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What Each GSNK Character’s Spotify Wrapped Looked Like
Chiyo
Sabrina Carpender girlie baby!
Throw in Gracie Abrams, maybe some Carly Rae Jepsen, probably Chappell Roan
If it sounds like it would play during a sunny summer car ride montage in a romcom she’s listening to it you know the vibe I mean
Nozaki
Nozaki only listens to those lofi livestreams on YouTube my man does not have Spotify moving on
Actually no I can see him getting really into the Epic Saga. He has “Greek mythology phase” energy
Hori
Look me in my eyes and tell me theater kid Hori didn’t BLAST the Wicked soundtrack.
You also cannot tell me that Hazbin Hotel WASN’T on that top albums list for him I won’t believe you.
Also Tyler The Creator I don’t really have a reason for it I just think he’d like it
Seo
Seo’s top artist is either straight up just classical operas or Ashnikko.
Hitting shuffle on her playlist is a dangerous roulette wheel
Kashima
Kashima has what I’ve dubbed the “bisexual playlist” so she’s got Marina, Harry Styles, Billie Eilish, you know the vibes
Conan Grey, Renee Rapp, like need I go on. You know exactly the vibe I’m talking about
She also probably studies to Animal Crossing music with color coded notes like she’s a chaos tornado but she is a straight As chaos tornado
Mikorin
Our fav kpop girl group stan definitely looped the discography of any girlgroup he heard disbanded so he’s got a lot of Fromis 9, Cherry Bullet, stuff like that
Probably a lot of Hatsune Miku and Vocaloid stuff too like he definitely knows the dance for Roki Roki
Definitely any song you’d find on a “Songs Written in Sparkly Gel Pen” playlist
Mayu
Mayu is like Seo with shuffle roulette but because his music is either chill stuff like Laufey or beabadoobee or the loudest possible Ado song you can find
Wakamatsu
He has “I like anything :)” energy like you know those playlists that are called Poly-jam-orous? Those
It entirely depends on his mood he has workout music, walking music, morning music, afternoon music, genuinely like 50 different playlists all for very specific things
Like his favorite artist changes by the time of day in the morning he’ll be a Gorillaz Stan cut to 5 hours later in gym he’s blasting bbno$ then in the evening he’s vibing to electro swing remixes of video game music like do you see the vision
#gsnk#mgnk#anime#monthly girls nozaki kun#monthly girls' nozaki kun#GSNK Headcanon#MGNK Headcanon#IM BACK BABY
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Universal Human Knowledge (Why Write What You Know is Often The Worst Advice Ever)
“Write what you know,” is, in some ways, the worst piece of advice ever given out. And in some ways, it’s absolutely perfectly true. The problem is, most people don’t understand it.
By people, I don't mean writers. My dad, who has never written anything, believes so much in this that he tried to make me get a non-writing career and not write anything until I retire because by then I might know something to write about.
He didn't win that argument. Or any of the others, really.
I once had an idea to write a book set in a fictional town in Alabama. (I don't know if I ever will, but if I do it will probably be called Purity Falls or Fallen Purity or something of that ilk.) I’ve never been to Alabama, though (I’ve never been to America). So I asked for help on various sites, got lots of great info, suggestions of books to check out, offers of beta-readers, the works.
I also got a lot of rage on Facebook, in a certain writer’s group. How dare I write books set in a place I’d never been to? They’d be awful. I should immediately give up everything in my life, move to Alabama for a minimum of six years, and then maybe I could write it. There would be essential details I’d never know without living there, like what Alabama smells like in spring-time (easily solved, set the book in Autumn. Or say to one of the people who said I can ask them questions “what does Alabama smell like in spring-time?” Or give my fictional town a badly functioning sewer plant and have the place smell of shit all year round. Or ask Google. Or read books set there. Or just not mention such a throwaway detail in my novel).
There was one writer in particular who got really offended at the idea of my writing books set in places I’d never been. She actually got aggressive and verbally attacked me on several occasions. Others piled into defend my position, and we pointed out repeatedly the ridiculousness of having to live somewhere in order to write about it.
Because that would mean no books set in space. No books set in the future. No books set in the past. No fantasy, science fiction, westerns, or historical novels. We’d have thrillers, romance, mystery, maybe horror – all set in each author’s home town.
Yeah, that ridiculous.
That’s the danger of write what you know. I sometimes think it should be rephrased as Know What you Write and be all about research and so on.
Write what you know isn’t about only setting books in your town. Or only writing about people who do the same job as you (otherwise all heroes would be writers, right?) It’s about Universal Human Knowledge. The stuff most of us know (and often don’t realise we know it because it’s not individual to us).
You might know:
what it feels like to be in love
what it means to be a parent
what it is to be a young child
the pain of heart break
the sorrow of grief
the joy of accomplishment
the importance of friendship
Using this Universal Human Knowledge, you can make your characters seem like real people whether they are future security guards investigating the murders of cyborgs, a chain-smoking steampuk heroine who defies God and Reason for Queen and Country, or a Roman gladiator fighting an eldritch horror as Pompeii is destroyed around them.
Ethan Wilkes lives on a floating city in a drowned world, has an ex-wife on a moon colony, is immediately supervised by a very advanced artificial intelligence, and is head of security for the most advanced cybernetics corporation in existence – and at first glance most of that seems like things readers can’t relate to.
Ethan Wilkes lives in a tiny apartment in a city that never seems to stop raining. He pays exorbitant rents for the little space he has. He has an ex-wife he’d happily never see again, yet some rare nights when he lies in bed, before he falls asleep, he wonders how different life would be if they were still together. Or had never met. His boss seems to know every move he makes, has absolutely no sense of humour, and lacks emotion. He works long hours for little pay and even less thanks.
The example above would not be written if I stuck to a rigid interpretation of Write What You Know. It's far away from anything I know or even anything my readers will have experienced. However, using the idea of Universal Human Knowledge, I can write what I know – I know what it’s like to live in a city, to pay ridiculous amounts of money for tiny bits of space, to wonder what life would be like if I was still with my ex-wife, or if we’d never got together in the first place. I know what crap managers are like and, sadly, in my experience I know they outnumber the good ones 9-1. I know what working security is like, what working long hours is like, and how rarely management says thank you.
I know what it is like to feel vulnerable, lonely, scared. To tell the truth and not be believed. To make good friends and feel your confidence rise because someone believes in you.
You probably know what at least most of that feels like, too.
This is where you write what you know, and it gives you characters depth and a sense of realness that your readers can easily connect with. And once your readers connect with your characters on an emotional level, you can take them anywhere – from floating cities in drowned worlds to games of blood and honour.
Oh, cool book title. I like it: Games of Blood and Honour. Works even better in American.
You can have it if you want.
#writer#writing advice#writing tips#writers on tumblr#creative writing#writing#writeblr#writerscommunity
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Man I thought you’d never ask! Buckle up cause you can probably tell by now I ramble a LOT and I’ll get side tracked at some point. Not all of this will be 100% fact I will most likely change a lot of stuff at some point
First thing first some background/lore
Guardians are people/ beings who travel to different universes and time lines to help their “Champions” who are people Guardians choose to protect and stuff their kinda like guardian angels? But also not? There main goal is to protect their champions and guide them to a better path or the path they’re “supposed” to be on, or just help be the person they want to be and let them know that no matter what their is always someone who is rooting for them and help them fight their battles. The second priority is protecting those their champions cherish and are close to them if their champions are the cause of distress for others champions or what other universes they’re from (for example if they become evil and kill everyone or become the everyday evil) its the Guardians job to try and persuade them to redeem themselves and be as non violent as possible but if they’re champions are to far gone they (guardians) have to put the people around their champions safety first and stop them, best case scenario for that is imprisonment, worst case death. By the time my OCs “become” (force) Guardians whether or not the champions could see the guardians becomes kinda finicky, sometimes their champions can see them sometimes they don’t well most of the time they don’t. And because of that they can’t really do much when it comes to physically helping their champions so if they’re dying they kinda just have to sit there and watch same with the evil stuff some fore would stop them if they try. There’s waaay more of this but I want to talk about the OCs :p!
This is getting really long so this will mostly be just about the two who are mentioned in the memes and their relationships with thier champions in the AU’s. (Also pretty much all of my oc’s are not completely human soo yeah)
Jerico (had this guy since I was ten still unsure of about his name) is Kai’s Guardian and shares canon Kai’s fierce love for his family and protectiveness  as well as the temper Rico’s can just seem to be a lot more…violent? He would a hundred percent kill and maybe torture for his champions if they want but there has to be a “good” reason he will not kill cause it’s funny or because there are people in your way. I don’t really have a lot of thoughts on BE Kai yet But! Jerico would be soo mad at Kai in the scorch AU. He be screaming profanities at him and probably try to shake him as if that would make Kai come to his senses. He would definitely try to reassure Kai’s worries about being replaced on the team and just try to steer  him back to the other ninja but weather that would work or not is up in the air.
Ok now onto the baby Jacobi! He’s the second youngest of the group in world but he’s technically only excited in my head for like 6 years now. Obviously Jay is Jack’s champion, his very first one in fact!  That will be important later for I want to start off with the Storm Vessel AU cause that’s not as angty. One of the agreements Jacobi had with his Dad is that he come home for lunch and dinner when ever he calls ‘‘em over (the same goes for his older brother even though he’s an adult) it doesn’t matter what cries he’s in the middle of with his champion he’s coming over and EAT. (Note I have not read the fic I’ve only seen your post about the AU and this idea just came into my head) So when the sacrifice thing stared jack and his bro was called home and the moment he was gone Jay shows back up and the other guardians immediately starts freaking out and panickly starts coming up with a plan on to fix/explain this to Jacobi before he comes back. And in the middle of arguing about the plans they here Jack shit out of panic in the distance singling to them that he’s back and about to start freaking out to. And that’s all got for Storm Vessel AU time for the angst! Jay is Jacobi’s champion and BE Jay just so happens to be Jacobi’s first instance with dealing with an evil champion and he did not take it well. Skybound is already a pretty stressful season for him (Jay is constantly taking hits and Jack can’t do anything about it) I haven’t read the BE origins fic in a hot minute so I’ll just say in a version of the story where no can see him it storms for weeks around the misfortunes keep after Jay captures the ninja and every one thinks it’s Jay when it’s actually Jacobi (he’s got lightning powers too) When a ninja gets captured by the sword their guardian gets sent back to there own base so it takes a for anyone to come pick Jacobi up so he’s stuck with this cruel version of his champion unable to anything but stew in his anger and sorrow which of course effects the weather around him until someone comes and picks him up. :( You said in a post that no one ever called Jay out for because anyone who could was to scared of him to do so but Jacobi would.not.care. He would be so upset he’s one of the only Guardian to NOT kill for any reason. So he’d only shock Jay or something (cause they most likely be a fight) and run off some where probably to Jay’s parents (I mean how can he not find comfort with them? Look at them!) and hide out in the junkyard until someone picks him up. I’ll probably end up drawing something for both scenarios.
I’ll stop here cause this is REALLY long but thank for asking:) let me know if you want to know more about them just maybe ask more specific ones? Yeah…
I downloaded a meme maker just to this cat meme for the purified au
And then I ended up making a bunch more with my OC’s and your other AUs instead of sleeping so here you go
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#my ocs#holy shit#this is most I’ve ever written for anything#i’m so sorry#I don’t stop thinking about them ever#there’s so much that people usually end up getting overwhelmed when I tell them#I got really excited#side note#I’m glad you found the memes funny#cause#i was giggling#like a maniac#when I was making them#ninjago#i guess#I still cannot#believe#i wrote this#totally went overboard
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max chapman character of the century i miss you every single day
#somebody should make a cut of her plotline#bc sometimes i’m like why is this random women’s baseball team interrupting the most important story ever written ?#and i LOVE all of aloto don’t get me wrong. but max’s storyline. i’ve never seen anything like it before nor after#it really HITS#aloto#a league of their own#max chapman
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Writing characters that are doomed by the narrative in new & exciting ways is my passion. I love tragedy & pain. So. So much.
#oooooh I am SO excited about some of the plot twists & deaths I have planned ahhhh#writing#skeletons in the closet#this story is more fucked up than anything else I’ve ever written#I’m really sinking to new levels of dark#I don’t want to overhype it but I almost feel like I can’t#like I’m just. so so excited about where I plan to take this story#wip#it’s definitely the most fucked up story ive ever written & we haven’t even gotten to the most depraved & twisted shit yet#I can’t wait
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i did not expect taash to seriously make selina consider her relationship with gender but they did and that’s interesting as hell. when they say ‘being a woman sucks’ selina’s response was SO not ‘i like being one’. and that? that made her consider the fact that her relationship with being a woman might be… pretty terrible.
#CLAWS RETRACTED.#[selina is the most cis woman I’ve ever written in my life. it’s absolutely wild. it’s so intrinsic to her character. but her relationship#to femininity??? bad. fucking horrible. she sees it as a way to lie her way out of everything seduce her way out of anything else beguile#her way INTO anything. she’s never really thought about it outside of what she can USE. and that? is insane. she’s just been existing like#this until somebody DIDNT have their gender figured out and she was like ‘oh… gender is more than just a thing you use as a weapon hah’.]
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#dramatic irony: the fic. that’s it. that’s the whole story#the x files#alex krycek#fox mulder#the most fun I’ve ever had writing a fic I must say#anyway I swear to GOD no more fic until I get something original written. this is my magnum opus#well wait I do have my pac rim fic. BUT I CANT DO ANYTHING WITH IT RIGHT NOW#anyway. do you like time loops? do you want a time loop story told by someone who isn’t IN the time loop? well I’ve got a fic for you
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The violent urge to just never finish this is scary chapter ten
#I’m not gonna#at least I’ll try not to#I’m pretty sure this is the depression talking#but god how do you people enjoy it#it’s so bad man#but it’s somehow the most praise I’ve ever received for anything I’ve written#and I’m half convinced it’s all a trick#vent
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having big thoughts tonight. i only listen to three mountain goats songs (aka the ones that were on moral orel) so my thought process is if old college try = chainshipping and no children = coffinshipping then i will be forcing love love love into equalling shotgunshipping
#if i can get one person to listen to old college try and understand how much like chainshipping it is i will have done my job#it’s the only reason i started writing that fic#which may i add is almost done and way longer than anticipated#it’s pushing 15k words which is the most i’ve ever written for anything#shortbreadly rambles
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how can I have so many ideas but also NO IDEAS
#I’m back in my hating music phase sorry#it’s just so incredibly frustrating the concept is 100% but I literally cannot come up with anything#I’ve been putting off trying so I’ve been like ‘well just try you don’t even know if it’s going to be hard’#guess what. it’s just as hard as it’s been for the past three years I’ve been massively burnt out#I hate it here why do I even do this#this was supposed to be funny but it’s actually not that funny anymore I’m so tired of only ever being able to force myself to create#nothing I do is ever all that good. like it’s fine. but in the past three years I’ve written one (1) piece I’m actually proud of#and I’ve written at least like seven pieces#which is not even a lot compared to most people who do what I do#anyway. the tags kind of got away from me. I think I should stop for tonight#meanwhile I only spent like 15 minutes on it and that was enough to genuinely upset me#mine
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Please ignore this post I am just creating a checklist for when Mitsuba will get screentime so I will know how many of the facts (including silly ones) I brought up these past years about her have been addressed:
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Mitsuba’s demon debut (I hope it’s not another child-looking one…)
The mitsudomoe tattoo on her demon’s chest (does the tattoo imply the demon is Mitsuba’s or the Sangū clan’s possession? does Aoi’s demon have it too?)
Both fanbooks and the Bloody Blades game saying Mitsuba’s axe’s ability is to manifest an infinite number of demons (yet we only see her manifesting three at most so is she perhaps not using her cursed gear to its full potential or is it just Yamamoto not wanting to draw all that?)
Fanbook 8.5 stating there is no difference in strength between the demons of first to third rank (so Mitsuba’s demon shouldn’t be weaker than those of her squadmates)
What the hell was that time when some of her arm was sliced by Crowley, there was blood but then the next chapter she was surprised that there was no injury?
The similar names of Mitsuba and Aoi’s demons (note: Tenjiryū “Heaven-shaped dragon” and Chijiryū “Earth-shaped dragon”; are their demons perhaps related too? siblings? twins? halves of each other?)
Why is Mitsuba’s demon named after the sky and yet her manifestations come from the earth she cracks?
Why is Aoi’s cursed gear golden?
Why does the hilt of Aoi’s cursed gear have three-leaf clover symbol and drawings? (note: Mitsuba’s name means “three-leaf clover”)
Mitsuba backstory flashback chapter when?
The Sangū clan curse making all of its members blonde (note: the LN mentioned both hair colour-related curses of the Jūjō and Sangū clans but only the Jūjō’s backstory was explained)
Parents (were they good parents and why the hell did they appear out of nowhere?; judging by Mitsuba’s reaction to seeing them I feel like they were good…at least to her)
Did their parents name their daughters that way for a reason or was it just them being silly? (note: “Aoi” refers to a two-leafed plant while “Mitsuba” refers to a three-leafed plant yet they are the first and second daughters; is there perhaps another one?)
Why Mitsuba has such a bad relationship with Aoi?
Her feelings for Aoi
Did Kagami intentionally make Aoi start serve Kureto the same year Mitsuba was born? (Aoi was 7 at the time, the same age gap she has with Mitsuba, suggesting that Aoi was never around since Mitsu was born)
When did Mitsu join the army and how long did it take her to join the Vampire Extermination Unit?
Why did she join the army? (nepotism? forced to? had a desire to prove herself?; note: in one of the CD dramas Shinoa had to ask that question to her squad and Mitsuba was the only one who didn’t answer because she was too uncomfortable to say it)
How was her life with her previous squad?
How was her life after her squad died?
Why is she not loyal to the Hīragis?
When and under what circumstances did she meet Shinoa?
The weird stares she gives at Shinoa when she is with Yuu (I am placing my bets she is not jealous of Shinoa and rather she is just intrigued by her sudden emotional moments when she is with Yuu because the Shinoa she knows has always kept everyone at a distance…maybe she was also hurt that Shinoa appreciated more Yuu worrying for her in chapter 99 than Mitsuba worrying about her since Shinoa kinda half ignored her in chapter 86…also read a theory saying she fears Yuu and Shinoa getting together and leaving her behind just like Aoi did with Kureto)
Her feelings for Yuu (please don’t let her have an ‘officially confirmed’ crush on him)
Her feelings for Shinoa (note: in the fanbook 108 she said she worries for Shinoa the most and that Yuu comes second; it would be so good if she tried to get knock some sense into Shinoa for um…well, you know)
Her inferiority complex towards her squad
How she felt when abandoning the army
How she felt after failing to prevent Yuu from getting kidnapped
How she felt after being left alone when the war broke out
How she felt when she did was the only one of her squad to not contribute in the defeat of Shikama Dōji
If she is aware she is never contributing during conversations
Her view on the resurrection plan (is she actually going to resurrect her parents?)
Mitsuba’s desire
✔️: if the point is partially addressed
☑️: if fully addressed
✅: if one of the possibilities/theories mentioned becomes true
I hope that by the end of this year at least 2 of these points are addressed🤧 A lot of years ago Kagami said there is something awaiting Mitsuba and in the autograph session last Autumn he confirmed he has plans for her. So let me hope🥹…
#I will tick these as the months go by#but tbh even if she gets screentime I doubt some of these will be addressed#some are quite silly after all#I hope I am not missing anything#most hardcore *self-proclaimed* Mitsuba stan ever#come on Kagami you can do it#don’t ruin her for a man#or for ships in general#it would be kinda embarassing if she got ruined after all I’ve written#owari no seraph#seraph of the end#mitsuba sanguu#mitsuba sangu#mitsuba sangū#sangu mitsuba
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I MIGHT HIT 10K ON MY NUCLEAR WEAPONS AU TONIGHT
#OMG!! This is the most I’ve written for any fic ever!!#I just wrote a passage that I’m really proud of 😵💫#I usually hate what I write until at least a month has passed and I’ve forgotten the process of writing it. But imo this passage is a winner#Kind of bonkers that I might actually finish this fic. I’m usually just a chronic fanfic-starter and I don’t ever finish anything#But this project is really interesting to me?? And I have a pretty well-defined outline???#WAUGH I’m feeling really good. Even if the final product isn’t fantastic I’m really proud of myself for writing as much as I have#I haven’t stuck to my original new year’s resolution of writing a sentence a day but I’ve definitely written more this year than#I ever have before. So I don’t feel too bad#gay herald in a squirrel suit
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Fourth Wing by Rebecca Yarros is literal hot garbage and I will die on this hill.
#like it’s literally one of the worst constructed/written books I have ever encountered#how on earth could Yarros be married to a 20+ year military vet and yet still not even understand the most basic military concepts#it’s honestly astounding how brain dead her characters are#the way she writes makes it abundantly obvious that she thinks her readers are a bunch of idiots#who need every single story theme and element hand fed to them#the introduction of Varrish was just utter bullshit#she could have painted ‘VILLAIN’ on his forehead and it would’ve been less obvious#please tell us again how smart your main character is while she proceeds to do the dumbest shit I’ve ever seen#‘oh why won’t xaden trust me with rebellion secrets even though I basically announce my suspicions of the empire at every turn?’#idk violet maybe it’s bc you won’t do the mind training they’ve been telling you to do#so you’re constantly vulnerable to the mindreader YOU KNOW PERSONALLY#maybe that’s why no one tells you anything???#also holy shit her being like ‘I have to be careful and not let the empire know I’m questioning my duties’#and then immediately crashing into a scribe meeting to request more red flag reading??#like??? was she kicked in the head???#also the dragons stating multiple times that humans are basically like ants to them and they don’t care if they live or die#but simultaneously having to somehow be subserveant to the military????#bitch why weren’t you all enslaved by the dragons#this is such nonsense#also her prose is ass#come back when you can tell the difference between parse and parcel Rebecca#yeah a lot of my complaints are iron flame related#but that’s just bc it really hit home how bad this all is with the second book#net zero improvement#way to fail downwards Rebecca#ALSO!! what evil empire would conscript their enemies children into the one branch of their military where they get DRAGONS and SUPERPOWERS#like what??!!#in what world#what military would be so afraid of a new rebellion that they conscript the people with deep emotional ties to the old rebellion???#if real militaries worked this way there would be no more war bc we’d all be dead
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forgive me for the spam but you worked too hard to not be appreciated! (and it was too good to not appreciate) I was going to write my own little ficlet for rengiyuu wednesday but now my brain is stuck on your writing sifhsgikhg! don't feel bad, it prolly won't be posted until later tonight tho because Kyojuroooooo hehe
I do have a question tho! Is there anything that you wanted to include in As the World Caves In but didn't? (that you aren't saving for next week or for the future, of course)
I love the spam I live for the spam I’m obsessed with the spam never apologize for the spam
Why yes there ARE some things I wanted to include thank you for asking!!!!!!
I almost ALWAYS write in almost like an A plot B plot type way, either switching between perspectives or time periods to draw comparisons to how a character is feeling about one thing vs another (you can see that here with switching between Kyo and Giyuu, the comparisons between Sabito and Kyo, and the flashback). I love writing flashbacks, dreams, and memories. SO before the fic really got away from me I wanted to extend Kyo’s flashback/dream but I also wanted to stay. Somewhat slightly focused so I decided against it.
I also thought about including a longer portion of the recovery BEFORE Kyo woke up, have some scenes with Giyuu and Shinobu set in the first few hours/days after Kyo got there. Maybe some scenes between Giyuu and Senjuro too (my SECOND fav duo to write, just behind Giyuu and Nezuko (mute bitches stay winning)). I decided against that for the same reason.
Lastly I would have really liked to have an extended waking up scene with more Hashira coming to visit and being excited that Kyo lived, but the scene was already dragging on for way too long so I cut that out too. I even considered having an “epilogue” type deal just for tumblr where I do that ESPECIALLY with Tengen because I love writing him and I love writing him into Rengiyuu fics because. I can’t imagine he’s a huge fan of Giyuu but he does love Kyo a lot and I think once he found out what Giyuu did for him at the battlefield and later, especially while Tengen couldn’t be there, he’d end up with a lot of respect for him that he never would say out loud, lol. Kind of like a “do I like him? No. Do I like to spend my time around him? Absolutely fucking not. Do I respect him? 100% Would I kill for him no question would I lay down my life for his in an INSTANT. But do I LIKE him???”
Maybe I’ll do that next week!! But now because of a prev ask I’m going a little insane about my demon rengiyuu project so. Perhaps we’ll focus on that.
Thank you so much for your comments and like literal play by play of your thoughts while reading, I genuinely ADORE things like that because I love knowing what someone is thinking about what I wrote!!!!!!! It really just warms my heart so much I can’t thank you enough djfnjdbdkskslskaal
#asks#Rose’s rambles#rengiyuu#my favorite rengiyuu I’ve written to this day is in a fic that unfortunately will never see the light of day#because it takes place after Kyo dies and my heart can’t take that angst#but it was the first time I ever wrote like a back and forth present and past with Giyuu and Kyo and I just love the way it turned out#but it’s much more of a Giyuu fic than anything#and most if not all of the contents were proven to be not canon by the following episode so RIP#annnyyywayyyyyy
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you know im realizing now. with the exception of a few resident psychiatrists, ive had like. no good experiences with mental health professionals
#most recent occurance is eating my brain alive right now because I feel just so. degraded and offended by how she chose to evaluate me#I won’t get into it because it will make me spiral even more and get angrier and more overwhelmed but tldr she didn’t acknowledge#anything I said about my symptoms both out loud and via written test. chose to ignore or dismiss anything that came from me#as if I couldn’t be trusted to recount my own experiences and feelings. also did not take into account that I am an adult and thus have Had#to learn to mask and shit so while she brushed off So Much Shit because i seemed (in the three hours she met/saw me)#functional Enough. that’s only becuaee I put in a Lot of effort every day to do so. and that effort does not last forever#and of course because. like I said I’m an adult. I’ve been yelled at I’ve been punished I’ve been put through courses and#through the ringer of Society in general to the point where I mimic Normal Person Behavior at least somewhat decently when im prepared to do#so. she treated me like a child and didn’t acknowledge most of my major issues. ignored me when I said I don’t avoid social situations out#of fear/anxiety I avoid them because it takes a lot of energy for me to mask and try and read people and act accordingly#and in her report suggested generalized anxiety. part of the reason I was there is because anxiety HASNT ever properly described my#avoidant behavior.#and just. yeah I said I wouldn’t get into it but here we are. this always happens#it’s just eating at me because I keep realizing more and more things she just fucking disregarded. literally wrote that I ‘listed many#relevant symptoms’ and kept it at that. did not actually give those symptoms any validity. basically just implied I was listing things#just. becuase?#some shit was just blatantly wrong like claiming that I have a variety of interests when I told her outright that I can only be interested#in one specific interest at a time- example being the entirety of last year being only interested in One (1) video game. and this is to such#an extent that it’s difficult to make and maintain friendships because I have no interest in anything else but that One Thing for however#long and won’t care about other things people try to get me into in order to have something in common with me or whatever or just. yeah.#issues.#she didn’t acknowledge the issues I have with low empathy or overstimulation. didn’t acknowledge my history of taking things literally to#such an extent that it has caused problems with people. didn’t acknowledge anything that was self-reported and not being displayed in that#moment right in front of her eyes. it’s just. really really disappointing and. yeah degrading honestly#especially because it took months upon MONTHS to get this fucking appointment#and to just be not listened to and dismissed.#anyway. yeah I’ve also just only ever had really shallow relationships with therapists (at best)#and have never felt helped by them or like they ever put in much effort to try to Get to me so to speak. only my psychiatrists have#been open minded and Listened to me. but they were always residents so they’d leave in a year or so. I don’t have one at this point.#kibumblabs
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I’m not going to lie, I’d rather people work on actually educating themselves on crises instead of quickly slapping posts up online so it appears that they care. It’s okay to not speak on an issue because you’re not educated on it. It doesn’t mean that you don’t care if you’re not broadcasting everything to the world. I feel like it just adds to the endless cycle of performative activism and many think that posting unburdens them from having to educate themselves or take action.
This is a really tumultuous time to be alive no matter your experiences and I think we need to give each other grace and understand that we don’t have to give a press release every time something awful happens. We all have different parts to play in making a meaningful difference and I think the pursuit of being visibly moral actually hinders true change.
#abby doesnt shut up#and in turn this isn’t a reason to not do anything if you’re not educated#it just feels … fake#this is the most eng major thing I’ve ever written#but I mean it.
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