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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 3 months ago

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I'm part of an Unknown Armies campaign run by my girlfriend, and it's driven me to strange madness. Today I made a conspiracy board for it. I've made memes. I'm painting a map of the setting. I started writing a novella loosely based off of my character, which feels like fanfiction. There's an NPC I'm in love with and her existence makes me want to create fan content. I've never created fan content before, for anything. I'm considering writing fanfic for Blorbo from my girlfriend's head, that's where we're at right now. What is going on

#we're like three sessions in #its just making me want to be so creative but only for that stuff #like my brain has been lightly puzzling out how to do a map from the setting but in knitting #because painting the mao hasnt been enough for me i want a fucking commemorative hand knit tapestry #and theres a character i love so much. shes a sweetie and autistic in my heart #ive never made fanart bcuz i cant draw. luckily another player is so good and does art of her #but my heart wabts to do fanart of her #i write. so ive considered trying fanfic writing for this specific thing #ive never written fanfic before. idek where to start. but the urge is in my heart becaue i love this character!!#i spent a whole fucking hour today going through my session notes and putting together a digital conspiracy board for this #(cuz its a mystery. im trying to figure out the mystery)#conspiracy board didnt help but i sure had fun making it #since i developed mental illness i haven't had a fraction of this creativity!! what is happening to me??#im not upset its just strange. it feels like my brain has been rinsed with cold water and did some stretches #the maintenance person in there had a moment of adhd motivation and deep cleaned it #i show my gf all of the things. like i send her the shitty memes i make mostly bcuz she inspires them #and i expressed my desire to make fan content which she approved. even though i havent those types of talent #i want to get back to painting the map tho ive been neglecting it #i have 10.000 words written for a novella that was inspired by one piece of backstory for my character that my gf thought of #idk this campaign just gives me the brain lightning

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