#this is longer than a chapter lmfaooooo

[clownao]

The fact that this is already 6k words long is... worrying 🤡

I'm including everything in my plans. It's sooo scuffed. At least 14yo me had a lot of fun.

Hello everyone! Long time no see!

I think I'm going to release my plans for Which Partner? (ChibaHaya, AssClass x Miraculous Ladybug crossover), a fic I haven't really touched since... 2019? It'll be a really long AN, but I want to give that fic closure :) And I did promise to do so back in 2021 (and forgot about it):

"And if I do ditch it, I’ll post the fic outline. I think it’s only fair to anyone who’s still following it… although idk who still is lmao."

I still have a lot of thoughts about WP but those will be in the super long AN lmao. I'm sorry for all the unfulfilled promises, and a sincere thank you to everyone who read it ♡♡♡

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

!“i never thought id see you again” kiss w/ gojo!

prompt// wiping the tears of your cheek with their thumb, and leaning in because of it. brushing lips and a soft feeling, familar and numb, lips fitting together like pieces of a puzzle (prompt from @jasminesfury)

pairing// satoru gojo x gn!reader

word count// 0.8

contents// idk just fluff, maybe ooc gojo, maybe kinda cringe, doesn't follow the manga

notes// IN HONOR OF TODAYS JJK CHAPTER... DADDY'S HOME LMFAOOOOO 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

When you first met Gojo as students at Jujutsu High, you thought he was a cocky piece of shit, and the universe found that funny considering how, without a doubt, on every mission, you two got paired together and you hated it, despised it even. It wasn’t until a bit down the line when Geto ended up going bezerk that you and Gojo started bonding, and soon you didn’t mind going on missions with him constantly; you were actually starting to not mind his existence as a whole. You grew to like him—a lot more than you should have—but Gojo was falling for you as well, and once he confessed? Well, the rest is history. You and Gojo were the it couple of the jujutsu world, which is, within itself, crazy to think about, and the two of you never left each other's side. Where Gojo went, you followed; where you went, he followed, except for this mission, apparently.

You and Gojo were now teachers at Jujutsu High, but even so, any mission either of you had, you went together. This time, though, Yaga only sent Gojo, to which you obviously protested against, but Yaga needed you here to protect the students in case anything happened. You understood this, but you hadn't been away from Gojo for longer than a day, if that, in years. He was your right hand. And now he’s off on a mission to who knows where since no one will tell you anything about it; you don’t even know how long he’ll be gone, and it’s eating you from the inside out. You’ve lost track of how long he’s been gone at this point; to you, it feels like an eternity when in reality it’s barely about to be a week. And it’s not that you have no faith in Gojo; you know if anyone could handle their own, it would be him, but he’s the love of your life, and worrying to death about him is what you signed up for when you started dating him. It also doesn’t help that Gojo has a lot of enemies.

You’re sitting at your desk in your classroom, doodling your name with Gojo's like a middle schooler with a crush, when Yuji rushes into your classroom breathlessly, and your heart stops.

You instantly stood up. “Yuji, are you okay?”

“Gojo- he’s-“ in between heaving breaths, he tries to speak.

Tears are already welling up in your eyes at just the mere mention of his name, because if he was okay, why would Yuji seem this distressed?

“Where?” Your voice trembles as you croak out.

“Infirmary,” he manages to say in between deep breaths.

Typically, you would help Yuji and probably take him with you considering it looks like he’s about to have an asthma attack, but any rationality left your mind the moment he mentioned Gojo. Right now, your main priority is to get to him, whether that means seeing him alive and well or in a body bag. You storm into the infirmary like you were never taught manners, but again, you don’t care; the only thing on your mind is getting to Gojo, which you do despite his (and Shoko’s) wide-eyed stare. Gojo quickly stands up from his seat and starts approaching you; you do the same, both of you approaching each other as if in a sort of trance.

You can't stop the tears from streaming down your face as you exclaim, “Gojo!” and rush into his arms.

He chuckles at your suddenness but immediately wraps his arms around you. “Miss me?” He coos in your ear.

You pull away slightly to look at him in disbelief. “Of course I missed you, idiot!” you snap through your tears.

When he notices your tears, he immediately brings his hands up and cups your faces, his thumbs wiping away stray tears. “Oh baby, why are you crying?”

You sniffle and take a deep breath, but find yourself sobbing even more, “I never thought I'd see you again.”

Gojo’s thumbs are still wiping your tears away as he leans in, his forehead briefly resting on yours before his lips brush against yours, and your eyes flutter close at the sensation. Gojo isn’t good with words; he’s never been, but he’s great with actions, which is why he knows this will comfort you more than anything he could say right now. His lips suddenly envelop yours; the familiar pace of his kisses and the way your lips fit together like puzzle pieces make your head spin and your legs turn to jelly. Gojo feels you wobble and immediately slips his hands from your cheeks to your waist to keep you upright, and goosebumps cover your entire body at the feeling of his hands, as if they were designed to rest there, as if you and him were two parts of a whole. With a slight smirk, Gojo pulls away.

“Don't worry. You’re not getting rid of me that easily.”

© LITTLEXBIMBO

[kailoraurelius]

Where do you get the inspiration for your stories? I just fall in love with certain parts of them and its so different and unique with the way you write it. For example the whole “be convincing” chapter in stained glass. Or recently the 17th chapter (I think) of all I ask with the whole flirting thing, and the baseball cap and water bottle bit. I don’t think i’ll ever read them without smiling like an idiot. I can give you a list thats longer than you and me both and I’m not gonna exhaust you, but you should know that discussing your stories and parts I like is a hobby at this point ☺️

Listen, I'm real short. It don't take much effort to make a list longer than me lmfaooooo. But absolutely anytime, I'm down to discuss! I love these characters so much AND talking about them in depth sometimes brings me inspiration!

Besides that, I get inspiration from a lot of places. Music, a lot. Sometimes it's a specific lyric, but most often it's the feeling a song gives me. And I wanna write something that brings that same feeling. For the first two chapters of Occulta Apparentia, I listened to Mordred's Lullaby by Heather Dale on repeat and tried to lean into that dark, unsettling feeling it gave me. And, for Stained Glass, I spent a lot of chapters listening to Alright and It Won't be Like This for Long by Darius Rucker. The first is fun and warm and the second has a deeper warmth and that slight melancholy, but overall happiness. Listened to the second a lot when writing about Chloe's family.

Besides music, sometimes it's something someone says to me that sparks something or it's an old note I have in my phone. A lot of the time, it's just stuff I want or have had for myself. A beautiful night cuddled up by the bonfire with my friends, someone idly trailing their fingers up and down my arm is always a dream scenario. My dad used to do the thing Beca did, where he'd grab the bill of my hat and gently tug it back and forth to make my head bobble. And it was such a small thing, but I remember it because it felt like him telling me he loved me. And it was lol. So that stuff inspires me.

Idk if that answered everything lol. If you want more specific inspirations, I'd need a specific moment from my pieces. There's a story behind a lot of it!

[memberment]

The End Is Near

I'm sorry, but having running gags across my fics is so fucking funny to me. Like I think this is the third fic I've mentioned NO ONE wanting to get Clyde started on the topic of vampires since I first thought about it and it has made me laugh every single time.

I have another three where it is implied in some way shape or form that Bebe literally drives like a fucking lunatic (and does it well) b/c she loves NASCAR or wanted to be a NASCAR driver in some way shape or form (this spawned from a phoned in joke in Tweek's version of guide)

AND THERE ARE SO MANY OTHERS BUT LIKE THESE TWO MAKE ME LAUGH SO HARD. (I'm thinking about this bc I'm working on the end and I have just implemented the gag of Clyde not shutting the fuck up about vampires (Tolkien and Craig are both annoyed by this.) LMFAO)

Anyways I'm 15.6k into book 3. Craig's chapter might be ridiculously long, but I am not giving him two LMFAOOO.

1:35 guys I'm doing something fucking insane rn LMFAO

3:42 okay, I just finished doing the insane thing. Do you guys wanna know how many words I wrote, in this the month of August 2024??

128,607.

This does not include minor edits, notes, or anything not SP related. IT HAS JUST BECOME AUGUST 20TH. I HAVE WRITTEN 770 WORDS SINCE MIDNIGHT. I'm laughing so fucking hard. Anyways. Decided I'm gonna be posting a monthly wrap up that's gonna have everything I've written the entire month. If I knew I was gonna be on AO3 longer than seven fanfics, I would've been doing this, but live and learn, right? Idk what I'm gonna post it on though bc that would abs fuck my word count LMFAOOOOOOO. Also ao3 posts only allow 500k characters, this single doc that contains 19 days plus four hours has 708240.

Maybe I'll just drop the link somewhere. This is literally insane behavior. BUT I ALREADY CAME THIS FAR LIKE I NEED TO SHARE THIS LMFAOOOOO

Anyways now I'm rereading Genesis bc I can't pick a fucking project so Genesis updates may or may not be here. Also, I am starting to wonder at what point does something go for horror elements to straight up horror. Because I fear I have definitely breached into horror territory with that one. LMFAO. Also I'm probably posting Tammy's chapter early because honestly I want these fucking intros out of the way SO I CAN GET TO THE STORY LIKE NO ONE UNDERSTANDS THEY'RE DRIVING ME INSANE. WE NEED TO BE ON CHAPTER THIRTEEN LIKE YESTERDAY. OR FOURTEEN. OR 25-26. screams.

I'm laughing. Here y'all go. It's 253 pages rn. https://docs.google.com/document/d/1inE_K8XDazRiUoTgNz2CtBOBp9kkdDk8yBzU8s444lo/edit?pli=1

NEVER FUCKING MIND IT GOT DELETED WOW LMFAOOOOOO

I JUST STRESS DOWLOADED LIKE ALL MY FICS BC IDK WTF JUST HAPPENED LMFAOOOO WOW THAT WAS SO RUDE

I HAVE A BACKUP BUT NOW I'M AFRAID TO POST IT LIKE WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN TF

(4:59) I figured out how I'm doing this LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOO

alright I'm not doing it all at once though bc if I get flagged on here I'm gonna start TWEAKINGGG

but it's happening LMAO

6:27 there is now a Tumblr account with everything I have written so far for the month of august. One of the posts is literally the size of 45 pages worth of google docs. HERE YALL GO.

anyways I'm going back to being insane and rereading genesis goodbye

[ocalaghan]

I recently rewatched The Inbetweeners in full plus the two movies, because I'd never actually seen the second one. I can't find anywhere to watch the reunion special though (Fwends Reunited) so if anyone has a link for it PLEASE GIVE IT TO ME. I know it was a disaster but I want to see it.

I just love how that show is the epitome of British humour, but also 'boys will be boys.' It's gross and occasionally offensive (sign of the times) but it genuinely warms my heart because these guys grew up together making this show and must've had such a great time and I just love when I rewatch it.

Discovering it late at night as a young teen and feeling like I shouldn't be watching it was a delight.

I saw the first movie yeeeeeears ago and watched it multiple times since but for some reason never watched the second one. I did this time around and I really enjoyed where they left it.

Simon was always a bit of a hot-headed dick (to his parents more than anyone else, which was interesting because he could also arguably be the most level-headed) but would obviously assume that's something he grew out of. Closing the chapter with him free of Carli's spell and no longer with Lucy either was the most ideal end for him, I think.

Will, the same, I think it was ideal he ended the series single because so many of his problems came from trying to pursue girls. Good luck to him though with his mum marrying Mr. Gilbert lmfaooooo.

Jay's character development was probably the most significant. I was glad Jane didn't take him back but I like to think they stay friends.

Neil was probably my favourite in terms of funniness but why is he always being preyed on by cougars omfg!!!!

Anyway all this to say it's such a classic British comedy, I fucking love it, and if I don't see the reunion somewhere at some point I will be very annoyed.

[guacameowle]

Jumin Han’s Bad End 2 DLC - Notes / Opinion

Y’all know me. I have to take notes for everything I play or read or watch. I can’t help it. Here we have Jumin Han’s Bad End 2 DLC. The infamous bad end. The red shoes bad end. The “kinky” bad end, to some. Not my favorite bad end, but a memorable one. With that said, let’s dive in! Spoilers ahead!

Episode 1

This DLC has multiple endings! Interesting. Depending on how I answer will determine which end I get. This has me thinking there may be a way to get Jumin back onto a healthier relationship track? I will eventually aim to achieve both endings, though.

Jumin’s hand is fucking HUGE. MASSIVE. WHAT ARE THEY FEEDING HIM? Please hold while I scream at Kristan (jalaqueeno) about this. Holy shit.

It’s been one month since Jumin went to work. One whole month! Mr. Jumin Workaholic Han hasn’t gone to work in ONE MONTH! This man has made it his sole mission to keep you locked up & stay with you. Dude, like… why are you so obsessed with me~?

MANSION? They’re not in the penthouse anymore? I mean… there are worse cages to be kept in.

I am absolutely playing the answers that subtly suggest I am not ok with this new forced live-in situation.

HE’S TRACKING HOW MANY STEPS I’VE TAKEN. Wait until this man finds out I hate walking the mile…

Jumin continues to call this a game. Says he has a therapist on standby. Does he know that HE can use the therapist? In fact, I highly recommend it.

He says you can leave at any time. Color me suspicious. I don’t believe him for one second. How far is this “game” going?

MY PRECIOUS BABY DARLING SWEETIE PIE TOO GOOD FOR THIS WORLD WHOLESOME BEAUTY PERFECT CUPCAKE ELIZABETH 3RD HAS ARRIVED!

According to Jaehee, MC has been with Jumin for two months now.

Interesting how Jaehee makes a point to mention the mansion being untouched as this is where Jumin keeps his childhood toys. He brought you where he keeps his toys. Does he really see all of this as a game & you’re a toy? Can he snap out of it if you call for the game to end, or will there be backlash?

Some of these answer choices feel tricky. I’m trying to gently weasel my way out of this “game” without hurting anyone.

“Don’t say that to my master.” Listen, Jumin is my favorite man in this game, but that answer option physically made me cringe. Me? Call a man master? I could never. Not me. Not this bitch.

Wow. Ok. All this stuff with Jumin’s mom is moving fast. I can already see if he actually does lose her, it may make him hold onto MC that much more/harder. Maybe. 

Woah woah woah. I know Jumin is acting a little suspicious & out of sorts, BUT AIN’T NO ONE MARRYING HIM EXCEPT ME. ALL RIGHT? I’ll fight. I know where to get a bomb…

Excuse me? A fitness trainer? Yeah........ about that. I’m going to have to leave. Sorry this situation didn’t work out between us Juju. Best of luck, though!

Episode 2

My room is kind of cute! Wait, why the fuck aren’t Jumin & I sharing a room? If I’m locked up & tracked, you better believe I’m sleeping next to that dick.

Send a message to space? The fuck?

Oh. Duh.

“I heard that obsession comes from anxiety.” DING DING DING DING.

Omg Seven. You can’t just ask me to open my box. I’m seeing another man...

LONG HAIRED JUMIN?????

Jumin really didn’t have one woman in his life who wasn’t cold or weird to him. I know we already knew from his route he had a difficult upbringing. But I hadn’t expected them to dive into that aspect for this DLC but I can see how there’s the connection.

I told him I wanted to be alone to see if he’d respect boundaries.

OH SHIT THAT CHAPTER ENDED SO QUICK. DID I FUCK UP?!

Episode 3

So are we meant to see this adult Jumin, playing this “game” with MC, as him regressing within himself & falling back to enjoying fantasy? Avoiding reality? Something he didn’t allow himself to do as an actual child? He didn’t understand why people indulge in magic, fantasy, make-believe as a kid. Now he’s vastly overshot the mark to the point that this fantasy life with MC has become his “reality.”

DO NOT GIVE THIS BABY BOY WINE, I SWEAR TO GOD.

Omg. Little Jumin is so cute. I will fight everyone to protect him.

This woman done fucked up. Look at this child, you’ve given him anxiety. He doesn’t know if you want him to be mechanical or a normal kid. Jesus. All this Work Work Work No Emotion Work Only No Feelings bullshit is her fault. Jumin’s only doing what he was taught. He was told this is all he’s good for, all he was meant for.

“I feel like I am a tool. Sometimes I want to be treated like a son.” STOP. IF THIS GAME MAKES ME CRY. I’M GONNA FIGHT SOMEONE.

IF Y’ALL DON’T GIVE THIS LITTLE BOY THE LOVE & AFFECTION & CARE HE DESERVES

Jumin is obsessed with grape juice. Grows up to be obsessed with wine. Y’all made him an alcoholic.

“I am not like her. I will not be cold. I will be warm to my family…” JUMIIIIIN. THIS LITTLE BOY IS TRYING SO HARD! IT IS POSSIBLE JUMIN! AIM FOR YOUR GOOD & NORMAL ENDINGS!

SLEEPY JUMIN HAN CG

OH FUCK

OH FUCK ME

OH HELLO HUSBAND GODDAMN YOU LOOKIN’ CUTE AS FUCK

LET ME HOLD YOU JUMIN. YOU DESERVE TO BE LOVED & HELD & CARED FOR!

I think you have to choose the answers that gently pry you away from Jumin? He can’t force this relationship. It can’t be controlled by him. It isn’t a game. He needs to come to that realization, but he’s really not making that connection...

“I have never been involved in a deal outside a form of give-and-take.” Oh, that hurt. He doesn’t trust you to stay with him unless he can offer you something? His money/extravagance/keeping you in this “game” you started with him & him playing into it is what he has to do to keep you with him.

“Please show me that you love me. I want to know what love is.” Insert Explicit MC x Jumin Fanfic Here. I’ll show you, Jumin. I’ll show you all night long.

*Jumin snuggled closer* In my own personal canon, that means we FUCKED. SLOWLY. GENTLY. ROMANTICALLY.

Episode 4

The creepy lullaby music started up. Shit is about to go down.

Omg is this butler going to lock me in the basement?

Lmao did I fuck up with the “what’s a cage doing here?” reply? How was I supposed to know there wasn’t actually a cage there? No Jumin, I don’t want a cage. …. at least not for me, but we can discuss that later.

SHE WOULD LOCK HIM IN THE BASEMENT? That’s it. I’m fighting everyone. Stay behind me Jumin, I’ll protect you.

“Let me talk to her! I’d like a word with her!” LET ME AT HER, JUMIN. I HAVE SOME SHIT TO SAY. SHE’S DYING. I HAVE A SHORT WINDOW. LET ME AT HER.

Not little boy Jumin Shawshank Redemptioning his way out of the basement omggggg

JUMIN YOU WANNA FUCK? NOW? This man is sending me through whirlwind of emotions.

OH SHIT. I’m torn between the “whisper in his ear” option or the “let’s change our roles for just today” because as y’all may know, I enjoy being in charge.

Me: “Let’s change our roles…” Jumin: “Uhhh maybe we should leave.” Darling, you know you’re a submissive. It’s ok. No judgement.

FADE TO BLAAAAACK. THEY FUCKIN’.

I’M HOOTIN’ & HOLLERING. After the fade the black I said I would stay in my own clothes & Jumin says, “They’re dirtier than you would think.” DID THIS MAN JUST CUM EVERYWHERE? LMAAAOOOO

Happy End!

Ayyy we did it, lads! Unlocked the happy ending first. Even though we already gave Jumin a happy ending in that basement, you know what I’m sayin’~

LMFAOOOOO JUMIN STILL CAN’T DRIVE LMFAOOOO

Wait, turned our backs on everything? How the fuck is this the happy end? Happy for who? Jumin?

So… what the fuck was that?

The good ending just reenforces this “only us” narrative? The good ending is that this “game” Jumin & MC are playing doesn’t end? Nothing resolves. He doesn’t mend any relationships. There’s no healing or moving on. He exerts more of his control on MC & takes more drastic measures to ensure they’re together.

WAIT. DID WE JUST FUCKING ABANDON ELIZABETH 3RD TOO? ABSOLUTELY NOT. THIS ENDING SUCKS. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? FUCK THAT. PISS OFF, JUMIN HAN. I WON’T HAVE THAT BULLSHIT. YOU DID NOT JUST TURN INTO A PET ABANDONER RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FUCKING FACE. I HATE IT. NO. I’M OUT.

The CG was hot, though. Jumin in black on black on black? AND GLOVES?! Hell yeah. That’s a whole meal right there. Delicious. 

Episode 1 (Attempt 2)

Well, time to try to get the bad end (????) now I guess. Maybe the bad end is that this game of their’s actually does break. That’s what I’m hoping for at least.

Jumin already making jokes about switching roles. Jumin, my love. I am more than happy - extremely willing & eager actually - to be in charge here.

Pretending to want all of this ‘being a possession’ nonsense is making me uncomfyyyy.

Episode 2 (Attempt 2)

“Do something Jumin wouldn’t like” Lmaooo it calls Zen. HAHAHAHAHA

I think Zen’s voice acting is some of the most expressive, in this whole game.

Ah, so then I guess turning on the computer let’s you talk to Yoosung.

Not Jumin deliberately cutting my call. The audacity.

Jumin, possessiveness can sometimes be cute. But in this case, I’m not having it. Not interested.

All the toys in the world didn’t keep Jumin entertained. BUT THIS PUSSY DOES.

Episode 3 (Attempt 2)

Flew through that one just choosing the options I didn’t choose before. Didn’t seem to glean any new information except the fact that Jumin no longer has a desire to form a family, says it entirely depends on how badly MC wants a family. Continues that narrative of, if MC wants it, he will provide it... to keep her.

Episode 4 (Attempt 2)

So we’re just going to leave gold bars in that safe?

Happy End Again????

It says I got Happy End again, even though I chose entirely different answers & went along with being Jumin’s possession...

OH WAIT, IT IS DIFFERENT!

I can’t believe my first meeting with Jumin’s mother is after he rawed me in the basement & had me put on a fantasy fairy tale princess dress to make our escape. Omfg. Ma’am, your son’s cum is still dripping out of me, please give me a few minutes to freshen up first. Goddamn.

Jumin’s mom is named Carolyn!

I can’t believe I’m in the middle of a family argument while Jumin’s cum glues my thighs together.

She ain’t sick. She’s lying. I’m calling it.

“Simple - make him soft” Jumin: “Like mashed potato?” LIKE MASHED POTATO? FIRST OF ALL, JUMIN SAYING ‘MASHED POTATO’ IS SO FUCKING CUTE I WANNA SCREAM. Secondly I meant, make him soft as in help him let down some barriers & let people in.

“I heard sons are psychologically bound to be attracted to women reminiscent of their mothers.” Ok yes, that may be true but you don’t have to remind me. Bleh. Stop.

“If my consort is to leave me one day, I will be scarred for the rest of my life.” I am sad for him. So sad.

ONE BILLION, TO BREAK UP WITH JUMIN? WOMAN, YOU ARE SOMETHING ELSE.

The “mind if I touch it” option fucking sent me. I’m laughing so hard. It is 1am. I might wake up my neighbor! I chose the “…..” option though. I’m sticking with Jumin through this. Let’s see what happens.

… I’ll loop back & choose the money if I can though to see what chaos occurs.

“This is exactly what people mean when they say, ‘So not cool.’” JUMIN. NOW IS NOT THE TIME LMFAOOOO

Jumin went back to work. All right, that’s progress. He renovated the basement on a happier note. Ok ok, small progress. 

“Now I wish to paint this entire place with our love.” TIME TO CHRISTEN EVERY ROOM WITH SEEEEX

THAT CG!!!!! AAAHHHHHHH!!!! WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW!!!!!!

Looping back to choose more options for this episode...

CALLED JUMIN’S MOM AN OLD HAG & JUMIN LIKED WHEN I DID THAT LMAOOOO. I would like to call her a lot of things.

Final thoughts:

Long story short (too late), this DLC reenforces that this is a Bad Ending path, in which you won’t find a fix for Jumin, won’t find a way to get him back on track to his true good end. And that’s ok! This is a bad end after all! Though both endings are listed as “good” or “happy” endings, they’re still set in this twisted relationship, this weak form of love, Jumin believes is real. He calls it a game, says a therapist is on standby, says MC can leave any time she wants, yet when she chooses options that distances herself, suggests Jumin pay more attention to something other than her, or shows she’d like more freedom, he immediately blocks that path in some way. Even when choosing all the options that don’t give in to the plaything/being controlled role, the conclusion is Jumin reenforcing his control harder - you both escape together to be alone, neglecting everyone & everything in your life, & Jumin insists all he has to do is take care of you in various ways - to give you everything - to keep you with him. Even following the confrontation with Jumin’s mother & turning down the option to leave Jumin for money, it shows how far Jumin will go to keep MC. He truly believes he has to provide everything (money, security, possessions, etc.) in exchange for her love, her company, her willingness to be with him. This man has slowly been broken over & over again over the course of his life & he’s finally given in to these poor teachings & selfish encouragements, & has convinced himself what he’s found is full love where he provides anything & everything to keep MC’s interest in him. A clear give & take relationship. A contract. A game. And he’s not about to let that go.

Personally, while this path isn’t my favorite for Jumin, I was still absolutely impressed with the two different ways they had this particular Bad End play out. An emotional read from start to finish & back again.

[touchmycoat]

cnovel!anon: you're reading 成化! I need to reread since it's been a while and I was too influenced by the drama the first time through. (I feel like the drama woobified Tang Fan a lot more than the novel.) Yeah, I had the same thought re 诗一行, though it may just be a common type of novel structure building from stories like 包公案 with its episodic but interrelated mysteries. How do you like it so far?

yes!!! i watched maybe 10 minutes of the first ep, went and read the first two chapters of the novel, went back to finish watching the first ep with my buddy, then am now on uhhh chapter 54 of the novel, post-kidnapping arc.

that character intro really does matter, huh? The drama opens on Tang Fan eating and the novel opens on Tang Fan dealing with sexual harassment, the difference is STARK haha. I haven't seen enough of the drama to make up my mind on this yet but I will say I spent the entire first ep asking my friend (who’s seen a handful of eps) "is he really just?? a pouty baby boy????" Not necessarily in a bad way but it'll depend a lot on how the show pans out lmfaooooo. Sui Zhou’s hot tho!! Very much my type, but am i tripping balls or does his VA have a non-Beijing accent??? He’s also not the peak icy steel of the SZ I picture from the books but I’m a fan of his aura and am excited to see how far he takes this service top malewife energy.

novel-wise, i fucking love it dude. I too am a Holmes fan so the cases are very cool, especially how MXS paces her set-ups. It feels like she really gives you a big handful of clues to figure things out yourself as a reader, and it's not super centered around TF's thought process. Also her writing style makes me chuckle ‘cause it’s soooo exposition-heavy. As a writer, I lurch heavily toward the screenplay/stageplay adage of “advance the plot through dialogue,” so it’s very refreshing to read her dense histories and interpersonal connections so confidently interspersed through the action/dialogue scenes. I feel like I’m learning a lot about novel pacing.

(Also another reason I’m excited to watch the drama and see how it adapts such a novel. Already we have the first two mysteries collapsed into one, and the implied efficiency in that move has made me perk up hahaha.)

千秋 無雙 成化 all seem to deal with the question of how to do good, huh? Thousand Autumns throws the two extremes into the same camp and have them work out the difference. Peerless explores 不擇手段可是還有底線的人. Sleuth is pretty explicit in its central contemplation of ethical principles vs. ethical action and has returned to it again and again.

id-wise, i'm vibing. I’ll confess I’m pretty disappointed there wasn’t more whump & aftercare following the kidnapping thing but I’m just a drama-loving sadist. I deeply need to know how MXS plans to escalate their relationship??? Yanshen and Fengcui maintained their antagonism for so much longer and so had reasons to keep stoking that ship fire, but Suitang is just???? settled??? They just gave me half-naked sweaty post-spar Sui Zhou so that’s nice but like, something’s gotta happen, and soon.

(also of course I’m so fucking into the bitchiest teenage prick Wang Zhi. I don’t know where the plot is going but he’s such a fucking pain and I want him to top Tang Fan too.)

[niymoi]

First, I want to say hey gworl hey! It’s the first rant on here and I am excited. We on another platform because, IG wasn’t serving me anymore. You know how you just grow out of things and want bigger and better? That’s how I felt. I always wanted a blog even as a kid. Growing up I watched talk shows, listened to radio stations, wrote books on wattpad, etc etc. My favorite class was anything that had to due with English! I just love to talk and write. Which is why YouTube is another passion of mine. YouTube isn’t as easy as having a blog. You have to film,edit and post. Sounds easy but it’s NOT. Editing is a whole obstacle chile. But don’t worry, I’ll get there. I meant it.

Anyways, let’s get into some rants. Shall we?

Also, these are posted between the hours 11pm-2am.

I’m going easy for the first night.

Midnight Rants

It’s super crazy to me how you go through different chapters in your life. Or levels as some would say. Every week you’re going through different emotions, obstacles, etc etc. I’m currently going through that right now. I’m like a caterpillar that’s shedding and shedding and soon I’ll be THAT butterfly. The butterfly I want to be. So until then I’m just shedding. One day, you’re fine and everything is okay. The next day, shit falling apart and you like damn, can I live? (Inserts Joseline tiktok: I mean what the fuck? Can I live? Can I live?) But, that’s just how life is whether we want to accept it or not. We look at people on these social media apps and think they living a perfect life and that’s WRONG. Everybody goes through shit, BAD shit. Im gonna do a whole rant about social media btw because it’s very much NEEDED. With that being said, never feel bad for going through bad. ESPECIALLY, if it’s out of your control. You’re strong, you’ll get through it. We will. Don’t forget to be kind to yourself.

Step into your inner child. I truly stand behind this 100%. Ever since I’ve been doing the things I loved doing as a kid, there’s been a little ease I feel in my heart. I started writing and reading again(as I mentioned earlier) and chileeeeeeee, my head is leveled. I’m feeling better. Those are therapeutic activities anyway but, I loved them always. You just grow up and stop doing shit you love to do. I hate that. I also started making up fake dance routines to songs now. LMFAOOOOO! No because I loved that! Getting together with your cousins and making a whole dance up to a song. Also, I use to kill any Just Dance game on Wii. Going against me was gonna cost you! Moral of the story, do all those things you loved to do as a kid. It helps.

I’m putting y’all up on game though!

As some of y’all, well most of y’all should know that I hate my job. I’m taking some time away from it and stepping into jobs and other things that are in my interest. I was mentally ill at that job and you don’t understand me unless you been at that point with a job. It was mornings, my body was not getting out of bed knowing I had to be somewhere I HATED. Every time I stepped foot in that place I just felt a black cloud come over me. Every day I was getting sicker and sicker. I couldn’t take it, I started not going to work. Thinking about it, it’s like damn not going to work and you got bills and priorities? But one thing I’m gone do is put my mental first now. Especially as an adult. I already lost myself and it took some major time getting me back. I’m not even 100% back so, what the fuck I look like letting a job take me a couple steps back? Money is nothing, It’ll come to me. I’ll go find better and make it back. Which I did. I just felt myself going into a dark ass place day by day. I knew I was better than a rinky dink ass job. I felt like I served my purpose there already and it’s time to bounce. Now I’m just using them because they drained everything out of me. Nevertheless, I’m using my skills and knowledge into stuff that’s gonna really take me far in life. Never stay anywhere you’re not appreciated,don’t feel welcomed and that’s no longer treating you how you should be treated. That goes for anything in life!! Bet on yourself every time.

I never talk about relationships lol. I want to start because I feel like, it’s a lot I can say about them. Truth be told, I haven’t been in many in my life. I’ve always been a long term ass girlfriend. I really be riding out with a person until I am mentally ill. (I obviously have attachment issues leave me alone.) Now I honestly want to say, the first time a person do something you don’t tolerate, LEAVE. I’m not talking about petty shit that can be resolved and talked about. Communication solves a lot of petty problems so be an adult and save the relationship if it’s worth saving. On the other hand, don’t keep trying with a person who doing you super dirty. They cheating? Bye. They don’t want to stop doing kid shit. Bye. They ass crack was out? Bye. Like cmon now. Don’t accept shit you don’t tolerate. Let that person follow by your wants or it’s curtains. Put your foot down and STAN UP. STAN UP! And stop crying over them. Especially if that n*gga or whoever can’t feed you. You shedding tears on an empty stomach. I know that shit growling! Trust me.. I know.

Any errors, just ignore. I’m not editing anything. This raw, uncut and straight from the noggin.

Song of the day below:

Because she says “Yeah I got to puff up my chest, give it a rest on to the next, pick up my attitude. I’m always doin’ the most, bitch let it go, stop wastin’ time, back on that grind and move. Stay movin. Just keep it movin.”

And that’s period. Because, I hate that I dwell on shit. Time waits for nobody. You gotta keep it 🅿️ushing.

[taliesin-19]

I’ve noticed that abby is always available whenever Harry’s asking her haha I wish she can play busy or hard-to-get sometimes and then let Harry miss her LOL 😂

Lmfaooooo. You've got a very valid point. And you know, just for you, I'm going to make her busy this next chapter and make Harry reschedule. Let's not have him thinking Abby is always just waiting around for him! 😂

I really hate writing those type of interactions though, like the ones that are necessary but boring af. For example, when two characters greet each other "hi, how are you" "good, how are you" "what brings you here" blah blah blah. Or in the case above, the 'hanging out convo'. "You wanna hang" "Sure" "When are you free?" "Can I pick you up at 7" blah blah blah.

They're just moving the story forward, but they're always so formulaic and dull. So I guess that's why I've always had Abby available. I just don't want the conversation to get any longer than it needs to be 😅

[memberment]

The End Is Near Updates??? (Let's fucking go, I guess???)

ALRIGHT WELL

All of my plans to get shit done before school starts continue to swirl the drain as I am full immersed in this rewrite.

I have decided to use headers and make this a single work because honestly I did not want to keep it a series so I figured it out

Also I'm at the end of book one. And SOBBING. I forgot Clyde and Kenny get married in the first round. This was literally the first fic I ever wrote them in like I'm screaming. This fic was my rare pair origin story lowk LMFAOOO like between them and butters/bebe like ugh.

My first book one was like just under 18k and I am currently slowly omw to 22k, like I am right there.

So it's looking like I'm just gonna be belting out monster-illiad length fics for a while with fun little sprinkles of 30/40ks

someone call god, tell him I need intense emotional support because the urge to post another chapter is already creeping up on me and it's been less than 24 hours. I CANNOT FALL INTO THIS SAME FUCKING TRAP AGAIN. Like I just assumed if I reworked an old fic I would throw it on post schedule and contain the same amount of self restraint that I do with my other fics but the literal worms in my brain are like *dont be shy post like 17 chapters in two hours* LIKE WHAT.

Excuse me, I'm busy being insane bc I have literally been up since three (it could have been 1:30, but I honestly can't recall) this morning LMFAO.

9:07 pm update: I took a nap to try and reduce the pure insanity I was dealing with it and I just opened my google doc and realized I'm about to start book 2. GUYS. Book two was by far my absolute fucking favorite. Like, I loved book 2. Frankly, want to make everything else feel more like book 2 bc AHHHHH IT WAS MY FAVORITEEEEE IDC WHAT ANYONE SAYS LMFAO

10:07: I just want you guys to know I reread Craig's chapter, yes his chapter, bc he now longer gets a little separated paragraph, but a chapter, and Heart to Heart came on and I started crying. And then proceeded to reread Tweek's end chapter and We'll Meet Again came on and I'm actually ready to throw up LMFAOOOOOO

(I wrote them before I went to sleep and I had to make sure they read well and blah blah whatever and now I'm just SAD. But also, what the fuck did I expect? This is what happens when you write a sad story with happy little stickers on it and a main character who despite everything wants nothing more than to be optimistic.)

9:18pm hi guys I am on my way home and yall are gonna HEAR IT IN MY END NOTES TONIGHT HOLY SHIT I GAVE TO PROOFREAD DANDELION I AM REALIZING THIS AS I TYPE IM GONNA BE SICK

anyways

I am here to rant bc I was just talking about it DOES ANYONE ELSE dislike when Bebe is portrayed as like an angel or like the opposite end of the spectrum and like straight up mean

LIKE I JUST WANNA SEE HER GIRLBOSS AND PEOPLE DO NOT WRITE HER LIKE THAT ANYMORE CAN I PLS GET SOME SUPER DYNAMIC GIRLBOSS BEBE RECS LMFAOOOOO