#this is SO LONG SoRRY

[mickeym4ndy]

"You know Ian used to wake up every morning and do 200 push ups before school. Hard core ROTC. He wanted to be a soldier... I don't know. He thinks being bipolar means he's doomed to be a piece of shit like our mother. Maybe it's true."

"Maybe it's not."

[mossmittens]

Post-canon Labru where they actually get together pretty quickly except they don't

Laios and Kabru have been working together so closely for months in the castle and become best friends. About 6 months post-canon, they wind up going on a month-long survey expedition with Marcille, Falin, and some scientists. (The survey team is evaluating soil quality and attempting to identify the best sites for settlements.)

The group winds up sitting around the campfire most nights, drinking and singing and telling stories. One night, Laios and Kabru are the last ones out there and they get solidly drunk. Kabru kisses Laios. Laios kisses him back. Nothing else happens that night. But the next? They talk about it in Laios' tent and decide to give it a try. We're already best friends, right? Might as well give it a shot! So the rest of the trip, they spend the whole time flirting and giggling and making out at the fire and fucking in their tents. It's not a secret at all. Marcille is deeply annoyed. Falin is happy for Laios. The scientists are like, "wow, this gossip is gonna make me so popular at home." It's literally so great.

Except when they get back to Melini, it's harder than they expected. The survey was kind of a vacation for them. At home, there's paperwork and appearances and forming alliances and making sure their people are eating and security and it's just so much. The time they had to become best friends was not time that could really be filled with romance. If anything, romance adds to their pile of things they have to deal with: planning time together that isn't filled with work, managing the expectations of their citizens, heirs and weddings and what if some entity offers Laios a marriage that will benefit the kingdom, will he say no, how will this work how will it work how will it work

So they break it off. They love like each other so much and this could be something great, but they just can't do it right now. It's too much. They both put on brave faces but are obviously devastated. It hurts their friendship for months and months, but eventually they get close again.

For years, they stay friends. They both remember how awful that first break up was. Even when things slow down, they're both so cautious because who knows if this time things will break horribly and they won't be able to stay friends.

Kabru dates around a little. Laios seriously considers a few marriage alliances. It all falls through, but they do try to give other people a shot. They're in love with each other but they're still practical.

That's not to say they don't hook up occasionally. Maybe once a year they both get so overwhelmed with work that they have a little decompression fuck. Or they both get drunk at a ball and make out in a closet. It doesn't mean anything, so no big deal.

Then, twelve or so years down the line, they're both working in Laios' study. The kingdom is in such a good place. They've figured out succession, the economy is stable, their relationships with foreign powers are good, citizens are being taken care of. They're in the maintenance phase of everything and planning for a bright future. Maybe it's Laios, who has come into his own and feels a confidence that he never had at 26, who sits back and looks at Kabru and just says, "Kabru."

Kabru responds with a casual, "Your Highness?"

And Laios just throws it out there: "I love you. And I want to be with you, whatever that means for us."

Kabru is taken aback because to be fair to him it is quite random. He can't help but respond honestly, though. He loves Laios, too.

They'd probably spend a moment reveling in it. They've spent years in one state of being, thinking "maybe later, maybe soon" but never really believing the time would come.

Once they sit with it, the workday is over. They're giggling and making out and flirting in the study. It's just like that survey trip all those years ago, except this time they're used to the weight of the kingdom.

They probably move pretty fast. They've been enmeshed in each other's lives for more than a decade, so very little is actually changing on their end. They try to give it a few months before they lock in and get married/legally committed/whatever, if just for the sake of propriety and making sure the country is confident in their relationship. But it's obvious from that first day that this is it for both of them. Of course it is.

[cordspaghetti]

feeling nuts ok so i was looking at the full page of that High School Drag interview after um going thru the 5 stages of decomposition over it and i recognized one of gerard’s other answers (about people grabbing their package) as identical to something they said in a much older interview so i was like oh are we pulling quotes from other things here? can i Search the Web and find the og source for what he said about doing drag? so i DID and i found each sentence of his answer, which i bolded, within larger quotes from completely different places, like:

“I like to think of it as a cry for help trapped in a pop song...When I was writing it, I was remembering how hard it was to be a 16-year-old in high school. I always wanted to be an artist, so I was this loner kid who just got drunk all the time. I only had one real friend. There was a girl I really liked, and she ended up taking really sleazy photographs with her boyfriend, and that really crushed me...I was just swimming in this pit of despair, jealousy and alcoholism.” (June 23, 2004 from mtv archive)

“I went to school in drag, in art school and my day was completely different because everybody thought I was a chick.” (we all know this one, earliest place i found it was here from 2003ish but i think the site’s broken now)

“You’re going to come across shitty bands and a lot of shitty people. And if any one of those people call you names because of what you look like or they don’t accept you for who you are, I want you to look right at that motherfucker, stick up your middle finger, and scream ‘Fuck you!’” (found this in a bunch of places, the earliest so far being Oct 22, 2006 on imnotokay.net where it’s listed as an “old article”)

for reference again the lad mag interview goes like:

“How did you find high school? Hard. I always wanted to be an artist, so I was this loner kid who just got drunk all the time. I only had one real friend. 

In what ways were you a loner? I went to school in drag. People call you names because of what you look like, because they don't accept who you are.”

so this has me thinking that at least this portion of the interview is entirely collaged together, with the context abt high school for the second answer basically fabricated? idk how common a practice this is in like. music journalism but LAD Mag (which this is from) was a magazine that came with copies of Sugar for free, so maybe the standards were different OR SOMETHING. idk maybe gerard just happened to repeat himself here. i want to believe in high school drag. but also their history with gender is important to meeeee and i want to make sure i am not consuming Fake Info about it !!!! 

[sadtrashking]

Tell us about angel qtubbo

ABSOLUTELY! First angels are beings blessed by gods or descendants of gods ( for example Phil) they are VERY powerful and rare, which is notable because tubbo is neither of those he's an artificial angel. He was made in an attempt to make an angel and was semi-successful, he is an angel but he's weak and underdeveloped (things like having small weak wings). he either was made by the feds or ended up in their hands and what are you gonna do with a kinda powerful creature well your gonna try and finish it while using it for your dirty work! This goes bad so tubbo is disguised as a normal hybrid and frozen with no memories. This is also why he's so attached to Phil! Feel free to ask more I just don't want this post to turn into an essay!

[anthyies]

esha i have a request. what is orv about? give me a sales pitch tell me why you are so bonkers insane about it ♥

HIII RIMI 🥹 Um. It’s a 551 chapter long webnovel. actually i’m just gonna link this post because im kind of massively bad at explaining it. it’s like. what if you were just some guy* who was the only reader of this very long kinda shitty webnovel, and as you read the last chapter the supernatural apocalyptic events in the novel start to happen in real life. and also, crucially, the protagonist of the novel time loops after his death, and when the reverse isekai happens, it’s ostensibly his third time loop. this is the basic premise. the thing about orv is it’s kind of difficult to explain why i love it without massive spoilers. but essentially it’s about the bond between the reader and the protagonist and the writer. it’s about loving a story it’s about stories being people and people being stories it’s three layers of narratives wrapped in a trenchcoat that is also a narrative. it has really fascinating worldbuilding that is all about the narrative/thematic purpose of things. it has a plot that just keeps escalating in stakes and never gets boring and i literally could not put it down. it has the worlds most unreliable narrator (and some really fun/devastating stuff with pov changes. it’s the omniscient reader’s viewpoint:]). it has incredible characters (and incredible women 👍 i started orv because my friend pitched jung heewon to me… it has women who wield the sword of judgement and are the king of no killing’s executioner. it has girls who meet their future self, forced into being a catastrophic harbinger of destruction. it has girls who had to kill their best friends to survive. it has women who say i guess i’ll just have to be the villain again and who do things for the people they love that are absolutely devastating to think about both selfish and incredibly selfless). it has incredible relationships between characters. it’s about there being an incommunicable wall separating you from other people but it’s still worth writing on the wall:). by the ending it has recontextualized the beginning so thoroughly you cannot be normal about it ever again. It’s good 👍

[catbuspass]

ily2!! and I get it sort of. I'm not religious myself but I don't mind others religious beliefs as long as they aren't trying to push any so in your face. the last anon is making me a little insane and I can't believe they sent that srsly

SAME exactly im no longer jewish but it was a big part of my life i ended up realizing i just kind of believe in life and people and the world and keeping those things important and loving them indiscriminately and doing as much as i can to help others and the earth before i die as possible. idc what happens after i die i care abt what happens before it. i dont rlly know theres a name for whatever that is but yea i still love and respect every religion esp ones with good values about being decent. sorry what a long ramble the point is i really do love people and the place we are <333 thx for caring abt me while it doesnt effect me its very rewarding that all the love and hard work i put into the world comes back to me. something that cant be said for anon lol <333

[malleleothreesome]

So I scrolled down and just met you through your stage sex fic and scrolled through and couldn't find the pt.2 and it has been a month but I only met you today and I haven't read anything else just yet but I will but my question is will there be a pt.2 cause you have me frothing at the mouth for him and if I have to commission u to do it I will!

Hi!!! Thank you both so much for your interest in my fic. @starshiningsirius ahaha I'm truly honored that you would consider paying me for my work 😅💖 It means a lot to me! Unfortunately, I have not started working on part 2 yet. YET!! I promise I'll get it out to you, I still have interest in finishing it. I'm feeling just like a little... blocked on it.

I think it's because I'm unsure of how kinky to make it. I think there are two camps—people who want 3rd years in the audience, and people who don't. Ever since it was first suggested to me, I think having 3rd years in the audience is a really fun suggestion. Tbh, if it was up to me (which I guess it IS adbjasbdiu but that doesn't necessarily mean I'll go through with it)... I think it would really tie into the story if I had 3rd years forced to sit in the audience as they slowly turned into wood 💀 But I know that's like an extremely kinky thing (and really morbid) to do and theres a lot of ppl who would be like 'ew Erica wtf is wrong with you?' (Also if I have Lilia turning to wood I guess he can't film the show for Malleus so like 🤔🤨🧐)—See I have lots of varying ideas.

I also thought about making a separate post that was like "How would 3rd years react to seeing you on stage having sex with Fellow" and that would give all 3rd years a chance to shine while also keeping things separate for people who don't want to read that. I don't know!!! Please feel free to comment or send me an ask with your suggestions! I mean, I'm even open to the idea of including more than just the 3rd years (I know the Tweels are very beloved characters even though I myself am not into them) but I know that creates even MORE of an ick for other people.

My fear is: now that we are getting deep into the smut of it all, I know everyone has very specific tastes, wants, needs, & icks when it comes to sex, so I'm filled with trepidation when trying to come up with the rest of the plot. Since I separated it into part 1 and part 2, I'm kind of afraid of writing something that will ruin part 2 for people who enjoyed part 1 and were eagerly anticipating part 2. Does that make sense? So I'm thinking about it too deeply, and therefore, I am feeling blocked on starting because I want to come up with something that will please everyone.

Like, if I had just released the whole story from the start, people could have chosen not to read it at all if the content warnings weren't their vibe, but noooow... people who read it already are invested in the outcome of part 2. Ah, the pressure! 😩

Realistically, I know I can't please everyone, but I'm still very new to writing (I've only been posting on here around 2 months now!) and I still have that eagerness to want to strive to make everyone happy. So, I guess it's something I have to work through and get over as a writer.

Also, I've been having fun ignoring my Stage Sex Part 2 anxieties by writing completely different prompts for my writing event going on right now lol. However, I think I'll rip the metaphorical band-aid off starting next year (aka like in a few days lol) and just start writing part 2. Hopefully my blockage will melt away and I'll be able to come up with something I'm happy with! At the end of the day, my main goal is to make reader x Fellow have AMAZING sex, so I guess I'll start with that and see what other things I want to add to spice things up at the end.

Again, thank you both so much for your interest, it means the world to me. I hope to get Part 2 out to you ASAP and I hope I can write something that you really enjoy!

[bunny-kisser]

I was wondering, does Domingo know that Rivera is one of Gus's moles? Does Rivera have know that Domingo is a DEA informant?

Nope, both occurred completely independently which is kind of hilarious. Molina family trait: Being a rat

Rivera very purposely tries his best to keep Domingo in the dark about his criminal activities and a large part of him resents Nacho for getting Domingo involved with the cartel in the first place. As far as Domingo knows, Rivera is just a low level dealer for Tuco same as him.

Domingo never even tells Rivera when he decides to go solo because he knew Rivera would discourage it; Rivera was always vocal about his opinion that Domingo should try to get out of that kind of life. By the time BrBa season one rolls around in the timeline they have drifted apart a great deal, in part due to disagreements like that and in part because of Gus purposely isolating Rivera from the other important people in his life.

Good ending: Jesse, having been good childhood friends with Rivera, calls him to negotiate peace while Domingo is being held in his basement

Bad ending: Domingo disappears one day and Rivera doesn't know why... Not until he and Jesse cross paths at the superlab and Jesse being Jesse, doesn't have the heart to keep Rivera's brother's fate from him

[gwenlena]

YOUR TURN-

top 5 tma/tmagp episodes

youre so right choosing only 5 is so hard..

mag 15 lost johns cave - maybe my all time favourite i love how they used the "take her not me" audio and i really hope they do more kind of 'found footage' type stuff like that in tmagp

mag 27 a sturdy lock - i dont know what it is about this statement but its another one of my all time favourites, especially when we got the sons pov afterwards. ending it with "there was never a lock" was good i liked that

mag 32 hive - i too am in love with jane prentiss. this episode is so good i forget its recorded by jon its just so jane. there are so many iconic lines ITS SO GOOD "there is a wasps nest in my attic" what if i go crazy. one of the few statements i know word for word

mag 65 binary - i love sergey ushanka i love the way they portray the combination of human and computer i love how much it *hurts* "the angles cut me when i try to think" "theres no feeling but the no feeling hurts" SO GOOD

mag 122 zombie - i love the philosophical concept of zombies i think this is just a very fun episode, i love when they build statements off like real world phenomena! also this is the statement where jon wakes up and starts calling himself the archivist <3

honourable mentions under cut because this is already so long and i love to ramble <3

mag 77 the kind mother - one of the scariest to me. the not them is scary already but having your own mother be replaced and not being able to do anything about it and have it know you know. terrifying. reminds me of that old copypasta thing that was like. your mums voice shouts you to go down stairs but as youre about to your mum grabs you and says "i heard it too". things pretending to be your mother are just scary to me

mag 85 upon the stair - just a very cool episode i love that its from a real poem (good poem too) and i love how contradictory it is

mag 97 we all ignore the pit - i dont know WHY this episode always sticks out so much but its def in my top 10 its SO fun

mag 112 thrill of the chase - I LOVE MURDER CLUB

mag 153 lovebombing - also just a cool cool episode i love agape the dog i love weird cult stuff the "i dont believe you" line is very fun

[starz222]

'contract of stars' ehe

i thought of 2 for this omg!! - fake dating celebrity!au you're dating one of the most popular actors of the decade. one who rose to fame in the blink of an eye, and is loved by all. for the fame and money, you begin to go out with them! having to fake all of those public appearances is exhausting, but the lines are blurred. do they really like you or are they just really good at acting? in public, the two of you look like the perfect pair. when you go home together, it's like you're living with a stranger. different bedrooms, different bathrooms, and so on. you both really like each other -- but you've both convinced yourself that it's nothing. that it's only for the damned contract. therefore, when you make passes at eachother, you are both tied to the ground by your contract. - depressing angst i'd write someone who's grieving the death of the love of their life. (character)'s last words to them being hurtful words, words that they didn't even mean. they receive the news of the death of their loved one through fucking social media. and they could barely make it to your funeral. they wouldn't be able to stand the thought of you not walking on the same ground as them anymore, not being able to hear your laughter, and the last memory they have of you is your face coated with pain and sadness.

the star's are meant to be one's fate; having gone to the afterlife, eventually becoming a star in the beautiful sky. watching over and giving direction to whom you love on earth. being able to love someone but be worlds away from them. in the character's grief, they're lost in their thoughts; believing only one thing. humans aren't capable of realizing how important love and life is in their lifetime, suppose they do-- they'll be too late to react upon it. their life will come to pass within seconds, and what they have loved will be but something out of reach, something that looks over you even in the darkest of times.

[scum-belina]

Been very curious why or how you changed your mind about wanting kids. You used to be so staunchly child-free lol

Believe me, no one was more surprised at my total change of heart than I was. It happened in late October of 2021. I was feeling totally lost in life I didn't know what I wanted and had no motivation to live, and one day had a day and night long urgent prayer session where I just poured my heart out. At one point I prayed something along the lines of "God, I want to want whatever all YOU want me to want that is in your best plan and will for my life, and nothing else. Make your desires for my heart, the desires of MY heart."

the next morning I woke up feeling so at peace and had so much clarity about my life. I had been making a lot of progress in healing from a lot of trauma the last 3 months before, but on that morning I began to UNDERSTAND my healing, why things happened, why they were wrong, and why I needed to heal instead of being constantly bitter and scared, otherwise I'd be a slave to my trauma and the people who hurt me the rest of my life.

I realized why I was so vehemently against having children and just motherhood in general was due to all my bad experiences as a child and onwards. Namely how even when i was a child my mother, paternal grandmother, and a few other relatives relied on me and treated me like I was their mother and therapist. It made me repulsed of the idea of having children bc I didn't want anyone else relying on me, bc I thought it'd just be what i went thru with my mom and other relatives all over again. I was just obsessed with living on my own doing whatever I wanted on my own, having my own career, because then no one could hurt me. It'd just be me doing me.

But all that was based in fear due to my trauma. I realize now that I've healed that is not the life I want. Now I know without a doubt all I want is to be a wife and mother who takes care of her home and family. I have so much love to give and will give it freely forever to my family. I want to nurture, support, create, and entertain. The bigger our family, the better.

Also another thing I realized was I had seen SO many awful examples of parenting and relationships, that I assumed that's what it was like for everyone, and now I realize that does NOT have to be the case, so long as you actually are careful and wise in these matters. Unfortunately most people are not and they and saddest of all their children suffer for it.

I used to be obsessed with being something unique and world-changing, and now I realize what that is for me is being an incredible wife and mother, because goodness know the world needs them more than ever before (and incredible husbands and fathers too it goes both ways I shouldn't have to even say this but u know how ppl are!!!)

Again, no one was more surprised than me at my drastic change, but the crazy thing is that it never once made me upset. I was totally happy and at peace with it. My only struggle now is believing it will ever happen for me, and a struggle it is because I can't see anything good ever happening to me. But I do my best! In the meantime I'm just trying to live each day prayerfully and focusing on how I can keep making progress in myself and life in general.

[willinghands]

i think r/BenignExistence is my favorite subreddit 🥲 i love these pleasant little glimpses into strangers' lives

[climbingthefloors]

obsessed with this baby hippo from thailand's khao khew zoo.. she has been so utterly betrayed by the world

[whiteshipnightjar]

Zoozve, my beloved

[thorinds]

1000 Books You May Have Actually Read

[endusviolence]

Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.