#this is gonna go gr9

[tuxedokit]

If you could relive any of your memories, which would it be?

weve been mulling this over like all day but we have so many good ones from this lifetime its hard to decide. im gonna ask around and we'll compile the best ones here - [AR] Autopilot 💾

last summer on our familys annual beach vacation we did shrooms and saw through the fabric of the universe and befriended The Horrors. that was pretty cool. id like to relive being high off my gourd stargazing in a place with such little light pollution - Starlight 🌌

im gonna say when we were in tennessee like almost 2 years ago. we had flown out to visit our friend (now qpp & partner system) seepy and heart's so small they're shorter than us and i dunno it was the first time doing something like that and she was so small in my arms and i could honestly have just held him forever. i love you seeps ◇ - Carpet ✨️

yesterday for our friend bears birthday we went to an enchanted forest escape room and it was so well put together and ethereal and it was the best 40 minutes of my life in this physical realm ive never felt so at home. there were puzzles and mushrooms and music and gnomes and my bestest friends were right there too!!! oh it was so wonderful - Sayakura 🧚‍♀️

confessing to luci. nuff said. but i wanna say more so im gonna: it was me realizing i was in love at the same time as confessing cause i kinda just asked for advice in a group server w them fdsgjsksl. we were already qpps and apparently my family thought we were already dating (i mean we called beem our soulmate like - ✨️) but like i wound up spending the whole afternoon just thinking about them and being giddy. it was nice - Luna 🌙

mine's gotta be the first time we climbed that abandoned water tower past the ravine. we had spraycans and i wrote trans rights on the side of it. the wind gave us such a thrill, it was incredible. and the view was definitely worth it - Waks 📹

im claiming that time in grade 11 when our gr9 science teacher + gr11-12 bio teacher mr coulter approached me and asked if i wanted to go on a field trip to the science centre that was intended for the grade 12 kids. i didnt know anyone but i didnt care bc mr coulter was there and i wore my new animaniacs shirt and i got to run around the science centre itself during the lunch break and play with genetics stuff (i was such a nerd about punett squares and all that its no wonder he asked me specifically). i think the best part was the feeling i had when i was sitting next to mr coulter on the bus ride there and back. he let me take a selfie with him.... mr coulter was like a father to me, so it meant a lot. - Quinn ✉️

i wanna relive when we were playing with shanny and teagsi and we climbed the big tree near the ice rink by our school. i used to read up there too :) - Little One 👾

the body's nanna flew us out to grenada in march... i would like to relive swimming at that beach, on that little island in carriacou. the water was clear and a such beautiful blue, the air was just a little too warm and humid, and sitting on that beach reminded me of my old home - Riku/Shore ⚔️

mine's gotta be the second year we went to camp mini yo we! specifically, reading the letters mom wrote me for each day of the week. she wrote a little story about me; i was the doctor's daughter but i didnt know it, and i had powers that warped me through space and time seemingly at random. she wrote that i found a place and led a revolution against tyrannical oppressive overlords. not single-handedly taking down the villains, but helping empower the people so they could fight for themselves. by the end of the week we had found a crowd of invested listeners in the other girls at camp. it was nice... i think about those letters a lot - Secret 🧩

we were bodily sitting alone in the grass at a local park, it was right as we were discovering our plurality. i could see all of us all over the park, as if we were all there. the kids were playing tag, some were poking around in the forest right there, quinn was in that big tree we like to sit under... scrooge and quinslap were off smoking a joint, sitting on a tree trunk that had grown a little horizontal before it remembered to grow up. it wasnt in our view but we know the path and it was in the area enough that they could be there while our body simply sat in the grass. it was a fascinating and beautiful feeling. like a family picnic, but with only one person present. - [AR] Autopilot 💾

might add more later

[vimesbootstheory]

I'm going through some old boxes and found a bizarre school assignment, I'm gonna guess from around gr9 or 10? 2004-ish?

Very strange assignment, seems like a general summary of who I am but I go on for like 35 pages typed, I think for a careers class. and unfortunately at the time my favourite author was the queen terf, and this 14yo bitch did not have a crystal ball

"la seule chose qu'elle pourrait faire pour que je déciderait qu'elle n'a pas d'influence sur moi est d'écrire un roman de mauvaise qualité"

Or "the only thing she could do for me to decide that she doesn't have influence over me would be to write a shitty book"

YEAH YOU'D THINK AND YET

Oh honey nope. No unfortunately there are other things rowling could do to lose you

[swampdickhead]

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tomorrow i’m going to dress up like the worlds faggiest vampire to go see queen of the damned at wharf w nat, phoenix, lu and maybe amy if she shows up which she should because i’ve had her house keys for 2 weeks and she needs them back. then saturday hanging out with phoenix and we are gonna smoke so much weed and i’m going to show them wicked whims because it’s fucking hilarious, then tj is gonna get home later on saturday after being in swindon for a week and this pair of water sign bitches are going to be inseparable and gay again 🥰 they have likely broke their toe at aaron west tonight though so i also need to patch em up a bit! we have missed each other like crazy and it’s gonna be so good once she’s back

i have had a pretty good week, i have mostly been working but i was off work yesterday and met kittens and was chosen by one and tj is encouraging me to get the kitten! we also made rocky road before tj set off and still have loads left so i might bring some tomorrow to snack on during the film. i did loads of cleaning and now i’m doing loads of sewing. i got a compliment at work today too! in therapy we did our last ever mindfulness session and upon reflecting on the first mindfulness session, my personal goals of what i wanted out of it have changed significantly and the psychologist was very very pleased and encouraging about it!! i only have 6 weeks of distress tolerance sessions left to go and then i’ll have finished dbt for good, i have learned a lot but at the same time have found it quite affirming that i had been using interpersonal effectiveness and emotional regulation skills unknowingly for a while. i have noticed another increase in my mood, trazodone really is treating me well, i feel relaxed and much less on edge. sarz walked me home after therapy so i didn’t have to go alone and then we watched the good place, sarz really enjoyed it and tried to guess the twist. i am still waiting for my disabled railcard to arrive but once it gets here i can go visit my sister in wales for only £25! it’ll just cost a lot more for whoever comes with me!

the new twenty one pilots album is out and as expected i am OBSESSED

overall gr9 times

[aradia--megid0]

HAPPY NEW YEARS YO!!!!Im so proud of you for getting through another year despite all the stuff you had to go through! You're a strong person and I think you're pretty awesome. I wanted to thank you for being so gr9 and being a mutual and everytime I see you on my dash is a pleasure. I hope you have a really cool new year and if you ever need anyone to talk to I'm always here.

I'm gonna sob, I'm finally in a safe place in my life and coming back to something like this is just... Wow

[323398149]

You dont need to sort through it as “quickly” as possible. Take a deep breath. Now take some more. Go easy on yourself. No one would be so annoyed that they would hurt you. And if someone were to ever hurt you then please let me know so I can hurt them….take things one step at a time. See what you actually want out of life. You have to know what you actually want before making concrete steps in that direction.

I cant know who this was from but I've read it a million times in the last year or two from whenever it was sent.

I just logged in thinking, this is a tumblr vent not a finsta one.

I'm so overwhelmed by life and growing up (the usual, am I not always in this state? Jk I guess a couple years ago, no, that wasnt what i was talking about on here lols)

I was gonna be like nobody prepares you for interviews and job applications but technically they do in grade 10 careers but gee the real deal is so much scarier and like.... it really is just based on you. Like some ppl just got it and others don't. I have no social skills lol and out here in the real world it really shows.

It's like gr9 RUSH all over again. I went from being the cream of the crop in my cohort in uni and being amazing at leading meetings and connecting with classmates to suddenly being back at the bottom of the barrel. It feels like they poured us from one barrel to another bigger one except you know how the foam gets left behind when you pour steamed milk into a cup? It feels like that. It feels like I'm just hanging out there by myself still stuck to the sides of the first barrel when everybody has moved on and I don't have the social or even technical skills honestly to get myself from the first barrel to the bigger one without the flow of the rest of the crowd to carry me. As soon as we hit 4th year it became every (wo)man for themselves and stopped being collective. Like for the 18 years before that we all progressed forward together every year at exactly the same rate yknow? I got complacent.

I didn't realize we were just walking towards the starting line for a race and were expected to start running at the whistle of graduation. It's like I didn't even know the route of the course that we were on and now I finally just got a hold of a map. Or it's as if I'd never heard a whistle before so I didn't realize that was our cue. Or lmaooo like I sneezed at the exact same time as the whistle and ended up not hearing it. So now I gotta figure out how I can keep going even tho I can barely see everybody turned some corners and I can't even see what's on the other side of the bend yet.

But the point is that I've found the map now so imma just have to figure out a route on my own and trust it and keep going.

[fateprotected-a]

@trueseeking gets a smol

“Promise me that no matter what you hear, you won’t go off on your own to investigate.  I want your word.”

[godblooded]

got woke up by kk havin the hiccups laying on top of my tummy.

[mego42]

Happy Birthdaaaaaaaaaay!!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉Hope you do something fun today like eat cake and make people do things for you cause YOU DESERVE 🥰🥰🥰💖💖💖

[breadclubrising]

WHAT DOES IT MEAN

[speremint]

you could call it "reversed omens"? i dunno lol

this is rlly good how tf did i not think of this….

[yanoisablessing]

[cosm1ckun]

and w h y, pray tell, do i not not stan astro yet??

[heartsunholy-a]

also if yall are a fan of melody’s poor taste in romantic partners, allow me to introduce you to phoebe

[northreigned]

this is ur girl signing off 2 go n have some wine and go camping !!

[delsinsfire]

gamescom is always a very nice and a very exhausting experience. Also you’re guaranteed to make friends because what else is there to do than talk to random people while you wait 2 hours in line to play a videogame

[kisameanslight]

Okay, a couple of q's about your writing (which I absolutely adore btw!💖)

What is one sentence or section you're super proud of? Like a piece of writing you keep coming back to thinking 'wow I really did that' ?

Which of your characters from your stories is your favourite?

Do you enjoy writing dialogue? Does it come easy to you? What do you like about it/not like about it?

What is it about Milex in particular that inspires you to write stories about them?

What is your favourite characteristic to write out about each of them? Like which parts of their personality or maybe physical traits too are you excited about writing?

Do you prefer writing (also maybe reading if you feel like it) AU's or canon compliant?

What is your favourite sort of stories to read yourself?

AAAAA thanks i love these!!!!

What is one sentence or section you're super proud of? Like a piece of writing you keep coming back to thinking 'wow I really did that' ?

it’s more about sections for me other than sentences per se but here are some of them:

- mark trying to get alex to break at the gala, matt’s death and the first time alex gets bitten in c’est horrifique!

- there are a few scenes in you cannot turn away that i’m also super proud of but i can’t talk about any of them because they’re massive spoilers lmao. but that being said i’m super proud of the “i thought you’d found a drinking buddy for the night” / “oh i was drinking a buddy alright” dialogue between alex and nick and i do 100% believe i’ll never write a joke as good as that one ever in my life jsdlsajdlsaj

Which of your characters from your stories is your favourite?

i really like writing all of them but writing nick is SO MUCH FUN

Do you enjoy writing dialogue? Does it come easy to you? What do you like about it/not like about it?

i do!! most of my scenes are born out of dialogues i envisioned in my head. it does kinda come easy to me but at the same time it’s really challenging making it sound... natural, i guess? like, i don’t want to go back to the dialogues i’ve written and think ‘wtf no one talks like that irl’

What is it about Milex in particular that inspires you to write stories about them?

honestly? i have no fucking idea. i’ve been trying to answer that since i’ve started writing c’est horrifique around an year ago. there’s just something about translating their chemistry into other realities that’s just really enjoyable 

What is your favourite characteristic to write out about each of them? Like which parts of their personality or maybe physical traits too are you excited about writing?

i’m gonna be very honest with you it’s the fact they’re whores. love writing them being sluts. 10/10 fun every time. 

Do you prefer writing (also maybe reading if you feel like it) AU's or canon compliant?

aus. like, to each their own and i’m not judging anyone who writes/reads fics taking place in our reality, but they’re just not very fun for me to read or write. i REALLY fuck with AUs tho and they’re gr9 (also i have way too many ideas to write and not nearly enough time to write them help me)

What is your favourite sort of stories to read yourself?

horror and sci-fi, but esp horror. i’d love to write a horror story one day tbh that would be a fun challenge to take on