#this is abt my last post but i didnt want to rb it on bc i didnt want people to rb that lol

[hairscare]

hes repenting

[cubedmango]

sorry in advance for the spamming that may happen next week when i watch the bbs os2 ep . the brainrot might be returning after a long slumber

[originsofevil]

Intro <3 !

I go by Michelangelo or any variation of that

(usually michael/mikey but names dont mean much to me)

but i recently found out that i'm the host of a system so if any tags are signed off with a different name thats why

dont care too much abt pronouns but i typically use he/him, ve/vir, and xe/xir/xem. mix it up, get creative. typically dont use she/her but ynever know

body is 21, we're an aries if u wanna make any judgement off of that, autistic + adhd if that wasnt obvious

i do post occasional nfsw/suggestive content, never anything too crazy but if youre a minor id prefer if you didnt interact with those posts, i have no way of enforcing this as i dont check my notifs unless theres tags but i am a full adult, i do pay rent and bills and taxes. on that topic i probably wont follow you if youre under like. 16/17ish. no hard feelings i just am an adult and im not around kids very much as the 2nd youngest of 4 so. if youre under 16 dont do drugs stay in school all that good stuff. i love you, go to bed on time. i've been on this website since i was 11 and it shows. dont be me.

dms are always open ! i'm not amazing at holding a conversation unless its abt my current hyperfixation (rn its zelda/lu) but i love to yap. if you follow me and we're not mutuals dm/ask me and ill follow back! I don't rly pay attention to my followers so i typically don't follow ppl unless theyre consistently posting abt one of my interests and i remember to

I talk in the tags a LOT feel free to <- prev or rb addressing my tags but i typically assume no one will read them all the way through. i'm writing whole essays. im oversharing. call op a college admissions office bc I'm telling my whole life story. if my tags make you uncomfortable on your post please let me know and i will apologize/delete them if you wish. i dont have a concept of tmi and tend to misread/miss social cues/the vibes so i apologize if i misstep

please let me know if i reblog any stolen artwork/ai generated anything/ etc

‼️‼️i am not spoiler free for anything (even if i myself havent seen the content) i dont have any sort of tagging system ‼️

list of my active fandoms! old hyperfixations tend to creep up on me so this is not complete

- bungo stray dogs (bsd beast fans pls follow me i adore beast)

- legend of zelda (all games + lu/links meet aus)(legend fans pspspsp)

- the witcher (mainly the show but i got attached to a character thats not even actually in any of the games. aiden i love you.)

- cars (2006, 2011, 2017)(yes entirely unironically)

- Voltron legendary defender. (again. yes. unironically.)

- star wars (mainly the main series and animation since i havent read thr or played the games)

- jujutsu kaisen (2nd years stan)

- the magnus archives (gerry delano fans i love you)

- percy jackson (mainly the books and musical, i dont care for the show much but i adore the actors)

- gravity falls ! (i actually just got into this like, last month. binged the whole series in like a week at age 21.)

- my hero academia (my hs best friend made me watch s1 and i got attached to aizawa hawks and the todorokis sorry)(im convinced the todorokis were based on my family. im literally natsuo. dont ask abt dabi unless u think you're prepared)

Non Fandom Interests

- I write ! once i start uploading ill link my ao3 here but its rough out here (microsoft word)

- I draw ! i mightve posted my art a few times but as i mentioned i dont have any tagging system so maybe I'll make one for art or link another social at some point

- this mostly falls under loz but i love video games :3 i MOSTLY play loz but animal crossing, minecraft, and random silly da games ive collected over the years are my pride and joy. i want to play the witcher games but i have assassins creed black flag and im really bad at it. (i only have nintendo consoles (ds, 3ds, switch) rn but i want a decent pc at some point. the sims calls to me.

- Politics! my politics are very important to me as a leftist so if you're right wing we will not get along. if i find out that youre racist/homophobic/transphobic/a zionist (i am jewish)/sexist/etc i will probably block you. id say no hard feelings but i dint mean that.

I will probably update this as needed/whenever i remember to <3 ty if u read this and i love you have a great day

[essiekuko]

'yk carl ur just like the son i never had. bc ur so UNLIKE the son i DID HAVE. come on out here monty, ur so amazing!' HELPPP

carl was so real. im evil for extra credit too dw 🤣🤣

imagine being a retired blogger. so excited

i thinkkk nessa and monty broke up cause he was gettin rlly busy working for the agency

WAITTT they were in the new p&f poster tg. omfg hope

yall b grateful now i practically manifested a new season cause i got hyperfixated on the 'getting the band back tg' episode last year (i attached myself to bobby fabulous lmfaooo)

WAITTT OMFG THEY HAD LIKE ONE GYARU CHARACTER IN P&F AND I WANT HER BACK!!!!

i love how aesthetics have not jst become a style, they're more like a lifestyle now. cause theres no explanation for why a picture of lipgloss is cottagecore. its girly and pink and light and feminine, and thats cottagecore. im too deep into the 'it takes obsession to be great' bc my obessions bought on by my 3d are what i believe is the only way i can be great. hunger hurts, but st4rv1ng works.

also not me being excited abt new p&f and then boom, health check up lmfao. rllyyy concerned for ppl who search for the innocent keywords in this post and then come across well. pro 4n4. tumblr u may be mad but this is ur doing with that post limit. now i cant segregate my topics. i gotta throw in my 3d discussions with a post abt a kid's cartoon. i rlly told myself i'd stop being so childish this yr in prep for when i turn 18. but its like, im js gonna bury it all and not actually mature. and thats not good i think? idk, better than having childish interests at 18.......srry ppl i offend, im talking abt myself not y'all. its just an insecurity, not being adult enough. but like, times are changing i guess. and im not insane abt these interests, cause theyre just lil things i find interesting, but im not so passionate abt them

im kinda glad j timbers went to the slammer. cause it means trolls 3 is the last trolls movie and they literally could not make a better movie than that. its usually, in trilogies, the 2nd is the best and 3rd is the worst. but in the, hopefully, trolls trilogy, 3rd is best and 2nd is worst.

i rb like 1 insane interests post on main and then go back to mass reblogging coquette lmfao. talk abt a coverup

OMFG WAIT DID I TELL YALL ABT MY BIG FEAR OF PRISMO

im very fortunate to have grown up in a kind primary skl. or yk, been in a popular friend group lmfao. cause my weird kid interests weren't considered weird, but they were pretty popular/widely liked at my skl unlike majority of other skls unfortunately. ppl liked my art, and fav animes, and my freaking gacha channel. i was known for having good writing, and i had diff friend groups who all jst equally liked me and certain things abt me and i didnt mind. and then i hear abt my friend's experiences, having weird kid interests and being treated as such. thats why i could nver relate to posts abt being the weird kid, cause fsr i've never been treated as such for liking those certain interests and having those weird kid behaviours, cause again, that was accepted in my skl.......now that i think abt it, i may have had pretty privilege......

and then it makes ms world look even worse. cause in such an accepting environment to grow up in, how did i still manage to find something to be insecure abt, and then start a brat era that changed my life forever. teen years...

i love brazilian miku sm omfg and i love how popular she is!! its like tropical miku and gives sm key west kitten/manba gyaru <3

an mbti quiz would only be considered at 1am

i love that 1 outfit of priscilla's, that black bucket hat & dress combo with the lil tropical patterns, i want it soooo bad

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

had an izzy debate on here MONTHS ago that i thought was very civil and polite and ended with "agree to disagree" and we moved on

and recently was like "oh i wonder how theyre doing" so i popped over to their blog and was met with a screenshot of my own post taken out of context and used to argue against a point i literally wasnt even making, along with MULTIPLE other posts that were very clearly meant as arguments to things ive been saying (except they all either interpreted what i was saying in very bad faith or missed the entire point of what i was saying)

like im not mad or anything but this is SO funny to me. theyre not following me and as far as i can tell they dont have me blocked so like. do they follow people who reblog my posts or do they just check my blog to get mad and then vent. like ive checked back a few times since then and they Keep Doing It basically every time i post (i didnt check back really far to see if this has been happening since that first time we interacted but like... still?)

not gonna @ them bc they apparently dont want to engage publicly w my blog or whatever. but man theyre probably gonna read this post TOO fjrfhdgjkdkfghjdh hiiiiiiiii bestie <3 idk why u dont want to discuss our disagreements w me, i thought it went well last time, but i guess that's ur prerogative!!

(i will say tho that DO understand the urge when u see a bad take to be like "ok this is wrong and i NEED to tell people why" but not wanting to start a fight so u vague abt it on ur blog. thats happened to me Many times! however i always find these posts on accident, not from regularly checking specific blogs to see if they've made any new posts for me to get mad about?? unless ur just following ppl who rb my posts in which i do feel kinda bad. sorry u have to keep seeing my opinions. but u COULD block me, also)

[dzzystrs]

any opinions on Knockout tfp?

OH BOY DO I !! i love ko <3

First impression

CHRIST my memories of watching tfp the first time are. So Vague. but i dont think i rly took any particular interest in him until i saw the fandom talk abt how he was sad about breakdown and my lil 11 y/o brain was like :O

Impression now

i know i never talk or post or rb stuff abt him but i love ko <3 i hate the way the tfp writers talked abt him behind the scenes but hes like. probably the only reason why i’d rewatch tfp now, i like him SO MUCH he’s such a fun character

Favorite moment

i havent watched tfp in so long good lord........... i suppose its Everyones favorite ep but the zombie episode........... i love to see some decepticons exhibiting some personality for once <3

Idea for a story

UH back in 2018 i was. re-writing a fic idea i had when i was younger. where breakdown joined the autobots at the end of tht one episode where bulkhead invited him, but like. Didnt Tell KO bc. god icr but i want to say he took it personally tht KO didnt come looking for him ? so for a while KO thinks he’s Dead until he sees breakdown in battle and . On The Side Of The ‘Bots. N MAKES HIM. REALLY MAD N UPSET OFC. it eventually leads to megatron kicking him out and Almost Killing Him but the autobots save him n then Oops ko n bd r forced to Resolve their issues in the awkward climate of the autobot base </3 ITS STILL. SOMETHING I THINK ABT SOMETIMES. but i have. So Many Other Fics i’d like to get done first </3

Unpopular opinion

i do not like KOSS......... i did when i was younger but ive rly grown to dislike it, wish i knew why !

Favorite relationship

kobd <3 absolutely 100% perfect i believe in kobd supremacy 

Favorite headcanon

UM. god i always hate tht this is the last one I DONT HAVE ANY EXCITIGN HEADCANONS IM SORRY :wails:

[daddy-ul]

I was tagged by @62kh a couple of days ago but of course I'm doing it only now sjdjdjdjdj

1. why did you choose your url?

BACKSTORY TIME, DUDERS.

2. any side blogs? if you have them name them and why you have them.

This is my sideblog fjdshfjhdf I had another one but i deleted it bc I couldnt even remeber why I created it.

And I have this sideblog so I can put my obsession for metallica in one single place and leave my main as a mixed bag of fandoms and stuff.

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

Uhhhhh, since 2013, I think?

4. do you have a queue tag?

Nope and honest to god I didnt even know what a queue was till last year dhfjhsfjks like, i saw these recurring tags that people had with the word queue in it but I never understood what that was about. Yes, I am a genius.

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

BACKSTORY TIME, PT 2

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

At first I wanted to emulate the ‘daddy ul’ portrait buuut the pic was too small, so no. I still wanted to recreate it somehow, so I needed a younger Lars pic. Aaaand I love scrunchie faces, so I picked this one!

7. why did you choose your header?

THE IRONY! Also I wanted a “contemporary” pic, bc I find the idea of living in the past kinda boring. I love metallica now as they are, I am a fan now. So here, let me show that! (before this one, I used the one where they are failing to hug on stage, struggling and laughing)

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

No idea, gotta check, but I am PRAYING for it not to be the one with the official tallica dad shirt merchandise.

Okay, I dont know where to check but i think is the mulletallica interview.

9. how many mutuals do you have?

... what’s with the numbers questions? How can someone know that? Should I go on my follow list and count? too lazy for that, sorry fhdjfhsjfj

let’s say I have enough of them.

10. how many followers do you have?

Okay, now that’s a number question that I know how to answer easily: 300+

11. how many people do you follow?

Another number question? Are you Lars?

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

That I did, but i prefer rb other’s shitposts bc this fandom is PEAK shitposting. I love you all, please keep it up.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

No, really what’s with the numbers questions? You are not Lars, you are the one writing the emails to Lars before the Metallica Mondays!!

(I honestly have no idea and it varies on how busy I am that day? like a normal person?)

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

the idea only of that happening is making me tired fdjskfkjsfhs so no, please.

One should be only fight for fun! With your fists! Possibly in a dojo!

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

It triggers my “YOU TELLING ME TO DO SOMETHING???? GUESS WHAT, DUDER” and i skip the entire post fhjsdkhfjsdfhk

16. do you like tag games?

yep!!! bc I love to read other ppl answers and it’s fun! it’s mindless! it busies you when you are bored! I am bad at them, tho, bc i forgot to do them myself most of the time.

17. do you like ask games?

Also yepp! or i wouldn’t rb them. but I know sometimes they are too much, so i limit it to 1-2 every once in a while bc all the answers to the asks can clutter others’ dashboard.

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

I’m gonna take this as a sarcastic question bc what does it even mean? fdksjfjsf

so, yes! they are all famous...ly nice and funny people! I truly didn’t expect a fandom so chill and cozy when I started the blog. I know that is v small but I enjoy it bc I like to recognize urls and ‘style’ of posting and not being drown in content.

.... but I’m digressing, as usual.

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

URGGG sarcastically thank you for this question bc I read it, and bc my answer would have been obviously “no” and I am not made to be simple, I start thinking abt possible puns with the word “crush” and my brain, scrambling for something, unearthed AWFUL lyrics from an okay song. So thanks!, now I have an earworm that keeps singing melodramatically ‘you are a car crash... and i cant look away”.

Catch me groaning and begging my brain to stop ✨✨

20. tags?

the usual suspects! duders, sorry if you were already tagged! @newsteds, @the-mighty-het-speaks, @breadfan, @cxrgans, @mewstashio @andiftheycare

[mrfutureboy]

@rovermcfly tysm for tagging me and sorry this took 5ever!!

why did you choose your url?

i wanted a bttf url last summer when i got back into the fandom, and i wanted it to be specific to marty bc i love him but i also want to be him. im like, obsessed with the nickname "future boy" that doc gives him in 1955, and the url futureboy is taken, so i am mrfutureboy bc i am marty (kinnie shit)

any side blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them

i literally only have a handful for url-saving purposes. @rhodeystark and @masloki are my most notable old urls so i wanted them for safe keeping. i also have @goodnightfutureboy bc that was one of the bttf urls i was considering and i never got around to deleting it (if by chance anyone wants that lmk)

how long have you been on tumblr?

I think i joined in 2010.

do you have a queue tag?

back when i blogged a lot on desktop, xkit worked for me, and i actually queued shit for my blog it was “since queue been gone” bc i thought i was clever. i still think its clever tbh i just dont really queue anymore

why did you start your blog in the first place?

Iirc, an irl friend of mine heard about tumblr thru an upperclassman she was friends with, so she was like “sonny we should sign up for tumblr!” and i was like sure why not. first url was miss-math bc thats my deviantart username

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

im obsessed w mjf but im also a kinnie /j. i specifically love his look in that interview and also i own a very similar sweater now so. it me. also im basically aromantic even tho i dont really use the label so yeah i put that behind his pretty face

why did you choose your header?

skfkdksk its because i kept fucking dying in the stuart little 2 gba game. I havent played in a while but im stuck on the level where stuart goes into the sink drain to retrieve the wedding ring that isnt even in there

what’s your post with the most notes?

Feel free to fact check me, but im 90% sure it’s a screenshot of gwen and trent from tdi that i took, where gwen is like leaning on the table all miserable and trents got his hand on her back, captioned “rb if you agree” bc i thought they were really cute. i still get fucking notifications for that post i think its at over 500 notes now

how many followers do you have?

i dont particularly like sharing this since this is the only site that doesnt make that public, and it’s nice to not feel intimidated or make other people feel intimidated or ashamed, like how it kinda makes you feel bad when you have fewer followers than your friends on insta. but i’ll play, and as of right now i have 1065 followers im very grateful for <3

how many people do you follow?

240. ik my ratio is bad i promise im not being an asshole abt it

have you made a shitpost?

Ive been on tumblr a long time. Of course i have

how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ post?

I get turned off by those posts a lot but i do be reblogging shit sometimes ill admit. but not blindly like i have to actually read it and care about it. But if its a 10 mile long post where everyones adding how necessary it is that its rb’d, forget about it

do you like tag games?

yeah!!! it just takes me a long time to finish them lol

do you like ask games?

I dont play them v often or receive them but i do!

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

@chloezhao, period. also @jedflah and @lonepinetimeline were some of the big names within the bttf community that i kept seeing last summer and i remember being like “omg they followed me”. (Well. Actually with theo i didnt recognize his main blog so for an embarrassingly long time i didnt realize we were mutuals slfksk. he would like my personal posts and i was like “wait who is this” and i felt like a huge idiot when i realized it was him! our 1 yr friendaversary is coming up love u cowboy <4)

do you have a crush on a mutual?

no but @biathelstan and i are cowboy soulmates

Tagging: @biathelstan @thereisnosafetythistime @anakins-rattail @mahourobotto

[painfog]

Hey so I saw you mention top surgery and was curious. I was supposed to be having top surgery this summer but that’s postponed. I was curious how that went with chronic pain? I’m scared about the surgical binder with my fibro and back pain. Any advice or info would be greatly appreciated!! (You can answer privately if you prefer)

ive actually been meaning to write up a big post on this pretty much since i had top surgery but still haven't got around to it yet so I'm happy to talk about it lol. ill go over stuff now n still aim to do a more in depth post later when im on my laptop (but writing this now bc i tend to forget everything haha). ill stick to the more fibro / chronic illness specific stuff & stuff i wasnt expecting rather than rehashing everything. apologies im on mobile so i cant put this under a cut

firstly, im sorry ur surgery got postponed! i know that must be gutting, so i hope it gets rescheduled asap & the time until then passes easily for u ❤️

I had double incision with free nipple grafts on the 4th of september 2019 with Mr Miles Berry at the london wellbeck hospital. i think he did an amazing job and can't recommend him enough for his work! i think the last pics i took of my chest were for tdov, and ill rb them after i post this for reference. i didnt have drains at any point of the surgery

for ppl with fibro, i was told that the pain after surgery either tends to trigger a flareup, or be really easily manageable, and it's hard to predict which it will be beforehand. its best to prepare for a flareup and be pleasently surprised if u dont get one. for me, i had a flareup that sucked but wasnt too bad as far as flareups go

you'll probably get given painkillers. take them regularly. it's easier to treat pain preemptively. if u don't get given them (no idea how it works outside of the uk) id say def get codine and paracetamol. u can't take ibuprofen for a while

i woke up from aneasthetic freezing cold + in a lot of pain. apparently most ppl dont need the full dose of morphine, but i did. after that it was a bit better. i was just So Goddamn Hungry literally it's all i was talking about

that night in hospital was probably one of the most uncomfortable in my life. you have to sleep sitting up for like blood reasons, so my back pain was quite bad bc of it. moving around a bit and adjusting pillows helped. if u have anything that normally helps ur back pain bring it with u to the hospital, & dont be afraid to ask the nurses for help with it (even if they can just adjust ur pillows for u). i couldnt rly sleep much but distraction helps. bring ur phone + headphones. i did a few ask memes when i couldnt sleep

the first week from surgery was rly tough, the first few days especially. this was bc i still had to sleep elevated for a few days and i couldnt get comfortable. i was too exhausted to do anything but couldn't sleep and it rly started to get me down. then i got some sleeping tablets (just nytol) and that helped so much. i literally cannot recommend it enough bc the not sleeping properly made everything hard (and like esp because with fibro the whole pain/fatigue/depression cycle is so real). once i started sleeping better recovery became a lot easier, and the tablets made the awkward sleeping positions more manageable. if i had to give only one bit of advice this would be it

on that note, ik everyone says this but do get a V pillow. it helps u adjust to sleeping on ur back and if u sleep on ur side normally it means u can like lean slightly sideways on it which makes it sm easier. also this isn't even top related but they make good back pillows when ur watching stuff in bed even now

get urself some video games (if ur into them) and easy entertainment shows lined up for when u wanna have them. recovering from major surgery makes ur fatigue even more pronounced so ur not going to be able to do all that much, but having light entertainment ready to go stops u getting as bored. its also a good excuse to finally play/watch the things you've been meaning to for a while

go outside when u can. if u have a garden just walk around it. it helps with a lot of stuff, and idk about u but i always forget how much it does. even just helping u sleep better if u get trapped in a fibro fatigued-but-can't-sleep cycle. and it goes so far helping u feel human in the first week

the first week is rly hard for a lot of ppl - its frustrating to have all that pain and exhaustion and not being able to wash or change the binder, and with the swelling and bandages under the binder it doesn't really feel like there's much change, which all sort of adds together. i keep going on about this week bc it helps to mentally prepare for it - there's no need to dread it, you just need to remind urself how worth it itll all be and that the rest of recovery is a lot better than the first part, and in time it won't have seemed that bad. big picture stuff

when u get the chest reveal, everything's better. i didnt stop smiling. and when u put the post op binder on afterwards, without all the bandaging, u like feel for the first time how much flatter u are??? and its amazing. even with the swelling. and then u get to shower and u feel human again and its great. (ik some ppl have their post ops/chest reveals much earlier than a week, but 5 days to a week is pretty standard in the uk. mine was 6 days i think)

more post op binder stuff: i got given 2. the first one i woke up in after the surgery and wasn't allowed to take off until my post op, and the second one i got given at my post op to change into after i showered. After that i alternated every few days. whatever u get given, if u get less than 2 i recommend getting another one so u can alternate them (if u want help sourcing them hmu. ive also still got mine i need to give away)

the post op binders were actually a lot easier to wear full time than normal binders. they were like more stretchy, and stretchy the full way round (bc they dont have the compression bit at the front). i used to sleep in my normal binder every time i slept with my ex, and that hurt like a motherfuck sometimes. the post op binder was much kinder to my ribs

i had to wear the post op binder full time, taking it off like once a day to shower n let my chest breathe (and massage my scars once i started that). some surgeons arent that strict abt wearing it that long, but it really helps swelling, & bc i didnt have drains it was rly important to stop fluid buildup. ik quite a few guys in my trans groups who stopped wearing their binder fairly early and then got quite a lot of swelling so i didn't want to risk it & i wore it for the full 6 weeks. at some point (icr when but maybe at 6 weeks? bc my post op was at 8 weeks bc he was on holiday) i didnt wear it during the day and only wore it at night

all in all the binder didnt bother me that much. it was more comfortable than my regular binders and i just kinda got on with it. it was annoying tho and i was glad when i could stop wearing it. for me the most annoying part was that it was a full length binder (i always wore half length before) and the riding up at the hips was rly irritating. i actually quite liked sleeping with it tho it was a pretty nice pressure stim ahah

some post op binders r more comfortable than others. if u have to buy ur own, i rly suggest going with a proper surgical one (they arent too hard to find second hand for free or cheap, again im happy to help here) bc they're kinder to chronic pain. i know that having a comfortable post op binder made it all a lot easier for me. there are also lots of alternatives w lots of price ranges tho, so that's not ur only option

ok i think thats everything right now! sorry its so long, but let me know if u have any questions!!

finally: before i got top ppl told me that its honestly life changing, and i didnt realise how true that would be. literally every single aspect of my life is at least partially better because of it, and most of them drastically so. I'm really excited for you to get that for yourself, and im wishing u all the best for it 💕

[gladureviltoooo]

Hey there this is a donation/commission post

I’m a black mixed nonbinary lesbian im 17 and i’m trying to save up to move out of my home as soon as possible , I’ll be talking about my situation under the cut but p much i’m in an abusive situation with my family and this post is so i can either get donations or commissions , ^^ up there is some examples of ny art and its just name ur price and ill draw whatever

https://www.paypal.me/CalciumHernandez

pls … rb if you can thank you.

My whole life i’ve been living with my dad and grandmother,they are both abusive and have always been so my entire life

My dad usually beats me if i say something that is ‘out of line’ aka anything that implies that im ‘talking back’ to him or showing any aggression like this morning he told me not to wash a pan bcs he was gonna use it for cooking fish for himself later on , grandmother asked me if i was done washing dishes and i said yes and she started yelling at me and beating me with a broom because of that pan and i ended up raising my voice at my dad a little bit because i was in tears and shaking because i was upset that i had to get beat for this and he ended up hitting me as well because of it. Stuff like this happens a lot in the house . tw animal abuse My grandmother is just the same but doesnt care about anything because shes -depressed- but says god is helping her and she doesnt allow me to take my anti depressants anymore and is trying to force me to convert to christianity even though i’ve told her more then once that i’m strictly jewish . An example of her taking things too far is when she brought in a chihuahua puppy and then beat the puppy with a belt for chewing on her plants even though she left them on the ground where he could easily reach them,i intervened of course bcs i knew if she hit him on the head she’d kill him since he had a hole in his skull since he was so young. She ended up yelling at me for doing so and proceeded to yell and ended up stabbing me with a broom handle that had broken and threatened to call the police on me. All that happened while i was in call with my significant other .

So pretty much last year i attempted to kill myself and at that time my doctors outted me to my dad and i had to admit to being a nb lesbian, my dad didnt care about it and said it was difficult to refer to me to the name i wanted and the pronouns i wanted . He also became harder on me and still insisted that i’d end up liking men at some point. My dad has also put a lot of pressure on me in graduating from high school even though i’m under so much stress that i’m literally breaking up on my emotions and i’m under constant pressure and paranoia abt my dad threatening to take my phone and computer away.

I have autism, many mental illnesses and physical disabilities that my dad refuses to accept that i have and just believe i’m lazy and looking for excuses to get out of things . He’s already kicked me out of the house before and if he does so again i’d like some money or something so i dont just die out on the streets.

I’d like to use this money on food as well since my dad doesnt allow me to eat a lot anymore since he thinks im fat and i’m becoming bullimic now so lol

I’m not adding anymore but yeah thank you