#this is complete nonsense but no one follows me so meh

[the-gooftroop]

gonna be honest dont love that there is some kind of resurgence of like, children on this site demanding personal information or some kind of ‘proof’ from complete strangers on the internet before we’re allowed to like…make jokes about ourselves? that do not effect them at all? like who gives a fuck if someone doesn’t have a caard or whatever the fuck to reveal all the intimate details of their lives and medical histories. i don’t care if u wanna post ur whole ass social security number and ur biggest weaknesses or whatever but personally I enjoy my privacy AND my dumb gay little jokes about autism and the myriad of other ways ive been nerfed since conception and no one owes you an explanation or proof

[eleanor-bradstreet]

Hi! I love your blog and I like show!Ben very much. However I felt meh about his book, and Sophie while sweet, strong and deserving of respect seemed a little bit bland to me. It's fine and probably won't ruin the pleasure of following their story for me. The book and Cinderella themes was simply not my cup of tea, but they definitely will make some changes anyways. That all being said I want to very politely ask you to explain to me what's magic of this couple is for you?

Hello Nonny!

Thank you so much for your kind words and this truly thought provoking question! I have a long-winded answer 😜

I agree with you on many points: I am typically not one for fairytale romance/Cinderella tropes; I believe Benophie's book An Offer from a Gentleman has a TON of problems including making Sophie bland and helpless; and I am hopelessly in love with show!Ben.

As best I can describe it, Luke Thompson's show!Ben is the answer to everything. I love that character and find him to be 'magical' moreso than I do the coupling of Benophie and their story. I believe that he could have a captivating love story with literally anyone and anything. Show me his forbidden romance with a dustbin and I will eat it up 😅 He is just such a well-written and acted character (despite being rather bland and directionless in S3 IMO). He is always kind-hearted and emotionally intelligent (looking askance at dear Anthony). He is adventurous and funny, creative and romantic, and yet not a pushover. He still exudes masculinity and sexual intensity. He is, in my opinion, the complete package. There's nothing he can't do. That's why he's my favorite Bridgerton sibling and why I fell hopelessly in love with him.

His love story with Sophie came second for me. I watched the show first, fell in love with Ben and then read his book. And I nearly chucked it into a fire. In my opinion his book and and show versions are so wildly divergent they may as well be two different people. Book!Benedict's flaws are well documented - the misogyny, toxic manipulation, violence, flippancy, selfishness, on and on... And the plot itself had plenty I didn't like - Sophie was passive and hollow, the sex and romance was toxic, some plotlines were nonsensical, some exposition was lazy. But the skeleton of a grand love story was still there, to Julia Quinn's credit. And when I imagine show!Benedict dropped into that plotline, it has so much potential to be beautiful and as you say: magical.

At it's core, Benophie's love story is uncomplicated. Especially in comparison to the other Bridgerton siblings. So many of the stories center around couples fighting with and/or denying love of their spouses until a deus ex machina comes along and resets their perspective - literally Daphne, Anthony, Colin and Eloise and I havent read the last 3 books so I can only imagine the pattern may repeat 😅 And Benophie do fight over Sophie's hidden identity but it never undermines Benedict's love for her. It's tropey as hell but they fell in love at first sight and never stopped loving each other. It is the issue of class and society that creates complications for their marriage, not their own miscommunications and misunderstandings. To me, that makes their story the most compelling, with the most satisfying pay off.

There is also the visual and action-oriented aspect of their romance. Imagine the sparkling delight of a midnight masquerade. The cozy interior of a country cottage. A glimpse at the 'downstairs' world of servants within the ton. These are realms only Benophie's story dives into. And so much happens other than conversations and balls. A thwarted attack, a nighttime dash through the rain, nursing back to health, lakeside flirtation, sneaking around the Bridgerton household, a chase in the London streets, fight sequences in a jail. There is - A LOT going on to hold one's interest. (I beg of you to tell me one 'action' sequence Polin had other than Pen falling out of a carriage 😜)

Again, when I picture show!Ben in this plot (or something similarly adapted) I am so frickin excited to see Luke Thompson blow us all away with his performance. I also hold out hope that Sophie can be fleshed out and given more agency as a character in the show. Her profile is starkly different from any of the other Bridgerton spouses, growing up cast into the servant class. It's important to expanding the world to show how people outside of the ton lived in this era and she is our vehicle to do that.

So while I fully acknowledge the story is modeled on the tired Cinderella trope, if I stop thinking about it as a paint-by-numbers fairytale, and cast the leads as show!Ben and a dynamically written Sophie, I see a story with immense potential to entertain, full of passion, perseverance, social struggle, action and unwavering love. Yeah, love-at-first-sight is cheesy in theory, but in the world of Bridgerton with show!Benedict waiting for us at a sparkling silver-themed masquerade? I think we're all going to fall irrevocably in love on sight 😉 That's the promise the show holds and I keep my fingers crossed they deliver.

(But just in case they don't, or if anyone is curious on my 'fixes' to the book, I am rewriting it in my fic Let Me Be Your Anchor which I am working to finish soon. The whole idea is plopping show!Ben into the book story and giving Sophie more to do.)

Thank you again for this ask! Sorry for the tome - I had a lot of fun answering 😅💙

[spevvy]

One of my occasionally-visited special interests (fellow autistic followers will totally get this—yknow the ones you keep in the locker and bust out when you're feeling a particular kind of way or you're getting the dopamine itch for the nostalgia of an era you never experienced and frankly would never want to experience??) is the history of the Mafia. Pretty sure I picked this one up from my Dad who was a murder mystery/western aficionado through and through but had that little tiny part of him that bloody loved a gangster film (no pun intended). Anyway I've been bingeing Boardwalk Empire the last few days and I've fallen down the rabbit hole again...

Gotta preface this by saying my nerves alone would never let me be around that whole scene in real life, let alone back in the day during the bootlegging and all that lot. I have no hidden desire to be a gangster's moll or anywhere in that kinda circle, not even especially from a morality perspective, just from a "my guys I don't wanna be sitting around my house fretting about who's gonna kill me in horrible ways" perspective. I just find the entire premise both fascinating and unintentionally hilarious.

The thing I find most fascinating about the Mafia is how absolutely absurd it is, and frankly the absurdity of it all is probably how it took the best part of 100 years before anyone properly unmasked them to the world. I mean really.

There are a massive bunch of these utterly amoral human beings who commit UNSPEAKABLY HEINOUS crimes and they've all got nicknames like "Lucky" and "Needle Nose" and "Bugsy" and "Babyface". MEYER LANSKY WAS CALLED "THE BRAIN", IF THEY HAD A GUY IN THE GANG CALLED "PINKY" THEN THEY WOULD BE A LITERAL CARTOON.

When they go to war with other families, the wars are called completely incongruous things like "The Slot Machine War" and "The Porn War". This just sounds like a falling out between a group of teenagers over what they should spend their pooled allowance on.

Also who was the first one who was like "yknow what, lads, if we're gonna get anywhere as criminal overlords, we've got to get ourselves ORGANISED. Crime is nothing without a decent hierarchy system—just look at the Church!! #satire" Just the very term organised crime feels like a complete misnomer. "We're gonna get into extortion and racketeering and prostitution and bootlegging but HEAVEN HELP YOU IF YOU MISFILE ANYTHING OR WRITE SOMETHING IN THE WRONG DIARY SLOT!!! A GOOD CRIME IS AN ORGANISED CRIME!!!!!" This is the best argument for the initial Mafia bosses being neurodivergent I can possibly imagine.

And the most unequivocally nonsense thing about it all is that, up until the 50s, the Mafia was like a ghost story, nobody really knew for sure that it existed, it was as much mythology and folklore as real actual evidence of its existence. But then when it came out that it was a thing, the entire US government kinda went "meh yknow what, just leave em, it'd be too much effort to get rid of the lot of em at once. Just yknow, stamp hard on some bits so we look like we're making an effort"—and now EVERYONE KNOWS WHO THEY ARE!!! Everyone knows what the families are called, who's in charge, names and faces and everything, who does what, and they're all just like "lol yeah we're the Mafia you can't catch us teeheehee" and they still all have ridiculous nicknames like Jaws and Fingers. They have videogames and books and TV documentaries about themselves and everything, the brazen DNGAF-ery is absolutely astonishing.

Like legit if you wrote this out as a fictional story of a load of destitute (potentially ND, don't forget you need the creativity, attention to detail and organisational skills of the neurodivergent community to get this thing off the ground!) immigrants hopping a ship to a country on the other side of the world, who end up ostensibly taking over the entire national government and law enforcement with absolutely no fear of retribution or capture and the guys in charge are a bunch of little old men smoking cigars on the golf course calling each other Bug Eyes and Smiler—and in some sort of peculiar way, no matter what horrific things they do, they never really come across as the bad guys but just as some loveable rogues keeping one step ahead of the law... well. NGL but it would sound COMPLETELY LUDICROUS, nobody in their right mind would publish it.

It's unbelievable. It's genius. It's like rubbernecking a car crash, you don't wanna know but you can't help but gawp. I mean seriously, fair play lads. You're all completely dreadful, but you do it with pizzazz. Meanwhile, I can't even be a little bit cold to someone who is actively being rude to me without losing sleep for a week because of the levels of guilt involved in case everyone hates me. 👀🤦🏻‍♀️

[blundergato]

spoilers for the acolyte, if you care about that sort of thing.

the acolyte hovers around being dull to relatively average until manny jacinto comes in and starts killing everyone.

im not really a big star wars person anymore, but the jedi have always been really corny and this show does a really good job in showing that.

although one thing that plagues both the jedi and the sith in this show is to constantly read out the most shallow of pseudo-philosophical phrases. it never sounds good and it always makes my eye twitch. i know this is what star wars thinks monks are like in real life, but geezus.

the fights are pretty good though, especially in the latter half. they are creative and have some fun use of weapons. the biggest issue with them is that they are shot in dark environments which just makes it more annoying to follow.

most of the characters, specifically on the jedi side, are completely unlikable losers. luckily most of them get murked, so i actually don't have to deal with them anymore, which is good.

amandla stenberg plays two twin sister characters, one good and one bad. their good twin character, osha, is the definition of lame. she feels like cyclops when cyclops is written badly. a total boring narc of a character. now the evil twin, mae, is WAY cooler, i think because the dark side is just written more fun and they actually do stuff, while the jedi just stand around uttering cornball philosophy and being cops.

manny jacinto is the true star when he finally appears, though im biased because he killed almost everyone i didn't like, which is awesome. he suffers from saying some of the most nonsensical philosophical lines though.

everything else is pretty meh. the character designs are pretty underwhelming for the most part. the amount of swipes they use for scene transitions is ridiculous.

i see that people are review bombing this show because its "woke" aka it has people of color, women and non-binary people in the leading roles, though im quite certain most people complaining about this show are not aware of that last point and are just angry because they are perceiving a black woman in a leading role.

i read some of their reviews, and they are pretty stupid. they are trying to argue in bad faith that this show is somehow ruining the sanctity of a series that has AT MOST 3.5 good movies out of 9 mainline films and a bunch of complete dogwater offshoot films. i see people now coming out to defend things that were previously hated, like midochlorians. people mad that the jedi are cop-like (they always have been). just a bunch of nonsense.

don't get me wrong, there is a lot wrong with the show. but these people are either not complaining about any of that or kind of just brush by those issues to complain about seeing black people. the show is so average, that i wonder why these people waste their energy to review bomb it, but i don't really wonder that because i know being bigots gives them the energy to waste time on nothing.

anyways, the acolyte? more like the wackolyte.

[thoughtsaladblog]

Foolish One...

It's one of those days when you kinda wonder about your life. I mean ok, in my case I wonder that quite often, but it's a little stronger today. The other day I took a trip down memory lane and much to my chagrin I realised I may have been a bit more fast and loose with my life than I'd realised- and let me tell you...It didn't feel good. Suddenly images of hellfire loomed in front of me. Despite my constant quips about dying at 35- I realise that that may not be to my benefit, given my promiscuity.

Honestly, when it comes to random moments of everyday life, I take pride in my openness and somewhat carefree approach when it comes to love and sex- God knows, it took some pretty brutal batterings and scars to get there. I dare not let a man break me like that ever again. And yet, I am human, and I crave love and an intimate connection.

In the last few days, I've been feeling all kinds of frisky- that time of the month of course- but simultaneously I've craved a partner with whom I could simply sit and talk, or just make-out. Yep- you read that right. Make-out. I may be associating teenagers too much, because I thought I was over this nonsense. But here we are...

Anyway, looking into my life I searched for someone I could have that with and could find no one. None of the guys I know could possibly provide the kind of connection I seek- they barely manage to give me what I'm expecting in terms of sex- if they manage to do so at all. Speaking of which, Numb3rs (yes, he resurfaced) and I hooked up last night. It was Meh. I mean, the man's got potential, but I feel like he was trying to do a lot at once and didn't quite pull through in anything because of it. But more importantly- talk about selfish in bed. Dude came, turned over, said he's recovering and dozed off. Le Fuq??! Ummm... still here bro.. this is a two way street. *insert exasperated eyeroll*

And of course what followed was his usual hit it and quit it- the guy woke up at 4.30 and booked a cab back home. He might as well start leaving some money on the bedside table at this rate. And of course, because my dumbass is always drawn to the toxic motherfuckers, I'm fighting back my compulsion to think about him or feel things for him. It's a tough battle- coz I'm attracted to the dude. Don't ask me why- there's no rational reason other than the fact that I'm a lunatic who is just attracted to smart people and the fucker is smart. Feeling about as ridiculous Deepika in "New Year's Eve" at this point. But yes, I need to stop thinking or expecting anything- for the sake of my mental health. Coz foolish one, he was never interested.

But moving on from that... at the expense of sounding repetitive- yes, I went through some of my past posts...I get it, I really need to get a life instead of playing the same old broken record. Buuuut to continue... I'm starting to feel shamed of my promiscuous life and frankly could do with a stable relationship- if those exist. And maybe at this point stop collecting more sins of adultery to an already mile-long list...

I mean it been 31 years... Frankly even I'm judging myself at this point for being unable to lock down some poor soul.

And on a completely different note- I probably ought to re-read the few sensible "enlightened" posts form this blog and get some focus to my life instead of meandering through it. Might lead to less whining- and less repetitive posts.

All in good time, my dear.

K byeeee.

[liaromancewriter]

Change in Circumstance

Premise: When a pregnant Cassie is not feeling like herself, Ethan tries his best to bring her sparkle back leading to a heart to heart about what’s next for them.

Book: Open Heart

Pairing: Ethan Ramsey x F!MC (Cassie Valentine)

Rating: Mature

Category: Some angst, some fluff (it's a real mixed bag of emotions)

Trope: Pregnancy

Words: 865

A/N: This started as a bit of nonsense because I missed writing for my OTP, Cassie and Ethan. And then it went in a completely different direction. I’m using this week’s @wackydrabbles prompt, “Why should I believe you?” which will appear in bold.

The light from a full moon shone down on the wrecked bed, covers thrown onto the floor, and the two people lying facing each other. Their hands were laced together, as was often the case, resting in the tiny space between their cooling bodies.

Their eyes, languid from sated desire, remained on each other as they waited for their heartbeats to slowly come down from the high of a few moments ago.

“Well?” asked the man once he’d caught his breath. “Was it as good as the first time?”

“Meh,” responded his companion with seriousness before her laughter broke through at the disgruntled look on his face.

“What’s the matter, Dr. Ramsey?” teased Cassie. “Afraid you’ve lost your touch being a married man?”

“Quite the contrary,” quipped Ethan, running their enjoined hands slowly down the valley between her breasts.

Her breath hitched as his thumb brushed her nipples before continuing its leisurely path below, gently passing over the baby bump and leaving nerve endings in its wake. She mewled as the desire she thought had been slaked woke anew.

“I can’t,” she pleaded.

“Why should I believe you?”

Just then, he felt two swift movements followed by another against the hand resting on her belly.

“Because your children seem to think that’s enough shenanigans for tonight,” she told him, smiling despite the discomfort from the kicks.

“Do you still think you’re fat, ugly and undesirable?”

Cassie closed her eyes as she pondered the question. As a doctor, she knew all about pregnancy hormones and mood swings. As an expectant mother, none of that mattered. She felt what she felt.

“Yes,” she said, “and no.”

“Want to talk about it?” asked Ethan, sitting up to rest against the headrest. He helped Cassie up, reaching down for the covers when he felt her shiver.

“It’s hard to explain, but when I see myself in the mirror these days, I don’t see me anymore,” she told him, nestling into his shoulder. Her head rested on his chest, taking comfort from the steady beat of his heart.

“Who do you see?” he asked when she didn’t continue.

“Not Doctor Cassie Valentine.”

“You know you’re more than your profession, right?” he said gently. “It’s the one important lesson you taught me at the start of our relationship. We’re more than how others see us. And what we are to each other goes beyond the reason we first met.”

“I know it intellectually, but I’m so afraid of what’s coming,” she admitted. “Of losing my identity and becoming someone else. I don’t know how to be anyone other than who I am now.”

Ethan stayed quiet, turning her words over in his mind as his hand absently brushed up and down her back.

“I feel the same,” he said softly as he gave voice to his true feelings. “You know how difficult it was for me, given my childhood, to even contemplate fatherhood. Before you, I was convinced that all I would ever be in life is Doctor Ethan Ramsey, Diagnostician. Not a boyfriend or a husband, and certainly not a father.”

Cassie changed positions until she was straddling his lap, as much as her pregnant belly would allow; her eyes locked on his. She reached for his hand, giving it a light squeeze, and waited for him to continue.

“But you made me see what was possible if only I’d let myself want it to. Even then I knew, I could only ever be that person with you because with you the future was limitless. Our love was inevitable.”

He paused.

“I’m ready for what’s next because on the other side of every fear is my love for you and our possibilities. So, whenever I think I’m losing who Doctor Ethan Jo–“

“Freaking,” she interrupted with a smirk.

“– Jonah Ramsey,” he continued with a smile, “I remember that I’m your Ethan first and always will be. And you’ll always be my Cassie first. Everything else is secondary to that.”

“I want to be your first and always, I do, but our children,” she stopped to collect her thoughts. “Our children will change that. They will have to come first.”

“Of course, love,” he countered. “But they’re half you, half me. So, the sentiment doesn’t change, only the circumstances. They’re a part of who we are to each other.”

“Hmm,” she murmured, shifting to lay down against him, her hand resting on his heart. “Half and half of you and me, huh? Not sure how poetic that is.”

“As I’ve told you before, Rookie,” he said with great affront. “I’m a doctor not a poet.”

“Not so sure about that,” she grinned. “What you do with your tongue is pure poetry.”

“Yeah?” he raised an eyebrow when she leered at him.

“I might need more convincing,” she responded, stretching out on the space beside him, legs falling open. “So, if you were feeling poetic, I certainly won’t complain.”

“The things I do for my art,” he griped as her laughter rang out across the room.

And then Dr. Ethan Ramsey proceeded to show Dr. Cassie Valentine just how much he enjoyed poetry. Not that she was complaining.

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[feuqueerfire]

Feu’s March 2022 BL/GL Wrap-up

A little monthly wrap-up of all the shows I’ve watched or am watching in March 2022, general thoughts, ranking of them all.

Recommendation of the month: 

A First Love Story Part 1 and Part 2 were just so charming! They managed to get me to care about the characters and relationship in so little time. Also, if you liked the honorifics in Semantic Error, this one also plays with it just a bit. 

Ranking

Not Me 

Semantic Error

A First Love Story

Just Friends? 

Color Rush = TharnType S1 = Second Chance = What Happened Last Night?

The Tasty Florida = One Last Order = Tinted With You = TharnType Special: Our Final Love = Y-Destiny: Wednesday (Kaeng & Puth) = Happy to Have You Here

Behind Cut = TharnType 2 Special: The Wedding Day

Not Ranked: The random Korean GL (but non-GL) clips and scenes I watched on Youtube.

Completely Watched

The Tasty Florida

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Sep 24, 2021 - Oct 15, 2021

Dates Watched: Mar 5, 2022

Rating: 5/10

Watched Via: Viki (free with VPN in France)

General Thoughts: I didn't watch anything for the first few days of March because I was very much in a Bad Buddy fic reading/show rewatching/Ohmnanon mood. Glad I got my Bad Buddy fix out of the way before starting this because otherwise I would've 100% just been thinking bout how I'd rather be watching BBS. It started off very meh for me but got better as it went along because I was invested in the conflict between the friends, more than I thought I would be. None of the characters or storylines really captured me, so I doubt I'll be thinking of this again but it was a fine watch just for the sake of watching. I wish it had Korean subs on Viki though, seeing as Korean practice was my main reason for watching and I hardly got that lol

Also Mentioned In: The Tasty Florida Live Blogging

Behind Cut

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Dec 28, 2021 - Jan 19, 2022

Dates Watched: Mar 6 - 7, 2022

Rating: 4.5/10

Watched Via: Viki (free with VPN in France)

General Thoughts: I knew people liked it and then really disliked it because the ending was messy and... yeah. Utter nonsense, nothing makes sense. Made me miss Bad Buddy where the characters are fully realized and stays true to themselves and although not every single loose thread is always tied up or followed through with, there was nothing so glaring. The father son interactions were great though.

Also Mentioned In: Behind Cut Live Blogging, Anticipated 2022 Releases

One Last Order

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Mar 30, 2019

Dates Watched: Mar 7, 2022

Rating: 5/10 but that’s good considering the study production and short runtime

Watched Via: Youtube (Free)

General Thoughts: Created by some university students, so it has a certain amateur charm to it. I liked hearing Bol4 playing in the cafe lol. Well done on the second-hand embarrassment scene, it was awkward and embarrassing without being over the top. I hope the cheerful server girl lives the best life and also has a girlfriend, she’s so endearing. Anyway, cute concept, endearing story, made use of its short runtime; won’t leave any impact on me though and I didn’t really expect it to. 

Color Rush

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Dec 30, 2020 - Jan 21, 2021

Dates Watched: Mar 8 - 9, 2022

Rating: 5.5/10

Watched Via: Viki (free)

General Thoughts: Probably the best of what I’ve watched this month thus far but that isn’t saying much at all. I keep watching these bad-mediocre shows hoping for Korean practice but I’m barely getting much practice I feel like lol. Unique premise, wish they’d actually solved the mystery they set up from the very beginning, didn’t like Yoo Han the love interest’s acting and so the romance felt stilted as well, liked the main character Yeon Woo. Probably gonna read a summary and some opinions on Colour Rush Season 2 but not actually watch it.

Also Mentioned In: Color Rush Live Blogging

Just Friends?

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Dec 17, 2009

Dates Watched: Mar 9, 2022

Rating: 6/10, so wish this was longer than 25 mins

Watched Via: :>

General Thoughts: This was supposed to be just thoughts but turned into a full reaction thing lol. 

I don’t really watch old shows or movies (especially not queer ones... sad endings galore), so this was new for me. Had to search up whether this had a happy ending beforehand.

Many BLs fall into either: choose to not focus on homophobia at all or have a very homophobic family as an obstacle. This one is interesting because it is definitely set in a homophobic society and they have to navigate that but it’s not a tragic story due to it; there’s still hope and happiness in the midst of all the homophobia. It kind of reminds me of Aof’s works like He’s Coming to Me or Dark Blue Kiss, where homophobia is a thing but we get to see happiness and acceptance in that. 

The lady from the bus glancing away because she’s realized Seok Yi likes men was heartbreaking but it was followed by the funny scene with them lying down with the mom with face masks on; I liked the juxtaposition and the tone shift was natural.

How are they so daring?! Minsu kissing Seok Yi’s cheek while his mom is sleeping literally 2 feet away, they have Me stressed. Scratch that, Minsu’s unbuttoning Seok Yi’s shirt ??!?!?! And tryna give each other handies??!?! Where are your self-preservation skills. Anyway, at least they didn’t get found out there.

It’s funny how incredibly tame and chaste the recent kBL webdramas are but then you have this 30 minute thing or Long Time No See which are quite explicit? Like this is startlingly explicit, I wasn’t expecting it 

Oh... my god, the mom. i let out a guttural scream.

the woman from the bus crying because her long term boyfriend who she loves is gay and being like “today, i hate being a woman” and Seok Yi being like “i hate being a man” because of the homophobia and me sitting there like wow gender

This song to his mom... everything to me. The apology for being this way and disappointing his mom but still being like well, even though I’m sorry, I’ll still continue to like men. It’s not like the “well, idgaf what you say or who you are i’ll cut you off and live my life” because I can’t identify with that nor want that but rather a quieter defiance where it’s like “I know this isn’t what you wanted from me and I’m sorry but I’ll continue to be me” that I wish I was more like.

Anyway, this turned out quite long but all in all, quite enjoyed it. Very much wish I could see it in with better quality because this was like watching it through a potato; alas, I can’t afford that right now.

Interlude: Korean GL non-GL Clips on Youtube (March 9)

Okay this is a lie, these aren’t GL clips. They’re just clips from Korean shows where, if they were brave or loved me, they would’ve given us GL. Desperation is watching girls with terrible friendships that border on being obsessive and controlling due to their intensity and choosing to interpret them as being in love lol

She Falls for a Princess Disguised as Crown Prince Lee | The King’s Affection: Makes me want a Nobleman Ruy’s Wedding type GL; I wouldn’t even care if it’s mediocre like I’m out here living on crumbs bro

Everybody loves the bad girl in school...but she's mine. | Sweet Revenge 2: I can so clearly see this kinda being like a Light On Me but GL T.T like maybe you first root for Rokhee/Hani because of how cute they are (We even got a fucking shoe putting on scene - I love my shoe lace tying scenes like no other) but progressively you realize they’re not right for each other. Then the Rokhee/Jina storyline, though we didn’t get to see much of their interactions in this cut. Anyway in my head they’re all sapphic and have feelings for each other.

Yuna x Nari | The World Of My 17: You’re telling me they aren’t dating? That they don’t have feelings for each other? That Yuna isn’t madly in love with Nari and hasn’t been for years? asldkfjaslkdfj I’ve sat through so many m/m and m/f shows with the controlling, toxic male pursuer ummmmm what about this codependent, controlling female pursuer huh ! lmao

집착 심한 친구 (Obsessive Friend): “너 친구들하고도 뽀뽀해?” “아니 친구하고 뽀뽀를 어떻게 헤?!” “그럼 나는?” “넌 다르지!” girl you’re telling me this “do you kiss your friends too?” “No! how do you kiss a friend?” “Then me?” “You’re different!” convo is just completely platonic from the friend’s side? Other people also think they’re dating! Give me unsustainable, unstable codependent girls!!! I can’t believe we got the societal homophobia without even the homosexuality!! 

These have so many views too, 400k, 1.4M, 970k, 4M in order like please T.T some spare GL? 

Semantic Error

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Feb 16, 2022 - Mar 10, 2022

Dates Watched: Mar 10 - 12, 2022

Rating: 7/10 7.5/10 [Aug 20, 2022 Update: Increased by 0.5 stars when rerating my top BLs]

Watched Via: Viki and :>

General Thoughts: Thoroughly enjoyed it! Very strong characterization for the two main characters, as well as Yuna (love that she’s sapphic) and Ji Hye. The progression of the story and Sang Woo and Jae Young's relationship made sense. The acting was good, as well. It was clear that the creators had talent, budget and thought all poured into this project. Episode 7 was my favourite; wish the last episode didn’t have 20 minutes of unnecessary angst and separation so that we could enjoy them together instead but oh, well, I guess. Tied with Light On Me for favourite kBL and definitely one of my favourite BLs in general. Would love a season 2 but it’d be like 2+ years later if it ever happens and who knows if I’d even be this into watching shows then since I flit from fandom to fandom.  

tags: #semantic error

Also Mentioned In: Semantic Error Live Blogging,  Anticipated 2022 Releases

A First Love Story

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Aug 27, 2021 - Sep 15, 2021

Dates Watched: Mar 13, 2022

Rating: 6.5/10

Watched Via: Strongberry Youtube (Free)

General Thoughts: A bit nervous starting this because I enjoyed Semantic Error so much and obviously the budget and team behind that one is so much bigger than this short but this short and sweet thing definitely held its own. Very charming.

Pt 1: As I’ve mentioned many times in the Semantic Error Live Blogging post, I am but a lover of honorifics and formalities, so Min Gyu calling Jae Sung hyung constantly and then the consequences of calling him ya! once is very great and lovely to me. Min Gyu calls him hyung but uses the lowest form of formality (no -yo endings) and I think that’s how most friends speak (from my kpop knowledge lol) so it was interesting that in Semantic Error Sang Woo kept the -yo endings with Jae Young even when they were dating. Anyway, it was so cute T.T I understood about 75% because I was watching with korean subs and then switching to french subs if I didn’t understand but I’ll rewatch with eng subs after watching pt 2 to better understand.

Pt 2: I understood like only 40% of the stuff being said since I didn’t get to pause to understand the meaning because I wanted to finish watching before a meeting lol but regardless it’s just so Cute !! and endearing !! I love established relationships and ease and comfort and teasing and long standing friendships and just T.T The teasing during the intimate scene was also very endearing. Time to rewatch with English subs!

Overall, it’s so short (less than 15 minutes total) but I’m impressed by how they’ve managed to create the story, characters and relationship around the time constraints. 

Note: I’d been planning to watch Not Me after finishing Semantic Error but I just don’t think I can? First of all, it’s 14 episodes and if I’m not able to limit myself to 1-2 episodes a day, I’ll be screwed since I have so many school deadlines. Second, I don’t think I can follow up a really good BL with another what I’m hoping is a really good BL lol. After Bad Buddy, I watched many kinda bad - mediocre - good BLs and when I finally watched Semantic Error (a great BL), I could actually get attached to the story and characters because I wasn’t hung up on Bad Buddy or Pat/Pran. So I guess... I’ll get a few more shorter, possibly mediocre, shows off my backlist before I try Not Me? I’m just impressed by the fact that I haven’t really been spoiled for Not Me yet beyond just knowing some basic plot points, so I hope that continues even after the last episode is out.

Tinted With You

Country: South Korea

Release Dates: Dec 23, 2021 - Jan 14, 2022

Dates Watched: Mar 14, 2022

Rating: 5/10

Watched Via: Viki Movie Version (free with VPN)

General Thoughts: Very mediocre, which I expected but it started out more endearing than I thought (+ I saw a gifset of the ending scene so in my head it was OT3 from the start, + someone ranked it 2nd favourite kBL), so I was hoping I would like it more. If a show is mostly slice of life, you have to care about the characters but I didn't care. If it's high concept, the plot and narrative have to be strong but they weren't. Also, I wish they had fewer crying/emotional scenes because I don't think any of the actors can naturally pull it off. Nothing was terribly wrong but nothing was very good, either. Doubt I'll think about this again.

tags: tinted with you

Also Appears In: Tinted With You Live Blogging,  Anticipated 2022 Releases

Not Me

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Dec 12, 2021 - Mar 20, 2022

Dates Watched: Mar 15 - 21, 2022

Rating: 7.5/10 8/10 8.5/10 8/10 [Aug 20, 2022 Update: Increased by 0.5 stars when rerating my top BLs] [Oct 29, 2022 Update: Increased by 0.5 stars when rerating my top BLs] [Jan 25, 2024 Update: Decreased by 0.5 stars when rerating my top shows: 8.5 -> 8]

Watched Via: GMMTV Youtube

General Thoughts: I'd been wanting to watch it for so long that I just started it during the week between episode 13 and 14 even if it was a busy week rip. I wrote so much in my Live Blogging and Review because this made me feel so many things, get so invested in the relationship and characters. Even wrote a ToddBlack fic that's also a Black character study. The Full Review gets into my full feelings.

tags: not me, seanwhite, danyok, toddblack, gramblack

Also Mentioned In: Anticipated 2022 Releases, Not Me Live Blogging: Episodes 1 - 5, Episodes 6 - 10, Episodes 11 - 14 + Full Review, fic: Let’s Drink The Best Wine Now

TharnType

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Oct 7, 2019 - Jan 6, 2020

Dates Watched: Mar 25 - 27, 2022

Rating: 5.5/10

Watched Via: Viki (Free)

General Thoughts: Did not enjoy it until I did, lol. I wish the first 4 episodes didn’t have so much noncon/dubcon from Tharn to Type but I went into it knowing that it well, so I just skipped a lot of it. I also thought everything was so awkward at first but the interactions between Tharn and Type did gradually get better and were cute at time as the show progressed and they started dating. I wish the actors were better at acting because there were so many heavy, emotional, intense scenes.

Don’t think I’ll watch Season 2 because people don’t tend to like it but will watch the specials.

tags: tharntype

Also Mentioned In: TharnType Live Blogging

TharnType Special: Our Final Love

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Jan 19, 2020

Dates Watched: Mar 27, 2022

Rating: 5/10

Watched Via: Viki (Free)

General Thoughts: Sure, cute, whatever. I wish it didn’t spend any time with Lhong because what. Domesticity is my favourite thing ever, so it delivered on that front, even though other parts were irritating. Made me think about how I feel about the husband/wife trope (in the live blogging).

tags: tharntype

Also Mentioned In: TharnType Live Blogging

TharnType 2 Special: The Wedding Day

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Feb 13, 2021

Dates Watched: Mar 27, 2022

Rating: 4.5/10

Watched Via: :>

General Thoughts: Cute, sure, didn’t really care. Don’t really care for weddings, either in real life or fiction. Tharn and Type were fine.

tags: tharntype

Also Mentioned In: TharnType Live Blogging

Second Chance

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Mar 29, 2021 - May 3, 2021

Dates Watched: Mar 28 - 29, 2022

Rating: 5.5/10

Watched Via: Viki (Free)

General Thoughts: The writing and timeline and flow of scenes were weird. Weak in terms of coherency. I liked the acting enough and thought the honesty and earnestness of the story pulled through even though the writing had other weak points. Paper and Tong Fah started off fairly strong for me with the best friend dynamics,  the tenderness, the heartbreak of rejection but then got very meh and boring once Tong Fah landed in the hospital. Chris and Jeno started off cute enough for me but then I started really liking them. The effects of Jeno being hounded by his abusive ex has on his general life (learning Muay Thai) and his outlook on relationships (not wanting to be hurt again, not wanting anything public) were briefly touched upon and I enjoyed that. Overall, I wasn't ever super invested but it wasn't like totally boring; it had weaknesses but strengths as well.

tags: second chance the series

Also Mentioned In: Second Chance Live Blogging

Y-Destiny Episodes 9 & 10 (Kaeng & Puth)

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Mar 30, 2021 - Jul 6, 2021

Dates Watched: Mar 30, 2022

Rating: 5/10

Watched Via: :>

General Thoughts: I really liked it at the beginning (I liked Kaeng, I liked that they both slept around, I liked that the nsfw scenes weren’t awkward, I liked their chemistry/ease) but they dragged out the love triangle for too long. Puth and Puya had more cute moments than Kaeng and Puth did because KaengPuth mostly just had sexy moments. Them having nsfw scenes is fine because they started off being fuck buddies, after all, but the show didn't spend time developing their relationship outside of sex, so it falls a little flat. They definitely shouldn't have had Puth dating Puya for this long.

Special: Uh... okay, sure. 

Also Mentioned In: Y-Destiny Ep 9 - 10 Live Blogging

Happy to Have You Here��(GL Short)

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Feb 5, 2021

Dates Watched: Mar 31, 2022

Rating: 5/10

Watched Via: SHAKESHOULDER FILMMAKER Youtube 

General Thoughts: Short and sweet, didn’t realize that this was an ad at first lol

What Happened Last Night? (GL Short - Part 10 of Nadao Quarantine Stories)

Country: Thailand

Release Dates: Jun 9, 2020

Dates Watched: Mar 31, 2022

Rating: 5.5/10

Watched Via: Nadao Bangkok Youtube

Reactions: I love the friend group, how they’re all discussing Pam’s problems and listening to each other but also teasing and clearly seem close. 

 T.T “What if one day you get kicked out for being with her but it doesn’t work out with her? Would you still be her friend?” 

umm the way they’re talking about how they weren’t quiet last night umm did they do things other than kissing

Pam and Kwang are so giggly and shy >.<

hellloooo Kwang dying in the game and Pam avenging her 

Overall, very cute and really had you invested in the characters/relationship/friend group despite the short run time.

Currently Watching

Nothing because every time I wanted to start something these past 2 days, I was like I’m wont be able to finish it by end of March, so I didn’t start it. I don’t know how I’m planning on starting Cupid’s Last Wish and KinnPorsche and having to roll them over for like 4 months if I can’t even do this, so good luck to me lol

April Plans

On-Air

Cupid’s Last Wish - I’ll try to watch it week to week but... might end up binging the released Disney+ Hotstar version

If I feel like I’m succeeding in watching Cupid’s Last Wish week-to-week, I’ll start KinnPorsche either on the 30th after my exams are done or in May

Binge

Cause You’re My Boy - I’ve been meaning to start this for a few weeks, hope the time has finally come. This is first on the list for April

I like to divide up my shows by country for immersive purposes, since it’s easier to catch context and nuance if you’re watching the same country’s content back to back. The problem with that is I want the next country after I finish Cause You’re My Boy and start Cupid’s Last Wish is Japan BUT I’m really looking forward to Blueming now... so maybe Korean? Or might just take a little detour, watching only Blueming and veer into Japan? Anyway here’s my list for Japan

Kei x Yuko - I know it’s a bromance but I might enjoy it regardless because people said it’s domestic. I’ll just think of it as them dating.

A Man Who Defies the World of BL Season 1 and Season 2 - seems hilarious, short, free on Viki.

We Are Both The Grooms - I hope I’m able to find English subs for this because it seems like a blend of humour and more realism, looking forward to it.

And for Korea

Blueming

2-3 Viki Series (Wish You, Kissable Lips, First Love Again, Cherry Blossoms After Winter)

The Handmaiden

Continue watching the Korean GL shorts or like compilations from different shows that are non-GL but seem GL

[elpercotreviews]

All Time Favorite Mangas Part 1 (completed only)

Gonna be talking about my all time favorite mangas. I know I said I'd talk about shoujos but I haven't read a lot of shoujos recently tbh. Also I'm only going to be talking specifically about mangas that are COMPLETED IN ENGLISH, whether that's through a fan translation or a legit American publication. And I need to make this discrepancy because there's a ton of manga that I really enjoy that are not completed yet, but if you follow this blog at all, you're well aware of how much an ending can affect my opinion of something 🥲 So yeah, as such completed manga only.

Also as always this list is just in alphabetical order, not in order of what I like least/most etc, I'm not really gonna be talking about one over the other, especially since the genres of all the things I'm gonna mention are pretty different.

Also sorry if I talk very vaguely about any of the mangas. Since I'm only going to be talking about completed mangas, almost all of them are gonna be stuff I've haven't read in years. But at the same time, I guess that proves they're really good since I still consider them my favorites bwahaha.

Also sorry that this is once again a PERSONAL OPINION OF FAVORITES. I'm not really grading any of the manga by any sort of objective scale because I've avoided almost any SUPER mainstream manga. If you enjoy and read a lot of manga, you'll definitely recognize the stuff I'm gonna mention, but you'll also definitely notice a lack of stuff like FMA, SnK, etc. This is cuz I typically don't double dip for the super mainstream popular stuff. For example, Demon Slayer. I know this is gonna sound crazy but I quit Demon Slayer right away when the first few chapters came out back in 2016 . I didn't actively dislike the story but I just wasn't invested enough to keep reading. And here we are years later, a total Demon Slayer fan boy. But because of it, I'm probably gonna stick to the anime adaption since clearly it captivated me much more. The opposite is true for Vinland saga. I loved the manga, but the anime felt meh for me at first so I avoided watching it for months. Only after committing to finishing the season, did I find myself enjoying the anime lol.

AND THIS IS ONLY GONNA BE PART 1, CUZ I HAVE 15 TO TALK ABOUT. And it’s literally taken me I think a MONTH to write this cuz I’ve been so busy with school and life omg.

SORRY LONG INTRO OOPS

1. Alice in Borderland

Yes, yes I know this has a live action netflix adaption, and I heard the netflix adaptation is pretty good but I've yet to watch it oops sorry. IVE ALSO NOT SEEN SQUID GAME AS OF ME TYPING THIS I KNOW. I'm not a big fan of the death game genre as of now, as it's slowly becoming the isekai of the seinen world, but I read Alice in Borderland way before I even knew that like death games were a genre to begin with haha. The games in the manga were pretty good and unique. The characters were obviously intentionally not all meant to be likeable, but they were believable characters. Arisu as a main character was surprisingly not a boring blank slate, which is a curse of the isekai and i guess now the death game genre too. I found his development and character change throughout the manga to be interesting. His love interest was also interesting and I'm glad she was someone more than "the main character's girl" especially because they were not immediately established together. The ending of the manga was zany and nonsensical in the way that I enjoy, like I said before, I don't mind plot holes haha. Overall just a really satisfying and interesting manga in the death game genre that doesn't feel generic or anything. Maybe I'll watch the netflix adaptation idk, I still gotta watch Squid Game and Hometown Cha Cha Cha lmaoooo.

2. Assassination Classroom

I did actually watch the ENTIRE anime series for this one lolol. The anime was a pretty faithful adaptation of the manga and it was nice hearing the voice actors and actually getting to hear all the comedy bits and gags. I think Assassination Classroom is a very good example of just a nice, basic shounen manga that checks all the marks, ya know what I mean? There's action, hints of romance, a ton of comedy, all that. It's a fun manga that doesn't take itself TOO seriously but knows when to dial back the jokes. I remember genuinely crying at the ending of the manga, because I was truly emotionally invested in the story. However, I will say because of such a large cast of central character, and because of its status as just a shounen, both the manga and anime lacked a level of depth in its characters and story that made me TRULY be super invested in its entirety. For example, compare this to FMA and the FMA:B anime, which will forever be considered masterpieces despite being shounen. However, I'm perfectly fine with that. Assassin Classroom wasn't trying to be deep or thoughtful or anything (at least I hope so 😅) and it's just a fun popcorn flick of a manga to just chill and experience.

3. Binbougami Ga!

If Assassination Classroom is a popcorn flick for shounen, then Binbougami Ga! is the popcorn flick for ... shounen. That's right. Despite the majority female cast and the drawing style and whatnot, Binbougami Ga! was catergorized as a shounen. From first glance, it might not seem like it, but read Binbougami Ga! and you'll see why it's a shounen lolol. More specifically I guess you could call it a comedy. So while Assassination Classroom was a shounen with a very comedic tone, I would say Binbougami Ga! is a comedy with a very shounen tone lol?? It's very funny. You don't gotta think too hard about anything. There's action and fighting but no crazy epic dramatic fight scenes or whatever. There's romance but it's not the main plot of the story. Less people have heard about this manga I'm assuming, so I'll summarize it as basically about this girl who is the "luckiest girl in the world/Japan" and then this spirit/god/ghost??? shows up to suck the luck out from her cuz she got too much luck and it's a mistake. But obviously our main girl is not gonna give up her luck. The manga is about the chaos and shenanigans that ensues. Super recommend for if you just want something silly and fun to read. There's an anime adaption too, but I never watched it and idk if it's a good adaptation so watch at your own discrepancy 🤷‍♀️

4. Boku Dake ga Inai Machi

If y'all are able to discern my tastes in stuff by now, you already know this is gonna be on the list. YOU ALREADY KNOW I LOVE THIS. Also yes, this is another manga with an anime adaption, but I watched like 3/4 of it. I stopped when SPOILER ALERT SPOILER ALERT 🚨 the main dude is still a kid and gets found out by the teacher, and goes into the coma. Based on posts I've seen about the differences between the anime and the manga, I guess I stopped at a good time though lolol. The anime’s ending is apparently completely different. I've even seen the live action adaption, and tbh I remember it being pretty good surprisingly, and it had the same ending as the manga (on the bridge). But yeah I loved this manga. I've reread it before, and honestly a second reading for this manga is mandatory, as for almost all mystery stories. Seeing all the foreshadowing and whatnot after knowing everything is so cool, and it helped me appreciate the story more. I genuinely didn't know anything the first time  and was surprised that it was the teacher (now that I'm an adult and I've reread it, it seems so obvious now bwahaha). I also missed the romantic subtext between the main guy and the girl from his OG timeline (seemed so obvious in the rereading too!) and just a bunch of other things. Super good mystery, super compelling characters and plot, and just overall really good. Art style is unique, bordering on “ugly” if we're being harsh, but I liked it.

5. Coppelion

OKAY HEAR ME OUT. This is a HOT TAKE, I am well aware lolol. If you’ve ever heard about Coppelion, you probably heard about it from the anime (which did not do very well). Surprisingly, I watched the anime first I think?? I forgot it was some years ago when it released. Long enough to state that I watched it on Hulu back when Hulu was free (just needed an account). But yeah I have read the manga TWICE which means I liked it a lot, and TBH I cannot give you that many genuine reasons for you guys to read it too LMAO. It’s about these three young girls who are called Coppelion who are genetically engineered humans that can withstand nuclear radiation. Like the story was decent, the characters were decent, the art was ... questionably decent lol?? But nothing was AMAZING, nothing was GREAT. I think I just genuinely enjoyed the story as a light reading without thinking too heavily about the themes or topics. So although nothing was stellar, nothing was particularly too bad either. Also I was such a huge Haruto simp lmaoo. He was a blueprint for my type akdbjfkashdf.

[katara0524]

Impromptu Ramblings about the NEO:TWEWY Demo

In case y'all weren't aware, I've been a pretty big fan of TWEWY for a couple years now, and with the sequel coming out next month, the excitement I feel for this game is greater than ever :) I played the Demo for the first time yesterday, and following a couple views of some livestreams of others playing it, I felt like sharing my (very ramble-y) thoughts prior to the release of the full game. This post WILL contain spoilers for both TWEWY and NEO:TWEWY, so if you want to avoid those from now on, please block the tags: #twewy spoilers, #ntwewy spoilers, #neo twewy spoilers, #ntwewy, and #neo twewy ^_^ Oh, and if you wanna keep up with any other posts I make about my experience with this game, please refer to the tag "kat plays neo twewy" :)

-First things first: I have not watched the Final Trailer and I don't plan on doing so to avoid spoilers, especially after the pre-release era of KH3 where a lot of the later trailers spoiled a lot of the endgame content. That being said, I've seen some minor screenshots from the final trailer including what many believe to be characters from the original TWEWY, namely Shiki and Joshua. That is all I know about the Final Trailer and I would very much like to remain as blind as possible going into NEO :)

-The very first cutscene was quite ominous in the sense that this game is likely going to be about "changing fate" (a recently common theme in Squeenix games, which I do appreciate), perhaps leading off from the end of A New Day in the OG and trying to stop an Inversion of Shibuya. Also worth noting that A New Day had similar aspects in which the main character experienced "future visions" of tragic events, although in A New Day these events were not able to be changed, while in NEO it seems like one of the main "powers" our protagonist has is specifically to rewrite these events and avoid a "bad ending." Very interesting indeed!

-I really like the revamped comic book style dialogue scenes, it's much more fluid and modern, which is an excellent direction for the series to take!

-I would love to have an actual PokemonGO knockoff of Final Fantasy creatures, please Squeenix that would be incredibleeeeee

-Also the LINE stickers??? Are so cute???

-I would just like to point out that Fret is an absolute treasure throughout this entire demo, he's hilarious and I will protect him with my life

-UHHHH don't like that Fret picked up some Reaper Pins just out of nowhere.....or the fact that they're apparently popular all over Shibuya.............did y'all not learn anything from the OG game or what lmao

-Okay so when I first got the "curry or ramen" scene and heard NPCs talking about the new curry place replacing the old ramen place I became IMMENSELY distressed that Ramen Don was totally cut from the game because....well, Ramen Don is a King okay?? But I'm glad to learn that no, he didn't fall off the face of the earth, he's still in business and he's the one opening the curry restaurant lolol. PHEW, crisis averted!

-.....I don't like the sudden appearance of a Wall Reaper and being able to read NPC thoughts. Wtf happened when they left the ramen place??? Are they playing the Game alive somehow?

-Okay so I have my own theories about this "Swallow" character and what they're up to but considering this is only the Demo and I still Have No Idea What's Happening, I'm just gonna say that I think Swallow intentionally led Rindo and Fret to the Crossing so they could join the Game. I mean, add in the fact that Swallow still communicates with Rindo during the Game and you've got yourself a suspicious character right there lol

-"Hey they're shooting off fireworks!" Fret honey that's not fireworks oof (see also: "*laughs* I'm in danger")

-WOOOOOO way to traumatize Rindo right off the bat like that LMAOO

-The visuals for the intro are VERY GOOD, the song is pretty decent until it gets all "screamo" (which I absolutely cannot stand sorry lol)

-Shoka is every Customer Service employee ever and I respect that

-Susukichi went from being "meh" to "WOW THIS GUY IS FUN" in the span of 10 seconds and I also respect that (he is also built like an Absolute Unit which is hilarious)

-The Wall Reapers (and just Reapers in general) seem.....way nicer and more helpful this time around?? Like in the OG the Wall Reapers were SO RUDE gfhjgjdfkhn and yeah I'm sure we'll get some like that but the juxtaposition of the first Wall Reaper in the OG compared to the first one in NEO is insane.

-The puzzles are quite a bit more entertaining this time around even if it's generally the same "fetch quest" formula lol

-"Rindo's Group" way to go Fret HFKJDGHSDFKJ mans really left the default name in there lmao

-OKAYOKAYOKAY so to those who aren't aware I am a MASSIVE SIMP for Sho Minamimoto, he's my absolute favorite and I think about him daily. HIS INTRODUCTION IS. INCREDIBLE. I LOVE IT SM.

-GOD hearing him actually SPEAK FULL SENTENCES is just SO SURREAL I love this sm

-Also the remix of his theme???? NEO TRANSFORMATION????? IT'S SO GOOD????????? It's like gone from a Boss Theme to a more triumphant sounding theme and I am HERE for it (every version of Transformation is just INCREDIBLE and getting a new one is even better)

-I Love Him, Your Honor

-Also idk how exactly but it's kinda weird seeing Sho in the OG vs NEO, cuz while he's mostly the same Insane Math-Obsessed Catboy, he's.....calmed down quite a bit?? Like OG made a whole point of how poorly he cooperates with others (not to mention just being completely unhinged and trying to kill everyone), whereas here in NEO he's......actually kinda working with others??? HELLO???? Sir what happened to you and Neku during those 3 years I would love to know all about it

-I guarantee you Sho is still probably scheming shite and will likely pull some total insane BS later down the road, and I am very much looking forward to that. Also, is he looking for a certain Pin or something??? Cuz he keeps talking about different Pins and even mentions "this is just another Psych Pin" like he's actively looking for a Pin to do something with. Maybe it also has to do with the "latent powers of Players" thing he mentioned as well??? What is this dude UP TO oml (also is he in contact with Neku at all?? they're both technically fugitives at this point right?? WHAT HAPPENED AFTER A NEW DAY I AM BEGGING YOU)

-I seems like Sho ALSO has an idea of what's going on in this specific game (even if he won't admit it straightforward). Per his quote "The game's 142,857. Factor it out," he's essentially saying, "This game is a neverending cyle, figure out how to get out of it" (or at least that's what I got from his "cyclic number" nonsense lolol)

-I do like how Sho mostly stays out of sight until he's needed for a battle or assisting with a mission, that's kind of on par with his whole "uncooperative" quirk from the OG, plus he might literally have to stay out of sight of other Reapers and Players considering he's likely breaking the rules of the Game (not surprising considering him and Neku broke practically every rule in the book during OG)

-The nicknames for Sho- I can't- They're so FUNNYYYY GFHJSDFKJ

-He goes from being called "Pi-Face" and "Tabooty" in OG to "Mr. Minami" and "M-Teezy" in NEO LMAOO

-(Wowee I just realized I've been mostly talking about Sho oopsies sorry y'all, this is what I meant by thinking about him almost daily he is THAT much of a fav of mine ghfkjsd)

-Okay RIP Fret and Rindo for not getting literally ANY explanation as to how the Game works OOF, that is kinda cringe that whoever gets the Pin earns points, not whoever erases the Noise (which like I understand but also URRRGGHHH I WANNA SEE THE SQUAD SUCCEED)

-"I should be going home now it's getting late" Oh you sweet summer child-

-Also love the mention of parents in this game???? KH you could learn a thing or two from TWEWY (poor Rindo's mom fhgjkdh)

-KUBO IS HILARIOUS I SUPPORT HIM AND HIS GROSS FACE (also thank you Final Trailer thumbnail for spoiling my suspicions about him very cool smh)

-Kaie is a LAD I also support him, go King type those funky texts I believe in you

-FRET PLS STOP SCANNING FHGJKSDHKJFGHFKJ he's like me when I scan in OG during Weeks 2 and 3 and see Taboo Noise coming after me ghfjdshfj

-Also Rindo can you stay off your phone for TWO SECONDS ik you're trying to figure things out but Fret is a jelly boi and I don't want him to be upset with you my guy

-Sho being an actual sorta mentor to the kiddos?? Who are you sir this is so unlike you ghfgskj what happened to the guy who tried shooting children in the face 8 times over LMAO (granted he's probably just using them but it's still nice to see him actually cooperating and sharing knowledge with the kiddos aaaaa)

-EYO EIJI OJI THE TIKTOK INFLUENCER IS BACK LMAO

-hgjkfshgkjf "we aren't glorifying capitalism on my watch" THATS SO FUNNY TO ME GFHJFSDGHJKS (also an all-orange ensemble is disgusting you deserve jail for one thousand years fkn Cheddar Goldfish Cheezit ass woman)

-WICKED TWISTERS NAME DROP EYOOO we love to see it

-gfhsgjf Poor Rindo embarassing himself for the sake of the Game that's incredible

-R e t u r n t o M O N K E. That is all.

-Dialogue during boss battles is HELLA cool i love that

-HHHHH THE KANON SCENE MADE ME A N G E R Y FRET STOP SIMPING MY GUY says the girl with a Literal Simp Encyclopedia and simps for pixels on a screen daily

-Can't wait to see the other Reapers :eyes emoji:

-CAN'T WAIT TO SEE NAGI MY BELOVED YEAHHHH WOOOOOO AAAAND that's about it for the demo lolol, I absolutely CANNOT wait for next month, this game is gonna be INCREDIBLE holy hell Prepare for more simping, more screaming, and more vibing from Yours Truly :) I fully intend on sharing more general thoughts like this on both Tumblr and Twitter so it's not just reblog-retweet-reblog-retweet with the occasional comment fhgskjd

If you wanna witness my insanity up close and personal I have a Square Enix Discord server called Sea Side Dreamers! You can look it up on Disboard, or you can add me on Discord @Katara0524#9244 for a direct link :) We have topics about Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy, NieR, and ofc TWEWY (as well as other topics!), so if you want some good ol' chaos and chitchat, you're more than welcome to join!

[allmights-right-boob]

Not fic: Cursed Twilight addition

So I’m about to have my BNHA rights revoked but I just finished Midnight Sun (at the time when I started writing this) and started thinking about the characters and that Rosalie and Bakugo are weirdly similar so now here I am outlining a Twilight Au that no one asked for (except me but I’m garbage) that I will never write because I can’t focus long enough to write an actual story (fun fact this outline is taking months to complete). To be honest though this is more of a background on all the characters as opposed to an outline of the Twilight story (oops) which may or may not come later. Author’s notes are in parenthesis if you haven’t figured that out.

Basically I’m replacing Twilight characters with BNHA characters, not everyone will have the same back story, it’ll be blended(future me: um so that was a lie). Everyone’s quirks are still mostly the same but as their vampire gift with some variation to fit the word. It still takes place in the Pacific north-west because I’m not super sure if there’s a place as cloudy as there in Japan besides the mountains like Mt.Fuji (but that’s more misty I think) but there’s too many people around places like that I feel. But then again I’m not actually writing this whole fic so you’re welcome to imagine them still in Japan. If I did write this as a fic I would actually do proper research to decide where to put them but meh, this is a not-fic. As it is I’m calling the town it would take place in Forks/Crossroads cause that would be a cool alternative name. The backgrounds take place all over the word but I never actually say where. My bad.

Also if you do read this I love you very much and I am so sorry, this is ramble-y and has way too many run-on sentences and is written as if I were speaking to you as opposed to an actual written story. It’s also taken so long to complete things I wasn’t sure about in the beginning become solidified later but it’s also written out of order so probably reads really bad. Again my apologies.

So the characters are as follows:

The Olympic Coven/Cullens - The Might Coven/Aizawa-Yagis

Carlisle Cullen- Toshinori Yagi

So obviously I made Toshi Carlisle because suave blond everyone loves is both of their MO. Toshi is probably around 500 years old and like Carlisle was turned while hunting vampires. I still want him to have two forms but I’m not entirely sure how to do that within the confines of the Twilight universe. Maybe he was injured in a battle where he literally lost parts of himself and can’t fully heal so he’s become weak but still can’t die? He’s a doctor but might be semi-retired because of his injury, the cover story is an undisclosed chronic illness. He’s also a part time stay at home dad. He definitely used his vampirism to help and protect humans in the past.

Probably had a coven when he was younger with Nana and Torino but Nana was killed and Torino sent Toshi away for his own safety. He may or may not have started out as vegetarian, I can see Nana as veg or only eats bad people, Torino is an eats bad guys type but will eat anyone when pressed. Toshi either started out as a vegetarian before meeting Nana or if she found him immediately and took him in he would go animal based pretty quickly, She always respected his lifestyle. Grand Torino respects it to an extent but now that Toshi is hurt wants him to drink from humans because he thinks it’ll help Toshinori heal or at least be better for his body. He was in his 40s when turned.

Esme Cullen- Shouta Aizawa

It should surprise literally no one that I’m making this Erasermight because I am soft for my boys and anything is an excuse to ship them. Shouta is honestly the person who has taken the longest to work out along with Shinsou. Like so, so, long. These two are also related, they’re cousins or uncle/nephew or something. They’re also the most different from their counterparts, probably because it’s taken so long for me to work their stories out I’ve just completely changed them from original Twilight.

So the time period is really vague with him, it’s either the late 1800s or WWI. Hitoshi was an orphan around the age of 12 and Shouta his guardian is 30-31. Either way there was a war (and I looked at the wars in the second half of the 1800s, it’s just so many wars. What is wrong with this world?) and it could have easily been the civil war (and if so they were Unionist, obviously.) But wherever he and Hitoshi lived there was a war happening and he was probably not in the army at the time, just protecting his home and neighbors. At the same time Toshinori and Izuku were in the area trying to help civilians because wars suck and they’re basically un-killable so they can help and with the chaos of everything if someone started to suspect something of them they could fake their deaths and leave. And they probably did. But while traveling through they stop in a town/village and meet Shouta and Hitoshi.

Shouta is his gruff no nonsense self and Hitoshi is a little in awe of Yagi because this is still pre-injury so he’s this huge imposing man who’s gentle and knowledgeable about medicine. Eventually even Shouta comes around to liking Yagi, who has the nickname All Might because of his strength, even though he thinks his over the top enthusiasm in front of others is exhausting. In private Toshi ends up letting his guard and persona down with Aizawa because he realizes he doesn’t have to keep it up, he doesn’t need to make Aizawa like and trust him the way he does with the others, it’s just natural the way they click. Toshi probably fell in love first, vampires fall in love fast and long and all encompassing in a way that if they were human would be rather unhealthy (and probably is anyway because this is fiction but I don’t really care because this is fiction and I relate to unhealthy love way too much). Shouta was more reserved because he is a cautious man by nature and probably loves in a similar but more healthy way to vampires, long and devoted, but he must be careful to whom he gives his heart. I still don’t think he meant to fall for Toshinori, loving a man in the time that they lived was dangerous and inadvisable if one could avoid it. But Toshinori Yagi is the kind of man one cannot help but loving.

They didn’t tell each other how they felt though. A few months after Izuku and Toshinori’s arrival there was an attack on the town, Hitoshi they found safe but Toshinori caught wind of Shouta’s scent and followed, finding him mortally wounded. Desperate to keep him Toshi turned him and split off from Izuku and Hitoshi while Shouta adjusted to vampire life. They quickly became lovers, though Shouta had a brief stint as a human blood drinker as revenge for the destruction of his village. But it started to test their relationship and in the end Toshi and his own morals were more important to him than human blood. The four of them reunite a year later and they try to keep their relationship a secret but both of the boys figure it out pretty quickly. Izuku accepts it immediately because his dad is finally with someone and is happy while it takes Hitoshi a bit of time because period typical homophobia and it’s going to take a while for Yagi to earn his trust back after turning Aizawa in front of him.

Aizawa has an erasure power same as in canon. Since he doesn’t need to blink he’s a bit op but opponents who are faster than his eyes can track and multiple opponents are his weaknesses. He’s a history teacher at Forks/Crossroads high but purposefully does not have his own kids as students. He’s a mystery to most of his colleagues who probably haven’t even figured out he’s got five kids in the school.

Rosalie Hale- Katsuki Bakugo

Bakugo has a pretty similar start to Rosalie but because what happened to her is so awful and  I have problems doing that even to fictional characters that part is different. He’s still a rich kid from the early 20th century, probably turned in the 1920s, but he and his explosive temperament pissed off the wrong people who jumped him in an alley and beat him almost to death, like actually thought he was dead so they left him there (I know this isn’t that much better than what happened to Rose but man she had a horrific end to her human life). He was around 17-18 when he was turned.

While human he had met Dr. Yagi, who was probably treating one of his parents for a chronic ailment, along with his son Izuku and his ‘companion’ Aizawa and Aizawa’s ward Hitoshi. All of the others gave him the creeps but Izuku was a relatively normal boy, a bit younger than himself and accompanied his father when visiting the Bakugos. Their relationship is pretty much the same as canon where Izuku likes Bakugo a lot and Bakugo is nothing but awful to him. They end up with a sort of ‘I hate you but you’re my best friend’ relationship except neither actually hates the other. When Yagi finds Bakugo half dead in an alley he turns him because he was weirdly fond of the angry young man and more so because he thought that the relationship between the two boys was growing into something more, he and Izuku hadn’t talked about it, as he was waiting for his son to come to him, and he didn’t have time to ask. He realizes later that no, Katsuki and Izuku are not star crossed lovers like he and Shouta but he can’t say he regrets turning Bakugo other than Bakugo’s own hatred of being a vampire. He loves his angry son okay.

Bakugo had a life goal which was probably taking over the family business though based off canon that would be fashion and I can’t see him interested in that. Whatever it was he was pursuing it with the same single mindedness that he possesses for heroism and since he can no longer achieve his goals as a vampire he resents it along with the fact that the decision to become a vampire or die a human was taken away from him. He does have a good relationship with Toshinori and Shouta even though he still acts like a brat. His cover story is that he’s Toshinori’s cousin’s son and is an orphan who they took in. He kept his family’s name.

Like a number of vampires Bakugo has a talent or gift. His is his incredibly powerful and dangerous explosion ability. He can cause explosions from his palms. So far the League has not discovered him but everyone worries that one day they will and the Might Coven will be hunted and slaughtered for Bakugo’s power.

Emmett Cullen- Eijirou Kirishima

Sometime around the 1930s  Bakugo was hunting and found a bleeding almost dead Kirishima. It was either an animal attack like canon or an accident where he fell off a cliff (that feels like something he would do). I don’t think he decided to turn Kirishima, he just smelled blood and lost control. He’s still ashamed about how he reacted to this day as he’s typically better than that around humans. Luckily the others were hunting with him and were able to pull Bakugo off. He’s never held what Bakugo did against him and his enthusiasm and friendship actually endeared him to Katsuki despite his guilt. Eijirou was turned at 19 and has never had issues with being a vampire, it sucks that he had to leave his human family behind but he loves his vampire one just as much and he got the love of his life out of it. It took awhile but Katsuki and Eijirou eventually admit their feelings and they start dating. They’ve been married a few times now because Bakugo is extra and Eijirou loves confessing his love.

With Kirishima’s gift it doesn’t work the same as in cannon where you can tell it’s activated. In fact they still might not know Kiri has a gift or if they do it’s only a suspicion. He’s just harder than the other marble like vampires. Where the others have almost certainly had mild injuries (mostly from Bakugo’s explosions) like cracks that heal immediately, Eijirou has never been injured as a vampire. At all. He’s also immensely strong, because he was as a human, and that has been enhanced but he’s nowhere near as strong as Toshi was pre-injury. His cover story is he’s a foster kid they took in and he keeps the last name Kirishima.

Alice Cullen- Denki Kaminari

Like Alice Denki spent the end of his human life in an insane asylum (I refer to it as such because these were not hospitals and more like institutions of torture). I honestly can’t figure out if mental health care was so bad in the early/mid 20th century that a 15-16 year old boy with ADHD being sent to one is unrealistic or not. I’m pretty sure it was similar to Alice where he saw something he shouldn’t and was put in it to silence him.( I should probably figure out what that was sometime) Either way that’s where he ended up and of course he had to deal with electroshock ‘therapy’ which both severely messed with his memory and sorta brought out a natural resistance and even control over electricity, so he had to receive stronger and stronger sessions. This manifested in Denki’s electric power when he was turned into a vampire.

While hunting in the woods surrounding the institution, Hitoshi spotted Denki in the window and was instantly taken by the boy with eyes as golden as his inhuman family’s. He would make trips by the asylum just to get a glimpse and eventually took a night job there to meet him against his family’s advice. When they met Denki recognized him despite how careful, and honestly far away, Hitsohi had been and instead of being creeped out he was happy just to make a new friend. They would talk as long as they could and Hitoshi would bring Denki little bits of the outside world like flowers or decent snacks. And he would take care of Kaminari when his ‘therapies’ would leave him incapacitated and the nursing staff would neglect him.

Even after his family moved away to a location where the weather suited them better Hitoshi stayed working at the asylum not willing to leave Denki to his fate there (And to note this is around the time the others realized how serious Hitoshi’s feelings are and start planning how to help Kaminari or bring him into the family. Before this they were starting to suspect but kinda thought he was being weird about a guy he saw in a window. To be fair though he was being weird about a guy he saw in a window.) One night after an ice bath ‘treatment’ Denki developed a fever and over the course of a few days had full blown pneumonia. In his delirium he confessed his feelings to Shinsou who reciprocated and decided he would steal Denki away when he knew the trip back to his family wouldn’t kill the sick boy. Of course being a poorly run and over populated institution his condition was overlooked and ignored especially since a ‘specialist’ was coming to perform procedures on several patients, aka some guy with no degree was going to lobotomize as many people as he could fit into one day. Shinsou didn't find out until he came in that night and found out Kaminari was already in the procedure room. He flipped out and killed most of the staff there and took a severely injured Denki home to Toshinori in the hopes of saving him.

The change seemed to take longer than it had for the others but does end up working, though when he finally comes to Denki is much more quiet and subdued and remembers almost nothing about his past. All he knows is his name, Hitoshi’s name, and that he loves him. He also has weird headaches periodically for decades later and slowly becomes more like himself before the lobotomy. He never fully recovers his memories, a bit here and a piece there, all moments shared with Hitoshi. He decides he doesn’t need the rest, everything he needs is here and in his future with his family.

His cover story is typically as a foster kid so he keeps his last name Kaminari. Sometimes he decides to change things up and goes as a Yagi or even Bakugo’s brother when Katsuki is feeling generous.

Jasper Hale- Hitoshi Shinsou

Hitoshi’s early years were spent in his small town or village (I think the difference is size but I’m american and I don’t think we have villages no matter how small a place is so...) Everything was uneventful up until the war, I don’t know which war, civil war in US or WWI in Europe, but around the age of 12 his village was destroyed, his guardian was turned into a vampire and he had to go live with Izuku while Aizawa learned to manage his bloodlust. During that time he and Izuku grew really close and even now they have the most brotherly relationship out of all the siblings.

So after a year the four reunite with a vampire Shouta and an overly protective Izuku and a very weary Hitoshi. Everything goes on as it did for Toshinori and Izuku before they split but now with their two new additions. Yagi gives Hitoshi the best education he can without sending him to boarding school although they had discussed it. They were in a precarious position with a human boy knowing their vampire secret and they couldn’t run the risk of news getting back to the League, the governing body of vampires run by a mysterious head known only as All for One.

Years pass but unfortunately news of the Might Coven’s human pet gets back to the League and due to past history involving Nana and Toshi, AfO comes himself to deal with the situation and brings his two most powerful underlings, his adopted son and second in command Tomura Shigaraki and . A fight between Yagi and All for One happens and AfO rips out a piece of Toshi’s side and Toshi ends up crushing AfO’s head, killing him (maybe but probably not). Tomura, who had been fighting against Shouta and Toga who battled Izuku, realize they can’t win.

Now the vampire known as All Might is pretty popular amongst his kind but the Might Coven was at the time nowhere near strong enough or influential enough to fill the void that would be left by the dissolution of the League, which would happen if they killed all three of the vampires there. So they took a gamble and spared Shigaraki and Toga thinking their loyalty to AfO was limited, since most vampires don’t form bonds the way ‘vegetarians’ seem to, and that they would be happy with their promotion. They also agreed at Hitoshi’s insistence that he would be turned so they would no longer have a human knowing the secret about vampires. So Yagi turns Hitoshi and they let Toga and Shigaraki go and continue about their lives as much as they can with Toshinori’s injury.

Just like the rest of his family, Shinsou's quirk is the same as canon. If someone answers his question he can control their minds. It’s probably a little stronger than in canon too, at least against humans. Vampires have better resistance. His cover story is the most truthful, he’s Shouta’s orphan relative. He sometimes takes on Aizawa’s last name though in this school he decided to use his original.

Edward Cullen- Izuku Midoriya

The more I plot this out the more I’m taking Twilight, stripping it down to the bare outline, and making it into something totally different. Like the only similarities are Izuku and Shoto’s relationship follows Bella and Edwards, somewhat. Izuku is the tanned skinned, freckled, green eyed boy in a family of pale golden eyed outsiders. He seems completely human even to other vampires, til you get him in the sunlight where he literally shines.

I’m not sure when Izuku was born, maybe the 1700s, but he was still the first of the Might Coven besides Toshinori. Sometime after Nana’s death Toshi finds an ailing pregnant woman named Inko Midoriya who’s bizarre husband still hasn’t come home from his business trip to a foreign country. She’s convinced she is going to die before he returns and her pregnancy is so hard and so seemingly fast but her baby feels strong enough to survive so she begs Toshinori to please take care of her son till his father returns. Inko dies before she can give birth to her baby so Toshinori takes the baby out himself as a last ditch effort but there’s something not right, not with the baby or the amniotic sac that’s almost as hard as Toshinori himself. And when the sun shines through the window Toshinori’s arm glimmers and so does the new born baby. Dread at the thought that he’s holding an immortal child wells in him but he’s never heard of an immortal child being born and he’s especially never heard of a vampire with a heart beat. So against his better judgement he takes the child and runs, he can’t wait for Inko’s husband, and he can’t risk someone seeing the child and reporting back to the League. So he and Izuku, a name Inko had picked out before her death, stay on the run for years as the boy grew until he was at an appropriate age to be around at least vampire kind. Conveniently the half vampire boy doesn’t need blood to survive and seems to have very little if any bloodlust at all. Or so it seemed.

Now some differences I’m making will be Izuku’s aging. I know Rennesme ages fast and stops when she looks 21-25 but I’m thinking Izuku either ages very slowly or stopped when he looks closer to 15-18? Probably the first one. Also I think male half-vamps have red/gold eyes but Izuku has green because I said so.

His cover story is that he's Toshinori’s son from a previous relationship. They tried to call him a foster child in the past but they’re too close and Izuku uses Toshinori’s given name and dad interchangeably. He likes to use his mom’s last name as a way to honor her. Not every school but it is a pretty common thing for him to do and he’s using it in Forks/Crossroads this year. He doesn’t seem to have a gift but he’s a half vampire, his presence is a gift.

Humans

Bella Swan- Shoto Todoroki

Time for ‘technically main character number two but I preferred everyone else in Twilight over Edward and Bella so he and Izuku get put down lower on the list’. So Todoroki and Bella’s similarities are: new kid comes to live with other parent after the parent they lived with got married. I really don’t think there’s a lot else similar? But Bella doesn’t have that much back story to begin with.

So Shoto’s parents grew up in Forks/Crossroads but moved somewhere sunnier before he was born. He grew up in a city, maybe Phoenix (almost certainly Phoenix for the name alone). His parents had an unhappy marriage but I honestly don’t think it was full on abuse, I feel like Enji still neglected them but never physically or verbally hurt anyone. And since Shoto moves back in with Rei I don’t think she gave him his scar either, I think it was an accident where young Shoto pulled maybe a hot kettle onto himself? It probably was the catalyst for his parents divorce but ultimately that was happening either way. Both parents blamed the other for his accident but I think the courts realized it was just that, an accident, maybe some negligence (I don’t really know how custody courts work and what happens when a kid gets hurt and this isn’t a real fic so I’m not researching) but either way Enji gets Shoto (maybe all the kids but Rei gets visitation, comes down for the summer like Charlie? Kids go up there for vacation and holiday? Or split the kids 50/50? No idea this is still more backstory than Bella got) Enji is still a workaholic and Toya ends up running away/leaving probably shortly after the divorce anyway and Fuyumi and Natsuo eventually leave for college and are still closer to Rei even if they lived with their dad.

So when Enji gets remarried Shoto asks to move in with his mom since she’s all alone and Enji wouldn’t be and ‘wouldn’t it be nice to just be two newly weds with the house to themselves’. He makes a very convincing case and Enji is trying to let his youngest make his own choices so he agrees. Shoto moves north and it isn’t the worst, he likes both the heat and the cold unlike his parents, Rei hates the heat and Enji hates the cold. School is weird because people actually want to be his friend; there’s a group of stoic, pale, intimidating students he’s 90% sure are vampires; and there’s a  beautiful boy who hangs out with them who looks partially horrified and disgusted by him, or like he wants to eat him alive, literally.

Renee Dwyer- Enji Todoroki (Technically)

So I ended up making Enji considerably less awful.

After the divorce Enji figures out his sexuality and eventually starts dating a much younger model who goes by Hawks after he saves him from a burning building (Enji is a firefighter). Shoto offers to move in with Rei after Hawks and Enji get married, he has nothing against Hawks and they get along as well as can be expected but they are newly weds and Enji might be going into semi retirement to travel with Hawks for his career. And the thought of being around his dad so much, who can get a little overbearing when not working, is just not something Shoto wants to deal with. Though it is weird his dad is married to someone so much younger, Shoto knows several other people in his class in Phoenix whose dads did similar and they cheated on their wives and didn’t even have a sexuality crisis in their forties so he’s letting his dad slide on this. Shoto definitely has a better relationship with Enji in this than canon Shoto but they don’t have Enji’s shity eugenics baggage here either. Overall Enji in this is just a neglectful workaholic who’s learning to work on himself with the guidance of the love of his life and is letting Shoto make his own decisions like living with his mom and this is all growth.

Charlie Swan- Rei Todoroki (Technically)

So Rei after the divorce moves back home because she hates Phoenix and hot weather. Maybe she gets custody in the summer or has Fuyumi and Natsuo since Toya took off and they split the kids? (I still haven’t decided how the custody went with those two but they don’t live in Forks/Crossroads or Phoenix so it doesn’t matter.)

After returning home she either started working at or opened up a yarn shop, I see her enjoying needle craft and she’s definitely not a sheriff type. She’s just a quiet, keeps to herself woman with a few close friends; children mostly grown and just happy to spend more time with her youngest.

Phil Dwyer- Keigo Takami

He’s a model who gets saved by Enji when his apartment burns down. He offers to take Enji to dinner and keeps offering to reward him until at Moe’s insistence Enji agrees. They hit it off and the rest is history.

Things I would have said in the tags but there’s a limit so I put the actual important stuff there and ramblings here:

It took me three weeks to finish this (midnight sun) audiobook. I literally drive for a living and couldn’t finish it in less than the entirety of my library rental time. Jake Able deserves more money.

I have read twilight three times now and it never gets easier. Yes I do have terrible taste.

I hope someone reads this. It took like three months to finish this post. I still have so much in my head. I haven’t even started talking about the League. Please ask questions, I want to actually write this but my brain won’t let me write full fics so this is what we get.

[elizabethrobertajones]

Saw you've been sucked into the MMO life in the form of FFXIV and I was wondering if you had any input into the debate I've been having about what class archetypes tfw would play. I think Sam would be most likely to tank because it requires a reasonable amount of leadership and is also more of a quiet, backbone type role compared to dps. Dean seems more the type to be singularly focused on the big damage hits tbh. He also tends to take more of the charging in and fighting role in their normal life with Sam being the one reading up on everything more carefully and being his backup. Which leaves Cas as healer which may just be me projecting because I play healer/support at every opportunity but literal angel healing aside I think that sorta fits too, he cares a lot for them and tries to keep them safe and shield them as best he can in their adventures? Idk half formed thoughts please completely contradict me if you want I'm genuinely curious about other people's opinions here

Heyooo :D It is less sucked into and more like I’ve returned to the warm cushiony nest of MMOs lol

If you’d asked me back when I was a WoW player I’d have fully agreed because you could only have one class per character and these are definitely the snap decisions that the fam would make when on the character screen. Dean would grab the sexiest DPS, Sam the stoutest tank especially as he’s the one who has read into the classes and strats beforehand, and Cas would ask what to do and be given the healer role because the other two in this scenario would know better about the game and sort of lump it onto him like, oh, we need a healer and you can do this.

(In my own gaming journey, this is what my friends and brother did to me, as they needed a healer to round out their party... I took druid because it was spoopy, and discovered in WoW that while you can’t change classes you can pay gold to respec your character’s role within that class... Promptly re-specced to a melee dps/tank feral druid instead of the healer one, and had a lot more fun :D)  

In FFXIV you can take all the classes on your character (which I have done, natch) and it’s a much more interesting levelling approach, especially seeing how my friends playing the game have gone when it comes to taking classes as they level and why they claim to have tried and then rejected others. It’s an enormous personality test, even for peeps like me and my brother who have all the classes up at max level, which ones we prioritised and which ones we sort of struggled with or found a bit meh. 

Hm so in the scenario that Charlie comes bursting into the Bunker demanding that she needs some friends for dungeons and raids and they’re all sitting on their asses scrolling the internet between a case, they can bloody well play final fantasy with her for a bit, let’s go for some headcanons :D Long because FFXIV has become my current obsession and I have the same in-depth feels about it as I do about SPN but I just never get to write about them with anyone... 

First off, Sam of course has deep nerdery about it and will ask Charlie a ton of questions about what the right class to play is and do the same thing as we’ve already discussed and go for Paladin (which starts as gladiator), and also take all the crafting and gathering side classes because he’s a nerd and you learn nonsense lore while doing it. He’s also in the same starting zone as Thaumaturge which transitions to Black Mage and I BET he’d be tempted to have a little safe witch!Sam emotional release on the most un-Sam class. It’s the big unwieldy spell caster whose literal class quests and stuff make fun of how you’re small and squishy and will be standing in a very bad spot debating whether to finish a long-cast spell and get hit or stop DPS and run for safety. I think he could do with the perspective and learning to be selfish either way to blow off steam from tanking and also learn to prioritise himself IRL :’D Also the paladin quest is WEIRDLY pro-cop from 30 onwards for some reason until the writers saw sense and just. stopped. doing paladin stuff and went back to the Gladiator storyline for the class quests, so idk if he’d enjoy that or start to question other things. Whatever it is he’s getting challenged XD

At 60 he grabs Gunbreaker because it sounds more cool and is thankfully way less emotionally stressful tanking as it’s entirely about being a badass bodyguard and sick flips. This is far more aspirational for Sam, especially as he could just tie a knife to a sawn off shotgun and do these moves for real in his day job. He won’t, but like with black mage, the thought that he COULD is very emotionally satisfying to him.

He might also have decided to check out scholar to see how healing is but idk if he would be able to handle Dean teasing him for having a fairy follow him around so he’d only dabble with the nerd class on the side :P  

Now, Dean can’t take ninja until level 10 or machinist (gun shooty DPS class) until 50, so his start point as DPS would either be pugilist (eeeey brass knuckle class!) or the other DPS classes to start with are Thaumaturge/Black Mage, Arcanist/Summoner, Archer or Lancer. Now. He’d probably think the first two are sissy because magic is for girls/arcanists literally only have a book as a weapon. Archer becomes bard and I think is ultimately a place he’d be very happy as it is a very supportive class to the whole party and basically the mom friend class. But I would love if he went lancer/dragoon because the level 50 class weapon is (folklore inspired name) “Gae Bolg” and every time I equip it I can’t help giggling at the name even though I know it’s a real thing and I shouldn’t. But. Like. It’s the class about waving enormous lances around. It’s got Implications, and Dean is drawn to those. 

He’d probably, however, take rogue/ninja as soon as he could because stabbing things with knives, and the class trainer is the kinda guy who’d have wild gay tension with him while they both try to boast about women to each other, were they to meet irl. Ironically, the rogue trainer (a womanising charmer) and the ninja trainer (an intense, honourable guy bad at social cues even among his own people who ends up falling from grace and choosing to stay in the vicinity of said rogue trainer) are an interesting pair of NPCs to teach Dean about where to stick knives. :) 

He’d go back and power-level dragoon once he starts Heavensward though, because Aymeric is also super intense with messy dark hair and big blue eyes that see right through you. :D He’s getting that gae bolg for him, you know? 

If they’re going to bully Cas to be their healer, he’d probably get really dedicated to the discipline especially as he can stay up all night to play and doesn’t need to take breaks to pee so he’d probably level conjurer/white mage (nature healing) and scholar (ancient book lore with a class quest which mixes ancient curses on a whole people, family drama and a bit of interspeciesish love) and then also pick up astrologian, which is good because it’s spooky star and making your own fate magic. The storyline for that is garbage in the sense that it’s really weakly written, but my favourite character randomly picks up AST in the latest expansion, and has an absolutely fucking wild subtextual romance with another character, including SPN level adopting of a random child who matches Jack in many respects, with said character. And in many respects emotionally they’re Cas and Dean but without any of the personal baggage between them specifically so they really are just chill and married, whatever else they’re stressed about (I say, dreading the next patch is going to finally bring up some questions about what is going on with them as it’s getting weirdly conspicuous while still utterly unsaid). So I would hope if Cas started projecting onto an astrologian character it would be him :P 

Cas also would get into summoner as the other branch of scholar because honestly those two classes are about as close to the random sigil drawing and reading things from books etc analogy to his own occult magic, except you can summon cool dragons and elementals to fight for you. 

they’d buy Jack a boost to 60 and he’d pick up dark knight and white mage probably just to subtly fuck with Dean 

(I am still not over Dean trying to test him to see if he was evil or not by whether he chose devil or angel cake) 

[stavromulabetaaa]

wasn’t tagged by @pauleonotis but i followed their instructions to do this if i wanted to lol

1. Why did you choose your url?

it’s an extremely vague martin freeman reference. it’s from the hitchhiker’s guide to the galaxy book series, which martin freeman starred in the movie adaptation of. i chose it because at the time i was mainly a sherlock blog and tried to think of something adjacent.

2. Sideblogs?

i used to have a nsfw johnlock smut sideblog before the porn ban, which is now inactive. i’m also @drarryficrex where i reblog fics that intrigue me and want to bookmark for later. i apparently decided to start making rec lists too and have made two lists so far on that blog.

i’m also @drarrytiktok but i don’t post on there super often.

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

10-ish years i think? on and off over the years, but pretty consistent during the height of the tjlc days and then back again for the past two years after a break.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

no and i still don’t completely understand how a queue works 😂 i’ve never used that feature and have never looked into it.

5. Why did you start your blog?

originally because it was huge when i was in high school and my friends had tumblr blogs. i came here for the aesthetic posts and stayed for fandom.

6. Why did you choose your icon?

because it’s a drawing of me by the lovely and talented @dragontamerdame <3

7. Why did you choose your header?

to match my hhgttg url

8. Post with most notes?

i think it’s this one, which was a late-night rambling about the man who lived. there’s also the chair post which doesn’t have a ton of notes but consistently pops up in my notifications every other week, and i don’t understand how people are still finding it lmao. then there was the drarry picrew post that i had no idea people would be so into and which started my obsession with drarry picrews.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

no idea! i’d say there are about 10 mutuals i regularly interact with though, even if it’s just liking each other’s posts or tagging for picrews.

10. How many followers do you have?

i honestly never look and don’t care. i only notice if i randomly gain a bunch of new followers at once because it’s in my notifications.

11. How many people do you follow?

299

12. Ever made a shitpost?

oh definitely. especially when i used to get drunk with @savetheghostswemakeforourselves over facetime and we would annoy our followers with sherlock liveblogging.

13. How often do you use Tumblr each day?

all the time 😬 i run my own business and can be on my phone pretty much as much as i want. a lot of the time i’m getting paid to sit around other people’s houses so tumblr helps with the boredom.

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

not that i remember? i possibly started some fandom discourse by accident once though.

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

i typically don’t reblog things i feel pressured to reblog. i have a huge problem with people telling me what to do irl

16. Do you like tag games?

yes! i think they’re fun

17. Do you like ask games?

yep! i don’t get asks very often though

18. Which of your tumblr friends/mutuals do you think is famous?

meh, who cares?

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

i low-key crush on all my mutuals, y’all are so thoughtful and talented and welcoming. i have anxiety and adhd and i sometimes comment or message impulsively, and you guys always respond to my nonsense with kind words. thanks for putting up with me.

idk who’s done this already, i’ve seen this tag game making the rounds lately but i’ll tag @drarrymybeloved @sitp-recs @ohdrarry @tackytigerfic @seafrost-fangirl if they want to give it a go. or anyone else who wants to!

[ostrichlady]

THOUGHTS AND RAMBLES ABOUT SNK CHAPTER 139 (SPOILERS!!)

Rating of this chapter: Lukewarm tea.

And everyone knows lukewarm tea tastes bad.

I do think the best way to deal with this chapter is to not overanalyze it. Read it once, call it quits and move on. I did that and felt great the next day. But because I spent too many years of my life in this story, of course the thoughts came back and there are a few things I need to say before leaving this story behind.

I never wanted a happy or tragic ending. I never wanted for everything to be solved neither for everything to end on a depressing note. The only thing I ever asked for was that the finale was fair and made sense.

But unfortunately, what happened was the exact opposite.

Everything that happened after the 3 years time skip was a big whatever and the only thing that comforts me is that Armin is alive, and Historia seems happy with her child. 

I still don’t understand why Reiner and Annie were so easily accepted. I mean, at least Reiner showed huge amounts of regret and we saw how he dealt with the trauma that everything caused to him (although now he's back to being a creep for Historia? Ew). But Annie? She herself admitted she would do the same shit all over again no problem, and why was she tearing after talking to Eren in the PATHS? Didn’t she say a few chapters ago that if they had to kill him, she wouldn’t hesitate and was almost judging Mikasa and Armin for not thinking the same way? Excuse me Annie, but what made you so emotional all of the sudden? 

Then we learn that the world is still a very dangerous place for Eldians and Paradis; the yeagerists are in charge of the military force and will swoop the alliance’s ass very easily if they find them chilling outside. And my question is: killing 80%of the population lead to this? Really? At any moment, Eldians can be exterminated, this is even worst than before!? They don’t have proper military training, the world still doesn’t like them and the alliance ambassadors or whatever are not very liked either sooo...I truly don’t understand the point of this. Now, don’t get me wrong: I never liked the Rumbling plan because as Hange said, "There's never a good enough reason for committing genocide", and I also always believed the Rumbling would make everyone else hate Eldians even more. But if 80% of people had to have their lives taken, at least don’t let it go to waste!?

Anyways, going back to when they’re still at war.

So Eren went around everyone’s mind and now everyone cries for him. A little late, but sure.

Everyone who was transformed into a titan is back, making the previous chapter be even more useless. Imagine reading the volume, get some shock value with Jean, Connie and everyone else becoming titans just to turn the page and they are back. I mean, I thought it was really unfair Jean died (and I hope he’s not arranging his hair for when they meet Mikasa) but having him and everyone else coming back like this is just....dumb? 

The fact we had Eren’s intentions explained this way makes the whole situation even messier. From his conversation with Armin to the road trip he did through people’s memories, it was just a big dump of information that did nothing but pull out a wtf from me. I think it would be a lot better if we saw a POV like the one from chapter 131, more honest and raw being that we would be seeing his true thoughts with no outside opinions and questioning. But this whole mess felt so, so displaced that for two seconds I wondered if they were all going crazy, Eren included. 

And I will never accept that Eren “killed” his mom for the sake of whatever the heck this became. Just no. Carla was Eren’s most important person, the one who said he was special simply for being born, and you want to convince me she had to be pulled into this mess because of some weird shit Ymir had going on with Mikasa, and Eren had to follow through?? This was cheap shock value that didn’t even shock because of how nonsense it is. The scene in which Eren asks Reiner why did his mom have to die lost all of its value and weight. How can one rewatch or reread snk, see the tragic and emotional scene where a 10 year old kid cries and screams as he see his mom be EATEN BY A TITAN and feel anything at all? Honestly, what a disrespect to Carla. Someone should have told her Yeagers can’t be trusted.

Speaking of Yeagers: Grisha, your kids are a mess. Come take responsibility for this-

Besides the fact that Zeke was killed for absolutely NOTHING, Eren’s character became a joke on a dozen of panels. More than angry, I’m shocked with how Isayama pulled this off. From having one of the best MC in modern shounen to having a pathetic little idiot that doesn’t know wtf he’s doing and has an intense unresolved crush on the girl he’s always had zero chemistry with. Legit I would be less surprised if he said he had a crush on fucking Connie, for god’sake. All of his motives, ideals and determination were sacrificed in sake of complete obnoxious notions of love I’m not even gonna ramble about here. And don't come at me with the whole "Oh bUt hE's JuSt A tEeNaGeR aNd DoEsN't UnDeRsTaNd HiS eMoTiOnS aNd WaS hIdInG hIs LoVe FoR mIkAsA". That's a cheap explanation for a cheap argument for a cheap mess that makes no sense. If you’re an Eren stan, I’m so sorry. I don’t know what happened but I feel your pain.

Last but certainly not least: Mikasa and Ymir.

I could say so much about these two but to sum it up: what a miserable duo. I’m not head over heels for Mikasa but I thought she had her place in the story and could have had some good character development. But ever since the timeskip, I had a feeling it wasn’t going to happen and it really didn’t. If Isayama chose this way for her because there’s a message between the lines, I don’t care because this was the last chapter and we all wanted answers. So we’re working with what we have laid down plain which is: Mikasa had a miserable ending, can’t let go of Eren and is stuck in the past. Her so called “selfless” love and obsession towards Eren is a very unhealthy response to her own traumas. This connection between her and Ymir just proves even further what I said as both of them are devoted to a love that never gave back and deeply hurt them in more ways than it’s apparent.

And still on Ymir’s topic, I don’t understand why she now has stockholm syndrome towards that nasty, disgusting, waste of human being king when the plot was setting her up in a complete different direction!? That whole talk of Eren finally freeing her from being a slave to the royal family, and giving her the chance of choosing her own path, where did all of that go!? What was that chapter for!? All of this buildup just because she was waiting for Mikasa?

Where has the entire talk about “everyone deserves freedom because they were born into this world” go? Why has a theme bigger than any of the characters gotten reduced to “waiting for Mikasa to decide herself about her feelings ‘cause omg tragic loooovee story”??? This just makes the deaths of everyone, and the scouts look completely useless. That Ramzi kid really died for this...

I swear, what a mess.

Overall, if you read this chapter in one go and then sigh relief as snk is finally over, this ending will probably be okay or just meh. I’m not angry or anything near that. Just disappointed and shocked that these two last chapters were this bad. Again, even if there are hidden messages between the lines, this is the last chapter and we shouldn’t have to be debating that. It’s okay to pull out a bunch of foreshadowing and questioning and whatnot in your story but to leave things in the open with the most weird messages and morals on the surface is just...blergh.

[victoriareyloficlists]

19 February 2021 Additions to Reylo Fluff

These fics have been added to the Fluff lists located in the following lists:

Fluff Part 1 Titles A-G

Fluff Part 2 Titles H-M

Fluff Part 3 Titles N-S

Fluff Part 4 Titlez T-Z

Peacock by AttackoftheDarkCurses (AO3 2019  Rated E Complete, 22 Chapters, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Thanks to a series of misunderstandings, failed attempts at flirting, and loud Katy Perry music, Ben grows to hate his new neighbor. Proposing to her wasn't the best solution to his problems.) Prank Wars by Hellyjellybean (AO3 2020  Rated E Complete, 5 Chapters, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: An office AU where Ben and Rey are office rivals pranking each other, & she sends him a glitter bomb.) Go And Catch A Falling Star Chapter 52 by Ayearandaday (AO3 2021  Rated M Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: The mysterious disappearance of a Good Boy Sweater.) Chef's kiss by BSib (AO3 2019  Rated M Complete, 6 Chapters, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Ben wants to learn how to cook and he feeds Rey all the leftovers. She doesn't realize he is in love with her and after learning about her upbringing he tries to ensure there won't be a day when she is hungry.) Of Coffee, Corgis, and Cats by starspangledbisexual (AO3 2021  Rated G Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Rey would do anything for Finn- and by extension, Finn's boyfriend Poe and his adorable corgi, BeeBee. That includes covering Finn's shift when BeeBee goes missing. Throw a handsome customer, some convenient coincidences, and a very surly cat into the mix, and Rey's Tuesday afternoon turns out to be a lot more interesting than she thought it would be.) Go And Catch A Falling Star Chapter 54 by Ayearandaday (AO3 2021  Rated T Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Rey has an perfect boyfriend, too bad he's fictional.) Go And Catch A Falling Star Chapter 55 by Ayearandaday (AO3 2021  Rated T Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Ben shares with Rey the thing that cheers him up.) My Boss Needs to Get Laid! by Hellyjellybean (AO3 2021  Rated M Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Rose and Hux are PAs for the worst workaholics ever Rey and Ben. They decide to set thier bosses up by sending then on the same business conference, 'accidentally' booking one honeymoon suite in spa-resort, one bed and all.) Snacks by LadySkywalker77 (AO3 2021  Rated T Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Based on a prompt by @reylo_Prompts "They’re at a black tie party hosted by a Resistance patron and the food is meh. Rey beckons Ben to a corner where she offers him snacks she's brought in her dress's pockets. This is it, the moment he knows he’s in love with Rey.") But I Do by SpaceWaffleHouseTM (AO3 2019  Rated E Complete, 8 Chapters, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Rey and Ben get married at the same venue at the same time. When both are left at the altar, they decide to flip life off and marry each other.) To Have and to Hold by bunilicious (AO3 2018  Rated E Complete, 5 Chapters, Medieval AU, Quick Synopsis: “Your husband is gravely injured, my lady.” The envoy’s words should have pleased Lady Rey. After all, her husband was one of the dreaded Norman barons who invaded her beloved country and claimed the lands in the name of the bastard who now called himself king. Ben Solo had stormed her uncle’s keep, killed all the men who opposed their new conquerors, and claimed the stronghold for his own. He took the keep, he took the surrounding lands and, at the new king’s orders, took Rey to wife. Rey should have hated him. But, in the six months following their hasty and undesirable marriage, Rey found that hatred for her new husband was the furthest emotion from her heart and mind.) Nonsense & Nuptials by thehobbem (AO3 2021  Rated T Complete, 2 Chapters, Regency AU, Quick Synopsis: Rey is the ward of Leia and Admiral Han Solo. She lives alongside Ben Solo who is the victim of her repeated attempts at matchmaking. But her scheming reveals more about her own feelings and fears that she's missed out on something very important.) forever valentine by bellestar (AO3 2021  Rated G Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Ben makes a confession in his wedding speech. He knew he was going to marry Rey when he and Rey were 4 years old and she gave him a Valentine she made and colored herself. And 21 years later, he still has that Valentine.) Stone Hollow by violethoure666 (AO3 2018  Rated E Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Ben and Rey have been tasked with convincing a very grumpy old man to let them use his private road for a bus route. They’re stuck in the middle of nowhere and there’s only one room at the inn *smirk emoji*) A Heavenly Holiday by ElleRen31 (AO3 2018  Rated T Complete, 4 Chapters, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Ben Solo needs to find Christmas gifts for his family. At a local department store, he finds more than he bargains for.) Let It Be Me by elemie89 (AO3 2018  Rated E Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Ben Solo has found the perfect Christmas tree. Only problem is, someone else thinks it’s a perfect tree too.) If the Fates Allow by dawninthemtn (AO3 2018  Rated T Complete, 6 Chapters, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Leia Organa is the most successful matchmaker in the world and renowned creator of irresistible.com, where she built an algorithm so airtight her corporate headquarters is wallpapered with wedding announcements. To her chagrin, the only person she’s never been able to set up is her own son, Ben. But she has an employee named Rey that she has decided is Ben’s perfect match, so she hatches a plan to set them up. Unbeknownst to his mother, Ben has set up an anonymous profile on irresistible.com and has been writing his match Rey for months.) smothered, covered, chunked by SecretReyloTrash (BadOldWest) (AO3 2018  Rated T Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Ben is a painfully shy college student. Rey is the fellow insomniac next door. He finally gets to see where she goes in the middle of the night when he hears her leave the dorm.) Homecoming by ItsALilah (AO3 2018  Rated E Complete, 2 Chapters, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: After disaster rips through his hometown, Ben Solo finally comes home to surprise his parents at their annual Christmas Eve party. And if he's hoping to run into Rey, the girl he's secretly been pining for since high school, that would be... cool. Although he'll never make a move, not while her over-protective older brother - and Ben's best friend - is around. But when Ben makes it home, not only does he find himself reconnecting with his friends and family, but fate itself seems to be pushing him and Rey together (thanks to a ridiculous amount of mistletoe).) Keep On Giving by MaryMonster (AO3 2018  Rated E Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Rey is eagerly awaiting the delivery of her Christmas present, a luxury vibrator. There’s only one problem – it was accidentally delivered to her neighbor, Ben Solo. A cozy Christmas Reylo fic full of fluff and smut.) Merry Christmas, I'm Yours by captain_staryeyed (AO3 2018  Rated T Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: After finding out that Rey has nowhere to go for Christmas, Ben invites her to spend Christmas at his parents’ house. During the time spent together, they are forced to confront their growing feelings toward each other.) All I Want for Christmas (Is Smut) by MizuPhoenix (AO3 2018  Rated E Complete, 2 Chapters, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: All Ben Solo wanted for Christmas was to lose his V-Card. Only, the reason he was still thirty years old and hadn't lost it yet was all due to one Rey Jackson. His very best friend. Rey wanted quite a lot of things for Christmas this year. All of them involving her first friend (and love of her life) Ben Solo.With meddling friends trying to bring the oblivious pair some Christmas cheer, this was going to be a very Smutty Christmas.) Gelt by RebelRebel (AO3 2018  Rated G Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: "I only need a few minutes of your time," she continued, voice faltering slightly under his gaze. "To discuss my proposal for the purchase and refurbishment of the Plutt Orphanage in Brooklyn Heights– " In which Rey works with Kylo Ren, Advocacy Director of the Organa Foundation, to spread a little Chrismukkah cheer.) The Mistake of the Mailman by CadomirBane (AO3 2018  Rated G Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: Rey's on-campus university address is 'Box 324 Mulberry St, The Bryant Center.' Ben Solo's address is '324 Mulberry St.' And she keeps getting this poor guy's mail.) That Is My Cat by LoveThemFiercely (AO3 2018  Rated G Complete, One-Shot, Modern AU, Quick Synopsis: "Excuse me but that 'stray cat' you're trying to 'adopt'? Is my pet.")

[erinhime83]

Okay, this is being put up at the request of @callistochan87.  Which...fair enough, since I was actually going to do something with this a few days ago before my muse shifted onto something else *shrugs*

Because I am notorious for being cryptic in these things to the point where future me never has a clue what the hell I had planned, I figured, for her sake, I'll write down stuff in case I look back on this later and had forgotten what I had planned.  Bleh.So, anyway, @callistochan87 has been trying to convince me to make ES an original sci-fi story for a while now. Which...I've been fighting her on merely because the uniforms are so pretty, but at the same time, I can make the story work without the magical girl aspect.  And writing magical girl stories was easier back when this was created because of the influx of fan-fics out there.  So that might be one reason this story has been sitting in limbo for the past ten+ years.

Sooo...a bit of history/plot.  About 1000 years ago, the planet of Novis was at the end of a civil war.  The Realm of Spirits had been taken over by a rogue demon who they called Lady Spirit, because they never learned her real name, who had been trying to conquer the entire planet while pretending to be the priestess of Spirits.  The other priestesses managed to defeat her, but all they could do was seal her away.  They knew eventually she was going to be able to break free, and that the only person who could truly defeat her was the priestess of light.Now, the problem is that the priestess of light had been missing for millennia, so the rulers of the other kingdoms, save for one, decided that they needed to go and find the missing priestess.  They've been searching planet to planet, living the lifespans of the people as they search.  The latest planet is Earth.

The people of Novis have been living fairly peacefully this entire time, but have just started getting reports that Lady Spirit has either started to break free, or is about to.  So the last remaining priestess sends messengers in order call back her sisters so they could take on the threat.  But the problem is no one knows who they are or what they look like.

So the basic plot of the story is searching for the reincarnated priestesses while also fighting the demons Lady Spirit sends to stop the messengers/priestesses, and then, ya know, preparing for Lady Spirit's return while also lowkey looking for the priestess of light as well (which is not Adrianna, if that's what you're thinking).

So the first set of designs is the main designs of their human forms. 

Adrianna Roderick: main character, about 16-17.  She's just this average high school girl who gets caught up in this nonsense because she finds Celedonia.  She mostly agrees to it because she kind of feels bad for Celedonia, and wants to help after hearing her story.

Jake O'Reilly: love interest, about 16-17.  He's also this average high school kid, although he's considered extremely popular for reasons he doesn't understand.  He's Addy's best friend since they were babies, since they grew up next door to each other, and he gets involved because Addy's involved.  And he's been in love with her for quite some time, so he's not about to let her do something dangerous without him.

Melanie Roland: best friend, about 16-17.  She's, well, she's the true priestess of spirits, although none of the other priestesses realize that she's been following them.  She cares deeply for both Addy and Jake, and is a general all around nice girl, for the most part.  She's the main reason Addy, and Jake by extension, end up traveling to Novis with the others.

Isabel Easton: the leader, about 17-18.  She's the most popular girl at school (or was, depending on how old I make them).  Everyone loves Isabel.  This is mostly because she's actually the priestess of water, who lead the other priestesses.  She's sort of iffy about Addy and Jake helping out at first, but she quickly comes around.

Tessa Easton: the leader's sister, about 15-16.  She's an extreme tomboy, very into sports and the like.  She and Isabel get along extremely well despite being complete and utter opposites.  In fact, it’s best not to make fun of Tessa, because Isabel will end you if you do.  Tessa is the priestess of earth, and she and the priestess of water were sisters on Novis as well.

Natsumi Fukioka: the smart one, about 18-19.  She’s the oldest of the group, and was born in Japan rather that the US.  She obviously made it a point to get her butt over to the US to meet up with the others, and she’s an international college student.  She’s also the priestess of fire.

Rachel Hamilton: ???, about 14-15.  She’s the youngest of the group, and was born in England.  But she moved to the US when she was very young because of her father’s business, so she was basically raised American.  Addy sort of knows about her prior to all this because her younger brother has a crush on her.  She’s also the priestess of lightning.

The next set of designs is basically how they look on Novis.  So, ya know, the priestesses get their original hair color back, asand then Addy and Jake get theirs thanks to being introduced to magic or some such nonsense.  I really, really like how these designs come out.  I might do something later (maybe) showing what they really, really looked like in the past, but *shrug*.  I was honestly just trying to come up with outfit designs as well as figuring out their original hair colors.

So the priestess’ names are: Spira, Naida, Demetra, Ignia, and Eletra.

The last set are just the random extra characters of the story.

Zephira: she’s the priestess that was left behind to watch over Novis and the one who sent Celedonia and Aquarius in order to let the others know about Lady Spirit’s reawakening.

Celedonia: she’s sort of the main messenger, and Zephira’s younger sister.   She took on the from of the bird there to disguise herself for whatever reason, and was attacked by something which lead her to Addy’s window.  She decides she needs some help finding the priestesses, which is why she asks Addy and Jake to assist her. 

Aquarius: he’s the other messenger sent, although he was sent by the actual people of Novis.  he takes on the form of the cat there.  He actually comes upon Isabel extremely fast, but she doesn’t quite want to go back just yet, so she pretty much keeps him a secret for a while.  He has a crush on Celedonia, although he doesn’t really want to admit it.

Felina: one of Lady Spirit’s minions who was sent to Earth in order to find the priestesses and kill them before they could return to Novis.  She’s, for the most part, a pacifistic, not really wanting to fight, but knowing in order to survive, she has to stay on Lady Spirit’s good side.  She’s a fairly young demon, all things considered, and prone to failure.

Mukesh: the other one of Lady Spirit’s minions who was sent to Earth.  He was a general in her army during the initial attack, and was just sent back to the Realm of Spirits rather than sealed like she was. where he found Felina.  He joined her again because he felt like it was his duty.  He’s completely in love with Felina, and does whatever he can to keep her safe, helping with her failures the best that he can.

Lady Spirit: the villain.  No one is quite sure where she came from, but she somehow managed to overthrow the sitting priestess and her family when Spira was rather young.  The other priestesses honestly thought she was the priestess of spirits for the longest time, until she started the war with the other kingdoms. 

So...yeah.  I realize that’s just sort of a lot for three pictures, but meh. 

(Originally, Zephira and Celedonia were going to have fairy wings, and Aquarius had gills, but I didn’t want to think of the ‘special features’ of the other people, so now they’re just, ya know, human looking aliens who have the ability to use magic.)

(Oh, and I think it’s funny looking back at old pictures and other ES stuff where I’m like TESSA IS NOT A LESBIAN, SHE TOTALLY LIKES GUYS, and now I’m like, lol, guess what?)

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Something to Uplift Us

Ao3,  MasterPost

Relationships:  Romantic DLAMPR (Roman-centric, kinda Remus-centric), platonic Creativitwins!!!

Do I like this??? Meh. Is it something that I wrote? Yes. I will heal myself from SVS-R with Fluff.

Warnings: Remus Typical Nonsense, swearing, mentions of being in Quarantine, all sympathetic sides, non-sexual Pole Dancing

Word Count: 2,667 

Roman was the essence of romance and it showed. For his entire existence, he'd been well acquainted with the hypothetical. If he were his own person, if he had a prince of his own, if he had the chance at a romantic relationship, he knew what he would do. Roman knew relationships, he always had, and it had tortured him to know that he'd never have one.

Which was why it frustrated him to no end that he hadn’t been the one to ask out his fellow sides. He’d honestly never thought that it would be an option. When he first developed his feelings for the others- Virgil, Patton, Logan, Janus, in that order- he had felt nothing more than excitement. He was giddy, he was light-headed, just to know that he could feel that way. He would spend hours daydreaming, just musing over the way they made his heart stop, but he never hoped for anything to come of it. He wasn’t sad, or mournful, or pining per se- just so caught up in the joy of feelings that he forgot that he could do something with them. 

So he thought about it a lot, suffice to say. And all he had now was time to think; it was nearly month three of quarantine. Roman had wrung his brain out like a sponge for anything new to think about- The Imagination was practically turning gray! He tried to tend to it, truly he did, but it was getting harder every day. Creativity's fellow sides had all busied themselves taking up new hobbies- Virgil was teaching Patton to draw, Janus had learnt embroidery, Logan took up knitting, Remus made trash sculptures… They all seemed to be having their own little renaissance (complete with plague), and what was Roman doing? Wasting valuable free time!

  In a fit of desperation, the artistic trait dived under his large canopy bed, rummaging around until his hand caught on the lip of a cardboard box. With no small amount of effort, he pulled the enormous container out from under his bed so that it could be properly examined. There, piled high in the box, were dozens of notebooks and sketchbooks- all of which filled to the brim with writing, drawings, and poetry. Having no clue what he was specifically looking for, Roman upended the box and watched the contents crash to the floor. Something in here would surely spark his mind! Perhaps some old work would catch his eye and inspire some redraws!

The side hadn't needed to search for long. Right at the top of the pile- bright pink, its cover dotted with puffy heart stickers- sat a large, spiral-bound sketchbook. You could almost see the light bulb pop up over Roman’s head as he squealed and snatched up the sketchbook. Flopping down onto his bed, he flipped it open in one hand and placed the other against his chest. 

“Ooh, some of my best,” he cooed to no one in particular, gaze turned to the dozens of love poems surrounded by little doodles of hearts that filled the pages. This was the journal he’d confided in before the sides had all officially begun their relationship, filled with flowery prose about anything from Janus’ scales to Patton’s smile; from Logan’s laugh to Virgil’s freckles (a rare sight, usually hidden by make-up). Roman was so lost in nostalgia that when the ideas hit him, he nearly fell out of bed in excitement at his own thoughts.

Of course! He could take all of these old writings and compose them together, into one eloquent amalgam that would illustrate perfectly all those things that he’d been unable to articulate in the beginning! And it seemed only fitting that such a soliloquy be delivered in The Imagination- in the most gorgeous scenario he could fabricate! Somewhere open to a starry sky, for his left-brained loves- but it had to have ornate architecture, of course, and it had to be cozy. Oh, it was all coming together now.

Roman leapt out of bed, posing with his hand above his head and sinking deeper into The Mindscape extravagantly. He didn’t waste time looking around at the depressing half-formed scenery, sweeping his arms up and erasing the entirety of his half of The Imagination. Time to get to work.

Remus was stretched across the Commons couch, his head in Janus’ lap and feet in Logan’s. The TV hummed with whatever show they’d thrown on as background noise, and a few feet away at the counter, Patton and Virgil were hovering over some sort of scrapbook.  Nobody had the energy for conversation; nobody had the energy for anything. 

It was magnificently boring. The Duke already filled up an entire sketchbook, written half a dozen shamelessly smutty self-insert fanfictions, constructed and subsequently destroyed eldritch beings in his room, and bothered his boyfriends. So, all that was left to do was doze.

It didn’t help Remus’ tired state that Janus was running his fingers through his hair. The monotonous waking world was finally slipping away. Maybe there was something buried in his dreams that could hold his attention.

But just before sleep took hold, a white-hot energy ran through the trait’s body, jolting him so suddenly that he tumbled off of the couch and onto the floor. His arms and legs were all pins-and-needles as he looked up at his very concerned partners.

“There’s fuckery afoot!” Remus announced, wide-eyed. He pulled himself up and grinned, “You guys stay here!” 

Without so much as a good-bye, Remus threw himself into the ground, saving himself the time of sinking out properly. After a moment’s silence, Janus resumed working on his embroidery. 

“Should we go see what that was about?” Patton asked tentatively. 

“Meh,” the three other sides responded in unison. After a moment, Janus added, “It is Remus, after all.”

Roman’s structure was coming together beautifully! Wide marble columns rose up and held aloft the glimmering silver ceiling, the middle of which was a sky-light open to thousands of stars and a brilliant full moon. Surrounding the opening was a spiral of stone roof- through the gaps of which even more astronomically accurate stars shone!

The inside of the building consisted of an immense mahogany stage, currently cloaked by thick velvet curtains and overlooking plenty of seats. Rather than traditional theater rows, Roman had arranged the seating like lovely cafe tables, all of which were given generous space from each other (Except for two at the very front, of course). Lanterns hung from the walls, casting the space in warm lighting. Creativity currently stood at the very back, thinking that it could use just a little more of something. With a smirk, the side snapped his fingers and the wall of the room was pushed backwards several yards. With a few more flicks of the wrist and dividing columns, a little lobby was formed. 

He’d given the theater room maroon carpeting and rich gray walls, but the new back section needed brighter lighting and a more cream-canary color scheme. Now he could just finish the decor!

Or he would have, if not for the fact that at that moment someone crashed into his ribs with all the grace of a flaming motorbike. 

“BRO!!!”

“ACK-!” was all Roman managed, as all the wind was knocked out of him. He glared up at his brother, who was sitting on his chest. 

“I knew you were up to something! You wiped half of the whole fucking Imagination! What is this!?” 

Roman wheezed, pushed Remus off of his chest, and finally pulled himself off the ground to catch his breath. His brother was spinning around the room already, eyes sparkling as he took in the building.

“I had to blank it, I needed my full focus,” Roman explained, back to work and filling the back wall with tall bookshelves, “and it’s a surprise, so don’t tell the others.”

“Oh, I won’t. Provided you let me in on whatever this is,” Remus had an ear-to-ear grin, bouncing on the balls of his feet. After a moment’s consideration, Roman hummed.

“I’m doing something nice for our boyfriends. I think we all could use a little pick-me-up, so do not ruin this!”

“I wanna do something nice for them! Lemme help!” 

“You don’t even know what it’s for! Plus, it’s personal!”

“I already asked what it was for, Stupid.”

Roman huffed.

“I wrote them something. Hence the stage.”

“So, what, you’re gonna bring them all into your fancy library-opera for your poetry orgy and I sit in a corner somewhere and be quiet?”

“Ideally.”

“Not a chance, Whore!” Remus swung himself up onto the concession stand that Roman had just created, tearing into a box of candy (food made in The Imagination always tasted weirder than food or ingredients they conjured elsewhere in the Mindscape, but he didn’t particularly mind). 

“Fine. What do you want to do?” Roman challenged, hands on his hips.

“I. Want. To. Help.”

Roman raised his eyebrows doubtfully. Grumbling, his twin started gesturing around the room as he spoke.

“The stars are too bright, they take the focus away from the stage instead of accenting it. The color of the curtains are too similar to the carpet. You’ve got Corinthian shit in there and bookstore lobby vibes in here, which is garbage and inconsistent.”

Roman blinked, his eyes following along with Remus’ criticism. 

“Hm. You have a point.”

“I’m Creativity too, you know. I have some taste.” The Duke said, gnawing on the cardboard box that had contained Imagination Candy moments before. 

“You’re wearing crocs and jorts, simultaneously.”

Remus waved his hand dismissively, hopping off the counter and rushing across the room.

“Whatever. Come on, I’ve got an idea how I can accompany your performance, too.”

“Oh, goody.”

Hours had past and little had changed in the Mindscape living room- Virgil and Patton had finished up their scrapbooking and were curled up together in an armchair, so Logan was sitting at the counter space previously occupied by the two and clacking away on his laptop, and Janus hadn’t moved. The muddled energy of the room had remained pervasive.

That was, until the door to the imagination slammed open, the doorknob cracking against the wall. Four heads shot up to see Remus and Roman, standing side-by-side (quite looking the part of identical twins, matching smiles and all). 

“Oh god,” Janus groaned instinctively, carefully setting his embroidery on a side table, “What did you two do?”

“Yeah, I don’t trust that look,” Virgil said.

The twins scoffed in mock-offense, continuing their odd coordination.

“We try to do something nice,” exclaimed Remus.

“And not so much as a ‘thank you,’” added Roman solemnly. Eyes were rolled, but Patton perked up considerably (just as planned). 

“Ooo, what are you talking about?” 

“It’s a surprise!” Said The Duke, bouncing up and down. Creativity Prime gave a sweeping motion to indicate the still-open door to the Imagination, which had been steadily seeping into the common room with a bright new energy that it had been lacking for days. 

“Follow us,” he instructed, disappearing through the door once more with Remus at his back. Patton bounced after them immediately, grinning. 

The three left-brained sides exchanged glances, shrugged, and followed suit. 

The twins were backstage in an instant, trusting their partners to figure out where their seats were on their own. Roman began pacing around as soon as they finished warming up. 

“Are you sure you can do this? I’m still not sure if your performance is well-suited to acoustic guitar-”

He was cut off by Remus groaning exaggeratedly.

“I can work with anything, bitch.” 

“Right, right,” There was a beat. “You’re sure you’re ready?”

“I’ve been ready. What’s going on with you?”

Rather than responding, Roman did another lap around the stage. 

“C’mon! Stop pacing before I take a bonesaw to your legs!”

“Okay! Alright! I’m ready!”

Before Remus could come up with any more gruesome threats, Roman snapped his fingers and the curtains began to rise. He took his place half-sitting on a stool up front, a guitar in his arms. Behind him, Remus stood between two sturdy metal poles that rose from the stage and into the ceiling. You can already see where this is going.

When the stage was fully revealed, the lights above the audience dimmed. Figuring that the show would be rather awkward if said audience consisted of four people, the Creativities had The Imagination render dozens of prop-people. They moved and acted like a crowd of humans, but each individual was too vague to focus on for long. Thus it was made very clear where their fellow sides were, sitting right up front with a wide array of expressions from amazed to amused to bewildered.

Roman took a moment to steel himself and then began playing. Originally, he’d planned on spoken-word for his loves, but traditionally there is music involved in pole-dancing, so he’d made a few adjustments in order for Remus to be able to contribute. 

Roman started singing, melting as the gazes of the real audience members turned awestruck (and also very flushed, likely from whatever surprisingly impressive poses his brother was pulling behind him). He liked to think that he poured his heart out into every performance, but for this one it felt quite literal. 

Roman’s voice picked up gradually, and he could vaguely hear metal clanging behind him. It went on like that for a good few minutes- because if there was one thing the Twins weren’t, it was brief- before the show finally concluded. Roman stalled for a moment as both the imaginary and real components of the audience applauded uproariously. Remus swung down from the pole and hopped over to him.

“We bow now, Dumbass,” he hissed, noticeably out of breath.

“Oh- right.”

They took hands and took a couple bows as the clapping died down, standing back up with wide grins and red faces. 

As soon as the auditorium was relatively silent, Patton rushed the stage. He outstretched his arms and hopped up and down excitedly.

“Lemme up!” 

Roman grabbed his hands and pulled him on stage while Remus was still attempting to catch his breath. Morality leaned down to give The Prince a brief kiss, and then bounced over to the much more exhausted half of the act to give him the same treatment. He was grinning so wide that it looked painful, his face a bright pink. The Duke wore a matching expression, but the smile was much more unnatural in that preferred way of his.

“So you liked it?”

Rather than verbally responding, Patton grabbed the hands of both Creativities and made a cheerful ribbiting sound.

“It was wonderful,” Logan supplied, climbing the stairs on the side of the stage to meet them, Virgil and Janus right behind him. He was much less outwardly enthusiastic as the other spectacled side, but no less appreciative.

“Yeah, did you guys put all this together today?” Virgil asked, throwing an arm around Roman’s shoulders. 

“What else did we have to do?” Remus answered with a shrug. 

“Good point.”

Janus cleared his throat lightly, immediately drawing everyone’s attention. His eyes were noticeably rimmed with redness, a small smile on his face as he outstretched all of his arms.

“Here, all of you, now.”

Patton cooed.

“Group hug!” 

Fitting six people into one hug may seem awkward, but it always seemed to work out for the sides. At least, Roman thought so. Virgil would fake exasperation at the affection, but they could all tell he loved it. Logan would try to maintain his dignity and fail miserably. Patton was a ball of warmth and energy that seeped into the rest of them. Janus was by far the best at giving hugs, though it could be considered cheating to have extra limbs.

At that moment it hit Roman that, perhaps he hadn’t started this relationship, but he was still a part of it. And that was all he could ever want.

These    Performances    inspired Remus’. They are oddly calming to watch, and super impressive!

@shrimp-crockpot