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Here's a funny anecdote:
When I was 13, I had an idea for a time travel story which was about a kingdom that had a magical clock tower that was created by a wizard a long time ago. The citizens would heavily rely on said clock to go back in time and fix their problems (the problem though was that they would have to climb up the tower to move the hands of the clock anticlockwise).
An alternative for the citizens was to go up to the wizard's descendants for help. The descendants had a pocket watch that they could use to time travel and it was an object they would pass down from generation to generation (it worked the same way as the clock tower, but they could also move forwards in time and stop time). However, the citizens would take advantage of them and treat them as living tools instead of people.
I ended up abandoning the whole idea 2 or 3 years later because I didn't know how to develop the story and I was starting to lose interest in it.
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Cut to last year, when I decided to watch the first two episodes of The Little Prince 2010 series out of nostalgia (to be more precise, the "Planet of Time" arc). I was having a good time rewatching it and I was slowly remembering the enjoyment I had for this series when I was a kid (I had only watched the first season). Then, I got to the flashback scene in the second episode, where the viewer is shown and told how the Snake tempted the watchmaker (a very important figure in that planet because he controls all the planet's clocks and how time functions there) to ignore his responsibilities and, unknowingly, slowly destroy his own planet.
Here's the relevant part of the flashback: the Snake basically asks him if he wishes to be a kid again and not be stressed and burned out anymore (the watchmaker had been exhausted lately because of his job). Once he seems interested in the idea, the Snake gives him a "solution". What's that "solution"? To grab a clock and move the hands anticlockwise so he can essentially "go back in time" (he doesn't actually time travel; he just turns into a baby).
The moment I watched that scene, I remembered my abandoned time travel story and thought: "Oh, so that's where I got that idea!" (I also realized that it was very ironic to be watching these two episodes again for nostalgic reasons).
I knew that some childhood shows and movies had a direct influence on my art and writing (for example, the main characters of the novel I'm writing are just the Mane 6 from MLP: you have the nerdy girl, the sporty girl, the girly girl, the silly girl, etc.), but I hadn't considered that "The Little Prince" may have also influenced my work (both the abandoned and non-abandoned ideas). I might have subconsciously taken other elements from it, such as some of its themes and plot details).
I think it also probably had a small influence on some of my antagonists (especially, some of my demon characters). There aren't any demons in the series, but the Snake is depicted as being kinda like Satan, with him tempting people and making deals sometimes. (Funnily enough, when the series came out, I had started catechesis and my mom had read to me an abridged version of the Bible that was made for kids. However, I didn't make the connection at the time that the Snake was acting like the serpent from the Bible).
NOTE: the series isn't a Christian show, but it's something I noticed after rewatching it. There aren't any other similarities to the Bible or Christianity besides that. Also, I'm not very religious, but I find stories with demons interesting.
being an artist and revisiting media you liked when you were 11 is like. oh ok. this shaped my sense of humor and the way I write characters and the way I pace narratives and the tropes I'm drawn to. and I vastly underestimated how much of an impact it had on me because I literally have not thought about it for 15 years. but it was there inside me the whole time. ok. ok cool! c ool
#reblog#not my post#long post#childhood shows#childhood movies#nostalgia#how fitting that i'm talking about the snake in the year of the snake lol#also when i was drawing one of the illustrations for last year's halloween#(more specifically the one where i depict the 100 demons as blue parasites coming out of the man's body)#i looked at the demons i had drawn so far and thought: âhey they kinda look like the snake's minionsâ#(for context: i had rewatched the episodes a few months earlier)
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Freak
Billie Eilish x female reader !
A/n: Oh hey ! It's tan. You know, the one who can't stick to one fucking story and never ends up finishing them anyways (I have 32 fucking drafts.) N E WAYS. I thought of this, yes another doja song. What can I say, she serves, ENJOY
Summary: you're both just as freaky.
Warnings: smut, car sex, use of daddy, riding, lowkey highkey fb billie - if there's anything else I haven't mentioned pls lmk !
Tags: @trulyy-yourzz @eilishslut @chrissv4mp @n0vabug @dollyvuu @dollarbils @sweetcherriexs @xxangelfarrlzxx
^comment if you want to be added^
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Parties like these were the best, dressing up as someone unrecognizable. This theme was roaring 20s for your friends 20th. Music was fitting to the time of this era. People dressed in specific outfits. Women in the iconic dresses, men in the vest, suit. Some wearing the iconic hat. But there was one female who dressed axactly like that. "Well well. Y/n." She says with a smirk. "Billie, always one to stand out huh?" She chuckles. "Why not, kinda pisses guys off and turns women on. Win win." You look at her full outfit. It honestly was turning you on. "What women?" Her brows raise. "Plenty. Heaps." You had zero clue why but that rubbed you up the wrong way. You knew she's been out with heaps of girls.
But it just got to you. Maybe cause you haven't had a piece yet. That'll change tonight, you plan to do so. You and billie always had chemistry. Having near incidents of kissing, sometimes more. But something always happens to get in the way. You were honestly drawn to her and little did you know she was drawn to you too. "Come here alone?" You shrug at her question. "Might have. You?" She thinks for a moment. "Possibly." The tension was thick, and God you just wanted to kiss her. But you keep your cool. Thinking of some form of a plan. You notice girls looking at her. "Damn, maybe you weren't kidding." She laughs again. "Do I kid, darling?" Even her mannerisms were fitting for the theme. Was it on purpose?
"Well, maybe you should go mingle." You go to turn around but she grabs your wrist. "Hey now, what if I want to talk to you." Progress. You smile. "You do? Really?" You ask so innocently. Then she comes out with something that shocks you. "Yeah. Maybe tonight there won't be interruptions like usual." Now you were stumped. So she was known to the coincidence too. She cared... "Maybe you're right." You subtly bite your lip. "Why don't we get a head start and get out of here." Your smile returns. "Sounds like a plan."
The car ride was antagonizing. But once she'd gotten to your place it was go time. So much feeling was brewing inside the both of you. And as you reach the door, followed by your room you waste no time. Your hands reach for the hat, chucking it somewhere. Her hands move to your body, letting out a content sigh like she's finally reached her life long goal. She definitely had. Her lips go straight to your own and you practically do the same sound as she did moments ago, except it came out as a moan. She had zero idea what she was getting into with you, but you had always wanted to try this with someone. But you had zero idea how she'd react. Good thing you'd enjoy it. You had moved her on the bed, watching as she sat on her elbows.
You knew Billie was dominant with the stories she told. But she had no. Idea. Just how freaky you could be. If anything she'd have more fun with this. You go to your closet pulling out some rope casually. Her left brow raises. "What you plan on doing with that?" You say nothing, moving over her. Her hand reaches for your jaw as you sutuate the restraint. "Huh?" Your shoulders shrug. "You'll see." She was about to protest but in a blink of an eye you were already doing it. Pushing her back and tying her to the bed. "Really?" She says as you giggle. "You're a fucking menace." You shrug. "Guess you didn't know how I'd be. Did you?" She looks in your eyes. "Untie me." You contemplate. She looked a little mad. Bingo. Just what you wanted. "Mmm no, Im just getting started Bils." Your hands move to somehow get some of her clothes off.
But with the way she acted before you got a brilliant idea that popped into your head. You go for your own clothing, taking of the head piece. The gloves, your dress. Slowly you did so. Very slowly, you didn't have a bra on so she was unexpectedly blessed by the sight. "Oh God." She lets out. Seeing as all she could do was use her mouth. Use her mouth... Now she, had a brilliant idea. Seeing as you weren't going to budge anytime soon. "Come closer for me." You look at her. "Why should I." "These aren't tight enough. I'd hate to just slip out." Your slow brain doesn't process right away as you lean over. Tits right in her face. Boom. "But you didn't want to escape earlier-" You say, as you tie them tighter. Stopping with realization.
You go to move but suddenly feeling a wet pair of lips on your bud. It hardening on her tongue. You mentally stop, soon after, you move again. "You tricked me." She smirks. "Like it was hard." Oops. "No, come on. Just Untie me. Cone on baby I know you want to." The name had you considering it. But you weren't done. "Nope." This only made her rage heighten. "You're a fucking brat you know that?" She didn't even say that sexually, she was just annoyed. But you loved it. You shift slightly as the words pass her lips. Then she spots it, spots why you were doing this. So she tries again. "Want to get me all riled up huh? You like being a slut." You tried to ignore it. "Go on then, keep going and you'll find out how it ends." You still had some form of confidence. Your lips move to her neck, letting your breasts rest on her chest.
This was driving her nuts. You were so caught up in giving her a hickey, you had no clue she'd escaped. "We could flip the coin." Your brows furrow when she says that. But you knew things were fucked as soon as you felt soft hands on your naked waist. "Uh oh." She smirks maliciously. Flipping you guys so you were underneath. "Yeah, uh oh's right babe. Big fat, fucking. Uh oh." You've never seen her like this. You thought the girls she's been with were exaggerating. Definitely not the case. Your eyes go wide. "How'd you-" She tuts. "So silly. Im surprised you'd try me." A split of confidence shines through. "Yeah it was fun." She laughs. And it immediately compels you. "Cute. Very cute. You won't be saying that soon babygirl. I can promise you that." You just give into her, you're desire won over. "I'll be your slave."
Her head tilts. "That's much better. More so than earlier right?" Your breath increases as her hand slowly slides down to your underwear. "Now shut the fuck up, and let me do my thing yeah?"
Your eyes shut. "Yes daddy."
"Good girl."
I ain't afraid of a little pain.
Weeks pass from that unforgettable night. And let's just say, you and Billie had been seeing eachother on the down low, constantly. Her past flings or whatever they even were would call her. Text her. And she couldn't give a rats ass anymore. Ignoring every single one of them. You infiltrated her brain entirely. Once she had a taste she never wanted to go back. But aside from the sexual, she had asked you to go out tonight. Which you had no idea wasn't the norm for her. She was definitely swoon. She honked her horn letting you know she was here. You scurry out seeing her standing by your side. Already open for you to get in. "Wow." Was all she said. "Could say the exact thing about you." You say hopping in. She was bewildered. I mean sure she's seen you dressed up. But not like this.
The night went on, it was beautiful and peaceful. She was the sweetest, conversation was filled with laughter and meaning. When you two go to leave, heading to the car. Something shifts. All of a sudden conversation was dead. Maybe it was her hand on your thigh as she drove. Her rings clod on your skin. The chunky metal clunking together as she moves her fingers around subconsciously. Her eyes were on the road but her mind was most definitely on you. Her fingers move upwards, under your tight skirt. The pad of her index touches your lacy underwear. Her teeth grabs her bottom lip, hearing you suck in a breath. She dips her finger past the fabric, touching you. Already soaked just from the tiny action. "Fuck." She says under her breath.
Her other hand still on the wheel. She swerves into an empty parking lot swiftly. The act, oddly attractive. She moves her hand out, grabbing your waist, getting you to sit on her lap. "Couldn't wait till we got back?" You pout mockingly at her. "Oh shut up, you have no clue." You grab her face. "Then tell me." You look into her eyes so sweetly. "Fucking hell." She groans, ignoring you and immediately kissing your lips. You sink into the feeling. Molding perfectly. "Need this. Now." She breathes against your lips. You just nod in reply, getting needier. She fiddles with her belt, getting the strap out. It was red, it matched your skirt. How on earth? How'd she even know- But as you were wondering you didn't even realize your skirt was bunched and underwear to the side.
You realize when the tip prods you. "Bils." You gasp, feeling it suddenly go in. Your body rising off of her, slowly sinking down. And the moan you let out almost makes her finish on the spot. "Jesus." She moans. You ride her, but painfully slow. Hearing a sound of annoyance coming from her. You smirk, slowing down more. "God you're a little bitch." Her hands grip your waist forcefully pushing you down all the way. You whimper. You moan, so caught off guard. "That fixed you huh." Your eyes shut at the feeling, feeling full of her. "Billie-" You gasp yet again, shocked at how good this specific one felt. "Chose bigger. Just, for. You." She truly was down bad. She continues her movements, hitting spots you've never felt such pleasure from before. "Daddy I want it faster." You moan into her neck as you had just moved it there. Breathing heavily.
Her hands speed up with ease, loving how your own hips would move on her. "Fuck you're so good. Might make me cum before you do." You chuckle into her skin, moving so you're facing her again. "Them bitches you fuckin with, I know they gon need some practice." She hums. "Nobody does it like you baby." Both of your lips connect again in a heated kiss, more heated than all the other ones you shared. There was something firey about tonight. Her hand moves to grab your shirt, lifting it. "Actually get to suck these without you being a pain." You giggle. "Oh come on, I know you love it." She doesn't say a word, moving her lips to the bud. Your moans high pitched. Her other hand moves to push the seat back. Having her lay down, your own hips take control as your hands move to her shoulders.
Got me like, "Yeehaw," ride it like a horsey.
Kinda like see-saw, up and down on the D.
Her lips still sucking with intense need. Your head starts to spin as your argasm encroached. Moaning incessantly. She felt like she was in heaven, she could definitely die happy. Especially with your tits in her mouth. "Im so close Billie." You sigh out, feeling your movements getting sloppier. Her mouth retracts, moving her hands to your hips once again. Speeding you up. "Mmm, so am I." She bites her lip at the way you felt on her. She could feel your walls tighten as it get harder for her to move your body. "F-fuck!" You squeak, hadn't expected it to come out as fast as it did. The way she moved you, sends your legs to shake. Her finishing soon after, watching your face intently. Your eyes roll back.
After awhile you eventually catch your breaths. Calming down. "I had no idea you were this freaky. Pegged you to be more of the shy type." You smile as you lay on her. "Ain't ever been vanilla, honey, just wait until you get a taste." - "Think I already have." You sit up straight going close to her face. "You haven't tasted me yet though." She smirks at you. "Maybe I should do that. Right. Now."
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Prompt #4
Okay I cannot find the exact prompt or story that gave me this idea and I cannot remember exactly what happened in the story since I read a very long time ago but the story/prompt did explore briefly the idea of an Alfred X clockwork ship which honestly hell yeah
so here's my prompt idea
So clockwork had adopted Danny as his grandson and they both are currently living in Gotham for one reason or another and somehow under some circumstances Alfred and CW meet and get along quite well so they keep in contact and eventually gain feelings for each other, I feel like in reality Alfred would gain feelings first but itâs funnier if clockwork gets feelings first so Iâm going to  with that, so clockwork gets feelings for Alfred and Danny is stuck watching his grandfather dance around his feelings.
Eventually Danny just stepped in and helps clockwork ask Alfred out and Alfred accepts so they plan a date,
Somehow not a single member of the Batfamily figure out about the date but they get curious when Alfred asks for an evening off work and being the nosy people they are/curious they follow him to a restaurant where a nicely dressed elderly man is waiting with flowers and when Alfred gets there the nicely dressed elderly man gives it to him with a large blush on his face and this just shocks everyone obviously people like Cassandra, duke and maybe even Dick are like super happy for Alfred because heâs falling in love and finding someone that makes him happy, but Bruce and maybe the other kids being paranoid trying to figure out exactly who this is what they want with Alfred and if they are dangerous because obviously Bruce would be overprotective of Alfred the man did raise him and the kids would probably be overprotective of Alfred because he is there grandfather technically. So may chaos ensue as clockwork and Alfred go on  more dates and Danny is just helping them because heâs happy for clockwork.
And  Alfred knows about the chaos going on but heâs happy and a bit entertained by it so heâs just going to let it continue until they come to their own conclusions.
#dc x dp#dc x dp crossover#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc#dpxdc#dc x dp prompt#alfred pennyworth#danny phantom#dp clockwork#batfamily
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Hello. Thank you so much for sharing yohaji translations. There was a question bothering me for a while. Why do you think Ranmaru hates Seimei ? Would love to hear your thoughts on that.
see ranmaru is hard to read and seimei is even harder to read, but i do have a guess.
because of sensei's recent bad-end takahashi art, i've come to realise: yohaji is a cosmic horror story and seimei is the cosmic horror
if seimei happens to like you for some reason, or the timeline for the people he DOES care about puts you in a good place, then great! you're in good hands! (you were not aware you were in anyone's hands)
otherwise, you might just end up in a bad place, even though 1000 years ago, there was some guy who knew and could change things 1000 years into the future, who might have cared about you if something was different somehow.
of course, this wouldn't matter to you as the hypothetical person in this scenario, because how could you be expected to know about this one guy from 1000 years ago? he doesnt matter to you.
but ranmaru does know him. he was there next to him to see everything he did and said, and he still doesnt understand him
"hate" is an output, a symptom, and it's because ranmaru is afraid of seimei.
ranmaru is really smart and he's lived a long time. he generally knows how the world works and what makes people tick and he likes having the upper hand in a conversation and talking his way under people's skin.
and then this guy shows up and acts like he knows everything! and then he dies! and then you live the next 1000 years and find out he really did know everything and everything is unfolding in exactly the way he wants!
ranmaru likes his free will and his "doing whatever" and seimei is a direct threat to that. seimei stands for the idea that there's no such thing as free will, that everything is predetermined, that you were always going to end up where you are, and you never had any real choice in the matter. in the same way the last page of a book was already written by the time you set eyes on the first page, and in the same way meiji time travel stable time loop happening at all ensures that it was always going to resolve in the state of the world that led to the time travel happening in the first place.
#asks#everyone point and laugh at the character representing free will in the story exploring the concept of predeterminism#seimei is like a memetic scp to the people around him but i dont think he likes it either#its sort of why haruaki happens at all. to like be surprised by things for once#im so âharuaki is seimeis ocâ-pilled#u know that ârequired readingâ meme. i think stanley parable is required reading for yohaji
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Blood brother
Pairing: Sihtric x reader (female) Authors note: I kind of hate it. It's so long since I wrote something and it feels like first time again. I have wanted to write it for a while already but never got to it. It's a wonderful idea planted into my head by the lovely @thenameswinter99 in one of our chats but I know I made it different, so I hope you'll not be angry with me. Warnings: actually none. Some description of violence but nothing very graphical Word Count: 8,7 K (sorry đ
) Summary: having lost everything and thinking she's been abandoned by everybody, even her best friend Sihtric, reader on her quest for revenge founds out that life can be full of surprises and that there is always space for hope
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The night was dark, the feeble, pale light of the new moon barely illuminating your path through the woods. You shuddered as if trying to shake off the cold, the chill air biting your cheeks and each exhale leaving a shimmering, silvery fog in the air. Yet you didnât stop, didnât turn back. Just the opposite.Â
Your small feet quickened their pace, finding the path beneath them with the assuredness of a cat on the hunt, and with each step you took your eyes adjusted further to the darkness and to the eerie shadows and flickering shapes the moonlight made dancing around you. Â
You should have been scared, a small girl alone in the middle of the forest, the familiar and warm lights of your home far behind. But you werenât, not anymore.Â
You pressed on, ducking under the bony, outstretched arms of thorn bushes and leaping over moss covered, fallen trunks. Yes, there had been fear, but that was before. Before this forest had become your home, your secret ally, the protector of your dreams. Before you had learned to become one with it, to listen to its whispers, to feel its heartbeat in the quiet rustling of the leaves.
Before you had met him.Â
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The sun was slowly dipping behind the horizon, making the shadows grow longer, and a distant crack of a twig sent your heart racing. You had never been so scared before in your whole life.Â
You had been picking berries, one step leading to another, each shiny little red perl hidden in the green tapestry of shrubs inviting you further and further from the familiar path until there was no path at all, only an impenetrable thicket of trees and bushes all looking alike.
You clutched the small basket you had been carrying as if it could shield you.
That was when you heard that low, unmistakable growl behind you.
You spun around and froze, your legs refusing to obey your desperate need to run. A wobbly step back sent you tumbling to the ground, a loud shriek escaping your lungs.Â
Wolf, as if stepped out of the fairy tales your grandma told you before sleep. You had never seen one before but there was no doubt, your grandma had always been a vivid teller of stories.Â
Eyes wide open you stared at the majestic animal before you and waited. Waited for the end to come.Â
âDonât move,â a soft and strangely calm voice reached you as a small silhouette of a boy probably the same age as yourself suddenly stepped between you and the wolf. âIt can feel your fear.â
âIâm scared,â you whispered, as tears started to stream down your face.
âIâm not,â he said simply.
The wolf snarled, shifting its weight as though preparing to pounce but the boy didnât flinch. Instead, he crouched slightly, meeting the animalâs gaze head-on. A strange, low sound rumbled from his throatâa growl, so very similar to the one the wolf had made just a moment ago that you couldn't help but shudder.
The wolfâs ears twitched, and for a while they just stood there staring at each other. A soft whine escaped you from the burning feeling in your lungs as you realised youâd been holding your breath, and you felt wolf's gaze shifting between you and the boy as if considering his chances.
The boy leaned forward slightly, his thin frame taut like a drawn bowstring. The wolf snarled, its hackles raised, but there was a slight uncertainty in its posture now. The boy didnât waver, his eyes locked with the creature as he bared his teeth.
The wolf hesitated, its tail giving a flick of irritation, and then with a final growl, it broke eye contact, lowered its head and started to step backward. Its movements were slow, reluctant, as if it hated admitting defeat, but after a few steps it turned and with a few leaps disappeared into the shadows.
The boy straightened, his small chest rising and falling as he caught his breath, and for the first time, he turned to you, âItâs gone,â he said simply but you just continued to stare at him, your ability to speak stolen from you both by fear and awe plainly written on your face.
The boy was thin and malnourished, with bruises on his arms and legs, clothes hanging off his bony frame and the dirt smudged on his face, his bare foot rustling against the soft forest ground.Â
He looked fragile, even breakable, but it wasnât his disheveled appearance that struck you most, it was his eyes. One was a piercing blue, while the other earthy brown, shining with an inexplicable mixture of defiance and warmth.
âYou shouldnât wander this far into the woods alone,â he added, tilting his head and observing you with open curiosity, and you noticed how melodic and soft his voice actually was. âItâs not safe.â
It felt like a dream. He extended a hand to help you up, and you took it, your fingers trembling against his. His grip was surprisingly firm, grounding, and you couldnât help stealing glances at him as he led you back to the path, your hand safely in his.
You both reached the edge of the forest in silence where he released your hand reluctantly, his fingers slipping away so slowly as though they didnât want to let go. The boy's large, expressive eyes followed you as you stepped into the meadow, and it suddenly struck you that you had not the slightest idea who your mysterious saviour was.Â
âWhatâs your name?â you asked, turning around and finally finding your voice even if it still sounded shaky.
He hesitated, his gaze shifting back toward the trees, as if unsure whether to answer or rather retreat. âSihtric,â he said at last, his tone strangely wary, eyes darting to the ground. âSihtric Kjartansson.â
âWill you come back tomorrow?â you asked.
His lips curled into a small, almost shy smile. âMaybe,â he finally said, but the faint glimmer in his mismatched gaze told you he would.
The next day, you returned with fresh bread and a small portion of ham tucked neatly into your linen shoulder bag. You werenât sure if he would really come, but you hoped, and as you crossed the meadow, your heart skipped a beat at the sight of him, leaning casually against the trunk of the great oak.
âI brought you something,â you said as you stretched out your hand to offer the loaf of fresh bread. He hesitated, his gaze flicking between your face and the bread, his beautiful eyes mirroring a quiet surprise. It seemed as if he wasnât used to kindness.
âYou saved my life,â you added. âPlease, let me thank you.â
Sihtricâs fingers slightly brushed against yours as he took the bread, and the brief contact sent a surprising rush of warmth to your cheeks, forcing you to look away, as you suddenly became aware of the heat rising in your face.
âThank you,â he said at last as he held the loaf carefully, almost reverently, as though it was something precious.Â
â---------------------------------------------------
You stopped, listening to a call of an owl echoing through the stillness of the night, before resuming your run. It was the signal and you were late.
âAnd I already thought youâd chickened out and wouldnât come,â a familiar voice greeted you as you stumbled into the small clearing, a faint taunt lacing the words.Â
âMom stayed up late with her sewing,â you replied, breathless from your relentless sprint through the woods. âI couldnât sneak out before she went to bed.â
A small figure emerged from the shadows of the nearby trees. Without hesitation you grabbed the hand outstretched towards you and let it guide you to the center of the clearing with a makeshift arch formed by a strip of turf propped up by three spears.
âSihtric, where did you get these?â you asked, your eyes widening as you admired the haphazard construction.
âEveryoneâs busy packing and fussing around,â Sihtric replied almost nonchalantly. âIt was easy to grab a few things and sneak away. But Iâve got to bring them back before dawn, or Iâll get the shit beaten out of me.â
You shuddered, turning to look at the boy beside you. Sihtricâs voice was steady, but there was that subtle set of his jaw and the faint quiver in his grip.
âStay,â you said. You wanted to sound confident, resolute but the way the word trembled on your lips, that sudden crack in your voice, it all betrayed your desperation. âHide in the woods, and when theyâll be gone, come to my house. My father wonât turn you away if I ask him to take you in.â
But you already knew the answer.
âI canât,â he said softly, his response almost a whisper. âI canât leave my mom. She needs me. I have to take care of her.â
You squeezed his hand tighter, wishing there was something else you could do, something else you could say to make him change his mind. You knew there wasnât. Your small world was falling apart, and there was nothing you could do about it.
âOh, I almost forgot,â you said, withdrawing your hand and reaching into the small linen bag slung over your shoulder. âI brought fresh bread. Mom baked it just yesterday.â
Sihtric smiled faintly, just a shadow of his usual mischievous grin, but his gaze returned to the arch.
âLetâs do it first, if you are still sure about it,â he tugged you gently toward the arch.Â
You nodded, swallowing hard. You wanted to smile, but your lips trembled. âOf course I am. âÂ
âAlright.â Sihtric let out a shaky breath, and crouched down to retrieve a small knife heâd hidden in the grass beneath the arch, its blade a bit dull but still usable.
Without any further hesitation he drew the blade lightly across his forearm. The cut was clean and straight, a thin red line beading quickly with blood. He hissed softly at the sting but held steady, extending his arm to you.
âYour turn.â
Your hands trembled slightly as you took the knife, not that you were afraid of the pain. It was the significance of the moment that made your heart hammer in your chest. Sihtric watched you carefully, something like concern flickering across his face.
âYou donât have to do it if youâre scared,â he said quietly.
âIâm not scared,â you scoffed at Sihtric, tightening your grip on the handle and pressing the blade to your forearm, but your hand slipped slightly, and the cut ended up uneven and jagged. You gasped at the sharp pain, your free hand instinctively reaching out to press against the cut.
âYou alright?â Sihtric asked, alarm evident in his voice.
âYeah,â you whispered, blinking back tears. âItâs fine. Itâs just... shit, itâs so crooked.â
He gave you a small, encouraging smile. âDoesnât matter. It still counts.â
Sihtric held out his arm, his bloodied cut facing yours. You looked up, trying to read the expression on his face before pressing your wounds together. Sihtric wrapped a strip of fabric around your joined arms, and you helped him to tie it tighter.
âThatâs it,â he said, his voice firmer now. âNow we have to say it.â
You both spoke at the same time, voices barely above whispers but full of determination.Â
âOur blood is one,
joined under the moon and stars.
Brother and sister for life and beyond.
Your pain is my pain; your joy â my joy.
Wherever life leads you,Â
You will not walk your path alone.â
The world around suddenly felt still, as though even the forest was holding its breath because you both surely were.Â
You looked down at your bound arms, a small but proud smile touching your lips.
âRemember the wolf?â you suddenly asked, breaking the quiet.
Sihtric glanced at you, a small, knowing smile brightening up his eyes. âI wasnât scared,â he said, his voice teasing.
âLiar,â you said, nudging him with your shoulder. But deep down, you knew it was true.
He reached out to ruffle your hair with his free hand, and you couldnât help but lough. âCome on, sister,â he said. âLetâs eat that bread before the night gets colder.â
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The door closed with a quiet thud behind you as you slumped your back against it, fighting to steady your frantic breathing, to silence the voice in your head, screaming that this wasnât right, that it wasnât supposed to end like this.Â
Raising your trembling hand, you let your fingers hover over your burning lips. Your very first kiss. Light like a feather, hot like a fire. You hadnât planned this. You didnât even fully understand how it had happened.Â
It was just that strange feeling as Sihtricâs fingers had hesitated to let go of your hand just like that first time you had met, that haunting look of regret and sadness in his beautiful, mismatched eyes and the heaviness in your own chest. It all had been too much to bear for your small, fragile heart, so you just did it. The only thing you could think of.Â
You rose onto your tiptoes and pressed your lips to his.
And then you ran.Â
You ran as if your life depended on this, as if a hundred wild beasts were chasing you down, the touch of Sihtricâs soft but slightly chapped lips against yours burning in your mind.Â
Your very first kiss. A good by. A farewell. A promise.Â
Youâll not walk your path alone.
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You shifted carefully, stretching your numb legs one at a time. The night was cool but thanks gods â dry, a welcome change after an endless week of steady mizzling. That annoying faint drizzle was capable of seeping through every seam of your leather armour, soaking through all layers down to your undergarments and drenching it until there was not a single dry thread left.Â
The Danish camp lay just beyond the treeline, its fires casting flickering shadows across the ground. You had been following them for weeks â them and other groups travelling from and to Dunholm.Â
Your breath was slow and even. This was far from being new to you. Nights spent on the hard earth under the beautiful blanket of stars had long become your way of life. You didnât complain, you had learned to endure, to let the numbness creep into your body without letting it dull your mind.
You shifted again, crouching closer, trying to get a better view on the fireplaces and to be able to catch glimpses of conversations. The underbrush rustled softly, and you froze, waiting for any sign that youâd been heard. Nothing. The camp remained busy but apparently oblivious of your presence.
Your fingers instinctively checked for the hilt of the dagger at your hip. All you wanted was to sneak through the bushes right into that nest of wasps, taking one life after another, quiet and deadly. But it was not yet the right time for that.Â
You had dreamt of it for years. Of being here. Of finding your way into that damned fortress. Of wiping the name of the man that had taken everything from you from this world and any other worlds that possibly existed whether they called them Valhalla or Heaven.Â
There hadn't been a single night that you havenât woken up covered in sweat from the scattered images of the smoldering ruins of your home dancing before your closed eyes as clearly as the stars above you now. It was as if you could still smell the acrid stench of burned wood and flesh.Â
Every fiber of your being longed to storm through Dunholmâs gates, to plunge your blade into Kjartanâs heart and to burn it all down to the ground as they had done to you. But you knew too well that this was not possible, that this would only lead to your own doom and not theirs. You had to wait and lurk in the dark, searching for a way that would ensure their ruin. You had waited years for this. You could wait a little longer.Â
âDistracted, are we?â a soft voice murmured near your ear, calm and quiet as in the same moment you felt a cold steel pressing against your throat. Your body tensed up and your fingers slowly wrapped around the hilt of the dagger, readying for the strike.Â
âMove, and youâll lose your head,â the voice continued, the blade pressing just a fraction closer and a hand landed on your shoulder, keeping you in place. Â
You cursed yourself silently, the threat was as calm as it was deadly.
âDrop your weapon,â he ordered.
You hesitated, your mind weighing the odds.
âNow,â he snapped, his tone sharpening.
âFine,â you said, slowly pulling out the dagger and then you felt it â a shift in his grip, the tiniest slackening of pressure. It was all you needed.
You twisted sharply, pulling away from the blade while driving your elbow backward into his ribs. His grunt of surprise was satisfying, but you didnât stop. Spinning on your heel, you unsheathed your dagger completely and brought it up between you.
The two of you stood frozen, knives pointed at each otherâs throats. It was too dark to see the man clearly. The firelight from the camp didnât reach your hideaway, and the moon was new, just a small slice in the dark sky, casting only fleeting, shifting shadows over his face.Â
All you could tell was that he was young, well built and lean, unmistakably a Dane and a warrior. You were pretty sure he didnât belong to the camp you were spying on as you knew by now all the men there â an observation that did nothing to calm you as he still could be an enemy.Â
His grip on his own blade was steady and his breathing even. If he was surprised by your sudden move, he didnât show it, and there was a sharpness in his gaze that kept you on edge.
âWho are you?â He was the first to break the silence.
You tightened your grip on your dagger: âThat depends on what your intentions are.â
âThat depends on what youâre doing here,â he shot back, and for a split second you thought there was something strangely familiar in his slightly mocking tone.
You hesitated, your mind racing for some plausible reply as there was no way of revealing your true purpose. âIâm just passing through,â you said finally, knowing that the simple answer will not satisfy, but you needed some time to decide on your next move.
âPassing through?â the young warrior snorted. âNear a Danish camp, armed, and skulking in the shadows? Whom are you trying to fool?â
âAnd what about you?â you countered, trying to mask your nerves with defiance. âWhat are you doing here?â
But before you could continue the exciting conversation a distant shout shattered the stillness.
âSomeoneâs out there!â
Your breath hitched. The sound of boots hurriedly stumping against the ground grew louder, accompanied by the glint of torchlight weaving through the trees. The young Dane glanced toward the noise and then back to you as if weighing his options.
âTheyâre coming,â he muttered, pulling his blade back. âWe canât be found here.â
You hesitated, your instincts screaming to keep your guard up but the sound of the approaching Danes left little choice, and you carefully lowered your own weapon.
âFine,â you said through gritted teeth. âBut if you try anythingââ
âSave the threats,â he snapped, his eyes briefly meeting yours. âLetâs go.â
He grabbed your wrist, and before you could protest, he was leading you through the dense forest. You stumbled after him, the sounds of pursuit growing fainter with every step. He moved like a shadow, his pace quick but deliberate, his grip firm enough to keep you close without hurting you.
When you finally stopped, your chest was heaving, and your lungs burned from the frantic run. It seemed that you had shaken off the pursuers at least for now.Â
âNow,â he breathed, trying to catch his breath, âwho are you really? And why were you watching the camp?â
He didnât seem like a raider nor one from Kjartanâs men but he was clearly dangerous, and trusting him was a risk you couldnât afford to take.
âIâm no one,â you said softly. âJust someone trying to survive. Iâm no threat to you. You were not keen to be discovered by the Danes in the camp, nor am I. Letâs just part in peace.â
His lips pressed into a thin line. âSurvivors donât spy on camps full of Danes. And they certainly donât carry daggers like yours.â
You glared at him, your fingers itching to draw the weapon again. âAnd what about you? Youâre not exactly a farmer out for a midnight stroll.â
The faintest smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth. âFair enough,â he said, crossing his arms. âLetâs just say I have my reasons.â
âThen maybe we should leave it at that,â you said with a sly smile.
He tilted his head, studying you in the dim light. âFor now,â he said slowly. âBut donât think I trust you.â
âLikewise,â you shot back, even as a small part of you couldnât ignore the strange pull you felt toward him. There was something about the way he carried himself, the quiet intensity in his voice, that spoke to you, that reminded you of something, making shivers run down your spine but before you could give it another thought a distant shout broke the moment.
âWe need to keep moving,â he said, his tone all serious again. âThey wonât stop searching until theyâre sure the woods are clear.â
You nodded reluctantly as the distant shouts grew louder and suddenly the torchlight started weaving through the trees like restless fireflies. Both of you tensed, instinctively drawing your blades and exchanging a sharp glance. An unspoken agreement passed between you: survival first, questions later.
Then the Danes burst through the trees.
âOver here!â one of them roared, his axe glinting in the firelight, and more followed.
The man beside youâlean, quick, and deadlyâmoved before you could think. His blade flashed in the dim light, cutting down the first attacker. You followed, blocking a strike aimed at your side and countering with a swift slash to your opponentâs arm. The Dane howled in pain, but there was no time to celebrate your small victory as another man charged at you, forcing you to dodge and roll, barely escaping his axe as it came down.
You fought together as if you had had years of practice behind. You couldnât help but admire the way the young warrior moved, his movements fluid and practiced, filled with wild ferocity. The two of you were a perfect balance as if this were a dance where each movement needs to be attuned to the other, seamlessly covering each other as the Danes closed in.
But there were too many of them.
A sharp blow caught you off guard, knocking the dagger from your hand and making you stumble. You groaned in pain as a Daneâs boot sank into your stomach, sending you sprawling to the ground. Before you could recover a blade was pressed against your neck.
âDrop your weapon!â the man yelled, jerking you to your feet and wrenching your arm behind your back.Â
 âDrop your weapon, or she dies,â the Dane repeated, his eyes narrowing at your companion.
You snorted loudly, the sound sharp and defiant, despite the blade pressed against your throat. âYou think thatâs a threat?â you spat. âHe doesnât even know me.âÂ
You looked over to the young warrior, frozen for a moment, his knife and axe still in his hands, his chest rising and falling with rapid breaths. Something flickered across his face â annoyance, or was it concern as he turned, his eyes fixed on you for a brief moment before shifting to the man holding you.Â
You could clearly see the hesitation in the young warrior, his jaw tightening, his movements deliberately slow as he scanned the Danes around all ready to resume the fight. And then he did something you hadnât expected. He raised his hands slowly, letting the weapons fall from his fingers.
âI surrender,â he said with a steady voice. âLet her go.â
The words hit you almost like a blow. Why would he do this? He could have fought his way out and fled. You were a complete stranger to him.Â
The Danes exchanged glances and one of them stepped forward, pointing his axe at the stranger. âYouâll come with us, both of you.â
Before either of you could respond, rough hands shoved you forward, the blade leaving your neck but replaced by the iron grip of two men dragging you away. Your companion was similarly manhandled and brought to walk next to you.
You risked a hidden glance at the young warrior beside you, as you still couldnât grasp why he had done this. What was his plan?
âWhat are you doing?â you hissed under your breath, unable to keep the confusion out of your voice.
âSaving your neck,â he replied quietly, meeting your surprised gaze for a brief moment.
And that was when you saw them â his eyes. The light from the torches caught him just enough for you to see the young manâs face clearly for the very first time of your hectic encounter. But you didnât pay attention to anything else apart from the eyes. They were of different colour. One blue, one hazel brown.Â
Your breath caught in your throat. It wasnât possible. It simply couldnât be.Â
You turned away as quickly as you could, stumbling over a tree root. The grip on your arm twisted behind your back painfully tightened but you almost didnât notice it, your mind too busy trying to reconcile the image before you with another one.Â
The mismatched gaze of a boy you had trusted, the boy who had stood beside you beneath a makeshift arch, who had held your hand as your blood mingled. The son of the man who had destroyed everything â your life, your family, your dreams. Your entire world, reduced to ash and bitter memories, and he had been part of it, whether by blood or by silence.Â
You shook your head in a silent dialogue with yourself, your pulse pounding in your ears. It canât be him, you told yourself. It isnât him. But even as you repeated the thought, a part of you still whispered that it might be. And if it was, you didnât know whether to feel relief, rage, or something else entirely.
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The coarse rope bit into your wrists with each futile struggle trying to loosen it. You sat with your back pressed firmly against the rough bark of the tree. The Danes had done a thorough job, binding the two of you on opposite sides of the same tree so tight to make even the smallest movement uncomfortable.Â
Your companion on the other side of the tree, if one could call him that, had been absolutely silent all this time. Being a bit uncooperative when it came to letting himself be tied, he had earned several heavy blows to his abdomen and a split lip.
You shifted slightly, testing again the ropes that bound you both, and hissed as the fibers just dug deeper into your skin. It all just made no sense. It just couldnât be him. The Kjartanâs men, youâd been spying on, were out to kill him and had tied him up without hesitation. They hadnât recognized him as one of their own, as Kjartanâs blood.
You bit your lip, trying to coax both your body and mind to relax.Â
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Sihtric leaned his head back against the tree. The sharp ache that radiated from his ribs almost made him groan. The blows heâd taken were nothing new; the pain being a constant companion in his life had long ceased to bother him. But this - being tied up, unable to move freel - this clawed at something deep inside him, making his skin crawl.
He clenched his fists against the rope, hoping that the sharp pain in his wrists would stop his mind from wandering back to the dark days under Kjartanâs roof, where being bound wasnât just punishment but a lesson in submission, a lesson in unworthiness of his life to his own father.Â
He had vowed to himself long ago never to let anyone have that power over him again. Yet here he was, beaten and bound like a dog because he had been foolish enough to be distracted. Â
He cursed himself for his carelessness. He had seen the torches, heard the shouts, he knew the risk, he should have just left and run, yet he had lingered, drawn to you like a moth to flame. Why on earth had he decided to draw you with him?
There was something about the woman who now sat on the other side of the tree, that tugged at a part of him he didnât understand.Â
Sihtric closed his eyes, trying to force the thought away, but it lingered. With a loud scoff he hit his nape against the bark of the tree in frustration just to wince in the pain. It had been stupid, yet he knew he would do exactly the same all over again.
He felt you shifting, straining against the ropes, testing their strength over and over again. It must be painful, he thought, yet you didnât give up, you must have been scared.
âHey, survivor, are you afraid?â he suddenly found himself asking, somewhat surprised by the hoarse sound of his own voice. âSpare your strength. Youâll need it. Youâll see, Iâm getting us out of here.âÂ
The silence around the both of you stretched, broken only by the distant murmurs of the Danes, sitting at the fire. You just snorted at the stranger's question.Â
Afraid? You couldnât even remember the last time you were afraid.Â
People are afraid if they have something to lose, something they care about. You had nothing. The last faint hope had left you as the rumors reached you that your brother Ragnar â the only one from your family who was not there on the night of fire â had suffered a shipwreck at the coasts of Ireland.Â
You were alone in this world, you had nobody to care for, nothing to lose. You had nothing to live for apart from revenge and that was not a reason enough to fear death, to fear anything.Â
âWhy did you do it?â you finally asked after what seemed like an eternity of silence. âWhy surrender yourself to spare me? You donât even know me.â
Sihtric tilted his head, staring at the dark canopy above. Here it was. He had wanted to calm you, to reassure you, to give you something to hold on to and you came back with questions. Questions he had no real answer to.Â
âAre you complaining that I saved your life?â he said, his voice almost hollow.Â
There was a pause, and he could feel you shift against the ropes again.Â
âNo,â you whispered back. âI ⊠I just donât understand.â
Sihtric closed his eyes briefly, a sigh slipping past his lips. âSometimes itâs just like that. It just⊠felt like the right thing to do.â
âYou risked your life because it felt right?â
He let out a soft, humorless chuckle. âYou make it sound foolish.â
âIt is foolish,â you exclaimed, unable to hide the bewilderment in your voice.
âThen you owe your life to a fool,â he countered quietly.Â
You opened your mouth to reply but found no words and before you could think of something more coherent to reply you were interrupted by the crunch of boots nearing the both of you.
âGet up,â the Dane barked, crouching down to slice through the ropes binding you to the tree. The sudden release sent a jolt through your stiff limbs, but you barely had a moment to process it before his hand clamped around your arm, dragging you to your feet.Â
âHey, where are you taking her?â Sihtricâs voice was sharp and there was an edge of worry beneath his tone, impossible to miss, as he struggled fiercely against his own bindings. His movements were desperate but ultimately futile, the ropes biting into his skin.
âNot your concern,â the Dane snapped, his grip on your arm tightening as he gave you a rough shove forward.
You stumbled, barely catching your balance, his bruising grip forcing you to move forward. The Dane dragged you toward one of the larger tents near the campâs center, and your heart pounded against your ribs as you sensed your chance of escape nearing. You clenched your fists so tightly that your nails dug into your palms, the sting of it forcing you to regain focus.
Behind you could hear the young warriorâs voice, louder this time, laced with barely restrained fury, but it only made your captor laugh - a low, cruel sound that twisted your stomach in disgust.
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The Daneâs body hit the fur laden ground with a soft thud. You crouched down as you listened, fingers wrapping tighter around the hilt of the dagger you had snatched from the sheath strapped to his back.
âMen,â you muttered under your breath. âCocksure arselings.â
You froze ready to leap, the faint rustle of the tent flaps catching your attention as a figure burst into the tent. You were ready to strike just to stop at the last moment as you recognised it.Â
âShit,â you hissed. âI could have killed you.â But the wide-eyed completely dumbfounded expression on the young warrior's face caught you off guard and made you let out a soft laugh.Â
You always preferred a fair battle over the stealthy death in the shadows, but this time you had no choice. The majority in the camp were too drunk to notice anything at first and when they did it was already too late.Â
You met the young warrior at the fireplace, both slightly panting, the blood covered hands and the eerie silence around you the only signs of what had happened.Â
âAre you hurt?â he finally asked, his large eyes flickering with the same resentment that churned in your stomach.Â
âIâm fine,â you returned, only now noticing the raw and bloody red lines around his wrists where the ropes had dug into his skin, betraying his earlier struggle.
âYou want me to clean them?â you asked, your tone more calm as the adrenaline of the moment ebbed away.
He blinked, seeming surprised by your offer, then nodded slowly. âIf you can spare the time,â he murmured, his voice low, almost uncertain.
âHey, you saved my life. Please, let me thank you,â you murmured, reaching into the pouch at your belt and pulling out a strip of cloth, a small flask of water and a tin of salve, and you didnât even notice the warrior's eyes widening at your words.
âSit,â you said, gesturing to clogs at the fireplace. He hesitated before lowering himself, casting a few more surprised glances at your side.
Gently, you poured water over his wrists, watching the dirt and blood wash away. He flinched at the sting, but said nothing, his eyes following your every move.
âYou shouldnât have struggled so hard,â you chided lightly, trying to focus on the task but being constantly distracted by the sight of his muscular arms highlighted by the sleeveless cut of his armour.Â
He let out a quiet huff. âSeemed like a good idea at the time. Didnât expect you to be so quick to deal with him.â
You smirked, dipping your fingers into the small tin of salve and smoothing it gently over the raw, red marks on his wrists. âGuess youâll think twice next time about underestimating me.â
As you reached to wrap a strip of cloth around his wrist, he pulled his hands back slightly. âItâs enough⊠thank you,â he murmured, his voice trailing off awkwardly.
You raised an eyebrow, noting the faint flush creeping up his neck. âAre you embarrassed to let me help you?â
âNo,â he said quickly, though the way he avoided your eyes and rubbed the back of his neck betrayed him. âI just⊠it will hamper me if it comes to another fight.â
You took his hands firmly yet gently, pulling them back. âHey, donât be foolish. It will not disturb you more than those,â you nodded toward the thick golden arm rings on his upper arms. âBut it will definitely hamper you if these get infected and swell. Hold still. â
He sat stiffly, his gaze fixed somewhere over your shoulder, clearly unsure where to look. âIâm not used toââ he started, then cut himself off.
âNot used to what?â you prompted, glancing up as you tied the bandage securely.
âBeing⊠taken care of,â he admitted quietly.Â
âWell, thereâs a first time for everything,â you smirked. âEven warriors need someone to patch them up sometimes.â
âYouâre good at this,â he muttered a mixture of gratitude and shyness in his voice, and you smiled, catching the faintest trace of a blush appearing on his cheeks.Â
You had no idea why you agreed when he suggested spending the rest of the night in the camp. Every fiber of your being screamed at you to run, to leave it all behind and never look back, but you just nodded and followed him to the bigger tent in the middle of the camp.Â
âIâll keep watch. Get some sleep, survivor,â he smirked, showing you toward the keep of furs.
A hundred times, you wanted to ask it, to ask for his name, and a hundred times you swallowed back the question burning on the tip of your tongue. You wanted to know and you didnât. You didnât know what to do with the truth. You had been angry for so many years, partially blaming Sihtric for what had happened, questioning why he hadnât warned you, why he hadnât come for you when everything fell apart.Â
You had no idea what you would do if this young, strikingly handsome, strong and deadly warrior was indeed the same wide eyed boy you had kissed on the edge of a meadow, your blood brother, the oath breaker.
You hadnât realised how tired you were until you settled down into the softness of the furs. You wanted to stay awake, to keep an eye on him but the uneven struggle ended far too quickly and your eyes fell close.Â
Sihtric settled himself near the entrance, picking up the only task that made sense - sharpening his blades. Not that they really needed sharpening but he needed something to focus on â the repetitive rhythm of the movement, the sound of stone gliding over the blade, the simple feeling of purpose in what he was doing.
Not that it really helped this time as his attention kept straying, his eyes constantly drawn back to you.
He couldnât explain it, that strange pull he felt toward you, that familiarity, that sense that he had known you for ages, that thrill and the way his heart had jumped in his chest when your fingers brushed against his skin.
You suddenly moaned in your sleep, your breathing turning shallow and uneven as you twitched and shifted. Sihtric stilled, his brow furrowing as he slowly set the blade aside.
He knew this all too well - the restlessness of the nights, the fear of closing his eyes, the helplessness of being dragged into the realm where will withdrew and dreams took over. And for all your courage, fierceness and confidence in waking life it seemed that in that realm you were hopelessly losing your battle.Â
âHey,â he whispered, slowly crouching closer and placing his hand on your shoulder. You stirred, but didnât wake up. âYouâre alright. Itâs just a dream.â
For a moment Sihtric just watched the shadows dancing on your face, hoping that you would calm down, but your breathing grew more ragged and another whimper rolled over your lips.Â
He didnât know whether it was a conscious decision or something else more primal, more instinctive as he carefully laid down next to you and wrapped his arms around you, pulling you close against his chest.Â
You were ripped from your sleep by the feeling of two strong arms wrapping around you and pulling you into a tight embrace. You instinctively froze, willing your breath to even out and preparing yourself to reach for the blade.
âItâs just a dream,â the soft murmur of his voice caught you by surprise. âYouâre safe now.âÂ
The moments passed on but nothing happened, he held you just like that, his muscular chest pressed against your back, his embrace steady, firm but at the same time so gentle and protective. You couldnât even remember the last time someone had held you like that. Closing your eyes, you feigned sleep, somewhat ashamed for having expected the worse.
He let out a quiet sigh of relief, feeling your body relax and your breathing calm down, but his hold didnât loosen.
âYou could be herâŠ,â he whispered, his voice almost too faint to hear. âIf I didnât know better, Iâd swear you are her.â
You felt his frame tremble slightly and unable to pretend anymore, you shifted in his arms and turned to face him.
âI could be who?â you asked, holding your breath.
âHey, I didnât mean any harm,â Sihtric was quick to let you go, embarrassment flickering over his handsome face.
âItâs alright,â you whispered. âPlease⊠just hold me again. Can you?â
âIf you want me toâŠâ he murmured and his strong arms wrapped around you once more as you hid your face in his broad chest.Â
He nuzzled softly against your hair, his arms tightened slightly around you, as if clinging to some distant memory.
âI was just a boy when I met her,â he continued and you could clearly hear a faint quiver in his voice. âShe saved me. She saved me in so many ways, itâs even hard to explain. The only person who looked at me like I was something worthy, who laughed with me, who shared bread with me.âÂ
Your heart almost stopped beating as you listened, your nose buried in Sihtricâs chest, fighting back tears.
âBut I couldnât save her. I was there but I couldnât save her. My father found it amusing to let me watch. He probably knew I would try to warn her, so he took me with him just to tie me up and let me watch how he burned down her house.â
âYou look so much like her. The way you move, the way you speakâŠâ Sihtricâs voice trailed off but then he suddenly continued: âTomorrow Dunholm will fall,â he said with such certainty in his voice that you raised your head to look into his mismatched eyes.
âWhy are you telling me all this?âÂ
âI thought youâd want to know. I think you are here for the same purpose I am. The same purpose my lord Uhtred and his brother Ragnar are here for.â
You kept looking at him, unable to avert your gaze.Â
âIâm not a complete fool. Even if you might think otherwise. There must be a reason youâve been watching the Danes come and go around Dunholm. Iâm guessing your reason is the same as ours - Kjartan.â
You wanted to speak, to ask more, but the lump in your throat made it impossible. Your whole world had just turned upside down. Uhtred and Ragnar were alive. It was impossible. Sihtric was here, there couldn't be any doubts about that anymore, holding you in his arms. That was even more impossible.Â
This must be a dream, you thought, shifting closer to the muscular frame of your long lost friend, and if it was so, you certainly didnât want to wake up from it, not now at least.
You waited and waited to be awakened from this strange dream, but the longer you waited the more you realized it wasnât a dream. You felt Sihtricâs breath eventually evening out as his grip on you loosened and sleep finally claimed him, though his arms still rested around you.Â
It was when the dawn finally broke that you slipped out of his grasp, careful not to wake him, and left the tent quietly.
Sihtric woke not long after, rubbing the remnants of sleep from his eyes. He had slept surprisingly peacefully but the drowsy smile on his lips faded the moment he realised the space beside him was deserted. He sat up quickly, his eyes scanning the tent for you, but it was empty.
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You adjusted the helmet you had taken from one of the dead Danes in the camp, your face carefully smeared with mud. Just in case. You didnât want to be recognised, at least not yet, not before you had found out what was happening, before you knew that Sihtricâs words were not just some cruel game, as you still couldnât make yourself believe they were true.Â
It wasnât hard to find Ragnarâs forces and slip between the warriors just a few moments before the assault started.Â
Eyes wide open you watched the massive frame of your brother, leading the suicide attack on Dunholmâs gates. What was he doing? Had the whole world gone mad? Had the Norns chosen you to entertain themselves, letting you find your brother only to see him heading into certain death?
Your surprise grew even bigger when the impenetrable gates of Dunholm suddenly cracked open, leaving the fortress to the mercy of the attacking Danes.Â
From that moment on nothing else existed apart from the deafening roar of war cries, the clang of weapons and the frenzy of battle. You fought like a demon, too immersed in the intoxicating feeling of being invincible, unstoppable, the harbinger of death and justice. You had never felt like this before.
You were reckless, drunk on the bloodlust and adrenaline, and it would have cost you your life if a pair of steady and strong arms hadnât yanked you aside, burying an axe in the chest of a hulking, red faced Dane.
âTrying to survive, huh? Try harder!â Sihtric shouted, sinking his foot in the gut of another Dane about to swing his blade at you.Â
It was all over far too quickly, your head spun and you had to steady yourself against a pillar as you watched Ragnar butchering Kjartan, as you saw Uhtred pulling him away from the mutilated corpse and Thyra emerging from the back of the yard.
And then among all the chaos there was Sihtric, standing in the front line and watching the death of his father, triumph and satisfaction in his face fading into disgust and resentment.Â
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âHere you are,â you exclaimed as you found Sihtric sitting motionless on a hillock outside the fortress.Â
He didnât respond, didnât turn your way, his eyes fixed somewhere ahead on a small pile of stones.
You hesitated. Maybe this wasn't the right time, maybe he needed space, and yet you couldnât wait, you couldnât leave him like this.Â
âI was looking for you all over the place,â you said as you reached him, placing your hand on his shoulder.
Sihtric flinched at your touch, a faint shudder coursing through him, but he still didnât turn to face you.
âYou found me,â he said at last.
You lowered yourself beside him, your hand still on his shoulder. âHeyâŠâ you began, but he didnât let you continue.
âTheyâre all gone,â he murmured, as if speaking more to himself than to you. âEvery single one of them. Theyâre all dead.â His voice cracked, and his fingers dug into the dirt beside him.
âIâve had my revenge. And what? It didnât bring them back. It didnât make it easier.â He paused, his jaw tightening before he finally turned to face you. âThereâs nothing left for me. No family, no purpose, nothing.â
âThatâs not true,â you said, your trembling fingers squeezing his shoulder.Â
âYou donât understand,â Sihtric interrupted you angrily. âI couldnât save them. Not her, nor my mom. The only two people to ever care about me, and both ripped from this life by the man whose blood runs in my veins. And nothing I do - nothing - will ever bring them back.â Sihtricâs gaze shifted back to the pile of stones in the distance.
âSihtric, please listen to me,â your voice quivered as you reached for his hand. He didnât protest, didnât pull away. He didnât even seem to register that youâd called him by his nameâsomething he hadnât shared with you.
âI ⊠I have to tell you something⊠I thought Iâd lost everything too. My family, my home, even the sense of who I amâŠ,â you swallowed hard, feeling the tears welling in the corners of your eyes but you didnât fight them back, you let them flow freely, you didnât even wipe them away. âBut I was wrong. Thereâs always something to hold on to. Thereâs always someone.â
âNot for me,â Sihtric murmured, pulling his hand from yours.
âSihtric, you did save her. You saved her so many times and you kept saving her without even knowing it. I let grief cloud my mind, cloud my judgement. I blamed you for what happened, blamed you for being Kjartanâs son, for not coming to warn me, for abandoning me, for breaking your oath. But the truth⊠The truth is, it was me. I was the oath breaker. In my grief and self righteousness, I never even thought to look for you. I never realised that you might have needed me. Iâm sorry, Sihtric. Iâm so, so sorry.â
Sihtric turned to you and the confusion and disbelief written plainly across his face made you laugh bitterly.
âBy the gods, Sihtric⊠Do you really not recognise me?â Hot tears pouring down your cheeks, you rolled up your sleeve, stretching your arm toward Sihtric. Â
Sihtricâs gaze dropped to your forearm. Carefully his hand reached for your arm and his fingers brushed over the uneven, jagged scar, running along your skin, tracing it as if trying to prove it was real.
He didnât say anything, he didnât even look at you, his gaze fixed on your arm and as the silence stretched fear slowly crept under your skin, fear that he would be angry, that he would hate you for not revealing yourself sooner.Â
Sihtric exhaled shakily, lowering his gaze to the ground, and your heart sank into your gut, expecting the worst, but then his fingers intertwined with yours, squeezing them almost painfully.
âWherever life leads you,Â
You will not walk your path alone,â he whispered, raising your palm to his lips.Â
You cupped his jaw, letting your thumb hesitantly hover over his lips, and he leaned into your touch, his eyes falling shut, the dampness on his cheeks telling you more than any words ever could.
"I knew it. Deep down I knew it," he whispered.
Sihtricâs arms hesitantly encircled your shoulders, pulling you into a tight embrace and you melted against his muscular torso. You both just sat there for what felt like a lifetime, in silence, savouring the moment and each other's presence.Â
You were no kids anymore. Sihtricâs broad chest heaved in the rhythm of his breath and you pressed your ear tighter against him, listening to the beating of his heart.
It was against all odds but you both were alive and here and that was enough. You didnât even dare to think about something else. You were content in this moment, and you wanted it to last forever.
âDo you remember that last dawn? In the meadow?â Sihtricâs voice brought you back to reality after what felt like a lifetime of silence.
You tilted your head to look up at him, and his mismatched eyes met yours.
âYou canât imagine how often Iâve thought about it,â he said, âwishing I had been braver.â
âBraver?â you whispered, reaching up to touch his face. âYou are the bravest man Iâve ever met, Sihtric.â
âBut I wasnât brave enough for this,â he smiled and with a soft exhale, he leaned in.
The kiss was hesitant at first, his lips brushing against yours in silent reverence, almost as if he were afraid you might disappear if he moved too quickly. But it got more demanding with each passing moment, melting away all hesitation, all doubts, all fears and leaving just the two of you, completely lost in each other and in the salty taste of tears on your lips.
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thank you so much for the tag, @the-golden-comet! ooh this is gonna be fun!
i'm going to focus on my current wip, Why Should I Be Careful? I'm Going To Die Anyway! because it's still very much in the planning stages (despite how much I'm writing for it) and I have Thoughts
What is the main lesson of your story? Why did you choose it?
I'll be honest, I haven't really thought that far ahead. I suppose, if there is a lesson to take from WSIBC?IGTDA!, it might be that you should always chase your goals and desires, and screw what other people think. Maybe put a little more thought and planning into yours than Aura does hers, though. I mean, she almost dies due to her recklessness. Don't be like Aura.
What did you use as inspiration for your worldbuilding?
Well, it's a zombie book - I love zombies, in case you can't tell - so the world is an amalgamation of zombie stuff I love. The zombies are based off of the Train to Busan zombies. This is a self-insert mess, so I'm using the town and people I know in the town as location and characters. Little tropes here and there that I love in movies and books alike. It's just a big chimera of stuff that I grab from stuff I remember and shove into it. It definitely needs polish when it's done, but I'm having a blast so far, so I'm'a keep doing it :3
What is your MC trying to achieve, and what are you, the writer, trying to achieve with them? Do you want to inspire others, teach forgiveness, or help the reader grow as a person?
Uhhhhhh this is a tough question. Right now, Aura is trying to make it to Roger's Grocery Mart to save her girlfriend, but most of the time, she's just trying to have a good time in the zombie apocalypse and hopefully not die. She does eventually grow into a character that (mostly) thinks things through and takes other people's situations into account, so I suppose the lesson is "the world doesn't revolve around you - be kind and helpful to others"?
As for what I'm trying to achieve... mostly, to be honest, I just want people to pick up my book and have a good time reading it. I want to write a zombie book because it's my passion and because there aren't enough zombie books out there. I guess I'm trying to inspire others? To show them that you can survive an impossible situation if you work hard and think things through?
How many chapters is your story going to have?
The only time I've written a full-length book (sorry, the only two times, forgot about Zero: ALPHA), it had about twenty-odd chapters. Z:A had...uh...thirty? That was a long time ago and I sadly no longer have that draft. This one is going to go until it's done. Hopefully more than thirty though!
Is it fanfiction or original content? Where do you plan to post it?
Original content! I have no idea where I'm going to post it. I'm torn between Draft2Digital (originally Smashwords) or Substack. Thing is, I'm really bad at marketing and keywords and all that technical stuff that goes into publicizing, so I'm really hesitant to share it at all. I'm the type of person that gets absolutely morally devastated if my own self-inflicted goals aren't met, and I'm not sure if I can handle that kind of crushing heartbreak with this one lol
So yeah. Might publish, might not. Unsure right now.
When did you start writing?
My dad set up a Windows 95 computer for me in his office, his old one, and taught me the basics of using it. I was five, about to turn six. I immediately sat down and wrote a story about unicorns. I've been writing ever since.
I didn't start writing fanfiction until I was thirteen and had just binge-watched Lord of the Rings for the first time. We don't talk about those works. They were awful.
Do you have any words of encouragement for fellow writers of writeblr? What other writers do you follow?
Write it. Oh it's cringe? Who cares? Write it. Oh, it's a rare pair? Write it. You're worried people will hate it? Fuck the haters. Write it. Writing is about having fun. Writing is about pouring your soul onto the page. Writing is about getting those ideas out of your head so they don't drive you insane. It's about reaching that one person that finds your work and loves it. Even if no one reads it - you still accomplished something. You still wrote it. And no one can take that from you.
I have so many writers in my follow list. Uhh. I have no idea how many are still active, so I'm just going to tag who I know and hope for the best lol
@idyllicocean, @keeping-writing-frosty, @bloodtiesnovel, @asher-writes, @kitswrite, @theink-stainedfolk, @karkkidoeswriting, @lavender-gloom, @orphanheirs, @aquixoticwrites, @alinacapellabooks, @marlowethelibrarian, @flock-from-the-void, @dyrewrites, @storycraftcafe, @writer-imagination, @toragay-writing, @inseasofgreen, @stephtuckerauthor, @thatndginger, @finickyfelix, @eternalwritingstudent, @drchenquill, @paeliae-occasionally, @the-golden-comet, @talesofsorrowandofruin, @watermeezer, @goldfinchwrites, @winterandwords, @badscientist, @clairelsonao3, @i-can-even-burn-salad, @leahpardo-pa-potato, @mjparkerwriting, @rowanwriting, @oliolioxenfreewrites, @emelkae, @rita-rae-siller, @rebelxwriter, @kaylinalexanderbooks, @stesierra, @francineiswriting, @sunset-a-story, @chauceryfairytales, @hollyannewrites, @jaydenswaywrites, @captain-kraken, @violets-in-her-arms-writes, @romy-thewriter, @pure-solomon, @writingmaidenwarrior, @koiwrites
go, go follow them. they're all so good and make my timeline glow.
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Ooh! Prompt!
Wind befriends crab :)
"Look, I built the crab a little house," Wind called. "Now he won't get eaten by birds." He pointed to the shelter of stacked rocks he'd erected over the small red crab on the pebbly beach.
"That's great, kid. How do we get off this island?" Warriors asked.
"We don't," Wind said. "We're doomed to succumb to starvation on this deserted isle."
"Haha very funny. Seriously. How are we getting out of here?"
"Wars. Relax. Everything's fine. I know where we are." "
"Then where are we?"
"It's an unpopulated jungle island but there's a trade route that passes right by here. We just have to wait until a ship passes and flag it down. Shouldn't take more than a few days at most."
"So we basically get to have a beach vacation until someone rescues us?"
"Exactly!"
"Thank the Spirits!"
"Before we get too far into fun and games, we need to set up--" Time started but no one was listening. Wind ran off down to the surf, followed by shortly by Four. Wolfie was already near the water's edge, rolling in a dead fish. Warriors flopped onto his back and threw his arm over his eyes. Wild and Hyrule took off for the jungle with Legend hurrying after them. Only Sky stood smiling pleasantly at Time.
"What were you saying?" He said.
"Ah, never mind," Time said. "Go have fun, Sky."
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"We have 27 crab houses in crab city so far," Wind told Time. "And more crab houses being built all the time!" He motioned to Sky and Four whom he'd conscripted to build crab houses for every crab they had found at the beach.
There was a shout behind them and they looked back to find Warriors flailing on the ground. He jumped to his feet flinging several crabs into the seagrass around him.
"You alright?" Time asked.
"I just woke up to legs on my face. Tiny armored ghoma legs. It was terrifying," Warriors shivered.
"Those are crabs," Wind said. "There's a lot of them around."
"AAAAAHAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!" Hyrule screamed running out of the jungle. "WATCH OUT! THEY'RE COMING!"
"What's coming?!" Sky asked, alarmed.
"Its... an invasion!" Hyrule huffed resting hands on his knees.
"What?! There's no monsters on this island!" Wind exclaimed jumping up.
"COMING IN HOT!" Legend yelled bursting out of the trees. "Out of the way! Clear a path!"
"Holy Hylia!" Warriors jumped out of Legend's way. "What's going on?!"
"That!" Legend pointed.
Wild sprinted out of the woods shrieking in terror and covered head to toe in bright red crabs.
"Come on! This way! Into the water!" Legend called to Wild. Wild plowed into the waves and droped to his hands and knees letting the next waves of water lift and wash off all of the crabs off his body.
"There you go. Wash them all off. You're alright. They're mostly harmless," Legend said.
"Easy for you to say!" Wild retorted with a crab hanging off of his nose by it's claw.
"I don't understand. What's going on?" Wind asked.
"Crabs!" Wild, Hyrule and Legend said all at the same time.
"I don't understand it either, but the jungle is completely full and crawling with crabs--every square inch in covered with them--and they're all crawling right toward us," Hyrule explained.
"What do we do? Are they dangerous?" Sky asked anxiously.
"No they're not dangerous--" Wind said.
"Lies!" Wild said trying to coax the crab on his nose to let go.
"If we don't all want to end up like Wild completely covered in crabs, we need to find a way off the island," Legend said.
"Woof woof arf woof arf awooo!" Wolfie said.
"Wolfie, we can't understand you--" Time started.
"Look!" Four exclaimed and pointed at the trees. It took a moment, but then they saw it. The trees, the shrubs, the logs, the vines, the rocks all started moving and shifting from their ordinary greens and browns and greys to pinkish reddish hues. There were thousands of them. Even millions.
The crabs were coming.
There was a crackle and Twilight shifted back into Hylian.
"We should build a raft out of the driftwood," he suggested.
"We can float in the middle of the bay," Wind agreed.
"Right," Time said. "Let's do that then."
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"This is probably the weirdest thing I think we have ever done," Warriors said dangling his bare feet off the raft and into the water.
"I still say we should have made a bonfire and eaten the crabs," Hyrule said crossing his arms. "We can't cook at all on this raft."
"We can't eat a bazillion crabs," Wind said.
"Yes we can," Hyrule answered. "I don't know about you but I'm starving."
"Can we please not talk about food or eating?" Legend said laying down with one hand covering his eyes.
"You good, vet?" Twilight asked.
"Do I look like I'm okay?"
"How long do you think this... event... will last?" Four asked eyeing the island which was now completely covered with crabs migrating into the ocean.
"I have absolutely no idea," Wind answered. "I've never seen anything like this before."
"Hey. What's cracking?" A new voice called. Nine heads turned around to look at a pair of sailors in a rowboat. At the mouth of the bay, Tetra's ship was anchored.
"Tetra!" Wind cried, elated.
"Thank the three we're saved!" Legend sighed.
#inspired by the crab migrations of christmas island#linked universe#crackfic#this is a story idea I had a long time ago#but I never had reason to write it until now#thanks for the prompt!#look up a video about the crab migration#it's wild#swearing#I couldn't figure out how to end it so it kinda cuts off but whatever#this was only supposed to be 6 sentences long
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1660 - Cavalryman - Several wars under Denmark against Sweden.
1697 - Gunner - pre-Great Nordic War under Denmark against Sweden.
1774 - Skiing Soldier - pre-Theater War under Denmark against Sweden.
1785 - Infantryman - pre-Great Northern War under Denmark against Sweden.
1808 - Coast Guard Officer - Napoleonic Wars under Denmark.
1845 - Infantryman - pre-First Schleswig War under Sweden against Germany.
1855 - Infantryman - during the Crimean War (Sweden-Norway debated joining the UK and France against Russia).
1905 - Hunter - preparing for wars of independence against Sweden.
1914 - Engineer Officer - First World War.
1940 - Infantry Officer - Second World War.
#historical hetalia#hetalia#aph norway#hws norway#damn this took a long time#if you haven't heard much from me the last three days it's because I was studying and doing this#had this idea ages ago but never did it because: very time-consuming :P#but now I did it!!#SNL (store norske leksikon) has this great illustration of all these uniforms and it is inspiring every time I look at it#and then norgeshistorie.no posted a new article about militarization in Norway during the union with Denmark and I had to do the project#we all know how much I like drawing uniforms and historical clothing đđđ#even bought a book about historical clothing this spring - for references#but it's a bit confusing so might get another one if I see a good one#I do love the historical asks I get because then I get to nerd out about all the cool history I know đ#I have mentioned before but; Norway was perhaps /the/ most militarized country in Europe during the 1600s#there are a lot of stories from towns and villages nearby about the results of this#anyway; hope everyone enjoys Norway in uniforms!! đ#I am sure some minor details will be inaccurate but I tried
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#i have already asked this question#but it was a long time ago and it was before i had an idea of addressing this kind of question only to destiel shippers#the previous poll was overrun with destiel haters and it was boring bc ofc i know what they think#so long story short i remade the poll#polls#spn#supernatural#dean winchester#castiel#destiel#pollsnatural about destiel
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god. okay i am thinking about the whole thing with the dreemurr siblings again, specifically the way their story is presented in game. there is So Much there, it runs so deep and itâs roots spread throughout the entire main story but we only ever hear about the actual thing in snippets.
two kids who played in a muddy flower garden. a pair of lockets. a drawing and a family photo facing the bed. the pie incident and formation of the plan. âiâd never doubt youâ. âyouâre the only one who understands meâ. the entire soul merging thing. the existence of golden flowers in the underground. âchara hated humanityâ but they never really went into detail about why, but they did not end up there for a âhappy reasonâ.
just. hello???? can anyone hear me???? i feel insane
#chara dreemurr#asriel dreemurr#utdr#IT MAKES ME INSAAANE I AM LOSING IT#ITS ALL THERE IT IS ENMESHED IT IS SO VERY PRESENT#BUT IT WAS 100+ YEARS AGO. WE WILL NEVER KNOW THE FULL STORY#UUGHGHHHHHHHHH#small thing on the family portrait frame facing charaâs bed#i have not seen this discussed as much recently but i know someone must have pointed it out a long time ago#i believe it was passivechara#but essentially the idea that they had it facing their bed so they could easily look at it for comfort
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heehee clown.....
This is Prince Plufferz; a sweet sleepy and wise clown with a library castle for a crown!!
He was a dear childhood character who close to my heart for years- and he got a maaaaajor upgrade a few days ago!!! He finally has a solid unique visual design!! :3
His library, also known as the "Pluff Library", is connected to him and is full of thousands of books. Whatever is written and brought into it inputs directly into his memory- and that means he has amassed a lot of knowledge in his head too! He has magical powers that can allow anyone to enter the library to read and chill to their heart's content ^^
#dorf's art#digital art#clowncore#clown#kidcore#my characters#oc#prince plufferz (thedorfmirrin)#prince plufferz#thedorfmirrin#those who may remember a looongg time ago- this sweet boy used to be a slowking#i always wanted to make him a original oc design for years and years#but never had a solid concept untill it suddenly came to me- he is a clown now!!! a clown!!! Cutie!!!#i even long ago wanted to input his idea into periwinkles story- i had the castle crown concept for the longest time for it but no design#im so happy to have my beloved plufferz again my silly sweet sleepy boy đđđđđđ#character design#polka dots#colorful#primary colors#pink#creature#monster#he still has slowking elements bc i love them
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#okay I'm gonna get a bit personal here lmao#so i used to have a childhood best friend whom I've known basically since he was born lmao (he's 4 years younger)#he's always been like a little brother to me and we used to be inseparable until like 11 years ago#and then the friendship stopped sooo abruptly basically from one day to another#and i literally have no idea to this day why#i mean idk at that point those 4 years were a BIG gap me being 15 and him 11#but I'm not sure if that was it or if his parents didn't like it or some completely different reason#we're actually neighbors and it's crazy to me that we haven't had any in person interaction since then#we say hello if we see each other and wish each other a happy birthday online but that's it#and today me and my dad went over to the neighbors because..#(well I'm not gonna elaborate here because there was some police action in the neighborhood and i felt like i was in an action movie#and that's what brought the neighbors together whatever it's a long story)#and he was there and i realized i miss him lmao#i mean I've always missed him i never stopped missing our friendship#and i really really wanna reach out and say âhey you wanna grab coffee some time?â and just catch up#but I'm scared lol#like what if he says no#what if he doesn't wanna do anything with me#idk the rejection would feel awful a second time#am i being irrational here am i overthinking#maaaan idk#i never share anything too personal here so this feels weird lol#personal
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someone tell me why and how is it november already???? anyway i feel like i havenât written in ages and jakeâs bday is coming up,,, thinking rn if i should impulsively start a last minute long story for his bday again-
#i swear iâm getting deja vu from last year#this was literally exactly what happened#sksjsk#iâm pretty sure i started around beg of nov and last minute writing this whole thing#i think i even planned out how much i had to write each day đ#i have an idea and i swear itâll be better than last years đ#tbh i started writing this story many months ago#but itâs been sitting at 1k words for who knows how long now đ#idek if iâll have time đ#but itâs fun to have smth to work towards tbh đ#hmmm WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK IDK#em speaks#happy jakey month btw đ„°đ«¶đ»
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a year ago today i started writing Baby Steps wild
#sally speaks#casual affection au#baby steps#literally a year ago on this date i started writing it#i had no idea that it was going to be this long or get this big#i am forever humbled and grateful for everything this fic has brought me#i'm terrified of finishing it but at the same time zeke and tina's story deserves to be finished#and i deserve to heal and be happy when it is finished#hi i'm emotional about my fic again lol
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are any of my homestuck mutuals good at story structure, plot ideas etc
#i got stuck trying to outline chapters for my wip and i hve no writer friends#harper babbles#harper asks#i'm not asking for a wizard just kind of like. ok at identifying like#pacing and tension and what some good choices might be#i have a rough arc for the rest of the story and a couple scene ideas#but cant really weave them together in the right way#AND MOST OF ALL. i dont want perfectionism i am NOTTTT a Writer writer#i just want to tell a story that is neat and have my blorbos in it.#i just also want people to like it.#i should maybe have asked this a long time ago but i really wanted to first see if folks closer to me had much to say#i'm a touch rejection sensitive and wanted to run it by folks who know me n wouldn't be too harsh
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What if instead of finishing all my WIPS that Iâm hoping to have out by the end of the year I started writing another Drabble about the fallout of a collapsing relationship and infidelity. Hm. What if đ€ đ âïž
#thinking about my anarcia break up oneshot again#I saw a poll about cheating fics and went god. what if I did that again#pure angst no comfort#a couple thatâs still together but they havenât been a capital c couple for a long time#weâre dating but we donât even recognize each other anymore#weâre both doing things we know hurt each other and we both know we should have ended this a long time ago and yet#also I was listening to that one TikTok ballerinas song and itâs so good sheâs so good I love her and her music#anyways that song had the vibes im going for with this idea#anyways I miss writing angst#idk if yâall liked the breakup Drabble but I liked it and thatâs what matters#I know Danielle was so mad at me for making Marcia a Cheater bur hey it was necessary for the story#anyways itâs 2:30 am and I need to go to sleep or finish writing my exchange fic and absolutely not start something new#anyways#would yâall be interested sound off in the replies or reblogs or tags or my dms whatever#Rachel rambles#writing#okay love you all mwah#also I posted this to my main by accident#and I had to painstakingly retype all these tags so if you donât take the time to read them Iâm jumping off my roof
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