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lovecanyon · 2 years ago

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IM UP! IM AWAKE! IM HERE! IM ACTIVE!!

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harry x director!y/n

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ynupdates Y/N ARRIVING IN VENICE ITALY LAST NIGHT FOR THE 79TH ANNUAL VENICE FILM FESTIVAL

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ynfan7 YES YES YES

harryfan10 she looks so stressed out

ynfan6 if paparazzi was following you how would you feel

harryfan13 are you guys forgetting she just had a kid a few months ago?

ynfan11 she came to slay

harryfan14 yeah her and harry definitely broke up ��

ynfan16 do not…please

harryfan18 y/n has that single person glow

ynfan12 can everyone just leave her alone

harryfan15 leave mother alone!

ynfan19 SLAYED

harryfan17 is everyone just ignoring the fact that she’s the director and is probably very busy since dwd is coming out soon…most likely she’s still with harry

ynfan20 right…harry literally has a baby with her, he’s never going to break up with her 😭

harryfan22 monday is going to be HELL

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harryflorals HARRY AND Y/N AT THEIR HOTEL IN VENICE TODAY!

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ynfan25 i knew they were still together

harryfan27 YOU ALL ARE GOING TO HELL 😭

ynfan29 the way he’s grabbing her chin…don’t talk to me

harryfan26 i can’t do this

ynfan28 NAURRRR

harryfan30 alexa play fine line by harry styles

ynfan32 THEY ARE SO CUTE

harryfan34 i can’t believe i’m saying this but…yes they are 💔

ynfan31 hottest couple ever

harryfan33 harry…count your days

ynfan35 why are they giving jack and alice vibes 🤭

harryfan37 so y/n is still with harry…good for her

ynfan39 we all survived the cheating rumors

harryfan36 i didn’t even believe them…harry and y/n are the type of couple to stay together forever…

ynfan40 crying over this

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papermagazine Y/N L/N reportedly will not be attending Don’t Worry Darling’s press conference for The Venice Film Festival because a few conflicts in her schedule came up.

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harryfan43 I’M CRYING WHAT IS HAPPENING

ynfan45 y/n leaving harry to answer all the questions is so funny

harryfan47 not florence and y/n skipping the conference 🤭

ynfan49 they are so real for that

harryfan44 isn't she the director though? this is so unprofessional…

ynfan46 y/n was the one that got the movie to be premiered at the venice film festival, let her skip the press conference if she wants

harryfan48 she can do whatever she wants…i will be there to defend her

ynfan50 chris, gemma and harry: 👁👄👁

harryfan52 what are the conflicts though

ynfan54 y/n most likely does not want to answer questions

harryfan56 florence and y/n said not today

ynfan58 i mean at least she’s going to the premiere

harryfan51 her and harry were seen together just a few hours ago…😭

ynfan53 jeff is working hard i see

harryfan55 what on earth is going on in the house of commons

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harryupdates “Our son is teething very badly and YN wouldn’t leave his side, she would’ve loved to be here but she puts our family first over work. She’s such an amazing mother, I love her so much. Thankfully she left Chris in charge instead of me.” - Harry at Don’t Worry Darling’s press conference.

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ynfan61 HE’S SO IN LOVE WITH HER IT’S SICK

harryfan63 not her putting chris in charge instead of harry

ynfan65 she knows how he answers questions 😭

harryfan67 harry looked so happy when they asked about y/n

ynfan69 he’s so hot, i don’t blame y/n for having a kid with him

harryfan62 the ring on his finger got me thinking about life…💔

ynfan64 y/n is such a good mother i can’t

harryfan66 harry talking about y/n with a smile on my face makes me cry

ynfan68 don’t bring it up again please

harryfan70 someone run me over

ynfan72 now can people stop attacking y/n for not going to the conference

harryfan74 he’s just praying on my downfall

ynfan76 “our family” literally sobbing over him saying that

harryfan78 it was so cute

ynfan71 i will be thinking about this forever

harryfan73 omg their son is teething

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florencepugh Distracting a teething baby is harder than you think. I applaud my dear friend Y/N for being such an amazing mother.

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ynfan80 STOP OMG THIS IS SO ADORABLE

harryfan82 florence and y/n hanging out wanna makes me happy 😭

yourinstagram we love you ms. flo ❤️

florencepugh I love you both very much!!! it was so fun hanging out with the two of you!!

ynfan84 i love the way they skipped the press conference and hung out together

gemmachan So very cute!!!

harryfan86 y/n is wearing harry’s sunglasses…someone please kill me

harry_lambert queen of all mothers

ynfan88 i’m crying over this

harrystyles I love my two bunnies.

yourinstagram go and finish getting ready

harrystyles Whyyyy.

harryfan81 i seriously love them together 🫠

jefezoff this duo is amazing

ynfan83 y/n is so beautiful 🫡

nickkroll one director holding a future director

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yndaily Y/N ARRIVING AT THE DWD PREMIERE FOR THE 79TH VENICE INTERNATIONAL FILM FESTIVAL!

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harryfan92 MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER

ynfan94 i really didn’t think she would show up with harry

harryfan96 me either 😭

ynfan98 when they both got out of the car hand in hand i gasped

harryfan90 y/n is literally so pretty

ynfan93 the way people cheered for her the loudest…honestly i would too

harryfan95 SHE LOOKS SO HAPPY 🫠

ynfan97 y/n arrived and slayed

harryfan99 this is her moment

ynfan91 the woman behind the magic ✨

harryfan100 i love her so very much

ynfan103 dwd is my joker

harryfan105 y/n seemed so excited 🥹

ynfan107 BEST FEMALE DIRECTOR EVER

harryfan101 this is so cute

ynfan104 she’s wearing a ring…

harryfan106 harry is too 🥲

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ynharrydaily “I’m very honored to be here. I just had a baby a few months ago so events like this have felt weird to me ever since. Luckily I have my husband Harry here for comfort.” - Y/N getting interviewed by Variety for The Venice Film Festival!

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ynfan113 HELLO??? SHE LOOKS SO GOOD

harryfan115 husband…

ynfan117 i’m literally screaming 🫠

harryfan110 crying and throwing up

ynfan119 i had a feeling they got married

harryfan121 WELCOME HOME CHEATER

ynfan124 so y/n is basically mrs. styles now 😭

harryfan126 this is the cause of my downfall

ynfan128 y/n talking about harry was the sweetest thing ever

harryfan130 imagine being married to THE harry styles

ynfan132 i’m emotionally unstable

harryfan134 listening to cinema…thank you y/n

ynfan136 y/n causally revealing that she’s married to harry…

harryfan138 if i was her i would do the same thing too

ynfan131 she’s trending on twitter…queen behavior

harryfan133 screaming into my pillow

ynfan137 y/n can’t keep surprising us like this

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harry_lambert Mrs. Styles for The Venice Film Festival.

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harryfan143 lambert…count your days

ynfan140 NOT MRS. STYLES 😭

yourinstagram i love you lambyyyy, thank you for everything!

harry_lambert i love you more more darling ❤️

harryfan144 SHE ATE UP THE RED CARPET

jefezoff queen of all directors!!!

ynfan142 y/n is the literal definition of a milf

harrystyles My beautiful wife, Mrs. Styles.

yourinstagram you are the love of my life, h!

harryfan145 i’m so sick right now

alessandro_michele truly the best woman i know

ynfan147 loving the y/n content

annetwist my daughter in law is so gorgeous 🤍

harryfan148 I WOULD MARRY Y/N AND WRITE ALBUMS ABOUT HER TOO

pillowpersonpp i love her so much!!!!

ynfan150 4 + 4 =

harris_reed OH. MY. GOD.

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yourinstagram venice with my love!

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harryfan208 HARRY’S SMILE

ynfan202 the caption 😭

harrystyles One of the best days ever.

yourinstagram you are so cute!

harryfan204 banging my head against the wall

glenne_azoff you both are so adorable

ynfan209 harry looks so happy omg

harryfan211 right…and most likely it’s because of y/n 🫠

kidharpoon mr and mrs. styles, i adore you!!!

ynfan213 this relationship is so cute 🥲

florencepugh you both put a smile on my face!!! 💕

harryfan215 and what if y/n took this picture of harry…

ynfan217 she probably did…

emmalouisecorrin you two are so cute together

harryfan219 I CAN’T KEEP DOING THIS

brittany_broski thank you for this mrs. styles

ynfan212 i’m sobbing

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variety Our first look of Y/N Styles in her film, Don’t Worry Darling.

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harryfan223 on my knees

ynfan225 THIS MOVIE IS GOING TO BE THE DEATH OF ME

harrystyles So so so gorgeous.

yourinstagram spit on me like you spit on chris pine, harry!

harrystyles Gladly darling.

harryfan227 WHAT 😭😭

ynfan227 they know about the spitting rumors omg

gemmachan a true goddess!!!

harryfan229 MILF MILF MILF

harry_lambert screamingggg

ynfan232 she has me in a chokehold

anthonypham now i know why harry was staring at his phone for so long

harryfan235 everything i learn is against my will 💔

pillowpersonpp i. am. so. excited.

ynfan237 THE CIGARETTE? THE DRESS??? I AM NOT GOING TO BE OKAY WHEN I WATCH DWD

nickkroll 👑 👑👑

harryfan239 she definitely got that cinema

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ackerfics · 4 years ago

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hi, rory! <3 what majors would the sc veterans take if they were in the modern world?

hi, anon !! thank you so much for this ask, this is heaven in disguise from all my schoolwork. tbh, the whole time i was working for a lab report, my mind will go back to this ask bc i wanted to have the association as accurate as possible hhhajshw

i asked one of my friends for help and thank God for them bc my single brain cell really said 'it's time for you to rest' after staring at one backlog. without further ado, here are the veterans' majors if they're studying in university:

first off, hange zoe, because if you ask me this question in real life, they would be the only one i can answer. every damn time i would think of them in a college setting, being a biology major is really hange's forte. at this point, this is what everyone would associate them with.

hange is all about experimenting and doing brilliant breakthroughs in any field of science but knowing that they have this unparalleled fascination with the unusual and unexpected life-forms (ahem titans ahem), the biology lab would be the surest place where you could find hange. i feel like biology is too broad so i will add that microbiology or bacteriology are just some of the specializations they will be taking in their time in college.

imagine, being lab partners with hange and immediately knowing that you will have one of the highest grades in the class because they're that well-versed in a specific lab report. and if you're partners with them for the rest of the academic year, you might as well have a shot at an immaculate grade. i'm not saying that you should depend on them too much though hHHHH, hange is still a member of the majority of the student body who relies heavily on caffeine to keep them invigorated. who isn't at this point?

so far, some of the biology majors that i encountered (well, more like chatted behind a screen — online classes suck), they have this energy that could drain my social battery too quickly and hange fits that description. (note that this doesn't apply to any college bc i observed this in mine soooo 🤭) they're the type to always go on a tangent on a certain science article or coerce you into joining this org thing. i can imagine levi just looking at hange like they're the one sucking his brain cells out whenever they speak about a documentary in bbc they watched the night before.

and if you're stuck on anything biology-related, hange will be the best person to ask help from. they're the first ray of sunlight you get while waking up. they're that approachable.

okay, so erwin smith.

don't come at me but he just radiates this ceo vibes and with that, one of his probably majors is business administration. i know this is so stereotypical of me but let's face it, erwin is a smooth talker through and through and if he doesn't take up marketing, business is one way to spend his college years. knowing his personality in attack on titan of establishing deals easily with a determined resolve, he fits the broadest description of being a business administration major. (again, don't come at me because my consultant for this statement is google and nobody comes after google sometimes hhhhh)

just for the benefit of myself, i will add what google says about this major, "[they] learn the mechanics of business through classes in fundamentals, such as finance, accounting and marketing ... students find ways to solve problems using data and they develop communication and managerial skills." and i thank you.

he's also probably the most well-spoken and most professional when conversing with others among his friends (and i'm not saying this to drag the other characters but this is what i pick up on) and that is exactly the qualities his major specializes. it is expected for them to strike deals and be a people person and who better character for the job than our very own erwin smith 🤩

now i mentioned 'one of the probable majors' and yes, aside from business administration, philosophy just exudes erwin smith. ngl, when i imagined erwin in a college setting, this major will always come first. his mind is just so sexy to me??? and i hope you guys think the same, too, because i don't want to be the only one who thinks that 👀 kidding aside, erwin is one of the smartest people in attack on titan and every time he speaks in one episode, my brain will instantly go mush, and that's what i feel when i hear philosophy majors talk.

philosophy majors (according to any other youtuber who does lookbooks for various majors hhhhhh) challenge what is unanswerable and analyze questions with no right answer. i feel like erwin, like hange, will talk all night to explain a theory. just imagine a date with him and you just listen to him rant about a topic that they should be making a report on. just listen to this man, okay?? it's adorable when he lets his guard down to include you in his little bubble of philosophies. he would also mention random things that he learned in classes, sometimes finding joy in knowing the philosophies of other people, or even deciphering levi's dream of an apocalyptic world. (it pisses levi off but he just leave him be.)

if you want a man who can do both of these majors, erwin smith is the answer 😉

sigh, mike zacharias.

this man holds so many talents and will forever amaze me.

i assume all of us here watched the movie perfume. and no, i'm not saying that mike is going to be a murderer but just like the main character of that film, making perfumes will be his forte with that sense of smell of his. and here, i conclude that mike will definitely take up chemical engineering.

he gives me the vibes that if it covers the one thing he does best, he will love his major. (mr. zacharias, can you please spare me that quality because i really need that now 😩) being in the labs while experimenting mundane things that can be found in the environment to create different scents is also a likely situation you can find him in, again, very much like hange. he's the type of student who really puts so much effort in staying afloat the honors list, even to the point of topping midterms in his major, for the sake of his dream. there will never be a moment where you will catch him complain about his major and professors.

he's that type of friend in college who agrees to any rant you say but in reality, he's got his life easy 😭

i headcanon mike owning a perfume shop after college just like how levi always dreamed of having a tea shop.

okay, imagine this little scenario if you're dating mike where he creates this unique perfumes as random gifts for you. they're not the typical perfumes that can seep through the room and can make you gag for no reason, they're subtle scents that will stay for the duration of the day. because again, he's got a sensitive nose, so making perfumes according to what his sense of smell dictates will always result in a revolutionary experiment. if you're randomly blurting out that you want a fusion of flowers and fruits as your perfume, say no more, he's your man.

now, the veteran who i find the hardest to associate a major with — levi ackerman.

after much deliberation and a break from plant physiology, i see him taking up law or criminology.

(i asked some of this from my mom because she attended law school :>>>)

levi is so organized and detailed in the things that he do and he fits in either of these majors since they require tedious memorizations and analysis of laws and crime scenes while being assertive enough to defend someone. he's the typical person who blurts out the true situation of a crime scene when watching film adaptations. yeah, he's that person, the one who sucks the enthusiasm out of you while watching a movie because he just had to correct some of the scenes. nevertheless, he means well though, he just wanted you to understand the reality unlike how films portray gruesome murders. movie nights always end up with levi ranting about half-assed mystery clichés.

levi's binder of readings are always too bright for everyone's good. his notes are full of highlighters and scribbles that it can blind someone. for one, he's always up all night studying his readings and cases for a practice court so by choosing neon highlighters, it's a way for him to wake up. there isn't one book in his possession that he doesn't highlight like it's a fricking coloring book. hange once jokingly said that his binder now acts like his bible and for once, he agrees because he was never seen without one. hange had a field day since levi never agrees with them.

when doing practice courts though, his go-to resting bitch face always come in handy when carrying out his role as one of the lawyers. he's just so sexy with his hands in the pockets of his slacks as he tries to justify his supposed client. the way he questions the accused definitely isn't hot because he's like one of the panelists in your thesis defense, the one who just comes up with questions that have you melting on the spot. he's dangerous i tell you. it also doesn't help if you accidentally hurt one of his friends or just landed randomly in his blacklist for being annoying as hell. relax though, he doesn't mean harm other than the fact that he's ready to throw some hands from all the pent-up rage he gathered in his body.

of course, i couldn't forget how he dresses up like a typical dark academia fanatic so look out for eye-candy.

if you want someone who can recite articles from the constitution, this man is perfect for you 😌

i had so much fun doing this !! again, i'm not generalizing every major i've talked about in these little headcanons, this is all for fun and based on the people i encountered in college. if you want more of this, don't hesitate to ask !! 😚

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iliterallydecepticanteven · 2 years ago

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Top five ships you like to write for, movies, and desserts!

Ships!

1) Megop, of course. I really like every iteration of them, but I find myself gravitating towards TFA, TFP, and G1 the most

2) Strika/Lugnut (Lugka?) because they’re so buff and so in love and the juxtaposition of having two ultraviolent characters who just care so much about each other is so good

3) Blackarachnia/Slipstream (I think we’re calling it Blackstream) because they’re goth girlfriends but they’re also headstrong outsiders who would be able to find support and comfort in each other and yes I know it’s a rare pair but I love them

4) Shockblurr but a very specific dynamic between them like they have to be of equal standing, equal power, and in their right minds because my god is there just so much enemies to lovers potential there (and also not to ruffle any feathers but the way Blurr is often written as powerless or weak in fics gives me the ick)

5) June Darby/William Fowler and yes I know I haven’t published anything yet but it is in the works because I do believe in finding love later in life and they have potential

Movies!

1) The Lost Boys (1988) is the best vampire movie ever made hands down end of discussion. It’s got the perfect build up, the vampire lore is wonderful, the atmosphere is amazing, the story is so good, it embodies the late 80s, and the ending scene???? Astounding

2) Kiki’s Delivery Service (1989) is a film that I watched as a kid and then rewatched again as an adult and it hit me so much harder as an adult. The message of trying to find your skill and purpose in the world, of the glimmer of kind people among uncaring masses, of feeling burnt out and lost and recovering from that just hit so much harder when I got older

3) Hackers (1995) is ridiculous and amazing. The aesthetic is unmatched, the vibes are so mid-90s, it’s got young Angelina Jolie, the hacking is completely inaccurate, and I love this movie to death and will forever defend it

4) Amelie (2001) is another one of those movies that hits me harder the older I get. The message of how your small changes can alter the world for the better and make other people’s lives amazing stays with me constantly. And the whole movie looks like it’s a dream

5) Pan’s Labyrinth (2006) is beautiful and haunting and gorgeous and astounding and the first time I watched it I cried so hard I triggered a migraine and I recommend everyone watch it but I can never watch it again because I will start crying immediately :)

Desserts!

1) Mango sorbet, I swear I could eat my weight in it

2) Cheesecake, either plain or with the fun little flavor swirls

3) Gulab jamun, which is an Indian dessert made of these sweet creamy cheese balls soaked in syrup it is so good

4) Jian dui, which are these Chinese sesame seed balls filled with red bean paste and I don’t know if they’re considered a dessert, but they are so sweet and so good

3) Ben & Jerry’s Phish Food always hits right

#sorry for the rambling #with the desserts i highly encourage everyone to try gulab jamun and jian dui #they're so good #also i don't amelie is on streaming right now which sucks #it is worth buying it on dvd imo #thanks for the ask!

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old-childhood-drama · 4 years ago

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Taylor Swift and Joe Jonas Masterpost (Toe/Jaylor)

Before dating (May 2008)

We start with the Taylor lookalike

In May 2008 the Jonas Brothers are filming their music video for Burnin’ Up [x]. Joe’s love interest in it is played by a blonde girl who looks quite a bit (and she’s also styled) like Taylor Swift, for reference, this is the music video that has Selena Gomez as Nick Jonas’ love interest.

As far as we know they hadn’t even met so we don’t know exactly what this was supposed to mean, maybe Joe had a crush on Taylor or maybe it’s a coincidence.

We do know that Nick and Selena were dating when this was filmed and that by the time the MV was released (July 4th, 2008) Joe and Taylor were officially dating.

Toe is alive! (July 2008 – September 2008)

On Tour

Fans claim to have seen Taylor around the tour in early July, which matches with Taylor’s lyrics in "Last Kiss".

Last Kiss. Taylor Swift.

I do recall now the smell of the rain

Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane

That July 9th, the beat of your heart

It jumps through your shirt

On July 14th, Taylor and The Jonas Brothers perform “Should’ve Said No”[x] from her debut album, and this performance now forever exists in their 3D movie (a classic), a cute fact is that some fans have said that Taylor tripped when she first came out, so they had to repeat it for the movie.

On July 20th Joe flies to Wyoming to watch Taylor opening up for Rascal Flatts, and they flew back and she was spotted at the Omaha show.

She’s seen in a couple shows more and she joins the stage again for their Madison Square Garden shows in August [x]. They sing “Even now just looking at you feels wrong”.

They’re together but they’re not together.

For more context, we must remember that Taylor was a very new artist from a small label and The Jonas were pretty much at their peak and Disney’s biggest act, and they were managed like crazy and could never even think about being seen with someone in a romantic way. Any rumors were denied so fast, and Disney did the absolute most to keep it secret. So according to everyone they were just good friends, at the time both Taylor and Selena were annoyed by all the secrecy.

Now back to the timeline:

Taylor is backstage of the tour A LOT for the next couple of weeks right next to the other not-girlfriends Selena and Danielle.

She films a cameo for the “Love Is on Its Way” [x] video for the concert in New York. She was said to be only interested in hanging out with Joe and they were seen hugging *gasp* I know it doesn’t seem like much now but back then this was the hottest gossip and again the Jonas were not supposed to breathe near any human of the opposite gender.

Taylor and the Jonas were staying at the same hotel a bunch of rumors ensued, but I will not talk about the whole Olympics and Toe locking themselves in a room at midnight thing. If it’s real, we really needed to touch some grass and stop staying outside of people's rooms all night.

On August 17th Joe goes to Ryan Seacrest's show and denied that Taylor is his girlfriend in the best way a corporation like Disney can train you to deny something that’s true. Saying Taylor is “a great girl and I think anybody would be lucky to date her. I think anybody would love to go on a date with her.”

And Taylor tells People Magazine “He’s an amazing guy and anybody would be lucky to be dating him” Cinematic parallels.

Taylor is spotted in the back (in a mirror) of one of the Jonas youtube videos [x]. Basically, we all knew they were together.

The Central Park date (August 28th)

Now if you were a fan of either the Jonas Brothers, Selena, or Taylor you know this next part and it the iconic triple date of Central Park.

Again, this is kind of famous at this point and Selena has been quoted saying how awful it was because the boys were not allowed to be seen with them so they all went to Central Park (Selena’s first time in Central Park) and Taylor and Selena walked about 20 feet of distance from the guys so nobody would think they were together but we all already knew because it wasn’t like they were that good at hiding it and there are pictures of them together that night (the clownery of it all).

These backstage tour adventures are the reason Taylor and Selena are friends today and in Selena’s own words the best thing to come out of those relationships.

VMAs (September 2008)

With how many pictures of them together that night [x] [x] [x] exist you would think they had gone together as a couple but no just two besties! The 2008 VMAs are so the show where Russell Brand mocks the Jonas Brothers and their purity rings and Taylor publicly defends them.

Toe seems happy for the rest of September but as we know now the end is near.

The Break-Up (October 2008)

Social Media was different back then and Taylor did what every teen girl with a broken heart did in 2008 and she went to myspace with an edited post to make a statement about the Toe current situation.

Post-Breakup

The 27 seconds Joe Jonas will regret for the rest of his life.

Taylor went on Ellen and I don’t even think I need to say much this interview is THAT iconic she sat on that couch and told the world exactly how Joe had broken her heart in the following two quotes:

“There’s one that’s about that guy, but…that guy’s not in my life anymore unfortunately. That guy…that’s an ouch.”

“I’m not even gonna be able to remember the boy who broke up with me over the phone in 25 seconds when I was 18…it was like 27 seconds, that’s got to be a record.” [x]

She also went on Ryan Seacrest’s and when asked about the perfect guy she saw an opportunity and took it, saying “I used to always say sense of humor, but I think that it’s important to have the same kind of sense of humor. I have a really dry, sarcastic sense of humor and if somebody doesn’t think that my sense of humor is funny, then that’s not something that is good. Um, so sometimes you know, that can be a wrong match. If they’re not allowed to go in public with me, that’s sort of an issue too.” [x]

Bonus the amazing youtube video Taylor posted with Joe’s Camp Rock doll and how he comes with his own phone to break up with other dolls [x]. Taylor eventually went full out and cited Camilla Belle (then girlfriend of Joe) as the reason for the breakup. And you know someone at Disney’s PR office wanted to die when this was going down.

So finally, Joe was forced to acknowledge the whole situation with a Myspace post:

"I never cheated on a girlfriend. It might make someone feel better to assume or imply I have been unfaithful, but it is simply not true. Maybe there were reasons for a breakup. Maybe the heart moved on. Perhaps feelings changed. I am truly saddened that anything would potentially cause you to think less of me. For those who have expressed concern over the "27 second” phone call. I called to discuss feelings with the other person. Those feelings were obviously not well received. I did not end the conversation. Someone else did. Phone calls can only last as long as the person on the other end of the line is willing to talk. “

Forever & Always

Now this song is known as THE Toe song and it was born out of the end of the relationship when she felt Joe was getting distant, but she couldn’t do anything to help it, it was made really late into the production of Fearless so she had to rush to finish it in time (so no other breakup songs are about Joe in the original album).

Forever & Always Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide Like a scared little boy I looked into your eyes Thought I knew you for a minute, now I’m not so sure

In the 2009 Grammy's Taylor and Miley (insert The Ex-Girlfriends Club Theory here) performed Fifteen (obviously not about Joe) and the Jonas were in the audience. I believe this is probably around the time Taylor writes Mr. Perfectly Fine and You All Over Me, which we know get to have thanks to Fearless (Taylor’s Version) 13 years later.

You All Over Me

The best and worst day of June

Was the one that I met you

With your hands in your pockets

And your 'don't you wish you had me' grin

But I did, so I smiled, and I melted like a child

Now every breath of air I breathe reminds me of then

Mr. Perfectly Fine

'Cause I hear he's got his arm 'round a brand-new girl

I've been pickin' up my heart, he's been pickin' up her

And I never got past what you put me through

But it's wonderful to see that it never phased you

In November of 2009, she also goes to SNL and mocks Joe in her monologue. "You might think I'd bring up Joe That guy who broke up with me on the phone But I'm not gonna mention him *rolls eyes* In my monologue [Spoken:]Hey Joe, I'm doing real well, tonight I'm hosting SNL [Sings:]But I'm not gonna brag about that In my monologue [x]"

To make things even more dramatic and very awkward The Jonas Brothers, Demi Lovato, and Taylor Swift spent NYE together watching the ball drop on TV and this was probably not how they wanted to start their years. [x] [x] [x] and a video [x]

Now let’s discussed some of the songs that came out at the time. The Jonas response to Forever & Always was Much Better. Nick described it as a song that was very personal to Joe and Joe went on to say that it was based on his very interesting year. They also at some point wanted to pretend the song was about their love for their fans but come on. Joe also changed the lyrics from ‘superstar’ to ‘country star’ and later changed it to ‘movie stars’ when he broke up with Camilla who is the ‘Much Better’ girl from the song.

Much Better - Jonas Brothers

I get a rep for breakin’ hearts

Now I’m done with superstars

And all the tears on her guitar

I’m not bitter

But now I see

Everything I’d ever need

Is the girl in front of me

She’s much better

Taylor’s iconic response in Better Than Revenge seems to be more of an attack on Camilla. She’s spoken about her regret for this song since then and hasn’t played it in years and Camilla seems to be ok we never forgiving her for it [x] [x]. Regardless this song remains a staple of the genre ‘Feminism OFF, Bops ON’.

“I was 18 when I wrote [“Better Than Revenge.”] That’s the age you are when you think someone can actually take your boyfriend. Then you grow up and realize no one can take someone from you if they don’t want to leave”. - Taylor 2014.

Better Than Revenge - Taylor Swift

Let's hear the applause (Come on, come on)

Come on, show me how much better you are

(So much better, yeah?)

See you deserve some applause

'Cause you're so much better

She also released "Last Kiss" about the nicer part of their relationship, and some believe other songs such as If This Was a Movie, Haunted (Speak Now) and Jump Then Fall (Fearless) are about Joe. From the Jonas, the other song believed to be about Taylor is Paranoid (Lines, Vines and Trying Times).

Jump Then Fall

Well, I like the way your hair falls in your face

You got the keys to me

I love each freckle on your face, oh

I've never been so wrapped up, honey

Probably a song was written about and in the early days of their romance and the long hair freckles [x] thing definitely fits 2008 Joe.

If This Was a Movie

Baby, what about the ending?

Oh, I thought you'd be here by now

Thought you'd be here by now

According to some this song is a sister song to "Last Kiss" in the same album and that is confirmed to be about Joe.

Haunted

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this

I thought I had you figured out

Something's gone terribly wrong

Won't finish what you started

This song would be a sister to Forever & Always since Taylor described both to be about a relationship that was fading in the end and that she was confused as to how they got there in the first place.

"‘Haunted’ is about the moment that you realize the person you’re in love with is drifting and fading fast. And you don’t know what to do, but in that period of time, in that phase of love, where it’s fading out, time moves so slowly. Everything hinges on what that last text message said, and you’re realizing that he’s kind of falling out of love. That’s a really heartbreaking and tragic thing to go through because the whole time you’re trying to tell yourself it’s not happening. I went through this, and I ended up waking up in the middle of the night writing this song about it.” Taylor

Friendlier days are coming (2010- )

I guess time can heal a lot of wounds and Toe is seen hugging and on friendly terms at the Clive Davis party on January 31st of 2010 [x].

The world was so shocked when we realized that Joe went to see her perform in a couple of her shows in September 2011 [x] [x], and in here Holy Ground is born about her new evaluation of their former relationship rather than the bitterness of the breakup. The lyrics' secret message is “when you came to the show in SD” and the potential parallel to "Last Kiss".

Holy Ground - Taylor Swift

We blocked the noise with the sound of ‘I need you’

And for the first time I had something to lose

And I guess we fell apart in the usual way

And the story’s got dust on every page

But sometimes I wonder how you think about it now

And I see your face in every crowd…

… Tonight, I'm gonna dance

For all that we've been through

But I don't wanna dance

If I'm not dancing with you

Last Kiss - Taylor Swift

I do remember the swing of your step

The life of the party, you’re showing off again

And I roll my eyes and then

You pull me in

I’m not much for dancing

But for you I did

They're seen talking in the MTV's EMA's 2012 [x].

From here they seem to be friendly and in May of 2015 after the Billboards. They even go on a double date later that year with Gigi Hadid, Calvin Harris, and Karlie Kloss (this picture feels so cursed). Nick and Joe get invited to Taylor’s 4th of July party and they seem somewhat distant after his split from Gigi.

Present (2020- )

In 2020, we got the amazing surprise of folklore with the song ‘Invisible String’ that makes a reference to Taylor’s past songs about exes being harsh and how she sent Joe and his wife Sophie Turner a present for their baby girl’s birth. In 2021, she has now released the re-recordings of Fearless and we are all reliving the drama and enjoying the chaos of Taylor’s and Sophie��s friendship not letting Joe know peace for those 27 seconds over a decade ago.

Invisible String

Cold was the steel of my axe to grind

For the boys who broke my heart

Now I send their babies presents

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waitimcomingtoo · 5 years ago

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Hey lovey! Can I request some mutual pinning between tom and his athletic trainer (someone who handles sports related injuries like ankle sprains) or EMT or something pretty please 🧡🧡

Tear In My Heart

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Masterlist

“You’re back.” You smiled as Tom entered your office. He was sweaty from his work out and a tired smile crossed his face. Whenever he needed to get in shape for a film, he trained at the gym where you worked as an athletic trainer. Ever since 2016, he was a frequent visitor to your office. And ever since 2016, you had an ongoing crush on the actor. You’d treated a dozen of his sprained ankles, pulled muscles, sore joints, and whatever other injury he could fake just to have an excuse to see you. It took him a while to work up the courage to ask you to hangout outside of the gym, but once he did, your friendship took off. You kept in touch when we was filming, and he always came back to your gym when he had to train.

“Sprained ankle.” He said and pointed to his left ankle. You snuck a glance at it and didn’t see any swelling, but he had come in limping. In Toms defense, you couldn’t fake a swollen ankle but you can always fake a limp.

“Hop up on the bed. Let me have a look.” You patted the bed you had in your office before going to get some supplies to treat him. He watched you fondly as you gathered everything you needed to take care of him, appreciating how you knew exactly what to get.

“You got it.” Tom obliged and hopped up on the table. You returned to him with an ice pack and a brace.

“Leg up.” You instructed. Tom lifted his leg and you held on to his foot, resting it against your thigh. You hummed along to the song coming out of your speaker as you took his sneaker and sock off.

“I hate this song.” Tom teased you as you began to inspect his foot.

“It’s a good song. Unfortunately it’s out of my element to cure you of terrible taste.” You retorted. Tom chuckled, his chest pressing against his tight athletic shirt as he laughed. Your face heated up a little so you kept your head down, trying to focus on his injury.

“I like to think my taste is pretty good.” He commented, his gaze never leaving you.

“And I like to think this ankle is perfectly fine.” You determined. “Are you sure you sprained it?”

“Oh, uh, it was actually my shoulder that I hurt.” He said sheepishly and you rolled your eyes. You rested your hands on his thighs, looking him sternly in the eyes. He gave you an innocent look that made you crack a smile.

“You’re cute.” You said sarcastically and grabbed the ice. “You wouldn’t hurt your shoulder if you fixed your form. Your hands have to be directly under your shoulders if you’re in any sort of planking position. And I see you in that position a lot.”

“Do you like that position? Or is there another one you prefer?” Tom asked with a cheeky smile, wincing a little as you placed the ice pack on his shoulder.

“Don’t get fresh with me, Holland. I’m the one taking care of you.” You reminded him, though you didn’t mind his flirtations.

“Sorry.” He smiled, always loving to get a rise out of you. “What are you doing tonight? Would you be willing to help me run lines?”

“As fun as that sounds, I have plans.” You reluctantly declined his offer. You didn’t get to see him year round and you hated having to pass up an opportunity to spend time with him.

“Doing what? Watching Love, Rosie and crying?” Tom poked fun at your love of romantic comedies. You’d roped him into watching a few, and he never let you live it down.

“No.” You laughed nervously, suddenly feeling shy. “I have a date, actually.”

You looked up at Tom, nervous of his reaction. The smile that preciously dawned his face faded into a look of hurt, to anger, to confusion. Tom felt white hot anger course through his body, all the way to his scalp.

“A date? With who?” He said a little too quickly. While he had never officially made a move, he thought you at least liked him enough to not go out with anyone else. After 4 years of never hearing you mention a boyfriend, Tom figured he still had time to make you his. He was always waiting for the right time when he didn’t have to leave for filming, but that time never came. He tried to mask his disappointment as he listened to you.

“You don’t know him. I met him here.” You told him. When a trainer at the gym asked you on a date, you decided it was time to stop waiting for Tom to ask you out. The pining after him had gone on long enough and you weren’t willing to wait forever.

“What’s he like one of those scrawny little guys you treat who pull a muscle lifting a cup of water? You wouldn’t date a trainee.” He laughed at his own joke out of insecurity. “Would you?” He asked seriously when his laughter died down.

“If I liked him I would.” You shrugged. “But no, he’s one of the trainers. His name is Atticus.”

“I’m gonna be polite right now and not make fun of that name.” Tom let out a breath as he restrained himself. “What’s he look like? Is he bigger than me?”

“He’s probably the biggest guy I’ve ever seen. I think he said he was 6’3 or something.” You laughed and shook your head. Tom chewed his lip, knowing he was often found on “Shortest Men in Hollywood” lists. “And his arms are like the size of my head. I honestly want him to bench press me.” You joked and Tom faked a laugh. He genuinely wanted to be happy for you, but every word that you said was a dagger in him. The thought of someone bigger and stronger than him whisking you away was hurting him more than any injury he’d come to you to treat.

“What’s he like? Sounds like a real meathead.” Tom swallowed thickly, his mouth suddenly feeling dry.

“No, no he’s sweet.” You smiled shyly and for the first time, your smile pained Tom to see. “He’s blonde and he likes to take walks. And he’s so friendly to everyone he meets. He can walk up to a stranger and become their best friend in seconds.”

“You’re describing a golden retriever.” Tom said dryly.

“Which just so happens to be my favorite dog.” You quipped and Tom balled his fist out of your sight.

“How well do you know this guy, though? What if this is a ploy to kidnap you and chop you into little pieces?” Tom asked and you laughed. He chuckled lightly, but he wasn’t joking.

“Now why would he do that?” You humored him.

“To make soup out of you? I don’t know.” He protested. “I’m not him, Y/n. I don’t turn women into soup.”

“Well I don’t think he’s gonna do that.” You chuckled. “And I don’t really know anything about him but that’s what this date is for. This is good for me. I haven’t gone a date in a really long time. This could be the start of something really amazing.” You hoped. “Or he could be a jackass and I have to avoid eye contact when I see him at work for the rest of my life. Who knows? Endless possibilities.”

“Why haven’t you been out on any dates for a while? Have you not found anyone you like?” Tom tried to change the subject to something that didn’t make him want to stick your medical scissors in his eyes.

“No, it’s not that. Definitely not that.” You sighed, remembering why you were going on the date on the first place. “I tend to fall for people who don’t return the favor. There have been boys who I would’ve liked to go out with but, I don’t know. Maybe there’s just something about me that they didn’t like.” You laughed shortly and shrugged it off.

“I doubt it.” Tom stated, a cold chill going through his body at the thought of even more boys having turned your head.

“Thanks. This is good for me. This is going to be good.” You nodded to yourself.

“You said that already.” Tom said, a little more bitterly than he would’ve liked.

“Sorry. I’m just a little nervous.” You tucked some hair behind your ear. His heart fell again as he watched himself losing you in real time. “I’ve been trying to get over someone for the longest time and I’m hoping this date does the trick.”

“So now there’s another boy? An ex?” He said, pursing his lips to keep from showing his anger.

“No. Just a crush.” You shook your head and finally got back to his injury. “Arm up.”

“Does he go here too?” Tom asked as he lifted his arm for you so you could wrap his shoulder. He had come into your office with a fake injury and was gonna leave with a broken heart.

“He might.” You looked around him through your lashes, but he was looking away. “Look that way.” You nodded towards the mirror. He turned his head and sighed.

“Have I seen him?” He asked, digging himself deeper into his hole of self pity. You glanced at him staring at himself in the mirror and chuckled.

“Yeah. You have.” You said honestly.

“That’s weird. I don’t remember seeing any total idiots around here.” Tom grumbled, making you laugh. He didn’t find it funny that anyone made you feel unwanted. He was too busy beating himself over letting you slip away to notice the way you were looking at him.

“He’s not an idiot.” You defended, smiling over Tom unknowingly insulting himself. “He’s the smartest guy I know.”

“He’s smart but he didn’t want you?” Tom scoffed. “I don’t know about that, darling. He sounds a bit like a dunce to me.”

“Well he is.” You insisted. “And who uses the word dunce anymore?”

“I do, when I’m stressed.” Tom sighed and looked you over, taking in everything he was about to lose to another man. “You really think Atticus will help you get over this clown?”

“I hope.” You told him as you finished wrapping his shoulder. “And he’s not a clown. I just need to move on.”

“Yeah.” Tom nodded and gave you a tight lipped smile. “Maybe I do too.”

At home that night, Tom tried to busy himself with whatever he could to keep his mind off your date. He tried to read through his script but couldn’t get past the first page. His mind wandered to you and what you and Atticus were doing. He wondered what dress you were wearing and how pretty you probably looked. Tom had only ever seen you in athletic wear or sweats, and you looked heavenly enough in that. The thought of you with another guy drive him crazy until he hit a wall. He punched his bedroom wall out of anger, immediately regretting it as he cradled his throbbing fist. He flopped on his bed and let out a groan, staying there until he fell asleep.

The next day, Tom went to your office immediately to get his fist checked out. He’d bruised his knuckles before, he knew you’d have the right tools to take care of him. He took a deep breathe before knocking on your door. He saw you smile through the glass as you walked to the door the let him in, and all he could give you was a nod.

“Hey.” He said sheepishly, feeling awkward around you for the first time.

“Hey Tom.” You smiled small, happy to see him but thrown off by his sheepish posture. “Ankle again?”

“No, uh, my hand.” He held up his right hand and this time, you could actually see his injury. His red knuckles looked raw against his pale skin. You took his hand and examined it, already seeing the purple bruises forming.

“What happened? Did the punching bag say something you didn’t like?” You joked, despite being genuinely worried about his injury.

“Something like that.” He smiled shyly. Even if your chances of being together were gone, at least he could count on your friendship. You silently tugged him towards the table and went to get a wrap as he jumped up. Neither of you were blind to the silence that was filling the room, taking the place of your usual banter. You wrapped Toms hand gently as you stood between his legs, holding it close to you to ensure it was tight. Tom watched you as you worked, taking in how close you were. He swallowed, wishing he could be the only one close enough to see you breathe. Even with the throb in his hand, all he could think about was how your date went. He couldn’t help but to analyze you, see if there were any marks left by Atticus or if you were acting happier than usual. To Toms surprise, you seemed somber and reserved today. He wondered if that had anything to do with your date.

“You okay?” You asked suddenly, making Tom snap out of his daze.

“Fine.” He nodded curtly. You finished wrapping his hand and held a bag of ice to his knuckles, leaving yours hands wrapped around his to keep the ice in place. He could’ve held the ice there himself, but you didn’t want him to.

“You can talk to me, you know.” You looked deeply into his eyes, pleading with him to be honest with you. “I know I’m your athletic trainer, but I like to think we’re friends too.”

“It’s nothing. And we are friends.” Tom squeezed your hand with his other hand to assure you. He scanned your face before asking what had been on his mind since the day before. “How was your date?”

“It was really nice, actually.” You said softly. “He took me to an Italian restaurant because he remembered that I said I wanted to go to Italy one day. He opened the car door for me when we got there, pulled my chair out for me when we sat down, and asked me all about my self. He didn’t interrupt me once. He actually seemed interested in what I had to say.” You laughed lightly. Tom clenched his other fist to contain his anger. Those were all things you should be doing with him, not Atticus. He tried to assuage the jealousy by reminding himself that you were practically holding his hand right now.

“He sounds perfect.” Tom tried to keep his voice level. You looked at Tom and pursed your lips before shaking your head.

“He wasn’t.” You said definitively and Toms head snapped up.

“Why not?” He asked, trying to bite back the smile that was dying to break through. You looked at Tom and took your hands off his, laughing to yourself and shaking your head.

“He isn’t you.” You shrugged one should as you leaned your arms on either sides in Toms knees.

“What?” He searched your face for any signs to prove you were messing with him. He’d never seen you look so serious than this moment. You even looked a little tearful as you pulled your bottom lip between your teeth.

“Atticus was a perfect gentlemen. He likes the same music as me -the same music you hate might I add- and wants to travel to the same places. He likes all my favorite movies -those romantic comedies you can’t stand- and made a list of the ones he hadn’t seen so he could watch them later. We shared the same views, similar childhoods.” You laughed nervously. “We even ordered the same thing. If we had any more in common, I’d think he was a mind reader.”

“So what’s the problem?” Tom began to mindlessly play with the bottom of your shirt as he impatiently waiting for an answer.

“My problem is that I spent the entire date thinking of you.” You laughed sadly and backed away from the table, keeping your back to Tom. “All I could think about was what you were doing or how you were feeling. Do you know how many times I wished I had said yes to your plans?” You looked at him over your shoulder. “I was on this amazing date with an incredible guy, and I kept wishing I was in your room helping you read through a script. And when he dropped me off at my house and walked me to my door -because of course he did- and tried to kiss me, I backed away. I gave him a hug and a tight smile and told him I’d see him at work. And you know what he said to me?”

“What?” Tom got off the table and approached your carefully, placing a gentle hand on your hip.

“It’s Tom, isn’t it?” You repeated Atticus’s words as you turned around to face Tom. “That’s when I really started thinking he was a mind reader. He knew I couldn’t kiss him because of whatever I have going on with you. He knew.”

“Oh.” Tom said quietly, even closer to you now than he was before. Closer than ever.

“I tried to get over you. I tried to go on this date and get you out of my mind but I just can’t, Tom. You got me. That boy I said I couldn’t get over? That was you. And it’s still you.” You shoved him slightly and he smiled. “I don’t know what this is between us, and I definitely don’t know what it is to you. But my favorite time of the day for the past 4 years has been 2 pm because that’s when I get to see you.”

“Y/n-“ He tried to cut in.

“I like you, Tom. I like you.” You finally admitted. He stood there in happy shock as you went over to the table and sat down on it. Tom collected himself and turned around to face you.

“I’ve never sprained my ankle.” He admitted, making you look up at him.

“Wait, what?” You asked, knowing you’d treated him for a sprained ankle numerous times since he started at your gym.

“I know my form is off. And I know exactly how to fix it too. It doesn’t actually hurt my shoulder but it gives me an excuse to come see you.” He took at step closer with every sentence until he was standing before you.

“That’s sweet but you could also seriously hurt-“ You tried to tell him about the dangers of what he was doing but he held a finger to your lips, making you laugh.

“My turn to talk.” He said playfully as he took a seat beside you on the table. “I couldn’t handle the thought of you on a date with another guy, especially not after I’ve been pining over you since I started coming here. I think about you all the time. The movie I’m training for right now? It’s animated! I’m voicing a character, I don’t even need to get into shape.” Tom exclaimed and you laughed, urging him to continue. He tilted your face towards his with his pinky. “But I do it because I miss you every day I don’t see you.”

“I miss you too.” You breathed.

“You have any cures for a broken heart in that bag?” Tom nodded towards your medical bag, the one he’d seen you dig around in a thousand times.

“Yeah.” You climbed onto his lap and straddled his hips. “I do.”

You pressed a kiss to Toms lips, causing a squeak to emit from the back of his throat. He rested his hands on your waist as you tugged the curls on the back of his neck. You pulled away and rested your forehead against his.

“Are we gonna do this for real?” He whispered, looking up at you.

“I want to.” You confirmed. “Do you?”

“Of course I do. But it’s not going to be easy.” He told you, knowing dating him came with a lot of unexpected hardships.

“I’ve never been a fan of easy.” You smirked, making him smile and squeeze your hip.

“What if you came with me? I could hire you as my personal athletic trainer. I promise I’ll actually sprain my ankle this time.” His eyes lit up as he offered you a job. You laughed at his proposal and slid off his lap.

“You don’t have to go that far.” You chuckled. “But if you’ll have me, I’d love to come with you. I wanna go where you go.”

Tom smiled at your acceptance and pulled you into a tight embrace.

“And wherever I am, I want you there too.”

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that-sarcastic-writer · 5 years ago

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Once upon a time in NYU- MGG AU

Fandom: MGG, Criminal Minds

Pairing: College!Matthew X College!Reader

Summary: you couldn't stand Matthew, and he couldn't stand you. But you couldn't say the same when you were in his bed

Warnings: alternative universe, enemies to lovers relationship, cursing duh, hair pulling, fingering, penetrative sex, unprotected sex, bad writing basically

WC: 6.1k

A/N: so I saw I think it was @eideticmemory write an enemies to lovers college fic and like a light just went on in my head, and I really wanted to that because I've always wanted to, but also give it my own twist and touch of course, so I guess this my attempt at writing a multi-chapter Matthew fic. Will I succeed? Probably not. But it's a good excuse to write smut after a year so we'll see. ALSO HUGE TW I understand posting this now might be a bit of a bad timing. So if you think that reading this will trigger you in any way, just go ahead and skip this one. I dont want to trigger anyone in any way, I just want to entertain you guys and myself in the process so yeah, read at your own risk and please please stay safe. And this is going to be a bit long so strap in yall and enjoy the poorly written sin.

Andddd huge huge thanks to my friend Kara (idk if shes reading this but yeah) for helping me edit this, she helped me make this so much better for you guys and she literally so amazing for actually spending the time to help me. So yeah,

You know when something bad happens, you’re always told to see the bright side of things? That maybe that unfortunate event isn’t as bad as you feel it is? Yeah, well, that doesn’t always apply, and it certainly didn’t when I found out I was partnered with the one person I was hoping I wouldn’t get paired with for my end of the semester film project.

Seriously, out of the nearly hundred students that were enrolled in my film class, I had to get paired up with him, him out of all people, literally the one person I was praying wouldn't get paired up with. Not only because I was forced to work with someone, because honestly all I wanted was to work alone, I had to get paired with Matthew fucking Gubler.

You know when people say God has his favourites? Yeah, well I certainly wasn't one of them.

Now, I didn’t necessarily hate Matthew Gubler. I didn't hate him for no reason, I didn't just wake up one day and decided I was just going to hate Matthew. There was a time where I actually liked him, I liked him more than I'd like to admit, deep down I still did. And I knew he liked me too, he did then at least. And we were good together, it was fun, we had a fun first couple of dates. To this day, they were the nicest dates I ever had, because he knew just how to make them special. I mean, when a guy takes you to the Neue Galerie here in New York and have nice long walk through Central Park, a walk filled with laughter and bliss, it has to be special, and in a weird way, he was special too.

And as much as I wanted more than just two or three dates, I would've been perfectly fine if he had told me what he wanted from the start. If he had suddenly changed his mind about me, I would've accepted it, and I would've been able to live a happy life as his friend if that's what he wanted.

But he didn't, and instead I found out he had other interests. And I didn't hear it from him, I heard it from my friend. She didn't even need to tell me who it was, because the minute she told me where he took her, I knew. He took her to the same place he took me not even two weeks later and then acted like I was nothing the next time he saw me. And my god did that fucking hurt. It hurt me in a way I had never been hurt before, because I thought he was different, I was hoping he was. And convincing myself that I hated him was much easier than facing the fact that it hurt. And I never addressed it ever again, not that Matthew cared enough to actually talk about us, or, whatever we were. So instead we just made each other's existence miserable.

No, what I felt for Matthew wasn't hate, it was just the strong need to stay ten feet away from him so I wouldn't shove a five foot pole up his ass. That's how I felt about Matthew Gubler.

And now, here I was, aggressively shoving my laptop and notebook into my bag so I could leave the auditorium as quickly as possible, or at least quick enough to avoid Matthew, because knowing how he was, he would come straight to me to rub our partnership in my face. And I was right, because the minute we were dismissed, I spotted his lanky frame starting to come down from the top rows where he usually sat, and he was headed my way.

Screaming a big nope in my head, I strapped my bag over my shoulder and headed straight for the exit. I knew I couldn't avoid him forever, especially now but, I just needed a minute to mentally prepare myself to deal with him, a minute and probably a bottle of booze. But I didn't get either because the minute I was out those doors, I heard the unmistakable sound of his voice calling my name.

Great.

"Y/N! Y/N wait!" I heard Matthew call out, followed my rushed footsteps coming from behind me.

"Hey, partner, I'm glad I caught you before you left. You weren't trying to run away from me were you?" He teased, throwing one of his particularly long arms over my shoulder.

If I had rolled my eyes any harder they probably would've gotten stuck there. I groaned, grabbing a hold of his arm and unwrapping it not so subtly before dropping it beside him, "first of all, I'd really appreciate it if you didn't touch me, and second of all, just please go away, Matthew. I have a class I have to get to." I muttered, walking slightly faster and keeping my gaze forward, refusing to even look at him.

If there was something I've learned about Matthew in the two long years I've known him is that he usually goes away on his own if I don't give him the attention he wanted. I was hoping this was one of those times, because I was not in the mood to deal with him right now.

But alas, he didn't, he walked faster, staying beside me the whole time. "But I wasn't even doing anything. I was just saying hi." He defended, and I could just hear the smile on his face even when I wasn't even looking at him.

I rolled my eyes harder, letting out a small breath through my lips, "what do you want Matthew?"

"When can we meet up? I already have an idea for our project and I think you're going to love it."

I chuckled sarcastically, finding his words actually hilarious, "If you came up with it I seriously doubt it." I sighed heavily, digging my teeth into my bottom lip before speaking, "tonight after I finish my shift, I guess. The quicker we can start, the quicker we can get it over with, soo..."

"Great. It's a date then, see you tonight, sweetheart." He hummed, ghosting his lips over my ear, his lips smacking loudly as he pretended to kiss it before he quickly took off in the other direction before I could even say anything.

This fucking guy.

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"I seriously do not understand how you fucking dated this guy, he's so obnoxious and annoying, how could anyone want to date someone like that." I complained to my friend and roommate Liz. I met her for a quick lunch break before my afternoon class and I just had to let her know how unhappy I was about my partnership with Matthew. She was amused to say the least.

"You make it sound like we dated for years, we dated for a few months, but he's not even that bad." she argued.

I rolled my eyes, crossing my arms over my chest and leaned back into my seat with an unamused expression, just waiting for Liz to bury herself further up Matthew's ass. I always had the feeling she still had feelings for him, as much as she insisted it was just a meaningless relationship. And as much as they were just friends now, I just knew she wanted more with him. But it wasn't really my place to question that, not that it mattered to me anyway.

"He's a pretty cool and fun guy to be around, you just never gave him a chance. You've hated him ever since you met him for absolutely no reason, you never gave yourself the chance to get to know him better." Liz insisted, she always did. She always insisted Matthew was such a great guy I never gave the change to get to know.

I had let out a heavy sigh in annoyance of her defense of Matthew before responding, "yeah well, it doesn't really matter since I'm being forced to anyway. And he's coming over tonight to start our project. Can't fucking wait."

I could've sworn I saw Liz's expression change into a mixture of surprise and something I could've easily confused with jealousy. She pursed her lips together and her eyes darted everywhere, like she was avoiding making any kind of eye contact with me.

But, it couldn't be jealousy? What even is there to be jealous of? Her and the whole world knew how I felt about Matthew, her out of all people knew it better than anyone.

"Oh, he is? Well, I'm not really going to be home tonight, I would've given you company so it wouldn't be so awkward with him." She frowned, she sounded disappointed, angry even. She looked uncomfortable, like she was deeply bothered by something, by something I said.

It was weird, I wasn't exactly sure what to say, I wasn't really sure why my news seemed to bother her as much as it did. It's not like I was going to sleep with Matthew while she was away or something. It didn't really matter though, I didn't have time to answer. Thank God.

"I'm sorry Liz but I have to go, I have class in like ten minutes." I excused myself, eating whatever was left on my plate in a matter of seconds before I stood up from my seat and gathered my belongings, "I'll see you later and wish me luck." I said quickly before taking off, not giving her the chance to respond.

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Usually, I pray for shifts to be over as soon as possible, for it to be slow so I can go home early. Today though, today I prayed for just the opposite. I was hoping the end of my shift wouldn't come, and when it did, that it would be too late and I would be able to cancel my meet up with Matthew.

But like I said, I wasn't one of God's favourites. And today out of all days, it was the slowest it has ever been and my shift ended rather quickly, quicker than I had hoped.

Groaning loudly at the evening that awaited me, I walked down the long halls of my floor, standing outside of my dorm room, dreading my evening already.

Figuring I should just get it over with, I went to get the key on the lock of my door, but noticed it was already unlocked. Liz probably forgot to lock the door, again. I rolled my eyes, shaking my head at my stupid roommate before turning the knob, opening the door. And my jaw dropped the minute I stepped into the room, not believing what my eyes saw.

You've got to be fucking kidding me.

"Matthew, what the fuck are you doing in my dorm and in my bed!? How did you even get in here?" I nearly screamed at the tall brunette that was carelessly laying on my bed with what I figured was one of my books in his hand.

Matthew turned his head towards me, a carefree and calm look plastered all over his face before his eyes went back to the pages in front of him., "oh, well, Liz let me in before she went to work. I hope you don't mind." He responded nonchalantly, continuing to flick through the pages of the book he had in his hand.

I stared at him with absolute disbelief and a loud scoff left my lips as I slightly pitched the bridge of my nose, trying not to throw the nearest object at his face, "yes, I do mind, in fact. You can't just come into somebody's dorm, lie on their bed and go through their stuff. Seriously dude, what is wrong with you?"

I just couldn't believe this guy. He just knew how to get on my nerves without even doing anything.

Matthew, of course, couldn't have cared any less about whatever I was saying. And it wasn't that he wasn't listening, because he was, he had that stupid smile on his face that proved he was in fact listening to every word I was saying. He just didn't care, or he did, but he just liked getting on my nerves. He loved pushing every single one of my buttons until I snapped. And I had no idea why. I had no idea why he liked annoying me so much.

I exhaled heavily through my nose, closing my eyes slightly as I ran a hand through my hair exasperatedly, "I just can't fucking deal with you. I can't." I huffed, dropping my bag from my shoulder and walked to the opposite side of my room, facing away from him, not even wanting to look at his face.

"Tell me something, sweetheart," Matthew spoke, curiosity and a slight bit of amusement lingering on his words.

"What."

"Why do you hate me so much? You've hated me ever since I dated Liz back in our first year of college and I never truly understood why," he questioned with genuine curiosity, but there was also a certain playfulness in his voice. I opened my mouth to answer, still not facing him, and I was so ready to tell him off, god knows I've been wanting to but he cut me off. "Is it because I never slept with you?"

My eyes instantly widened at his words, a clearly offended scoff leaving my lips as I turned around to face him, "what? No, of course not, I—" my words got caught in my throat when I saw his tall frame towering over me, my eyes getting stuck on his chest before they traveled up to his face, and he was close. Extremely close. I swallowed thickly, feeling slightly cornered by his significantly taller frame so I stepped back, trying to create some kind of distance between us, but he simply followed me. "I, uhm, that's not why I don't like you, Matthew. I don't like you because you're an insensitive asshole and—"

"Oh, I know why you hate me," he cut me off again, slowly running his tongue to wet his perfectly pink lips. "You hate me because I dated Liz and not you."

His proclamation made my eyes grow even wider and my mouth hung open as I stammered for words. I wanted to disagree, I truly wanted to tell him that he was wrong. But honestly, he wasn't altogether wrong. I couldn't say some of my resentment didn't come from a deep rooted feeling of rejection. Because while most of that resentment came from that place of genuine hurt, my resentment was fueled by frustration and a shameless sense of envy.

But it was just easier to convince myself that I hated him than to admit that I still liked him and that it hurt me that he chose my friend over me.

But of course, I would never admit to that, especially not to him.

Avoiding eye contact, I looked down and shook my head, running my tongue to wet my suddenly dry lips, "of-of course not. Why—why would I care about your dating life? You can fuck whoever you want, I don't care." I wish I sounded more confident when I said that. But my stuttering words and my unsteady legs gave him exactly what he wanted.

And the bastard actually chuckled. He fucking chuckled.

"But you do, you do care. You care because you haven't stopped thinking about us and me since our first year." He grinned, digging his teeth into his perfect lips as he brought a hand to cup my face, lifting it so I had no other choice but to look at him.

And I was fucking gone.

It was like, all of that anger, frustration and hatred just vanished and instead turned into longing want. Want for him to just take me and do whatever he pleases with me. I was practically nothing in his hands, and I was nothing waiting for him to make me something. Waiting for him to make me his.

And that absolutely delighted the bastard. He found amusement in having the power I never allowed him to have. But right now, I just couldn't fight it.

I always knew that if I ever found myself alone and in this situation with Matthew Gubler, I would lose, no matter how much I tried to convince myself otherwise.

And he knew that too.

"That's it, isn't? You want me to fuck you like I fucked your friend." He smirked, almost like he was proud to say it. And he stared, his usually soft amber eyes now brown and darkened with want.

Who the fuck was this guy and where did Matthew go? Matthew Gubler was the most awkward and disgraceful guy when it came to women. The poor guy couldn't even flirt his way out of a wet paper bag. And yet, somehow, here he was, with this new found confidence and the ability to turn me into a shaking and stuttering mess. Who fucking knew.

Once again, I stammered for words, I truly wanted to tell him otherwise. I wanted to scream in his face and push him away, but I couldn't. Not that I wanted to.

He took my lack of response as the answer he was looking for and brought his other hand to my waist, backing me up against the nearest wall, caging me between the hard surface behind me and his body, which right now, seemed so much bigger than mine.

My breathing instantly skyrocketed as I felt the same hand that was on my waist sneak its way past the ends of my dress and up my bare thighs, ones that shook like an earthquake as the pads of his fingers slowly rubbed the tense skin. Like he was testing the waters. Testing how well my body reacted to his touch.

And it wasn't subtle. At all.

"W-what—what are you doing?" I almost squealed, my voice practically betraying me.

"Oh? Well, I'm just giving you what you wanted. I'm giving you what you've been wanting for years." He stated so casually, like he had no idea what he was doing to me. And just as casually, he slowly ran a finger over the thin cotton fabric of my underwear, touching me, but definitely not in the way I needed to be touched.

I wished my body didn't betray me like it did though. I couldn't even hold back the breathy moan that escaped my lips when his fingers made contact with the thin material. But Matthew certainly loved the response I gave him.

"Because this is what you've been wanting, isn't it? You've been thinking about how my fingers would feel buried inside your little cunt. Or how good you would feel around my cock." He taunted, it was almost cynical just how easily those filthy words rolled off his usually reserved tongue. "I'm not gonna lie, I've thought about it too, you have no idea how many times I've thought about having your filthy mouth wrapped around me. Or how pretty you would look begging me for more."

I opened my mouth to speak but my words instantly got caught in my throat when the sneaky bastard pulled the fabric to the side and dipped his fingers into the soaking mess that was my core.

And if there were any rational thoughts still hanging in my head, all of those just went straight out the window when another moan erupted from my throat and my head fell back into the wall behind me.

"See just how much easier things are when you just shut the fuck up and stop fighting so much?" He almost whispered, his lips ghosting over the skin on my neck as a lithe finger gathered my wetness and spread it over my clit.

Despite being a complete whimpering mess at that point, I managed to spit out a surprisingly harsh, "fuck you."

It was a pretty convincing retort. One that didn't exactly have the effect I hoped for though.

I could feel him smirk into my neck as his lips left wet and sloppy kisses into the skin before he pulled back, just so he could see the look of utter want and frustration on my face.

"Hm, sorry sweetheart, I can't do that. I'm too busy trying to fuck you instead."

I swear to god, he was the biggest asshole I have ever met in my entire fucking life. But he was an asshole who immediately slipped two of his sinfully long fingers into my dripping core. I instantly choked on my own breath as he began working his fingers around the muscles, stroking the digits inside me at an agonizingly slow pace.

"Because that's what you want don't you sweetheart? You want to me to fuck you into that mattress until you can't keep your eyes open?" He continued, his filthy words making me pant like I ran for fucking miles. "I do too, trust me I do. And I will, I promise. But I want to make up for all of the lost time. Don't you?"

I wasn't even paying attention to whatever filthy proclamations were coming out of Matthew's mouth, with my eyes nearly closed, my mouth slightly open and my mind only focusing on his fingers working diligently inside me, how could I?

But Matthew was expecting an answer this time. Because I could feel his darkened eyes glare into my face and his fingers immediately stilled inside me. Earning a loud whine from me.

"I asked you a question, answer me."

It took me a minute to remember his question before I quickly nodded, "yes! Yes! Is that what you wanted to hear?" I nearly screamed at his face, my hands coming to clutch his shirt, needing something to relieve some tension.

"I want to hear you say it. Say it, tell me you want me." He demanded, his eyes locking with mine as he waited for what he wanted to hear.

He wanted me to beg, he wanted me to give up that control I never allowed him to have. And was I going to?

Absolutely.

I needed to.

"I want you, Matthew, I want you to take me and fuck me into that mattress until I can't walk straight. Please."

I guess that was the answer Matthew had been looking for because his fingers immediately began to work diligently inside me again, stroking the digits until he had me whimpering and begging for release.

It wasn't long before my head started to spin and stars began to blur my vision. Words were no longer an option at that point, nothing would come out, not even Matthew's name. All I could manage to let out were pathetic, strangled moans. But he could tell I was close, or I figured that much because his fingers only worked faster around my tightening walls, determined to finish me.

"C'mon sweetheart, come for me." he encouraged through gritted teeth as his fingers were anything but still inside me and his palm applied a crushing pressure into my front. And even when my eyes were half closed and my mind had turned into dust, I could see the look of utter determination on his face, his eyebrows were furrowed as his teeth dug into his perfectly plump lips. It was like his only focus was on driving me over the edge. And he succeeded.

The second his fingers curled, I was fucking gone. My orgasm hit me like a tidal wave. My eyes rolled into the back of my head as I cried out his name like a praise, my body nearly spasming against the wall. But his fingers didn't stop until my whole body shook to the point where my legs no longer supported my weight and I practically slid into the wall as I tried to catch my breath.

It was almost dizzying just how quickly Matthew withdrew his fingers from me and hoisted me up on his slim torso. He wasted absolutely no time in striding over to my bed across the room. My whole body collided with my bed so quickly and forcefully it knocked the air out of my chest.

Matthew was practically ripping away his clothes before I could even sit up or catch my breath. Like he had this urgency to do what I've been avoiding for the past two years. Like he needed to do it, right now, like something would happen before he got the chance to.

"Matthew—"

"Shut up, I've heard enough shit from you for the past two years, and I'm fucking tired of it." He almost growled, his usually soft voice coming out so low and dark it actually stroked fear in my heart. It was scary just how quickly his demeanor changed.

Matthew didn't really waste much time in discarding his clothes, he was down to only his boxers and was on top of me before I could even blink. He brought a hand to my chest and he pushed me down until my back was flat on the bed, but his hand stayed there, pinning me there as he hovered over me, trapping my significantly smaller body under his own.

He wasted no time in grabbing a hold of my dress and pulling it over my head. And I could've sworn I saw pure awe and infatuation flash through his eyes as they shamelessly eyed over my newly exposed skin. Come to think of it though, this was the first time I was this naked in front of him, and even then, I wasn't fully naked. Not yet anyway.

After a good minute, his eyes flickered back up to meet with mine, his previous look of awe quickly replaced by this feral look of want and pure desire. And I couldn't say it didn't excite me to see it.

He brought a hand to my face, running his smooth fingers over my face with a surprising amount of delicacy before he deep rooted them into my hair and slightly tilted my head back before he brought his face into mine, our lips crashing into a deep fervent kiss. I didn't realize we have never actually kissed. No wonder there was so much desperation and hunger within that kiss. We've been wanting this ever since we met, and ironically, I wanted it more.

His mouth was harsh and fervent against mine, his tongue wasting no time before it quickly slipped between my lips without much of a warning. His tongue explored every inch of my mouth and took as much control as he wanted to as he brought one of his hands to discard my brassiere, he struggled a bit at first but he managed to unhook it and discarded the flimsy material along with the rest of forgotten clothes. He pulled back to capture the image of my newly exposed skin. And he wasn't subtle, at all.

I almost felt intimidated under his deep and penetrating gaze as he shamelessly ogled my exposed body. I was completely exposed to him, completely vulnerable and right now, he could do whatever the fuck he wanted with me. And that scared me, it scared me just how quickly he took control over me after years of fighting against it.

With a hard swallow and a bob of his Adam's apple, Matthew slowly licked his lips, scraping his teeth against his slightly swollen bottom lip in a way that almost made me roll my eyes back into my head. But I didn't, instead I just locked eyes with him as he brought his face down and wrapped his lips around one of my breasts and his tongue swirled around the sensitive bud almost expertly, using one of his hands to toy with the other.

"O-oh fuck." I couldn't help but helplessly moan into the air as my hands found their way into his mop of brown curls. This reaction certainly delighted the bastard above me because I could feel his eyes burning into my face and his lips curving into a smirk around me before he slowly pulled back, latching on to my nipple as he pulled off it.

"You have a very filthy mouth, jeez." He tisked, slightly shaking his head disaprovingly but still had that fucking smirk of his.

Clearly, I wasn't amused, in the slightest, so his stupid comment earned him a nice and concise, "fuck you."

But then again, it didn't have the effect I hoped for.

"Mhm, yeah, you're about to." He retorted one last time before bringing his face back up to mine, capturing me in a heated and messy kiss that only worked as distraction from the journey Matthew's hands took down south. I was only brought back to reality when I felt my underwear being ripped away and the cool air hitting me. And he was quick to pull down his own boxers and allowed his length to spring free. And I couldn't even play off the fact that I had to stare, my mouth slightly hanging open at the sight of him.

"You're so cute when you stare." He taunted, his words being fairly tame in contrast to his very dark and not innocent tone. The sound of his voice made me flicker my eyes to meet his face. Big mistake, because the borderline devious smirk on his face didn't help, at all. And it certainly didn't help when he positioned himself between my legs, rubbing himself on my already dripping heat.

"You do have condoms here, right?" He asked, but I wasn't paying attention, with him rubbing himself on my slick, I couldn't really pay much attention to anything. "I could just fuck you bareback, I'm clean, so I don't care. But it's up to you." He spoke again, slightly teasing my entrance with the tip of his length, hoping to actually get my attention, and I actually listened this time.

Biting my lip, I mentally cursed at my lack of sexual activity because it just so happened that I had no condoms. Matthew gave me an expectant look, not to pressure me, but just waiting impatiently. I knew if I told him to stop he would without a second thought, but he would just leave. I wasn't going to make that mistake twice.

"I'm clean too, just," I chewed on my bottom lip, already shuddering with anticipation as I hooked my legs around his slim torso, pulling him closer, "just take me, please just fucking take me already."

I didn't have to say it twice.

Without a second thought, he propped himself up on his arms and pressed his face against mine as he slammed into me in one swift motion. A strangled moan erupted from my throat as he buried himself to the hilt, stretching me open at once. And fuck, the feeling of him inside me was intoxicating, addicting even, I don't think I've ever felt like this before.

This was so fucking wrong. So wrong, so wrong to be fucking the guy my friend dated, so wrong to be fucking the guy I swore to everyone I hated. It was just wrong. So why the hell did it feel so right? It was so perfectly right the way our bodies felt together, like they simply belonged there, buried deeply within one another. I never wanted to stop feeling like this.

It was almost dizzying just how good he felt. And with the quick and fervent pace he set for himself right from the start, I knew I probably wouldn't last long. With my eyes rolled into my head, my open mouth and my body sprawled out on the bed as I tried to find something to hold on to, he probably had one hell of a view. And he enjoyed it too, because his thrusts only became harsher.

"Fuck, sweetheart, you're so fucking beautiful," he cursed through gritted teeth, his hands holding my hips down with a vice like grip, making sure I couldn't move. And it wasn't for lack of trying. My body shook and shuddered like a fucking earthquake around him but he simply held me down as he continued.

"You feel so good too. I can't believe you made me wait two fucking years for this. Fuck." He nearly shouted, slamming into me with an insane amount of force and clenched his eyes shut, almost as if the thought made him angry, "two fucking years to take what was mine."

His. He called me his.

Fuck, I wish those filthy words didn't have such a strong effect on me, but boy did they make a number on me. I couldn't even hold back the guttural cry that erupted from my chest as I nodded feverishly, not really realizing what I was nodding to.

"Yes! Fuck yes, Matthew, I'm yours!" I almost screamed, saying whatever incoherent thoughts flashed through my mind, letting the whole floor know just how much fun I was having and with whom. And with my mind and thoughts being too clouded by the feeling of him, I didn't even think about what those words entailed.

But it didn't matter because they served their purpose regardless. I wasn't expecting just how much the words actually affected him, because his hips began to falter, his thrusts becoming longer but impossibly deeper. And I could see how concentrated he was, with sweat forming on his forehead, his teeth digging into his bottom lip and his breath was hard and short, like this was a task he was determined to finish. He was determined to ruin me.

Letting out a guttural and nearly animalistic groan, Matthew grabbed a hold of my hips and raised them so that each thrust would make him bottom out inside of me, knowing just how close we both were to our release. "Yeah, that's right, sweetheart, let the whole floor know who's making you feel this good," he growled as he gave one last final but brutal thrust, digging his fingers into my hips so tight I just knew I would have bruises tomorrow as he held me down on him, "let the whole floor know you're mine."

And just like that, my orgasm crashed into me, Matthew's harsh words of ownership sending me into a euphoric state of pleasure, my lips chanting his name like a mantra and my walls tightening around him as he came deeply into me, my own name rolling off his tongue in a quiet praise. And the utter and absolute look of ecstasy on his face made up for the bruises I would have to hide for the next few days and for the two years we've made each other's life a living hell. Because right now, seeing that look of being completely fucked, I just wanted nothing more than to just stay like this.

The second we were no longer blinded by our highs, he fell forward, nearly crushing me under his weight as he struggled to get himself up. Yeah he looked fucked alright. Despite knowing damn well he could've easily rolled off me, he didn't, he simply rested his head on my chest and closed his eyes like he was just going to sleep there. A small smile made its way to my lips at the sight of his tousled brown curls on my chest, ignoring all logic, I ran my fingers through the messy locks, and they were in fact as soft as they always looked.

Realizing just how bad this was for me, and just how vulnerable I actually looked, I smacked his forehead, successfully earning a glare from him once he lifted his head, looking dead at me with his now soft amber eyes.

"You're crushing me, you ass, get off." I breathed out and rolled my eyes, being too exhausted to try and get him off myself. And knowing just how easily he corrupted me, I didn't need another thing to make this harder.

"Okay, okay, jeez." Matthew rolled his eyes, letting his head back into my chest exhaustively and groaned tiredly into my chest before he gathered just enough strength to roll off me and collapsed beside me, his reddened and sweaty chest still rising and falling unevenly as he was still trying to steady his breathing. And I was trying, too. And we just stared, we stared at each other, saying nothing. There was nothing to be said. It was better that way.

After a long long while of silently staring at each other, he brought a hand to my face and rested it there, his thumb mindlessly rubbing over the warm skin of my cheek and he smiled, he simply smiled. And it felt good, it felt comforting, sweet even, it was a funny contrast after what he just did to me.

"So.. About our project.."

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twisted-crumpets · 4 years ago

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Hiya Jojo amazing work!

I’d like to know if I can have Soft Vil headcannons while he’s with his gn S/O?

Hey Yuu, good to see you again. Hell yeah I’ll write some, I’m in a soft mood.

━━ Vil Shoenheit ━━

Vil loves holding his S/O’s face in his hands, and admiring how beautiful they are.

“My darling, words can’t describe how flawlessly beautiful you are.”

Will tilt their face slightly downwards to give them a soft kiss on their head.

Adores watching movies with his darling and makes sure to gauge their reaction before launching into any criticism.

Sometimes chooses the most terrible of films to laugh about with his S/O.

Or, will choose a film and will delve into the hidden messages and meanings and will passionately rant about all of the things he noticed and loved.

Could honestly talk to his S/O for hours on end.

Loves scented candles and will figure out which candles his S/O prefers and has them all around this room, it puts them both in a soft mood.

When he’s not wearing his makeup, he will softly nuzzle the top of their head with his cheek.

Enjoys playing with their hands and likes trying out different nail designs on them.

Whilst yes, Vil may try to perfect their makeup and skin routines, he knows how to give credit where it’s due and applauds his darling even if they’ve never touched any kind of skincare product in their life.

Constantly looks out for their well-being and asks Rook to check how they are occasionally.

Will not tolerate any kind of slander towards his love and will defend them endlessly and try to steer their minds away from it.

“Dearest, never believe a word those foul creatures spew, you are the one I adore and no amount of comments on magicam will ever change that.”

Every week Vil will organise a self care day and no modelling gigs will ever come before it.

Always ready to pamper his S/O because they deserve it.

Never says anything negative about his love when it comes to appearance EVER.

“Beloved, I adore the way that hoodie looks on you, maybe try it in blue? I think it’ll suit your eyes and complexion very nicely.”

Every evening, Vil will softly brush their hair and ask about their day.

If they tell him their day went badly, he will softly brush aside any tears, will hold them close for hours if need be, and clear his schedule.

His S/O needs him, it can wait.

Plus, he’s an actor, lying comes way too easily.

Asks Trey for some sweets to share with his love.

If he’s ever in an extremely soft mood, he will play some soft classical music and will ask his love to dance.

Usually, leads to them both holding each other and just relishing in the moment and those kinds of moments make him truly happy and appreciative of their presence in his life.

An early bird, always admires his darling and gives them a kiss on the cheek before going on his daily run.

Kisses are long and sweet, he wants to savour every moment and every touch and forever engrain it into his head.

I don’t know if this is canon, but I see Vil as someone with long fingers and he finds the hand size difference very cute and chuckles every time he holds their hand.

When he hugs, he wraps one arm around their middle/ waist and one arm gently holds the back of their neck and does so for a long time and just enjoys the warmth and affection from his darling.

In conclusion, Vil is very appreciative of his love and has no qualms about showing it. He adores his S/O and will never hide it.

I hope you enjoyed your meal!

#brain frying #twisted wonderland #twst #vil schoenheit #g/n reader

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writer-k-pop · 4 years ago

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Expectation vs Reality - HipHop

Description: You star in a music video with them and film a scene of either an argument or a cute talk but the dialogue is cut out. This is what you see in the music video versus what was actually said/happened during filming. Warnings: None Genre: Fluff

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S.Coups/Seungcheol

EXPECTATION: A cute morning scene when you greet him with a tray of food for breakfast. Smiles and the warm sunlight brighten the scene and Coups warmly accepts the tray of yellow food that matches the colors of the scene.

REALITY: You walk in with the tray and smile on your face. Coups can’t quite see what’s on the tray but when it comes into view, he has to fight to keep the smile on his face. The entire tray is filled with foods containing his least favorite food: lemons. Lemon bread, candy lemons, little cupcakes topped with lemons.

“This is what you get for making me get up hours before the sun.” You smile sweetly at him, holding out the tray.

Coups takes the tray and prays the camera doesn’t catch the panic in his eyes. He scans over the tray as you sit next to him on the bed, then leans over near you ear.

“You’re the one who agreed to this.” He whispers before pecking your cheek. He then picks up the cupcake and moves to take a bite. You should know that he wouldn’t actually eat it but it still surprises you when he smooshes the frosting into the cheek he just kissed.

“CUT!”

Wonwoo

EXPECTATION: A heated argument taking place in the kitchen as the sun sets through the window. The purples of the night seep into the kitchen and the argument isn’t settling down.

REALITY: With each take, you and Wonwoo pretend argue about a whole bunch of random things. But in the cut that actually made it into the music video, you and Wonwoo were discussing movies (as you are going to go shopping for a new one after filming). Which then leads Wonwoo to adamantly argue that books are better than movies.

“Take Harry Potter.” Wonwoo holds out his hands towards you, the ‘argument’ escalating some. “Books are so much better.”

You shake your head, “No way. The movies were amazing. All the magic and the flying and ugh, perfect.”

“Ugh, movies always put the image in your head for you.” Wonwoo argues, “There’s no individual creativity to anything. You see what they interpreted the books as and that’s the one you agree with, without-”

“Who has time to try and imagine every sentence of every book?” You cut him off.

“Readers do!” Wonwoo throws his hands in the air and then rests them on top of his head, “That’s why it’s so much fun. We can imagine how the book world would be in our own way and then discuss with other readers about the different creations.”

You hold a hand, “Let’s just agree to disagree.”

“CUT!”

Mingyu

EXPECTATION: The scene goes from you, all dressed up, walking up steps towards Mingyu where he is waiting with the door open. Then cuts to Mingyu, smiling. Then back to you, where you suddenly break out into the weirdest walk you can manage in the outfit. Then back to Mingyu who’s smile turns nervous before he breaks out into true laughter.

REALITY: To get the true genuine shock of Mingyu’s face, the director doesn’t tell Mingyu what you are going to be doing. The camera’s roll and focus on Mingyu while you walk up the set. Two steps up and you begin to flail and walk with oddly stiff but bent knees. The trick works and Mingyu’s reaction is quite genuine.

“WHAT IS THAT?” Mingyu bursts out, unable to hold his laughter in any longer.

“My imitation of you when you’re drunk.” You says with a smile and shrug.

“I do not do that!” Mingyu defends himself.

“What? This?” You ask and imitate him again. “Yes, you do this. I’ve witnessed it quite a lot.”

“You lie.” Mingyu says when you reach him.

“CUT!”

Vernon

EXPECTATION: In the scene, you’re talking to Vernon and the muted bleak colors along with the sad toned song overlayed, anyone could tell that what you’re saying is not the happiest. Vernon lowers his head with his eyes cast down.

REALITY: You have to make the situation very serious but you and Vernon both woke up oddly happy and giddy. So it’s difficult to think of anything that you could say but Vernon reassures you that you could say anything and he’ll take care of the acting portion. So you let your mind ramble.

“And you know what?” You say with a stern, flat voice and cross your arms over your chest, “It’s not fair that you’re this good looking. Like what the heck was God thinking when he pieced you together. Totally not fair.”

Vernon keeps a straight face and just blinks at you.

“The other night I was even laying in bed thinking about how freaking cute our kids will be.” You keep rambling off good thoughts in the sternest of tones, “And then I got all worried that our kids might be TOO cute and we’ll have to protect them for life.”

At this point, the corner of Vernon’s eye begins to twitch but he quickly regains control and stills his face.

“Do you want to protect our too cute kids forever?” You ask, running a hand through your hair. At this point, Vernon is breaking so he lowers his head, acting in shame to hide it.

“I mean I guess we’ll have to because at this point because you can’t exactly take back your perfectness, can you?” You continue, “So just know that when we’re old and cranky, still protecting our perfect looking kids with our canes, it’s all because of you and your perfect looks.” You point a finger at him, harshly.

But as soon as you finish, Vernon breaks out into laughter, ruining the ending.

“Wow, you actually thought about that?” Vernon asks you, pulling you in for a hug.

You shrug, “Some of it, I exaggerated most of it though.”

“CUT!”

#seventeen #seventeen imagine #seventeen scoups imagine #seveneteen seungcheol imagine #seventeen wonwoo imagine #seventeen mingyu imagine #seventeen vernon imagine #scoups imagine #seungcheol imagine #wonwoo imagine #mingyu imagine #vernon imagine #choi seungcheol #jeon wonwoo #kim mingyu #chwe vernon

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Sir Patrick Michael Leigh Fermor, DSO, OBE (also known as Paddy Fermor) was born on February 11, 1915. He was a British author, scholar, soldier and polyglot who played a prominent role behind the lines in the Cretan resistance during the Second World War. He was widely regarded as Britain's greatest living travel writer during his lifetime, based on books such as A Time of Gifts (1977). A BBC journalist once described him as "a cross between Indiana Jones, James Bond and Graham Greene".

In 1950 Leigh Fermor published his first book, The Traveller's Tree, about his post-war travels in the Caribbean. The book won the Heinemann Foundation Prize for Literature and established his career. The reviewer in The Times Literary Supplement wrote: "Mr Leigh Fermor never loses sight of the fact, not always grasped by superficial visitors, that most of the problems of the West Indies are the direct legacy of the slave trade." It was quoted extensively in Live and Let Die, by Ian Fleming. He went on to write several further books of his journeys, including Mani and Roumeli, of his travels on mule and foot around remote parts of Greece.

Leigh Fermor translated the manuscript The Cretan Runner written by George Psychoundakis, a dispatch runner on Crete during the war, and helped Psychoundakis get his work published. Leigh Fermor also wrote a novel, The Violins of Saint-Jacques, which was adapted as an opera by Malcolm Williamson. His friend Lawrence Durrell recounts in his book Bitter Lemons (1957) how, during the Cypriot insurgency against continued British rule in 1955, Leigh Fermor visited Durrell's villa in Bellapais, Cyprus:

After a splendid dinner by the fire he starts singing, songs of Crete, Athens, Macedonia. When I go out to refill the ouzo bottle...I find the street completely filled with people listening in utter silence and darkness. Everyone seems struck dumb. 'What is it?' I say, catching sight of Frangos. 'Never have I heard of Englishmen singing Greek songs like this!' Their reverent amazement is touching; it is as if they want to embrace Paddy wherever he goes.

After living with her for many years, Leigh Fermor was married in 1968 to the Honourable Joan Elizabeth Rayner (née Eyres Monsell), daughter of Bolton Eyres-Monsell, 1st Viscount Monsell. She accompanied him on many of his travels until her death in Kardamyli in June 2003, aged 91. They had no children. They lived part of the year in their house in an olive grove near Kardamyli in the Mani Peninsula, southern Peloponnese, and part of the year in Gloucestershire.

In 2007, he said that, for the first time, he had decided to work using a typewriter, having written all his books longhand until then.

He opened his home in Kardamyli to the local villagers on his name day. New Zealand writer Maggie Rainey-Smith (who was staying in the area while researching for her next book) joined in with his name day celebration in November 2007, and, after his death, posted some of the photographs taken that day. The house at Kardamyli was featured in the 2013 film Before Midnight.

Leigh Fermor influenced a generation of British travel writers, including Bruce Chatwin, Colin Thubron, Philip Marsden, Nicholas Crane and Rory Stewart.

Works

Books

The Traveller's Tree. (1950)

The Violins of Saint-Jacques. (1953)

A Time to Keep Silence (1957), with photographs by Joan Eyres Monsell. This was an early publication from the Queen Anne Press, a company managed by Leigh Fermor's friend Ian Fleming. In this book he describes his experiences in several monasteries, and the profound effect the time spent in them had on him.

Mani: Travels in the Southern Peloponnese (1958)

Roumeli: Travels in Northern Greece (1966)

A Time of Gifts – On Foot to Constantinople: From the Hook of Holland to the Middle Danube (1977, published by John Murray)

Between the Woods and the Water – On Foot to Constantinople from the Hook of Holland: the Middle Danube to the Iron Gates (1986)

Three Letters from the Andes (1991)

Words of Mercury (2003), edited by Artemis Cooper

Introduction to Into Colditz by Lt Colonel Miles Reid (Michael Russell Publishing Ltd, Wilton, 1983). The story of Reid's captivity in Colditz and eventual escape by faking illness so as to qualify for repatriation. Reid had served with Leigh Fermor in Greece and was captured there trying to defend the Corinth Canal bridge in 1941.

Foreword of Albanian Assignment by Colonel David Smiley (Chatto & Windus, London, 1984). The story of SOE in Albania, by a brother in arms of Leigh Fermor, who was later a MI6 agent.

In Tearing Haste: Letters Between Deborah Devonshire and Patrick Leigh Fermor (2008), edited by Charlotte Mosley. (Deborah Cavendish, Duchess of Devonshire, the youngest of the six Mitford sisters, was the wife of the 11th Duke of Devonshire).

The Broken Road – Travels from Bulgaria to Mount Athos (2013), edited by Artemis Cooper and Colin Thubron from PLF's unfinished manuscript of the third volume of his account of his walk across Europe in the 1930s.

Abducting A General – The Kreipe Operation and SOE in Crete (2014)

Dashing for the Post: the Letters of Patrick Leigh Fermor (2017), edited by Adam Sisman

More Dashing: Further Letters of Patrick Leigh Fermor (2018), edited by Adam Sisman

Translations

No Innocent Abroad (published in United States as Forever Ulysses) by C. P. Rodocanachi (1938)

Julie de Carneilhan and Chance Acquaintances by Colette (1952)

The Cretan Runner: His Story of the German Occupation by George Psychoundakis (1955)

Screenplay

The Roots of Heaven (1958) adventure film, directed by John Huston

Periodicals

"A Monastery", in The Cornhill Magazine, London, no. 979, Summer, 1949.

"From Solesmes to La Grande Trappe", in The Cornhill Magazine, John Murray, London, no. 982, Spring 1950.

"Voodoo Rites in Haiti", in World Review, London, October 1950.

"The Rock-Monasteries of Cappadocia", in The Cornhill Magazine, London, no. 986, Spring 1951.

"The Monasteries of the Air", in The Cornhill Magazine, London, no. 987, Summer 1951.

"The Entrance to Hades", in The Cornhill Magazine, London, no. 1011, Spring 1957.

Books about Patrick and Joan Leigh Fermor

Artemis Cooper: Patrick Leigh Fermor. An Adventure (2012)

Helias Doundoulakis, Gabriella Gafni: My Unique Lifetime Association with Patrick Leigh Ferrmor (2015)

Simon Fenwick: Joan. The Remarkable Life of Joan Leigh Fermor (2017)

Michael O'Sullivan: Patrick Leigh Fermor, Noble Encounters between Budapest and Transylvania (2018)

Leigh Fermor was noted for his strong physical constitution, even though he smoked 80 to 100 cigarettes a day. Although in his last years he suffered from tunnel vision and wore hearing aids, he remained physically fit up to his death and dined at table on the last evening of his life.

For the last few months of his life Leigh Fermor suffered from a cancerous tumour, and in early June 2011 he underwent a tracheotomy in Greece. As death was close, according to local Greek friends, he expressed a wish to visit England to say good-bye to his friends, and then return to die in Kardamyli, though it is also stated that he actually wished to die in England and be buried next to his wife.

Leigh Fermor died in England, aged 96, on 10 June 2011, the day after his return. His funeral took place at St Peter's Church, Dumbleton, Gloucestershire, on 16 June 2011. A Guard of Honour was provided by serving and former members of the Intelligence Corps, and a bugler from the Irish Guards sounded the Last Post and reveille. Leigh Fermor is buried next to his wife in the churchyard at Dumbleton.

The Greek inscription is a quotation from Konstantinos Kavafis that can be translated as "In addition, he was that best of all things, Hellenic".

Daily inspiration. Discover more photos at http://justforbooks.tumblr.com

#JUST FOR BOOKS #Patrick Leigh Fermor #Paddy Fermor #Famous Birthdays

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romanceforransom · 4 years ago

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There was a writer!sander fic that i started a little while ago but didn’t know where to go with it. So, I decided to post it here 🤷‍♀️

I might continue it...? idk. but let me know what you think :)

I ran into my local bookshop, the bell notifying my entrance as I swung open the heavy wooden door.

I had made sure to set my alarm extra early for that morning, giving myself enough time to get there before I had to make my way to work. There was a book that I had been waiting what felt like years for, and I wanted to pick it up as soon as humanly possible.

“Has it come?” I asked excitedly, rushing over to the front desk and locking eyes with an amused Zoë

She was used to my erratic behaviour by now, becoming desensitised to my hyperactive persona that I don whenever a new book comes out.

Not that I do it with every book. Of course, I love most things that come out, burying my nose in anything that I possibly can. But nothing gets me quite as excited as the books by Earthling Oddity.

Nobody knew this unknown author’s real name, or what they looked like. The air of mystery obviously created a lot of hype, gaining them a lot of followers trying to crack the code and reveal the hidden identity. What really made them popular, though, was the magical way they created stories.

I was always completely enraptured by the words written on the pages. Becoming engrossed in the fictional world they created and riding out the waves of emotions that came with the storylines.

They had come out with a new book recently, a new addition to one of their series, and I had been patiently (except not really. Unless pacing up and down the flat and checking my phone constantly for updates was considered as being patient) for it to be delivered to my bookstore.

“It’s here” Zoë replied, sounding amused “I reserved one for you, even though I knew you would be the first one in here today”

She reached underneath the desk and produced the long-awaited book

I stared at it in awe, admiring the bright colours and detailed art on the front cover.

“Wow” I breathed out, smiling

“You looking forward to reading it?”

I tore my eyes away from the book and looked up at her, squinting my eyes slightly “Seriously? I have been counting down the days for this book! Of course, I’m looking forward to finally being one step closer to unravelling the mystery that lies between the pages…”

She chuckled as I lifted my hand to tenderly stroke the front cover “Should I leave you two alone?”

“No, that’s ok” I said, picking it up and placing it gently in my backpack “I have to get going anyway”

“Ok, well keep me updated on it!”

I walked backward towards the door, grinning “Hourly updates are a given”

***

“Why are you carrying your bag so carefully?” Jana asked me curiously as I got to work

I had placed it gently on the ground in the back room with my coat, not wanting to damage the valuable contents lying inside of it.

“Seriously Jana? It’s got the book that I’ve been waiting months for”

Realisation washed over her face. I had been talking her ear off about it for a number of shifts. The amount of information she had actually been listening to and retaining would forever be a mystery, but she let me talk all the time without much judgement so that was the main thing.

“Aah ok, that makes more sense”

I pulled my apron over my head “What did you think was in there?”

She shrugged as she went back to stacking food in the display case “Judging by the way you were handling it, I thought for sure there was a bomb in there”

I shook my head at her amusedly “So your co-worker has a bomb, and you don’t do a thing to stop it? The least you could have done was taken my bag”

“We have a full shift ahead of us, Robbe” she deadpanned “Excuse me for not having much pep right now. I want to move as little as possible and retain the small amount of energy I have stored. Wrestling a bomb from you would probably take everything I had”

“Oh, come on. Shifts here aren’t that bad”

She raised her eyebrows at me “Go out all night drinking before our next shift and then tell me that again”

We both worked at a coffee shop in town. I actually quite enjoyed it. Being able to chat with people and brighten their day with coffee and cakes was a nice feeling.

Of course, it wasn’t something I wanted to do forever. Film making was my passion, the thing that I aspired to do in the future. Maybe even make some adaptations of Earthling’s books. Who knows? But, for now at least, I had to make do with making drinks.

Unlike me, Jana really did not like her job. She liked interacting with the customers, being the social butterfly she is, but the part where she actually had to serve and clean was never really something she enjoyed doing.

If I got paid every time she moaned when cleaning down the tables, there would be no need for this job. I would be rolling in money. She always claimed that it was manual labour, and she was going to sue the company for it. It did make me wonder what she thought would happen when she signed up for the job, but I never dared ask as she was always in a mood. It was best not to make things worse and just nod along.

“So, that book you have” she said “That’s the one with the mystery author, right?”

I nodded “Yep, they use a pen name. Lots of people have obviously tried to step forward and claim to be the author but the real one has yet to be revealed. If they ever will be. Fame isn’t for everyone, so I wouldn’t blame them for keeping hidden and basking silently in the glory of their writing”

“Aren’t you curious about who it is?” she asked me

“Well, yeah” I replied “I have always wondered who it is. I would love to be able to properly give my gratitude to the person that created such wonderful books… but I wouldn’t go out of my way to try and drag someone into the spotlight that doesn’t want to be there”

Many people on the internet have been trying to do exactly that. I have never understood why. Sure, you want to be the one to solve this giant question. But if it involves having to invade someone’s private life and tear down all the security and boundaries, they have built around them in order to remain anonymous, why would you want to do that?

What does revealing a random stranger’s identity add to your life? Nothing. It wouldn’t make you best friends with this person. In fact, you would probably end up as public enemy number one. Snooping in other people’s business isn’t cute, it’s creepy. Especially when they go out of their way to hide it.

The customers began flooding in. People coming in for their takeaway cups of coffee to beat away the morning tiredness. Monday’s were always especially bad. The weekend always wipes people out. Combining that with five days left of work looming over their head, a constant reminder of the seemingly never-ending week ahead of them, anyone would be exhausted.

Then, after a while, I spotted a familiar head of bleach blonde head of hair among the crowd out the corner of my eye.

“Robbe” I heard Jana hiss beside me as I continued making drinks for the awaiting customers “He’s here!”

Sander was a regular at the shop. He would always come in with an easy smile on his face and instantly brighten my day.

He was one of the most beautiful people I had ever laid my eyes on. Not only that, but he was also incredibly kind. Always dishing out compliments and making conversation with us while he patiently waited for his order. He has even defended us a couple of times when customers have been rowdy and impatient during the rush hours. Sander was just an all-round saint.

Jana knew that I had a small crush on him. I never told her outright, but she saw the way my face lit up whenever he was around and joined the dots herself.

I waited until he got to the front of the line and greeted him with a shy smile, trying not to blush like I normally did

“Hey, Robbe!” he said, grinning “How are you this morning?”

“I’m good” I squeaked “Will it be your usual, today?”

Ok, so maybe small crush was a bit of an understatement. He always seemed to make me tongue tied and act like a complete idiot. Which was a great way to act in front of someone you want to impress.

He nodded “You know me so well. Either that or I am in here too often”

“Nonsense!” Jana called to him “We love having you in here, Sander… some more than others” she muttered under breath, meaning only for me to hear it

As I was making his drink (a chocolate mocha – which was basically just a fancy coffee with chocolate, always with whipped cream on top) he leaned against the counter, making light conversation with Jana and me. He never seemed aware that we were at work and that he might be holding up the queue. Not that there were many of them at that moment. He had come just at the right time, most of the people filing out and going to their jobs.

“So, did that book come that you were talking about?” he asked me

“Um, yeah” I was surprised he remembered. I had made an offhand remark about it a few weeks back. But then, he always did seem to pick up on small details like that often “I got it this morning before I came to work. The first thing I’m going to do when I get out of here is run home to read it”

“Really?” he said, sounding faintly surprised “You are that eager to read it?”

I turned towards him, placing the steaming cup of coffee on the tray next to the croissant Jana got for him.

“Well, I’ve been waiting for it for so long… it takes priority over everything else as far as I’m concerned”

“You know Robbe” Jana said teasingly from beside me, jabbing me lightly in the side “forever a bookworm”

Sander smiled as he picked up the tray from the counter “When I come back, you’ll have to tell me how you’re finding it”

Just as I was about to reply, Jana jumped in “He’ll only have good things to say. He’s obsessed with this author, won’t shut up about them. It’s kind of annoying actually”

He smirked “Maybe I’ll have to check them out”

“You should!” I told him enthusiastically “Their works are amazing. Even if you aren’t really into reading, this person can have you drawn in with just a page of their writing”

“I don’t doubt that, I’m sure you have impeccable taste” Sander said, winking at me

He often did that but even after weeks of seeing it, I was still blown away each time. He always seemed to take my breath away without even trying.

Sander made his way over to a table, placing his tray down and taking out his small black notebook as normal. It was his daily routine and moved like clockwork every time. I don’t think there has been a single day he has come in when he hasn’t been scribbling away dedicatedly in there, pen moving furiously across the paper.

I was always curious about what he was doing in it, but never dared ask. It could be something deeply personal and private, I wouldn’t want to invade his comfort zone like that.

He was in his own world when he wrote. As soon as the book was opened it was like a protective bubble opened up around him, blocking out anyone and everything from his work. If we wanted to ask if he wanted a refill or anything else to eat, it would take a few tries to get his attention. Sander manages to block it out so easily.

Although it was a similar thing when I read. It was like escaping to another realm where nobody could reach you. Like a haven that you could take shelter in and escape from all your problems, if only for a short amount of time.

#wtfock #wtfam #wtfock fanfic #fanfic

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A Silent Voice--Koe no Kitachi

This movie has come up a couple times for Eight Days and various other things I’ve done, which was basically all I knew about it, until it was sponsored as a one-off by @iscahwynn. The first time I watched the movie, I felt a lot of ways about it at once. It was certainly one of the most interesting “anime movies” that had ever been recommended to me, and had a capacity and quality of humanity that I really didn’t expect going into it.

As always, non-spoilery review leads, spoilers under the cut.

A Silent Voice, (Which is called The Shape of Voice on my subs) if you read the blurb, is about a boy trying to make restitution for a deaf girl he bullied horrendously in elementary school. That’s a fair assessment, but I also don’t think it’s a complete one. The movie is really about the nature of alienation and friendship, and how a lot of lonely people have at least some culpability for that loneliness. I don’t know if I would go so far as to say I liked it. I had some issues with it that I’ll go into in the longer spoiler review, but being as its on Netflix right now, if you have any interest in seeing it, I don’t think it’s a waste of time at all.

I”m not going to go through a play by play of the film itself, I figure if you’re reading this you’re familiar with the general narrative of the film and I’m not super interested in padding this out for the mere word count.

Also, the main character’s names are really similar: Shoko and Shoyo, so I’m going to call Shoyo by his patronymic, Ishida, for clarity.

You feel, or at least this viewer felt, nothing but sadness and frustration for poor Shoko, who did nothing but have the audacity to show up at school. One thing I think this movie does an excellent job with is showing how resentment creeps in over the most minor of accommodations. We see at first, the kids be taken in by the novelty of writing in Shoko’s notebook in order to accommodate her and talk to her. Then we see it turn annoying, when she wants to be brought into conversations on a regular basis, and they don’t want to do that. It turns to hatred and resentment, as it gets easier and easier to simply ignore her or make fun of her. When a teacher comes in to teach them some sign language at ten minutes a day, for all but one student, this is too much effort for them to make.

It escalates with Ishida himself repeatedly yanking her hearing aids out of her ears and throwing them out of the window, into the trash, etc, at one point ripping them out with such force that her ear bleeds. His punishment for this cruelty is essentially that his mother has to pay back, or choose to pay back, all the money lost for the hearing aids to Shoko’s mother, but on a more personal level, his classmates, actually faced with consequences, turn on him and implicate him as the sole actor in all of the cruelty aimed toward Shoko.

And I’m fine with him reaping the whirlwind, let’s not mistake that, but I do have one compelling question:

There are 106 schools for the D/deaf in Japan, and you couldn’t put your child into one of them? I have no idea if Japan has any equivalent of the ADA whatsoever, and the internet seems to suggest that the rights and education of D/deaf people in Japan is pretty woeful, but this really annoyed the shit out of me. I mean, I’m supposed to feel for Shoko, so I suppose that didn’t detract from what the movie wanted to do in that right, but man did it make me irritated with every single adult involved.

I think some of the most interesting things that come out of the movie are the ways in which it deals with depersonalization and isolation.

After we see Ishida’s fall from grace, if you will, when in middle school, people are (rightly) told that he’s a bully. People don’t want to be around him, and while, again, I do not feel particularly sorry for him, there’s definitely something deeply human and deeply disturbing about the way they make him the pariah of it all, even though they were mostly all involved in treating Shoko cruelly, or at the very least, at a distance. It’s easier to believe that it was Ishida’s sin specifically, and that they bear no responsibility for their part in the cruelty toward her.

When this happens, by the time we meet up with him, we see that he sees the world of people with the letter X across their faces, as a sign that he no longer thinks of them as people, more like objects or happenings that are best to be avoided. He goes so far as to say that he never looks anyone in the face anymore. Its a very visually powerful way of showing how Ishida, when he is hurt, walls himself off in the world, while, even when we see Shoko later, there’s no indication that she has done such (Though admittedly, the vast majority of the movie is through the eyes of Ishida)

It isn’t until Ishida defends Nagatsuka, a fat kid with curly hair, from getting his bike stolen by giving his up as an option instead, that he begins to see people in any different way. And it isn’t even in the moment that he does something, but when Nagatsuka returns his bike, found in a rice field, that the x falls away from his face and he begins to see someone as a fully realized human. A cynical viewer, who might be me, would see this as an acknowledgement that Ishida’s problem is not seeing people outside of their relationship to and treatment of him. That it is only with returned kindness that he can see Nagatsuka as human, defending him only because he recalls the shame of having been so cruel to Shoko.

Which I actually don’t have a problem with! I think it would go fairly far to show that he’s learned something from the Shoko situation, for him to expect no inkling of humanity but still be so desirous to remove that shame that he acts anyway. I just don’t know if that’s the intention of the narrative, even having seen it several times now.

“Friendship lies somewhere beyond things like words and logic” is one of the best lines from the movie, and I think it does a fairly good job of doing that as it calls up a large group from the past. It’s complicated, because I actually thought the group aspect was very interesting, particularly the incident on the bridge where Ishida, every fairly, tells each of them how they failed, what their personal sin is, and he isn’t wrong! The first time I watched it, I found myself screaming at it, the reckoning of this responsibility finally shared.

But the downside of all of these characters is that the focus on Shoko and Ishida, as well as any real development of feelings and forgiveness between them, feels very rushed. We get to the end of the story, with Ishida having saved Shoko’s life and hurting himself in the process. SO much emotional and character development gets laid down in a five minute scene, and while the scene itself does lend a lot of strength to the characters for that, I found myself more frustrated that we couldn’t have seen this sooner, and come out over time. Unfortunately the time with the ancillary characters feels a bit wasted, given what ends up being sacrificed for it.

Some parts of the movie are tricky for me to fully allow myself to fall into, at best. It’s particularly difficult for me to see Ishida as a huge victim given the exceptional level of his cruelty to Shoko, and if he really only pays until he’s in high school, while that may play as “forever” to a younger audience, I don’t have a lot of sympathy for his plight. This isn’t following him to his damn job. Maybe I’m a jackass, and that’s why I can’t go with it in the way the film seems to want me to, or maybe it’s that I was also horrifically bullied to the point of tears as a child, and I do not feel any particular sadness for the ways in which some of my own bullies were socially punished in high school. I don’t want him to kill himself, I want him to be better, and honestly the movie could have really really worked for me if we just saw the developing of his friendship with Nagatsuka and his turning into a better, softer person. This kind of goes into what I was talking about earlier--in a two hour movie, there just isn’t the time for all the side characters as well as the full development of the mains. We would have been better off just having Ishida, Shoko, and Nagatsuka. I fell you could have told a quite complete story with that. I think if those three characters had been more carefully written, I could have ADORED this movie, instead of the middle place I end up with in it.

But instead we come to the question of Shoko. I kinda suck my teeth at Shoko’s treatment in the film. Her open hearted kindness was heart-breaking as a child, the way she just wanted to be friends and she still had that belief that it could all work if she just did as adults told her and was NICE, and it’s extremely effective. But when we get to the high school Shoko and we’re still meant to see her as being this very mild, very apologetic, very sad person with no friends...it stops being a tragedy of the character individually and starts being a way of writing a disabled character as someone for our protagonist to act upon. Shoko is never really given her own moment of anger for herself, her own rich life outside of Ishida and the friends he brings to her. We don’t see her thoughts except as they relate to Ishida. We’re meant to believe she has no one outside of her sister when Ishida decides to reconnect with her, a tragedy of convenience that allows Ishida’s “work” to be valuable to more than just him. Even her own sorrow and suicide attempt seem to have so much more to do with the further of Ishida’s character than the oppressive social forces that have conspired against Shoko.

And we ALMOST get there. The end conversation between the two of them, where he says he understood her in ways that were convenient for him, and that because of that he failed to see her own pain and isolation, is amazing. Great, and I wish it would have come sooner and that we could have had some real payoff from that conversation that showed their relationship deepening in a way that served both Shoko and Ishida. But it comes at the tail end, and the “solution” we get all has to do with Ishida and his embracing of humanity, which I want, but not at the expense of Shoko’s character, who I liked very much and longed for a richer treatment of.

The romantic element between them is frustrating. Not only because he was her very very overt bully, I might even go so far as to say abuser, but because it feels so tiresome when the movie clearly has bigger fish to fry, and in many ways, does fry them! It doesn’t help that it is like quite a few things, painfully rushed, and when she falls for him, it’s left to the viewer to supply your own reasons that don’t quite make sense. It adds a layer to the story that I personally felt it did not need, even as cute as I find Shoko’s little flappy legs on the bed when she has her head buried in a pillow after trying to confess to Ishida, but he can’t understand what she’s saying.

Basically, I think this movie watches better once. I know that sounds like a strange thing to say about anything, but the first time I saw this, I didn’t notice so keenly some of the things that niggled at me later. I think it’s pretty fucking enjoyable, in the one shot, to be honest! I think it’s an ambitious movie that is, at its best, trying to say something about the nature of bullying and that it not only harms the bullied but the bully themselves. And in some ways, I think it has absolutely brilliant moments with that, and reflections on the nature of friendship and what it takes. But I think some of that ambition falls through, and feels a bit flat, when taken on the whole.

Have you seen it? What did you think?

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loveisharderthanitlooks · 4 years ago

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Thoughts on S02E04

Owen was absolutely intolerable this episode. He really does have great hair though.

I love seeing Marjan being a badass on the rink and the four guys there to cheer her on. We don’t usually get to see women in TV dramas play sport and have the men cheer them on. It was cool. And so aggressive.

I think I like the arranged marriage storyline here. I mean, it’s not the best storyline they could have given her. But as Marjan points out, it is a very common practice in a lot of countries and cultures and a show with so much diversity should show diverse cultures. I appreciate that it was shown in a positive light. It’s not something that Marjan resents or feels oppressed by, she defended it because she believes in it and the positive aspects of it were nicely contrasted with the disaster of the wedding they attended.

That wedding scene was actually so gross.

It’s really jarring to see some people at the wedding wearing masks and remembering that the pandemic is happening in this world too. Especially after just seeing everybody at the derby with zero mask wearing or social distancing. Are the 126 anti-maskers?

If they don’t want to depict the pandemic, just pretend it’s over or it never happened. I mean, we’re all pretending that Austin is sitting on top of an active volcano and life is just continuing as normal. We can pretend the pandemic is over too.

Carlos has also followed his father into law enforcement. It’s interesting that both Carlos and TK have followed their father’s career paths. But while TK has followed his father’s path so closely they work in the same firehouse, Carlos has opted for a different branch. There’s a meta post there about TK’s need to be close to his father and Carlos’ need for distance from his.

The timing in this episode bugs me. Carlos and TK are at the farmer’s market in the middle of the day, cut to Marjan and Salim at the restuarant at night, cut back to Carlos and TK getting back from the farmer’s market to have their fight. What were they doing all day? How long does it take to drive home from the farmer’s market?

Carlos being uncomfortable introducing TK to his parents even though he’s out is really sad and I’m annoyed at TK for shouting at him, even though I think his feelings are valid too. It’s a pretty common issue for lots of LGBT+ people that even when they’re out it can be very difficult to be out around family, and as a gay person, it feels like TK should be a little more understanding of somebody being caught by surprise and introducing their partner as a friend.

Just because they’re both gay does not mean that they have had the same experiences growing up. I think TK forgets his privilege - he grew up in Manhattan, with liberal parents, he has always worked with his dad, and the 126 were handpicked by Owen as part of a diversity drive. I’ve no doubt he’s experienced prejudice, but nothing like Carlos would have as a gay Latino in Texas. As with Marjan, there are differences in their cultures and experiences.

Owen and Gwyn absolutely sucked at listening to TK and giving him advice. Thank goodness he’s in therapy and has learned how to communicate his feelings from a professional because his parents suck. It’s actually sad. The relationship between Owen and TK was so lovely in season one, but now Owen is completely focused on Gwen and Gwen might has well be his second wife for all the relationship she has with TK. I mean when she showed up at the station in the middle of their shift, TK was right there and they didn’t even acknowledge each other.

I just really love the relationship between Marjan, Paul and Mateo.

Marjan literally grinding an axe - perfection.

NOTHING phases Grace. Scorpions, guy choking in his dead friend’s ashes, guy in a gun case, Imp - she just rolls with it. The scene with the imp was amazing. I love that the rest of the call center operatives all listened in and then just went back to work. Like yeah, it’s a weird one but we get weird ones all the time here.

YOU LOOK AT BABY CARROTS WITH ENVY!! Nothing can ever top that line.

Thank you, your Grace. That was amazing. I DIDN’T FEEL A THING. Perfection.

Judd is the holder of Owen’s single brain cell.

Carlos and TK have such lovely chemistry. Massive kudos to Rafael and Ronen for how they portray their relationship.

I loved the talk between them. Communication is so sexy.

It’s not like I demand to see them kissing (especially in the midst of a pandemic) but if that had been a straight couple there would have been a kiss. All the straight couples have kissed. We know at least one other Tarlos kiss that was filmed and then cut. There should have been a kiss at that point.

Carlos’s hands are so big. I’ve never noticed that before.

The lyrics of the song when Marjan is walking down the hotel hallway is “for you”. I heard “fuck you” and I had to google it because I thought I was losing my mind.

Where Marjan’s storyline for this episode feels like it has wrapped up and complete, Carlos’s story doesn't and it’s something that will play out in future episodes.

I did not see the pregnancy plot coming. It’s not going to end well, is it? Lisa Edelstein isn’t going to stick around Lone Star forever. At some point she’s going to leave. Worst case scenario she dies and Owen becomes a single father to a baby. (Best case scenario, she returns to New York and Owen goes with her. TK stays with Carlos. Judd takes over as Captain.) Most likely scenario, the baby doesn’t make it. It plays into Owen’s belief that he’s invincible but those around him get hurt.

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Interviewer: Skam España releases their fourth season full of surprises and this time with Amira as the main. We are here today in this Hype with Hajar Brown, Nicole Wallace, Irene Ferreiro, and Alejandro Reina. They are Amira, Nora, Cris, and Lucas in the show. Hey guys, how are you?

All: Very Good.

Interviewer: I’m gonna start strong and ask you how did Skam change your lives? Because this was a revolution.

Alejandro: The truth is that everything has been intense. I have always been defending all the topics of society and stuff. Being able to use that with what I like, that is acting, I think it’s wonderful. On one hand, on the moral topics it does make me feel a little bit more responsible when there are people who follow me and that expect that I speak about these topics, but at the same time I’m really proud of being a source of support for the people that went through what I did.

Hajar: Yes, it has made us learn and grow in the best of ways. I believe, for me, knowing that I pull up the courage and can turn my traumas and my anguishes into work and inspiration gives me life. So I’m super happy to be a part of Skam and I’ll take it with me forever.

Nicole: There’s also the fact that we have experienced being regular people that are trying to find what they want to do. Me, at least. Because two years ago I was 16 and I didn’t even know what to do with my life, and they gave us this opportunity to guide us and do what we love in this incredible way. I’m just really grateful.

Interviewer: How did… Are the nerves from the first time still there? Or do you see everything from another perspective, from a calmer perspective? How do you see it?

Irene: We are really used to receiving the opinion of the public, we know them, we know where they come from*. And I think right now we are more nervous to see how everything turned out. We filmed it a long time ago. We are very excited because we all know the amazing season that our friend here [Hajar] has given us, and it’s also the last one, so we’re all monitoring when the clips come out, not so much for the people but for us watching it.

Alejandro: We watch it like the rest in the end, I mean we do know what happens obviously but every time they release a clip, I’m the first one there. I just click to watch it right away.

Irene: RT.

Hajar: Yeah. I have a calendar with what time the clips come out. I need to know, I need to watch it. Like in your head it’s one way, but then edited and with the music and watching from an outsider’s perspective… You’re there with the hype of wanting to watch it. And also commenting on everything, that’s something we do a lot, like - “Have you watched the last clip?”

Irene: That too.

Nicole: A lot.

Interviewer: How did you prepare, Hajar, to play an Amira that’s more revolutionary than ever?

Hajar: So... I don’t even know. Really. No, just, this is something that I’ve developed since the first season, having Bego as a director and my castmates. In the end, we built the characters based on our experiences, with what we have lived through, with the help of the writers, with the help of the directors. So little by little I’ve been learning more about my character. I’ve tried to understand her more and empathize with her more, and in the end, our feelings are the same more or less. Where we come from, Amira and Hajar, we come from almost the same emotions. It became a bit hard because I have to remember how I felt at 16 and 17, but at the same time, I feel good about it. I mean it looks like I got through it and I can even express it and that’s cool. I just really love Amira, she is very cute and very nice.

Interviewer: The rest of you, how did you find the evolution of her character, because it’s true that all of you have gone through different stages, but in this case it is Amira’s point of view? How did you find that change of perspective?

Nicole: I think it changed a lot, the change of perspective in this one especially. A lot changes, in all of Skam. In my opinion, I think that she is the character we know least, she is also the one we are more curious about in general because she is the one that comes from a culture that is slightly different than the rest. Because the rest of the characters are more focused not so much on what surrounds them, but on the person themself and what they have inside. With Amira we see everything she has around her, you know? That too, not only what she has inside. And I think that, that is very cool and it gives closure to it all.

Lucas: I’m just very happy because ever since I met Hajar, I’ve seen what surrounds her and her lifestyle. From all that I knew, the typical things that everyone knows, but when you see someone like her and you see her values and you see how she is working to let them be known. In this project I’ve fallen in love, in love with this season, really.

Interviewer: And also the hijab is one of Amira’s more characteristic things. Actually in the first clip of the season we could see that more than one person kept staring at her for wearing it, in the scene where she rides the bus. Have you seen anything similar in real life?

Irene: Yes, the last time we travelled together in fact. Hajar was stopped by the metal detector out of nowhere because they fucking wanted to search her, and she told us about things like that, that we have never seen. That gratuatious discrimination. It was so weird because that doesn’t happen to us, obviously.

Hajar: You know what? Because it’s so normalized for me I don’t know what to tell you. So…

Alejandro: Tell them how every once in a while people will stop you on the street, and they start talking to you because they feel like it.

Hajar: Yeah, people out of nowhere come up and start talking to me because they think they have the right to stop me and ask me questions out of curiosity. Or when filming... Do you remember when we filmed in a house, and the owner of the house thought that I was the villain, just like that?

Irene: Yes, yes out of nowhere...

Alejandro: That’s true...

Hajar: She wears a hijab, she has a backpack…

Alejandro: I remember during filming we went to a concert of Tamara’s [Rizha] and at the door of the place, they asked Hajar why she was eating if it was Ramadan, but she was chewing gum because she was on her period. And we’re thinking, why do you care?

Nicole: And we caused a scene so she could enter.

Interviewer: We also saw in the first episode what happens when a woman comes back home alone and at night. In Amira’s case it’s true that it was only a theft, but that is like the least that could happen. Have you ever felt that way going home alone?

Nicole: A lot of times. I’m lucky enough that I live in a very small place, and it’s true that I know the right ways to go and I know what type of people are out at night, etc … but the funny thing is that, not even at night, in broad daylight coming back home, I got scared recently when a guy was following me, or at last I thought he was following me. I went the longest way I could imagine, I even got lost, not knowing where I was going, so the guy would stop following me, and eventually I got home. But it’s true that coming back from a party, in Madrid especially, it’s scary. It’s usual to plan all of the possible ways out and all of the first calls you’d make if something happens. It sucks.

Alejandro: The fear that I have is not the same one, obviously, because there is a difference, but I’ve gotten beaten up because of what I was wearing, and like five months ago I got robbed by gypsies too. So in the end you never know, it happens suddenly, and what I said is that, in the end, it’s worse for them because they also have that fear. I can go around in plain clothes and be unnoticed and nobody knows who I really am but they... just for being women…

Irene: My story about robberies - I don’t know if I have a curse or what, but I got my phone stolen like six times, and the times that happened at night were very scary. Like being in the middle of the street and being pushed, or another time when some guy got off his motorcycle, pushed me, took my phone, and then he left. And that's being robbed in a “good way,” because when you’re alone on the street and you feel like you’re being followed or that someone is waiting for you on a corner and you know that they are looking at you, it’s a little like: “Only rob me please, it’s the best outcome that can happen here.”

Nicole: I was talking recently, when we met up to eat with Celia, about when she was at the beach, she and her friend got robbed with a knife. Very heavy. And the first thing they thought wasn't, “I’m going to be robbed, my things are going to be stolen.”

Alejandro: You don’t react.

Nicole: It was: “We are going to be raped, we are going to be raped. Just take what you can, that they won’t steal, in case we are going to be raped.” So yes, that is instinctive sadly.

Interviewer: In the end, we all have lived it and that scene is key in the episode, because everyone relates to that. Guys, I’m going to take a break to take a look back at some of the topics that were shown in the previous seasons. Okay so in the third season, it was about how easy it is to enter into toxic relationships and how hard it is to get out of them. Nicole, you play Nora, a total feminist, but in the end she got into a relationship she didn’t like at all. Do you guys think this story helps as a point of reflection for people your age that are in the same situation?

Nicole: For me, one of the things that made many people happy in my season was to see the dichotomy, the fact that, that Nora was such a feminist, that she saw things very clearly, and then she was the one that got into a toxic relationship. There were a lot of comments saying the typical things that people around you say, or you say when you get out and see it at a distance, like, how can you get into a relationship like that? How can you let them do that to you? With you being so smart? Etc… And in the end, it’s not you, you know. You don’t get into that type of relationship knowing what’s going to happen, obviously. The other person at first is not treating you badly, otherwise nobody would be in that type of relationship. I’m very happy that a lot of girls wrote to me, like, “I watched the season and I realized I was in a toxic relationship,” either as a couple or also as friends. I got some about friendships, that was cool. It has been the best, being able to contribute.

Interviewer: Hajar, Nicole, Alejandro; have you guys experienced, maybe not so much yourselves but in a group of friends, telling someone that they’re getting into a relationship that is toxic and that you can see it?

Alejandro: I think that we see it everyday, and when we give advice to friends, too. And we have all also realized before that we had been next to someone that we thought was good to us, but really we spent more time thinking about not losing them and about pleasing them, and it’s like being with a person, either being in a couple or a friendship, and having that fear while you’re going through a rough time. Having that fear of being left… I don’t know. That’s not happiness and it’s better to leave.

Interviewer: In Season 2, Irene and Alejandro, your characters came out of the closet officially, but this question is really for everyone. Have you ever experienced a friend of yours having difficulties when they had to take that step?

Alejandro: Now that I think about it I haven’t had… I mean I know there’s people that you usually expect it from, and you can see it from outside, and sometimes you try to help that person, but maybe you don’t have enough confidence to go and tell them: “I can feel that you're in the community,” you know? That’s the worst thing you can say to someone who’s in the closet, they’ll close off even more. And I don’t know, I feel like I remember when I was in the closet, and someone assumed that I was gay, I was like, “No!”, super offended and telling them that I wasn’t that way, and the other person was like, “Oh, so you aren’t?” Perhaps they weren’t being mean about it, with saying “Are you from the community” and me saying no, no. I don’t know, it feels very weird. Also, it’s not only because of the friends and people close to us that we spend so much time denying something like that. It creates an insecurity, only because you don’t want them to be right because of the insults or the criticism you’ve received. You don’t do it [come out] only because of what people may think. And then coming out of the closet, I was suddenly myself, there wasn’t a process. The worst thing is when you don’t have a good environment. Then it turns into a nightmare, because the process is longer.

Interviewer: I think that’s cool because in the end, that season helped people your age that are questioning decide whether to take that step, seeing that reflected in a show that had so much success. I think it was important. The first season was cyberbullying, and for you guys as people who are on social media, have you ever experienced that? Maybe not something as heavy as what Eva experienced in the first season, but a case of bullying?

Alejandro: I have a memory from when I was in 3º E.S.O*, before I changed schools, and being in class and seeing that they had created an account, I think it was called ReinaPenisLicker. It was all tweets talking about me, about how much I liked penises, about how much I liked One Direction. That’s true, and the other thing too but of course it wasn’t the same thing. Let’s not say that. In the end you feel like you’re being targeted and you don’t know who it is, and there is a person in your class or in your school that made an account to insult you and that’s horrible.

Nicole: I’ve had cases of people in my class that participated in cyberbullying, because at my old highschool they had a type of system for mediation. So they choose people at school who could mediate the problems and stuff that existed, and I was one of them, so I knew about all of the issues that existed at my school, basically. So I know of a lot of kids who suffered because of cyberbullying, and for me in particular, there was a year when they created this account where they wrote comments about each person in class, in a bad way. So what they said about me was that I was always skipping class and that I was doing nothing in life, basically. But I think the problem with cyberbullying is that they get behind a screen and you think you are brave and big and you don’t have to show your face, so it’s like an advantage that in the end sucks for the person that is suffering from that. It’s normalized, especially on social media and to people with followers or people kinda famous. I’ve been following a 17 year old girl lately and you go into her account, and 99% of the comments were negative, telling her to kill herself. Sometimes they think that because someone has followers or is famous or etc... They have that power to cyberbully them, because that person is still human, still has feelings, even if they don’t realise that what they are doing is bullying. And that is super normalized, really, on social media.

Interviewer: Have you ever thought about how many people get your messages, because I don’t think you’re really aware of the impact that Skam is having, I guess you do, but messages like this get through to a part of the population that follow the show a lot, and even you as actors individually. How have you experienced that, or are you aware of it?

Lucas: I forget about it.

Irene: I only think partly about it. In the end… Like, we get comments.

Hajar: Yeah

Irene: People talk to us about what it means to them, but we aren’t aware at all about all of the people that were helped by our show. Like, if we already are blown away by seeing that small part of the audience that reaches out to us, imagine being aware of all of the audience… it would be too much, I think it’s crazy, I prefer not to think about it, I’m embarrassed, ooof, I’m regretting being an actress.

Interviewer: In various occasions, also, you can see how there’s contention between two worlds, right? Between love and friendship, friendship and culture, maybe, in Amira’s case; family and social life… Have you ever felt like this in real life as well, this conflict between two worlds?

Hajar: Coming from a family that culturally isn’t the same as… as… the one I see outside of my home, I felt like I was living between two worlds. Like, in my house things were one way and then when I went outside it was another way, so I’ve always lived between those two worlds. In fact, I thought that in each world I had to have some kind of a role, you know? When I left my house I was Western, and when I came back I was like, like, Arab. And… I grew up with so many feelings, because I didn’t know what to do with both worlds, like I didn’t know if I was part of one or the other, or what I was doing wrong, because I wasn’t good enough to be 100% this or that, until I… constructed my true identity and I kept the best of both worlds, like Hannah Montana says. So…

Lucas: That’s a statement.

Hajar:I think we have experienced this… Well, I’m speaking for me, the racialized people have experienced this. I’m really sure of it. And no one tells you how to do it, no one tells you you can be both, or that both are equally valid, or that both are part of you. It’s weird.

Interviewer: Guys, we’re now at the half point of this “Hype,” so I want to make a quick stop to propose some reality vs fiction questions. I’m going to ask you five really quick questions that have to do with you and with your characters: Would you be friends with your character? Yes / No and why?

Hajar: Yes, of course. I would be Amira’s friend, because she’s really cute, really nice, I would be hugging her all day, to be honest. I would make her talk.

Nicole: I would. I think so. But I would talk a lot with her and I would push her a lot, to be honest, to do more things.

Irene: You would?

Alejandro: I would, girl.

Irene: You are really similar.

Alejandro: Yeah, we are almost the same person.

Nicole: And you wouldn’t?

Irene: I would but, it would depend with Cris, because either we would really get along and end up together, or not at all and we would hate each other.

Alejandro: Girl, but don’t you imagine you and I going to the town’s festivities?

Irene: A lot, a lot, but she’s so extroverted and so popular that I would be intimidated by her, you know? It would be like, “Wow, yo, I’m gonna be this chick’s friend.”

Interviewer: Well, now we’re going to do the opposite. What’s the character you think you wouldn’t get along with at all? Think, think...

Amira: With Inés’ friend.

Nicole: Me too.

Interviewer: Yes? Do you all think the same?

Irene: I think that… with Cristian.

Alejandro: I also think so.

Amira: With Cristian…

Nicole: Same.

Irene: Yes.

Nicole: Well…

Alejandro: Yes, cause Cristian and Alejandro… well, Alejandro at the end…

Nicole: Yes

Alejandro: Like, now he’s cuter.

Irene: Alejandro…if you get to know him…well

Alejandro: But…

Irene: But Cristian…

Alejandro: Yeah

Interviewer: Okay, who is the most activist-like character out of all of them?

Alejandro: I think that everyone defends something in the end. Like, I think each and every one of them…

[they all talk at the same time]

Alejandro: That’s it, the fight…

Nicole: I think that…

Irene: I think they all have a purpose… Yeah, we all have a fight that we reflect upon our character’s arc but, just as a person, the one that is centered the most around activism is Nora, all the time.

Nicole: I think either Nora or Lucas.

Irene: True.

Hajar: Yes, also Lucas.

Nicole: With his Youtube channel, when they hit him…

Irene: When he comes out of the closet he just…Totally.

Interviewer: True, true. I was also gonna ask you who’s the most feminist, I don’t know if you’re gonna say it’s the same as who’s the most activist-like, but well, I’ll still ask you.

Nicole: Yes. I think that…

Alejandro: I mean, feminist… Nora.

Hajar: Feminist, Nora.

Interviewer: What part would you love to have played if you weren’t Nora, Cris, Amira or Lucas?

Hajar: Mine’s Lucas!

Irene: Mine’s Amira!

Hajar: Also Viri.

Nicole: I would love to be Viri.

Alejandro: Ay, Viri.

Hajar: I would’ve been great, also.

Interviewer: Okay guys, so, setting aside this reality vs fiction stuff but doing something similar, what do you think you have in common with your characters?

Alejandro: Nearly everything. Like, literally we studied at the same high school, we came out in the same year, like… I think that the only difference is that Lucas was in a boy squad, and he had quite a lot of friends. To be fair, compared to Lucas, it was all a bit more difficult for me because, I don’t know, I think with girls in the end we have more of a common sensibility, and I’ve felt more comfortable around them since I was little. It’s like, they made fun of girls for x reason, and me for another one, but generally boys were playing football, you know, and I ended up talking with my girl friends and they were the ones that understood and protected me. So, Lucas, in that way, he had to fight a bit more with his friends because his friends, in the end - they love him after all, you know, and they accepted him 100% - but they aren’t really that woke, I don’t know.

Nicole: With Nora, we are similar in our families, the American father, the Spanish mother, the sister in New York… That is basically the same as my situation, the fact that she’s a feminist, that…[giggles] Lots of stuff! In like, superficial stuff I’m really similar, like in stuff about her life, but… as her, personality wise, I’m way more extroverted, I talk way more than Nora, I’m way more goofy... Yes, she’s more… more centered than me, I’m really chaotic.

Hajar: I’m similar to Amira, I think, in all that surrounds her, in her way of living, in the things that happen to her, like, it’s obvious. The thing that differentiates us… I mean, I think it’s the same, just that the decisions that we make are really different. Like, there are lots of things that Amira does that I… like, I would’ve done differently. Because… I think it has to do with age, I’m older so I know a bit more about how I want things to be, but Amira is still finding what she needs, how to do things, and… But yeah, experience and emotions wise, it’s the same, like, we’re the same person.

Irene: I think that, from the outside, without knowing us personally, we are really really similar, but then, vital trajectory wise, we’re completely different. And personality wise, like how we truly are on the inside, also. But also we share that… that arc about discovering our sexuality and, also partly, romantic relationships, so that’s what I have in common with her.

Interviewer: Looking back, what was the hardest scene to film in these 4 seasons?

Nicole: This season’s last scene was really hard because we couldn’t stop crying. Then, like, I don’t know, in my season, the most, like, technical stuff in my season, when I tell Miquel that my sister was raped when she was younger. It was really hard to shoot because it was the first sequence where I had to cry, and it was really hard, and I was overwhelmed and I blacked out and I couldn’t do it.

Alejandro: When they punched Lucas. I’m saying it was difficult because it touched me a lot, emotionally, so also… I had to get out of there and also endure memories from my past coming back, when I went through similar stuff, and I was overwhelmed, and also I was choking on fake blood, because they would put it in my nose and they started recording and I had to be bleeding, and I was choking, and the feeling of it going down my throat, it was horrible.

Irene: With me, the one that I remember as the worst while shooting it was Cris and Joana’s first kiss, in the pool, because it was a very emotionally complicated day for me, and also it was really hard to shoot with the weights, the weight floaters so that we would sink, the wet clothes… I thought I was doing horribly, having sudden anxiety attacks… it was all bad, all bad, I don’t know how it ended up looking so good, because I had a really bad time.

Interviewer: And you, Hajar?

Hajar: From what I can say... Because of course, I can’t say anything [from this season], but, from older seasons I had a really bad time with Lucas’ punch. Like, I remember that night… like, I know it was fake but I was having a bad time, and that night I couldn’t sleep because I could only think of the image of the fachaleco** punching my friend. And I know it’s fake, but I had a really bad time, I couldn’t sleep that night. Like, I felt it, I felt it. It, it…

Alejandro: I remember… We didn’t have to act, like, the dude hit me and… He did it really well.

Hajar: Yes, yes!

Alejandro: Like, he shouted and called me out like a fascist, dude. Like, like, it affected me a lot, no acting needed, like when I heard his voice my heart automatically beat faster.

Interviewer: It was real, no?

Alejandro: Yes, yes.

Interviewer: In the end you lived this like something nearly… nearly real. Guys, there’s been a lot of talk about whether Skam was going to portray the Pandemic or not, but for you all, how was it shooting with all the sanitary measures? Because there was a break between shooting and the last episodes, and the last seasons you’ve shot them with all of the possible security measures.

Nicole: It wasn’t that hard for me, to be honest, I thought it was going to be way harder, but I think that we’ve spent so much time quarantined that we’ve ingrained it in our systems a bit. And I think humans adapt so quickly to all circumstances life throws at them, that in the end it was weird only because we couldn’t touch each other, because we would turn up every morning and we would kiss and hug each other, and that part is weirder, but, but well, you come in, they prick your finger, like a good breakfast.

Alejandro: I was really glad to go back to work and finish what we had started. Like, that was what I was thinking about the most, I was there, and I was thinking… “damn, it feels good to be back here.”

Interviewer: Of course. Do you think, guys, that Skam has made an impact on other teen Spanish fictions?

Nicole: I think so.

Irene: In the end, it’s not only because of the format, which is so different, but also because of the topics we cover, the ease and realism of those topics… I don’t know, I think it isn’t something that happens often in fiction.

Nicole: Yes.

Interviewer: Social topics, right? In the end, that’s what we’re talking about. They serve as reference points for people your age and older because they’re stories that they can live in themselves, and in the end they empathize with every character, and that’s something that the audience values.

Nicole: And, in general… In general, everything. For example, the romantic relationships, be it between girls, guys, or hetero, etc, they speak about the topics without sexualizing them and with ease, just as in real life, speaking about important stuff that should be talked about… Like we say in the first sequence of the first season when we speak about sex, that people have a different reality.

Interviewer: Finally, three words that you think define your characters by this season’s ending.

Hajar: A baby, lavish and with a really big heart. I said a lot of words but it’s okay, it’s okay.

Nicole: I would say she’s sure, herself, and also… what else… like, it’s not sad, but sad for the good. You know when you cry happy tears?

Interviewer: Sensible, maybe?

Nicole: Yes, sensible. Sensible is the word.

Alejandro: I also think Lucas is more sure of himself, and I also think he’s more awake, like he’s more aware of his own reality, and he lives happily within it, and he’s also a party animal.

Irene: I see her as more capable, she always has been that way, but I think now is when Cris is realizing she really is capable of doing stuff. I see her with more self love, and more committed.

Interviewer: With this we have an idea [of the season], and guys, thanks so much for sharing your time with us, we wish you the best and hopefully we’ll see you soon in lots of projects. And go Skam, there’s still a lot of the season left, and for sure lots of surprises in the next episodes.

Alejandro: Thanks a lot, really. Thanks a lot.

Irene: Thanks.

Hajar: Thanks a lot, Silvia.

Interviewer: Thanks to you.

Alejandro: A really big pleasure.

*Spanish equivalent to 9th grade.

** term used to call Spanish far-right wingers / fascists due to the fact they usually wear a vest like the one the guy that punched Lucas has, called “fachaleco” (from “facha”, fascist, and “chaleco”, vest).

#skam espãna #cast #interview #hajar brown #irene ferreiro #nicole wallace #alejandro reina

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Anime i’ve Watched

That begin with a K (Part 3)!

Yep this is how i’m going to bring over all the anime and manga i’ve watched and posted about on the old blog. It’s not so detailed but it will have to do. Anything new I watch or read from this point on will have their own posts.

Kimetsu no Yaiba

Genres: Action, demons, historical, shounen, supernatural

Synopsis: Ever since the death of his father, the burden of supporting the family has fallen upon Tanjirou Kamado's shoulders. Though living impoverished on a remote mountain, the Kamado family are able to enjoy a relatively peaceful and happy life. One day, Tanjirou decides to go down to the local village to make a little money selling charcoal. On his way back, night falls, forcing Tanjirou to take shelter in the house of a strange man, who warns him of the existence of flesh-eating demons that lurk in the woods at night. When he finally arrives back home the next day, he is met with a horrifying sight—his whole family has been slaughtered. Worse still, the sole survivor is his sister Nezuko, who has been turned into a bloodthirsty demon. Consumed by rage and hatred, Tanjirou swears to avenge his family and stay by his only remaining sibling. Alongside the mysterious group calling themselves the Demon Slayer Corps, Tanjirou will do whatever it takes to slay the demons and protect the remnants of his beloved sister's humanity. [Written by MAL Rewrite]

My Rating: 8.5/10

Finished airing in 2019 with a total of 26 episodes.

My Thoughts: It wasn’t perfect but I truly Loved it! The art/animation was the real standout in my opinion but pretty well every aspect of this anime was quite good. From the characters to the plot there were no unforgivable weak points in this one. Highly recommend despite the lower than usual score! Also has a completed manga for those interested.

Kimi no Na wa. (Your Name):

Genres: romance, supernatural, school, drama, film

Synopsis: Mitsuha Miyamizu, a high school girl, yearns to live the life of a boy in the bustling city of Tokyo—a dream that stands in stark contrast to her present life in the countryside. Meanwhile in the city, Taki Tachibana lives a busy life as a high school student while juggling his part-time job and hopes for a future in architecture. One day, Mitsuha awakens in a room that is not her own and suddenly finds herself living the dream life in Tokyo—but in Taki's body! Elsewhere, Taki finds himself living Mitsuha's life in the humble countryside. In pursuit of an answer to this strange phenomenon, they begin to search for one another. Kimi no Na wa. revolves around Mitsuha and Taki's actions, which begin to have a dramatic impact on each other's lives, weaving them into a fabric held together by fate and circumstance. [Written by MAL Rewrite]

My Rating: 10/10

A film released in 2016.

My Thoughts: A masterpiece. Seriously who hasn’t heard of this film yet? Well worth the rating and hype in my opinion. Visually stunning with a great story and amazing soundtrack. Highly recommend!

Kiseijuu: Sei no Kakuritsu (Parasyte -the maxim):

Genres: action, sci-fi, horror, psychological, drama, seinen

Synopsis: All of a sudden, they arrived: parasitic aliens that descended upon Earth and quickly infiltrated humanity by burrowing into the brains of vulnerable targets. These insatiable beings acquire full control of their host and are able to morph into a variety of forms in order to feed on unsuspecting prey. Sixteen-year-old high school student Shinichi Izumi falls victim to one of these parasites, but it fails to take over his brain, ending up in his right hand instead. Unable to relocate, the parasite, now named Migi, has no choice but to rely on Shinichi in order to stay alive. Thus, the pair is forced into an uneasy coexistence and must defend themselves from hostile parasites that hope to eradicate this new threat to their species. [Written by MAL Rewrite]

My Rating: 8/10

Finished airing in 2015 with a total of 24 episodes.

My Thoughts: I hardly remember this one... I feel like it was gory and just right weird. That’s about all I can remember so i’m no use here. It’s on Netflix now though so maybe I should give it a rewatch... add it to the list...

Kobato:

Genres: comedy, drama, romance, fantasy

Synopsis: Sweet and naïve Hanato Kobato came to Earth on a mission to collect and fill a bottle with "konpeito," which appear after healing a person's heart that is suffering. Kobato collects these because it is her wish to go to a certain place. Despite her strangeness, Kobato turns out to be well-suited for this mission as her heartfelt sincerity in helping others earns her the love and admiration of everyone she meets. However, she is not allowed to fall in love with anyone whose heart she heals. [Written by MAL Rewrite]

My Rating: 9/10

Finished airing in 2010 with a total of 24 episodes.

My Thoughts: It seriously annoys me when I stumble across a title I gave a high rating to that I truly cannot remember. This is one of those titles. Judging by the fact that I don’t remember it I can only assume I didn’t LOVE the anime and obsess over it to the point that it was forever ingrained into my memory. Any of you guys watched this one and have anything to say?

Koe no Katachi (A Silent Voice):

Genres: drama, school, shounen, film

Synopsis: As a wild youth, elementary school student Shouya Ishida sought to beat boredom in the cruelest ways. When the deaf Shouko Nishimiya transfers into his class, Shouya and the rest of his class thoughtlessly bully her for fun. However, when her mother notifies the school, he is singled out and blamed for everything done to her. With Shouko transferring out of the school, Shouya is left at the mercy of his classmates. He is heartlessly ostracized all throughout elementary and middle school, while teachers turn a blind eye.

Now in his third year of high school, Shouya is still plagued by his wrongdoings as a young boy. Sincerely regretting his past actions, he sets out on a journey of redemption: to meet Shouko once more and make amends.

Koe no Katachi tells the heartwarming tale of Shouya's reunion with Shouko and his honest attempts to redeem himself, all while being continually haunted by the shadows of his past.

[Written by MAL Rewrite]

My Rating: 9.5/10

A film released in 2016.

My Thoughts: Another amazing film that is visually stunning! Highly recommend! Has a great and completed manga as well.

Koi wa Ameagari no You ni (After the Rain):

Genres: romance, seinen

Synopsis: Akira Tachibana, a reserved high school student and former track runner, has not been able to race the same as she used to since she experienced a severe foot injury. And although she is regarded as attractive by her classmates, she is not interested in the boys around school. While working part-time at the Garden Cafe, Akira begins to develop feelings for the manager—a 45-year-old man named Masami Kondou—despite the large age gap. Kondou shows genuine concern and kindness toward the customers of his restaurant, which, while viewed by others as soft or weak, draws Akira to him. Spending time together at the restaurant, they grow closer, which only strengthens her feelings. Weighed down by these uncertain emotions, Akira finally resolves to confess, but what will be the result? [Written by MAL Rewrite]

My Rating: 8.5/10

Finished airing in 2018 with a total of 12 episodes.

My Thoughts: I quite enjoyed this anime! A rather unique story with interesting art/ animation. For any concerned about the synopsis talking about the big age gap and that romance tag i’d argue that the romance was rather one sided in this title from what I recall and not at all cringy and gross. Mind you I could be forgetting vital parts... so I mean enter at your own risk?!

#kimetsu no yaiba #anime #kimi no na wa #your name #film #kiseijuu: sei no kakuritsu #parasyte the maxim #kobato.#koe no katachi #a silent voice #koi wa ameagari no you ni #after the rain

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