#this is not supposed to be shade to any real people btw just trying to ramble about the lyrics!
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jade-efflorescence · 3 months ago
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don't smile is devastating actually bc the rest of the album has such a confident, flirty vibe to it and then she sees him in the same room, having the time of his life without her by his side. and it's all for nothing. the prophecy is fulfilled, the epic love story is achieved but there's no starring role for her. and it is what is and maybe this is what was meant to be but it still hurts. i would cry because it's over too.
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wandixx · 15 days ago
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Ok it closes out on me when I tried typing it the first time-
Anyway, I'm a sucker for shock value ones, just so funny to me, so how about M'gann being nervous about introducing bf danny and it happens at an inconvenient time! Could go ghost royalty, ancient of space or anything, hell ghost as dragons would be pretty funny, up to you though!
I'm not sure if I did a good job at this, but I didn't want you to wait too long and real life is keepimg me busier than expected, so for now, it's here. I may continue it one day (I also have different version of fill for this prompt, because neither idea felt right, so if you'd like to see I too, just let me know whatever way is most convenient to you)
This wasn't supposed to happen like that. M'gann didn't have a super detailed plan on how it was supposed to happen, but even her vague (thought and rethought every night) ideas were anything but this. It was supposed to be a calm, low-stakes situation. Maybe even make it look like an accidental meeting, Team in civies hanging out around Happy Harbour, bumping into Danny and then she'd just introduced him, perhaps adding ‘btw, he is my boyfriend’ almost like an afterthought. This seemed like the best possible scenario.
This was also, as expected with the way hero life is, the exact opposite of what actually happened.
Of course, it didn’t start with anything heralding the absolute disaster this day had to become. Kinda accidentally the Team stumbled upon something between a cave and a basement, and in it a group of people, who decided to perform a summoning of a genie so they could… wish for stuff. They didn’t even look like cultists or villains of any sort, just a group of random adults from seemingly very different backgrounds. M’gann had a really hard time understanding what actually brought them together other than their wishes.
Which was actually pretty useful when it came to fighting them, because nobody really cared about their fellow summoner, just trying to save their own butt. She kinda wished more of their opponents were so incompetent.
Though, she spoke too soon because in the excitement of the fight, somehow all of them didn’t realize that one or two of the summoners… actually managed to finish a summoning. It was honestly a little bit embarrassing.
But, it was too late to dwell on all that, as right above the summoning circle appeared a circle in a worryingly familiar shade of green.
Of course, this one time she didn’t have any equipment from Danny, had to be when the Team encountered a ghost.
Ghost in question was a beautiful woman, with long hair covering one of her eyes, in a blue outfit that was related to one of Earth cultures, but M’gann didn’t know which, and a bunch of bracelets on her wrists. Martian could make a hazard guess on who it was, based on the stories Danny told her.
“We don’t have time for explanations, I think I know who this is, if I’m right for the love of everything that’s dear to you, don’t say the word ‘wish’ out loud” she demanded over the Mindlink.
Before she finished, Artemis took silver tape from somewhere and slapped a piece of it over Wally’s mouth. M’gann understood the sentiment but still… it was a little bit too nuclear option.
Desiree (if it was her) didn’t attack anyone, looking a bit confused, giving Team a moment of reprieve to plan and for Kid Flash to make sure none of the summoners could make whatever wish they wanted either. Also with the use of silver tape. Djinn’s were always tricky.
M'gann used this moment of everyone getting their bearings to curse herself for not bringing any ghost weapons this time. Any other mission, Team or not, she had something on her but today? Today she had nothing.
Excluding the summoning engraved into clips holding her cape but it was kinda last resort. It wouldn't annihilate everything in one mile radius or something but she didn't want to drag Danny there if he was during a test, other ghost fight or something. She knew better than anyone that he didn’t need more distractions.
Conner crashed into a wall right next to her. Artemis seemed to lose her cool when none of her arrows seemed to reach the ghost while Robin was trying to make some counter plans with Kaldur. They couldn't do a thing to Desiree and it was a matter of seconds before she stopped entertaining them and went to the city. It… would end badly, most likely. Danny would prefer to get involved before it got that far. Yeah…
She really wished she didn’t have to call.
“I have an idea, cover for me for a minute or two”
“Bold of you to assume we can stop her from anything”
“I believe in you Wally. Just distract her”
“My water attacks seem to be effective weapon against her”
“That’s aster! What do you plan to do, M'gann?”
“Summon another ghost”
She expertly ignored yelling that followed, taking the golden clip off of her cape. She held fabric in place with absentminded use of telekinesis, while she focused on an engraved pattern. Danny's summoning circle wasn't actually too complicated or intricate but she needed to do it just right. And frankly, she just liked looking at it. Physical proof that her boyfriend would be there if she needed it. Drawn representation of who he is, the deepest and truest parts of his soul written in the language that only Universe itself could fully understand.
And it was beautiful. Absolutely incredible. Much better than Desiree's circle, thank you very much.
M’gann dropped to her knees and grabbed leftover chalk from previous summoning and crouched to quickly draw Danny's seal. She had a lot of practice from all the times she doodled it on a whim just to get something of him with her when she missed him the most. She rarely actually summoned him, again, it was difficult to align their schedules, but she was very familiar with the first step.
And it was really easy from there.
She placed the clip in the middle of the circle, shapeshifted one of her nails to get a bit of blood on the chalk and leaned back.
After a careful, deep breath, she started an incantation, putting as much power in her voice as she could.
“I call upon you guard of Amity Park, I call upon you dearest child of the Ice, I call upon you one favored by the Time, I call upon you vanquisher of the Fear, I call upon you subduer of the King, I call upon you defender and the guide, I call upon Phantom, both worlds beloved child”
Circle erupted in green light, putting a momentary pause to the fight. M’gann was still blinking spots away when a figure flung itself out of the summoning circle, right at the Desiree.
“What the fuck?!”
Only after the first punch was thrown did Danny turn back to her, with his usual, somehow both gallant and bashful smile, that without fault made her knees get a little weaker. She smiled back.
“Hello Starlight” he greeted, sounding almost casual.
“Starlight?”
“Hi Angel. Nice of you to drop by” she answered in the same manner. Wally tried to yell from behind the duck tape.
“Angel?! M'gann, who is he? Who is she?!”
“I will always come if you call” he said without any doubt, suddenly as serious as if he was sharing information that could break or make the world.
It certainly worked like that to her world. She actually melted a little on the inside.
“I know”
“Actually, that's kinda cute. I still have no idea who this is, but you go girl”
“I feel like it's not the right time Artemis”
“Not to interrupt… whatever this is, but the other ghost is escaping” Robin cut in “Also, if you want to make out afterwards, please find the room, Batman and Catwoman are traumatizing enough“
Few people snorted, while Danny blushed green. He darted back at Desiree, clearly to escape the embarrassment. M’gann stood up, totally at ease now, that he was there to take care of it.
“Will you need a hand? I don't have any tech but we have a trick or two up our sleeves!” she asked, projecting her voice so it carried through the cavernous basement without yelling.
“I'm good for now but thanks for asking!”
“M’gann, can you give us anything substantial? Who is this? How do you know him?”
“One question at the time and let's wait until he finishes, okay?“
She cut off Mindlink before anyone agreed or protested.
“Miss Martian!”
“Soup time!”
With a blast of light, Desiree got sucked in and Danny landed in front of them with a proud grin.
“My job here is done”
“It truly is. You're getting faster too”
“And thanks to who is that?”
“You”
Danny sent her both an incredulous and playful glare.
“Of course. I miraculously found a ways to not be a mess and don't crash through every wall on my way and–”
“Well, no but–”
“Let me remind you, you're not alone… also who are you dude? And where did the other lady go?” Wally asked, right after ripping the duct tape off his mouth.
“Oh, well, I'm Phantom, I usually work in Amity Park?” he said a bit unsure, as if calling him a protector was under any question. That just wouldn't do.
“He's a hero from Amity Park”
“Thanks love. It's nice to finally meet you all. M talked a lot about you!”
“Can't say same about you, sorry”
“That's fine. I know M was agonizing over how to introduce me in the best way possible. I'm really happy it's finally over,” he paused for a moment, with his brows furrowed “Did I do good? This first impression thing?”
“You're… far less imposing that I personally expected after hearing Miss Martian summoning you, but–”
“M’gann how could you hide this from us?” Conner blurted out quietly, and oh, he sounded so utterly crushed. Everyone fell silent, the playful atmosphere gone as if it had evaporated.
“I never intentionally hid it. It wasn't significant enough to mention at the start and when it became important I felt like I couldn't just drop it at you during lunch or something. I always planned to tell you, there was just never the right time nor right words. I never wanted to hide it.”
“Even just me?”
“Especially you”
“You still should've…”
“Yeah, I should. I'm sorry”
“How long ago have you met?”
“Half a year ago,” Danny said before she managed to answer “It's all kinda my fault actually. I was really set on not getting mixed up with more hero business than I had to back then. I didn't want you or Justice League finding out about me. And when I agreed, it was already really late. I'm sure she'd told you all from the get go if I let her, I'm sorry”
“Why wouldn't you want us to know about you?”
“It's… Probably not the conversation we should have right here, over gagged wannabe cultists.”
“Valid. Let's call the cops and get going. You two have much to explain”
“And you're sitting eight feet apart until you do!”
Danny leaned in to kiss her, quick and playful, before he jumped back at the demanded distance.
“Well, this still went better than at your side”
“Absolutely”
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Also, here is some lil arts for a longish wait, sorry again, I hope this story is yours to your expectations
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reilleclan-blog · 4 months ago
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I just thought of this, but why did I scrolled through an old post about Sasuke and Naruto having their "bond" symbolize through their headbands and I thought yeah that's a nice post but then the person under the picture decided to put something like "funny how they don't wear their wedding rings" (like maybe it's not that deep) but like why put down other peoples ships. after i thought about why a man may not wear a ring// a lot of times in society "society" it's usually something the woman cares about because the man is supposed to buy it, and again men don't care for it a lot of times in media as well is mostly a thing women care about. It's very rare to see a man caring about the ring. Men buying a ring is mostly to make the woman happy and 9 times out of 10 the man doesn't even care about it because to them wedding getting married is usually a "womanly" thing and/or "not necessary"
(So yes, they may not wear their rings but that doesn't mean they don't love their wives.. In Boruto Sasuke asks Sakura if that was something she wanted Sakura was fine without a ring but Sasuke wanted to give it to her... this is from the boruto manga it was Sasuke investigating the scientists that was controlling the dinosaurs . I can't remember the name) i personally don't care for Naruto and hinata's relationship they are cool. I don't have any hate or love towards them.
(That's why honestly when I was playing rdr2 I was super surprised John cared about marrying Abigail properly with a whole ceremony. It was sweet to see but it feels very rare to ever see lol)
(This is me talking about the OP) So yes I did agree with you but also you didn't need the whole snarky comment against Sasuke Sakura and Hinata Naruto. Let people be happy with said ships. I don't understand why people like to put down ships
(yes u can say I took offense b/c I personally like Sasuke and Sakura together their relationship is shown even more in "Boruto manga" but yeah I love them together, but I don't throw shade at ppl that like Naruto and Sasuke being together as well. Idk why it be feeling like a lot of "straight" girls be weirdly obsessive over two men being gay so much so that women would decide to be misogynistic in the process. Like please we can all ship and be happy. I hate when ppl pin the other shippers against one another , it feels so unnecessary lol. These are all fictional characters btw. The internet not even real like just calm down)
ship laugh love
(Also I used text to speech for this so I apologize if this kinda doesn't make sense I tried re organizing some of the stuff I said lol. I'm so scatter brained that's just how I am. I usually don't bother trying to re arrange what I say. Also no shade to said posters' post I just had this on my mind at 2am. It's something that I just decided to talk about)
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charmixpower · 2 years ago
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🐉 Bloomy hairstyles explained 🐉
Ok so Bloom's whole style comes off as girl next door or very childish to me. Her s1 civilian being the best of her girl next door vibes, with her s3 Eraylon dress being the biggest example of the childish ones. I really like that when she dresses up her style veers childish, ad this as it provides some really interesting perspective of how she views her new life, as essentially living out her childhood dreams, and I wanted to keep true to that when doing her hair styles. There is only one distinctly elegant hairstyle because I absolutely love the look of it, and someone definitely convinced her not to do anything weird with their hair for once event.
On to my thoughts for each drawing
Classic Bloom: I didn't wanna just draw Bloom with her hair down, because it felt kinda lame. Especially bc then I'd have to aqueous to everyone just having their hair down which is no fun. Tecna can't put her hair up, Musa never wears her hair down so it's kinda an event I need to include, and I can't make excuses to myself for not including Stella with her hair down. So I was determined to keep everyone else as interesting as possible so I didn't get bored lol, but now I'm kinda in love with it?? Not only is it a convenient excuse to never draw whatever was wrong with her hair in s1, but it also kinda fits the bullied girl trying not to attract attention vibe that I want early seasons Bloom to have. It's growing on me quickly. Bonus preview of the s1 Bloom outfit redesign, none of these people wear jackets and as someone who constantly wears hoodies and jackets I'm fixing that
Alfea Bloom: Ok so this is how I imagine Stella would try to style hair hair at least once, because Bloom is kinda a fashion disaster and Stella must help her lol, and Bloom growing attached to it because it looks really cute on her. At this point she isn't trying to bury herself in the sand anymore to avoid being annoyed more for being the weird fairy girl. I think it's a cute feminine and fun change to her base hairstyle that isnt just fucking with her bangs in increasingly annoying ways, or putting her hair up in something more intense and just not Bloom's style. I'm looking at you 24/7 high ponytail Bloom. Save that shit for when she's out doing stuff. You can't convince me she'd wear that as her usual hairstyle. I think this is peek girl next door Bloom hair. Down hair, but make it cuter
Back to school: I gave her little low pigtails!! They're so cute!!! Imma be real with you the way they styled her bangs with the headband on gave me more of Bloom's childish style, which makes sense because she did it for an event. So I wanted to lean in a little bit on that without making her look silly in any way, and I settled on low pigtails for the day. I think they look adorable and work with the outfit without looking overly kiddish like the outfit with the headband looked at first but without like ditching the enegry entirely. Also those are probably my favorite Bloom earrings I've drawn her in. I can and can't imagine her wearing them daily, but they're super cute
Adventure: High ponytail Bloom where she belongs. Specifically outside hiking and shit. Anyways this outfit is a mix of the school explorer outfits and my most beloved s4 camping outfits. I think she looks super cute but there isn't much to talk about except for the fact I was kinda mad I couldn't include the red form the s4 outfit
Cozy Bloom: low pigtail braids, based off her s3 pajamas. She looks cute, she looks cozy, and Flora absolutely put those braids in for her. Btw that's supposed to be a cropped hoodie, you just can't tell because she's also cropped XD. Also I didn't wanna keep Bloom out of different shades of blue but she definitely looks better in cyan
Gardening Bloom: This is just the s4 painting outfit, but more realistic than wearing white to get dirty. Seriously what?? Anyways I'm imagining her helping her mother with her flower job, or helping Flora deal with her plants in this outfit. Braided bc oh my god are you not worried about getting paint in your hair? Which technically doesn't apply anymore, but Flora's plants have grabby hands, it's better this way
Eraklyon Bloom: Ah the empire flower dress. You are one of the ugliest outfits from early Winx, and I love you so dearly. You are such a interesting way to get some character insight, and I just appreciate that Bloom is a weird girl down to her bones. Anyways I didn't touch her hair all that much aside from not making it obnoxiously long, giving her a hair clip instead of a headband, and giving her a hair tie without flowers. Seriously how fucking long is her hair supposed to BE in the original??? I'm pretty sure mine is a little unrealistically long compared to how hair works, but it's much better than the show. I really didn't understand how her bun worked, so I moved it to lower down on her hair. Also I thought the headband was bit much but idk if I regret changing that one or not. I just added the hairclip bc I thought it was cuter but hmmmm
Gala attendee: This whole outfit doesn't really feel Bloomy to me but it does feel like something she'd make an appearance in, so I'm chalking that up to her not dressing herself but having some creative control over her outfit. I actually wanted to make it the same shade of Bloom from the picture above but they were so close together that it looked weird, and purple didn't look right so I settled on red. Having her hair up and away from her outfit definitely made things nicer
Princess Bloom: ah yes the flower princess outfit. Would any of the other Winx wear those monstrosities? Maybe Flora on a really bad fashion day. Would Bloom wear it? YES! DID YOU SEE HER ERAKLYON OUTFIT???? SHE'S A DISASTER!!! I didn't include the flowers themselves because the placement and design were too ugly even for me, who loves it when Winx gets tacky and ugly in a fun way, but I did keep the awful hair because I think she'd like it. It's sooo horrible and you can't convince me she wouldn't willingly put herself in this outfit, you can't
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soyouareandrewdobson · 4 years ago
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…the ugly. SYAC: The Master Review 4
Last post I covered much of what I consider the good or passable strips of SYAC of the pre-Dobbear era. What I have admittedly not covered yet, were three certain characters of the strip that exist beside Dobson.
Persistent Pam
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 Curmudgeonly Carl
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And… this guy I am not even sure has a name.
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No, seriously. He shows up in like the 61th strip of the series for the first time and yet I never see his name mentioned once
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All I know is that he is an accountant, who pities Dobson (for good reason)
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And despite Dobson not liking alcohol, they regularly meet up in a bar as if they are some late 80s comedy duo
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Funnily enough, he shows up way before Pam, who would have her premiere in these strips
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 And despite only showing up in a few strips after her premiere (mostly to make “fun” of overbearing and snarky commissioners I suppose…)
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 She actually managed something no other character or series by Dobson managed to get: A fanclub
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 Not that she would really be of any major importance afterwards.
As for Carl, he is supposed to be something like an antagonistic embodiment of Dobson’s “old” art teachers and people being stuck in old ways, who shows up for the following strips forming a sort of arc.
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In addition, it is very obvious, that Carl is supposed to be a mockery of people flaming Dobson. Not helped by the fact that THIS character sheet of him made by Dobson assures us, that there were quite a few even less “endorsing” things he wanted to name the character.
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Yet funnily enough, Carl turned into such a popular character with readers, Dobson was essentially “forced” to make him reappear in other strips. Not of the “classical” SYAC strips, but he showed up as the “antagonist” to Tenku in the storydriven multi pagers. Though even antagonist is a strong word, as he is essentially more of a jerkish art teacher and college advisor who is harsh on Tenku, but actually has his best interests in mind. To the point he even offers him to be his “harsher” art critic in the years till he enters college, because he wants to see him grow artistically.
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 However, Carl was also more of an “accident”. Cause when it came otherwise to tackling criticism or things that irked Dobson (and were not anime related) he would end up more or less creating strips that painted him in a manner where he would supposedly always look like “the better” compared to his opposition or mock it. Which is where a lot of the irk Dobson would earn over the years eventually comes from.
Now to be fair, I do not want to call every comic in that regard “strawmanning”, nor do I want to say that Dobson doesn’t have the right to also mock to a certain extend the mentality of certain “snobs” and so on. For example…
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On one hand, I know there are people out there who think they are “special” by having the best tools at their disposal. When in reality you can achieve good results also with less expensive stuff. So mocking that sort of attitude is fine to me to some extend
BUT, when you also make down the line a comic like this…
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… essentially making yourself come off as a “better” artist or person than others because you have “chosen” the better mass produced crap (btw, that is coming from someone who types this review on a Mac that runs Windows) , then the hypocrisy ends up to be rather strong with you.
 Which is also essentially the biggest issue with the strips I am about to show. The hypocrisy of Andrew Dobson. And no, I do not mean the tumblr blog by that. I mean the simple fact, that the content of some of the soon to follow strips gets kinda muddled when you take into consideration some of the things real life Dobson had said and done either at the time or in the years to come. Well that and the way how he tries to mock issues people have with his work, not realizing how he is essentially just reassuring those “silly critics” in their opinions while making his flaws more obvious to people that may have been previously unaware of them.
But enough talk, let me just show you in quick succession examples to confirm said point.
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Considering Dobson’s longterm disdain for DnD you have to wonder what the joke really is outside of him portraying DnD players as ugly nerds, supposedly too geeky even for him. Which is hilarious in hindsight as he would years later become a fan of TAZ among other things.
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Less hypocritical but the set up is kinda flawed. Like, you are obviously at a convention trying to sell stuff. Why would some old dude not interested in “kids crap” be at the convention anyway? Is he just bringing someone there and just wants to go, but first needs time to belittle your life choices?
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 Rather hilarious in hindsight to me. Cause for someone claiming he has ideas that last for a life time and who seems rather distraught on the idea of others giving their input, he turned out to be so in need of ideas. Alex ze Pirate e.g. became from 2015 onward only defined by Dobson talking about the sexualities of his characters (and not even in comic as by that point it was discontinued, but rather in tweets and so on). Formera, which ran heavily on cheap shonen anime tropes ended up cancelled after two volumes, Cabin Rest was a failure after 20 strips, 2019 he relied primarily on cheap comics about Miraculous Ladybug and his understanding of certain genres is so bad, he can’t even think up the most basic ideas for a magical girl story.
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Weirdly enough, that pitch of a garbage truck driver who fights crime? I think that could make for an enjoyable short story about a vigilante a la the Punisher or Sin-City.
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 The way Dobson perceives criticism, while also essentially giving a quick rundown how he appreciated criticism in his childhood way better than in adulthood. Yeah, because criticism by your parents as a kid was always VERY constructive. (looks back at certain drawings from own childhood) brrr. And sorry Dobson, but sometimes criticism by strangers is better than criticism from friends. Cause friends may mince their words. Plus people have over time given you quite some insightful criticism aside “U SUX” when it comes to comics. You were just never willing to listen
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Hey Dobson, you hear that? That is the sound of your career, dying and no one caring.
Yeah, I think someone who made such “brilliant” comedy as in these comics, totally has the right not to listen to what seems to be solid theoretical advice.
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BTW, that Talus comic… I swear to god the worst “joke” Dobson ever told.
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 Wow. You essentially make a point why you suck at drawing. While still not trying to change.
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And as someone else once said: Don’t play with fire if you can’t deal with the heat, BLOCK-son!
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This is not how I perceived your shit over the years. See, on one hand it is true that Alex ze Pirate e.g. has its own webpage to read the comic for free. HOWEVER most of his comics Dobson would hide from the start behind a paywall. The idea being that he would e.g. put a small reading sample of 10-15 pages up somewhere and then expect people to buy his comic for full price to get the rest. And you know, if you are e.g. a professionally published writer, that is fine. But when your average art output looks like THIS
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And you expect people to pay more than 10 dollars for something that is only around 70 pages long while most people can get 200+ pages for the same amount of money that look like this…
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 You can frankly go and screw yourself.
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On one hand I get that the joke is meant to be, that as an independent content creator you may find yourself in a weird spot where your “child friendly” work may be put in a palace between edgier stuff other creators sell at conventions. On the other hand, I find it rather insulting in hindsight, that self declared feminist Andrew Dobson portrays such competition as either psychopathic murderers or stereotypical cartoon bimbos. If modern day Dobson saw the same strip by any other person, he would be insulted on behalf of the female that she is portrayed as a bimbo, when she could also be a very smart and attractive woman who knows how to tell brave and sexy stories.
Also, I have read your “child friendly” stuff, Dobson. I would call Atea or Alex abusive bitches who like to bully orphans but child friendly? Not to forget that your work is so basic and shallow in depth, it’s like the someone tried to create a chimera out of some of the worst traits associated with Dora the Explorer, 80s toodler cartoons and the Fairly Oddparents.
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I frankly hate this theory on comedy. It is true, a lot of comedy can be deprived from conflict, misunderstandings etc. Looney Tunes, Tom and Jerry and other cartoons as well as screwball comedies such as Rat Race can depend on it. Heck, one of my favorite comedians of all time is Christopher Titus, who based his entire career on the misery and absurdity of his life.
But comedy is not just defined by misery and conflict.
There are for example also the following theories when it comes to comedy…
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And to get back e.g. to Titus, yes, he has build a lot of his comedy on the bad stuff that happened in his life. But he is also someone who in his comedy has build a lot of punchlines on the absurdity of certain situations he has been in life but which in a way have enriched his life positively.
 What I am trying to say is, comedy (and entertainment in that regard) does not just have to be defined by misery. And all things considered Dobson, you could have really tried to also just make comics wherein either you or your characters are just happy with their situation in life.
For example, this page from an Owl House fancomic?
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I think it holds more entertainment value than your “joke” right here, despite not even telling a joke.
Simply because as a page overall, it tries to convey a positive emotion. Which is more than I can say about the strip.
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Because of a lack of different level of thickness regarding your lines, which would trick people into perceiving depth, the fact that the fill bucket and shade layers can only do so much to cover for the rather monochromatic dull nature of your comic, the fact that your characters are not really all that complex and look rather simplicstic even compared to stuff from a comic like this…
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And that is just coming from the top of my head as someone who never studied art. If any reader has something to add, I am willing to listen
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And considering you could in later years never keep up to any release schedule, which among other things resulted in only three SYAC strips in total being released in 2016, I say go fuck yourself. Not to forget that even some of the worst newspaper comic strips out there tend to actually find a decent following and good jokes eventually, otherwise they would not manage to stay popular for years, if not even decades.
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As someone who has worked internships a lot in life, I just want to say fuck you in all our names. Glad to see you having just as much respect for interns than any other scumbag on the planet. Probably even less respect, cause you know, in some places interns tend to get paid.
Also, there is supposedly an entire real world story going on about Dobson having worked at his former university at the time the comic came out and Chaz is based on a fellow intern.
Things are unfortunately rather vague in that regard and only hold up by demonstrative evidence such as the name of Chaz showing up in certain pages of the university and Dobson’s internship being mentioned somewhere.
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Well, would you look at that: People have different opinions on your stuff.
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There are ways to draw memes funny and then there are ways to fail at them
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 You failed.
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Funnily enough, that comic rings a lot truer to text than you expect. Considering how Dobson would often emulate certain aesthetics in his comics of shows that were rather passee by the time he published his stuff, plus how he will obsess over certain trends and games for years to come (like Skyrim or his Quiet Hate Boner) while also being unaware about current trends (how do you e.g. not have heard of My Hero Academia by 2018 at least once by accident?) Dobson has always been kinda late to the party. Missing the “zeitgeist” of nerd culture and as such never quite finding an audience.
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Yeah, what Pam says. Not helped by the fact that yes, the floating eyebrows are real. Look at some earlier sketches or “professionally published” comics by his and you will see that each time characters get excited, their eyebrows will suddenly split into sets of three and float higher than Pennywise’s victims.
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Ironically, that fits real life Dobson at the time and later on even more so than this comic version did. Sorry, but what am I supposed to call a person who has an hate boner on anime for years for superfluous reasons, made Danny and Spot a “gaming webcomic” deliberately to piss on non Nintendo fans and has admitted in some by now deleted youtube video, that he kept a list of usernames from an old forum just to remember even years later the people that were mean to him online?
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 Fuck both of you. I do not expect the Sixtin Chapel in the background, but something to filll up the empty space behind you is at times needed.
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The comic here is actually called politics. … ironic how things changed once a certain reality show host turned president.
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Jesus Christ. I am not even that much of a Transformers fan (Prime fan for life however) but even I know that this is not supposed to be what you design the head of a Transformer like. Not even if they ever produce the Transformers equivalent of Teen Titans Go.
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Too bad you still can’t stand the heat, otherwise you wouldn’t have completely disappeared last year.
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When you know you are in a no win situation, and still manage to choose an even dumber option to escape. I really don’t get it. I just think the Portal reference makes the comic dated and Dobsn’s attempt at a smug face looks so stupid. Like his cheeks are falling in and his mouth is about ready to get raped by a garden hose or something.
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Yeah, considering Dobson’s later constant need for safe spaces and to be in control of a situation and the narrative, which led to so many blocks over the years… if you know anything about Dobson, how this comic becomes harsher in hindsight is rather self explanatory. I just want to say one thing: There is a difference between genuine agoraphobia and just wanting to be by yourself. And I think Dobson just prefers the later on average. Which is okay, but humans still need to interact with other human beings in one form or another, even just for the sake of keeping their mental health stable. Why do you think are so many people getting depressed in times of covid lockdowns, despite many having all sorts of technical gimmicks at their disposal to at least keep boredom at bay?
And by putting himself into a bubble like that, I think Dobson has deprived himself of some of the most basic human interaction, which was likely a severe factor in his mental degeneration over the last years.
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It is still a valid suggestion! Just draw some cartoon characters or a nice fantasy scenario on a mural and earn yourself some bucks. Just be sure they are not by Disney or the Mouse will tear down the school!
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… Just google up the words Andrew Dobson and Samus Aran commission by ED and you will see how this comic just further shows how much Dobson seems to actually be proud of being an unproductive asshole.
 And by the way, I know that any form of artistic work takes time. Just writing these review posts takes a lot of time for me. But that doesn’t change the fact that people should post and create stuff in a timely fashion, especially when there are e.g. deadlines to hold up too. And by the way, Sloth’s don’t have fingers, they have claws!
And that is it.
Sorry if I missed anything folks, but I just saw how many pages in word this is already filling up, so I call quits for this part here right now. I think I made my point about how Dobson trying to badly deflect arguments people may make against his art and work ethics via jokes clear enough, while also showing some posts that are either harsher or hilarious in hindsight.
Next time we will however address one certain issue about our main character, that has been not directly addressed here. In the meantime, have a little fun video that shows hopefully how entertainment and a certain amount of comedy can be gained NOT via misery.
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5csbin · 4 years ago
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HAUNTED HOUSE !
HALLOWEEN TXT EDITION!
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txt x neutral reader !
WARNING !: cursing! knifes! haunted house! JYP AND 6IX9INE!
a very crack and dumb one shot i made.
“MANE IF YALL DONT SHUT THE FUCK UP!” taehyun shouted as they were walking up to the line since everyone began to nag.
"this is why i wanted to go trick or treating instead." beomgyu pouted and folded his arms as he and the rest of the group waited in line to go inside of the haunted house.
well it was more like a haunted barn, where they would all get on a hayride and be driven throughout the barn and be spooked supposedly. "trick or treating?? how old are you again?" kai mocked him,
"no offense but i'm starting to think you were right when you said beomgyu was still mentally 9 years old because.. this is starting to get worrying. what 19 year old is trying go trick or treating?" yeonjun added in agreement, while taehyun shot him a dirty look for throwing shade at his best friend.
beomgyu’s first instinct was to scoot closer to (y/n), but he then fired off a clapback of his own. "the only thing that's worrying is that wig you're wearing, who the fuck are you even supposed to be? lord farquad on crack?" gyu fired back at yeonjun, who was now touching the short black bob on top of his head.
soobin couldn't help but laugh, even though it was his own boyfr- bestfriend getting flamed and soon, everybody else in the group let out laughter at gyu’s clapback. even taehyun, who couldn't stand beomgyu, was practically crying laughing at what was said.
"actually, i'm supposed to be dora," yeonjun replied, gesturing to his pink t shirt and bright orange jeans. "and soobin is.. well diego." he pulled soobin closer to him after saying that and kissed his forehead, before ruffling his blueberry curls a little.
"wait.. ain't dora and diego supposed to be cousins?" taehyun asked, his mouth curling in disgust, "i don't think that's positive..." kai added.
“cousin lovers.” (y/n) said making yeonjun smack their arm.
it was a wonder how they didn't annoy the others waiting in line for their ride, since they would fight every second. meanwhile as the group turn drew closer and closer, beomgyu found himself regretting agreeing to come here.
it was weird.. he loved horror movies, but he despised haunted houses because even though both were fake events, being in a haunted house was just so up close and personal you know?
if it wasn't for it being (y/n)'s birthday (lets just pretend ur birthday was on halloween.) beomgyu wouldn't have came, and he would have probably just stayed at home and took pictures of his costume for instagram before going over to hyunjin’s to watch scary movies.
(y/n) noticed that beomgyu looked uncomfortable amongst all of the roasts and jokes flying amongst the group and they decided to ask what was wrong.
"gyu, why do you look so sad? being sad is my job," (y/n) asked as the group continued to move up in the line. "i'm not sad," beomgyu answered. "i'm just nervous, i don't like haunted houses.. i had a really bad panic attack the last time i went to one, and i don't wanna have one and ruin your birthday or anything.. i probably should have just stayed my ass home."
"nah, you not going to ruin my birthday, you're my friend and i care about you... it won't be that scary, it's literally a haunted barn. you know what barns have? cows and chickens. now who's scared of cows and chickens? nobody. except blades of grass."
the little pep talk made gyu feel slightly calmer. "thanks," he replied, fumbling with the thick leather choker around his neck. "your costume is really cute by the way. i like the face paint."
"thanks, it was kai’s idea actually," they responded with a chipper edge to their voice. (y/n)' costume consisted of a sweatshirt and sweatpants with a skeleton printed on the front, and his face was made up to look like a skull.
after beomgyu was calm, he found himself overhearing a conversation between hueningkai, taehyun, and his knives.
"no tae, you can't bring your knives in here with you," hyuka shook his head as taehyun kept asking if he could run back to the car real quick and grab his knives "cmon kai, just in case a demon wanna try some shit"
"well.. can i get my ouija board?" tyun asked, his lips twisting into a devious smile. "i just wanna talk to the demons, it's halloween, and if it's any day i should be allowed to do this, it's today."
"ain't there no demons.. this is a barn. you wanna talk to demonic horses and shit?" yeonjun pokes in the conversation and raised an eyebrow.
"yes? of course i do, the fuck do you think i am?" taehyun whined, pointing to the devil horns on top of his head as the group finally made it to the front of the line and were waiting for the tractor to come back so that they could get on the hayride.
finally, after they all stood around and handed in their tickets to the clerk in front of the line, their tractor was ready, pulling along the hay covered cart as it came to a stop in front of the barn entrance, waiting for the group to board it.
"wait, hay? y'all ain't say there was going to be hay..." soobin complained, his skin already itching just by looking at all that hay. "y'all do know i'm allergic to hay right?"
"bitchhh, we been said it was a hayride involved," hueningkai snapped, "what you done caught the (y/n) disease where you forget everything every minutes or what?"
"aye i don't forget everything, i just be high," (y/n) cut in as they handed in their tickets to the clerk. "and i'm allergic to hay!" soobin cried out, scratching his forearm.
soobin actually is allergic to hay, but it wasn't something severe, he just got irritated by it and it caused his skin to rash up, not like his skin didn't already look as if it was full of rashes.
(that not true btw)
"oh well," hueningkai replied in a deadpan tone, shrugging. "guess you'll just die then."
after they've all handed in their tickets, everyone began to board the hay filled cart, with everyone obviously choosing to be closest to their besties.
when they got onto the cart. soobin was snuggled up to yeonjun, playing with his diego the explore backpack trying to ignore the itchy feeling the hay gave him.taehyun was resting his head on (y/n)’s shoulder, whining about his knifes, beomgyu was clinging onto kai for dear life, because he was still scared after all.
"i better not hear none of y'all screaming like no pussies after we get in here," yeonjun started after the tractor began to start up and drive them into the dark, cool barn. "how y'all gon be scared of demons when i'm taehyun a whole demon. y'all scared of him now?"
"actually, yes, i'm scared of him just a little bit," beomgyu answered, his tone groggy.
"considering he tried to kill me on multiple occasions and almost succeeded, yes yeonjun, i'm scared of taehyun and he make me fear for my life." soobin added on, slightly flinching at just saying the word taehyun.
"that was before i became positive," taehyun suddenly flashed soobin and beomgyu a toothy smile, "just like i'm positive that none of these demons or zombies or whatever the fuck is in this barn is gon' do shit to us."
"tae if you don't shut your ass up, there’s no demons in here, nor is there any zombies, they are paid actors. you wish you was in a horror movie so bad," hueningkai cut in, once again ruining tyun’s fun.
as of right now, nothing scary was going on. just the typical music playing throughout the barn, random screams, and plastic skeletons appearing out of nowhere. shit that made little kids be scared of, but anyone else wouldn't be phased. not even beomgyu was phased by what was going on, and he was the main one who was scared to come along.
but then.. things started to get more spooky. the people who were sitting on the edge would start to get grabbed and poked without warning, and people would come up on side of the cart out of nowhere and scream or otherwise bring attention to themselves, which would catch them off guard obviously, but shit like that was to be expected at a haunted house.. or in this case a haunted barn.
but soon though, things began to get downright creepy.
as they were sitting in the cart, slightly startled and caught off guard by the jumpscares, but not too shaken up, not even beomgyu was that scared, as he made sure to sit in the middle of the cart to avoid being randomly grabbed or touched by these strangers in costume, and it was just amusing to people like taehyun or (y/n), they weren't prepared for what started to happen next.
soon the music that sounded as if it was from a demonic nursery cut out mid note, and it was replaced by an old, gravely sounding voice that began to sing happy birthday very terribly and off key.
and they thought this was creepy, considering it was gus' birthday, but they considered it was a coincidence. "damn (n/n), they singing happy birthday to you, that's wild," yeonjun noticed, laughing at the 'coincidence'.
"see, i told y'all they’re really a skeleton, how else would they know that we're here for their birthday, hmm?" beomgyu added matter of factly causing the others to let out laughter.
so even though it was somewhat unsettling, it didn't become horrifying until the voice replaced "happy birthday to you," with "happy birthday (y/n)."
the place then became a chorus of "did yall hear that shit?" and "yeo what the fuck?!" after they noticed that, with (y/n) in particular being especially shook that there seemed to be a demon singing specifically to them, and their eyes went wide as the voice continued to serenade them, albeit poorly.
"see, this ain't it no more." soobin announced and hueningkai nodded in agreement. "h-how do they know it's (n/n)' birthday? much less who (y/n) is?" beomgyu asked as he held onto (y/n) even tighter than he was before. "i'm scared now."
"that's what we all want to know," yeonjun answered before reaching up to adjust his wig, before feeling nothing but his real hair tied back. he knew his wig didn't fall off or get snatched off, he had it secured with bobby pins, because it was one of his mother's wigs and he didn't want to lose it, but it had just completely disappeared.
"uh...my wig is gone," yeonjun announced and soobin just nodded. "same."
"no i mean it's for real gone... my dora or lord farquaad or whatever the fuck wig i was wearing earlier just.. disappeared into thin air." yeonjun continued to explain as he continued to search the surrounding area for it, just in case it fell out of his head but it was actually gone.
"see, i told y'all asses there were demons in here, but y'all didn’t wanna listen now y'all getting your shit taken, and demons are singing happy birthday to (y/n) and shit, and now y'all shocked," taehyun added with a huff.
"tyun, ain't no demons in here. if there were demons in here, they would do a lot worse than steal hats and wigs and sing happy birthday, believe that. they'd be torturing us psychologically, and- wait, where the fuck is my sheep hat?" hueningkai touched the top of his head, where his costume top was missing from, and now he was heated.
"yeah, we gotta get outta here."
more shit like that continued to happen with the voice continuing to reference them by name, and reference stuff that only people that know them would know, like soobin almost running someone over once, or yeonjun’s furry suit,and then, near the end of the ride, it all came together in the worst possible way.
a single echoing voice with a thick new york accent screaming "SCUUUUM GANGGGG!" followed by a laugh in the distance that sounded a lot like jyp’s laugh.
and in that moment, all of them literally hopped off of the cart and ran towards the exit.
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franki-lew-yo · 4 years ago
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I really hate 2d purists. No, not 2d animation. Not 2d animators.
2d purists.
The sad thing is it’s gotten to the point that I really cringe hearing any pro-2D sentiment at all. I hate the arguments I agree with because how often they're misused and weaponized by idiots.
Let me make my stance here clear - 2d is NOT appreciated and 3d is used for everything! The layman Karen-mom who doesn’t have an artistic bone in her body looks at stupidsmooth 3D Grubhub ads and assumes quality cause it “looks more real” (aka ‘rendered’). I know as much is true because I literally have a member of my family who told my sister and I that she thinks 3d is better (and also that she “tolerated THOSE movies for us kids”. Touching words. My sister was taking an animation course by the way). Combined that with the studios either using 2D for cheap stuff or finding good 2d animation too “costly”, I get it and I’m not even any animator. I'm just a worm an illustrator.
but holy HELL -
There’s a backlash from the artistic community that's it's own kind of insufferable and deserve to be addressed.
“(insert2Danimatedfilm) is better BECAUSE it's 2D!”
followed by: "Animation is a visual medium and the quality of the art affects how much the story means !!!!”  
Yes. Totally. Animation is a visual medium and the look and style is important. Sadly, people use this excuse to really obnoxious ends, insisting that design being pretty is '' everything ''. When you treat a movie more as a special effects demo I get why you talk about the artistry at hand; but I’m sorry, visuals are not the only thing important and it’s why I’m also getting sick of the sameElsafacesyndrome rants too! There’s this attitude that's reads as "but it LOOKS better fromaproductionimage/teasertrailerwhichapparentlyisindicativeof all themovieactuallyis so it MUST BE better".
-“3D should only be used to make things look realistic!”
I think I know the logic this criticism is made in response to, and that’s the Sony + Illumination films which look just as good in 2D as they do in three dimensions. I know it feels like people are twisting this medium to try and make it like a classic cartoon when by all means people can and would love a classic cartoon being a classic cartoon. That I get- From the unsung 2D animator’s perspective, that’s more than valid !
But it’s a huuuuuuge slap in the face to 3d in saying it should only be used for "realistic animation" because
1: It’s not like realistic animation could age badly or look uncanny in the next few years. It's almost like technology is constantly improving, which I guess 2d animation never did and it was always the same technique and quality as every film that came after it.
2: The industry does treat 3d as a magic-moneymaker for this reason. Just listen to these people call the 2019 LION KING “live action” as if they’re embarrassed to call it animation. It IS animation! It would be impressive if you acknowledged that what it is, but like the CATS, you basically are treating it as just a neato tool to better your live action and not it's own artform - which it is!
3: By this “three-deeonly gud when real liek in da toystories” non-logic I guess 2d should ONLY be for flowyflowy SPACE JAM cartoons and maybe some Disney*. Just that though. You can’t do anything more with 2d. It’s never supposed to be realistic I guess. Good thing Richard Williams only did 'toons' and just toons that’s why we need 3d in the world I guess.
Wait no - that’s stupid.
"I HAVE to see the “Land Before Time 14″ when it comes out! I mean it’s a 2D animated film!"
Lost in the aether that is Youtube comment chains removed from kid's videos is a stream of this very VERY stupid argument supporting the buying of the 14th LAND BEFORE TIME film because it’s supporting 2D. My sister and I can be found on that chain arguing against this stupidity. All you have is my word, but trust me: it really did happen.
I’m sorry but...no.
Unless you have a friend or a family member who worked on these movies there’s no reason to see this and ESPECIALLY no reason to insist it’s a win for the 2D community if you buy up this crap - and I'm not judging if you do like it, but come on! LAND BEFORE TIME 14 isn't where your money should go if you really like this medium.
What’s so infuriating about this argument is you can tell it’s made by nonanimators. Real animators will tell you to support their movies cause they want some respect for their artform which is why there’s such a push from the PRINCESS AND THE FROGcrowd that you SEE and LOVE every 2d thing out there, regardless of how good it is because any recognition for it is k i n d o f what they're after!
Kiddy sequel schlock isn’t even in the same ballpark as KLAUS or WOLFWALKERS; these films DID have very limited theatrical runs (Klaus so it could be nominated; Wolfwalkers in places where theaters opened up after Covid) and should have been supported because they were labors of love made by people who love animation.
As other people have already pointed out, one of the reasons for the lack of interest in 2000sera2D animation is that the only films released alongside critical+financial 3D hits were cheaper 2D films that either coincided with daytime tv shows or should have been just direct-to-video. It’s not to say art couldn’t come out of these flicks, but dayum if it wasn’t abused as much as the texture software that era's CG used... Point being, should the world ever go back to normal: If you hear about an out-of-town showing an acclaimed 2D animated film, make time to trek out and see THAT!
Don’t give your money to see yet another made-for-tv movie on the big screen because all that tells the studio is: “yeah 2d IS cheap and only good for cheap stuff let’s just keep it cheap. Only 3d is important 8D 8D 8D !!!"
“I don’t understand how it works. So it sucks.”
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This text is from an ANIMATOR btw.
“I don’t understand how it works” and “it’s just some computer rendering” is the exact same wave of logic the people who prefer cgi use.
The plebian Karen I mentioned earlier? She understands the basics of 2D animation as much as you did from one of those cruddy flash classes you took in middle-school. She 'understands' the basics cuz she watched how it was made on the DVD features or maybe back on the WONDERFUL WORLD OF DISNEY. To her, the illusion is broken and she’s not impressed by 'just some drawings on paper'. You, an animator, know the process is more complicated and is intrigued by knowing how it’s made - not bored or disinterested -
Neither you nor Aunt Karen have really good cg-animation software at your house and unless you ARE a 3D animator you probably DON’T know all the ins-and-outs of how these movies are modeled, rendered, and animated.
Aunt Karen is bedazzled by them cause she doesn’t know how it works and the technical aspect makes her brain hurt so it might as well be magic and she can feel like a cool kid sharing Minion-memes. Aunt Karen is the nonartistic type who just wants to feel safe. You're not. You want to feel challenged.
I get it: you’re pissed off cause you’re in a field no one, including Aunt Karen, appreciates; told to work in cg which it's an artform you didn’t devote your life to and told to learn it cause THIS style sells! 3D is everywhere and is starting to look like 'garbage' even if you don’t animate 3D models yourself you just KNOW, I guess. Besides, you know all there is to know about 2d!! You know all there is to possibly know about this artform and have to fight this 'war' against "r e a l" animation! And I mean even when 3d software is there to use, it's not like you can actually make anything worth while in it, especially not anything that transcends the medium. Right Worthikids?
TL;DR: This argument is basically just " BWAAAAH I’M NOT GONNA USE IT I HAVE STANDARDS (a chip on my shoulder cuz art should be what I deem it to be) "
“PRINCESS AND THE FROG is-”
There’s a reason I can’t say I truly like PRINCESS AND THE FROG even though it's not even a bad movie! Like, stop reading this and watch PATF if you haven't it's good. It's my 'FROZEN', in that; I see a lot of potential in it I just think it needs some serious rewriting and that bugs me. Always have felt that way, tbh.
I dislike this movie because the response from the animation community seems to be it was perfect and the Academy was just Pixar-crazy with UP ((ftr, the Academy IS Pixar’s bitch and I personally advocate a sequel be made to WAKING SLEEPING BEAUTY about Mike Eisner’s sabotage of the 2D department at Disney which is still in place now!- but that’s a story for another day)). I’m sorry but UP was just a better story. So was CORALINE. So was FANTASTIC MR. FOX. Honest to god it feels like poor PATF is brought up as just a talking point and never for it's own worth as a labor of love - which it was! I'd like to honestly know: had PRINCESS AND THE FROG come out now and been cg if it would have even half the defenders for it because now it doesn't "look" like how a Disney movie "should" look...
If you like PatF more than the currant Disney lineup because of it's culture, it's music, it's feminism, it's black representation? Awesome. Great. Those things should be appreciated and I never want that taken away from you. But if you seriously think PatF is better just for how it was animated and looks - I lowkey may hate you.
“ALL OF DISNEY’S LATEST MOVIES SHOULD HAVE BEEN 2D! THEY ALL LOOK AWFUL IN 3D!! ALL OF THEM!”
TANGLED, FROZEN, and MOANA? Yeah. Sure. But um, e x c u s e y o u- WRECK IT RALPH sooooo doesn’t work in 2d! It could have used different between the various worlds but it’s about hopping through different video games. I’m also of the opinion that ZOOTOPIA and BIG HERO 6 are fine the way they are. Their 3d is awesome.
The latest fairy tale Disney films are really big on their place alongside the 2D canon esp in marketing. They keep trying to mimic 2D to varying results though I don't think it works as well as the movie's I'd previously mentioned. Me personally, I would love a mix of 3D and 2D technology, like if the backgrounds in FROZEN still got to be 3D but the characters were handdrawn and shaded ala KLAUS ((sweet sigh)). But even then are they truly unwatchable just based on how they're animated to you?
MOANA would have been incredible in 2D but for the record - I don't think it feels out of place in it's style. It reminds me more of a Pixar movie with the heart of a Disney classic which is it's own just as good.
“2D is the oldest form of animation and it’s being replaced.”
Actually, if we’re talking animation in film, stop motion is the earliest form of animation. The stop motion animated THE ADVENTURES OF PRINCE ACHMED and TALE OF THE FOX predate Disney’s SNOW WHITE. And yes: stop-motion IS still a form of animation even if it’s a serious of pictures taken of real life things and not drawings, so don’t you dare come at me with the "but that's not animated"/"Technically it’s LIVE ACTION" crap or I’ll envoke the spirit of Sandman to get you at night.
“Every animated film would look better in 2D! Even PIXAR would look better in 2D!”
Again, Stop Motion.
No, I mean it.
Lemme ask: Would ISLE OF DOGS or FANTASTIC MR. FOX carry any of the same effect if they were generic 90s toons? I know NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS wouldn’t. Christ, don’t even get me started on Svankmajer!
Sometimes the problem is that a movie is envisioned with a specific artform in mind. Pixar started out with toys and bugs for a reason and that’s cuz they were always gonna be a 3d studio and they needed to first overcome the placisity of the models. Over the years they’ve gotten really good at effects and blending unrealistic proportions with real textures (and also not so much- ONWARD and THE GOOD DINOSAUR really needed some different character designs and yeah, I do think would have looked better with a 2d artstyle, but not the ones they had in their films. THE GOOD DINOSAUR needed more realistic-speculative looking dinos and ONWARD needed a grittier HEAVY METAL/BLACK CAULDRON appeal to its designs.) My point being that the problems with these movies aren’t even inherently the animation as much as it is a problem of style. As someone who runs a group speculating different styles and designs for movies and tv shows I’m all for envisioning a 2D ZOOTOPIA or Bluth-inspired FNAF. That’s amazing!
But that’s also the talk of fan artists and nerds and not the professional artists working on visualizing their stories!!
Since I ate, slept, and breathed NIGHTMARE in my youth I’ll use it as an example: All the concept art ever done for TNBC was on paper and 2D was used in the final film. However, even when Tim Burton was thinking of making it just a tv special it was always going to be stop-motion. NIGHTMARE’s puppet cast do work very well in two dimensions, believe me, but the film was made as a love letter to Rankin/Bass and the art form of stop-motion. Skipping to another Henry Selick-helmed project (haha), JAMES AND THE GIANT PEACH was also always envisioned as a multimedia film to give it a truly dream-like atmosphere. If you know anything about Henry Selick you’ll know he’s 1) a perfectionist, and 2) loves mixed media and different types of animation and puppetry at once. That’s why he was the perfect pick to direct TNBC at the time, why JAMES AND THE GIANT PEACH and CORALINE are so beautiful and why MOONGIRL, his only fully 3d film, doesn’t have the same appeal.
As for what films I couldn’t imagine NOT being 3D? Probably; 9, Padak, Next Gen, Soul, Finding Nemo, the Toy Story films, Wreck-it-Ralph (as previously mentioned), Wall.E, Waltz with Bashir, Robots, Inside Out, Arthur Christmas, The Painting, Happy Feet, Shrek, Enter the Spiderverse, Megamind… just naming a few here.
“I want a traditionally animated film [and by that I mean a 90s-Disney/Don Bluth looking movie] of ‘x'-popular live action/stage thing!”
Okay I’m cheating a bit but it’s my blog and so I’m gonna stick this one in because it’s related.
When I see musings about wanting live-action or CGI shiz to be in 2d again a lot of the time this argument actually boils down to " I want this to look like a 90s Didney movie ". Or, if it’s about animals - " I want it to look like a Don Bluth film! "
Like...there ARE other styles of animation out there...you know that right?
Frack, Disney themselves tried different styles throughout the 90s it’s just that the peak of the Disney renaissance films (LITTLE MERMAID, BEAUTY AND THE BEAST, ALADDIN, THE LION KING) and the many imitators that followed tended to have the same look to them where only film/animation nerds kept watching into the era that was TARZAN, HERCULES, and ATLANTIS along with the kids. Aunt Karen wasn't singing Part of your World in the carride with you every day.
The Don Bluth argument is especially irritating because...what exact feeling do you WANT from a movie if it looked Bluthish? Each of the four ‘quintessential’ Bluth movies (NIMH, AMERICAN TAIL, LBT, and ALL DOGS) have such a different feel to them that’s complimented by that style; SECRET OF NIMH is a drama about wild animals trying to understand humans; LAND BEFORE TIME is even more squarely about an animal’s perspective as there’s literally no humans around; AMERICAN TAIL uses animals stowing away on the ship to tell a story about refugees; and ALL DOGS GO TO HEAVEN is ALL DOGS GO TO HEAVEN.
What the frack are you even asking for with that because I think there’s a certain flavor to the Bluth-styled oeuvre as well as the 90s Disney catalogue that would clash too much stylistically with some films.
Also come on! Like some Bluthian-style 2d would really fix THE SECRET LIFE OF PETS or SCOOB!, bite me.
I think this fixation solely on these two hand drawn styles and nothing else is based on nostalgia goggles, refusing to step outside the norm and discover different films and feelings than Disney and Bluth, and just preference. Goin back to NIGHTMARE there will always be a special place in my heart for Henry Selick’s stop motion, but I couldn’t imagine CHICKEN RUN or ANOMALISA in it's unique style.
Also I’m tired of every time there’s a "lets make an animatic to ‘x’ musical theater song" it’s reliably just Disneyesque or realistic. WHY envision an animated version of the show at all if it doesn’t have A STYLE to it??!?! I’m sorry but 90s-Disney does NOT fit CABARET!
“3D is so CHEAP now! Why can’t they just do 2D again?”
I think - on the cusp of the 2020s and the Grubhub hatedom, there ARE changing times ahead for 3d and 2d. The general public are starting to get tired of the same looking 3d films and wanting some 2d back, but they don’t have the best resources or opinions on animation to know what it is they want. Meanwhile, the animation community + industry is trying to figure out what to do and you have a lot of turmoil between the monopoly that is the industry, the high standards of the artists, and the mixed wants of the animation fanbase deciding what art needs to be.
It’s a tough business. And in the spirit of that tough business - maybe DON’T act like the means of a film’s production is solely your control, that you know best, and know definitively what the artists should have done....cuz you don't. Sorry my fellow criticalfanomanalysist-folks we DON'T and in an age of standom where fans and critics think it's okay to hackle indie animation studios about not getting their pitched cartoon out fast enough - we need to reserve these discussions to our circles and not treat them as gospel.
3d animation and 2d animation have to share this world. Stop acting like they’re either interchangeable in terms of budget, means of production, or artistry or that one has to be superior to the other.
The industry already says one art form is better (spoiler: it’s always live-action), we don’t need anymore of this purist garbage. Just stick to what you like while trying new things on the side. Be critical while also being compassionate. And remember:
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I'm new to manga and while I'm proficient at analysing other forms of literature, I'm finding it difficult to analyse manga, probably because of the artistic component. Do you have any advice on what to focus on when reading manga in order to analyse it well? If this question is too vague, you can disregard it, I am only asking because I find your analyses to be excellent.
Omg 🥺 It’s not vague! It seems like we’re opposites. I’m not well versed in literature, or writing in general, but I am an artist--which is why I love manga. I’ve been reading manga since I was 11 and I’m 24 now (I’m a nerd), so I’ve gotten pretty decent at knowing which panels the mangaka wants us to pay attention to! I’ll give some of the best examples I can think of off the top of my head. 
So obviously you know by now that manga is all black and white. We do get some colored sheets every now and then that also have meaning (I’ll link to that post later), and I love when the authors give us those, but for the most part it’s all black and white. If you’re going to try to grasp the tones and meanings behind certain scenes in manga, the BEST advice I can give you is to pay extra attention to the shading more than anything else. Let me use the best examples I can think of when it comes to shading.
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So look at Hawks here. Hawks is a hero, yes? A good guy, right? 
Well...does he look like a good guy here? I’d say no. This use of shading was absolutely deliberate on Horikoshi’s part. I think we can all agree this was a really dark moment for Hawks (no pun intended). He stooped to a level nobody ever wanted him to, a level Hawks himself never wanted to. This scene being drawn this way tells us that we as readers are NOT supposed to approve of Hawks’s actions here. And NOW, because of the way this scene was drawn for us, all we are left to assume is that something bad is coming for Hawks. Basically, the consequences of his actions have not hit him yet. So even though we haven’t seen those consequences yet (it’s really frustrating waiting ngl), we know that we can expect there to be something dark in Hawks’s future. Many other meta bloggers predict his death, him dying heroically in order to make up for killing Twice. And man, that is very much possible, however I’m still waiting to see what more develops in Hawks’s arc before I make that prediction. Hori hasn’t given me any reason to believe that he’d actually kill off an important hero for the sake of the writing...yet. 
Another example, and probably my favorite panel of Shigaraki so far because it’s gorgeously drawn (and sad as hell):
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This panel is supposed to make you feel his despair. He’s surrounded by a black, static background, his figure is drawn with an insane amount of detail. You can tell just by looking at it that Horikoshi put a significant amount of effort into this one panel compared the ones that came right before it:
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This is same scene, same chapter as the panel above, but the background and shading is totally different. I’m only showing this panel here to point out how important the panel above it is in comparison. One is a panel that is simply moving the chapter forward, the other is meant to stop you for a moment and make you react to it. Horikoshi made sympathetic villains, and that panel of Shigaraki practically begging people to understand was meant to evoke that sympathy from the readers to prepare them for his redemption. 
There are probably a million examples from BNHA I could use to show you the importance of shading but I’m going to move over to one of my all time favorites: FMA
So this lovely fellow below, Roy Mustang, is a protagonist in Fullmetal Alchemist. Fullmetal Alchemist is a series with similar values to BNHA. It acknowledges the value of the human life. It acknowledges that once someone is dead, you can’t bring them back. It acknowledges that murder is wrong, no matter the reason.
Also, similar to how BNHA punishes the villains for their quest for revenge over and over again, FMA also portrays to readers the dangers of following the paths of revenge. There are two characters in FMA that show us that danger, one of which is Roy.
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 This is a big moment for Roy because he just discovered the person responsible for his best friend’s death. And now he’s out for blood. But this panel above tells you that this is a BAD IDEA. Shrouding him in darkness, not showing his entire face, hiding him in the shadows--it tells you that he’s on a dark path now. 
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Look here, this is kind of similar to how Hawks was portrayed above. Roy is standing over someone who he clearly has power over, someone he is about to kill out of revenge. Envy is a major antagonist in FMA right until his death, but simply because of the way Roy is drawn here, devoid of human emotion because again, you can’t see his face, Envy is almost sympathetic when he finally does die. (BTW, he does not die at Roy’s hand). Roy is a protagonist in this series, but here he’s drawn looking incredibly evil and scary--for a reason. You’re not supposed to approve of his actions. Roy set out for revenge and his narrative consequences came not too long after this chapter. So basically, just like with any other story: 
character does something we know is supposed to be bad-----> something bad happens to character as a result
I’ll give one more example from a story that is not similar to BNHA or FMA in the slightest, but still uses that dark shroud in the same manner.
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Say hi to Shigure from Fruits Basket. Shigure is kind of...an anti hero? He’s a real asshole. Now Fruits Basket is shojo and the stakes aren’t near as high or dramatic as BNHA so the tone is a bit different. But even with one panel here of this guy’s face, you get that dark, cynical vibe from him. And well, he is dark and cynical. If you read the story from the beginning up until here you can tell that he’s a shady dude (no pun intended again I’m so sorry), and low and behold he is one of the more questionable characters in this series. But this one darkly shaded panel is the introduction to that dark side of him as a character.
Basically in manga shading is tell all for how you’re supposed to interpret a situation. But aside from shading, the SIZE of the panels are also important. Those Hawks panels above took up entire pages. That Shigaraki panel took up an entire page. Those panels of Roy took up an entire page. Obviously the author wants you to pay attention to the story those panels are trying to tell. The words of the characters matter too, but sometimes you have characters whose words you can’t take at face value (*cough cough* Dabi *cough*) so you sometimes have to go off of the artwork alone. 
Aside from the manga itself, mangakas also release colored prints along with their series. A lot of times these prints don’t have much to do with the events within the story, but sometimes they do. And I talked here about how Horikoshi really correlated all of his art of Shigaraki with the current place in his arc, and about how now that Shigaraki’s redemption is underway, he’s drawing Shigaraki in such a way that shows him growing closer to his hero counterpart who is currently on his way to save him, and also just portraying him in a less villainous manner than before. This isn’t always the case though. But Horikoshi did it and when that last color spread came out I got so excited I kind of just rambled with excitement lol. 
SO I know it wasn’t much to go on but I really hope this helps you a bit more and what you were looking for! Shading is the most important since it’s all black and white, and then panel size is important too. 
I hope you read more manga and join us in this hell! Lol 
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kexing · 4 years ago
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Venji has always been endgame: Benji’s attraction to Victor
the first thing I really need people to understand is that Benji is not watching the show, he’s not seeing things through Victor’s point of view, and for the most part of the season he has no idea Victor is struggling with his sexuality. from Benji’s point of view, Victor is straight and into Mia. that’s how I’m going to be analyzing his thoughts and actions (well, guessing mostly because he does lack screen time and insight moments. hopefully we’ll get more of him in season two!!)
btw I’m gonna break it down episode by episode because I’m insane (and I also feel strangely connected to Benji so don’t @ me)
Episode 1 - Welcome to Creekwood
as I’ve mentioned before, you can interpret Benji’s “nice shoes!” line as interest. but even if you’re not willing to do that, I still think it’s valid to consider that he might’ve felt some kind of immediate connection to Victor (if episodes 2 and 3 are any indication of that. and the Call Me Maybe lyrics).
Episode 2 - Stoplight Party
the “Benji attempts to teach Victor how to make a espresso” scene is very much about Victor’s attraction to Benji so I don’t wanna look too much into it. also Benji comes off as (at least for me!) a very attentive and loving person, so his dedication to teaching Victor felt very genuine. but still like...... he did get lost in Victor’s eyes for a moment before the milk spilled akdjksdjjs
then at the end of the episode Benji calls Victor late at night (he even apologizes for that) when he could’ve called Victor at any other time or could’ve just told him at school. and well, (I may be reaching here but headcanons are always good!!) I like to believe Benji couldn’t stop thinking about Victor, which is why he decided to call. for some unknown reason he already feels connected to Victor and wanted to hear his voice and—
let me stop here before I write a whole fanfic because that’s not the purpose of this post.
Episode 3 - Battle of the Bands
oh boy, I’m gonna try to unpack this episode, hopefully I’ll make some sense. I’m very sorry if I fail!
so, Victor and Benji have the Call Me Maybe (cutest) moment, in which Victor tells Benji that he’s going on a date with Mia the next day.
Now. I need you to remember that Victor explicitly told Benji that he and Mia wouldn’t go to the Battle of the Bands and that Benji had already performed when Victor got there and only performed again because his band won the battle (so I’m pretty sure Victor wasn’t supposed to hear the Call Me Maybe cover). therefore this wasn’t Benji confessing his feelings to Victor. if anything, I believe it was his way of dealing with the intense and ever-growing feelings that he has for Victor through his biggest passion (music), pretty much like making a reference to something that you know no one else will understand (since for everyone else it’s just a Carly Rae Jepsen bop).
but then Victor eventually shows up and hears Benji singing Call Me Maybe and for him it’s definitely not just a Carly Rae Jepsen bop anymore. it’s their song
after the performance, it looks like Benji is going to talk to him about it, maybe to try and make it seem like it’s no big deal (since he thinks Victor is into Mia, and he himself is in a long term relationship) but Derek appears and we’re all left heartbroken (Simon & his friends included).
what I’m trying to say is: they are two halves of the same idiot. while Victor is in denial of his sexuality and attraction to Benji, Benji is in denial of his growing feelings for Victor. we love this denial duo
Episode 4 - The Truth Hurts
not much to say about this one BUT. at the beginning of the episode you can see how Victor and Benji are working totally in sync, to the point where they barely need words like the freaking soulmates that they are. honestly, I’m done pretending they aren’t soulmates because this show just kept shoving that into our faces over and over and if you failed to see it then it’s not my problem (or maybe it is since I’m literally spending my time trying to explain exactly that. but I just care too much about these two and I want people to understand why).
then Derek calls and Benji picks up lovingly because he’s a loving person and a caring boyfriend and even though he might be struggling with his feelings for Victor, he’s not about to neglect his boyfriend (shame we can’t say the same thing about Derek) (no I will not stop throwing shade at him).
Episode 5 - Sweet Sixteen
I could try and say several things about this one but for real, BENJI DREW VICTOR AND GAVE HIM THE DRAWING AS A BIRTHDAY GIFT. like! this stupidly artistic boy!!!!!!!!! this stupidly caring boy!!!!!!!!! he could’ve bought Victor literally anything or not even bothered to think of a gift At All, but he took the time to DRAW VICTOR LIKE ONE OF HIS FRENCH BOYS!!!!! what am I supposed to do with this knowledge!!!!
now I’m imagining Benji observing Victor. the way the light hits his face, how his shoulders move, the shape of his hands....... all the while telling himself it’s just to draw Victor!!!!! but that’s still beautiful and frankly thirsty nonetheless.
p.s I was robbed of a scene like that.
Episode 6 - Creekwood Nights
not much to say about this one except the show blatantly telling us that Derek can be real shitty sometimes. also, I wanna talk about Venji’s dynamics throughout the show so bad but it deserves a post of its own so I’m gonna hold my tongue.
Episode 7 - What Happens In Willacoochee
(stays in Willacoochee or maybe it will haunt your gay ass all the way to New York).
oh boy, this is where shit starts going down for real.
so Victor kisses Benji. I’m not going to defend Victor because what he did was reckless and dumb and frankly disrespectful. but I need to say that it was going to happen sooner or later because when you repress something too hard and for too long, it’s bound to come back with full force and explode in your face. I really wish it was in a different circumstance, of course, but also life isn’t always made of perfect situations and shit happens. (and nope, that does not excuse Victor’s actions).
now think about Benji. he’s been struggling with his feelings for Victor, who as far as he knows is straight and in a relationship, and then suddenly Victor kisses him. my best guess (due to his reaction to Victor’s speech in episode 10) is that he thinks Victor isn’t being serious about it, that in no moment that kiss meant anything but curiosity and recklessness, when they both have people to lose (again, he doesn’t know that Victor struggles with his sexuality, much less that Victor has feelings for him).
so yeah, I believe Benji was upset, not only with Victor though, but with himself.
(I’ll come back to this in a second)
no Benji in episode 8 so.......
Episode 9 - Who The Hell Is B
Benji decides to leave the coffee shop. Victor tells him that the kiss wasn’t his fault and Benji says that being around Victor makes him feel guilty, now why is that?
firstly because he’s not a psychopath and the fact that he cheated on Derek makes him feel guilty. but I do believe that that’s not the only thing that makes him feel guilty. deep down he liked kissing Victor. he likes Victor, he’s been doing his best to keep that buried but Victor had to go and complicate things, so now the only way to avoid making a bigger mess is staying as far away as possible from each other. so he runs back to the safety of his relationship with Derek.
(listen, I know the show makes it seem like Benji is super angry and wants nothing to do with Victor but I don’t believe that’s the case. he’s upset and feeling guilty for liking someone else, denial does make you act very hostile sometimes).
Episode 10 - Spring Fling
Benji’s denial continues but (thankfully) it won’t last much longer.
he goes to the bathroom and tells Victor that he’s read his letter and that he does forgive him for kissing him but that that doesn’t change anything, that it’s best for them to stay away from each other.
that’s until he hears Victor’s speech to Derek (which was more to Benji than Derek so). that’s the moment he realizes that Victor actually likes him, that the kiss as cursed as it was had meant something, that they both feel exactly the same thing. that’s what gives him courage to finally accept that he can’t be with Derek anymore because his heart belongs to someone else. (has belonged to Victor from the moment they met) akdjskdjsj someone please tell me to shut up
which leads us to the bench kiss(es) scene. now, these boys are a whole mess because Victor was still technically dating Mia (he did try to come out to her before, couldn’t do it so he decided to come out after the Spring Fling) (good intention, poor execution).
But I also believe this was just lazy writing and they wanted to have a scene where Mia catches Victor and Benji together. it could’ve been done better, they could’ve been just touching foreheads or something but they wanted the full drama so the kiss(es) happened. I’m taking 50 points away from the writers for this. (also does not excuse Victor or Benji since they literally met halfway. these idiots are so in love wtf!)
(I still love them though, and hope they do better in the future, for themselves and for each other).
anyway, I think that’s it! if you read up until this point: thank you so much!!!! I tried my best to understand and explain Benji since the show said fuck Benji stans. hope this helps!
— love, MJ
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justallamaimaginingthings · 4 years ago
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Protective {TUA Preference // Luther}
A/n: I know the request said preference, but this came out a little longer than expected so I'll post each one of them separately as blurbs. Thanks for requesting and I hope you enjoy it❤💞 Btw this is posted from my phone so the format may be a little fucked up.
Request: "I would love to request another preference if you feel inspired (for everyone except five!) possibly fem!reader who is super protective of their s/o and will defend them physically and/or verbally but also has a soft side?" By @eagleandthebutterfly
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To say that Luther was sensitive when it came to what the serum had done to his body would an understatement. The supposed leader of the Umbrella Academy found himself spending hours in front of the mirror, taking in what he perceived to be the most disgusting sight he had ever witnessed. The skin of his chest, arms and back had turned a dark almost blue shade and it had roughened to an unbelievable extend. This was not normal. This was not even human. The same two phrases kept repeating themselves in his head until he had come to believed them wholeheartedly.
No matter how hard he tried to hide it behind large coats and leather gloves, there was no way he could prevent people from giving him weird stares even as he was walking down the road and deep down he couldn't blame them. He knew that not long ago he could have reacted the same way. Slowly, as time went by, Luther had come to accept the fact that he was going to be stuck in that repulsive ape-like for the rest of his life, and had given up trying to avoid, instead plunging into a rabbit hole of self depreciation and denial.
When he met you there was no way he thought you would ever spare him a glance, not to mention fall in love with him and him with you. It was the first and only good thing that had happened to him after returning from the Moon and getting dragged into the end of the world. He had never felt more thankful in his life than when you had landed next to him in the 60s, his large hand still gripping yours. It took a lot of time but he finally opened up to you about the secret hatred he harboured for his body and since that day you had vowed to show him how much you loved each part of him, even the ones that had suffered the consequences of the serum. And that was how the two of you had ended up here.
“So, darling tell me, what's a pretty thing like you doing with that monkey?” The man's voice was cruel, causing multiple laughs to be heard from the other side of the boxing gym. You glared daggers at the company of three that were taking their break, cauaing their laughter to be cut short. After all that time, people had come to know that you weren't one to be toyed with. You had your boundaries set and your wrath reserved for anyone who dared disrespect them.
“Not that it is any of your business but I love that man more than you could possibly fathom so you'd better watch your mouth” You replied, doing your best to maintain your composure. After Luther confessing how much he worried about you, especially during a time when you had to keep your powers hidden to avoid the unwanted attention, you had promised to stay out of trouble, or at least try.
“Love? Honey I've seen this man fighting and there's nothing a woman could love there. I bet I could show you a real good time, why don't you try being with a normal man for a change?” The man carried on as if your warning hadn't even been said. There was something about the arrogant look on his face that made you realise he actually meant those things and that was the moment your self control gave out.
Moving in a matter of seconds, you grabbed the man by his collar, bringing him down to your eye level.
“I don't know who you think you are, but you don't get to talk like this. Not to me, not to my husband, not to anyone. So get out of my sight before I make you regret it” With each word your eyes shone a brighter shade of blue until they were glowing, matching perfectly the flashing blue aura that started to seep through your fingers. The man gave you a petrified look and tried to get away from you, but your grip kept him in place. “Do you understand?”
You had been so preoccupied in trying to control your anger that you hadn't even noticed when Luther had returned from the dressing room and rushed to your side the moment he realized what was happening. Placing a gentle hand on your shoulder, he helped you calm down enough for the blue glimmer to subside, much unlike your anger.
“What my wife is saying is that you should leave” Luther explained steadily, but before the sentence was over the man had already rushed outside, still terrified after witnessing your powers.
“What did he say that got you so riled up?” Luther asked you, after checking that you were unharmed and well. He knew that you could handle yourself in a fight, but still he found himself worrying sick that maybe one day you would end up getting hurt and he wouldn't be there for you. What he didn't expect was for you to instantly switch from full attack mode to shy and fidgeting, seemingly too interested in the floor as your eyes focused there, refusing to meet his inquiring gaze.
“Nothing” You tried -and failed- to brush off the situation, but his questioning look was enough for you to understand that he knew you good enough to know when you were lying “He insulted you and I know you're still insecure about the way you look. I'm sorry”
Instead of replying, he pulled you in one of the giant hugs you so loved and gently rubbed circles on your back. “Just please don't get hurt”
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skye-huntress · 4 years ago
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RWBY V8 Episode 12 “Creation” Reactions
I don’t even know why I’m surprised. If there is one thing that Ironwood is consistent at it’s his incompetency. All his plans are full of holes and blindspots so of course like all of his other plans his plot to threaten Penny into complying would fall apart as fast as he put it in motion due to factors he is too stupid to consider, you know like the fact that members of his own military have enough of the integrity he lacks.
I’m not surprised by the kill on sight order. When RNBWPM set off the alarms in the military compound, Ironwood authorised lethal force against them
Vine seemed to be reflecting on their choices and was perhaps starting to realise they have been on the wrong side of this conflict all along but too little too late
Emerald playing a Penny double is something we all called, but I didn’t expect Winter to be in on the whole plan. Smart of her to coordinate with her sister in order to neutralise Ironwood
“You did the right thing.” “I have. Feels weird.” But you’re smiling so I guess its the good kind of weird, or it’s the euphoria from pulling off such a great con on a massive douche
With both JNPR and Winter ambushing Jimmy, they certainly took no chances with him, which again, smart
Meanwhile, one of the things I’ve hoped for and predicted was Marrow using Stay on Harriet! I mean, it was all three remaining “Ace” Ops, so it’s not personally targeted at her but I’ll take it
Also, BTW, I think I covered this last reaction but Marrow... Great of you for having enough integrity to understand what Jimmy was doing was very wrong, but try to think through your response to things before you got yourself in trouble, or shot. Good thing Winter managed to keep her head and knew they’d need an actual plan and help
So their plan was to use the staff to solve their other problems with the evacuations and Penny. And with the gravity dust Atlas has they have a brief window but it is as I suspected. You can’t have the staff as such an important part of the show and not use it so Atlas was always going to fall, but it hasn’t yet. This of course is going to cause all sort of problems later but more on that later
Quite the hole Oscar left. I love seeing Ruby use the new application of her semblance, it opens up so many possibilities.
I didn’t quite catch Creation Jinn’s name so I’ll call him Blue until I look it up later. May I just say, I love Blue throwing shade at the idea of a floating city. When you think about it, the then Kingdom of Mantle would have probably been better off keeping their feet on the ground.
Before we continue, I’m just going to say something so people are clear why I stand on this, Penny is, always was, and always will be a real girl/woman. As a transgender woman myself, I know better than most that the parts we are made of do not necessarily define who we are. Whether she is made of flesh or metal, human or faunus, Penny is Penny
It feels a bit like cheating, doesn’t it, like they bent the laws of the universe a bit, but hey, desperate times. I can’t pretend to understand it and I don’t even think Jinn could explain it in a way I could but the results are what matter. Besides, bending rules to save the day is very much a Team RWBY thing
I admit it was unnerving watching Penny’s old body die, the way it reached out like even though it was soulless it still had something of her left like memories of what it had lost. Not to mention a clear visual of what almost happened
So throughout this show, Penny has given and received a lot of great hugs, but never thought much about how she feels them. In hindsight, not exactly something I would want to dwell on since it wouldn’t change unless the tech in her body change, or so I thought. She is just so precious how she is now not only showing her affection but enjoying the physical act of doing so. I want to see more cuddly Penny going forward, for the rest of the show. Because Penny is not going anywhere.
Also, when of the first things I noticed about Penny was that she had a blush!
So begins the Fall of Atlas. And as Jaune begins his broadcast, it goes down. That’s probably not a good sign and the fact they weren’t able to fully explain the situation will likely cause problems further down. But also why? The likely culprits would be Watts and Cinder, and the goal would be to sow confusion as well as make it difficult to communicate via scrolls
Ah, Jacques is still around, somehow. You know, it occurs to me that with the entire Kingdom being reduced to rubble, so goes most of the SDC’s assets. While it’s not entirely clear where he’ll end up, yet, he will have still lost everything he had built up and I find that very satisfying. As for Weiss, her home is her family, that’s all she needs and more than Jacques ever had
So now the critical part, getting everyone out of Solitas before the inevitable. Already, the confusion and hesitancy going around is going to slow things down, and every second is going to count. Then there’s the pocket realm Blue created, where if you fall off, well, I’m guessing there is nothing that will ever break your fall and once the Staff is used again, that whole realm and probably everything still in it may cease to exist
Then there’s the final destination. Before the events of the show, Vacuo would have been considered the least ideal place for a whole Kingdom of refugees to go, and the last Kingdom for Atlesians to go to for help given how their ancestors played no small role in its exploitation and decline. But Vacuo is the only Kingdom Salem has yet to attack and the only one not dealing with any direct fallout. Still, resources are scarce enough in what is basically a wasteland and accomodating such a sudden influx of refugees is going to be impossible. Not even touching on the political shitshow it’s going to be
Now, the outstanding issues. It’s like some kind of cruel joke, Ironwood initially stopped the Mantle evacuations because he thought that was how Cinder got in. This time she actually has planted herself among the refugees. Neo and Watts, too, no doubt. The advantage is theirs and their targets are Ruby, an exposed staff, and Penny who is both unarmed aside from her magic and not quite as durable as she used to be. Three villains, three targets
Then, there’s Salem. Not only are they racing against the Fall, they’re also racing against her resurrection which could happen any moment. And the only way to stop her and her Grimm from following is to close the “doors” which might require creating something else. But who would make that call, and when. I suppose if they manage to keep hold of the staff, the most logical thing to create would be a “temporary” shelter for the refugees. Considering anything Blue creates is temporary, it can be as sturdy as they want
We still somehow have two episodes to go and so much that can and will go wrong. I don’t like it!
Final note, I want to hug Penny, too!
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uswnt-owns-this-homo · 5 years ago
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Catch These Hands, The Motherfuckers (Rose Lavelle x Reader)
   AN: TW, for pretty strong cursing, a panic attack, and homophobia/ abuse
I walk out of the airport, my luggage trailing behind me. It’s my first day in Tampa and I have to get to the hotel that all of the team is staying in. I’m nervous, being one of the youngest people there, tied with Mallory at 21. On the brightside, at least I’ll know one person.
I went to college with Mal at the University of California, and played with her for the school. We roomed together at UoC and got closer. She’s offered to introduce me and help me get settled in with the team for the camp, which I’m super grateful for. I try to hail a taxi, giving the driver the address of the hotel after I’ve put my luggage in the trunk. We get to the hotel in maybe 10 minutes, the man pulling up and helping me with my bag after I’ve paid my share. I roll the bag up to the doors and pull out my phone to text Mal.
  Y/N: Hey, I’m here, didn’t know if you wanted to meet up for lunch after I’m done unpacking and meeting the roomie?’’
Mal the Pal: Yeah, sure man! Ay, you’re rooming with Rose btw… I can introduce you? I’ll come meet ya real quick.
  Mal comes down as I’m heading into the lobby, pulling Rose Lavelle behind her. I set down my bag as Mal charges me.
   “Y/N! It feels like I haven’t seen you in years,”
    “Mal, it’s been what, 3 weeks? I missed you too though,”
We chat for a second about what I’ve been doing in the time that we’ve been graduated. I turn to Rose and put out my hand for a fist bump.
  “I’m Y/N, and unless Mal is lying, which she’s done a couple of times, I’ll be rooming with you for camp,”
She chuckles and gently bumps my fist.
  “Nah, Mal isn’t lying… this time. We’re roomies, it looks like. I don’t know about you, but I tend to stay up pretty late at camp, so I apologize in advance,”
I shake my head and laugh.
   “Eh, no problem, I mean, Mal can attest, I do my fair share of staying up late, especially before big games and stuff so I’m sure we’re probably in the same boat,”
We all go up to our room and I start to unpack my stuff while Mal and Rose sit on the bed Rose has claimed and talk.
     “So, Rosie, after Y/N finishes unpacking the entirety of her closet, we were thinking of grabbing something to eat, I kinda wanted to head down to the little bakery-coffee place, you wanna come? Help Y/N pick what nasty espresso crap she’s gonna ingest?”
    “Sure! I’ll make sure to pick something good, Y/N,”
I nod and put my last pair of sweats in the drawer, grabbing my room key and wallet before checking my snapback in the mirror.
   “Alright, I think I’m good, show the way to the coffee, Mal,”
I groan as Rose’s alarm blares. I roll over and out of bed, shrugging on a sweatshirt and putting a hat on the mess that is my hair, sliding my feet into my tennis shoes and joining Rose at the door, patting my sweat pockets for my wallet. We both head down to the lobby of the hotel where Sonnett and Mal are waiting to walk to the little breakfast place the hotel has. We all four trudge down to the cafeteria and laugh as we see Ashlyn, Ali, and Pinoe all sitting with cups of coffee. We go over to their table and plop down.
“So, youngins, how’s the morning going so far?”
I shrug and they chuckle as I go to get my breakfast and coffee, taking a mug off of the stand and filling it with black coffee. I grab an apple, some granola, and some yogurt before heading back to the table. Ali turns to me and smiles.
“Y/N, how are the parents dealing with you not being at home for the camp?”
Ashlyn scoots over and puts her arm around my shoulder. I shudder slightly and a tense smile stretches across my face.
“Yeah, I bet they’re sending lots of texts, trying to get used to having you out of the house,”
Mal walks up and hears the tale end of Ali’s question and grimaces. My stomach lurches and I scoot my chair out, trying to get up and out of the room before I freak out or throw up in front of the whole team. Ash drops her arm and I beeline towards the door leading to a smaller hallway. I take a seat against the wall a little ways from the door and try to control my erratic breathing. I grab my hat and throw it against the opposite wall, clenching my teeth and digging my short nails into my scalp. I hear the door open and look up, expecting to see Mal, but instead catching sight of Ali. She sees me and I duck my head again, still trying to control the shaking in my hands and the hammering of my heart.  Ali kneels in front of me and gently grabs my hands, taking them from my head and grabbing them tightly.
“Is it okay if I hug you?”
I let out a shaky breath and nod slightly, letting her wrap me in a warm embrace.
“I-I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to freak out… My parents are more than happy I’m out of the house, they kicked me out right after I graduated.. There are no texts,”
She lets out a breath, squeezing me tighter.
“If you don’t mind me asking, why’d they kick you out?”
I let out a bitter laugh, trying not to cry.
“I’m sure you and Ashlyn know plenty about how much people hate people like us. I guess me having a girl over and them catching me was enough. I knew they were going to react badly, and I still did it, god,”
She runs her hand through my hair and sits beside me, keeping an arm around my shoulders.
“Yeah, I guess we do. But Y/N, that doesn’t mean it’s wrong, or that you should be ashamed, or kicked out. We’re just trying to love who we love. Ash wasn’t trying to bring up bad stuff, she was just trying to make you feel comfortable, get you to talk about something,”
I nod.
“I know, and I appreciate it. You can tell her what I told you, give her reasoning behind why I flipped out. I just- I thought that they were supposed to be there, to love me no matter what, ya know, and now it’s just me. My grandparents won’t talk to me, and the whole family knows, and I haven’t gotten one text, not a ‘sorry, that sucks’ or anything,”
I’m pretty heavily crying and she just hugs me, and waits until I’m finished before helping me up and using her sleeve to wipe at my cheeks.
“All you can do is keep moving, build your own family, and show them what they’re missing. A pretty awesome kid who just so happens to prefer to kiss girls,”
I shrug.
“I guess. We better get in there, I still need to eat and get ready.”
I grab my hat and jam it back onto my head. We both head in the room and Ash and Rose give me a pitying look. I look at Mal and she shrugs. I give her a weak smile and nod. I quietly eat my food while everyone talks about the upcoming day, and what they think Vlatko has in store for us.  As soon as I finish my apple and my second cup of coffee Rose, Emily, Mal, and I go up to our rooms. I quickly change and then sit on my phone while Rose finishes up. We take our bags and things and walk down to the elevator to meet Mal and Emily. Rose touches my arm about 10 feet away and pulls me into a hug. 
“I guess they just don’t know what they’re missing, cause you seem like a pretty awesome person, and a super chill roomie,”
I laugh and try and shake off the stress that the conversation brought. The only thing I can focus on is going out onto the field and showing Vlatko and the rest of the team what I’ve got.
The first day of camp was a success. We did mostly team building drills and bonding centered stuff, to help everyone get to know each other. Ashlyn and Ali both seemed to watch out for me, which I appreciated. I got to know some of the other midfielders better, and hung out around Rose, goofing off when we were allowed to not focus as much. I meet Lindsey, who’s rooming with Emily, and get to meet Mal’s roomate, Megan Rapinoe, who I can only describe as the coolest gay aunt that I’ve never had. It’s obvious that Ali or Ash told her about my little meltdown in the hallway, she keeps calling me ‘kid’ and pretty much treating me like one, which I don’t entirely hate. The whole team is walking back to the locker rooms to change and I’m walking beside Mal, Lindsey and Sonny in front of us slightly, when someone comes up behind me and hip checks me. I fall into a bush framing the sidewalk and let out a groan when twigs and leaves end up in my mouth.
“Whoever just checked me needs to be prepared to get dunked on. I swear to god, me and Mal act like the oldest ones here,”
Rose laughs and I turn around, charging at her and lifting her up, and tossing her into the aforementioned devil-bush.
“That, Rosie, is why we don’t mess with defenders, isn’t that right Kelley?”
Kelley just smiles and quickly schools her face, solemnly nodding when Rose looks at her. I offer the spirit player my hand and she tries to pull me back into the bush.
“Ma’am, please don’t, that’s my emotional support limb, I need that,”
She snorts and loosens her hold, allowing me to pull her out of the bush. The whole team is slightly snickering, except for Carli, who just looks oddly disappointed. (AN: I swear this is no shade to Carlos, she’s super chill and I aspire to have the motivation that she does.) We both continue to walk and as soon as we get in the locker room, I quickly go about changing, trying to avoid any unnecessary skin exposure. I guess I’m not fast enough to pull on my clothes after my quick shower, as I hear a couple of the girls gasp. I sigh, not bothering to pull on my shirt, turning around to see most of the team staring at me. Ash stomps forward.
“Y/N, what the hell happened to you?”
I laugh bitterly and wave off her concern, trying to ignore the urge to cover the scars that mar my legs, back, and chest, given to me by my mother and father.
“My parents weren’t too happy when they found out about the girl, and let’s just say that I didn’t like how they treated me. My dad wanted to ‘beat the queer out of me’ and I fought back. Didn’t do that again, let me tell ya,”
The whole team crowds me and I take a step back. Ashlyn looks ready to throw down, Ali and Pinoe too, for that matter. Sam and Becky look sad, Sonnett and Lindsey look pissed, and Mal and Rose just look upset.
“Y/N, does anyone else know about this, like authorities, or relatives? Anyone?”
That comes from Julie and I laugh.
“Oh yeah, I went to the cops in my hometown, ya know what they said? ‘Sounds like you deserved everything you got, queer,’. After that I pretty much just gave up, and a few days later my dad woke me up, threw all my stuff out in the yard, smacked me around a bit, and told me not to come back, so yeah, people know, they just don’t give a shit,”
I turn around with tears in my eyes and roughly pull my shirt on,grab my bag, and walk out to the bus. Rose stops me and grabs me in a tight hug. A small shiver goes down my spine and I force the feeling out of my mind.
“I’m so sorry Y/N. You didn’t deserve that, no one does, and we all stand with you, regardless of who you like, or what you’ve been through, we’re all a family here, and that includes you,”
I sniffle and grin.
“I know, and I’m really thankful, y’all have made it easier to adjust to, that’s for sure, besides, if they don’t want me, why should I waste my time crying over them?”
 She hangs on for a few more seconds before taking my hand and tugging me onto the bus, pushing me into a seat beside Sonnett and Mal and taking a seat next to me. We spend the relatively short ride to the hotel looking at pictures of WIlma and Bagel, and I feel slightly better by the time we reach the hotel, all except the fluttering in my chest and the deep, bone tiredness my small meltdown caused.
Okay, Rose is acting weird. I’ve just been focusing on training, proving to Vlatko I belong, and trying to get to know the team. I’ve hung out with Kelley a few times, going on coffee runs and taking her advice on trying to play a more defensive game in my midfield position. The whole team is taking a gym day, and I’m with Kelley at the cardio/core station, Sonny and Sam also there. I’m finishing a 4 minute plank and some crunches when Rose huffs from the arm station. Ash is grinning broadly.
“Y/N, looking pretty hot there, kid! Come over, you too Kell, I wanna see short stuff show off,”
I grin and come over to the bench press, straddling it and letting Ash start me off with something light. She adds the weights and laughs.
“Lets see you do 70, kid, then I’ll let you increase it,”
I take the bar down and quickly pound out 10 reps, slotting the bar back into place. I nod to Kelley.
“How about we do about 135? 140?”
Rose’s eyes bug out and I laugh. Ash and Kelley quickly load up the weight onto the bar and I once again, pretty easily do another 10 reps. Even Ash looks slightly surprised at my nonchalance. What the team doesn’t know is that I set the record for female bench press at UoC with 514 pounds, and have been keeping up with weight lifting. I shrug and grin.
“Okay, let’s start getting a little difficult. Go up to 260?”
Mal just grins from the core station while Kelley looks down at me.
“You sure, y/n, that’s like more than Uncle can lift, and she’s the strongest here,”
I nod.
“Oh yeah, I got this, easy lifting, we can go on up to 300,”
They look skeptical and I just nod. They load up the 300 pounds and I lay back down, winking at Kelley and doing 10 reps. They all look amazed and I stand up, quickly putting enough weights to get me up to 520. The weight is slightly over my school record, but I’ve been doing high weight training since I set that. Ash looks down at me and smiles.
“Okay, if you can do ten-no, five reps of 520, I’ll let you pick where we go out tonight, no questions asked,”
I laugh and nod, laying back down. Kelley gets behind me, but shakes her head.
“Who am I kidding, I can’t catch this if your dumb ass drops it, Uncle! Come on, Y/N is being crazy stupid and lifting more than two of us, I need you to spot her!”
Alyssa comes over, sees the weights, and shakes her head.
“Kel, we better both spot, I can’t even lift that much, kid is crazy, or stupid,”
I laugh and slowly lift it once. I take a deep breath and do two more, some of the rest of the team coming over. I see Mal nodding her head and do one more, acting like I’m going to put the bar up.
“Kid, that’s four, I don’t have to give up my dinner choice!”
I laugh and do six more reps, my arms shaking. I put the slightly bent bar back, and cheer.
“Take that Ash, 10 reps, looks like we’re going to sushi tonight bitches!”
She just looks amazed, and the team all groans, vocalizing how unhappy they are.
I go to cool down and Kelley follows me, whispering in my ear.
“Dude, Rosie Posie was totally staring at you the WHOLE time you were being he-man! I also wanna know how in the Hell you did that, you’re like 90 pounds, kid!”
I blush and stammer, regretting telling Kelley about the small crush I have on Rose Lavelle. Which slipped out when I got a little tipsy at a team outing. 
“Kell! No she wasn’t, she was probably surprised I could lift any of that!”
She smirks, pulling me off into the hallway.
“Ma’am, she was practically trying to decapitate me with her mind when I just told you that, I’m pretty sure she’s jealous,”
I just shake my head. There’s no way, no way! She’s Rose frickin Lavelle, I’m just y/f/n y/l/n. 
Training has been going well. I’m keeping up with everyone, and Vlatko has definitely been paying attention to me. The team has been acting kind of weird today, but overall everything is fine. It’s time for a team bonding night in Alyssa and Carli’s room, and I’m in some sweats and a muscle shirt, walking in the hallway towards their room when I’m suddenly shoved into a small towel closet. I pound on the door.
“Hey! Whoever the fuck put me in here better be ready to catch some fuckin’ hands! Let me out, I’m legit dead serious!”
I hear muffled talking outside, recognizing Sonny and Ash.
“Em, Ash, let me the fuck out!”
They keep talking, but slowly walk away. I drop to the floor and try to control my breathing. I stare at the wall and focus on staying calm. 
It doesn’t work. It’s not 5 minutes before I’m hyperventilating and trying not to cry. The door to the closet opens for a split second and someone is shoved in. I try and get to the door, but whoever shoved someone in here is already gone. 
“God, seriously, Emily, Ash! Not cool!”
Of course it’s Rose. Who better to see me lose my shit? I sit down and bury my face in my hands.
“I’ve gotta get out of here, I can’t do this!”
Rose turns to me.
“Y/N? Of course. I’m going to kill Emily and Ash!”
I try to laugh but it comes out sounding strangled. I start to panic again, being forced to remember the night my parents found out. I can still feel the bite of my father’s hand, and the rough feel of our coat closet floor beneath me. 
“Fuck, fuck, fuck,”
I sob and grab my legs, slightly rocking back and forth as I shiver. My breath comes in tiny gasps and Rose scooches over to me, grabbing my face gently.
“Hey, you’re okay, we’ll get out of here, we just need to stay calm. I have my phone, we’ll call them okay?”
I nod quickly and she pulls out her phone, quickly putting it on speaker and setting it down. No one picks up and she curses.
“Fine, they want to ignore us, I’ll call Ali, she’s gonna have Ash’s ass for this, I can already feel it,”
I laugh slightly, still grasping my hair. She calls Ali and puts it on speaker.
“Hey Rose, where are you, and have you seen y/n? Ash said you both were tired and stayed back,”
Rose scoffs.
“Well currently I’m stuck in a towel closet, so is y/n, we need you to come get us, Ash and Sonnett locked us in here, Y/N isn’t doing too well,”
I laugh hysterically.
“Can you give the phone to Ash, Al? I need to tell her that she and Sonny better be ready to catch some hands, the motherfuckers,”
Rose gently rubs my back and I try and match my breathing to hers, failing.
“Y/N, what’s going on? What’s wrong?”
I once again laugh, this time the sound sounding watery and panicked.
“Well, your jackass of a wife fucking locked me in a closet! You know what that does to someone who got the hell beat out of them and then locked in a closet after their parents screamed at them for an hour after they were outed?”
She sighs and we hear her yelling at who I’m assuming are Ash and Emily. There’s a lot of rustling and muffled talking, before Ali comes back on.
“Okay, the whole team is coming, let me tell you, everyone is either pissed or trying to save their asses. I’m sorry guys, she’s stepped over a line this time, haven’t you, Ashlyn?”
We hear a muffled apology, and then the door cracks open. I launch myself out of the room and lean against the wall of the hallway, avoiding the eyes of the team. I crumble and Ali comes and hugs me, yanking Ash down with her.
“Now, Ash, what do you think you should say?”
I scoff and look at Ash.
“It’s fine, y’all were just being dumbassses, as usual, you didn’t know, I just wish you would’ve let me out when I yelled at you,”
She looks at me and apologizes. I nod.
“Just, think, maybe, before you lock someone in the closet? I spent enough time in one, man,”
She laughs and helps me up, putting her arm around my shoulders and leading me back to the hotel room. Before I go inside she looks at me.
“Me and Em did it to try and get you and Rose to man up and get together already, just so you know why we did it,”
I blush and nod. She smiles and gives me a tight hug, leaving with a wink. I go inside and see Rose standing there, waiting for me. I go to get some clothes to change into and she roughly grabs me, pulling me in for a massive hug.
“I’m sorry they did it, it’s sorta my fault,”
My eyebrows raise and I give her a small smile.
“I may have told Emily that I liked you, and then she told Ash, and that’s why they did it, oh god, you just had a panic attack and now I’m spilling, I’m so sorry, oh god,”
She covers her eyes with her hands and I grab them, pulling them from her face.
“Hey, it’s okay, I’m sure Kelley had something to do with it. I uh- I told her I liked you when I got a little tipsy and I’m pretty sure she was plotting with them. On a completely unrelated note, would you like to go out with me sometime this camp, or after? I’m coming up to Cincinnati in a few weeks to visit some college friends?”
She laughs and nods.
“I think I’d like that very much, y/n,”
I grin and gently grab her chin, tilting her head up and gently pressing her lips to mine. We stay like that for a moment, no rush, no crazy teammates, no one to interrupt.
Until Ali comes into the room, immediately laughing.
“Well I was coming to check on Y/N, but I think you’ve got it under control Rose, sorry y’all, I’ll leave,”
We both laugh and go about getting ready for bed, turning the lights off, wordlessly agreeing to an early night in. I try to sleep for around 45 minutes, unable to get my mind and body to relax. Rose must hear me shifting around and huffing, because I hear her get up and come over to my bed.
“Can I sleep here for tonight, I can’t sleep, and it sounds like you can’t either?”
I blush slightly and grab her hand.
“Yeah, sure, maybe it’ll help to share the bed,”
We both keep a small amount of space between us for a few minutes, before I sigh and grab her hand, pulling her closer, pressing her front to my back.
“Night, Rosie Posie, I’m kinda glad I got locked in another closet tonight,”
She grins against my neck.
“Well, I’m glad I got locked in with you,”
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vynnyal · 5 years ago
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dumping my random thoughts, comic ideas, and wildly misinformed theories abt hk onto my victims: part 2!!! p clear what I was doing in some of these, lmao
btw if you have any input im very, super interested please feel free 2 share
"So who's the mother?" Grimm: "Mother? No, there was no mother." "Then how--?" grimm: "Mitosis, obviously." Cut to two panels of the person dissociating over what they imagine the process to be.
FUCKIN... ASEXUAL PRIDE GRIMM
Hornet yelling shaw instead of yeet or koby.
Hornet yelling git gud at inappropriate times in place of like... Actual Advice. Alt: jdghghf or when she gets nervous, as a distraction.
Her thinking of something cool to say while waiting outside the black egg temple. alt: her thinking so hard she almost misses her cue, making her flub; aka the reason she says somn more like "geddun" in-game. alt alt: thk and ghost sharing a blank look (mid-battle) and thinking "she flubbed" in disbelief.
Hornet and something with the "spidersilk paper" lemm mentioned, maybe using it to """document""" her day when she has time to spare. She insists it's not a diary, so don't even try.
Hornet grieving the little weavers.
(speedrun) "You wanna fight? Huh? Huh? Well I dont, bye"
Zote "I only saved you for the money" joke.
Quirrel pretending not to understand modern slang.
Quirrel... Dad jokes... Holy shit
FUCKIN... DAD BOD???
conifer appearing in increasingly absurd locations.
Quirrel playfully commenting on the uh... "information"... The tablets display. alt: he can actually read it just fine, but is coy abt telling ghost what it says.
rather than just appearing, Quirrel and ghost walk through the archives together, the mood bittersweet.
Hollow knight passing the time in the black egg lightheartedly.
Wyrm and root trying to argue but the height difference just makes them both laugh.
ghost appearing before Root, expectant, only for them to slowly realize she doesn't actually... care about them. or any of the vessels, really. she expects them to do their duty, her claims of shame apparently not deterring her away from the fate they were created for. alt: she acts like that not out of any kind of malevolence, but out of pure ignorance. It doesn't occur to her how much it costs the little vessels... Or that they even have anything to lose, at all.
Cut to the future after the bad end, as yet another fragile vessel appears before the queen, far too late to save anyone now.
Godmaster traitor lord battle, ghost walks in looking very nervous. Traitor looks smug, asking if they're afraid (of him), only for the next panel to show ghost sweating profusely as they have Fragile Flower Flashbacks. alt, they're imagining/being pressured by the ghost girlfriends glaring at them/wailing "WAIIII" in tendem.
Ghost asks how thk got so big, only for them to reveal their body is still the same size, and they're just controlling a big suit of armor like false knight. Jdbfjfgjr
its been pointed out the bee knight doesnt... actually have any wings to buzz with. the noises are entirely vocalized. The reason buzzy baby makes buzz noises is because he felt left out when he was a kid; the queen, seeking to comfort him, explains how he can create his very own buzz sounds using an alternative method, instead. Despite his battle prowess, his mind never matured, continuing up to his very last moments to make the habitual noises of his childhood.
(godmaster) having soul left over and fuckin SCREAMING in the faces of the nail masters just before the bench.
Defeating bee boy by one mask, relaxing for a sec, before realizing the bees are stILL COMING ACTUALLY,,,,
The aftermath of the sheo fight, ghost just DRIPPING with rainbow-colored paint.
ze'mer and her lover meeting in their dreams.
flower lesbos hanging out with the thorn husbos (nailmaster/sheo hfshh)
Team cherry hid the gays behind some of the hardest missions because, let's be honest, no homophobe would put that much effort into anything.
Quirrel saying "I've only had ghost for a day, but if anything happened to them I'd -" Cuts to ghost, shade over their body Quirrel: "..."
Messing with the hot springs... geysers? Idk 3 heads things. whats in there? How were they made? By the ancient civilization, maybe pale king? alt: finding quirrel relaxing casually inside one of the eyesockets instead of in the spring, lmao.
"I'd sure like to be a shade, like heck- they can fly, they can do that weird teleport thing, and they have-", turns to it, "- ALL MY MONEY!!!"
Ngl I still don't fully understand the relationship between ghost, their shell, and their shade, and should prolly read up before blabbing, but what is it that separates ghost's body from their shade? Or their shade from ghost, themself? We see in the dnm ending they can very much "control" their shade, as they voluntarily rip off their shell to release it. Or... Oh shit am I dumb? Did ghost kill themselves right then? Oh fuck did ghost die to let their shade kill the radience. Please tell me I'm wrong I'm really upset now yfjfihrufhgi
Gonna be honest the previous one was me trying to contextualize the concept of ghost being able to fly like shades do but now I'm just thinking abt ghost, fuck. Still. Imagine ghost n thk just, like, hovering towards people with their funky tentacle legs. Or better, no tentacles, they can just Do That. Establish your dominance, little vessels.
Ghost doing the superman "ripping off your shirt to shift into super-mode" thing except they just tear apart their shell. Alt: hornet: "that looks painful"
Broken vessel was stuck. Out of all the dead vessels we see- the one in greenpath, those hung in nosk's den, the floor of the abyss, even ghost themself- not one retained their body after death. Except, that is, for broken vessel. Something, somehow, was anchoring their shade to their shattered shell and keeping it there, unable to seep away and reunite with their siblings below. They weren't just another corpse. That was ghost's sibling.
Just what is a vessel's coak? From what I've seen of the sprites, it's clearly attached to their shells; some in nosk's den are even hung from them, with their shells dangling below it. It seems biological- by which I mean, not some sort of clothing or ambiguously god-based substance- which makes its selective decay rather odd. On one hand, in greenpath, nosk's den, and some specific corpses within the abyss, their cloaks have stayed firmly attached. On the other, we have countless shells left naked all over the place- even ghost's shell is like this. Of course we have to keep in mind ari prolly just didn't wanna animate that, but that's no fun. I don't really have a prompt or theory here, as nothing I come up with quite fits the bill... Just more of a thinkpiece, I suppose.
Nyooming past quirrel at blue lake, freeze frame of ghost and q sharing a startled look.
Ghost distracting sheo by making him gush over his artwork. alt, "winning" the battle by showing him something they made, and/or just having a paint-off. Ghost wins no matter what, obviously.
Ohhh... Ghost learning to express themselves through art...
Lurien secretly has multiple eyes, fit neatly in the one socket.
Appreciating the genius of the mimic grub room (the real grub's location is hard-coded. im still mad)
Hearing Hornet say "get down" instead of "git gud" and the connotations of that. alt: hearing "git gud" when she's actually saying "get down", being offended or otherwise reacting to that, before being promptly smacked in the face by whatever she was warning them abt.
Hornet doing weird, obscure spider things.
Ghost: WHAT is THAT?? uumuu: uumuu emoji face
Where does the shade get its sword? Is it a void-sword? Did they scavange it? Did they make it???
The actual guttural horror of falling into the centipedes in deepnest.
The irony of feeling incredibly sad and hurt at thk's pain, but absolute bloodlust for pure knight.
What was written upon the journal found with the corpse in ash at hollownest’s edge. Alt: h. how did ash even get up there.
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kurou3gi-blog · 5 years ago
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It means that an Arab acc ig supposed that Ji accepted jk because they were after the gay couple.Interesting to talk about it, because now that I remembered that a twitter account had something similar in 2019.And that the rumors about the gay couple had been strong since September 2018.But your anon has to remember that in order for Ji to save his ass and Ks's, he will lie about everything.I just find your attitudes strange these days.As if he had choked for years and wanted to speak the truth.
Tbh I know my thinking is more hell and overload every time XD  
And really knows that my words can harm, mess, lure even change someone mind.
That’s why after I say I had broken in to pieces, it hard to see I talk about exo before some anon ask me XD
And tried to warning everyone before below the content...
Like I say to other anons more than once that don’t forget that ji didn’t say anything about soo with him on his birthday at 2019. And that clip showed only soo and other happy birthday to ji... 
But are you sure it happened at 14th?
Are you sure everybody who we saw they met ji to happy birthday him were meet him at the same day?
Tbh his same cloth not guaranty that it happened on the same day, if we think of his hat-trick same cloth on soo’s early enlistment announcement period... That he went to met ravi, moon and went convenience store on different days in a row with same cloth..
That made some of us had doubted why he wore the same cloth!? XD
Tbh while I answered that previous anon I thought I may talk about why he kept but now he leaked...
But at last I was tired, so I chose to stop it than chose to spread more shade...
So if you want to know what I think why he leaked it....
Let’s go...
I think all of us and all of ekso knew about gay couple can ruin kr people life...
And It’s true...
But like we see some biggest movie pd could coming out with none of any effect because he is a one of big influencers in kr celluloid world... Everyone celebrated his wedding with his boyfriend at 60+ years old XD
So that mean if you have enough power or biggest back up... Gay issue can’t drag you down.... You will pass it even without any hurt...
And that why I used to say more than once that maybe they can coming out if they have enough power.
But like us and they knew... Gay couple issue will destroy their career if someone can unfolded them...
So... All of us think they were separated by some medias need to unfolded and esm tried to cover it....
But if we turn back to around late of 2015... When most of news medias trolled their a bit deep skinship moments on those award events pics at the same time...
Do you think it is just only accidental or willful by conspiracy term?
Tbh I still doubt since the event happened until now...
Why they all trolled those kind of pics to the world like need to say “We knew it!”
And if they knew it.... So, needed to tell esm about this for make money...
Then do you think how much esm must pay to these media?
But then...
If they already knew...
Why they wait until that time and tried to spread tea at the same time?
Even I think they knew it’s impossible to let’s esm pays a ton of money for their idols to them....
So...
They did it for what?
To tell esm for blackmail....
Or helped esm to press ji accept that kstal deal?
Or ......?
Then after those events, they didn’t trolled the combo pics like that again... - -”
To me it felt like a viral thing....
Happened and ended in one shot...
Full of doubt but I pretty sure I can’t clear it with 100%
Only doubt and doubt why blablabla but blablabla then blablabla? blablablabla...
More things since mid of 2015 until after kstal confirmed...  I felt like it make sense, none make sense and wthex at the same time....
But I only doubt and kept it inside because I think it’s hard to found the true answer...
So no need to try hard to clear it... Because I think we know something you should keep it in silence only...
Even you think it full of doubt an unfair thing, need more clear but no one answer you. So...
I think at first kd accepted about kstal issue with no doubt in esm’s decision...
But when it passed for a while... They have seen many things happen.... I think they started to doubt in what esm told them about their relationship issue effect...
The first thing that made me think like that is his ig live at late of 2018
But when I saw that his ig live that he shoot despite where the battery is running out. I think he know his battery is running out before shooing.  That why i full of question marks again with “he done ig live for what?”
And surprise to saw some comment under that ig live clip said his manager try to stop and said “rumor” before it end…
^^^Sorry if my parlance in these 2 paragraphs looks strange from others.... Because I copied and pasted 2 of them from my old content this.
And yes after I watched that live I felt like he need to tell us about the coming up of his dating issue...
Some of my questions in my head after saw it are... Why he did it? 
I think he knew if he trolled some of us can get his point... It’s mean we can see more analysis about how fake of jk...
Even at last ppl can feel only the girl’s delulu that beyond the truth. XD
Is it not make esm risk?
But like we see that none of it in surface except jk was confirmed...
Btw I still doubt why he chose to leak it... Not keep it in secret like it should be...
Even it looks like a viral ig live for kidding feeling than he did it for some result....
But maybe he need only someone get his trigger viral... Who knows...
Then if + cebu ig issues... That’s why I told that anon that this is not first time of his leakage on his ig...
Sometime I felt like he use his ig for testing some tricks... That it’s work or not...
For something in the future...
Ok back to main course again before I take you go far far away... XD
And these are why I think maybe they had doubted in esm words about gay couple effect...
But I think at first their doubt is only a sediment that waiting for the crystallization day...
The day that their last chain was broke...
I think if jk issue not coming up...
They may keep their doubt in silent until the last day....
But because of esm trolled jn issue to ji again...
Maybe that issue was an eruption starter...
To find the truth about their relationship effect...
It’s real right like what esm told them or not...
And someone need to unfolded them is true or not?
Ok back to 2015-2016 again....
All of us who are kdist may knew that because someone tried to unfolded them...
So the dating issue should coming up to cover that hole...
But in other way... Some of fx fc said at last esm chose crystal, not yo*na because crystal already had some rumors about her relationship with amber or some china rich man at the same time...
Do you feel familiar?
One of famous girl and boy idols have bad bad rumors at the same time...
Along with you start to see a bit hint about those girl and boy idols have secret relationship to each other at the same time...
I think at first no one notice about this coincidence...
But if it comes again with same movement...
Are you feeling you wondering?
Why it happened like god need to match them together...?
kstal and jk have a pretty same pattern from the start... But difference in a bit of details and time ending....
So I'm not surprised if they are aware of it and start not trusting esm.
They just accept that deal but not mean they absolutely surrender...
Some of my feelings about esm vs ekso since late of 2016 until now...
It’s feel like if you deceive me, I will deceive you back.
I touched a bit betrayal from them in sometime...
Then...
I think jd issue is ji’s last chain....
How esm lets jd announced about his wedding like a regret surprise made him knew maybe the things they told him not 100% truth...
The thing esm say because of it, so we just let you do it for save your life maybe it was only saved esm life. 
Even esm knew jd may too risked if he confessed that thing...
But esm lets jd do without any protect except gave more works to him like a reward...
And lets kr fan fight with ifan. No care ekso will 9 or not...
Because they no care at the started if we notice how lay can’t comeback with ekso anymore by cn gov and then by his schedule... But jackson g7 can come back with g7 all of times.... And lay at last came to kr to send soo enter the military....
So maybe what esm say to them is just only a scam...
Even someone unfolded them... Maybe it may nothing...
Do you remembered some reporter came out to say jk may fake?
I think it’s a good example to show him to know that if he leak something about their relationship...
Maybe it’s not too bad like esm say...
Then maybe jd issue let him to leak it....
That’s why I used to say that I felt like ji want to revenge and strike esm back with that updated.
Then why he waited until this time?
I think he always tries to find the time & way to leak it with good result.  And some of his ig leakage before that ig undated are good examples about this...
And why he chose this time...
I think because it’s a good time to leak it if we think of his situation now in the name of sperm member under cpt & esm’s arm....
+ gucci, fenti ambassador....
+ one of vogue’s adore children...
I think esm can’t do anything to hurt him for save their deal at least with those partners...
Then a one thing that maybe true...
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Anon said : 
And as always, they are employees or former employees who sell information about idols. Only gay couples do not leak because magazines cannot publish because it is prohibited.
So....
If it’s true I think I no wonder if he wait until this time... It’s good chance to leak with take a bit effect or none of it...
+ How we sure ppl get attention, get notice or trust in our analysis about that ig updated? If you not interest in bxb life in girl’s vision...
+ I think ppl not care about what he say then and now. They focused only wow~ soo with ji...
I think most of ppl maybe not remembered what he say on that birthday ig live....
Then if they remembered.. So...?
Like we see kstal & jk was confirmed and ended with they were real and they are faked depend on each ppl vision...
So maybe he leaked it now because he a bit sure that maybe it may not hurt him much and no need to keep it in secret again if esm can unfolded their artist by themselves like what they did with jd issue...
And maybe this is a last test for make him sure before go to the next step...
Who knows....
But these are only my dumb brain cell’s overload....
So hope you enjoy reading... XD
And sorry if it wasted your time...
Tbh I need to talk with more clear...
But I don’t know how to explain some idea from th to eng.
Sorry....
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one-piece-dumpster-fire · 5 years ago
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Man oh man Its hot outside and I'm feeling thirsty AF. Can I request so sugar daddy law and sugar daddy Sanji head cannons. I'm in the mood to love on my one piece husbands today. Please and thank you.
Oh deeeeeaaar here we go xD
Warning for.... implied filth under the cut
Sanji and Law- Daddycanons
Snooj
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„Hold on (Y/N)-chwan, you want me to be your what?! Sugardaddy??? Well, uhm, does this mean you want me to make you more desserts from now on, or...?“
oh honey you got him turning every single shade of red with that offer. Look, Sanji knows (in theory) what a Sugardaddy is, but... you can’t be for real. This has to be a joke. And don't you usually have to be a bit older to be considered, uh, 'Daddy'?
you bet your ass that he's gonna read up on everything before agreeing to any sort of... ‘extra relationship’. Believe me though when I say... he’s not really that into it
but because Snooj is a lovestruck fool who'd do anything for you, he will give this a try regardless. For your sake. Maybe it’ll be fun. It isn’t
the lovecook isn't really a good daddy for multiple reasons- the main being that he seeks to conquer your HEART, not just... your body
and it also makes him feel kind of bad to just... view this relationship and you as that- a tool to bring him pleasure. I mean he loves the sexy times, he sure does, but you’re more to him than this!
however, after a while he also discovers something entirely new to this- instead of just seeing this as him using you and stuff, this could actually be an opportunity for him to really shine and just spoil you...? Which might possibly even help you fall further and further in love with him? Maybe?
so Sanji starts to give you almost anything you want, while only asking for little affections in return- like, would you just cuddle with him? After all, having you close to him is already everything he could ask for~ -this is him trying to be smooth
in the end, Snooj rates 6/10 on the Daddyscale. It takes a while for Sanji to get into it, but once there he will spoil you to no end. Biggest downside? He seeks more than just something physical, so be prepared to turn down quite a few attempts of building something more ‘intimate’ if you’re not into that!
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„Mh... what was that? Sugardaddy? Pfff, you sure are a pervert, (Y/N)-ya...“
now Law's a lot better at this biz, because unlike Sanji he does not seek a bond nor emotional commitment, so just letting him fuck you in return for certain rewards sounds pretty cool
I mean look at him, Law needs to get laid. He rarely manages to relieve any stress that the alliancelife gives him, so this could be a welcome alternative to just chopping people up
that doesn’t mean that he isn’t wary and careful though, especially at the beginning. Such a 'relationship' can break apart or turn complicated rather easily, so he does his best not to stick around or get involved with you in any other way
this is supposed to be strictly about pleasure, so let's keep it at that. Leave his room once he's done, the payment always follows up the next time he requests you to join him in his chambers
and his 'rewards' are just raw cash btw. He isn't really going out of his way to get you something personal which you might end up not liking
his calls for you... they become more and more frequent as time passes by though. And sometimes it's not even just about sex- he ain't always feeling horny, so how about you simply give him a massage instead this time?
there is one iron rule: don't call him Daddy. EVER. Law won’t stand for that. because no he does not want to be compared to the pink trash bird who had like twelve gals around who called him that on a daily basis
and it also goes without saying that this relationship is supposed to be secret, yes? Especially from his crew and Luffy, god if he found out about anything going on he might just tell the whole New World within three seconds or so
overall Law rates 9/10 as Daddy. He's pretty good in bed, and especially if you're into the whole dom-sub thing you might have found a great partner in him. He also leaves quite an amount of cash behind, so GG (Y/N).
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fuck-customers · 5 years ago
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Happy New Year hope you like Heatstroke
Yeah so. Event Services binch back with a long and harrowing tale. Those two shift days in a row on 30th and 31st were nooooot good for me. This is pretty much a 'Fuck how shitty my boss gets when she's stressed and also just fuck 14 hour shifts in general'.
The 9hrs on Monday turned into 9.5 hours. In 30c+ heat (and just a reminder, Sydney is currently constantly covered in smoke haze, we are always breathing smoke), but a breeze came through early afternoon to save us some. There was 4 of us putting up park signange in prep for the NYE event. I ended up schleping the ladder around a lot, I was the only one on that team that actually does weights so i carried a lot. Not a problem really except the signs and ladder are awkward to carry. Only real issue that day was my dinner was in the fridge all day which... turned out hadn't been working for 2 days (why they hadn't fucking put a sign on it about that I DON'T KNOW). Lots of people's shit got thrown out. My food was only just edible after nuking in the microwave cause i keep it in a thermo lunch bag.
The worst was NYE. 13 hour shift (it actually became a 14 hour shift). Started at 12pm, set to finish at 1am (I finished at 2). The sun was not forgiving, we had way more signage to put up because we had to wait for barriers to be set up before we could add signage to them (like line barriers for rides, entry barriers for VIP areas, that kinda thing). Our instruction sheets were BAD. They had OLD pictures that were tiny so seeing what signs were supposed to go where was hard. There was only three of us, the weather was in the high 30's and I'm sure it hit 40 at one point.
I ate a small brunch at 10 that morning. I did not get a break by 5pm like we were supposed to (park was to open at 6:30). I was yelled at by my boss for all the signage being in the wrong places and wasting cable ties (none of that signage I put up, or signage i put up with someone else's instruction they had gotten from my boss btw, so why i got yelled at idk). I was told to go straight up to my box office shift, I did not realise the box office was located outside with no shade during NYE (there was a marquee but the sun was low and behind us so *shrug* no sun cover).
I had to share a locker because NYE be like that, but the person I was sharing with was a ditz, and she thought I had the key, and she either lost it or didn't look for it properly in her pockets. Either way, I had to frantically run around in 38c trying to find her to get in the locker to change into the long black uniform pants I have to wear for box shift. 
By the time i found her, got my pants on, walked all the way out the front and up the stairs and up the hill and down the path to box i was nearly dead. The other girls there told me i could sit cause it wouldn't get busy for a while. So i sat on a bench and then became very aware of how hot i was and how much i was not cooling down and i felt nauseous. And I had had like 2 and a half litres of water at this point, I have a 1ltr bottle so it makes tracking that easy. It just wasn't doing enough.
One of the Guest relations people hanging out up there went 'yeah okay you need first aid' so she got me some hydrolyte and escorted me down once I'd shaken off enough dizziness to walk again. Was in First Aid for half an hour, they got me to drink more hydrolyte and put an ice pack on my neck and gave me a barley sugar lozenge to get my blood sugar up. Then i was finally given my half hour break on their insistence. Got to eat at last. Had to check in with FA before going back to my box shift, and thankfully by then, about 6:30, a wind change came through making the temp drop about 10 degrees. 
But I basically spent the time between then and 11:30 recovering ( I was on guest list duty and also did ticket collect, it was pretty quiet tho). At 9:40 my boss called one of the shift leads up at Box to see if they could send me home, and I had to say no. I was scared they'd FORCE me to leave after the heatstroke thing, but i NEED the money, this is my ONLY job, and I'm not even getting the pay for it til two weeks into the new year (it fell into the next pay period and i had no shifts inside the previous pay period).
They apparently were sending several peripheral staff home, I felt like I needed to find extra jobs to do just so they'd let me stay, but also, if i didn't stay past midnight i wouldn't get the public holiday bonus. I NEED THAT TOO. ESPECIALLY after all the work I'd done the day before, it felt like a fucking slap in the face even though i knew it was them trying to make sure I didn't end up getting sick and suing or some shit (As if i have the money to sue). Also I'd miss the Fireworks, which while not my main concern, still a bummer, because my dudes. Sydney Fireworks on NYE with a view from where I work. People pay more money than I currently have just to experience it. Honestly it's part of the payoff for the hell shift.
THANKFULLY my boss went 'ah right okay yeah just stay up there on guest list til the original end of shift'. I also made sure to stick my nose in on the sales end so i could use it as basic box office pre-training, since my boss has already said she wants to train me on box office. Somewhere around 10 I had my second break and wolfed down my food (they had a replacement staff fridge working that day thankfully) which i was glad i brought cause I never got given a staff wristband, brief sheet or token for a provided meal. Because I started before that sign in procedure was even set up for the rest of the staff. And then i went about taking down signage about 11:30, and then I did the running around taking signage down after 12, and like... the area we're in involves some steep hill walks to get to these outside sign placements (I'd put half of them up so it also made sense for me to go take them down). 
And that's where MORE fuckery came in, because the shitty instructions didn't tell me where ALL the signs were, so i had to go HUNTING for the ones i HADN'T put up, and i swear either another department took them down and didn't relay that, or they'd been removed by council or something thinking they belonged to council. Either way i was up and down those fucking hills with horribly chaffed thighs, sore legs, sore arms, cut up hands from removing signs with cable ties too tight, and I couldn't find half the fucking signs. but at least I took one of the newbies with me to help look so I had a witness to not being able to find things. 
So yeah. I had to go find my supervisor (no idea where boss was, prefer supervisor anyway, she's nicer under stress and poor thing was pulling a 19 hour shift) and let her know I was an hour over my finish time and which signs we hadn't been able to retrieve. She was fine with that, the rest of the people were scheduled for packdown to like 3:30 so she sent me to sign out. 
And then i had to just sit for about 45 minutes back of house with some of the others who'd clocked off at 1 and who were waiting for the free leftovers from the VIP areas that came out at 3. I had a tiny tasty cake thing but that was it, then I left at 3 and got home about 4:45. Didn't get to sleep til about 5:30.
And I've spent yesterday and today trying to recover but now Iv'e got weird low-buzz tinnitus in my left ear that started yesterday and hasn't fucked off, several bruises, many muscle aches, and I'm kinda dreading facing my boss again even though she probably doesn't really care much about the signage thing, she just gets really shitty and yelly under stress. But of course I've been gaslit and mistreated in so many of my other jobs that the voice in the back of my head is constantly going 'watch out bitch you might get randomly terminated at any moment!!!' even though i know i probably won't. 
I can just never be sure anymore. Can't trust anyone when it comes to work. Can never relax my guard, going to be stressing about it for a long time. I am never agreeing to a shift that long again though. And definitely not doing anymore outdoor setup shifts in Summer. 
Honestly hoping this ear buzz shit goes away at some point. In the end for my 23.5 hours of work in 2 days I'll probably maybe get $500 after tax. Maybe. Which will only just be floating my account by the time i get it. Everyone else was talking about having that sweet NYE bonus cash and I'm like ;u; yeah. Sure. haha. Bonus cash. TnT I need a proper fucking career job already i am so tired. 
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