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ieatsurveys · 2 years ago

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63.

Name all the pets you've ever had. Kasey, JJ, Baby Brown, Chloe.

Are you on break, or do you still have a couple days of school left? Not in school.

Do you like Stephen King novels? I've never read them.

Have you ever had a macaroon? I don't believe so.

One of my friends dislikes animals in general. Are you like her? I love animals. Your friend sounds weird.

Do you prefer being on time, or do you not mind being late? I'm usually waaaaaay early to things because I get antsy staying at my place.

What is one adventurous thing you'd be willing to do? (ex: skydive) Cliff jump.

Have you ever made a bucket list? Not officially. I just have things in my head that I want to do.

What subject at school did you absolutely hate? I hated Social Studies and Science. But now, I find them pretty fascinating. It depends on the teacher, I guess.

How many cell phones have you gone through up till now? How am I supposed to know?

Italian food or Chinese food? Hm, that's a hard choice.

Do you have more than the standard earlobe piercings? No.

Ever studied a foreign language? Nope.

Don't you hate it when your family eats all the ice cream at home? By family, you do mean myself, because I live by myself. And yes, I hate it when I eat all the ice cream ;)

Ever been in a near death situation? If so, what happened? Yes, I totaled my car.

Do you like to make flash cards when you study? Yes. That's the only way to study for me.

Favorite flavor of gum? Mint.

Do you tend to be frugal, or are you more comfortable spending money? I'm both haha. But, I have a savings account and I do have a spreadsheet of my budget.

Do you have a connection to any religion? Yes.

Ever played a team sport, or are you not sporty at all? I used to play softball.

Do you put posters on your bedroom walls? No.

Do you sleep with one leg sticking out of the covers? No, that's how monsters get to you, duh.

I have extremely weird, frightening dreams. Do you? Sometimes.

Has anyone ever told you that you're a good singer? Yes, but I don't think they know what good singing is, lol.

Ever been to the Big Apple? If not, do you want to visit? I live in NY. Just not the city.

Opinion on Gangnam Style? I honestly thought it was stupid and not sure how it went so viral.

Do you ever watch TED talks, live or online? I used to.

Did you ever watch the Lizzie McGuire movie? I believe I did when it came out.

If you did, do you know what the guy that played Gordo looks like now? (ew) No.

How many email accounts do you have? Two. My personal and my work email.

Ever shamelessly played Farmville on Facebook? Yes.

Are you a big fan of dessert? Not really.

Ever had a brush with the paranormal? If so, describe. Yes. And there were a bunch of stories at my parent's house. I had to finally go through and bless it and they left. It was the scariest thing and things just happened to me. Then it started happening to my brother and I got protective.

Were you one of the popular kids in high school? I became popular in college (student council and RA).

I dare you to write the name of a person you strongly dislike. I really don't hate anyone.

Do you know the band Vampire Weekend? No.

What do you think about Marilyn Manson? Never listened to him.

In general, do you prefer going out or staying home? Staying home.

Biggest trouble you've ever gotten into at school? I got suspended for slapping my teacher in the face when I was 7, haha. She was screaming at me and got in my space and screaming inches away from my face, so I slapped her.

Do you own one of those "professional" DSLR cameras? No.

Does it bother you when you see a 6th grader with a bunch of gadgets? No.

Favorite pair of shoes? A pair I got from Maurices.

Where were you on 9/11? In Social Studies.

Any food in particular you just can't get enough of?

Sushi. -> yes.

Did you buy yearbooks every year in high school, or did you not bother? I did.

Do you have Restless Legs Syndrome? I do. It sucks. No.

Are you a fan of British Youtubers? (Marcus Butler, JacksGap, etc) No.

Jalapeños: yay or nay? Nay. I don't do spice.

Did you ever play Minecraft? No.

Did you ever have a Club Penguin account? Were you a member? I want to say that I did.

Favorite concerts you've been to? Did you scream until you were hoarse? Skillet.

So where were you when the Boston Marathon bombing happened? No idea.

Rainy days on the weekend: yay or nay? Yay.

Do you look down on girls that wear shorts with Uggs? No, but it's not something I'd do.

Californian girls talk and dress a certain way, don't they? Uh, sure.

Ever crushed on a teacher? If so, what subject did he/she teach? Yes, gym.

Ever take an art class? If so, what'd you think? I had to elementary and high school.

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theteasetwrites · 2 years ago

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Hey, what's up with Norman hate? I'm pretty indifferent about him and I don't really follow him or check out what he's doing or saying, but did he do something wrong? I only know people are upset that Melissa won't be in Daryl's show and they blame him for it. Idk if it's justified or not tbh. I know the show takes place in France and Norman lives in France so it's pretty convenient, but it's not the only reason the show is set there. I'm sure they wanted to film it somewhere in Europe to expand TWD universe beyond USA. When it comes to how he pictures Daryl I only remember him saying that "Daryl has no game" and that "Leah thing was rushed" and I agree with both so I enyojed that he understood Daryl as a character. Can you give me some source where he says something that doesn't fit Daryl as a character? And what are the "bad ideas" that Norman had that you mentioned in your post?

Hi, so I’m not super up-to-speed with the Norman controversies (I try to remain ignorant because I don’t want my illusion to be broken, but it’s kind of already happened unfortunately), but there’s kind of a lot.

I know Norman has hung out/supported known creeps (e.g., Marilyn Manson, Terry Richardson), and he once mentioned in an interview that he found it “hot” when he was doing a makeout scene with a co-star and she was nervous. He also has used the “t” slur (tho tbh I think this was more out of ignorance than hate) in an interview. I think there might be more things but that’s the gist of what I know and what particularly bothers me. Also Norman has just said a lot of weird sexual stuff that was unnecessary/sexualizing women in a very immature way. All in all, that leads me to refer to him with the term “douchebag.” Also the fact that he wrote a book and used the phrase “helium-filled balloon ass” to describe a woman’s buttocks. I don’t have any receipts rn (not because they don’t exist, but because I’m lazy and most of this is my opinion and I’m not trying to change anyone’s opinion so I don’t feel like I need to show receipts).

At best, Norman is just cringey and ignorant. I don’t think he’s harmful really, just kind of a douche lol. I mean, he’s also really nice to his fans and has done a lot of good stuff with his fame, but it’s good to be critical of things that are deserving of criticism. Celebrity worship is a real problem and they should be held accountable if they do/say something fucked up. Everyone makes mistakes, but how hard is it to just not say weird shit or hang out with creeps?

I don’t think I can point you to exact sources as to why Norman doesn’t understand Daryl, but that statement was mostly just my personal opinion anyway. I think the best example is when Norman said Daryl would “fuck you but wouldn’t cuddle afterwards.” That seemed very inaccurate to me lmao but that could just be me projecting my affections onto Daryl.

Norman’s bad ideas include pushing for the show to be called Daryl Dixon (lol) and also (allegedly) pushing for the show to take place in France. Those are both bad ideas, in my opinion. Basically most of that post was just my opinion.

Also I don’t hate Norman Reedus, but I am critical of him and I think he’s pretty cringey (like why did he have to write a book anyway? I mean he had a ghost writer for sure but still). I don’t think he deserves online hate because no one deserves that, but also, he’s a rich celebrity/grown man who can definitely take the heat lol. I don’t support coming after his family (tho Diane is also a public figure soooo I mean she’s kind of fair game to some extent). I also think a lot of the Norman hate is just c*rylers being upset that he wanted the show to be in France (allegedly) and that ultimately led to Melissa dropping out, but that’s kind of a stupid reason to hate him since there are plenty of other things he’s done/said that are worth criticizing him for.

So my ultimate point is that there are valid reasons to be critical of Norman, but being upset that he may or may not have done something to curtail your favorite ship that has been long dead anyway is a silly reason imo. I think a lot of Norman hate recently is from c*rylers wanting someone to blame, and Norman is there. Blaming the decline/direction of the show on one person is a stretch.

My other point is that it’s okay to be critical of Norman and to dislike him or even hate him if that’s what you wanna do, but Daryl is a different story. I think c*rylers are also projecting their hatred for Norman onto Daryl, which sucks because Daryl is a good character, even if he’s not always the best character.

I don’t hate Norman, but I also don’t worship at his feet. Ok yeah, I run a server called Norman Reedus Whores, but that’s purely to sexualize him ok? I have a right to sexualize cringey middle aged men.

#abbi speaks

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v-v-x-x · 2 years ago

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Funny that I think you are your own ANON saying these things to yourself, to make it seem like you have some support. I bet you won't answer this ask because you didn't ask this. Amber Heard is an abuser and was proven under scrutiny and Johnny Depp only wanted to clear his name. So much so, he isn't even demanding the money from Heard. He said it was the principle of it. Heard, on the other hand, has been going on his Tiktok & Instagram and harassing him. There... bet this will be ignored and I proved a point. Ha!

See how childish these people are? Now you're accusing me of talking to myself? Sorry that I people are responding to me and no one wants to talk to you. But instead you bother me having no life. It's not my fault people like me. I have news for you anon: Johnny Depp is not going to fuck you. Get a job and get a life. You haven't proved anything except make this pointless comment. Just say that you hate women and can't deal with the fact that Johnny is an abusive piece of shit. So because I stand with Amber that means I'm sending anons to myself? I don't even think that's a possible thing to do but hey you probably do it on your account. Look at how many reblogs I have on my Amber posts. What do you do? Write fanfictions about Johnny Depp abusing you and fucking you? It's so funny how you people always wanna be anonymous but at least I'm posting about her and people know who I am. How about you turn off anonymous so I know who you really are.

But hey continue being a crackhead to him and worship the ground he walks on. If you were on fire he wouldn't even spit on you but ya keep on worshipping a celebrity that doesn't give a shit about you and brags about r*ping a woman's dead corpse. I bet you won't say shit about how Johnny Depp let a grown ass man touch all over and date her when she was 16 and the guy was 24. Or about the time he assaulted film worker. The amount of people that have opened up about it and have evidence everyone wants to defend him.

He's a rich white man that's being protected by this industry and they will kill a person to do so. He's a fucking abusive, alcoholic, predator. Deal with it. So go back to your account in your room where no one talks to you and you probably have no friends. Continue on worshipping the guy that's all buddied up with Marilyn Manson, a walking mantis and shut the fuck up.

#i stand with amber heard #pro amber heard

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dysphorie · 3 years ago

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fanfic 20 questions game

(I'm gonna answer this solely from my current ao3 account, rather than including my old account like i did last time)

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

30!

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

167,855

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Naruto, marvel (stucky), star wars (kylux), dc, slipknot, motionless in white, technically marilyn manson tho I tend to see those characters as independent contractors lmao

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Filth: kinktober 2019 (127)

The last temptation of chris (80)

See you in hell, boys (64)

Crash into me (60)

The lost art of keeping a secret (53)

5. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

I do, usually. Like i make a concerted effort to, but I've totally dropped the ball on my last fics and it's been so long that I don't feel like I can go back and reply to them now :/

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Oh god. I write so many angsty endings. Probably "neckfreak" or "strange glue"

7. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

I'm gonna go with "of recklessness and water", and "see you in hell, boys"

8. Do you write crossovers? If yes, what’s the craziest thing you’ve written?

Eh, i think atm I've only really written slipknot x manson members, and none of that has been that crazy tbh, but i have a BIG crossover event coming in the future of a fic, and that's kinda exciting

9. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Uh aye, it's me we're talking about here lmao

10. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

I basically exclusively write smut, and idk how to answer what kind. Like, the smutty kind?

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Thankfully not (not a whole fic anyway), and if i ever did i would go absolutely tonto on whoever was stupid enough to try

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not that i know of

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

Hell yeah! All the time, mostly with @wolfbad! And i want to write with @incredizort again

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Ugh this changes all the damn time. But probably 4/7

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

One where chris has jim prisoner in his basement. I just...can't get a grip on it

16. What’s your writing strengths?

I write good porn apparently. Idk what else, answers on a postcard plz

17. What’s your writing weaknesses?

(I'm leaving marina's answer here because yes same)

fucking pacing. also i can only write one thing in slightly different flavors but don't look at my fics too closely or you'll see they're all the same exact fic with various names plugged in

18. What’s your thought on writing dialogue in other languages in fic?

I wouldn't personally because i have exactly nil skill with languages other than english and i don't want to get things wrong, but like idc if other people do it

19. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Excluding the stuff i wrote in school that i didn't realise til recently counted as fanfic, it's naruto

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

"In another life", always

I tag @skin--slave @incredizort @wolfbad @ijustdontknowsometimes @acidtonguez and anyone else who wants to do it!

(And I'm leaving cady's comment at the bottom here)

If any of you ever have any questions about any of my fics, or want to ask questions about details in my AU's, please send me an ask! I would love to discuss further.

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omegaplus · 4 years ago

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Marilyn Manson: Smells Like Children (1995) Sexual assault and toxicity are ‘no dice’. We’ve had close friends and allies who were illegal-ed on different levels, and toxicity is what we experience personally and daily on Long Island. We never condone any of it. There’s never a positive outcome when anyone is on its’ receiving end.

There’s no more writing off what Brian Warner / Marilyn Manson has done. With 25 years-plus of controversy mostly involving several exes, former bandmates and collaborators testifying against his atrocious behavior, it’ll be a near-impossible sell to walk away unscathed. Evan Rachel Wood, Rose McGowan, Dita Von Teese, Trent Reznor, Madonna Wayne Gacy, Wes Borland, and many others have their accounts matching up how ruthless, heartless, and demented he was towards everyone who ever supported him. So far, it’s cost him his record deal with Loma Vista, and his music career is crumbling before his very eyes.

Bad news come from all colors, denominations, alignments, and affiliations. Hear the names of R. Kelly, Phil Spector, or Michael Jackson and surely the boomerang of controversy always returns to rear its philosophical and social issues. Time and time again, your favorite big names’ behaviors cause us to question if and how we can separate the art from the artist. We question if and how far cancel culture can be applied, how much we’ll tolerate or write-off their actions or viewpoints, and if we can wrangle listening, watching, or reading our vital artists again without scrutiny.

It’s been forever since I listened to Smells Like Children. It stands as the only Manson release I got into because it was the first truly out-there album I’ve ever experienced. It’s the definition of ‘shits and giggles’. Fans took notice because of how nightmarish the Dean Karr-directed “Sweet Dreams” video (‘95) was, a cover of The Eurythmics synth-pop hit. With Trent Reznor and the Nine Inch Nails camp’s seal of approval and production, Smells Like Children broke Marilyn Manson out to the mainstream and he / the band solidified their place in metal with 1996’s Antichrist Superstar.

As I returned to it, it’s no surprise how his themes ran parallel to not only his bad parts of his personality but also his conduct. “Sweet Dreams” was Dave Stewart’s and Annie Lennox’ observance of motivation, personal gain and treatment. Warner chose that track not just on the lyrics but he’s played that fame game to a tee. More lyrics all across the board told of his deviant mind (“white trash get down on your knees / time for cake and sodomy” and “who said date rape isn’t kind?”) on “Everlasting Cocksucker”, or the opening lines on “Diary Of A Dope Fiend” that hints of vengeance against an ex-girlfriend. And those weren’t the only flags that turned from yellow to red if not for his actions.

Listen to “Fuck Frankie”, about a former tour manager immortalized for embezzling $20,000 from the band. It’s a passage of torture and submission that’s peppered his image and being. In fact, the two promo- only tracks accidentally released by his former label Interscope, “Abuse I & II”, also told signs of Marilyn Manson’s real-life fetishes of debauchery. A fan account of her molesting her seven year-old cousin was so shocking that they omitted it from the original release. “I Put A Spell On You”, a cover of Screamin’ Jay Hawkins’ original, is given the Manson treatment that provides more of a possessive, captive, and sinister spin. The closing track, “Rock ‘N’ Roll N*****”, covering Patti Smith, self-designates him as not only an outsider (misusing the n-word) but shows society’s demonizing and disposal of idols and people in general.

Now fast-forward to the right now. With Warner pushing back on his latest claims against him, he won’t own up to the “Kiddie Grinder” lyric “I hate what I have become” any time soon.

Everyone knows he’s been both a wind-up merchant and a magnate for controversy. It’s one thing to have his personal viewpoints; ones against religion and pointing out the contradicting, hypocritical nature of society that sadly gave the American media ammunition to falsely pin him for The Columbine shootings. To have misdeeds of sexual misconduct, abuse, mistreatment, and torture if they’re true? He’ll put that on himself.

Now, life didn’t imitate art, it reflects it. If it’s believed to be, then that’s artistic integrity being himself in a ‘take-it-or-leave-it’ proposition if it’s the case. Hearing this release in its’ atrocious, bizarre, outlandish sonic form wouldn’t have a huge question mark without any accusations involved, but his behavior has caught up to him. Warner had continued to match the grotesque and ugliness of his output. His former flames, scorned bandmates, disassociates, and other fans with first-hand accounts of his mistreatment would carry more weight than anything else. Set up the dominoes of negativity and rumors, then have someone like Wood knock them all down so that their eventual collapse makes sense. (And let’s not forget, they did collapse on Jeordie White / Twiggy Ramirez, who was let go by Warner himself based on a rape accusation.)

Regardless of what happens to Warner / Manson, fans will still listen to the music. No person, label, or music outlet can ever completely erase the actions or works of anyone specific. Regardless of how many cancellations or ripped contracts there are, their works are more obtainable than ever to anyone who wants them, even if their names momentum slows down or completely stops. There’s no gangbusters to eye or decide on everyone’s listening habits. Morrissey, Genesis P. Orridge, PWR BTTM, and Boyd Rice have done and said some outlandish things that have tarnished or destroyed their legacies, yet people will still enjoy them. Great. At this point, for whoever we’re reading, viewing, or hearing, we’d be remiss if at times we didn’t show their red cards or strikes. It’s still possible that the works our favorites have created will stay with us and be held tightly; because we’re so used to them before we realize how notorious their actions are. The life actions they commit unto others, obviously, is another ballgame in itself. Now, to each your own.

Ask yourself how much carte-blanche you and / or the industry will give to artists for their misdeeds? Who gets to decide whose careers get taken down or let off the hook and why? What’s allowable and what’s not? Why do slips of the tongue or mere words cost people’s entire careers instantly while others who have done much worse still have theirs? It’s a contradictory, privileged beast we’re figuring out right now.

#omega #music #mixtapes #reviews #playlists #Marilyn Manson #industrial #metal #horror #goth #NIN #Nine Inch Nails #Trent Reznor #WTF #wow #personal

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eyesaremosaics · 4 years ago

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TRIGGER WARNING:

The past few days, I have been shocked, saddened and disgusted with an artist who I have admired since I was a child. I remember seeing the sweet dreams video when it came on MTV in 1995 when I was 6 years old. I remember being frightened, but mesmerized by him. I pretended to hate him whenever he would come on TV, and my dad would tease me: “oh, there you go it’s your boyfriend Megan.” I would shriek in disgust and say “no!” Secretly I would watch his music videos when no one else was home, there was a hypnotic quality to his voice...something that drew me in. I know many females my age can relate. I bought his albums in secret, and until I was 15 years old I had this very real fear that if my family found out I listened to Marilyn Manson—they would stop loving me. Which seems silly and absurd, I often laugh about that.

However, once high school hit, he became more gimmick and less rock and roll. More self aggrandizing and less of a nihilistic commentator on society. He was once a major influence to me, my style of art, expression and creativity. The women he dated became icon’s to me, something to be emulated. I became a vintage girl because of my interest in Dita Von Teese at age 14. I wore high heels to school, seamed stockings with a garter belt, dressed like a 1950s housewife. I was voted best dressed in my high school senior year (2006).

I never had a crush on him or anything, it wasn’t really like that, it was more like he was a person I looked up to. After his interview in bowling for Columbine, all his interviews, his book, tv appearances etc. he came across as a highly intelligent and creative person who challenged social norms and societal constructs. I appreciated his androgyny, and admired his fearlessness. I listened to his music a great deal in high school, and it got me through some very dark and angsty times.

As the years went on, it became apparent he was losing his edge. I loved Rose McGowan, she was one of the women I modeled myself after as a young person (next to Winona Ryder of course), and she always spoke highly of him, saying he was a good boyfriend, but the drugs were something she couldn’t hang with. When he was with Dita, I fell in love with her too, and found her to be just as cool and interesting.

When he cheated on Dita with Evan Rachel Wood I was devastated. I felt like my idol fell. The stand-up man I thought he was—wasn’t real, and I am ashamed to say I blamed Evan, vilifying her as some “scarlet woman” who destroyed what was (to me) the perfect marriage. Little did I know that this poor girl was suffering. In ways many of us can relate to, and many we can’t begin to understand.

A few girls that I follow on IG have come forward with graphic accounts of the abuse to which they were subjected by Brian Warner (aka Marilyn Manson), and it made me sick to my stomach. I mean... I wrote him off as a has been in 2007, but I still thought he was an ok person, I still respected him for the art he made that inspired me as a kid. Now I feel like a huge chunk of my childhood was a lie. All the things I thought he stood for were merely conjecture.

All this background was necessary to get to what I really wanted to say: this whole ordeal was very triggering for me as a survivor of narcissistic/sociopathic, sexual, emotional and physical abuse. I stand with these girls, because though I can only begin to imagine some of the things they have described in their testimony... other things I know all too well. In fact many of the situations these poor girls were violently subjected to, have happened to me as well. It actually broke me down in tears to read.

My heart goes out to the survivors, you are strong and beautiful. It takes YEARS to survive this type of abuse. I know because I am living proof. I have been in more than one relationship like this, which led me to have zero self esteem, resort to substance abuse, risky self-destructive behavior, attempted suicide etc. I have been in extensive therapy for these traumas for over five years now, and only in the last two, was I able to get a full sense of self back.

There is so much to say on this issue. I am proud of the girls who came forward, it takes an insane amount of bravery to call out your abuser publicly... I still haven’t had the courage to call out mine. However it gives me strength to know there is a movement of women empowering each other to break their silence and speak their truth.

I am disillusioned and sad about this person I used to think highly of, but it’s the same feeling you go through when leaving a narcissistic/sociopathic relationship. In my own situation... I left feeling like Marion Cotillard’s character in “inception”. The top forever spinning...Not knowing when I would wake up into the real world....Not knowing which was the real world, and which was a dream. Wanting to die, so you can finally wake up.

There are stages of grief that you go through, accepting that this person never cared about you, and saw you only as narcissistic supply, or as “food” for their ego. They see matters only as a means for power and control. They don’t feel things the way you or I do. It is in this that you should pull power from. You are not the one who is weak, it is they who are weak. They who lack the emotional depth or compassion to function as a normal human being. They will never know love, or real friendship—and you should feel sorry for them. What a terribly lonely and meaningless existence that must be. To be a parasite.

You ( the survivor) still have a chance for life, YOU will love again. It may feel like you will never reach the other side of it, through the panic attacks, the sleepless nights, the terrorizing anxiety, the bouts of crying, the humiliation, the silence, the nightmares—but you will. I learned a long time to let things build and not destroy me. To any of you reading this who may be able to relate: you can do it too.

I never thought I would survive my demons, I have a history of abuse that goes back to my childhood, which is why I am so protective of children now. It’s almost like I have made it my personal mission to assure that no child will ever be hurt the way I was, not on my watch.

Keeping your inner child alive is so crucial to survive the darkness of this world. We have to be the architect of our own reality, and rebuild a new world, a safe one to live in. One where a man can treat us with love and kindness. That doesn’t mean we should forget. We forgive the abusers not because they deserve forgiveness, but because we deserve peace.

I stand with all women out there living with this kind of abuse. Living with domestic violence. You are not alone. I hear you, I see you. There is a deeper systemic problem going on here enabling this kind of violence, and it Must. Be. Stopped.

#breakthesilence

#me #marilyn manson #break the silence

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hekateanwitchcraft · 4 years ago

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Oh you don't have a boyfriend to celebrate with? Big surprise, no one wants to settle down with an attention whore. I know your type. Maybe worry about how no one will ever love you because of your bullshit and less about being a martyr for sympathy. You only shared that to get more people to feel sorry for you, real manipulative shit. If you actually wanted to "grow" you would have thought about it more than pasting it on the internet.

Okay what the fuck is your problem? You think I didn’t think about it? What gives that idea? Seriously? What is your evidence for the idea that I didn’t think about it? That I’m not thinking about it? I shared that as a promise that I’m going to attempt to be more cognizant of my actions, not for attention. If I was so desperate for attention I would’ve made up some sob story about how much that hurt me and shit, but I’m not a manipulative asshole. I’m trying to open the door to people feeling more comfortable giving me criticsm by showing I’m a reasonable and understanding person. Posting it on TikTok as well is me trying to tell people, as I said, that you “don’t have to do this” to criticise me. I’m literally trying to create a culture of accountability on my page by making clear that people can express their issues with me without being afraid of my reaction. And how, pray tell, have I not followed through with that? Have I done something in the one day since posting that to illustrate that I don’t care about it? Have I done something offensive or condescending? No. On TikTok I posted one original video, other than boosting a video about Marilyn Manson being an abuser, and it was literally me doing what you asked of me, minding my business and trying to make productive content. You must have some kind of severe inferiority complex if you feel that the video I posted was a problem. I was literally explaining what Theogamia was. There was no other content I made. The only other thing I posted was the Theogamia ritual on here? Which also, just a ritual. No condescension or elitism present. Your issue with me is clearly due to some personal thing which has nothing to actually do with my behavior or wanting to see me present myself in a different manner. I think it’s funny that you’re the one who accused me of needing help, when I haven’t even done anything and you’ve flipped out on me. Literally telling me no one will ever love me???? What is wrong with you?

Have I maybe been unintentionally condescending before? Sure I can believe that. Has my tone come off as aggressive in previous content? I have trouble controlling my tone so I can absolutely understand that that happened. But never have I been mean or denigrating to someone, calling them names or saying shit like the things you’re saying to me. So your reaction is incredibly inappropriate and uncalled for. You need to get a hold of yourself. Messages like these are the kinds that can literally inspire people to take their own lives. That’s not me or where I’m at right now, but you need to think about that before you do this to someone who will take it that way. I can take criticsm, but this isn’t criticsm, this is hateful and you clearly need to work on yourself and how you deal with your emotions.

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lovemesomesurveys · 3 years ago

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Have you ever watched a movie in class/school that made you cry? Yes. I took this adulthood and aging psychology class and I forget what it was exactly the documentary we had to watch was about, but I remember being on the verge of tears because it reminded me of my grandpa who passed away.

What’s the earliest you could go to bed at night and feel okay about? Uhh, I don’t know? Just whenever I fall asleep.

What is you favorite type of lunch meat? Turkey, salami, and bologna.

What time of the year do you dislike the most? Summertime.

Do you put ketchup on your scrambled eggs? Ew, no.

What is your favorite color to wear? Black.

Are you an overachiever? No. Especially not these past few years where I haven’t done anything at all and put like no effort into anything. :/ At least when I was in school and things were better than how they’ve been the past few years I was productive in school and put effort into things and into myself. I’ve just given up.

What physical feature do you wish you had (i.e. freckles, curly hair)? Perfect teeth.

What fictional character (i.e. Bambi, Scarlette O'Hara) would you marry? Uh, I definitely don’t want to marry Bambi... anyway, I’d say one of the characters Alexander Skarsgard has played.

How long have you gone without shaving (girls- legs, armpits; boys- faces)? I don’t know, a couple weeks or so.

Did you ever go through a phase where you wrote bad poetry? Ha, yeah, when I was like 16 during my emo days. They’re so cringe.

What is your favorite thing about your life? My family.

Have you ever painted a picture of somebody? No.

How many real bfs/gfs have you had? I honestly haven’t had a real, serious relationship.

Did you enjoy your past relationships? With Joseph I did.

Name a comedy that you like. Bridesmaids.

Could you wait until marriage for sex? Yeah, but I don’t plan on getting married.

What’s the best Nirvana song? Lithium.

What was the last thing that impressed you? Hmm. I don’t recall.

When was the last time you were in a pet store? It’s been awhile.

What nationality is your last name? Irish, I think.

What’s your favorite kind of chips and dip? Wavy Lay’s chips with ranch and French onion dip.

Who was the last boy that you saw cry? My brother.

Does your mom know you do surveys? I don’t think so.

Have you ever had a serious injury? Yeah, the one that made me a paraplegic.

What was the last thing you achieved? Uhhh.

Would you enjoy being famous? I have absolutely no desire whatsoever to be famous.

What’s under your bed? Some medical supplies.

Do you enjoy travelling? Yes.

Have you ever belonged to a club? If so, what was it? I was in a couple clubs in high school and the psych club in community college.

When was the last time you drank strawberry milk? It’s been a very long time.

Have you ever managed to collect all the fast food toys in a set? Hmm, I don’t recall. I might have.

Do you have a clock in your room? Yes, apart from the ones on my laptop, TV and phone, I have an actual wall clock as well.

Did you have a good driver’s ED teacher? I didn’t take driver’s ed.

Which of Britney Spears’ songs is your favorite? Hmm. Probably Toxic, Slave 4 U, Boys, and Lucky.

Does mind over matter work for you? Sometimes.

Are you paranoid? I definitely can be.

What is the best thing about winter? Christmastime and the weather. I love that time of year.

Have you ever been truly in love? I think so.

Are you currently planning a trip? No, I wish.

How many plants are in your home? Zero.

What is your favorite possession? All my stuff.

Have you ever felt like you were too nice and way too often overlooked? Yeah. I’ve been used and taken advantage of back in the day for being too nice.

What movies have tripped you out? There’s been a few.

Did you rollerblade as a kid? Do you still rollerblade? No.

Would you ever settle into a relationship that wasn’t right for you? Do you know friends who are in relationships just so they have someone to sleep with at night? I’d like to say no, but I allowed Joseph to use and play me for 3 years, so. I knew deep down he didn’t feel the same way as I did and he didn’t want to be in a committed relationship with me, but I didn’t want to admit it. I liked the attention and the good times we had and I didn’t want to give that up. I would hope that now that I’m older and have experienced that I wouldn’t allow it to happen again. And yes, I had a friend who put up with a whole lot worse for that reason.

Would you take a dirty picture of yourself for someone you are dating? I wouldn’t feel comfortable with that. I don’t want that floating around or existing at all out there.

Do you use earplugs or a sleeping mask when you sleep? No.

What summertime treats do you love? Milkshakes and ice cream.

How picky are you when it comes to choosing who to kiss or not kiss? I mean, I have to be interested in the person and feel comfortable doing so.

What do you hate most about moving? The packing and unloading.

Do you feel that having sex anywhere but a bed is more exciting? I wouldn’t know.

Do you drink 5 hour energy drinks or any other kinds of energy drinks? Just the Starbucks Doubleshot energy drink.

Has anyone ever whistled at you? Not that I know of.

Do you like scarves? No. I don’t like things around my neck like that, it drives me nuts.

Is your father homophobic? No.

Do you take gummy vitamins? No. I don’t take vitamins at all, currently, although I really should.

Have you ever applied make-up on a guy, for any reason at all? No.

Who would you like to meet before you die? I mean, I certainly wouldn’t mind meeting Alexander Skarsgard.

If your dream was to be a model, and a big opportunity came up, but you had to be nude, would you take it? I don’t feel comfortable being nude when I’m just by myself, I certainly wouldn’t feel comfortable doing so publicly. Absolutely not.

What’s the most ridiculous conspiracy theory you’ve ever heard of? There’s been a lot, but of course I’m blanking at the moment. Most are pretty crazy, though.

If Heaven and Hell exists, where are you going when you die? I hope that go to heaven.

Who is the person that you are afraid of losing, above everyone else? My loved ones.

What is one thing that pisses you off pretty much everyday? Ugh, seems like just about anything can. I’m so irritable and moody all the time.

Is there anyone you know that you feel should consider therapy? Yeah, me.

Do you like any of the songs on Twilight, or the actual movie/saga itself? I loved Decode and Super Massive Blackhole.

How old was the first person you kissed? He was 15 and I was 16.

Will you be a strict parent one day? I don’t want to have kids.

Last person to stand up for you? I don’t recall the last time I needed to be stood up for.

Have you been to a baby shower? Yeah, I’ve been to a few.

Who were you with the last time you went to the movie theater? My mom and brother to see Candyman.

What’s your favorite high school memory? I liked the rallies and some of the assemblies.

Do you like relationships, or do you prefer to be single? Being single is best for me.

What is one adventurous thing you’d be willing to do? I don’t know. I’m such a scardy cat.

What subject at school did you absolutely hate? Math.

Italian food or Chinese food? Italian.

Do you like to make flash cards when you study? That wasn’t my usual study method, no. I preferred taking notes.

Has anyone ever told you that you’re a good singer? Ha, uh no.

Do you ever watch TED talks, live or online? I only watched those when they were shown in some of my college classes or was assigned to for homework. I’ve never watched any on my own.

I dare you to write the name of a person you strongly dislike. I don’t feel that way about anyone.

What do you think about Marilyn Manson? I have nothing to say about him tbh. <<<

Biggest trouble you’ve ever gotten into at school? I didn’t get into trouble.

Do you own one of those “professional” DSLR cameras? No.

Does it bother you when you see a 6th grader with a bunch of gadgets? I don’t care.

Did you buy yearbooks every year in high school, or did you not bother? Yeah, I got all 4.

Do you have Restless Legs Syndrome? No.

Jalapeños: yay or nay? I loved jalapenos back when I could eat spicy food. Jalapeno poppers were bomb.

Did you ever play Minecraft? No.

Did you ever have a Club Penguin account? Were you a member? Yeah.

Do you know anyone that seems to not have any common sense? Ha, yeah.

What do you think is the biggest injustice that was ever done to you? I’m the victim of gun violence that made me a paraplegic at just 7 months old.

What type of person angers you the most? Abusive people and sick, perverted assholes.

If you could change your appearance, how would you alter it? There’s a lot I’d like to change.

Describe your first relationship? It wasn’t much of one but we had the title, ha. It also only lasted a few months.

Describe your last relationship? He used and played me and then kicked me to the curb when he was done.

Can you honestly say that you always practice safe sex? I’m a virgin, but I absolutely would practice safe sex. That’s very important.

Why do you think your most favorite film touches you so deeply? You just really feel, connect, and relate to certain things, like the characters and/or plot line and it has some kind of effect on you.

What do you want people you meet for the first time to think about you? Hopefully something good.

Do you feel protective over someone? My loved ones.

What perfume/cologne do you wear? I’ve been wearing this beachy scented body spray. I need to get a new one for fall.

Where did your vehicle come from? I don’t have my own car, I don’t drive.

What was the color of the bridesmaid dresses of the last wedding you went to? I’m totally blanking.

What is your favorite way to eat chicken? Boneless chicken wings and chicken tenders.

It is your birthday. You hope the cake is: White with buttercream frosting.

What do you wear to bed? What I wear during the day, which is either lounge shorts or leggings and an oversized tee or t-shirt dress.

What were you doing at 8pm last night? I was eating dinner and watching Gilmore Girls.

#personal #text #survey #surveys

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surveys-at-your-service · 3 years ago

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Survey #441

“all alone, he turns to stone while holding his breath after death / terrified of what’s inside, to save his life he crawls like a worm from a bird”

Have you ever watched a movie in class/school that made you cry? Yep, a few. What’s the earliest you could go to bed at night and feel okay about? If I'm having a really bad day, I can tolerate as early as 7:00. :x What is you favorite type of lunch meat? Honey ham, probably. What time of the year do you dislike the most? Summer is disgusting. It's too hot, too humid, too many bugs, and I just hate it. Do you put ketchup on your scrambled eggs? No, that sounds gross. What is your favorite color to wear? b l a c k Are you an overachiever? Oh, hunny. What physical feature do you wish you had (i.e. freckles, curly hair)? Maybe uhhhh big eyes. What fictional character (i.e. Bambi, Scarlette O'hara) would you marry? Darkiplier bc he is merely a misunderstood soft boi. How long have you gone without shaving (girls- legs, armpits; boys- faces)? Legs: It's been nearly a year. Pits: not that long, considering I shave them every time I get in the shower. What is the meanest thing you have ever said to someone else? I'm sure it would be something in one of the letters I sent Jason. Or Dad. Idk. Did you ever go through a phase where you wrote bad poetry? The phase never ended lmao. What is your favorite thing about your life? My loved ones. Save all the animals that die during road kill or save 1 human from a fire? Sorry, but I'm picking the animals. Have you ever painted a picture of somebody? Yes. How many real bfs/gfs have you had? Two. Did you enjoy your past relationships? Yes. Except for when I was with Tyler. Name a comedy that you like. White Chicks. Could you wait until marriage for sex? Yeah. What’s the best Nirvana song? I'm not sure, really... Maybe "Drain You?" What was the last thing that impressed you? No clue. When was the last time you were in a pet store? Several months ago when I went in to get more rats for Venus. What nationality is your last name? Irish. What’s your favorite kind of chips and dip? Plain, rippled Lays in French onion dip. Who was the last boy that you saw cry? I don't know, actually. It may have been Sara's dad, which was years ago. Does your mom know you do surveys? I mean no, it's not like it's come up in conversation. Have you ever had a serious injury? When I was a kid, there was this one time I was running down the road with my friend, and I tripped; I was a fast runner, so I skinned the everliving FUCK out of my knees to the point there was even pus. I was SOBBING, and it took weeks to heal; I had the scars for years. What was the last thing you achieved? Losing weight at the gymmmm. Staying dedicated to going. Would you enjoy being famous? No. I couldn't take all the eyes on me and even ONE person's negative judgment. What’s under your bed? A big box of my art supplies. Do you enjoy travelling? Yeah. I wish I could do it more. Have you ever belonged to a club? If so, what was it? No. When was the last time you drank strawberry milk? Not since I first tried it at elementary school. It was absolutely disgusting. Have you ever managed to collect all the fast food toys in a set? I doubt it. Do you have a clock in your room? No. Did you have a good driver’s ED teacher? No. If I'd listened to him while driving, I could've gotten myself killed while merging onto the highway. People are assholes and didn't want to move over. Which of Britney Spears’ songs is your favorite? Probably "Freakshow." Does mind over matter work for you? Not usually, no. Are you paranoid? Oh yes. What is the best thing about winter? Everything!!! Literally the only BAD thing about winter is the dry skin/lips. I love the cold, Christmas and all that comes with it, the decor, hot chocolate, snow, getting all cuddly... Everything. :') Have you ever been truly in love? Absolutely. Are you currently planning a trip? No. A trip to Illinois is just a wish right now. How many plants are in your home? None, I think? What is your favorite possession? Excluding my pets (because I don't like calling them "possessions"), probably my laptop. Have you ever felt like you were too nice and way too often overlooked? I have before, yes. What movies have tripped you out? Off the top of my head, the only entertainment media in general that has ever truly "tripped me out" was the first time I played the Silent Hill game. The movie didn't affect me to that level because I already understood the concept. When I watched Jason play it for the first time, I was SO confused and just blown away by the concept that I did loads of research and just thinking about it all. That franchise is just cool as shit, okay. Did you rollerblade as a kid? Do you still rollerblade? I LOVED rollerblading. I haven't done it in years, though. Would you ever settle into a relationship that wasn’t right for you? Do you know friends who are in relationships just so they have someone to sleep with at night? NO. I will NOT settle. Being genuinely in love with my partner is too important to me for me to ever do so. I don't know if any of my friends are in that situation. Would you take a dirty picture of yourself for someone you are dating? With my current body? FUCK no. If I was happy with my body, the answer is still probably no. I'm too self-conscious and awkward with that kind of stuff, and besides, I really don't think I want a picture like that to exist of myself to avoid potential trouble. Do you use earplugs or a sleeping mask when you sleep? No. What summertime treats do you love? We have this local slushy place that is FUCKING BOMB. It may sound basic, but they have SUCH a vast variety of flavors and goodies you can top it with that it's truly just so amazing. How picky are you when it comes to choosing who to kiss or not kiss? I am VERY picky. I have to be really interested in you. Save for how things were with Tyler... I just felt like I was supposed to. What do you hate most about moving? I. Hate. The process. Of moving. It is just so, so stressful to me. I have a very hard time confronting big tasks, and that's exactly what packing and unpacking entails. Do you feel that having sex anywhere but a bed is more exciting? Not necessarily. Do you drink 5 hour energy drinks or any other kinds of energy drinks? No. Has anyone ever whistled at you? I don't think so. Do you like scarves? No. Is your father homophobic? Possibly. I don't actually know. I honestly don't think he took Sara's and my relationship seriously, so that may be a sign. Do you take gummy vitamins? The only vitamin I take now is vitamin D, which isn't a gummy. Have you ever applied make-up on a guy, for any reason at all? Ha, yeah. I gave Jason a makeover once. Who would you like to meet before you die? MARK. I am so determined, alsdjfkaj;wek;rj. I just want to hug him and say thank you and ugly-cry. If your dream was to be a model, and a big opportunity came up, but you had to be nude, would you take it? No. Even if I had the body of a model. What’s the most ridiculous conspiracy theory you’ve ever heard of? The fuckin' flat earth theory, probably. If Heaven and Hell exists, where you going when you die? Well, considering I have an, uh, very negative opinion of the Christian god... Who is the person that you are afraid of losing, above everyone else? My mom. The day she passes is a day I am inexplicably horrified of. What is one thing that pisses you off pretty much everyday? My life. If there anyone you know that you feel should consider therapy? My mom really could use it. Do you like any of the songs on Twilight, or the actual movie/saga itself? I love "Supermassive Black Hole" by Muse, but idk if it was actually written for the movie. How old was the first person you kissed? He was 18 when we first kissed. Will you be a strict parent one day? I never want to be a parent. If I hypothetically became one, I don't think I'd be strict, necessarily, but very protective. Last person to stand up for you? Probably Mom, idk. Have you been to a baby shower? Yeah, a few. Who were you with the last time you went to the movie theater? My dad. What’s your favorite high school memory? Just... a lot with Jason. Do you like relationships, or do you prefer to be single? I prefer being in a (healthy) relationship, but I won't get into one just for the sake of having one. What is one adventurous thing you’d be willing to do? Hmmm... scuba-dive, maybe? What subject at school did you absolutely hate? Math. Italian food or Chinese food? Italian. I don't really like (most) Chinese food. Do you like to make flash cards when you study? I rarely did that. Has anyone ever told you that you’re a good singer? Yes, somehow. Do you ever watch TED talks, live or online? No. I dare you to write the name of a person you strongly dislike. Ashley. What do you think about Marilyn Manson? He's one of my favorite musical artists, but he's a disgusting dick personally. Biggest trouble you’ve ever gotten into at school? Nothing, really. I was a very well-behaved kid. Do you own one of those “professional” DSLR cameras? Yeah, I have a Canon. Does it bother you when you see a 6th grader with a bunch of gadgets? No. Did you buy yearbooks every year in high school, or did you not bother? Not every year, but most. Do you have Restless Legs Syndrome? No. Jalapeños: yay or nay? I loooove them. Did you ever play Minecraft? Nah. My niece is getting into it. Did you ever have a Club Penguin account? Were you a member? I did have one. I wasn't one of those premium members or anything like that; I just had a basic account. Do you know anyone that seems to not have any common sense? Bitch me. It's extremely embarrassing. I 100% got it from my dad. What do you think is the biggest injustice that was ever done to you? The manner through which Jason broke up with me. It left me traumatized. What type of person angers you the most? Abusive people that think only they matter and have no consideration for how their actions affect other people. If you could change your appearance, how would you alter it? I'd lose a shitload of weight, for one. My teeth would be whiter, my eyes bigger and bluer, I'd want my hair colored/able to hold color far better, I'd lighten and lessen my body hair, make my skin clearer, thin my eyebrows... I'd change a lot. What are your feelings on feminism? MANDATORY. Absolutely necessary in a misogynistic society. However, I do believe some people take it way too far to a point it is anti-man and puts women on a holy pedestal. It is about equality. Describe your first relationship? Perfect, until it wasn't. Describe your last relationship? Wonderful and healthy, but distance and our health were issues at the time. Can you honestly say that you always practice safe sex? My history with sex is confusing and complicated and I really don't know. Why do you think your most favorite film touches you so deeply? Thinking about it... it's probably because of how Simba runs from his problems and bad memories, but returns to confront them and is victorious. That's how I want to be. What do you want people you meet for the first time to think about you? That I'm nice and clearly sincerely cared about them and their feelings. Do you feel protective over someone? My sisters, nieces and nephews, Sara... What perfume/cologne do you wear? It's called "Blush." Where did your vehicle come from? I don't have my own, but Mom's came from a girl at the dance studio. She ran into a deer, and the front got fucked up, but the sweetheart paid to fix it up to being operable so Mom had her own car. The front bumper is kept intact with zip ties and duct tape, but hey... it works and has for many, many years now, lol. What was the color of the bridesmaid dresses of the last wedding you went to? Ummmm... I actually don't remember. What is your favorite way to eat chicken? As tenders, probably. It is your birthday. You hope the cake is: Red velvet. This year for my bday, our controlling-as-fuck family friend bought me my birthday cake without consulting ANYBODY, and I was so fucking annoyed. It was a very kind gesture, yes, but um, can I have a say, please? What do you wear to bed? Usually men's pj pants and a tank top. What were you doing at 8pm last night? Sleeping, actually. I was extremely tired and went to bed early.

#survey #surveys #random questions #lyrics: ''the bird and the worm'' by the used

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oftyrosh · 3 years ago

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[listen here].

oo1: good apollo, vol 1.: the writing writer - coheed and cambria. i’ll live through this in a manner cursed at my own accord --- only i don’t even think of you. no, i don’t want to think of you anymore. oo2: relentless - strapping young lad. all it in it’s place. it’s time to lay everything to waste. oo3: sin & sacrifice - devildriver. old habits die hard, and i’ve lived so fast, and i know it’s a long way down. oo4: lord gold throneroom - horse the band. she sees him: watching, gazing, leering blankly, vacant, worthless, golden, perfect.

oo5: personal jesus - marilyn manson. feeling unknown and you’re all alone, flesh and bone by the telephone. lift up the receiver, i’ll make you a beleiver. oo6: what i always wanted - kittie. i thought i found what i always wanted there with me. oo7: amarillo sleeps on my pillow - fair to midland. if i had to guess, he’s still making a mess worse than any thunderstorm. oo8: rowboat - coal chamber. insects in your kiss, you are my sunshine. get out of my rowboat. oo9: c.o.t.e. - karnivool. so drop me down, let me feel this either way. face me inside: with a broken view, a broken heart. disappear. now i don’t think you like me, now. now i don’t think you’re like me, now. o1o: i could care less - devildriver. i could care less than for your sickening, pompous ways. every time you speak my name, my image burns away. i could care less. o11: te quiero puta - rammstein. entre tus piernas voy a llonar. feliz y triste voy a estar. no me tengas miedo, no te voy a comer. dámelo, dámelo. o12: penetrate - godhead. i wouldn’t know the solution ‘cause this ain’t my revolution. i practice my prostitution and spread the people’s pollution. o13: ravenous - arch enemy. ritual slaughter, fill up the chalice with the essence of your life. liquid strength’s trapped in your veins. i crave your blood, you must die. o14: blue monday - orgy. and i still find it so hard to say what i need to say, but i’m quite sure that you’ll tell me just how i should feel today. o15: entities - job for a cowboy. over and over repeatedly this relentless process, thousands of speechless bodies pile over each other completely motionless, over again. o16: rev 22:20 - puscifer. my pulse has been rising, my temples are pounding, the pressure is so overwhelming and building. so steady there, i’m ready to blow. what is she waiting for? o17: living dead girl - rob zombie. crawl on me, sink into me, die for me. blood on her skin dripping with sin, do it again, living dead girl. o18: the line of least resistance - sybreed. pretentious fraudster, you deem yourself worthy of reverence, ever craving to be praised. o19: the black hole - horse the band. i’ll face the stars, or the abyss, but not nothing at all. i’ll face the stars, or the abyss, from nothing i can’t fall. o2o: deer dance - system of a down. a deer dance invitation to peace, war staring you in the face, dressed in black. with a helmet, fierce, trained and appropriate for the malcontents. for the disproportioned malcontents. a little boy smiled, it’ll all be well. and say a little boy smiled, it’ll all be well. pushing little children with their fully automatics, they like to push the weak around. o21: slave only dreams to be king - marilyn manson. i’m happy to pull my veins out and braid a rope, i don’t need hope to know that you’ll die slow. you are what you beat. o22: mannequin - cradle of filth. burning flesh, dripping sweat. abusing them all, like the paralyzing snake. charmed and enchanted by the babylon whore. o23: one hand killing - twelve foot ninja. up on your feet, darling dear. may the gods guide you right back here. without you here it’s not home. may you find what you’re looking for. an inner peace, the infinite, may it burn through your deepest fear. without punch there’s no show, may you hold them accountable. o24: the light that blinds - shadows fall. you hide behind the light that blinds. we’ll never find what burns inside. you remain blind behind the light. o25: closer - nine inch nails. you can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings. you can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything. help me, you tear down my reason. help me, it’s your sex i can smell. help me, you make me perfect. help me become somebody else. o26: alaska - between the buried and me. yes, creepy, the idea of control. controlling death with alertness. ---- nature can be the death of me, a thing we’ll never overcome. o27: sonne - rammstein. alle warten auf das licht. fürchtet euch, fürchtet euch nicht, die sonne scheint mir aus den augen. sie wird heut nacht nicht untergehen ... und die welt zählt laut bis zehn. o28: superbeast - rob zombie. stir the limbs across the wrist, full possession of a memory. bury me as a dog, icy hands surrounding me. ---- hell yeah, i’m the one that you wanted. hell yeah, i’m the superbeast. o29: bounce - system of a down. unannounced twister games, all players with no names. they lined up double-quick: but just one pogo-stick. everyone gets to play, runaway, exposé. it was so exotic, but just one pogo stick. o3o: thank god for the sufferings - cradle of filth. love would have conquered all, were we not parted. her splintered loss rekindles rage, the winter frost dwindles across my stage, lit up once more to score finales started. love would have conquered all. love would have conquered hate, hate hate. and in those frozen moments won, from grief that creeps to wreathe the sun, in drapes inwove with deathshed wing: i thank god for the suffering.

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Medea’s Anime/Game Superlative of 2019

Well it’s that time of the year where I look back on the animes I’ve watched and the games I played with this outdated meme quiz from 10 years ago. But I still do it for the fun of it! As usual, it doesn’t matter what year the anime or game came out. If I messed with it this year, it counts for the honors. So if it came out two years ago (which feels like forever ago), it counts. Let’s get at it!

First Fandom of 2019: The Promised Neverland

Episode 1! That’s all you need to watch to officially get hooked to this series. I jumped on this title at the beginning of the year not knowing what to expect due to Aniplex and Crunchyroll whoring this particular anime months prior. But once I saw the first episode, I was immediately hooked. It shook me to my core to watch one of the most graphic scenes to come from this year. I was captivated by Emma, Norman, and Ray’s plans in order to escape their doomed fate of becoming food for creepy demons. Each episode, I was at the edge of my seat wondering what was going to happen next. Is Gilda in cahoots with Sister Krone? Will Don learn the truth about what really happened to Connie in episode 1? Can Ray be trusted? IS NORMAN STILL ALIVE?! Come on, I’m like really far ahead in the manga. I want to see Norman and Emma together again. I’m so happy this series is getting a second season in 2020.

Favorite Main Character of 2019: Haru from My Roommate is a Cat

It was a close call this year for main characters and normally I don’t shoot for main characters. This year I will admit that I fell in love with Chika from Kaguya-sama. Plus, I still love me some Lana from Pokemon Sun/Moon! And I finally started part III of Jojo’s, so Grandpa Joestar is just the awesome OH MY GOD that I need. However, they all lose out to a cat! Yeah, just like that one year where I picked Nyanko-sensei as my favorite main character, I’m doing it again.

I know Haru can’t actually talk back to her human, but the audience can hear what she’s really saying and it’s absolutely amusing. She was funny when she thought the word “Haru” meant food. She’s so adorable when she’s playing with whatever catches her eye. She’s got quite the personality (almost tsundere even). But I gotta admire Haru too. Before she was adopted, Haru was on the street trying her best to look out for her younger siblings. Even giving them more food scraps when she would go hungry herself. After Haru was adopted by Subaru, she eventually warmed up to him as “her human”. It was a learning experience for both as Haru didn’t know how to react to having a human care for her and Subaru has never taken care of a cat before. But Haru is a loyal kitty who loves her human. Hell, she ran away from home because she feared her human collapsed somewhere. Haru’s the greatest!

Favorite Villain of 2019:

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…Dear God, give me the strength to pull through this one.

Princess Malty “Myne, Bitch, Whore” Melromarc (The Rising of the Shield Hero)

No, this is not me insulting her. These are all her official names. Really! In many of the animes I watched this year, the villains were pretty hit-and-miss with me. I’m in the middle of watching the elven uprise with Black Clover and didn’t want to talk about that this year. Fairy Tail’s villains are just okay. And I didn’t watch Frieza this year! So let’s talk about the ONE villain who even out-trump’s the actual villain to the series.

It only took one episode for an entire fandom to turn on one single character. A single lie that figuratively speaking threw our main protagonist Naofumi under the bus, kicked him in the nuts, shanked him, robbed him, and thrown him off a cliff. Myne did so much throughout this series. She lied about being raped. She abused her power to get what she wanted. She set up someone to fail constantly. She attempted murder on her own sister (several times) just to keep her status as first in line to the throne. And she cheats so she gets her way! It was so sickening to watch this vile woman for more than just one episode. When you created a character who was so disgusting and revolting as a secondary villain, you did something right! It’s like with Shou Tucker and Father from Full Metal Alchemist. Ask any anime fan and they’ll definitely remember Tucker over Father. Myne is this anime’s Shou Tucker! And I have to give her some credit, she is now one memorable villain. And aren’t villains usually supposed to be despised? I, Naofumi, most characters in Shield Hero after episode 21, and all of the internet can come together in agreement to say, we hate Malty, Myne, Bitch, Whore.

Final insult on the matter, she’s a cunt!

Favorite Video Game Character(s) of 2019: Piers & Marnie (Pokemon: Sword and Shield)

I knew point blank that Marnie was going to be my favorite rival in this game. I knew I was going to enjoy the antics of her yell squad (a.k.a. Team Yell) too. But I never expected to meet her brother and enjoy him too. Like in more recent games, Pokemon has given your character a total of three rivals to look out for. And while Hop is just the British version of Hau and Bede is just…a fuck-face, Marnie was someone who marched to the beat of her own drum. She recognizes a powerful foe and has a level of respect for her rival. She has her own fanbase, but isn’t totally arrogant about it. Plus, she doesn’t mind helping you out and giving an extra boost in battle. Plus that smile scene is just too adorable for words. And then there’s Piers!

First of all, I just love the design of this guy. What did I say when I first laid eyes on him? It’s like if David Bowie, Marilyn Manson, and Sid Vicious threw up on a pentagram crafted from Hot Topic gear and this dude emerges! And much like his sister, he marches to the beat of his own drum. That’s why he’s the only gym leader in Galar that doesn’t use the Dynamax method. I would have been satisfied if I only got to see him once or twice in the game. But I was blessed when Piers came to my aid to take down the Marco Cosmos thugs AND take on all the rogue Dynamax pokemon in the post-game. I’m impressed! Out of all the people they picked to help the protagonist and Hop in this adventure, it was Piers. I am ever so happy by this. I am so heavily invested in this guy that I’m already thinking of fic ideas involving him.

Favorite Game of 2019: Pokemon Masters

As much as I really do love Pokemon Sword and Shield, I gotta give it to the mobile game this year. This game not only made one of my reoccurring dreams come true, but gave it something no other Pokemon game has been able to do in over twenty years. HUMAN VOICES! The trainers, they speak! AND YOU CAN CHANGE BETWEEN ENGLISH AND JAPANESE! Do you have any idea how much of a win this is for me! I know they’ll never have Tracey Sketchit in the game, but this still rocks my world. Do you know how much I love hearing Mamoru Miyano play a dickish bad guy? Do you know how badly I need to hear Daisuke Ono on a day-to-day basis? I’m a voice queen!

I know I don’t usually like to give praise to freemium games for the mobile phones, but this game is quite nice. I mean, yeah, you really do have to save up your gems in order to (hopefully) get the 5-star trainer that’s currently advertised and the urge of wanting to open up your wallet to actually purchase gems is tantalizing. Not as fucked as Fate/Grand Order, but you get my meaning. Unlike a lot of the freemium games, this one doesn’t limit you so much to play (unless you spend fake or real money in the game). You can super train all you want and not lose stamina! Plus, I like these special sync moves between trainer and pokemon. And there’s just something about seeing all of these different trainers from all these regions together and interacting with each other. Despite never seeing a lot of this in the anime, manga, or previous games.

Favorite Het Couple of 2019: Retsuko x Haida (Aggretsuko)

In one of my baby accomplishments this year, I stopped being a tight-wad and splurged on a Netflix account. Right around the same time it becomes unpopular. Hahaha! Why does this always happen to me?

Throughout the series, we’ve watched Retsuko take chances with a lot of guys including a charming polar bear, a red panda with the brain of a pot plant, and the world’s handsomest donkey. But Retsuko has friend-zoned her workmate Haida the whole time. Meanwhile, I and pretty much like 90% of the fanbase ship the fuck out of this. Rightfully so! Haida has been admiring her from afar for so long. He tries his best to be supportive of her in the office and elsewhere. He was even nice enough to run back to the office to try and help Retsuko with the last-minute paperwork thrown at her on Christmas Eve. Hell, we watched him at his best in the season two finale helping to corner Tadano. And even though she turned him down at the end of season one, I still hold out that there’s hope. I mean, it was right after a break-up, so it was kind of the right call for Retsuko to not go out with Haida. Season three could give us this ship in the end. I know Retsuko doesn’t see Haida as boyfriend material as of now, but I have a feeling it can change.

Favorite Yuri Couple of 2019: Atsuko “Akko” Kagari x Amanda O’Neill (Little Witch Academia)

That’s right, Akko and Amanda. This is the one Yuri ship I’m leaning on more than all the other ones. I know she wasn’t involved in the infamous love-bee episode, but that still didn’t stop me from making dirty jokes whenever these two girls were together for an episode. And that’s what makes it better! Akko and Amanda’s relationship wasn’t tampered with because of a love bee, what they have is real! Okay, maybe I’m exaggerating. But whenever I see them together doing something in an episode, I can totally see them as something more. Then again, my mind is warped.

Besides, this is as close to a yuri couple as I got this year. I can’t mention the one second we got of Ymir x Historia from Attack on Titan. Yayoi and Shion didn’t get much in Psycho Pass 3. And it’s leaps and bounds better than that OTHER anime I watched with two girls. Happy Sugar Life? More like a big pile of nope!

Favorite Yaoi Couple of 2019: Mafuyu Satou x Ritsuka Uenoyama (Given)

You knew it was coming! I was rooting for these two boys since they met in episode one. And even though I had to hold it back a bit when I learned of Mafuyu’s grieving, I still hoped that one day, these two boys would defy the odds and become the sweetest couple of 2019. Was I correct? While it wasn’t as full-blown gay as Yuri on Ice, it still gave us so much.

As I mentioned, Mafuyu was in a relationship prior to meeting Uenoyama. And this one ended in heartbreak as Mafuyu’s lover dies. But meeting Uenoyama, Mafuyu was able to smile again and got to play the instrument his previous lover left behind. Mafuyu was able to shake off the sad shackles of the past and start life anew. Now is this feeling mutual? Of course! Uenoyama dealt with the worry of “will he, won’t he” and by the end of the series, the audience seems pretty satisfied with the outcome and hope for the best of these sweet boys.

Fandom That You Didn’t Expect To Get Into: Domestic Girlfriend

2019 has given me surprise amounts of incest! This year alone I wound up watching several surprise incest anime plots including Kiss x Sis, Marmalade Boy, and Eromanga Sensei. And those of you who are not on the up-take, surprise incest is primarily a love plot involving your step-sibling. But there was just something about Domestic Girlfriend that I just couldn’t shake. I couldn’t believe I binge-watched this entire series. I couldn’t believe I picked up the manga immediately after the finale. I couldn’t believe…that I didn’t despise this anime! Yeah, usually anything with even a whiff of incest, I throw in the trash and put a bullet through its head. This one, I did not.

Simple story! Boy named Natsuo fucks a random girl and also has a crush on his teacher. Natsuo’s father tells him he’s getting remarried. Then, BIG BOMBSHELL, the random girl that got fucked and his teacher are now going to be his step-sisters. Concept alone was just fifty shades of messed up. I mean, who the heck do you root for in this situation? Throughout the 12 episodes I went back and forth either rooting for Rui or Hina. And for episode, I rooted for Miu, the cute literary girl. I was so intrigued that I had to dig through the manga for more answers. But I enjoyed this trashy soap opera! I doubt it’ll get a sequel, but it was…fun for the most part. Too hot for television fun! And if that makes me trash, well call me Forky because...

Yeah, I can admit that freely now.

Fandom That Made An Unexpected Comeback: Fruits Basket

*squeals* I never thought this would come back into my life. One of my all-time favorite animes was returning with a reboot. AND IT WAS GLORIOUS! Oh sure, the first half of this series was literally a shot-for-shot remake of the original Studio Deen anime. But even that was enough to make me love every frame of it. Fruits Basket was just one of those animes that grabs you with the intriguing tale of a cursed family that changes into members of the zodiac. Then they take you on a fun ride with silly moments like Kyo and Yuki fighting each other or Ayame telling his ridiculous stories or Hatsuharu flashing some guy his junk. But then this series takes you on a detour of the most heart-wrenching stories involving heartbreak, bullying, gangs, abandonment, and hiding your true self.

This show re-introduced us to the many colorful and complex characters that exist. From the ultra-flaymboyant Ayame to the complex Ritsu! Many of these characters have severe baggage coming and going and you just wish the best for them. And seeing Tohru reach out to just about everyone in her own way, to tell them she’s there for them and she accepts them all for who they are, it just gets to you. 18 years was too long to keep this gem away from us. Welcome back Fruits Basket, we missed you.

Fandom That Inspired the Most Crack: Zombieland Saga

I know it came out last year, but I got the opportunity to finally watch it this year. And it was every bit of crazy as people told me it would be. Who would have thought mashing zombies and idol shows together would be a good idea?

Seriously! You’ve got Mamoru Miyano voicing the craziest character to date, who’s a necromancer who brings back seven girls from the dead. Puts special makeup on them to fool unsuspecting audience members! All to bring life back to the Saga prefecture. Add another layer to the WTF cake, these dead girls are all from different times including 2008, 1997, the showa period in the 1980’s…you even have one from the freakin’ 19th century! But that’s not all! These girls end up becoming an idol group singing different kinds of genres. One episode they’re head-banging to metal rock and the next IT’S A FRIGGIN’ 8 MILE RAP-BATTLE! And then you have this one girl named Yamada Tae. She doesn’t speak and usually makes weird noises throughout the entire series, but we don’t care! We freakin’ love her! And even with the oddball girl, she’s not the craziest character on here. Who needs a Best Girl category when you know the best girl is just going to be the crazy dude in the shades!

I’m absolutely cereal on this! Kotaro Tatsumi STOLE this show for his own! With his crazy antics, constant shouting random phrases every five seconds, and eccentric behavior, this made for one of the most entertaining animes I’ve ever watched.

Last Fandom of 2019: Pokemon: Sun & Moon/2019

I know I spent the greater part of Sun/Moon bashing several aspects of the series. But Sun/Moon was gradually getting better compared to its slow start. This year we’ve got some extreme character growth from some of Ash’s friends and even pokemon. I was amazed to watch episodes featuring Lana, Mallow, and even Sophocles growing. Lana up against Kyogre, Mallow’s thank you to her deceased mother, and Sophocles mastering Z-moves, all of these were great! Add to that, a Pokemon League that showed all of us up after 20 years of disbelief of Ash ever winning a competition. Where HE WON THE FUCKING COMPETITION! With the exception of one of the matches, this Pokemon League is definitely one for the history books for Ash. From his epic dog fight with Gladion, to the six-on-six with his mentor, to taking down a massive Ultra Beast, to taking on an island deity! All leading up to one of the most beautiful goodbyes and finale! Seriously, I screamed balls when I saw a pregnant Professor Burnet.

And my high continues with the new continuation of Pokemon 2019 (yeah, still the name). First of all, praise Arceus the animation has improved! Secondly, I am fully digging Ash and Gou traveling together. In answer to your question, yes I’m already shipping the hell out of them. Third, having these boys travel all around the pokemon world has given me so much hope in the world. The boys are going to be traveling the pokemon world revisitng old places including Hoenn, Sinnoh, and Kalos. I know I was disappointed in Ash not soley traveling to Galar and having Pikachu wear a Sherlock Holmes hat, but this I can’t cast to the side.

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And yes, I support Ash x Gou like a beast!

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puppy-faggot · 4 years ago

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Goth does 25 Things About Me Tag

Tagged by: @babybat-shitposting Thanks fam

1. I've been a DM stan for five years and had my hair cut and dyed like Martin's for the past three years.

2. I've identified with androgynous before realizing I was trans and still do. It's very much a part of my gender and my gender presentation.

3. Currently learning Russian. Been stopping and starting for years but I have a grasp on the language. I know/am learning a few others as well.

4. I use to work at a pet store and because of this grown to love fish and birds more than I thought I would.

5. If given the chance I'll infodump to you about Hannibal or Death Stranding. I've been on the Hannibal fandom since 2014 and I can't leave this hyperfixation lol.

6. I'm heavily into Russian post-punk and have been for years. It's nice it's getting popular. The fan base is so nice from what I've seen.

7. Not to be cringe but I kin Will Graham and have for years but only just started using that word for it. I don't like get weird about it I don't think. It's more like strongly relating to him than anything.

8. I'm a dumb bitch with ADHD can't remember shit.

9. I'm biracial but strongly identify with black. I have Slavic and Germanic ancestry (like third and second gen) and am looking into that part of my ancestry.

10. I have a ton of ocs. Like soooo many. They're mostly fae, slavic, or supernatural beings. I use to hate writing and now it's a hobby.

11. Hating Morrissey is my passion and if given the opportunity I'd beat him to death myself.

12. I like to collect cassettes, pins, craft supplies, and stones. I am starting to understand why ravencore is applicable here.

13. I can read tarot and use to read runes.

14. Cyndaquil is my favorite starter and is baby. He's so round and good and I love himb. I have a plushie of one I named Baby.

15. One day I'd like to own an apiary and farm bees. They're sweeties and one of my favorite animals.

16. I do draw and paint but I'm self conscious so I don't post it on this account. I'm best with watercolour. My art acct is @spookenhaus

17. Oh yeah I'm a baker. I make dough before the sun shines. It's hard work but very rewarding.

18. I like to sew and alter clothes/make items for myself.

19. I have mental and physical issues. It does affect how I interact with others but doesn't affect my mobility (from what I can tell.)

20. Been in the goth subculture for close to eight years? My aesthetic has changed a bit but has always been goth. I usually dress very trad or casual goth.

21. My first real concert was a Marilyn Manson tribute band at the House of Blues.

22. I live in bitch ass Nevada and I hate it here.

23. I'm 5'8 which is average height imo.

24. I like anime and cosplay. I miss cons so much.

25. I'm a goth dad many and love and support my discord kids.

Tagging: @immamausoleum @goth-gays @wetroomba @musclekittysenpai @madam-mortuary @retailgoth

#tag game #thank you for the @#long post #if you play make your own post don't reblog

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fandomtrumpshate · 5 years ago

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bringing back the unlisted fandoms challenge!

We’re coming up on a week since signups opened, and we have over 470 offers, representing 104 listed fandoms and -- at last count -- ONE HUNDRED TWENTY EIGHT write-in fandoms. Wow, you guys! That’s ... amazing!

Last year, after we figured out that we’d done a fairly bad job predicting which fandoms would be popular, we decided to run a fun little contest with our unlisted fandoms (that is, the “other” fandoms that you write in because they didn’t make it onto our drop-down list.) That contest ended up being a bit of a battle between Kingsman and Venom... both of which wound up with more signups than over a dozen of the fandoms that were on our list.

Since we seem to have (once again) misjudged which fandoms people would want to create for, we decided to run the contest again! At stake: ultimate bragging rights for the power of your fandom. Which write-in fandom will end up having the highest number of contributors sign up to create works for it? Who will duke it out for the top spot this year? Who will triumph?

To get the challenge started, we’re sharing the complete list of write-in fandoms (so far!), and the number of contributors who’ve signed up to work in those fandom spaces. You can find it at the bottom of this post, below the cut. We’ll post updates of the list of all the fandoms with multiple signups daily through next weekend, then we’ll post the whole list again so you can see any new fandoms that have been written in, and then continue with daily updates of fandoms with multiple signups until signups close on January 31st.

Is your fandom not on the dropdown list? Write it in! Is your fandom not (yet) in this ‘Unlisted Fandom’ list? Write it in when you sign up to create for the auction!

(What is Fandom Trumps Hate? Read more about us here.)

The full list of write-in fandoms, ranked from most signups so far to least, is....

(Note: number indicates how many write-ins a fandom has received. No number means it has been written in once.)

6 Shadowhunters 4 Bungou Stray Dogs 4 Final Fantasy XV 3 Fire Emblem: Fuukasetsugetsu | Fire Emblem: Three Houses 3 Firefly 3 Hannibal Extended Universe 3 Kingdom Hearts 3 Saiyuki (including Gaiden and excluding Ibun) 3 The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild 3 The Magicians 3 The Umbrella Academy (TV) 3 Yu Yu Hakusho 2 9-1-1 2 Avengers Assemble 2 Babylon 5 2 Come From Away 2 Game of Thrones 2 Gravity Falls 2 Lucifer 2 Marilyn Manson (Band) 2 Motionless In White (Band) 2 Nirvana in Fire 2 One Piece 2 Pet portrait 2 Red White and Royal Blue 2 Roswell New Mexico 2 SKAM 2 Skyjacks 2 Slipknot (Band) 2 Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles 2 The Losers 2 The Terror (season 1) 2 White Collar 2 镇魂 | Guardian (TV) Anne Bishop's The Black Jewels series Any that you can find on my AO3 account Assassin's Creed Avengers Academy Back to the Future Bandom Battle Creek (TV) Battlestar Galactica (2003) Campaign Podcast Captain Harlock: Space Pirate (2013) Carmen Sandiego Charmed Crooked Media RPF CSI: Miami Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys (My Chemical Romance) Daria Dark Matter (TV) Derry Girls Diamond no Ace Dragon Ball Z Dream Daddy Ekaterina (2014 tv series) Euphoria (TV 2019) Fallout Final Fantasy (XV and XIV preferred) Final Fantasy VII Greedfall Guardian (Drama or Novel) Hawaii 5-0 Hazbin hotel Hocus Pocus movie & the Sequel Novel Jane Austen (completed novels) Jupiter Ascending K Project Loveless Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard Mindhunter (Netflix tv show) Mo Dao Zu Shi (novel & Donghua) + The Untamed Mushishi Musketeers (BBC) MXTX novels My Favorite Murder Nancy Drew (PC game adaptation-verse) Narnia Newsies No. 6 ((which is sometimes spelled No.6 or No6)) Patricia Briggs' Mercy verse (Mercy Thompson & Alpha and Omega) Person of Interest Persona 5 Primeval Princeless: Raven: the Pirate Princess Prodigal Son Quantum Leap Ranger's Apprentice Ready or Not Red Dead Redemption Rick & Morty Romeo and Juliet (including any production of RetJ) Rookie Historian: Goo Hae-ryung Russian Doll Rusty Quill Gaming (Podcast) Sanders Sides Sanditon (TV) Seraph of the End Sha Po Lang Skins (UK) Skulduggery Pleasant Smile For Me Suikoden II Tangled the Series Terminator Films (1-2-6 - the Sarah Connor trifecta) Terminator: Dark Fate The A Team The Billabong Series - Mary Grant Bruce The Boys (Amazon tv show) The Dark Tower (2017 film) The Disguiser The Elder Scrolls The Hardy Boys (books) The Legend of Heroes Trails series The Legend of Zelda The Lost Boys (1987) The Penumbra Podcast The Queen of Attolia The Untamed (Módào Zǔshī) The West Wing The World Ends With You Tian Guan Ci Fu/Heaven Official's Blessing Tiger & Bunny Transformers: Prime Twilight Welcome to the Night Vale Yona of the Dawn Ys series

#fth 2020 #fth2020 #fandomtrumpshate #fanworks auction #charity #unlisted fandom challenge

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