#this is honestly nbd I’ve just had A Day and wanna cry so I can feel better

[blurglesmurfklaine]

I legit just wanna cry and I think I might do that

[kingoftheravensarchive]

This is gonna get sappy. Hello! Thank you for 2K (again)! 

Honestly, when I left 2-3 yrs ago I didn’t have any intentions on returning, or at least I hoped beyond hope I wouldn’t cave. I did, though. I’ve been sharing headspace with Uni for a long time, though by official count it’s at five years. A fella I’ve spent a lot of one-on-one time with, getting to know, helping him grow, and he, in turn, helping me in a lot of ways. Writing him has been therapeutic in a way I cannot even begin to describe and when we left those years ago it was for a number of reasons. The biggest being that we--or, really, I--felt as though we had overstayed our welcome. Uni wasn’t shiny and new anymore, hadn’t been for some time, so finding people to write with was like pulling teeth. I had just recently been plagiarized, too, and that honestly made me too paranoid with everything/one. 

But, lo and behold, I returned at the beginning of the year or so, though my activity was in and out for personal reasons. Since properly returning with a fixed schedule not two months ago, I must say I am so... relieved by the way he’s been [re]accepted back into the RP community. Even despite his divergence, despite my hesitance to divulge too much info, etc. It’s been so refreshing to see him get all this activity, to have people want to interact with him, to want to get to know him. AND BLESS THESE SHIPS, HONESTLY. Basically, we love you all and I would thank you all individually but that’d take a long time. Hence this blurb before the proper bias list to say we appreciate you all and wanna write with everyone!

That being said, this bias list will only cover people I’m very close to, people who’ve been following Uni for a long time, or have simply meant quite a bit to us in recent weeks. Please do not be upset if you’re not listed below, as it’s nothing personal and we do appreciate you! It’s just I follow a LOT of people, and, tbh we aren’t close yet-- that can certainly be changed! I’m very friendly despite the nickname! Never hesitate to IM me or ask for my Discord! 

TL;DR hello you are all amazing, thank you so much for all you’ve done for us!! pls buy Uni’s books when I write them lmao. below the cut is my bias list starting with the extra special people!

THE RAVENS

honestly crying for days over these people nbd

@frostkingoftheapocalypse --- HOW HAVE YOU STUCK AROUND FOR THIS LONG? i am amazed. i am also amazed we never talked sooner since we’ve known each other for like... 4 yrs lmfao. AHHH TASHA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! you give me so much life and I appreciate our friendship, even if it’s late in the making, bc you’re so sweet and generous and a MOM omg. MOM FRIEND. and your writing has always intimidated me in a good way so to be able to finally, properly write with you is an HONOR tbh. you’re such a bright, unwavering light with such a fleshed out boy who’s BEAUTIFUL, and phenomenal drawings (I have that photo you made of Uni as my phone bg), and I honestly can’t wait to see what else we manage to create together. hit me with that good shit, tbh. I love you, Tash. <3

@sonofagunslinger --- CRIES FOR DAYS. Em ilu with my whole heart and soul tbh like you mean so much to me. thank u for riding on this painful/achingly cute ship with me bc Trickshot gives me so much life. you’re so amazing and such a fantastic friend like wtf. look at all this talent bunched up in one person, I can’t even begin to describe how happy I am you came back to tumblr RP and WANTED TO WRITE WITH ME AGAIN like wtf. Jesse is such a little goddamn shit and I love it (Uni, too, ofc) and the headcanons you have for him and his 10/10 FC choice, and ALSO UR ART WTF. I’m still convinced satan lives in you tho bc you sometimes hit me with serious angst that makes me wanna lie down and d i e. but I love it. I love everything we’ve created for Trickshot SO MUCH. THESE BOYS KILL ME. I LOVE YOU, EM. <3

@velvettclaws --- oh NUT. omg I... adore you so much. how dare you be as amazingly wonderful as you are, I am attacked. when we first started writing together I honestly was like “they are SO out of your league, Vicious, look at this style, look at this talent, look at this characterization, are you kidding? it’s gonna be one interaction and that’s it” but I have never been so wrong. and HAPPILY wrong, too. Gabriel is such a beautiful, flawed, eldritch soul with so much thought put into the intricacies of his life, his being, etc and I’m so honored that he chose Uni to be part of it in some way and that we’re still writing together. I l o v e your writing so much, it’s so pretty and GOALS AF in a lot of ways and combined with lil’ Gabu as a whole and YOU ooc, oh my gosh. I die. like this if you cry every time bc I sure af do. you’re so supportive and encouraging and darling, too precious and pure for us, honestly. but I am so, so grateful for you and Gabriel. thank you. ilu so much <3 ;w;

@oneiromanc --- how do I even begin to explain how much I appreciate and adore you??? let me count the ways... we’d be here for an eternity tbh and by then you’d be so sick of me. c; AHHH BAB omg I love you so fkn much. like our boys themselves are just... so achingly wonderful and I love how spontaneous their relationship was and how far they’ve come in just a short while (writing wise), but also... like you’re so fantastic?? such a supportive, amazing, beautiful person who I only wanna smother with love and all the happiness in the world bc you deserve it and so much more! you’re a light in a dark place and I’m so glad we’ve gotten close bc GAAAAAH. I cry. I adore writing with you and reading the things you create and I’m so... thankful to be part of the process, if only in a small way bc your writing is phenomenal and deserving of all the appreciation, just like you!! I love you so much hnnn! ;w;

@angelofoverwatch --- (i know ur on a hiatus again but that’s okay bc ur still my bff). LENORE... omg... ur such a good. such a pure, kindhearted, sweet soul. you were one of the first people I actually properly WROTE with when I came back and it was... so nice??? I LOVE writing with you more than you know and to see all the thought you’ve put into Angela is inspiring and AMAZING. You’re both two beautiful people and I am so grateful we met bc we got somethin’ goin’ here with our babies that is so wonderful, I love it so much and wanna DO SO MANY THINGS WITH THEM. And I want to buy all your art tbh like holy shit look at this talented af human! ilu bb <3 and we’ll be here for when you return!! and even if not, we’re still here for you!

@fenwxlf --- cries for days I loooove you, Cait, so goddamn much and I know some days I seem kinda “meh” with everything but pls know I appreciate you so much and everything we’ve created together in the last 5 years or so. Fenrir is such a prick, just like his dad, and I LOVE it and how much he’s grown. to be part of that is amazing and honestly I am so honored you picked Uni to be MAIN DAD. and I’m so grateful and flattered tbh that you are so tied in with the raven folklore, too, and have immersed yourself in it. NEED ALL THE BIRBS TBH. I just... you mean so much to me that I can’t properly put it into words but I’m so grateful for our friendship, for being able to write with you, to be part of Fen and Svad’s characterization process/es and... all of it. you’re amazing ooc and I’ve loved to keep up with all you’ve done in the last few years and I’m so happy we never really broke contact even during our hiatus bc you’re a phenomenal friend, irreplaceable. you perfect cinnamon roll /sobs forever. Uni and I love you all soooooo much <3

THE CROWS

the folks who have been around for a long, long, long time tbh. how have you not gotten sick of us?? if i’m missing people, i’m so sorry! if you’ve been around for 3+ years, we are amazed you’re still here, for one, and also SO GRATEFUL. you are the reason I keep writing.

@sultrysupernaturals / @agentharrisonofshield & @stiitchwiitchsera / @jennathearcher / @lilylacey / @mordorshi / @madxwonderland

THE MAGPIES

some special mentions! people who mean a lot to me and/or Uni, people we appreciate so much, whom we’ve adored writing with, etc! i’m definitely missing people on this list! my brain only does so well, y’know.

@ircnwccd / @brazenlass / @talonsaconite / @stxrmurdottir / @asgardianhammer / @valadhxfndr / @maegtig / @zehsvara / @crowsandmalachite / @iisfet / @aldrnaari / @tricksandtreason & @jxrmungand / @viiribus / @strongindependentmen / @iridcscentiisms / @jenniferwallters & @claudiadelicncourt / @vasvvani & @aropoakande / @alalkomeneis / @huntingglory & @sifshieldmaiden / @roipirate

[ariesnicolo]

📓📓📓!!!!

sorry im answering late!!! but here’s a joenicky (and andyquynh side plot) i have been thinking of, and it might be top 3 ideas i have floating around my head for fics. it got long so most of its under a read more.

ok so another idea i have is like. a joenicky get BACK together slow burn relearning each other type of thing w an andyquynh meeting/getting together through joe & nicky plot as well (andy as friends w joe and quynh as friends w nicky). i want to start this one with nicky+quynh running errands together and they run into joe+andy wherever they are and nicky and joe stop dead and just stare at each other and they’re both freaking out bc “it’s YOU i haven’t seen you in forever im maybe definitely still in love with you”. and andy and quynh are both just like “...what is happening with my friends. also hi you’re hot”. so we get that and then joe and nicky both explain their POVs of why they broke up to andy and quynh, and then it progresses w them getting to know each other again as people and friends bc andy and quynh start dating (and the tension and awkwardness that comes with that), and then there’s like the flashback thing where we learn the whole picture of why they broke up and what went down. then of course the resolution where joe and nicky have both grown and learned the other again and they get back together. (detailed outline and ideas under read more!)

the outline is:

- joe and nicky met while they were working in the same building (diff like departments though) and they like kept running into each other in the elevator and someone would hold the door for the other while they were running late and someone saw someone else working super late to meet a deadline and stayed w them until they left so they weren’t alone and telling each other their office gossip. u know the vibes

- and then they start dating and it’s going great and they’re very happy and they move in together and they meet each other’s family and they go on vacations together and they meet each other’s friends. and they’re together for a WHILE, like a long time. i’ve been thinking somewhere in the 6-8 year range but not married, engagement has maybe been brought up once or twice but it’s nbd to them bc they’re happy as things are and they’re good w what they are to each other.

- THEN something happens where joe&nicky have to break up. i haven’t decided if i want to do something that’s out of their control (moving super far for a job while the other has a really good opportunity where they are, an emergency of some kind that takes them away and they don’t know when they’re coming back- something like that) OR if i wanna go down the route of someone messing up somehow and the other breaks up w them. (ngl i do have an idea for this one but it’s VERY heavy and im not sure if im gonna follow through but. i was thinking about it one day and i did write it out w/o writing anything else about the fic and it made me tear up a little so ya know. i have ideas but we’ll see)

- but anyways there is a joenicky breakup. and they go there separate ways and it’s like “the one that got away”, “i see you in everything i see and everywhere i go and everyone i meet”, “i get drunk and think about calling you sometimes bc i still have your number memorized”, “i always wonder what would have happened with us if things had just gone differently”, “whenever i see something that reminds me of you i have to force myself not to send you a text”. it’s like that and it’s a bummer all around bc they were obv in love and sometimes people break up bc things just don’t work out or something happens but that doesn’t mean there isn’t love

- then they see each other as described above. im thinking like 5-7 years have passed of not seeing each other/no contact.

- little moments from this idea that keep popping into my head:

- andy and quynh invite joe and nicky both to the beach bc they’re friendly enough at this point that it won’t be weird, and there’s a little moment between joe and nicky where they’re both sitting in the sand next to each other and they’re watching the sunset probably and it’s quiet and nicky whispers “do you know what im thinking of?” (bc this is a big risk for nicky. he treasures his new friendship w joe and wouldn’t risk anything that would have joe out of his life again, but what is he if he isn’t honest with his thoughts. especially around joe.) and chances a glance at joe to find joe already looking at him w a fond teasing smile and joe says “yes. but i’d like to hear you say it anyways.” and nicky laughs honestly and genuinely w joe for the first time in what feels like FOREVER and it feels so good that he doesn’t hesitate to say “malta. our fourth anniversary vacation, when we were on the beach and-“, and joe cuts him off to finish the memory, “-and we spent all day swimming and laying around and doing mindless activities bc we didn’t want to leave”. something something nicky blushes but he blames it on the sun, something something joe digging his toes into the sand to avoid eye contact when he tells nicky he still thinks of that sometimes, something something nicky locking his entire body so he doesn’t reach for joe to comfort him when he tells joe he still thinks about it too. (there is a sad version of this moment but again. it’s heavy)

- an awkward moment between joe and nicky where joe and nicky are hanging out w friends there probably and it’s nice to be around each other again but it’s low pressure bc there’s other people around. and joe accidentally calls nicky “babe” or some other pet name bc it was his habit for YEARS and then he hides out for the rest of the night. as i type this im imagining it’s like a party or something of a mutual friend so there are people to hide with and places to escape to. ofc they find each other again bc nicky KNOWS joe and knows where he would hide out and who his close friends are from this group, and nicky is flustered and stumbling over his words but he tells joe it’s fine, they don’t need to make it into a thing. nicky doesn’t want anything to mess up what they have going again- as friends. joe eyes him for a moment and then he nods and claps nicky on the shoulder and walks away. nicky doesn’t seek him out the rest of the night, just gives him his space. nicky ignores and shoves down the part of him that loves the fact that joe called him babe, that joe would even have that on his mind to let slip so many years after they broke up.

- either joe or nicky seeing the other on a date and being irrationally jealous and doing a terrible job of hiding it. OR mistaking seeing them out with a friend as a date and being jealous and doing a bad job at hiding it. im imaging this toward the middle of the fic where things are close to being normal friends vibes but there’s still one last hoop to jump through to get to that stage. so it’s like awkward but joe and nicky are trying to pretend it’s not bc why would it be, they’re sorta friends and everything is in the past (it’s not). and the date or friend is just standing there watching joe and nicky ‘talk’ and does the awkward thumb behind the shoulder gesture for ‘im gonna go now. sorry not sorry.’ and then there’s a whole thing of like oh great u made my date/friend leave, thanks a lot. (great potential i think for it to be a friend and either joe or nicky being like “thanks a lot, u made my friend uncomfortable” and storming off and leaving the other to sit with the knowledge of it being a friend and then the second wave of “oh im fucked aren’t i”)

- joe gushing to andy about nicky/crying about why they broke up and how he misses nicky is something that can actually be so personal. and also vice versa with nicky and quynh

- joe and/or nicky learning something new about the other is something i am a sucker for with this idea. like dating someone for years and years and then u meet up w them again by random chance and learning that they actually hate a food they said they love or a movie or whatever just bc they other loved it SO much and didn’t want to admit that they hated it. (but then also maybe they grew to love it just a little. bc u loved it so much.)

- so then obv there is the tense moment where joe and nicky could either explain everything and get back together or just say “forget it” and live the rest of their life as friends. they both get to say their piece about why things went down the way they did, how they didn’t want to break up but it’s what happened (or what had to happen if were taking the sad heavy route), how they’re different people now but they’ve spent the last however many months getting to know the other again, how they didn’t think it would be possible to fall in love with the other again, how it was heart breaking and terrible but lovely and eye opening to fall in love with the same person all over again. then it’s the soul changing world spinning kiss where they wrap their arms around each other and never want to let go. cue forehead rest and some crying and whispered i love yous bc it still doesn’t feel real, it can’t be real, bc they’ve wanted this for longer than they’ve been willing to admit to anyone and themselves and now they have it again and it’s perfect but there is still work to be done. but it’s perfect bc it’s them. it’s joe and nicky.

- then the big (not so surprising in reality bc people have eyes) reveal to andy and quynh, and to joe and nicky’s families and they’re ofc all happy and pleased and excited for them.

[alia15]

5ive Things // 6.18.18

Happy June! Summer is literally a few days away and it certainly feels it: this weekend we saw temps in the high 80s with full sun. FULL! Finally! Leo and I had a busy weekend with a “food crawl”/scavenger hunt with my brother and sister-in-law (if you live on Long Island, check out Food Done It!) and then celebrated Father’s Day yesterday with our dads, but made sure we still found time to enjoy our new apartment complex/”backyard:”

heaven.

It’s been about a month since I’ve shared some things I’m loving, so besides the gorgeous weather, our new home AND my dad:

...here’s what ELSE I’m into these days:

Congratulations podcast. I recently got back into podcasts, and I’m all over the damn map with what I listen to -- it’s anything from true crime (just finished Dirty John--WOWZA), to pop culture/current events to comedy. And when it comes to comedy, Chris D’Elia’s material is right up my alley. If you’re unfamiliar with the comedian, he’s been on some network shows (does NBC’s ‘Whitney’ ring a bell?) and has also had several comedy specials over the years. He got my attention years ago because of his INSANELY funny and deranged Vine videos and I actually got the chance to see him live at Caroline’s in NYC back in 2013. Since then, I’ve continued to be a huge fan and follow his hilarious antics on social media (he’s liked a few tweets of mine, NBD). I knew he had a podcast but admittedly took WAY too long to check it out, and finally did a few weeks ago. 

Guys.

I cry-laugh. I snort. I do that uncontrollable laughing thing when I’m on the train and don’t want to guffaw and make a fool of myself so instead, I start convulsing and feel like I could burst at the seams from laughter. ‘Congratulations’ updates weekly and Chris just kind of shoots the shit about random-ass topics, and I can’t even really articulate his humor because it’s SO SO unique. He essentially has made up his own language and way of speaking, does ridiculous impressions, and shits on EVERYTHING, constantly. I love it. My favorite part? He laughs (hard) at his own jokes, and that makes ME laugh.

What to Do When a Loved One Is Severely Depressed. Whoa, what a transition from comedy to...this. But, it’s apropos at the moment to talk about mental health and more specifically, the surge of people unfortunately taking their own lives lately. We saw it most recently with celebrities Anthony Bourdain and Kate Spade, but lest we forget there are countless other non-famous folks who are suffering out in the world as well. This topic makes people squirmy and uncomfortable and I get that, big time, but it’s important that we talk about it. And articles like this one from the New York Times are so insanely helpful for those of us who are in or ever have been in a position where our loved ones are clearly going through some serious heavy stuff and gives some really great pointers on how to navigate that. An excerpt:

Your brother has an enviable job and two lovely children. He’s still ridiculously handsome even though he hasn’t gone to the gym for six months. It’s tempting to want to remind him of all these good things.

Not only is that unlikely to boost his mood, it could backfire by reinforcing his sense that you just don’t get it, said Megan Devine, a psychotherapistand the author of “It’s O.K. That You’re Not O.K.”

“Your job as a support person is not to cheer people up. It’s to acknowledge that it sucks right now, and their pain exists,” she said.

Summer fashion. Oh man, we’re all over the place today. Let’s lighten the mood a little and talk summer fashion finds -- including what I call, “the non-jeans.”

In the summer, the last thing I wanna do is put some tight skinny jeans on -- NOOOOPE. It’s hot and sticky outside, and I might as well squeeze into some latex Batman suit. Pass. But for the days where you don’t feel like shaving your legs wearing a dress, it’s nice to have some non-jeans pants options.  Enter: the options you see above (from left to right: Loft, American Eagle, ASOS, H&M). PS: culottes were NOT something I ever liked or thought I could rock, but...we’re doing this, I guess.

Between Two Ferns. Have you ever seen these before? It’s a Funny or Die video series that’s been on for YEARS and I can never seem to follow the cadence -- they used to upload them pretty frequently but now I feel like they pop up once a year. It’s always a nice surprise to see a new one, and they always make me laugh. The hysterical Zach Galifianakis hosts and the shtick is essentially him just being a total dick to his guests. Sometimes it’s so convincing I honestly can’t tell for SURE if it’s a joke. Most recently posted? An episode with the one & only Jerry Seinfeld:

do me a favor: watch this, but then also check out the ones from the past including guests like Barack Obama, Ben Stiller, Brad Pitt & more.

These 8 Innocent Email Clichés Aren’t So Innocent After All. Do you work in Corporate America/have an office job? If so, you’ll love this website that has office-related (sarcastic) humor and will totally relate to the content. This list of cliches really made me laugh because I’ve used ALL of them (you know I love me some Office Jargon) and sometimes you really, really wish you can say what you actually mean. 

are you, though?

What are you loving this week?