#this is going to be HARD DX

[ourceliumnetwork]

i think i'm like. really in denial sometimes about how much pain i'm just Casually In...

OH NO WAIT HANG ON WAIT ACTUALLY MY MEDICINE WORE OFF AND I DID LIKE A LOT OF UNANTICIPATED ACTIVITY NEVER MIND I'M DUMB I'M HURTING FOR ACTUAL REASONS THIS TIME

[brittlebutch]

kind of astounding how innocuous conversations with my younger siblings can make me feel like dogshit... what are the good things about being the oldest kid supposed to be again??

[griseldabanks]

for the ask game, would you do #23 for link and zelda?

Let Me Count the Ways ask game

Prompt: "I feel like we've met before…."

“You only want to go there because you think she'll be there.”

“I do not!” Link retorted, hanging his helmet on Epona's handlebars while holding his phone to his ear with the other hand. “I'm going to study for midterms, like I said. Not my fault you didn't want to come along.”

“And watch Malon making googly eyes at you the whole time? No thanks.”

Link paused halfway through slinging his backpack over his shoulder. “What? Malon?”

He could practically hear the rolled eyes across the phone line. “Oh brother. She's had her eye on you since orientation!”

“Really? How can you tell?”

“Because I have eyes in my head!”

Suddenly, Link spotted a familiar pink backpack weaving through the tables outside the coffee shop, heading towards the door. “Sorry, Navi, gotta go.”

“Hey! Listen to me—“

He hung up and darted over to the front door, managing to reach it just in time. He grabbed the door and pulled it open.

The girl who'd been reaching for it started at his sudden appearance, then let her extended hand fall back to her side. “Oh...thanks!”

She smiled up at him before stepping inside, and for one glorious moment, their eyes met. Link grinned stupidly, but she'd already passed him.

Heart pounding in his chest, Link followed her into Lon Lon Cafe. He stuffed his hands into the pocket of his green hoodie, trying to act casual as he stepped into line right behind her. He glanced up at the girl behind the cash register, and the pleasant giddiness in his chest deflated somewhat as he remembered what Navi had said. Sure enough, Malon spotted him and immediately shot him a grin, tucking a lock of red hair behind her ear. And she kept glancing at him as she listened to the next customer's order.

Link looked back at the girl in front of him instead. Zelda. So was so pretty, her blonde hair pulled back in a half-ponytail, golden earrings dangling from her ears and catching the light.... And there was an elegance to all of her movements, even simply in the way she pulled her wallet out of her purse. Like a princess...if princesses ever graced college-town coffee shops.

Suddenly, she looked over her shoulder and turned to face him. “Hey, do I know you?”

The bottom dropped out of Link's stomach. “What?”

Zelda cocked her head to one side. “I feel like we've met before....”

Link swallowed, mouth suddenly dry. “Uh...History 101. Professor Rauru.”

Zelda's face brightened with recognition, and somehow she looked even more beautiful that way. “That's it! So are you ready for—“

“Next!”

With a little start, Zelda quickly turned around and stepped up to the front of the line. While she was ordering her drink, Link couldn't help noticing that Malon wasn't smiling anymore, but answering Zelda tersely and stabbing at the register with more force than necessary.

When it was his turn to order, Link was a little nervous at how Malon would receive him, but to his relief, the second her eyes landed on him, a huge smile lit up her face again. He might have been imagining things, but he thought he detected a hint of sharpness in her gaze that wasn't there normally. “What can I get you?”

Link opened his mouth to reply, but she talked over him.

“Pumpkin spice latte, right? As usual?”

He'd actually been thinking of trying out something different this time, but she was already ringing him up, and he did like anything pumpkin spice-flavored, so he remained silent and just handed over a couple blue rupee notes.

Zelda was still waiting for her drink at the other end of the counter, and Link's heart skipped a beat when she glanced up from her phone as he strode over to her to wait as well. “So, what's your major?” she asked, her blue eyes bright and interested.

“Uh...undeclared, so far,” Link admitted, feeling his cheeks go warm. “I came in with an archery scholarship, but I don't know if that's what I want to go with....”

“Well, that's okay,” Zelda said. “You're a freshman, right? You've got plenty of time to figure it out.”

“Wait, are you not a freshman?”

Zelda giggled. “Oh—no, I'm a sophomore. I just didn't get around to history last year. I wanted to take harp lessons, and my schedule didn't work out.”

“So you're a music major?” Link brightened at that. Maybe he should've signed up for singing lessons or something after all.

“For now,” Zelda said with a thoughtful frown. “I love the harp, but I've been thinking about switching to political science instead. Do some real good in the world, you know?”

The more they talked, the more relaxed Link felt, just like he was talking to Navi or Saria—except that every time their eyes met, he felt a glorious swoop in his stomach. “Maybe your harp can usher in world peace,” he said with a grin.

As Zelda laughed, the barista slid their drinks across the counter towards them. “So do you play any instruments?”

“Oh, just the ocarina—“

They both reached for their drinks at the same time. Both froze, staring at the backs of their hands. Link's left, Zelda's right. Like a strangely geometric birthmark, against their pale skin was the clear outline of a triangle divided into four smaller triangles. On Link's hand, the smaller triangle on the bottom right was filled in; on Zelda's, it was the bottom left.

Link stared at their hands, the marks upon them perfect mirrors of each other. For his whole life, his soul mark had been there, as familiar a sight as the moles and freckles on his arms. He knew it was supposed to be a reflection of his soul, and the legends went that somewhere out there, his soulmate bore the mirror image of it. But who that person was, or if he'd ever meet them...that just wasn't something he bothered thinking about too much.

Just like anyone, there had certainly been times when he'd wondered who his soulmate was. Growing up, he'd compared soul marks with his friends—Saria had been extremely disappointed when she realized that the swirly mark on her shoulder was nothing like his soul mark. In idle moments, he would daydream about whether his soulmate would turn out to be someone he married, like his parents, or a really good friend, or maybe even one of his children someday.

But then life got busy, and there was no time to think about something so frivolous when school and archery club ate up so much of his time. If he ever met his soulmate, he would deal with it then.

Then was now.

Slowly, Link's eyes traveled up Zelda's arm to her eyes, which were open wide with shock. “Does this mean...?”

“You're...m-my....”

“Oh my!” Zelda's face instantly grew as red as a tomato, and she whirled away from him, covering her cheeks with her hands. Link's eyes were glued to the back of her right hand. The soul mark was unmistakable.

Without warning, Zelda began speed-walking back through the cafe, almost knocking into several people on her way out.

“Wait—Zelda!” Link grabbed both of their drinks and rushed after her, finally catching up to her where she had collapsed into a chair at one of the tables under an umbrella out front.

Hesitantly, Link set Zelda's drink down in front of her, then slipped his backpack off his shoulder and sank into the chair across the table. He looked over at her staring fixedly at the cast-iron tabletop as if she could melt it with a glance.

Just to have something to do, Link sipped his pumpkin spice latte, but it scalded his tongue, so he set it aside.

She was so pretty, even with the blush extending all the way down her neck. Actually, the blush made her look even prettier, the pink tinge of her skin setting off the pink shirt she wore.

She's my soulmate, he thought numbly. All I wanted was to talk to her, maybe ask her out eventually...and she's my soulmate. The most important person in my life.

“Um...sorry,” Zelda said with a shaky laugh, looking up at last and tucking a strand of golden hair behind her ear. “I didn't mean to run out, I just...that took me completely by surprise!”

“Yeah, uh...m-me too.”

They both realized at the same time that they were staring at each other's hands, and broke into nervous laughter.

“So, we're...soulmates.” Zelda let out a long breath. “No, saying it out loud didn't help. It still doesn't sound real.”

A sudden thought occurred to Link that made his heart sink. “Hey, um...just because of this,” he pointed at the back of his hand, “that doesn't mean we have to...I mean, it's just a legend. You don't have to feel, like, obligated to...to hang out with me or....”

To his relief, she smiled sweetly at him. “You're right. But...I'd still like to get to know you. If...you don't mind.”

“No, of course!” Link said, a little too quickly and too loudly. He cleared his throat, his cheeks burning again. “Can I buy you coffee or something sometime? I-I mean, I know we already got coffee, but....” Crap, he was making such a fool of himself....

But Zelda just giggled, hiding her smile behind the hand that bore the mirror image of his soul mark. “Yes, you can take me on a date sometime. But, um...what's your name, anyway?”

“Oh!” They'd been talking all this time, and he still hadn't introduced himself. “It's Link. Nice to meet you.”

Zelda cocked her head to one side. “Link...strange...it feels somehow familiar....”

Link realized he'd felt the same way, the first time he'd learned Zelda's name. He'd passed it off as merely thinking it was a pretty name, but...maybe it was a sign that their souls were bonded to each other.

Either way, as they sat at the coffee shop and continued to get to know each other, everything felt right with the world in a way it never had before.

[red-hemlock]

|| Theme Songs for Your Muse. ||

Standard Theme: Psyche (Flash Treatment) - Massive Attack

Battle Theme: She Moves Like a Knife - Perturbator

Boss Battle Theme: Sleepless Fever - Sea Oleena

Emotion Theme: Torn in Two Directions - Waterstrider

Bonus Singing Voice: Dh’èirich mi moch madainn cheòthar (I arose early on a misty morning) - Julie Fowlis

Bonus Lyric Theme: Bleed for Me - Digital Daggers

You won't taste the poison Hidden in my kiss You won't face the darkness So I'll just walk right in You can't outrun the wicked I'll keep you standing still You refuse to be the hunted But I'm out for the kill So I creep To watch you bleed for me So I creep To watch you bleed for me Bleed for me Won't you bleed for me On your knees for me Won't you bleed for me Bleed for me Won't you bleed for me On your knees for me Won't you bleed for me

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[rainingincale]

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[j3nnix]

I miss posting my drawings of my fnaf humanizations very out of character and very far from the canon with my cringe headcanons where they have nothing to do with the true history of the games and where they live in a world that is only the product of my imagination and nothing makes sense in that absurd universe...

but for that I have to draw them xD

[jewish-space-laser]

Ok journal entry incoming lol.

Guys I think this is the closest I’ve ever been to being in love and it’s terrifying because I honestly wasn’t sure if I was capable of like… letting my guard down enough to feel this way.

And sometimes it’s lonely but to be quite frank I fucking LOVE being alone, and things like having a kid or a house or whatever are never things I felt I needed to have a partner for. And I still mostly feel that way and it probably will never change completely but I have to admit it is really nice having somebody in my life who is like, romantic and makes me feel all floaty and nice all the time.

And it’s not like I haven’t dated and been in relationships before, but I feel that, at least on my end, things always felt very “surface level” or like I couldn’t fully be myself around them, and I always remember how excited If be to get home, after going on dates lmao.

But with my current dude I don’t really feel drained. And like, I can be myself around him!!! I’ve told him all of the feelings above and he feels the same about so many things. Before I even mentioned it, he told me he believes that couples should have their own bedrooms in a shared home. LIKE!!! YES!!!! I have always wanted that too. He loves having his own space, so do I. I understand when he needs to recharge his social battery and vice versa.

Anyway TLDR, I just needed to date another earth sign, I am potentially capable of love after all lmao

[teamhawkeye]

random person, seeing me on the street and determining i am very affable and approachable: excuse me, can you give me directions?

me: sure! :D

me: *proceeds to unintentionally give the most confusing and terrible directions possible*

[bitegore]

do you yet know whether you won at accountancy? I have the impression that the exams are over, and that the bit in which the ranked list gets posted on the senate gate is a little quicker these days, but I may of course be wrong...

I did an exceedingly mediocre job at accountancy, but that works for my purposes (getting a passing grade in the class so I can get a minor). The exam period formally ends in a couple more days and then the final grades are due at i think the end of next week, so I won't find out officially what I got until then, but asit all stands I should wind up with an 87 overall grade (mostly brought down by my abysmal final exam which i took with a terrible migraine and got a full 67/100 on lol)

my exams are indeed all over, but only because my professors were nice enough to give all of them on a day that exams technically wern't even meant to be administered so I could get them done faster

[sad-fool-i-guess]

Woah look at the "it's nice yelling into a void" fool joining a venting community /silly

Anyways uhh how do I start a vent

One of my online besties (perhaps my best friend ever as well as my other bestie (we're a trio 🕶️)) said that they were going to kill themself at 20 years old

I know a lot of things can change in more than a year and it includes these thoughts they may have

But it still scares the hell out of me

They're perhaps the only reason I haven't gone insane

My parents don't seem to like me showing any sort of negative emotion, my older sister is horrible at comforting (subvent time waos, one of my birthdays I was crying my eyes out because my mom had gotten mad at my dad and we couldn't celebrate together for that and when she saw me crying she just backed away and closed the door, it's a fair reaction but it still hurts even though it was like 2 years ago) and my friends irl either treat my negative emotions as a joke or treat me as a soft uwu baby for showing them

I feel like I can only be completely real about my negative emotions with them

And if I found out that they killed themself

I'd honestly don't know what I do

One of my biggest emotional support people(????? Idk) would be gone

I think I'd lose it if they committed suicide

I'd go back to my 2023 self and be constantly annoyed and constantly avoid human interaction probably

It's a very scary thought

Man I really need to stop worrying so much about stupid things like that

[machabre]

Bryan just makes me miss rp'ing Adam Jensen for some reason

[iwieldthesword]

Okay but pivotally, none of these should be treated as proof that you have X condition because they're symptoms, not a diagnosis. A lot of symptoms have multiple things that can and do cause them, so while the information of "hey experiencing X is outside the norm" is very helpful, saying "if you experience X you obviously have Y" is not. If you experience a symptom that concerns you, seek medical help--don't let someone on the internet diagnose you because they don't have the full picture of you and your health the way a (good) medical professional will. And if you have a symptom and it doesn't bother you or interfere with your life, you don't need to tie yourself up in knots trying to diagnose yourself. Sometimes bodies are fucky, and if it doesn't bother you it's okay to just have it be a thing your body does.

I wish they taught a class on what being a normal human is like

Like, the normal amount of pain is zero. The normal amount of wishing you weren’t ever born is zero. Food isn’t supposed to itch or hurt*. Going numb (any time outside sitting in one position too long) isn’t normal. Passing out isn’t normal. Normal people take like 10-20 minutes to fall asleep, and sleep like 6-9 hours. You’re supposed to get one period a month, which is manageable with a few tampons or pads a day and lasts 3-6 days.

These are all things I had to find out later, like a moron.

(fibromyalgia, depression, allergies, cataplexy, narcolepsy, PCOS and endometriosis)

*spicy food is supposed to hurt?

[skautism]

ik i bitch about my dads side of the family regularly and they DESERVE it for all the traumatic bullshit in 2022 but my paternal grandpa is the only person on that side of the family who’s willing to go through ebay hell to get me games for outdated consoles and the good sonic plushies during christmas

[neverendingford]

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[red-hemlock]

What Kind Of Love Are You?

Love as Religion

Devotion, that is the name of your love. Your love is an act of worship. Your love is like witnessing the birth of Venus, like seeing the sun come alive, or the stars fall. When you love, it is because you have found God in a lover. You have found the meaning of life itself in the heart of the one you adore. They are everything to you; they are your Maker, and you are their lamb, their flock, their first and holiest worshipper. When you fall in love, it is as a baptism. You are born anew, made a believer in the divinity of the one you love most. Being loved by you is an ascension; it is holy and golden. It is all-consuming, and all-faithful, loyal as the dog. You will never, ever bite back.

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[flygonscales]

Playing Pokemon Mystery Dungeon DX now and I want this game to hurt me. I didn’t manage to finish explorers of darkness because my 3DS broke ( I was right up to Dialga too, I can’t think about it too much cause it’ll upset me, I was also up to the Shaggy in Mh4u and never beat him either) and I loved how that game wasn’t afraid of more frightening plot aspects. The whole time freezing thing, with the grey static world? Horrifying. The environment in the future? Chilling.

DX is cutesy like I’d expect at the moment but I know that it has something in there (plus I know about Gladion’s theme being a remix of something (run away? I think it was?) from red and blue rescue team). I want this story to hurt me so much. I don’t think it’ll get as dark and creepy as Explorers but I really hope there’s something.