAR 1: i love your hair 2: i don't need haters 3: overstimulation 4: goofy ahh 5: this is so corny-2000's-boy-band-love-song-core 6: i am a vampire be afraid 7: aw man you're just a sombrero 8: groovy 9: i am miserable 10: alcoholism 11: it's like that one meme 12: lmao you're so fucking old (psst you're gonna die soon) 13: omg i got run over by a fucking bedazzled car 14: evil skrunkly 15: stop fucking lying 16: who even- 17: james bond inspector gadget idk

THE SPINE 1: homestar runner 2: why is kermit here 3: working in an office is cool 4: holy shit this is so good 5: tomfoolery 6: beach boys reference 7: i hate bastards 8: later on.... 9: abusive relationships back at it again 10: caffeine got me like 11: CUNTY 12: french AGAIN?? 13: HOORAY 14: broke in two like a glowstick 15: writer's block makes a comeback 16: sobbing rn

THE ELSE 1: sarcasm at it's finest 2: YOU DON'T NEED THAT BASTARD IN YOUR LIFE GIRL 3: turn that frown upside down 4: someone call an exorcist 5: coraline moment 6: AHOY THERE MATEYS 7: bruh it's so dark. i guess i'm WITH THE DARK HAHAHA 8: omg clone high reference?? 9: woah that's fucked up 10: damn it my hope just withered 11: bro i need my dictionary 12: amnesia moment 13: it is not the late fourth millennium BC

JOIN US 1: fuck everyone and everything 2: hey girl are you a girl because you look like a girl 3: you're crazy😂😂😂 4: cryptids are epic 5: shut the fuck up you bitch 6: rapunzel 7: woohoo 8: i am a gifted burnout kid 9: can you die rn lmao 10: okay so what 11: ily judy 12: in my hopeless romantic era 13: this is such a vibe 14: don't text and drive 15: dogs 16: what year is it 17: what 18: "i don't like this song" AND IT DOESN'T LIKE YOU EITHER

NANOBOTS 1: go to the fucking hospital 2: what the fuck does this even mean 3: huh 4: this is so fire 5: scooby-doo ahh song 6: my mom died 7: fuck elon musk 8: i must eep 9: FIRE SONG ABOUT REBELLION 10: i am going to go cry 11: fuck the past this is the present 12: shhh these are 9 secret steps 13: bees love your mind 14: hmmmmm 15: nouns are epic 16: ROBIN GOLDWASSER 17: insects and hospitals 18: predicament 19: ooh funky 20: weirdcore bitches be like 21: WHO'S DAVE 22: tiktok alt kids be like 23: and why he eepy 24: such a vibe 25: you can't kill me haha

GLEAN 1: a beautiful mix of death and love 2: i love being alive dude 3: new superhero idea MARVEL GET ON IT 4: this is goofy ahh 5: bro i'm just tryna get you to like me 6: wow what an amazing connection to the real world 7: fight me 8: it's giving musical 9: boyfriends suck 10: incoherent 11: i'm sorry women 12: stop being a pussy 13: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 14: TRES BON 15: MORE INSTRUMENTALS???

PHONE POWER 1: you're crazy bro 2: ily but not like that 3: kidnappings are fire 4: imagination! 5: stop being mean to detroit 6: goofy ahh 7: bloody noses bro 8: i thought this was gonna be like that matt & kim song 9: 4th of july 🦅🇺🇲 10: cryptids again 11: dial-a-song song 12: shut up bitch imma haunt you 13: what this title makes no sense 14: i'm sorry woman 15: woah shapeshifting 16: better than the original frfr on god no cap big facts 17: okay... 18: self-advertisement

I LIKE FUN 1: is this gonna be over bro 2: astral projection 3: AAAA AAAAAA 4: back in my day 5: salty ass bitch 6: this slaps so hard 7: I LIKE FUN BRO 8: banger 9: microphone 10: take a walk on the sunny side 11: turn on the lights 12: aaa nessie 13: what 14: nick offerman 15: WE DIE ALONE WE DIE AFRAID WE LIVE IN TERROR WE'RE NAKED AND ALONE AND THE GRAVE IS THE LONELIEST PLACE

BOOK 1: just to refresh your memory (our last album was from 2018) 2: aaaah di ahh di ah di ah di yay 3: everyone hates me bro 4: CAN'T CUT IT AS AN ARTIST 5: snow 6: it's not just for winnipeg 7: aw man what happened to my dream 8: stupid clown 9: poison is epic 10: where the fuck is thursday 11: you wanna believe me but you can't 12: i'm super cool 13: hmmm 14: i ain't a clown 15: 0 is less than 1

[theophages]

typing in the tags broke so im putting this here:

once again the internet reminds me that my experiences are not the norm.

i was also in the 2016-2019 tumblr lesbian spaces. i remember seeing a lot of discussion abt how like. lesbian is something thats available to you if you want to be - i.e. if you feel like calling yourself a lesbian largely describes your experiences you dont have to constantly worry about like. "i didn't have a violently repulsed reaction to sex with men maybe im bi" type shit. like before people blew up at the poster of the lesbian masterdoc (for realizing they're not a lesbian, i think, which is ironic because the whole point of the doc was helping people figure their shit out), all of those ideas and concepts had been floating around on tumblr for a while, the op just collected all of it.

the lesbian/sapphic spaces i was in were like the only place where i was allowed to feel like. normal for not wanting to date men. and to not feel like i was somehow closed minded for not being into more genders. this was also the only space where like discussions of unique relationships to gender as a part of being attracted to women was even discussed.

like the community talking about how you can still be a woman with a dick so why can't you be a woman who injects testosterone was a pretty big building block for my *own* personal ability to eventually pursue transition.

meanwhile non-lesbian/sapphic queer spaces were so fucking alienating to sapphics and if you pointed that out you were ruining the fun and too closed-minded, and oppressing bi people in the process because there's too many lesbians on TV.

especially in like 2014-15 (i.e., when i was a teenager) i remember pretty consistently feeling pressured to perform attraction to men in order to like, be able to make friends online, and sapphic/lesblr was my path out of that (shout out to closet-keys, gothhabiba etc).

it definitely wasn't perfect, like there was definitely toxic stuff in certain parts of sapphic/lesblr, and included stuff like "why would you date men when they're abusive" type stuff. people also definitely were oddly possessive over things like butch/fem which is why alternate terms for bi women were invented (stag and doe i think?).

but my corner (which i sought out post-monosexism discourse/other lesbophobia in 2016 or so) was generally not like that.

i would mostly just see reactions to incredibly shitty takes that were pushing back on that type of stuff. or being like. hey guys we don't need to reinvent words for every aspect of our shared culture we're literally doing too much.

all of this to say: damn it was brutal out there and its super fucking shitty that so many people were put thru the more toxic parts of lesblr.

maybe the difference in my experience (aside from being a lesbian) is bc the spaces i was in were explicitly trans women affirming & actually contained trans women (one of whom coined co-womanhood as a concept)?

but it also. hm. idk its kinda shitty when lesbians r literally always positioned as big bads in the community. which im not saying is necessarily even undeserved. but the spaces i was in *did* actually try to not be shitty. and they were a lifeline for me when i was feeling really alone and isolated in my gender & sexuality. like i felt like a freak bc i wasn't into dudes and every fucking queer space i was in (including IRL ones! for the record) made me feel othered. and basically like I wasn't radical enough bc i didnt wanna fuck men, like i couldn't know myself or my boundaries because sexuality was fluid (the queer version of you'll find a man lol).

in general from reading essays from historical lesbian collections it seems like lesbian/ sapphic communities are plagued by both the moral scrupulosity thing (which non-sapphic spaces are too - that's the whole monosexism thing in a nutshell) but also from this constant like. navel gazing? is maybe how I'd put it around being visible and demarcating our differences and the constant retreading re: effects of misogyny w/ like the impulse to generalize a few bad experiences (e.g. with misogynistic butches) into a new dimension of oppression (femmephobia).

which is fucking baffling bc like. as talia bhatt shows while some radfem theory sucks ass bc its transmisogynistic, the bedrock - stuff like "sex/gender is a system of exploitation to extract labor" is imo both correct and like. a very important foundation to actually understanding how the world works.

but also. its just really weird to see lesbian/sapphic communities i was in constantly posited as the most vicious/exclusionary places when mainstream queer spaces were talking abt how having a specific gender you were into was so passé and that would go completely unchallenged between like 2012-2015.

and to then erase the work people were TRYING to do to combat the toxic shit, to unilaterally state that we're "allowing" terfs to be the only voice for lesbians/sapphics... kinda fucking sucks.

idk, like yeah sapphic/lesbian tumblr had its issues but they were not unique to us, and it's frustrating to see an ideologically diverse community branded as the ones responsible for all of the issues. especially when the hostility towards sapphics/not being interested in men like, very literally drove me to more explicitly sapphic/lesblr corners of the internet. because the mainstream discussions queer spaces were so fucking radioactive.

i don't even know what the answer to any of this is, bc the radicalizing siloed echo chambers thing very much flows both ways, and usually starts with having a fucked up interaction with someone.

and i think that fucked up interaction typically comes from shame/insecurity that gets triggered by seeing someone live differently or in a way you don't understand. but god its fucking everywhere.

only just remembered the conversation I had with the person who said they couldn’t read anything written by a lesbian because they were a bisexual and it would be seen as infiltrating a space that wasn’t intended for them and wasting resources that weren’t theirs to use and they were terrified of getting in Trouble.

[magigalselfships]

Talia: Someone will die.

Me: Of fun!

[scrumptiousstuffs]

Our Skyy2, The Eclipse (episode 1) in a nutshell is a mixture of sweetness, goofy but with subtle nods to what can happen in new found relationships (and how 2 essentially different individuals need to find ways to compromise and communicate to grow as a couple)

I love the sweet scenes that Akk and Aye have together and despite some people criticism about how Aye is portrayed in the special episode (apparently some people find him dismissive to Akk in some scenes) - remember, these are 2 teenage boys who are proud and headstrong individuals (of course they are going to clash! And without teacher Dika and the Suppalo mystery to loom Aye down, I truly believe he is free to unleash his cheekier side even more, especially towards Akk, who he loves to tease - he said it himself, he finds pouty Akk attractive 🫣).

But what Aye needs to learn is to tone it down a little. Akk has always been more sensitive, a people pleaser, and still feels insecure in his newfound relationship. He still learning cues on how to read Aye (and vice versa). On the other hand, Aye in a round about way (he is not doing it too well), is asking Akk to be a bit more selfish and think about himself first, to put his own happiness as a priority (not just other people). On the plus side, how cute is Aye when he placates his sulking BF (and he clearly knows the way to Akk’s ♥️, who melts everytime Aye whisper sweet things to him)

I also feel this thing about Akk’s birthday - I have a feeling Aye is aware and he is deliberately ignoring it to surprise Akk (look I might be wrong lol, but I just can’t see Aye NOT remembering Akk’s bday).

I think Akk is one of those who probably prefers everything to be outlined to him clearly (otherwise his anxious mind that is so previously rigid before with rules can’t cope! But he also like quiet gestures like a simple dinner and just spending quality time with his BF i.e action speak louder than words (remember cowboy Akk said this to aye?).

Aye clocked on this early on, expressing his love to Akk (we can see this, by his cheesy romantic darling/cutie/“my place is in your heart gestures”)….and doing cutesy stuffs like the matching hoodie etc (Hence why I think he is planning this grand gesture for Akk bday, although Akk’s insecurity is rearing it’s head in this!)

Anyhow…I can’t wait for the second episode - people, we have a shower scene?!!!!!! (We were deprived of this in the original series, despite the original trailer having it!! - so to have them tonight, woohoo!)

(Look the other scenes in this episode - like the reenactment of the movie scenes and KanThua relationship I can give or take - but I appreciate them nevertheless!)

04/05/2023

[marsvs-thesun]

Oof had to take a few days fighting the brainrot to get some actual work done, end of semester and all that jazz... sorry. This is all DELIGHTFUL tho! I'm realizing i actually love whump thanks to you lol

On one hand i totally agree with you, on the other i feel like Pythus couldn't resist the urge to gloat about one upping Ingressus ^^" well, so long as he's a terrible person he's in character i suppose

YES! It's about the trust and its inevitable break! Damn Senn's loved ones all want to kill each other... poor little guy. Will Senn ever understand the kind of person Pythus is tho? It's hard to let go of the only person in the world who had your back, no matter how terrible they were.

Del is trying his best! He's just Like That. Thankfully, Ria is kinda Like That too so I have a feeling they would be best buds by the end of the war lmao. Give murderous teenagers/young adults/no canon age with a death wish or give me death!

Listen. Almrak deserves to bonk someone and Pythus deserves to be bonked. It just works! (Side note, but i've always headcanoned Almrak as pretty good with bow or a crossbow, since he has two hands and a lot of free time, sooo here's another possibility as to How To Commit Regicide)

...Not to be angsty on main but now I'm wondering what kind of leverage Pythus could gain over Senn if he found out about his little found family... would be a reaal shame if one of those lovely people were to lose their head :) Thalleous and Osivian deserve that L imo. Imagine you raise a child so horribly a literal hostage situation/toxic situationship is were he finally starts to heal and finds comfort. They failed SO hard.

"Pythus tempting the Cain instinct" that's it, the character in a nutshell. Ultimate characterization. We made it.

Ooooh well you did NOT help me finish my homework considering ive reread this at least three times so far but i forgive because this is some DELICIOUS food /lh

Oh Ingressus you self sacrificial little idiot. He really would sell his soul for the slightest improvement of the Voltaris' situation uh... This man is NOT putting his oxygen mask on before helping others. I love him dearly.

Weird detail but i love your use of colors in this! I was really annoyed with the Nether in SoW being all dark red and gloom, since it came out after the Nether update and the new Nether is literally so beautiful and colorful! Let Netherans wear teal and magenta and gold/quartz accents! Let me see soul fire goddamit! There's more to life than Nether bricks

Damn Pythus living in luxury/throwing his wealth in Ingressus' face is super interesting since i'm pretty sure the canon reason for the Nether's original involvement in the Great War was their lack of ressources, and especially food... (I'm taking this from the season 2 commentary i think? I'm not sure anymore, and i doubt the video is still online). Like, either the man is really trying to flex or he's a terrible king (it's both. but mostly he's terrible)

The thing with the sow protecting her babies with her life... it's about Dominus and Ingressus right? Cause if that's the case then the foreshadowing this casts on their relationship is... aaaaah

First time in my life wanting to eat blood soup damn. You make it sound really good.

YES INGRESSUS! STAB! STAB! STAB!

Ingressus about to teleport outta here lol. Poor guy is having the worst social interaction of his life. Being thrown off a cliff was less awkward.

The handmade gift thing is such a good hc! I almost want to think Pythus is being genuine here... I am not immune to propaganda.

Oooooh Tygren's gonna diiiiieeeee

Necrophilia is one thing, but Pythus is Netheran... and Netherans are the best Necromancers out there. Anyone down for a zombie!Senn AU?

(Somewhat unrelated, but circling back to the beginning of our conversation- I remembered that the suitors have a villain song in epic! and it fits Pythus a little TOO well actually, especially the second verses. It's Hold Them Down if you want to listen to it, though the final version isn't out yet. CW for sexual assault in the third verse, though, it IS a villain song and not a very fun one. But very catchy!)

That's it btw, you've got me. Despite my best effort i've started yet ANOTHER fic i might never finish but hey might as well try. It's Ingressus/Pythus and i might steal a few of your hc for it cause ngl they are really good I have a few idea for platonic Senthus as well, but i think they would require a longer fic than a one shot so they'll stay in my head for now :)

This close to drawing a ria and herobrine animatic based off no longer you

Ria is Odysseus

Herobrine is tiresias

Ria is pissed about this whole situation

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