#this is only a fraction of my thoughts

[the-nation-of-today]

Any BVB song: [exists] Andy: But what if there was a woah oh??

[the-art-of-sanshoku]

Not me skimming back through every Kuuga ep I've seen so far to get a comical number of screenshots of every Godai outfit/accessory so I can give him something more than red flannel and the Carhartt jacket in my art.

I took Ichijo pics too but he really does just wear like 4 suits and his big jacket lol. I've also noticed the suits always look a little big on him and it's very cute. But please I'm begging give me Ichijo casual outfits...

Also give him these sunglasses back they're funny

[shalom-iamcominghome]

It seems, sometimes, like people sometimes almost expect converts/converting people to hate where we come from, and if I'm honest... I think connecting with judaism has made me want to connect with my roots even more.

I'm thinking about starting to learn the languages (some of) my family would have spoken before emigrating to where I live now (german and italian), and, hell, I've learned a lot about xtianity since officially embracing judaism and diving head-long into it.

In my experience, judaism doesn't inherently demand that you forsake everything you were or are. What is asked of you is to embrace judaism. To recognize g-d, to worship g-d, to willingly join the jewish people. That is not the same as demanding you to spit on what led you where you are now. Nothing will change my past, my heritage, and judaism has actually helped me appreciate where I come from. I want to connect with myself, my family, because I embrace judaism.

I don't want to speak to other people's experiences, so just a reminder that this is only my story as a student, as someone who adores judaism and appreciates the experiences that were a one-way ticket right to where I am now.

[kaurwreck]

forgive me if this is a stupid question but could you elaborate on chuuya and fyodor being narrative foils??

Oh, I don't really think they are! I do think Chuuya is a Christ figure, and Fyodor is a false prophet of sorts (he's really a Lucifer figure, especially considering the Untold Origins play, which I'm almost certain is adapted from The Revolt of the Angels by Anatole France, but that's neither here nor there). But not really foils.

Rather, Chuuya and Verlaine are foils, and Dazai and Fyodor are foils. Thus, it's fitting to me (and increasingly I think it's where the narrative is going) that Verlaine and Fyodor are parallels.

(Verlaine is alive because Rimbaud resides in him; Fyodor is alive because he resides in others— they're both polyphonic, in their irl literary voices, and more literally in bsd. Verlaine is inhuman as a clone; Fyodor is inhuman as a demon/conjurer. And also, this monologue by Verlaine, but in the context of Fyodor who is seeking salvation by cutting down all of humanity for being sinful and plunging the world into primordial chaos: "Rimbaud. Just once, I want you to imagine just how much it would affect a person if you told them they weren't human. Imagine how it feels to be told you weren't born with God's love, that you are nothing more than a character set someone suddenly came up with. Imagine the depths of a person's heart pierced by those words. It's a pitch black abyss where the moon can't be seen. There is no hope. There is no salvation. Do you get it?" Verlaine was so lonely and couldn't kill humanity no matter how much he claimed to hate it; Fyodor is so lonely and can't bear to kill himself without taking all of humanity with him, even as he claims to be bored by it. Etc.)

Chuuya and Dazai thrive together but apart, and I think Verlaine and Fyodor would nurture one another in claustrophobic togetherness.

[unsettlingcreature]

i just wanted to show off this sketch :)

[notafraidofredyellowandblue]

It seems 99% of the Tillchard interactions happen behind the scenes 😭 why are they so private??

Hmm, interesting... ofcourse the on stage part is only 2 hours and they are working off a pretty fixed choreography there, fortunately there is some ad-libbing these days, not like in the old days, when the guys did the tequila-ritual because that was basically the last time they would interact until the show was over. But it's just a fraction of a day, and all the other hours of the day we don't see, which is a shame for all of us who love the cute moments, but in a way they are cute because they don't do them just for us, but just because the mood makes them 🌺

Till and Richard have known eachother for such a long time and have worked close together for most of it too; I could imagine Till sees most of him in private, next to maybe Flake (I'm convinced Till and Flake go to the neighbourhood pub on friday evenings and grumble about the world and life in general, and no one can change my mind on that), so maybe it's like when you're a long-married couple, and you go to a party with mutual friends together, you mingle with other people in that party, and only at the end of the night on the carride home you realize you didn't spend any time together with everything else that was going on..?

Maybe it's something like that? 🌺

But i think this year, maybe even more than in the past few years, there's so much interaction on stage between all of them, and so much obvious fun, that i bet if they do share a ride home after the show they'd say "now *that* was fun" 🍀

🥰

That, and it's a six-men-marriage, so they both have to keep the other husbands happy as well; it's a lot of work, being in a six-some 🥰

[charmixpower]

got any future plans for adding to the child Valtor au, because the more i think about the more i wonder about how his age changes the way he interacts with the characters and vice versa

I cannot tell you how much I've been thinking about child Valtor ever since I made that post

You what a bunch of hcs??? You get a bunch of hcs!!!

Like Winx says that Valtor was made by the ancestral witches, he wasn't born, and he actively trashes against the control the ancestral witches have on him and they straight up help Bloom kill him for the kicks?? And it's like, just there? I love it but it's so easy to kill off Valtor bc he has control over his actions and he's an adult and you don't get to sit with these uncomfortable implications due to that. The tragedy has already happened, it's passed, you don't have to look at it. You know??? Not anymore, we all hurt forever

Can you imagine being Daphne??? Seeing Valtor hiding behind Belladonna's leg, this child. Can't be older than 11. Fighting your fellow Nymph's, and you can't even think about that, pay attention to that, because you need to fight Belladonna and protect your planet. This wasn't a priority, that child those evil women created wasn't a priority. How would you ever recover??

The company of light is made up of educators, people who dedicated their life to children. A stutter, a small child's eyes winding in panic. None of them could follow though. It was safer to kill him, he was made, he doesn't have a soul, it was the right option. They send him to the Omega dimension instead

He wakes up from the ice to see Belladonna's cold eyes staring back at him. She doesn't look the exact same but he knows that smile and he knows those eyes. He'd recognize his mother anywhere. He does what he's told for new Belladonna too, not that he knows why. Icy has plans, plans he's supposed to help out with

He clings to Bloom. Her magic feels like his, she's the only person who could begin to understand how he feels. She was chosen too, right? She gets it doesn't she? How could she not. He just wants someone, anyone to understand him, to help him. He couldn't tell you what he wants help with. The Ancestral Witches say he's loyal to them, and he's never been able to disagree with them before

He doesn't like the winx, he's never shared in his life and is loathed to start now. He plays tricks and schemes and never kills them. He mains, he disables, he distracts. This is fun. He's never had a true enemy, rival. The company of light wanted to defeat his mother's, these are his fights. It's fun, he wants to keep them

(You ever think about the amount of times Valtor could of straight up killed the winx or put his mark on them and he just kinda doesn't and then gives their romantic rivals a love potion??? Bc I do. That was weird and the entire reason this au exists. Like Valtor basically made the perfect opportunities for the winx to get their Enchantix by never directly trying to kill them. It's almost funny)

Valtor is completely incapable of free will but he does experience desires and he has the ability to think for himself. One of the winx asks him why he's doing all of this and he literally can't answer, he doesn't want to, he doesn't want to be here, but he does? That's why he's doing it, right? And the girlies get a front row seat to a child gaslighting themselves to cope with their inability to control their own actions

He wants to be powerful! The most powerful person in the dimension! Then he could do whatever he wants! Then he would be free! At least that's what he tells himself (he knows it's not true, but children are allowed to have their fantasies)

They could extinguish kill. He barely came up to Bloom's chest, and they could just extinguish him. If Bloom pulled at the fire element in his body and Aisha the water they could pull him apart. Making a soul sounded impossible and has never been done before but that's the only way to release the Ancestral Witches control on Valtor, so they'll do it

[lalalychee]

people responding to that one poll like "being 14 is the worst time in your life" lmao bro i wish that were me and my experience. i swear every year is so much worse than the last. 14 was a joke compared to what i have to endure now.

[lonesome-dreamsss]

i'm SO UPSET that tony never got to see steve's angst beard!!!!!! like let's be so real, steve was in shambles bc he missed his bf and said bf didn't even get to see it!!!!! that's a CRIME!!!!!

[maddestmewmew]

as i get older (points at the shiny badge that says 19 and one day) i realize you dont suddenly have ur shit together. but also you dont think "oh NO ONE my age has their shit together!" you just think "oh dear god everyone has their shit together EXCEPT me. which is entirely different from when i was 16 and thought everyone had their shit together except me because i was WRONG no 16 year old has their shit together! but this time i really am the exception!!"

[gaylittleguys]

(transgenderly) I think the distinction between different names for Solid Snake/David is so interesting. In writing/dialogue I try and make the distinction between the Person David and the Persona and Role of Solid Snake. Sometimes the two are the same, but the difference is also important. Especially bc the games are so careful and deliberate about it and what they show of him (esp mgs2 I feel)

ALSO I think. Augh. Thinking too much about only a select few knowing him as David……

[aceteling]

For real tho. My best friend is right it's really hard to get excited about the mundane anymore I need sth to look forward to that isn't just. A fuckin day of rest and that everything all over again

But it all feels pointless anyway

[plateofpie]

i drew some yesterday and have a couple other things on the way(?) and i finally touched some writing after not doing anything with it for a month but all i can do is wait for this short burst of productivity to end. i can never enjoy it because it’ll be gone soon like it always is

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I'm part of an Unknown Armies campaign run by my girlfriend, and it's driven me to strange madness. Today I made a conspiracy board for it. I've made memes. I'm painting a map of the setting. I started writing a novella loosely based off of my character, which feels like fanfiction. There's an NPC I'm in love with and her existence makes me want to create fan content. I've never created fan content before, for anything. I'm considering writing fanfic for Blorbo from my girlfriend's head, that's where we're at right now. What is going on

[nat-seal-well]

Meet Muri Langford, who is an F-mancer detective I’ve been working on for a while. She has anxiety and worries about the rest of the team 24/7 and likes astronomy :)

She depends on logic a lot and enjoys science, because it makes sense to her and being able to watch the way the universe works is a comfort. Needless to say, the truth about Unit Bravo and the Agency did not go very well with her at first.

[sketchdeath]

thinking about how i legitimately have a learning disability that was never ever caught despite [insert all the horrors] and now im an adult who has barely an elementary school childs basic grasp of math 😐🤨‼️👍